http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:ChienLAO&section=today deviantART RSS for by:ChienLAO en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Tue, 22 Dec 2009 12:27:46 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/24763106/ http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/24763106/ Thu, 14 May 2009 23:53:05 PDT I got bored of dA, which may seem completely impossible (if you remember the period when I used to upload up to 5 drawings a day, so my gallery got crammed up with yucky drawings and things nobody needs.. Well, I got rid of those! ).
Anyway, the fact that I'm not on dA doesn't mean I don't draw anymore..
Bee-sides, I've had some scanner related problems lately, because my old scanner won't work on my new computer, so I have to buy a new one, and I didn't when I had the cash, so now I have to wait for the next income of those little critters and.. Well, you know! So I can't scan stuff now.
If I draw anything so-good-that-it's-out-of-this-world, I'll (ab)use Sai's scanner as a first aid kit.

I hope everyone's doing fine, keep it up! (whatever it is you're doing)

]]> ~ChienLAO http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/21563113/ http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/21563113/ Wed, 19 Nov 2008 08:46:52 PST ))))
If anyone's thinking about taking up irish step dance, YOU SHOULD TOTALLY GO FOR IT because it's fun, it's not that expensive and it's SOO CUTE when you see someone jumping all around!

~spreading love whenever I can
Elizabeth

]]> ~ChienLAO http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/20718392/ http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/20718392/ Sun, 28 Sep 2008 07:19:06 PDT
I'm going back to my tempo of drawing (and if you recall, it's about 2-3 to five drawings a day). Let's just hope I'll be as inventive as before, and more! And of course, I hope to improve my skills (if any) and start streaming for the skies. For no one knows what lies
ahead of our great travel,
our minds might ravel,
but we shall prevail.

A poet, too!

]]> ~ChienLAO http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/20229101/ http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/20229101/ Sat, 30 Aug 2008 02:09:53 PDT
Well, I've got something to say. School is starting this Monday and I'm confused. I'm sad because the holiday is over (ALREADY!?!), but also happy because something big is going on I get to see some of my old friends I haven't seen in two months, meet some new people and yeah, I get to tease all the new teachers we'll be getting this year That's always fun
I'm really excited about hanging out at school and seeing my Jap teacher T_T I am so going to pull her hair, she coloured it red again! (URESHIKATTA!! It suits her BEST!)
Also, we're in the same shift as our fellow fourth graders so it'll be an interesting year of fooling around and students against the school faculty :yay:
And last, but not least, I can't wait to enjoy a good cup of coffee from the famous Mojdan! Ah, how I miss it!

I hope I've passed on the enthusiasm, as the beginning of school doesn't necessarily mean end of all life as we know it
Happy new school year, everybody!

]]> ~ChienLAO http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/15792688/ http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/15792688/ Tue, 04 Dec 2007 12:13:52 PST I'm giving myself one last chance to draw something, I guess.. So, see you there, somewhere!

]]> ~ChienLAO http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/15792250/ http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/15792250/ Tue, 04 Dec 2007 11:33:33 PST If anyone has the need to say something, then by all means, say it. But I think everyone will agree that hearbreaking goodbyes are unnecessary.
I'm planning on opening a new account, since this one has died months ago.
When I open a new account, it'll be Elizabeth something.. Depending on what name is free. I'll let you know in time..

]]> ~ChienLAO http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/14327403/ http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/14327403/ Fri, 24 Aug 2007 23:54:46 PDT 's words.
(read ittt!)

Every day, there are more and more posts on here seeking "artists" for everything from auto graphics to comic books to corporate logo designs. More people are finding themselves in need of some form of illustrative service.

But what they're NOT doing, unfortunately, is realizing how rare someone with these particular talents can be.

To those who are "seeking artists", let me ask you; How many people do you know, personally, with the talent and skill to perform the services you need? A dozen? Five? One? …none?

More than likely, you don't know any. Otherwise, you wouldn't be posting on here to find them.

And this is not really a surprise.

In this country, there are almost twice as many neurosurgeons as there are professional illustrators. There are eleven times as many certified mechanics. There are SEVENTY times as many people in the IT field.

So, given that they are less rare, and therefore less in demand, would it make sense to ask your mechanic to work on your car for free? Would you look him in the eye, with a straight face, and tell him that his compensation would be the ability to have his work shown to others as you drive down the street?

