http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:Cyryn&section=today deviantART RSS for by:Cyryn en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Mon, 28 Dec 2009 16:26:19 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/28375475/ http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/28375475/ Sun, 15 Nov 2009 13:14:52 PST
I will probably be taking a bit of a break to catch up on my novel, I have about 8 chapters of editing to type up so now that I've got my life kind of in check I plan on doing that. Which means that hopefully I can continue back on "Among Us", so who knows what shall be coming down the pipelines.

As always, thank you for any and all of you who stick by me... you make this mission a much easier one.

Cyryn,
Out.

If you're interested, you can pick up my compilation of poetry and short stories on PublishAmerica.com. Just search "Cyryn".
You can also pick it up at this link on Amazon:[link] ]]> =Cyryn http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/27707055/ http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/27707055/ Sun, 11 Oct 2009 13:02:56 PDT
A status update on "Among Us", I've kind of been in a rut and hopefully that too will pass so I can get back to work on it. I've got a few really interesting ideas I want to throw into the story, but I have to find a way of piecing it all together. As always, I'll try to keep saying so on here.

Other then that I've been swamped with Life in general, so as soon as the world stops trying to corkscrew my nuts off I do plan on taking a bit more initiative with my watched deviants. There are one or two in particular I feel bad for nothing having time to view/read their submissions, and they shall be getting another view as soon as I get time to relax.

PS - One last thing... I may be coming out with another compilation of my writing by next Spring, so there may be a few pieces that I either omit or remove from the website to put into paperback.

Cyryn,
Out.

If you're interested, you can pick up my compilation of poetry and short stories on PublishAmerica.com. Just search "Cyryn".
You can also pick it up at this link on Amazon:[link] ]]> =Cyryn http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/26560160/ http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/26560160/ Thu, 13 Aug 2009 00:43:07 PDT
In other news, I'll be going back to college in a few weeks so that may slow me down as well, but its unlikely. That in mind, I hope to see some messages in my inbox, I always love hearing from anyone who has time to read what I have to say. Yeah, a +fav is nice, but I'd rather have 1 comment than 100 favorites. Just something to keep in mind.

Cyryn,
Out.

If you're interested, you can pick up my compilation of poetry and short stories on PublishAmerica.com. Just search "Cyryn".
You can also pick it up at this link on Amazon:[link] ]]> =Cyryn http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/24734608/ http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/24734608/ Wed, 13 May 2009 09:32:00 PDT
That's right, I'll be finishing "Among Us" this Summer and hopefully have it on all your bookshelves by this Christmas (I hear they make great stocking stuffers ) and may even have it in college curriculum by next Spring if my Literature teacher enjoys it as much as I hope he does. Along with my obvious writing I'll be putting together some music with a great friend of mine and we are still looking for a couple of serious musicians to help further the project. All need apply, though no resume required.

And that's not all ladies and gents, because not only is Cyryn hoping to publish his second book, first novel, put together what would be great to declare an official CD, but I'm also planning on some personal appearences work. If it all goes well you'll be seeing a lot more of me, and I don't mean that in a sexual way... so don't get the wrong ideas now. But, hopefully I'll be in a Boarders or night club near you sometime this fall or next year. Until then, stay awesome.

Cyryn,
Out.

If you're interested, you can pick up my compilation of poetry and short stories on PublishAmerica.com. Just search "Cyryn".
You can also pick it up at this link on Amazon:[link] ]]> =Cyryn http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/23878369/ http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/23878369/ Wed, 25 Mar 2009 06:51:05 PDT Well let me just say that I've been doing quite the interesting thingies. Where to start... well, I guess with the car.

So at the end of last month I was rear ended by a pick-up doing 40 as I was stopped. Needless to say my car's a little on the worse side of things, but I walked away with just some whiplash in my neck and back, and really it was the medication that kept me out of pain that also kept me out of doing anything. The stuff made me really dizzy and not want to do anything.

After going to the chiropractor a few times for that, I was on the way into college one rainy night and as I was walking through some automatic doors slipped and fell into a metal pole, my leg taking all the fall. Well, I apparently hit it pretty good because when I looked at it in class I had cut my leg down to the bone and blood was just a cheerfully as ever running down my leg to my patiently waiting sock. Three hours in the Emergency Room, ten stitches and 500 mg of Vicodin later, I was knocked out again from the world as we know it.

Well, it's been about two weeks since the leg incident and a month from the car accident and it's no coincidence that I'm back. I've been hearing some things about another website or so that you can actually make money on, but I assure you all my work will still be placed for my favorite community to not really look at anyway, but yeah.

So, I'm still alive, just banged up pretty good. Hopefully all the bad is over and I can get back to my crazy hectic life, wasted my spring break being nursed back to health and I'm more than ready to finish up diz' bitch so I can rock it old school all summer long. Hope you guys enjoyed my traumatic experiences, and that be all.

