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Cha, 'cause, like, that's what you do when you're bored. 'Duh!


Actually, don't get too excited; all I'm doing is moving some old stuff into scraps and posting some photos of new work as they come in. I've got a huge backlog of stuff from this year I have to process, but I think you'll like it when you see it.

Ok, maybe a little excitement is in order, but don't hurt yourself. Seriously, folks. It's just the interwebs.

Cheers,
Cy

]]> ~CyrusMacleod http://CyrusMacleod.deviantart.com/journal/18735912/ http://CyrusMacleod.deviantart.com/journal/18735912/ Sun, 08 Jun 2008 18:21:55 PDT ) teeter over into a more relaxed, content, and still tired Cameron. Note: Cameron doesn't usually talk about himself in the third person. He think's it's odd, but he is a bit of a nutter. :crazy look:

Enough of that, then... right! Poem is at the bottom, still needs a title and probably some time to percolate (that means sitting around in my journal for weeks on end un-worked on, for you folks playing at home. ). While we're on the subject of writing, I just caught this sentence floating about my head and felt the urge to write it down. "Ellis was the sort of man who used his hands to say most everything, which meant watching him at a photo shoot with only one hand available for conversation was guaranteed entertainment." That's going to go in the novel I'm working on at some point, but I have no idea where it goes yet. Well, no... at the moment it goes in the old scrapbook, otherwise called my journal. And here, of course. Ellis is the main character's husband--she's a poet and a linguist, he's a photographer and I-don't-know-what-else-yet-because-I've-not-gotten-that-far. Interesting side note: when I discovered Topaz (her name), I had this funny idea that she would just be engaged. Oh-ho, how silly of me--you see, she rather disagreed when it came to the business of actually writing this book. Two sentences in, she informs me she is, in fact, newly wed. What? I haven't the foggiest idea how to write a married person, much less a married woman, and considering the recent turns in my own love-life I'm about as far from there as you can be. But the story just didn't go if she and Ellis hadn't already tied the knot before we meet them on the page, so there you have it. As one of my friends told me, though, Topaz is just as new to this whole marriage thing as I would be, and probably just as scared out of her mind. So I suppose we're going to be learning a lot from each other, and I'm hoping writing this will help me process some of these anxieties and dreams as Topaz takes me along for her journey through this whole marriage/relationship thing. Looks to be an exciting adventure well worth the attempt, anyway.

Still doesn't keep me from being scared witless every time I think about picking up that little black notebook to work on this story, though. I think that's been what's choking me up creatively--my friend Jamie talked to me once about the intense fear an artist has when approaching a blank canvas or an open page, and the description fits. Just need to push through the fear and turn that energy into something I can pour through myself into the work. Which is exactly what happens when I sit down and force myself to create. Funny how that goes.

Damn... writing all this out makes me really itchy to get started. Thanks for bearing with me, folks.
Anyway, I promised you poetry, and here it is. As mentioned, it still needs a title, and... I'm wondering if the second movement might not work as a separate poem, perhaps in conjunction with this one but not as closely tied as they are now. What do you think? (and, please, feel free to comment on anything you'd like about anything you'd like, not just the poem--I'm all ears and I love talking to people!)



I. Turned Inward.

I wander around my living spaces
steadily pacing, pacing, pac--
I leave everything unfinished, you know;
soon I am sitting at the piano,
keys sticking to my fingers in the heat,
a wandering melody
but then I am up again
tossing around my living spaces
restless, pacing, pacing, p
I leave everything
I sit at the kitchen table
arching my back 'til the vertebrae ache,
or I sleep, or half-sleep, or pretend to sleep
you know, dreamless sleep, hollow sleep, sleep on the inside
hungry sleep that eats up, eroding your mind
dimming the nerve fiber connections from your soul to everything else
but who cares? I'm all humidity anyway
as dull and... ]]> ~CyrusMacleod http://CyrusMacleod.deviantart.com/journal/18650591/ http://CyrusMacleod.deviantart.com/journal/18650591/ Tue, 03 Jun 2008 18:21:18 PDT
Dear friends,

This summer is going well.

Scratch that. This summer is saving my rear.

Sure, there are moments of feeling intellectually, socially, spiritually and emotionally outstripped by my peers, but then again, there are those long, lovely moments with wonderful people like Laura, and Eddy, and Seth and Leslie before they left; those more than compensate. I'm trying to sort my life out after the end of this spring semester, which... is happening a lot more intuitively than I thought it would, all things considered. There are my friends helping me, for one thing, just by being there and... and occasionally reminding me of who I really am. The beautiful and mysterious part of it is, I think not one of them knows they have, at least not directly. It happens in all sorts of small ways; like walking through Letchworth Park, or a passing "I liked hanging out today, I'm glad you were here," or any myriad of silly little things. No, they're not silly... probably lots of people would call them silly, though. Small things.