Would you offer a neurosurgeon the "opportunity" to add your name to his resume as payment for removing that pesky tumor? (Maybe you could offer him "a few bucks" for "materials". What a deal!)

Would you be able to seriously even CONSIDER offering your web hosting service the chance to have people see their work, by viewing your website, as their payment for hosting you?

If you answered "yes" to ANY of the above, you're obviously insane. If you answered "no", then kudos to you for living in the real world.

But then tell me… why would you think it is okay to live out the same, delusional, ridiculous fantasy when seeking someone whose abilities are even less in supply than these folks?

Graphic artists, illustrators, painters, etc., are skilled tradesmen. As such, to consider them as, or deal with them as, anything less than professionals fully deserving of your respect is both insulting and a bad reflection on you as a sane, reasonable person. In short, it makes you look like a twit.

A few things you need to know;

1. It is not a "great opportunity" for an artist to have his work seen on your car/'zine/website/bedroom wall, etc. It IS a "great opportunity" for YOU to have their work there.

2. It is not clever to seek a "student" or "beginner" in an attempt to get work for free. It's ignorant and insulting. They may be "students", but that does not mean they don't deserve to be paid for their hard work. You were a "student" once, too. Would you have taken that job at McDonalds with no pay, because you were learning essential job skills for the real world? Yes, your proposition it JUST as stupid.

3. The chance to have their name on something that is going to be seen by other people, whether it's one or one million, is NOT a valid enticement. Neither is the right to add that work to their "portfolio". They get to do those things ANYWAY, after being paid as they should. It's not compensation. It's their right, and it's a given.

4. Stop thinking that you're giving them some great chance to work. Once they skip over your silly ad, as they should, the next ad is usually for someone who lives in the real world, and as such, will pay them. There are far more jobs needing these skills than there are people who possess these skills.

5. Students DO need "experience". But they do NOT need to get it by giving their work away. In fact, this does not even offer them the experience they need. Anyone who will not/can not pay them is obviously the type of person or business they should be ashamed to have on their resume anyway. Do you think professional contractors list the "experience" they got while nailing down a loose step at their grandmother's house when they were seventeen?

If you your company or gig was worth listing as desired experience, it would be able to pay for the services it received. The only experience they will get doing free work for you is a lesson learned in what kinds of scrubs they should not lower themselves to deal with.

6. (This one is FOR the artists out there, please pay attention.) Some will ask you to "submit work for consideration". They may even be posing as some sort of "contest". These are almost always scams. They will take the work submitted by many artists seeking to win the "contest", or be "chosen" for the gig, and find what they like most. They will... ]]> ~ChienLAO http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/13237954/ http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/13237954/ Wed, 06 Jun 2007 10:46:29 PDT

My dA friends (or at least ppl i consider being friendly):


ppl I watch:

~ChienLAO http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/12803470/ http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/12803470/ Tue, 01 May 2007 13:20:25 PDT found:

[link]

]]> ~ChienLAO http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/12797533/ http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/12797533/ Tue, 01 May 2007 00:11:11 PDT

[link]

Would you be so kind as to sign this if you can please? You don't have to give out too much information about you and this is a rightful petition. There has been a cinema-festival in Hungary in which a freak won an award an was rewarded highly with money in whose film a little cat had been choked. This scene lasted for more than 2 minutes and the director says it is "artistic freedom" and the cat would have died anyway because it was ill.

He is a madman and he needs to be choked. He really pissed me off and I try to make something against him. The animal protectors wants imprison him or fine him greatly, but I think firstly his prize should be taken back! The jury thought it was a special effect, but it has been proven more than once this is wasn't. The director confirmed this in his interview!

Please help, because maybe the sign of many people can support this cause!
I pasted this from venator's journal, which you can read here:
[link]

I strongly recommend you read it and sign the petition, something really must be done.
There is no justice in a maniac getting a REWARD for choking a kitten, even it it was sick (and would have died perhaps) because it doesn't desirve to die that way.
The bastard.

]]> ~ChienLAO http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/11944211/ http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/11944211/ Sat, 24 Feb 2007 07:18:53 PST

]]> ~ChienLAO http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/11852743/ http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/11852743/ Sat, 17 Feb 2007 09:18:41 PST My hubby is coming tomorrow.. And I couldn't be happier..
I've snapped, heh, I can't contain myself But it'll be worth it.. I know it..
Oh ppl, I wish you all happiness in life, and lots and lots of love...
I wish that you can all be loved as much as I am and to love as much as I do.. Oh.. Oh.. The spirit of the Valentine's day still holds control upon me.. Heh.. Wish you all a happy and a love-filled life!

