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I had a dream that someone wrote a critique of one of my stories here on DA. I saw this, but couldn't bring myself to read it. "Why one of my stories on DA?!" I thought. "Those are all of my worst stories!" I said. Then I wondered why I don't put the things I am the most proud of on here. Why don't I let people read those? Maybe because I am afraid they're not as good as I think they are, or want them to be...

I think it's time to put something real on DA.

-J

P.S. I am making a video that chronicles the All-State Write-In I went to at the Oregon Coast Aquarium. Look forward it. D:<

]]> *CrushMyVelvet http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/28481296/ http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/28481296/ Sat, 21 Nov 2009 04:39:05 PST hexreedwitch came to pick me up so we could go see Hank Green, you know, youtube famous. ;D Buzzing! Brotherhood 2.0 and what not.

I wasn't expecting to see anyone I knew there. Turns out I spotted a girl who had adopted me as her child during her senior year and my freshman year in high school. She was nerding it up, which was great because I was as well. I also saw someone there who I recognized from all of my local cons as well as well as the weirdo Japanese store she works at downtown. It was shocking in ways! O:

So, the gathering was great. I was sort of mesmerized from a cultural anthropological standpoint. So many people were there, all knowing the same inside jokes, singing along to this man's songs, acting like a community though most of them only ever had contact online. I even found myself laughing, and singing a very little bit, and woo'ing my heart out. Though, I must say, I was a little too nervous (it was my first gathering) to woo as much as the rest of the crowd. I don't know why, what would a bunch of NERDS judge ME for?

Anyway, it was an experience. And I am glad that I had it. Kind of sorry I chickened on out getting a picture with Hank because I know I will want one later. Maybe next time.

SO, that being said, I am going to be gone at the NaNoWriMo Oregon Coast Aquarium Write-In this weekend. Don't panic! I will get back to you all when I get home. And ~hexreedwitch is a beautiful lady, so I will be in good company. She will take the best care of me, like she always has. I'll get pics of the storm riddled beach for you all. Maybe some retarded videos because it's been too long since you've seen me, huh?

-J

]]> *CrushMyVelvet http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/28444543/ http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/28444543/ Fri, 20 Nov 2009 16:28:56 PST
-J

]]> *CrushMyVelvet http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/28443536/ http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/28443536/ Thu, 19 Nov 2009 00:56:49 PST
ANYWAY, I'm really irritated. Remember when I said I can't stand people who think they're 'entitled to things'? I did have an example in mind. And I can't talk to her about it because she won't get it. At all. I've tried, and it never works, it just causes MORE BULLSHIT. But she keeps picking at me instead of leaving me alone. So then bullshit is caused anyway. Seriously, why? Just... Stop. Don't talk to me if you think I am 'mad at you', because you're probably RIGHT. Give me some time without you so I can learn to deal with you. And then maybe we'll be fine again?

Here's the thing: I went out of my way to make sure she had a place to stay when she needed it, even though I knew living with her would be hard. My family ended up owing a lot of money for making this place for her. She hasn't even come CLOSE to paying that off with her 'rent', which is VERY LOW, and she threatens to move out constantly. Even in passive ways like, 'oh, I want to be closer to school'. So now my family is in financial trouble, and of course this doesn't help because they are in debt over this, though that is also amongst other things.

She doesn't have to pay for electricity, water, internet, ANY utilities. Neither do I, but I am not the one saying, 'I AM A POOR STARVING ARTIST! WAHHH!' All of the time. She is free to eat the food that is here, she has a ride whenever she needs it, she doesn't have to help clean the house or do dishes or anything. Yeah, she works, and goes to school part time, but she is poor enough to be able to get aid. Though, for some reason, won't try very hard to do it. Meanwhile, I am trying to find a way to pay to get back into school and I can't because I can't afford to move out and my dad makes too much money even though my family is about to go bankrupt. Again.

She complains. A lot. Like when we were taking to long to FIX HER COMPUTER FOR FREE. Or when I don't invite her places she gets really upset. Even if I don't feel like I can invite her to other people's houses because they ARE NOT MINE. She wants to hang out constantly if we're both home and she has nothing to do... I NEED alone time. Or writing time. I don't want to be with other people constantly, especially if we live together. She constantly does things because she knows she can attempt to guilt trip me later. She makes me feel bad about not letting her buy me a drink or whatever she decides to buy and then treats me like I am in debt to her even though she pressures me into it because I want to avoid her pouting.

Honestly, I didn't want to explain it this way. But I can't form words because I am SO IRRITATED. Why can't I just be left alone until I have time to accept things the way they are and move on? You'd figure someone I have known for so many years would know me well enough to know when I am irritated, and that if I want to talk about it I WILL GODDAMN TALK ABOUT IT. People know I don't hold back if I feel the need. But see, I didn't say any of this because I felt like it would be really BITCHY to say it all. So I tried to be rational in my head and just NOT say it, move on, forget it until I am in a better mood and not dealing with my personal/family issues so I could forgive it all.

Seriously... I need to be left alone unless I make an effort to be social when I am mad. I don't need jealousy, arrogance, ignorance, self righteousness, self importance, etc shoved down my throat. If you wanted me not to be upset with you, you should have LEFT IT ALONE. And not tried to tell me your life is 'rough'. Because it's not. I am not saying mine is worse than yours, I am saying yours isn't bad. I can't take your crap while I am busy doing everything I can to try and find a job so I can pay to get back into college. And yes, I AM looking. But you know what? I am actually doing all of the medical stuff related to the car accident we were in. And trying to help my family. And that's another thing... STOP DEFENDING PEOPLE WHEN THEY DO STUPID SHIT BUT ALSO USING SAID STUPID SHIT TO GET SYMPATHY. Your dad should have co-signed for you. And your mom shouldn't be so hard on you. Man up. We all have a tough time with the world.

And now I feel emotional because I don't know if I can afford to give my little brother a good birthday, and I know my parents can't. I spent all day babysitting, FOR NO MONEY, and moving things. I put up lights yesterday on the house in the freezing cold on a really tall ladder because I thought it might cheer my mom up. And she is sick and not sleeping and hurting herself because of it. Why can't I just be left alone to deal with things? WHY DO I KEEP BEING PUSHED INTO A CORNER UNTIL I HAVE TO GO RABID? And why can't people just realize what they are doi... ]]> *CrushMyVelvet http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/28435462/ http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/28435462/ Wed, 18 Nov 2009 15:39:50 PST , of course. ;D

Here are the rules:

1.Post these rules.
2.You have to write 8 random facts about yourself.
3.Post a journal, saying who tagged you and linking to their profile page.
4.Tag 8 more victims.
5.Go to their page and leave a comment that tells them they have been tagged.

1. It is rare that I can feel comfortable if I am not listening to music.
2. I'm obsessed with ball-jointed dolls. ):
3. I have never in my life dyed my hair.
4. I wish that I could be good at DDR.
5. I compose music and novels in my head. A lot.
6. Sometimes I pretend my life is a music video or a movie. TRUE. FACT.
7. Just about nothing irritates me more than people who think they're entitled to things.
8. I watch the movie "Penelope" every single time I see it on TV.

AND, I TAG:



I am not going to post a comment on your pages.

-J

]]> *CrushMyVelvet http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/28408433/ http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/28408433/ Tue, 17 Nov 2009 05:54:08 PST
ANYWAY, I didn't get to play the game I wanted to play tonight so I was pretty upset. I ended up on the couch in a sweet 'YOU HAVE DIED OF DYSENTERY' shirt (LOL OREGON TRAIL IS A GREAT GAME) and flipping through the channels. And this stupid anime called 'Spider Riders' was on. It ended shortly, and the 'Journey To The West', the cartoon version, came on. I was watching it going, "So... The Monkey is Goku, right?" GODDAMNIT, SAIYUKI. GET OUT OF MY HEAD. ... I don't understand why China continues to reproduce Journey To The West stories. And at the same time I do, and I commend them for it.

For those who might find yourself concerned, the 'Lonely Beekeeper' comic has been moved to my scraps, simply because I do realize it is retarded and don't want to offend real artists. I left it in my gallery for a while so everyone got the chance to revel in it's glory. Maybe I'll do a few more soon. I might just take a shot at that. Maybe I'll also light my eyelids on fire and sing children's songs backwards in German. We'll see.

IN OTHER NEWS: I'm trying to make SOME money toward my various goals. So I'm going to make some things to sell. Doll stuff, people stuff, maybe even cosplay stuff. Keep an eye out, and if you can spare the moniehz and want something personally made by me then let me know. I would say I take commissions, because I totally would, but that feels like something a real artist can say and I am definitely not one of those. I'm not trying to put myself down, I just rarely do art. Honestly. BUT, perhaps I could try that soon. Sewing, crocheting, jewelry making, props, AWFUL DRAWINGS, whatever you want. We'll see.

Also, my 21st birthday is in less than one month now. Jordan con, anyone?

-J

]]> *CrushMyVelvet http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/28380938/ http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/28380938/ Sun, 15 Nov 2009 17:37:58 PST hexreedwitch with that. :/ Maybe it's the thought that counts?

ANYWAY, I wanted to say thanks to everyone for your well-wishes and the like! And I hope that you'll all be cheering on my efforts to finish my project and find a way to be able to participate at said write-in since I already got a spot and I really don't want to be someone who is there wasting it. I'm sure I will figure it out! ^^ Optimism: I has it.

ANYWAY, lately I'm thinking a lot about my other story. I am considering writing some short pieces to get me in the mood for writing those characters and maybe finishing it. I've had it all planned out for a really, really long time. Characters, plot, setting, all sorts of stuff like that. Yes, what I am saying is that I am considering writing fan fiction of my OWN story so that I will feel the urge to write out my story. It's sort of twisted, but that's the way I work sometimes.

I also have an art trade to finish with *Lochi, which I have been needing to finish for quite some time. And I don't go back on my word, I just sometimes procrastinate. For a long time. Also, I have a rather graphically violent and explicit fan fiction to send to my dear ~tensergorn because I have owed it to her forEVER. I'm sorry, Hope, I just don't like sharing how truly devious and f'ed up I am in my head. Though I don't know why I have anything to fear from you... You'd probably just like me more. Anyway, you did me a favor today in finding something for me for my lovely =SakurazakiSetsuna, so I owe you.

In other news, you know who is great? *mrkittycosplay. Check him out. I KNOW I DO ALL OF THE TIME. LOLLLLLL. I suppose a lot of other people are great, too. Who wants a feature!?

-J

]]> *CrushMyVelvet http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/28357561/ http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/28357561/ Sat, 14 Nov 2009 16:11:25 PST I find a fatal flaw
in the logic of love
and go out of my head

It took me years to get back to you. Approximately 1,460.9688 days. Lets round up since we're not assholes. It took me 1,461 days, give or take a few, to get back to you. And here I thought we were waiting for each other. I can't tell if I was right, or if I was wrong.

TBC... Maybe.

~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~

Lets see. What do I have to do?