There's also the church I'm attending. We're a small group during the summer after most of us students leave, but a very hospitable one. I've told almost no one there about what's happening in my life right now, but being around them is still powerfully encouraging somehow. Not always, in fact almost never, in one of those ecstatically happy, rapturously uplifting sorts of ways; something a bit more subtle and almost unnoticeable, I think. Uplifting, yes, but the way a friend is uplifting when you're breaking down in chapel and he or she puts a hand on your shoulder or an arm around you. A gentle reminder that there are people and there is a Love to catch you and carry you if you need it.

That reminds me of something I heard at the writing festival in Grand Rapids I went to; Scott Cairns was talking about some of the monastic traditions, and about people carrying each other in prayer. The idea is that there's a community which is always praying and caring for people, even when you can't. That's something of a tangent, but what I suppose I'm getting at is this: God is there, somehow, and so are people who love you. They might not even be a part of the body of believers as such... but still there to turn to. Anyway, this church is one of those places where the people remind me that I can hope.

I'm on the worship planning committee there, now... how did that happen? I've never done anything like this in my life. Ever. And why now, of all times, when I'm trying to figure out who I am again? It's certainly nothing I feel I'm a all capable of... and I think that's exactly why this opportunity arose, and secretly, I know it's part of why I decided to take it. I've never done this before; every time I go to a meeting (okay, all two of them so far), the few seconds just beforehand I remember all the things I haven't done, and precisely how little time I think I've spent with God (which is, come to think of it, a strange thing to say), and more or less exactly how unprepared I am and how much I am going to completely fall flat on my face and let the people I care about down. But, of course, that's how I talk myself out of doing anything. And then, just as I'm sitting down, I remind myself that, because I'm so out of my league, I have no choice but to be completely reliant on God, and quietly... quietly, my mind stops racing inwards on itself. It's a strange journey, to be on this interior side of a community, strange and wonderful. It's oddly organic; I feel like I'm contributing to something that has a life of its own, and in a way, that's precisely true.

Small things, you see.

There are long walks in the afternoons, sometimes, when I'm feeling aimless. There's music, old music on the radio, new music on the radio, music on my CD player, music in friends' houses, in coworkers' stereos. Coworkers--no, they're friends, too.

I'm working on the custodial crew at my college again this summer. Most people seem to complain about their summer jobs, but I'm glad to have this one. We've been working in the art building for close to two weeks now, which I absolutely love; for the past two weeks, there's nowhere I'd rather be. I've recently figured out (or put words to the idea) that I am discovering I'm a tactile person. Give me something I can work my hands into, run my fingers over, watch taking shape or changing in front of me... even music for me is an almost tangible thing. The last three work days I've been responsible for cleaning the clay mixing room in the ceramics studio, basically by myself. Set loose on the clay spatter with a wooden tool and some rags, to figure out how to clean it with my own two hands--I love working with my hands. First of all, especially with this, I get an incredible feeling of accomplishment when I'm done. Secondly, and this is another reason I... ]]> ~CyrusMacleod http://CyrusMacleod.deviantart.com/journal/18615768/ http://CyrusMacleod.deviantart.com/journal/18615768/ Sun, 01 Jun 2008 18:47:08 PDT I just hooked up the stereo system I bought for college, after a year of disuse, and Muse but particularly the Advent Children soundtrack sounds impeccable on it still.
I mean, there's nothing quite like a legato choral piece with just a few cluster chords and the right amount of bass; it becomes something tangible, like an audile texture... or a piano piece that makes you feel the keys sliding under your fingers.

I guess we all know what my favored synesthesia is, now

yep, that's about it.


Oh, and, hello, this is me. I'm back.

]]> ~CyrusMacleod http://CyrusMacleod.deviantart.com/journal/13255405/ http://CyrusMacleod.deviantart.com/journal/13255405/ Thu, 07 Jun 2007 17:11:57 PDT
So, internet, it’s been a while. It’s been almost two months since I got back from my sojourn in London, and while a great deal has changed, so much of it is the same. Yeah, okay, that’s cliché—but cliché doesn’t always mean untrue.
What’s different? How I look at things, probably. I mean, tv is basically the same, just worse… my friends are growing up, growing together and growing apart. One of my best friends is getting married in a year; another is finishing up a degree in computer graphics from Full Sail—who knows where they’re going to end up afterward? In the past year I’ve grown up, too, a little bit. I’m figuring out who I am, what my talents are (that I have talents, really…, mostly thanks to my girlfriend—do you have any idea how wonderful it feels when someone who cares about you is always there to remind you that who you are, your God-given identity is…. good? Everybody needs that, I’m convinced of it. And everybody could have it, if they looked in the right places—but we condition ourselves and are conditioned by our environment to give up looking long before we really have a chance to find it.