]]> ~ChienLAO http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/11595292/ http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/11595292/ Sun, 28 Jan 2007 04:12:22 PST (in any way imaginable, since I'm not quite the everyday life role model)
I'm drawing at a normal rate, which is really good considering my imagination, concentration and inspiration snap
I give you .. The Elf of Possession!
Yeh, well, I'll submit the drawing now, but only the lineart
I'll colour it later..
Suppose I'll add it to scraps, since I plan to colour it

Interesting thing, I've started to colour drawings both with colour pencils and on my computer that's good ain't it?

]]> ~ChienLAO http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/11552234/ http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/11552234/ Wed, 24 Jan 2007 11:16:13 PST Ok, I admit, this MAY be puberty.. I feel so empty inside, and so ordinary.. Like I have no life.. Like my life is so dull and boooring..
Every day I try to make it as happee as I can, but when you do that every day, it becomes BOOOORING!!!
God I feel awful..
Any advice on how to make miself more interesting for.. well miself!
I don't want to start feeling gloomy all of the sudden.. What do meh do?!?

]]> ~ChienLAO http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/11382951/ http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/11382951/ Wed, 10 Jan 2007 05:29:15 PST

Soh, I suppose you're all thinkin': "Aww little Geko is still little with her 16 years..." WELL I'M NOT!!!
I'm big, but you all don't see it, see Mnjahahaha, I'll outlive you all Maybe THAT'S why I hang out with older ppl To have the satisfaction of outliving them all, aaahh you bastards!!! I love you all!!! ^_^

Anywho, thanx for being with me over da past year (omg, it's like New Year all over hahah )
Also, January the 14th is a very special date because it's New Year for meh Orthodox church (omg it's my first time using this term in English heh). And so, the whole Serbia will be awaiting for January the 14th - my b-day! I like to comfort myself with that


So.. This is all from me now.. Toodles!!!

]]> ~ChienLAO http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/11370060/ http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/11370060/ Tue, 09 Jan 2007 02:31:54 PST
]]> ~ChienLAO http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/11363155/ http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/11363155/ Mon, 08 Jan 2007 14:00:38 PST Reason: Too many deviations, and I want to erase them all.

]]> ~ChienLAO http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/11332346/ http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/11332346/ Sat, 06 Jan 2007 02:27:56 PST :\ I can't live my life normally.. It's all to much, the pressures, the numerous emotional frustrations in the past week..
I don't know what to do. The parents, the friends.. Everything is happening at the same time and I can't stand it anymore. I've had emotional snaps more than I've ever had in my life and it's only getting more crtitical. I feel my personality changing, and changing to worse.. I feel bad, very bad. The worst thing is that I can't help myself.
If I'm not checking my dA mail for, let's say five days, get worried. Because I'm not ok. That's all from me for now..
I didn't write this to make you all worried about me, but to say it out loud, because I myself cannot stand this anymore.

And, no Zanten, THIS is not growing up anymore.

]]> ~ChienLAO http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/11284329/ http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/11284329/ Tue, 02 Jan 2007 06:10:18 PST Even to myself, let alone all the people who know me..
Plus, I'm being very very jealous to my bf and am afraid of doing something I'd regret afterwards..
I'm always like this at winter O_O Especially after New Year. O_O
Omg, does anybody have an idea how to get my mind off of jealousy and this weird feeling that I'm extremely bugging my friends?
I ought to lock myself in a basement and not come out until the spring makes me a kitty cat again.. O_O
All of you who know me in person, my friends.. My darling, you too..
Please, if I do anything to annoy you, forgive me, because I can't help it at all.. Try and be understanding with me, and DON'T do anything to provoke me.. Because that might bring the hurricane inside me - outside me and we all might regret things..
I hate this more than people around me, so you who I haven't attacked yet.. Please, watch out..

]]> ~ChienLAO http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/11188601/ http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/11188601/ Mon, 25 Dec 2006 12:12:30 PST Mmmhh.. All righty then..
Soh, I was tagged by this unfortunate girly-girl -

Rules of the game:
The first player of this "game" starts with the topic "Six Weird Habits/Things About Yourself" and people who get tagged need to write a journal about their six Weird Habits/Things as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next six people to be tagged and list their names. Don't forget to leave a comment that says "You are tagged" in their devPage comments and tell them to read yours...