-Art trade
-Nanowrimo
-Throw up
-Shower
-Put on a lovely face
-Hunt the beast in the woods
-Sell kidney
-Give the bunny a bath (I know, but he needs it)
-Stop neglecting guitar
-Make, make that money
-Post
-BEAT THE GAAAAAME (many times over)
-Reply to emails
-Sew
-Rearrange room
-BETRAY CYRRIL IN A SEXY WAY
-Set up Jordan Con schedule
-Let her know how much I love her
-Math

... Busy day.

- J

]]> *CrushMyVelvet http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/28339977/ http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/28339977/ Fri, 13 Nov 2009 19:18:29 PST
D;

I need to come up with money in a short period of time. THIS IS SERIOUS BUSINESS. How am I going to make $400 fast enough? >< Lawd.

I think this sums up my desperation:

BlueRoseBride: Shit, I need money. D; What do you know about selling kidneys?
pavelandreievich: ...that you should get the money first
BlueRoseBride: >< good plan

ERRRRRRRR.

What do I have that anyone wants!? Should I clear out my cosplay collection? Would anyone even BUY that crap?

...

DAMNITDAMNITDAMNIT.

-J

]]> *CrushMyVelvet http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/28305938/ http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/28305938/ Thu, 12 Nov 2009 02:20:23 PST
Me: "I was thinking of going to Australia."
Mom: "Why? Everything there is poisonous!"
Me: "I wasn't going to go roam the outback, Mom."
Mom: "They come into town."
Me: "What?"
Mom: "The poisonous things. I just watched a program on it."

My mom is the next crocodile hunter because she has the power of television. I love her.

So, anyway, ~ikillspiders, remember our childhood dream of moving to Australia and raising horses like The Man From Snowy River? Well, I now know that Australian horses MUST be poisonous. Does this change our plans?

-J

P.S. Monster hunt video from today was too dark. We'll reshoot later.

I wonder... If I went into an Australian town... If I would open the door to the bathroom or something and a poisonous horse would jump out and get me. I really hope so.

]]> *CrushMyVelvet http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/28211421/ http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/28211421/ Sun, 08 Nov 2009 05:43:42 PST
[link]

ENJOY IT, BITCHES.

-J

P.S. ... EXCELLENCE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

]]> *CrushMyVelvet http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/28172820/ http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/28172820/ Fri, 06 Nov 2009 04:15:49 PST
We raised the stakes this year by throwing FOUR pumpkins off of the bridge instead of one. Or two. This is on video and you will see this at a later date.

On a side note, this is the greatest music video EVAR right now: [link]

It's like Bollywood meets hip hop in the best way possible. Could go for more punjabi thrown in there... But hey, I will take what I can get. Also, Jay Sean looks JUST LIKE ME. Weird. We could be twin brothers, am I right? *LIE*

Makes me want to come out with an album. >.> Yarr.

-J

P.S. We keep trying to make sculptures with that really light, foamy crayola clay stuff and the bunny keeps coming over and eating them. D; That can't be healthy for him.

]]> *CrushMyVelvet http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/28150980/ http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/28150980/ Wed, 04 Nov 2009 20:15:26 PST
2. Doctors: ... WHY!? I don't trust you. Why do you want me to be in pain and broke all of the time? What is your DEAL?

3. Insomnia: ... I am surprised I am even coherent right now.

4. Love: ENOUGH SAID. I hate my life. Seriously. ... Well... Not entirely.

5. Sewing: Learning to sew was the best and worst idea ever. Now I feel compelled to make stuff but never want to do it.

6. Money: WHERE ARE YOU!? WHERE!?

7. Frank Sinatra: ... >.>

8. Procrastination: WHY DO I NEVER EVEN START ANYTHING!?

9. Laptop: Why do you keep killing your batteries? Those are your babies. THEY ARE YOUR LIFE.

10. Academia: *dead*.

-end list-

-J

]]> *CrushMyVelvet http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/28099524/ http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/28099524/ Mon, 02 Nov 2009 02:56:44 PST ikillspiders and I were professional wrestlers from WWE Smackdown. We were rivals, which was totally badass of us. ANYWAY, we all stayed around my house for a bit and had food and watched Ghost Hunters, but we actually decided to go out and trick-or-treat this year. The FIRST house we went to a guy recognized Maren and I and was very excited about us. He shook our hands. Excellence.

When we got home we watched two movies. Young Frankenstein and The Nightmare Before Christmas. Because we're cool like that. While we were watching them my older brother came home and threw open my bedroom door. He'd been drinking so he loudly proclaimed that he was 'SO OVER THE INFLUENCE' and told us all about how he was feeling. Then he showed off his tribal tattoos and reveled in our Native American heritage for a bit by attempting to get philosophical but ending up just being too 'OVER THE INFLUENCE' to really succeed. He rules.

HERE IS SOMETHING THAT MAKES ME REALLY ANGRY: Now, I am usually a pretty reasonable guy, right? But this was just TOO much. My little brothers and a large group of their friends went trick-or-treating. Eventually their small Asian friend fell a little behind the group and they didn't really notice. And all of the sudden some older kids jumped him and took his bag and all of his candy. It just makes me feel so violent. Why would someone do that to a kid? Why not just go get your OWN GODDAMN CANDY? Needless to say I was pissed off by the time I heard about it, but it was too late to do anything.

I have to go to the hospital on Tuesday. And I went to the doctor yesterday. I have physical therapy today and I THINK Wednesday and another doctors appointment on Thursday. ... And soon the hormones will kick in and I will be a real woman? (JUST KIDDING, CALM THE F*CK DOWN! D:< ... Sheesh). ANYWAY, forgive me if I am slow at commenting on deviations and such. I've got a busy week.

What were you for Halloween? I want pics.

-J

]]> *CrushMyVelvet http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/27982753/ http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/27982753/ Mon, 26 Oct 2009 17:34:55 PDT .>

SO ANYWAY, it's getting close to that time so I might as well tell you now what is going on as far as Halloween.

PARTY TIEMZ: Looks like it's going to be smaller this year, but it will be fun. Show up at my house around seven or so I suppose? Costumes not required, but encouraged. If you need my cell number or my address PLEASE NOTE ME ON DA!?

If you are planning to come let me know, that'd be fab. If you are planning to bring someone let me know about that, too, though of course it shouldn't be a problem. As long as they're not shifty as hell, in which case you might want to leave them tied up outside.

UMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM...

I'm really hungry. Anyone got a snack?

-J

]]> *CrushMyVelvet http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/27839310/ http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/27839310/ Sun, 18 Oct 2009 16:07:32 PDT
Belphegor:

[link]

Mukuro:

[link]

... HOW ARE THEY NOT JUST PERFECT FOR EACH OTHER?! ... >.> So yeah, I guess the news is that ~Normalystrang37 and I are cosplaying Belphegor and Mukuro for AX 2010 and, yes, we ARE MAKING THEM A HORRIBLE CRACK PAIRING. Because we feel like it. We're also apparently cosplaying a few other things, which includes me finally being able to fulfill my DREAM of cosplaying from Godchild/Count Cain! HOLY. CRAP. I have two words for you: Skeleton hand.

Why am I always the Butler? Because I am ... Servitude fabulous?

IN OTHER NEWS: Today was my baby girly Lily's 5th birthday party. Her birthday isn't until a few days before Halloween, really, but her mom decided it was a good idea to have a party now since it was a weekend and it could be separated from Halloween. SO, I was up ALL NIGHT baking chocolate and strawberry soda (yeah, my own brilliant idea) cupcakes. I seem to be doing a lot of stuff like that lately.

Errr... I have like... Two tests tomorrow and physical therapy AND I am having =SakurazakiSetsuna over on Tuesday for baking times.

What a life.

-J

P.S. SKELETON HAAAAAAAAAND!!!!!!!!!

]]> *CrushMyVelvet http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/27800347/ http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/27800347/ Fri, 16 Oct 2009 15:41:50 PDT
-HALLOWEEN: My mom throws a big Halloween party every year and I feel incredibly guilty missing it. Not to mention my BFF, ~ikillspiders, already picked out costumes for us and I am committed and dedicated to being her nemesis (costumewize).

- TIME: ... I have no time to get ready for this. I am swamped with school work among other types of work, and my physical therapy is important to keep up with so it's really impossible to make the time for a trip like this right now.

- MONEY: Realistically, I could SOMEHOW make enough money to get there and pay for the con most likely. But then there's hotel, and food, and I DO want to go to Aki Con again this year so I can't spend right now. Not to mention that trip to Seattle sucked up a lot of funds. Not that it was a bad trip, because it SO wasn't. It was fantastic.

So there you have it. No Yaoi Con for Jordan. This is the first time I will miss one of "my cons". It feels awful. But it is mostly just awful that I won't be able to see a lot of people who are going that I really would like to spend some time with. Next con? Jordan con?

ANYWAY, that brings up something else. HALLOWEEN PARTY. Yes, this year, as usual, we are going all out with our annual Halloween Party. It's going to be epic this year because we are actually planning ahead this time. If you want to help decorate, let me know. Everyone is invited, no matter who you are or how old you are, and it's just a fun night of costumes, free food, ghost hunters live, games, and socialization. I will be putting up information about it later but this is just to let everyone know that you are all invited and there is a place for everyone. Even if you have to stay over, we have room!

So... That's the way it goes. Thanks for reading, my friends. I hope to see you on Halloween or sometime soon. OH! Jordan Con pre-reg opens on October 31st. I'll put up info about that, too... Good lord, it's really code for "RSVPing" to my birthday party. No fee. ANYWAY, that whole three day event is coming up soon. December 12th-14th. Hot.

-J

]]> *CrushMyVelvet http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/27763917/ http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/27763917/ Wed, 14 Oct 2009 14:15:24 PDT
I got up and took a shower, I put a hat in the washing machine and then the dryer even though the tag told me not to, and I went out with some friends. ~virtigo180 drove me to Lloyd Center mall where I met ~ikillspiders. We took the MAX to Pioneer Square and waited for =SakurazakiSetsuna to arrive. And of course, while we waited, we watched some WINNING people wandering around in the cold, wet weather. Including a guy in a cloak. It occurred to me that cloaks are actually practical for the weather this time of year, but not for the... Time... This time of... Time.

When =SakurazakiSetsuna arrived she was looking absolutely fabulous and it made me feel totally shabby in comparison, not that hanging out with ~ikillspiders doesn't ALWAYS do that, anyway. I'm pretty sure I looked like a hobo... A male hobo. ANYWAY, we got on the MAX again and went to The Roxy for some cheap food. The Roxy is always fun for various reasons but I found myself distracted from eating because I was too busy trying SO HARD to be SO COOL and keep up conversations. I am always socially nervous. No one suspects it.

