http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:Crusher0508&section=today deviantART RSS for by:Crusher0508 en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Tue, 22 Dec 2009 03:26:08 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/7659145/ http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/7659145/ Fri, 20 Jan 2006 15:59:43 PST ~Crusher0508 http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/6228677/ http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/6228677/ Sun, 14 Aug 2005 20:48:40 PDT well I hope ou enjoy my 2 new poems that I Shall be submitting here very shortly after I finish this journal

well I now am single ...big shocker huh?

and I am not a glorious dishwasher and the local eat n park resturant establishment it pays $6 and hour so I Can't complain

I am still in a writers blck with the sequel to the bipolar ninja dn my other fan fic and I am way behind in my over 900 messages XD wait nic that it is 870 XD XD like that is so much better

"10,000 red roses
could never match the beauty that I see residing within your smile" :-D part of a stanza in one of my new poems


"and it's like every time I turn around I fall in love and find my heart face down where lands is where it should. this time it's like the two of us should probably start to fight cuz somethings gotta go wrong cuz I'm feeling way to damn good"

"feelin to damn good" by nickelback... that song fits me so well

well I shall sya peace to you all my peoples
oyasumi to you all
(for all those who do not know oyasumi means good night in japanese) ]]> ~Crusher0508 http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/5650078/ http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/5650078/ Tue, 14 Jun 2005 19:58:57 PDT

First off I would liek to sya it has been WAY to long since I have been here with my good friends here on DA I have been way to busy with school and starting up my myspace account and I jsut latly haven't been able to sit down and sort throught the coomments and Deviations on here and I apologize for that but I am back and I am READY TO RUMBLE MWAHAHAHA..... now you see what the life of a single man and being hyped up on my supersugar koolaid can do to a man .....someone.....thing... like me MWAHAHAHa ... ha.....well a whole lot of things have changed I am currentlyu SINGLE and loving it ....still wish I had someoento cuddle with tho that is one of the biggest thigs I miss but as of right now I might just stay single and jsut party hard I am still keepign my eyes open for good oppertuinities well my new favotrite movie is the Boondock saint sI LOVE that movie eventho they say teh F word in practically eveyr sentece sometiems more hten once in a single sentence but it truly is a great movie. antoiehr thing that has changed my new favorite band is the Lost prophets. I am still that hyper little monkey that left here a while ago I still care about you all Just as of late I haven't been able to get in touch with my poetic side in awhile not after what happened between me and MAry I got hurt really bad by it and I guess my emotions are still on the mend but over all I Am fien with life I LVOE IT ALL MWAHAHA

well anyways now I am into a group acalled the SCA it si a medieval community where there are events everyonce and awhile and you go for the enitre weekend or one even that last for 2 weeks and you are pretty much living as if you were in medival times me and my friend are into the fighitn aspect of the times so me amnd him are in medival combat which coonsists of 1 on 1 bouts along with melees which consist of teams of people which I still have to get my armor set up so I can't fight jstu yet but my gaol ist to get authentic samurai Armor and I am going to be a samurai trust me I will take a picture once I get the armor and the authrntic clothing made up so you uys cna see it but I can't wait to get my katana that will be my favortie part of the outfit...nd if you wuld like you can no address me by my SCA name ....Katsuyori ... still hav eto come up with a last name but hye it works for right nwo.......well if I left anything I will jsut right a wholenother rant but I am outy five thouaant and I am ready to crash oh and make ssure you check out my new look n the picture I shall put my Mysapce accoint URL on her later for I shall return.... I jsut hope someone actually will read all of this ;

]]> ~Crusher0508 http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/5248961/ http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/5248961/ Mon, 02 May 2005 16:48:03 PDT and I am cleaning out my messages as fast as I can so XD don't be surprised if you find comments of art work you did a year ago XD

but anyway my life has changed dramatically I am not longer dating MAry and as of right now we are on and off friends and I still have no clue why but I have tried to move on that was about amonth ago and I am not currently dating someone new... well technically not new I have dated her twice before but I just can't figure what is about her but I can't get enought of her she is weird jsut like me ^^ and she trys so hard to make me happy ^^ she is a really nice girl and I Will be trying to put a picture of her and me up ^^

well other then that UI have just been a little of a lazy person and jsut sat around the house XD lol if I think fo anything else I have been uptoo I will make sutrre to tell you alll ^^ ]]> ~Crusher0508 http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/4673359/ http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/4673359/ Fri, 25 Feb 2005 20:14:59 PST
well I just got back on the computer about an hour ago and as I have been sorting through all my messages I have realized how much all of you guys miss me and I really feel bad about that but I am here for a time to update you on my current situation right now I am currently grounded XD not that long of a story but a very stupid one XDtrustme on this one) but any ways since I have been gonealot of things have happened ^^ as some of you know I have a Girlfriend and we had the greatest time on valentines day ^^ then just about a week later on the 19th we went to out winter formal dance and had a blast ^^ I have a few pictures to put on here when I get the chance ^^
(twas our 1 month the day of the dance how about that for timing on my part )

well I right now must go for I have a friend sleeping over tonight *it';s the only reason I am getting the computer back ....I'll talk to all you guys later ^^ s to you all ^^ ]]> ~Crusher0508 http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/4400637/ http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/4400637/ Mon, 24 Jan 2005 08:03:20 PST hope you have fun ^^


[01.] Who are you?
[02.] Are we friends?
[03.] When and how did we meet?
[04.] How have I affected you?
[05.] What do you think of me?
[06.] What's the fondest memory you have of me?
[07.] How long do you think we will be friends?
[08.] Do you like me?
[09.] Would you date me?
[10.] Would you kiss me?
[11.] Would you hug me?
[12.] Physically, what stands out?
[13.] Emotionally, what stands out?
[14.] Do you wish I was cooler?
[15.] Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
[16.] Am I loveable?
[17.] How long have you known me?
[18.] Describe me in one word.
[19.] What was your first impression?
[20.] Do you still think that way about me now?
[21.] What do you think my weakness is?
[22.] Do you think I'll get married?
[23.] What makes me happy?
[24.] What makes me sad?
[25.] What reminds you of me?
[26.] If you could give me anything what would it be?
[27.] How well do you know me?
[28.] When's the last time you saw me?
[29.] Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
[30.] Are you going to put this in your journal and see what I put about you? ]]> ~Crusher0508 http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/4201011/ http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/4201011/ Fri, 31 Dec 2004 10:01:38 PST
THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:

01. Mr. Mr.

02. Mr. High IQ

03. Justina

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU'VE HAD:

01: Crusher0508

02: Crusher0508

03: and .....Curhser0508 XD

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:

01. The part of me that never wants to hurt others even if sparing tehm pain will be at the expense of myself

02. Just how I look over people to make sure they are ok.....fails alot though XD

03. my smile

THREE THINGS YOU HATE ABOUT YOURSELF:

01. when I do something for someone but I beat myself up becuase I helped a person but I didn't help as much as I felt I could even if it was near impossible for me to help anymore.....Kinda like spiderman when he saves that little girl from the burnign building but he still feels bad that he couldn't save teh other person that got caught in teh fire but if he went as spiderman *even with out his powers* he could have saved that last person....yes I know tis a good thing that I am able to help I guess it just takes time to sink in that I did something good

02. My ever changing out look on life......I used to be pesmistic and now I am optimistic but then it changes to realistic and it jsut changes so randomly and it gets me POed but I think with time my mind shall be set on one and ti will be optimism cuz if I let it become pesimistic again then I will be just giving up to easily

03. when I get into moods where I become selfish and then I dun even realize what others are doing ...what others are going through and then through ignorance hurt others.... I hate that part of me more then anything

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:

01. German (75%)

02. Dutch (25%)

03. ME!!!! lmao (100%)

THREE THINGS YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND:

01. what girls see in me XD I know what they see in me personality wise but what is it with all these girls thinkign I'm hot all of a sudden XD

02. somtime life.... but who has a solid definition f life and what it is supposed to be and become
I believe that everything happens for a reason and there are reasons behind my belief there are so many little things in my past that could have easily made me not be here today but everything just fell into place and look at me here now before you as the person that I am ^^ for this I am proud ^^

03. WHy it si so hard for the majority of people out there to accept one another for who they are and what they believe in

THREE THINGS THAT ANNOY YOU:

01. people who are judgemental so yes I annoymyself from tiem to time but I truly try my hardest not to be judgemental it's jsut those that are judgemental every day are teh ones that piss me off beyond belief

02.