The London program took me through the history of Western Civilization, the art and philosophy that drove us Westerners to where we are, and what I saw as I got ready to come home was a world disconnected from itself. People, like it or not, need other people—to live with, to grow with, to love and be loved in return—not in a sappy, hypocritical romance-novel kind of way, but real love, honest love: the dangerous kind of love, a kind of radical trusting relationship (between lovers, between parents and children, between the best of friends—Hell, even people who live on the same street, sometimes), the kind that changed the world once and with gentle, insistent nudges can change it again, slowly. Yeah, I’m an idealist, there’s no saving me from that. And yeah, I want to change the world, I want to be a part of the Great Conversation, I want to throw these ideas, this world I live in out there for dialogue, to get other people to think—not necessarily like me, but just to consider the possibility that people are designed to be together, not to use each other like just another resource. I want community to come back, not so that “everyone can be equally special” or “some people can bring order to the rest of us;” I want community so we can all actually have some contact with something real, something vibrant and alive instead of cold steel and glass. I want ideas to flow together and be talked about—some embraced, some discarded, some modified and blended with others, all considered, all discussed. I want the West to get it’s suicidal act together and start trying to live again.

If we’re going to live again as a people, then as a person we all have to start thinking about being alive.

So here’s a challenge for you, you artists, you writers, you everyday joes and josephines, if you don’t mind the possibility of talking about philosophy, about art, about religion:

How do we live, what do we live for? What do you say with your art, how do you use your gifts? What is Truth, and where are we going? What, in other words, is your worldview? And how are you going to live, really LIVE as though you were alive?

Good night, internet friends—fellow artists, brethren philosophers, cultural movers and shakers-to-be. I love you all, not all the time and not as much as I should, but at some level I love you--yes, I mean that, and no, I’m not Barney and God knows I’m no Jesus. Still, I love you. Love as it manifests itself in this, our world, is a connection, a trust and a bond—not always felt, but always hoped for and to some degree always known, recognized, and searched for. As human beings you were intended to love and be loved. Start living it.

As always, I’ll see y’all on the flipside.
--Cy

]]> ~CyrusMacleod http://CyrusMacleod.deviantart.com/journal/11265818/ http://CyrusMacleod.deviantart.com/journal/11265818/ Sun, 31 Dec 2006 21:50:22 PST
Oh, and....


I HAVE A NEW TABLET I HAVE A NEW TABLET I HAVE A NEW TABLEEEEETTTTT!!!!!!!

Wooot!




That means... colored art! COLORED ART!!!!!


updates later...


oh, adn go check out the Because it's got promise. Yeah


Here's to another 364 1/4 days, folks!

Cheers,
----Cy

]]> ~CyrusMacleod http://CyrusMacleod.deviantart.com/journal/11083039/ http://CyrusMacleod.deviantart.com/journal/11083039/ Sat, 16 Dec 2006 11:07:17 PST
Well, I do have some more art in the works; two pictures specifically, and if I can get those out I should be able to get on a roll more generally. Also, I've been invited to join the *Anthro-Alliance here on DA, so that's cool.

All righty, then, folks---Catch ya on the flipside!
Merry Christmas, and a great season generally!

-----Cyrus

]]> ~CyrusMacleod http://CyrusMacleod.deviantart.com/journal/10815517/ http://CyrusMacleod.deviantart.com/journal/10815517/ Wed, 22 Nov 2006 19:31:11 PST
]]> ~CyrusMacleod http://CyrusMacleod.deviantart.com/journal/10531141/ http://CyrusMacleod.deviantart.com/journal/10531141/ Fri, 27 Oct 2006 19:50:16 PDT could be, which is why it's fun!)

Anyhow, folks... I have a huge research paper coming due. I know, major un-coolness; however, 2 things may redeem it: 1. I'm writing it to argue that Science Fiction/Fantasy is a legitimate form of literature, and 2. With the amount of time I'm going to be spending in the library, I may be able to locate a useable scanner! w0-freakin'-0t. That means ART folks! Maybe not colored, but something is better than nothing, right?

Don't hold your breath, though, folks--that would be bad. Instead, check all these folks out (and get that Tsaiwolf character to post something! I know, I'm a horrible hypocrite, but whatever, it's all in good fun. )

:taintedsilence:

They're pretty darn good, I'll say! Nine out of ten warthogs agree: they're at least 2500% better than being struck with a sledgehammer! the tenth one was just masochistic...


okay, folks, catch ya on the flipside!

-----Cy

]]> ~CyrusMacleod http://CyrusMacleod.deviantart.com/journal/10453549/ http://CyrusMacleod.deviantart.com/journal/10453549/ Fri, 20 Oct 2006 08:24:41 PDT
Well, October break has come... and is half gone. Grr... time is very quickly earning my wrath. So, on the docket are some Bib Lit readings and responses, some cursory research for a major project coming due in in insane two weeks' time, and just getting (finally) adjusted to this whole college... thing.

