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[2] What color is your mailbox?
Err...white?

[3] Are you available?
Yep.

[4] Who was your last kiss?
Moke, my golden retriever.

[5] Do you have to drive over a bridge to get home?
Nope, but I do have to drive under one!

[6] Are you taller than your mom?
By a lot.

[7] What curse do you say the most when your pissed?
One that you're not likely to get me to say here. O.o;;

[8] Are you God?
Not even close.

[9] What do you do to get over a broken heart?
Cry a little, whine a little, then eat chocolate and read books about dragons and get over it.

[10] Do you enjoy writing in colored pens?
I don't like writing in pen. At all.

[11] Does anything hurt on your body right now?
Not particularly.

[12] Do you often cry during a movie?
Like a baby.

[13] Last text message you recieved?
Dunno.

[14] Who sent it?
Probably Annette. <3

[15] Do you hate your life?
Nah. Tried that. It got boring.

[16] Do you get mad easily?
Yes. Yes I do.

[17] Do you drink?
Nope.

[18] What is your biggest pet peeve?
Improper grammar. And people who don't use turn signals while driving.

[19] Are you cold?
Nooo, I'm pleasantly warm!

[20] Do any of your friends have kids?
If you count former co-workers as friends...yes.

[21] Do you know anyone that is pregnant right now?
I don't think so.

[22] Who should pay on the first date?
The guy, of course.

[23] How many years older than you are you willing to date?
Well, the oldest I actually HAVE dated was 17 years older than me... And it was confirmed to be a bad idea. My answer is significantly lower now.

[24] Do you have any friends?
...

[25] Do you have any mean friends?
"Mean friends" is a big of an oxymoron, don't you think?

[26]What is the ugliest color in your opinion?
Pink.

[27] Have you ever liked someone who all your friends couldn't stand?
Yeah, but their distaste was justified. See #23.

[28] Have you ever felt like driving off a cliff, seriously?
There aren't really any cliffs around, honestly.

[29] Have you ever contemplated suicide?
Not recently.

[30] Do you scratch your ears?
If they itch.

[31] Who was the last person to hug you?
My Mama.

[32] What brand are the pant/jeans you're wearing right now?
I'm too lazy to turn around to look at the tag.

[33] How tall are you?
Approximately 5'3".

[34] What is the closest green object?
My TI-83 calculator. Or my T-mobile phone. I like green. ^^

[35] What is on your feet?
Nothing. It was a really beautiful day. Grass feels good under my toes. Mmm...

[36] If you were born the opposite sex, what would your parents name you?
Joshua. Or Caleb. Thank goodness I was a girl. O.o;;

[37] If you could go back to any time period when would it be?
19th Century Europe. Damn straight.

[38] Do you want to have kids?
Not on your life.

[39] What is the brightest color you're wearing?
Bluuuue.

[40] Who is the friend you have that you would never have thought you'd have?
Umm...I don't have many friends to begin with, and the ones I have I sort of expected to have. Haha.

[41] Who do you hate the most right now?
Hate is a strong word. See #23 and #27.

[42] Whats your mother's middle name?
Ann

[43] What kind of car do you want?
Volkswagon Golf. Yeeeeah. I'm that cool.

[44] What is your favourite video game?
The Hobbit for PS2.

[45] Do you like your dad?
Nope.

[46] Do you have any TV shows on DVD?
Avatar: The Last Airbender. Hahaha.

[47] Are you wearing make up?
Nah. Too lazy.

[48] Do you have a tattoo?
Nope.

[49] Have you ever broken a pinata?
...Not that I can recall. It's a possibility.

[50] What time is it right now?
8:10 PM.

[51] Do you know how to draw?
Aren't you looking at my deviantart page?? NO.

[52] Who loves orange soda?
I doooo!

[53] Who is your hero?
My friend Nya, who is like a big sister to me.

[54] Who did you last IM?
Nya.

[55] Do you work a lot of hours?
I did...but now I'm out of a job due to an altercation with my boss. See #23, #27, and #41. ~Chrysbane http://Chrysbane.deviantart.com/journal/23290268/ http://Chrysbane.deviantart.com/journal/23290268/ Thu, 19 Feb 2009 14:27:39 PST
2. When I was younger and had to do something I didn't want to do, I would pretend it was a task for some great king and that the fate of the world rested in my hands.

