http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:Cynical-Moi&section=today deviantART RSS for by:Cynical-Moi en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Mon, 21 Dec 2009 05:30:00 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/26547139/ http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/26547139/ Wed, 12 Aug 2009 11:51:45 PDT The email address to send the survey to is listed at the end of the survey

Here is the link to my survey
[link]

This one is the same but for older versions of windows, also Vista compatible

[link]


Its just a series of questions concerning photography. Pass it on please to your photography buddies.

]]> ~Cynical-Moi http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/26379034/ http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/26379034/ Tue, 04 Aug 2009 11:30:07 PDT Come blow your horn
The sheep's in the meadow
The cow's in the corn

Where is that boy
Who looks after the sheep ?
Under the haystack
Fast asleep

Will you wake him?
Oh no, not I
For if I do
He will surely cry.


To all the little boy blues out there, including myself

]]> ~Cynical-Moi http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/26021586/ http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/26021586/ Sat, 18 Jul 2009 08:00:32 PDT
- Instead of throwing away water bottles (or other plastic bottles) collect them so that you can recycle them *

- Instead of throwing paper in the trash, also recycle it ( and the same applies to cans as well)

- Be more efficient in the supermarket and at gas stations and use LESS plastic bags. If you just bought gum, put it in your bag/pocket instead of taking it in a plastic bag.

- Stop throwing trash out the window of your car, it does NOT disappear just by throwing out the window. Keep a bag in your car for trash and when you're home throw it in the trash can. Are you really THAT lazy that you can't do this ?

- Close the lights and electricity sockets if you're leaving a room.

- Do not drive aggressively and stop harrassing people through aggressive driving ( la tlaflefoon 3la 5alg allah w tekseroon 3laihum ) remember that you could be not only putting yourself, but others in great danger. Imagine if someone was harrassing your parents, eylef 3alaihum, eydayemelhum fe share3 daa5eley o mb share3 3aam, ye'6rebelhum haranat 3ashan yesre3on o hum mb majboreen yesre3oon, how would you like that ?

- Acknowledge that only YOU are capable of making yourself happy, and do not expect someone or something to swoop into your life and make you happy.


*There are recycling stations at some gas stations.
I will make a list of the gas stations that do have recycling bins, in the meantime if anyone would help out and tell me that would be great

There is a recycling station at Aswaaq that is nearby Al Mizhar Mall in Al Mizhar.
Also there is a gas station in Al Twar that has a recycling station but I do not know the exact location.

There is also a recycling station in the parking lot of Beach Center in Jumeirah

Will update once I get the correct information

]]> ~Cynical-Moi http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/25351311/ http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/25351311/ Tue, 16 Jun 2009 12:09:28 PDT
I was sitting in the computer lab with my classmates waiting for our professor to show up. Girl # 1 says "I'm broke"
Girl # 2 says: "Its ok, university students are always broke"
Girl # 1 says: "Yeah, but thats never the case here."

Anyone else would not see anything wrong with what she said, but you see, I've noticed that girl # 1 always throws around sentences like "yeah theres so much bullshit in dubai".

So I just wanted to make sure if this girl was a racist/bigot, or just someone who doesn't like dubai, which is okay, she doesn't have to love it.

I said: "Why would you say that?"
Girl #1: "Say what ?"
I said: " That its never the case here?"
Girl # 1: "Because the most people have to worry about here is oh my dad didn't buy me a ferrari"
I said: "So even if that MIGHT be the case of the majority, that still does not mean you can say its the case of all."
Girl # 1: "You're one of them"
I said: " Why would you say that? Why would you assume that I am one of them? Because im a local so I must be filthy rich? You don't think I have an allowance like you do and I dont go broke like you do?"

Making the whole conversation short, she shut me up by saying that "Anyway, I wasn't talking to you I was talking to girl # 2" when she had no other way of justifying the fact that she just stereotyped me, and all the people who attended the university. That they're all spoiled brats who never went broke.

We have people from all different backgrounds in this unversity. Some who can barely afford the fees or are in on a scholarship, and people who CAN very much afford the fees and the whole university, but are not spoiled little brats. Should people of higher income be judged directly as spoilt? They have fairly worked and earned their money, so what gives others the right to judge them like so. Is it out of jealousy, spite or racial prejudice? I can't really tell in this case.

And if a man spoils his son/daughter by giving him/her an undeserved car should the man's personal choice affect the way the whole society is seen ? Is it fair ? I do not agree with the man's personal choice but I will not use HIS personal choice and personal life to LABEL ALL OTHERS in the society.

Which brings me to another issue. Why do people assume that all Emiraties are filthy rich, materialistic, spoilt and lazy ?
They might not say it to your face, but they say it alright. The hypocritical thing about it is that their lifestyles are very similar to ours if they are UAE residents.

Its simple: They come to live and work here, earn higher income, can afford luxuries, buy luxuries.
Emiratis live here, the majority started from the bottom, started from scratch, earned a higher income, were able to afford luxuries, and bought luxuries. Why should we be labeled as spoilt then if we have the same lifestyles ?

Second of all, there are so many emiratis that have financial issues and are not necessarily rich. And i bet they would be angry to hear that people are judging them before knowing their situation.

IM SICK AND TIRED OF PEOPLE COMPLAINING ABOUT DUBAI. STOP BITCHING AND WHINING, YOU CHOSE THIS LIFESTYLE FOR A REASON AND MAKE THE BEST OUT OF IT, APPRECIATE IT AND DONT BE A BRAT.

SICK AND TIRED OF PEOPLE STEREOTYPING LOCALS, AND EVEN JUST STEREOTYPING IN GENERAL

IM SICK AND TIRED OF PEOPLE WHO MAKE NO EFFORT OF HAVING THE SLIGHTEST BIT OF CULTURAL RELATIVISM, AND THINKING THAT THEIR CULTURE IS SUPERIOR TO EMIRATI CULTURE: JUST BECAUSE IT SEEMS RIGHT FOR YOU DOES NOT MEAN IT SEEMS RIGHT FOR OTHERS

AND IM SICK AND TIRED OF PEOPLE THINKING LOCALS ONLY ARE MATERIALISTIC

I DO NOT AGREE WITH MATERIALISM BUT SHMA3NA YOM AY JENSEYEH THANYEH TELBASLEK MARKAAT MN FOG LAIN TA7AT MA7AD EYGOL SHAY BS YOM MWA6EN YLBAS MARKAAT GALO MATERIALISTIC?? ISNT THAT HYPOCRITICAL??

AND IF YOU DONT LIKE DUBAI THEN FIIIIINE YOU DONT HAVE TO LIKE IT Y3LKUM YOU NEVER LIKE IT B3D BS THAT DOES NOT GIVE YOU THE RIGHT TO LOOK DOWN ON LOCALS, JUDGE THEM and HATE THEM

no one has the right to stereotype ANYONE. Stop stereotyping.
Nas mafeehum 5air wallah.

I think my head exploded a little. But I'm actually in a good mood today despite my rant

]]> ~Cynical-Moi http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/25071592/ http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/25071592/ Mon, 01 Jun 2009 14:36:16 PDT
Thats the most I've ever said cynic in a while

Pushing my personal issues aside, I've been trying to be more active in DA again and reconnect with my fellow DAers.

I want to talk now, let my thoughts out and have them clash (or run aside) with other's thoughts.
I want to listen to what others have to say, how others feel and what they have to offer.

To whoever was reading my journal.. tell me what you have to say for today
talk about aaaaaanything you want

]]> ~Cynical-Moi http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/16107287/ http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/16107287/ Wed, 26 Dec 2007 10:09:34 PST
Photography

First of all, during my time away i have discovered one thing. Photography is not just grabbing the camera and taking a photograph of something pleasing to the eye. It's not even taking a photo of something ugly in a way that makes it pleasing to the eye. Photography is NOT about pleasing your senses.
Well. It could be if you want it to be, but theres a whole other photography world in university, and in history and throughout the whole world.