Cyryn,
Out.

If you're interested, you can pick up my compilation of poetry and short stories on PublishAmerica.com. Just search "Cyryn".
You can also pick it up at this link on Amazon:[link] ]]> =Cyryn http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/22722900/ http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/22722900/ Wed, 21 Jan 2009 20:58:05 PST
So what does that translate into for any of my fans? It means I have no time, count it; zero, to do anything closely resembling fun or enjoyable activity such as writing, peeing, breathing, or sleeping. Thus, I appologize in advance to all my watched and my watchers that were hoping for something good coming out since I did finish chapter 10 of Among Us. It's going well, but obviously it's now taken a back seat to getting my degrees...

So please, bear with me, because trust me, if you think it's no fun for you... well I'll pull your fingernails off to let you know how my Wednesdays are... and that's just one of the seven days I'm doing something...

Cyryn,
Out.

If you're interested, you can pick up my compilation of poetry and short stories on PublishAmerica.com. Just search "Cyryn".
You can also pick it up at this link on Amazon:[link] ]]> =Cyryn http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/22024074/ http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/22024074/ Tue, 16 Dec 2008 21:57:05 PST
Here's the deal, I hate to ask for this, but I don't know of any better way as of right now. I need all of your help for this one, because this is going to be huge. That's right, I'm talking some publicity. I'm not sure exactly how yet, but I'd like to set up something here on deviantART where I can get not only myself, but the band I'm, as well as a fellow musician, are starting, but we need to be seen. We need a drummer and most likely a guitarist, but these things can wait since both of us are very busy for the next few months. What I'm asking for is for you, my dear artisan friends, to just refer my page for now. Get them to open their ears if they love music or writing; who knows, if I get enough people excited maybe I'll flash a logo we've been working on. That's right, whoring off artwork for pageviews... something I thought I'd never do.

So get the word out there, and the novel I'm working on is at Chapter 11 in writing and 3 in editing, in case you're all wondering. Oh, and merry fucking whatever-you-celebrate everyone.

Cyryn,
Out.

If you're interested, you can pick up my compilation of poetry and short stories on PublishAmerica.com. Just search "Cyryn".
You can also pick it up at this link on Amazon:[link] ]]> =Cyryn http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/20922506/ http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/20922506/ Sun, 19 Oct 2008 12:49:45 PDT
I finished the script and I'm actually writing a novel about it now... so that's exciting. When I get to chapter 10 who knows, maybe I'll show some of my more avid and attentive fans.

Also, I've been working on my singing a lot lately, and I'm doing some things I never have done before. Hell, one in particular I'm doing I did as a re-record because I didn't like it originally. So, if you'd like, go here [link] and you can listen to what I've been doing... and will be doing more of for the songs I've written in the past.

Working and going to college, I have a one year anniversary with a special someone coming up this month, so I'm really excited about everything right now.

Hope you're all doing well, I can't think of much else (Still working on getting a band together) so I'll drop you a line next time...

Cyryn,
Out.

If you're interested, you can pick up my compilation of poetry and short stories on PublishAmerica.com. Just search "Cyryn".
You can also pick it up at this link on Amazon:[link] ]]> =Cyryn http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/20013394/ http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/20013394/ Sun, 17 Aug 2008 22:33:27 PDT

And of course, I'll still be writing when it comes to mind, as you could all tell from my last entries, all written in one night. So woot for that, hope you are all as excited as I am to see what's coming down the turnpike.

Cyryn,
Out. ]]> =Cyryn http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/19455651/ http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/19455651/ Fri, 18 Jul 2008 22:29:09 PDT

I have single-handedly determined that my life is the compilation of the following: Living alone in a house I cannot afford while waiting to move back in with my parentals in a vain attempt to keep my maturity while working at Wal-Mart part time and being excited about it. This also must be part and parcel with the fact that I'm completely paranoid about my lovely girlfriend whom is entirely out cold right now due to the fact that she had surgery days ago and has yet to have an intelligent conversation with me since, atop the notion that I myself and struggling with the idea that my best friend is dating my ex-girlfriend and quite possibly the first girl I ever truly loved, churning my insides like the butter of such a sweet sorrow. All this aside, added to having to go back to college this Fall which I so very much loathe the notion of and you've got yourself a nice little steamy, and quite delicious looking, pile of shit that is my life.

Other then that, all is well in the world of Meh.



PS - I did neglect to let you all know... I've been contemplating doing some more audio recordings of my poems... Yes, that means Cyryn's going to sing. Plus he's been asked to do some vocals in a little band, so who knows. Just thought I'd let you know.

Cyryn,
Out. ]]> =Cyryn http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/19097908/ http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/19097908/ Sat, 28 Jun 2008 18:59:39 PDT

Not sure what all to say, other then I've been dealing with some job things as well as some serious revelations in terms of my relationship-status, whether that be with someone else or my own mind. None-the-less, that means quite a bit of writing should be coming through the pipeline soon, so get your umbrellas, because this will probably get pretty wet.