1. I'm a vampiress.
2. I like tormenting people (well, their minds, but that's even more weird, ain't it?)
3. I LOVE reading books (which is weird nowadays, you must admit)
4. I listen to Cradle of Filth because I think their music is pretty :3 Don't really like Danny's screaming (well, I did before, but that was when I was 13)
5. I appreciate classical music... I think you cannot really say you're into any kind of music if you haven't started from the beginning.
6. I have a poorly decorated christmas tree and I like it!

I tag:

1.

2.

3.

4.

5.

6.

]]> ~ChienLAO http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/11052472/ http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/11052472/ Wed, 13 Dec 2006 15:17:24 PST
I've been sick for the last couple of days, and I've been home ALL the time - no school and stuff.. But now I just miss people. And plus I'm getting sick of seeing only my ANNOYING mom.. -_- Geez..
Anyway.. I'm worried. My grades are to be concluded very very soon, and.. I'm afraid I haven't studied a thing, and now.. And now.. I don't want to blow it the last two weeks at school before Xmas holidays
I have 19 As, couple of Bs and two Cs and I think it's a pretty good start.. Of course, I'd have to study to fix those Cs, but.. I'm scared.
School shouldn't scare students. School should be their little exploring constitution. Oh god, I hate history and geography... I can never make myself study these... Physics too. I'm a loser, I'll spoil my grades.
What gets on my nerve is that my parents want .. no no DEMAND me to have all As even when it's things I'm not interested in.. It's wrong, we shouldn't be forced to study things we're absolutely not interested in... >:\ And not good at (well, for me, that's a lie. i CAN be great at these, but they bore me.. )
So.. That's it from me.. I hope I didn't bore you much..
Oh.. but I'm making myself feel bored. Devastating..

]]> ~ChienLAO http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/10842102/ http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/10842102/ Sat, 25 Nov 2006 06:07:05 PST It's not like it's a pity, but I haven't drawn anything in a long long time.. But I kinda feel the next thing I draw is gonna be - great!
So, we'll see..

]]> ~ChienLAO http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/10831032/ http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/10831032/ Fri, 24 Nov 2006 06:08:58 PST I'm still getting to know it, and soon I suppose I'll have to give it a name.. So then it won't be "it", it'll be a "she" or a "he", we'll see on what it'll tell me..

I feel good when playing my flute, you know.. I think every one should learn to play an instrument. It's a whole new world, and I feel resurrected. Reborn if you will.

It filled a whole that was in me for a long long time. Most people who know me in person didn't know (and still don't ) that I was ill during the past year and a half..

]]> ~ChienLAO http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/10785977/ http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/10785977/ Mon, 20 Nov 2006 07:05:38 PST

So happy!!!
It's been more than a year since i played a flute - any flute - last time.. I'm so nervous, and now I'm gonna get miself a brand new flute!
As Japanese brothers and sistas would say: furu-to XD LOL
(za srbe: (koji ne znaju japanski, heh) cita se furuuto)
I'm very very happee
Omg, I never loved playing flute even in "the torture school of music" (as I liked to think of it), and now.. I can't wait to play my old songs and concerts and.. and.. AWW!!!

]]> ~ChienLAO http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/10542788/ http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/10542788/ Sat, 28 Oct 2006 23:21:34 PDT I so love Pillow Boy..
Btw, I'm naming the girl in the drawing beside him, so I'll be considering your propositions, I'm open to ideas people!

]]> ~ChienLAO http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/10516948/ http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/10516948/ Thu, 26 Oct 2006 12:42:27 PDT What when you understand the chaos you create? What if you never thought you'll cry this much?
What if you know that you'll never cry as much as others may have cried by your fault?
And what when you understand how grotesque and hideous your soul is?
What if you understand that we were never ment to be friends? There is no point in hurting you, if I can't help you as well.
I know you're reading this.
Read it, read it twice.
Goodbye. I thought I could be something good in your life. But I'm not. I'm sorry. I'll cry away everything I have ever done to you. I'm sorry. I'll always want you to be my friend. As I always have.

]]> ~ChienLAO http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/10476706/ http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/10476706/ Sun, 22 Oct 2006 13:49:15 PDT
I am .. In grief. Why must people always leave? I figured it's always like that. It's .. It hurts me. It bothers me.

