http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:Corky-chan&section=today deviantART RSS for by:Corky-chan en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Wed, 23 Dec 2009 03:57:31 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/26524663/ http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/26524663/ Tue, 11 Aug 2009 10:36:21 PDT
I want space, I wanted time alone, I was doing shit I didn't want to do, I was saying stuff I didn't think was true or the same as when he said it. In order to keep his happines and have him smile and laugh and feel the world was a place to want to live in, I was killing myself and shoving away my true happiness for myself. So I came to the conclusion we might be breaking up soon and yesterday we...um, I, called it qutis because he considered it over and I considered it over.

My other best friend, has been talking and comforting me, but he loves me the exact same way but is waaay more space giving, understanding, and backs down from me so that neither of us will be more hurt than we are and that my boyfriend...gah, ex-boyfriend, doesn't think "oh you dumped me because aaron was better than I was and you were waiting for that chance to happen" when it's NOT like that. Not one damn bit.

So....I feel elated, but extremely depressed. Brent is taking it VERY hard. His speech falters and doesn't just "flow" he hasn't eaten or drank anything in five days, and last time he tried he continuously threw it up.

So Corky is a very manipulating, horrible, bitch cuz this is what I do to people. In the end all are hurt by me. Though Aaron tells me I better stop saying it, so I do, but in my head it's still there faintly, causing unease when I love people being happy and I am not happy unless my friends are. They are my family they are my world. If I have done something to them that hurts, I want to make up for it. In this case I can't. I would be miserable being forced back into the relationship with Brent.

I just need to find my own happiness and for right now, it's in arms of comfort because aaron knows all and is updated on heart-wrenching pains of Brent. But right now that's all he is is the comfort zone as he has always been. We have settled on being friends, close friends, no more and no less. neither of us will run away and not return which is what we bot hahd decided but then would be devestated by the loss of (in my case) the last person to know everything about anything) and in his (the only one who ever truly cared to know even the dark side of him). T__________________T

And school starts back up monday. Please take my mind off these things. And so this is why I have been only barely coming back to deviantART/ I would love to be on it day after day chatting and drawing and writing with the happiness I once had. But now it's so hard when I also found out - My dad's been married for like a month or just under a month now. He secretly eloped with his girlfriend. Never knew.

]]> ~Corky-chan http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/25940022/ http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/25940022/ Tue, 14 Jul 2009 10:49:04 PDT
Anywayz - of the art situation...... I HAVE TONS AND TONS OF NEW ART!!! THAT's a lot better than I used to draw. Many are completed drawings, some are still in sketch phase, and some are even colored now!!! XDXDXDXD So, within about a week or so I should be able to post at least one drawing as a starting point.

Of requests - I might have to start over, or keep this and eventually do them. It's been so long since they were supposed to be completed. Does anyone even care about their requests? NO! Cuz I was a huge disappointment in everything and anything possible. So therefore!

So here I am. Who's left to say hello?

REQUESTS
- Wants me to draw Kyo (Can we say, I think I completed this?)
- A picture along the lines of [link]
- Kyo from Fruits Basket, my style.
- Pita-ten character (prolly will do Shia or Sasha) ....but, since I'm not good with wings, who knows
- Chesire cat; Sailor Moon
- Draw his character, b-day gift for October 4th.
- Alphonse - damn metal
- My own pirate corgi (don't think this will ever happen, tried an animal the other day....hahahahaha....ha....no, didn't work)
- Draw another Rin Sohma; draw Corky in Halloween outfit (100% not possible)
- October 12. Another b-day gift. I may just color her piccu as the present, because I've been unusually busy and I might forget or end up not doing it for another year as well....... (ehehehehehehehehhe, which is exactly what happened)

Other Requests: Kurama(Aug 29th), Yukiko( I forgot!), (sp?)Zhongyi(Sept. 11?), and Blizzy (Oct. 4?)

]]> ~Corky-chan http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/25765510/ http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/25765510/ Mon, 06 Jul 2009 01:25:45 PDT
Yes people....I've been gone. Same as always. BUT! I have come back with a LAPTOP AND INTERNET OF MY OWN!!! ALL MINE!!! TIS MINE!!!! Only one thing - Fawkes currently in possession of my scanner/printer. So! When we bot hget a moment, I will barge in, ignore her naked mother, scream in agony at her brother, and just flop onto her computer chair and work my fingers at the printer!

Anywayz - of the art situation. As you know....my requests......well, they've been like.........just words on my journal. But I'll have you know I'm working on them you bastards!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <---- updating this is like saying I did nothing. I have tons of new art I think, I must rifle through my notebook, I have "sketches" that I know of and tons of face doodles, some body. but! Who knows.

Of requests - I might have to start over, or keep this and eventually do them. It's been so long since they were supposed to be completed. Or posted. My life really really got busy and school and work was all that I did. Now, I have a free moment to say >{ DEVIANTART HAS POOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOORN. UGH. It disgusted me. IMMENSELY. "Not eactly in violation" dA stated, but WTFH? I'D RATHER NOT SEE A VAGINA OF A PROSTRATING WOMAN WHEN I LOOK UP body movements and it's just...ugh.

So here I am. Who's left to say hello?
REQUESTS
- Wants me to draw Kyo (Can we say, I think I completed this?)
- A picture along the lines of [link]
- Kyo from Fruits Basket, my style.
- Pita-ten character (prolly will do Shia or Sasha) ....but, since I'm not good with wings, who knows
- Chesire cat; Sailor Moon
- Draw his character, b-day gift for October 4th.
- Alphonse - damn metal
- My own pirate corgi (don't think this will ever happen, tried an animal the other day....hahahahaha....ha....no, didn't work)
- Draw another Rin Sohma; draw Corky in Halloween outfit (100% not possible)
- October 12. Another b-day gift. I may just color her piccu as the present, because I've been unusually busy and I might forget or end up not doing it for another year as well....... (ehehehehehehehehhe, which is exactly what happened)

Other Requests: Kurama(Aug 29th), Yukiko( I forgot!), (sp?)Zhongyi(Sept. 11?), and Blizzy (Oct. 4?)

]]> ~Corky-chan http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/21061287/ http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/21061287/ Sun, 19 Oct 2008 10:36:36 PDT
I need internet. Badly. Does anyone know everything there is about fixing internet connection via Broadband on a laptop? I've tried everyone as is and none can fix it, even by playing with it by hand.

Anywayz, hopefully a few new drawings are on the way. I do have quite a few, some I haven't completed the sketch and others I wish to improve, while others are complete.

So anyway, this is Corky, back from whence the dead strove to drown her in this so called life.



]]> ~Corky-chan http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/19637971/ http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/19637971/ Mon, 28 Jul 2008 08:54:51 PDT (x ) said LOL out loud
(x) forgotten your own age
(x) tried to lick your elbow

SO FAR: 3

Level 2
( ) said the wrong name in bed
( ) had unprotected sex
( ) hurt yourself sexing
( ) sexed yourself hurting
SO FAR: 3

Level 3
(x) Licked your toe
(x) Licked a frozen pole- to see if my tongue would stick
(x) Licked a dog bone
(x) Licked a dog- when I was a child

SO FAR: 7

Level 4
(x) drank old milk (Accidentally, IT WAS DISGUSTING)
( ) drank milk right from a cow
(x) ever thought chocolate milk came from brown cows
( ) drank Qwik right from the brown cow
( ) pushed a cow over

SO FAR: 9

Level 5
(x) Eaten bugs (*shudder*)
(x) Eaten garbage (I was so hungry once, I grabbed something Dad had just thrown away cuz he didn't want it
(x) Eaten food off the floor after 5 seconds (Like all the time, but only at family's houses, anywhere else and I don't touch it)
(x) Eaten a booger (mmmmm.....so tasty. LAWLZ. Did that)

SO FAR: 13

Level 6
(x) Been in a 5 seater Car with more than 7 people (Hellz yeah, more than once)
(x) Been in a 7 seater van with over 12 people (I believe once, when we were all going somewhere and crammed wherever)
( ) Driven in a 7 seater van by youself (well Jahneana was the passenger, so no, guess not alone)
(x) Driven a tricycle past the age of 3
(x) Driven yourself home to the wrong hous (Our neighbors house looks just like ours and I drove past mine and then realized it)

SO FAR: 17

Level 7
(x) Put dirty dishes in the fridge (I've put a cereal box in it too, without thinking and I had the milk ready for the cupboard before I went...wait a minute...FUUUUCK)
( ) Put bowls of food in the dishwasher
( ) Put a full glass of juice in the cupboard
( ) Put salt in your coffee
(x) Dropped the cap into the glass you're drinking from (Yup)

SO FAR: 19

Level 8
(x) Jumped over a car (Attempted to)
( ) Jumped out of a moving car (Wanted to, never did)
( ) Jumped into a thorny bush on purpose
(x) Jumped off a bridge (Several, but they weren't from death defying heights)
(x) Jumped off your house - From when I was little until this new house of ours, I'm too short to climb on it)

SO far: 22

Level 10
(x) Forgot where you live
(x) Forgot your own birthday
(x) Forgot to zip up in the morning (More than once, and it's not always in the morning)

SO FAR: 25

Level 11
(x) Walked into a Pole
(x) Walked into a Wall
(x) Walked into someone
(x) Walked into a parked car

SO FAR: 29

Level 12
( ) Won A Burping contest
(x) Burped the alphabet -
(x) Burped just to break the silence
(x) Burped too hard and threw up

SO FAR: 32

Level 13
(x) Eaten a whole bag of chips
( ) Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
( ) Eaten a whole pizza so no one else could have a slice (that's disturbing and selfish)

SO FAR : 33

Level 14
(x) Caught picking your nose (When I was younger, that always seemed to happen
(x) Caught going to the bathroom outside (Mom stopped our car and we went outside cuz we were on a trip and there wasn't a place for miles, a few cars passed by)
(x) Caught with your pants down (And also, it happened I was caught without a shirt on.
( ) Caught having sex
(x) Caught sexing yourself (When I was like....12, I believe)
SO FAR: 37

Level 15
(x) Shoved something up your nose- it was a bead in Kindergarten (toilet paper to stop either bleeding or soak up what blocks a stuffy nose)
(x) Picked your nose and studied what came out (I did that too)
(x) Picked your nose till it bled
( ) Let your nose bleed to see the awesome blood all over you
( ) Blew your nose so damn hard your whole body hurt
SO FAR: 40

Level 16
(x) Told a lie
(x) Been caught in a lie
(x) Lied to cover a lie
(x) Lied to cover your ass
( ) Lied to an undercover hooker cop

SO FAR: 44

Level 17
(x) Laughed at someone in pain
(x) Laughed too loud and embarrassed yourself
(x) Laughed at a funeral (My cuz Katie was there and in order to force myself not to cry, we decided to talk about fun times and all kinds of random stuff and laughed our asses off)
(x) Laughed so hard you pissed yourself

SO FAR: 48

Level 18
(x) Written A Letter To Santa Claus
(x) Believed in Santa past the age of 8
(x) Believed your folks that a bunny laid chocolate eggs outside
(x) Believed you were never too old for trick or treating (STILL DO DAMMIT!!!! I DON'T CARE IF I'LL BE 19! The only thing that g... ]]> ~Corky-chan http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/19147197/ http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/19147197/ Tue, 01 Jul 2008 13:02:34 PDT
Answer with only 2 words:

1. Where is your cell phone? ................... computer desk

2. Your significant other?.................. In florida?

3. Your hair? .................................. Golden blonde-brown

4. Your mother? .............................. Forgetful one

5. Your father?............................... Uncaring caregiver

6. Your favorite thing?....................... Worship me

7. Your dream last night?...................... Cruise ship

8. Your favorite drink? ....................... MOUNTAIN DEW!

9. Your dream/goal?............................ Kinky policewoman (jk) but seriously - Be loved

10. The room you're in?.......................... Dad's room

11. Your ex?.................................... Jerrett something

12. Your fear?................................... COCKROACH CITY

13. Where do you want to be in 6 years?......... not here

14. Where were you last night?.............. Ryan's room

15. What you're not?............................. Skinny bitch

16. Muffins?................................ HELLZ YEAH!!!

17. One of your wish list items?........... Forget Jut-Jut

18. Where you were born?..................... Johnson City

19. The last thing you did?........................ PLAYED OKAMI!!!!

20. What are you wearing?......................Old clothes

21. Your TV?................................... Fucked up

22. Your pets?................................ Terrorizing animals

23. Your computer? .......................... COMPLETELY USELESSSSSSSS

24. Your life?................................ HA HA

25. Your mood?................................ Delightfully repressed

26. Missing someone?....................... He wishes

27. Your car?................................... In sun

28. Something you're not wearing?............. Kinky skirt

29. Favorite Store?.................................... Poor Richards

30. Your summer?.................................. Intense hellfire

31. Like someone?................................... Plural bitch

32. Your favorite color?.......................... Blue Silver

33. Last time you laughed..................... Ages ago

34. Last time you had sex?...................... Yeah right

35. Who will re-post this?.................... They won't?

]]> ~Corky-chan http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/18669564/ http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/18669564/ Mon, 06 Jul 2009 01:21:35 PDT
Anywayz - of the art situation. As you know....my requests......well, they've been like.........just words on my journal. But I'll have you know I'm working on them you bastards!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <---- updating this is like saying I did nothing. I have tons of new art I think, I must rifle through my notebook, I have "sketches" that I know of and tons of face doodles, some body. but! Who knows.

Of requests - I might have to start over, or keep this and eventually do them. It's been so long since they were supposed to be completed. Or posted. My life really really got busy and school and work was all that I did. Now, I have a free moment to say >{ DEVIANTART HAS POOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOORN. UGH. It disgusted me. IMMENSELY. "Not eactly in violation" dA stated, but WTFH? I'D RATHER NOT SEE A VAGINA OF A PROSTRATING WOMAN WHEN I LOOK UP body movements and it's just...ugh.