Other then that, the usual thanks to those who actually read my things and a huge one to those who take a few moments out of their busy schedule to say something. Hell, maybe one day I'll get recognized for something fancy.

PS - I can't seem to change my mood... so
Mood:

Cyryn,
Out. ]]> =Cyryn http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/18256624/ http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/18256624/ Sat, 10 May 2008 11:53:38 PDT

I'll try to post one a day, so it'll give you all something to read for a bit if you care to, and I'd appreciate some comments, even if they won't be that witty.



Edit: Yes, I'm well aware I'm very bad at this 'ost one a day' thing, but I've had quite a bit come up lately, I'm sorry to those anticipating a lot more... there shall be soon, promise even more this time.

Cyryn,
Out. ]]> =Cyryn http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/17064987/ http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/17064987/ Mon, 25 Feb 2008 20:32:51 PST
Due to how I'm writing them, mostly allowing my subconscious to dictate what is written, it may take some time for certain emotions you may think very powerful, such as love, to really come to fruition. The more powerful the emotion, the harder it is for me to really let go and write about, so bare with me.

And, without further a due, I give you "Perfect".

Sadness - [link]

Malice - [link]

Cyryn,
Out. ]]> =Cyryn http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/16390906/ http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/16390906/ Sun, 20 Jan 2008 13:06:56 PST

Other then that... not really sure what else to say... keep warm?

-Edit- Just thought I'd let you all know that I posted the vocals to "Set Me Free" on Sheezyart, since DA won't let me. So, here you go, the link to my first song every vocalized for public. [link]

Cyryn,
Out. ]]> =Cyryn http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/16018515/ http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/16018515/ Thu, 20 Dec 2007 17:53:05 PST

Hey all you cool cats, just wanted to say happy holidays from the one and only Cyryn. Hope the winter isn't nipping at you too hard and that you all keep warm and smiling through the worse weather.

Oh, and I got a few things set up with the publisher and the contract is on the way, in case you're all curious.

Cyryn,
Out. ]]> =Cyryn http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/15669408/ http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/15669408/ Sun, 25 Nov 2007 18:11:09 PST
Until next chance I get...

Cyryn,
Out. ]]> =Cyryn http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/15495610/ http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/15495610/ Thu, 15 Nov 2007 21:12:41 PST
I got my manuscript put together and sent in, so hopefully within two weeks I'll hear back from them with a (hopeful) yay or nay. I'll keep you posted as well I can... and I promise I'll get to everything when I get the internet back.

Edit ~ Forgot to mention, a few of you are getting special mention in my book.

Edit 2 ~ They reviewed my manuscript and said they want to publish me... so I'm going through some things and hopefully very shortly the contract will be written and such and yay.

Cyryn,
Out. ]]> =Cyryn http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/14803721/ http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/14803721/ Wed, 26 Sep 2007 17:15:21 PDT
I would really appreciate this, but I understand if you can't do much about it, after all it's my job to decide in the end. I'm really just looking for some ideas and desires, since you all should have read most of my poems by now. Thanks again.

Cyryn,
Out. ]]> =Cyryn http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/14636560/ http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/14636560/ Fri, 14 Sep 2007 20:45:16 PDT
I need something to cheer me up, I seem to be very grumpy tonight. Where's a nice new thing to laugh at when you need it?

Oh well, I'm pretty much just rambling here, and since I don't really have a purpose to this spiel I think I'll just stop it riiiiight...

Cyryn,
Out. ]]> =Cyryn http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/14396177/ http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/14396177/ Wed, 29 Aug 2007 13:48:44 PDT
Anyway, that's pretty much all I had to say, so I'll talk to you all later. Toodles.

Cyryn,
Out. ]]> =Cyryn http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/14199982/ http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/14199982/ Thu, 16 Aug 2007 17:15:38 PDT
I have so many things to say and so many people I'd like to talk with and no one to get a hold of... Damn you AT&T.

Anyway, I'll hopefully be getting internet...eventually it seems. Wish me luck. Toodles.

Cyryn,
Out. ]]> =Cyryn http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/14056635/ http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/14056635/ Fri, 10 Aug 2007 14:09:50 PDT

Well until I get this damn thing to stop sucking... Toodles.



~Edit~ Holy shit, I just hit 300 deviations... Scary to think how many revolve around such tightly knit people...

Cyryn,
Out. ]]> =Cyryn http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/13208891/ http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/13208891/ Sun, 03 Jun 2007 23:12:35 PDT
I moved into an apartment with a couple friends and I have been busy trying to get everything situated and don't have a very reliable internet connection yet.

I'm stressed as all hell and haven't had time to really sit down and write anything.

And the best reason, because I don't want to write about what I know I'm feeling just yet... I'm gunna keep myself in denial as long as I can.


