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my apologies. I'll be on more during the holidays.

~Claudia

]]> ~ClaudiaCasanova http://ClaudiaCasanova.deviantart.com/journal/25494451/ http://ClaudiaCasanova.deviantart.com/journal/25494451/ Tue, 23 Jun 2009 11:59:07 PDT
work.

work.

work...

and yes, you guessed it, more work. -__-

I so look forward to reading everyones new pieces! I just need 24 more hours in the day! But doesn't everyone? lol

Never the less my work on DA calls for my attention.

I will be adding some newish pieces from a few months back and veiwing some of my watchers pieces.

And...GOOD NEWS! I will be getting my labtop soon for I will be a freshman all over again this fall. What does this mean...?

More time for Da.

]]> ~ClaudiaCasanova http://ClaudiaCasanova.deviantart.com/journal/23987710/ http://ClaudiaCasanova.deviantart.com/journal/23987710/ Tue, 31 Mar 2009 14:56:40 PDT
These have taken up my time for the three months I have been missing from the DA scene.

I had forgotten the joy of the simple hum of the computer, a-buzz with the fragrent lines of poetry and pieces of art that drive the center of my soul.

It's good to be back. Thank you for your patience.

~ Claudia

]]> ~ClaudiaCasanova http://ClaudiaCasanova.deviantart.com/journal/18854865/ http://ClaudiaCasanova.deviantart.com/journal/18854865/ Sun, 15 Jun 2008 12:46:32 PDT
So, in light of all the events that had recently filled up every waking moment of my free time I am now coming back to Da with a goal.

To keep myself active, I'd like to read at least ten poems of my watchers a day. Also, Photography spams my mail box and for every ten that spam my inbox I will look at them all and comment on my favorite. Albeit, if there are more then one that I fancy I will comment on them all.

Now, for the creative spark I require to stay active on Da. I'd like to update at a minimum of three poems a week. I write like a madwoman and would like so very much to enlighten the poets of Da to my recent dilly dallyings in the written word.

So, hit me up with your beautiful works of creativity and I will be sure to crtitique my little heart away.

Forgive my tomfollery lovely's.

]]> ~ClaudiaCasanova http://ClaudiaCasanova.deviantart.com/journal/17764769/ http://ClaudiaCasanova.deviantart.com/journal/17764769/ Wed, 09 Apr 2008 14:03:07 PDT
"you get out what you put into it, in any given situation"

Right now, I'm not putting into Da. I need more free time -___-

896 deviations....300 of them spam like normal.

I'll get to them! ;]

]]> ~ClaudiaCasanova http://ClaudiaCasanova.deviantart.com/journal/17212936/ http://ClaudiaCasanova.deviantart.com/journal/17212936/ Thu, 06 Mar 2008 16:35:53 PST Softball starts up for me next week, so I will be uber happy to play my favorite position. CENTER BABY

I have written a few poems in the past two weeks. Did she show too much cleavage, unrequited prayer of brevity, and Mothers Earings...oh, that last I forgot to post on here. *shurgs shoulders* anywho, they are my best yet, in my opionion, and I will be reading them at a poetry clud tommorrow. Ragged Edge in Gettysburg. <3 Great poetry community, btw. My professor really appreciates my work, and is helping me submit it too uptenth different contests and magazines and such. I just have to find the time to sit down and let the hits come. =] *Tis a bit Lazy*

I havent been very active on Da and I can tell by the amount of comments on my pieces. =[ I will definately be making an effort tonight to see to all of the deviations I have piled up!

So, just as a shout out, I'm around. Just slightly dsitracted with school and work, hapkido and softball...and belly dancing. So, have patience with me

~ Claudia

btw, check this poet out. He is terrific!



]]> ~ClaudiaCasanova http://ClaudiaCasanova.deviantart.com/journal/16849060/ http://ClaudiaCasanova.deviantart.com/journal/16849060/ Tue, 12 Feb 2008 13:49:26 PST
It is valentines week! Do you remember last febuary? Was it amazing? sad? happy? etc? Would you be inspired to write a poem about it? If so, I am prompting you now to write a poem and send me a link to it! The theme is valentines day: the only holiday focusing on the sappyness of love. Or if you so wish it, the satire of love: beat it up!

I will be checking soon as many poems as I can, but along with softball I have hapkido classes...so, I will try my hardest!

~Courtney

p.s, ELLI, note me

]]> ~ClaudiaCasanova http://ClaudiaCasanova.deviantart.com/journal/15525065/ http://ClaudiaCasanova.deviantart.com/journal/15525065/ Thu, 15 Nov 2007 18:50:43 PST
p.s I got a JOB XD XD XD XD XD XD

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Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

[link]

"Your Guardian Angel"

When I see your smile
Tears run down my face I can't replace
And now that I'm strong I have figured out
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

It's okay. It's okay. It's okay.
Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one

I will never let you fall (let you fall)
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all (through it all)
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Cuz you're my, you're my, my, my true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away and
Please tell me you'll stay woah, stay woah

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be okay
Though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
[to fade]

]]> ~ClaudiaCasanova http://ClaudiaCasanova.deviantart.com/journal/14414866/ http://ClaudiaCasanova.deviantart.com/journal/14414866/ Thu, 30 Aug 2007 18:03:05 PDT
*If you love them, let them go, but if they come back to you, hold and cherish them forever.*

]]> ~ClaudiaCasanova http://ClaudiaCasanova.deviantart.com/journal/14194030/ http://ClaudiaCasanova.deviantart.com/journal/14194030/ Thu, 16 Aug 2007 10:22:50 PDT No silly's, i'm not leaving you guys. Well, yes I am, but not in that way. I'm going on vacation! Finally, after the duration of this long summer! Thank god! lol, this is almost as rad as when I finally saw Allan last sunday. Happiness, lol. Ok dok's so yeah, I'm leaving on .... well, tommorrow night around sevenish, and I need to pack...and...I need sooo many more bags...for my shoes and makeup and... that makes me sad...packing...WHY oh WHY do I wait till the last minute? Cuz, I'm a procrastinator yah, so...I'm going to try and submit some things early, recently I've been polishing some free verse, and working on another prose work. Aw, man, you guys are going to love this one! I might include some sexual scenes in it, but it focuses around the fantasy of heaven and hell. Which might very well be the title! I'm going to work on it when i'm at the beach, the I hate not working on the comp So, I bid you ado, my loves!

[link] Shania Twain: From this moment on

(I do swear that I'll always be there. I'd give anything
and everything and I will always care. Through weakness
and strength, happiness and sorrow, for better, for worse,
I will love you with every beat of my heart.)

From this moment life has begun
From this moment you are the one
Right beside you is where I belong
From this moment on

From this moment I have been blessed
I live only for your happiness
And for your love I'd give my last breath
From this moment on

I give my hand to you with all my heart
Can't wait to live my life with you, can't wait to start
You and I will never be apart
My dreams came true because of you

From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment on

You're the reason I believe in love
And you're the answer to my prayers from up above
All we need is just the two of us
My dreams came true because of you

From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment
I will love you as long as I live
From this moment on

]]> ~ClaudiaCasanova http://ClaudiaCasanova.deviantart.com/journal/14163008/ http://ClaudiaCasanova.deviantart.com/journal/14163008/ Tue, 14 Aug 2007 10:07:39 PDT
[link]
Animal I have become: three days grace.

