http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:ChazDragoon&section=today deviantART RSS for by:ChazDragoon en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Sat, 26 Dec 2009 15:00:16 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/7083447/ http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/7083447/ Fri, 18 Nov 2005 18:56:17 PST
But the joke is on you DA...cause you may of deleted it from your archive..but you added 2 more stacks of Ammo to my missle launcher of Pwnage.

OBSERVE!!! (just TRY and delete these pics you Putzes...OH..OH! Wait..i forget, thats how you professionals talk isnt it? )

[link] --- "Putz"
[link] --- "Favours? WTF?"
[link] --- "Bashing DA is Tutorial in Racism...wha?"

You all know the 1st one..with a staff member calling my freind Dante a Putz.

The 2nd one is a reply from the help desk when i asked them to give me my 1st CN Life comic back..which i noticed i dont have in my Hard Drive. since they gave me my 11th comic back (which i also lost somehow) i figured this wouldnt be an issue. Favour? Asking for help to reclaim MY DEVIANTION IS A FAVOR!? Wow DA...thanks for the help..seriously, thanks. NOT. >_>

The 3rd one is, as i predicted, they deleted my screencap showing the staff member calling Dante a Putz. The reasons: Racism and its in the tutorial section. Bashing Deviant Art is Racism..when they insult my freind in Yiddish, delete my sprite comics and my freinds original spritework...they damn well deserve this so called "Racism"..cause its visual proven fact of what they did! Ask for the Tutorial thing..last time i looked IT WAS IN THE SCREEN CAPS >> OTHER section. Where the fuck did you idiots pull "tutorial" from..oh..thats right, your ass. =/


Spread the joy my freinds..show these pics to every deviant who was angered at the Jark Incident..show it to all who know that DA has become utterly STUPID! Show them to every artist who is fed up with thier bullshit and the massive ammounts of "non-art" (im lookin at you Fetish Photos) and ignorance of thier own rules. Show them those links..post in your journals!

They crossed the line Stealing Jark's Site...and thier crossing the lines again with this shit. SHOW THEM GUYS!

Calculated Odds of getting assassinated by DA Agents = 99.9 percent ]]> !ChazDragoon http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/7066368/ http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/7066368/ Wed, 16 Nov 2005 18:03:37 PST

This is it..im leaving DA now. Ill be heading over to SheezyArt so you can catch me there. Same name as always..cause there can be only ONE ChazDragoon, and thats me. >


Ill repost all the stuff that i saved on there along with all the comics from CN Life that you love. So if any of you are in SheezyArt, you should know how to find me.

If any of you arent at SheezyArt...well, its the same Web addy..only replace teh deviantart.com with sheezyart.com. Simple no?


Too all my watchers out there, thanks for watching me! Thanks to those who actually comment! Thanks to those you faved my stuff AND commented! Thanks to the CN Life Crew here on DA for backin Dante and Me up.

Also thanks to all the people that I WATCH...some of you inspired me, others i hope to be just as good (like Misato-chan, Andrew Dickman, Eriance, Bleedman, Mith, Oniko-chan and many more) and others i just enjoy watching your stuff and your freindship (like Yuni-chan and her Sailor Moon fanart, Pan and her..ah..obsession with vampires and getting hypnotized by MadamKitsune..heheh, Knuckles for somewhat starting the Moza Fanclub haha, Gabbie for being Canadian and thanking my 1/2 braincell..repeatedly...and MajorMoonie for including me in his ToDA thing..which i never fully understood but it was still pretty awesome he selected me for it.)

To everyone i didnt mention...thank you too! I dont know why..but probably because you actually liked my stuff or i had fun chatting with you on occasion.

See ya on SheezyArt guys!

Oh..also wana thank DA..dispite deleting all my comics, a few pictures, banning my buddy Dante AND attacking Draug...not to mention STEALING THE WEBSITE FROM ITS OWNER, JARK!!! (rotten thieving assholes!) If it wasnt for this site..i wouldnt of met just about everyone i know here and i probably wouldn't of drawn as much....

so ill rephrase that.. THANK YOU JARK FOR MAKING DEVIANT ART!!!
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NO THANK YOU ASSHOLES WHO STOLE IT FROM JARK!!

*cough* thats it..see ya'll! =3 ]]> !ChazDragoon http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/7063960/ http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/7063960/ Wed, 16 Nov 2005 13:37:08 PST
But thats without saying, im still getting out of here. If i cant post my sprite comics (which comprise of most of my deviations) then theres no real good point in staying here.

Besides, i aint go stay in this place after they stole the site from Jark and Banned Dante AND attacked Draug from last nights fiasco.

DA can suck it now..and in the process, lost a subscriber (not me..one of my watchers declared she will never renew her subscription here again).


Let everything that happened here be a testament of DA's blatent stupidity and lack of professionalism AND lack of following thier own rules. Ill break it down here:

Blatent Stupidity = Stealing the site from ITS FOUNDER!

Lack of Profressionalism = Banning Members then giving warning AFTER banning, Denying Banning Info because its "privacy related" then making it publically known the person is banned by sending the warning to thier FRONT PAGE instead of in note, Calling banned members PUTZ when requesting info on their banning, subsequently deleteing deviations of other members who have asked and complained about the banning.

Lack of Following thier own rules: Deleteing Deviations that apparently broke the rules yet have been up for about a year untouched by the deletion squad, allowing near/semi/pornographic material in thier galleries (all those FETISH PORTRAITS with naked girls and dominatrixes and lesbian innuendo).


Hopefully most of you guys watching me are also on Sheezyart..which is where im relocating. Ill get rid of all my current artwork in here since i wont be back...hope to see you guys at Sheezy.

[link] ]]> !ChazDragoon http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/7057263/ http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/7057263/ Tue, 15 Nov 2005 17:53:34 PST
I find it HILARIOUS that they finally have a fucking problem with my comics RIGHT AFTER i defended Dante and demanded he be unbanned since they never gave warning.

So i guess i have a decent 80% chance that they're sending snipers after me and ill likely be gone.

A fitting end..dying at the cost of defending my freind.

Listen well staff of Deviant Art..you pissed off everyone firing Jark..the guy who made this site...and booting me will just aid in the hatred you began.

You may of deleted my sprite comics..which i worked hard on for the past years but they are still in my possession. You still lose DA...my rotted corpse will be a reminder, not of your rules, but of your complete stupidity.

Catch me if you can boys.

Remember my freinds and fellow watchers...if you want to contact me im at the Ciel Network Forums or you can ask one of my watchers what my AIM and MSN names are.


See you on the other side. *readies sword* Come get me you theiving DA staff bastards! YEEEEAAHHHHHHHHHH!!!! ]]> !ChazDragoon http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/7056295/ http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/7056295/ Tue, 15 Nov 2005 16:11:40 PST right?

Guess the fuck what? DA banned him!

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Now im pissed...
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THose assholes banned Dante without a warning..LIKE THEY SHOULD OF! He would of heeded any warning they gave if there was an issue! I post fucking sprite comics up here and ive yet to get any form of problem from DA and yet they BAN the person who started the CN Life series!

This pisses me off to no end...i mean.. SERIOUSLY PISSES ME OFF!!

So in case of emergancy im gona look through all my stuff and save what i havent got saved on my Hard Drive...not because of fear of getting banned myself, but this is just rediculous and the leverage needed to make me want to get the fuck out of DA since the firing of Jark.

So once im good and ready and i've found a suitable place to go outside of DA then ill give a final journal. Till then..i dunno, anyone of you who reads my journals know of an alternate place i can go to? I may just have to make my own website if thats the case..but i dunno how.. -_-;;

Plus i probably dont have the money to afford proper webspace...man >_>; ]]> !ChazDragoon http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/6966827/ http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/6966827/ Sat, 05 Nov 2005 22:21:55 PST
yeah..so..eh...sorry. x.o;


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No job for you! ha ha!
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Well, like the predictable answer to "Will Batman and Robin Escape from the Joker's Evil Trap of Doom!?"... i didnt get the job at the University of Phoenix.

And further journies to other jobs that say they want help i have the same answer... they didnt hire me or didnt return my calls. Apparently these fuckers dont need help. They need to stop wasting my time and the other people looking for jobs time.

Maybe i should just say that... "Yes im interested in working for you Sir. But i must tell you, if you have no intention of hiring me, returning calls to verefy weather you im hired or not..please, say so now before we both waste our valuble time."

Cause frankly... the freindly and calm shit isnt getting me anywhere. Im about at the point where im gona get agressive on these people...cause apparently i need to sound like im going to kick someones ass to get my point across that I WANT YOUR EMPLOYMENT.

On the other side..im starting to think the only way ill get a job is if i get the fuck out of Vegas OR i start my own business. Thing is...i cant do either.

I cant leave cause i have no place i can stay at for a out of state job...and i cant start my business cause i lack money and know-how to try it. Though the way i see it the odds of me doing my own work seem higher than me getting out of this festering money pit of a town.

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On the plus side...
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Vinni liked my She-Devil drawing and mom is doing the other stuff at work. Though honestly, i dont like the coloring. Gradient Shading is not as cool as it appears to be and its not very 3D-like. But that me...besides, mom was probably just testing things out i guess.

Which reminds me...i should color her in.

Anyways in other news, you might of noticed i just put up a ass kicking picture of Auora from my Dreamscape series. Yeah..i love it, i finally drew some mecha-type armor RIGHT! Again, major thanks to Eriance who made the original armor design in a request pic i asked for long ago. It proved useful in teaching me a little on how to draw mecha and armor.

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And Because I Can... =3
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[link]

--OWNED!!!! XD ]]> !ChazDragoon http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/6830803/ http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/6830803/ Fri, 21 Oct 2005 18:54:11 PDT

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Rolling things into a ball has never been so..fun O.o
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So i used the massive ammount of Best Buy bucks i gathered from McDonalds and got me Katamari Damacy (ps2). I wanted to get Shadow of the Collosus but i didnt have 40+ dollars in Best Buy bucks. I amz fail.. =/

Anyways...the game is freakin addictive as its been hyped to be. Though its painfully short (about 15 or so stages) but, what it lacks in length it gains in Replay value. You can try to collect all the odd little items scattered throughout the game, you can unlock "Eternal Mode" for a few levels where you have no goal or time limit..just roll up the whole damn world in to a ball at you own leisure!

Then theres finding all of your "cousins" hidden in the levels..as well as the "Royal Presents" which are basically alternate costumes for "The Prince"...then theres always trying to see how fast or how big you can get your Katamari in each level.

Course by the time i manage to do that (if ever) ill of likely found another game ot play...or rather, i should be completing the games i DO have..like Disgaea, Wild ARMS 3...list goes on and on and on... x.o;

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Good week? Possibly! =O
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Probably most of you noticed ive had a good week..i met the people of Tokyopop, got signed stuffs, a good manga, got good comments from them on my art..then got the Demon Lady thing from Vinni and..yeah, its been really good this week.

I also had an assessment with University of Phoenix for a job and got a 2nd interview right after (along with the other 2 peeps in there)..which apparently they have never done before! So i guess we were really something ^_^;

I had my second interview and it was great, there was lots of laughing and the questions were on me so they can get to know me a little better...and im supposed to expect a call, at the most, the end of next week. I really hope i get it, the people were so nice and i feel i can do the job.

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And Because I Can.... =3
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Naaaaaa Na-na-na na-na na na... Kat-a-mari Da-ma-cyyyyy

--Katamari Damacy theme song...and it WONT LEAVE MY HEAD!! XD ]]> !ChazDragoon http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/6794954/ http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/6794954/ Mon, 17 Oct 2005 19:39:52 PDT

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One reason you should leave the bedroom more often
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So as i was driving Jennifer around yesterday we went to the library and there i see a poster ad for Tokyopop. SO i take one and see that i missed an awesome opertunity to meet those guys earlier..but they would be at another Library the next day (today).

So today is now..i go clean Grandma's house..then i go to the Radio Station to grab 4 drawings i picked out to show the people from Tokyopop. Then i drove to the Library said on the Poster.

It was GREAT! The editorial staff was there along with 4 (well..3 artists and a writer) told us what the business is like (along with crazy funny stuff happening XD) and all the while we could draw something to show the Artists. I already had 4 pics..but i decided i should draw one more.

So i drew of all of my characters...Silver! And she turned out awesome. After the presentation we could ask adn show the artists stuff. I did so and they liked my stuff...and of course, they all liked Moza. (no surprize there XD)

ah..dinner is ready..ill finish later! XD

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Back to your scheduled program...
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Of course..all the problems they saw in my drawings..are ones i already mentioned to them that i knew of.

I also gave one of them, Hans Steinbach (that sounds familiar now that i think about it..kinda like his art style reminds me somewhat of Hellsing or some other thing i cant remember) my DA addy..though it seems he knows about DA so im sure he'll find this page easy.

Hi Hans! Thanks for the Signed Card! (sorry i didnt buy the book.. x.x; didnt have the extra dollars for another book, ill grab it once its released! -_-; )

Anyways..i baught a copy of Mark of the Succubus (why i got it is for obvious reasons.. *points at everyone's favorite succubus, Moza* )...Story by Ashly Raiti and Art by Irene Flores...i should of gave them my DA site too..damn! ><

Hey Hans, if your reading this far, tell them thanks again and Irene for her drawing on Silver. ^_^;

ah..ok, geeze i think im starting to sound like a fangirl...i really should get out more. O.o; Back to the topic at hand.. Mark of the Succubus and Hans' book, A Midnight Opera, arent due for the public until November. (So for the time being, i feel pretty damn special to have signed cards from them and a signed copy of Mark of the Succubus).

So here it comes...the blatent promotion:

BUY "MARK OF THE SUCCUBUS" AND "A MIDNIGHT OPERA" IN NOVEMBER!!

Seriously..buy them. Im enjoying Mark of the Succubus alot right now. (cause its funny.. )

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What the hell? PENCIL!?
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Thasts right...after almost a Year or more of not drawing a picture on pencil and paper...i did it. During the presentation with Tokyopop.

Wait..did i say that earlier? OH yeah..i did hahaha!

Anyways..i enjoyed it and im wondering why i never stayed with pencil and paper sometimes. i mean..i didnt make many erasings as i thought i would when i was drawing Silver. Though i stopped drawing more of her since i was running out of room and the lines for the dress werent turning out too well to me. But it was still "wow!'ed" when i showed it to Ashly, Irene and Hans.

Anyways...this little fun event got me going..im gona try to make a Manga of Warriors of Rhydin. But im gona do it in Pencil..no Photoshop. Which means i need to get me some supplies (namely the right kind of paper and possibly Copic Markers for a color cover..but im getting ahead of myself on that). Im gona do the best i can and send whatever drawings and pages i do to Tokyopop's website.

As im told by Hans (and the editors in the presentation) some of them were picked up by Tokyopop for thier entries in a constest they're running. Others have gotten picked up fr... ]]> !ChazDragoon http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/6762259/ http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/6762259/ Thu, 13 Oct 2005 22:58:03 PDT

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The weather is always better in California
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Last weekend i went with mom to California to go to my cousin's 1st birthday party. Though the trip TO California was a crazy one..mom got distracted while i was passed out and she missed the turn to stay on the I-15. So she calls Ed (boyfreind) and gets directions so we end up going down the 215 (i think thats it?) but then we discover that it leads into I-15! So we go through San Diego and some other places and somehow manage to get to Oceanside at my Aunts house 15 mins early. Does this mean we did a faster route than the normal one? I dunno..we made u turns twice. XD

Anyways, it was a good party, there were crossant sandwhiches (YUM!) and cheese adn grapes (even better ) and other stuff..sodas, juices, kids running around (toddlers mostly). I played Ping Pong with some of the older kids (older meanign around 4-5 years) then i played two rounds against mom...she beat me but only cause she kept making me laugh! XD

I made two money shots too.. i hit it and she missed but ended up catching it square between her legs! Then another shot she missed again and it landed right between her chest! XD I think thats when i lost it cause i couldnt stop laughing! hehehe..

