http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:CsmcVisn&section=today deviantART RSS for by:CsmcVisn en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Tue, 15 Dec 2009 00:42:43 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://CsmcVisn.deviantart.com/journal/24000834/ http://CsmcVisn.deviantart.com/journal/24000834/ Wed, 01 Apr 2009 08:30:22 PDT

Though I wish I could come out with something like "....APRIL FOOLS!!!" at the end of this, I really did join today a year ago . I was somewhat confused as to why I couldn't change my picture from "I liek mudkips" last year until I realized what day it was. Fabulous day to join, eh? At least I'll always remember!

So, on a side note, I think I might be on here more often, considering I'm quitting my job. I found out last night that I'm pregnant. After some discussion with my fiance, he thought it would be better if I quit and stayed at home and relaxed, and cared for the baby when it comes along. So, more time on DA, here I come!!









....APRIL FOOLS!!!!

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You must join!! DO IT NOW!!


Why are you still here!? Click the link!!

]]> ~CsmcVisn http://CsmcVisn.deviantart.com/journal/21770130/ http://CsmcVisn.deviantart.com/journal/21770130/ Mon, 01 Dec 2008 16:30:11 PST
There have been some extraordinary pieces I've seen posted! I can only imagine the holidays conjure emotion from us all. I can't wait to get down into a huge piece I've been planning, starting the day my computer went down...

It's been 2 weeks, and a lot has happened since then! I'm not completely moved in, but moved in enough to actually have space to unpack my beloved computer!

You wouldn't believe how much I've missed you guys!! Amidst all the chaos and turmoil recently, I found myself lying awake or sitting there, anxiously curious about what I'm missing!!

It's time I made a return, and I'm happy to say it will be for a while, too!! I've been away far too long!

Hopefully I'll be able to make a few collabs actually work, and a few more original works come to life!

]]> ~CsmcVisn http://CsmcVisn.deviantart.com/journal/21559026/ http://CsmcVisn.deviantart.com/journal/21559026/ Tue, 18 Nov 2008 21:58:07 PST
Monday was my first day off in 12 days straight. Sunday was my last day at the job I quit. You would think after 12 days straight of working, I'd be the type to veg on the couch. Trust me, that was my original plan.

But instead, I started getting this compulsion to start packing as fast and as much as I could. It proved impossible to resist. I ended up getting almost half of our stuff packed...well, half that COULD be packed. Technically you can't pack a couch or a TV or anything. If you did, you'd have to do it very...interestingly . I spent my morning and a little of my afternoon before I went to work today packing. It's almost depressing to see a ton of stuff we look at everyday packed up in boxes stacked up in the corner of our dining room.

I think my wild hair to pack wasn't just a coincidence. We were originally closing on the house this Friday. I might have been thinking to get a head start, or something totally different, because we found out tonight that there wouldn't be a lawyer at the bank come Friday, which means we're going to sign the papers and close on the house on Thursday.

T H U R S D A Y !

According to my Central time, in 7 minutes that means I'll be a home owner TOMORROW. I'm vaguely scared! But the stress is rearing its ugly head, as I have to work a ton between now and then. It feels like Monday was a whole year ago, and I've got one huge rest of the week to come!!

I imagine this is the last time I'll be online until I'm on the other side. I plan on disconnecting the computer and packing it in as well, come tomorrow. I have my MSN on my phone, though!! If you want to chat, add me!!

Take care, guys!! I'll be back soon!!

]]> ~CsmcVisn http://CsmcVisn.deviantart.com/journal/21195240/ http://CsmcVisn.deviantart.com/journal/21195240/ Mon, 27 Oct 2008 23:08:38 PDT
The house deal is coming along nicely, having our closing date on the 21st (of November, for those of you who are reading late), and I'm very much looking forward to spending the winter in a nice warm house I can actually say I'm going to OWN. Many a Christmas will be spent there, many birthdays shared, and many MANY friends to share it with . I can't wait! We're giving our 30 days notice of intent to vacate tomorrow >_<.

Oh yeah, so I got that job I didn't want to jinx . It's at Lowe's, and I have a very good feeling about this job. They said they'd call me on Thursday when they got the drug test results back, but they never did. Friday came and went too, and I started getting worried. I contacted a friend of mine who works there and let him know my concern, and he said the lady doing the hiring was in the hospital. That's a just reason why I didn't hear back! I'm glad I didn't call them asking "WTF, mate!?" So I start tomorrow, and just in time, too!!