Ahh! Why is it so easy for me to procrastinate, but not to just accept that I do, like other people? And why is it that I have to get my hopes up and make a mess of everything I touch? And why is it that when I get melancholy, I just end up complaining and bringing everyone else down with me? I should be stronger than this... and yet I am not. I should be capable of handling this, but I'm not so sure right now. Oh, I know eventually I'll swing upwards and look down on all this and go, "wow, I was really immature about all this stress, wasn't I?" Eh, whatever... I'll be fine. After all, it is autumn, and it is raining, and I was able to sleep until noon yesterday, which is something most college students would kill for. Seriously--I knew a guy that happened to. (Not really, folks... you can take a joke, right?)

Grr... well, back to work, I suppose. Even if no one reads this, it felt good to get it out there--still connected to the outside world and my own history, I guess, in some small way.


All right, now that I've dumped this on your collective heads, I think I'll leave. "Well I'm leaaving / on a jet-plane / don't know when I'll be back agaiiin..."

Catch ya'll on the flipside, once I figure out exactly where that is. Til then, same old same old spiel. G'day, peeps.

-----Cy

]]> ~CyrusMacleod http://CyrusMacleod.deviantart.com/journal/10233832/ http://CyrusMacleod.deviantart.com/journal/10233832/ Sat, 30 Sep 2006 07:16:03 PDT dead lately. It's no big deal.. I understand if a few of you are getting rather annoyed, though I doubt any of you really are.

Anyway, this deadness is not going to get remedied anytime soon. just a forewarning.

Part of it comes, obviously, from workload. Being a college student is a full time job, and when you're doing 15 credits for the semester and also working a dinner shift job, time management becomes almost impossible to pull off. But why not do art in your free time, Cyrus? Well, I do, actually, but firstly I have nothing with which to upload any of it and nothing but a stupid mouse to use to finish it. And last, but far from least, I'm a little distracted by someone special... the first someone special. She makes me feel more like me than I feel with anyone else... just thought I'd share.

So, in closing, then, I warn you that I am far from being the perfect, attendant dA artist now. Don't take it personally, please... and I still love hearing from you guys. It just might take me a while to aswer.


Have a great day!

-----Cy

]]> ~CyrusMacleod http://CyrusMacleod.deviantart.com/journal/9923553/ http://CyrusMacleod.deviantart.com/journal/9923553/ Thu, 31 Aug 2006 20:33:14 PDT
So, my dorm serenaded the Girls Dorms (yes, both of them. Shenawana is an amazing place to be ), and in return, they came and serenaded us. It rocked. We chased them. And everybody won.

Classes are going well... i lost my tablet stylus, though!!! GRrrr... Makes me soooooooo ANGRY---and I was just about to finish a new piece for you guys! Pff.... I think some bored ancestor may be playing tricks on me. (that's a family joke, by the way. no one's supoosed to get it. ) Anyway, I might upload the unfinished Colorblocking to my scraps if oyu guys are really thirsty for some art. : p

Well, that being said, I will be taking commisions eventually, once i finish getting paypal set up. Before that point, however, the first, say, ten people who ask or comment on this journal will get a free commision (if they want one). Details will be hammered out as we go.

That's about it, folks. I'm off now to do some reading for Advanced Comp and various other courses. Catch ya all on teh flipside.

G'nite, mates!
-----Cy ]]> ~CyrusMacleod http://CyrusMacleod.deviantart.com/journal/9836662/ http://CyrusMacleod.deviantart.com/journal/9836662/ Thu, 24 Aug 2006 08:33:35 PDT
Well, it's here, finally. Today is the last day before I move into my dorm and orientation officially begins. That's right, as of eight A.M. Friday, I will officially be :gasp!: A college student. Ba-ba-BAAAh!!! My so far totally awesome roomate has his own dA page: :iconsnot-rag:

So, for a week or so, don't hold your breath for art or really meaningful comments. I'm sorry. Anyway, you guys have been great. I love being on dA! Maybe over the semester I'll get on some other art communities--stay tuned!

Some projects I have planned for when I have time:
*An engagement gift for ~Zethsaire and her fiancee
*Cd booklet (20 themed pictures- 18 tracks, front and back cover)
*Picture of Rammath and anonymous unlucky bloke.
*More (and better quality) colored reference pics for my characters. That should be fun once I get the hang of it.

Well, that's it for now. TTYL, folks!
Have a great fall.
-----Cyrus ]]> ~CyrusMacleod http://CyrusMacleod.deviantart.com/journal/9545841/ http://CyrusMacleod.deviantart.com/journal/9545841/ Sun, 30 Jul 2006 18:09:37 PDT
Anyway, continuing that slow looping journey towards college. Finally got a hold of my roomate--an awesome guy, from what I can tell. We should have an interesting time this semester, to say the least. I'm looking forward to college more than ever now.