3. My mood is easily changeable depending on what kind of music I'm listening to.

4. My younger brother is one of my best friends, and I don't let him know it nearly enough.

5. I don't appreciate the good friends I have.

6. For years, up until very recently, I thought that fairy tales really did come true.

7. I feel as though I've thoroughly wasted the first 18 years of my life.

8. I like to suck lemons from the inside out. O.o;; It's true.

9. The lack of justice in the world continues to surprise me, despite the fact that I've seen it in action probably since I was a very small child. I guess someday it will sink in.

10. I don't go to church anymore, and sometimes when something really good happens to me and I know it must have been the work of God, I feel really awful about it.

11. Even though it is usually misplaced, I refuse not to give people the benefit of the doubt.

12. I feel like I've missed a lot of opportunities over the years to forge some really great relationships, all because I was holding out for something better.

13. I don't like college. :/

14. When I go to bed at night, I love having some soothing background noise to listen to, like the rain or a distant fog horn or the chirping of crickets.

15. I often spend my free time doing things that I pretend are important so that I don't feel like I'm wasting my time.

16. I am extremely frugal with my money and have saved a good amount over the last few years, but I'm always complaining about not having any money.

17. I don't like being alone for any length of time.

18. When people ask me to hang out with them, a lot of times I make up excuses as to why I can't. I don't know why.

19. I know I should exercise more, but I can't stand the idea of being one of those people you see out running every morning. Haha.

20. I've always felt as though nature contains some of the magic that I was supposed to stop believing in years ago.

21. I like to think of myself as knowledgeable, until I meet someone who really is and then I realize that I have no idea what I'm talking about.

22. If I don't get to travel to at least three or four foreign countries before I die, I will leave this world a miserable soul.

23. I get very confused between what I want and what other people tell me I should want. Sometimes I wish they would have the decency to give me the space to make my own decisions.

24. I am attracted to short guys. A few inches taller than me is perfect.

25. I know that there are a few people who will get this note who already knew all these things about me. I love you guys. <3

]]> ~Chrysbane http://Chrysbane.deviantart.com/journal/22782279/ http://Chrysbane.deviantart.com/journal/22782279/ Sat, 24 Jan 2009 12:59:27 PST
Over the next couple of weeks, things were awkward at work, needless to say. But I loved it. It was like we had our own little secret, and no one else needed to know. Every time we met, I felt like I was in heaven. I had fallen in love, and--beyond all hope!--he seemed to love me, too! But as time progressed and the weeks became months, he seemed slowly but steadily to lose interest--at least in the things that I yearned for so badly that it hurt. He enjoyed meeting me in my car for make-out sessions, but he didn't want to meet my parents or go to dinner or sit and just talk. I began to wonder what I had gotten myself into, and so finally I asked him if he really cared about me or if he was only interested in physical gratification.

His answer was not the one I wanted. But it was honest. And I had to accept the fact that he was a grown man, and he could decide what kind of relationships he wanted to share with the people in his life. I can't say I wasn't hurt and deeply disappointed, but I fully believed that in a few years, when I was older, we could try again and maybe he would be able to see me as a woman instead of a girl caught in the midst of growing up. Maybe he would see me as a woman he wanted to spend the rest of his life with.

Today is January 24th. Three days ago, on January 21st, I discovered that for three and a half years now, he has been seeing a friend of mine, who also used to work with the both of us. Not only this, but he was still seeing her WHILE he began seeing me back in August. I thought my heart had shattered into a million pieces. After all the flirting and after my unbelievable hope that I might actually get a chance at the impossible romance with the man I loved, it all came down to him getting bored with his on-and-off girlfriend and cheating on her with me. Not only that, but when the girlfriend confronted him, he denied ever being involved with me in any way. Said that it was bullshit. That I was dreaming.

I wanted to die, to just crawl into a hole to be forgotten. My mom has always told me that everything happens for a reason, but how could this have been God's intention? Why had the man that I trusted with such blind and loving faith deceived me just to try to get some cheap sexual thrill out of me?

As usual, the answer--and my peace of mind--came to me in the form of a song:


Just the other night,
At a hometown football game,
My wife and I ran into
My old high school fling.

And as I introduced them,
The past came back to me,
And I couldn't help but think of
The way things used to be...

She was the one
That I'd wanted for all time,
And each night I'd spend praying
That God would make her mine

And if he'd only grant me
This wish I'd wished back then,
I'd never ask
For anything again...