03. Depression.

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:

01. ...uummmm I dun think I have fears but the things I do fear I will probably be told you shouldn't fear those things cuz they are inevitable or they are out of your control like death of others.... I am more afriad of the people I love dying then my own death but that is inevitable

02. one thing I fear is not being able to help people who are in need. especuially when I can't help them becuase at the time they needed help I was being selfish and only thinking of myself

03. and I have an initioal fear of failing someone sure I know I will be forgiven in most cases and if I';m not forgiven I wouldn't beserve to be forgivien but I just really dun want to ffail people it is one of my greatest fears ......I just hate letting other down

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:

01. a good friend to talk to

02. a smile given here and there

03. Just knowing that I have someone that is there for me when I need them

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:

01. a blanket XD

02. a black bracelet an... ]]> ~Crusher0508 http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/4125695/ http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/4125695/ Wed, 22 Dec 2004 07:52:58 PST ~Crusher0508 http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/4089103/ http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/4089103/ Fri, 17 Dec 2004 15:13:00 PST
those weeks shall be filled with fun and excitement on DA ^^
How you ask?
well I shall tell you ^^

I am submitting the prologue and the first chapter of my Story called "The End" which is a Gundam Wing Fanfic ^^ and you wonder why that name ^^ well my gundam's name (in the story of course) is Thanatos which is Latin for "end or Terminate" such a great name for gundam huh ? ^^
If you would like to see the first form of Thanatos here is a link to it [link]

I also am submitting the Sequel to my story "The Dark Past of the Bipolar Ninja" tis a great story but if you haven't read it here it is [link] You will need to read this story to know alot of what is happening in the sequel kindof a gimme huh? well the fight scenes are INSANE!!! so insane most people can't understand what they are unless I explain the fight step by step XD so many people told me I Should beocme a director XD well the sequels name is:
"The Bipolar ninja
The PAst Never Dies" ^^ man I love that title ^^

well I am submitting the first 5 chapters while I work on the next chapters ^^

also another great thing for DA shall be a great first for me I will be submitting pictures that I have drawn myself and MAN I never knew how fast I could learn how to draw XD today alone I drew 3 pictures it took me 45 mins a piece to draw 2 of them and then it took me about 3 hours to draw the best one well second best one ....bascially if any of you love Saiyuki and they love Hakkai and Dokugakuji I have a nice picture of each of the them ^^ and I am going to submit a pic of the Merciful goddess (from Saiyuki too) only problem is she is unfinished and right now she kind alooks like Micheal JAckson XD

and other then all that stuff I will have funn completeling all the make up work I have over the break XD

well I am off to spread all the joyous Christmad fun ^^ ]]> ~Crusher0508 http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/4073752/ http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/4073752/ Wed, 15 Dec 2004 13:54:26 PST I CAN DRAW !!!!!!

I am so proud of myself ^^ I have to submit the pictures today but I was able (for anySaiyuki Fans) to draw Sanzo Goku and Hakkai (haven't gotten around to Goyjo yet)

but my friend says they kick ass ^^ I started with Goku which it wasn't that bad but it left room for improvement same with Sanzo ( stupid no erasable ink) and then I drew hakkai and I almost fainted at how good it was ^^

I shall submit them later tonight if I have the time

:dances: ]]> ~Crusher0508 http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/4045777/ http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/4045777/ Sat, 11 Dec 2004 21:43:03 PST
I am keeping myeslf free of others in ways becuase I guessI just am tired of expecting things to come to me and they never do. I'm glad that I am optomistic about this and I am still happy but I am just preparingmyself so I don't get hurt down the road. I was afraid if I did this I would shut down. I would stop caring about others and only look after myself. Liek I f I did this when someone would hug me I wouldn't hug them back and I am very glad I have not gone to that extent but I have gone as far as saying I've given up on wanting things ike that becuase the more I want it the less everyone wants to give it. I jsut know that I will not rely on others nearly as much as I have in the past but I will still rely on others. I pity teh person that never needs someone else to rely one. but there are certian aspects of my life that I have let other people have care over and they never seem to do the best job of keeping thos parts of me in teh best condition. Not in anyways was these things 100% horrible but if I only let myeslf have control over these things at least I'm gaurenteeed about not getting hurt

these things I am speaking of not letting others have control of for a good period of time areMy heart and my happiness. I just realized it is stuff I don't need anymore. I don't want people to veiw me as heartless of that I have given up by me saying this but I have in a sense given up trying to have things happen to me. If people want to talk to me they can come and talk to me I'll talk to them but only if they really want to talk to me same with hugs and everyother thing everyonce and awhile I'll do things and make the first move but I feel I make the first move to often and that is why I end up getting hurt in the end

I'll no longer wait at home for someone to call or someone to ask me to hangout I will jstu go with the flow and even if I know they are going to call I won;'t wait for them . This may sound meeaan but if I'm not home when they call and they say they will call back and when they call back I'm not home well They will jsut ahve to wait for me to finish what I am doing cuz I am sick and tired of waiting for things to come and missing out on other things becuase of it. Sure if a friend of mine calls and I haven;t talked to them in awhile I am going to feel bad about not being home but I';ll just call them back when I can

I'm from now one just living my life one day at a time and not letting anything stand in my way
---

On another note I was going through our attic and I found a box full of papers so I took it out and looked through it and I found stuff from my lufe going from the past 2 months going all the way to preschool. I found the necklace my Ex-GF Kaylee gave to me I had forgotten that I gave it to my mom after she broke up woth me cuz I didn't want to have it as a reminder of the pain so I told her to do what ever she wanted with it so she kept it. I also found a picture of me and Kaylee from the first day we met in person that was a fun day we met at her house then went to the local movie theater and saw Bruce Almighty ^^ great great movie watching it now as a matter of fact ^^ well I rounded up the picture I have of Kaylee and me the necklace and the picture of me and Jessica(other Ex-GF) and other things that the Girls I ahve truly liked over the past few years and now I keep them with me. I have pitures in my wallet the necklace I have from Kaylee ( it is a black string with a heart with "Kaylee" engraved into it and I have 2 othewr necklaces and a bracelet (from the other Girls I've liked) and now I hold on to them for some many reasons mainly as a reminder of what I should do what I shouldn't do and what I should NEVER do again.

well I shall be as good as new as long as I can get a decnet sleep before my bro has to wake me up at 6 tommorrow XD wait no it will be 6 today I only have about 5 hours to sleep now XD

I'm off
But just remember
"The only way to live a good life is to act on your emotions"
-Heero Yuy from "Gundam Wing"
Very true indeed ]]> ~Crusher0508 http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/4027709/ http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/4027709/ Thu, 09 Dec 2004 14:22:54 PST ----

Don't you just love it when you got a nice little Paradox one your shoulders that sometimes you get so freaked out by trying to figure it out you practically fry your brain...well I deal with about maybe 50 paradoxs daily (no that is not an exaggeration) to me life and everything contained in life is a ever changing paradox. I go on living staying happy and I can hold great conversations with people and little do alot of people know that I am racking my brain to try and figure out some of my lovely little paradoxs that haunt me. These Paradoxs are sometimes impossible to solve and then It drives me insane but I still live a normal happy life. so basically I try my hardest to figure out these almost unsolvable problems and it drives me to insanity but It will never get so bad that I can't stop living my life even thougth someof the problems makes me wish I could just go insane so I wouldn't have to think about them. and Yes I know I could just drop them and forget about them but the fact is I would have to in a sense have to give up a part of myself if I tryed to take that way out of the paradox

To give you an example of one of my many paradoxs I shall tell you one of them:

Hugs
(By any means this is no where near the biggest paradox on my mind but becuase of it's simplicity it will be one of the easiest to explain)

Ok If you know me well enough (don't even have to know me in person to know this) I LOVE to get hugs. Hugs when I am down can lift me up and Make my day and even if I am having a great day they make my day even better. But I am not going to ask people for hugs becuase I like hugs but only when the person wants to give me the hug and if I ask for a hug some people just don't like to say no and they say oh well I guess there is no harm in a hug and they give me a hug without really wanting to give me that hug. Also I kinda feel that goodbye and hello hugs aren't exactly times when the person wants to hug me. The hugs I am talking about are the ones where a person is just happy to see you and they just one time feel like "I really want to give Justin a hug" and then just in a way out of nowhere they would give me a hug. So I don't ask people for hugs (used to but now I don't) and I will wait for people to give me hugs. Now I bet you are asking where is the paradox here? Well the paradox lies in the fact that no one ever seems to want to give me a hug. if I go this way there is a huge possiblity that I probably won't get a hug for about at least 5-6 months. It just seems ackward to me that I seemy friends giving hugs to all these other people and in my eyes I am just as good of a friend to them. But they never "want" to hug me They always seem happy and willing to give others hugs but if I ever want a hug people always seem hesitant and sometimes give me a look liek "is he serious?" How I see it is no one ever really in their mind says hey I want to give Justin a hug Becuase I haven't done it in awhile or becuae I want to give him a hug" but they seem to do it almost every day with everyone else. Another thing I noticed why alot of girls don't give me a hug and to me this excuse is completely invalid especially if they know me well enoiugh that I want them to hug me. "If I give him a hug he may think I like him." To me that is the biggest load of BS becuase of the fact when someone hugs me I take it as that you care about me and that you want to give me a hug. I am not that immature (couldn't think of a good word) I think that all becuase someone gives me a hug they like me more then a friend. I consider a hug as something friends can do. If you don't want me to think that you like me then don't hold my hand cuddle with me or kiss me cuz that I could understand why you would worry becuase I think anyone would wonder if the person likes them or not but it is just a simple hug between friends that can lift my spirits more then people will ever know.

that is one of my lovely paradoxs (there is still alot more fine details involved in that one but it would take to long to discribe them) The thing is I will try to solve this paradox as well as I can and I know it may never be solved which will suck but hey the only way it will be solved is that somehow people change their minds and they want to give me hugs more then once ever 6 months or I some how once day don't want hugs at all anymore like to the point if a person wanted to hug me and I just didn't hug them back becuase I could care less if they hugged me or not. now do you see what I mean by I would have to change part of myself to just forget it

Oh well I'll deal with these paradoxs the best I can but I think that if one day I do have to resort to changing that... ]]> ~Crusher0508 http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/3967615/ http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/3967615/ Wed, 01 Dec 2004 19:55:50 PST

Been listening to the best type of music ever created ...want to take a guess?