Aaaaand finally the fiance update. His blood work came back negative on the diabetes, but positive on a certain hormone associated with a thyroid problem. His doctor is freaking out, telling him to make another appointment ASAP, that it might be a tumor, and freaking him out about it. Something tells me it'll amount to hypothyroidism. Sometimes these guys, I swear...*rolls eyes*

I've got an AMAZING idea for a new piece, and I've already plotted out the vague sketches and made the nebulae for it. Right now it's a project to unwind me from some of the stress lately. The way things are going, I'm surprised I haven't picked up some nasty habit by now, like biting my nails, or crack . As it is, my stress has let my immune system get low enough to catch a cold. I'm in the middle of a big fluffy cloud whilst typing this out.

Oh oh oh OHHHH!!! So I have something actually relating to dA! Yeah, I know. I'm a selfish biatch! >_<


I have a feature. His artwork is absolutely spectacular, as I can only imagine he's created and painted everything by hand. That makes his space art that much more amazing. He's also a great personality here on dA!
Have a look!

Thanks guys, and stay tuned!! Hopefully we'll get to see Attrius's art pack soon, too!! Take care, guys!

]]> ~CsmcVisn http://CsmcVisn.deviantart.com/journal/21014605/ http://CsmcVisn.deviantart.com/journal/21014605/ Mon, 20 Oct 2008 15:44:32 PDT EDIT:
We went to the doctor this morning, to check out what exactly is wrong with Travis, my fiance. So definitely he's been "suffering," if one could say that, from ocular migraines. They're painless, and don't have any lasting effects, other than sight loss for the half hour that it occurs. It's usually caused by flashing lights, believe it or not. We found that he needs glasses somewhere down the line, which may or may not help that condition. They almost completely ruled out the diabetes thing, but they still took blood to officially rule it out.

The loan for the house is being finalized, which means they're asking me for all sorts of crazy papers. W-2 forms, paycheck stubs, bank statements, basically every legal document we've gotten in the past two years. It's a good thing I've kept it all!! I have a feeling that since the bank has known about this loan for a couple of months, it'll go through much quicker than December 5th. I'm not looking forward to moving during the cold months, though. Somehow the thought of breaking a sweat at a time where it could freeze on your forehead doesn't really appeal to me .

Here comes the ball, and it's rolling REALLY fast!



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I am absolutely brimming with ideas for my next piece, but amongst the chaos I find it hard to have the time.

I found out last night that a previous home owner accepted our bid on a house. So, technically, minus the papers we have to go in and sign tonight, we have this house. I have a photo album set up on my MySpace, if you're really interested in seeing where I will live, though I'll warn you that IS a little stalkerish .
We had everything lined up before they even accepted our bid. He have an inspector standing by, and appraiser right after him, two members from our bank who is overseeing our loan, and of course the real estate agent who has been eagerly awaiting this 90-year-old home owner to return from Germany. I don't know, so I won't ask. Closing will be December 5th. And then comes our "moving party." I've got a ton of friends who actually want to help us move. I told them they're welcome to it, and I'll make a running meal all day if they'd like. They seemed happy without the meal, but they lit up when they heard they were being fed for it. I don't know, most of them are college kids, so something tells me a warm cooked meal would be super nice for them.

Also, something that might happen a little closer than that is the fact that I might get a new job. I don't want to jinx my luck here, but it seems promising that I'll be paid about a dollar more an hour to sit there than I was busting my butt. There's more to the package deal that appeals to me, but I won't go into details until I have the job.

A little bit on the bad news. My fiance seems to have a serious issue with his eyes. The way his symptoms are playing out, it sounds like a diabetic complication. He hasn't been diagnosed with diabetes yet, but coming from a strong medical background, I'm putting money that come Monday, he will be. Which means he's going to have to drastically change his diet to accommodate this disease into his life. By this I mean we BOTH have to change our diets. That temporary restraint from sodas is just a glimpse into our near future, and I'm having some serious withdrawals before we even start.

So it seems by December, my life will have changed completely since today. My living establishment, my job, and my diet, all in less than a month. I guess my life decided to change with the leaves this year. Some bad with the good, but I've always been taught that whatever bad things come in your life, they're actually good things in disguise. Ironically, I don't always believe what I'm taught.