Sometimes I thank God
For unanswered prayers.
Remember when you're talking
To the Man upstairs,
That just because he doesn't answer
Doesn't mean he don't care.
Some of God's greatest gifts
Are unanswered prayers.

She wasn't quite the angel
That I remembered in my dreams,
And I could tell that time had changed me
In her eyes, too, it seemed.

We tried to talk about the old days.
There wasn't much we could recall.
I guess the lord knows what he's doing
After all...

And as she looked away,
Well I looked at my wife,
And then and there I thanked the good Lord
For the gifts in my life.

Sometimes I thank God
For unanswered prayers.
Remember when you're talking
To the Man upstairs
That just because he may not answer
Doesn't mean he don't care
Some of God's greatest gifts
Are unanswered prayers...


Somewhere out there, someone is waiting for me to find him... Hoping and praying for his prayers to be answered, too. There just has to be. And someday..... ]]> ~Chrysbane http://Chrysbane.deviantart.com/journal/19078409/ http://Chrysbane.deviantart.com/journal/19078409/ Fri, 27 Jun 2008 15:29:22 PDT
I wish I had something to do besides work 40 hours a week trying to earn money I'm sure I'll need eventually, sit around my house like a useless accumulation of matter, and stare at my ceiling when I attempt to fall asleep at 1:00 AM. I've been trying to get back into my fanfiction, and that seems to be working...sorta. Reading "The Children of Húrin" is providing some inspiration, and the wonderful art of Merlkir [link] is providing the rest. Hopefully my fans at FanFiction.Net will see some progress from me soon.

I almost wish that I could convince myself to join another online role-playing club or start obsessively playing some video game, but I fear to become too involved, lest I lose all free time come September when I enter college. I'll be enrolled in a total of six classes, and I am sure they will all demand my focus.

Oh well. Thanks for listening to me ramble, if anyone even read this.

Namarië,

~Chrysbane

PS - If you want to know what "Aurë entuluva" means, you should read "The Silmarillion," or "The Children of Húrin."

]]> ~Chrysbane http://Chrysbane.deviantart.com/journal/16592038/ http://Chrysbane.deviantart.com/journal/16592038/ Sun, 27 Jan 2008 06:11:03 PST
Bad idea.

Apparently there are, oh, twenty or so things that I have to do within the next two or three weeks, all of which (naturally) require actual mental effort on my part. I AM LOSING MY MIIIND!! Gahh!

So if I haven't uploaded any new pictures in a while, that's why. I'm actually working on one right now that I hope to finish soon and get up on deviantart, but homework takes precedence, unfortunately. So if my beloved friends on deviantart have felt neglected or unloved, I tell you now that that is not the case at all.

Well, maybe for Azurith...but nobody else. *wink*

So wish me luck, and hopefully I will come out of high school alive! Until then, my friends! I will see you when I have turned eighteen, in April!

Au revoir, mes amis! Je vous verrai quand j'aurai eu dix-huit ans, en avril!

Ciao, i miei amici! Vi vado vedere quando ho diciotto anni, in aprile!

]]> ~Chrysbane http://Chrysbane.deviantart.com/journal/12958107/ http://Chrysbane.deviantart.com/journal/12958107/ Mon, 14 May 2007 19:36:52 PDT
"But, in the end, it's only a passing thing, this shadow. Even darkness must pass. A new day will come, and when the sun shines, it'll shine out the clearer. Those were the stories that stayed with you, that meant something, even if you were too small to understand why. But I think, Mr. Frodo, I do understand. I know now. Folk in those stories had lots of chances of turning back, only they didn't. They kept going. Because they were holding on to something...

"...That there's some good in this world, Mr. Frodo, and it's worth fighting for."

]]> ~Chrysbane http://Chrysbane.deviantart.com/journal/10905766/ http://Chrysbane.deviantart.com/journal/10905766/ Thu, 30 Nov 2006 19:11:47 PST
I really have no reason to create this journal, either, other than that I don't like the one that's up right now.

AND HAS TO GIVE ME THE PIC

**EDIT:** "HE"

DREW OF ME TO USE AS MY ID!!1!ONE! GARRR!

>:0

Yes, , that means YOU.

~Chrysbane-san!

