http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:Crepesculum&section=today deviantART RSS for by:Crepesculum en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Sun, 20 Dec 2009 18:55:13 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/29016821/ http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/29016821/ Fri, 18 Dec 2009 11:19:00 PST
Watching anime and playing video games and actually having time for having a life in general...it inspires me to work creatively. The new NarutoxGaara sketch only took me about an hour in total to do, and I have a few other ideas coming up which I don't think will take that long. I'm also working on coloring that sketch too...but I really hate coloring in Photoshop because I'm no good at it. I'll post it for the hell of it, but depending on how much I hate it, it may come down quickly.

Aside from that, I'm actually doing the update to celebrate the fact that I finally organized my gallery into folders. Yay! Very vague, basic folders...but it's better than 10 pages of just everything all at once XD

Life is life...going to work today, and the next three days are 8 hour shifts. Oh joy.

In good news. Once I finish these next four days of work, I'm going to Busch Gardens with Karen and then going to see Zack in NOVA (Northern Virginia). I would expect some serious picture taking will ensue. =3

Peace and Love~

]]> ~Crepesculum http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/28960631/ http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/28960631/ Tue, 15 Dec 2009 12:32:35 PST
More updates as they come, but mostly...I'm working on it...as well as working every night this week XD

Peace. And hopefully, an update soon XD

]]> ~Crepesculum http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/28784732/ http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/28784732/ Sun, 06 Dec 2009 10:56:48 PST
But anyway! December is here...and good lord it's been a month and some change since I last updated. I am ashamed. I do feel as though I gave a disclosure though. I have class, work, and sleep. I can't keep up with DA or my pride and joy of a blog [link] or anything really.

I have 800+ messages, over 600 of which are deviations. I plan on getting to them, I really do. It's just going to be slow going. I do think I'll have more time once I get finals week over with though (finally...I feel like I'll be able to breathe again once this next week is over and done with).

I do have a few ideas for sketches, but currently the sketch pad is whining at me from in a drawer to stop working and studying so much, but alas, I cannot listen to it's pleas until this week is done with.

With that...I'm going back to studying, and getting ready for work today XD

Thank you all for the favorites/watches/comments while I've been away! I do appreciate them all and they make me warm and fuzzy inside because they let me know I'm not completely dead to the DA world XD

Peace.

]]> ~Crepesculum http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/27991175/ http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/27991175/ Tue, 27 Oct 2009 08:03:21 PDT
Not the only reason I want to write, of course, and not like I need an excuse...rather, I should have an excuse for not updating more...which I actually do...so yea.

Life:
Busy. The social side barely exists anymore. Though in the past (almost month D I've been to the National Equality March in DC, helped a friend get his name changed, gotten my haircut, been in the school newspaper, broken off a one day from one year relationship, and managed to keep an up to date journal of my days activities (a private one, obviously), killed the battery in my car completely, seriously considered a piercing or two, etc. I've done other stuff, but that's the stuff that comes to mind currently.

Work:
This is what consumes most of my life outside of school, and why I don't have much time for the social anymore. This is probably equal to school in the amount of stress it causes. I work anywhere from 6-8 hours a day, pretty much 5 or 6 days a week. Long weekends, and every other day takes my night after classes. I still don't have my last paycheck either because my bank is retarded and I have to go through a bunch of stuff to fix a mistake THEY made. Ugh. That's one of my chores today.

School:
Really stresses me out. I'm really happy about my chem grade today though. Math, specifically pre-calc, not so much. I don't know what I'm going to do to get my grade up, but I have one test and a final to do it. I can't drop since I dropped lab, and I'd be part time if I did. Plus, I don't want to. I want to get it done with.
Financial aid still fails too. Registration starts soon and I have a hold due to my inability to pay them $400 in one week's notice basically. SO have to get rid of that and register soon. Still not sure how I'm "getting rid of that" considering I lack suck funds...but I guess I'll figure it out.

So yea...today's activities are: getting a new battery, going to the bank, getting my paycheck, and whatever else. Luckily, I have today and the next two days off. Probably get to donate plasma (you can make up to $220 a month doing that, did you know?!) And Godfreys, what? Yea. I'm going to make the most of these days, that's for sure.

Hope you all are well. All being whoever still reads this...haha.

Peace

]]> ~Crepesculum http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/27617844/ http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/27617844/ Tue, 06 Oct 2009 15:34:22 PDT
Art has been slow because of the sickness, which is making me fall behind in school (considering the classes I've been told kindly to leave by awesome professors, and those I just haven't bothered going to since I'd just cough the entire time and be miserable). I'm finally trying to catch up on everything, but it really is a bummer to get sick and be this behind. I should be able to manage though. I think I will!

Hooray! Trying to be positive!

On a lighter note. I'm going to DC this weekend with some friends to march in the National Equality March. It should be uber exciting. I shall take many photos :] I know a few people have expressed interest in seeing pictures, since they can't make it themselves. I'm sad KJ can't go, but she has work and whatnot :/ I got lucky and it somehow managed to be on the one weekend I'll probably have off ever. I couldn't get Friday, KJ and my one year anniversary, off though. Total bummer.

Speaking of photography though. Along with a sketch, I'm starting to photograph people more. I love seeing what people can do. I've had a few people offer to do it, and if they give me permission to post, I might just do that. It should be interesting :] I'm also working on some sketches...but who knows with that art genre...we'll see what comes if you stick around. Bear with my lack of time management please

Peace and Love.
~Britt

]]> ~Crepesculum http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/27373809/ http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/27373809/ Wed, 23 Sep 2009 12:09:35 PDT
Life
So I'm a bit late with the update, I'm aware. I think I may give blood today, so this might be quick too. I might do a longer update eventually, but to be honest, a lot of stuff is going on in every aspect of life currently and I'm going to spend today hanging out with KJ and trying to forget it as much as possible while she's here.

School
Tests, tests, tests. I finally don't have any in the future that are currently pressing. Lots of homework though, of course.

Work
Definitely working for Lowe's now. $9.03 an hour and possible raises after 90 days, and 9 months. Freakin sweet. First day was today. Training for the next few days is going to be dull as hell, but I'm going to have a great time. So worth it.

Art
Still haven't used the new sketch book, but lots of ideas. Keep a look out...they're sure to turn up soon :]

Misc.
Queer Action is still going well. More updates on that at another time.

Anyway...going to give blood

KJ is coming soon, so have to hustle :]

Much love.
Peace

]]> ~Crepesculum http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/27169981/ http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/27169981/ Sat, 12 Sep 2009 12:33:49 PDT
Life
It's another Saturday! I've been living in my new place for a week now. It's still very exciting. Something else that's exciting is that I took my rollerblades out of my car yesterday and tested them by skating to Verry Berry where the owner had made me a CD of the music he's been playing in the shop. Beautiful piano music by a Taiwanese man is wonderful for stress relief or enjoying a nice cup of hot tea on some of the more dreary days we've been having here in Richmond.

School
School is school still. I'm also still doing things ahead of the due date. I managed to finish multiple assignments already today I have two tests in the next week, Pre-calc and Human Spirituality, but I think they should be fine. Already did well on my first Statistics test, but not looking forward to the first Chemistry test...though as of now that's not a pressing matter. I am doing better than I thought I would in classes. I'm pretty much gonna be fine I think

Work
Dollar Tree is done. They called the other day, on my 11 month anniversary with KJ (in which she was visiting), at 5 to tell me that I was supposed to work at 4:30 that day. I had heard absolutely nothing from them since the first day I worked, and a man whom I had no idea the identity told me that I was supposed to come look at the schedule because that was my responsibility. While I would agree with this, I would not agree if my boss told me that he would call if he needed me or when he put a schedule up. He did neither, and I should not be expected to go out of my way to look at something I didn't even know existed. So...the unidentified man told me that "He'd just write me in as not coming back" because I told him I couldn't work that night, and I basically told him "I don't care. Do what you want." Haha. That's not me, but for this shitty job, I made a personality shift.

In better news. I'm sure to be working at Lowe's soon. Two intense interviews with high ranking managers, a drug test, and a background check makes me think this job is going to be a little more serious. I'm very excited about it. Now, I'm just waiting for the manager to call back once he gets the results from the test and check. Yay

Art
One morning I got soaked on the way to chemistry, and on the way back I decided to buy a donut and a new sketchbook to make me feel better I have yet to use the sketchbook, but if Strawberry Panic doesn't steal every moment of free time like Soul Eater did these past weeks, then I'm sure to work on something. I've also opened PS a few times to attempt coloring my Shiny Toy Guns piece seen on my front page. Long task with a touchpad, for sure. We'll see if anything comes from that, but no promises.

I'm proud of my 3 minute poem at most that I posted. It was random, but I really like it. I have been reading poetry, but I'm still not sure how much of that will be popping up. It's more likely that I'm going to write a fanfiction for Soul Eater. If you haven't seen that anime, give it a chance. It's amazing, and created by the makers of Final Fantasy if that helps at all.

Misc.
Queer Action is still going well. Collaborations are being made with other organizations to put together Drag Ball this year. It's sad we don't get to do it ourselves, but budget cuts call for such action. The protest is looking like a go too, which is super exciting. Anybody you know in Richmond that doesn't like violence or hatred should come! Speak out against violence! Yay!

Anyway...I'm sure that's long enough. Thanks for reading!

Happy 11 months and 3 days KJ

Much love.
Peace

]]> ~Crepesculum http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/27034358/ http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/27034358/ Sat, 05 Sep 2009 11:51:01 PDT
Life
It's Saturday. It's also the first day I'm in my room of the newly renovated house I'll be renting for the next two semesters. I'm very excited about it, yet sad because KJ and I won't be together all the time anymore. I'm not worried about it though, I know we'll be just fine

I have some of my stuff organized, but I'll start settling more as time passes. For now, I have what I need organized and just misc stuff of mine to put into neat little places.