Even for a moment in time, even if it is just one week, I feel sorrowfull. Why must people leave? Why is it like that? Why must people leave?

This bothers me. It really does.

And, remeber!
People always leave.

]]> ~ChienLAO http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/10457546/ http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/10457546/ Fri, 20 Oct 2006 15:52:38 PDT So, my boyfriend came yesterday to Belgrade.. Since he came, we we.. we.. I.. Well, he.. Um.. Khm
Well.. We have been seeing eachother all the time.. And I'm not used to that, for he lives far away from me. And now, when we see eachother literally all the time.. I feel like I'll die one hour without him...Now it's not just a little game anymore. Now I'm certain that he makes me whole, he IS my life... He is all what I am.

I feel poetic right now. I feel Vampyric. I feel myself again. And I haven't been myself lately. For a long time, acctually. Due to the depression I was in for a year or two. I'm being myself again. For the last two days.

You make me whole, darling, you do...

]]> ~ChienLAO http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/10325642/ http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/10325642/ Sun, 08 Oct 2006 13:09:42 PDT
]]> ~ChienLAO http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/10325638/ http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/10325638/ Sun, 08 Oct 2006 13:09:16 PDT

I observe,


I LIVE,


I like,


I dislike,


I think,


I am,


I love,


I love,


I love...

]]> ~ChienLAO http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/10325633/ http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/10325633/ Sun, 08 Oct 2006 13:08:48 PDT
]]> ~ChienLAO http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/10078297/ http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/10078297/ Fri, 15 Sep 2006 08:08:43 PDT ]]> ~ChienLAO http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/9999774/ http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/9999774/ Thu, 07 Sep 2006 15:00:08 PDT If I love someone, why don't they understand it? Why do I always have to be asked who was that and wether I'm doing something behind their back.. GOD!!! It's hard for me! And why can't people understand that I'm also unhappy somethimes? (unrelated to them) Why can't people who I care about MOST hold my back sometimes when I'm feeling a bit down?

I don't have a brother or a sister... I have almost no one to talk to. Only myself. Why can't my beloved ones help me every once in a while? Is that too much to ask?

I would like to, but I really can't always be the one who'll laugh continuously and make them laugh. I usually do that, but sometimes I need them, god damn it..

I need you, and you push me away! (the person who I'm refering to will know who I'm refering to - YOU, YOU FOOL) ]]> ~ChienLAO http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/9976343/ http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/9976343/ Tue, 05 Sep 2006 12:09:01 PDT
The teacher (a guy) speaks very very fast, he does everything quickly, including questioning He has a thing for me, I could see (I mean the teacher-student thing! of course!), he asked me most of questions. I was veeery insecure in my answers, but in the end I would answer correctly... In the end, I said! Heh And when the class was about to end, he noticed my necklase and since it was a devil (in fact it was a goat-devil, ya know? Something that begins with g.....) and told me a short story about the origin of that little "devil", and how the inquisiton has burnt all people who believed and worshiped that "devil", and how it's not a devil acctually, but the god of fertility... And so on... So he made it really interesting for me I bet he noticed how I was especially nervous, he saw right through me... GOD, I hate teachers who can do that! Don't you? What's most important and makes me a bit sorrowful - they're mostly all like this!

Well.. I'm hoping I'll never get an F in history class (or any other class for that matter). I can see that this guy gives Fs and As as easy as pie! God, I adore him.. He's so frigid!!! God, in the same time i hate the teacher and love him! Grrrrr I'm a bit scared.. I don't want to get an F...

I stink when it's history time.. I'm frightened O.O ]]> ~ChienLAO http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/9946095/ http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/9946095/ Sat, 02 Sep 2006 23:31:08 PDT I'm guessing my boyfriend was a bit frustrated, I bet he thought he was doing something wrong x) Well, he wasn't.

Have you girls ever felt like you're trying to protect yourself from something that would not be bad, but it's just not the right time for that at the moment? (yes, i'm talking about sex)

Gosh.. I'm still not quite sure what was going on, but as soon as I figured I was intentionally de-hornying myself, I stopped doing that and guess what happened - I was hornier than ever! Aaaaa ME SO HORNY! I still am!

I was feeling so horny that I was shivering. I had hot and cold heat waves up and down my spine and no, I didn't have a fever. I was feeling so stupid, I felt as if I was a non-stop horny dude, you know? And all this while I was sitting in my room, alone, on my chair, in front of the computer.