So yeah, I'm trying guys, and I promise to get all the deviations checked out etc.

Cyryn,
Out. ]]> =Cyryn http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/12721635/ http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/12721635/ Tue, 24 Apr 2007 18:07:34 PDT blondeskeletalrose, and she's got some potential I think.

You guys remember what it was like to be new here, so give her some encouragement or something! Oh, and if you guys like the photography or the actual craftwork, tell her you're interested in some prints or such and I'll get her to see about selling.

Cyryn,
Out. ]]> =Cyryn http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/12319853/ http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/12319853/ Sun, 25 Mar 2007 08:09:44 PDT
If I do get the blueprints so to speak for such a compilation, I'd like to know if any of you would like to buy it, since if no one here wants one I probably shouldn't publish it in the first place. Anyone who's interested, do let me know, otherwise this will probably fall under the waterworks like most of my other plans do.

Thanks to all of you who take the time to actually say something about what I write, because I know sometimes there is nothing to say other than good job, but I am thankful for even that, though something more is greatly appreciated as well.

Cyryn, Out.

]]> =Cyryn http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/12162453/ http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/12162453/ Mon, 12 Mar 2007 21:10:29 PDT
]]> =Cyryn http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/11612043/ http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/11612043/ Mon, 29 Jan 2007 13:51:54 PST
At my school we have a monthly newspaper. It rants, it has preppy junk, it has stupid lists, movie reviews and sports reviews, and on the back, there's featured art...

So, back to the awesomeness... Two weeks ago I printed out and sent in 8 of my favorite poems of all time that I've written, and had them returned, asking that I put them on a CD. Well, I'm fussy about wasting CD-R's, so I just put everything I've ever written on it, even putting an Introduction file to explain the difference between the folder containing my newer prose, poetry, and songs... and my older, more personal things.

Well, last Friday I handed them the CD and went away for the weekend, which was amazing, and a big thank you to all of you out there who told me to do so. . . but I digress. So Monday rolls around (today) and I have first hour with the girl in charge of the featured art. I am exhausted, and not in the mood to deal with anyone mind you, but I kid you not when I say that not even fifteen seconds after sitting down she calls my name. I turn around and she says that my writing was the best she's seen all year and that she would like to use one for each month of the rest of the school year, wanting to know if I was okay with it. I was shocked! I took a second and was like "Yeah" and then she talked to me about my writing and I sat there talking to her and I felt like a distinguished writer... it was amazing! She asked a couple questions and I had these great responses and everything... It made me happy.

So for any of you who'll want to see, I'll most likely get a copy of those papers and put up pictures of them when I get the chance, but most likely they'll go in my scraps, so keep an eye out for that.

I feel special.

]]> =Cyryn http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/11577941/ http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/11577941/ Fri, 26 Jan 2007 15:48:49 PST I'm going to be in the greatest place on this entire planet, and only I belong there, so you can't come.

But seriously folks, I'm gunna be away for a while, so don't get fussy or anything if you notice me away from my normal spots. Sorry to anyone who needs to talk or such, leave me a note and I promise I'll get back to you when I return, okay?

Loves ya' all, Cyryn out.

]]> =Cyryn http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/11399911/ http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/11399911/ Thu, 11 Jan 2007 15:13:50 PST [link] and watch my video and rank it and comment it and make it fay-moose. It's hilarious, I promise.

Peace out.

]]> =Cyryn http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/11347434/ http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/11347434/ Sun, 07 Jan 2007 08:56:07 PST
I won't be coming to deviantart as much anymore... this place only seems to remind me of what I have lost recently... I post things that people comment on, favorite, love, adore, and don't understand. I can't stand knowing that the people who can understand these words I put on HTML either don't give a damn to talk to me about them or pretend they don't understand. I have lost everything I cared about, and this community has lost its touch with me.
I miss what I once had, not a year ago... not even a month ago... but seven cycles of the sun and moon... Twenty-four hour dances with each day that have ripped me apart and throw me to a pack of such rabid wolves, and I can't survive another day. I'm sorry to the few of you who actually think you give a damn, but if I mean as much as you'd like to think I do then I'm sure you will keep in contact.
I might return to put up a few new things occassionally, but don't expect to hear this Cyryn's songs for a long time... he's sang his heart out and all that's left is that same lonely chorus.

I love you all, you were my muse... my hope... my inspiring pain and joy... but I can't shine any longer. . . so I hope you all forgive me, because I never was too good with goodbyes.