School
School is school. I'm actually getting stuff done early this year. I'm very proud of myself. I think I'm going to do pretty well if I stay ahead like I have been doing

Work
The Dollar Tree job is pretty crappy. I've only worked one night since I was hired like...2 weeks ago, and it was terrible (though part of that may have been due to my bad health that particular night). Still, it's not the kind of job I'm going to enjoy. I had an interview with Lowe's Thursday, and I'm hoping to hear back from them soon. I think I'll get more hours there. I need the money to pay the rent for this new place!

Art
Chi was my latest piece. I haven't worked on anything else, but I have A LOT of ideas. I'll probably be doing a bit more anime sketching lately, but I also really want to work on portraits/realistic a bit more as well. I'll see how that goes...for now I have to get a little more settled and make sure all the work for classes gets done first.

Misc.
Queer Action is going really great this year. I'm secretary and I feel really great in my role. We have a lot of great plans for the organization this year, and it's thrilling to be in the "behind-the-scenes" instead of just being a member. Yay, officer status is so exciting. One of our first things is a big protest! Or...hopefully it'll be big enough. Very exciting.

I've been up since 6:45...and it didn't even take that long to move in today. Silly grandparents...Either way, a nap sounds nice.

Though I might visit KJ. I miss her bunches already :/

Anyway...a bit longer of an update. More is sure to come eventually art-wise.

Much love.
Peace

]]> ~Crepesculum http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/26941318/ http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/26941318/ Mon, 31 Aug 2009 16:53:44 PDT
I have other stuff to do tonight, but I'll do a longer update soon. Check out my new deviation of Chi though :]

Peace and Love!

Britt

]]> ~Crepesculum http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/26652985/ http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/26652985/ Mon, 17 Aug 2009 15:16:08 PDT
Today I traveled to Richmond for the second time in a few days. I went and got so much done! So many things are falling into place that it's fantastic.

-Financial aid has all my paperwork...it just takes 3 weeks to process. Lame, but whatever...

-Saw Jamie who is an important family-ish friend (she knows Karen's sister). She works for the provost. Amazing lady and super nice.

-Turned in applications and GOT A SECOND JOB! Yay! Dollar Tree hired me. Back to minimum wage, but at least it's a job...and it will be right at the end of the road I'll be living on, so I can walk. Woot woot! So much stress gone with that. Plus, I still get two paychecks because I'll prob keep the current job (unless I get the Starbucks (next to the Dollar Tree) job on weekends). Now I'm just crossing my fingers that the paychecks alternate weeks...but that's not that important.

-Daddy helped me buy my Used $145 Chemistry book. I needed it for my assignment and he gave me his credit card number, so luckily I don't have to worry about that. Now the other books...I'll get to them eventually. The chemistry is the one that mattered currently.

Yay!

]]> ~Crepesculum http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/26440043/ http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/26440043/ Fri, 07 Aug 2009 08:23:37 PDT
Other than that. I looked into my probable house this past week. I have to call the man back, but he's pretty sure I can live there. I'm so excited. A friend of a friend needed a room mate to share this nice Fan Row house (type in a place in Richmond). It needs work, but it has so much character and I love it even when it was in the fixing-up stage it was in when I went. Morgan (friend of a friend) showed it to me and chatted. She's super nice, and really open-minded, so it's awesome! I have to thank my friend Holly. I told her I'd buy her Verry Berry haha.

I went to Busch Gardens again yesterday. I got a few pictures, but the overcast condition was pretty terrible yesterday. I had fun with family though, so it's ok. I was just sad that KJ had to work :[

Work is work. Labor day is when I go to working only weekends there, so I have to find something in or near Richmond to work during the week. I've now had people advocate and trash waiting tables...I still don't think I'm going that route though. I'd love the tips, but eh.

I finally bought contacts too! I had to before riding roller coasters...I almost lost a pair of glasses once on one...ugh that was fun haha.

Stuff to figure out. College is back in session in 13 days. Wow. Getting my life together! Weee.

]]> ~Crepesculum http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/26239071/ http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/26239071/ Tue, 28 Jul 2009 17:45:22 PDT General Update
So the sketch of the Mad Hatter/Sweeney Todd is coming along, but probably won't be finished tonight. Maybe tomorrow? I don't have my camera tonight anyway. KJ took it to the Nickelback-Saving Abel-Papa Roach? concert in VA Beach. Probably not gonna get any shots, but it was worth a try and the tickets were free so either way she better have fun Possible poetry update though :gasp: I know. Shocking.

Other than that: Work is work...getting to that point where I have to shout "Bloody hell" every day at the sun and heat. Easily making 100 degrees every day I work lately. The storms seem to have no cooling effect either...though that might be because they always seem to hit when I'm not working (the small time zones that I'm not...crazy, I know.). Though...today was a good day for reading and I managed to finish The Book Thief. Great read.
The bloody hell bit might be due to the recent enjoyment of all 5 released Harry Potter DVDs. On my day off yesterday, we decided to watch them. It was quite entertaining, and I could answer one of my fellow employees questions about which one was my favorite. Definitely Goblet of Fire, followed closely by The Chamber of Secrets. Definitely a bigger fan of the first Dumbledore. Tragic that he died :[

So...to stop myself while I'm ahead...one last thing. Just because I told =mode-de-vie that I would...here's this little survey thing.

The Thing Everyone Else Seems To Be Doing
10 Things I Wish I Could Say To People:
1. You make my stress seem insignificant with your smile. I love when you smile. I love you.
2. I miss you. Though I thought I could hate you; I could not.
3. I miss you too. No more, no less, than number 3. Though you're slightly more dangerous to miss.
4. I miss you too. Your conversations with me are stale and forced now though. It makes me quite sad, yet I will never blame you since I'm quite aware it's mostly my fault.
5. I miss you all and all the silly sleepovers and crazy parties.
6. You have helped me so much. I will one day repay you if I can...you said you wanted a Lexus and a swimming pool, right?
7. I'm proud of you for getting your life together. I wish you could have done while I was in high school instead of after, but at least you're doing it now. I believe you even if it seems like just another lie. I know when you're serious about things.
8. I thank you all for accepting me through someone else...even if you don't truly know what I am to your best friend. I still appreciate you all accepting me as a friend so quickly.
9. Thanks for all the help with my car. You saved me that little bit of stress. Oh...and I love when you call me beautiful :]
10. I really appreciate the money, but that's not what I visit you for at all. I like doing little favors for you. I know you're just being goofy as always though. I know you have many more years and I'll be sure to keep visiting every time I can.

9 things about myself:
1. I actually think I'm a wonderful girlfriend.
2. I do not ever omit myself from those make mistakes and who have made mistakes. I avoid it to the best of my ability, but I am not perfect.
3. I'm becoming more and more positive about life, and I love it. **I'm going to keep this one even though it's originally =mode-de-vie's
4. I want to change things about myself all the time. I hate being routine. I especially love cutting my hair.
5. I want desperately to do all the things on my bucket list that is constantly growing. The most prominent goal is to travel to every continent at least once.
6. I feel like I'll never have the right major. I love what I study, but I worry about how much I'll make and how comfortable I'll be in the future.
7. I dwell on things. I wish I didn't, and I'm trying my best to rid myself of the habit.
8. I'm by no means a "girly-girl," but I often get the urge to dress-up/act that way to surprise people.
9. I say I'm socially awkward, yet people tell me I'm not. I still don't find myself trusting people that say I'm any bit "cool" or such.

8 ways to win my heart:
1. Communicate.
2. Have a sense of humor. Life's too short to be serious all the time.
3. Be sensitive, but also strong.
4. Have a serious soft spot for music. Bonus points if you can play.sing...just don't expect me to.
5. Be confident, at least somewhat. We all have our faults. Confidence is not to be confused with arrogance.
6. Be honest.
7. Be intelligent. I'm not asking for genius, but a little brains is helpful. Even more bonus points if you write or think... ]]> ~Crepesculum http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/26174502/ http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/26174502/ Sat, 25 Jul 2009 16:35:50 PDT
Haha, so who else is sooooo excited for Burton's take on Alice In Wonderland? I didn't think Depp could get more creepy than when he did Willy Wonka, but I dunno. He's so awesome, yet creepy still. I love it.

I actually love it so much that I might draw it. I think it's time for me to draw again...but not just anything. Not just the movie poster. I might add other elements (though I'll prob use the poster as reference)...I also have a creepy cross-over idea. Oh Depp...how you can inspire me!

***I am almost finished with a Mad Hatter/Sweeney Todd sketch! Lots of shading though, and the crazy face to finish...that should take the longest unfortunately.

Haha. That's basically it for now though. Just wanted to do another update to celebrate new motivation and to tell all that I'll probably have more time to start doing stuff other than photography. My love has herself a job now (at the Coffee Beanery), so when she's working shifts that are a few odd hours different than mine, I have less distraction and more time to focus on art. Yay!

***My love is not really a distraction, but I just like to pay attention to her and not ignore her for the computer and sketches. I dedicate my attention to her and did not mean to make her sound like "just a distraction" <3

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]]> ~Crepesculum http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/26094859/ http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/26094859/ Tue, 21 Jul 2009 19:33:43 PDT
So that stress is kinda what is making me procrastinate from the arting world. I'm attempting to get into a few really great clubs I've seen around DA lately, but that's about all I've been doing. I have plenty of pics, and possibly my other entry for 's "Red, White, and Blue" contest...with the help of work, I can actually get shots that others can't...unless they also work at a Go-Kart track haha.

Lots of work as usual, but the art should be rolling soon. Short update for now...maybe more at a later date when I'm not so distracted by delicious food on Food Network.



Oh and check out just because she rocks!