Its the type of photography thats supposed to make a point, a statement, ask a question, portray an issue that the photographer thinks is important enough for you to think about and tries to get you interested in it too.
It's the type of photography 'some' people cant understand ( i initially wrote stupid people but found that to be kind of harsh) because they do not analyze and do not think about a photograph. They just take a look but do not SEE if you get what i mean.

Anyway. It wasn't difficult to understand that type of photography. What was difficult however is to keep it up and brainstorm on and on about what message you want to send and what message someone is sending you.

4 days in Kuwait:-

4 extremely exciting days that i so needed after all the stress and hectic-ness of university But now that im back im all out of energy and havent been out of the house since lool.

I disguised myself as a Kuwaiti girl and i think i blended in quite well really, I still could not master the way they wrap their sheilas though
80% of the time kenna "engezz" (aka net7awa6)
and 15% of the time we were eating and sitting in m6aa3em
5% of the time was used for shopping 3al saree3

Went to their huuuuge Villa Moda, Mais El Ghanem (a very fancy ma63am), Avenue mall (their emirates mall), Soug Sharg, and Marina Mall..

by day 2 i was speaking Kuwaiti already lool

]]> ~Cynical-Moi http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/14106414/ http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/14106414/ Fri, 10 Aug 2007 13:46:27 PDT
Got back from Bombai, India 6 o clock this morning. Worst flight EVER (ok not EVER im exaggerating, but still it was bad).
I hATE HATE HATE indian airport security and policemen. Those people that abuse whatever little power they have. And they're so RUDE and violent! You know how in Indian movies the police men are the bad guys that are corrupt and ignorant and conceited? Well apparently its true ! They ARE!
LoL they thought my tripod was a gun of some sort and opened up the suitcase lool I was like yal HARM ya Mu'3AFFAL haat el tripod bafla3k 3a rasek beh loool
and they looooove drama ! My first time in Bombai i had JUSSSST gotten off the plane and into the airport in india and i hear we7deh tbaaaaaaaa'3em tba'3em it freaked the hell out of me yom 9adait wara ela w achoof elshur6a sa7been 7ermah mn sha3arha mas7eebha el ar'6 LITERALLY LOL
My mom was like BSMELLA BSMELLA
me: SHOO BSMELLA REDOONI DBAIII AAAIH HA W ANA TAWNE WA9LA MA KAMALT REB3 SA3A HNEEEH 7ARAM 3ALAIKUM LAISH YAYBEENE HNEEE REDOONI
Ya3ne COME ONE mafee da3ee 7ag kl hal draama kalbchoo el 7rmah w es7booha mn eedha methl el nas mb mn sha3arha drama whores wallah lool

Anywho aside from the drama junkee policemen the 1 week trip was so much fun ! I had been to Bombai 4 times before so I had grown accustomed to it and understood a little Indian (my sister caught me watching the Indian "bold and the beautiful" a couple of times too )
I knew my way around and there was no 'fear of the unknown' anymore

I'm not a share-ey person but today i feel like sharing some of the stuff we did there.. Will post some pics although no one might be interested


On the flight. I think we annoyed everyone on the plane because I wouldn't shutup and my sisters and I were laughing all the time. A steward took a picture of us too with my camera lool. We are a little weird



^ My breakfast at this place called Mezban nearby the hotel. Went walking with my sister and the road was empty. When we got out of the place the roads were full of people ! They all woke up while we were drinking our chayaleeb




The gate, from our window in the hotel. I think they put these shabak so no one would commit suicide

First time I went to India was with my 2 cousins, aunt and mom. In the car from the airport to the hotel when we just got there
5leefeh was like:
Aba 5ebz.
shay mkan emba6el aba 5ebz.
5ethoole 5ebz. aba nan
aba 5bz

a7mad: Enteh bansha'3elk fe hal ma5baza hay etshoofha? Banyawezk bnt el5abaaz bas chub fknaa mn el 5bz
5leefeh: aba 5bbbbbbbbbbzzzzzzzz
a7mad: OhOO bas 3aad

I didn't know shu salfat 5leefeh with his 5bz addiction bas after eating their naan now i KNOW

Good bye naan, romalii, chapaati and baraatha LooL

]]> ~Cynical-Moi http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/13983229/ http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/13983229/ Thu, 02 Aug 2007 08:32:33 PDT I shall keep myself busy by NOT obsessing about the days I have left until I turn 18. I will NOT think about which car I'm going to drive once I get the liscence. I will NOT think about who is allowed to ride in my car and who is not (preferrably people who annoy me). I will NOTTTT think about how when I get my liscence I can actually go to McDonald's on my lunch break lool

It has once been suggested that I have a Love List since I've already made a Hate List, but back then there weren't so many things I have liked. So now here goes:

-I love old black and white egyptian movies
-I love the smell of gasoline
-I love the sound of horses' hooves on the ground
-I love the sound of laughter, specially goofy laughs
-I love the colors black and purple
-I love Emirates Trading, the art supply shop but its so damn expensive sometimes
-I love the smell of chocolate milk or chay 7leeb when it has JUST been served to you
-I love the horse riding outfits, especially the show jumping and dressage ones, where they wear the suit like jacket
-I love earrings and rings
-I love pearls more than diamonds
-I love going anywhere at any time
-I love the desert more than the sea
-I love the music they put in Johnny Rockets
-I love galaxy hazelnut chocolate
-I love road trips even if we're not heading to a very far away destination.
-I love biology and chemistry.
-I love art galleries and exhibitions
-I love McDonald's orange juice
-I love triangles and cirlces
-I love it when you go around a round-a-bout twice just for the sake of it
-I love carrousels
-I love arcades and fun fairs
-I love this Jurassic Park game in Magic Planet where you shoot stuff
-I love scary movies because they don't scare me that much anymore, but its still fun to scare myself to death
-I love sticking my hand out the window whenever it rains
-I love passing by my university at night, its so peaceful
-I love huge handbags, or just handbags
-I love textile and fabric shops
-I love cartoons
-I love barage3 ( especially elbrga3 elrfee3 )
-I love photo albums
-I love Swensens ice cream
-I love libraries (especially the one huuuuuuuge one in sharjah)
-I love the Staedler brand pencils and other art tools from that brand
-I love the name 3azzaan ( YES 3azzan not 3azzaM am not em'3al6a and not em5arfa, it exists )
-I love names that sound gutteral or have '3' in them (3afra rfee3eh 3abdel3zeez 3ouf ) 3333eh lol
-I love the negatives you get after developing a film

will add more once i love more

]]> ~Cynical-Moi http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/13784881/ http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/13784881/ Wed, 18 Jul 2007 17:18:00 PDT I ca'nt sleep, I have things on my mind. The most random and irrelevant thoughts pop up as soon as I lay my head back down on the pillow.. 'I wonder if I should confront this certain person regarding how she treats me' .. ' I wonder when my professor is going to show up, i need that signature to finish up my schedule'.. ' I wonder if I should open up more, or shut people out more'
I have so many things I want to say to different people
To one I want to say 'You do not demand respect when you're rude to people'
For the other I want to say " I hope you turn out to be as great of a person as you seem to be"

I'm hungry. Which brings me to other thoughts, lol. Funny thoughts that I would share but im not in the mood lol. Only few people who have spent a lot of time with me know I get hungry every 4 hours or so lol, no matter how weird the timing is (could be at dawn, could be in the middle of the day)

One thing I envy guys for is how they can all gather and have fun all the time. Ya3ne thats not possible with girls. You gather 10 or 15 girls in one place you'll end up having a major cat fight. Elbanat mayen3a6oon wayh they're always so hostile when put in large groups because there are always the rude ones (im saying rude to prevent from saying other bad words lool if u get what i mean) , who will provoke the cat fights lol.
I mean I dont have a close best friend either cuz of those reasons (and dont aww at me or i'll slap you till kingdom come, I choose to not have a close best friend, its not a misfortune)
They're all judgemental and speak behind your back even though they think you have no idea..
Maybe its my fault, because I let it happen. Because I keep my cool and seem like the nice girl. Maybe I should be we'3deh, but its not in me, it takes me a lot of effort to be rude and then later on I feel bad about it. Its not me.