So here I am. Who's left to say hello? :sad:
REQUESTS
- Wants me to draw Kyo (Can we say, I think I completed this?)
- A picture along the lines of [link]
- Kyo from Fruits Basket, my style.
- Pita-ten character (prolly will do Shia or Sasha) ....but, since I'm not good with wings, who knows
- Chesire cat; Sailor Moon
- Draw his character, b-day gift for October 4th.
- Alphonse - damn metal
- My own pirate corgi (don't think this will ever happen, tried an animal the other day....hahahahaha....ha....no, didn't work)
- Draw another Rin Sohma; draw Corky in Halloween outfit (100% not possible)
- October 12. Another b-day gift. I may just color her piccu as the present, because I've been unusually busy and I might forget or end up not doing it for another year as well....... (ehehehehehehehehhe, which is exactly what happened)

Other Requests: Kurama(Aug 29th), Yukiko( I forgot!), (sp?)Zhongyi(Sept. 11?), and Blizzy (Oct. 4?)

]]> ~Corky-chan http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/17393579/ http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/17393579/ Tue, 18 Mar 2008 11:18:30 PDT 3 Took this by force from....! --> ahuwhahahahahahaha

Info
[x] I am shorter than 5'4. (*Cries* I'm 4' 10...and a half! hah! I grew!)
[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[x] I have many scars. (mainly from my cat, don't show up a lot, but there's a ton on my arms)
[x] I tan easily. (fufufufufufu....sure do, I burn too, just tan more)
[x] I wish my hair was a different color. (Every now and then I want to dye it
[] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color. (I have friends who've always seen my natural hair, and strangers think I've dyed my hair.... -___-'''
[] I have a tattoo. (I WANT ONE!!!)
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance. (Very, very, very. Must look good before leaving house)
[] I have/I've had braces. (NEVERZZZZZZ......)
[] I wear glasses. (Steal them from friends and try them on.....it hurtttttts)
[] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free. (I think about it, but prolly wouldn't do it)
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger. (And that my eyes are gorgeous and people want to take pics............................. T_______T)
[] I have more than 2 piercings. (want to pierce my ears again
[] I have piercing in places besides my ears.
[] I have freckles. (I have a beauty mark! Does that count? And I may have a few freckles, unless they're moles. Cuz, they're in the same place as mi mum's.

Family/Home Life
[x] I've sworn at my parents. (Um, HELL YEAH!)
[x] I've run away from home. (But came back later that night, well, early next morning. I ran to a neighbor's house at opposite end of neighborhood
[] I've been kicked out of the house.
[] My biological parents are together.
[x] I have a sibling less than one year old. (Somewhere, a boy or a girl, just recent, it's a half)
[x] I want to have kids someday.
[] I've had children.
[] I've lost a child.

School/Work
[] I'm in school.
[x] I have a job. (TWO!)
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school. (Cha!)
[x] I almost always do my homework. (Procrastinate til last minute....but I almost always do)
[x] I've missed a week or more of school.
[x] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
[] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[] I've stolen something from my job.
[] I've been fired.

Embarrassment
[] I've slipped out an "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[x] Disney movies still make me cry.
[x] I've peed from laughing.
[x] I've snorted while laughing. (Food, or drink, or water spewing from nose like a faucet....yup)
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[x] I've glued my hand to something. (My other hand)
[] I've had my pants rip in public.

Health
[x] I was born with a disease/impairment. (Weak heart, I'm a premie)
[] I've gotten stitches/staples.
[] I've broken a bone.
[] I've had my tonsils removed.
[x] I've sat in a doctor’s office/emergency room with a friend. (Yup, doctor's with FAWKES!!! FOR ALMOST 4 HOURS!!!!!! OMFG)
[] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I've had chicken pox. (And Shingles, the mutated form of Chicken Pox)

Traveling
[] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[x] I've been on a plane.
[] I've been to Canada. (I WANT TO MOVE THERE!!!!)
[] I've been to Mexico. (Was going to be this November on a cruise, might not go on cruise)
[] I've been to Niagara Falls. (would it be horrible to say I've forgotten where that is?)
[] I've been to Japan. (TOTALLY WOULD KILL TO GO!)
[] I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans. (I've celebrated it as a birthday party theme with friends and family threw one as a mardi gras birthday for me and other august b-day parties)
[] I've been to Europe. (My ancestors are......but me....not yet!!!)
[] I've been to Africa. (Wouldn't want to go)

Experiences
[x] I've gotten lost in my city. (................we just won't mention that here)
[x] I've seen a shooting star.
[x] I've wished on a shooting star
[x] I've seen a meteor shower. (Two! Or more)
[] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[x] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator. (more than once)
[x] I've kicked a guy where it hurts. (Accident and on purpose)
[] I've been to a casino.
[] I've been skydiving.
[] I've gone skinny dipping.
[x] I've played spin the bottle.
[] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour. (I'd die)
[] I've crashed a car.
[] I've been Skiing.
[X]... ]]> ~Corky-chan http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/17388208/ http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/17388208/ Mon, 17 Mar 2008 23:06:02 PDT
December: Christmas eve to 1AM spent with twins and anna at my house opening presents and such. Xmas day took Brent with me to family xmas. Made my little bro go with us.
January: New Year's eve party that lasted until 2AM with Zaro, Fawkes, and Beast (AKA BRENT) Kissed Brent as a New Year's thing. Shocked him. Kissed him a second time. Killed him (not really). Started playing around on [link] to get federal aid for school.
February: Got Valentine's. Fawkes: Teddy Bear. Zaro: BEAUTIFUL NECKLACE FROM SPENCER'S and BG: USC game tickets (was unable to use them tho. T_T)...............February 29: Gun stuck in face by a guy trying to rob the store. I turned and walked away from him cuz I "couldn't" open the drawer. Escaped out back with boss and cook. They caught him.
March: Get Shingles, right center forehead swells, eye puffs up, skin starts to decay on forehead breakout spots. Go to doc's 4days later get medicine. Finish it by this last Friday. Break out in slight rash Friday night on wrists, Saturday rash over 70% of body, hot, thighs are completely splotched and red, unsteady walking. Sunday, completely covered, swollen thighs, red streaks under arms, between thighs, on face and forehead, through hair, hives head to toe, throat raw and puffed, fever, high pulse, high heart rate. Look on internet. WORST CASE SCENARIO FOR SHINGLES. Panic, bawl (first time in a looong long time I actually break down and cry), my 57yr old 3rd cousin comes when I call her. She rushed me to ER and all day they examine me, ask questions, and it turns out I'm allergic to the sulfa drugs my doctor gave me and I was having an allergic reaction. My skin is still splotched, thighs still have red streaks, but I'm slowly getting better.

And sooooo...........there's the update.

REQUESTS
- Wants me to draw Kyo (WILL BE STARTING within the month)
- A picture along the lines of [link]
- Kyo from Fruits Basket, my style.
- Pita-ten character (prolly will do Shia or Sasha) ....but, since I'm not good with wings, who knows
- Chesire cat; Sailor Moon
- Draw his character, b-day gift for October 4th.
- Alphonse - damn metal
- My own pirate corgi
- Draw another Rin Sohma; draw Corky in Halloween outfit (100% not possible)
- October 12. Another b-day gift. I may just color her piccu as the present, because I've been unusually busy and I might forget or end up not doing it for another year as well.......

Other Requests: Kurama(Aug 29th), Yukiko(no clue, forgot), (sp?)Zhongyi(Sept. 11?), and Blizzy (Oct. 4?)

]]> ~Corky-chan http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/15612908/ http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/15612908/ Wed, 21 Nov 2007 22:31:26 PST
So, I've had an itch to draw lately, can't sleep, getting antsy of just sitting here at my uncle's, I'm going insane and OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG......................this just totally isn't my year. My cousin is the one who lets me drive and hello, she refuses to talk to me because of her "depression" she needs to get over it. I need her. She is being another "Mom". I told her that and she was POED beyond belief, but heck, she's just.....AUGHGHHGHGHGHdfj;alsdjffjklgerknhjkaerhtiluerhbnkljaerhti lrhfljkawehtlerhglauiwerhilugrjtnhjuaert!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Why is it when you need someone the most, they're never there? And when you depend upon them entirely, it seems your whole world falls apart.

Why the heck must I buy my first car? WHY DON'T THEY HELP MEEEE????? I mean, my God, when I was in school I had them all fawning over me, school clothes, supplies, project helpers, and now........now I have nothing but work. That's ALL I do. Go to work, come home, stay up because I'm no longer tired when I get home, and sleep.

I want to go to school, but with the way things are going, I won't go. My path I've decided to take is to be a Vet's Assistant or Small Animal Care. And that's the Berea g'ville tech. And well, I might not make it in this world much longer.

So, since I'm currently using my uncle's computer, and have time, I've updated you on.....most everything.

MY emotions right now. Antsy, pacing around, nervous, breaking down, anger, frustration, depression, annoyance, wrath, slight optimism (which I almost always am anyway), fear, pressure, breaking point, weighted down, VERY bitchy, mad, lost, upset, confused...............................................................................so yeah. I've lost my mind.

]]> ~Corky-chan http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/15385369/ http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/15385369/ Mon, 05 Nov 2007 23:43:39 PST

PART ONE

EMO:
[x] you own at least 5 black tops
[x] you like tight jeans
[x] you're listening to music right now
[x] you have painted your fingernails black before
[x] You have more than 300 songs on your ipod/mp3/itunes
[x] Like the colour black
[x] hate girly girls (The really, really super girly ones, yeah)
[x] have kissed the same sex before
[x] like being alone (Most of the time, though I love being around people anyway)
[ ] hate popular music
[x] keep hair in front of your face
[x] give people evil stares
[ ] Hate your parents (sometimes quite violently, but not "hate hate"
[x] Life sucks for you
[x] have been called emo
[ ] Dislike the colours pink, teal and baby blue (love baby blue)
[ ] own thick-rimmed glasses (ewwww)
[x] Complain a lot (Tis quite fun to complain. ^.^ to Brent anyway
[x] own a studded belt (i think just one though)
Total: 14.....go being emooooo! xD

PART TWO:

SLUT/MAN WHORE:
[ ] own more than 10 minishorts
[ ] own more than 10 miniskirts
[ ] have kissed more than 7 people in one night
[x] been called a slut
[ ] drink
[x] do you or have u ever wore low cut shirts
[x] have been called a tease
[x] Flirt with everyone (you never know, it may work...)
[x] love the opposite sex
[ ] Go to parties/sleepovers at least once a week
[x] wear tight clothing
[ ] own 5 tube tops
[x] you've kissed more than 2 people in one night
[ ] Like wearing swimsuits
[x] Sit on the opposites lap (people I know)
[x] People hate you
[x] It’s nice to be naughty (every once in a while)
[x] you kiss because you think it's fun (as long as you have another good kisser)
Total: 11.............yeah, no comment here

PART THREE:

JOCK:
[] Own at least 5 jerseys
[ ] Have 10 or more trophies
[x] Wear hair in ponytail like everyday (because of work)
[x] Love sports
[] Own 5 or more sweatpants (THEY SUCK!)
[ ] Have / had played lacrosse
[x] Play more than 2 sports (for fun!)
[x] Can play a sport if you've never played it before (again for fun!)
[ ] On first string (G-string? )
[x] You play/ played Basketball (during the times in gym for half a year)
[x]You play/ played baseball-softball (again, gym, 8th grade this time though)
[x] You play/ played soccer (GYMMMMMM!)
[x]You run/ran track (would've loved to)
[x] You play/ played football (with neighborhood kids)
[ ] Been called a jock
[] Have set a record
[x] Are friends with your coach (all three)
[] Love watching sports
[] can do 15 push ups without getting tired
Total: 10.......seems likes I'm pretty well-rounded, told you I was the ultimate salad bowl of the salad bowl of america.

PART FOUR

NERD:
[x] wear your pants at your waist (try too, don't like them too low)
[ ] wear glasses-contacts
[ ] have/had braces (NEVERRRRR!)
[x] in advanced classes (yush, easier classes way too easy)
[ ] On Math team (*dies of laughter*)
[ ] Have all A's (8th grade)
[x] like spending time with your parents (Most of the time, mom's pretty fun and dad is a lot like me in so many ways that when he does want to, he's okay)
[x] have been called a nerd
[] are *annoyed* or bullied (actually......I don't believe I ever have)
[x] LOVE to learn (because things are so interesting!!!!)
[x] Like your teachers (most of them)
[x] Watch history channel (ooooh, when I happen upon it I can't turn the channel)
[x] never go anywhere on the weekends (*WAILS!* I wooooooooooooooork)
[x] Have been called weird (maybe, pretty sure once or twice, maybe more)
[ ] scared to talk to the opposite sex (I have my moments)
[ ] Dont have pics of yourself on myspace (are you crazy? I have tons)
[x] read a book a month (ooooh, I have, didn't last long, but I did)
[x] You read on your last spring break (MANGAAAAA!)
[x] Have your own website (yeah, but never did anything with it)
[ ] wear pocket protectors
Total: 11.................told you I was well-rounded.

If you haven't noticed The parts represent the 4 high school stereotypes

Part 1= Emo
Part 2= Slut / man whore
Part 3= Jock
Part 4= Nerd

....................well then...........I am an emo slutty nerd with jock aftertaste?????? ~Corky-chan http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/15280588/ http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/15280588/ Mon, 29 Oct 2007 22:57:11 PDT
YOUR BOY SIDE
(x) You love hoodies.
(pretty ones only or a guy's hoodie that I steal and wear, if it smells good)

(x) You love jeans

() Dogs are better than cats.
(LIKE HELL THEY ARE!)

( ) It's hilarious when people get hurt.
(How about afterwards when you know they're okay and it was funny how it happened? Like my brother being close-lined by a tree branch and knocked hard on the head by a huge chunk of stick we'd thrown into a tree and it fell?)

(x) You've played with/against boys on a team.
(HELLZ YEAH! Almost all the time, it's been a while, but I still wrestle with my brother's)

(X) Shopping is torture.
(Only food shopping, I hate shopping for food, AND I hate shopping for clothes for someone else.)

(x) Sad movies suck.
(To a certain extent, though some have the better ending if they're sad and something occurs because it happened)

(X) You own an X-Box.
(Basically everything but a lot of the newere stuff, DS, and Gamecube)

(x) Played with Hot Wheel cars as a kid.
(I still collect gold cars....and I sure as hell did)

(x) at some point in time you wanted to be a firefighter.
(I WANTED TO BE A POLICEMAN......*coughs* policewoman. But Dad just told me I wanted to be a firefighter when I was a lot younger. -___- I can't imagine why I would.)