Clubs I've Joined:


Clubs I'm looking to support:


]]> ~Crepesculum http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/25906976/ http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/25906976/ Sun, 12 Jul 2009 20:02:43 PDT
Go to it! Support! Join! Submit!

*Campaigns* Haha...I kind of need a site like this sometimes...so I'm a huge advocate.

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]]> ~Crepesculum http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/25877596/ http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/25877596/ Sat, 11 Jul 2009 10:23:31 PDT I'm listening to Pandora radio again. Luckily, they managed to get through all the license battles BUT...that means people like me that listen to the free version only get 40 hours per month now (instead of unlimited as before). Not such a big deal now since I'm not on all the time, but when I was at VCU...Pandora was my life...the background music to everything I did while in my dorm. I might just support them and pay the extra for the premium version or whatever...but once I have money for premium anything...it'll be my DA account that gets upgraded first :]

Art wise...
I'm actually really excited about DA's Paper Hearts contest. I might throw a few entries into that. The prizes are spectacular and I have tons of ideas I'm probably going to start drawing again...maybe. It's driving me crazy that I haven't drawn anything in so long. I might start with some Guilty Gear work since that's what I've been playing lately. Possibly a Baiken or Faust drawing coming up...I also have a few poetry ideas, but every time I try to write them, it's just all wrong...so that's going slow currently.

Misc...
I've finished...4 books? in the last week or so. Finally read the 6th Harry Potter (since a few friends want to go see the movie together), "Talk To The Hand" (You might know Lynne Truss for her "Eats, Shoots and Leaves" book), Kissing Kate, and I'm finishing up The Book Thief...probably during my 8 hour shift tonight actually.

Work is work...going fine I guess. Minimum wage doesn't go up til July 24th...though I was told that it was earlier...oh well. I have a potential almost 70 hours to work before my next paycheck...pretty sweet. Tiring...but great once I get that check.

I can feel some bit of optimism for the car. Dad's really tackling it with me and that might happen soon. I hope it happens soon because KJ might have a job too...and it'll be hard for us to both work with only one car...ugh. Though it's all good.

I'm in a great mood and I hope everyone else is doing wonderful :]

Shout out to the Wilkinson's for surviving a terrible car episode at the end of a vacation too. Check out :Trumpeteer34: and give her some love for her awesome writing and cartooning skills...not to mention survival skills. I wish the best to them cause I <3 them

Love and Peace.

]]> ~Crepesculum http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/25781158/ http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/25781158/ Mon, 06 Jul 2009 18:39:39 PDT
Anyway...it's been a long time hasn't it? It feels like it has been.

Work, rest, work, rest, repeat. It's still the same. The car search continues. A few things have come up, but have fallen through, unfortunately. Until I can find one of those, I can't really start apartment searching and I feel like time is running out faster and faster. I want to go back to school...but...eh. It's so stressful.

I like to focus on my relationship when I have the time between work. Stress is not going break that up, definitely not.

As far as art goes...I have a few ideas. There is a contest by cunningfox that I was thinking about entering with a few original ideas. That's not due til August 20th and a friend has expressed interest in my attempt at an original character...so I might try that. I also have TONS of photographs that I really need to post...

I went without internet for a while this past week or so, so it put me a bit out of whack. Hopefully, I can get back in it and start posting again.

Much love all. Peace.

]]> ~Crepesculum http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/25590031/ http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/25590031/ Sat, 27 Jun 2009 15:42:32 PDT
Yea...it's been a while since I've updated, but I've really not been able to find much motivation or time to do so. Between work, resting, and spending time with my lovely...the internet does not take priority.

Sadly...neither does my art. I feel like I haven't had time for anything and I'm too lazy to open and submit much of anything.

I will soon though, that's for sure. I have a few days off a week now because business isn't that great.

The car and second job...and place to live for fall semester search continues.

Sigh.

Peace.

]]> ~Crepesculum http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/25351827/ http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/25351827/ Tue, 16 Jun 2009 12:32:48 PDT
I'm still really excited about my vacation, even though it's over and I'm back to working and stressing about money and whatnot. I'm thinking this next week will be really great if it goes the way we've been talking about. House sitting...HUGE swimming pool, huge tv, Wii, alone without KJ's parents/adults, closer to work, etc. Awesome (if it goes that way...*hopes*)

We'll see...but I'm going to chill on my day off for now. More pictures to come. Still don't know if I'll post concert pics, but I might. I have a lot of stuff lined up, that's all coming soon.

Peace.

]]> ~Crepesculum http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/25263079/ http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/25263079/ Thu, 11 Jun 2009 21:23:11 PDT
I just had...the best vacation EVA!!!

I didn't get to see many friends, or really any at all. I mainly saw family, but it was still epic. I celebrated 8 months with KJ, was spoiled by both sides of my family, got to stay in an empty house, got to go to the beach a lot, saw NO DOUBT, the Sounds, and Paramore all in one concert (EPIC!), got a kickass No Doubt shirt, got great pics, and overall just had a blast.

Best. Vacation. Ever.

Back to work tomorrow though :/ Oh well. Still a great time.

]]> ~Crepesculum http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/25088983/ http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/25088983/ Tue, 02 Jun 2009 13:20:35 PDT
My boss finally found a bit of intelligence and decided to stay closed longer this week because he's not getting any business due to the fact that school is still not done. We're already closed on Mon/Tues, but now he's dropping Wednesday of this week too. Yay I get three days off (he's compensating by dropping one day for everyone, and giving me extra hours on other days, so no big deal losing a few on Wed).

Softball is almost through. Georgia and Alabama got really super close, but it ended up that they couldn't beat out Washington and Florida. The second game is on tonight, and if Washington wins, they get the first national title for the school. I was rooting for the SEC (South E Conference), and NOT the Pac-10 (Pacific 10), but I can deal since they won fair against Georgia. I'll miss Schnake and Schloppy and all the girls from Georgia...but oh well. There's next year (minus Schnake...sadly she's the coolest pretty much...ah well).

Anyway! On to something art related...You might note that I finally put a poem up for viewing pleasure. I have been thinking about writing more and I have a few ideas in my head. I'm also highly considering revisiting my original story that I started a while ago. That one can't be promised, but if I can get back into it, then you'll see it. I also STILL have pictures, but I don't like posting too much in one day. So, you'll see more of those soon too. Drawing ideas are floating around as well, but mostly of people (which is strange to me, but I noticed after 3 realistic portrait style drawings, that maybe I can actually do it). Those include the lead singer of The Sounds, Ellen, possibly the lead from Fall Out Boy. Watching music videos on Fuse in the morning does often give me ideas...and also the fact that I'm going to see the Sounds with Paramore and No Doubt in 8 days also helps. Woot!

Long update. Good for you if you read that all, and thanks actually. Bit of a ramble today, but MUCH LOVE!!!

<3 Peace.

]]> ~Crepesculum http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/24961532/ http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/24961532/ Tue, 26 May 2009 13:42:31 PDT
That's basically my life lately. Work. I'm lucky to have a job, yes, I agree, but it's tough stuff and sometimes I wish I could live/make money without one. I can live in my alternate reality all I want, thank you XD But really, it's not all bad. I enjoy (most of the) people I work with, and the job isn't food, so I'm happy with it. Pushing go-karts around is also helping my arm definition and definitely helps motivate me to get more fit.

Watching the NCAA Women's Softball World Series also does that. I've been considering seriously trying to get VCU to put together a women's softball team. It's killing me to not be able to play on a team. True, I stopped in county after I ridiculously sprained my ankle, but I would love to play again. All I can do now is watch and go to batting cages though, very unfortunate.

So work, sleeping after work/when I can...and watching softball...and...playing Final Fantasy VIII. That's pretty much life. I know I haven't updated in a while, but I should be getting to that soon. I still have tons of pics stored for sharing. I have a lot of ideas for drawing and poetry lately. I just haven't been getting to them since so many hours are spent working and then I'm too tired to do much more than veg out on the couch with KJ.

Peace and much love to you all <3

]]> ~Crepesculum http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/24846148/ http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/24846148/ Tue, 19 May 2009 19:34:47 PDT
Other than that...the late update is because I worked 7 hours today on top of being sick. No, we're not open on weekends yet (still), but a manager of mine and I decided to come in and repaint the garage floor. Extra hours, plus I love seeing the epic results of good work. It actually made me feel better too. Though...my eyes have gotten so bad that I'm wearing my glasses. That's a big deal for me, you can tell something is wrong when I wear them.

In the art department...I've been thinking of doing some "Alice in Wonderland" since we watched it the other day. First time I've seen it in years...I was excited that it was a good night of hanging out and conversation and that. I've also had this epic idea for a Mad Hatter feature.

Most of the stuff coming up will probably be Maymont Park pictures though. I took a lot of pics that I really like. The statue of the "Three Graces" is the first of those.

Hope all is well for anybody reading this :]

Peace.

]]> ~Crepesculum http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/24717683/ http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/24717683/ Tue, 12 May 2009 09:32:22 PDT
A quick update for you all just got erased because the internet decided that it hated me.

I'll go through the main points:

-Living full-time with KJ
-Still working part-time, job opens up on weekdays after Memorial Day, should be working full-time after that.
-Want to exercise more. We play catch and whatnot, but maybe more trampoline and pool activity to work on the ol' chub.
-Need to even out the ridiculous farmer's tan I have from work
-Still lack motivation
-Decided to play through Final Fantasy 8 again. Serious killer for any art production that I had planned. Especially since I'm going through trying to get as close to a perfect game as I can (or am willing to try for). Yes, using a FQQ, but I've beaten it already so I think that's fine
-Should at least have more pics posted soon. Going to Maymont park after Verry Berry with a friend today, so maybe I'll even get some there.
-Not online as much as I used to be. Still check regularly, just don't stay on for very long. Still here though, still alive :]

Hope you all are doing well.