ANYWAY, I realized *faore was at home and I had just sort of left without saying anything to her, so I called/texted her a bunch and invited her to meet us. We left the restaurant and ended up heading BACK to Lloyd Center, where *faore was getting really intimate with this guy named 'Cole' who drives the Zamboni on the ice rink. She was hungry, so we had to take her up to let her graze for a while, then we proceeded to... Shop? That's the best way I can describe it. Basically everyone but me purchased something so it was a successful day. We did hit a lot of great clothing stores and watched ~ikillspiders try on some really hot outfits.

When it was time to leave we walked =SakurazakiSetsuna back to the MAX and it was pleasantly raining out. I TRIED to be smooth and offer her my coat but she was too much of a classy lady to take it. Anyway, after we sent her on her way with HEAVY HEARTS FULL OF SORROW, we went to ~ikillspiders's apartment where we straightened my hair and almost watched True Blood, but ~virtigo180 got off of work early and came to pick up myself and *faore pretty quickly. Then we came home and watched some television. LOL.

Now you know about my day yesterday.

-J

P.S. I have a lot of people to thank for faves now. D; And a lot of deviations to check.

]]> *CrushMyVelvet http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/27640942/ http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/27640942/ Wed, 07 Oct 2009 20:03:27 PDT BlueRoseBride: I sure do, muffin!

telepathicmute: were falling far below the USDA recommended daily allowance of Vitamin Buttsecks
BlueRoseBride: OMG YOU'RE RIGHT! D;
telepathicmute: LOL
BlueRoseBride: We're going to have to start adding more into our lives before we have to force it through injections. :/

telepathicmute: *playing MASH*
BlueRoseBride: XD I remember MASH
BlueRoseBride: both the game and the show XD
BlueRoseBride: /movie
telepathicmute: lol all Mash is awesome
BlueRoseBride: That is so much the truth. ><

telepathicmute: yay, I'm marrying Andreas Frege
BlueRoseBride: SCORE.
telepathicmute: yeppers
BlueRoseBride: I hope I was on your list. =__=
telepathicmute: you were
BlueRoseBride: YAY!
telepathicmute: you got eliminated after David Bowie
BlueRoseBride: Damnit D;
BlueRoseBride: Every time!

BlueRoseBride: (.)(.)
BlueRoseBride: Now it has no mouth.
Reiske 8th: lol like most breasts...
BlueRoseBride: precisely

darin_molnar@hotmail.com: I think I'm threatening to undo my pants
darin_molnar@hotmail.com: Some things never change
BlueRoseBride: LOL

telepathicmute: *sends you a shitty kid*
BlueRoseBride: Aww, thanks!
BlueRoseBride: You're so thoughtful.

halosingrae: I will shortly be copyediting one of the worst manga in existence
halosingrae: "Guardian Hearts"
BlueRoseBride: Should... Should I buy it? D;
halosingrae: didn't I just say it was horrible? God no!
halosingrae: it fails even at the low standards set by harem manga
BlueRoseBride: So... What's it about?
halosingrae: Panty shots
BlueRoseBride: ... So... Why shouldn't I buy this?

BlueRoseBride: MAN... I wonder what fun things we're gonna do when you get here. >: D
halosingrae: yeah? Like shave my armpits?
halosingrae: I'll never forget doing that last year.
BlueRoseBride: YEAH! I CAN SHAVE YOUR ARMPITS!

BlueRoseBride: I can't help my limbs.
Reiske 8th: Yet they help you...
Reiske 8th: Such a one way relationship...
BlueRoseBride: :/ You're being too cool again, D.

Reiske 8th: Hey there Dalila
Reiske 8th: or how ever you spell your name
BlueRoseBride: It's Jordan.

BlueRoseBride: They will speak of you in song
Kurama738: I would rather they sing of me in song
BlueRoseBride: No, no. Shatner doesn't sing.
Kurama738: ....Rocket man.....
BlueRoseBride: Precisely.

yukihanajima: Too bad you aren't a single guy XD
BlueRoseBride: Yeah. :/ I get that a lot.

falsely tried: so i saw a wax figure of morgan freeman in new york and thought of you
BlueRoseBride: Aww. That's touching.

BlueRoseBride: I wish I could send all of my love straight into your m...outh.... :/ Ugh.
telepathicmute: HAHAHAHA NICE
BlueRoseBride: lol I apologize for that.

falsely tried: did they do the face smash thing?
BlueRoseBride: Yeah, mostly just fed it to each other. Didn't want to upset the lord, you know, with a mess.
falsely tried: yeah the lord does hate frosting
BlueRoseBride: I know, right?

pavelandreievich: want me to kill it?
BlueRoseBride: Yes
pavelandreievich: *kills brutally*
pavelandreievich: that better?
BlueRoseBride: Yeah, that is much better, thanks. It looks fab. XD
pavelandreievich: awesome
pavelandreievich: glad to help
BlueRoseBride: I appreciate it, man.
pavelandreievich: any time
BlueRoseBride: LITERALLY!?
pavelandreievich: YES
pavelandreievich: ANY TIME EVER AT ALL
pavelandreievich:
BlueRoseBride: SWEET
BlueRoseBride: I will keep this in mind
pavelandreievich: awesome!
BlueRoseBride: You're my own personal Canadian assassin.
pavelandreievich: I totally am
BlueRoseBride: I bet you kill with your knitting needles
pavelandreievich: I do
pavelandreievich: with precision
BlueRoseBride: I believe it. XD
pavelandreievich: right through the temple
BlueRoseBride: D;
BlueRoseBride: ilu
pavelandreievich: i... ]]> *CrushMyVelvet http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/27631713/ http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/27631713/ Wed, 07 Oct 2009 11:47:45 PDT
- The Bad Boy
- The Gay One who goes to space
- The Weirdo
- The Cold-Hearted One
- The Cute One
- The Geeky One who appeals to geeky girls
- The Geeky One who plays keyboard
- The Femmy British One
- The Whiny One

AND:

- Manager
- Stylist
- Make Up Artist
- Band Photographer
- Band Chef
- Oboe Player
- MY FAVORITE GROUPIE
- My OTHER Favorite Groupie
- My... Wife?
- Stalker

And now for something completely different:

ATTENTION!: I am sending a package out to Australia to . If you know her personally and have access to her, you should let me know so I can send things to you as well. The package is LONG overdue, but I finally have money to send it. I will wait a few days so that I can get your requests and shove some stuff in for you as well. MAKE IT HAPPEN, PEOPLE. D:< NOW.

And now for something else completely different:

Just got back from Seattle. It was FAAAAABULOUS. Got to hang at ~blackfruitbat and ~Raven-unit's apartment. They sure do know how to be awesome. Otherwise we also saw Jeremiah (of Kumoricon/Sakura Con and Bakazoku fame) because he decided to come hang out in our hotel room. Apparently he is going to try to make it to my birthday party. That rules. I'm excit... ]]> *CrushMyVelvet http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/27571092/ http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/27571092/ Sun, 04 Oct 2009 04:26:08 PDT
Who is in the band? Please comment and remind me. And remind me which one you are. I will make a list here:

- The Bad Boy
- The Gay One who goes to space
- The Weirdo
- The Cold-Hearted One
- The Cute One
- The Geeky One who appeals to geeky girls
- The Geeky One who plays keyboard
- The Other One
- The Whiny One

AND:

- Stylist
- Oboe Player
- MY FAVORITE GROUPIE
- My... Wife?

I expect boy band pics plz. SOON.

Second of all: I will be heading to Seattle tomorrow. And I will be there over night. And most of Tuesday. If you're in Seattle and want to see me, maybe use my cell phone to let me know that? Unless we already have plans... Well, then you should probably still call or text me to see exactly what those are.

TODAY:

I went to a very, VERY Christian wedding.

I had a book club reunion complete with high school teacher.

I ate Japanese food with a beautiful lady.

I decided that I really like pants. It happened.

-J

]]> *CrushMyVelvet http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/27550030/ http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/27550030/ Sat, 03 Oct 2009 00:27:20 PDT
Yes, it's true. We won't have to play instruments, we can just sing and dance around and make all of the young girls adore us. We can all have cool names, distinctly shaped personalities, and fabulous outfits.

Who's with me!?

~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~

Good. God. I am sick.

And I have a wedding to go to tomorrow.

... D; Help.

~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~

Sometimes I wonder what I'm thinking.

-J

]]> *CrushMyVelvet http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/27542652/ http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/27542652/ Fri, 02 Oct 2009 16:16:29 PDT SakurazakiSetsuna back once again. So that as a minus.

The plus, however, came later. I received a text from ~ikillspiders that reminded me that her boyfriend's band (the Shaky Hands) happened to be having a CD release party that evening. Of course I had said I would go to this, so I sucked up all of my sickness and shoved myself into a dress and some boots. My parents were on their way out anyway so they offered to drop me off, after my mom for some reason put a necklace on me and stopped to buy me a sweater.

When I got to Maren's we lingered for a while and I played a little fetch with Fraxie (such a cute dog >< ) while Maren made herself all fancy. Eventually we got in the car and went to meet the band at Berbati's Pan, where they were eating and eventually would be playing.

We ended up not paying for the show, and also selling merch for both the Shaky Hands and the band that played before them, Panther. It was an interesting experience, to say the least. Somehow all of the weirdos ended up finding us. There was a man who was REALLY interested in my boots and wanted to invite us to a party, a foreigner who decided to keep talking to me and ask me questions about 'American gigs', a girl who was OBVIOUSLY on something, a small femmy boy who wanted to swing dance with us, some people who were just downright overly friendly, and others with questions I definitely couldn't answer.

Over all the show itself was fantastic. The very first act aside, which resembled Maureen's performance from RENT. Luckily for that guy, the girl who was on something decided to interact with him and climb onstage before she was kicked out. Panther was fantastic, and we sold some merch for them so I felt accomplished. A lot of people bought Shaky Hands stuff as well, and there even a few familiar faces around.

When the show ended we stuck around for a while and let the band pack up and socialize. And when we got around to going outside the smell of Voodoo Donuts next door hit me in the face like only a 24 hour donut shop's smell can. Once back at Maren's my ride was waiting for me, and then I was on my way home. Well, almost. Jon and I stopped for burritos are a 24 hour place... There are a lot of places open at all hours in Portland, I guess. >.>

Yeah, I am SO not in a writing mood. That was boring as hell. I swear it was a fabulous night, though I woke up this morning feeling awful. But that's the way life works, isn't it?

-J

]]> *CrushMyVelvet http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/27502559/ http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/27502559/ Wed, 30 Sep 2009 12:01:11 PDT
Tagged by:

Your Boy Side:

[x] You love hoodies.
[x] You love jeans.
[ ] Dogs are better than cats.
[x] It's hilarious when people get hurt.
[x] You've played with/against boys on a team.
[ ] Shopping is torture.
[ ] Sad movies suck.
[x] You own an X-Box.
[x] Played with Hotwheels cars as a kid.
[x] At some point in time you wanted to be a firefighter.
[x] You own a DS, PS2 or Sega.
[x] You used to be obsessed with Power Rangers.
[ ] You watch sports on TV.
[ ] Gory movies are cool.
[x] You go to your dad for advice.
[ ] You own like a trillion baseball caps.
[x] You like going to football games. (More for social reasons.)
[ ] You used to/do collect baseball cards.
[ ] Baggy pants are cool to wear.
[x] It's kinda weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people.
[x] Green, black, red, blue, or silver are one of your favorite colors.
[x] You love to go crazy and not care what people think.
[ ] Sports are fun.
[ ] Talk with food in your mouth.