And I am stull not sleepy.

ok and now im starting to imagine things in the dark and freak myself out. LOOL which reminds me of this one time when I was a kid and the same thing happened, I imagined stuff in the dark and jumped on the floor (which wasnt really the floor because someone was sleeping on the floor in the same room.. was it my maid? my cousin ? I cant remember but it was someone and i remember we were in Morocco and there was bed shortage)
and as if stepping on someone's stomach was not enough harm I ran screaming to my parents' room scaring the hell out of them loool

I think i should go and try to sleep again.

]]> ~Cynical-Moi http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/13718966/ http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/13718966/ Fri, 13 Jul 2007 09:55:04 PDT
I had finally heard the motto that made absolute sense, and this was it. It felt like finding the answer you never knew you were searching for. For me, this quote was it. Immediately after I've heard it I felt as if clouds parted in the sky and the sun shone on me.

But then I thought, I am of the new age. And all those around me in the new age, are they aware of this whole facade being put up in front of us? Are they aware of the scandals that I am aware of? Even if they were, I thought to myself, they wouldn't be willing to betray the age as I am willing.
They are too occupied with their own worlds and personal lives, unaware that their environment IS part of it.
They are too occupied with rainbows, flowers and candy filled thoughts.
And those who are aware look the other way, because it is easier than dealing with it and acknowledging that there is a problem.

The fact that we are given the illusion and impression that we have freedom of speech is only the beginning.
Well, sure you can say whatever you want but there are consequences to face. And you're too scared to risk it.

I want to serve the age, and I am ready to betray it. I am willing to go against what the previous age has decided to follow in order to bring it to better terms. But who am I? I have no control over anything, I have no influence over anyone. I am but a citizen with a secret, sad to see what has become of what once was my home, and the land that I used to be so proud of.

ضــاقـــت عــلــيه ديـــرتــي و بـــلادي

]]> ~Cynical-Moi http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/13690179/ http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/13690179/ Wed, 11 Jul 2007 01:34:22 PDT
Preferably in Sharjah or Dubai

]]> ~Cynical-Moi http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/13644626/ http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/13644626/ Sat, 07 Jul 2007 09:25:43 PDT I always wanted to have a darajeh (ATV motorcycles). Well we HAD one, but I was too young to drive it myself i only sat behind the people allowed to drive it. Just before I became old enough to drive it, they sold it. And now I'm too old to go driving ATVs around el fereej.
I always wanted to enter showjumping competitions, but I never had the horse, my horse was not a show jumping horse, but an ex- flat racing one. But my horse was taken away to somewhere in Alain where i was promised that I could go visit her, but only went once and after that no one would take me. I nagged and I nagged for someone to take me, but apparently nagging can only get me there once and only once.
I always wanted to study something related to medicine, or something that had biology and chemistry together (biochemistry) but when I searched for universities, the majors I had wanted were either not available or in arabic whereas I studied everything in english and find it hard to write in arabic sometimes. I was promised that I could study abroad if I was serious about this major, but when the time came I came to find out that that promise was to be broken, and I would not be allowed that. I tried not to let this devastate me and went for another major I thought I would be good at, but instead people ask me now why I went for such a major that "will not get me a decent job"
At that point I can't really say the true reason (that there was absolutely no chance for me to study the major I wanted in a decent university) but instead I suck it up, keep calm and try to explain to them that it will get me a decent job even if I myself am not sure of that fact.
I suck it up and force myself to understand that all things work out for the better. But its biting me back in the ass, theres a limit to how many times I can hear interrogations about my life and the paths i have taken.

]]> ~Cynical-Moi http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/13512062/ http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/13512062/ Wed, 27 Jun 2007 12:36:52 PDT I would have taken summer II but there weren't any courses available.

Now that I have the rest of the summer to waste and do nothing, I think im going to hate myself since there will be nothing else to focus on lol and nothing to do and no one to spend time with but myself ..

Hmm.. 3 more months until I turn 18 and apply for my driver's liscence.

I think I want a pet. Probably a turtle or snake .. or butterfly.. but that wouldnt be right and just plain mean



]]> ~Cynical-Moi http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/13377410/ http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/13377410/ Sun, 17 Jun 2007 06:02:22 PDT





http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/13222712/ Tue, 05 Jun 2007 00:51:32 PDT [link]

Expected to come on Thursday 07/06/07 and Friday 08/07/07
Such a bad timing, I've got classes on Thursday and I dont want to be stuck in uni with wind hurling here and there.

Anyway its very suspiscious news since one newspaper denies it and one confirms it but what the hell, better prepared and expecting than totally oblivious.
So to those who were planning to go to the beach..sailing, swimming, fishing, tanning or watever and any outdoor activities better be expecting and maybe prepare other indoor activities in case it does come our way.

Four more months until I get my driving liscence.
and Fishy my fish passed away a day ago. But good news is I am capable of taking care of a fish for more than a month.

]]> ~Cynical-Moi http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/13213120/ http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/13213120/ Mon, 04 Jun 2007 09:34:26 PDT I'm in the car with the air conditioner on blast and drinking cold water, eating cold ice cream and panting because its so damn hot and then I see the construction workers actually WORKING in this weather !!!
Its like suicide and I cant stand to take it. I know Dubai wants to progress quickly and make their 3shreen alf mashroo3 and watever but THEY ARE HUMANS DAMMIT, NOT ROBOTS !


I really wonder why they dont completely change the shifts to night time working only until the weather gets cooler. This is not good, its inhumane.
You might argue that with this tactic we're taking away the construction worker's 'rezg' or hours, but they can still work the same hours they usually do (if they want) just at a night shift !
Work from sundown to sunrise then no work after that.

Its so easy for other people to dismiss this situation, they're not out there in the sun building streets, bridges and fucking tourist attractions

I swear sometimes I wonder where rationality flies off to when its most needed.

]]> ~Cynical-Moi http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/13107717/ http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/13107717/ Sun, 27 May 2007 00:34:16 PDT
High school students: Get summer jobs in the summer and use your time efficiently. Its a nice experience to have and something you can later add to your CV no matter how minor it is and unrelated to your future majors.

University students: Get part time jobs/ or internships now while you can, especially freshmen. No matter how crappy. Go for the companies whose names are well known. So that later when you graduate and are about to get employed they see that you have had little experience before and with good well known companies.

Even if the pay is extremely low, take the job for the experience. Because you can afford to do that now while you're in uni/ high school. But when you graduate and you have ZERO experience on your CV, you cant afford to settle for the low paying jobs.

Do volunteer work and community work too. You need to build your personality and help others who have it worse than you do.

]]> ~Cynical-Moi http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/13088913/ http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/13088913/ Fri, 25 May 2007 13:08:19 PDT I have been thrown off track. And to think I was only days away from achieving my goal!

Anywho. Emirates driving institute called and told me that I'm too young to apply for a driver's liscence. Funny thing is I KNOW that, its just that I DIDNT apply. My sister did that for me. Anyway it was worth a shot only 5 more months to go and I will be another "mujrem el6areeq" on the loose.

]]> ~Cynical-Moi http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/12997630/ http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/12997630/ Fri, 18 May 2007 06:25:42 PDT
This funny embarassing thing happened to me at the beginning of my summer course. Its me, of course embarassing things happen to me, because when they dont i just embarass myself instead . Either way i have to get embarassed and always in front of a crowd

I'm taking a public speaking class and God knows i need it because i love giving speeches just not in public and in front of people i dont know. I get nervous and start shaking and forget what im supposed to say.

In our first public speaking class we were supposed to interview the person next to us then introduce them to the whole class. I interviewed this girl and introduced her to the class, it wasnt bad, didnt show my nervousness too much..
Then when it was time for her to introduce me she whispered to me if i want to mention when i want to get married in the introduction so i whispered back and said NO dont mention it, NO (because i dont think its suitable and its unappropriate)

So she's introducing me to the class.. Shereena's (me) major is such and such .. her goal is such and such .. and it would be interesting to know that Shereena does not want to get married anytime before the age of 25 .