]]> =Cyryn http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/11281937/ http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/11281937/ Mon, 01 Jan 2007 22:24:55 PST
I have pretty much lost, given up, or failed at everything that matters/mattered last year. I wish I were just in a bad mood, but I seriously put thought to this, and that's the solution to my equation of the year as a whole. Ean and Lizzy are pretty much farther away from me than I would have ever thought, and the worst part is that the reason they are is because they're together and happy. . . Sian hasn't spoken to me in over a week... A girl I thought might be cool ended up throwing me to the side when I wasn't of use to her any more... Drinking seems far too easy to do, my best friend got into a fight at Great Skate after losing his best friend over, well, what seems like me and Ean wouldn't come without me yelling at him, even though we're all like brothers. . . And here's my favorite part: After all of this, I find myself sitting here with one working arm, lacerations from self-inflicted wounds that I don't care about, no one to call my own, no where to turn to even if I could to ask for help, and if I'm not careful I'm going to become an alcoholic like I knew would happen.

Happy new year indeed. . .

]]> =Cyryn http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/11192151/ http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/11192151/ Mon, 25 Dec 2006 17:47:57 PST

Oh, and you should all go stare are *DarkestWhispers, because she is one too!



So yay, that is all, until I figure out how to do some new stuffies.

]]> =Cyryn http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/11066676/ http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/11066676/ Thu, 14 Dec 2006 22:57:58 PST
Due to the responses I got from posting a photograph of myself, do not expect any photography or even attempts of any sort for some time to come. Whether or not their words were harsh, I am not the kind who can tolerate obvious insult, and I've chosen to take this road and just not be a model or photographer as I obviously know nothing of it. Thank you.

-----

So my last journal called for ten people to comment to gain some oh-so-fancy featurization on my page. So, sorry about my inability to make better links, but here ya' go! My choices are in no particular order. . . they're just my favorite four of each person's gallery.

Number ONE!

Did I Ever Tell You... - [link]

I want... - [link]

Hi There - [link]

Butterflies - [link]


Number Two

Dance With The Moonlit Knight - [link]

Somewhere Beyond The Sea - [link]

Broken - [link]

Reading - [link]

Number Three!

Zora - [link]

Am I really... - [link]

Nature Hike - [link]

Flower - [link]



Number Four

We once held joy - [link]

in a mirror, darkly - [link]

Time Spin Back Again: Part I - [link]

Autumn - [link]


Number Five

Happy again? - [link]

Part 2: Dream or Reality? - [link]

The way - [link]

Confused - http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/10971194/ Wed, 06 Dec 2006 11:23:14 PST
]]> =Cyryn http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/10947151/ http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/10947151/ Mon, 04 Dec 2006 11:05:52 PST
1) I have decided, if anyone would like to, I will model for anyone in the area, and for the first few or more will glady do it for free. Being 18, I will do any type of modeling now, since age was the only restriction before. . . just as long as I don't have to bleed.

2) I will be running around like mad trying to get college things together, and who knows what else since I've let my grades slip because almost every teacher bores me to death. But that's for another time.

3) Some time in the future there will be a time period where I will most likely not be on for at least a week straight, but that may not be for quite some time. The reasons will be one of the following: I'm moving out, I'm going to England. These are two things I need to do, it's just a matter of when and what for.

4) I want to say thanks to all you lovely peoples who are still looking at my poems and such, and truly I'm talking to those who actually say something and don't just pass my things by every time they see that little "D" in the top of their page. . .

5) Be looking out for some new things from me, I might just be branching out to some photography if I get some time, and as stated previously, modeling.

That is all for now, and since I haven't done it for a while. . . I'm putting my uber friends up here so I can maneuver easily and so you can all see their awesomeness.

My Pimpettes:


]]> =Cyryn http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/10862644/ http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/10862644/ Sun, 26 Nov 2006 22:54:32 PST To inflict physical pain to someone in an attempt to make them feel better. . . it's just not who I am. But, tonight I proved to myself that my love for friends and such is enough to make me forget those old morals and such.
What truly scares me though, is what I let her do to me. . . Most of you, those who really pay attention and have talked to me, know how my past relationships went... especially the horribly abusive one I had. I swore to never let someone hurt me in such a way again. . . and that moral was broken. I sit here, and will openly admit, in pain, telling them I would rather they hurt me than themselves, since I am pretty tough. My back has marks all up and down it, bright red and it's been over an hour since she clawed my back...
I'm fine, I really am. Yeah, it hurts, but I've had much worse from many worse people. I honestly don't know why I'm putting this up... other than to maybe say it so a few people I'd be nervous to tell about it will know.
The only way to really see what my back looks like was to take a picture. . . so if anyone would want to see... I might show, depending on who you are.

Cyryn, out.

]]> =Cyryn http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/10553909/ http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/10553909/ Sun, 29 Oct 2006 22:29:23 PST
Thank you to all of those who have seen my past through my words, and those who are experiancing my present with me now... through words or more, you all take the time to see what I'm truly going through, and I am greatful that you all find something worthwhile in my writing.

Here's to 200 and a hope for 200 more!

]]> =Cyryn http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/10429167/ http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/10429167/ Tue, 17 Oct 2006 23:04:22 PDT
I want to say thanks to those who popped out of the ducts to give me a hug, even if it wasn't a real one, I really appreciated it.