(x) You own a DS, PS2 or Sega.
(I own a PS2 and Sega)

(x) You used to be obsessed with Power Rangers.
(The pink one up until like 8?)

() You watch sports on TV.
(When available, sometimes I get interested, but most of the time, no.)

( ) Gory movies are cool
(*shudder violently* TTTTT^TTTT No

( ) You go to your dad for advice.
(Dad doesn't know about girl stuff and I go to friends or myself for advice.)

( ) You own like a trillion baseball caps.
(Who the hell would?!)

( ) You like going to football games.
( Nada, went to one )

(x) You used to/do collect baseball cards.
(When I was younger, and for only a short period of time)

() Baggy pants are cool to wear.
(I owned this one pair that was tight at hips and butt, and flared knees down, they were the baggiest ever, and AWESOME, but baggy on butt and I don't like them because then I f)

() It's kinda weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people.
I LOVE SLEEEEEEEPOVERS WITH ANYONE! Just not hobos and complete strangers.....

(x) Green, black, red, blue, or silver are one of your favorite colors.
(How about blue, black, AND silver, and sometimes the emerald-shimmery greens?)

(x) you love to go crazy and not care what people think.
(Every now and then)

(x) Sports are fun.
(To play with friends or family and while at school during gym, not to watch nor if I played on a team.

(x) Talk with food in your mouth.
(I have a problem with that.....trying to curb it)

( ) Wear boxers.
(^.^ Panties)


YOUR GIRL SIDE.

(X) You wear lip gloss.
(LOVE IT!)

(X) You love to shop
For myself, for presents for someone else, and to browse.

(x) You like to wear eyeliner.
(Every now and then, experimenting trying to find something to make my blues pop)

(x) You have some of the same shirts in different colors
( *lmao* Yes. )

() You wear the color pink.
(Not a favorite color, but there is a pink shirt I like, despite being very loose, I still like it. I wear pink b/c it's gurly and people like me in pink, but only every now and then)

() Go to your mom for advice.
(..............Hell NO, she suggests a shrink, therapist, or goes off on her own life)

( ) You consider cheerleading a sport.
(ahahahahahahahaha)

( ) You hate wearing the color black.
(more and more I am b/c I can't find a good black, save for Hot Topic and out of state places, but it's still an awesome color)

(x) You like hanging out at the mall
(TIS SOOOO MUCH FUUUUN! I love browsing and hanging out with friends)

( ) You like getting manicures and/or pedicures.
(Never had one, but will have to with my free manicure card from S.A.S )

(X) You like wearing jewelry
My school ring, my fave earrings (ears are in a withdrawal and major hurt stage), my fave necklace (broke. ;. I love earrings best and like trying on rings. Silver is the best.

( ) Skirts are a big part of your wardrobe.
(Not much, but I love looking at them all the time)
... ]]> ~Corky-chan http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/15135578/ http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/15135578/ Thu, 25 Oct 2007 01:38:18 PDT [link] and also....other news......

I have poetic juices flowing right now, cuttiing off circulation of artistry, though I'm itching to draw.

And then again, Jut is back with his girl Hope, and found him on myspace, that's how I found out. It was accidental finding him. I added his sister as a friend, her mom added me, and I was looking for others to make friends off. I WANT LOTS OF FRIENDS SO YOU BETTER GET ONE OR ADD ME! Yes? >.<

And also...sitting with cat on lap, twisted to side with laptop...back, hurting, cat, licking my pj pants for some reason, now back to herself. I'm going to miss her when I go back to g'ville.

PEACE OUT MY FRIENDDDDS! Oh, and on myspace, I changed how I talked because, well, to add friend to myspace! Then, I'll change it again when I have friends to another style. MWUAHAHAHAHA! Foos, thy will be confuzzled when I reveal me as I am.

REQUESTS
- Wants me to draw Kyo (WILL BE STARTING within the month)
- A picture along the lines of [link]
- Kyo from Fruits Basket, my style.
- Pita-ten character (prolly will do Shia or Sasha) ....but, since I'm not good with wings, who knows
- Chesire cat; Sailor Moon
- Draw his character, b-day gift for October 4th.
- Alphonse - damn metal
- My own pirate corgi
- Draw another Rin Sohma; draw Corky in Halloween outfit (100% not possible)
- October 12. Another b-day gift. I may just color her piccu as the present, because I've been unusually busy and I might forget or end up not doing it for another year as well.......

Other Requests: Kurama(Aug 29th), Yukiko(no clue, forgot), (sp?)Zhongyi(Sept. 11?), and Blizzy (Oct. 4?)

]]> ~Corky-chan http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/15037068/ http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/15037068/ Fri, 12 Oct 2007 23:29:44 PDT
So, besides that note. I'm glad I got to see my cat, hang out with my dog on his new 20ft chain before he got loose and I had to force him back into his cage (bawled my soul out), and fixed up my drawings and rearranged EVERY photo on my computer. Whatever 8x38 equals, is the number of my pictures. And these are photos from digital camera, some from my actual photo albums, and the like.

xD So yeah, hung out with and today for quite some time. We went to Wal-Mart and THANK YOU I got to buy a cd I wanted and will of course, open it, copy it, and give the original to Brent as a Christmas gift, cuz he likes Linkin Park and it's a new CD that came out and he doesn't have. Yay, go me! However, no heard you had to work late...sry about that. That's how I usually am on the weekends. No free time on Saturday's or Sunday's.

Well, there ends my longer journal (but then again, they're always long) PEACE OUT!

REQUESTS
- Drawn Shigure, he's in my gallery. ^_^ Hope you like him. I neither shaded nor colored him, he may be shaded later on. Have to get ink to really fix up the drawing.
- Wants me to draw Kyo (WILL BE STARTING within the month)
- A picture along the lines of [link]
- Kyo from Fruits Basket, my style.
- Pita-ten character (prolly will do Shia or Sasha) ....but, since I'm not good with wings, who knows
- Chesire cat; Sailor Moon
- Draw his character
- Alphonse - damn metal
- My own pirate corgi
http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/14637508/ Fri, 14 Sep 2007 22:20:31 PDT
But really - would you read them? So truthfully, which would you rather have - ART or POEMS. Cuz my deviations submissions will all be poems for the next few weeks or so.

REQUESTS
- (DRAWING SHIGURE NOW, he's mostly done.....just his one arm and kimono sleeve is killing me) Do you want him shaded or colored....neither may be as good as yours, but hey, this is Corky's crappy art request she's doing. *grumble grumble grumble*
- Wants me to draw Kyo (WILL BE STARTING within the month)
- A picture along the lines of [link]
- Kyo from Fruits Basket, my style.
- Pita-ten character (prolly will do Shia or Sasha) ....but, since I'm not good with wings, who knows
- Chesire cat; Sailor Moon
- Draw his character
- Alphonse - damn metal
- My own pirate corgi
- Draw another Rin Sohma; draw Corky in Halloween outfit (100% not possible)

]]> ~Corky-chan http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/14564822/ http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/14564822/ Sun, 09 Sep 2007 16:57:55 PDT
and on top of that, Jessica called me AGAIN. Hm, she waited about five minutes before asking if it was true Ryan really was home. As much as I hate her for that, I still like Jessica as a friend. I guess it's just the past in me. And, so I talked as much as I could to take the topic elsewhere. And she ended up saying..........Jut................was................not getting married, had broken up with Hope (his girlfriend he had been intending to marry) because they "argued too much" She sounded like she really liked Hope, which made me mad because she never gave me a chance to be her friend in a way like that, because probably, I was Ryan's sister, therefore, only wanted when useful. I'm happy in a way. Maybe I'll go and visit again.

Me being vain, selfish, and petty - the darker side of me gloated saying they were going out for 7 months, I appear, and a few weeks later Jessica's calling and says they've broken up, and that Jut didn't want to go out with her for the moment. And I was, SCORE FOR ME. But the more sensible and realist side was understanding, even though there was doubts, and hope, maybe. More than likely not.

I'm getting quite bored that my computer connection isn't good here at Ronnie's and though I love being walking distance from work, I hate the no contact with my kitty and home. I am glad to be away from home, but at the same time I miss not having someone to scream at, my cat to snuggle and play with, and a full connection.

Here is starting to suck. On top of that, within a couple of weeks, I will be left here alone, for a week. While my uncle goes to the beach, being unable to have room or money for me. I don't mind (we already went), but......although I love the darkness. I hate the darkness, with NO ONE WITH MEEEEEEEEEEEEE! OMG, SPAAAAAZZZZZZZ SPAAAAZZZZZZ

And so ends my rant

REQUESTS
- (DRAWING SHIGURE NOW, he's mostly done.....just his one arm and kimono sleeve is killing me) Do you want him shaded or colored....neither may be as good as yours, but hey, this is Corky's crappy art request she's doing......*grumble grumble grumble* And on top of that, I lost it....DAMMMMMIT!!!!!!
- Wants me to draw Kyo (WILL BE STARTING within the month)
- A picture along the lines of [link]
- Kyo from Fruits Basket, my style.
- Pita-ten character (prolly will do Shia or Sasha) ....but, since I'm not good with wings, who knows
- Chesire cat; Sailor Moon
- Draw his character
http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/14374006/ Tue, 28 Aug 2007 01:38:36 PDT [link] There is the link. Also, I am working on requests now. I decided that they've been sitting there too long and have looked back into what I need to draw and has been requested for ages now. I've even found a REALLY old list whilst cleaning. The wonders of cleaning.

Anyway - HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CORKY-CHAN!!!!! I'm 18 now. Depressing in a way, but moving on from that! Oh, and look for the lunar eclipse! Most people around the world should be able to see it! Around 6:30PM to around 12:30AM.

HERE is the MIGHTY TAG GAME....still fun after all these years.... Tagged by:
1. Post these rules.
2. Each person tagged must post 8 random (hopefully interesting) facts about themselves.
3. Tags should write a journal of these facts.
4. At the end of the post 8 more bloggers are tagged and named.
5. Go to their page and leave a comment telling them that they're tagged.
*6. Cannot be tagged back by the people they tag.

8 random things
1. I really, really like to laugh. In my family, while watching any movie, the slightest joke makes me laugh. I find things very humorous.
2. I still watch pokemon, although the first season because I never kept up with the rest. Stopped at like....second....now it's in it's what, tenth? ahahahahaha
3. The slightest thought can provoke perversion in my mind, though I keep most of it to myself these days.
4. I like older guys more, but somehow tend to date more of the ones that are younger. Innocence over arrogance I guess.
5. I'm left handed, but do most things right-handed. I eat, write, cut left-handed, but sometimes, I will find a pen or item in my right hand unconsciously and be really surprised it's there.
6. I am a loud talker, because I get too excited and most of the times, I don't care if people can hear me arguing or whining, because it's human.
7. I am sometimes deaf to the point that, you have to look at me, have my full attention where I can see your lips moving before I hear what you've said. It comes and goes. But yet, while I can't hear people, I can hear slight noises of animals or like my cat meowing way out back when I'm in my room.
8. I have a split personality towards myself. My true personality two different kinds. Happy, smiling, laughing, joking, but....then I can snap and completely be depressed and wear myself out to exhaustion to get to sleep because my thoughts are overrun by regrets and hatred towards myself. This change in personality no one sees but me. It happens at night most times. Even when I'm happy.

HA! Now I get to Tag 8 people! I tag...:
~Corky-chan http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/14301312/ http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/14301312/ Fri, 24 Aug 2007 13:44:28 PDT Streamers - COURTNEY
Balloons - COURTNEY
Happy Birthday decorations - (COURTNEY)
Board games - monopoly, life, chess, checkers, life, battleship
Music - rock, techno, Japanese songs, or just 93.7
Vanilla cake with confetti inside (two cakes) - DON'T KNOW BUT WANT THIS
Chocolate chip frosting - DON'T KNOW BUT WANT THIS
Ice Cream - Neopolitan and just regular vanilla (AARON)
Soda - Sierra mist (20), mountain dew, sunkist (ALREADY BOUGHT)
Chips - Sour cream, Doritos cool ranch, barbeque (ANNA)
Plastic cups (SHANNON)
Paper plates (SHANNON)
Ask Bridget for lawn chairs and tables. (or just use a bunch of towels)
Ask Bridget for badmitton net
Hamburgers and hot dogs (TWINS)
Buns for hamburgers and hot dogs (ANNA)
Cameras (two) ????? DON'T KNOW - OMG, there will need to be CAMERA'S!!!
Carrots ??????? DON'T KNOW
Cucumbers ????? DON'T KNOW
Make sure there is ketchup, mustard, and mayonnaise in my fridge, most definitely!

I know cakes are like extremely expensive, so maybe I can find the kind I want in the store already in a box or something............. T___T OMGosh we will need this cake, the way Tina made it was just DELICIOUS. But since we have more people this time, I'll need two cakes.... Unless the family birthday cake lasts until the party.

Oh, and i started thinking about this about 5PM until.....3 AM or later, off and on.......should I invite Jut and Jessica to the party......? I think they'll turn it down, at least Jut will (he's always busy doing something) but if I mention Ryan Jessica will come. But, i think she'd come anyway, as long as she had a ride.

People Invited Thus Far
Brent, Jonathan, Jeff, Anna, Aaron, Rachel (NOT coming), Cassy (if coming), Tina (if coming), Jahneana, Shannon

REQUESTS
- Damn you Zahra!!!!!! *curses you* I will draw Ayame.....BIATCH, you put that in my Annual! I'll try Shigure too. (DRAWING SHIGURE NOW, he's mostly done.....just his one arm and kimono sleeve is killing me) Do you want him shaded or colored....neither may be as good as yours, but hey, this is Corky's crappy art regquest she's doing......*grumble grumble grumble*
- Wants me to draw Kyo (WILL BE STARTING within the week)
- A picture along the lines of [link]
- Kyo from Fruits Basket, my style.
- Pita-ten character (prolly will do Shia or Sasha) ....but, since I'm not good with wings, who knows
- Chesire cat; Sailor Moon
- Draw his character
- Alphonse - damn metal
- My own pirate corgi
- Draw another Rin Sohma; draw Corky in Halloween outfit (100% not possible)

]]> ~Corky-chan http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/13994594/ http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/13994594/ Mon, 20 Aug 2007 23:55:42 PDT
Anyway, many more poems thanks to Jut-Jut. you know, he's my inspiration. all these heartfelt, breaking, sorrowful poems - are thanks to him hurting me. So, that's the good news.