Total = 14


Your Girl Side:

[x] You wear lip gloss. (Rarely.)
[x] You love to shop.
[ ] You wear eyeliner.
[x] You have some of the same shirts in different colors.
[x] You wear the color pink.
[x] Go to your mom for advice.
[x] You consider cheerleading a sport. (It's hard. D; )
[ ] You hate wearing the color black.
[x] You like hanging out at the mall.
[ ] You like getting manicures and/or pedicures.
[x] You like wearing jewelry. (But still rarely do...)
[ ] Skirts are a big part of your wardrobe. (I have a lot but hardly wear them? Because... I hate shaving my man-legs? LOL?)
[ ] Shopping is one of your favorite hobbies.
[ ] You don't like the movie Star Wars. (I do, I just never want to watch it.)
[ ] You are/were in cheerleading, gymnastics or dance.
[x] It takes you around 1 hour to shower, get dressed,/ and put on make-up and accessories. (I'm prissy. Like an emo boy.)
[ ] You smile a lot more than you should.
[x] You have more than 10 pairs of shoes.
[x] You care about what you look like.
[x] You like wearing dresses when you can. (Uhhh...)
[ ] You like wearing body spray/perfume/cologne.
[x] Used to play with dolls as little kid.
[ ] Like putting make-up on someone else for the joy of it.
[x] Like taking pictures of yourself with your cell phone/camera when you're bored. (I MEAN WHO DOESN'T? And I AM fabulous...)
Total= 14

HOLY. SHIT. I AM EVENLY MALE AND FEMALE. ANSWER: ANDROGYNOUS. JORDAN IS ANDROGYNOUS. THERE IS NO GENDER HERE, OR MAYBE THERE HAPPENS TO BE BOTH GENDERS HERE!? How did that work out SO perfectly?

P.S. It won't let me change my mood. I am SO not tearful. Also, do this if you WANT to... ?

]]> *CrushMyVelvet http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/27491212/ http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/27491212/ Tue, 29 Sep 2009 17:33:23 PDT
He has only been gone for a few moments before the rain starts to pour. No amount of time ever seems like enough. I feel like I've been shielded against it. I feel like I don't feel anything about it. But then, that's a contradiction, isn't it? Kind of like, "I'll be home soon," ... Because it's never soon enough.

~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~

I just sobbed my way through the book "My Sister's Keeper". I was seriously not interested at first. And I was definitely not expecting to care about what happened to any of the characters. I was not expecting to cry, not in the least. But I totally did. I cried. I haven't seen the movie but I have the terrible feeling that it in no way compares to the book at all. It's definitely not going to live up to the characters, or possibly even HAVE all of the characters... Hmmph.

So, my dad was home! But now he's gone again. He'll be home Wednesday for a while, but he has to go to San Diego for business soon and then maybe Puerto Rico... And then... ? I think he is going to run for city council. I scanned some application stuff for him. He showed me where they printed a section written by him or from something he had written in a text book. Life is exciting. And so, so, SO very slow.

Last night the rain came back in a real way for the first time in a very long time. I was so excited about it. It smelled so nice. This morning I stood outside my front door and watched it dive at the ground. And I thought, "I want to go out and get wet," but something stopped me. It was a very similar thought. It was, "But if I go out to get wet... I'll get wet."

-J

]]> *CrushMyVelvet http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/27468372/ http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/27468372/ Mon, 28 Sep 2009 13:48:44 PDT .> Next Spring, anyway. And for that matter, so is Hogsmeade. Seriously, look up the video on the Universal Studios site. You'll be AMAZED.

But on another note, crazy business is constantly going down. And it is hard to keep up with everything and inform everyone about it. I have a compulsion to do so, of course, even though there is no real reason for me to be doing this. I mean, really, people can either find out some other way or don't have a real need to know, right? Hmmph. Nah, I'm a wordsmith. I might as well write about things. And I will do so... Eventually.

Oh, by the way, I haven't forgotten about you all. I am going to look over and leave comments on deviations very soon. I'm just very tired. Lately I haven't been sleeping well and my skin has been really oddly itchy from my medication. So I guess I might be allergic to it now? Which makes no real sense, but that's the way it seems.

I really thought I had something to write about here. My last few journals have been totally useless. I should get back to being interesting as quickly as possible.

Anyone watch anything good lately?!

]]> *CrushMyVelvet http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/27418409/ http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/27418409/ Fri, 25 Sep 2009 21:30:36 PDT
I keep thinking about leaving. And whether it will be something I can handle. I will miss Portland. But the idea of being somewhere else for a while is really exciting. And as far as my social life... I don't really have one lately. And I'm okay with that... ? Anyway, I don't feel like I will be missing too much on that front. At least not considering the way things have been going lately.

It's not that I don't enjoy the time I do have with my friends, but it doesn't come very often. And it's no fault of their own (in most cases, anyway) or of my own. It's just the way things work. Everyone has a life lately. We're all growing up. And no matter how much people insist that they'll never let things change friendshipwise, they always do. People DO drift apart or begin to resent each other or just stop caring altogether. It's sad, but it's true and something that has to be dealt with.

Of course, I will miss knowing I COULD see people easily, but I rarely do anyway. And I will be home on the weekends sometimes. The thing that troubles me is that when I don't see people they don't bother to attempt to keep in contact with me really, except in rare cases, and when I try I feel like I am being a bother or they just don't reply. Or take a long while to do so. I feel like I have experienced the absence of people in my life and nothing much has changed. Things wouldn't be much different without some of the people who are my "best friends". And if we were far away, even for a short time, they wouldn't attempt to contact me, really.

What an odd feeling. I'm not sure I care. I do miss some people and my relationships with some people. But everyone has other relationships wherever they are. When I am not there I don't mean anything. ... Of course this isn't true in all cases. Some people I do still speak to and see when I can. Some relationships are still meaningful. But I still miss the ones I do keep in contact with... I miss Maren. D;

Oh, how dramatic? Who even freaking cares? XD ... Anyone read any good books lately?

-J

]]> *CrushMyVelvet http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/27394860/ http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/27394860/ Thu, 24 Sep 2009 15:41:27 PDT
Anyway, today is *faore's birthday. Hooray! Send her some birthday love if you feel like it. Tell her, "Jordan says, 'Happy Birthday'".

~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~

"I'm a marine biologist."

"Great! I LOVE sea food!"

~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~

TOMORROW is ~ShinySpecialOne's birthday. You could do the same for her as you may or may not do for *faore.

Also: the Fred Meyer near my house is done being renovated. And it totally freaks me out. It's so fancy in there now and everything is in a different place. I grew up with that store being the same for years. When they changed the signs inside I was weirded out. And now it looks totally different. I mean, it's nice, but... Seriously.

Thinking of selling some cosplay stuff to make room in my closet for new cosplay stuff. Thinking about it.

I'm hungry. D; What?

-J

]]> *CrushMyVelvet http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/27336205/ http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/27336205/ Mon, 21 Sep 2009 10:38:45 PDT
ANYWAY, here is the thing: I have physical therapy today that I do not want to go to. But of course I must go, despite not having slept, and despite just not feeling well altogether. So that's fun. In the way that it isn't at all. Someone tell me something to make me feel better, please? Send me to the healing springs under Budapest. I need rejuvenation!

Umm. What else? OH YES! I keep telling you that I am King. This is true, of course. I AM a King. I suppose you want a story to go along with that, don't you? Well, unfortunately I am not in the proper mood for said story. However, I am in the proper mood for a setting forth a challenge.

WHO WANTS TO DESIGN MY CROWN? I need to make a crown. Tell me how it should look. ALSO: Shouldn't a King have an easier time getting a simple package sent to AUSTRALIA!? D:< Seriously.

-King J

]]> *CrushMyVelvet http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/27330154/ http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/27330154/ Sun, 20 Sep 2009 22:33:42 PDT
And we all know that means... HERE COMES THE FALL! ;D

And with the falls comes many new things. My birthday is in the fall, (December 14th, GET ON YOUR MISSION), everyone goes back to school... Almost everyone, I am sure some people don't, the leaves change and fall and die. And then of course...

~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~

"Attention, recruits, please report to the lounge," says the voice, who sounds very serious. The recruits all figure they should hurry up. This could be something vital to their survival. This could be their first mission!

No. It is not their first mission.

"Lets start with the rules," the man says. He is tall, thin, and looks nothing like a military man should. No matter what military this was, no matter how secret it seemed to be. Really, was that part of the disguise or something?

"Rule number one: 'Curfew is zero four-hundred and thirty-four hours,'" he reads.

"Wait, what? Is that a real time?" a curious looking blond young man asks from the front of the small group.

"Yes. You will do well to learn our time," snaps the man with the list.

"... I don't think that's a real time," the blond argues.

"Rule number two: 'No arguing about the rules,'."

"... Okay..."

"Rule number three: 'There will be absolutely no tom-foolery of any kind permitted while under the employ of HER,"

"Wait, of who? Who is SHE?" the blond again.

"HER. H.E.R. ... Who are you, are you supposed to be here?" the tall official narrows his eyes at the young man.

"I have a better question," another young man pipes up. He is a bit shorter, with dark hair and darker eyes. "Does that list seriously say, 'tom-foolery' on it? Seriously?"

"Haha. Tom-foolery. I think I went to high school with that guy," the blond says.

"Seriously," the dark haired young man says.

"Someone please escort these gentlemen to the brig," the offical is not pleased.

"There's a brig? Are we on a ship?" the blond asks.

"Seriously," the dark haired young man snickers.

Shortly thereafter they are both ushered out of the room.

-J

]]> *CrushMyVelvet http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/27271390/ http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/27271390/ Thu, 17 Sep 2009 20:57:45 PDT
I have decided that I want to reach 100,000 pageviews before my birthday, December 14th. I would adore my lovely watchers if they would be willing to help me reach this goal. Keep watching me, check my page, show people you know! I want to see if this is possible. If you help me to reach this goal I will take suggestions for any cosplay you want to see me do and open up a poll with the top options for your voting pleasure to celebrate said goal reaching and run on sentences are awesome. (: Please help me do this!

Love,

Jordan

~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~

I wanted to write something here. Something interesting. Something that people would take pleasure in reading. Then I realized that I am not the writer I usually am right now. I am something else. Here is a haiku I wrote instead:

Poems are for you
I don't care for poetry
Please don't make me write

-J

P.S. PLEASE HELP ME BECOME MOAR POPULARZ LOL?! You know, if you want to.