I was frozen in my seat for 5 seconds. I was surprised to know that about myself, i never knew that i never wanted to get married before the age of 25

Apparently she got the idea that when i said no dont mention it, that no i dont want to get married before the age of 25. I was pissed because im not that type of person that plans marriage with a certain timeline, and plans how many kids im going to have and even thinks marriage is a happy go jolly "goal" in life. Im NOT that type of person. Marriage is NOT mote w 7ayate w kel hamme like it is for other people, and that is why i told her not to mention it. Its personal, its unappropriate and its not important to announce along with my actual goals in education and career life. Im not saying its a bad thing if other people do see it this way, its just not ME. And having it announced in front of people who dont know the slightest bit about me, is the last thing i need.

Lool anyway I have a reason to hate people now
Kidding.. A day has passed and im laughing about it now because heres another thing about ME as a person: I dont really care

PS. Fishy my fighter fish is yet alive, let's take a moment to appreciate her survival throughout these many weeks. I have stopped feeding her for almost a week to test her life span, but she made it. Lets celebrate

]]> ~Cynical-Moi http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/12898486/ http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/12898486/ Wed, 09 May 2007 10:44:19 PDT

]]> ~Cynical-Moi http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/12862846/ http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/12862846/ Sun, 06 May 2007 10:13:42 PDT He's hilarious
[link]
and this too
[link]
and this one is ten minutes and covers more
[link]

If you've got the time also check out
Ahmed Ahmed
and
Dean Obeidallah
and
Aaron Kader

Arab-American stand up comedians who made a stand up comedy tour called Axis of Evil
Absolutely hilarious

]]> ~Cynical-Moi http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/12837589/ http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/12837589/ Fri, 04 May 2007 08:32:45 PDT
Anyway. I completed my first year in university around 4 days ago. The second semester wasnt so good.. Some people are complete morons.
Learnt how to speak a little russian. Me nyaza voot Cynical-moi. Kagdilla?
Lol.

Learnt how to make paper mache, and it is disgusting. End result is nice though.
Made a glass drawer. Made a wood drawer. Learnt how to cut wood and put it together.
Learnt how to sculpt, and its not easy. Needed a lot of time, patience and strength.

Taking a summer course and starting soon. God give me the strength to not have a nervous breakdown and slap people like crazy

]]> ~Cynical-Moi http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/12549401/ http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/12549401/ Wed, 11 Apr 2007 06:00:48 PDT I don't want to talk about it.
I don't want to talk about anything.
I shouldn't be a people person.
I should isolate myself from society.

]]> ~Cynical-Moi http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/12479234/ http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/12479234/ Fri, 06 Apr 2007 04:52:54 PDT

Then watched this superb egyptian movie which was hilarious with a great theme, concept, filming and a pretty good soundtrack (not really the songs just the instrumentals that caught my attention). I really loved the ending, it was unexpected because there was nothing to expect.. if that makes sense.
I don't understand egyptian arabic alot but i had my friends to explain to me "inta 7mar ya7mar" is a sentence I got stuck on from the movie ever since i saw it so fonn-ee

Anyway I've been tagged by *naQsh
I dont like tags but im pretty bored here

A Choose ur top 10 english music singers:
well i like the ppl not all of their songs though

-Joss Stone
-Alicia Keys (3osheh mfatee7 )
-Ashanti
-Beyonce
-Ludacris (dont really listen to what he sings but i like him for some reason )
-Dude from Maroon 5
-Frank Sinatra (just love his clothes thats all)

B Choose ur top 10 things u can't live without
-Food
-Family
-My hands..drawing n sketching
-bed
-laptop, computers
-sarcasm
-laughing

C Choose ur top 10 fav actors and actress :
-Nicole Kidman (coldest facial expressions ever, i like that)
-JD from scrubs, forgot his name
-Eva Langoria
-Reese Witherspoon
-Kirsten Dunst
-Dr Perry Cox from Scrubs
-Dr house from House MD ( i should know their names )
-Johnny Depp
-Elijah Woods

D Choose ur top 10 fav movies & T.V series's
-Scrubs
-House MD
-Project Runway
-Desperate Housewives
-Requiem For a Dream
-Pan's Labyrinth
-Oliver and Company (old cartoon)
-My name is earl
-fruits basket
-Friends

]]> ~Cynical-Moi http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/12320217/ http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/12320217/ Sun, 25 Mar 2007 08:43:34 PDT its a list I made for my birthday to give to my sister

For my birthday I want:

•An easel with a stool
•One small Escada perfume
•Ø¹Ø¨Ø§Ù‡ ساده مسكره نفس قياس عباتي المسكره الفراشه شرات مالت بنت عمي اللي ايدها توسع و فيها خلقه ثانيه من داخل اليد
•Paul Frank shoes
•Paul Frank key chain like the one I got for my friend, the mini monkey for my locker key.
•A musical instrument called “3ood”
•Sea monkeys (which as I recall you can get from toys R us)
•Money
•A Paul Frank belt that I saw in Five Green, I think it had skeletons on it and it was black.
•Macdonald’s 6 piece nuggets meal with orange juice.
•Swenson’s ice cream
•Baklavas
• همبا حامض اللي ف بن سوقات يبيعه ويا مكسرات
•John Frieda’s conditioner for brunettes
•Horse riding ankle boots
•[Girl's name] run over by a car
• A necklace like the one I have from swarovski, nice and shiny and pretty ..
•ÙƒØªØ§Ø¨ أدولف هتلر مال "كفاحي"
•An album from The One like the one [sister's name] has but with a white cover
•Escada shower gel
•Those little cameras that come in different colors I forgot what they’re called lomography or something, one of those cams.
•A John Labanda notebook, not a hard cover
•Taking me to Toys R us
•Pay for my liposuction 3amaleya that i want to get
•Take me to Godiva and let me choose a chocolate, I do not trust your choices
•Download 7ala8at Lady Lady from the website [link] (you have to tsajleen fl site, do that and I will show you where to download) and rusoom 7alat 3alayna meemee and put them on a cd for me

]]> ~Cynical-Moi http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/12304934/ http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/12304934/ Sat, 24 Mar 2007 03:13:04 PDT you're the tower of giza
you're the smile on the mona lisa
im a worthless check
a total wreck
a flop!
but if baby if im the bottom you're the top

Today is the fourth day since i've gotten Fishy. She's still alive el7mdilla.




My cat almost killed her a little but thank God i arrived in time to save her.

Btw people should start watching House MD if they sorta liked Grey's Anatomy, but this show is more concerned with solving patient cases and stuff like that.

This is going to be a loooong loooong day.

]]> ~Cynical-Moi http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/12255544/ http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/12255544/ Tue, 20 Mar 2007 08:17:46 PDT I was featured in =Geehumshriber's journal so its my turn to pass it on. Plus i love featuring ppl and their work.
One person with 3 of his or her work am waiting.

From: ~candy25104


From: ~sweetyblood


From: =ninazdesign


From: *N-o-u-f


From: *el3sl


From: ~Hadoya
~Cynical-Moi http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/12243681/ http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/12243681/ Mon, 19 Mar 2007 10:25:44 PDT
seemed to me as traditional mixed media, was very
awed when i saw that it wasnt, its beautiful ..

From:=gunnmgally

I personally hate using charcoal but he makes it look so clean and tactful i just love it here

From:~damnans

she controls colors so gracefully creating something so
appealing to the eye, it makes me smile

From:*very-COLORFUL

so realistic i couldnt believe that they were drawings at first, I admire. A lot of work put into these.

From:~avengeddemise13363

Surreal, scary and i love.

From:*ketchup-suicide

Back to realism again and some more beautiful crayon creations

From: ~Miss-Hart

]]> ~Cynical-Moi http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/12193123/ http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/12193123/ Thu, 15 Mar 2007 12:16:54 PDT
I told a classmate of mine a day ago about my theory on talents. I don't believe in them.
Talent is an overrated expression/word for what happens to be an extremely appealing piece of art or work.
I believe in understanding methods, studying them, practicing and developing your own methods. No one is "talented". You might come to realize that the people who are so oftenly called talented have been drawing since they were young. They have experience in what they're doing, by now they understand which shadow goes where, or what the average human head looks like.
They have practiced it so often before that they have almost mastered it and draw a masterpiece in seconds and you go "wow ! You're TALENTED"....bullshit, they're experienced, they understand the profession of drawing, the principles of drawing, the methods of drawing, the styles, the perspectives, the techniques and so on.
You can never say "im not talented enough to reach that level of drawing and painting". Just practice, try it out. Draw what you see and not what you THINK you see. Over long periods of time with a lot of practice you will understand and show progress.
Talent does not exist, it's all in your head.