Peace.

]]> ~Crepesculum http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/24604491/ http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/24604491/ Tue, 05 May 2009 16:08:44 PDT
Note what I'm reading and you might understand why this has to be a short update. My bio 152 final is tomorrow, so I'm working on my epic study guide. That's taking up most of my time.

Other than that, I've been pretty bored. Though I am living with KJ now, which is good and fun. Just need to get the last few things out of my dorm room and finish my two finals. One tomorrow, the last Thursday.

I'll be working on stuff soon, as I always say, though it probably will be a few days before I finally post something. I don't like when KJ ignores me for the computer, so I'm not on the computer as much when I'm with her (which is always now...so, you can imagine).

I'm still here though. Checking messages and looking at deviations. Sliding the occasional comment in for cool people ;]

Peace.

]]> ~Crepesculum http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/24484920/ http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/24484920/ Tue, 28 Apr 2009 17:27:14 PDT
I still really want to do stuff, but I'm not having the easiest of times. I just want to goof off, and that feeling left me regretting it not being able to control it after I probably bombed an important bio test. Now I have to do super well on the final, and that seems really unrealistic. I'll pass, but that's not enough for me at all. Oh well, the other ones are looking hopeful. I should be able to keep my gpa still fairly high.

Anyway, school is about it other than bad moods, increasing stress for no reason sometimes, a lot of past things becoming way too prominent, losing control of how to control the hurt and desire for hurt, and some other just really negative things. Car getting towed last night at 2am...but getting it back tomorrow. Fights...resolved, but still things I'd like to have worked on. Other stuff, blah, blah, angst, angst.

Probably going to try and chill right now, but I've got some stuff planned. I have a few pictures lined up and ready to present. Want to write poetry, and probably will soon. Drawing seems far off, but who knows with all the free time coming up.

Peace.

]]> ~Crepesculum http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/24365457/ http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/24365457/ Tue, 21 Apr 2009 18:01:01 PDT
As updates go...I think I've decided to follow a pattern I've seen a few people use (and that I think I could reasonably keep up with) and update every week (as in, my next after this will be in 7 days).

Currently:
It's almost finals week. I'd love to be productive with everything all the sudden, but that's not happening. I'm dying to do art and watch anime and write and everything...or even be productive academically. It just seems as though I'm good at sitting here in silence wishing and hoping that productivity will be thrust upon me somehow. I am keeping up with classes and going and all, I'm just not really doing the things I need to outside of class (including my english paper, bio lab presentation, studying for 4 bio tests, studying for 4 finals, and mass study guide due for the Bio supplement class). I need to hit the library tomorrow and get to work.

I saw a gorgeous rainbow tonight while I was eating dinner with friends. I also saw the amazing rain-washed, gray/purple/yellow sunset silhouetting the amazing cathedral in the background. It really was unique and had to be seen. Words don't do it justice...alas, I could not either since I didn't have my camera at the time :[ I'm missing a lot of shots lately. I'll have to get that back this weekend.

Speaking of the weekend. It's going to be in the high 80s this weekend. Oh the joy. I thought high 70s on the track were bad...this should be real fun. Ugh.

Anyway. I'm really going to try and work hard tonight. I've got a game plan and everything.

Oh, and updates as soon as I can. I reinstalled Photoshop finally! :]

Peaace.

]]> ~Crepesculum http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/24248451/ http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/24248451/ Tue, 14 Apr 2009 22:32:05 PDT
Excuses: 6 month anniversary week/weekend/Monday at Busch Gardens with KJ, getting physically ill for the first time in 11-12 years, a job, being secretary of Queer Action now, bio lab report edit for the final draft, second rough draft/close to final version of 15 page english paper, 6 online tests to do for the ridiculous online course, and finals approaching very quickly.

Also, no music or anime currently because of no headphones. Without those, I lack creative inspiration. Still, I think our cats serve as good deviations until I actually do do something other than photography/poetry (though I like those too and might just stick with them because of my workload).

:Insane-Goth-Kitty: is amazing too. I <3 her for just being her lovely self, and drawing me pictures that are uber cute =^.^= I wish her the best of luck with that Disney/Tim Burton/whatever else she may be thinking about style/career.

Peace out for now. Love the cuteness of my own little Lol Kitties!

]]> ~Crepesculum http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/24100105/ http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/24100105/ Mon, 06 Apr 2009 18:44:50 PDT
This week is going to go very well for me, I think.

I know I've said I've got stuff and that I'll post it, but seriously...I've been distracted. This week though...for sure.

I've already got an idea for a picture. I was stuck thinking I would do something for Bleach, but I actually might go the less ventured route and draw Blair the witch from Soul Eater.

That is...if I'm not distracted by watching Soul Eater. If you haven't seen it...check it out. Pretty amazing in my opinion for all its own unique reasons.

Still. I'll do something and post it :]

Peace.

]]> ~Crepesculum http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/23993860/ http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/23993860/ Tue, 31 Mar 2009 20:26:27 PDT
Haven't been feeling well lately. The mood plummets very quickly, high levels of stress, blacked-out a few times recently (which is actually, probably the scariest part of it). It makes it difficult to get what I need to do done, so I put that stuff off because of the bad feelings, and then they get worse when I have to cram to get the work done.

People in general haven't been making me very happy lately. My bio lab instructor, along with the bio lab are probably the worst things in my life right now. That and less communication than I would like...I need to work on some self stuff, yet I don't want to be the only one working. Stuff needs to get mutual, now.

Moving on...art will probably start flowing soon. I have a lot of ideas, and seeing the Salt Lines Tour tonight was absolutely astonishing and inspiring. I met and hugged every member: Andrea Gibson, Tara Hardy, Sonya Renee, and Denise Jolly. Look them up, they're amazing! Spoken word has never appealed so much to me before tonight. Drawing ideas are flitting about in the background too.

We'll see how things go, but I'll go finish up my lab report so that I can get to creativity sooner.

"It's the devil's knife carving holes in your soul so angels will have a place to make their way inside." ~Andrea Gibson ♥

]]> ~Crepesculum http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/23939393/ http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/23939393/ Sat, 28 Mar 2009 18:42:18 PDT
I've missed this site, and I let college kill my interest in almost everything I loved.

So...I'm going to try and go back to my regular updates. We'll see how it works out, I suppose.

Hopefully, some of you guys are still watching and will be happy to see me back. I have a lot of photography to post, and I'm going to start working on some sketches and try to get back into drawing.

I know I have some stuff though.

Sadly, I just couldn't get through all the messages I had accumulated in the last...year. I'm starting over for now, and I'll keep up to the best of my ability. I'll definitely check out some galleries too :]

Yay! Back at DA...for real this time (I know Someone that will probably keep me into it this time)

Peace

]]> ~Crepesculum http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/19557847/ http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/19557847/ Wed, 23 Jul 2008 15:20:55 PDT
Graduated high school, haven't done much in the art department like I said, need to reinstall photoshop on the laptop, need to figure out college stuff. Going to Virginia Commonweath University in Richmond, VA in less than a month. Trying to get stuff together for that and working is my life lately.

Obsessed with Twilight, Project Runway, Shear Genius, and America's Best Dance Crew other than that...which takes away from my art/internet time.

"I'm shamelessly self-involved, spending hours in front of the mirror making my hair elegantly disheveled."
Say Anything- Admit It!

]]> ~Crepesculum http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/16927908/ http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/16927908/ Sun, 17 Feb 2008 10:53:54 PST
There's too much to do.

But...Just on a personal note. Yes I am still alive. Don't do much work other than school though so don't really have any updates. And still happily taken at two days over 15 months ^.^

Lovelove,
~Britt

]]> ~Crepesculum http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/16494461/ http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/16494461/ Sun, 20 Jan 2008 18:01:42 PST
I haven't really felt like writing and I don't seem to have the time for much anymore...not even keeping up with journals. It's the average stuff anyway, high school senioritis, drama, stress, but also the love of my life and the romance we share to get me through it all. Jatana is my haven. She helps me get through everything and supports me in everything I do. We've had our uncomfortable times, but never yet a fight and we've always been able to work things out and regain the perfection of peace between us. It's very nice.

Though to make this quick cause like I said, I don't really feel up to writing:
-I've been busy with a lot of school work. Exams were last week and I've been preparing for the new semester. I've had to do a lot of assigned reading as well as my senior project. All of it is yet to be completed so I'm basically constantly trying to work and be productive for school.
-I am still guilty of procrastination and a little senioritis though, but I think everybody is at least a little. I've seen some of the best become victim to it. I'm in no position to lie and say I haven't been affected.
-A lot of that is spending time with Jatana. It makes me happy though. It's hard to feel guilty about procrastination when you spend the time within the arms and heart of a perfect love.
-I had an amazing Christmas, amazing New Year, and an amazing 18th birthday.

I wish everyone happiness and I will try to keep updated. It will come to me and therefore be presented to you soon, promise.

Much love,
~Britt

]]> ~Crepesculum http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/16049277/ http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/16049277/ Sat, 22 Dec 2007 20:02:08 PST
Current Update:
-I got to see my Tana before she left for West Virginia. It made me happy. I spend a lot of my time missing her and thinking about her ^.^
-I got to see Aaron, Robin, Kristie, and Richard all last night when we went bowling at the beach from 10-1. It was uber amounts of fun. There were a lot of random moments of wow and it was just awesome. I sucked at DDR with Aaron since we both hadn't played in like a year. Went to see the beach I brought Jatana to for her birthday last year too, it was unique. Very cold though. The wind felt strong enough to hold me up if I leaned forward into it. It's also really interesting to look at water upside-down. It's neato. Besides the fun, the drama was not fun. I'm over it, but it was garbage that I could've dealt without. I don't want to think about it at all and I'm letting it go already because it'll just piss me off again if I think about it, and I'm not lowering myself to feel that way, especially since I know I'm in the right and my friends defended me until the end. Even someone else's friend defends me. I love it. I feel no remorse.
-And other than that I got a unique Christmas this year. Dad brought me to the mall and told me to pick what I wanted for Christmas. I got a bunch of stuff I wanted ^.^ It's a good year this year, and it was a lot of fun to do it with Dad.
-This week is going to be just as busy. Going to visit Richmond tomorrow to visit Karen's family and visit VCU (yay), then Christmas Eve is going to be visiting my family and having a big dinner, then Monday of course is waking up here and then going back to NC then coming back here. I think I may make stuff and do schoolwork if I have any extra time, though I don't know how likely that'll be.