No, I wasn't touching myself! I couldn't believe it - that one can get THAT horny while sitting and doing absolutely nothing to provoke it.

Was any of you ever feeling like this?
For the first time I felt like a horny rabbit: yes I'm horny, gimme some sex, baby!

But no, I didn't have sex Don't worry, you guys!

Eh.. No sex... Sure can make one frustrated ]]> ~ChienLAO http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/9936071/ http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/9936071/ Sat, 02 Sep 2006 00:18:08 PDT I am aware that I am yet to study as a freakin' mule, but I can't wait You must think I'm crazy right now .. Whaaa?? I love to study languages! Whaaaattt?

Either ways, I'm looking forward to my new teachers who I haven't met yet, and to my Japanese class ehehehee Can't wait, can't wait! :excitement: ]]> ~ChienLAO http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/9805561/ http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/9805561/ Mon, 21 Aug 2006 14:45:53 PDT So I'm heading back to Croatia and probably will stay there for max. 10 days (in 10 days I'll have to go to school)

I don't want to leave Belgrade, but I'm forced to.

I'm very sad because of my grandmother..

Nothing else to say. ]]> ~ChienLAO http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/9772932/ http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/9772932/ Fri, 18 Aug 2006 14:49:56 PDT For you who haven't read the book, I'll introduce you...
He was a vampire. And he was as cold on the inside as well as the outside. Even though he cared not for other people, they were longing to find themselves in his presence for he had attracted them. He attraced them all. He was a being of Evil, as we read the book, we can tell. Everywhere he went, everything he did resulted as a ruination of other people's lives. Although he never did anythig to them. He made their life even worse just by being alive and being what he is.
He slept with virgins that were hoping he would marry them, and used all other women as filthy disposable rags. No matter how terrible their lives were, his presence would make it even worse. Beggars who he gave money to would very quickly find themselves hanging or living the life of a dirty sewer rat wanting to be dead rather than to fight and struggle.
What is so interesting to me is the fact that he is doing absolutely nothing to harm these people, and yet they end up disgraced, dead or banished.
Only through this book this vampire, this lord captured my interest. I fell in love deeply with this character.
I picture myself in front of him and think what I would do. I know what I would do. I would not hide my interest for him. I would not hide my desire to capture his. I WOULD fall into his net eventually, helpless to get out. But you know what? I wouldn't even want to get out, I know. I would follow him blindly through dark and mist, and would end up his slave, in the end.
All this I wouldn't mind. Maybe it's a form of masochism. This thought does not pain me, it does not disturb me.
To know that I am willing to simply give myself to someone who wouldn't care about me or anybody else at all.
Yes, I am impressed by this character. I get so attached to books and their characters. If I like the book, that is. And I like this one.

I hope you don't get this the wrong way. This journal is my expression of my emotions at this moment.

I choose to be with people who make me feel like a vampiress I am. I'm especially picky when it comes to boyfriends.

And everything I do in this life, I do with a purpose. Sometimes I find out sooner and sometimes later why I did something. And nothing is by accident. ]]> ~ChienLAO http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/9708737/ http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/9708737/ Sun, 13 Aug 2006 01:45:07 PDT

Yea.. Yea.. She was at her granny's.. A week ago she had some major problems related to her brain.. Um.. A stroke? I think it's called a stroke.. Anywho, za one koji znaju srpski, bio je mozdani udar, and twas the worst possible! So I'm prayin' that if my granny HAS to die, plz God, make it easier for her! For she is the kindest person ever to walk the Earth!

Ovom prilikom zelim da kazem da sam se jako uzelela sviju vas, ooo mi muchachos and muchachas x) And especially my bf, Kentaro.. hihihiiii, I LOVE you, hun!

And I've got LOADS of good drawings (and even more of those crappy ones ), so I'll be submitting as soon as I MAKE myself scan all those darn good stuff..