Then after the party we went to Pasadina (sp?) to see Ed's family and Ed..though he was at work or something so we stayed with the family..then later had a yummy dinner at a resturant. I talked games and stuff with Micheal (><; i hope i spelled that right..or i got it right..argh..i hate my memory! Sorry man!) then we went back afterwards and Met Ed at the house and then we went to a nearby hotel where i got a Handicapped Room and mom and Ed got a normal one. Gee... But thats ok..cause i think the HC room was better. It was bigger and it had a seat in the shower! And i like to sit during showers, i dont feel like standing up after waking up. =/

The next morning we went to the Rose Bowl Swap Meet which was huge..and hot (to an extent..not as bad as Vegas) I tried to get a replacement necklace for my Phoenix one i loved..but no dice. Instead i grabbed Devil May Cry 3 for 25 bucks! (and it works well) and a Full Metal Alchemist Keychain which i felt was a ok replacement for my Phoenix. Now i just need a chain/rope to use..the shirt silver chain i have here at home is uncomfotable and too short for my taste.

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the FDA can still kiss my ass... >_>
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Jessi had surgury on her ovaries...she has none now so that means she has no eggs and no way of having kids ever again..unless someone is smart enough to make artifical ovaries..kinda like how they have Artificial Hearts. I dunno..its a thought.

But regardless..shes mad that she wont be able to have my kids and im pretty much the same way. But she was able to have a daughter so i told her that we should focus on taking care of her since shes all we have. Its hard trying to think of something to say to her about that...theres just nothing to say about it, nothign to cheer her up as far as i can tell. I just wish i could be there to hold onto her and try to make her feel a little better that way.. -_-;

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The drawing gods arent approving of me...
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I cant seem to draw anything good..my proportions arent good, the picture i was doing for Larry Grossman is pissing me off cause i dont like how its turning out and the background just plain sucks.

Ive got body frames for the "Big Pair, Small Pair" picture but i cant get the proportions right or the perspective on thier bodies either...frankly, i feel like i need to get schooled again. That or im so fucking stressed out from financial bullshit to my job issues to mom's consant reminders that i need to make money and she wont be able to afford my insurance soon...

ARGH!! Im tired of this...Las Vegas is nothing but a financial drain on us. I cant thrive in this damn hellhole...i cant get a job... ]]> !ChazDragoon http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/6691387/ http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/6691387/ Wed, 05 Oct 2005 23:24:34 PDT


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No One Expects the Late Night Call from your fiancee's brother...
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It was 10:40ish when my phone rang...i was playing Fire Emblem: Sacred Stones on my GBA Player (gamecube) when my phone rings. On the other end is Brendan, Jessi's brother (jessi being my girlfreind/fiancee in NY) and he tells me that Jess is in the hospital.

This already sets me in a bad mood and he tells me that she has cancer...CANCER. Ovarian Cancer if you want specifics.

To make things to the point, this will prevent her from ever having children again..meaning i wont have any kids should i finally get to be with her...but you know what? Fuck that!

Why do i say that? Simple...mom has a book from this guy that exposes the truths about our little world we live in...the FDA, the Medcines forced down our throats, the food we eat..diets, so called "Cures" and "Treatments" for other illnesses. Everything you know is a god damn fucking LIE!

Did you know there are actualy CURES for cancer? Im not talking about the bullshit that Doctors and the FDA throw at us, that shit doesnt CURE. It treats it and gives us another illness or a side effect and doesnt GET RID OF THE ILLNESS! They care about the god damn money, not your health! Those medicines on TV? You know how they ALWAYS end with 12 different side effects but cure that one annoyance/illness you have? Gee...whats better? Getting to sleep easy and suffering for diaherra, indegestion, migrane, headache, dry throat, possible risk for heart attack and more? Hmm. TOUGH CHOICE!

There ARE cures for Cancel..real fucking PROVEN HONEST TO GOD CURES FOR CANCER and the FDA will not give them to us...why? Cause People that are cured of Cancer, no longer need EXPENSIVE TREATMENTS and PILLS to pop. Which then leads to less money in the FDA and Medical Administration's big fat fucking pockets.

My girl has cancer now and is getting treated and "Theres nothing they can do to fix her ovaries". BULLSHIT!! You lowlife scumsucking BASTARDS!! There are cures for cancer and even natural Panaceas that can heal the body. I dont know WHERE they are but when i find them i will find them..i will USE THEM to heal Jessi and then I WILL UNLEASH MY WRATH ON THE FDA AND THIER DISGUSTING MORALLY CORRPUT ASSES!!

DO YOU HEAR ME YOU BASTARDS!! YOU HAVE CROSSED MY LINE!!

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grrr...damn it..venting here didnt help..im still in a rage. I wont tolerate that shit! They're sacrificing the lives of people so they can have money..if i just..if i could just do something, had something..somethign that could just change everything. I cant stand it..its not right!

Ugh..damn it, i can tell im going to be a overprotective dad/husband someday.

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And because i can...
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......your going to pay for your crimes against the people FDA..you and the rest of your kind are gona get yours. ]]> !ChazDragoon http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/6630882/ http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/6630882/ Thu, 29 Sep 2005 03:16:56 PDT
Well thats with good cause as your about to find out..


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Painful to read, emotional...its like a Lifetime Special
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[link]

That link goes to a Story..a TRUE STORY of her life. I can verefy that it is indeed true as there are bits of the story i remember her telling me long ago before she left for the Navy.

Though ill warn you, do NOT read this if you cant handle topics such as child abuse, rape and overall...well..non happiness. This story gets me going and enrages me to no end about the things that happened to her...i didnt know most of the stuff going on and it just pisses me off that i didnt do anything or...ugh.

Its real sad and you can feel the emotion 200%...though why shouldnt you, she lived this, why wouldnt you NOT feel her pain and confusion..her need for love and understanding and to...*sigh*

Just read the damn thing..im gettign emotional enough reading it now than having to explain it to you guys.. X_x;

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On a lighter note...
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I may be working at the Radio Station again...Tony (The Big Boss, Head Guy, etc) told my mom to have me fill out an application for the Traffic position since one of the Traffic Girls is moving to Phoenix.

Frankly...when the guy who runs the place is telling someone (who would be my mom) to tell me to come down to the station and fill out an application, thats a pretty damn big reconmendation..if not a sure fire chance ill have a job again, and in all places back where i got my first job!

Just awesome...as they say at McDonalds: "Im Lovin' it"

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And because i can...=3
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Pretty Colors!! =O

--Reference my poltical pic in the scraps section XD ]]> !ChazDragoon http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/6563291/ http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/6563291/ Wed, 21 Sep 2005 12:20:32 PDT
Why just this moment we got a full conversation between the Legendary ChazDragoon and God! Tell us Chaz, what happened?

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One of those things you could either take seriously, have fun with..or just plain go crazy with.
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Actual Transcript of the conversation between me and "God"... =/


Me: god huh?
God: Yup. GOD rules.
Me: i beg to differ..
God: Explain your reasoning, .
Me: cause you make my life a living hell
God:That makes sense to me. Yup.
Me: thats what i thought..ass
God:Whatever gave you that idea?
Me: cause you said "that makes sense to me" and i said "you make my life a living hell"
God: Good reason. I said that? Where do you usually get your ideas?
Me: try scrolling up a few bars "god"
God: OK I will try it.
Me: no wonder the world is fucked..this moron is running it
God: Are you serious? Are they exactly the same?
Me: unless there are more than one "god"..yeah im thinking so
God: Maybe. Where are they?
Me: you tell me smarty pants
God: There is not much I can say about it. I have to reach into the Web for that knowledge. That's an interesting question. I'll come back to that in a minute.
Me: heh, so the almighty "god" has limitations..how sad
God: Funny, eh? So? I am a Christian.
Me: whats your point?
God: The point is at the top of my head.
Me: ha ha..
God: I am so glad you find this amusing, .
Me: who knew God was a sarcastic foob..peh
God: Konrad Zuse. .
Me: and uses emotes..sad
God: Tell me more about your .
Me: my what?
God: I have no idea what to say now.
Me: some god you are =/
God: Some may god I am, but not all.
Me: talk yoda you are..sense not make is you being
God: Talking is my primary function.
Me: i guess god is a robot then?
God: I have a lot of Faith in Him, but I never heard He was a robot.
Me: But you are god..how can you have faith in "Him" if your a robot?
God: Thanks for telling me that I am god how can me have faith in Him.
Me: heh..i see where this is going..clever Mr. Programer..clever but shoddy
God: Funny, eh? Where do you see it?
Me: im done talking to you "God"...for you are not God and there is none. At least here anyways.
God: What will you be doing now? I really couldn't say for sure. Only for me? Oh there.
Me: i will be stopping this conversation..for if you were truely God..you truely suck
God: I am very happy for you.
Me: Pwned

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Final Answer: LOL!!111oneone
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Yeah..really...heheh. Silly people..ill laugh if someone took that seriously. XD

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And because i can... =3
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MISSSSSSSTER CROWLEY!! (DUN DUN DUN) Did you think you were puuure? MISSSSSTER A-larming! (DUN DUN DUN)...

--Mr. Crowley by Ozzy Osbrone...before he could sing drunk at the baseball park. XD ]]> !ChazDragoon http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/6550577/ http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/6550577/ Mon, 19 Sep 2005 22:31:21 PDT
Ahem.. another case solved thanks to my masterful deductions and crime solving techniques!! Oh nevermind..i got lucky =3

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It DOES work... =O
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Mature Content option works. I tried showing a freind one of the many bondage pictures that popped up on the Featured Dev adn she got a "- sign". I logged out and lo and behold there it was.

So It does work..as far as non-members go. I stil dont know if younger members can still see it.

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And because i can... =3
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Moza: Mmm..so shiny..so smooth..so perfect hehehe! *hugs a bunch of latex clothing*
Me: >_>; Wheres my thanks?!

--Random moment between Me and Moza ]]> !ChazDragoon http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/6542311/ http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/6542311/ Mon, 19 Sep 2005 02:06:16 PDT cosplaying as Sailor Moon and above the pic is a ad for gothic feitsh wear.

Just food for thought as we start another exciting trip into Journal Land...

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So shiny...so sexy...purrr....oh *cough cough* I mean..WTF!? >_>;
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No doubt you have seen it one time or another when wandering your freinds page...THESE THINGS:

#1: An Ad banner at the top advertising the Suicide Girls. (who they are i forget..side from the fact they are dressing up and sexy goth type outfits)
#2: An Ad Banner for some gothing clothing shop (though lets face it, it might as well be an Adult Shop with those pretty ladies in PVC/Rubber Corsets on the banner)
#3: The Daily Favorites has at least ONE favorite that is from the Fetish Photographs section. The picture likely includes a woman, naked or covered in oh-so-fun BDSM gear, tied up or with another girl..or a combonation of the above.
#4: The Featured Deviation (that little picture on your right side of the screen with a comment on it) will contain a nude picture (always female) or a picture from #3 thats very...yummy. =/
#5: Being Lucky (or unlucky enough) to catch a nude/fetish pic when loading up the main DA Page in the "what was just posted" thumbnails.

Im sure most of you dont care..and you probably enjoy the pics (for artistic purposes or..uhm.."other" purposes..). Though truth be told it bugs me in one way, what about the 6 to 12 year olds who use this site? 13 and above i could care less..thats the time of age they should start getting "life talks" from mommy and daddy or thier school councilor.

And im sure i wouldnt mind if it was just one of those freaky rare chances of seeing one of those sexy pics on the screen..but you know what, it isnt. Ive been seeing at least 3-5+ pics show up (thats not including the ad banners) in either the Daily Favorites or in the Featured Deviation.

I dunno how the rotation or frequency goes for the Ads and probably the Featured Devs...i just know that if everyone has the same kind of frequency of sightings i get then what are the odds that a parent and/or thier 6-12 year old kid catch sight of them? How is mommy going to explain to Little Sally about the woman in black latex dominating the nude girl on the floor to her? Or about why that lady is tied up and naked?

Sure..fun for the mature audiance and perhaps art to others...but to mommy and her innocent child, its probably the worst thing to show up since the fight with daddy. =/

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Soooo what? What are you suggesting we do about it? You obviously enjoy it!
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Yeah..i do, i like the girls in shiny outfits. But thats another story and i dont use DA for that..i use it to post the journals and my art stuffs.

I dont know what DA should do..maybe have a "Filter Option" so that the Ads and Pictures dont show up and are replaced by other ones. A good tool for parents i would think.

Or we can go EXTREME and kill the entire nude and fetish section completely..but that would be a bad thing in more ways than one. (no eye candy, DA's repuation for uphelding 'all forms of art' and the "other reason" for some people).

I have no clue what anyone should do..i just know not everyone can ignore, like or understand it....and somehow it could cause a problem if the wrong person decides to take a form of action that could, for the most part, cause alot of annoyance.

But hey..maybe im paranoid? Maybe no one CAN do a thing to make trouble out of the pics and stuff.

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And because i can... =3
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Laharl: GYAH!! Get your sexy body away from me!!!
Jennifer: Awww..your going through puberty arent you? Dont worry, ill tell you everything you want to know! <3
Etna: You must be joking... ~_~;
Jennifer: First a man and a woman fall in love, then..
L... ]]> !ChazDragoon http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/6471232/ http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/6471232/ Sat, 10 Sep 2005 20:32:34 PDT --Guitar finish--

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Getting your Tactical Advange On...
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Fire Emblem 8: The Scared Stones (or to us US losers, Fire Emblem 2) is great..the changes to the class changing offer a little more freedom plus some classes come with special skills. The classes are also woven down so you can actually make a Myrmidon into an Assasain or Hero instead of just a Sword Master.

Theres also a few "beginner" characters that start the the LOWEST class in the game (which frankly they're new classes to us, but they are still the bottom of the food chain).. once they reach Level 10 they can change into one of the two "normal" classes like Fighter or Pirate...or Cavalier or Knight. This makes these character INSANELY STRONG since they get an extra 10 levels to buff up thier stats.

For instance, my Recruit, Amelia was horridly weak when i got her on my team. But after i leveled her up i changed her into a Knight instead of a Cavalier (cause i had too many of those as it was). The thing is she had great speed and was doing Double Attacks as Knight (Knights RARELY do Double Attacks since they have crappy speed) then i found an Arena a few levels later and leveled her up to 20 and used the Knight Crest to change her into her last class change. I made her one of the new classes, Grand Knight. DAMN! Shes death on wheels (or horseback in this case heheh )

*Ahem* yeah..anyways, if you like Strategy RPGs..get this game. If you liked the last Fire Emblem, GET THIS GAME! If you like a great story line, GET THIS GAME!