CELTIC MUSIC!!! IT KICKS ALL ASS

it makes me want to dance so friggin much even now XD

and If you haven't noticed by one of the poems I just submitted I am in the christmas spirit already ^^ I just went out the otherday and bought the nex Trans-Siberian Orchestra CD ^^ tis great music ^^

YAWNS!!!! I'm tired off to bed and then off to school oh boy how fun ]]> ~Crusher0508 http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/3747151/ http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/3747151/ Wed, 03 Nov 2004 19:31:31 PST didn't do so hot the first quarter but I am turning over a new leaf (with my new found optomisim intact ^^) life is great and filled with hyperness too well I still haven;t watched all of the Gundam Wing DVD's I have gotten still must see all of Endless Waltz ^^ off to write more poems ^^ and answere my 525 messages XD oh I have liek 5 poem I have finished just never typed so I shall get to them ASAP

ttyl loyakl fans of mine ^^ ]]> ~Crusher0508 http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/3653919/ http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/3653919/ Sat, 23 Oct 2004 07:03:23 PDT
Last night I had this whole journal planned to talk about but now my mind is completely blank. I'm sorry for such teh short journal but I am really busy right now dealing with a whole lot of homework and the other problems I need to get through(or at least help others get through) ]]> ~Crusher0508 http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/3596810/ http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/3596810/ Fri, 15 Oct 2004 14:27:32 PDT
-- THE SHOES YOU WORE TODAY:Nike's ^^
-- YOUR EYES:Light blue mixed with a little bit of light grey
-- YOUR WEAKNESS: Hugs (if you want to find a definate way to get me to be your friend giving me a hug is a GREAT start)
-- YOUR FEARS: Death of loved ones ^^ every one has that fear don't they
-- ONE THING YOU'D LIKE TO ACHIEVE: Find the right person for me
-----------------WHAT IS------------------

-- YOUR THOUGHTS FIRST WAKING UP: I don't want to get up
-- THE FIRST FEATURE YOU NOTICE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX: Eye's adn their smile( the only problem is tha tI never really focus on their Eye color I just focus on their eyes themselves )
-- THE FIRST FEATURE YOU NOTICE IN THE SAME SEX: don;t really know
-- YOUR BEST PHYSICAL FEATURE: EYES!!!!
-- YOUR BEDTIME: never a consistant time
-- YOUR GREATEST ACCOMPLISHMENT: Kept my great friends
-- YOUR MOST MISSED MEMORY: Ignorance

-----------------YOU PREFER------------------

-- PEPSI OR COKE: Coke
-- MCDONALD'S OR BURGER KING: Burger King
-- SINGLE OR GROUP DATES: Single
-- ADIDAS OR NIKE: Nike
-- CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA: Chocolate
-- CAPPUCCINO OR COFFEE: NEITHER
-----------------DO YOU------------------

-- SMOKE: no
-- CUSS: sometimes but rarely
-- TAKE A SHOWER EVERYDAY: yes unless i'm lazy
-- HAVE A CRUSH(ES): a few ^^
-- WHO ARE THEY: if you weant to know I shall tell you but through a note
-- DO YOU THINK YOU'VE BEEN IN LOVE? Yes
-- WANT TO GO TO COLLEGE: yes
-- LIKE HIGH SCHOOL: the friends aspect of it
-- WANT TO GET MARRIED: if I find the right person yes
-- TYPE WITH YOUR FINGERS ON THE RIGHT KEYS: i think lol
-- GET MOTION SICKNESS: not really
-- THINK YOU'RE ATTRACTIVE: I know that I am not teh most attractive person in the world but I'm fine with what I am and I am cute
-- THINK YOU'RE A HEALTH FREAK: Not at all but my friend Ryan is ^^
-- GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS: my mom but not my dad
-- LIKE THUNDERSTORMS: YES!! COME ON I LIKE TO RUN AROUND IN THEM
-- PLAY AN INSTRUMENT: STRING BASS!!!!!!

------------IN THE PAST MONTH DID:/:HAVE YOU--------------

-- DRANK ALCOHOL: never
-- SMOKE(D):never
-- DONE A DRUG: never
-- HAVE SEX: nope
-- MADE OUT:nope
-- GO ON A DATE: nope
-- GO TO THE MALL: nope
-- EATEN SUSHI: no
-- BEEN ON STAGE: nope
-- BEEN DUMPED: nope
-- GONE SKATING: nope
-- MADE HOMEMADE COOKIES: no
-- BEEN IN LOVE: yes
-- DYED YOUR HAIR: yes
-- STOLEN ANYTHING: nope

-----------------HAVE YOU EVER------------------

-- FLOWN ON A PLANE: yeah
-- MISSED SCHOOL BECAUSE IT WAS RAINING?: no
-- TOLD A GUY/GIRL THAT YOU LIKED THEM?: yes .....uuummm... a few Girls on here are some of those girls
-- CRIED DURING A MOVIE?: yes.........during.....The....Rugrats movie
-- EVER THOUGHT AN ANIMATED CHARACTER WAS HOT?: I think yes but I think Cloud Just kicks all ass
-- HAD AN IMAGINARY FRIEND:yup now thos friends are teh voices in my head
-- BEEN ON STAGE?: yes.
-- CUT YOUR HAIR: yeah
-- HAD CRUSH ON A TEACHER?: yeah once
-- PLAYED A GAME THAT REQUIRED REMOVAL OF CLOTHING: yeah ....Strip hide and go seek and Truth or DAre
-- BEEN TRASHED OR EXTREMELY INTOXICATED: nope
-- BEEN CAUGHT "DOING SOMETHING": not that I know of edxcept once I was Sweating like mad at my ex-GF house and I took my shirt off so I could cool down and her Father came upstairs adn saw me sitting there with my shirt off ^^ he was PISSED
-- BEEN CALLED A TEASE: no
-- GOTTEN BEATEN UP? : no
-- BEEN IN A FIGHT: Yup
-- SHOPLIFTED: nope.

-----------------THE FUTURE------------------

-- AGE YOU HOPE TO BE MARRIED: Depending on when I find the one for me ....maybe around 27-28 maybe even 30 http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/3567055/ Mon, 11 Oct 2004 16:46:51 PDT so I am not responsible for it's contents

o - yes
x - no
~ - depends

Would you ever....

() worry about me if you notice I'm sad?
() go out with me?
() give me your number?
() let me kiss you?
() watch a movie with me... even a really sappy one?
() let me take you out to dinner?
() drive me somewhere/anywhere?
() take a shower with me?
() let me draw something for you?
() draw something for me?
() be my gf/bf?
() have a fling with me?
() visit me if you come to my city?
() listen to me if I called you crying even if you were out with all of your friends?
() buy me a strawberry milkshake if i didn't have money?
() take me home for the night?
() let me sleep in your bed?
() sing car karaoke with me?
() sit in the doctors office with me because I didn't want to go alone?
() re-post this for me to answer your questions?
() let me give you a piggyback ride?
() have sex with me?
() come pick me up at 3 am because my car ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere?
() give me your mail address to be penpals?
() be scared to talk to me?

having fun yet ^^ ]]> ~Crusher0508 http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/3558956/ http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/3558956/ Sun, 10 Oct 2004 16:58:58 PDT ~Crusher0508 http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/3542069/ http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/3542069/ Fri, 08 Oct 2004 12:20:19 PDT

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side thoughts: it si so fun to mess with my music I can change the speeds of the songs I listen to from normalto 1.4x, 2x, and 5x

also I have found a new song that can be used for DDR do any of you remember "Mortal Kombat" well if you answered yes do you remember their theme song pretty much increase the speed by 1.4x and it may not be impossible or that hard to learn the steps for some veteren DDR players (not me) but Damn will it give you a work out ]]> ~Crusher0508 http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/3537037/ http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/3537037/ Thu, 07 Oct 2004 18:33:39 PDT
but I do thank you for the kind words that you gave me and I may not reply to those words but just know they were and still are veyr important to me


on another note I may be getting back together with my GF seeing as my emotions in the past weeks have been thrown into a blender. and when I broke up with Jessica I had been telling myself a lie that I only liked her as a friend and right now it is up in the ir if we will get back together ad if she wants to go back out I will be happy if not I will understand cuz I really feel that I would be very lucky if she did give me a second chance, but we will be friends no matter what she decides. Well now that the emotional tornado has died down I will finally be able to rebuild my life and get back to how it used to be or at least as close as it can be with some of the main parts of my life lost away forever. but I will work with what I have and create new main parts.