Happy Holidays Everyone!!!!

Much love,
~Britt

]]> ~Crepesculum http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/15722007/ http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/15722007/ Thu, 29 Nov 2007 14:06:38 PST
-To put it simply. The weekend was awesome and this week has been pure Hell. I spent the weekend watching tv and then I got to visit Robin too so that was good. Just when I came home it all went downhill from there. There's been a fight basically every night this week in my house and it always somehow involves me. Negativity is once again consuming me and I'm more than unwilling, but I can't stop it. I wrote, no typed in 11 point font, a three page note to explain the basics of what's on my mind. I don't kid when I say that communication is important to mantain a good relationship and that's why we have mantained such.
-Same old same old basically just new stress adding onto stress already there and stress fluctuating constantly depending on circumstances of the days and weeks.
-I'll be better after this weekend I think. I get tomorrow out of school thanks to an eye doctor appointment and hopefully I'll get my wallet since I need my id and license for the SAT IIs on Saturday. I might even try to convince Mom to go visit Tana on our way back, she's sick and she shouldn't have come to school today but she did to see me ^.^ She'll be home tomorrow, I told her to be and I don't think she's unwilling. She's been bleh all week so yea.
-I'll also have a lot of time to get stuff done. Maybe I'll do something creative, but there's a lot on my plate with stuff for photography and college essays so it's iffy. I also have to rewrite some stuff for english and etc etc. School comes before my creativity, but maybe one or two photos I could manage, maybe more, I never know.

Thanks for sticking around. Love to all.
~Britt

(P.S.- If I didn't mention it before, my camera broke. I'm uber mad and sad at the same time. It's the 2nd camera that's randomly just stopped working and it's starting to really get me ticked. I can't afford a new one right now either so it's either old photos or drawings if I get to them. I'll try as I said. Thanks again ^.^)

]]> ~Crepesculum http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/15608144/ http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/15608144/ Wed, 21 Nov 2007 16:11:23 PST
Lately and upcoming:
-This week was a short one, but it seemed busy. A lot of work to make up. Still need to do a little.
-Robin cut her hair...and she really does work at McDonalds. But her hair! I actually grabbed it to make sure I wasn't imagining her hair as my length. I wasn't. Weird. I might hang out with her, my sexy straight lover, if we can both get the time. ^.^
-I've newly dabbled into different music. I love finding new stuff to listen to, so it's common, but I figure I'll share who've I've been enjoying anew lately: The Helio Sequence, The Postal Service, Tokyo Rose, and Sage Francis. All good stuff, I tell you :Nod:
-Thanksgiving is going to be fun as usual. Place hopping, eating like 3 times (or at least getting the chance to, hell if I eat that much). I hope the Lions can beat the Packers. We might get into the playoffs for the first time since 1999, hot damn! Lol.
-Called the place that may be the location of my new job. Beach job with Lean, Allan, and Lean's Mom. Should be interesting. I won't go into detail, it's just a lot of time and place stuff having to do with the carpooling and whatnot. Let's just say I'll probably be half living with Allan and Lean as long as I have the job. Not a big deal really. All I care about is the money. I need to pay for car insurance and gas, not to mention gifts for friends. Right now I'm broke. I can't even afford a gift for Jatana, it's depressing, but this is my chance to get moneys. Yay ^.^
-I found out the heart butterflies are wonderful creatures. I also have a passion for being able to just fall asleep with someone. I don't trust easily, and to be able to fall asleep near someone actually means a lot to me. Plus, it feels so relaxed and nice ^.^

Break. Dad's for the next two days probably. Back a little sooner if I have work. Woot.

Much love to you all,
~Britt

]]> ~Crepesculum http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/15549564/ http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/15549564/ Sat, 17 Nov 2007 14:36:20 PST
Other than that:
-It's been a year and two days with my lovely Jatana. I can't be happier still, although I know that with each passing second she finds a way to make me happier and happier. She's amazing and I love her more than anything.
-School is still going well. Busy with essays, research papers, tests, senior project, etc. It's the usual, but I'm living as you can see.
-Guard is working on the X-mas show now and it hits me as the last thing I'll do in guard, and my last chance to show what I've got. Since I can't spin weapons, it's really not much and that hurts, but hell if I won't make the best out of what I can. It's what I do.
-I have no income still which makes things really difficult. I'm trying my best to get a job too so I can do X-mas presents and whatnot. At this rate, I really wonder what I'm going to do. I wan't to get everyone something, but I don't even know if I can impress Jatana with something yet. Bah. *Sighs* I hate money when I dont have any.
-Been getting along better with some people, worse with others. I'm officially going to avoid someone who started a bunch of shit with me over trying to be nice. Blew it up and made it this big drama filled mess. I'm done with it. They don't realize how much it hurts to just ignore someone I've known for years and who I've considered a good friend, but hell if I'm keeping them when they treat me like shit when I try to fix something and ask forgiveness. I was the victim and they acted like they were for the last time. I'm done with it, they aren't who they used to be so whatever.
-Lots of people aren't who they used to be, but I go with the flow. Getting along better with everyone that matters and I have a lot of friends so even though I'm losing one and it hurts, I still have a lot to support me when I need them.
-Yay!
-Yea, I'm working on stuff. I have a poem or two to post and maybe I'll have a drawing at some point. Possibly the one of Jubilation Lee from X-Men that I did for Jatana. Hm.

Anyway...I have a headache. Blah, Imma go seep probably...

Much love to all,
~Britt

]]> ~Crepesculum http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/15377531/ http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/15377531/ Mon, 05 Nov 2007 13:57:39 PST
-Marching band has ended. How depressing. I'll miss it more than anyone will ever know. I regret not knowing about it before I did. It's given me things that I'd never ever give back. I could never regret such an amazing experience. Even all the time it took, I wouldn't trade it for anything. I loved it.
-I basically don't live at home much anymore. Although now I will be that band is over. I've spent weekends and weekdays at Jatana's new house. In between staying for band and girl scouts, it makes up for a lot of time there. Fine with me really. 10 days until 1 year that I've been with Jatana and I can't be happier. I love her so much.
-I've had SAT I, I'm taking the SAT II in December, and I'm taking the SAT I again in January to see if I can get better than my 1830 that I got this past time. Classes are going well. For once I'm not stressing over bad grades because all of them are pretty darn good. I plan on keeping it that way too. Yay. Band being over does have its advantages with the time though seriously. I also am not doing winterguard so I might get a job in place of that. Mom doesn't want me stressing over guard...it upsets me. Please don't talk about guard around me anymore. Other than that, yea, I'm doing well. I've got a lot to do this week, but it'll be good. I've also almost completed my three applications for college: UVA, VCU, and ASU. I've got essays to do and parts that I need Dad's help on. Also I need the money for them lol.
-Life is good, but life is busy. That's how it is.

Hope that's a good update for you all and sorry for not being more regular. Message me sometime. <3

Love to all,
~Britt

]]> ~Crepesculum http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/14901931/ http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/14901931/ Wed, 03 Oct 2007 16:35:03 PDT
-Thing is I'm hella stressed (as my title bluntly suggests). Senior year is giving me a righteous ass-whooping to say it kindly. The three ap course, expensive photography class, no income to pay for all the stuff I need to pay for, aka no job, no time, mantaining social relationships, stress destroying socail relationships, relationship stressing due to stress, everything about the stress.

-I had my first breakdown of the year today. Just whoosh. Done for, couldn't hold the strength anymore and just collapsed. It's ok though, I'll get back together once some stuff passes.

-Because of this stress I'm a little behind and plus the fact that I've gone from insomnia to not being able to stay up past 10 or so I'll be out of it for a while. I'll be back ASAP.

Thanks for understanding. Much love,
~Britt

]]> ~Crepesculum http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/14733014/ http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/14733014/ Fri, 21 Sep 2007 18:29:25 PDT
So what's ahead and what's been going on in my ol'artistic noggin:
-I've been under this uber stress that's one of those stresses where I don't really know what it's from although at the same time I do know. I missed the BOA trip to SC with band this weekend because tonight Dad's coming to get me and we're leaving for Florida for a week from tomorrow. This stresses me out due to a)I'm a band geek and missing our first Band Of America trip is a big deal b)I won't see my Tana for that whole week (and today since the band left early this morning) c)I have to do a project and five current event journals for ap govt, an essay for ap english, and retain my marching show though I'm missing the rehearsal they will hardcore have before they compete this weekend plus class and after school Mon-Thur next week, plus the day I return I have to perform at a football game...on a week's vacation from working on the show. Then the SAT is coming up too, plus I'm trying to mantain a social life while under this stress and emotional breakdown caused by it. Fun fun. But really I'm doing pretty well.
-That's my stress. The cheer I guess is that I'm about to have a week's vacation to Disney World in Florida. While I have to deal with all the mess I just explained, I also have to have fun or else there will be some angry people when I get back.
-I have some artwork that I've been holding back until I get the time. Most of the sketches I've been doing aren't much more than doodles or randomness due to the blahness, but I do have something in store for everyone ^.^

So...vacation for a week, hopefully have internet signal, lots of school work though...we'll see how it all goes. Wish me luck.