]]> *CrushMyVelvet http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/27248622/ http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/27248622/ Wed, 16 Sep 2009 16:40:11 PDT
ANYWAY, I know some of you are wondering about Jordan Con 09 and want details about it. For those of you who don't know what Jordan Con is, it's my birthday. ~ShinySpecialOne and I were talking about what to do for my next birthday one day and decided it should be a con... About me? It's a silly idea, but we ran with it and it's going to be fun.

So, Pre-reg is going to open up on October 31st. It is free, it's really just you RSVPing to my birthday party, which will be on December 12-13th. Yes, it ends the day before my birthday because the 14th is a Monday. You do not have to attend both days, but please let me know when you register which day or days you will be attending. Registration is available at the door but your badge might not be as cool. Yes, we'll have badges.

Cosplay is allowed (JORDAN COSPLAY!? WHAT? lol >.>. There may even be a competition. There will be karaoke and art contests as well. And of course there will be a rave. AND YES, food. Gifts are allowed as well but never required. The location is probably my house, but is yet to be totally decided. If you would like more information please contact me.

NOW FOR THE OTHER THING:

I NEED HELP. I am looking for people to commission me so I can make some extra money than I am in DIRE need of for a trip. Please let me know if you want anything from me. I am going to start an etsy shop soon and it would be cool to have some things sell. I understand everyone is having money troubles lately but it would be truly, truly appreciated if I could get some help here. You have no idea how important this is to me! And how much I would love any of you forever.

-J

P.S. I am so excited about things. SO EXCITED.

]]> *CrushMyVelvet http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/27219681/ http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/27219681/ Mon, 14 Sep 2009 23:32:23 PDT
...

So here is how it went down:

~virtigo180 and I put on our camouflage coats. We were planning to go out and explore a forest. We didn't have a particular forest in mind. On our way on I got a wonderful idea. "WAIT," I said. He inquired about what were were waiting for. I asked him if he minded back-tracking a little bit. He said he didn't so I picked up my phone and called ~KittyAssault. I asked him if he had camo, which he did not, but we went to pick him up anyway.

When we arrived and were waiting for Dylan to come outside I spied a suspicious looking tree. I asked Jon what he thought it was and he said he didn't know, but that we were getting out to go look at it. So when Dylan came out, then went back in for shoes as he had forgotten them, we hopped over to it and inspected it. Apparently it was poisonous, whatever it was, as Dylan informed us when he returned. We refrained from eating said tree or anything from it. NOW HERE IS THE COOL PART:

We spent the rest of the night driving around and listening to Daft Punk. We took a few dark country roads looking for the perfect place to stop, and saw four deer in various places on our way. When we found a place to stop someone came out of NOWHERE and asked if we were okay. We said yes and they moved on, though they seemed unsure about why we were wearing camo. So we got back in the car and drove some more, attempting to find a better place to stop. Dylan and I vetoed a few spots, much to Jon's dismay, and we SOMEHOW ended up on a road that took us to one where Jon and I had gone shooting recently. The strange part was, this meant we had ended up on Mt. Hood somehow.

We kept trying to find the remnants of our shooting spree, Stephen King's "IT" amongst other things, and couldn't seem to locate the right spot. It was dark, after all. However, what we did locate were a lot of tall towers holding high tension power lines. While wandering around on an old dirt service road beneath them we found a stuffed bear with angel wings that was impaled with a stick and a lot of shotgun remains. It began to rain, and above us the buzzing of the high tension wires turned into crackling. As the rain hit them they sparkled and hissed above our heads.

When we got back in the car I declared that since we were out here anyway we might as well go home through Hood River. Jon wasn't terribly keen on the idea until I suggested we go by the orchards and finally steal ourselves some pears from the trees. And so everyone was on board and we drove all the way over the other side of the pass to find ourselves in Hood River, a place famous for their apples, pears, and vineyards. It was dark, but we had to work quick. When we spotted our first sign of pears we pulled over, each of us jumped out and grabbed one and got back in the car quickly. We did this once more on our way into town and unfortunate Jon decided to try the one Dylan had grabbed this time, which was not ripe. At all. He made a terrible noise and threw it out the window.

When we finally made it to town we spied a Shari's (a 24hr diner, for those who do not know) and decided to stop. Our waiter happened to smell very nice and I decided to inform him that Jon thought he did. He said he was aware, that he was a smoker and he had to spray a lot of body spray on himself in order to make sure his boss didn't get angry with him. From them on we discussed many things, with our strange and very flamboyant waiter coming over to interject. He told us he was trying to keep us there because he was bored. And I had some French Toast. We did not tell him about the pears.

... Next mission, we will bring home more. I SWEAR IT.

It really was a lot more fun than I can explain. I GOT LAZY. Just wanted to share with you what you all missed.

-J

]]> *CrushMyVelvet http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/27171259/ http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/27171259/ Sat, 12 Sep 2009 13:45:19 PDT 2 - Each tagged person must tell 8 things about themselves.
3 - At the end you must tag 8 people and put their icon in your journal.
4 - Then go to their page and leave a comment saying you tagged them.
5 - Choose three deviations and feature them of the person who tagged you in the first slot.
6 - The first fifteen people who comment on this journal tag will have three deviations chosen from their galleries featured in the tag.

- - -

1. My favorite color is GREEN.
2. I haven't traveled very far from home. Ever.
3. I have an INTENSE love for music.
4. I'm a writer who never writes anymore. HA.
5. I have an obsession with shows about crime and serial killers.
6. Portland is my favorite city on EARTH.
7. SOMETIMES I AM REALLY, REALLY GIRLY.
8. I am not going to do rule number six. XD

I TAG:



AND I FEATURE THREE DEVIATIONS FROM:


1. [link]
2. [link]
3. [link]

(Because SHE TAGGED ME! D:< )

-J

]]> *CrushMyVelvet http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/27135033/ http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/27135033/ Thu, 10 Sep 2009 15:25:55 PDT
Life is strange. I've been living on cereal bars for the last two weeks at least, maybe a few eggs here and there and before that. Having the next back means no food money. I've lost like ten pounds. HOT. I'll be an Olsen twin soon. Only more manly. If that's possible.

Today we got the news that my dad landed two contracts that are very important. One involves Puerto Rico. And may involve some time there. It's a 1.3 million dollar contract. And it is amazing. Another is for the guy who is producing the next 3 or 4 Stan Lee movies. He needs some management software developed. This is really big, really good news. I can't believe things are finally coming together for him.

And as for me... I'm excited and heartbroken. Time is moving so fast. I'll most likely be North very soon for a while. It is also possible I will be South instead or after that. Leaving Portland is just a blasphemous idea. No matter what the reason is. I am feeling kind of torn about it. But I'll do it, of course. Lets just hope I survive it and come out better from it. I'll be home soon, no matter where I go for a while. Right?

Did I mention I am HUNGRY? And stressed. And really hoping I can somehow find a way to get to San Fran in October. If I were a real artist of some sort maybe I could sell commissions... Probably not. Everyone is broke. And my mind is foggy.

Smiling demons, crying angels, two worlds in love. And no one to stop the madness.

-J

]]> *CrushMyVelvet http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/27085174/ http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/27085174/ Mon, 07 Sep 2009 22:11:32 PDT
So, basically I have been living without net FOREVER. Which has been a pretty boring life considering I have also not had cable. I mean, there is only so much reading I can do as there are only so many books I can afford. And writing? WHO DOES THAT? But I have not been entirely without things to do. As some of you know Kumoricon happened this last weekend...

SO, the first day we got there dressed in Legend of Zelda. We did that for a while. We eventually went home for a few hours because NOTHING WAS HAPPENING. I finished Kurama and returned in that. A lot of people didn't know who I was, but I expected as much. Those who did seemed pleased. We took the kids home later that night and went to be ourselves, after I finished some touches on Tsuna.

The next morning we arrived at the con in Reborn cosplay. I skipped the photoshoot because it was raining and I was hungry. I am a lameass. I missed the YYH photoshoot and the Legend of Zelda one as well. Lameass. Seriously. I am one. We changed into Gundam Wing halfway through the day. Some girls were amused when Heero and Duo entered the ladies room together. We stuck around for a while, took the kids home, and returned later in rave clothes to rave out.

The last day of the con we didn't dress up but brought our dollfies and bummed around. This is all very brief, mind you. Things DID happen. I did run into people, I did make new friends. Despite the weird venue it was an amazing time. If I weren't nauseous I would go on and on and on. Lets summarize with a few key points:

-I LOVE HANNAH. And her and her friends were adorable. And I felt like a fool trying to talk to them and not seem lame.
-DANI AND STEVEN. OMG. We hung out a lot!? It was a good con for hanging out.
-Jeremiah + Brian + inside jokes = FANTASTIC EXPERIENCES.
-DESI AND NATE.
-The Bellingham girls were there and they were beautiful.
-MY LITTLE BROTHERS ARE COSPLAY PIMPS.
-NEW FRIENDS, NEW FRIENDS, NEW FRIENDS.
-Snakey Hat.
-Jon takes the best photos EVAR.
-"YOUR RED HAIR IS SEXY. SEXUALLLLL!"
-Astonished City People.
-Shayna and Co ARE GETTING DOLLS!?
-ANNA WINS THE ADULT ART CONTEST.
-Super Light WHY!? STOP SHAVING WITH THE DEATH NOTE.
-Tina and Jordan and Kittie are adorablez.
-Hilton Gestapo. ):
-Parking Attendants!
-YAY STACEY!
-NAY BRENDA! (Oh, the people we avoid...)
-... God, was there more? There was more...

I am so glad I went.

-J

]]> *CrushMyVelvet http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/26849643/ http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/26849643/ Thu, 27 Aug 2009 03:54:07 PDT
It was quiet that night. For some reason I still couldn't find the will to sleep. As tired as we always were it seemed like will was necessary to keep our eyes closed. There is something to be said for the expression, 'sleep with one eye open'. It would have been a great relief to find a way to sleep and see at the same time. The reality, however, was that when it really came down to it one was always forced to do one or the other. Most nights I chose to see. I'm not sure what sort of person this made me in the daytime.

In the same way that the big sounds had become the new quiet, the smaller sounds had replaced them as the new loud. Perhaps this was because a slight rustling was only detectable because it was near. And if it was near, then something was near us. Near enough that we could hear the tiny sounds which that something was making. Mind you, it was possible that a rat or some manner of feral animal was rooting around in the rubble, but just as possible that someone was creeping closer. We had trained ourselves to recognize where sounds came from, to identify the noises we made so we made no mistake when we heard a foreign one, and to stay as still as possible.

The quiet night was interrupted by a loud rustling nearby. I knew better than to sit up right away. My hand instinctively tightened it's grip on the polished wood of my rifle. I knew the man beside me to be asleep and made no move to change this. We had not made it back underground before nightfall and it was no longer sensible or safe to wander the dirty streets of the city. We found ourselves sleeping amongst the debris of what used to be a tall apartment building, brick and ash our bed, and something else found itself lurking near us in the dark; something I couldn't see.