so back to my life outside of emotions (is a VERY much happier and zany world ) recently I have found out I can give a very mean massage I've given a massage to 4 of my friends (one of them was even a guy) and even he said I was good and it so I really now have no one to give a massage to but I guess that must be something I should only do for people who really need to be stress relieved just call me and be prepared to to be relieved of alot of stress my. services are free you just have to pay shipping and handling which differs from how far you live from me

I just got my Homecoming pictures developed so I shall be putting them up here on DA shortly oh and just note me or ask me and I will tell you about the dance. it was fun I can tell you that (I may have been a little naughty with a person you may not have thought of or in other words a gender of person you may not have thought of ) oh and be ware some of my pictures I look drunk in a few

also I will be submitting a few poems I haven't had the chance to put up yet there is One I created awhile agoa called "Fade Away", and then a poem I wrote for my ex-GF called " Thsi Special Moment with you" and one I wrote recently is "Next to Me" don't think they are my best works but They are still art

OH I haven't done this for awhile but I have another line that mya inspire others for poetry and just to let you guys know when I put these lines up it si becuase I can't get inspiration from these lines but I put them up because If they can inspire some one else then I have helped soem one the new lines are

"from the burning flames down within
what has caused me to commit this sin

previous inspiration lines:

"on this lonly moonless night
The stars will shine forever bright"'

well I have a 3 day weekend from school so I shall have plenty of tiem to answer teh comments I have no I have 250 comments I'm digging myself a hole I can't get out of

Deviant ~Crusher0508 has 390 message centre items ( 56D, 2M, 250C... ]]> ~Crusher0508 http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/3422224/ http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/3422224/ Wed, 22 Sep 2004 14:43:12 PDT ) and also the thing I am the most excited about . Homecoming is coming up and I just can't wait any longer. I jsut want to go and spend the endless tiem of dancing with Jessica (my GF) those 4 hours feel liek an eternity that I will never want to end. I have even wrote a poem about how I imagine Homecoming to be liek with her and me. I actually have completed 2 poems and working on a 3rd one and none of them I have had the chance to put on DA

but I will try when I have time to but I just really can't wait until homecoming

Oh this week is spirit week and every day is a different theme for getting dressed up monday was favorite sports team. yesterday was favorite celebrity( I seriously thought that almost the entire girl population at the school would have dressed up as Johnny Depp well today was prince and princess day adn Jessica got dressed up adn so did alot of peopleGirls and guys alike but I did not see a single prince even the guys were princesses then at lunch today my friend Tara wrote on my hand (and yes I agree for her to put this) that I was her Princess I am jsut weird I guess but then on the other hand she wrote "jessica's Prince" so it si all good well I am off to go to our schools bonfire tonight I can't wait I love fire me beign a pyro and all

oh and I promise I will submit pictures of the dance as soon as I get them but I first must take them

talk to you guys later

s and s to all of you and don't forget a

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Deviant *Crusher0508 has 200 message centre items

just take a wild guess why that is so special

Deviant *Crusher0508 has 200 message centre items ( 200C ) | I will have fun this weekend

oh well on to other things

my hyperness hasn't subsided it has only been amplifed every single day I get happier and even more hyper at thsi rait I may explode and instead of guts flyingout of me it will be smily faced candy with 1000% more sugar then normal candy

some people would argue having a Relationship in school is a bad thing becuase they will not stay focused on there work and they woudl fail well they are 1 for 2. I sometimes can't focus cuz I am in the middle of a though and then out fo no where and image of her face appears in my mind. But the failing part is not true I get all my work done (well now I do I had to get used to the school system again

Oh I can't remember anyother thing I can mention besides now my work scheldule goes back to normal of 6 days a week but oh well it isn't a job tha tI get so excited to go to but I won't ever quit from hating it. plus I get paid

my good friend *blackwidow-vash I stole this quiz off of her journal

1- Letters in your name (first, middle, last): 15

2 - Greatest fears/phobias, not counting loss: Really the only thing would say I deepoly fear is loss of a friend or some one I care about so I guess I have no answer for this ? I just guess I don't even fear my own death it is the death of others

3- The longest time you've spent in a car with someone you didn't like: 4

4- How old you were the last time you had to be baby-sat: 11

5- Anime or American cartoons: ANIME KICKS ASS really the only thing tha tcan beat it is the original episodes of the X-MEN

6- If maniacal laughter really is the best medicine: then I am one of the healthiest people ALIVE

7- What's sitting on your computer monitor: nothin

8- The stuffed animals you sleep with (spouses don't count): I used to sleep with my stuffed Cookie monster(sesame street) and now the only think I hold onto is my body pillow it si so SOFT

9- The last thing to be eaten: OH people will hate me tommorrow, but some baked beans, with onions and deer meat mixed in but I have no regrets cuz it was GOOD!!!!

10- Any birthmarks?: not tha tI know of

11- Hand-draw or with the mouse: I can't do both or crap

12- Your ideal dessert (and throw caution to the wind on this one): HHHHMMMMMMMMM just give me aa huge buffet of un healthy foods and I will come up with some thing

13- The closest you've come to kicking the can: when I almosted choked on a hot dog when I was about 8

14- What the whole world REALLY revolves around: War

15- Waiting for school to start again?: it has already started adn now I love it

16- The longest phone conversation you've ever had: 5 hours

17- Do y... ]]> ~Crusher0508 http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/3264684/ http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/3264684/ Wed, 01 Sep 2004 16:51:55 PDT
You have benen warned

MWAHAHAHAHAHAHA OK I'll stop

well I have been grounded off the computer for teh past 2 days becuase I stayed on teh computer to late a couple nights ago

well teh other Day I got my hair cut and got some of my hair dye red but I had to washi it out the next day but I shall submit pictures (if I feel like it )

I have completed a poem a few days ago but I have never had teh cchance to tyoe it outy but I know I will get it up ......sometime

well in otehr news School does not Suck any more It's funny I feel that way teh first day they give us homework mmost of my teachers are great and there is kindof another thing I look forward to every day............I Justin Ryan Borer has a Girlfriend I am very shocked about that myself it just set in today that I really have a GF . one thing I am wonderign now is what will become of my fan club now that people know I am taken

oh well the past few days iof school have been hectic considering the fact that I Have to do my class work while I am well into writing the sequeal to my Story "The Bipolar Ninja"

well I will leave you now so I can sort through 240 message centre items ( 19D, 5M, 185C, 31J ) Wish me luck and if you guys ever need myhelp no matter how big or small just ask me it will mbe no problem at all

]]> ~Crusher0508 http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/3230449/ http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/3230449/ Sat, 28 Aug 2004 08:06:02 PDT
You have benen warned

OH well School still sucks but I am fire with it and I right now don';t care if anyof my friends talk to m I go to school to get an eduacation dn I can get my social life with all of you when I come back online to read my 163 messages ( 4M, 159C )

OMG I cut MYSELF WITH MY PLASTIC COMB I am so weird I can't believe I did that I was just hamelessly stroking the teeth back and forth on my thumb and then my thumb started to bleed

ok to my music for the moment I have had their CD for a month or 2 now and I just recently listned to it all and I love this song "I WAKE UP SCREAMING AND IT'S all becuase of you" I scream that line alot

I must I must do it I have to COnvince my mom ot let me have a katana I want oen SO BAD but she won't let me have one If I can give her a decent reason for her to let me have it she will let me becuase I will be paying for it with my first Paycheck I am very proud fo myself cuz when my boss handed me my check I almost faintd cuz of the fact that it was the largest sum of money I had actually earned any other tiem it is just B-Day or Christmas money I hope I can convince herbefore my next paycheck becasue I still need a little more money before I can actually have enough to buy one.'

OHOHOH I have startd to write the sequel to my Story "The Dark past of the Bipolar Ninja" and I have so many ideas for the story and it's name is The Bipolar Ninja "The Past Never Dies" his dark past will forever follow him but come on he has been trained in the at of the ninja since he was strong enough to hold a katana which you shall see or at least read about his skills as a fighter and my skills at writing fight scenes I hope I don't confuse peopel with teh fight scenes but they are so cool THey remind em alot fo the Matrix and kill bill. Oh adn if my good friend Erika will let me I am includeing one of her stories characters (Sarah) from her story "Crimson Shadow" oh and speaking for Erika I am currently reading her Fanfic Dueling Angels It is a VERY VERY VERY GOOD story

OH I have written a poem recently and I am so happy abotu it cuz I haven't written one in awhile I ewill have it submitted soon.