My 18th birthday - coming up on the 28th!!!!!!!! (REMEMBER THAT!!!) Will have a full moon, lunar eclipse, and I'm having a party!!!!! SO OMGOSH, people who live nearby me should just hop into my yard and say the party can now start! lmao.

Also, family had a party for me, my uncle, cousin Charlie, and Stephanie (friend of family) and I only got cards! 20 dollars like usual from Bridget and surprisingly 10 from my Great-Aunt Joanne. that's the second time she surprised me with a gift. Grams is taking me shopping for boooooooks. I'm such a nerd. XP Wait a minute, so i did get gifts from almost everyone. Just not Aunt Alisha, Marty (but that is fine with me, such a sweet old lady ^////^), and Dad.

THOSE COMING TO MY PARTY
Twins I need to know if Jon - you're bringing the hot dogs and rolls. Jeff - the hamburgers and buns
Anna - drinks and chips
And Aaron is bringing.....I've forgotten, I'll have to call. I'll try looking for other cheap stuff since my job pays absolutely nothing and i work practically once a week. (DANGITTTTTT)

Zahra, Dena, Ali, etc - do you guys want to come? (Is Dena even still here or has she gone back????)

And if anybody living nearby, wants to come - BE MY GUEST! I'm gullible and trustworthy, you could take advantage of me! Just beward the guard dogs (Yara, BG, Fawkes, and all the others) ^^ It could also be a pool party since I have a pool down the street.

REQUESTS
- Kyo from Fruits Basket, my style.
- Wants me to draw Kyo
- Pita-ten character (prolly will do Shia or Sasha) ....but, since I'm not good with wings, who knows
- Chesire cat; Sailor Moon
- Draw his character
- Alphonse - damn metal
- My own pirate corgi
- Draw another Rin Sohma; draw Corky in Halloween outfit (100% not possible)
- Birthday gift, b-day October 12. COMPLETE
- Damn you Zahra!!!!!! *curses you* I will draw Ayame.....BIATCH, you put that in my Annual! I'll try Shigure too, when I find that funny ass pic of him
- A picture along the lines o... ]]> ~Corky-chan http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/13826720/ http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/13826720/ Sat, 21 Jul 2007 22:04:40 PDT
And of course, Jut came into the kitchen when I first got there. We playfighted, like normal and he bugged me/teased me like normal. I was a little nervous, but played it off cool. He ignored me the rest of the night for the most part. Papa looks TONS worse. Half his hair is gone, sits mostly sleeping on the hospital bed, doesn't really see "Us" anymore, but more the other side...I couldn't even say hi because I choked up and was afraid.

Well, while spending almost five hours there, I noticed a few things. I did hang out with Jessica and Brent loosened up (unusually unnormal for him). We had tons of fun. But, I noticed: Jut does not wear the necklace I gave him anymore, wears a gold chain with a ring (I think) on it. The back windshield of his car no longer has the sticker I gave him that he slapped on there because it was Who's Your Daddy? with Darth Vader. And my envelope I sent a birthday card is no longer on his wall. Nor is the card I gave him sitting anywhere seen in his room. And his entire wall is filled with lovey dovey stuff from "Hope" and he has pictures of them all around his room (one of them kissing right next the the tv (which he watches a lot of). She's written everywhere on his wall, like filled up the entire space of his wall. And sadly, HARLEY DOESN'T LIVE THERE ANYMORE.....he's not in the equation, but was reallllly hot and reallllly adorable and OH SO SMEXY and playful and nice and fine to look at.

So all in all......................I feel a lot shittier now that I went there (though it's always easy to kick back and have fun, I tell you, I really wanted to scratch his wall all to hell) And Jut probably thought Brent was my boyfriend (I never told him who he was, just Brent) Damn, if I had a superpower it would be to read minds.

]]> ~Corky-chan http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/13797229/ http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/13797229/ Thu, 19 Jul 2007 21:30:59 PDT
And in worse news, news that ripped a breath from my throat when she told me. She said that Jut-Jut thinks he's getting married. i have long hoped he wouldn't ever get serious about a girl. I hoped he would one day just quit flirting so tremendously with me, and ask me out like his eyes always said. But, neither of us did. And i haven't seen them in over a year, too afraid to go back. And now, now he might be getting married. My heart feels like it can no longer love, but I being a dreamer, have always hoped for love to sweep me off my feet and be married with that love. haha, guess love just might have to wait for me.

And my heart, is ripped out of my chest and shot into eternal pieces that cannot be glued together again. Can I cry? No, the tears stay brimming, but none fall as they have had for the past five years. What a waste of love I put into him and into my memories of him.

]]> ~Corky-chan http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/13130651/ http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/13130651/ Mon, 28 May 2007 20:25:32 PDT
Manga 1 - it is about a teenaged boy, probably slightly older. He appears to be half dragon because for some reason scales showed up on his skin at odd times. This was a serious manga, not chibi style. the art wasn't extravagent, but well-detailed. It was directly about this boy. the only searches I have come up with is Dragon Half and that's about Mink. I DON'T WANT MINK! T___________T

Manga 2 - It's about a girl from another world, and people come after her. This one, random guy trying to protect her, gets dragged to the world. One evil guy has like this chain whip thing that lashes out that guy's eye in an attempt to protect the girl. All I really remember is that is was a different dimension and when this guy first met the girl she was completely naked. And when he did go into this other world, it turned out he had powers that had allowed him to go to that world. The manga was not too bloody, but not cutesy either. And also, it's something about he has to yell at one point how he's going to protect her. I think that's how he gets into the world for the first time, I think anyway.


REQUESTS
- Kyo from Fruits Basket, my style.
- Wants me to draw Kyo
- Pita-ten character
- Chesire cat; Sailor Moon
- Draw his character
- Alphonse - damn metal......I've found a way not to do metal Alphonse....how about kid Alphonse (FLESH!) mwauahhahaha
- My own pirate corgi - yup, she doesn't talk to me anymore.....happens every time I stay off for a long time
- Draw another Rin Sohma; draw Corky in Halloween outfit (100% not possible)
- Birthday gift, b-day October 12 (Damn, Ten-chan, I still haven't drawn you anything. That'll have to change. FORGIVE ME!!!!!!!!!
- Damn you Zahra!!!!!! *curses you* I will draw Ayame.....BITCH, you put that in my Annual! I'll try Shigure too, when I find that funny ass pic of him
- A picture along the lines of [link]
http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/13094640/ Fri, 25 May 2007 22:34:03 PDT
Even though she had more fish than she knew what to do with, she decided to go fishing again the next day. And she caught exactly 40% of what she caught the day before. Which was still a lot of fish.

She continued fishing every day. And every day she caught exactly 40% of what she caught the previous day.

If she continued fishing every day for twenty years, how many pounds of fish, total, would she catch? Please round to the nearest pound.


I NEED TO KNOW THE ANSWER BEFORE WEDNESDAY!!!!!! PLEASE HELP LITTLE CORKY OUT!!!!!!

This is a Lenny Conundrum from neopets and I wanted to figure it out, but I don't want to enter my answer because it could be wrong. It takes a while to work out.....so.......yeah.

]]> ~Corky-chan http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/13055306/ http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/13055306/ Fri, 25 May 2007 20:27:51 PDT
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Fierythefaerie [9:51 P.M.]: oh look, it's say "hey" and get off guy!
Fierythefaerie [9:51 P.M.]: how long will you last today, 10 minutes? lmfao
fire_dragion@yahoo.com [9:51 P.M.]: i woulda txted you but i fell asleep and thats not funny
Fierythefaerie [9:52 P.M.]: so why are you smiling?
fire_dragion@yahoo.com [9:52 P.M.]: i do gotta go mom is going to bed and the cpu keeps her up
fire_dragion@yahoo.com [9:52 P.M.]: and how do you know im smiling?>>>?????
Fierythefaerie [9:52 P.M.]: Because I know how to make you smile
Fierythefaerie [9:52 P.M.]: XD I'm good like that dear
fire_dragion@yahoo.com [9:53 P.M.]: its not hard to make me smile though
Fierythefaerie [9:53 P.M.]: So............................bite me
Fierythefaerie [9:53 P.M.]: Or I'll make you my bitch. >3333
fire_dragion@yahoo.com [9:53 P.M.]: hahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha
fire_dragion@yahoo.com [9:53 P.M.]: WOW
fire_dragion@yahoo.com [9:53 P.M.]: OK
fire_dragion@yahoo.com [9:54 P.M.]: anyways
Fierythefaerie [9:54 P.M.]: made you laugh huh? XD anyways......what?
fire_dragion@yahoo.com [9:55 P.M.]: i gotta go so call my cell ok got the number????
fire_dragion@yahoo.com [9:55 P.M.]: its XXX XXX XXXX
Fierythefaerie [9:55 P.M.]: right now? me, call you?
Fierythefaerie [9:55 P.M.]: and I have your digits
fire_dragion@yahoo.com [9:56 P.M.]: in like 30 mins
Fierythefaerie [9:56 P.M.]: awwww....fine. in 30 I will call you

Can you tell he was.....erm....uncomfortable with that?!?!?! First time I've successfully done that.

REQUESTS
- Kyo from Fruits Basket, my style.
- Wants me to draw Kyo
- Pita-ten character (prolly will do Shia or Sasha) ....but, since I'm not good with wings, who knows
- Chesire cat; Sailor Moon
- Draw his character
- Alphonse - damn metal
- My own pirate corgi
- Draw another Rin Sohma; draw Corky in Halloween outfit (100% not possible)
- Birthday gift, b-day October 12 (Damn, Ten-chan, I still haven't drawn you anything. That'll have to change. I might dedicate one of my new drawings to you when I finish them. http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/12966007/ Tue, 15 May 2007 13:52:21 PDT
sorry I haven't been on. After tomorrow, I will be able to get on more because things are starting to die down.....at least for a while anyway. I will only have to make up one test and one day's of notes for tomorrow.

ANYWAY - I'm going to try and draw more. i have 3 more drawings, none of which are finished. And I've never not finished a drawing. And I have 3! THREE! As for requests....I'm wanting to finish those up. And I want a job this summer, but I might be stuck with babysitting for my aunt again, I have to call her up sometime this week.......

Ohs well, Corky's back, hurrah!

REQUESTS
- Kyo from Fruits Basket, my style.
- Wants me to draw Kyo
- Pita-ten character (prolly will do Shia or Sasha)
- Chesire cat; Sailor Moon (NEED REFERENCE!!!!!!!!!!!)
- Draw his character (NEED REFERENCE!!!!!!!!)
- Alphonse
- My own pirate corgi
- Draw another Rin Sohma; draw Corky in Halloween outfit (100% not possible)
- Birthday gift, b-day October 12 (Damn, Ten-chan, I still haven't drawn you anything. That'll have to change. I might dedicate one of my new drawings to you when I finish them. FORGIVE ME!!!!!!!!!!
- Damn you Zahra!!!!!! *curses you* I will draw Ayame
- A picture along the lines of [link]
- Birthday gift..which is F... ]]> ~Corky-chan http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/12541497/ http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/12541497/ Tue, 10 Apr 2007 15:32:28 PDT 's drawing he did about da sins.....

Anywayz.....back from NY - had a FAB-U-O-LOUS TIME!!!!! no arguments with mom, me and my oldest brother Christopher got along unusally well, laughed every day, kicked back and relaxed, got a new drawing, five new manga, a new book, went out to eat for many days, had homecooked meals (I'M TIRED OF FOOOOOOOD!!!!!) xD

New Manga
Angel Diary Volume 1
Angel Diary Volume 2
Angel Diary Volume 3
Because I'm the Goddess Volume 1
Because I'm the Goddess Volume 2

New Book
The Faerie Path
(waiting for the sequel to come out) called The Lost Queen

OMFG - these are really good manga and book!!!!!!!!!!! and school has new manga in...kind of queer they have new manga every time I buy a new manga myself.....so i've checked out From Far Away Volumes 3 through 5.....thought about Pita-Ten Volume 4...but I'll check that out later

REQUESTS
- Kyo from Fruits Basket, my style.
- Wants me to draw Kyo
- Pita-ten character (prolly will do Shia or Sasha)
- Chesire cat; Sailor Moon (NEED REFERENCE!!!!!!!!!!!)
- Draw his character (NEED REFERENCE!!!!!!!!)
- Alphonse
- My own pirate corgi
- Draw another Rin Sohma; draw Corky in Halloween outfit (100% not possible)
- Birthday gift, b-day October 12 (Damn, Ten-chan, I still haven't drawn you anything. That'll have to change. I might dedicate one of my new drawings to you when I finish them. FORGIVE ME!!!!!!!!!!
- Damn you Zahra!!!!!! *curses you* I can't draw Ayame!!! T__________T But I will try.
- A picture along the lines of [link]
- Birthday gift..which is February 21, 2007 (she's getting old) bwuahahahahahahaha! She wants me to draw her a monkey,and if I can find the pic of one I'm thinking off, she's gonna love it. That's if and when I find it.

]]> ~Corky-chan http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/12423407/ http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/12423407/ Sun, 01 Apr 2007 21:51:31 PDT
My next seat mate from Detroit to Elmira was a graduated college girl going home for her mom's b-day. She only talked before and after plane took off and landed. There, it's been condensed. Oh, and I have a poem from the ride.

I NEED HELP!!! I wanna shade my Kagome picture sitting in a tree [link] as if the light is coming from the upper-left of the page, only I have no clue how to shade a tree. DOES ANYONE HAVE SHADED TREES OR KNOW HOW TO SHADE A TREE TRUNK!?!?!? But I've changed the altered the pic and will be having more tree trunks in the background, dunno if I'll change those. And I have no clue how to do leaves or anything...... T____T PLEEEEEEEEEASE!!!!