Animal I Have Become lyrics

I can't escape this hell
So many times i've tried
But i'm still caged inside
Somebody get me through this nightmare
I can't control myself

So what if you can see the darkest side of me?
No one will ever change this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal
(This animal, this animal)

I can't escape myself
(I can't escape myself)
So many times i've lied
(So many times i've lied)
But there's still rage inside
Somebody get me through this nightmare
I can't control myself

So what if you can see the darkest side of me?
No one will ever change this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal

Somebody help me through this nightmare
I can't control myself
Somebody wake me from this nightmare
I can't escape this hell

(This animal, this animal, this animal, this animal, this animal, this animal, this animal)

So what if you can see the darkest side of me?
No one will ever change this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal
(This animal I have become)

Hate is a terrible thing, that challenges friendships and loyalties. I'm trying to overcome it...as daunting a task that seems. I am winning small battles...even if their in my head. They are there, and they are important to me. When you get hurt because someone you love gets hurt, it is hard to get over. Then , if you get hurt through that, because the hurt was meant for you...it's even worse. I have never had the ugly pleasure to hate before. And it challenges everything I thought I was. I'm trying to overcome it, I really am. For the sake of the one I love, my family, my friends, and most importantly myself. If you allow hate to rule your life...you have no life at all. I don't know what that will mean if I ever need to beat the living shit out of her for him, or any other one of my friends. But...I don't think I need hate to do that...and that makes me feel calmer, and mroe confident that I can get over this, and move on. I want to start over at my new school, and go to homecoming with zac and allan, and meet now people..and not be afraid to trust anymore...I want to give my trust out like candy like I used to... I want to grow from this. And I want to thank you all for reading this, and thank my friends...for dealing with so much from me. It's hard to understand what I feel, and I thank God you are still here with me...after everything I put you through because of this hate, and fear, and insecurity. Im going to try, everyone..I'm not going to give up. And thank you nick...you really have helped me to overcome alot in this...thank you.

]]> ~ClaudiaCasanova http://ClaudiaCasanova.deviantart.com/journal/14041161/ http://ClaudiaCasanova.deviantart.com/journal/14041161/ Mon, 06 Aug 2007 09:27:55 PDT
"Existentialism On Prom Night" [link]

When the sun came up,
We were sleeping in,
Sunk inside our blankets,
Sprawled across the bed,
And we were dreaming,

There are moments when,
When I know it and
The world revolves around us,
And we're keeping it,
Keep it all going,
This delicate balance,
Vulnerable all knowing,

Sing like you think no one's listening,
You would kill for this,
Just a little bit,
Just a little bit,
You would, kill for this

Sing like you think no one's listening,
You would kill for this,
Just a little bit,
Just a little bit,
You would, you would...

Sing me something soft,
Sad and delicate,
Or loud and out of key,
Sing me anything,
we're glad for what we've got,
Done with what we've lost
Our whole lives laid out right in front of us,

Sing like you think no one's listening,
You would kill for this,
Just a little bit,
Just a little bit,
You would,

Sing like you think no one's listening,
You would kill for this,
Just a little bit,
Just a little bit,
You would, you would....

Sing me something soft,
Sad and delicate,
Or loud and out of key,
Sing me anything.

]]> ~ClaudiaCasanova http://ClaudiaCasanova.deviantart.com/journal/13983938/ http://ClaudiaCasanova.deviantart.com/journal/13983938/ Thu, 02 Aug 2007 09:33:36 PDT
1. Name three nationalities / cultures you wish you were:
- uh Italian
- French
- More Irish?

2. Name three people (famous or not) you wish you were:
- uh...none...i like myslef...same goes for the above questions

3. Name three famous people you wish you were dating / married to:
- ermm... Guy form king kong
- guy from legally blonde
-guy from harry potter, SNAPE


4. Name three personality traits you wish you had:
- er... i like mine... idk..


5. Name three physical traits you wish you had:
- uh...tighter stomach
- more toned arms
-more toned legs

6. Name three types of people you wish you were (i.e.> cowboy, samurai, etc.)
- ah... vampire
- lycan
- ninja

7. Name three skills you wish you had:
- ah...whistle
- to pull the table cloth from under the glasses and plates
- telepathy


8. Name three cartoon characters you wish you were:
- Blade
- like not wish...

9. Name three deviants you wish would answer this tag:
- ha,





Escape the Fate Not Goog Enough for Truth in Cliche
Let's go.[x2]

Hurtful words,
From my enemies of the last five years,
What's it like to die alone?

How does it feel when tears freeze,
When you cry?
The blood in your veins is twenty below.

[Chorus:]
Sitting in this room playing Russian roulette,
Finger on the trigger to my dear Juliet,
Out from the window see your back drop silhouette,
This blood on my hands is something I cannot forget,
[x2]
Something I cannot forget.

So for now, take this down a notch,
Crash my car through your window,
Make sure you're still alive,
Just in time to kill you,

[Chorus x2]

I can't take this (take) anymore. [x4]
(I cannot feel what you've done to me)

So for now, take this down a notch,
Crash my car through your window, window

]]> ~ClaudiaCasanova http://ClaudiaCasanova.deviantart.com/journal/13967980/ http://ClaudiaCasanova.deviantart.com/journal/13967980/ Wed, 01 Aug 2007 08:24:47 PDT
YellowCard : Empty apartment [link]
Call me out
You stayed inside
One you love
Is where you hide
Shot me down
As I flew by
Crash and burn
I think sometimes
You forget where the heart is

Answer no to these questions
Let her go, learn a lesson
It's not me, you're not listening
Now, can't you see something's missing
You forget where the heart is

Take you away from that empty apartment
You stay, and forget where the heart is
Someday if ever you loved me you'd say, it's okay

Waking up from this nightmare
How's your life?
What's it like there?
Is it all what you want it to be?
Does it hurt when you think about me?
And how broken my heart is

Take you away from that empty apartment
You stay, and forget where the heart is
Someday if ever you loved me you'd say, it's okay

It's okay to be angry and never let go
It only gets harder the more that you know
When you get lonely if no one's around
You know that I'll catch you when you're falling down
We came together but you left alone
And I know how it feels to walk out on your own
Maybe someday I will see you again
And you'll look me in my eyes and call me your friend

Take you away from that empty apartment
You stay, and forget where the heart is
Someday if ever you loved me you'd say, it's okay

It's okay
It's okay

]]> ~ClaudiaCasanova http://ClaudiaCasanova.deviantart.com/journal/13925719/ http://ClaudiaCasanova.deviantart.com/journal/13925719/ Sun, 29 Jul 2007 10:30:31 PDT
Ok...got tagged. 6 weird things about myself.

1.) I love reading or watching anything gory. Give me a bloody movie and I'm hooked. Though, coinsidently, the sight of blood on someone I love scares the shit out of me.

2.) I put myself in very difficult positions, thinking that they will prevent me from making a bad decision...and I end up making the desicion anyway. Just makes it harder to make it.

3.) When I sleep, I don't sleep under the covers, I sleep ontop of them. With Allan's bear in my arms, and nakedness. lol. I hate wearing clothes when I sleep.