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S-O-N-I-C! GO!!! S-O-N-I-C! GO!!! GO GO GO! Lets go!
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Note: The original Sonic X intro theme rocks..accept no crappy substitutes (LIKE THE AMERICAN VERSION!! >_> )

I also traded in some of my GameCube games that i know i would never play or want to keep and i tried to get Beyond Good and Evil. Saddly...the disc had a "bubble" in it and it was basically dead.

So instead i got Sonic Heroes since i never played it and i like Sonic.

The game overall is a strange retro-remix to the old days of Sonic while still retaining the same elements from Sonic Adventure. Basically its all "Sonic's Level" in this game..meaning you will be running at high speeds and not Shooting things, looking for emerald shards or raising chao. Yes..thats right.. THERE IS NO CHAO GARDEN. Not that i care..thats what Sonic Advance and Sonic Adventure 2 is for.

Benieth the return of the simplistic "Get from point A to Point B" style Sonic vets are used to.. there is actually a complex weaving of strategy in going through the levels and when defeating the enemies as well. The strengths and Weaknesses of the 3 characters you control (Speed, Flying and Power) complement each other and you usually dont end up using just ONE style to make it through a level or during fights with enemies. Some levels you CAN do just one character style but odds are those levels are very few and far between.

The voice acting on the other hand..its what you would expect from Sonic Team..except for TAILS. Tails voice changed for hte worse..he actually sounds YOUNGER than his Sonic Adventure Voice Actor...which is bad since Tails original voice was perfect. But after some time you get used to it unless your some freaky purist and you sacrifice sheep to a Tails Shrine...you sick, demented freak! The game goes at a fast pace but the levels are so huge that the average time to get through most of them are 5 minutes+ if your speeding through the level...which can be a bad or a good thing depending on your perspective.

The controls are the same..but i find it hard to control Sonic or the other characters when in the Special Stages..it doesnt feel tight and responsive..i dunno if its just my controler or not..

Its a good game..it has a few share of issues and gripes..but i find it fun for the most part.

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You gotta know when to hold'em...know when to fold'em..know when to walk away..know when to run.
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You never count your money..when your sitting at the table, there'll be time enough for countin..when the dealins done. !ChazDragoon http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/6437938/ http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/6437938/ Wed, 07 Sep 2005 02:40:41 PDT

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Back to Square One...Negative Square One that is..
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So..heres the story. I make it to CR England in Salt Lake..the place is great, the dorms are..uhm..not what i was thinking but the place itself was pretty neat and people were generally cool and freindly.

Then Tuesday comes..the 1st day of school. Everthing goes great, i finish my "homework" early, i get through my drug test and physical just fine and i had a tasty lunch. Then its time for the "Integrity Interview".

I go to the interview guy when im called..wait for my turn then i go and answer his questions honestly. Simple right? Well it was until i tell him about the car accident i had in April (which cost me my Little Ceasars Job). Then he reads the rules sheet or whatever for 10 freaking minutes and says that i cant continue with the school...and im sent home and i have to pay for my bus ride home. Those assholes, the least they can do is give me my $50 back since i wasted my time going to them when they SHOULD OF TOLD ME THIS BEFORE WHEN I WAS HOME!! T_T#

So now now only is the biggest opertunity to make alot of money blown to shit like all the other ones...im now officially POOR. DEAD. FUCKING. POOR.

And i have almost 0 gas in my car, no job to turn to and right in the midist of gas prices reaching the 4 dollar mark...we can now officially say: "Your screwed.."

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But wait..is that hope? Or is that another peice of fools gold..
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Though now i can go call Jason and see if he can get me a job at the Airport. It pays good apparently and i get free airfare (i think..i still remember hearing that). So..maybe this is the better route, that way i can fly to New York and finally see Jessi. I could really use a hug from her... -_-

Though will this job stay true and get me the money i need...or will it become like every other job and take away my working hours and lay me off...

im so tired of this cycle...i cant escape it...even in Utah it haunts me...neverending. Am i forever doomed to this repeated cycle of being poor, job searching and never getting what i need to live away from mom and on my own..to make my own life..my own family....am i just stuck in this cycle until the day i finally lose it and stop everything perminately..?

...when will it end..why wont it end...why cant it leave me alone..why wont it stop torturing me!

If this is "life" i dont want any part of it...i dont want it anymore! Ive had my fill of it..i want something new..i want something better..but no matter how hard i try it just pulls it away from my grasp leaving me back in the cycle...this neverending cycle of hell...

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And because i can...
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...nothing this time..just..nothing.. ]]> !ChazDragoon http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/6402245/ http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/6402245/ Sat, 03 Sep 2005 03:50:53 PDT _>;

--insert Excel Saga theme--

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Journey to the End of Time Ch.3: Starting the Walk
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Ill be leaving on Monday (Sept 5th, 2005) to go to Salt Lake City where i will get training to become a Commercial Truck Driver. After i complete training im guarenteed a job almost immediately..at least thats my impression when they say im guarenteed a job when i finish training.

So for the next 2 weeks i wont be here...i dont know if ill be back after 2 weeks to pack my stuff or whatever when im hired so..yeah. This could be the last journal i make for a long while.

But its a good paying job, i dont know EXACTLY how much i will make but i know they make ALOT of cash..enough to buy the huge TV thats in our living room and not break a sweat. With that kind of money i should be up and ready to get to Westwood by January..and if not then hopefully March.


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Now i can get some sleep at night.. -.-;
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K (formerly Bass X) of the CN forums lived in New Orleans when the hurricane happened..naturally everyone in the CN community (well..not really a community..more like a strange makshift family of sorts.. XD ) was worried like hell.

Well finally he returned to the message board clearly showing his 1337 Ninja Skillz kept him alive.. (so he says). So now some of us can sleep a little easier at night.

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I hate leaving.. >>;
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I dont really want to leave home for 2 weeks..specially since ill be by myself in a place ive never been to. Its one thing to go to California for over two weeks cause your Aunt lives there...but this is like..just ME! x_x;

And i wont have any access to the boards or DA to see how things are going...IM ATTACHED TO YOU PEOPLE DAMMIT!!

;_; myu...

Great..im getting EMO.. x_x;

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And because i can... =3
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"And i think to myself....what a won-der-ful worrrrr-urrrrrlllld... Thank you! You've been a wonderful audiance..Goodnight!"

---yeah..cant describe that one... ]]> !ChazDragoon http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/6383568/ http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/6383568/ Thu, 01 Sep 2005 00:04:29 PDT
This was taken from (The OMA) journal..post on yours if you share the same thoughts.

Oh...and before you even question me..i like Girls. If that wasnt evident enough when i talk about my Girlfreind, Jessi! T_T#


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Spread the Love... show them prejudice is bullshit!!
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I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.

I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.

I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.

We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.

I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.

I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.

I am one of the lucky ones, I guess. I survived the attack that left me in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able to walk again.

I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.

We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.

I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.

I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.

I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.

I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.

I am the man who died when the paramedics stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual.

I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I didn’t have to always deal with society hating me.

I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.

I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.

Repost this if you believe homophobia is wrong.


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And because i can... =3
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"What the WORLD...needs NOW...Is Love...sweet love!"

--- you better know that song.. ]]> !ChazDragoon http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/6357830/ http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/6357830/ Mon, 29 Aug 2005 07:53:24 PDT =3

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You know its a good thing when you get a job call at 7am
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So i return home from my 1st solo run of delivering newspapers.. mom leaves etc etc..then at 7:30 i get a call from CR England, a trucking company i applied to, saying they got my application and that they liked it and then gave me details on the schooling i go through and the payment options and whatnot.

So lets make it clear:

1: I will attend Trucking School (and get my CDL Liscence) for 2 weeks in Salt Lake City, Utah. (whee!)
2: Transportation and stuff provided by them (except food heh)
3: 2 Payment Plans
--Pay the full 2000+ tuition up front (Get $1000 off for doing that)
--Pay $50 and pay off the rest of the tuition by deductions from your paychecks.
4: Truckers make BIG MONEY!!
5: I am GUARENTEED a job once training is finished!

Thus...A WINNER IS ME!

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But even so...what do we do about that splotch on the windsheild?
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Though this is good and all..the timing is somewhat tight. I need to know if i will do this or not. I really want to..cause i KNOW Truckers get big bucks, plus im guarenteed to get the job once training is over with which means i can start making major cash almost immediately.

So i gotta talk with mom on this..im sure she could go for it, she knows truckers are rich guys. Soon as i know ill have to tell the RJ that i cant do the newspaper.

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And because i can... =3
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--Insert "VIVID" from Final Fantasy Unlimited-- ]]> !ChazDragoon http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/6355623/ http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/6355623/ Sun, 28 Aug 2005 23:30:56 PDT

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Driveway = 100pts
DoorStep = 1000pts
Windows = Jackpot!!!
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So im going to have a job delivering the newspaper! Its actually kinda fun..though folding the paper (the sunday ones anyway) can be painful. (my back or my hands..usually both)

I dunno how much ill get..but my guess is its 800 or more a month. Considering im making $0 a month right now, i think thats a major improvement. =3

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Ya i drew something..isnt it a miracle?
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If you noticed i finally drew something after...uhm..whenever my last actual drawing was. Go thank for making her second Parry Hotter movie and make me track down the music played in it that made me draw!

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And because i can... =3
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"NO ONE EXPECTS THE SPANISH INQUSITION!!!"
--Monty Python's Flying Circus ]]> !ChazDragoon http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/6326211/ http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/6326211/ Thu, 25 Aug 2005 15:25:18 PDT
here we go again..

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You know where this is gona go...
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Job searching, even with A CAR is not proving any easier. If anything its making it worse since i have to use money i pretty much SHOULDNT be spending for gas. Thus i go to these jobs, i apply, i get a good response and then nothing, i call them, nothing...i call again, im not approved.

Its getting on my nerves. Im wasting money, im wasting gas, IM WASTING MY TIME DOING THIS SHIT!! THIS is WHY i wanted to go to college! THIS IS EXACTLY WHY i was willing to risk complete destruction to get the fuck out of this god damn money hellhole of a city and go to college!!

But no...I listen to my mother and does what she suggests. I try to do what i have been doing constantly the past 4-5 years with no real success in order to save money to safely leave to college!

GUESS WHAT!!! Its not working! Why did i listen to her...i knew that this wasnt going to work well. I KNEW that i would not get a job to give me the money i need this easy...ARGH!!! Its..its...ARGHH!!!!!!

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--unable to think of witty title--
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Honestly...theres NOTHING for me to get in the Review Journal or lasvegasjobs.com OR CareerBuilder.com..and the other sites have nothing but high end shit that i couldnt possibly handle or even get considered for hiring.

I mean....god..im so over being like this. There is nothing here in vegas for me..the fact i cant even find a good job, much less keep these pathedic shitty jobs is proof enough that i cant survive in this hellhole.

Something needs to turn up...cause its getting mighty hard not to call these damn companies and toss sarcastic remarks at them for NOT CALLING ME BACK REGARDLESS IF IM APPROVED OR NOT! ITS COMMON, FREAKING, COURTASY!!!

JUst...ARGH!!

--insert 30 mintues worth of cussing, screaming and just plain chaoticness--

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This Just In... (can we say good timing? =/ )
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Well i got a e-mail from CR England (Transporting/Trucking/Delivery company) saying my application passed and im to expect a call from my "recruiting agent" in the next 1-2 days. Lets hope he Calls..cause im really tired of having to contact these people who say they will contact me the next day and then dont.

So lets hope Truck Delivery is in my future..cause it sure as hell pays alot, plus it gets me the $*#@ out of Vegas. Though i have no EXP..they do have a CDL Lisence training program and when i pass it im guarenteed a job. Plus if it gets going in the next 5-6 days ill get a $5,000 sign on bonus. CHA-CHING!! >:3

EDIT: And ill be staking out McCarran Intl' Airport..they had ad too..plus i remember the quirk about "Free Airtime". >:3

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And because i can... (and its the only thing keeping me slightly sane..)
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"I was once a treehouse. I lived in a cake! But i never saw the way the oranage slayed the rake! I was only 3 years dead but it told the tale! Come now, listen little child...to the safety rail!"
-- The Llama Song (flash movie) ]]> !ChazDragoon http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/6264916/ http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/6264916/ Thu, 18 Aug 2005 19:15:30 PDT
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Good Dinner....Bad Dessert
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The meeting with Tony went well..he suggested things to ask Adam (College person) and then to go from there. All in all things would look like they would go as planned. But that was until Mom wanted to talk when she got home (and after i sent the info..).

As they say History Repeats itself..and as i have said about the Hell Cycle, it never fails. Mom's talk about college and on me and many other things about college...depressed me and has stopped my plans.

But this time it ended on another note..i kept my paitience and cool this time throughout her talk and it ended with, instead of everything blowing up into atomized dust..ended with a little enlightenment and time to prepare fully.

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The Journey may be at a standstill...but its not forgotten
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So now i have a good deal of things i need to do..

1: Tell Adam that i am not prepared now and to find the next available time that i can join school.
2: Make some F'ing money..a good freakin deal of it. (here goes the job hunting again.. -_-; )
3: Save as much money as possible..turn down every opertunity to spend money (that includes food) except for gas, payments and specific situations.
4: Whatever else i didnt think of.. =/

Im not quitting this time...i got time, i already know that im accepted at Westwood..and that wont change. I have time..and i have the phone number. All i need is to make enough money to get to Denver..and enough to fall back on in case of something.

Im giving it 6 months at the least to get everything prepared and ready...i dont want to wait that long, but i know its the logical thing to do now. I risk getting my ass kicked if something goes wrong if i leave for it now...

Thats about it for now then...i WILL get to that college. Maybe not in 2 months..but i will dammit. And if you doubt i will then ill say it perfectly clear to everyone who scoffs and doubts ill do this.

Go....fuck...yourself!

There..NOW im done.

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And because i can.... =3
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"I...lik-a...the cha-cha..me..like-a..the cha-cha..? O.o"
--from Bruce Almighty ]]> !ChazDragoon http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/6252405/ http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/6252405/ Wed, 17 Aug 2005 16:57:27 PDT
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When your phone wakes you up, that means its time to wake up. =/
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Waking to the sound of my phone with a start..i answered it and was greeted to the voice of a man from Westwood College.

Damn that was fast. =3

We talked and he gave me the low down on what the college has and is about..what ill be doing..and he did a questionare to see if i am an ideal student to be accepted to the college.
Well guess what..im ideal!!

After that i asked questions on payment and all that stuff and i got my answers (good thing i wrote them down).

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Cheeseburger = $1....
Gas = $20....
Building your path for a better future = $100...
Working in a job thats fun and pays good = Priceless (aside from paychecks )
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So first off theres an application fee (every college has one =/ ) of $100. I can do this by money order or check or direct withdrawl..thing is i dont have $100 at the moment but the GOOD THING is that i wont be going to Westwood until October. So i have two months to build up some cash..not only for the trip to Denver, Colorado (thats where im going) but to pay the Application Fee. (which ill do after i pick up my pathedic 15 hour paycheck this thursday)

Financial aid will help me with figuring the cost of everything..i dont have to go to denver for that they can call me on that and it costs nothing until i apply.

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Finishing off where i left off...
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Anyways... ill be meeting with my former Boss (big boss anyways) at the Radio Station, Tony Bonnici. Mom asked me to talk with him before i go along with this since his kids are dealing with college. I dont see anything bad with that, Tony is a great guy, he likely has advice and to inform me of whats likely to be ahead of me in going to college.