As to commisions and so on, it's looking like paypal is going to be the way to go for me, but that won't get set up for a bit longer. Not that people are particularly lined up to have me do commision work for them, but hopefully a few people will want some things here and there; I can only hope. in the meantime, i'm perfectly willing to do requests and gifts and trades for people--anything, really. Just note me or post a comment and we'll discuss details. I won't do everything (not enough time in the day) but if a particular project catches my interest I'd be more than willing to carry that out to conclusion.

Well, writing is going nowhere right now, but I do have an account on FictionPress for when it does get going strong again. I really need to do something major, with writing or with art or something, and soon, just so I can keep sharp. Any thoughts?



Ah, whatever. Y'all just keep doin' what you're doin'... I'm sure it's all good.
Have a great Summer's End, and I'll see you on the flipside. ]]> ~CyrusMacleod http://CyrusMacleod.deviantart.com/journal/9200018/ http://CyrusMacleod.deviantart.com/journal/9200018/ Tue, 27 Jun 2006 13:16:01 PDT
okay, well... I is gradumacated, officially. That's right, folks, Cy is about to be unleashed upon the world! Hah... scary. Anyway, since no one really cares about that, suffice it to say I am graduated and getting ready for college. Feels a bit like that last second before going over the peak of a roller coaster, when everything just stops and gravity hasn't quite taken over yet, but you know that all you can do is close your eyes, hold on, and wait for the ride to stop.

So, I will have pieces ready for uploading sooon... but not super soon, since i'm having problems with my tablet and photoshop. I dunno.. maybe I'm just out of practice or something, but I cant ge tthe two to work right together like I did before. Anyway, enough about that.

Commisions! Trades! Gifts! Something! Yes, that's right, by the end of the summer (hopefully) I will have commisions opened up. Right now it's just a matter of setting up a method for recieving payment. But Trades are available in the meantime. Just note me and give me some kind of reference thing---or just an idea to go on. Also, as always, If you would like to do something based on one or more of my characters, I am more than willing to allow it--so long as you ask (and recieve) permission first. A note or comment on my main page will suffice--this is open to anyone. References for said trades/fanart may be found in my gallery (there will be more soon)


So thats it for now, folks. See ya on the flipside!
-----Cy ]]> ~CyrusMacleod http://CyrusMacleod.deviantart.com/journal/8828323/ http://CyrusMacleod.deviantart.com/journal/8828323/ Sat, 20 May 2006 18:25:07 PDT
Right then, on to more pertinent information.
I have not been doing as much art lately as I would have liked... most of my time is now spent writing bits and pieces of shtuff in-between class, Dessert Theater Rehearsals, and anything else that might be going on. If someone would like to tell me how to preserve all the information from text when copying and pasting up here, I could probably post some of my more recent writings up. If not, well... I guess nothing happens.

Speaking of writing, my dear friend ~tsaiwolf recently asked me to do some writing for him, which should prove to be fun if I can ever get started on it. Still, that project is only in the embryonic stages at his point, but the sooner I get going, the sooner I get done...

In the line of artwork, ~BansheeRika has approached me about an art trade that is also in the works... look for something to happen on the within the next six months or so...

Finally, the ever-dreaded tag...

Rules: The 1st player of this "game" starts with the topic "6 weird habits/things about yourself" and people who get tagged need to write a journal about their 6 weird habits/things as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next 6 people to be tagged and list their names. Don't forget to leave a comment that says "you are tagged" in their devpage comments and tell them to read yours....

I was tagged by ~tsaiwolf

1. I talk a lot about getting back to people and having big plans but I'm generally late on doing things
2. If there's something small hanging around on a desk or whatever that has an interesting texture, I'll probably end up toying with it just to do something with my hands.
3. Unless I'm very careful about it, when I'm listening to really good music on my headphones I'll end up singing along very softly without realizing it. Had a few interesting bus rides with that...
4. Whenever possible while out and about with guests, I'll let someone else decide where to go eat or what movie to see, sometimes to the point of going round and round about not having an opinion. I gues I'm obsessed with not being imposing... that's weird, right?
5. interesting fact---being a prospective writing major DOES NOT make you able to talk clearly in general conversation.
6. I'm in a bad habit of quoting from obscure sources at inappropriate times, or reciting song lyrics in my head when somebody uses a cliche phrase in my vicinity.

And now I tag…



Fine print: Mention of deviant in prior journal entry does not explicitly denote obligaiton to participate in so-called "tag."

have a nice week, folks!