4.) I say I'm sorry for almost everything. Things that are my fault or aren't. Everything is my fault someway, somehow, or at least thats how I see things.

5.) I love anything ancient, Native american, celtish, irish...that sort of thing.

6.) well...recently established... is my love of torturing *cough*cough* DIES in my dreams...I wake up smiling.

7.) I write really depressing poetry when I should be happy. Go figure XD

]]> ~ClaudiaCasanova http://ClaudiaCasanova.deviantart.com/journal/13845973/ http://ClaudiaCasanova.deviantart.com/journal/13845973/ Mon, 23 Jul 2007 12:02:42 PDT
Hinder: Lips of an Angel
Honey why are you calling me so late?
It's kinda hard to talk right now.
Honey why you´re crying? Is everything okay?
I've gotta whisper 'cause I can't be too loud

Oh Well, my girls in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice say my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak

And I
never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's funny that you're calling me tonight
And, yes, I've dreamed of you too
Does he know you're talking to me?
Will it start a fight?
No I don't think she has a clue

Oh Well, my girls in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice say my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak

And I
never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's really good to hear your voice say my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak

And I
never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

And I
never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

Honey why you calling me so late?

]]> ~ClaudiaCasanova http://ClaudiaCasanova.deviantart.com/journal/13754564/ http://ClaudiaCasanova.deviantart.com/journal/13754564/ Mon, 16 Jul 2007 08:44:38 PDT
[link]

Right now he's probably slow dancing with a beach blond tramp,
and she's probably getting frisky...
right now, he's probably buying her some fruity little drink cause she can't shoot whiskey...

Right now, he's probably up behind her with a pool-stick, showing her how to shoot a combo...

And he don't know...

That I dug my key into the side of his pretty little souped up 4 wheel drive,
carved my name into his leather seats...
I took a Louisville slugger to both headlights,
slashed a hole in all 4 tires...

Maybe next time he'll think before he cheats.

Right now, she's probably up singing some
white-trash version of Shania karaoke..
Right now, she's probably saying "I'm drunk"
and he's a thinking that he's gonna get lucky,
Right now, he's probably dabbing on 3 dollars worth of that bathroom polo...
And he don't know...

That I dug my key into the side of his pretty little souped up 4 wheel drive,
carved my name into his leather seats,
I took a Louisville slugger to both headlights,
slashed a hole in all 4 tires...

Maybe next time he'll think before he cheats.

I might've saved a little trouble for the next girl,
Cause the next time that he cheats...

Oh, you know it won't be on me!

No...not on me
'Cause I dug my key into the side of his pretty little souped up 4 wheel drive,
carved my name into his leather seats...
I took a Louisville slugger to both headlights,
slashed a hole in all 4 tires...

Maybe next time he'll think before he cheats.

Oh.. Maybe next time he'll think before he cheats...

Ohh... before he cheats...

]]> ~ClaudiaCasanova http://ClaudiaCasanova.deviantart.com/journal/13657642/ http://ClaudiaCasanova.deviantart.com/journal/13657642/ Sun, 08 Jul 2007 11:09:55 PDT
~ Will be added as a deviation. 2007, July.

~~ Never trade treasure for trash; for when you realize your loss, it's too late.~~ New sticky in my comment box, again, ~2007, July

~Claudia Casanova

Flyleaf: all around me

My hands are searching for you
My arms are outstretched towards you
I feel you on my fingertips
My tongue dances behind my lips for you

This fire rising through my being
Burning I'm not used to seeing you

I'm alive, I'm alive

I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing

My hands float up above me
And you whisper you love me
And I begin to fade
Into our secret place

The music makes me sway
The angels singing say we are alone with you
I am alone and they are too with you

I'm alive, I'm alive

I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing

And so I cry
The light is white
And I see you

I'm alive, I'm alive, I'm alive

I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing

Take my hand
I give it to you
Now you owe me
All I am
You said you would never leave me
I believe you
I believe

I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healed

]]> ~ClaudiaCasanova http://ClaudiaCasanova.deviantart.com/journal/13632286/ http://ClaudiaCasanova.deviantart.com/journal/13632286/ Fri, 06 Jul 2007 09:37:59 PDT -----------------------------------------------------------------------------
advice....
WHEN SHE ACTS SHY
-SAY I LOVE YOU

WHEN SHE RUNS AWAY FROM YOU
- CHASE HER

WHEN SHE PUTS HER FACE NEAR YOURS
- KISS HER

WHEN SHE KICKS & PUNCHES
- HOLD HER TIGHT

WHEN SHE IS SILENT
- SHE'S THINKIN OF HOW TO SAY I LOVE YOU

WHEN SHE IGNORES YOU
- SHE WANTS ALL YOUR ATTENTION!

WHEN SHE PULLS AWAY
- GRAB HER BY THE WAIST AND NEVER LET GO

WHEN YOU SEE HER AT HER WORST
- TELL HER SHE'S BEAUTIFUL!*

WHEN SHE SCREAMS AT YOU
- TELL HER YOU LOVE HER BUT MEAN IT

WHEN YOU SEE HER WALKING
-SNEAK UP BEHIND HER GRAB HER BY THE WAIST AND GIVE HER A KISS

WHEN SHE'S SCARED!!!!!!!!!
-HOLD HER AND TELL HER EVERYTHING WILL BE OK CAUSE SHE'S WITH YOU

WHEN SHE LOOKS LIKE SOMETHINGS THE MATTER
- KISS HER AND TELL HER NOT TO WORRY BECAUSE YOURE THERE

WHILE SHE HOLDS YOUR HANDS
- PLAY WITH HER FINGERS
-----------------------------------------
post this in the next 69 seconds and you
will have the
best day of your life this week
and the one u love will either...
KiSS YOU,
ASK YOU OUT....,
OR CALL YOU...,
OR TEXT YOU.......,
.....OR
BETTER.........
REPOST THiS TiTLED ''WHY BOYS AND GIRLS FUCK"


Do it! re post! lol, I hate chain letters:-p


http://ClaudiaCasanova.deviantart.com/journal/13606516/ Wed, 04 Jul 2007 11:44:11 PDT
"Happy Independence day! You get to celebrate:
*Expensive healthcarre
*George Bush
*A pointless war over oil.
*And many other GREAT benifits of being an independed state "

Mind you he is not form the good ol' U S of A's but meh. Happy fourth of July everyone! Here is a song I thought was great for today, to add more dripping sarcasim! [link]lindex=4 there is the link to it. It's caleld hourglass by Lamb of God

Privileged, a chosen few
Blessed with our time in hell
Witness a divine vision, the day we all fell still
Rapture of the dying age, a shattered hourglass
Wrath of the warring gods and so this too shall pass
Its only getting worse, not worth a moments regret
Each dawn another curse, every breath a twisting blade
What will be left behind in the ashes of the wake?