Much love,
~Britt

]]> ~Crepesculum http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/14701781/ http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/14701781/ Wed, 19 Sep 2007 13:54:16 PDT Or as she put it in simple steps:

1. You ask meh to be featured.
2. I feature you!
3. Because you're awesome, you feature me too.

1.
[link] Pretty picture
[link] Cool drawing inspired by one of my poems ^.^
[link] (I'm just so full of myself picking these two) One she drew as by request of me that turned out AMAZING <3

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]]> ~Crepesculum http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/14678449/ http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/14678449/ Mon, 17 Sep 2007 18:42:35 PDT [link])

I'd love to write you all this big fancy blog but considering I feel like I'm dying, I'll keep it short.

-This past week has been ok enough. School, poetry club, the works. Went to Whalehead Club for photography and had fun down there. Girl Scout thing on Friday was lots of fun. I got lots of applause and it was pretty funny. You had to have seen me. We also played on the stage in the dark which was lots of fun. The only unfun thing was that was the night the sickness started. Go figure it was the start of another full weekend I spent over with Jatana at the Bird's house.
-The band comp was ok. I didn't feel my sickness as bad but it was occasionally a pain. 15 1/2 hours on our feet, how fun on the mscles that was. I felt like I had a grand performance though. Mrs. Coyle even told me so when I was upset afterwards. Lots of people trying to upset me all daty, but the only real thing that got to me was the last person and the fact that neither of my parents came even though they said they would, so don't try to take credit for making me cry if you don't know the facts. Just to get that out there...because a lot of people tried to blame themselves. Anywho, apologies traded with Jessie, hugs, said hi to a few people and gave them hugs and made sure they were ok enough, started to feel the sickness towards the end. Not too bad after, soaked feet and falling asleep to a heartbeat.
-Sunday was spent over my Aunt Jeanettes after getting into a car accident. Not major, don't freak. Dad looks different with the scar on his face, somewhat troublesome but he said it would heal better as time passed. Made Jatana nervous because se got to meet like half of my family at one time. Even uncle Bart was there. He let me drive the Bronco XL...if you don't know it then you wouldn't understand but that was CRAZY. Let's just give this example. When I got in and looked out the windshield, the roof of the minivan in front of us basically didn't even reach the hood of this thing. Exciting. Yadda yadda (I'm starting to feel sick right now so I'm hurrying this up)
-Last night up all night freezing, crying, tearing my hair out, sick, making Jatana worry about me. Went to the doctor this morning and found out I have gastroenteritis, aka a viral infection of my stomach and intestines. How exciting. Can't eat solids, basically sleeping all day and on a strict Ginger Ale and little chicken broth mom brought me diet. Tomorrow I can eat bananas and applesauce and rice, and drink tea! It's called the BRAT diet. Doctor said no school til Wednesday. I have sources keeping me up with what I'm missing. I hate missing stuff since I'll be gone next week too. Blah. But anyway...I tain't going to school in this condition. All I'm going to right now is bed.

Goodnight all. Much love.
~Britt

]]> ~Crepesculum http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/14591353/ http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/14591353/ Tue, 11 Sep 2007 15:08:45 PDT
I decided to update. Yay. Right? Everybody with me now...yay!

Anyway, I'm in a very random mood today. I really wish I could get in touch with Someone and wish they would come eat tacos with me tonight, but bleh. And no, that was not perverted. You nasties.

Haha. Anyway. I decided to update because I've spent almost the entire day with my Photography class at the Whalehead Club in Corolla today. We were practicing with exposure ([f-stops]/aperture size/shutter speed/etc). I'm feelin artsy I guess. I finished an Amazing poem today too. So amazing I think I may post it before I catch you all up with some others. That's just how great I think it is. I think I'll read it in Poetry Club tomorrow too.

I'm not as tired as usual as can be seen I think. Because of our trip I missed all bells, including 4th (aka band) I came in time to watch the run through. Then guard was inside after school just working on tweaking some stuff in Spin Cycle. Pretty awesome. I rambled to random people on my late bus too. I told them all they have to do is ask if they want to know something about me. I ended up telling about my experiences with alcohol (this one time) and drugs (which I've never done and never will do) My neighbor ended up finding out I was a lesbian today. IT was amusing, "Well I've seen you with your girlfriend but I didn't know." How does that make sense? Lol. Either way...yea...ramble ramble hyper.

*Spins in circles* Ok I'm out for now (and the rest of my life I guess...) but no seriously. I'll be back tomorrow or whenever I feel the random urge to update again.

Much love to you all,
~Britt

(It's funny I get in these weird mood when I'm trying to cover up a completely different one...but anyway...)

]]> ~Crepesculum http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/14491455/ http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/14491455/ Tue, 04 Sep 2007 17:15:21 PDT
Just as a quick update of life currently:
-I take AP Govt/Eng/Psych, Photography, and Marching band in that order as far as this semester.
-I got a 100 on all of my summer work, every little piece involved. Thank you thank you.
-I am still happily taken by my girlfriend Jatana and it's going on ten months soon.
-I am quite content with my performance in color guard this year and the band has performed twice now and we're nearing more than jst football games, soon start the big competitions.
-I do occasionally rite but between my time with Jatana and the time I have to use to do school related writing, it's a bit hard to find time to post anything.

So yes. I haven't been around. I'm sorry to all. I hope my fans stick around though because hopefully I'll be back and regular soon. Thanks much and much love.
~Britt

]]> ~Crepesculum http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/13792102/ http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/13792102/ Thu, 19 Jul 2007 07:59:27 PDT
visit my myspace if you want longer ([link])

Basically.
-Hung out with bro and his bf (yes he's gay...it runs in the family we guess lol) the other day and it was a lot of fun.
-Spent the day with Dad yesterday. Saw the new Harry that didn't really impress me and went to eat at Silver Diner. The free desert from the movie tickets was worth as much as the movie in my opinion.
-Today I'm going home. I have to finish my laundry, packing, and whatnot. Called Mom to make sure we were set for tomorrow and luckily she's on top of things (actually somewhat surprising, but not so much since what I hear of my family's lives right now...*sighs* Anyway...) Going to get my license and my new contacts tomorrow in Elizabeth City. Then the car wash on Saturday and band camp for the next two weeks. Busy busy.

-SO for now, toodles until I can get my tempermental internet signal at home to work and when I get the time between band, school work, and getting a job (which trust me, I will...there are tons of places opening lol)

Much love,
~Brit

]]> ~Crepesculum http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/13737443/ http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/13737443/ Sat, 14 Jul 2007 20:58:18 PDT
-Been talking to all my family members nicely and smiling at the easy going and pleasant nature of all the conversations
-Went to the beach with Karen's family that is visiting. 51/2hrs and I never got bored with it. It was really nice. Spiffy tan from it too...Big + ^.^
-Read some while I was there. Made new intellectual friends. I'm calling them that because they're way beyond their 11 year old label. It was cool talking to them and playing around with them. I got rewarded for being so nice and getting compliments from the kids too. One of the mom's thanked me and that's actually how I got this drink. Haha, adults that break the rules are the best. What's even better is that everyone else knows and doesn't care. I jst waited until now so that I can relax with it. Brings back a certain memory....Anyway...
-Life is ok. It has it's down points but I'm really trying to just find my peace and happiness within myself. I have to reteach myself to be strong for Me and me first. I really am trying to do what's best for me now, and not everyone else.
-Tomorrow will be my 8 month anniversary with Jatana. Very nice ender to the weekend no matter what happens.
-It's all flying by. TIme flies when you're having fun I guess.

Can't wait to be home.

Peace+Love
~Britt

]]> ~Crepesculum http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/13718004/ http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/13718004/ Fri, 13 Jul 2007 08:18:17 PDT
New artwork a little bit. First drawing in ever that I've actually really spent time on, the one of Casandra in the Tripp jeans. Then the random stuff with Photoshop and blood brushes. Yay new stuff. Might start a vault series kind of. Older pictures that I never posted. Potentially fun and good stuff.

I'm getting lazy though. My mood is horrid sometimes and I've got serious manic issues. I ended up calling my Dad the other night while he was at work at about 2 AM and told him he should come get me and get me the hell out of here. Not going to mention things in my hand or situations otherwise but whatever. It's in the past now, and no one knows just how much I'm done with it...That reminds me that I guzzled so much caffeine staying up until 7 that morning that I can't go back to healthy water. I'm back to being a caffeine addict. Woops.

Either way. I've stopped working on school work and I'm becoming lazy again. Even my working out, trying to make myself look better (which I really want to do). I'm beating myself up over it but I just can't get motivated and keep thinking I can just do it later. I'm already ahead really and I have a lot of time left in my opinion, even taking in to account the stuff I need to do when I get back. I have no tv at my house back in NC because my sister broke it anyway, and internet also never works there. So trust me, I'll have time for the freakin school work. I'll try and update for those of you who read, but no promises. Home is where I always get so behind in internet -.-

I watched Eureka on Sci-Fi with Dad today. Spontaneous combustion yay! Lol. It's the first time I've seen it but I may just start watching it more. It seems like an ok show.
Karen has family visiting this weekend so it's busy cleaning and doing whatnot. I'm just sitting around because I finished my parts, except I still need to do the outside wall. We're going to just be chilling out over the weekend and going to the beach. Should be ok enough. Going back home Thursday and hopefully getting my license soon after that if my parents would stop freakin putting it off.

Um...Yea, that's about all I can think of for now. Art, music, same old same old. Wee life.

Much love,
~Britt

]]> ~Crepesculum http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/13675292/ http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/13675292/ Mon, 09 Jul 2007 18:46:13 PDT
I'm writing something too. Currently it's on MS Word and docked in my little toolbar. I should finish it at some point. I'm multitasking as usual: write some ap stuff, im window typing to like three people, update this, browse through a few sites, do a few push ups and weight lifts, check on stuff, change song on winamp, write poem, think about drawing ideas, etc etc. The usual.