Even under the caked on dirt and dried blood I could feel my skin tingling in anticipation. I drew each breath in slow and steady, careful not to make a sound. There it was again. The rustling was closer this time, a shifting of rocks and bits of metal not five yards away, but I still couldn't see it. Through the dirt, blood, and ash I could swear I could smell something else. Like damp wool, a thick musty scent that made it hard to breathe. I closed my useless eyes and said a private prayer to myself in my head. I didn't know who I was praying to against my unseen enemy, but I knew that these thoughts may very well have been my last.

-J

P.S. Ummm... I'm bored. :/ Pfft.

]]> *CrushMyVelvet http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/26844488/ http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/26844488/ Wed, 26 Aug 2009 19:42:14 PDT Your country fed you
And just like any other country
IT WILL BREAK YOU...

Gogol Bordello lyrics. Anyway, you know what I hate? When people who are not me go into my room and touch my computer. Especially when they don't ask me. And especially when they touch my scanner. Because then when I want to use it, it is ALL MESSED UP. The next person who touches my computer or scanner, or even comes close to doing so, will lose an eye. No finger, no hand, no arm. Straight for the eye.

So, the other day my grandpa died. And the next day he said he wanted to go hiking. He was dead for longer than usual this time, so we were all a little concerned. Perhaps the Native American in him is just so accustomed to spirit quests he doesn't mind being out of body for a while? Oh, he also didn't remember my grandma complaining to the doctor that last time no one yelled, "CLEAR!" But the doctor did, and so he yelled it this time. What a great occurrence.

Today I went out with ~hexreedwitch and ~KittyAssault. It was a good, solid day. What will tomorrow be like?

-J

]]> *CrushMyVelvet http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/26788245/ http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/26788245/ Mon, 24 Aug 2009 16:10:16 PDT OrangeTablet, who featured me!

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And she knows only this:

The tower is tall and the garden bliss.

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Okay, folks. So here is the DEAL. I have no internet at home. For like a month. I am house sitting so I will have it for a little while, but not for very long. I just wanted to let everyone know. I may be slow to reply to any and all comments. If I miss any smack me, hard, I like it. I mean, just... Let me know.

-J

P.S. "What's the matter, Doll? You lost?"

"... Is... This my name?"

"What?"

"Doll..."

"Yeah, sure... Whatever you say, Doll."

I wish I could call people ridiculous things. And wear a bob hairstyle without looking like I was trying to prove something.

]]> *CrushMyVelvet http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/26716172/ http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/26716172/ Thu, 20 Aug 2009 15:11:32 PDT
Normally I don't care much for this stuff BUT... WHAT THE FUCK, SUMMIT!? OMG, you just make one mistake after another, don't you? Rachelle, REALLY? How could you do this to her? I feel awful that I didn't know before. She was the nicest person on set. Absolutely the most down to earth and kind actress I have ever met. She saved me from freezing to death at fake prom. She stood up for people who pretty much had no voice on set at all, at least as far as much of the crew were concerned. AND YOU REPLACE HER WITH RON HOWARD'S FREAKY DAUGHTER?! This is beyond ridiculous. I am not happy at all. THANK GOD YOU MOVED TO CANADA OR I WOULD HAVE SOMETHING TO SAY ABOUT THIS IN PERSON.

Well, all of that nonsense aside I find myself sad lately. My back and neck still hurt. And there seems to be a serious problem with one of the joints in my lower back. Also there is a chance I am getting a truck soon. A TRUCK. I can use it to DRIVE. And put things in the BACK of my TRUCK. AHHH. That's good news. Then again, when do I ever have money, especially for things I actually need?

Today I was going to do a cosplay photoshoot but my photographer is sick. Please go and tell her to get better! She has been really seriously ill and I am worried. Her name is Kristen and her DA page is ~hexreedwitch. I am sure she would appreciate the support. Also, you should check out her gallery while you're there. Because she takes fantastic photos. She was the photographer for the account where I was a weird model. ~juiceboxduo. ;D Oh yes.

IN SHORT: I really, really, REALLY want something awesome to happen so that I can live off of the high from that for a while. Maybe a new dollfie will show up randomly at my door. Then I'd have someone to put the extra stuff I have on. OH WAIT... >.> Santa isn't real and doesn't come during the summer!? Lord. I guess I'll have to upload the video of me and the squirrel and impress myself, instead.

-J

P.S. I have been tagged for things. But I have forgotten all of the things I have been tagged for. Please remind me if you know!

]]> *CrushMyVelvet http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/26591600/ http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/26591600/ Fri, 14 Aug 2009 14:28:11 PDT
ANYWAY, *faore is the genius of geniuseseses. Here's something that really happened: she saw the back of a Snickers bar, where it said, "satisfies" or whatever they tend to say on the back. And she said, "Oh my God! They spelled Snickers wrong!" ... She told me this story. I don't know why she told me, of all people. I was bound to laugh. And also bound to tell the world.

SO, here we are. Yesterday I watched something like four or five movies in a row. I wrote. I adapted the writing of others. I felt fear, the quiet kind that makes you sort of sick, especially because you know for certain there is something to be afraid of. And then I felt regret and sadness. I gave some well deserved hugs, and I said goodbye when I really, really didn't want to say it. I want to have faith that things will fix themselves, but I don't want to expect anything.

This morning I put on some make up, dressed up, selected a bandanna from a plethora of colors, and canceled my physical therapy appointment. Which is a shame, because yesterday it went so well.

Thank you all for your comments. The internet was down for about two days here and I don't have the will to type so many replies. So this is your universal thanks. From me to you. All of you.

SOMETHING TERRIBLE HAPPENED: I saw cosplayers. On the street. IN GRESHAM (hometown, bros!)!!! WHO WERE THEY!? They were dressed as Roxas and Nekozawa. WHY!? WHYYYY!?

-J

P.S. Neither Markus no Sarapen earned nine votes, and therefore neither qualifies for Thane. In a month's time during the time of the next full moon we will vote again.

]]> *CrushMyVelvet http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/26539874/ http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/26539874/ Wed, 12 Aug 2009 01:55:58 PDT
Does it take compassion? No, because not all humans are good. Nor does it take selflessness, because no human alive can honestly say they have no bit of selfish nature in them. It seems to me, and perhaps to my kitten companion as well, that there is no such thing as a perfect person. But even an imperfect person can be a good person. And in fact the definition of perfect changes with everyone it means anything to.

I've been deceived quite a lot in my lifetime. Enough that it seems like it is normal, and like I shouldn't trust anyone on principal. No matter how much I know them or how little I know them. But sometimes, some deceptions take even me totally by surprise. Finding out something wasn't what I thought it was, finding out I have been lying to myself though I have known that for a long time, finally facing situations as they are.

I think perhaps I give pieces of myself away too easily.

And now there is one more person in the world I will never be able to trust. Someone else who is running away from me. Okay, I give. I'm just terrible, aren't I? Surely I don't do enough for others. I don't like to fight about these things. Telling me I am not good enough for you won't make me find a way to increase my value. Sometimes I just wish for once people would let me make my own mistakes on my own instead of adding commentary.

-J

P.S. Why doesn't anyone ever want to talk about things before they think they know what is going on? I won't correct it. Let them think what they will. Right or not it's still an insult to know I wouldn't have the support if I needed it.

]]> *CrushMyVelvet http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/26504648/ http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/26504648/ Mon, 10 Aug 2009 12:15:14 PDT
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I went to the doctor today. I was told I need to go to physical therapy FIVE days a week now. Or everyday. Great.

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The woods were far larger and far darker than she had expected. They were dense and seemed to stretch as far as her tired eyes could see. The trees were tall and thin, with bark so grey they were difficult to discern in the darkness. She had to be careful not to stumble into them. She shifted the weight of the large white rabbit in her arms a little and found a frown creeping onto her face as her pace slowed and she stopped in what seemed to be a small clearing.

"I think we've been walking for days," she said, her expression thoughtful and defeated all at once. It had been days, hadn't it? Perhaps the reason the sun hadn't seemed to rise and fall at all was the heavy cover of the canopy above. The leaves were blocking out the light. In her exhaustion it seemed plausible. She brushed some long chesnut hair from her grey eyes but her vision did not improve. It was still dark.

"We have been walking for three hours and roughly thirty-five minutes," the rabbit said matter-of-factly. He shifted his eyes as much as he could to take in their surroundings. "We can rest here, if you would like," he added.

The girl sighed heavily and set him down, "Three hours," she said. She let herself come to rest on her knees. The bag on her shoulder was feeling heavy and so she removed it and set it down next to her. She opened it to fish around blindly for the water bottle she was sure she had left inside of it.

"We should go back," the rabbit said, peering at her through his large round glasses with as much of a concerned expression as the average rabbit could manage. He didn't like traveling, generally, and preferred to stay inside and read. So long as someone was there to turn the pages for him and retrieve books from the tall shelves he couldn't reach.

"Amicus, I can't. You know I can't... You didn't have to come with me," the girl responded. Where was that water bottle? She was sure she had put it in the bag before she had crept out. Perhaps she had left it on her desk when she was writing her note. She pondered this, wondering if the person who found the note would think it was for them. How peculiar.

"Yes, I did," Amicus replied flatly. And then suddenly he stiffened, his tiny heart beginning to beat faster and faster. He swiveled his ears around, "Listen," he said.

And so she did. And what she heard first was a strange sort of music. She found that she rather liked it, really. It was cheerful and fairly exciting. She stretched her neck to move her head around in an attempt to find it's source. That was when she noticed the light, a faint orange glow in the distance seeping between the thin trunks of grey trees. She got to her feet and snatched up her bag.

"Come on, lets go and see what it is!" she exclaimed, taking off in the direction of the disturbance. Amicus would have scowled if a rabbit were capable of such things, but instead he ran after her, easily keeping up with her stride. He leapt with ease over a fallen log and ducked around and under the branches of some low hanging brush, eventually overtaking her altogether.

"My glasses are becoming quite scuffed," he said with a tone of great disapproval. But almost as soon as he had finished his sentence they both abruptly skidded to a complete stop. They had reached the edge of a camp of some sort. There were many strange looking tents and trailers circled around what appeared to be a large fire. A group of the strangest looking people either of them had ever seen were circled around it as well. Like the odd tents and trailers they were arrayed in many colors and some fairly interesting apparel.

"Oh," the girl said, her eyes widening a little at the sight. "This is..." she trailed off.

"A carnival?" Amicus seemed confused. He had only a moment to consider the thought before he suddenly found himself scooped up by a strange pair of hands. He kicked his powerful back legs wildly out of instinct, his claws not even brushing the fine fabric of the long, vibrant purple coat his captor was wearing.

"Put him down!" The girl screamed, swinging her bag at the stranger. He was a tall man, long wavy blond hair cascaded down his back from beneath a tall top hat. He was decked out in ruffles and a very fine looking coat that almost seemed to shimmer in the glow of the fire. He easily avoided being struck, light on his feet, seeming to almost dance away from range of the girl's bag.