An ill wind blows this way, th edge of the envelope burns
For bearance and my vengeance, payment for your intent
Fear and death in the wings, in thrall of those fallen from grace
Petty is as petty does, witness the mass disgrace
God forbid you read the signs
watch for meanings between the lines

Gehenna has now arrived, no hindsight for the blind
Your trust has been misplaced, believed the lies told to your face
Became another casualty and now its too late
You finally made it home, draped in the flag that you fell for
And so it goes
The ashes of the wake



http://ClaudiaCasanova.deviantart.com/journal/13606503/ Wed, 04 Jul 2007 11:43:11 PDT
"Happy Independence day! You get to celebrate:
*Expensive healthcarre
*George Bush
*A pointless war over oil.
*And many other GREAT benifits of being an independed state "

Mind you he is not form the good ol' U S of A's but meh. Happy fourth of July everyone! Here is a song I thought was great for today, to add more dripping sarcasim! [link]lindex=4 there is the link to it. It's caleld hourglass by Lamb of God

Privileged, a chosen few
Blessed with our time in hell
Witness a divine vision, the day we all fell still
Rapture of the dying age, a shattered hourglass
Wrath of the warring gods and so this too shall pass
Its only getting worse, not worth a moments regret
Each dawn another curse, every breath a twisting blade
What will be left behind in the ashes of the wake?

An ill wind blows this way, th edge of the envelope burns
For bearance and my vengeance, payment for your intent
Fear and death in the wings, in thrall of those fallen from grace
Petty is as petty does, witness the mass disgrace
God forbid you read the signs
watch for meanings between the lines

Gehenna has now arrived, no hindsight for the blind
Your trust has been misplaced, believed the lies told to your face
Became another casualty and now its too late
You finally made it home, draped in the flag that you fell for
And so it goes
The ashes of the wake



http://ClaudiaCasanova.deviantart.com/journal/13606501/ Wed, 04 Jul 2007 11:43:02 PDT
"Happy Independence day! You get to celebrate:
*Expensive healthcarre
*George Bush
*A pointless war over oil.
*And many other GREAT benifits of being an independed state "

Mind you he is not form the good ol' U S of A's but meh. Happy fourth of July everyone! Here is a song I thought was great for today, to add more dripping sarcasim! [link]lindex=4 there is the link to it. It's caleld hourglass by Lamb of God

Privileged, a chosen few
Blessed with our time in hell
Witness a divine vision, the day we all fell still
Rapture of the dying age, a shattered hourglass
Wrath of the warring gods and so this too shall pass
Its only getting worse, not worth a moments regret
Each dawn another curse, every breath a twisting blade
What will be left behind in the ashes of the wake?

An ill wind blows this way, th edge of the envelope burns
For bearance and my vengeance, payment for your intent
Fear and death in the wings, in thrall of those fallen from grace
Petty is as petty does, witness the mass disgrace
God forbid you read the signs
watch for meanings between the lines

Gehenna has now arrived, no hindsight for the blind
Your trust has been misplaced, believed the lies told to your face
Became another casualty and now its too late
You finally made it home, draped in the flag that you fell for
And so it goes
The ashes of the wake



http://ClaudiaCasanova.deviantart.com/journal/13606485/ Wed, 04 Jul 2007 11:41:37 PDT
"Happy Independence day! You get to celebrate:
*Expensive healthcarre
*George Bush
*A pointless war over oil.
*And many other GREAT benifits of being an independed state "

Mind you he is not form the good ol' U S of A's but meh. Happy fourth of July everyone! Here is a song I thought was great for today, to add more dripping sarcasim! [link]lindex=4 there is the link to it. It's caleld hourglass by Lamb of God

Privileged, a chosen few
Blessed with our time in hell
Witness a divine vision, the day we all fell still
Rapture of the dying age, a shattered hourglass
Wrath of the warring gods and so this too shall pass
Its only getting worse, not worth a moments regret
Each dawn another curse, every breath a twisting blade
What will be left behind in the ashes of the wake?

An ill wind blows this way, th edge of the envelope burns
For bearance and my vengeance, payment for your intent
Fear and death in the wings, in thrall of those fallen from grace
Petty is as petty does, witness the mass disgrace
God forbid you read the signs
watch for meanings between the lines

Gehenna has now arrived, no hindsight for the blind
Your trust has been misplaced, believed the lies told to your face
Became another casualty and now its too late
You finally made it home, draped in the flag that you fell for
And so it goes
The ashes of the wake



http://ClaudiaCasanova.deviantart.com/journal/13579683/ Mon, 02 Jul 2007 14:51:57 PDT It's called degrees-of-love and it's pure amazingness. There is an icon in my journal friends beloew this if you are interested! Romance poetry! Beautiful thing! So, anyway, cross fingers for me ok guys? I enterred a contest for Poetic War and it was the mythology poettry contest! I hope I do ok. Really hope I do. I had alot of people tell me it was good so *crosses fingers for She Was Worth the Fall of Troy"
In other news, lol. I posted a literature news letter thig here on Da. Yay1 I felt stupid because i couldn't find the literature section. :-p felt way stupid.
For a bit of depressin news...my dog died today. He was fifteen, and had a good run. But seisures came around and took away his fun. (a horrid time for poetry bits) but ya. He was diabetic and blind. Fighting death for a few years. It's kinda shocking, but we'll get through it. *R.I.P. kirby, darlin.*
Um, since I'm talking depressing, I figured I'd clue you in to whats going on with the X. Being an X, what else can I say. Wanted to claim bear as his own today, fought him on it for a few days. Gave up. Said I didn't care anymore.... he gave in. Bleh. I think he honestly WANTS me to get over emotional, and stir things up. Zac has been an amazing job with this whole situation. <3 Affection you zac<3 I wrote my first poem for him too. It is called To Me.
Thus I will end this on a happy note, dispite unhappy times around it. Zac and I have been together for quite a while now. Makes me very happy. And I am enjoying getting to know him more and more. Though it is more like learning about an extension of myself. But that's cool too! We are going on a picnic tommorrow, and swimming. Much fun to be had, and he could possibly be coming down to Nc with me! Things are looking up, and I'm happy! Hard to believe, but under the surface happy! Yay! lol, ok, i'm going to stp ranting. Thanks for reading, and read some more!

~Claudia Casanova




http://ClaudiaCasanova.deviantart.com/journal/13510493/ Wed, 27 Jun 2007 10:12:38 PDT [link] the video

Home by Three Days Grace

[link] the song

Temposhark Is It Better to Have Loved?

You didn’t wait for me to help you out

I would’ve stayed to clear those final doubts

How suddenly the whole world can change overnight

How suddenly the whole world knows your name



And I find myself questioning all that I have done

And I’m trying to press the button to rewind

And I find myself whispering ‘There’s more I could have done’

And I wish I had the option to rewind



Is it better to have loved than not at all?

Is it better to have loved than not at all?



I’m not the same; it feels like I’m missing out

The sky has drained now I must live without

How suddenly the whole world can change overnight

How suddenly the whole world sings your name



And I find myself questioning all that I have done

And I’m trying to press the button to rewind

And I find myself whispering ‘God, what have you done?’

And I wish I had the option to rewind



Is it better to have loved than not at all?

Is it better to have loved than not at all?



I find myself thinking; I hope I can inspire

The subtleties you taught me to admire



And I find myself whispering ‘God, what have you done?’

And I wish I had the option to rewind



Is it better to have loved than not at all?

Is it better to have loved than not at all?