I can't believe how much I shock people you would be suprised at how many people are shocked by who I am
Like the fact that I love without question , I will never turn my back on anyone who needs my help, If someone has a problem no matter hwo big or small I will try my best to help them and even if I know they won't even attempt to pay me back with any form of kidness in return even if they won't say a simple thank you I will still help them, You wouldn't believe how many people are shcoked by me .....mostly adul;ts maybe it si jstu the fact that I am such a caring person I don't know Oh well I must be out of teh or... ]]> ~Crusher0508 http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/3195277/ http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/3195277/ Mon, 23 Aug 2004 12:34:58 PDT
don't expect any poems from me cuz I will be to busy and plus when I become a loner I really don't have any emotions so ttyl

]]> ~Crusher0508 http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/3178159/ http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/3178159/ Sat, 21 Aug 2004 06:34:59 PDT s to you all don't ask me why you get hugs I just have very big random bursts of emotion when I am happy

Well School its starting tuesday for me but I shall be embracing it with open arms and whey who knows I may get ahould of a computer adn come on and talk to you guy

well I shall be submitting my pics of a sunset and sunrise (VERY BEAUTIFUL well some of them at least)

OH 2 new things in my life one will linit my tiem on the computer and one tha tI am happy about in my life
well I have a job and tha twill limit my time on DA . I work at a pizza place near my house and I have lots o fun making dough and shreading cheese time flies there

and the other thing is I feel like I am a different person now I have a different out look that I didn't even know that my outlook could change that fast
I feel that I shouoldn't worry abotu things I have no control over and so far in abotu a 3 days time that has reduced a MAJOR amount of stress I had been having also I feel liek I am just happy with myself for who I am. I know I am not the hottst or cutest person in the world but I am happy whith what I look like and who I am. I know that really the only thing I am better then others is that I am better at beign myself and I wouldn't have it any other way.

oh I had an Idea while I was gone. I keep on having small poetic moents in every day life but I can never follow through on creating a poem so in almost every journal I will put a poetic moment I thought of and if any of you who read it get inspiration to write a poem from that line or even include the lines in a poem jsut tell em and I will bwe glad to read it and the fac tI inspired people

well that line for today will be brought to me from a cludless adn moonless night we had here awhile ago

"on this lonly moonless night
The stars will shine forever bright" I wish I coudl turn that inot a poem but I can't get the inspiration from it

well I will be answering all 159 of the messages that is left over from the 248 I sorted throught last night

ttyl all my loyal fans

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Deviant *Crusher0508 has 126 new messages ( 126C )

I am so proud of myself cuz out of all teh things in messages my favorite thing going throught is my comments well it is only secod to answeirn notes

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ok I will talk to you guys later when I am ungrounded from the computer but right now I still have a day and a half to sort thhrought all of my messages
Deviant *Crusher0508 has 206 new messages ( 97C | 56D | 52J | 1N ) WISH ME LUCK

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]]> ~Crusher0508 http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/3098596/ http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/3098596/ Wed, 11 Aug 2004 10:08:35 PDT
What hav I done for you? how Have Impacted your life? Is there anything about me you partcularly like or dislike? please just tell me I won't be hurt I will be happy byu anythiong you have to say

please tell me and be very discriptive I will be happy if you rant about me


Right now I am tryiung my hardest tobe more self confident and I bet someof you would liek that cuz I alwauys complain I am not cute and you alwayds fight with me. well that Justin will soon be out of here and I hope oit is for the better

please respond to my ? and I will gladly take any advice

I love all of you becuase you are all such great friends to me

MY FRIENDS AND SAVIORS AND CLUBS
[link]

my chatroom I created for all of you friends of mine so tha tyou can talk to each other cuz I think all of you nice people should get to know each other
[link] ]]> ~Crusher0508 http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/3082612/ http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/3082612/ Tue, 10 Aug 2004 08:19:01 PDT Raining-Love and ~Rykuu for calming me down yesterday I had to get my thoughts straight and and they helped me stay happy until it was worked out so I think yoy s to you

OMG I had a blast and Whilke I was there I went on 3 new rides teh I neve ne3ver been on before I amvery proud of my self. also I got PLENTY of pictures of the sunstet and I sat out on the beach at 6 AM just to wait and watch the sunrise for the FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE I have to say I really like sun rises

but DEAR GOD does walking around all day and waking up so early ccn exhaust you but I have a more exhuating task ahead of me READING ALL OF MY MESSAGES

Deviant *Crusher0508 has 223 new messages ( 4M | 106C | 64D | 45J | 4N ) at least I know I am loved

well I will answer all of yours srtuff as soon as possbible

MY FRIENDS AND SAVIORS AND CLUBS
[link] ]]> ~Crusher0508 http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/3060406/ http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/3060406/ Fri, 06 Aug 2004 19:29:59 PDT Raining-Love and ~Rykuu for calming me down yesterday I had to get my thoughts straight and and they helped me stay happy until it was worked out so I think yoy s to you

well I am going to be goen from DA and AIM for the next 3 dayscuz I will be busy HAVEING fun at CEDAR POINT "america's rollercoast" XD

but I shall miss all of you and people I love getting messages from you but my record for most messages keeps on climbing

Deviant *Crusher0508 has 174 new messages ( 2M | 104C | 40D | 27J | 1P )

I don't have the time right nw but I shall ge ththougth thenm ...... eventually

but I shall really miss you all I wsh all of you could be there with me but I shall be back soon I hoep you guys don't forget abou tme

ttyl my homies
Peace out

]]> ~Crusher0508 http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/3053954/ http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/3053954/ Thu, 05 Aug 2004 23:19:08 PDT Raining-Love and ~Rykuu for calming me down yesterday I had to get my thoughts straight and and they helped me stay happy until it was worked out so I think yoy s to you

well right now I must do the great task of sifting thorugth my messages XD and I know I have soem lost convos with people in ther somewhere cuz scheck out what hte majority of my messages are

Deviant *Crusher0508 has 151 new messages
( 1M | 100C | 25D | 23J | 2N )

well I will get back to all you as soon as possible sorry for the delay I have been busy sorting out things in my life sorry fo rthe wait

]]> ~Crusher0508 http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/3048706/ http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/3048706/ Thu, 05 Aug 2004 11:13:52 PDT Raining-Love and ~Rykuu for calming me down yesterday I had to get my thoughts straight and and they helped me stay happy until it was worked out so I think yoy s to you

well I put my stats on Here awhile ago bu tI wanted top post new ones and for onlyt being 5 weeks ago I would have to sya they have improved


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]]> ~Crusher0508 http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/3043163/ http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/3043163/ Wed, 04 Aug 2004 16:22:13 PDT
But if I try to make sense of this mess I'm in
I'm not sure where I should begin
I'm fallin'
I'm fallin'

Now I'm in over my head
with something I said
Completely misread
I'm better off dead

But if I had to say goodbye to leave this hell
I'd say my time has served me well
I'm fallin'
I'm fallin'

This came long before
Those who suffer more
I'm too awake for this to be a nightmare

Who said it was easy to put back all these pieces
Who said it was so easy to put back all of these pieces


Over my head
Better off dead

Sorry you guys for not reponding to any of you comments latly bu tI have been swamped and I will tr to answer them as soon as possible but I have no clue when that will be ]]> ~Crusher0508 http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/3013139/ http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/3013139/ Sat, 31 Jul 2004 18:23:44 PDT
why does it hate me

]]> ~Crusher0508 http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/3011736/ http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/3011736/ Sat, 31 Jul 2004 14:20:05 PDT Finally AIM is working for me again so I am so happy so anyone at anytime IM I will be happy to talk

]]> ~Crusher0508 http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/2998059/ http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/2998059/ Tue, 07 Dec 2004 13:36:29 PST (I find it quite comedic that both of my saviors are older then me but most of my friends on DA are olderthen me so it really is no surprise

My Savior here at home is my Best friend
Mary
I kinda reluctantly deleated her section on this journal because a a disagreement and I thought we wouldn't talk again so I am putting this one back up well we have realizd there is no way on this entire earth that we could hate eachother it isn;t in outr hearts to hate one another . and I think tha tis what makes us so close . shje has shown me the light known as happiness by being there for me . I have actually written IO think 4 poems now for her and also been inspired by something she did or indirectly helped with about 3 other poems of mine and a story I am writing . well she has been the center of my life for almost the past 9 months now and we are actually writing a story together ^^ can't wait till we finish even thought I kinda already know the half the story in my head for I was the one going throught it ^^ (confused aren't you ) well I am glad to have Mary as my friend and I will stay her friend forever

One of my Savior is My friend
Jace
ME and him I would say could quite possible be emotional twins we seem to have every emotion and thought that the other has about love and alot of stuff about life . when one of us is down about something most of the time the othre haseen thorught tha tsituation before. like me and him have had PLENTY of girl that we like and they not like us back. we both know the ups and downs of heartbreak and sadness from it but when sadness comes in He has been there to be more like a olderbrother then a friend to me and I thnak him for tha t. when ever IU have a problem that needs fixing he knows how to fix it. an dI hope I help him when he is down as much as he helps me. I thank you Jace and I hope we will always be friends

MY OTHER GREAT FRIENDS (alphabatized)

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Mood: I am waiting for something big to happen I don't know wha tit is but I just have this weird feeling. I AM REALLY hoping that it is a good big thing

well I think tha tthanks to one of my friends ~blackwidow-vash journals I have finally found a song that kinda explains my feelings right now about love
heres the link [link]
I cried when I saw this and heard it and I am still listening to it now
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Like I said in my header I seriously have this feeling like some thing big is going to happen soon in my life but I kinda want to be prepared for it fi it si going to be bad but I also don't want to get worked up if my feeling is really just that, a feeling.