]]> ~Chrysbane http://Chrysbane.deviantart.com/journal/10318357/ http://Chrysbane.deviantart.com/journal/10318357/ Mon, 09 Oct 2006 16:41:24 PDT
lol

In return for getting a free sketch, I have to say that I'll do a sketch for the first 10 people to comment on this journal entry... Whatever you want, I'll draw it...if I can. If you've looked at my deviations, you can see that I'm not that great of an artist...unless you ask for a dragon! lol

The catch to this is that you have to do the same thing. To get a sketch from me, you've gotta post this in your journal, yadda yadda, and give 10 free sketches to those who comment...

Comment here and tell me what you want, if you want something. If you decide that it's not worth wasting time on my horrible talent, you would be correct! But, says I have to, so I will.

lol

1. - um...some character-y thing she's gonna draw for me to see...

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Also, this sounds really interesting, and I may do it--if I find the motivation. This is taken from , who took it from .

The point of this challenge is to test and improve your skill as an artist.

The rules

1. Make 100 pics each pic having a theme listed below. Each pic should have ONE and only ONE theme to it, for it to count.
2. No time limit so have fun
3. The main picture should be drawn but not limited to. for all fair purposes, people are allowed to use their paint programs and photoshop to create the pic.
3.a) pics should be of own artistic ability. You may not edit photos, or break any other rules set out in the Da etiquette policy. Your pics can be anything from sketches and doodles to great master pieces. Just have fun with it.
4. The list below is to be placed somewhere in your journal for others to see that......
A) You are in the challenge
B) What you have completed
5. make sure to update this list and check off what is done and make a link to the pic
6. In the comments for your art work note if it is part of the list and what ONE theme it is.

- - -

THE LIST:
1. Introduction
2. Love
3. Light
4. Dark
5. Seeking Solace
6. Break Away
7. Heaven
8. Innocence
9. Drive
10. Breathe Again
11. Memory
12. Insanity
13. Misfortune
14. Smile
15. Silence
16. Questioning
17. Blood
18. Rainbow
19. Gray
20. Fortitude
21. Vacation
22. Mother Nature
23. Cat
24. No Time
25. Trouble Lurking
26. Tears
27. Foreign
28. Sorrow
29. Happiness
30. Under the Rain
31. Flowers
32. Night
33. Expectations
34. Stars
35. Hold My Hand
36. Precious Treasure
37. Eyes
38. Abandoned
39. Dreams
40. Rated
41. Teamwork
42. Standing Still
43. Dying
44. Two Roads
45. Illusion
46. Family
47. Creation
48. Childhood
49. Stripes
50. Breaking the Rules
51. Sport
52. Deep in Thought
53. Keeping a Secret
54. Tower
55. Waiting
56. Danger Ahead
57. Sacrifice
58. Kick in the Head
59. No Way Out
60. Rejection
61. Fairy Tale
62. Magic
63. Do Not Disturb
64. Multitasking
65. Horror
66. Traps
67. Playing the Melody
68. Hero
69. Annoyance
70. 67%
71. Obsession
72. Mischief Managed
73. I Can't
74. Are You Challenging Me?
75. Mirror
76. Broken Pieces
77. Test
78. Drink
79. Starvation
80. Words
81. Pen and Paper
82. Can You Hear Me?
83. Heal
84. Out Cold
85. Spiral
86. Seeing Red
87. Food
88. Pain
89. Through the Fire
90. Triangle
91. Drowning
92. All That I Have
93. Give Up
94. Last Hope
95. Advertisement
96. In the Storm
97. Safety First
98. Puzzle
99. Solitude
100... ]]> ~Chrysbane http://Chrysbane.deviantart.com/journal/10244123/ http://Chrysbane.deviantart.com/journal/10244123/ Sun, 01 Oct 2006 05:40:28 PDT
Man, I LOVE my people!

I saw some guy dressed up as the Witch-king of Angmar and told him to watch out for blondes who look like guys, lol! And he laughed!

I got lessons from a Russian czar on how to ring the bell with that hammer thingy.

I bought a cool chain mail-y thing for my hand, called a 'hand flower', I guess. It rocks beyond all belief!

I found the medieval costume of my dreams...and then remembered that it was $293.

I got to cheer for the hero of the joust, Sir Joseph! Wheeee! I shouted myself hoarse for him, especially when he was facing that cheating Spaniard, Hidalgo. (One guy in the crowd insulted his horse loudly and then said, "Oh, sorry about the horse comment, I didn't realize it was your mother!") And then I got a picture with Sir Joseph, and he signed my penant and got his fake blood all over it!