It's an amazing song, I can't get enough of three days grace


http://ClaudiaCasanova.deviantart.com/journal/13472615/ Sun, 24 Jun 2007 13:50:27 PDT nothing much happenin here. lol.


: iconwriterscommunity : big thanks

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~Claudia

]]> ~ClaudiaCasanova http://ClaudiaCasanova.deviantart.com/journal/13339084/ http://ClaudiaCasanova.deviantart.com/journal/13339084/ Thu, 14 Jun 2007 06:49:48 PDT To all of my faithful Da readers who have comented and helped me make desicions on the obstacles facing me in my life, I owe you all a big thanks and a . As many of you well know, my life has been quite hectic lately, what with moving, divorce, betrayel in love and forgiveness, and all of the tests of faith in between. It's been hard, but I am quite happy to know that I have some solstice to go to when everything gets hard. Thank you all so much because, honestly, I could not have figured alot of theses things out without your guidance and love.
This monday two big events happened for me. For those of you who have been keeping up with my Allan situation... this was really important to me. after cheating, lying, and all of the mental abuse(for those who haven't read my previous journals) I finally gave up and wrote him a letter detailing everything he has done to me in the past month starting with him guilting me to talk with him again. It was rough, it took everything I had not to pick up the damned telephone and call him and apologize for what I said but thank s to everyone, bloodytears of remorse, dollfaced raved, elli zac, and all of the awesome Da readers, I held fast and strong and did what I needed to in order to start fixing things.
Allan called me on monday and said he was sorry and wanted to apologize in person! He said he knew how important it was to me, and he wanted to talk about it with me when I came over. I was so incredibly happy, I cried. He was completely sincere this time, absolutely sincere when he spoke. Now we can finally start to make a lasting friendship out of all the turmoil. I can say right now that it will not be all butterfly's and daisy's though. Just last night I realized it was going to be really hard, and there are going to be tears along the way. He is bipolar, and that makes things incredibly difficult for me. But I am willing to face his problems, ALL of them, if he is willing to start growing into all the things I know he will. This is really a good thing, a very, very good start. I need a good friend right now, and he needs one too. More than he needs a girlfriend. He said he is starting ot fall in love with me again, and I wasn't expecting that till the end of summer, but... I guess it doesn't change things in the slightest. We'll have to seehow this plays out, but i'm hopeful that his feelings and my feelings won't challenge our friendship.
Second amazing thing that happened on monday. I wen ton my date with zac It was alot of fun, because we went trolling on the fishing boat in Condorus. Did you know it was a man made lake! Unbelievable. But what was more unbelivable was the fact that Zac asked me out and... I said YES! I am really excited about this relationship because I know it is alot better for me then if I choose to wait for Allan. I am really happy right now bacause things really seem to be looking up for me. It's summer, I have a summer romance with the nicest guy I have met and liked, and I am making things work for a friendship I want to maintain until the day I die. And it is all thank to you, my lovely friends, and my family, and everyone who has cared so much for me. I am truely imdebted to you all. Thank you so much for lending me your ears, time, and advice. I hope to please you all with the outcome of these new occurances in my life. Again, thank you all so much for your patience and lending me your strength.

]]> ~ClaudiaCasanova http://ClaudiaCasanova.deviantart.com/journal/13339065/ http://ClaudiaCasanova.deviantart.com/journal/13339065/ Thu, 14 Jun 2007 06:47:23 PDT To all of my faithful Da readers who have comented and helped me make desicions on the obstacles facing me in my life, I owe you all a big thanks and a . As many of you well know, my life has been quite hectic lately, what with moving, divorce, betrayel in love and forgiveness, and all of the tests of faith in between. It's been hard, but I am quite happy to know that I have some solstice to go to when everything gets hard. Thank you all so much because, honestly, I could not have figured alot of theses things out without your guidance and love.
This monday two big events happened for me. For those of you who have been keeping up with my Allan situation... this was really important to me. after cheating, lying, and all of the mental abuse(for those who haven't read my previous journals) I finally gave up and wrote him a letter detailing everything he has done to me in the past month starting with him guilting me to talk with him again. It was rough, it took everything I had not to pick up the damned telephone and call him and apologize for what I said but thank s to everyone, bloodytears of remorse, dollfaced raved, elli zac, and all of the awesome Da readers, I held fast and strong and did what I needed to in order to start fixing things.
Allan called me on monday and said he was sorry and wanted to apologize in person! He said he knew how important it was to me, and he wanted to talk about it with me when I came over. I was so incredibly happy, I cried. He was completely sincere this time, absolutely sincere when he spoke. Now we can finally start to make a lasting friendship out of all the turmoil. I can say right now that it will not be all butterfly's and daisy's though. Just last night I realized it was going to be really hard, and there are going to be tears along the way. He is bipolar, and that makes things incredibly difficult for me. But I am willing to face his problems, ALL of them, if he is willing to start growing into all the things I know he will. This is really a good thing, a very, very good start. I need a good friend right now, and he needs one too. More than he needs a girlfriend. He said he is starting ot fall in love with me again, and I wasn't expecting that till the end of summer, but... I guess it doesn't change things in the slightest. We'll have to seehow this plays out, but i'm hopeful that his feelings and my feelings won't challenge our friendship.
Second amazing thing that happened on monday. I wen ton my date with zac It was alot of fun, because we went trolling on the fishing boat in Condorus. Did you know it was a man made lake! Unbelievable. But what was more unbelivable was the fact that Zac asked me out and... I said YES! I am really excited about this relationship because I know it is alot better for me then if I choose to wait for Allan. I am really happy right now bacause things really seem to be looking up for me. It's summer, I have a summer romance with the nicest guy I have met and liked, and I am making things work for a friendship I want to maintain until the day I die. And it is all thank to you, my lovely friends, and my family, and everyone who has cared so much for me. I am truely imdebted to you all. Thank you so much for lending me your ears, time, and advice. I hope to please you all with the outcome of these new occurances in my life. Again, thank you all so much for your patience and lending me your strength.

]]> ~ClaudiaCasanova http://ClaudiaCasanova.deviantart.com/journal/13242676/ http://ClaudiaCasanova.deviantart.com/journal/13242676/ Wed, 06 Jun 2007 17:44:40 PDT Well I am happy to say that my good friend zac has helped me figure out a planish sort of thing. I am to continue with the nonetalking thinger, and see how it goes. If he missesme, and makes a proper apology, and wants to help fix things, it will all be fine. I'm sure there will be set backs, but everything will work out hopefully. If not, then I was really better off without him in the first place. Well i know I am but.... w/e. I need this time to think, and I will love every moment of it. I have my date with zac this wekend, PIRATES THREE! I honestly can't wait. oh! and check out this video [link] , it is filmed by me.

]]> ~ClaudiaCasanova http://ClaudiaCasanova.deviantart.com/journal/13216652/ http://ClaudiaCasanova.deviantart.com/journal/13216652/ Mon, 04 Jun 2007 15:01:10 PDT ~Claudia

]]> ~ClaudiaCasanova http://ClaudiaCasanova.deviantart.com/journal/13103507/ http://ClaudiaCasanova.deviantart.com/journal/13103507/ Sat, 26 May 2007 16:45:47 PDT
"The Outsider"

Help me if you can
It's just that this, this is not the way I'm wired
So could you please,

Help me understand why
You've given in to all these
Reckless dark desires

You're lying to yourself again
Suicidal imbecile
Think about it, put it on the faultline
What'll it take to get it through to you precious
I'm over this. Why do you wanna throw it away like this
Such a mess. Why would I want to watch you.