REQUESTS
- Kyo from Fruits Basket, my style.
- Wants me to draw Kyo
- Pita-ten character (prolly will do Shia or Sasha)
- Chesire cat; Sailor Moon (NEED REFERENCE!!!!!!!!!!!)
- Draw his character (NEED REFERENCE!!!!!!!!)
- Alphonse....erm......never tried metal, but I guess I could try......
- My own pirate corgi
- Draw another Rin Sohma; scan newest picture up (copy and color) scan both original and colored; draw Corky in Halloween outfit (100% not possible)
- Birthday gift, b-day October 12 (Damn, Ten-chan, I still haven't drawn you anything. That'll have to change. I might dedicate one of my new drawings to you when I finish them. FORGIVE ME!!!!!!!!!!
- Damn you Zahra!!!!!! *curses you* I can't draw Ayame!!! T__________T But I will try. But if it even looks crappy I will post it and say "in your face I can't draw him" http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/11960883/ Sun, 25 Feb 2007 12:29:41 PST
But - I NEED HELP!!! I wanna shade my Kagome picture sitting in a tree [link] as if the light is coming from the upper-left of the page, only I have no clue how to shade a tree. DOES ANYONE HAVE SHADED TREES OR KNOW HOW TO SHADE A TREE TRUNK!?!?!? But I've changed the altered the pic and will be having more tree trunks in the background, dunno if I'll change those. And I have no clue how to do leaves or anything...... T____T

And the people in my requests - - - I need references, find them for me, or else I won't do the request. Not to be mean, just don't have time to be looking for pic references. I have Kyo pics though, well some, gotta find them. So BG and Fawkes, don't worry, I only have to look.

Also - I have 480, and will go up, deviations to check. If I don't check yours, sorry. My friends from school come first, then the people I talk to daily (or used to), and then on down the line, to the newest ones I've met. And also, I've been slacking on checking them. If you want me to look at something, send me a note or comment on one of my deviations toget my attention. Again, I apologize for my American-like laziness....

REQUESTS
- Kyo from Fruits Basket, my style.
- Wants me to draw Kyo
- Pita-ten character (prolly will do Shia or Sasha)
- Chesire cat; Sailor Moon (NEED REFERENCE!!!!!!!!!!!)
- Draw his character (NEED REFERENCE!!!!!!!!)
- Alphonse....erm......never tried metal, but I guess I could try......
- My own pirate corgi
- Draw another Rin Sohma; scan newest picture up (copy and color) scan both original and colored; draw Corky in Halloween outfit (100% not possible)
- Birthday gift, b-day October 12 (Damn, Ten-chan, I still haven't drawn you anything. That'll have to change. I might dedicate one of my new drawings to you when I finish them. FORGIVE ME!!!!!!!!!!
- Damn you Zahra!!!!!! *curses you* I can't draw Ayame!!! T__________T But I will try. But if it even looks crappy I will post it and say "in your face I can't draw him" ~Corky-chan http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/11912549/ http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/11912549/ Wed, 21 Feb 2007 18:20:44 PST
And the people in my requests - - - - - - - - - - - - those I need references, will need to find them for me, or else I won't do the request. Not to be mean, just don't have time to be scanning for pics to reference off of in order to draw a pic for you guys. I have Kyo pics though, well some, gotta find them. So Jon-Jon and Anna, don't worry, I've got Kyo pics somewhere, those I can look for.

Also - I have 411, and will go up, deviations to check. If I don't check yours, sorry. My friends from school come first, then the people I talk to daily (or used to), and then on down the line, to the newest ones I've met.

REQUESTS
- Kyo from Fruits Basket, my style.
- Wants me to draw Kyo
- Pita-ten character (prolly will do Shia or Sasha)
- Chesire cat; Sailor Moon (NEED REFERENCE!!!!!!!!!!!)
- Draw his character (NEED REFERENCE!!!!!!!!)
- Alphonse....erm......never tried metal, but I guess I could try......
- My own pirate corgi
- Draw another Rin Sohma; scan newest picture up (copy and color) scan both original and colored; draw Corky in Halloween outfit (100% not possible)
- Birthday gift, b-day October 12 (Damn, Ten-chan, I still haven't drawn you anything. That'll have to change. I might dedicate one of my new drawings to you when I finish them. FORGIVE ME!!!!!!!!!!
- Damn you Zahra!!!!!! *curses you* I can't draw Ayame!!! T__________T But I will try. But if it even looks crappy I will post it and say "in your face I can't draw him" However.....I could take and trace Rin's form but make it more Ayame-like (hair could stay the same, God that took forever) like I mentioned in school. lol. XD
- A picture along the lines of [link]
- Birthda... ]]> ~Corky-chan http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/11881886/ http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/11881886/ Tue, 20 Feb 2007 17:31:34 PST 62

But anyways, I WAS feeling a lot better now than I did at 3:30, not throwing shit everywhere, and will have to pick up everything I tossed from my computer desk. On good news - I have lots of new clothes - pants, shirts (about 20 moreorless), bras (yup, DEFINITELY needed those), and two Capri pants for my boots I've only worn once cuz they're too cute to hide. But now the capris will show them off! Bad news - the damned shirts are all XL in women's/misses which means I will shrink them to get them a lil smaller. My cousin will not allow me to wear tighter fitting clothes if she buys it for me cuz i've "gained just a lil too much weight and being so short, it's all going - there! *points at my stomach* so.....yeah....practically what she is saying.

I will totally have to lay back on all the sweets, which I always do, but eating........I don't know why I've gained weight from eating. I guess it's true when you go from 2 years of not eating lunch and sometimes skipping breakfast and dinner (but not cuz I did it on purpose, I just wasn't hungry) and then begin eating 3 meals a day, you gain weight....which is what I've done gradually the past 2 years.

Gotta do Pilates and Curves of some crap like that............running to annoying cuz neighbors will stare. right now, have to get back to my cleaning now that Kaito (Jing-the-Bandit) is gone and Jerrett's not talkative online now that we broke up, though he'll ALWAYS IM me first....sometimes he's annoying.

And the people in my requests - - - - - - - - - - - - those I need references, will need to find them for me, or else I won't do the request. Not to be mean, just don't have time to be scanning for pics to reference off of in order to draw a pic for you guys. I have Kyo pics though, well some, gotta find them. So Jon-Jon and Anna, don't worry, I've got Kyo pics somewhere, those I can look for.

Also - I have 411, and will go up, deviations to check. If I don't check yours, sorry. My friends from school come first, then the people I talk to daily (or used to), and then on down the line, to the newest ones I've met.

REQUESTS
- Kyo from Fruits Basket, my style.
- Wants me to draw Kyo
- Pita-ten character (prolly will do Shia or Sasha)
- Chesire cat; Sailor Moon (NEED REFERENCE!!!!!!!!!!!)
- Draw his character (NEED REFERENCE!!!!!!!!)
- Alphonse....erm......never tried metal, but I guess I could try......
- My own pirate corgi
- Draw another Rin Sohma; scan newest picture up (copy and color) scan both original and colored; draw Corky in Halloween outfit (100% not possible)
- Birthday gift, b-day October 12
- Damn you Zahra!!!!!! *curses you* I can't draw Ayame!!! T__________T But I will try. But if it even looks crappy I will post it and say "in your face I can't draw him" http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/11264461/ Sun, 31 Dec 2006 20:28:44 PST >>>>>>>>>>>>

Anyway, back to me. XD that was my little baby brother who thinks he's big papa.....lol. We all know he isn't....lmao. anyway, I haven't been on as he said because they (my youngest bro and oldest screwed up my comp. A lot of shit has gone on, but that's saved for another day.

My christmas present is...................a nice ass laptop and scanner/printer. MWUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! XD and dad is fixing it up so I have internet on it...not aim, but AOL I will have. hehehehe. So about Friday or between Wednesday and Friday, I will have it accessible for every day and any day. I even got 50 dollars to spend on a carrying case and black ink (the scanner/printer only has color)

XDXDXD so pretty soon CORKY WILL BE BACK IN BUSINESS!!!!!!!!!!!! Beautiful isn't it? Ya gotta love me right? Yeah right.........XPP


REQUESTS
- Kyo from Fruits Basket, my style.
- Pita-ten character; somehow post her colored piccy for her birthday
- Chesire cat; Sailor Moon (I need a pic of the cat!!!!!!!!!!!!)
- Draw his character (need reference!!!!!!!!)
- Alphonse......erm............never tried metal, but I guess I could try......
- Pirate corgi
- Put up colored piccy of Pyong Sailors; draw another Rin Sohma; scan newest picture up (copy and color) scan both original and colored; draw Corky in Halloween outfit (100% not possible) and Christmas pic of Kirara and Shippo, tree, snow pile, santa hat
- Birthday gift, b-day October 12
- Damn you Zahra!!!!!! *curses you* I can't draw Ayame!!! T__________T But I will try. But if it even looks crappy I will post it and say "in your face I can't draw him" However.....I could take and trace Rin's form but make it more Ayame-like (hair could stay the same, God that took forever) like I mentioned in school. lol. XD
- A picture along the lines of [link]

]]> ~Corky-chan http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/10596304/ http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/10596304/ Thu, 07 Dec 2006 19:04:12 PST
So anyway..........I've been talking to this guy Jerrett Walters at school lately, and usually I wouldn't date his type.....and guess who he reminds me of? *sarcastic laugh* Jut....with less jock in him....and more....weirdness. He flirst with a lot of girls, knows a lot of people, even my ex-boyfriend Shawn Pernell. He's been hinting he liked me, but I never got it cuz I thought it was like any other girl, and then Tuesday, he asked me to write him a letter, so he could write me one back and I refused, telling him if he wanted me to write him a letter, he'd write one first.

Well, he did, and in it, said some stuff plus "so..................wanna know someting?................I like you............for more than a friend." ahahahaa.....I wrote him back saying I liked him too and that it was horrible that I did. teasing him and such, oh, and I faked him out saying "I have............some bad news........ for you....."

But Wednesday, he called and finally explained what the question in the letter meant and asked me out....I paused and then said yes. But had to hang up. So, Corky's GOT A BOYFRIEND!!!!!!!!!!!!!

REQUESTS
- Kyo from Fruits Basket, my style.
- Pita-ten character; somehow post her colored piccy for her birthday
- Chesire cat; Sailor Moon (I need a pic of the cat!!!!!!!!!!!!)
- Draw his character (need reference!!!!!!!!)
- Alphonse......erm............never tried metal, but I guess I could try......
- Pirate corgi
- Put up colored piccy of Pyong Sailors; draw another Rin Sohma; scan newest picture up (copy and color) scan both original and colored; draw Corky in Halloween outfit (100% not possible)
- Birthday gift, b-day October 12
- Damn you Zahra!!!!!! *curses you* I can't draw Ayame!!! T__________T But I will try. But if it even looks crappy I will post it and say "in your face I can't draw him" However.....I could take and trace Rin's form but make it more Ayame-like (hair could stay the same, God that took forever) like I mentioned in school. lol. XD
- A picture along the lines of [link]

]]> ~Corky-chan http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/10507015/ http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/10507015/ Thu, 26 Oct 2006 19:53:38 PDT
Tomorrow I will be wearing black, all black. Universal Studios shirt with the skin colored sleeves after normal-length sleeves, looks like tattoos down my arm, my only pair of pretty black pants I got at Belk's, black shoes, black socks, black undergarments/restrainers, and a white sports bra. XDXDXD We're doing a haunted house I wanted to wear black before I put on my witch costume. XD Besides I wanted to prove to Raz, that dumbass from Pickens that I am a gothic prep/preppy goth. But I'm a good prep and not truly gothic, but I lurve black A LOT. Just wear blue cuz it's more my color. >3333 unlike those stupid bastards who force me into pink and red because I look "outstandingly sexy" in it. Ugh.


REQUESTS
- Kyo from Fruits Basket, my style.
- Pita-ten character; somehow post her colored piccy for her birthday
- Chesire cat; Sailor Moon (I need a pic of the cat!!!!!!!!!!!!)
- Draw his character (need reference!!!!!!!!)
- Alphonse......erm............never tried metal, but I guess I could try......
- Pirate corgi
- Put up colored piccy of Pyong Sailors; draw another Rin Sohma; scan newest picture up (copy and color) scan both original and colored; draw Corky in Halloween outfit (100% not possible)
- Birthday gift, b-day October 12
- Damn you Zahra!!!!!! *curses you* I can't draw Ayame!!! T__________T But I will try. But if it even looks crappy I will post it and say "in your face I can't draw him" However.....I could take and trace Rin's form but make it more Ayame-like (hair could stay the same, God that took forever) like I mentioned in school. lol. XD
- Don't know what he wants yet

]]> ~Corky-chan http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/10425701/ http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/10425701/ Tue, 17 Oct 2006 16:43:15 PDT
Back in the room the doctor/dentist was there so I told her what I'd just done. And she says, "Courtney....now I've told you before to quit slapping my staff members around." We had a good laugh over this and she continued to examine my teeth. I got the normal toothbrush/toothpaste, but then the dentist lady was like, "Coutney, since you were really funny and nice today, I'd like to give you this. It might help you floss more." And it was this toothbrush shaped floss handle. It just had a floss head. But it was really nice what she did.

however.................my teeth STILL hurt. *whimpers* I can barely eat on the right side of my mouth (which was the side I normally chew on) even the left was a little tender. And I have no idea why it hurts so much.

]]> ~Corky-chan http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/10229906/ http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/10229906/ Fri, 29 Sep 2006 20:06:44 PDT
ARE YOU:

1. A Cuddler?
Hell yes, I love to cuddle

2. A morning person?
T__________T No....and don't try to wake me up. Actually, if someone says my name, usually I wake straight up, or if someone touches me (no not there you perverts! aiyee!)

3. Are you a perfectionist?
Yes and no

4. An only child?
nope, I'm 1 in a pack of 4!!!!! Christopher (almost 20) Logan (18) C0rky (just turned 17) and Ryan (almost 15)

5. Catholic?
No

6. In your pajamas?
Nope, school clothes. ^////^ I looked so cute today and as Jahneana said, "You look exceptionally matched today Corky. You usually look cute and match, but today....you're exceptionally matched." lol....I about bawled because I was laughing so hard, underneathe the blush of course

7. Currently suffering from a broken heart?
...........putting it behind....putting it behind....*rocks back and forth* Trying to erase him, get him out, push him away, I am nothing to him, just another girl

8. Okay styling other people's hair?
I can't even do my own....

9. Left handed?
Yes - but can write right handed, ambidextrous

10. Addicted to DeviantArt?
HELL YEAH WHORES!!!!

11. Shy around the opposite gender?
Depends on how confident he is in himself. Around the cocky ones, a little. Around ones who are shy or matched to mine, real easy to talk to....unless they're quiet and don't even talk....then it's .................................