I am VERY happy right now but I have sometimes where I need to take times an djust sort things out in my mind stuff about life and love (funny cuz they are the biggest things I could possibly be sorting out

well nothing really is new in my life so I hope that everyone is doing fine and having a great time with their lives

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Club I have been in becuase I love the show

And a club I am in cuz I love to help my friends and anyone who ids upset

JOIN OUR CLUB the Wolf and tiger fan club please join if you love tigers or wolves


OR if admiring me is more of you thing maybe you could join my fanclub yes I was shocked to bu tI have a fanclub made up about me and it was created by my great friend ~Raining-Love
and she is getting kinda discouraged about the club becuase only 1 person has joined well here is the link [link] ]]> ~Crusher0508 http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/2974897/ http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/2974897/ Mon, 26 Jul 2004 19:09:59 PDT

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Well I would like to thank you all for your woreds of comfort but The fear was resolved shortly after I posted this journal Us three hung out and everythiung went fine and it was so much fun

I still kinda feel really stupid about the whole thing about thinking Mary would do that to me. I am SORRY Mary can you forgive me

well this is a short journal becuase I have to go and read the 123 MESSAGES I HAVE GOOTEN TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!

so irt may be awhile for me to get to ther earlier messages so be calm I will resond as fast as I can

TTYL myt Good friends s to you all

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Club I have been in becuase I love the show

And a club I am in cuz I love to help my friends and anyone who ids upset

JOIN OUR CLUB the Wolf and tiger fan club please join if you love tigers or wolves


OR if admiring me is more of you thing maybe you could join my fanclub yes I was shocked to bu tI have a fanclub made up about me and it was created by my great friend ~Raining-Love
and she is getting kinda discouraged about the club becuase only 1 person has joined well here is the link [link] ]]> ~Crusher0508 http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/2959302/ http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/2959302/ Sat, 24 Jul 2004 19:22:42 PDT

POTC soundtrack KICKS ASS. and I love the music so much plus I am in such a pirety mood
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well another reminder from the past had appeared today and this part fo my past hasn't gone away

I have never been sure of my self when compared to others one of hte reasons is cuz I have NEVER been on the top of someones friends list and I seem to be just the person who comes around to cheer people up and alot of peopel take it for granted well it also comes to things when I feel like I am really close to some one that they will like others more then me which will hurt so much in the end . for example When I used to go out with my ex-GF (and only GF) Kaylee. She only had come over my house once when the rest of the times I went over her house. but the first time she did come over I was so worried about so many things. would my friends act like idiots when she saw them , would my friends accept her but the biggest worry was what would happen if I introduce her to my friends who every one likes and she starts to like them more then me . Thank god only my friend John came over and he kinda acted like a Jerk but in the end he was really nice about her being over.

But recently my coplex has surfaced agian. One of my best friends Ryan he wants to finally get to formally meet my other Best friend Mary. My worries again came around I started to worry about that maybe she will like him more then me and that is a thought that I never want to think of . Sure I really want Ryan and Mary, 2 of my 4 best friends to finally be able to formally meet and I won't stop it from happening but I still can't cover up my worrying And I feel bad about worrying but I just can't help it. I have always been the odd one out and I don't want to be hanging out with Mary and Ryan and me suddenly become the 3rd wheel who doesn't fit in

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And a club I am in cuz I love to help my friends and anyone who ids upset

JOIN OUR CLUB the Wolf and tiger fan club please join if you love tigers or wolves


OR if admiring me is more of you thing maybe you could join my fanclub yes I was shocked to bu tI have a fanclub made up about me and it was created by my great friend ~Raining-Love
and she is getting kinda discouraged about the club becuase only 1 person has joined well here is the link http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/2952788/ Fri, 23 Jul 2004 20:43:58 PDT

OK I will tell you all this now that this is not a sad Journal it is a vERY reflective one

POTC soundtrack KICKS ASS. and I love the music so much plus I am in such a pirety mood
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Well Today I went to a Cleveland Indians Baseball game and they won agaisnt the KC royals 3-2 in the 11th inning but that is kinda irrelevant to the story.

well before I went to the game I took a look in the mirror to see if my hair was messed up but when I looked at the face staring back at me I didn't recognize him. It is hard to explain but I guess it has been awhile since I really took a good look in the mirror and I guess I was kinda shocked at the person that was staring back at me. My mind flashed back to about 7th grade when it was probably the last time I had looked really good at myself in the mirror, Well when I was in 7th grade I started to gain weight and I know I know I wasn't THAT heavy but to me I was getting worried. Back then I weighted about 150 and I had NO muscle what so ever. When I flexed my arms my arms didn't change shape at all and I had some SERIOUS rolls. and on the inside I was extremely insecure I barly had any friends I thought I would grow up alone and there was no one out there who even gave the slightest care that I existed but then when I looked into the mirror today I noticed a more mature person who was alot more serious about life also I could tell that I was more confident then I was before. I Know now that there are people that care for me and even thought I am still kinda skeptical about me finding the right person for me I beleive I have at least a chance of finding someone now. and also thanks to swimming and Wreastleing when I looked at me now I am now a nice 5'7", 135 lbs with nice toned muscles and only get rolls when I slouch (which I do alot ) but I feel that I must give thanks to everyone I have incountered from that point on. (even all of you guys here on DA you know I love you ) and I thnak you for having helped Helped me on my way even the idiots that made fun of me I thank because they gave me a goal to become better then them and rise above their pety insults. But really I Beleive that none of my change would nearly be as Drastic of a change if it weren't for my friend Mary or as others know her as ~saiyukifreak but if it weren't for her support ,help and friendship throught this past year I would probably be the same kid Inside that I saw in that mirror 3 years ago. and Mary I truly thank you for that

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OR if admiring me is more of you thing maybe you could join my fanclub yes I was shocked to bu tI have a fanclub made up about me http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/2936323/ Thu, 22 Jul 2004 15:32:03 PDT

THIS IS A LONG JOURNAL BUT A VERY VERY VERY FUNNY ONE

POTC soundtrack KICKS ASS. and I love the music so much plus I am in such a pirety mood and also a FF7/FFX mood and you shall read why
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Dear god has today been HALARIOUS. ok I stayed home most of the day and watched some of the funniest episodes of Saiyuki yet then I was waiting for my friend Mary to call cuz she said that we could hangout today. I waited but then I found out she was going swimming but I couldn't go cuz I didn't have money so I waited but then My friend Ryan came over and we talked and ATE food like madmen then while he was over Mary finally called but I couldn't come into her house until her dad got home so we talked waiting for him to get home but then Mary says that maybe I could "aimlessly" stop by and then talk outside while we'd wait for him. Me and my friend Ryan rode past his house and he left me sp then I went on to Mary's house

Then I finally got there and we went to the library to get some videos to watch and some very interesting books. then we got back to her house and Mary our friend Jessie (sorry if I spelled it wrong ) and me started listneing to Disney music that was fun when we sang Zippity-Do-Da-Zippitya I was the Bass singer well after that we watched Jeoperdy and since I was talking Jessie hit me lightly on the head with the hardback books she was holding but then I told her that don't mind and I actually told her to hit me as HARD as she could on the head with those book. She finally did after incenst times me saying I didn't care I had a hard head. Well the look on Mary's face was priceless when she heard the noise it made against my skull. It didn't hurt the slightest bit and Mary was shocked cuz she said that her head hurt just from seeing that happen to me well then after that finally made our way into her basement gameroom and we played FFX but then while I was playing they got the Idea to braid my hair and I said I don't mind.......They did it and it looked so halarious and then with the braid still in they gave me a puff of hair on my head that looked like Pebbles from the Flintstones. Then I got another braid but tha twas noting to what is to come MWAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

well I took the braids out and then they asked if they could straighten my hair and I actually wanted to see what I would look like so they did it and they said I looked so much like a surfer guy and Mary said I looked Sexy but during this whole thing I don't think they could stop petting my hair cuz of how soft they said it was . well then I wanted them to spike it. well lets just say they spiked it alright............ basically think of a Realistic version haircut of Tidus from FFX dear god they thought I looked sexy which I thought was kinda funny. But I reeally liked it .and then Mary said she could make me a Tidus costume and I would be set for halloween http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/2922037/ Mon, 19 Jul 2004 20:59:02 PDT

also I plan on in all of my journals to have a link for anyone who is interested in knowing the lyrics to my song of the moment
I know alot of people have heard of Creed bu tall I knwo is tha tthere music is so reflective for me I listen to it almost every day here are the lyrics [link]
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Well thanks to the quick responses from my frined I am again ok (soryr guys for getting sad on a moments notice sometimes ) I love having all of you guys as my frineds cuz I knwo that I can depend on you guys to be there for me s to you all.

well since latly I have been noticing alot of my friends alos have been sad but for better reasons then my own well just to let all my friends out there know and for those who already know this will be a reminder. If anyone of you needs a shoulder to cry on or someone to talk to justr remember I am here for all of you no matter what it may be for I will try my best to help you through your situation. I never like to be happy when my friends are sad. sometimes I feel like that is my problem someitmes that I will put everything on hold no matter what it is just to help a friend or a loved one. but I don't see me living my life anyother way besides that

WhenI have bad moods following right after I have my VERY reflective and meaningful periods of time and I really look at everthing from kin of a stand still persopective. well for me weightlifting really enhances my calmness and I went today with my friend. I just lift and as I do I just have thoughts running throught my head but they are more orderly then normal and I sometimes just liek ot listen to my breathing as I slowly do my reps on the weights it is actually very soothing for me.