This might be the last you hear from me in a while, it might not be. I suppose right now I just need to play things by ear, and roll with the punches. I feel kind of lost, but I know once things get rolling, I'll be hard pressed to NOT know which way to go. I'll relish my time on here, and hopefully get some time together to actually make a wonderful piece!

For now, I leave you with two things:
1. Grand Planet Tutorial Make your own lovely p... ]]> ~CsmcVisn http://CsmcVisn.deviantart.com/journal/20648979/ http://CsmcVisn.deviantart.com/journal/20648979/ Wed, 24 Sep 2008 09:34:08 PDT I'd love winning (as everyone would), but if I don't, that's okay, maybe next time . I can't wait to see that art pack, though! Watch em, and see the beauty!! DO IT NOW!!



The house business is rearing its head again, which means if this bid goes through on Friday, I'll probably be busy running around like a mad hatter again. My apologies in advance if I don't get back to you immediately! The house we're bidding on is beautiful! I lurve it.


My schedule, or at least my DESIRED schedule is all off. Normally, in my line of current work, I close the store at 11, turn everything around for the following morning until 12, which gets me home around 12:10. Of course, I won't want to sleep by then! I just worked a full shift, I need to unwind! So I'll stay up, working on this and that, and I'll get so focused, before I know it, it's 4 in the morning, and I need to go to bed. But lately, we've been closing at 10 for some reason, and we need to be out by 10:30. So I get home at 10:40. That and the fact that recently I've been restricted from ingesting ANY carbonated drinks. Normally I've held a rather decent level of consciousness from caffeine in my beloved sodas. So I feel like a friggin grandma, falling asleep at 11, sometimes sooner. So this would somewhat explain my cut in hours on here. I'm sorry guys .

A few other things happening in my life, but not much to mention .


I've got the most epic piece coming out (besides my Attrius submission) soon. I've worked on this thing for just under a month now, on and off. When I thought I'd finished it the FIRST time, it looked NOTHING like it does now. It's amazering! It's got a nebula that will make you weep. It should come out very very soon, probably before the Attrius pack. So keep those eyes sharp. How? I dunno, put em through a pencil sharpener, how should I know?



PS: This goes out to the weirdos who posted those tagged letters to each other yesterday.

Dear Everyone,

I punched a kangaroo. You have a big nose. If I ever see you touching my pen again, I'll show you my camera. The grass is blue today. Pig's skin is kinda gross. Oh shizzle!

Up Yours,
Beth

Did I confuse you? GOOD!! You're all silly!

]]> ~CsmcVisn http://CsmcVisn.deviantart.com/journal/20334049/ http://CsmcVisn.deviantart.com/journal/20334049/ Fri, 05 Sep 2008 01:31:22 PDT All the crap that was hitting the fans are now finished...or something. I dunno. Anyway!!

I'm in an intensely jovial mood right now, despite the week I've had. Monday was the lowest I could have gotten, it was almost cliche how bad it was! I love days like that. It made my Tuesday SO good!

So I've got some extremely exciting pieces coming up!! I'd started on probably 5 pieces in my time away, and now I think it's time to finish them! Also, I'd REALLY like to commit to a collab now that I'm back. There was talk before with a couple of people, but I think I'm ready to dig down to something effing sweet. Keep your eyes peeled, it should be epic!!

If you'd like to collab, I've found an extremely easy way of doing this is via MSN messy. If you've got it and want to make history, add me: csmcvisn@hotmail.com

There are probably 50 deviations I need to dig through, but I will say that what I see is BRILLIANT!! Keep up that good work, except hold off for like...half a day, so I can catch up!!

Fick my neabs, man! It's great to be back!!

]]> ~CsmcVisn http://CsmcVisn.deviantart.com/journal/19996442/ http://CsmcVisn.deviantart.com/journal/19996442/ Sat, 16 Aug 2008 23:20:47 PDT

For now, I need to take a minuscule break, There have been some things piling up in my life that I need to take care of. With this break I sincerely hope it will be small, but I don't know when the proverbial crap will stop hitting the fan. Weeks, months, whenever it ends.

I have every intention of being on at least once a week, and submitting for the two things I've committed to:

1. My illustrations for Hunters in the Void.

2. A submission for the new Attrius Pack, Alive.

That's pretty much it. If you have other ways of contacting me, feel free to use them. I'll be checking my email and MySpace every day, if only briefly.