DO YOU:
1. Bite your nails?
When nervous, bored, or by myself.

2. Get paranoid at times?
You could say that........

3. Currently regret something that you have said?
*begins bawling in earnest and starts hating self* I hate you Jut I hate you Jut I hate you Jut I hate you Jut I hate you Jut

4. Curse frequently when you get mad?
I make a drill sergent sound tame (I loved that so much I kept it) But yes, I do cuss...practically all the time except around my old cousin and my father

5. Enjoy country music?
Depends on how I'm feeling

6. Enjoy jazz music?
Eh....it's okay

7. Enjoy smoothies?
Not too much........

8. Enjoy talking on the phone?
With my friend Michael Swisher from 8th grade - lasts 30 minutes to 4 hours and there's barely a pause in talking, we're cutting each other off, raising our voices, whispering, and wandering around the house, munching on food cus we're idle while on phone.....other than that, I really can't talk on phone.....now...in person and I know you well.....lets say I'm always thirsty afterwards and you're this ----> @__@''''''''''

9. Have a lot to learn?
Yes, I am still a young adult and have a lot to learn in life

10. Have a pet?
Had, a Kakariki (???) what is that? But I have a rott his name is Titan (Fat Boy) and a Calico cat (Trixxie Calico Fox - Cali for short)

11. Have a tendency to fall for the "wrong" person?
Hmm......I like guys for all categories, but have been known to fall for the wrong guy.....never date him though....well only two or three.....no more though....

12. Have all your grandparents?
...............I have a grandma.

13. Have at least one sibling?
T____T Unfortunately and fortunately yes. Three brothers

14. Have been told that you are smart?
Yes, yes, yes, yes. Although I wish I were smarter!

15. Have a broken bone?
XDDDD nope.

16. Have Caller I.D. on your phone?
House phone - Dad is cheap, so no.

HAVE YOU:

1. Changed a diaper?
Yes, around 20 or less....but I have at least 5 times

2. Changed a lot over the past year?
Hmmm.......become more introverted, somewhat more outgoing, more conscious of myself

3. Had friends who have never seen your natural hair color?
Hell no.....I've had friends who want to murder me for my hair...It's such a weird blonde. T___T I wish it were jet black though.....this golden blonde hairs gets a lot of blonde jokes! But I'm really smart!

4. Killed another person?
....................no.

5. Had your hai... ]]> ~Corky-chan http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/10064788/ http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/10064788/ Tue, 17 Oct 2006 16:33:29 PDT
- Kyo from Fruits Basket, my style.

- Pita-ten character; somehow post her colored piccy for her birthday

- Chesire cat; Sailor Moon (I need a pic of the cat)

- Draw his character (need reference)

- Alphonse......erm............never tried metal, but I guess I could try......

- Pirate corgi

- Put up colored piccy of Pyong Sailors; draw another Rin Sohma; scan newest picture up (copy and color) scan both original and colored

- Birthday gift, her b-day is the 12th

- Damn you Zahra!!!!!! *curses you* I can't draw Ayame!!!!!!!!!!!! T__________T But I will try. But if it even looks crappy I will post it and say "in your face I can't draw him" However.....I could take and trace Rin's form but make it more Ayame-like (hair could stay the same, God that took forever) like I mentioned in school. lol. XD

And I know I have others!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

]]> ~Corky-chan http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/10064113/ http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/10064113/ Wed, 13 Sep 2006 19:25:50 PDT
XDXDXDXDXDXD I love this. I'm going to use it as one of my sigs. ]]> ~Corky-chan http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/9860334/ http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/9860334/ Sat, 26 Aug 2006 09:54:17 PDT
And I wish I had more time, but since this is the only weekend directly before my birthday (Monday, 28th) and it is also my uncle's b-day, I need to finish homework today and have fun Sunday doing birthday stuff or something. I hope we go ice skating (I asked yesterday at Frankies Fun Park) like we did when I turned 15. And I think I was born on his 17th birthday and I am turning 17 so it's kind of symbolistic? I wish I could draw something to portray it...sadly, no time and I'm not good at drawing two people together...though I wanna try with my "Warmth" Megtokyo pic....

so yeah.....Uncle has a cimp and I was able to use....who knows when I'll be on again. Love for you, wish me a happy birthday (and , hers is the 29th), and see you whenever I can! ]]> ~Corky-chan http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/9692846/ http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/9692846/ Fri, 11 Aug 2006 15:56:51 PDT
However....I did get it cut short...to my standards. In all 17 (almost) years of my life, I have never had it cut short. I mean, I did below my shoulders, just below. But other than that, no shorter.

Well after some haggling through books, I found a hair cut just below shoulder with layered ends. I thought that looked cute, so when my turn was up after my younger cousins I showed her that and another pic with bangs cut short to curl against the side of the face (just below the lip on the side). She started to work on it, since my hair is thick, she had to wash it first. Then, she cut it away.

By the end, my hair was layered on ends, rested on my shoulders, flipping out, my bangs were layered just a little after it was parted. And it looks totally cute, and she kept saying, "It looks gorgeous." "It makes you look older." "I know people who would kill to have natural highlights like yours." XDDD Made me feel good.

For those who know me personally, get ready to be wowed. My other aunt even told me I looked like my mom with it that way. Grandma said that wasn't necessarily a good thing, but it indeed was very cute and that I should've had it cut short like that years ago.

You just gotta love me, ne? ]]> ~Corky-chan http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/9657145/ http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/9657145/ Tue, 08 Aug 2006 23:29:13 PDT
Sure did....and it wasn't a dream. We went to a baseball game Sunday night and that was kind of boring (sorry for baseball fans) and then the group which was Girl Scouts (a whole bunch of troupes came for this event) began unloading their stuff after the stadium emptied.

Well....we all got down their and the troupe leaders began setting up the tents, I was charged with watching this lady's two young ones...somewhere in the ages of 4 or 5 and 8 or 9, a boy and girl, girl was in 3rd grade I know. Boy I think was k5? k4? But then the boy ran off with Charlie and tried playing tag with me so I'd tag him and he'd run away, then I bent down and kneeled in front of the girl asking her if she liked reading (as she was reading a book) and she said yes. Was she good? She could understand most of it. What kind did she like and what was the book. Mysteries. I thought that was neat. After that I ran after the brother and the next thing I know, she's coming after me. It was a complete change. I mean one second, quiet and on the ground reading, the next laughing and coming after me. XDDD

I thought it'd be boring, but I got into playing with kids and everytime I turned around a new kid had joined in. By the time I was chasing and tagging, it seemed 3/4 of the kids were swarmed around me, then I lost half of them as a few of the players came onto the field to sign autographs and help out maybe. Well, one of them come towards us after watching me and about 5 kids throwing this huge frisbee. We ignored him after he said, "Hey, over here." And finally he whistled and clapped his hands. Talk about wanting attention. So I threw the frisbee at him and he ducked as it went flying by his head, but caught it by twisting and jogging after it. What a way to catch his attention eh?

Then, they left and I was grabbed by a few girls to play Monster Tennis and then it ended up plenty fighting over it and then they left depressed when there was me, the girl, my cousin, and this other girl....erm...her name was Brittany? I think. So by 11PM I had tired out most of the kids and they settled down for a movie on the scoreboard and towards 11:20 they flipped the baseball lights off. But I did get additional calls every now and then to play, but I talked on phone with Tina for about 30 minutes then got off and wound up playing with Charlie until my aunt called me to help put girls to bed and take them to bathroom.

and I have more to say, but to shorten it. I tried going to bed in the tent with a few others sharing the four door tent, but it was so hot, and ended up not going to sleep until 3. I finally fell asleep and when we got home after the doctor's, it was about 11:26 I fell asleep and woke up at.....6PM!!!! Talk about sleeping all day.

XD And there you go, sorry so long. ]]> ~Corky-chan http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/9576273/ http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/9576273/ Wed, 02 Aug 2006 11:20:12 PDT
A DAYS
1A - Economics (first semester) with Mr. Oxendine and US Gov (second semester) with Mrs. Niles
2A - Algebra 2 with Mr. Cox
3A - Law Enforcement 2 at career center
4A- Law Enforcement 2 with Officer/Mr. Newton

B DAYS
1B - Biology 2 with Ms/Mrs./Mr. Powell (going with Ms.)
2B - AP Language/Composition with Mrs. Grant
3B - English 4 CP with Ms/Mrs. Newhall
4B - Driver's Education (first semester) with Coach Beasley and Study Hall (or whatever I want) with Ms. Love (or whoever)

THE PROBLEM IS....I told the damn counselor I wanted English 4 Honors again, so I brought the two books needed to Bridget's to read, well I get my schedule and I'm in damn CP. It ticks me off because I told her I didn't want it. And low and behold instead of being in Honors again I'm in CP....grrrr....

Good thing - I don't have to read those other two books and take notes
Bad thing - I get a college credit taken off and I'm pissed ]]> ~Corky-chan http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/9575991/ http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/9575991/ Wed, 02 Aug 2006 10:53:34 PDT
Well, after we relaxed for a few hours she took me to Sally's Beauty Shop to look for a good hair brush (I broke mine) she paid for it, despite me having 200+ in my wallet. Then we went to WalMart and CVS and I bought girl necessities...toothbrush, toothpaste (with two containers), toothfloss, deoderant, razor and razorheads (damn most of them were expensive, conditioner and shampoo, and of course 4 bags of sunflower seeds, and a jar of Mt. Olive Kosher Dill pickles.... XDDDD All in all it cost me 41 dollars (rounded up from 40 and whatever change) Then at CVS I bought chapstick and new lipgloss I haven't tried (couldn't find my favorite pink one)

And then we went out to eat around 5 or 6 at Cracker Barrel once we went home, I ordered the usual except the platter not just the meal....of Chicken n Dumplins, fried apples, mashed potatoes, biscuits, and macaroni n cheese....I ate biscuits first, then mashed potatoes, then fried apples, and then started on my macaroni when Debbie (Carolyn's long term best friend and roommate, she's 40 something) says "*laughter* I never noticed, but when she has a bunch to eat, she eats everything one at a time instead of a bite of everything." And went on about I didn't even eat the main course (chicken n dumplins) at first and barely at all. I was already stuffed I had to take the plate home after only a few bites.

Finally it is time for me to go home (back to Bridget's) and I went to bed later that night and am now up after eating a bowl of cereal, pickle, and fixing to for lunch eat the leftovers.....so yeah....

ALSO...while at school I got my schedule and I'll be posting that up next after this. ]]> ~Corky-chan http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/9462301/ http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/9462301/ Sat, 22 Jul 2006 21:07:04 PDT XPP God I have to find six different things about me don't I? Or the same? Oh well, whatever I think of.


Rules: The 1st player of this "game" starts with the topic "6 weird habits/things about yourself" and people who get tagged need to write a journal about their 6 weird habits/things as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next 6 people to be tagged and list their names.

1. I have a tendency to cling on to people I get raelly close to. I have hidden and deep issues with myself about letting friends go.

2. I love to receive hugs from people and know I am luuurved.

3. I have a deep pyschological issue dealing with my family (pointed out by a few friends and my youngest brother)....mainly with the girl's side....they tend to run short, bodacious, and overweight......so I'm like....the "skinniest" one....but I look normal....yet, I'm not skinny enough again. But I've been exercising and I lost 5 pounds this week! In two more weeks I'll be down to where I want and then can lessen up a little on the exercise!!!!

4. I HATE pain, any kind and in any form. My brothers have all purposely cut themselves to see what it feels like and once after my youngest told me he hated me with all of his self, I tried to cut myself with some sharp scissors....I only dented my skin, bruised it, but found I couldn't break the skin....because I was afraid of the pain. So, I don't like pain in mental, physical, or social kind of pain because I tend to get a little sporadic and start asking people if I'm a good person to be around and if I'm funny, sweet, and other stuff.

5. This is more something about me....at random times, sometimes days close to each other, others months apart....I get random heart attack kind of things. What it feels like (and one reason I don't like pain) it feels like a knife cutting through my ribcage and into my lungs and heart and then I feel paralyzed cuz when I go to breathe, the pain is worse and it feels like someone is squeezing my internal organs, my stomach begins to cramp, and my eyes tear up from the intense pain. If something is in my hand I usually drop it and can't close my hands and I feel like I can't swallow...... In the past 2 years....this has happened.....5 times now? 3 months and months apart, 2 within a month.

6. Growing up without a mother and with all boys, I tend to try and be a mother to my brothers and got attached to the youngest most of all and forever tried to be his one and only best friend and I love his the most, but sometimes when he angered me I would say such hateful and spiteful things to him to try and stop him from going somewhere...it usually made him yell back, but he'd go in his room to fume and then I feel like the loweliest thing on the planet. I don't want anyone to take him away and I'm extremely jealous of his girlfriends (except the few who are a lot like me or who I knew really well) and best friend.

So er......yeah. >> Now you know a bit more about Corky than you have before.

Taggage!

I tag........











]]> ~Corky-chan http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/9363617/ http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/9363617/ Thu, 13 Jul 2006 10:35:00 PDT
Her name is and she's got plenty of things for you to browse through.

So you know what you might see, I've got a few links for you to check out. These are pieces I liked and thought might interest anyone who likes animes and CG/photoshop stuff.

[link] - Uncoloured version of pic below, really cute.

[link] - The coloured pic is an eyecatcher. XD

[link] - A sexy bishie, so hot you wanna strip poor lil Manuel.

[link] - Two characters, The Seraph and the Demon, both are pretty good. XD The seraph is probably poor Corky's own height. .__. But they've got awesome designs and both are good.

[link] - REALLY cute piece coloured and just adorable.

And there you have just a few pieces. If you're interested, go check her out, if not. Here's two more pics you might like, plus a poetry item:

[link] - A sad piece of a broken spirited girl, chained down, in a wicked outfit. XD I think it's really good, it's why I faved her.

[link] - A poem called Nymph that is really astonishing. I was searching for a poem and was going to enter one called Silver Scales that was sad, but really good, and this one stuck in my mind. It's a romantic one about a beautiful girl waiting for her lover to come back sinking into the depths, waiting to return to her lover's keep.