Omg, best day of my LIFE.

I WANT TO GROW UP AND BE IN SOMETHING LIKE THAT!!!!

AAAAAAAAGGGHHH!

~Chrysbane

]]> ~Chrysbane http://Chrysbane.deviantart.com/journal/10072686/ http://Chrysbane.deviantart.com/journal/10072686/ Thu, 14 Sep 2006 16:54:41 PDT
>_<

My least favorite house... lol

The sad thing is that this actually describes me perfectly. lol. Oh well. I guess I'm not the evil Slytherin I thought I was.

The results:


House: Hufflepuff
Best Friend: Ron, Ginny, Harry, and Hermione
Boyfriend: Fred
Blood: half-blood

Personality: You are bubbly and bright, and an all around fun person. You may be ditzy or klutzy at times, but you manage to pull it off. You attract people with your happy personality and bright eyes, as well as your acceptance of others. People often go to you when they are seeking comfort.

Secrets: You are constantly overeating or under-eating, and it is making you weaker by the day. Fred was the only one to find out, and ever since, hes been trying to help.

Relationship: You met Fred after you had fallen two flights of stairs and landed in the charms classroom, where Fred and George were setting up a very elaborate prank. Ever since then, they felt a need to look out for you, almost like bodyguards. Until one day, in your 4th year, Fred had asked you out.

What the Students Think of You:

Harry: Shes really clumsy. I always end up crashing into her in the hall.

Ron: ______ is nice, and Fred fancies her. I think George does, too.

Hermione: I dont really talk to her much. All I know is that shes always tripping over things. And shes an excellent chaser.

Ginny: Shes one of my best friends. Shes not that smart but shes probably the nicest person in the school.

Neville: I really like her. Shes always so nice to me.

Fred: Theres something about her that makes her unprankable. I cant bear to hurt a person like her. Shes just too sweet.

George: Fred fancies her way more than I do. _______ is a great person.

Oliver: Shes a good flyer, despite her clumsiness. Shes an amazing chaser. I sometimes wish she played for our team.

Percy: That girl is nothing but a hazard to the school. Shes always falling down and running into things.

Draco: He is currently running from the law, but beforehand, he had this to say, That girl Damn. She gets on my nerves. The snivelly little Hufflepuff.

Crabbe: She funny. She trip a lot.

Goyle: She fun to push.

Pansy: Whos ______?

Lavender: Ohhhh! Shes such a sweetie! Shes one of my best friends, too. Its hard to keep track of her at times, though.

Cho: Shes adorable. A lot of the guys in the school, discluding the Slytherins, are always tailing her, making sure she doesnt fall out a window and what not. Shes a real good friend, too.

Cedric: Before he died, he had these words to say, I always sort of fancied her.

What the Teachers Think of You:


Dumbledore: Before he died, he had these words to say, A kind and caring girl. She seemed to have a knack for healing. Shed make a great medic.

McGonagall: Shes not very good at Transfiguration. She never fully transforms her animals or objects.

Hagrid: Shes a doll. Too bad her clumsiness scares a lot o the creatures away.

Snape: He is currently on the run from the law, but beforehand, he had these words to say, The girl was a bit of a nuisance. She was worse than Longbottom.

Flitwick: A GENIUS! She was exceptionally good at Charms.

Sprout: A sweet girl. She handled all the plant with care. Until she dropped them

What the Other People Think of You:


Lupin: I dont recall that name Was she a student of mine?

Sirius Black: Before he died, he had these words to say, Never heard of her.

Mr. Weasley: As brilliant as they come. She knows all sorts of thing about muggles.

Mrs. Weasley: She reminds me of Arthur Shes also a decent cook as well.

Voldie: *has no idea who you are*


Overall Reputation: Bubbly Klutz ]]> ~Chrysbane http://Chrysbane.deviantart.com/journal/10024736/ http://Chrysbane.deviantart.com/journal/10024736/ Sun, 10 Sep 2006 05:50:28 PDT
Thanks in advance, all!

~Chrysbane ]]> ~Chrysbane http://Chrysbane.deviantart.com/journal/10012050/ http://Chrysbane.deviantart.com/journal/10012050/ Fri, 08 Sep 2006 18:10:05 PDT
Oh, wow, so tired... Gonna fall asleep... 'Night now!

~Chrysbane ]]> ~Chrysbane