Now, without further adue... go look at my new stuff!

]]> =Cyryn http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/10418441/ http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/10418441/ Mon, 16 Oct 2006 23:26:37 PDT
Writing, lots is coming tonight. . . For those of you who know me, you know what that means. For those who don't, guess you'll be learning soon enough.

I need a hug.

]]> =Cyryn http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/10353277/ http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/10353277/ Tue, 10 Oct 2006 22:27:25 PDT
It's been a bit since I've really sat down and just wrote... maybe I should put some work into my Autobiographical notebook... hmm. Either way, stay tuned for more.

]]> =Cyryn http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/10236910/ http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/10236910/ Sat, 30 Sep 2006 12:50:08 PDT am blue cheese.

]]> =Cyryn http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/10177491/ http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/10177491/ Sun, 24 Sep 2006 22:23:18 PDT
1) Hanging out and realizing that the one thing I want is still so very far away.

2) Working Friday night for 9 hours.

3) Working Saturday for 9 hours.

4) Messing up my carpet by accidentally spilling soda on it.

5) Coming home and just about ruining a subwoofer and a computer (this one) with stupid friggin juice. (Happened about 2 minutes after 4)

6) Not being able to sleep until 6 in the morning Sunday.

7) Being forced up at 12 by dad telling me that I really didn't have to work until 4 and that I had to help mow the grass.

8) Having to work 5 hours tonight, until 10 pm.

Here comes my favorite part!

9) Feeling useless at work since no one would listen to a word I said and I got yelled at for it.

10) I get off work, go to Taco Bell to pick up crap I don't even want to eat since I feel so bad I want to just starve to death

And here's the bestest part!

11) I find myself standing on the balcony of a small wooden pavillion overlooking a lake with small bits of moss on its surface, tears in my eyes as I cry my heart out to the only thing I'd allow to hear my sorrow.

12) And I sit here, typing this wretched thing, still having homework to do before school in 7 hours.

Fan-fucking-tastic.

]]> =Cyryn http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/10034209/ http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/10034209/ Sun, 10 Sep 2006 23:15:29 PDT
Ripples eventually fade away. ]]> =Cyryn http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/9702540/ http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/9702540/ Tue, 15 Aug 2006 18:25:15 PDT , of all the luck.

(Copied Rules From )
Rules : The 1st player of this "game" starts with the topic "6 weird habits/things about yourself" and people who get tagged need to write a journal about their 6 weird habits/things as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next 6(or as many as you know xD ) people to be tagged and list their names. Don't forget to leave a comment that says "you are tagged" in their devpage comments and tell them to read yours....

-I tend to flirt. . . a lot.
-I am a gamer.
-I am very mysterious; most people don't know me even if they've known me for years.
-I am very paranoid and tend to have OCD with certain things.
-I am a hopeless romantic and surprisingly hard to get a hold on.
{Edit} -I can't count apparently, since this makes six. -_-


Tagging:





]]> =Cyryn http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/9657719/ http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/9657719/ Wed, 09 Aug 2006 00:37:59 PDT

I like oranges, not the taste of them but the way they smell. . . Santa isn't real, he's just a fat Mexican who couldn't afford good leather.

Ghandi is awesome.

Christ got nailed to wood, how much more hardcore can you get? And don't bring up war or such, ya' friggin' pansies.

No one likes that crappy stuff they put in the bottom of things. . . why the hell do they make it so strong that the end of it takes like someone kicked you in your intestines anyway?

If I could destroy every waffle iron in the world and replace them all with griddles the world would be a better, more pancake filled, place.

Shoes are man's way of saying "I'm a pussy, I don't want to hurt my feet."

End. ]]> =Cyryn http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/9548969/ http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/9548969/ Mon, 31 Jul 2006 00:22:27 PDT
I am so royally fucked in the huge scheme of things. . . it's just great. You'd think something would change, but then you'd realize that you're just being foolish and optimistic.

Kthnxby. ]]> =Cyryn http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/9384388/ http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/9384388/ Sat, 15 Jul 2006 10:52:10 PDT
I decided not to try and lie about anything, so yeah, that's what they are. There may be more to this series, but these five were all written in one night... at Taco Bell, waiting for Ean's shift to end.

]]> =Cyryn http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/9335925/ http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/9335925/ Mon, 10 Jul 2006 19:01:35 PDT Untamed is the one who cannot be set free.
Imperfect is the one who thinks he has control.
Calm is the one who truly does.
Intended is the one who has guided all you here.
Destroyed is the one who you all thought you saw.
Empty is the one who ended it all tonight.

Suicide. ]]> =Cyryn http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/8872380/ http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/8872380/ Thu, 25 May 2006 10:04:25 PDT Mood:
Listening to: Animals - Nickelback
Reading: All Kinds o' Derteh Shiet!
Watching: Life Go By.