[link] - A pic she didn't draw, but colored. It's a Druid, and she used different colors than what you'd expect, but the colors are so awesome!!!!! XDDDD

WHAT ARE YOU STILL DOING HERE!?!?!?!? You're supposed to have gone hopping over to her site by now!!! Go!!!! ]]> ~Corky-chan http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/9357840/ http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/9357840/ Wed, 12 Jul 2006 19:21:08 PDT

Rules : The 1st player of this "game" starts with the topic "6 weird habits/things about yourself" and people who get tagged need to write a journal about their 6 weird habits/things as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next 6 people to be tagged and list their names. Don't forget to leave a comment that says "you are tagged" in their devpage comments and tell them to read yours....

1: When I get serious I like things to be perfectly neat and if I can't find something to fit in nice and neat...then I start over....and keep trying.

2: I have a serious cockroach phobia because of my father.

3: I tend to be optimistic when it comes to everyone, but when it comes to me I get confused and muddled.

4: At home, I bite my fingernails, at school I drum my fingers, at other family's houses I bite my lip.

5: When nervous or not able to find right words, I lick my lips and gesture with my hands or speak softly.

6: I'm not good at meeting new people and tend to avoid it in person, but on internet, I'm my good old Corky self!

and so I randomly tag: (More like, purposely)

Fawkes I love you! lots and lots!

Yarazaro >> you're the bestest and greatest, though not the prettiest!

Goddess >> ........ << you're a great driver? >3 Not really! But you're the best goddess I know!

Kaito-kun It's nice talking to you on the phone!

Blizzy-kun Yay for new brothers! XDDD Enjoy the light I shed onto you!

Bayli-boo!!! XD oh, I luff you so much! ]]> ~Corky-chan http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/9312815/ http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/9312815/ Sat, 08 Jul 2006 14:42:16 PDT
2. Am I lovable?

3. How long have you known me?

4. When and how did we first meet?

5. What was your first impression?

6. Do you still think that way about me now?

7. What do you think my weakness is?

8. Do you think I'll get married?

9. What makes me happy?

10. What makes me sad?

11. What reminds you of me?

12. If you could give me anything what would it be?

13. How well do you know me?

14. When's the last time you saw me?

15. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?

16. Do you think I could kill someone?

17. Describe me in one word.

18. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?

19. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?

20. Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?

I stole it from
Copy-paste this into a comment on this journal. ^___^

Am I sweet?-
Am I crazy?-
Am I lovable?-
Am I funny?-
Am I ugly?-
Am I psycho?-
Am I annoying?-
Am I a good person?-

2)******Would You******
Hug me?-
Miss me if i was gone?-
Listen to my problems?-
Hug me if i cried?-
Be a good friend?-

3)******If You Could...******
Give me a new name it would be?-
Do one thing with me it would be?-
Drop me one piece of advice it would be?-

4)******Just A Few Questions******
What do u like about me?-
What do u hate about me?-
What is my best quality?-

1. Who are you?-
2. Do you have a crush on me?-
3. Are we good friends?-
4. Do we know each other in real life?-
5. Am I hot?-
6. Is my avatar hot? (oO)-
7. Will you put this in your journal so i can answer these questions about you!?-

Tagged by: no-one! I stole it from Usai-chan!

Rules : The 1st player of this "game" starts with the topic "6 weird habits/things about yourself" and people who get tagged need to write a journal about their 6 weird habits/things as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next 6 people to be tagged and list their names. Don't forget to leave a comment that says "you are tagged" in their devpage comments and tell them to read yours....

1: When I get serious I like things to be perfectly neat and if I can't find something to fit in nice and neat...then I start over....and keep trying.

2: I never like to give up once I start something (in life or with friends) stories don't count.... >> And unless backed into a corner I will keep trying. Unless I get depressed, then it's all over.

3: I tend to be optimistic when it comes to everyone, but when it comes to me I get confused and muddled.

4: At home, I bite my fingernails, at school I drum my fingers, at other family's houses I bite my lip.

5: When nervous or not able to find right words, I lick my lips and gesture with my hands or speak softly.

6: I'm not good at meeting new people and tend to avoid it in person, but on internet, I'm my good old Corky self!

and so I randomly tag: (More like, purposely)

Fawkes I love you! lots and lots!

Yarazaro >> you're the bestest and greatest, though not the prettiest!

Goddess >> ........ << you're a great driver? >3 Not really! http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/9260872/ Mon, 03 Jul 2006 12:44:25 PDT
Your real name[/u]: Courtney
Age: Gonna be 17 in a month
Height: grrr...ack... *mumbles* I'm 4 foot 10 or 11
Natural hair color: O_o Dirty blonde atop head, golden blonde and caramel down neck and back, and underneathe dark blonde-brown. XD Such pretty but very annoying colors!
Eye colour: Sky blue
Skin color: Tan and a little burned
Glasses/contacts?: Nope, never
Piercings: Ears, just once....wanna try getting them pierced again tho.
Tattoos: psh...and go through the pain of removing it or having it when im old? (same as anthroprincess) Hell no.
Braces: No.
Mannerisms: In front of strangers (most) I'm quiet, well-behaved, very sweet, thoughtful, shy. To family loud, talkative, somewhat well-behaved, sweet, caring, sad, funny sometimes in a stupid way. Same way to best friends, to other friends all of the above in various forms.
Other distinctive markings: A large scar along the back of my left forearm, elbow to wrist. My eyes, how thick my hair is, how straight my teeth are, how deep I am to cheer up others, my three best friends who are/were with me.

Favorite
Color: blue, silver, and black, sometimes white and light pinks or purples
Band: Linkin Park, Creed, and most anything J-pop (no particular band)
Video game: FFX and FFX2, Dark Cloud, but I haven't been able to play them in a while
Movie: hmmm.... Spirited Away, Hidalgo, The Last Samurai, Inuyasha (all three movies)
Book: Anything by Tamora pierce, romance novels with a good ending, the Da Vinci Code, Heritage Triology
Food: American food I like bes, second comes Hibachi or Teryaki Steak, mushrooms, and rice (that you get at Atami Express (Japanese restaurant)
Game on a cell phone: None
CD: Tsubase Reservoir Chronicles, Sailor Moon: Luna Rock and TV Hits, most Japanese stuff I've downloaded onto my CDs from gendou
Flower: Lilies, Bluebells, and white/pink/orange rose
Scent: the scent of Lavendar, ginseng, and papaya
Animal: Wolf, Horse, Rabbit, Cow (Haru!!!) XP
Comic book: Planet Ladder, Ai Yori Aoshi, Chrono Crusade, Furuba
Cereal: Apple Jacks, Smores, Lucky Charns, Honey Nut Cheerios
Website: deviantART.com and neopets, and animewallpaper.com
Cartoon: None except anime stuff

Do You
Play an instrument?: Recorder? >< Wish I could play drums or the flute
Watch TV more than 60 hours a week?: HELL NO! Maybe 8 to 12 hours a week, not even that
Like to sing?: Yes
Have a job: ...I babysit my little cousins for the summer
Have a cell phone?: Yup, verizon service
Like to play sports?: YES!
Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: Welll....considering I asked him out about four or five months ago and haven't seen him since.....no?
Have a crush on someone?: GOD YES! YES I DO!
Live somewhere NOT in the united states?: Wish I did sometimes
Have more than 5 TVs in your house?: 4 in the house, about as many in the garage
Have any special talents/skills?: Calming someone down, making someone feel good, kissing (), swimming
Exercise daily?: Just started today! But I have been swimming the past couple of days, and will continue
Like school?: As long as I have friends and like the class/teacher

Can You

Sing the alphabet backwards?: I've tried and failed
Stand on your tip toes without wearing shoes?: I can for like a second or two...or three
Speak any other languages?: French partially
Go a day without food?: Trust me, I can for more than a day
Remember your dreams: For the most part, yes
Read music, not just tabs?: Somewhat....
Roll your tongue?: No, but I can curl it
Eat a whole pizza?: Nope, I can eat about 4 or 5 pieces

Have You Ever

Won something in the lottery?: Does 5 or 10 dollars count? XD I got it off a scratch card
Snuck out of the house?: .........yes
Lied to get out of trouble?: More often when my brothers were around, but now I don't do it as often
Had a computer crash?: A couple times
Gotten lost in your city?: Considering I still don't drive and have no way to get myself lost
Seen a shooting star?: Seen a shower of them.
Been to any other countries?: No
Had a serious surgery?: No.
Stolen something important to someone else?: Not me, but my brothers have the fcking bastards.
Solved a rubiks cube?: I've solved one or two sides
Gone out in public in your pajamas?: Not completely into public, but sort of
Cried over a girl?: Losing a best friend in the past, yes, for several years
Cried over a boy?: .....I plead the fifth! plead it!!!
Kissed a random stranger?: HAHAHAHAHAAAAHHHA! http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/9237130/ Fri, 30 Jun 2006 22:48:51 PDT
Quote" People born in the Year of the Snake are deep. Snake people are often quite vain, selfish, and a bit stingy. Yet they have tremendous sympathy for others and try to help those less fortunate. Snake people tend to overdo, since they have doubts about other people's judgment and prefer to rely on themselves. They are determined in whatever they do and hate to fail. Although calm on the surface, they are intense and passionate." Unquote

So that explains me in most terms. ]]> ~Corky-chan http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/9237004/ http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/9237004/ Fri, 30 Jun 2006 22:28:57 PDT
[] my fingernails/toenails are almost always painted
[] during the summer the only shoes i wear are flip flops
[x] my favorite toys as a child were barbies
[] my favorite colour is pink or purple
[] I did Gymnastics
[x] I love skirts
[] hollister is one of my favorite places to shop
[] tight jeans are the only jeans i'll wear
[x] I love chocolate
[x] I've never had a real job

TOTAL: 4

[] my hair is almost always straightened
[] I have at least 8 myspace pictures
[] I usually go shopping once a week
[] I love to hang out at the mall with friends
[x] I have a real diamond ring or diamond necklace or earings
[] I've gone to a tanning salon
[] I've gone to the beach to tan - not to swim
[x] I have at least 10 pairs of shoes
[] I watch either the OC or Laguna Beach
[] I change my icon weekly
[] I wear a shower cap

TOTAL: 2

[x] I dont shop at Hot Topic
[] my cell phone might as well become a part of me
[] I wear mascara everyday
[x] I've been or am on a diet
[x] bathing suits are adorable
[] I dont know the difference between a sheep and a goat.
[] big sunglasses are hott
[] I have gotten my nails done before
[] MTV is one of my favorite channels

TOTAL: 3

[] all I want to do at sleepovers is talk about boys
[] I love to have gurls do my hair
[x] I give and recieve hugs from all my friends
[x] I hate bugs
[x] carnivals are so fun!
[] Summer is THE best season
[] my swimsuit has 2 pieces
[] Im waiting for my knight in shining armor
[] musicians are so hot
[] you write me a poem and tell me im beautiful and im all yours

TOTAL: 3

[x] I am self-conscious
[] I cry often
[] my car smells like vanilla or cherry
[x] my dishes get washed more than once a week
[] I dont do sports
[] I HATE to run
[] I squeal when i am surprised or angry
[] I eat dried fruit as a snack
[x] I love romance novels
[] Drew Barrymore is so cute

TOTAL: 3

[] I dance a lot.
[x] usually spend an hour or over to get ready to leave my house
[] I only have like 5 billion hair products
[] I love to get dressed up.
[x] every part of my outfit needs to match
[] I talk on the phone at least once a day to my friends
[] I would love to have a photo shoot
[] I apply lip stuff 50 times a day
[x] I wish I were a model

TOTAL: 3

[] I wish I could meet Paris Hilton
[] I have been something that was semi
[] I own Uggs
[] Hip Hop is the best music
[] I pop my collar
[] I like to be the center of attention
[] guys with Mohawks are crazy
[x] horses are beautiful
[x] I'd rather not pay attention in school
[x] Cats are adorable

TOTAL: 3

[x] I write my own music
[x] I would love to visit Hawaii
[] Valentine's day is so cute!
[] white is better than black
[] I wouldn't be caught dead in all black
[] my closet is STOCK FULL of clothes
[] hate the grunge look
[]I love to read magazines

TOTAL: 2

[] I love to gossip
[] I had Lisa Frank folders/posters/notebooks as a kid
[x] I love Celine Dion
[] my bubble baths are 1-2hrs long
[] My wedding only needs a groom because it's already planned
[] My friends and I are in a strict group. We mostly only hang out with each other.
[] I like little kids
[] Diet drinks are the best
[] I'm all about being vegetarian
[] I refuse to eat at McDonalds

TOTAL: 1

[] I check my myspace everyday.
[] I love life!
[x] I have a lot of jewlery!
[] my screen name(s) have x's in them
[] either one of my myspace names has/had <3's or in them
[] I would never want to be the opposite sex
[] It's not what he/she said it's the way he/she said it
[x]I have more than 3 pillows on my bed

TOTAL: 2

Now add up all the total points and put "I am __% girly" for the subject if you steal or get tagged.

I am 26 percent girly!!!!!!!!! Half that stuff was just idiotic!! So....just over 1/4 of me is girly. No wonder. Four kids, three brothers, one girl. That one-fourth was me, the other three quarters are m... ]]> ~Corky-chan http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/9220434/ http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/9220434/ Thu, 29 Jun 2006 11:27:23 PDT
I thought if I didn't see Jut I could get over him again, but here I am, crying (last night) because I love him so much and I watched this movie Failure to Launch and it said something that really hit home. I watched some stuff on special features and it said "give the guys who really love you a chance. a first date, second date, third, fourth... anything it takes" And others stuff like throw away what you like in a guy and ignore the one you do like, and try to love the one who loves you the most. I feel so hopeless, sad, and just I can't tell anyone. I mean, I've NEVER gone to Bridget crying and I did yesterday! She wanted to know why and I said because I was just sad and she kept asking why and the nasked who I was texting and I said Mom. She goes "oh" and I told her it was because I haven't seen my friend Jessica in 6 months and she lives in G'ville.