]]> ~Cynical-Moi http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/12153689/ http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/12153689/ Mon, 12 Mar 2007 08:27:06 PDT Apparently designing furniture,houses, making logos, advertisements, and everything media includes is GIRLY. YES PEOPLE THE GENIUSES HAVE SPOKEN!
Art is easy and girly. Making masterpieces is easy now.

My first semester a guy in my class asks me wat my major is and when i tell him visual communication, this is wat he says: "oh swaalef banaat ya3ne"
and im thinking swalef BANAAT ??? SWALEF BANAAAT ?? is he KIDDING ME hatha !?
but i kept fighting every urge of throwing him off the stairs that we were walking down on and said "uh huh, wats ur major"

My second semester, a girl comes up to me and she's like uhh i wish i could change my major to visual communication business is so haaaard aba something easy.
and yet again in my head is this little person about to blow up
i dont get how business is hard, they all cheat, and practically BUY their degrees then call it hard? Unlike business students, art students have ETHICS and self respect. Well at least I do.
I'm not saying business is easy or belitteling the major, but the majority of people who take business are unethical, m5aleen el business ma95ara o they're spoiled airheaded brats who cheat off each other all the time. the majority, not all though.

Then another day i tell someone im a photography major and they say: what will you work?
me: i'll be a photographer??? O_o hello?
person: get a cam and take a photo?
WTF

If there werent any photographers or artists there would be no FASHION, no MEDIA, no COLORS in this WORLD Then the spoiled business students would be out of style all the time and look like potato bags without any media to entertain their airheaded un creative peanut sized brains

sorry business students. But i officially hate you all and have no respect for you.

note: ignore watever i said, im just angry at a lot of business students right now, not all of them.

]]> ~Cynical-Moi http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/12114986/ http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/12114986/ Fri, 09 Mar 2007 06:53:55 PST *el3sl has given me a subscription account which i am very excited about, AND im going on a road trip to AD tomorrow to view a photo of mine that has been put up in a gallery.. and hopefully its still there by the time i get there
I will go there, stand next to my photo and ask people what they think about it and when they tell me its crap i will bite their heads off

Now, ta ta ta taaaaa.. my first features

~Mayed86

I have never seen sports related photographs become so aesthetic, artistic and emotional. True master pieces are ones that keep you staring at them again and again without getting bored.


*el3sl
Flowers shot so beautifully and elegantly. Flowers are already beautiful but here they exceed beauty




*3asool
If there were an Emirati National Geographic, he'd OWN it. You can really tell how he always waits for the right moment to get the best shots. Animals are not easy to capture yet he makes it look otherwise





thats it for today, sure there will be more to come

]]> ~Cynical-Moi http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/12064491/ http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/12064491/ Mon, 05 Mar 2007 08:12:59 PST
Its so surreal and creative and reminds me of Alice in Wonderland
If you download it make sure you get the english subtitled one because its in spanish originally.

Another movie I saw recently and fell in love with was "Requiem For a Dream"
Also a surreal movie but not fairytale-wise but reality-wise. Concentrate on the filming and photography absolutely stunning. You would also want to download the soundtrack which is all instruments no lyrics but still so expressive, you can feel whats going on with just hearing the music.
The movie is somewhat bitter and sad, you're bound to cry at the end (or just feel sad) but still will you wanting to watch it again.
Well i dont know but thats how it was for me, although i dont think many people would like it, its very...psychological sort of..Not for kids either..

Suddenly i've become a movie critic
So people share what you've been watching and rate em

as for me I have decided to learn russian because after i finish my summer course im planning to go to Russia and Ukraine (they speak russian a little in Ukraine, i was told by an ukrainian friend, that i also plan to go visit there) lazem a7innn 3la my parents though i dont think they'll want to go there

]]> ~Cynical-Moi http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/11658334/ http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/11658334/ Fri, 02 Feb 2007 11:01:06 PST Now even before this event I never liked to litter or throw trash anywhere than where it belonged; the trash can. But this event has helped me know how careless humans can get, sucked into their own superior worlds, thinking the little things don't matter.
But they DO matter, they matter so much.
During the clean up I realized that smokers are the # 1 litterers.
That people would go to the extent of throwing underwears on the floor.
That no matter how much we cleaned, the trash was always there.

I love my country. Sure, it has its share of problems and dilemmas but I live in it, I love my world and country, and the last thing I want to do is shit all over it.

Overall, helping the community and others helps you become a better person. More aware of your surroundings and the things happening around you. More careful of your decisions, even the smallest ones where you decide to throw a cigarette on the floor and step on it.

]]> ~Cynical-Moi http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/11609583/ http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/11609583/ Mon, 29 Jan 2007 09:46:18 PST Are you there yet too ?
Do you have these questions going around in your head on and on, irritating you : What now?
I feel as if I am having a writer's block, and an artist's block. I feel like my brain is slowly disconnecting itself from my body. I feel the nerdiness in me fade away.
and I am supposed to be grieving my losses, right? On the contrary I seem to be so calm about it and don't know why it doesn't bother me.

So I do what I do best, I let things be.


ignore my mumbo jumbo

]]> ~Cynical-Moi http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/11444531/ http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/11444531/ Mon, 15 Jan 2007 08:03:45 PST and im like what the HELL is THAT

turns out its this stray cat coming straight towards me Dont get me wrong i love cats but when you see a stray cat being friendly your first thought is 'its got alterior motives'

Anywho, I think I became the weirdo who reads on the building steps with a stray cat napping next to her. Maybe thats better than being the weirdo who tripped on nothing, fell on her face and sent all her books flying

]]> ~Cynical-Moi http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/11434946/ http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/11434946/ Sun, 14 Jan 2007 13:07:26 PST
Right answer, ofcourse Im always right so no duh i got the right answer

The best cam is not the cam with the most options and best lenses and bla bla bla. Its how you use whatever you have in your current cam and make the best out of it.

]]> ~Cynical-Moi http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/11333115/ http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/11333115/ Sat, 06 Jan 2007 05:02:03 PST

I've got places to go, things to do but seems that for now only place i'll be in is my bed Stupid cold, i hate getting sick, its sucking out all my energy

]]> ~Cynical-Moi http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/11297033/ http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/11297033/ Wed, 03 Jan 2007 05:08:19 PST

It was my first time and omg it was so much fun! My sisters, mom and I went there for 4 nights only but it was superb

We stayed at a quite tacky hotel but that didn't keep the trip from being so much fun.
I discovered that im pretty in kuwait (no really, like everytime i passed by a mirror i had to look closer to see if its really me or another girl lool)

Actually everyone is pretty in Kuwait. Its like you go there and suddenly you become pretty and everyone around you is so pretty too

The weather was a killer, its the kind of cold wind that goes through your skin and right to your bones but still it was fun i liked seeing my face go pale and have a very pink nose that I can no longer feel is there

We watched a play (malt 6are8 el 3ali, 'el bait baitek') which was absolutely HILARIOUS! He speaks out of context most of the time which is the funniest and best part about it

At the strike of midnight we were in Johnny Rocket's angrily demanding a table of 5 (since we were 5, my sisters and i and friends from kuwait who were nice enough to show us around and take us to all the nice places) that 2 guys had taken although a table of 2 was already available .. but since Jr has a whoever comes first gets it policy we waited for another table to clear up

I fell in love with the place, its so stress free and soothing, i was so happy there

]]> ~Cynical-Moi http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/11187709/ http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/11187709/ Mon, 25 Dec 2006 11:02:15 PST Today a thought popped up in my head

where did Santa come from ?
I know that christmas is the celebration of the birth of Jesus but where does Santa come in, in all of this ?
Who made up Santa? Whats his nationality, is he american, is he european, or is he perhaps canadian ?