Just because I'm thinking of my pal Lydia (aka Fae-Puppy) who actually reads and comments my stuff. She's like my big fan and I lurve her to death for supporting me and giving me the propz she does.

Yep, back to the old grind. School work. Bah. And my body is still not good enough. I'm working on it but I'm being very critical. Some definition in my muscles isn't enough, I want a lot. Dammit. I abuse myself sometimes trying to make myself more muscular and flexible at the same time. It's brutal but I don't care. Lolz. Anyway...

Hehe ^.^
~Britt

]]> ~Crepesculum http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/13645422/ http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/13645422/ Sat, 07 Jul 2007 10:51:39 PDT I've been thinking that it's weird that I never write in my spiffy little black book (aka my leather personal journal) in summer. I guess it's because I write stuff online so much and never think to actually write instead of type something. I never write my really personal thoughts online though so I never have recordings of what I think over summer unless someone saves an im convo or remembers discussions over the phone when I randomly talk about my feelings on things. I got really weird yesterday when it came to talking about death, it was intriguing. I wish I could remember the things I say, I sound so intellectual, but then if I try and write an essay or something similar on the same subject that I spoke about, it turns out blah. I've never understood that.
I collect too much music. I'm listening to celtic flutes, acoustic instrumental guitar, Norah Jones, Nickel Creek, and randomly the electro Madison Park in that. It's very relaxing, very nice to do my history to. Speaking of history, and school work in general, that's really why I never update lately. I have time, I can tell because I sit and watch Naruto and Strawberry Panic episodes, but I never use any of that time to write. I tend to just watch anime and read for school, or occasionally sit at this desk I'm at now and start writing for history.
-I have two weeks. That's it. Until I go home to go to the band car wash on Saturday, then that Monday the brutality of band camp begins. It's driving me crazy with my bad time anxiety. I really want to get as much of my school work finished as I can so I make these little schedules to do things in my head but then if I get distracted and don't get to it I have to rewrite in my head, and then my procrastination problems don't help either.
-Happily one of those distractions might be spending time with a good friend that I used to hang with all the time and it's not like we've lost touch but we have turned into occasional friends, where we really don't talk much. Finally I might get a chance to spend more time with Liz. Actually tonight or tomorrow. Should be fun.
-I've been worrying about my Dad. He's been going in and out of really gloomy moods and he usually ins't very open but the other day when he actually told me he was sad, it worried me. He apologized too. For the while I've been here, him and I really haven't done anything together. I sit alone wherever in the house I am depending on the day and he sleeps until he gets up to go to work at about 10 Pm. About the only time I ever see him is when I run downstairs before he leaves to save goodnight to him. Sometimes I really worry...Eh, he said we might go to Busch Gardens sometime though. I forgive him really, I know what he's going through in a sense and I'm ok with it. I love my Daddy, I understand him, especially since he's always understood or tried to understand me.

-Anyway...I'll write something soon I promise ^.^ I also have a lot of drawing ideas but I don't know when I'll be able to get to those because those take a lot more time.

Much love to all. Hope you enjoyed my random insight to my life.
~Britt

]]> ~Crepesculum http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/13525849/ http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/13525849/ Thu, 28 Jun 2007 13:14:11 PDT
-My hair is officially...darker. It's black, but my red tones can be seen and it looks somewhat like really dark brown. Getting it done professionally feels so much better. Rose did it this time too, aka the chick who has done three generations (my grandpa, dad, and me) of hair in my family, aka discount. Still it was expensive, that was obvious. I got this stuff normal people would call a 2-in-1 shampoo/conditioner but no. Really this thing looks so expensive it's not even funny. It's got a foreign name, at a heavily discounted price still cost $18, and doesn't even say exactly what it is on the bottle not to mention the bottle specifically states it can only be sold in professional health/beauty salons. Just like I like my hair stuff haha ^.^ Dad sat with me for the uber amount of time it took to do it too. Let's say this, my appointment was at 11 AM, I didn't get home until about 1-1:30 PM. She waxed my eyebrows too! Ack. I wasn't expecting it. She was shampooing and told me to close my eyes, I was expecting that maybe it was I would get something in my eyes but no, instead I got hot wax on my eyebrows and then RIP. OW! What the heck?! *Cries* It wasn't that bad but still, I wasn't prepared for it, especially since I've never had it done. Anyway. I think it looks awesome. I might post a picture randomly but I dunno.,,
-I'm still bored out of my mind. Got some interesting, and possibly very depressing news today about the possibility of someone moving but whatever. It'll make others happy why not right? Bah. It'll depress the hell out of me though. I'm hoping it doesn't happen. It'll put me in a really bad place.
-Um...I'm being lazy. Though, I'm going to work soon. I figured it's not likely I'll get a job in the next two weeks so what I hope to do is when I get back, be done with most of my ap summer school work and then get a job on weekends, and then weekdays when band camp isn't going on. That way I can make up for the loss here. Now I just have to get on that summer work...
-Hardcore cleaned both cars yesterday, inside and out. Felt proud of it. Took me five hours. Perfectionist much? That and the fact that I actually relaxed with some help last night put me into the best sleep I've had all summer. A whole 8 hours. Awesome! (Seriously.)
-Music is my life currently. I write in my head, and other random things, but nothing to post on here. I'll have to get on it. I still have some older stuff to post too. I think I might do that in celebration of the 2000 views. I'll get to it soon. I have to clean up after my cooking. Salmon, yum.
-Other than that. Sitting around. Watching random anime, reading, eating, collecting songs, etc. The norm for summer.

Much love,
~Britt

]]> ~Crepesculum http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/13488967/ http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/13488967/ Mon, 25 Jun 2007 18:15:02 PDT
Well...
-I spent last Thurs-Sat in West Virginia after I was offered to come basically to offer company on the ride back haha. I didn't mind. It was something to do and have random fun with. I love traveling and it's wonderful to get photography (since I was just telling someone that it can be really difficult when you're constantly in the same place and are really picky when it comes to good shots). So having to deal with the equivalent of a southerner in the north was interesting. They were all nice enough though so it wasn't too bad. Hanging out with all the little cousins and in the "camp" where everyone knew everyone and everything (gossip central...and in a bad way. I thought school could be bad...ha!) Almost overheated on the way back, but did manage to get back earlier than expected after all the ordeal and whatnot. I enjoyed it overall.
-Trying not to go berserk and upload a gagillion things a minute now because I haven't been doing anything but reworking these new photos, and the poetry I have is all older school stuff. I've still yet to write any this summer. I need to...
-I have tons of drawing ideas but the only one I was able to get done was my Gaara fanart (that for once I did out of imagination *gasp* I can usually never do one out of my head and actually like it...) Sadly I left that drawing in a folder in the back of the Jeep I rode to West Virginia in and that was taken in by the little girl of whom it belonged to who I asked to keep it safe there so...I don't have it. She does. I hope to goodness nothing happens to it...I can only hope though.
-I'm trying to keep up with gym visits but its hard when your ride wakes you up to go at 8Am and you just fell asleep three hours ago because of your insomnia and bad sleep pattterns. Usually I'll force myself to wake but times like this morning, there was no way I was even going to move that early. I'm going to stop that if I can though because one of my biggest goals this summer is to get in the best shape I can. Band camp is going to be rough this year. Band of America, higher summer degrees (even more than the already 100s last year), 9 hour practices, extended follow up rehearsals, extra week than horns because of just guard/percussion camp, etc. I need to be in shape so I don't keel over and die. Plus...I wanna be sexy haha, and it makes me feel better to be healthier. You get my point.
-I'm bored out of my mind and tend to stare at my messengers all day waiting for someone who will talk to me to sign on and constantly checking sites for updates. I need to make more online friends too. Eh.
-I even got a program called Alleycode. It's an HTML Editor for making websites. I've been toying aorund with it and if I can be creative enough and stck with it, I could probably not only make a really cool website, but also kill the time I normally waste laying here wishing there was something to do other than stare at the ceiling as if were going to magically entertain me all the sudden.

Yep. That's about all for now. Keeping up with art and comments now ^.^ Yay.

Much love,
~Britt

]]> ~Crepesculum http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/13419004/ http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/13419004/ Wed, 20 Jun 2007 11:49:48 PDT
-My job is non-existent. It stresses me out greatly. I'm working (ha) on it though.
-For now, I have all the time in the world.
-I use it watching Naruto on Youtube, drawing random things, eating, laying around, playing FFXII, occasionally doing summer school work, going to the gym/beach, etc
-It also means I have time to update all the freaking online journals I have. Even though I'm too lazy to do them in much but list form anymore (as can be seen here)
-I like deviant though and I take it a bit more seriously. I have work to keep up with and I had to do the dreadful again to motivate myself, delete some 300 or so deviations and start from scratch. I just get to overwhelmed. So now I'm going to try and keep up and I have plenty of work I'm sure to get to at some point.

Please forgive me for my laziness and lack of commenting/work. ^.^;;

~Britt

]]> ~Crepesculum http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/13178550/ http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/13178550/ Fri, 01 Jun 2007 15:51:16 PDT I've come to a great peace within myself. I still have some seriously major moments but they pass and I seem to be growing stronger as school ends. Who knows what will come with time, but I will just have to wait and see. Like Mom's philosophy goes, Live One Day At A Time.
Yep so, as far as writing. Sometimes I draw a blank, others I don't. I don't write as much as normal but I go through little intervals of lots of writing vs little. I do have new stuff but when I'll get the time I don't know. Who knows if I'll even get to post this with my freaked out computer anyway. Busy Busy.