Well I just thought of a saying tha tI shall be following forever now

"Anticipate Noting, but be prepared for everything"

because there are somany uncertianties in life and I seem to think tha teverything will turn out the way they should but the RARLY do. bu talso there is the rare occasion where stuff like that does happen so for me I will not anticapte anything to come my way but I will be openminded enough to notice when one of those rare moments comes my way and I will embrace it with open arms

well thanks to my firned here in PARMA and all of you great people here on DA have made this Summer so far the best summer I have ever had and I can't wait to see this summer to it's end with all of you beside me

s and s to you all.

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JOIN OUR CLUB the Wolf and tigedr fan club please join if you love tigers or wolves
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also I plan on in all of my journals to have a link for anyone who is interested in knowing the lyrics to my song of the moment yet right now you may know better what I feel like if you read this weeks lyrics [link]
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JOIN OUR CLUB the Wolf and tigedr fan club please join if you love tigers or wolves
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Just to get you guys to want it even more I have to tell you the truth I actually cried a couple times while reading this
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OK I HAD A HECTIC DAY TODAY.

Ok my one friend MARY was going swimming today and I asked if I could go along she said sure. so I waited by the phone (at the computer talking on DA) untill she called which was about 2:00 PM and then the night before my mom gave me the money to go swimming earlier and I put them in my pants pocket ok then she finally called and then I ran into my room changed into my swimsuit and then I got some stuff together to bring to the pool in my bookbag and I wnet outside. I got outside and I found my bikes steering was REALLY loose so I went out of the Garage to go to my moms window in the back yard to ask her if I could ride my stepdad's bike and then I was walking and I felt something happen on my foot and then a sharp pain shot throught my leg. I looked down and I had been stung by a YELLOWJACKET. htat was the first timeI have been stung in my life bby ANYTHING I was so ucky yet I have always feared being stung but it really didn't hurt tha tbad after about 2 mins but then I finally got over the sting annd then I asked my mom and she said no but I could ride my stepsisters bike DEAR GOD it is one bad girsl bike but I rode it to the poool wich is a pretty decnet distance from my house and I can Ride really fast on my bike but it took me at least 4 mins to get to the pool. and I finally got there and what do I notice I DON"T HAVE MY MONEY. I talk to my friend throught the fence and then I finally decided to go home and get my moneyu but she said by the time I got back they may have been gone by then but I rode home pretty slowly I might add but then when I finally got home I was really upset but then I found the MONEY IN MY pants pockets thatOI was wearing before I changed into my swimsuit and then luckly my brother said tha the would drive me and I got ther and the first thing I told my friend was tha tI am very relentless whenI want something and then me and her swam had alort of laughs for the next 2-3 hours and then we just talked as I walked iwht her after swimming and then she showed me some of the art work she is doing and all of the old art work she has found (SHE IS DOING MY OTHER BPN PIC DAMN DOES HE LOOK EVIL JUST HOW I LIEK IT Can't wait until she is done )

so since I fought for it I guess in the end it made the time I had today even more fun The tiem I have had this summer has eithe rbeen sitting in front of the computer or the TV wth teh PS2 but when I have been hanging out with my otehr friends like Mary and my other friend BillI have been having liter
ally the funnest and best times of my life. I LOVE MY FRIENDS and that includes every one here on DA who kept my spirits high and actually made me see a new side of my self THANK YO U

's and 's to you all

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Just to get you guys to want it even more I have to tell you the truth I actually cried a couple times while reading this
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OK I HAD A HECTIC DAY TODAY.

Ok my one friend MARY was going swimming today and I asked if I could go along she said sure. so I waited by the phone (at the computer talking on DA) untill she called which was about 2:00 PM and then the night before my mom gave me the money to go swimming earlier and I put them in my pants pocket ok then she finally called and then I ran into my room changed into my swimsuit and then I got some stuff together to bring to the pool in my bookbag and I wnet outside. I got outside and I found my bikes steering was REALLY loose so I went out of the Garage to go to my moms window in the back yard to ask her if I could ride my stepdad's bike and then I was walking and I felt something happen on my foot and then a sharp pain shot throught my leg. I looked down and I had been stung by a YELLOWJACKET. htat was the first timeI have been stung in my life bby ANYTHING I was so ucky yet I have always feared being stung but it really didn't hurt tha tbad after about 2 mins but then I finally got over the sting annd then I asked my mom and she said no but I could ride my stepsisters bike DEAR GOD it is one bad girsl bike but I rode it to the poool wich is a pretty decnet distance from my house and I can Ride really fast on my bike but it took me at least 4 mins to get to the pool. and I finally got there and what do I notice I DON"T HAVE MY MONEY. I talk to my friend throught the fence and then I finally decided to go home and get my moneyu but she said by the time I got back they may have been gone by then but I rode home pretty slowly I might add but then when I finally got home I was really upset but then I found the MONEY IN MY pants pockets thatOI was wearing before I changed into my swimsuit and then luckly my brother said tha the would drive me and I got ther and the first thing I told my friend was tha tI am very relentless whenI want something and then me and her swam had alort of laughs for the next 2-3 hours and then we just talked as I walked iwht her after swimming and then she showed me some of the art work she is doing and all of the old art work she has found (SHE IS DOING MY OTHER BPN PIC DAMN DOES HE LOOK EVIL JUST HOW I LIEK IT Can't wait until she is done )

so since I fought for it I guess in the end it made the time I had today even more fun The tiem I have had this summer has eithe rbeen sitting in front of the computer or the TV wth teh PS2 but when I have been hanging out with my otehr friends like Mary and my other friend BillI have been having liter
ally the funnest and best times of my life. I LOVE MY FRIENDS and that includes every one here on DA who kept my spirits high and actually made me see a new side of my self THANK YO U

's and 's to you all

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Just to get you guys to want it even more I have to tell you the truth I actually cried a couple times while reading this
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Ok I feel alone on here and DA again
anyway a couple of my friends are in a figth fright now so since I would side with my bestfriend if I ever had yto choose sides one part of my frineds aen't even talking to me and now my best friend is off to his wreasltling camp for about a week. most of my other friends I haven't talked to in awhile.

here n DA I feel alone probably becuase I am on almost all day and there are times where no one is one and I feel lonly. this is normally where I run doewn stairs to my PS2 and play FFX for about an hour. then I come up and come back on. well normally by then I have like at least 20-30 messages but latly I come on after like 7 hours I only have 7 messages and when I respond to them I notice tha tthey have already signed off which I kinda feel stupid about becasue soem time I could come on but I decided to play my games about 20 mins more and then I come on to Da and it says the person signed off about 5 mins ago GGGGGGGGRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR RRRRRRRRR

oh well I just had to get my sadness out

see I am already feeling better

JOIN OUR CLUB the Wolf and tigedr fan club please join if you love tigers or wolves
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Just to get you guys to want it even more I have to tell you the truth I actually cried a couple times while reading this
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OK I feel so strong right now I just can't figure it out but right after my friend Mary Came over today for like 2 hours I have been so hyper and happy I have been doing wall flips in my basement to the point where my mom has yelled at me to stop it

well more Craziness that has be4en going on in my life the other day when I was off the computer for about 4 hours and then I came back on DA and I had about 75 MESSAGES I lucky got through them

Also 2 days ago I slept over my one friendshouse and we stayed up till like 5 AM playing Video games and then I woke up we hung out till about 4 and then I came home and I called my friend and he slept over last night and we stayed up playing FFx allnight and then in the past 2 days I have probably gotten 9 hours of sleep but I am SO HYPER AND I CAN"T EXPLAIN WHY but I love my Energy SPIKES

Me and have done it. WE HAVE CREATED A CLUB well for all of you tiger and wolf lovers out there join our club Don't worry we sahll have an Avatar soon enough and we just have to get settlesd do don't over load us with messages

OK ANYONE PLEASE JUST ASK FOR AN ART REQUEST FROM ME PLEASE IN NEED SOMETHING TO DO AND I STILL HAVE THE ART REQUEST LEFT OVER FROM MY 500TH PAGE VEIW AND THE PERSON DID NOT WANT ONE SO PLEASE SOME ONE PICK IT UP AND USE IT PLEASE

's to you all

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Mood: well my heart is
Listening to: BEP-lets get it Started :D
Reading: Don't read that much :D
Watching: SPIDERMAN 2 (twice) YEAH

Ok first thing first I want to tell you all about the fan club that someone made up for me Which I still cannot beleive she did it but if anyof you are going to join which I bet no one will here is the link [link]

Also something I am asking anyone who reads this journal PLEASE help me and my friend we are trying to create a club about wolves and tigers and we are tring to come up with a name so PLEASE HELP US with some names and at this point we both don't really care if it is Cheesy