Just some thoughts

]]> ~Cynical-Moi http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/10900291/ http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/10900291/ Thu, 30 Nov 2006 10:28:40 PST
Sometimes when I'm craving stuff I start going through a list in my head of my favourite foods to hopefully make myself feel better (when actually it makes me even more hungry). Im not a person who likes to try new dishes or meals, i dont like to experiment, I like to sit down and have a decent nice meal when im hungry

However I shall kindly consider some recommendations of dishes to try later when im not that cranky and hungry

So ..
Cafe Ceramic:
- Love their Chicken Quesadillas
- Chicken caesar salad
- chocolate fondant (YUM-EE!!) and black and white choco crepe
-mint lemonade

Lenotre:
-Penne Pasta with mushroom and chicken and white sauce and they add cashews which actually is yummy somehow
-lemonade
-tiramisu cake
(Lenotre have the best deserts ever, I suggest you try them)

Johnny Rockets:
-cheese fries with extra cheese and bacon
-grilled breast of chicken burger wth cheese
-cherry coke!

Mcdonald's:
-6 piece chicken nuggets with orange juice

Starbucks:
-cream blended frappuchino (chocolate or vanilla flavor)

Swensen's: only my favourite ice cream place, its like heaven on earth!
-a brownie with three scoops of ice cream (vanilla, chocolate, and cookies n cream) with malteser and almond toppings ..and yes i do finish the whole plate but i share my plate so dont freak out


and yes in case you were wondering i am quite a bit of a chubby person

]]> ~Cynical-Moi http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/10494743/ http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/10494743/ Tue, 24 Oct 2006 07:21:54 PDT 2.- If I were a colour I'd be...maroon
3.- If I were an animal I'd be...a cow
4.- If I were a dometic appliance I'd be... a refrigerator
5.- If I were a book I'd be...
6.- If I were a clothing item I'd be...a glove
7.- If I were a jewel I'd be...a white gold ring.
8.- If I were an object I'd be... closet
9.- If I were a car I'd be...
10.- If I were an element I'd be...liquid
11.- If I were a tree I'd be...a weeping willow
12.- If I were a drink I'd be...chocolate milk
13.- If I were an ice cream flavor I'd be...chocolate
14.- If I were a person I'd be...
15.- If I were a planet I'd be...
16.- If I were an insect I'd be...a grasshopper
17.- If I were public transport I'd be...a ship
18.- If I were a song I'd be...
19.- If I were a movie I'd be...Spirited Away
20.- If I were a season I'd be... Autumn
21.- If I were a flower I'd be... a tiger lilly
22.- If I were a job I'd be... fashion designing
23.- If I were a cartoon I'd be... courage the cowardly dog
24.- If I were a place I'd be... the desert
25.- If I were a gift I'd be...a painting
26.- If I were a memory I'd be... a home movie
27.- If I were a city I'd be... an empty one
28.- If I were a sense I'd be... smell
29.- If I were a game I'd be... hide and seek
30.- If I were a candy I'd be... toffee
31.- If I were a time of the day I'd be... 5 am
32.- If I were an invention I'd be...
33.- If I were a bodypart I'd be... hands
34.- If I were a country I'd be... japan?
35.- If I were a flavor I'd be... Bitter.
36.- If I were a sport I'd be... show jumping
37.- If I were a smell I'd be... banana smell or coffee
38.- If I were a subject I'd be... psychology
39.- If I were a flag I'd be... a plain white one
40.- If I were a building I'd be...
41.- If I were a month I'd be... October
42.- If I were a perfume I'd be... lacoste
43.- If I were a gummy candy I'd be... cola bottle ones
45.- If I were a toy I'd be... polly pocket or my little pony
46.- If I were a textile I'd be... satin or silk
47.- If I were a shape I'd be... a triangle
48.- If I were a answer I'd be... a long one
49.- If I were a common liquorice I'd be... huh?
50.- If I were a word I'd be... ebony

]]> ~Cynical-Moi http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/10452522/ http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/10452522/ Fri, 20 Oct 2006 05:42:16 PDT
Just now as i was trying to sleep on a hungry stomach so i could wake up at athaan and eat everything i can, i had the best violent mental image yet.

You see, im in university now, freshmen. And i have this white trash bitch of a professor who considered my whole quiz answers wrong (although they were the right answers) because i did not 'follow directions' and write the answers at the beginning of each sentence, but at the end. ( We had to label sentences in a paragraph with letters, i wrote the letters at the end of each sentence instead of at the beginning, that according to her makes my answers wrong, not the answers themselves)

So here i was trying to sleep when this mental image popped into my head:
Me approaching the professor, taking off my Pretty Fit (and rather heavy) heels and slapping her on the face with one shoe, then throwing the other at her head, then i grab on to her hair and start pulling as hard as i can and if any other students dare interfere with my revenge they shall suffer too

i just hope i dont actually do that one day ..

]]> ~Cynical-Moi http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/10158774/ http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/10158774/ Sat, 23 Sep 2006 04:57:56 PDT
Sure, I tripped and fell in front of everyone with my books and bag flying everywhere and everyone (yes everyone in the university, and im not exaggerating) saw me fall, and some people actually gasped and yelled is she okay to attract more attention

Sure I had a door get slammed in my face a couple of times (apparently, people will only hold the door open for everyone in the campus except you)

Sure I lost my passport somewhere in the university (i got it a day later, security found it and called me 'pagel' which in indian means stupid for losing it) and now everytime he sees me he asks if ive lost my passport yet

Sure I was almost hit by TWO cars while crossing the road (one was a taxi, the other a woman on the phone)

Sure I got a locker that is 2 buildings away from the classes that i keep the tools i need for in that locker and have to walk back and forth from my locker to my class which again is TWO BUILDINGS away

Sure I need at least an hour to get to my university and thanks to the traffic it takes me two hours (dubai yah? Smile and Dubai smiles back at you.. sure sure )

The advantages and good things behind each and every miserable event:

After the embarassing fall I was a little less embarrassed because someone actually came to help me instead of just staring and made me feel better

I dont need to show the security my ID or give him my ID number im already known as the one who lost her passport

I learned that if im going to cross the road, i should run like i never ran before, even if the road is empty, one car will come for me just to see if it can kill me or scare the hell out of me ( i swear they're out to get me )

And about my locker.. well I keep telling myself "its exercise, you'll lose weight"

and as for the traffic, just wake up at 5 am and everything will be fine.

]]> ~Cynical-Moi http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/9892129/ http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/9892129/ Tue, 29 Aug 2006 03:54:04 PDT
-I want to travel the world, ive always wanted to go to Africa, i mean the savannahs or watever you call em (yeah i guess i should research it before deciding to go there knowing nothing lool) those safaris u know ! I've always wanted to see zebras and elephants and giraffes in person.. oh and cheetas i love em.

-I want to have my own clothes line, oh fuck it not just clothes i mean accessories bags shoes (sheyal and 3ebe in small amounts) too

-I want to publish a book because i think there arent enough crappy books in this world

-I want to rule the whole world ( im serious i would love to ) and i will start by buying my own country ( somehow i will come up with that money loool ) and then i want to burn the world ..just kidding

-I want to work in a clothes shop or restaurant just for the experience and feeling of it, Johnny rockets, id love to work there i just love the atmosphere

-I want to learn sign language because i find it a necessity and i would love to learn a worldwide language

-I want to own my own restaurant, because i love food and i appreciate it lool

-I want to major in everything i could possibly major in because you can never get enough knowledge and education

and i have so much more i'd love to do, but I will shutup about em and start with something at least, some seem impossible but everything starts "step by step" ]]> ~Cynical-Moi http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/9781699/ http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/9781699/ Sat, 19 Aug 2006 11:21:07 PDT
I've been gone for 10 days and already 200 daily deviations and messages, and all i have to say to those people is "i hate you inconsiderate people because you know i have this thing where i have to read and see every single deviation since im incapable of just deleting."