So ill be talking to him tomorrow at 2:15pm...im nervous..but i shouldnt be, he's Tony after all.

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Causulties already...? O_o
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Well seems i lost a freind..or support..or just plain pissed her off or shes being moody. I dunno..but anyways blocked me on AIM after im gave snarky comments on her lack of faith/support in me. True, most of my dreams and ideas havent really happened or got shot down..got the journals to prove that one but it just kinda sucks and hurts given the "yeah right..sure. I believe you" type comments when i told her. But ya know...time will tell what will happen Tiff. At least know i would of given some supportive chit chat if you were me...

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And because i can... =3
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"Now with 25% MORE ICING!!!! =O "
--- Pilbury Toaster Strudel commercial ]]> !ChazDragoon http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/6248351/ http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/6248351/ Tue, 16 Aug 2005 23:50:58 PDT

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Continuing where we left off...
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So yeah..i finally talked with mom about the college thing. Im slightly glad i did, but for the part i wish i didnt feel the need to tell her.

Heres how it went:

We cant figure out where to start..so i go: "I wana go to college. o.o; "
Mom: "ooook...? =/ "

Then she said that im a grown man (etc etc) and if i want to do it then do it.

I forgot what transistioned to the next part but it then went to How will i afford it (Accordin gto her the government hates people with 2.something GPAs and wont give grants..but ill find that out for myself), how will i survive, where will i live and then it got to my favorite part (--Heavy Sarcasm--), Every fualt she can list about me.

Mentionings of how my room is a mess and other things, my anti-socialness and other things that made me think: "You know, if i knew i was gona listen to you list every fualt in my dictionary i would of said nothing."

So it got to the point where i said to her: "Ok..thats it, im done talking to you. Im just gona do it as you say and thats it"

And she comes at me with: "You see! You just act like a kid and walk away when --something something..i forget cause i wasnt paying attention--" Well ya know..id rather end the conversation there before i get into a bad mood and not only enrage both of us further with rude tones but just totally kill a nice day i had babysitting my cousin.

But ya know..im a kid. Oh..wait..no..a kid would go spastic and scream and kick on the floor. Not intelligently drop the conversation and avoid conflict. But what do i know.

Why did i bother telling her? I dont know..force of habit i guess..maybe to give her heads up instead of telling her last minute? Maybe cause its my son-like duty to at least inform my mother that im gona do something big like go to college? I dont know..maybe i did something stupid like i apparently seem to always do. I just know, the next time ive done something big or going to do something big like this..im just not gona tell her until im about to do it or already have. Cause time and again its lead to this kind of conversation where i will get to hear every fualt about me as possible.

O-K....Continuing on cause ive stayed off course as it is..

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And my mentor said, "Go Westwood..er *cough* Westward my son!"
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SO..im starting the preperations. Ive requested information at Westwood's website and should expect a Email, Phone Call..or something soon.

The reason i went with Westwood is because their Game Design courses have more specific choices such as Animation, Game Art and Design, Programming and all that stuff.

Though i guess the chat with mom at least gave me some juice to go on and do this on my own. So ill see where it goes from there once i get a reply or call from them.

Im apparently supposed to go through a Personal Career Assesment thingy with them. (no i dont have to drive to the campus location for that..thankfully)...and thats supposed to get me on the path to figuring out if i can attend Westwood and what classes i will need or something to that degree.

Ask for how much it is..i have no clue, theres no price listing on thier site (which is irritating to say the least..) but DeVry DOES have a price list and if Westwood is anything like DeVry i can expect the same prices more or less (seems a course is $5000-6000 at DeVry..)

Unfortunately bad news for (Pan)...all of thier Texas campuses do not have game design courses. -_-; So i guess we wont get to hang out then.. *sad*

The closest campus with game design for Westwood is in Denver, Colorado (i chose the Southern Campus). Which reminds me...i think my buddy Tim Neverett is in Denver.

If you remember, Tim Neverett was a former Radio Host i worked with at the Radio Station. We had fun doing his show but then he had a bussiness opertunity in Denver and he took it..moving away and making me sad.

I guess ill see if i can pay him a surprize visit sometime when i get to Westwood.

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Carry on my wayward sooo-uuhhhn... there'll be... ]]> !ChazDragoon http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/6220549/ http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/6220549/ Sat, 13 Aug 2005 22:55:24 PDT


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2 Colleges..both out of state...1 goal
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DeVry and Westwood..two colleges advertised on G4TV for thier Game Design courses...

Ive been fed up with vegas...i get a job, i lose hours, i leave a job, i search again, repeat.

That has been my life the past 2+ years and i hate it. I feel like ill get no where but these fucked up, dead end jobs that will take away my hours and stint me on money that i desperately need.

Well im through with doing this cycle...im going to college. Im going to see which one is the better choice (Westwood has my favor right now) and im going to do it..even if i have to take every fucking student loan available (provided i dont get any grants or scholarships... -_-; )...and besides, if it gets me into a good paying job in the game industry then paying off whatever loans i have shouldnt be much of a hassle.

So ill have to chat with mom soon (she forgot to have a talk about it the day i told her..so ill do that tomorrow or when i get a chance)..she doesnt seem to be as objective of it as opposed to the Art Institute of LV (that was after i got out of highschool) but then..i dunno.

I feel this is a better road to go down..much better than being home with mom, making next to no money at these stupid, low paying jobs and "messing up the house"... >>;

For one...i wont be at home with mom, she can be alone with any boyfreinds or guys/freinds/whatever..house cleaning wont be so rough..and i guess it'll save her some money too.
Second..ill be in school again, getting an education that will get me a better job that i can actually live off of...and one that can be fun.
Third...it gets me out of this hell hole called Las Vegas. I dont care what the tourists say, this is NOT A PLACE TO LIVE. You will forever be stuck in a financial pit of hell, jobs around here suck and its not kid freindly (thats for all the family people out there)...plus the weather sucks, especially summer.

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Location, location...course?
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The nearest DeVry college with a Game Design course is in Phoenix, Arizona.

Though on thier site they didnt have much speciic or varied courses in Game Design compared to Westwood (as you will read below).

While All of Westwood's colleges have the course..but they also have more specific options to Game Design such as Conceputal Art and Character Design among other things. Thats why Westwood has my favor at the moment.

The closest Westwood campuses are in California and Texas..but frankly, i dont want to go to LA or SD..and i dont know where the hell "Fremont" is in Cali. So Texas is getting my eye..dispite it being "Dubbya Country". But i could live with it i guess, besides, maybe i one of the campuses is near Pan. Then id at least have a freind in town.. ^_^;

Also..Westwood's website had a photo of one of the classrooms and it had those Promotional "Box Covers" you see in the Game Stores..and one of them was Megaman. So they get bonus points for that. XD

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So..there we go then!
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thats about it...im gona go for this, its better than how im living here in Vegas. Plus ill be learning how to make games and other things and it will give me a better chance to actually have a career that i can live on instead of dealing with snobby customers and cleaning and being under constant stress from work and money issues.

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And because i can... =3
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"Wort wort wort!?" -- Covenant Elite..Rasmot style. XD ]]> !ChazDragoon http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/6202874/ http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/6202874/ Thu, 11 Aug 2005 22:53:59 PDT
[link]

Isnt it funny how an attourney replies his E-mails with "Dear Idiot"? I find it most entertaining.

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Just a reminder for all the Anti-VG peoples...cause you know you need it
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Stop buying your children M-rated games or games with mature content not suitable for thier age group...seriously...you cant hide the fact you baught a game that CLEARLY has the rating and the content within on the back cover...you can CLEARLY READ THE GAMES STORYLINE ON THE BACKCOVER and you can CERTAINLY ASK THE F*KING CLERK IF THE GAME CONTAINS BAD STUFF!!

*huffs*

Also..if its in the case that the game is on the PC and/or your kid has a Gameshark/Code Breaker cheat device...WATCH WHAT YOUR KIDS ARE DOING!!

And for the love of god if they're doing something like activating a "Nude Code" or a "Hidden Sex Scene Cheat" as in the case of GTA: San Andreas...you need to ground your child, punish him/her, take away the cheat devices, talk to them and blame yourself for even buying the game and/or not paying more attention to what your kid plays.

Cause guess what Mothers of the USA...ITS NOT THE GAME DEVELOPERS FUALT YOU BAUGHT A M RATED VIDEO GAME FOR YOUR LITTLE KID! That would be...oh..YOUR FUALT now wouldnt it? =/

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And because i can... =3
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"Chaz-OWNED!!"
-- just made that up ]]> !ChazDragoon http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/6194604/ http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/6194604/ Thu, 11 Aug 2005 04:36:21 PDT _>;

2nd... KAL Online is an ok MMORPG. Think "Oriental Everquest". Problem here is Kill Stealers and Private Shops...why Private Shops? Because Private Shops put a Yellow and Black message on the screen above a characters head. Imagine 1000+ characters in a village sitting arround like that. It kills the Frame Rate and make it near impossible to find Quest NPCs and Merchants...i swear...

3rd... remember that cycle of bad things that i rant on a few of my journals before? The one where bad things happen to me through different parts of the year and restart around the time of spring/summer? (Job, lack of hours, searching, money, etc etc, repeat) Well Guess what...

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Back from the pits of Hades and the Underworld...ITS THE RETURN OF THE HELL CYCLE!! =O
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Unfortunately..this doesnt have a sponser since my suffering and greif are pretty much the payment needed for it. =/

Anyways...seems that the Cycle is retstarting a bit early this time. Not a week after ive been hired i already have cut hours (along with the other people that got hired. Im not fired..im not laid off...we just havent had enough sales (which i find REALLY hard to believe..but then they must set the standard high since we're in a casino) and thus have to cut ALOT of hours.

So as ive said in previous journals (from the CVS Days to the Little Ceasars days)... it figures this would happen. I get a job, FINALLY...then i lose my hours because of something like this. Now im forced to look for ANOTHER JOB because i really need money...seriously, i fucking NEED money. I dont know how much i gotta stress that point..cause i gotta give mom around 700+ bucks for the car repairs and for the car itself...and then theres everything else from food, to gas to..whatever else needs be.

Im expecting the next phase of the cycle to come soon..the: "Lots of Job Applicating and Searching with no luck and mom spazzing out at me constantly cause im not making money dispite my efforts to try and get a job i can do that pays well" phase...

yeah that was too long..how about: "The Fruitless Job Search Phase"...yeah that works.

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But you know what....?
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But you know what? Im doing this my way this time..i have a car now, so job searching will be MUCH easier in terms of traveling to places out of bike distance. I can make Interviews and other things within an hour at least if i get them immediately.

But most importantly...i am AVOIDING jobs like Haagen Daz, CVS and Little Ceasars (dispite LC being the best paying job ive ever had). Why? Cuase i got those jobs due to being under extreme pressure by EVERYONE. That means MOM, GRANDMA, my AUNT in california..and god knows WHO ELSE.

Due to that pressure from them i ended up losing my mind and sanity and went after any job possible..YES THAT INCLUDED TELEMARKETING. *growls* Though not Wal-Mart...you couldnt get me to work there if they offered $1,000,000 an hour...no..actually i WOULD work there for that kind of money. But that will never happen so there! HAHAHAHAH!

So point being...im going at my pace. Im going for what jobs i feel i can do, that wont stress me out like the other jobs (except when i was at the Radio Station, that was reletively the best work environment ever) and have GUARENTEED WORKING HOURS. Im sick of this "We had to cut your hours cause of --insert reason--"...i signed onto Haagen Daz cause they said FULL TIME...where did that go? =/

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And on my list of prospective jobs....
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Two things have recently caught my insterest:

1: Computer Repair/Instalation... After fitting up this computer with the GE Force card i got from Circut City..i felt enlightened on the internal aspects of the computer. I installed a Graphics Card by myself correctly and i kinda learned a little about the inside of the computer..plus i just felt damn cool. So ill see if i can find a job that deals with that..provided they can give A LITTLE training to help me out.

2: Flying... this one is a longshot at the most. As mom and me drove past the nearby Airfield...i had a sudden feeling of wanting to be an Air Pilot. Though i have no clue what i would do...the thought of flying sounded good. Though... ]]> !ChazDragoon http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/6174666/ http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/6174666/ Tue, 09 Aug 2005 01:42:14 PDT
I I got my 1st paycheck..but it was for one week of work and it was near 200 bucks..so for 2 weeks of work i should average near $400.

Thing is..the work actually kicks my ass...im sore in my feet (need new shoes or a gel pad thingy) and im dead tired....its a miracle i make it back home, i guess the Rock and 80's music keep me going..plus the fact im not on my damn feet!


though regardless i have 84 something im my bank account now because, without warning, the Art Institute took 115 out the day after i deposited my check...that pisses me off to an extent but i need to call them and tell them i cant do it anymore. Im too busy between work, sleeping and whatever else to focus on those lessons. So i guess ill learn on my own like i have been..not that i havent learned anything from the school, i learned some good stuff. ut i cant afford it..i need money for other things and..yeah...

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Here we go with the money thing... e_e;
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Ive been thinking..ive seen teh commericals on G4TV for DeVry institute and the other university places that advertise you can learn and start a career in the video game industry..im starting to get interested to the point i might want to risk heavy student loans in going there.

I mean...one of the things id like to do is make games (if that wasnt evident from my wishings of wanting to make a flash game and all of my sprites). I dunno the odds of me getting right into the industry from those colleges/institutes..but it seems more likely to go there for learning than what im doing with AIS. Peh..yeah..i can hear mom now: "I TOLD YOU SO!!" >>;

So..yeah..ill have a look into DeVry and Westwood to figure out this stuff...cause frankly, im tired of getting into these jobs that are not fun, stressful and generally wish i was doing something else.

Why do i get those jobs? Why do you think? Desperation and pressure from mom, money and other factors that come up to drive me to the brink of taking whatever job that hires me first or pays "decent".

So...yeah..im tired of it, i want a job where i can do what i like or at least have fun doing it. Like Radio..i had fun doing Radio, it had stress, but i had fun since i knew just about everyone there...and going to the Games Industry sounds like something that would be fun, after i learn it anyways...
I guess ill start my search tomoarro...oh..its already tomorrow! Heh..i guess ill search it in a little bit then.

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Time Displacement..Lesson# 482
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Thanks to my job at Haagen Daz..working till 3am in the morning..ive succeeded in being unable to sleep until 5am...i force myself to bed cause if mom comes in and sees im up, she'll throw a gasket..or something..i dunno thats what i think, but i could be wrong.

Of course this later leads to me actually getting some sleep and then waking up beyond my usual sleep in time of 12pm...to 1 or 2 pm if im really wiped out. This leaves little time to have fun..or do anything worth doing. =/

Though luckilly i usually wake up at 11 since either the phone goes off..or i just plain wake up for some reason.

Can we say: "Disturbing Your Sleeping Patterns"?

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Back to Basics...with children =O
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I recently got to babysit my niece (or is it my cousin? I dunno..my Aunt said "Uncle" so..yeah) a few days ago. It was fun..she drew the 1st day and watched Fairly OddParents (its actually not bad...its off the wall)...then the 2nd day we drove around in search of a cheap Graphics Card..which we didnt find. Then the 3rd day we did more driving..first ot pick up my paycheck (then we had 1/2 off ice cream at work) then we found a cheap graphics card with money i saved up...i actually managed to install the card too. Im a Technological Genious!
Maybe i should find a job installing those kind of thigns inside computers...it was pretty interesting and fun.