*Air guitaring like a pro, headbanging, tongue even out* Hello to all my beaches that actually pay attention to what I write in here! Just actin' like a couple animals, and that's ain't to easy with a single pair of feet and hands!

"So come on baby, get in! Get in, get in!" *headbanging* Just figuring out which way is up, which way is down, and how 'out' you can be while you're still in; "So come on baby, get in!"

Heaven ain't to far that I can't give you the boost you need to see the light! Just ask for my help and I'll show you just what even God can't seem to explain anymore! *air guitarring* "So come on baby, get in!"

"Get in, just get in!" ]]> =Cyryn http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/8782198/ http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/8782198/ Mon, 15 May 2006 19:16:27 PDT
I got my hair cut. I mean Effin' cut. My hair must have been over 8" long, and now it's down to 2". . . I don't like how it looks, it's too short for me, but it symbolizes cutting off those last ties I had for her. The feelings remain, they will last for God knows how long, but the memories that grew while my hair did are gone. The laugher and the crying, the kissing and the yelling. . . all of it's gone. I'll never have it back, and no one could bring it back now. It's done.

I love being single. I'm a huge flirt and I can just do whatever I want without worrying about how it affects someone, (well, not completely, but you know what I mean) but I do know that no matter how much fun I have being single it can't fill that horrible emptiness I'll feel not being with someone. That feeling of just knowing someone is thinking of you at the stupid times, and knowing that it's not just some goofy thought that came across their mind; they're seriously thinking, loving, you. I can't just go hang out at someone's house and feel that. Working really hard and having fun while working doesn't give you that feeling. That's a feeling you can only have when you're with someone, but I know somehow I'll have it again.

So until that time, when perhaps the universe will have that thread return, or perhaps have an entirely new and mysterious, even alluring, thread arrive, I'm going to love life as it is, and not as it should be. . . which is foolish, I know, but it will be great while it lasts; until it's replaced by something so much more fulfilling. . .

This is Cyryn saying "See ya' soon!" Keep writing, keep drawing, and most of all, keep living. ]]> =Cyryn http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/8706245/ http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/8706245/ Mon, 08 May 2006 01:11:41 PDT =Cyryn http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/8625047/ http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/8625047/ Sat, 29 Apr 2006 20:39:29 PDT
The resultant in all of this can be put in these three words though. . . Blue on black. If you can't understand why it fits so well, it's because we're that blue. We are on the black. We are nothing to it, and it wouldn't change without us. It's kind of depressing, but that doesn't make the blue any less beautiful, so don't forget to be as blue as you can be!

Blue on Black. ]]> =Cyryn http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/8367811/ http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/8367811/ Tue, 04 Apr 2006 19:58:47 PDT I have finally lost the glory that was subscription today. . . I am sad. :emocutshimselfonthewrists:

In other news, I have to write something soon or my whole writy-thingy will essplode in my head. . . ]]> =Cyryn http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/8196370/ http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/8196370/ Sat, 18 Mar 2006 09:46:20 PST Mood: Song Stuck In Head
Listening to: "Greased Lightning"
Reading: Up From Slavery

So the first day of "Grease", the musical, went great. I had a hell of a lot of fun with it and I wouldn't have changed a thing. Two more to go, hopefully any Collinsville Deviant Arters will come and check it out at CHS tonight or tomorrow.

On a different subject, I put up a few pictures and some new poetry! Yay for me! I should be putting up some more when it comes to me, so be patient my little boogies.

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"Sweet Sweet Surrender, Render me more pain. Render me Hollow and Empty inside, Render me Dead now."

"Even though I walk through the Valley of the Shadow Death, I fear no evil, For Thou art with me. . ." ]]> =Cyryn http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/7857518/ http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/7857518/ Fri, 10 Feb 2006 15:55:35 PST Mood: Comforting
Listening to: Anna Nalick - Just Breathe (2 A.M.)

I'm back biznachos. . .






That is all.

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"Sweet Sweet Surrender, Render me more pain. Render me Hollow and Empty inside, Render me Dead now."

"Even though I walk through the Valley of the Shadow Death, I fear no evil, For Thou art with me. . ." ]]> =Cyryn http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/7674947/ http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/7674947/ Sun, 22 Jan 2006 10:49:54 PST Mood: Comforting
Listening to: Slipknot - Vermillion, Pt. 2

A lot has happened to me this past month, and I need to just figure everything out. I've been threatened with military school and possibly being kicked out of the house. I just need a break from everyone's problems and such for a while. I'm sorry to those who don't give me problems, but I had to make a choice between my computer and no AIM or no computer, thus meaning no AIM, and I decided I wanted my computer for obvious reasons.

I should be getting it back before a month passes, but I'm not quite sure. Hopefully I will be okay when I come back, and this will all have a positive spin on it. I'll still be on deviantART and MySpace, but don't expect a lot out of me, I need to get my head sorted out before I sort out anyone else's.