In the meantime, check out active guys who effing rock!! People who keep me going when no one else would:
(THEY ROCK MY SOCKS!!!)

End.

]]> ~CsmcVisn http://CsmcVisn.deviantart.com/journal/19837096/ http://CsmcVisn.deviantart.com/journal/19837096/ Thu, 07 Aug 2008 23:44:35 PDT tomorrow TODAY off. It's the last day I have off in like...five days.

To make it short and sweet, I plan on doing nothing tomorrow TODAY except sitting at my computer, rendering (or trying to) the visions in my head.

The thing is, for the most part, I don't think I can. I see the things in my head, I start to work on them, and I'm immediately overwhelmed by how much needs to be done.

Would someone help me tomorrow TODAY? I'd be super duper grateful for a last-minute collab with anyone willing to take me up on the offer. Spontaneity is the way I run, so a collab like this is meant to be...

If you'd like to collab, I'm brimming with ideas. Just let me know tonight NOW when you'll be free tomorrow TODAY. I'll give you my MSN ID and we'll set about making history.

I'll even bring the chips and sodas...

]]> ~CsmcVisn http://CsmcVisn.deviantart.com/journal/19552435/ http://CsmcVisn.deviantart.com/journal/19552435/ Wed, 23 Jul 2008 09:47:31 PDT Thanks so much!!

And a major thanks to for messing up her morning to catch the lovely moment as a screenshot!



BTW, my hiatus status is ALSO put on hold!! I guess I'm back!

]]> ~CsmcVisn http://CsmcVisn.deviantart.com/journal/19308930/ http://CsmcVisn.deviantart.com/journal/19308930/ Tue, 15 Jul 2008 12:03:42 PDT Well, I think this hiatus will be longer than I imagined. Once things get going, they don't stop.

My work has scheduled me for more hours than is legal within the business, but here I am working them. So not only do I have more hours than I have ever had, but I have to keep up with chores around our apartment.

Which brings me to another point. This news is going to make a cut with internet for an extended amount of time. My fiance and I have decided to buy a house. The loan is actually getting pre-approved as we speak. Tomorrow (one of my two days off this week), we had originally planned on going to see a few houses in our price range, and see if we liked any enough to actually see how much we could offer on them.

However, out of curiosity, I managed to find a friend at a bank here and see how much we could get with our credit alone. Turns out more than I had anticipated. So tomorrow, we might be going to a house we both adore, and making an offer. 3 bedroom, 1 bath in the middle of town, and we could afford it. I found some history on the house, too, as well as the reason the owners are selling. I thought something was wrong with the house, it sounds too good to be true. But apparently it's an older couple who live there, and they're getting a divorce. They're probably just trying to sell the house for any money they can get.

So as of tomorrow, the ball is back in my court. I've got to call our cable and satellite providers to switch everything over, put in our notice here, which means leaving EVERYTHING the way it was when we moved in, call insurance, visiting city hall to switch power over to the house, cleaning, and then actually MOVING our stuff there.

If I'm not committed into a hospital from insanity by the end of this, I should be back on here very quickly!!

So for now, I miss you guys terribly, and I'll talk to you on the other side!




Sorry if you've missed me around here lately, but real life beckons, and demands most of my time. Since last Wednesday, I've barely had the time or energy to get on here. You would think by now it should be over, but I feel like it's just begun.

So forgive me if I'm not on here as much as you (or I) would like for a while. I promise, I shall return! But if you need some kind of urgent message sent my way, I would definitely suggest emailing me (email address is in my details). I can actually check that from my phone.

To put details and reasons for this hiatus, we recently had someone just not show up at work, and another one put in her two weeks notice two Sundays ago, so she's pretty much useless this week. Apparently I'm the most reliable person they've got, because I keep getting called in to work on my days off.

Sorry, if it sounds like I'm complaining, I'm just letting you guys know why I won't be on for a while. I don't know how long that will be. I'll be back though, and I'll miss you guys tons!!
Take care,
~B

]]> ~CsmcVisn http://CsmcVisn.deviantart.com/journal/19174665/ http://CsmcVisn.deviantart.com/journal/19174665/ Wed, 02 Jul 2008 22:27:00 PDT . I've got work every day for the rest of this week. Apparently people find Fourth of July weekend the PERFECT time to go out and rent movies. Pfft. They SHOULD be outside, sweating, getting absolutely smashed, and blowing themselves up!!