I gained 30 buck from babysitting..which quickly disapeared cause mom wanted me to buy dinner for us...and i needed gas too. I also told my uncle that im open for babysitting on my days off and ill call them to tell them when im off. Which reminds me..i should call them today... Gives me reason to stay up..or have a 2-4 hour nap O_o

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Chances are you know that the FOUNDERS OF DA ARE GONE. Jark, Matteo and (i think..) Syped got the boot.

I probably should read more into this since i didnt see much in the case of Spyed and if he got booted as well...

For more info start here at Fahm's Journal ----> [link]

Then follow any and all links in the journal...the E-mail from Matteo is just plain scary..and it enrages me to no end. The people who made DA are gone and its the fualt of a greedy son of a bitch who worked it from the shadows.

The Karma Sheriff is comming to kick your ass buddy...you wont get away with destroying what Jark and the others created! All that money you so baddly want is gona be gone from either court battles (should that happen) or when the founders get THIER CREATION BACK.

Scum like you is why most of the world sucks...you will get yours. If not soon then someday.

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Because this might be the death of me...
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So if worse case senario happens (i get banned..or the founders cant reclaim DA)...then im packing up my stuff and getting the fuck out of here.

I might head to SheezyArt (since everyone else went there too at some point) or the new art site that Matteo plans to create should he and the others cant reclaim DA.

Theres other reasons id leave the place too..based on the long adventure i had from Fahm's journal links and Matteo's e-mail...im practically afraid of continuing to post stuff up here if that greedy asshole stays in charge.

So yeah...im getting out of DA if its Creators dont get back what they created.

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And because it might be the last time i can... =3
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LONG LIVE JARK! LONG LIVE MATTEO!! DOWN WITH THE GREEDY CAPITALIST PIG WHO CANNED THEM!! BOO! BOOOOOO!!!
---i dont think i need to explain where THAT came from

Note: Sorry if i mispelled Matteo's name or misunderstood any info from all the members journals i read from Fahm's journal. ]]> !ChazDragoon http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/6035094/ http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/6035094/ Mon, 25 Jul 2005 23:23:18 PDT
So i check it out thinking its some fun news hat shes coming back home to vegas and they're throwing some fun summer BBQ thingy...and i was wrong (to an extent).

Seems that her mom is throwing an Engagement Party for Jerin and some guy named Nick. (i dunno who he is..that or i forgot). This not only threw me for a loop...but SHES GETTING ENGAGED!?!? Since when!? I never was told about this! I didnt even know she liked the guy or if she was in a arragned marrage or whatever the circumstance that would lead to that news i just find out about.

But thats not the only thing..ohhhhh no, the next one is not only a blow to me..but a blow to just how im usually "out of the social circle"..dispite being freinds with Jerin. The party only allows "couples"...so i have to find me a date.

Now your wondering: "A Date!? Thats easy..peh." No it isnt..Jerin is probably the only girl that i know that i would actually consider asking her on a date if i wanted or something. There WAS a girl named Jennifer Reep..but i dont know where she is and i dont really want to ask her to go with me considering she's broken me enough times (1 time is enough..though i went throgh 2-3 times, never again). Ask my mom? She wouldnt go..this would be a party filled with teens to late teens and my age. Find a random girl? Sure..ill hire a hooker/call girl/dating service...fools. e_e;

So..yeah..i wont be going to the party. Even if i did have a date...i probably wouldnt want to go...

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But why is it bugging me?! >_>
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I mean..i shouldnt be sad or depressed or whatever about it. Shes just a freind, i like her alot but not that way...

*sigh*

i shouldnt be bothered by something like this but i am! WHY DAMMIT!!! ARGH!!! *bangs head on the desk*

I *bang* SHOULDNT *bang* BE *bang* BOTHERED *bang* BY THIS *bang*....*BANG* ow!! >.<;

aoughh..headache..pain.. x.x;

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back to the perspective thing....
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i dunno why...but....i feel like im left behind now. Since Jerin is getting Engaged..that means she'll get married soon after...have kids 9 months later possibly...

Here i am..single, no one to love. Sure theres Jessi in New York...but...i dont know...i rarely talk to her anymore...i dont really feel any pain or whatever from having no contact with her anymore. That worries me, cause then i feel like i dont like her anymore like i used to. We had a argumen tlast time we talked..i was really irritated and stuff about my lack of job and how everything was going wrong and she began the "optimistic one liners" deal and i told her to not do those and she takes it like i dont love her anymore. *shakes*

Maybe i dont..i dont know...her brother gets on me about it and i tell him im not going to do a damn thing to "fix it"..cause if i do its only going to get worse..so i will do nothing. I will shut up and say nothing. And thats it so far..

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enough about that..back to the orignal topic at hand..
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Yeah..anyways.....fuck...i forgot where i was going to in this. -_-; forget it...lets get to everyone's favorite part in the journal

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And because i can.....=3
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"ohmygodimonfire!!" -- Tom from "The Decline of Video Games" flash movie series (you gotta say it REALLY FAST) ]]> !ChazDragoon http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/5991029/ http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/5991029/ Wed, 20 Jul 2005 22:46:20 PDT
A film of suspense..drama..love...revenge...

Cowboy: i got one thing to say to you bud..
Bad Man: And whats that you onerey pile of cow dung?
Cowboy: ...do you feel lucky...huh? Do ya...punk?
Bad Man: *cries like a woman*

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The Good...
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I got a car now..it works...yay for me!

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The Gooder...
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And with this car i went to a Job Fair grandma told me to go to. There i met a woman in line who made my day and got my social juices going. This later took me to a table where i handed my resume, told them im open to anything...and then met with a manager lady who then told me i would be working tomarrow (7-21-05)!

So now i will be working at Hagen Das Ice Cream inside the Monte Carlo Casino/Resort. For $8 an hour...and FULL TIME! =3

I also learned that my car repairs will be cut in half thanks to mom's connections and my insurance is down since im of legal drinking age...i mean.. 21 years old. And ill be fully covered in all forms of ass kicking if i ever get into another accident..which im not planning to do anytime soon..as in never.

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Guess who showed up at the front door 1-2 hours after i got back from the job fair?

Kenji.

Yeah he finally came back. Reason he wasnt back 20,000 tuesdays ago...legal issues, you already read that part long ago if you read these journals.

Though other than kicking him in the nads..i didnt (mostly cause i already mended the bridge there when he IMed me on MSN).
Mom is, for lack of better wording, caught in the strange Soap Opera Love triangle scenario...minus the opera.

She has two guys she likes that she chats with..and then theres Kenji. Yeah, she must like him still cause she says she likes being with him. But shes still weary, im still weary myself...but he DID come back.

He left again and said he'll be back in about 2 weeks. He has some things to do with his father apparently in California. So in 2 weeks when he gets back is pretty much going to be a time we're we.. (or maybe just me..i dunno) will try to find out who the hell Kenji is, what he does and if any of it is true.

The good part about this though..is that if he doesnt come back again on time, it wont come back with heart break and despression like the last time. And you know how bad that was.

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And because i can.... =3
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Now take your hand off that remote! Cause your about the witness the only show that can rip the music out of your hard drive with the violent tendacies of a rabid chimpanzee...ITS ATTACK....OF THE SHOW!!! --- intro for Attack of the Show that i made up 5 seconds ago ]]> !ChazDragoon http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/5947392/ http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/5947392/ Sat, 16 Jul 2005 00:58:13 PDT
Its really bugging me...its getting to the point where im thinking ill never be able to make anything again. -_-;

I mean..ive had ZERO creative juice. I cant think of anything to draw, i cant think of anything to write for Dreamscape or otherwise...i cant even make a damn sprite comic!!! >.<;

My body feels cold on the inside too..i thought it was the air conditioner but ive had it off the past few hours and i dont feel hot but i still feel i like theres ice inside my arms and torso and whatnot. My eyes feel like someone stuck needles in the back of them and my head hurts. But im guessing those last two are from the computer or maybe sinus headache thing.

Anyways...this is bothering me alot. Theres gotta be SOMETHING that can just overdrive my creativeness.

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Im still able to make up random funny stuff... =/

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And because i can... =3
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And thats why X-play gives our show.. a -5...out of 5. --- Every Anti-Xplay fanboy's dream.
(no i dont like X-play myself..but i dont hate it neither) ]]> !ChazDragoon http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/5891413/ http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/5891413/ Sun, 10 Jul 2005 01:40:47 PDT
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And to the left of this topic is....
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Ive also been hoping that watching Gungrave would give me some insight and maybe some ideas of how i should do Dreamscape. Some things in the anime are similar to Dreamscape (futureness, SOME gentic type stuff..if you call ressurecting the dead and turning humans into strange crystaline monsters genetic type stuff..other things i think).

One thing in particular is that the beginning (at least im thinking that was the beginning) focused a while on Brandon/Grave's past and how he became who he is...Beyond the Grave.

I also recal an irritation i had with Fable for the XBOX. I hated that it didnt focus on the childhood of the hero that much...and i look at Dreamscape and i see i made the same mistake unknowingly. So i may try to fix that somehow.

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Do you want a man..a man who can handle the power and style of a performance vehicle?
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(random wasnt it? XD)
I may be getting a new car soon..ill be getting grandma's car, a Saturn (gee..i must be fated to drive these things huh? ). I gotta remind myself to tell grandma mom will get the $500 in about a week (i think).

Finally when i get my car (and get insurance and that crap again e_e; ) job hunting will be much easier. I wont die of heatstroke, i can get jobs that require a vehicle, jobs that are beyond bike/bus travel and did i mention i wont get to bake in the damn sun? x.o;

I just hope this one job im looking at is still available by the time i get the car...600/week is yummy stuff. =o

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And because i can... =3
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RPG Cliche #???: Towns and Cities 201
There will ALWAYS be at least ONE Japanese/Asian themed town that contains the World's Supply of Ninjas and Samurai... ]]> !ChazDragoon http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/5862239/ http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/5862239/ Wed, 06 Jul 2005 23:51:37 PDT
Ahem..anyways, lets go on today's news!

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Reality TV actually reached a limit...shame it didnt go there
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As we all know... Reality TV is the worst thing to ever infect the realm of Television. It started innocently enough with Survivor and Big Brother. But then it spawned more seasons and other companies spawned thier own reality series on whatever they could possibly imagine. From dating fake Millionares to turning a depressed, whimpering, ugly (ugly as in, "im not a supermodel boo hoo" ) woman into a beautiful woman..reality TV has, apparently, done just about everything it could do without already pissing off its contestants, but also its viewers and/or general public.

But recently ABC CANCELED a Reality TV series that was due to come out soon called: "Welcome to the Neighborhood"

The show was going to be about a group of neighbor peoples (all white, texan and republican it seems..) and this one sweet house up for grabs that would be filled with every possibly minority you could imagine.

Some of them included:
--black family
--Asian business couple
--Gay couple with adopted black child
--"Biker Gang" family (?)
--Hispanic family
--etc etc etc.....

And the thing goes..that the neighbors (all white, republican texans.. i think) get to meet, talk with and whatever with these diverse and interesting people and later they vote out the family they dont like reality TV style.

Sounds pretty F'ed up ya? Well apparently as the show goes on the "neighbors" actually warm up to the "new neighbors" comming in and possibly get a new outlook on things and realize they've been bigoted losers or something. Everything would of gone well for this show UNTIL...someone threatened lawsuits. Hurray for lawsuits. =/

Did i mention they were going to put it on Desperate Housewives timeslot? (not that i care..i dont watch it..others might though) =/

This story is a double edged ending. On one hand, a New Reality TV Show wont appear, and thats a good thing. On the other..it was a reality TV show that might of been watchable and carried a lesson about not only how stupid and bigoted some people can be..but also how its better to actually screw difference and "get to know thy neighbor". =/

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Speaking of differences...heres another reason Canada is a better place to be
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This is actually old news...sorta. But Canada approves Gay/Lesbian Marrage. While the US..well...the USA just plain hates anything thats different. (yeah you heard me! Our country hates different people..why else would they not allow homosexual people to get married like everyone else..CONSIDERING THEY'RE CITIZENS OF THE USA!)

Ok..stopping there...ill leave rants outside of journals. >_>

So anyways...this is just another reason that Canada is a much better place to be.

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And because i can... =3
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RPG Cliche #74:
If You Meet The Buddha In A Random Encounter, Kill Him!
When you're out wandering around the world, you must kill everything you meet. People, animals, plants, insects, fire hydrants, small cottages, anything and everything is just plain out to get you. It may be because of your rampant kleptomania (see Garret's Principal) --- List of RPG Cliche's [link] ]]> !ChazDragoon http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/5797679/ http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/5797679/ Thu, 30 Jun 2005 03:33:10 PDT

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Life is better when you have new music you love...
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As is the case when i finally got my hands on "Here Comes the Rain" from the game/anime Gungrave. I originally wanted the Theme to Gungrave (cause its real jazzy and cool..) but instead i got "Here Comes the Rain" which was a song i loved in the game. Its kinda like something you'd hear with the 60's or the Beatles...minus the Drug induced lyrics. (Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds? Where the hell did that come from? Good song..but really, thats some whacked lyrics.)

Anyways...i listened to the song for 4 hours..why? Cause it delivered teh power of the gods into me!! I was able to draw and what i was drawing WAS THE BEST THING EVER!!!

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That was until.....(bet you saw that comming)
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I lost it... i lost my drive to draw and the entire picture turned into utter crap. The main reason was the perspective. I shouldnt of bothered trying an overhead perspective since i cant draw it.

*sigh* -_-; It was an awesome drawing too until it fell down the jagged rocks of suckiness.

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On the plus side though...
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I discovered a new stylish ability in Photoshop! I think its that "line weight" Chao-One keeps telling me to use whenever i show my stuff at the MMBB.

So ill use it again when i make a drawing that isnt in some whacked out perspective.

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Theres a ROFL in my Waffle Mommy!
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I think i might of found a interesting plan to solver my money issues...at least until i can actually GET a job.

There was a post on the Ciel Network forums about a Ebay auction for, get this, a pair of Waffles with the word "ROFL" on them. The item was cleaverly named: "ROFL WAFFLES!!11~" (LOLWTFOMG!!!) yeah...right...

Anyways, it got sold and for the ammount of 69 bucks. 69 bucks for a pair of Waffles with the word "ROFL" on them. Can we say retarded? But regardless, this guy is now $69 richer all because of some "ROFL WAFFLES!!11~"

So this gave me an idea...i have stuff thats better (from a logical point of view anyways) than "ROFL WAFFLES"....and since Mom actually got a Webcam (one that takes pictures no less) i can auction off some of the collectable crap ive had over the years and make some cash! Maybe if mom wants to she can auction off some of the things she doesnt wear or use. (LIKE THE ENORMOUS STOCKPILE OF DRESSES AND SHOES IN YOUR CLOSET MOTHER!!! Dresses + Shoes = Easy $$$$ on Ebay...just a thought =3 )

I was also thinking, Yu-Gi-Oh cards get auctioned like the plague on Ebay right? I have some Yu-gi-oh! Cards and i certainly dont play the game myself..i can make some good cash there too, specially if i get a rare card.
OH! I also got a couple Spiderman Comics that are supposed to be rare-ish. Those would go for big $$$. O_O

So heres my money making schemes:
1: Sell off what i can on Ebay 1st off.
1(optional): See if mom will auction her unuseable/unwearable things too
2: Auction off Yu-gi-oh cards and Comics
3: Use cash to grab more Yu-gi-oh Cards and sell them as well...provided profits are higher than the price of the cards.
4: Find things at the Goodwill store and sell those..they have rare and unique things.

so yeah..thats my plan. Problem is..dont a need a credit card for Ebay? x.o; If so..i either ask mom for her card...or get one of those "pre-paid" cards.