"How wonderful, how grand, how MAGNIFICENT! This rabbit is wearing a pair of spectacles!... ]]> *CrushMyVelvet http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/26491869/ http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/26491869/ Sun, 09 Aug 2009 20:07:25 PDT
... >.> Yeah. That just... Happened. Sorry.

So, as you can see I am back from camping. I actually got back on Thursday because it started to storm so we had to pack up early, but I have been busy and mildly sickly since then. I have tried to comment on a lot of things since I got back but I had SO many messages I had to delete a lot of them. I'm sorry! If there is anything you want me to see post a link as a comment here. I will check it out.

Camping was great! I got Kayak time which I appreciate. I started some cranes and bald eagles. Ospreys and sparrows were everywhere, and tiny toads. The ground squirrels and chipmunks didn't fail me. I have a video of me sharing some trail mix with a ground squirrel because he was a fatty and wanted it. Maybe you'll see that. Anyway, it was nice bonding with the little bros. We got to go to Fort Rock, where the oldest artifacts in US history were discovered sometime in the 50's I think. I love history. And cave dwellings and ghost towns.

Since I have gotten back I... Well, mostly I hung out with my dad. We went to get some wings and play trivia with my little bros, then to the greatest bookstore on earth, then to the ZOO, then to the mall, then the grocery store. It was a full Saturday. I also have had time to spend with my tiny baby cousins who are now 3 and 4. We watch Rocky Horror and one of them did a puppet show for me. Good times. That's about it.

I AM IN LOOOOOOOOOOVE. Markus, you're amazing. I have never encountered ANYTHING a beautiful as you. !!! I hope you survive and become thane. Or you know, at least survive.

In other news ~OrangeTablet and ~Normalystrang37 officially own me at Anime Expo 2010. What have I gotten myself into!? ... Oh, well. I will do anything for love. XD ... ilugaiz.

-J

P.S. Looks like people want to see Kurama, huh?

]]> *CrushMyVelvet http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/26344454/ http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/26344454/ Sun, 02 Aug 2009 19:01:58 PDT
In any case, today was ~ikillspiders's birthday! YAY MAREN! 22 and so, so deserving of said age. So I was invited to accompany her and her family + her man on a ride today. Horseback, that is. We drove a couple hours South West to the Flying M Ranch somewhere near Yamhill. It was lovely weather. It was warm but not scorching and the sun was behind the clouds. I was appreciative.

Anyway, we got there and checked in then headed down to the stables. I was given my horse first, who turned out to be small because I am also small. He was a pretty paint named Tahoe. I was told he shied easily, especially if you flailed your arms, so I decided against flailing them for his sake. Poor thing.

The ride was about two hours or so, though it felt a lot longer. We went through forest and up and down mountainside as well as over many sources of water. I had a wonderful time, to say the least. It had been a while since I had gone riding, and the few instances where I was able to go fast were exhilarating.

TO THE POINT: While riding my horse got attacked by some bees. I didn't notice them until he freaked out and started bucking and thrashing, barreling down towards the horses in front of us. But somehow I stayed on and felt an odd lack of fear. I got him to calm down and the rest of the ride was smooth like it had been before. This is funny because before leaving I had mentioned something about how going to the ranch would bring out my cowboy/rodeo blood. MAYBE I WILL DO IT AS A PROFESSION.

Oh, yeah, before we left for the ride a barn cat attached itself to my leg. And two separate horses rubbed their heads on me. >.> The animals... They want me.

SO, TOMORROW I leave to go camping in the High Desert for almost a week. Monday-Friday. Miss me? ;D

-J

P.S. I miss Tahoe. D; And I HATE ANDREW. D:<

]]> *CrushMyVelvet http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/26300504/ http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/26300504/ Fri, 31 Jul 2009 14:59:03 PDT
Watched some ducks fight.

Missed people.

ATTENTION: I will be gone from Monday-Friday of this coming week. I'm going deep into the desert to camp and Kayak and play with ground squirrels. I had a video filmed for you recently but youtube failed on the upload. I found this old video though!

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It's by ~hexreedwitch, who is my dear lovely friend Kristen. It features myself when I had my awful spiky hair. It also features *faore and ~KittyAssault! And a VERY short and VERY incomplete tour of Portland, though it features my favorite bookstore.

AND PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE pay attention to the music in it if you watch. The Sleepless by the Shaky hands is one of my favorite songs EVER. You should all become fans of them because they're a great band and really hilarious people. I feel very lucky to know them. They're releasing a new CD soon and going on tour in Europe. Hopefully they'll do another US tour soon so everyone can be exposed to them.

Ummmm... My journals are so informative now. What happened to my fiction? I guess I will start writing as soon as I can force myself to sit still long enough. I've been working on things I have to send to people overseas.

And whoa! How did Artemis lose the lead in my recent poll!? Muse totally has one more vote than she does! HAHAHAHHAHA. DOLLFIES.

Yesterday I swam in the river. >.>

-J

P.S. You do love me... Right? :/

]]> *CrushMyVelvet http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/26245504/ http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/26245504/ Wed, 29 Jul 2009 00:33:44 PDT Let me know if you want anything from me, mmmmkay?

Second of all: I GOT TAGGED BY ~OrangeTablet !?!?!?!!! So here is that:

RULES

01. Post the rules

02. Answer each question truthfully

03. Tag 3-5 people at the end

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01. What was your first cosplay?
Himeno from Pretear. NOT any of her Pretear outfits, oddly. Just her regular clothes. Not the school uniform either. What's wrong with me!?

02. Did someone get you into cosplay? Or on your own?
Mmm, well, I sort of fell into it when I was told I was supposed to cosplay if I went to a convention because everyone does. THANKS DAD FOR GETTING ME INTO CON LIFE. D:<

03. What is your favorite cosplay?
Oh jeez. I don't even know. D; That is an impossible question. Are you kidding me?

04. Which is your least favorite?
In terms of what? Least cool or least comfortable? Also a tough question. Pretty impossible, actually. I don't really do cosplays I don't like.

5. At conventions, do people compliment you on your cosplays?
CONSTANTLY. I r so popularz.

6. How many have you done?
Is forever a number?

7. What are the top 5 on your list of "Want to Cosplay"?
1. Suki's Kiyoshi Warrior outfit from Avatar
2. Utena's dualist outfit
3. Prince Zuko (YES, MOAR AVATAR. D; )
4. Belphegor from Reborn
5. Midna from Twilight Princess

8. (Girls only) What female cosplay do you want to do most?
Mmmm... Currently it's Suki I guess.

9. What male cosplay do you want to do most?
Probably Belphegor... Because I love being a creep. Though I also love being a jerk... (ZUKO?! I need to stop watchng Avatar. NOW.)

10. What do you prefer to do, make or buy your costumes?
I prefer to make them, but if they're LAME like anything from Death Note almost then buying isn't such a bad option.

11. Your most memorable experience? What makes it so memorable?
I have so many. I am not sure I can choose. It was awesome cosplaying from a manga and getting to meet the creators. And I always love it when people think I'm a guy. XD

12. Your dream cosplay?
Dream cosplay? ... Huh. ... Huh.

13. Is there a pattern in your cosplays? If so, what?
I usually cosplay guys who are complete jerks. Oddly. Or who are totally insane. Though there have been exceptions.

14. Your most recent cosplay?
Heero Yuy from Gundam Wing. XD Yeeeeaaaah.

15. What do you prefer? Cosplaying in a group or on your own?
I prefer to do it in a group. It's fun to work off of each other and know you're going to get good pics. ^^

I tag....

and... WHOA. RANDOM. I bet no one will even do it. XD

P.S.

I also possibly tag if she wants... XD OH! And my mom brought me some free sea shells glued to pieces of paper from a museum at the beach. Hellz yeah.

]]> *CrushMyVelvet http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/26178995/ http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/26178995/ Sat, 25 Jul 2009 21:08:08 PDT
I play Luna Online now. I'm level 19. Other people should play it with me. Because it's tiny, and simple, and I WANT you. I also play Dream of Mirror Online because my little brothers commanded it. So, who wants to play with me? Come onnnn... Come on. Lets play.

Something else important: My damn DA subscription is going to run out again. AND I CAN'T LET IT HAPPEN. But I am currently broke. And sad. And lonely. And I hurt... I guess my point is that someone should make my day and donate one to me again! Or we could barter. I have things to offer. WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME!? Let me know.

Oh, by the way, the Vamps concert was AWESOME. Seeing Hyde up close made me love him no less, and in fact perhaps made me love him MORE. He is the most adorable forty year old man I have ever seen. So pretty. And you all know how I LOVE older men. Can't. Get. Enough. Of. Them. But seriously, I just wanted to squish his little face. The rest of the band were also very impressive. I have a guitar pick from the experience.

I got a pretty massive nosebleed while waiting in line outside for the concert. My friend Nadia and a nice girl from Kumoricon staff took me to the Fred Meyer across the street. While bleeding in the bathroom lots of people came in and told me all sorts of different ways to stop a nosebleed. Some ladies even came in and screamed at me in some Asian language I couldn't identify. Both of the girls with me were Asian but they didn't know what they were saying either.

Later that evening, after being in the front at the EXCELLENT CONCERT, I met a vampire. I had helped her find some missing finger armor and she gave me the number for a Chinese doctor in Seattle. Yes, this is my real life.

So, Kumoricon, anyone?

-J

]]> *CrushMyVelvet http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/26057045/ http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/26057045/ Mon, 20 Jul 2009 02:01:17 PDT
I got a lot of photos, and put SOME of them on DA. Trust me, there are many more than that. But I don't like spamming DA with photos, despite the way it may look since I do it often enough. I'm not really a photographer so none of my photos are superb, so it just feels like a big injustice on my part to post a ton at a time. And yet I do it anyway.

Tomorrow I am going to wait in line AGAIN for a concert. It reminds me that for a long time my life was mostly spent in line for concerts. Anyway, it's going to be a Vamps concert. Which is a Japanese band. All I know about them really is that HYDE is in it. And I love HYDE. So it should be pretty interesting to say the least. I wonder if I will be allowed to take photos... If I am I apologize in advance for any that may show up here.

I'm starting to think maybe I have some sort of vibe that repels relationships. =__=

-J

]]> *CrushMyVelvet http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/26000397/ http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/26000397/ Fri, 17 Jul 2009 06:30:31 PDT
I'm sorry I still haven't really been commenting on much as far as your deviation submissions. I'm still catching up. Not so much on DA messages but on my own thoughts. My mind is heavy with the weight of a lot of wasted life. Wretched ponderings of wicked deeds. In short, my friends, I am just SO tired.

If I could visit a place now in my dreams it would be Aokigahara. WIKI. THAT. SHIT. And read it all.

Hey kids, want to see a dead body? Shame on you. Here's something that is as close as I can get to delivering on your dark desires:

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Taken before most of the bruise had even risen to show it's true colors. It seems like some injuries are so deep they only begin to really reveal themselves over time. At least a bruise will eventually fade away. It's just blood under the skin but out of place.