I have more things to add to my hate list.

Anywho .. news from my little vacation .. Oh yes i was on the verge of commiting suicide but sadly my mom wouldnt let me near any heights or windows. I had my knees stuck up a taxi driver's ass since the taxi was so messed up (i wonder how many cars and people this particular taxi crashed into) and to top that all of i got a fever and spent half of this vacation in bed in my hotel room. Sleeping, reading, watching tv.

I almost had a nervous breakdown where i was literally crying over the breakfast buffet and was about to drown to my death by plunging my head in the Foul we were having for breakfast.. but then again my mom was there to pull the plate away and knock me back to my senses.

Dont get me wrong it was fun, and could have been more fun if i hadnt gotten sick and depressed. Maybe next time ]]> ~Cynical-Moi http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/9617592/ http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/9617592/ Sun, 06 Aug 2006 12:51:36 PDT

I really want to go explore and seize my opportunity to have fun and learn new things there, so I was wondering if anyone could tell me about some nice places to go to.

I will be going to Cairo and Alexandria (eskendereyya).

Oh and i was also wondering if anyone knows about this famous horse stud farm they have there, its called mezra3at El Zahra, anyone know anything about it ? I reaaally want to go there ]]> ~Cynical-Moi http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/9550514/ http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/9550514/ Mon, 31 Jul 2006 05:29:30 PDT Crisis in Lebanon this is what you can do. Please read the following:

Since the start of the aggression against Lebanon on 12th July, 2006, hundreds of civilians have lost their lives; many of them children, thousands more have been injured and hundreds of thousands more are left bereaved and homeless, many of them fending for themselves and struggling to get their families to safety. Our heartfelt sorrow for their predicament is only a start! It is our duty as a community to do all we can to assist - Enough talk, it's time to take action!

Souq, the arabic Ebay, is providing people of the UAE with this GREAT opportunity to help. Please take the time to read this and don't hesitate to pledge an item to be auctioned even if it was a small one. Im sure that if you look around you, you will find something to give away to be auctioned. An Item makes a difference!

Dear Reader,

I came across an appeal to assist the victims of the aggression in Lebanon on
Souq.Com and felt that I should pass it on. Souq.Com accepts any Consumer Item or Collectable and places it on auction in the donor’s name and gives all the proceeds to the Red Crescent Societies to support their work in Lebanon with the victims of the aggression. For its part, Souq.Com does not charge any fees for charity auctions, and maintains a page to track all the activities of this charity drive.

Please click here to participate or go to: [link]

This campaign is based solely on word of mouth and the generosity of local
media. It is CRUCIAL that you tell others.

Copy this appeal to your journals/emails and make a difference people

-- Copied from Shamsee, ppl who are deviant watching me and most probably living in the UAE, please copy this into your journal. Insteadd of watching the news and not being able to do anything, act now and make a difference. ]]> ~Cynical-Moi http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/9416590/ http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/9416590/ Tue, 18 Jul 2006 13:28:14 PDT

Ok here goes, brace yourself:

- I hate racists and discrimination
- I hate ignorant stupid people
- I hate monkeys and apes (I think they're the most hideous creatures, but look so cute in cartoons and ONLY cartoons)
- I hate show offs, ok we get it, you have a lot we dont have, big fucking deal
- I hate OVER sensitive people, when im making a joke you're not supposed to take it seriously you jackass
- I hate procrastinaters (that means i hate myself cuz im one too)
- I hate it when someone has very high expectations and expects you to reach them when they're still so high
- I hate the songs that have been out lately because they're full of shitty lyrics that dont make sense
- I hate people who GOSSIP like theres no tomorrow, GET A LIFE DONT TALK ABOUT OTHERS' LIVES
- I hate it when someone judges me or puts me in a certain characteristics category, why do people need to categorize everything?
- I hate it when i contradict myself, because that just confuses me and drives me to think more, and i hate thinking alot
- I hate that Red Bull drink and i dont know how the hell people think its yummy
- I hate KitKat chocolate, but if i HAD to id eat it lol, hey chocolate is still chocolate
- I hate leather things, leather bags, leather shoes ANytHING with alligator, snake skin, EW i hate them
- I hate wearing the color white
- I hate those perverts who stare at young women EVEN when they're with their wives and children
- I hate those kids that try to act SOO damn mature that the act just bores u and starts to get frustrating
- I hate Tom Cruise..he's so fake and he's a sucky actor, i think my 5 yr old cousin can do a better job..and that couch jumping on Oprah? huh? wats up with that? ur already a bad actor dont embarrass yourself anymore
- I hate seafood, u couldnt force me to eat it even with a gun to my head
- I hate phone pix, phone shots quality is the crappiest quality and certainly not art
- I hate people telling me something i already know, it really frustrates me
- I hate people telling me WHAT to do, or ordering me around
- I hate people telling what NOT to do
- I hate it when i want to be left alone NO ONE leaves me alone and people are literally CHASING me and when i feel lonely, no one bothers.
- I hate to know that there are people out there better than me in many things
- I hate using public bathrooms, and i hate people using my personal bathroom
- I hate being disrespected and belittled or underestimated
- I hate grammar
- I hate sharing my bed because i know someone will be pulling the sheets from the other
- I hate doctors, because even when he's supposed to help you, he's a stranger that i just cant trust although i should
- I hate it when people are not straight forward with me, the going around in circles is annoying.

theres more to come the longer i live, trust me ]]> ~Cynical-Moi http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/9087044/ http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/9087044/ Fri, 16 Jun 2006 12:35:39 PDT not really sure.. somewhere round 157-158 cm, I still think i should be a taaaaad shorter

2. where do you see yourself in 5 years?
engaged ? LOL ok no im kidding.. Umm, just graduated from university and with a new job, but the same girl who bitches alot and has anger management issues


3. at this moment in your life how do u define love?
that feeling when an ugly person suddenly seems so beautiful to you, that all the other beautiful people suddenly seem uglier

4. is trust a word u apply alot in your life?

Rarely

5. who is the one person you can tell anything to and why?
Um no one, some stuff better be kept to yourself

6. What is your ideal honeymoon destination?
Anywhere he wants to take me would be fine, NEVER Paris, and MUST be a clean neat hygeinic place, I tend to get obsessive compulsive, but my own messiness doesnt count in that case



7. What would your wedding theme be like?
Something that would totally apphaul those old ladies that always go to weddings, black wedding dress, black everything, black black black..maybe a little red
All in all something surreal, weird and twisted.. ok im never going to get married with that attitude

8. Lookswise, what sort of man do you find attractive?

Guys with dark black facial hair, tall but not too tall, dimples is cute, those slight almost un noticable dimples and big grins

9. If you became a clothes designer what would you call your brand?

Death Factory..but im worried no one would buy anything.. so D factor

10. if u could speak 3 languages fluently, which would u choose?

French and Spanish and Russian

11. what do u usually do in ur freetime?

nothing, and then bitch about how i have nothing to do and look for people to accompany them do watever THEY do in their freetime

12. What present would u love 2 receive?

cam lenses, cam waterjacket, an outing with the people i love, snake, horse farm, and earrings ! Anything really "its the thought that counts"

13. Do u c urself as a mother?

Umm.. i guess so, yeah. My friend sees me as a mother of 13. I feel like killing her

14. What was the best part of ur childhood?

Playing with the barbies with my childhood friend and playing cop and robber in school with the kids

15. Are u a hopeless romantic or more realistic?

im bipolar, strictly this or strictly that, its kind of hard finding a balance in between

16. what would your life's soundtrack be?

Maroon 5's -"twisted"
or Lady lady that old cartoon lol

17. are you related to anyone famous?

maybe

18. what's your mobile ringtone?

i change my ringtone alot, mostly songs

19. what are your addictions?

chocolate and internet. But i think im much better now, I got bored of both.