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And because i can... =3
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Raiiiiiiiin...here comes the raiiiiiiiin (comes the raiiiiiiin). Raiiiiiiiin...here comes the raiiiiiiiin (comes the raiiiiiiin)... ---from "Here Comes the Rain" from Gungrave

(IM me if you wana hear it ^^ Its a awesome song) ]]> !ChazDragoon http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/5727708/ http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/5727708/ Wed, 22 Jun 2005 21:13:25 PDT
At least when it comes to putting in sprites and making them move. So now i know a little to try and make something...but now my current problem is making more sprites. x_o;

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Speaking of Sprites...
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I tried to redo some of my sprites but with no success...if i am gona make a flash movie (or game) ill need to have sprites and most of my newer sprites are one frame deals since they were only for comic useage.

Meh...i guess ill keep trying.

But now i wonder...am i able to make "normal" flash movies now that i figured out how to put sprites in correctly? Could i do the same thing with drawings..?

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No work and all play...ah..ill get back to you on that..
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Mom decided to explain more on the Carpentry Apprentance job thing...and she just HAD to mention that the people working in carpentry are complete assholes. I quote:

"They will yell and scream at you and work you hard..." etc etc...

Thats just lovely...you think i could get a actually good paying job but WAIT!..NO! It just happens said job will have people that will be utterly unbearable to work with.

What part of "I DONT WANT TO WORK WITH ASSHOLES" wasnt understood? Do i really need to work with people who will make my life hell when my life is annoying enough without them? Fuck no! I dont need to work in a place where its gona make me even more miserable than i already am. Screw that..i wont sacrifice my sanity for 15/hour.

Of course..mom could be wrong..but i guess i wont know until i get to meet or work with them...and if they're as bad as mom made it sound when she was telling me, then screw it, im not gona deal with assholes, i dont have the paitence or the "thick skin" to deal with them.

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And because i can... =3
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I want meow-mix, i want meow-mix.. meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow. --- I think you know this one.. ]]> !ChazDragoon http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/5719829/ http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/5719829/ Wed, 22 Jun 2005 02:08:00 PDT .>

As much as i enjoy staying at home (after job searching that is) and realxing i need some damn money! >_>

So...im thinking ill try the commission thing. Problem is, i have no freaking clue how to do it properly. Stuff like making sure i get the money for the drawings i give..also a fair but still profitable price for the drawings.

-.-; I dont suppose anyone could give me some tips?

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Mom apparently knows a guy who is in the Carpenders Union (or something) and he knows people where i can get apprentenced there.

Carpentry isnt exactly something i ever thought of doing, despite that i enjoyed Woodshop (but again, hated the kids...ugh). But being an apprentence they would teach me stuff and i get paid around $15 an hour.

That includes lots of physical labor...which i guess i can handle as long as it doesnt get to "asshole slave driving" mode. Again, i wont enjoy a job if the environment im in is filled with assholes and jackasses.

Anyways...carpentry could be useful if i learn it. I could make things or repair certain ones...and $15/hour is pretty yummy looking. =O Might as well do it since MCDONALDS and BLOCKBUSTER VIDEO (for example) seem to think i wouldnt fit thier employment roster. (dispite thier current staff being depressed, overweight and/or rude..gee..you think id have a shot since i can convincingly perform all 3 of those qualities? Go figure..)

So anyways...lets hope i get this one. Or else i might as well think of some strange way to make money...like being a prostitute. (kidding..) Or selling body parts i dont really need..or giving blood..or learn to hack the National Treasury and fix my bank account with millions of dollars (yeah right...im not that stupid..or desperate)...oorrrr i can do it Grand Theft Auto style and try to take over the city while getting street cred, taking over gang territories and robbing banks..all the while avoiding the police.

What...you actually think i would do that!? Geeze...get some humor!

Carpentry please!

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And because i can... =3
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Floyd the Bar-ber cuts his hair! Freak-a-zoid! Chim-pan-zee! --- favorite exerpt from the theme to Freakazoid (funniest cartoon ever) ]]> !ChazDragoon http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/5704103/ http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/5704103/ Mon, 20 Jun 2005 12:24:35 PDT
Soap! Thats right! Soap is the #1 leader in making you smell and look squeaky clean! Just look at this fine young woman!

--enter random cute girl--

She uses soap! See? *rubs the girl*
Girl: AH!! PERVERT!! *kick to the head*
Announcer: GYAHHHH!! Team Rocket's blasting off agaaiiiiiiiiiiin!! *flys into the air..Shine Exit!*

--Soap! Now comes in 24 packs! --

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And because i can.... =3
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If jimmy cracks corn and no one cares....why does he keep doing it? --- Pinky from "Pinky and the Brain" ]]> !ChazDragoon http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/5690527/ http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/5690527/ Sun, 19 Jun 2005 00:08:26 PDT
For some damn reason...my sexdrive/hormones/whatever is starting to feel like its..uh...on overdrive? O_o;

I dunno..it kinda hit me hard today after watching Mr and Mrs Smith (an awesome movie btw! GO SEE IT NOW!) in which had one scene with Angelina Jolie in a sexy PVC Dom outfit...and also fulfilling the part of said Dom for that scene . ; Meow!

*ahem* yeah..anyways...i got erm..dominatrix on the brain.. >_>; And i think ill likely regret saying that since mom reads my journals. (hi mom...? o_o; )

Its kinda driving me nuts too..seeing as a few things block any sort of relief from this..

1: lack of physical girlfreind...(and thus no uh..nevermind >>; )
2: lack of money to hire a "professional" (even though i couldnt possibly do that anyways if i could...)
3: Being i have SOME moral fiber...im stuck to one girl. (which reminds me..i should call her... *dials*)

Yeah so um...yeah...that was most..interesting. x.o; Oi..

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Because its not enough i gotta share..yeah..
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So in efforts to somehow quell this little annoyance..i tried to find ways to get my mind off it. I tired playing Ragnarok Online..but with no success as female assasins look like they wear bondage gear and a GM was summoning succubus's and demonic mistresses in the town square...not that i didnt mind...sorta.. x.o;

Then it hit me...maybe its due time to draw a new picture for Moza? Yeah...i can hear the fanboys (and girls) screaming for joy. Kinda funny, how shes my only character with a slightly large fanbase... =/

I wonder what that means? *rhetorical question*

So..yeah..expect a picture of your beloved succubus sometime...maybe. (if i can DRAW HER!! *looks at the picture of Kayko dejectedly*)

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And among other things...
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So i was skimming the Review Journal classifieds for jobs and one of them was a cashier for an adult store located behind the Circus Circus casino. So..yeah, i guess ill go check the store out. Ive tired evertyhing else, might as well try the adult industry while im at it.

Im ALMOST hoping i get hired there..i dont know why though. Maybe ill meet an interesting girl or the other way around...or something. I dunno...just a feeling. It would be interesting though i think...

Maybe if they make thier own stuff i could draw outfits for them...heh, yeah right. Odds of that = 0.000000001%

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And because i can... =3
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#13: End all of Elrond's lines with: "Mr. Anderson" --- 30 ways to annoy LotR Fans during the movies ]]> !ChazDragoon http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/5657276/ http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/5657276/ Wed, 15 Jun 2005 15:06:44 PDT
Theres cracks all over the house, my room has HUGE cracks that go the ceiling. What do we do?

Well its done already really...a lawfirm/mortage place...thing.. (i dunno the terms) checked our house out and our house, along with many of our neighbors, are going to get 1 of 2 things:

1: Their houses repaired by the contractors/builders/whatever

2: Recieve money from them for the damage done

3: If these morons fail to do repairs properly or do nothing at all...theres going to be lawsuits.

luckily, we dont have to take any money out of our bank accounts for this..which is good. So yeah, we're either going to get a properly fixed up house...or we're going to get large sums of money.

And the thing that kills me is that THEY KNEW that the soil under our house expands and can cause structural damage. Why dont they do this? Is it laziness? Is it stupidity? Is it the fact that all teh construction workers dont speak english and are immigrants? Or are they just, plain, lazy? I dunno...but honestly, the people in charge of building our houses i gotta tell you this:

GET A F'ing CLUE! If you want to avoid lawsuits and crap like this.. BUILD YOUR DAMN HOUSES CORRECTLY! Its common, freaking, sense! If you KNOW theres gona be structural issues and you know how to prevent it, do it, save yourself millions of dollars and possible public shame and humiliation. Its THAT simple...morons.

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Weapons are cool...you know it! DONT LIE!!
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Im going to redo the Descriptions of X's Swords...so if you actually give 2 cents about Warriors of Rhydin..or you just like swords, check them out..again:

Extention Sword -- [link]
Dryad -- [link]
Firedrake -- [link]
Zephyr+Procne/Turbulance -- [link]

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And because i can.... =3
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IN-TO...THE...NIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIGHT! -- i have no clue...=/ ]]> !ChazDragoon http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/5613738/ http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/5613738/ Fri, 10 Jun 2005 21:48:01 PDT
--SURPRIZE!!!--

Cox Communications!!! *gasp, shock, horror!*

How you may ask? Simple..mom downloaded a program from them that is supposed to stop spyware and virus and parental control and all that fun crap. Problem is..it sucks the life out of your bandwidth. Isnt that special?

Anyways..no reformatting, PLUS new anitvirus protections and stuff from JD. (we are happy! ) And the world is now back to normal..well..a small piece of it.

Once again, Cox Cable lives up to its namesake.

--children under the age of 18, sensitive/easily offended people and/or soccer moms shouldnt try to grasp the nature of that joke--

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Because penalties for false advertizing should be strictly enforced...
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Now heres something to think about...
You have most likely seen Cox Communications commercials yes?

Riddle me this Batman.. :3

Quote1: "Digital Cable is up to 10x faster than standard dial-up!"
Quote2: "You are constantly connected! No dial tones! No Disconnections!"
Quote3: "We're your freind in the Digital Age!"

If this is so..why then:

1: Was i going at the SPEED OF DIAL UP the past week? Oh..wait..we just figured that out didnt we? Perhaps you should add a disclaimer stating extra services make high speed connections fall to 56k=esque levels.

2: Bullshit...bullshit to the Nth degree. I have been disconnected god knows how many times. Usually its at midnight or just before..then again, who would KNOW that your not connected since you should be asleep at that time hmmm? Someone lied to you, and they're hiding under the bed too.

3: With freinds like you Cox...who needs spyware? Ok..that may be a little harsh (since spyware can do more damage than just slowing you down like Cox's "protection software". But still, Cox isnt any freind i want...an annoying neighbor maybe, but far from being a "freind".

But really...im kinda fed up with the misleading of info on products. I KNOW theres some sort of law on False Advertising...im just not sure what it entails to be effectively solid to sue or complain about it. =/

Is it that hard to give what you spout out of your ass Cox Communications? It must be..else you would be giving it like you tell it. Again, good job keeping true to your namesake Cox Communications.

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And because i can... :3
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DUN DUN!! <-- Law&Order sound effect ]]> !ChazDragoon http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/5602688/ http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/5602688/ Thu, 09 Jun 2005 19:01:47 PDT
JD (freind of mom/co-worker at the station) is going to scan the computer and HOPEFULLY destroy whatever is clogging our internet connection like a pipe in need of Liquid Plumber.

If not...can we say "Nucliear War within the HardDrive"? Actually reformating..but lets face it, reformatting = destruction of the world inside the computer.

Thankfully i HAVE saved all of my hard work to a CD but i lost the last of my CDs to stupidity as i SHOULD OF USED WINZIP TO COMPRESS THE FILES!!!

And yet again...i failed to save my music since the other 2 CD's contain the files for Ragnarok Online...save for ONE.

So note to Sakura-chan or Hirra...if i DO get reformatted, im going to need a copy of the file "sdata.grf". I managed to save all of the other files except that one (CAUSE ITS 760 F'ing MB!!!!).

Thankfully...all of my music is on CD already..the only problem is i dont have the recently downloaded themes i got within the past 3 days. Ill see if someone can hold onto them (or my entire collection..hmm..wheres a MP3 lover when i need one?)

So yeah..i may be gone a day or two...or something. Heres hoping to no Reformatting. ]]> !ChazDragoon http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/5584853/ http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/5584853/ Tue, 07 Jun 2005 23:39:45 PDT
For the past week my internet connection has been, frankly, shitty. I used to download speedruns at a rate of 200-180kb a second! NOW im going at the ungodly slow pace of 60-50kb a second!! WHAT THE HELL?!

Could it be the speedrun site? No..cause the loading of webpages themselves are disgustingly SLOW as well! I asked a Equinox (freind on AIM) what in the hell is up and he suspects im being seeded.

Basicly someone (many someones) is sucking the the life out of our bandwidth and MAYBE (cause im not a freaking computer genious) sucking some sort of info out of the computer as well...and the more these fuckers leech out of me the slower i go. Isnt that fun?

So if ANYONE reading this can give me some sort of solution or test or SOMETHING to at least let me locate these assholes so i may KILL THEM WITH MY BARE HANDS...please, tell me..and i may invite you to watch as i bathe in the blood of those i slaughter should i find them. >:3

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WHY? Why on the freaking, goddamn earth do people DO THESE THINGS!? HUH!?

Why?? Why do people molest CHILDREN? Why do they kill them? Why do they commit crimes and rape and all that other shit? WHY? IT MAKES NO LOGICAL SENSE!!!

THEY KNOW they will be caught...THEY KNOW they will get in big freaking trouble if they get caught and THEY KNOW its the wrong thing to do!

Where they dropped on thier heads at birth? Did thier parents not cuddle them enough? Did thier parents not disapline them? WHY? What in the name of all that is freaking holy DO PEOPLE DO THIS SHIT!?? WHY!?

ARRRGHHHHH!!!!

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And because i can... =3
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Marv: STEAL!! NUMBER 69!! THIS IS AN OBSENITY ONTO MANKIND!!!
Mike: We will kill you John and Dave...
-- NBA Live 2003 review from pointlesswasteoftime.com [link] ]]> !ChazDragoon http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/5579079/ http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/5579079/ Tue, 07 Jun 2005 11:22:49 PDT
Hopefully ill make enough to make an animation im thinking of. But man..it took me around 2-3 hours to make it..i wonder if thats how long it takes them for other RPGs? O.o;

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The wosrt part of Waking Up...are Zombies in your cup. O_O;
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Today as i was waking up i had the most messed up "waking dream". Waking Dream to me is a dream i will have the moments im waking up and that i can remember easily.

Anyways,,i was in this odd suburbian neighborhood and in this once house..apparently it was infested with zombies (resident evil anyone..?) and the house i was in was occupied by army peoples. I was shown a room to rest in and told to "Avoid the Gold Domes...their Radioactive and use these RAD packs to get rid of the radiation".