Disconnect and self destruct one bullet at a time
What's your rush now, everyone will have his day to die

Medicated, drama queen, picture perfect, numb belligerence
Narcissistic, drama queen, craving fame and all its decadence

Lying through your teeth again
Suicidal imbecile
Think about it, put it on the fautline
What'll it take to get it through to you precious
Go with this, why do you wanna throw it away like this
Such a mess. Why would I wanna watch you...

Disconnect and self destruct one bullet at a time
What's your rush now, everyone will have his day to die

They were right about you
They were right about you

Lying to my face again
Suicidal imbecile
Think about it put it on the fautline
What'll it take to get it through to you precious
I'm over this. Why do you wanna throw it away like this
Such a mess, I'm over this, over this!

Disconnect and self destruct, one bullet at a time
What's your hurry, everyone will have his day to die
If you choose to pull the trigger, should your drama prove sincere,
Do it somewhere far away from here

this is an awesome song<3 ... ish

I can actually relate to it ... but mostly it reminds me of Allan. The song is upbeat and really cool, check it out if you get the chance guys.

JOURNAL ENTRY TIME!

Holla everyone! It has been wha', two weeks? Perhaps? Yup. Well.... nothing much to relay ... I am doing better.. but not so... I am going to write some poems about it and put themin my gallery. So that way there won't be so many journals. Read um y'all. Shit! I didn't put an erotic sensor on a poem! cya!
~claudia

]]> ~ClaudiaCasanova http://ClaudiaCasanova.deviantart.com/journal/12900916/ http://ClaudiaCasanova.deviantart.com/journal/12900916/ Wed, 09 May 2007 14:30:31 PDT lol.( bob isn't real Icudk) Today marks one month since my faith, my friends, my will, and my compassion were put to the test. And, i am proud to say that through it all, I have come out victorious!. To recap what I've been through, I'll give you all a crash course

Opportunities:

* *divorce*
* moving an hour away from my school*
*My boyfriend cheating on me*
* My grades slipping*
*allergies*
*finding God*

Basically, these are the troubles that I have faced in the past month. Congrats to me for surving, and coming out on top. Yesterday marked the end of Jackie and Allans relationship(aka, Jackie was the girl he cheated on me with) She said" You need to get some help, and are too serious about our relationship, so I think we should break up" She realized what she did with Allan did'nt bother me because I knew it wouldn't last, it would hurt him, and that she didn't truely care. He did the same thing he did with shelbi, and big surprise, jackie reminded him OF SHELBI, so he made the same mistake with her. He waited until they were well off, and then dropped the bomb about himself to her. Whereas, he told me front and center before we started dating about ALL of his problems, and his past. I can't say what they were, because I am still going to keep my promises. Lets just say he had too many skeletons in his closet, and a few live ones she couldn't even comprehend, needless to say deal with. He isn't talking to her... he must realize what I said about was true this whole time. Or is starting to see it anyway.
Unfortunately, he still thinks I am waiting for him... and little does he know I'm not. Thats an issue I'd rather just ignore because I have erased him completely from my life. So other than that, the challenge is or question: How long do I let him squirm? God knows I still care about him. But unfortunately, there is no way in Heaven or Hell that I would ever EVER, take him back after this. I love him, I'm in love with him, and i know I always will be. He is the most amazing person I have ever met. Unfortunately, greatness comes with time. He is too immature for me to be in a relationship with him right now. As much as I would like to hold him again, and have everything we had before, it is in the past, and the time we had can't be relived. Only remembered and cherished. So, I will be here for him, as a friend, and keep my love unrquited until the day comes when he can treat his mother with respect, can match his fathers strides, can accept resposibility for his actions on his own account, can make desicions by thinking about them: not spur of the moment, when he can fully come to appreciate the man he truely is and step out of the shadows of his past, and problems. The day I tell him I love him, he must be truely ready to love me. And only me. I know that day won't come for a very long time, and before then I realize I might find someone else. But for the moment, this is my desicion. To forgive and forget, and move on with life.
* Kick me, beat me, burn me, hurt me, stab me, step on me, spit in my face, love me, hate me, make me bleed to death, but in the end you have only helped me to win God's race... I have found my place in this world... and I accept my fate with open arms." Newest song I am working on. Copywrighted by MellvilleMusic2007 Love is like friendship on
fire, it's strong.

***** thank you everyone for reading this journal, without your care and advice, it would have been so much harder to have come as far as I have without breaking. Thank you all so much. I love you all.***

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Awesome deviants, and friends of flesh that I adore