20. what do you have too many of?

earrings its a shame we only have 2 ears

21. are you the person you thought you'd grow up to be?

not at all, im so much different than who i thought id be. Its kinda scary sometimes ]]> ~Cynical-Moi http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/9073461/ http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/9073461/ Thu, 15 Jun 2006 04:46:25 PDT
Im kind of bummed out that i havent taken any nice photos lately. I want someone to model for me, i have to have portrait shots ! I have NO decent portrait shots it sucks.
Petra if you're reading this I need you to model for meeee

I saw this woman today in debenhams while we were looking at shoes and i thought " she has nice feet, let her model for me !"
YES its so SAD so pathetic i actually thought of that, so help me here, someone offer their beauty for my cam to capture. sigh. ]]> ~Cynical-Moi http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/8650174/ http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/8650174/ Tue, 02 May 2006 21:57:59 PDT thought on my mind was ' UFF OMG I have school again..'
.
I hate school, i really do.
I hate the fact that we have to study almost everyday
and cram up our minds with things i bet im never going
to be using in my life unless im going to count the
probability of how many kids im going to get given that
i married a rich guy.
I hate the fact that we have to be quiet and sit in the
same place for aproximately 8 hours.
I reaaaaally hate the fact that we had to be herded into
the same darn room for the last 10 months.

But I love this room, for bringing the same 27 people
together everyday, and making us go through the pain or
studying together.
I love the cute ridiculous nicknames we all made for
each other and i love the people i was forced to face 5
days a week, 8 hours a day for the last 12 years of my
life. Even though i dont show it and despite the fact
that i always scream at them, throw things at them, and
diss them, i love them all.
We're all so different from each other,
and we have almost nothing in common aside from the fact
that we're always hungry..
We werent born together nor do we have share the same
parents..but if anyone asked how many siblings i have, i
wouldnt hesitate to say 'i have 27 sisters' " ]]> ~Cynical-Moi http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/8638448/ http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/8638448/ Mon, 01 May 2006 06:46:25 PDT and when im being myself they say i have an attitude problem
when im nice with someone they say im a pushover
when im realistic people say im a pessimist

and how come, when dealing with sensitive people, u have to be EXTRA nice and EXTRA careful not to say anything
why shouldnt it be the other way around ?

Why shouldn't the sensitive people try being NOT too sensitive with the insensitive for once?

]]> ~Cynical-Moi http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/8244333/ http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/8244333/ Thu, 23 Mar 2006 09:09:38 PST

Everybody has something, a possession that they treasure for certain personal reasons, and for me its my camera. It was passed on to me by my eldest sister..Well not really passed on to me, but i would always "borrow" it from her until she got fed up and gave it to me. So in a way i earned it didnt I ? haha.

I would walk around with the camera in my hand waiting for something beautiful to cross my path and take many pictures of it, so that everytime i wanted to see something beautiful all i had to do was look at the pictures.

At first i would get frustrated when i saw that the pictures werent as beautiful as the object i took the pictures of, and later on realised that its the way you take a picture of something that makes it beautiful and not the object alone.
There was so much that this camera had taught me, and so many more lessons yet to come. It taught me to observe whats around me to find the perfect angle, the perfect lighting, the perfect point of view.
Patience, a virtue i lack, had been given to me, all thanks to my camera. It taught me to wait for the right moment.

I love my camera, and i love the story behind it. I love everything about it because of the lessons it taught me, and because it shows me what im capable of. Because of the moments it captures, making those beautiful moments eternal.
So that if i ever forget, the pictures would remind me. ]]> ~Cynical-Moi http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/8204169/ http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/8204169/ Sun, 19 Mar 2006 05:54:53 PST
Had I known what horrible things were waiting for me out there in this frightening world, I wouldn’t have dared go explore. But it is too late. I know far too much than what I am supposed to know, and there is nothing I can do about it now.

Back then the world to me was rainbows and sunshine. I did not know that even with the sun shining above our heads a day can be as dark as ebony.

Back then he would listen to me talk and laugh at what I had to say
“You are still young.” He would say
“But we are of the same age” I would always reply
One day he came up to me and said “I will protect you”
I laughed “from what?”
“I can’t tell you yet, you’re too young to know”
“But we are of the same age! Tell me what I don’t know!” I said impatiently
“In time you will know everything, but you have to let me guide you through this world”
“I’m not a child”
“But you’re as innocent as one so I must protect you” He said.

With that he led me step by step into another world; he called it “the real world”.

It was as if my whole life I had been blindfolded, seeing never ending happiness until he came and took that blindfold off my eyes, only to see what my life truly is, and not what it seemed to be.
He told me the true ending of every story that had a happy ending. Cinderella never got her prince, sleeping beauty never did wakeup, and none of them lived happily ever after.

He uncovered all the secrets that have been kept from me and showed me the cruelty people are capable of.

“I can’t take it. This is too much… Enough, you’ve shown me too much.” I would say.

“You have seen nothing yet.” He replied.
That sentence made me shudder every time I had heard it from then on
“But I am too scared. Stop leading me into this world”
“Do not worry. I’m with you and here to protect you”

He took my hand and led me further in this world, it seemed as if I had opened a door that leads to hell and decided to walk in and take a stroll around.
I found myself surrounded with darkness, I was [B] lost [/B] and he was no where to be found. He lead me to the very center of that dreaded world and abandoned me there.


He said he would protect me but the truth is I needed to be protected from him.




--
Miss-placed ]]> ~Cynical-Moi http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/8174195/ http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/8174195/ Thu, 16 Mar 2006 00:56:41 PST

There are those who find their own completion in the incompletion of others

I dont get those people and i certainly dont like them (who DO i like anyway, i might as well put a label on my forehead that says " i hate everyone" .. which is sort of true )

There are those who think of themselves superior to others, and pick on them to feel complete. Those who are picked on feel a loss for being picked on and pass forward the negative energy by picking on people smaller than them or weaker to feel better. People who are weaker then them yet have the urge to pass the negative energy forward and pick on someone even weaker; aka the weakest.

Then what? What happens to the weakest?
Theres no end and certainly no point of all this.

The truth here is that the superiors are the weak ones, because they only become "complete" by making someone feel "incomplete". The strong people dont need that shit, they're complete already (example: me )

My math teacher said that im not smart. That bitch says a lot of shit she doesnt know the consequences to.
Just because i choose not to participate in class, or i choose not to do my best and study or practice, that does not mean "im not smart"

Im the sort of person who prefers to memorize and understand something, like biology
I dont like to practice and work on mathematics, thats why im much better in bio

If you asked me i think im much smarter than she is. Why ? Well, for a start, I dont need to make people feel bad so that i can feel good about myself.

]]> ~Cynical-Moi http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/8116525/ http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/8116525/ Thu, 09 Mar 2006 21:15:55 PST
PEOPLE DRIVE LIKE ASSES
asses would drive better if they could ! I swear to God!

I dont even have my liscence yet i BET i drive much better than those jackasses

Do they distribute the liscences to people as gifts??? shu ilsalfA???
I cant take it anymore, im thinking of carrying a pellet gun with me in the car..seriously ! IM GONNA USE IT!

they think they own the roads or something, LOOK AROUND YOU ! OTHER CARS!!!!

Im really starting to hate human beings all over.
Oh and not to forget ! the worst driver of them all! OUR DRIVER !
YES!
and i have to live with it! Driving me to and from school ! To and back from malls ! everywhere !!! IIIIIIIIII HAVE TO COPE WITH IT EVEN AFTER HE RAN OUR POOR CAT OVER !!!

THE ONLY THING LEFT IS FOR HIM TO RUN ME OVER AND I SWEAR I THINK HE'S GETTING TO IT AFTER HE KILLED A SOUL!

]]> ~Cynical-Moi http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/8046027/ http://Cynical-Moi.deviantart.com/journal/8046027/ Thu, 02 Mar 2006 11:24:56 PST
hmm..

Im the type of person who knows right from wrong but doesnt always choose to do the right thing

Im the type of person who would prefer doing nothing at all than do a useful thing that i dont like

Im the type of person who tries to prevent himself from judging someone from first sight or meeting

Im the type of person who likes to listen and be heard

Im the type of person who when he has a need must work on fulfilling it, when im hungry, my focus is on eating

theres so much to say, all so contradicting ! ]]> ~Cynical-Moi