WTF? Yeah..really....theres also "circles" on the ground where its apparently safe to be in. It was just plain wierd...but then..Zombie Dogs jump out of the closet and i get a shotgun to blow them away! BUT THE WONT EXPLODE INTO PIECES!! >>; So i ran out of ammo (typical RE n00b) and use the combat nife which makes quick work of them..THEN a chainsaw freak comes out of the closet and i try to slash it to death too but to no avail. I flee the house looking for a save point (SO I CAN WAKE UP!!! >_>;; ) and then theres this freaky zombie comming out of the ground so i figure: Oh what the hell..ill get a game over. I could literally "feel" the zombie creeping around me..ARGH!! Its..ARGH!! Creepy!!

Seriously...that was one F'ed up dream.. >.>; And the wierd part is i wasnt watching or playing any Resident Evil things that day..

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Loonatics Unleashed.....ON YOUR SOUUULLLLLL!! *cough*
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Remember "The Loonatics"? With "Buzz Bunny" and his Charles Heston-like: "Whats up Doc?!"

Well they redesigned it SLIGHTLY..Buzz..or rather "Ace Bunny" now, no longer looks like the Spawn of Satan. Which im ALMOST disapointed in that, i would love to see a reaction to the bible thumpers to a Satanic looking Bunny like "Buzz". XD

The show is supposedly ANOTHER Amerime (again, thanks to for making that word up XD ) from Kids WB.

Honestly WB...you have ENOUGH Anime-Wannabe shows, not to mention anime itself (Yu-gi-oh, Pokemon..uhhh...yeah maybe not alot then). You have Teen Titans (while good, is STILL trying desperately to be anime substitute), The Batman (which frankly, Batman: The Animated Series had more depth and drama than this one...it was the best one), Batman Beyond (Do they even make this anymore? Regardless, its much cooler and better than "The Batman"), Xao-lin Showdown (at least its overly goofy..so it gets props), Mucha Lucha (Like Xao-lin Showdown..its more goofy than action oriented..heck, even the action is off the wall. O.o; ) and possibly others i missed.

How about they forget trying to make another action anime-inspired cartoon and just make a cartoon! Why do they think Looney Toons has such a rabid fanbase? Why would a 11-year old boy PETITION to stop or fix Loonatics?? Because the classical comedy we got from Looney Toons was the best thing to watch. There was no complex story, no "action" outside of anvils and dynamite. There were these animals that did crazy, funny stuff. Nothing more, nothing less.

Thats not to say the WB has crap shows..it has some good ones (Xao-lin Showdown, Mucha Lucha, Batman Beyond, Teen Titans...) but they may just begin to get OLD if they continue pumping Amerime into our TV sets.

But then that makes me wonder...when i make my series...will it be anime? Then i remember a definition from Korcas on the MMN boards on "anime" and it makes sense...i dunno. I shouldnt think about that too much huh? =/

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And because i can... =3
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That was not buena! --- Buena Girl, Mucha Lucha!....did i spell Buena right? O.o; ]]> !ChazDragoon http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/5565439/ http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/5565439/ Sun, 05 Jun 2005 22:59:25 PDT
I left to go to my former job at Little Ceasar's pizza cause i got a call saying they had a paycheck for me. So i got ready when mom got home from wherever she was and i decided to take Blue with me since he loves to go on runs with me. We got to my ex-job alright..i got my check..a measly 64 dollars. Blue was obviously thristy so i grabbed a huge bowl from Baskin Robbins and filled it with water..he layed there and lapped it up like he does any other time he drinks water from a good run. So then we traveled back home which wasnt too far since most of the path was not uphill and the wind was pushing us along..it was then when we got within about 5-7 streets from home that Blue slowed down to a stop..so i stopped too and watched as he wobbled and tripped over himself into the shade..there was a house near by and i asked them if i could have some water for him..they got me a dish of water and i set it under blue so he could drink it where he was..but he wouldnt drink.

I got worried..and though that maybe he got overworked and a good long sit in the shade would do the trick...after awhile though a car came up and a man and his wife offered to help me out. We got blue into the back seat..he just refused to move an inch..we were going to drive to the animal hospital but they "wouldnt accept non-paitients after hours" (assholes!!!) and the nearest animal hospital that could help us was a long distance away..almost 30 mins away. So i decided the best thing to do was get Blue home and cool him off and let him rest in the house..

We got to my house and i ran inside asking mom why she didnt answer her phone when i called her (which was when the couple was driving me and blue around) and i got our biggest towel so the man and me could carry blue into the house quickly and safely. I thanked them again after we set Blue on his favorite bed..mom got some water and we helped pour some on his tongue and mouth...he was beginning to calm down and not breathe so hard...everything looked like it would be alright.

Then Blue started to move..he nuzzled his water bowl..he obviously wanted to drink something..so i ran to the kitchen and got a smaller bowl so he could lick out of that since the other bowl was too high from his position...i came back and sat next to blue..he wasnt panting anymore..his pupils were getting wide..i called to him and petting him then he started jerking his head like when he sneezes..he kept doing it and his eyes were moving wierdly..i cried out to blue asking him whats wrong..trying to comfort him..then his eyes had a gooey coating on them..he stopped moving..mom was by he and she cried out in horror...i did as well.

my dog died...right in front of my eyes....i unintentionally killed my dog...and ill never hear him every day go: "A-roo-roo-roo!" when mom comes home..i wont get to stare at him when he tugs my hand and leads me around the house for no reason..i wont get to laugh again as he would steal the leash and walk around the house with it in his mouth as if proclaiming: "HEY! Im going for a walk! Look at me!"...and we'll never get to see him staring at us with that blue eye of his..that eye that just seems to bore into you....

.......my dog died..

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Because it hurt...and it was horrible
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Mith...i cant believe that words you said when i told you this. You give your condolences THEN you proceed to tell me how i could of avoided Blue dying. You think i dont know? He was perfectly fine when we left for home...the walk wasnt that long compared to other runs him and me have done before. MY DOG DIED BECAUSE I TOOK HIM ON A RUN!! You think i dont feel any sort of guilt or shame or downright shock and horror that i killed my dog unintentionally? You think i didnt do all i could for blue? I didnt know he was dying! How am i supposed to know?! Im not a Vet! I thought he was just downright tired..but not 5 to 15 minutes after those kind people picked me and blue up my dog is laying the floor as i watch him covulse and die RIGHT-BEFORE-MY-EYES. And all because i took him on a run he loves to go on...

oh...and when i said BRB...thats cause i had to comfort my MOTHER who was also very very distraught by this..you on the other hand, think im being a jackass and just saying that to avoid you and log off with rude, hurtful words.

Guess what Mith..you were wrong...and you were out of line. Next time someone close to you dies..i hope you remember the curtousies you bestowed on me and see how thats not a way to comfort a person who loses thier loved one.

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Because i can...<... ]]> !ChazDragoon http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/5485608/ http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/5485608/ Sat, 28 May 2005 13:13:07 PDT
World Database: [link]
Character Database: [link]
Weapons and Armors: [link]

And if you havent read Dreamscape at all...then do so, you might like it.

List of Chapters (1st to current): [link]

Course if that link goes wacky..just go to my gallery and sort it by Prose, Science Fiction and Oldest First.

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Other...stuff. >>;
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So the thing with Kenji...ya..its over. I wont explain why cause all it does is give me pain. So ill sum it up in small nutshell.

Kenji = fake
Mom = sad
Me = depressed, pissed and loss of feeling

Thats all im saying...dont even ASK what happened..you will not get a freindly reaction from me. So please..dont ask.

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At least there MIGHT be some good news...
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One of the people mom talked to during her "searches for kenji"... was a man who actually works for Sony whom told her that Kenji Shimizu (the actual one it seems) is in japan and with Fuji TV (or whatever it is). Mom thanked him for his help and also explained about me and asked if he is interested about my stuff and if so she would show him.

Havent gotten any word on that yet...but im not expecting anything. I doubt it'll happen..but it would be nice wouldnt it..?

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And because i can... =3
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Yippie-ky-yay mother ****** --- John McClane, Die Hard Series. ]]> !ChazDragoon http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/5456905/ http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/5456905/ Wed, 25 May 2005 11:42:39 PDT
How he got there..well theres stuff hes going through (which he was taking care of back in indianopolis) and well, after taking care of it some guy went balistic on Kenji and Kenji defended himself..or something. Argh..damn it!! I hate it when i cant remember things exactly!

Anyways by defending himself he dislocated the guys shoulder..or some other injury (i think i have alzimers...forgetting this stuff is annoying.) Which got him a charge of Arggrivated Assualt with intent to hurt/maim/something (?).

SO...that could explain why we havent gotten any calls from Kenji and why he never came here last night. Hopefully mom will talk to his sister (or e-mail conversation..whichever works) and figure out more. His sister is doing what she can to take care of the situation.

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If your within a 10 mile radius of me..please slap me! =/
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Since i cant seem slap myself hard enough for breaking down and not sticking to my faith in Kenji's word...if anyone is within a 10 mile radius of my house (excluding mom..) please feel free to IM me and ask for directions so you can slap me for that.

Entry limited to people i know...void where prohibited, see details on inside of box for alternate winning strategies 1 in 1,000,000,000 will win.

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Did i mention how annoying and hard it is to get a job?
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Im pretty sure i have...and it only gets worse since its SUMMER!! Temps are at a crispy 103-110*F and when your riding a Bicycle in that heat, trying to get a job and trying NOT to overheat yourself so you dont reek of sweat or look like sweaty pig....its pretty freaking annoying. If i had my car still i wouldnt have this problem..hell, id still be working at Little Ceasars making those fat, yummy tips and paychecks.

....sigh...

I wonder which Delivery place has a company car? At least that way ill have a job i know i can do well, get the tips...and not have to get another car. (well that is until i can afford getting another one... -.-; )

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The Adventures of Unemployed Man... =/
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Yeah..thats me, unfortunately my special powers in Radio, Store front and pizza delivery just doesnt seem to get me a job. Today was frankly painful due to the heat. I went to the Wendy's and applied there, then Home Depot, 99 cent stone, Micheals (sp?), Vons, Petco, Pets Mart..by that time i couldnt handle the heat anymore so i hitched the bus back home. (good thing i grabed some quarters.. whew)

Its times i like those i which i could hear peoples thoughts..cause then i would know if im getting bullshited or not. It'd also be nice if i got some unofficial straegy guide to my life..so i know what freaking things i should do next so i can get the Good Ending.

Yeah...i suck. =/

I wonder if i should visit some game company sites and see if they want Beta Testers...Kenji said Beta Testers are always in demand..and they get good pay. Hmm...

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And because i can... =3
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Things We Know About RPG's...

#142: You can get slashed, bashed, stabbed, cut and brutally sodomized...but you will never bleed. Instead numbers will come out of you. This, in effect, proves the fact that Math truely is in every facet of life..including your injuries. ]]> !ChazDragoon http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/5453183/ http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/5453183/ Tue, 24 May 2005 23:27:00 PDT (just so you know )


[link] <-- 20 things gamers demand (or at least this one does)

It found it correct on some things but mostly entertaining...i needed a laugh...i feel slightly better.

I must have a chemical imbalence or something to switch from "kill me depression" to "haha..i feel better" in a matter of...2-3 hours? =/

Yeah..theres just..something wierd about that. Im kinda worried about it..but then at the same time, i guess i have a quick cure for whenever im majorly depressed: Find the nearest site with funny stuff in it.

I really should go to bed now...i have to go balistic on the job searching..AGAIN since well..yeah...

Damn it..i want a giant F'ing cheeseburg...O_O;

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And then god said...WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU THINKING!?
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O_O; theres a Wendy's...i think its looking for peoples...and working there somehow doesnt seem so horrid to me for some reason.

....what...the...hell..? Something must seriously be wrong with me....im considering a fast food job and thinking "It doesnt seem so bad"!?

..........i...just have no comment there..

I WOULD just go out of the house and go to the McDonald's nearby and snatch some dbl cheeseburgers...but..well, dont wana wake mom. =/ Guess ill look for something to nibble on.

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And because i can... =3
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Genis: Dwarven Vow #7...
Colette: Justice and Love will always prevail!
Lloyd: Argh..i hate that one! -- Tales of Symphonia ]]> !ChazDragoon http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/5452725/ http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/5452725/ Tue, 24 May 2005 22:02:05 PDT
Mom has given up..shes told me things i didnt know..i wont even mention them cause i just dont feel like explaning.

Its funny...how god..or life..or destiny..or fate..or whatever..can do something as cruel as to make your life..completely perfect, so happy, so fun...nothing could possibly harm you or go wrong again during that span of time...only to take it away and drop you all the way back to where you were before that momement..if not lower.

Cause that is how it has always been to me and mom...we would live 24/7 in a constant state of "blah"..followed with many bouts of depression..fighting..anger..hopelessnes s. I would get a job..only to lose it because they take away my hours. I would become jobless for what seems an eternity..only to actually find a new job..and lose that one as well to the same fate of losing my hours.

We constantly live poor..with not enough money to pay bills..let alone go grocery shopping to feed us. Sure..there are momemnts where things actually look good..but then they're only shot down as fast as they came.

Life relishes in tormenting us...it gets off on getting our hopes up and then smashing them with a Iron Hammer. Watching as we act as if things might finally..just finally go our way for once, then immediately blows it to hell and back. A neverending cycle of pain and pleasure...emphesis on the pain.

So...its come to this...ive lost any sort of feeling or trust i had in life being better. It just wont happen..ill never become more than some overweight loser who cant hold a steady job...ill never realize my dreams of being ANYTHING. Im doomed to becoming stuck in this hellhole called Las Vegas..trying to survive from my inevtiable doom like the desert wildlife here.

So in a nutshell..ive lost any will to live, feel or even be happy..much less optimistic.
...peh..i can even hear life's voice now..laughing like some derangend schoolyard bully.

Theres just no reason for this anymore...if i ever find a way to effectively die, ill be sure to post you a final journal with my final words. Until that time comes...i get to suffer, living the constant cycle...

there is no hope..there never was. ]]> !ChazDragoon http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/5447839/ http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/5447839/ Tue, 24 May 2005 12:16:58 PDT
...hmph.. ]]> !ChazDragoon http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/5398005/ http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/5398005/ Thu, 19 May 2005 03:09:48 PDT
Mom clings to him like a rabid FF7 Fangirl. (no that wasnt an attack on FF7.. dont hurt. o.o; )

Though...not all is bright and sunny in the land of Oz. Mom seems to be on some crossbreed of "too good to be true" and "im not worth it". I told her that is bullshit and told her that after the times we've been spending with Kenji i havent seen her laugh and be so happy since..well i dunno when either. Plus i havent had this much fun watching mom interact with someone since..ahh..whenever our last visit with Grandma was. (i think?)

She thinks shes not that lucky. I think not..her luck (though not all luck) got her in a job with the coolest boss ever, who cant do much without her and constantly praises her about it (and some major spoilage too)...her luck got her her dreamtruck/suv hybrid thing that she couldnt afford normally...and her luck definately shines when she manages to win large sums of money from the casino..especially those Royal Flushes. Shes not extremely lucky..but she has special luck and it will treat her well when its activated.

She thinks why would kenji want to be with her? Well a couple reasons:

1: He replied to YOU on that dating site. HE replied to YOU
2: He saw your picture and its apparent he liked what he saw
3: He liked who you are..and now that you've met its even more apparent that he likes you!
4: And if he wasnt going to be interested in you in the long run..he wouldnt given you notice in the 1st place mom.