http://ClaudiaCasanova.deviantart.com/journal/12831991/ Thu, 03 May 2007 18:52:19 PDT
Since it is may, that means a very short time left at my high school, and the little piece of Heaven that I have been anticipating. Summer. A time for frolic, flirting, food, and fun. I am going to have an amazing summer. Phantom of the Opera in Washington, this June. Sleepovers, Warp Tour, North Carolina, Dollywood...ish, Delaware, Maine... mabye, Russia, and Maryland , my new home state. Everything seems to be looking up for me... even though many would consider it to be... looked down. Ever the optimistic pessimist I have Zack and Bradley to look forward to hanging out with whenever. Tanning with Ulga, Shopping with many, many people, books, music, boys, manga, boys, recording session, boys and bikini's:girls . I have quite an asortment of bathsuits (aka mostly bikini's ) for this summer. Polka dots, hawaiian flowers, triangles, sea shells, roses, and hot pink Can't wait.
Last time I briefed this page, I was going through some hard times. Stuck between a rock and a hard place. Well, I chose the hard place, and it is payin' off I can smile so readily, and easily now. Smiles that come from my heart, and isn't an ack to show that I' am ok. I have made alot of desicions, and yet, haven't. Like I knew the answer all along. I am more comforted now that I have a plan as to what I am going to do with the problems presented to me. Make them opportunities! Everything God gives is a blessing, so I am trying to make do the best that I can Allan... lets start there, shall we? I'm done. Not talking to him for .... eh... lets just say a long time. And lets just say, everything comes back to you tenfold... but for him... it's coming twenty fold. Mabye after he finds out what coming to him... I'll post it. I feel kinda bad but... I can't help what he brings on himself from his desicions, and needless to say, I would never hurt him purposefully. This events come from another outside force. And you can't control other people, so... lets just say he'll get his just deserts. Anyway, that has been solved. I am just going to play it by ear, and when I"M READY (tee hee "i'm ready, I'm ready *spongebob*) I will decide whether or not to include him in my life. Till then, it's smooth sailing, and unfortunately, I am much more happy without him in it... Or fortunately... whichever.
My good friend Tina is coming up for prom today, so I hope I can see her soon whileist she visits. I missed her so much!!!! Unfortunately, when she does, if she comes to the school to see people, she will most likely be faced witht he drama of late that has presented itself. ( sorry in advance Tina, hun) Secondly, I had a dream last night that I was bitten by a very attractive looking vampire.... he kinda looked like elli...( ) A very interesting dream to say the least. I felt ready wired when I woke up... mabye I had to much caffine, or it could be the fact that everyone keep ssaying my crystal light looks like blood. ( Whic it is definately not!!!)
Well, I think that will be all for now. I can't put up my avatars still, but I will try for next time. Just know that I am doing very well, and I owe it in vast , majority to those who have supported m... ]]> ~ClaudiaCasanova http://ClaudiaCasanova.deviantart.com/journal/12734490/ http://ClaudiaCasanova.deviantart.com/journal/12734490/ Wed, 25 Apr 2007 18:38:51 PDT Anyway, as my current readers(love you all) well know, I have been through HELL and back this past month. Neddless to say it has been challenging for me to get back on my feet. More than anything, all I wanted was to find some sort of inner peace, and I found it. Took long enough, but I found it. Allan is dead to me now. Everything that he was... he isn't anymore. He isn't the boy that I loved, at the moment. Right now I am still in the process of figuring out how I am to hope about this whole thing. For awile, perhaps more than a month or two... even the entire summer...I want some time to heal from the hurt he placed on me. Even though he expects it of me to forgive him(because that is how I am), I have. little does he know, I have. As I have once said to him before I love him. And his mistakes are included in that love. In order for him to grow, he needs to make those mistakes. So right now, I think it would be best if I also took some time to make my own mistakes, even if considering him to be dead is one. At the moment, I think I have the right to be selfish. I need time to myself, and for myself. Without coomitment, and no questions asked. He may think I can't handle the truth, and then expect me too(which is a contradiction in itself) but, I can do that without him. Basically this is what I have come up with for this part of my problem-solved equation. I care about him, more than anything, in both mind and heart. God knows I still love him, and I think that makes me the stronger person. As many people have said, I am a strong person. I take on all of the troubles onto my own shoulders... and although that gives me great character and whatnot, and proves that I am a quote"good person" I am an idiot because I suffer too much, not on my account, and get taken advantage of for it. Which is really quite sad, when I think about it. But to counter that.. I believe that it does make me stronger. And I wouldn't take all of the pain, and trouble if it wasn't inmy heart to do so. Like the traveler in the Fruits Basket story... it makes me happy to recieve even the smallest of gifts, after I have given everything that I have to give. I think that is important to defining who I AM, and I would never trade it for the world.
Anyhow, I think I drifted off topic. I love him, and I care for him, and when "I" am ready, i will be there for him again as a friend. Although I care for him, I can't give him everything he had back without question. He needs to learn, again, from his mistakes. And I deserve better than to love someone who thinks he has everything handed to him in life. When the day comes that he understand that he ahs to work for what he needs in life, for what he wants, that is the day that i will consider him a friend, and that is the day that I will carefully, bit by bit, unwrap my heart unto him again. Till then, I have it boxed up. Unfortunately, because of his mistake, I have to be more careful with it than ever, so before he becomes the man who I know he will become... if I find someone who makes me truely happy, even more than he did, I need to be happy for myself. For once.
That being said, my second problem is that well... I guess I have already answered my own question up there, but it would be nice for some advice on your guys part. What should I hope for? Most likely it is something to decide for myself. As his mother say ( her) I would like to see the day when I can say, you screwed up and completely lost everything you had. Though i think it a little harsh, it's the truth. When you trade treasure for trash... you may think for some reason you got the better deal, but in the end... your trash you traded for will fall apart, and your treasure is no longer yours. -sigh- enough of such talk. Bottom line is, for right now, I am free, I am independant, I am WOMAN lol. Life is hard, so I guess it is good to get it all down some times. I know all Jacque has won for herself is misery, but for some reason... I still want that misery... a very small part of me wants it. The second part wants to move on. And the third part, wants to have the boy back I loved... but knows he will never come back again. He might not change, and I might not change, but our desicions change, and righ tnow, thos deesicions decide for us how we will live our lives. * a toast for good desicions on my part and yours*
okay, in non melancholy news, the news that makes up 23 of the hours of my day, I have new boyfriend... but ... there are so many cute guys... I don't think can commit! *irked* At longest I think this might l... ]]> ~ClaudiaCasanova http://ClaudiaCasanova.deviantart.com/journal/12446766/ http://ClaudiaCasanova.deviantart.com/journal/12446766/ Tue, 03 Apr 2007 16:52:38 PDT Taste my tears of sacrifice, and smell the bittersweet tang of my blood.
Kiss me one last soft kiss, "please God, All I need is this" take my hand.
Take my heart. Take my soul. Apologies, youve done that already.
Take my life, and whats left of my breaking heart. And if you've a taste for insanity, I will teach you my newest fettish of the blood bathing art.
Youve taken my mind, you've taken my heart, you've taken my body, and torn me apart. My lifes dedication's still devoted to you, and now there's only this left to do. Release your tempest hold on me Allan. Please let deaths arms set me free. I'm tired, and I've had a good run... but I find by your light there is no other sun. What is left of what was once me, submits, oh-so-easily. If you care, like you say you do, set me free, set me free, because your twisted love is killing me ... gently.

Apologies, there will be no explanation on this. There are no corrections, but many a reason and feeling behind this work of prose/song. I'll be on shortly this week.... I miss Da. but my mind can't wander too long, or my troubles will haunt me. I love you all. Thank you caring to read this. For right now, the love I feel from your hearts brings me to see the new day. I love you all.

]]> ~ClaudiaCasanova http://ClaudiaCasanova.deviantart.com/journal/12220667/ http://ClaudiaCasanova.deviantart.com/journal/12220667/ Sat, 17 Mar 2007 14:23:52 PDT I have a bit of a fettish, there are alot of things I will not do with the number 6.If Allan and I kiss 6 times, we have to make it seven, call six times, seven. etc... And other things not having ot do with Allan, but I am having a bit of a brain fart... Ig... Well, I bought a hello kitty tank last saturday. It's cute Um... we got ten inches of snow last nightish. And got off of school at 12... I got out at 10:30 ! woot. So now I have nothing to do, supposidly "relaxing" ... again, not able to d anythign with Allan, or anyone else. You know it feels horrible when you are embarrssed for your parents mistakes? It really makes you feel quite crudy to apologize for THEM!-sigh- well I am too upset right now , and I have laundry, and I am just plaina and simple... pissed. Talk later everyone.

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http://ClaudiaCasanova.deviantart.com/journal/11936602/ Fri, 23 Feb 2007 15:37:01 PST
That was first leap to the edge of the precipice.

Then, later that night, the one person I can completely trust to talk about anything with, and who will ultimately take all of my pain away, got his cell phone taken away, because he snapped at his mother, when all she did was wonder what her was doing on the computer.... which he wasn't supposed to be on.

That was the second leap to the edge of the precipice.

Today, I recieved my spanish qiuz that I stuidied for incredibly hard. I failed with a 68. She changed the format on the quiz from what we had been practicing in class, and did not tell anyone. Not even the one person with the lowest possible grade in the entire class.

That was the third leap to the edge.