So glad to be here again.. for you all! ]]> ~ChienLAO http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/9400785/ http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/9400785/ Mon, 17 Jul 2006 01:09:42 PDT Soon they'll appear
The high and mighty show up
The king is in doubts
"Apart from this beggar here
There's no one like you my dear
Tasting my lips
No one but you and me
Round the fire everyone should sing
And praise the gracious queen
Round the fire everyone should dance
And we praise the handsome knight
Forever and ever we both will be one
The maiden, the fair and the young fell in love.."
(Blind guardian, The maiden and the minstrel knight)

Seriously, listen to this song.. It's beautifuuuuul.. ]]> ~ChienLAO http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/9400663/ http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/9400663/ Mon, 17 Jul 2006 00:45:00 PDT
Lalalalalalaa.. I wanna have more moneeyy..



And now.. Let's talk about how money is important to us all! ^_^

Money, money, money.. TAN TAAN, must be funny, TAN TAANN, in a richman's world..

Okay, I don't really love money that much.. It's just.. I'm fucking bored and I had nothing better to do than to write a stupid journal.. :\ Blaahh.. Njaa..

This is sad, acctually.. The fact that I have nothing better to do than to hang on my computer.. Yuck.. ]]> ~ChienLAO http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/9229309/ http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/9229309/ Fri, 30 Jun 2006 07:53:23 PDT MAN! I'm gonna kill myself if this affects our friendship... I don't know what to do anymore.. I've tried to "repress" my feelings, but SHIT! IT DOES NOT WORK! So now I'm trying to be a pretty little girl just like he thinks I am.. Mwihihi he thinks I'm beautiful But never the less.. I figured something...

Bitches and whores always have more fun! And... and they never cry about any guy!!! So what if I become an anorexic whoooore? :\ I sure would have lots of fun! :mad: I'm gonna become a whore, God damn it! So I can be happy and never cry about a guy.. >: \ stupid guys..
(hey, you guys out there, don't take this too personal)

I'm joking.... I'm not gonna become a whore... I hate those! But I am gonna do something about this "friend" of mine ;D ]]> ~ChienLAO http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/8815915/ http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/8815915/ Fri, 19 May 2006 11:21:39 PDT I'm supposed to study for the big test, but I'm not... And I'll regret it BIG TIME if I don't study on time.. But I will... I have about two weeks left... I'll be so scared during the last week that I'll HAVE to study... Isn't that right?? Right?? Right??
I don't know what to do... I'm feeling very miserable because I'm not studying at all, and I'm getting good grades! This means that I won't study at all in the future! And that's not good!I don't know how to force myself... And then again, if I force myself to study, It'll be no work at all, because I'm not able to study if I am forced to.. Even by myself! This is the only way I practise my English (and I should study English) so if someone can see a mistake.. I'd appreciate if someone would point that out to me! ]]> ~ChienLAO http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/8616810/ http://ChienLAO.deviantart.com/journal/8616810/ Fri, 28 Apr 2006 23:48:11 PDT The 1st player of this "game" starts with the topic "6 weird habits/things about yourself" and people who get tagged need to write a journal about their 6 weird habits/things as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next 6 people to be tagged and list their names. Don't forget to leave a comment that says "you are tagged" in their devpage comments and tell them to read yours.

So, here I am... I am a very weird person, so this should be interesting..!

1. Errmm... I like watching Yu-gi-oh!, as well as all the other kiddy-cartoons and I collect Yu-gi-oh! cards! XD But the thing is, I'm 15 and even like doing this and I'm not ashamed! ..whatever...

2. I like drawing people having ahem... intercourse..

3. I like watching my reflection in the mirror quite often, even though I often don't like what I see. (I'm chubby, yeah..) And the weird part is that I pose in front of the mirror, acting, and even talking to myself... but somehow I feel that this is good for me! Try it yourself!.. Just don't let anyone see you XD

4. I looooooove vampires! I would like to be one! If there were any vampires, I would marry for one of them and wait until I'm 25 or something and then become a vampiress myself! This would be soooooo great... too bad this cannot be...

5. I like watching boys I don't even like, but so that they cannot see me XD Wait, that's sick, not weird!

6. And finally... I am evil. I like to play twisted with people and their minds... I like to give them riddles they cannot solve and coplex theories their inferior minds cannot understand. I don't hate people. I prefer to think of them as cattle. For, their mentality is cruel, stupid and violent. Men were born to die from their own blades.. All this I do because I get annoyed when someone can think and be a very good thinker, but just won't do anything about it... So I like to punish those people by making them suffer in their own mind, and the fault is theirs, not mine... How weird is that?

I chose Horrifica, -x-death-x-, muumi, chiefysan, Lunamystyra and Lawrenceyuen. ]]> ~ChienLAO