-----cy ]]> ~CyrusMacleod http://CyrusMacleod.deviantart.com/journal/8701318/ http://CyrusMacleod.deviantart.com/journal/8701318/ Sun, 07 May 2006 13:55:08 PDT Yeah, me too.
Anywaay... far tooo much has happened sice that point to really give you folks who still care any real clue about what's been going on in my life, so, I'll summarize---
I have designed my senior class's class t-shirts and prom logo, been involved with two concerts and one musical (Beauty and the Beast--I was Cogsworth. It was fun.), got a date to prom, went shopping for a tux and gave my input on a dress, then went on my senior trip to VA and got swamped by a vengeful Calculus teacher upon my return. Wich brings us up to now.
In short, I got a life, then lost it. Currently, I'm working on getting it back. Details to follow--right now I'm off to a birthday party.

-----Cy ]]> ~CyrusMacleod http://CyrusMacleod.deviantart.com/journal/7170755/ http://CyrusMacleod.deviantart.com/journal/7170755/ Mon, 28 Nov 2005 18:47:41 PST Ocean Avenue, by the way, cliche as that is, I DON'T CARE! "Way Away" and "Breathing" are awesome tracks--and I am feeling the pressure of deadlines, scholarship applications and college decisions, which make for a general mixture of anxious apprehension and an ecstatic, confused onrush of who-really-knows-what. Just generally getting through those classic Erikson stages of development (currently I believe I'm in that crisis of "Who am I?," but that may be an oversimplificaiton) Ah, but enough grousing. As a classmate of mine said, "Everything is good!" Hurrah! Onward and Upward.

Now, on to business. I've been "tagged" recently, so here are my 20 self-descriptive statements:

1. I never give out my full name over the internet. Call me paranoid, but that's just how I am.
2. I believe in the potential of humanity, the existence of Good and Evil, and our equal ability to do either of these things with our lives.
3. Sometimes I talk too much about politics, religion, and philosophy, even when I declare that I won't.
4. Sometimes I can get very cryptic.
5. I absolutely love music, though I admit readily that I can't read sheet music worth a lick, and on the instruments for which I can read music I am not nearly well-practiced enough.
6. I try to solve people's problems when I can, and sometimes when I know I shouldn't, though I can't understand myself worth a damn half the time.
7. I tend to pick out my flaws a lot.
8. I enjoy all types of fiction, and especially SF/Fantasy fiction. My favorite authors at the moment are Asimov, Alfred Bester, Orson Scott Card, and Greg Egan. Give me a good Sci-Fi novel, and I'll occupy myself for a week.
9. I love anything that involves creating something--art, writing, you name it. I only wish I had the guts to follow through with every good idea I had.
10. I think I'd like to be a writer, but I want to learn a little bit of everything if I could.
11. I daydream, but I don't write my thoughts down nearly often enough.
12. I can be redundant quite often.
13. I don't have a fovorite color really, but if I had to pick, I'd say it would be a deep shade of blue.
14. I love the wind, and I love water. I also love thunder and lightning. Therefore, I love those midsummer thunerstorms that you can see coming from miles away, the kind that change the color of the air right before they dump a torrent of rain and blinding light on your head.
15. I wish I understood why people act the way they do--at least, better than I do now.
16. I wish I could choose to project my thoughts without words, since language can become so obscure and clumsy as to fall eventually into inadequacy at the most critical times.
17. I wish there were more hous in the day, or at least, that time didn't seem to fly so quickly precisely when it shouldn't.
18. I hope to eventually finish my first book. The problem is getting started.
19. My greatest fantasy is to wander the stars with someone I love, and have the universe thrown open to us.
20. My best freind is , and I have recently become a member of

Now that that's over, I nominate... oh, who cares. If someone wants to do it, do it. I'll listen.

Oh, and here's another random thin to do with journals that someone on dA had in theirs. It goes as follows, from ~Aelius24 :

Swiped from .

C is a rule, so ^.^ postage

(A) First, recommend to me:
1. a movie
2. a book
3. a musical artist, song, or album

(B) I want everyone who reads this to ask me three questions, no more, no less. Ask me anything you want. No kidding, ANYTHING, I'll give you the absolute honest truth, to the best of my ability.

(C) Then I want you to go to your journal, copy and paste this allowing your friends to ask you anything.

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Okay, a word of warning... be reasonable, k? That's all I ask....

Goood Night!
~CyrusMacleod http://CyrusMacleod.deviantart.com/journal/6487506/ http://CyrusMacleod.deviantart.com/journal/6487506/ Mon, 12 Sep 2005 16:52:08 PDT as active with my deviations as I would like to be, hibernation is officially canceled.

In other news: my friend and fellow artist ~tsaiwolf and I will be/are embarking on a collaborative project... namely, I'll be writing and doing some sketchwork, and he'll be illustrating (and, someday, with any luck, animating) characters and scenes. I'm thinking about perhaps creating a separate account specifically to showcase the development of this(these) project(s) that the both of us can somehow use. If anyone out there knows how to set something like that up, please tell me or tsai.
Also, I am officially a member of , so that's cool... even though they're kinda backed up right now, so I hgaven't really been able to participate in anything on it.