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"Sweet Sweet Surrender, Render me more pain. Render me Hollow and Empty inside, Render me Dead now."

"Even though I walk through the Valley of the Shadow Death, I fear no evil, For Thou art with me. . ." ]]> =Cyryn http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/7662728/ http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/7662728/ Sat, 21 Jan 2006 00:28:08 PST Mood: Comforting
Listening to: Slipknot - Vermillion, Pt. 2

Has anyone else just had that day where you give up on all good in this world? I find myself sitting here at 2:25 in the morning, questioning how a father could beat his daughter and how the mother begs her daughter to stay while the father yells for her to leave.

Oh, but wait, there's more. A friend of the girl just mentioned informed me that her mother yelled at her all day, and that she preferred being hit by her mother than being yelled at. . . What has this world come to?

An ex-girlfriend talked with me today, asking what had changed and such. . . In less than three hours after explaining myself I had a new explanation for why I change so much. . . This world is going down in flames, like a massive building, and I'm just trying to save as many souls from the licking embers as I can. . .

I'm just not sure about anyone else in this world any more. . .

"Sweet Sweet Surrender, Render me more pain. Render me Hollow and Empty inside, Render me Dead now."

"Even though I walk through the Valley of the Shadow Death, I fear no evil, For Thou art with me. . ." ]]> =Cyryn http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/7650526/ http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/7650526/ Thu, 19 Jan 2006 17:02:51 PST Mood: Perceptive As Can Be
Listening to: Bright Eyes - The First Day Of My Life

Though the nights shall fade to days and the days returning to the darkness beyond the horizon, I still beckon your name. The name that was once followed by angels. . . I only hear demons cackling now. Even though the shades blacken, the night envelopes us all, and you hold yourself weeping, all I can do is hold you and whisper that it will be okay.

Embers flicker among the ashes, and even they leave me to the darkness. The heat slips away as the wind tries to carry me on its current wings, my hair defies command as it whips to and fro, but I care not. Watching the horizon reach up to steal the last ray of light, I hold you, and that's all that matters.

Another batter of an eyelid and the sun has left us with each other. Finally alone, now I can do what I've wanted for so long. . . I spread the laced blanket out between a couple tombstones and you look back from where you sat, perching on a random marker. You look back in confusion, but you know what I'm doing anyway.

You get up and I reach for your hand, gently guiding you to the cool ground and soft blanket. I lay beside you, and a quick kiss is as far as the night will take us. There, together, holding each other, all fades to black but our tears, which will illuminate our paths to bliss, together.

Redeem yourself one more time, in my arms. . .

"Sweet Sweet Surrender, Render me more pain. Render me Hollow and Empty inside, Render me Dead now."

"Even though I walk through the Valley of the Shadow Death, I fear no evil, For Thou art with me. . ." ]]> =Cyryn http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/7596433/ http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/7596433/ Fri, 13 Jan 2006 20:36:05 PST Mood: Reviving from ashes
Listening to: Limp Bizkit - Behind Blue Eyes

So today was fun. Started out cold and windy and rainy (the only good part of the morning) and then it turned to sleet and I was getting attacked by solid water! Lunch was interesting since a good friend of mine asked me to take her to prom in April, so that could be interesting depending on how this all goes! Best part had to be going over to a good friend's house to hang out and meet his cousin, who he wanted to meet a nice guy. She has a few things I'm not too happy with, but she's not the type to lie or such, and she's fun to tease and such, so the night was a lot of fun overall! Glad to finally put in a happy entry!

"Sweet Sweet Surrender, Render me more pain. Render me Hollow and Empty inside, Render me Dead now."

"Even though I walk through the Valley of the Shadow Death, I fear no evil, For Thou art with me. . ." ]]> =Cyryn http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/7585150/ http://Cyryn.deviantart.com/journal/7585150/ Thu, 12 Jan 2006 16:38:22 PST Mood: Reviving from ashes
Listening to: Limp Bizkit - Behind Blue Eyes

"This is the last thing I'm going to say, and I just really want you to know it for later: I hope one day you find yourself looking back on this and really wishing you hadn't f---ed your best friend or made out with your Brother, because you ruined me. I hope one day you realize that you deserved that slap and that you probably deserve a real one for what you've done to me alone. I might not have been perfect, but I didn't do this s---. I was either "Goodbye" or "I love you", even when it was both. I just hope one day you try to come back and find the me you knew dead. I hope I wither away and decay into something either better or worse. This is the Final Goodbye."

Goodbye Amber, hope you don't screw others over like you did me, because they won't deserve it either.

Censored, since it seems there are children in the area who can't stop cursing.

"Sweet Sweet Surrender, Render me more pain. Render me Hollow and Empty inside, Render me Dead now."

"Even though I walk through the Valley of the Shadow Death, I fear no evil, For Thou art with me. . ." ]]> =Cyryn