Now into the Craziness section Well alot has happened to me in the past couple of days and Here is it all I am building a model of a F-14 Tomcat in my basement. I am getting VERY close to going after Sin in FFX but I must train more. I am starting a poem. Been Literrall running up my walls here at home cuz I am so hyper ^_^ I brab on to an I-Beam that is on my Basement cieling and I run up the wall and then I run across the II beam and then I flip around and land on my feet I am such a monkey And everyone loves monkeys DON"T YOU . I have been Going swiming alot and impressing my friends with my amazing side, back and front flips and also MY amazing Jackknife BELLYFLOP .(don't worry for some odd reason Bellyflops don't hurt me AT ALL) Recently I have found someone I like and they like me back but I don't know if she wants me to put her name up
But I would like to sya tha tI like her alot and I don't know how much but I get teh feeling she at least likes me a little But anyway I send a Big hug to you and you know who you are.
finally me and my friend went Weightlifting today and I will be weightlifting every Monday Wensday and Friday. I haven't worked out in a VERY LONG time liek maybe liek the last time I worked out was during the Swimming season at my school and I feel Special cuz I could lift about 290 pounds with my CALVES, um I think I could Bench about 150 I think and I feel very special cuz I could squat about 235 LBS!!!!!!!!!!!
also I got anotehr art request so I am well on my way to working on it
well that is all of the Craziness But I must say I will have to go and Wimper at the thought of the Muscle pain I am going to feel tommorrow

's to you all and a very special to the one I like very much I am sorry guys but she does if not more at leas tshe means something different to me then you I am sorry and for that she deserves a special Hug

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UMM just to let you know I hae been messing around with my friends list on DA so if it says I just added you to my friends list you were already n there I just need to change some stuff around

but I want ev4eryone who hasn't respondd to it to respond to it here is the link [link]

Mood: Jumping with Joy
Listening to: BEP-lets get it Started :D
Reading: Don't read that much :D
Watching: SPIDERMAN 2 (twice) YEAH

Ok I am finally a subscriber and it is AWESOME

well I also wanted to to say how happy I am right now to have so many people talk to me on DA and all of you are really cool and Nice 's to you all

ART REQUESTS

ok Right now I am in the process of giving (but if she will ever come back on DA I can get the specifics on what she wants me to do for it. she got my 250th Page veiw) and also I am doing an Art request for (but I am just waiting for her to come up with an I dea for what she wants and I will wait untils she does I don't mind. She got my 10th fav I just thought that since Favs come so rarly for me I will give some one an art rewuest after IO get so many favs )

OK now the art requests that are being done for me(Beware long list)
is doing a romantic poem for me with alot of imagery cuz I got her 500th Pageveiw.
He is drawing a picture of me with a KATANA I got his 500th Pageveiw .
she is giving me a art request cuz she is so nice she is goingo to take a picture that would go along with one of my friend's poem.
is Begin the VERY nice person tha tshe is and she is doing 2!!!! art request for me (SHE IS SO NICE) She is doing a picture for me of a Zebra and a Tiger in the same picture (the stripes thing ) and she is making an Avatar for the club that me and a Fellow Deviant are... ]]> ~Crusher0508 http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/2800497/ http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/2800497/ Sun, 04 Jul 2004 19:59:29 PDT people that watch me you may want to check your userpage I may have left you a gift just look for it on your userpage comments
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ok I actually have 2 Questions of the day but I think they both go together

I asked this one already but only like 1 or 2 people responded
ok the ? is
What does your DA name stand for. like what does it mean and how does it apply to you
and for the hell of it If you have a AIM/MSN Mssenger/or Yahoo Messenger user name included that in here too

My answer to that is DA name and AIM name are the same things so They actually were something I came up with I was playing a WWE Wreasling video game and I was trying to find a half way decent name that actually sounded good and I came up with Crusher and that has been my characters ever since. and the 0508 that is actually my birthday May 8th
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ok and the second ? is What does you Avatar represent about you and why did you pick it

the answer for me would be My friend Mary she drew me a picture for the cover page of my story "the Dark Past of the Bipolar Ninja"(which is here on DA just have to look deep in my gallery) and the picture is supposed to be a drawing of me as a Ninja so I put it on and I like it cuz When I read comments that I sent I look at the Avatar and I don't know why but I get this weird sensation of me starting at my self weird huh

ok read and answer PWEASE *giving all you guys Puppy dog eyes* ( think that should become and Emoticon don't you)

ok ttyl all later and 's to you all and since i am in the mood I will go spaztic with to you all and then after wailing my arms everywhere to blow the kisses I faint out of exhaustion even thought I had a can of Mountian Dew about 15 mins ago so I am very hyper if you couldn't tell

ok I am doing art requests for (still need to get the specifics from her )and ( still need the Idea of what it is going to be but I still owe her one )

and I am getting art requests done for me by (for a Romantic poem with alot of Imagery) , (for a Anime picture of me with a KATANA http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/2793999/ Sat, 03 Jul 2004 09:25:25 PDT --------
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I fell that I never will find true love. I feel like I am a spectator of love. I see love blossoming around me but no love is blossoming in this lonly bleeding heart of mine.

There is one person tha tI wish I could call my own but she sadly doesn't like me that way and she never will. She in my eyes is a perfect person I see no flaults in her what so ever. When I think of her I wish we could be together but we can't

So I tried to move on. I come on DA and I meet so many amazing girls that I could enjoy spending time with but the reality hits me. They either live VERY far away (which doesn't bother me buit it seems to bother them) , they aren't attracted to me (which is very understandable) THey don't like me that way (which happens to much) , they are already going out with someone, I am to young for them (but really I don't see a problem with that one If I was older then thme I wouldn't mind the age difference. age doesn't mean that people don't like eachother to me when it comes to love age is just a meaningless number) or some other understandable reason for not liking me. Oh and I forgot the biggest one that is actually has me at fault. When I try to get someone to like me and one of the girls her on DA and me have a good conversation, afterwards my mind eventually leadsback to the girl I wish liked me. But the sad reality is that that wish will never be granted.

So as you can see I feel love is cruel to me I like one person they do not like me and then I try to like others but y mind always ends up on the one I can never have Love has me trapped.

I kinda wish that I had someone who liked me more then a friend but in the end I am glad to be such good friends with so many great girls here on DA and in my every day life 's to you all

oh and the reason Why I am staying my mood being superhuman cuz Really I still fell very superhuman I just need some help cleaning out some Kryptonite first

tyll ]]> ~Crusher0508 http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/2750863/ http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/2750863/ Sun, 27 Jun 2004 21:39:44 PDT
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Ok I have to have a poll even though I know who will win

ok the poll is who is cuter my dog Tasha or me

just send me a note or just comment on here and then I will tally up the points in the end so tell me who you think is cuter even though I already know my dog will win ]]> ~Crusher0508 http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/2722200/ http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/2722200/ Tue, 22 Jun 2004 19:48:28 PDT
well the sadness just came when my mom said that I am not allowed to stay on the computer later then Midnight (I live in the eastern time zone so do your math from there) california or washington it would be around 9 Pm for you guys

I am sad cuz I normally talk to my friends alot in the early morning over here and it really sucks cuz now I have to deal with it and I am Sad becuase of it

ell the happiness is only from the fact that I feel loved by every one once again adn the fact that I got some AWESOME sunset pics today but they are allittle worse then the last ones

also I have some other pics that you may enjoy HEHEHEHEHE

also I feel really happy that I have so many new friends on DA and I love you all but one of you more then the others :wink:

Art requests that I am in the process of soing :
one for the lovely
ans another for the beautiful

Clubs I am in


wellI hope I can talk to you guys and I pray that sum way we can figure out how to make this retriction work

s to you all

ttyl ]]> ~Crusher0508 http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/2719927/ http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/2719927/ Tue, 22 Jun 2004 13:57:30 PDT ~Crusher0508 http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/2707762/ http://Crusher0508.deviantart.com/journal/2707762/ Mon, 21 Jun 2004 10:40:38 PDT Well I will post this now ans hope fully I will get some love from my good buddies

Ok lets see my list of loyal fans

Saiyukifreak: I know you may not be on here but you are still my friend. Can't wait till your compuyter comes baclk online I have a club that you may want to join

DanielRadcliffeLover: Same with You I can't wait till your computer gets fixed so I can talk to you again

HellSinGirl: Ok now I have to shout out to my Pimpette lol (inside Joke) Well I will justr have fun talking to you when you are on. I hope you guys have fun hangingout without me

Weatherstorm:Hey Man I hope taht you have fun when you go down to Chels house with her and Rose. I

Noriku2Kitusne: I hope you have fun next week with Jace and Chels.

You three will be having fun together with out me could you guys at least take plenty of pics when you guys are hanging out so I can sewe how it was an please tell me how it was when you guys can PWEASE

Dark-Angelz-91: I am sorry I haven't been paying attention to you yet you are my biggest supported that is why Tonight I am watching you ok. I will try my hardest to watch you and see your work ok. can you forgive me

Sahmeh:Hello Beautiful I wish I could talk to you more but unless you call me we aren't going to be talking to each other as much ttyl And Please Seriously could you call me

erica18: and hello to you my new friend I hope I can get to know you even better then I already do

Yellowwolf: and also Hello to you my new friend I hope that I can get to know you better cuz I only meet you today

Well here is a and a for all of my fans

Oh and I forgot something
CLUBS I AM IN ( Fianlly I'm in one )

YAY

Come on Guys NOTE ME ]]> ~Crusher0508