So... that about covers it for now.

Ja, y'all!
-----Cy ]]> ~CyrusMacleod http://CyrusMacleod.deviantart.com/journal/6487441/ http://CyrusMacleod.deviantart.com/journal/6487441/ Mon, 12 Sep 2005 16:44:24 PDT as active with my deviations as I would like to be, hibernation is officially canceled.

In other news: my friend and fellow artist ~tsaiwolf and I will be/are embarking on a collaborative project... namely, I'll be writing and doing some sketchwork, and he'll be illustrating (and, someday, with any luck, animating) characters and scenes. I'm thinking about perhaps creating a separate account specifically to showcase the development of this(these) project(s) that the both of us can somehow use. If anyone out there knows how to set something like that up, please tell me or tsai.
Also, I am officially a member of , so that's cool... even though they're kinda backed up right now, so I hgaven't really been able to participate in anything on it.

So... that about covers it for now.

Ja, y'all!
-----Cy ]]> ~CyrusMacleod http://CyrusMacleod.deviantart.com/journal/6394523/ http://CyrusMacleod.deviantart.com/journal/6394523/ Fri, 02 Sep 2005 05:48:57 PDT
Hopefully this is not a permanent situation.

ja ne, all.
-----Cy ]]> ~CyrusMacleod http://CyrusMacleod.deviantart.com/journal/6160870/ http://CyrusMacleod.deviantart.com/journal/6160870/ Sun, 07 Aug 2005 17:01:11 PDT
Mood: Wowed
Listening to: Mama --Genesis
Reading: Hellspark, also, The Stars my Destination
Watching: umm, actually, Law & Order right now...

That just about says it... Jeez loweez, wow! To whomever suscribed me, thank you.

Well, sorry for the lag in posts lately, just got back from a college thingie.. we spent a night in the dorms, then took a day of "sample classes." So, that was interesting. Now, I'm not going to that college specificaly, but it was very informative.


Currently working on a commision for :iconDestinySmasher: , so that will dominate my posts for a while.

That's all I've really got to say about that for now...

Catch y'all on the flipside! ]]> ~CyrusMacleod http://CyrusMacleod.deviantart.com/journal/6130840/ http://CyrusMacleod.deviantart.com/journal/6130840/ Thu, 04 Aug 2005 09:33:46 PDT
So, basically, I'm saying you all can have your pseudo-political power struggles and union actions and debates, but after this journal, I'm leaving it alone. Just, leave me out of it, okay?

Sorry if I've offended or annoyed anyone, but politics do the same to me.

Have a nice day, seriously, folks. I'm a gonna draw something now.

-----Cy ]]> ~CyrusMacleod http://CyrusMacleod.deviantart.com/journal/6092464/ http://CyrusMacleod.deviantart.com/journal/6092464/ Sun, 31 Jul 2005 18:47:32 PDT Haloo?

All right, down to business, then... just got a new video card in the computer, which means I can now run (and fully enjoy, thank you very much) the D&D derivative Neverwinter Nights: Gold Edition. Yah, ookay, I know it's not the "Platinum Edition..." Big freaking whup. So, I'm missing one game and a new set of monsters, items, etcetera. But who cares? I've also got a 3-D gaming modifier thing, so I'm happy... though I've no idea how to use it...

Catch y'all on the flipside, folks... Anybody know where that is? Anybody got a clue...? Halloo? Aww, faugheddaboutit... ]]> ~CyrusMacleod http://CyrusMacleod.deviantart.com/journal/5926388/ http://CyrusMacleod.deviantart.com/journal/5926388/ Wed, 13 Jul 2005 19:12:40 PDT :sigh:
To anyone on my friends list I have not commented to/on or even really looked at recently, I apologize. To anyone that watches me and is eagerly and impatiently awaiting (yeah, right...) new work from me, I also beg forgiveness. I'm not going to try and make excuses, I've been really lazy. However, despite that, I should be able to get something up soon... maybe two or three somethings, mweheheh...

Also, if anyone knows what might be causing certain deviants to be unable to submit anything to their accounts, no matter what computer they access it from, leave a comment on this journal or contact :~tsaiwolf:

Muchas gracias!
Thanks for bearing with me. ]]> ~CyrusMacleod http://CyrusMacleod.deviantart.com/journal/5310682/ http://CyrusMacleod.deviantart.com/journal/5310682/ Mon, 09 May 2005 11:57:26 PDT Hitchiker's Guide, and it was actually really good. Not as good as the book, of course, but no literature-based movie is, really, so I can't fault them there. It did more justice to the book and radio series than the various so-called Dunes did to Herbert's work, thankfully. I could even get over Marvin being short and stubby... The character was still there. And the dolphin song... perfect. so, i apologize to anyone I offended by my rush to judgement.
BTW, Kung Fu Hustle and Sin City were pretty good, too.