Alas, I won't be on here on the fourth. I've got (go figure) work. I was semi-pushed, semi-volunteered for a shift all evening. Semi-pushed because I wanted it off, semi-volunteered because I get double-time pay. Heh .

So, for all you wonderful people, I hope you have a beautiful (non-rainy) 4th of July, and I hope to see pictures of the fireworks that blew your hands off (both the fireworks and the stumps ).

It IS what our Founding Fathers would want...

]]> ~CsmcVisn http://CsmcVisn.deviantart.com/journal/18947159/ http://CsmcVisn.deviantart.com/journal/18947159/ Fri, 20 Jun 2008 10:27:47 PDT
Everyone has something to hide. Everyone has secrets. It takes a true artist to make others feel like you know them. To make them go where they don't want to go. That makes your art have a true soul. Each piece has a history, a story, filled with secrets like our own. I believe once you get the technique of your favorite art down, you begin the true creative process. Because you are creating something that could move someone. And there is someone who has done this countless times for me.


While I won't go into detail which secrets he's made me feel, he has made me feel them. His works are what I strive to one day make. There is a difference between putting stuff out there, and putting out a piece of art. It seems even when he's just practicing, he evokes feelings in me, some I'd rather feel, some I wouldn't.

In a nutshell, his gallery is packed with nothing but emotion. Definitely worth a couple of hours digging through. I've not regretted my watch from him yet, and I assure you, you won't either.

Where Jesus-Tks does visual art, there is a writing counterpart for me, who evokes just as much emotion from me with words. That is an art I have yet to perfect, which makes me admire this man even more. His poetry, stories, basically everything this guy writes puts a visual of it in my head. He's made me want to draw everything out that I see in my head. He not only takes me to places I've never been before, but he makes me want to show them to the world. The writing genius:

If there is only one thing you read from his gallery, I highly suggest "Her." It is what got me hooked on this guy's stuff. It. Is. Amazing. No more talking about it. You have to experience it for yourself. Go. NOW!! Watch him when you're done, he's got plenty coming up!!

On another note, I'm still deeply in debt to my two teachers, and . They're still teaching me things I never knew I could do. Simply amazing guys. Simply amazing art they do. I'm still speechless by almost everything they happen to submit.

Oh!! Disturbed released their new album. Oh my gosh. If you are a fan of newer rock, harder rock, alternative, or metal of any kind, you absolutely HAVE to make a point to buy their new album, "Indestructible." To name a few I adore, "The Night," "Torn," "Enough," "Divide," "Indestructible," (of course ) and the remake of the song "Perfect Insanity" that they'd released before they were signed. They did a miracle for "Perfect Insanity," as it was my least favorite song from them. Now it effing rocks!! Worth every cent if you buy it. But hey, you can download it too, because Disturbed took a stand against persecuting those who download songs for free. HA! Another reason Disturbed is my favorite

I've got a couple of pieces coming up, but I'll leave them to be surprises. Until then, take care!
~Csmc Visn

]]> ~CsmcVisn http://CsmcVisn.deviantart.com/journal/18205772/ http://CsmcVisn.deviantart.com/journal/18205772/ Wed, 07 May 2008 02:08:37 PDT

AND

I'd like to go a little in depth on both of these gentlemen. I suppose it's best to start at the beginning. As an aspiring space artist, I went in search of a technique or two to start from, to get the awesome ideas in my head to actually look like it on the screen. In my search, I stumbled upon Lotay's profile. In an instant, I knew this guy could teach me a few things, just by looking at his artwork. Absolutely amazing renders, perfect coloring for each one, like he went through the whole photoshop spectrum picking out colors for every little detail. That was the first thing I learned from him, especially about space: take your time, and pay attention to the little details. If you don't, then once you're done, you'll zoom out to look at your brilliant work of art, and all you'll see are your mistakes. And my main dish of ordeals is picking the right colors for things. For example: he picks the natural tones of what a given object should be. Me? I tend to make my grass greener, my fences whiter, and my pictures overall brighter. I suppose that reflects my personality to a certain extent, and why I'm a good web designer. But he taught me to pick more realistic tones. In real life, planets aren't going to look like the Emerald freaking City. They're going to be dirty, and rocky, and muddy, and mossy, and everything in between. Just like our own earth. And they're going to reflect their own environment, which could be as brilliant as the imagination can ever conjure. He has been my mentor, so to speak, without even trying to be.