Should I also apologize for my apathetic alliterations? Some things I can't bring myself to respond to just yet. Someday I will tell the world. Someday I won't tell anyone anything anymore. Or maybe this goal is too much to achieve. Blood is as good as ink, the stain never really goes away, does it?

When the last person to have ever known forgets who you are that's the end. Some people can never really hope to be forgotten in good time. I wonder how many of us wonder if we are one of them.

-J

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-J

]]> *CrushMyVelvet http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/25885357/ http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/25885357/ Sat, 11 Jul 2009 18:23:09 PDT
Another note: I was off of DA for the whole week that I was in LA and a few days after because of my car accident, so if I didn't comment on something please don't be offended. I watch everyone who watches me and more so if I am offline for a few days my message box gets crazy. A whole week and a half is INSANITY. If there is something you submitted and I didn't comment please let me know here, link me even, and I will check it out and comment. Or let me know if there is a journal you had wanted me to read. I had to delete all of my messages because it was too overwhelming.

So that's really all I wanted to say in this entry. Otherwise please forgive me for MORE pic spamming. When I get more pics from the other people who had cameras at AX even MORE pics will be put up. Bear with me, and you don't have to look at them all if you don't want to. ^^

-J

P.S. We were interviewed for this site called Broken Controllers or something like that. When I find the video I will link ya'll to it.

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]]> *CrushMyVelvet http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/25869826/ http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/25869826/ Fri, 10 Jul 2009 21:51:59 PDT
Getting there the day before the convention took a lot of pressure off of the whole ordeal. We found Hope's (~tensergorn) apartment and made ourselves comfortable for a while. Then we promptly visited In & Out Burger. We don't have those at home. After that it was off to Hollywood for some nerdy tourism mixed with shopping for our last minute con needs. People were gathered around outside of the Chinese Theatre to pay tribute to Michael Jackson. I found some ties to my family history immortalized in cement. When we tried to move on a pushy street musician sold me a CD. We visited some shops, and found some essential jeans as well as a fake gun. It was a good day. Later that night we got to style a wig and even eat dinner and sleep. Wonderful.

The next day we dawned out Gundam Wing cosplays for their debut con wearing. We were thoroughly shocked by how popular they were. People thanked us for wearing them. Much posing for photos happened, some interviews occurred. We gathered tickets for the things we wanted to see. We had picked up our badges the night before, luckily. Oh, and then we saw MANA-SAMA LIVE in CONCERT with his BAND Moi Dix Mois. We were about six rows from the front and in the middle. And it was one of the greatest experiences of my life to say the least. Directly after the concert we went to check in at the hotel. Hope dropped us off and took the car back to her house. While Ashley and Andrew were at the ATM I waited with our things on the second floor. I became bored and leaned over the railing to peer at the first floor below. AND THERE HE WAS. MANA. RIGHT THERE BY THE ELEVATORS. Unfortunately, Ashley had my camera AND my phone on her. WHY FATE, WHY!? The rest of the band and Morning Musume followed shortly.

The next day we wore Gundam Wing again. And people were STILL thrilled. Did I mention we got to see many excellent friends there? Lets see... We went to a Gundam gathering one of the days. I know we wore Zelda on Saturday. I know we went swimming. I know we were back to Gundam on the last day. I know I got dollfie clothes, a DS case, and some things for my family members. The convention was all just way too big and eventful to condense into a journal. We went to a Yun Kouga panel, we went to a Moi Dix Mois panel. We got Mana's autograph as well as those of a couple other band members. We took many pictures. We ran into Vic again as always, too. Now here's a list of who we saw, those who have DA accounts anyway:

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And ummm... LOL. If I left you out let me know and I'll add you to the list.

So anyway, after the con we experienced Little Tokyo a lot. And on our way home many good things happened. San Francisco happened. Beautiful beaches, wine country, the Redwood Forest... Also we got in a car accident and I got to have my first ambulance ride! I then spent about five ours at a hospital in the middle of nowhere in Bandon, Oregon. Had some X-rays, my neck no longer has a curve in it and that hurts. It's all messed. I have contusions on my head and face, bad bruises on my left thigh and hips and one of my knees. Cut open my lip, which stings badly. And am now having lots of headaches along with other pai... ]]> *CrushMyVelvet http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/25807453/ http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/25807453/ Tue, 07 Jul 2009 22:53:01 PDT
-J

]]> *CrushMyVelvet http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/25650209/ http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/25650209/ Tue, 30 Jun 2009 11:51:44 PDT
I still have a lot of money to get together today, but I am apparently registered, so I will certainly be going.

Now, I have no specific days planned out for anything but I do know this, these are the costumes I am bringing:

Link
HEERO YUY FROM GUNDAM WING*
... MAYBE Soubi...
...Umm... Obnoxious orange bikini?

*New costume. WOO.

Okay, so maybe I don't know for certain all of the costumes I am bringing, but I am definitely bringing those first two. Other than that you just may have to deal with my charming self. :/ Which I apologize for.

Annnnnddddd... That's it! I'm not in the right frame of mind to write a real entry.

-J

]]> *CrushMyVelvet http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/25620723/ http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/25620723/ Mon, 29 Jun 2009 03:13:47 PDT
Attention United States Marines Corp: I have received your postcard, and after thoroughly considering scaming you for a free shirt or something, I have decided against it. I am not going to join you, but I appreciate the offer. You even spelled my name correctly. I have a feeling once you found out about my medical history you would rejected me anyway, and I don't handle rejection well lately. Thanks again!

Sincerely,

Jordan Marguerite Molnar the 1st of the Bridgeport (PORTLAND!!!!!!!) Molnars.

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He stood at the podium and told us all that we would become cyborgs. But he spoke of abandoning the human body entirely for a robotic one.

"Doesn't he mean android?" the young man to my right asked.

"Not if he means for us to keep ourselves when we get rid of our bodies," I replied.

"What, like our souls? How does that work?"

"... If we do have souls, are they not a limb, a part of us? Maybe the only real part?"

I hate sounding so pretentious. I hate how I sound. I hate how important that is.

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According to my recent poll, no one cares that Ed McMahon died. I guess that means a majority of people who pay attention to my polls are CHILDRENZ. Or maybe that they just care more for Michael Jackson, Billy Mays, Farrah Fawcett, and most importantly... JUSTICE. I'm not sure how to feel about that. Should I feel good about that? Justice.

LA, you will see me soon. Then what's next... Toronto? God, I hope so.

Hockey is fabulous.

-J

]]> *CrushMyVelvet http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/25575557/ http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/25575557/ Fri, 26 Jun 2009 20:33:18 PDT
Oh, and I was sitting next to a really cute girl. Who had short hair and glasses and a blazer on. So that's a plus. I of course said nothing to her. I'm only 65% gay anyway...

I'm all jazzed up by the Foo Fighters. Currently. Not all of the time... But right now, yes.

SO GUESS WHAT!? We're leaving for Anime Expo 2009 IN LESS THAN A WEEK. I am going to put up a photo of my new costume before I leave so that people will know who I am running around as during the convention. I'm... Excited? I guess that's the word. I am still very stressed out about everything but I am definitely excited. I wish everything would be ready and we could leave... NOW. I crave the long drive.

Sometimes I wonder why I don't speak Portuguese.

Не говорите об этом.
Не говорите об этом.
Не говорите об этом.
Не говорите об этом.
Не говорите об этом.
Не говорите об этом.

... Pffffttttt.........

How're ya'll doin'? Sorry I've been too busy to check and reply to everything.

-J

P.S. YES, I know MJ is dead. I do know. I am aware.

]]> *CrushMyVelvet http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/25333549/ http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/25333549/ Mon, 15 Jun 2009 16:34:02 PDT
I am sorry for spamming your DA with pictures of roses. I sometimes think I am a photographer. HOW SILLY. LAWL.

Now for the life updates...

Basically I am pretty sure I now have something against trains. Then again, if someone asked me to hop on one for another long trip I have a feeling I would do it ASAP. So maybe I don't have anything against trains. But I did take one home from Olympia, which was about two hours, and then got home to Portland with a migraine and to see that my ride had locked his keys in the car. We had to wait for a locksmith while I was in agony, and then I got home and barely had time to eat before I had to get in a car to go two hours South.

Fortunately, both of the reasons I ended up two hours away from home were graduations I was very happy to attend. Before I left for the first I saw my little brother graduate as well. He'll be in High School next year. Yay Trey! The second involved a two and a half hour ride up to Shelton, WA, to see my lovely Frankie dearest graduate from high school. I am so incredibly proud of her, and when she moves to Kansas I am going to miss her immensely. The third would be seeing my BFF4LYF Maren graduate from college. She double majored, graduated with honors, and got a scholarship. Everyone I know is amazing. I swear.

And now comes the cosplay part...

I got materials for my super special cosplay for anime expo. Some of them anyway, thanks to help from Ashley of course. And I am kind of oddly excited about it. Things are going to go well, I have a feeling, and I am SO ready for LA. Getting money together is still looking like it is going to be hard, but I always do somehow, don't I? We'll see how it happens this time.

Anyway, I'm not sure I feel like revealing these cosplay plans just YET, or at least going into detail about them, but I can assure you they are amazing and if I am excited about them they are good. After all, I cosplay too often to be excited about EVERYTHING, right? ... Nah, I always am. Still, they will be good.

So will I see you there?

-J

]]> *CrushMyVelvet http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/25227087/ http://CrushMyVelvet.deviantart.com/journal/25227087/ Tue, 09 Jun 2009 23:15:07 PDT
I miss you guys.

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The simple act of smiling is based on the ability of your face to create a controlled type of tension, and yet when he smiles there is always something so relaxed and lazy about it. His eyes are usually sleepy and kind, giving those around him the impression that even when he is awake he is dreaming. When moving he is slow but not deliberate. He is a tiger with no teeth. He is nothing like her at all.

The simple act of smiling is based on the ability of your face to create a controlled type of tension, and yet for someone who often looks so tense she never seems to smile. She looks like she is constantly wary, her eyes are wide and alert. People often get the impression that she is waiting for something bad to happen. When she moves her steps are short and quick. She is a deer during hunting season. She is nothing like him at all.

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OMG why are my eyes itchy? Allergies!? WHEN DID THAT HAPPEN!? WTF!? This is an outrage. I realized almost as soon as I started typing this entry that I really have nothing to write. Ha. Ha. Haaaa. WHAT, MY NOSE IS ITCHY, TOO!? GODDAMNIT.

Trey got back from the reservation today. Tomorrow he graduates from the 8th grade and becomes a real person in high school. What is happening? How is life moving so fast? I haven't even started my bell tower children... I haven't even become a serial killer. I haven't become a killer at all! Is there still time!?

I'm pretty sure that stupid rabbit is up to no good.

-J

P.S. LOOK AT THIS:



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