-----Cy ]]> ~CyrusMacleod http://CyrusMacleod.deviantart.com/journal/5161585/ http://CyrusMacleod.deviantart.com/journal/5161585/ Fri, 22 Apr 2005 19:46:17 PDT
In other news, I have decided that by not going to see The Hitchiker's Guide to the Galaxy next saturday I can use that five bucks and two hours of my life that I'm never going to get back on something else, like... Kung Fu Hustle, or Sin City, or something mildly more interesting...

Anyway, I'm boring you all to death, I can tell, so good night, WOrld! You Rock! We Love you! WOOHOO!

(end transmission) ]]> ~CyrusMacleod http://CyrusMacleod.deviantart.com/journal/5132298/ http://CyrusMacleod.deviantart.com/journal/5132298/ Tue, 19 Apr 2005 17:41:46 PDT Watching: My computer screen.
Reading: The Ultimate Hitchiker's Guide Omnibus collection

Heheheh... Okay, everyone. Enough dark moods and silent, nasally congested reveries. Cy is back, and now he's writing again! w00t!
Ahh, yes, and the sudden good humor is only exaggerated by the Hitchiker's Guide series, through which I am approximately halfway done. I can't wait to see the movie, but I have serious doubts... I mean, can't they even give Zaphod two heads? Seriously, people! Ah, well... Still looks friggen cool...

-----Cy
"My doctor tells me I have malformed public service gland and a natural deficiency in moral fiber. Therefore, I should be excused from saving universes."
-Ford Prefect, Life, the Universe, and Everything, part three of the < iHitchiker's Guide to the Galaxy series. ]]> ~CyrusMacleod http://CyrusMacleod.deviantart.com/journal/5084988/ http://CyrusMacleod.deviantart.com/journal/5084988/ Thu, 14 Apr 2005 07:34:08 PDT

In other news, I entered "Prelude" in a local art show and got... Nothing! That's right, folks, I didn't place at all... But then again, there were tons of really cool stuff there, and there was no correct category to submit my art to. No hard feelings, though... I'll just get better for next year... heheheh... ]]> ~CyrusMacleod http://CyrusMacleod.deviantart.com/journal/4735233/ http://CyrusMacleod.deviantart.com/journal/4735233/ Sat, 05 Mar 2005 13:45:27 PST
Aaaaanyway... New art is up! Yaaaaaay! Or summat...
Yeah, I know it's just one pic, but still... more to come! Soon! Maybe. Heh.... ]]> ~CyrusMacleod http://CyrusMacleod.deviantart.com/journal/4713480/ http://CyrusMacleod.deviantart.com/journal/4713480/ Wed, 02 Mar 2005 17:32:34 PST Always something going on in this ol' world. Rehearsals just started for the school musical, the big Regents push is gearing up, and I'm certain in about a week I'll have some kind of paper to write. There's other stuff, happening, tooo, of course. Gotta start trying to narrow down my college list, sign up to take the new SAT ('cause it's just changing for my class), get ready for tests, and try to find some way to relax in the midst of it all. Busy, busy, busy.

I'm still unable to translate the images in my mind to words or lines or colors or anything, yet again! This happens about every two months, just when I'm starting to get good again. I hit this wall in my mind, somewhere between my skull and my fingers, and nothing comes out. Grrr to the Nth power...

Well, there's always some other time... I know thngs are gonna get better, 'cause they always do... I'm just a little tired of constantly cycling back and forth.

Okay, then... Allow me to apologize for all the ranting in the journals. Its really unnecessary, and probably a bit too over the top... But that's okay, right? ]]> ~CyrusMacleod http://CyrusMacleod.deviantart.com/journal/4685749/ http://CyrusMacleod.deviantart.com/journal/4685749/ Sun, 27 Feb 2005 15:39:55 PST Anyway, my high school decided to screw around with their vacation schedules, and so here I am on the last day of a vacation that I shouldn't have, during which I accomplished nothing. That's the part that irks me the most, I think... the fact that I wasted the whole week away doing absolutely nothing creative, and then had to crunch today on all the homework my teachers decided to throw on us just before the vacation. The stuff I didn't do while waiting for inspiration to come...
I'm entering one of those creative downswiings... can you tell?

Ahh, whatever. Things aren't really that bad. All's well that ends well, and this break has ended well thus far. *ends far-too-long rant*

Anyway... can anyone tell me where I can find a Graphire 3 pad for a decent price in New york State?

Goodnight DA! We love you!!!
-----Cy ]]> ~CyrusMacleod