Also, today, when I arrived home fomr school, my dog had gotten into our toilet paper roll.... for the second time, and I got cursed at and ridiculed by my father who then progressed to calling me a baby, and taking my cell phone away. He had the nerve to show my sister and I how to "close a door". I ran outside and bawled because not only did I just have someone dear to me pass away, fail a test, loss phone access with my boyfirend, and get my feelings and hopes of doing anything with Allan this weekend crushed, I have gotten to that time of month where the slightest thing will piss me off. Normally, I will not say anythng if I get pissed. I glare, and retreat to my room for the majority of the night. This time, after all of that, three emotional breakdowns this week, and punishment from my father, I snapped. Honsetly, I give up. I try and I try and I try , and it's never good enough for anyone! Let alone myself. The only person who will truely make me feel like myslef right now, can't even talk to me.

That was the jump off of the precipice.

I guess I am just feeling really crudy right now, despite my accomplishments, and it is terrible. I miss Allan so much, and it hurts that Craig is gone, and I just plain feel like shit. Excuse my language. I really hope that I can feel better tonight, which will most likely come from Allan being able to spend the day with me tommorrow. If that happens, everything will be put into a brighter light, and I won't feel like the world is completely falling apart. ... not completely, halfway...ish. -sigh-

Thank you for reading this long rant. I just needed to get some of my
feelings out because I can't just sit and cry for the rest of the night. Than you all so much

If you could call it "good" news, I have two new poems in my gallery inspired by ~elbethius. Enjoy everyone.

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http://ClaudiaCasanova.deviantart.com/journal/11868960/ Sun, 18 Feb 2007 14:03:42 PST ) but, my boyfriend Allan's was yesterday! He turned 15,(finally, I kid, I kid) I am only four months older than him,so he is extremely happy that we have the same digit behind our age . He got a whole mess of presents... I forgot to bring his with me soo.... I felt horrible. He will get them on tuesday though... still feel aweful about that though. Lets see, presents. He got an awesome down pillow *great to snuggle with*... some other things... some more things... a gothic shop gift card for 50 dollars, a cute card, and some other things I really hope he had a good b-day. He said since I got the chance to spend the day with him, it was great, but... I still feel bad T_T. His parents invited me to come to a Japenese steak house for dinner ( the major part of his b-day gift) and we had alot of fun. The chef tossed a broccoli in the air and he caught it... and mine hit my head b/c it was thrown up to high, and I was tucked in to close... a spectacle. Goodness, I love him so much. All in all I had alot of fun. We currently had a seven day weekend basically because of snow, so that has been fun. I feel guilty b/c I basically sat in front of the computer all day long I joined alot of new writting clubs, so I am going to be busy every day for a long time... mantaining those deviations of the marvoulous writers and artists who I have watched Also, since I do not have a subciption, I have to copy and paste the icons everytime I update my journal... so here they all are for the first time

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~ClaudiaCasanova http://ClaudiaCasanova.deviantart.com/journal/11801669/ http://ClaudiaCasanova.deviantart.com/journal/11801669/ Tue, 13 Feb 2007 16:32:48 PST That makes me sooo happy! The poem is called Violet and [link] here is the link. It is an amazing poem! The writter of this poem is none other than who is an awesome writer and has many interesting philosophy's. Check out his site!

Valentines day is tommorrow and I can't wait because we have off school due to heavy snow fall Of course, I will be sitting inside, near the fire, sipping tea and reading my book.... er and preparing for a speech. I have decided to recite Ulalume by Edgar Allan Poe. Excellent poem, and definately one of my all time favorites.

Mushy stuff

Last weekend Allan and I celebrated Valentines day for we had dance called sadies hawkins and it was so much fun!I love him so much! He arranged for two surprises. One surprise was estting up a dinner( when I had originally thought we were to eat with his family, who I also love with all of my heart). It was candle lit. Literally, no other light was on in that area, and soft music was played from the computer, so an 40 minute music request, his dad made a shrimp pasta that was so awesome, and it was centered around golden plates and there were sprinkeled rose petals on the table(pink) and a candle in the middle of the table( which we toyed with quite a bit. We're such pyro's) The candles that were'nt on the table were set up on the walls and desk surronding the table. And we had black cherry soda in wine glasses. It was so extravigant! He spoils me so much
Before dinner though, we were watching Monk* and then well... long story short, he slipped a very expensive, accent on very expensive, crystal rose into my hand! I have been looking in awe at that rose for the past two years and I never thought anyone would eb in their right mind to buy it for me. Well, not surpriseinly, the one that I hope to spend the rest of my life with did. I love you Allan.

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Clubs and such I have joined


Frie... ]]> ~ClaudiaCasanova http://ClaudiaCasanova.deviantart.com/journal/11674873/ http://ClaudiaCasanova.deviantart.com/journal/11674873/ Sat, 03 Feb 2007 18:05:15 PST Lets see here... Next week is sadies, so I am way excited about that. I get to wear this awesome dress that hugs all of my curves;D. Allan can go to. Yippe! As of late grades have been... plip so... we were having trouble spending time with each other, but no more! Yay! I am going to try and help him keep up with his grades a little more. The gods know I try, but I guess I need to try just a tad bit harder. I gave him some motivation so... that might help! Lately, the reason I haven't been on as much is because I have a new job. I work at a sub shop on friday nights and saturdays, though I got off today. Next week I get to spend some time with my grandmother on wednesday, so that is good too. Ig- test, I just remebered, in which case I need to wrap things up here. I love you all, thanks for reading, and if you know of any good contests coming up, give me a shoutout will ya? Merry Febuary!

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a little bit of a poem. comments welcome

]]> ~ClaudiaCasanova http://ClaudiaCasanova.deviantart.com/journal/11236034/ http://ClaudiaCasanova.deviantart.com/journal/11236034/ Fri, 29 Dec 2006 17:00:55 PST I have wanted that forver, and now I finally get the chance to. Christmas was awesome, my bookshelf is halfway full... full, the other not so much. Since grounding, my books are in the basement or guest room or something. depressing. anywho,I am up 200 dollars thats pretty cool. planning on buying something important that I cant think of... lovely how that works. Allan's good, I guess, if anyone really cares... wow, don't sound too happy do I? dangit all. We are doing alright relationship wise, three month was last .... monday... no tuesday, the 27. Thats awesome, longest I have had in a long time that was mutual... I am really happy though. My poetry might show it, if anyone decides to read my latest in the gallery of mine... They will be up tommorrow or tonightish. Happy new years everyone, be with the ones you love, be it family, friends, or ... you get the idea. I know i will have fun. thaks for reading, hope it gets you up to date with what is up with me as of late. Nothing much really, but, eh., thats for you to decide right? Farewell.

]]> ~ClaudiaCasanova http://ClaudiaCasanova.deviantart.com/journal/11128597/ http://ClaudiaCasanova.deviantart.com/journal/11128597/ Wed, 20 Dec 2006 14:34:40 PST [link] and [link] his journal brought up other issues I wasn't even aware of.[link] Correct me if i'm wrong, but didn't I have the right to have time to think about things? The right to have the freedom of my own emotions? I thought at least that was owed me. He says he loves me, and I know he does but this was just a huge hurt on my part. Then after I recently healed from it, the wound newly scabbed, it's ripped open again by his words in his journal. Get back to me anyone who reads this, I would appreciate it greatly.

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