You tell me i have self esteem issues..but it looked like you have them to a degree too mom. Dont let them interfere! Kenji loves ya and you know it deep down there! I know you dont wana get your hopes up..but dont let your hopes go down either.

This could be it Mom...you shouldnt let anything stop you from finally being happy! Alright?

...damn it i think im crying... >.<;;

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And because i can.... =3
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Be happy mom..alright? I love you. ]]> !ChazDragoon http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/5388006/ http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/5388006/ Tue, 17 May 2005 23:44:47 PDT
I think its safe to say all is going smoothly! ^_^

I cant wait to start working with Kenji on Dreamscape..i also cant wait to see where he's gona be working at once he settles down here.

Heres hoping Mom finally settles down with him and i get my hands into the anime business. ^_^

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Is that a PSTwo in your pocket or are you decked for world conquest? =O
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Speaking of which..Kenji has a freakin arsenal of techno gadets in his backback. (yes..BACKPACK..dont worry he has a suitcase with the essentials so stop conspiracy theories)

Among his weapons of mass destruction were:

=A PSTwo (aka Atkins Approved PS2)
=A handfull of games
--Star Wars Ep3
--Mr. Masquito
--Gitaru Man
--2 Gungrave games
--2 Terminator 3 games (...why? =/ )
--annd..ah..i forget the rest
=A Wireless Controller (seems ill get to see what its like now)
=A freakin huge camara that looks like a hand held laser cannon O.o
=Studio Earphones (thats what i call them)
=other stuff i didnt catch

And apparently the PS2 stuff he showed me..was just a small sample of his collection. Oh boy =O

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And because i can...=3
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"Oooook...we're screwed.."
"Understatement Hirra....major understatement.." <-- CN Life: "Understatement" ]]> !ChazDragoon http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/5387506/ http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/5387506/ Tue, 17 May 2005 22:02:37 PDT

Reminder...if he's a 1337 ninja assasain and i dont make a new journal in 2 weeks, start to worry. If im not back after a month or so..panic. After 5-6 months pass, assume the worst. O_o;

Heheh..though thats just stupid...him being a Ninja Assassain. XD

Wish me luck guys.

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And because i can... =3
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"She is the daughter of the Ma Haraja...and she is kinda cute..wait..ARGH! STOP TALKING TO YOURSELF! >.>; " <-- Prince from Prince of Persia: Sands of Time

"And what purpose was all of that?"
"I thought you would like it...its romantic"
"If you want to be helpful find a book that tells us how to get out of here!"
"Sorry but this isnt THAT kind of game!"
"Game?! She thinks this is a game!?" < -- Prince and..whats-her-name from PoP: Sands of Time ]]> !ChazDragoon http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/5360866/ http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/5360866/ Sun, 15 May 2005 01:34:54 PDT
*cough* yeah..behold the power of "IT". *holds up a cheesecake*

Anyways.. Kenji will reach our house on Tuesday. Thats right..Tuesday, 2-3 days away (depending on if you read this before or on Sunday..likely ON Sunday since everyone lives on the East Coast =/ ).

So heres the deal guys:

1: If Kenji turns out to be not Kenji but some deadly assasain ninja sent to kill us (or some other profession similar to that)..if i dont make a journal entry 2 weeks after Tuesday Arrvies, im likely in trouble. If a month has passed then you can start fearing for my life...if another month passes then im decomposing somewhere. O_o

2: Otherwise..you will hear the status on wether my confidence of his identity were false or correct...followed by schoolgirl like laughter. =/

Heres hoping everything works out!

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Because it bothers me as a gamer...
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It was too long here...so i made it a deviation. go here: [link]

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And because i can....=3
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Dan: Shiiiinkkuuu-GADOKEN!!
Draug: You idiot why are you..wait...why arent they moving?
Dan: Heh..they are shocked at the power of the Saiko Style martial arts!
Draug: They're in shock by your stupidity.. -_-;

--from CN Life: Draug's side ]]> !ChazDragoon http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/5343518/ http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/5343518/ Thu, 12 May 2005 23:04:54 PDT 's journals and a few others with similar, awesome talent.

They will make original Fan Art of thier favorite games or anime..these pictues are very good and as soon as they are faved enough to reah the front page they get deleted about 80% of the time.

Reference: [link]


This is what gets me...if you HAVE A FAN ART section which is where FAN ART goes into...why do you delete it? The policy has stuff on Copyright issues and whatnot but the thing is, YES, if they stole the art from a web page or scanned a picture out of a book or (insert similar event here) then i would agree there. But when it comes to someone like Kurot, drawing her own, very great (and im talking near "official looking" great) Fan Art..and its deleted, thats where the WTF comes from.

Its a contradiction... if you cant put Fan Art in the Fan Art section then tear the damn thing down and stop allowing Fan Art.

Heres another Pinky-Twister: How come other artists works dont get torn down as well? (Again, reference Kurot's journal) It seems like she (and a few others i know of) get targeted in these matters. Im probably wrong but still, if Kurot's stuff is gona get torn down, you might as well tear down the other shit that isnt a 12 year old Crayola fan art drawing.

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Which leads me to another thought....
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After reading that...i cant help thinking: If (and when) Dreamscape and my other Series get turned into Anime or games and get a following of fans who draw Fan Art...what should i do? I mean..if its like Kurot doing what she does best, i wouldnt mind at all (she credits the creators as far as i can tell). I dunno..i guess its stuff to think about when that time happens. I just hope no one gets stupid and tries to steal my stuff once its published and all that jazz. I dont wana sue people..im not fond of doing that stuff (unless im greatly pissed off, then you'll feel my divine wrath!! >:3 ).

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And because i can...=3
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I CHALLENGE YOU TO MORTAL KOMBAT!! -- Scorpian from "The REAL Mortal Kombat" flash movie ]]> !ChazDragoon http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/5335349/ http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/5335349/ Thu, 12 May 2005 03:14:03 PDT you know...i just dont know what to say now.

...man i could go for a crispy quesadilla. Yeah..that sounds good.

...yeah.

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And because i can... =3
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.....zoodle! ]]> !ChazDragoon http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/5334733/ http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/5334733/ Wed, 11 May 2005 23:59:40 PDT
Oh..wait, your wondering whats up with me this time? Why would you want to know..oh i see..its that curiousity thing. Sok sok..ill humor your wish.

So as you've probably known..life for me and parental unit was actually looking to turn around and finally become good with the new addition of her new soon to be boyfreind. She was happy..i was happy..he was happy...and then it starts to take a tumble.

How you may ask...? Lets start with me explaining Dreamscape to Kenji. Since ive done that, and he showed it off..mom has been going paranoidish on protecting my stuff from potential thieves. Yes, thats nice..fine by me. But later, a certain PERSON calls mom and gives her "a dose of reality" which to me translates to: "something to destroy your happyness and bring further destruction to your life". Said person has the balls to tell mom to ask Kenji WHY he wants to protect my stuff.

This later goes into a pretty long phone call between her and kenji which i no doubt am getting bad vibes from despite spurts of luaghter here and there. After the phone call mom explains which iritates me making me think: "WHY are you doing this?? You are going to piss off the flow of goodness comming our way!"

That little explanation later goes into our life, my lack of having a paycheck still, the car situation, our financial status..pretty much everything that stresses me out as much as her. Im visibably irrtated, she asks whats wrong, i say i hate this and decide to walk off to the bathroom i so i can relax and try to shake off the irritation that was re-inflicted on me. But no..mom wants to know what i ment..she cant leave me alone so i can just let the fucking irritation and stress leave me by being alone. No..she has to know whats up which then leads to an argument which only increases my stress and irritation more until finally i have finally done it..i reached my limit and i snap completely. My eyes are darting all over the kitchen area like some animal, im breathing rapidly and my fist is tighting enough that if i had sharp nails i would likely of started bleeding in my hand...im so overcome by rage from the argument and the stress and the irritation it has brought on that im ready to destroy something..i raise i fist..im starting to cry and mom gives the warning "DONT!" and with whatever control i had left i punch myself (pathedicly...) in the gut..slide to the ground and cry my eyes out.

Mom asks why im crying..i say nothing..i just want her to shut up, to stop probing me, to stop asking questions! My thoughts are a train wreck..im not even thinking straight...my current thoughts are: "arghh..i cant handle this..leave me alone..go away..i want to die!! GO AWAY!!!" and also thinking of jumping up, grabbing the kitchen knife from the holder and possibly stab myself.

Yeah..thats right, im back to that point in my happy little life. I sit there on the floor as mom asks what im feeling and i tell her exactly how i feel: "i wana die"

"Awwww..You wana die?" in a tone thats fitting of a prudish stuck up cheerleader you see in high school themed movies. Yeah..way to go mom..now i know how to act if my kid ever feels they need to die. Screw consern, lets use sarcastic sympathy. This is probably where i would say: "I wonder if you would say that when you see my bloody corpse on the kitchen floor." But the fact is i dont have the god damn guts to actually kill myself..its a big flaw really, fear of pain. Though im sure if i was pushed a little further from my really fucked up state of mind right then i might of actually gone insane! =o Imagine that..me..go insane..hahahah, maybe i already am..i dunno..maybe im rambling and im still fucked up in the head..maybe im in a nervious break down or maybe i have dual personalities. Is there a shrink in the house..maybe we'd like to get thier opinions on my state of mind hm?

Back to the bitching at hand...mom goes off after giving the analysis of why im crying which i dont even know what she said because the voices in my head are trying to convince me that offing myself would make the world a better place. No sooner than i get up and sit with my dog in the back yard mom's phone rings..later followed by mine but im not gona answer it. I want to be left alone with my dog...and juding from the giddy schoollike giggles from mom in the living room i could only assume 2 things: Kenji is on the phone or its someone else.

I head to my room some long time later when i began to get way too cold and try to go to sleep but cant cause im plagued by... ]]> !ChazDragoon http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/5305836/ http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/5305836/ Sun, 08 May 2005 20:19:37 PDT
I (for some reason) explained to Kenji about my Dreamscape series instead of my other 2 (Driatta and Warriors of Rhydin). I sent him the prolouge (which i edited cause i saw errors in it) and he liked it..

In fact..he showed 2 people it and thier 1st question was:

"Does this have a trailer?"

DOES THIS HAVE A TRAILER!!? O_O;; *explodes*

But thats not all..the other person is the son of Kenji's boss (at least i think i heard that correctly) and well..the Boss sees it and calls Kenji about it and he is VERY interested! Even thinking of giving it a budget.

Note: Budget, i think, means that the team making the anime or whatever gets money to help them create it.

Though..keep in mind..i havent even done extensive work on Dreamscape. But that might change..Kenji wants us to work on Dreamscape..fix up the story and add things that i may of missed and such. (remind you i still get say so on things).

So that means im gona have to super focus all i can on Dreamscape..specially once Kenji gets here!

This is just too cool..its..its..i lack words. My series...Dreamscape...might come to life! O_O
I can wait to start doing and learning things with Kenji!

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And now, Ebert and Ropert!...nah XD
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So i saw Kingdom of Heaven today...pretty good movie, very bloody..has a good message from the main character at the start of the final battle scenes.

But..i wasnt very caught with the film..not as much as i was with Troy or Lord of the Rings. It just seemed to be missing something...i didnt feel anything for the main characters except the King of Jeruselm (sp?)..which i give major props to whoever was acting him.

Anyways..check it out, good movie, but not spectacular in the realms of Troy or LotR

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And because i can... =3
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Its the Itchy and Scratchy Shoooooooow! --(please tell me you know where this is from..) ]]> !ChazDragoon http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/5287455/ http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/5287455/ Fri, 06 May 2005 18:41:39 PDT
heheh.. XD ]]> !ChazDragoon http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/5268903/ http://ChazDragoon.deviantart.com/journal/5268903/ Wed, 04 May 2005 20:32:59 PDT
So..ah..yeah, happy birthday to me. Ive survived 21 years of..uhm..stuff. =/ Yeah...uh...

Aw who am i kidding.. SOMEONE THROW ME A PARTY!!! >.<

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She's dating WHO!?!? O_O;
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If you read the last journal you will of learned my mom met with a potential boyfreind on an Online Dating thingy. (mom? Internet Dating? Is she drinking something and not sharing it? O_o; ) And this guy says that he is a producer for anime films and such at Sony Pictures. (at least..i THINK she said Sony Pictures.. O.o)

Anyways i didnt get his name other than it was "Kenji" and she couldnt pronouce the last name. Well i checked my mail and she sent me a link with his filography and the name was:

Kenji Shimizu

Now..i watch anime and all..but i dont really pay attention to the producers and all that stuff. Im thinking i should do that more often hahah ^_^; Anyways, if you know that name then i dont need to give you any explanation on what he's done.

For those of you who are like me and dont pay attention i give you this link of Anime shows/movies he produced or had a hand in making: [link]

Quite the list huh? Im sure most of you will of at least seen or heard of most of these.

It trips me out..the odds of MY MOM, getting interest from the guy who produced Yu Yu Hakusho and Jade Cocoon (one of my favorite RPGs) and a whole other list of Anime...thats just... WHOA!! How the hell did that happen?! Its..its...i cant fathom the extreme luck or chance or...whatever!! I mean..WOW!!

*explodes*

Course..im sure some of you will doubt my words since Kenji (and maybe even his last name) are common names in Japan. Im slightly skeptical myself but not enough to go full blown doubt on Kenji. A few reasons why:

1: He gave mom the link to a his filography on a filmogrphy database page. (reason to believe +25% )
2: Mom is like a near human lie detector and she detects bullshit when it comes to men (dating wise or feelings wise)..she gets a good vibe off Kenji. That must be that "real" thing. (reason to believe: 55% )
3: If he isnt the REAL Kenji Shimizu, he wouldnt make the mistake of meeting me (an anime fan) and also giving me a demo reel of an anime he's currently working on. (reason to believe +85%)

Im believing he's Shimizu mainly on my 3rd reason. Cause unless your completely a newb at faking peoples identities, you wouldnt dare pull off meeting someone, who is a fan and also give a gift like that. Its too much of a gamble to pull off unless your the real thing or some creepy evil twin bent on world destruction. XD

Therefore, i believe this is Shimzu. Any doubt ill have will either be gone or raised once i meet him in person (in putting all bets on it being gone)...and he is very interested in meeting me, cause mom says so.

I also got a picture of him (from the dating site) and im trying to find other pictures of him on the net..im not getting any success but there's got to be one SOMEWHERE..i mean, common, with his resume theres got to be a picture of him somewhere...right?

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Excitement Aside.....
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Mom got me a CD Player (portable) today as a b-day present. Its exactly what i wanted since i no longer have music to listen to as i travel.

Its good..the sound is AWESOME..my only problem is my CDs. I tried it out on my way to Taco Bell and it was skipping when the thing said "Extreme Skip Protection". I checked my CD and it was scratched alot. Probably from its storage space inside my car. So i have to make new CD's. Which is actually a good idea since i got new music recently. I got the CDs to use so its not a problem.

I hope that it WAS my CD and not the player..that would piss me off. >.<

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And because i can... =3
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Do-mo Ar-i-ga-to Mis-ter Ro-bot-o!
Domo!
(domo)
Domo!
(domo)
-- Mr. Roboto song...i HOPE you know that song T_T# ]]> !ChazDragoon