Love you all and sorry for lack of comments. I hope you all understand and I'm sure you do. Which gives more love. *hugs*
~Britt

]]> ~Crepesculum http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/12944032/ http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/12944032/ Sun, 13 May 2007 16:28:55 PDT
Prom got to me. It was fun, but there were little things missing from it and that got to me quite a bit. I missed around four things. Oh well. I looked good in a tux at least. woohoo?

Yea, a lot of time hanging out and stressing over the end of the year, exams, and prom. Same old same old.

I have a lot of stuff to update. I don't write as much as I used to, but I do still write, and I found something interesting from way back today, might pos that too. Also, I think Im going to pledge myself to write some of my story/book every day. People really like how it's going and I actually feel like I can make it the longest thing I've ever written as well as the best prose I've ever done just from imagination and experimenting with fantasy situations. Inspired by a book and movies like Underworld and Domino, it should be interesting I think. Like I said, people like it so I guess I'll keep on writing it.

Much love to all, and I'll try and get to giving my comments and looking over art, but I missed a lot and I don't know if my internet is going to hold out, but I'll try.

<3 ~Britt

]]> ~Crepesculum http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/12694071/ http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/12694071/ Sun, 22 Apr 2007 15:59:53 PDT
Anyway...it's not too bad. Things are going to be a lot better once May 11th passes though, I do believe. I hope. Yea...And I really need to get one big thing off my chest but I can't help but think I'm procrastinating it until Summer, no matter how much it's killing me on the inside and numerous people have told me it's worse that I'm waiting. I need time to sort it out perfectly...although nothing goes by script anymore so I wonder what it'll be like too. I'm preparing for the worst, yet hoping for the understanding I probably won't receive after the action.

That's in deeper thought. Above that is that I'm doing well in school, even in AP ^.^, the weather is nice and therefore will reflect upon my mood (I have the complex that my mood either reflects the people close to me, or the weather outside...), and other good stuff. All my relations are growing strong even in my weakening personality, but I will try to fix the latter of those. Mom called me a lesbo slut today...although she was joking...Anyway...

Yea, things are so so right now. Not too bad, not the best they could be. Making myself strong again (at least over the weekends...) and helping those personaltiy traits that made me such a good person get back together. Waiting for the one thing that can tip the scales.

And a special thanks to all that have kept with me though I don't update or comment as much as I used to. I do try to look and comment (I always look if anything), but if I don't it's just because I'm overloaded. Much love goes out to Fae-Puppy because she is like my coolest friend on here an she drew me the most awesome punk fox girl ever. Check it out in my faves or check out her site, she's great. Do it! Lol.

Much love,
~Britt

]]> ~Crepesculum http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/12493731/ http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/12493731/ Sat, 07 Apr 2007 08:35:55 PDT
Yep, and with tons of picamitures to show everyone. I'll probably touch them up a it, but not too much because I really like all the originals, they came out really well in my opinion. I'll get to uploading as soon as I can, and probably in increments. I have some other stuff to work on for school so I have to keep my focus centered on that.

A lot of things are stressing me out still, and to come home to some of the biggest drama ever did not make it any better. Even though I had fun, I still couldn't take one vacation without ending up crying at least once. Bah. I'm sick of all the mess and people need to stop spreading trash about me when really I'm basically the good person in all of this. I'm the one trying to help, and to be told I'm not is total BS. All I do in life is help others. I want to protect everyone, because really I protect myself in doing so. When everyone else is sad or stressed, so am I. I hate it. Can we please stop the high school drama? It's just ah....sdjfa;lsdfaogjahg

Anyway...vacation spent with my two best friends was AMAZING either way. I had fun and lots of it, so I'm letting that be my strength for all the bullshit.

My brother came to visit me too. It was awesome hanging out with him, it's been a while. He has drama too so we talked about it. We both are very similar in our situations, we really are very similar. It's scary...we almost look the same even...most take after Mom...though both of us actually take after our respective fathers...Haha.

Anyway...it's been a good break. The only crap was telling people off and deciding to take certain courses of action against some people that like to assume and spread overexaggerated garbage about me.

Love to all,
~Britt

]]> ~Crepesculum http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/12354202/ http://Crepesculum.deviantart.com/journal/12354202/ Tue, 27 Mar 2007 18:33:20 PDT
I figured I'd pause and give myself a break for a little because all I have is latin and that won't be too difficult. I'm good at that mess, and it's just reading about Augustus so it's all in english, making it even easier.

What am I doing you ask? Well ya see...I have a trip to Canada in 3 days, on April Fools' Day to be exact is when we are leaving. I find that amusing. Anyway, I have to get some things in order for that trip and for tomorrow so I have been busy with phone calls and juggling whether I've sad things, and what I need to write down. I can't exactly express the kind of good mood a day like today can put me in. It was gorgeous, and I'm actually getting very excited about this trip. I will allow myself to have fun, I deserve it...and not only I think that, I've actually had someone else tell me I deserve it.

Spent the night with Amber and that was pretty awesome. We talked a lot and just chilled. Went out to the water and relaxed, that place always put such a nice feeling into my very soul it felt like. Something about the water and the wind, and the just open air and seclusion, it just feels nice. Free. A word I crave more and more.

That got a lot of stress out for once. Today wasn't stressful in school. I'm actually ok in classes again (except math probably, I need to work on that...but anyway...) and nothing really happened. Some did, but a poem and a message made a day so much better, that and sitting in the warm sun just in silence...again...even wwith someone right theere next to me, I again found myself enjoying the silence more than anything. I let the freedom of nature relax me in a sense. hard to explain, but anyway...it was a nice day.

I've been reinterested in learning German and Japanese, I might pursue it again a little but I finally wrote a poem for the first time in ages today and I need to get two into Mrs. Kimble for our literary magazine tomorrow. I have been drawing but I'm sticking to tattoo designs right now as kind of doodles. I need to design them big enough to share in better quality and such so I'll work on that, it takes long enough just to draw them symmetric, and I'm not good at computer when it comes to mouse drawing -.-

Some exciting things are: I got in touch with my Dad today and cleared up my money issue for my trip, found out he's helping me and that I'll see him Saturday before I leave, that he's looking into that day I want to go visit Appalachian for it's open house, and also that we plan on going to Disney in September and even at the cost of missing five days of school I don't care I get to spend five days in Florida having fun with my Dad (And I've been begging him to go somewhere far away so we can hang out together and have real kind of father dughter time...and Karen says it'll be expensive, but heck yes it will be nice...). Besides Dad, I asked Mom about tomorrow....since she's going out I would like her to get me batteries, headphones (the ones I have suck), and possibly a CD player (because my laptop won't work all 12 hours of our bus ride, even on full charge, and my mp3 player only has so many songs on it). I also found out from her that my Grandfather is giving me his bridge jacket. I spazzed when I found this out because for any who don't know a bridge jacket is a trench coat like jacket of very high prestige because it's only given to certain people. He happened to receive it when he became a submarine senior chief in the navy and he prizes it greatly, but he has said he is giving it to me. That's crazy, but I'm overly excited, I love military jackets, and it will keep me warm in that 45 degree high Canada weather as I'm getting soaked behind the falls, and walking around sightseeing everything else (including Daredevil Musuem, Planet Hollywood, CN Tower, Hard Rock Cafe, Casa Loma, Eaton Centre, The Royal Ontario Musuem, and PATH...pretty insane but it's going to be uber fun and there's going to be some amazing pictures *spaz of excitement* my first real road trip and it's out of the freakin COUNTRY heck yes! ^.^)

So yea, that's my babbling for today. I still need to make my Mom a list for a few things, so she remembers and so do I and I need to make a list of all the stuff I need to get together. And for some reason, tomorrow I'm thinking is definitely a skirt and tight button up shirt day....not only unusual for me, but even more so because I feel like I might just be sexy in it. Haha. I'm such a weirdo.

Peace for now. Enjoy the springtime. ^.^
~Britt

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Trying to keep it together, but a lot seems to be going wrong and blah to school work up the wazoo. It's crazy. Loved getting the braces off, hated the three or so tests and multiple assignments I missed. Got some of those out of the way today but have a lot still to do. relying big time on a friend of mine to stay after Monday so I can get a ride, and get work done that way. Going to enjoy the weekend and try not to stress. Going to hang with Jatana tomorrow night, and don't know about the rest, but I hope it's not stressful like the week has been.

Uploaded a little art. I have more, I just haven't had the motivation or energy to spare aside from that school work aforementioned. So I'm trying...again.

Only human. Human...and asking for a break.

Much love,
~Britt

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Slow yet extremely fast. The only day I feel like I can breathe is the one day I can't because I'm at home sick with the weirdest ailment ever. Everyone is sad, missing me at school, and I'm at home miserable and doing random things that aren't very useful. Updating sites, even old ones, just randomness. Though I definitely miss people as well. My internet has been really weird lately and I've gotten behind again, but I'm going to try and comment everything, at least on Fae's cause she always gives me comments which I lurve ^.^ She's so nice. Comments make me smile and I can always ex[ect to get a smile from her. It's wonderful. So I can return the favor...as soon as I get the chance...bah.

I missed three tests today...although I got over 13 hours of straight sleep after being so sick yesterday to barely make it home, curl up in bed, and pass out. Luckily after that rest and some food (which by the time I woke I hadn't eaten in over 24 hours) I felt a little better. I have a competition tomorrow so I better feel better. I told Mom that I'm going sick or not, it's the last winterguard competition of the year and it's time I'm spending with the people I missed today. So yea...I'm definitely going.

Other than that, school is hectic, life is hectic...same old same old. Have some new art, but just as comments, have to find the time for submissions too...I loved the Death Tree (Morte Arbore) too much so I Found time. Ha. Yea..I'll dig up the other stuff when I get the chance like I said.

Multus Amor (Much love)
~Britt

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