DemosthenesVoice has been a more recent find on my journeys. I actually didn't even know who he was until he sent me a friend request the same day I sent a request to join
(which incidentally is an AWESOME group!!). After I saw his stuff, I was simply aghast at the realization that I knew next to nothing in comparison. The one major thing I've learned from him is to not let the environment slip away. I had put so much emphasis on my planets, I'd totally forgotten about the space part of my works. He's made me realize that space isn't a nice, neat little cluster of stars here, and a couple of clouds that make up our outer space. Just like the planets I've imagined, space is just as messy. Just as realistic. I can't let my planet's environment slip into a given background. He has kept this a priority, I can see, in his gallery. In his realism, I see one thousand stories for each picture. I suppose it gives each picture a personality of its own. After all, a planet's only been there a couple billion years. Nebulae, and stars, and comets, and dust and everything have been there millennia longer.

Both of these guys are totally awesome, totally worth your watch, and totally worth the couple of hours drifting through their beautiful galleries. Their creativity, eye for detail, and flat out knack for space art is astounding. I am still learning, from each and every masterpiece they produce. I remain ever ready (in that non-stalker way ) to be inspired and taught new and brilliant things from them. My undying respect and hat goes off to these two gentlemen.

]]> ~CsmcVisn http://CsmcVisn.deviantart.com/journal/18002650/ http://CsmcVisn.deviantart.com/journal/18002650/ Thu, 24 Apr 2008 06:21:19 PDT
I suppose since then I've come to terms with that fear, I've come to understand exactly what is out there. You'll understand my logic, I'm sure. You see, I used to be deathly afraid of a vast landscape of nothing but black, with little pins of light shining through. I know it sounds strange, but I used to be afraid that it would suck me in. That I'd be lost forever in that void of black and white. And the more I looked at anything like that, the more I felt drawn toward the middle. In my head, there was nothing to grab onto, nothing to pull me back. I would be hopelessly lost as a dark, infinitesimally small speck in an ocean (if you will) of stars. Only not looking at all would fix it.

But in my logic for fear was the answer to getting over this. One night, I grabbed a space book, and started flipping through the pages, until I came to a landscape of stars. I started having that drawn feeling, and my breath got really short. In my fit of anxiety, I had moved the book slightly, so that the ink on the page glared. The sheen of it snapped me out of it. It made me realize that there was nothing to pull me back, so therefore nothing could be pulling me toward it either. I pushed the comfort bubble over the next few weeks, and came to absolutely adore space.

It's true, I still get that tight feeling in my chest whenever I look at something far bigger than myself. I suppose it's the intimidation factor. Whenever I see something bigger than me, a sound or "theme" comes to mind. Whenever I see a huge, rocky planet, I think of how a boulder sounds when it shifts; that "rock" sound. But directly after that feeling is an intense admiration for it.

And a story pops into my head about it. The animals on it, the people (if any), what they're doing, and how different things would be compared to our planet, because they have a sister planet so close that they could reach out and touch the other one.

I rarely use a starscape because that still bugs me a little. If you'll notice, the pictures I've done recently with stars as backgrounds have a border on them. It's not just there for the heck of it. It's something for my "mental hand" to hold on to, to pull back from whenever I feel like I'm being pulled in. Because sometimes rationalization doesn't help.

Okay, it sounds like I haven't really gotten over the fear, but trust me, I've gotten a whole crap ton better. I used to flip a freaking script over it. For the most part, the scariest thing about looking was the fact that I felt so small and insignificant in perspective. But I've accepted the fact that I am, in fact, quite small and insignificant compared to everything else. It turned from a fear to a reminder, a way of telling myself that we are not the biggest things in the universe, even though we make ourselves out to be so. There are far more important, far greater, far stronger, and far older things in our universe than ourselves. And that's when things turned fascinating.

Yeah, I'm nuts. You're allowed to say so. I know it, so it wouldn't be some horrible wake-up call. I'm still afraid of looking at Google Maps, but I suppose in time that phobia, too, will slowly wipe away. Hopefully I'm not the only nutso out there . If I'm not, then I'm glad you're reading this, and taking comfort in sharing the same fear as me. Hopefully one day you can overcome the scariest part of it, and come to admire things for their beauty. Cheers!

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