I was texting mom on if she knew how it felt to not have anyone to go to and cry, so when you hae no mom, you suck it up. Then when you need to cry to someone, you can't, because there is no one to cry too. It was too much for me and I couldn't stop it, so I went to Bridget and the tears stopped just sitting next to her (lying down actually)

I feel sorry that Aaron fell in love with me. I feel so bad because I love someone else and he KNOWS I do. He keeps trying and I don't want to lose a friendship by saying "i don't love you, i don't love you...." cuz I'll break down crying and I can't put it into words for him. I hate it when all the guys I don't love, love me...want me to marry them and be by their side and I can only stare coldly saying "I don't love you. I can't marry you. I want to be friends. I don't want to go out with you. It wouldn't work!" And then at night I can't sleep because I think of how many guys are in love with me and the one I love I can't tell him. I want to so bad, but so many girls love Jut-Jut guys, that it's hard.

I can't tell him because I don't do things the majority does. The majority of girls that know Jut have either dated him or are in love with him and cry over him. I don't want to be like that! I've known him longer, dealt with the sadness longer, and it's just....I can't help but keep loving him.

Mrs. Angel told me "Love is constant. No matter what, if you still love him and no matter what others say or do or if you break up or hate each other, and deep down, you feel that love, you feel it stay in your heart. It's love." It's how I feel about Jut, but I can't tell him, there's no place, no way. I have two things I desperately want to say. I want to ask him about a situation that happened between us and I want to apologize for asking him 4 years ago if he loved me then when he said I should know the answer, screaming how I'd rather be raped by my ex-boyfriend and go out with him than just standing there crying and asking him the important question.

Dad doesn't understand I can love anyone, but I've loved my best friend Dustin McArthur since elementary school and haven't seen him since a brief moment in 8th grade and I'm at terms with not seeing him for the rest of my life, but Jut-Jut is like.... I see him and his family and then I can't, then I see him again, and then something is wedged between the family and me where I can't see them over months and months (years) and then I can. It has happened a second time and I'm just so.....I need to have a long, crying breakdown, but I can't. Tina isn't here guys and Mom isn't (of course I barely know the damn woman anyway, so I couldn't) but Tina....is at home and I'm here in Belton and there's no one but Teddy (my bear) that I can cry too. I'm just so.....at a loss and upset that I can't. I've complained so many time lately I feel like a bitch or child throwing a tantrum, but I just....need comfort from SOMEONE and there's no one here. I can't hug Bridget and have her know how much pain and sadness I've felt in life, I can't play with the kids because I miss being a kid myself, and Dad won't listen, and my friends are here....but not here.

Life isn't fair, I know it isn't, and God puts you through tests to make you stronger. He'll break you into tiny tiny bits until there's nothing left and then supposedly will give you everything once it's time. But how can you believe in him and know he's there when you're uncertain and broken so much that your life seems horrid? I have doubts in God, I go along with people who don't believe in him. I believe he's here or something like it, but I'm stuck. Am I an Atheist...or not? I believe there is someone like God, but....being human, I want to know for sure before I put my faith in something. I've put my faith in someone (in many a people) and had that faith broken. How can God be so different? He can't materialize and come to me say... ]]> ~Corky-chan http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/9120957/ http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/9120957/ Mon, 19 Jun 2006 22:42:15 PDT
I mean sure I'm nice and all cutesy when you get to know me, but I have a bitchy side my dad, brothers, and little cousins see. I'm mean when it comes straight down to it.

People always take me for deep, thoughtful, caring, sweet, adorable, giving. But really I'm this fake bitch who doesn't know who the hell she is, wants people to love her, wishes she was skinny as hell to wear girlie clothes so she could be what people make her out to be, wishes she had enough confidence and money to buy black clothes and be a punk ass, wants to lose her damn virginity so people quit calling her a fucking chicken, hates guys a lot because all they want is sex, is a complaining, whining bitch who no matter how much her family loves her - wishes she could die just to see their faces, is confused on damn spirituality, wants to suicide just to see if her damn brothers would cry but afraid to lose what good she has in life and does not want to seem a coward, though she is. I'm a fucked up loser, who's always trying to con friends into something and get my way. I truly am a spoiled bitch ass slut and Miss Perfect as people say.

I just really wish by the end of this summer I will be thin enough to wear those things, even if it means starvation next school year (who gives a hoot) and maybe work out I have muscles to where I intimidate people. I kind of think I should act slutty next year because all the guys who fall in love with me, are friends who I want to be friends and nothing else, and they just don't frickin understand, cuz at least the other guys will like more than my personality and prettieness and the pity I took out on them.

I just don't frickin care what anyone thinks at this moment. I'm confused, pissed, ashamed (as some people would have it), and feel like never getting on the damn internet so I can avoid the people who I know I will morethanlikely never see again as I'm a damn loner and will practically have no one next year and I don't want new friends, maybe I'll just take a million frickin lovers and surprise the whole family with shit like "i'm pregnant" or "I was raped" or "get the fuck out my life and let me move out"

God I really am tired of this world and I really need you. Then again, I really need to find myself before I ask favors. ]]> ~Corky-chan http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/9061796/ http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/9061796/ Tue, 13 Jun 2006 23:37:17 PDT And I would do a lot more happy icons but it's 2:30 in morning and I've been working on coloring Bur's piccy for her birthday......

But we went to see Cars today (OMFG that movie was hilarious, I need to buy it!!!!) and Dad appeared there - with it in hand. I was so happy. Even the wonderful, bleak but nice rain (i love rain) seemed brighter and happier!

I can be Corky again!!!! *grabs all peeps who answered the sad, sad loss and hugs them again and again.

Oh, I love you guys!!!!!!

Only sad thing left is that my lovely Bur piccu doesn't look so good scanned but it looked awesome on paper. Bur if you read this, I'm making a copy of it, coloring over colored lines and sending it to you via snail mail.

<3333333333333 Speaking of movies, best friends who know Salvador - I might go with him to movies sometime this weekend. You guys can't speak a word to Aaron!!!! I'll die if he finds out. Actually....he'd be torn to pieces....but I try to be gentle with his heart..... >> Moving on.......... ]]> ~Corky-chan http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/9051552/ http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/9051552/ Mon, 12 Jun 2006 21:47:30 PDT

Corky's drawings have been left at home and she can't get them anytime soon. I can't draw cuz I just haven't felt it. A piece of my heart is at home - an hour away and Father won't bring it here for me. I just can't draw unless it's near me and I can't scan any new drawings and I can't color. I'm so hopeless.....

I'm tired of reading, tired of Tv, tired of the internet, tired of not being home (though I draw better away from home), tired of basically eating snacks and then playing all day. I have too much alone time now and no drawings to do. I'm so pathetic! Hopeless! Depressed! Kill me......


]]> ~Corky-chan http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/9027316/ http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/9027316/ Sat, 10 Jun 2006 11:26:39 PDT Yes, I am very excited, yes, yes, yes. XD

My twin guy best friends are also here.

They are - and

I hope the icon thingy works.... I'm always forgetting how to do it. Stupid, stupid me!

Anyways.....Yarazaro is a critic for now and I'm not sure if BG has anything up yet. >> XD But I hope you make them your friends cuz they need attention for when their comics do appear, you might like them!!!

Go forth friends, minions, ex-boyfriend, best friend, and all cool people!!!!

And this means now my three bestest of all best friends are now on here - I'm so happy!!! ]]> ~Corky-chan http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/8865160/ http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/8865160/ Thu, 08 Jun 2006 17:46:48 PDT
Her name is So, yeah, that's her name, go to it, she's awesome, you'll love her. She just started so most of her "crappy junk" (as she calls it) is in scraps. Check her scraps and gallery!!! FOR ME, FOR ME, FOR ME!!!!!!

You just gotta. You better. >3 Or Corky's wrath shall befall you! ]]> ~Corky-chan http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/8646381/ http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/8646381/ Mon, 01 May 2006 20:54:06 PDT
Prom.......8:00PM to 12AM......


................ No, it's not my wedding.....^///////^ It's mi older bro's, he's getting married. I'm a bridesmaid - wearing a long blue gown that trails a little behind and so far my sister-in-law (to be) has yet to send it to me so I can make sure it fits. She jokingly told me I might need to find five inch heels (cracking on how short I am) .....I told her my two inch ones were perfect, I'd just trip people with the end of the gown.

anyway..........since it's three hours away, I have to miss the reception afterwards and come home, or stay for only 30 minutes and then leave to come home. My best friends are taking me and my date (god forbid his girlfriend doesn't find out - if he's still dating her....I have yet to ask....) to the prom....he better like them or I'll dump him on the side of the road with all his cocky ass attitude....*lol* My damn lurve of the past four years (secretely and not secretly, cuz he knows it, but just not how much) is a damn prep/jock/whigger......

So...................yeah...... XD

Justin Ray Wright...........*sigh* Just don't know about him sometimes. ]]> ~Corky-chan http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/7956691/ http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/7956691/ Mon, 20 Feb 2006 19:52:18 PST
Anyway, went to the mountains on Saturday. It started snowing as we hiked! We found this steep climb so we hiked off the trail and up this side of the mountain. It snowed heavier and heavier until huge flakes covered us! Awesome. Then it stopped snowing and then started up a little snowing again. We hiked upwards for the longest time ever. My little brother had to practically crawl on hands and knees because his shoes had no grip. Once at top, we rested and started down. Much harder....slipped and rolled, ran down and grabbed onto trees to stop. Slid and flopped, fell and glided. Uncle almost broke his shin. Yup...lots of pain, but lots of fun in the end.

On way home finally, we stopped at this huge river. Large rocks were loaded in the river so we got out of car after parking and climbed onto these rocks. My younger brother (taller and has longer legs) was on these huge rocks. I couldn't find a way to reach them. In front of me was a rock much smaller than this good sized one I was on. I would have to slide down this rock and push off to jump on the rock I wanted to get across. I refused, but Ryan said I could, so I tried. I slid partways down and pushed. I landed on the rock, but my body went backwards.

I screamed as I hit the water and it swirled around me. I felt like I was being pulled downwards and almost wanted to go under. I kicked upwards with my feet in this ice cold water and scrabbled at the rock. Luckily my head didn't go under, but I had a hard time dragging myself out because of my sweater. I got a hold of one of the rocks (same one I had tried to land on) and dragged myself up. Ryan was yelling my name and slid to grab my arm. He moved back as I crawled to lie on my stomach. He asked if I was okay several times and I glared at him, teeth chattering.

He ran to get Uncle Ronnie, many rocks apart, and yelled I had fallen in the river, but gotten out. I was cold and shivered. I was glad I kept my heavy sweater on. I crawled on the same rocks I had wanted on to begin with, but I jumped across to a safer rock and hopped to safety where Ryan and Ronnie waited. Ronnie said it was time to leave, and I complained I wasn't that cold.

He looked at me sternly and glanced at the river saying I was lucky I had fallen among a cluster of rocks and less deep water. I could've been swept away and died. I didn't feel too lucky. He told me how a man had fallen in this same river last year and had drowned from the currents.

As ronnie headed for the car along the rocks, Ryan and I joked about him being an ass to tell me to jump like that and that I wish I could throw him in. He laughed at me being cold and refused to admit he'd been worried the moment I screamed.

So, we returned to the car and I did not want to sit in cold, water logged clothes. I began to strip my pants and my uncle pulled me in the car to do so. I shivered violently feeling my arms ache and quiver. I saw my uncle's eyes twitch when we looked at my thighs. Blue splotches dotted my skin and I felt so cold. I mananged to get my pants, shoes, and socks off. Ryan took off his boxers over other boxers and demanded I put them on. I didn't complain and struggled to put them on. When I finally managed this, alone - the damn bastards, I was freezing my ass off - I took my shirt off and let Ryan shut the door for me.

Ron started the car and cranked up the heat all the way. I at first was just going to be in my bra, but he threw me his jacket lined with warm stuff. It was slightly damp (from the mountains) but it would do. I was so cold for the longest time though. I looked at my legs again and traced the blue lines crossing over my veins and rubbed my legs to warm them.

No matter how much I tried, my toes would not stay warm, and I worried for the longest time about them falling off (almost to point of own paranoia inside my head)

So, yes. I can now say I survived falling into a cold, freezing river in the middle of winter, with rocks, a strong current, and ice and snow. Not that I haven't done it before, just never that much. Usually I only drop a leg in accidently as we cross it or we fall into it up to our knees. For some strange reason though, I can't figure out why my hair never got wet. It's mid back, and I fell almost up to my shoulders, and my hair (even pulled back) reaches down to part mid-back. My hair was com... ]]> ~Corky-chan http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/7340027/ http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/7340027/ Sat, 17 Dec 2005 20:14:04 PST

So anywayz......go to bed at like almost one and wake up with Ryan shaking me saying there's no electricity and to get up cuz we might or might not have school.... I text Salvador he texts his friends and calls the school's back up generator phone and we have a two hour delay....then no school....

X___X So I go back to sleep and wake up cold as hell....freezing....get up to scavenge for candles (which I thankfully find) The night comes....and it's F@*cking freezing!!!! No electricity.....no heat.....and it's getting colder

Dad doesn't come home, we're all alone (my younger bro and I), my phone has only one bar left, Dad calls over and over to make sure we're okay....trees are falling down left and right.....he can't get home, our neighborhood is COMPLETELY blocked from all access from anyone to get home.

Pitch black.....(sort of like) ......freezing ice everywhere....kind of cool but cold.....like my hometown New York except there EVERYONE had a back up generator and ice shovels and shit, and no one has anything down here....

So.....we had NO power until today.....plus my dad's best friend (whom I call Uncle) came down to live here from New York and THEY won't have power until Wednesday. TT____TT This is so unfair.......I hope everyone else is okay....they've had like.....eleven deaths now....

Tried staying warm by putting all the candles in my room and making my brother come lay on my bed with my kitty and me..... At least we have heat now and electricity!!!! YAYYYY!!!! ]]> ~Corky-chan http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/7229911/ http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/7229911/ Mon, 05 Dec 2005 14:22:44 PST

Please, please, please, please, please, please, please.....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 ]]> ~Corky-chan http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/7150448/ http://Corky-chan.deviantart.com/journal/7150448/ Sat, 26 Nov 2005 15:10:24 PST



.....well, improving my art! Duh.



So yeah, now it ruleZ, and it will take over the WORLD!!! MWUAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!



Yes, my precious, we shall rule!!!


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