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jam is excitement, ooooh jam
jam is adventure, ooooh jam
glamour and glitter, fashion and fame

jam is truly outragous
truly truly truly outragous, wooohw jam
jam, the music's contagious, outragous
jam is my name, no one else is the same
jam is my name

we are the misfits, our songs are better
we are the misfits, the misfits
we're gonna get her

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EDIT: ima gunna be a ZAPDOS!

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I know this is silly to say but I'm all hot n' bothered by it, when looking at my favorite directors lives they have always constantly surrounded their lives around art and stories so it wasn't a surprise to see them create their own works of art. but with me, I barely draw anymore and I'm terrified of going to Digipen. all I've been thinking about is making costumes, I find myself everyday thinking about how to make certain clothes...

what if I'm destined to be a seamstress?

...... what is my destiny?

I've always wanted to be an animator, why am I doubting myself? I don't know if I can trust myself, because I have too many hobbies, I really would like to be everything in the world. but I can only do so much living my life.

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thank you Evey, Heather, and Andrew for a fantastic birthday. you are wonderful friends. ^_^


i can't wait to get our tattoos Evey, it'll be epic.

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jesus christ people im so excited!

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I recently went to my friend's birthday party in Glendwood Washington, and that was AWESOME. I saw sooo many horses, cows, and one lama. it was pretty tight. I've been in the mood to play all the Zelda games, but sadly I only have the first and second games oh and Phantom Hourglass. ^_^ I want more! i really want to make a Harlock game though. my little sprites just aren't enough.

well I guess that's it.

See ya.




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and down.


like i can't do anything.


so i try to make the best out of it.


and usually something good happens.


but as of today,

i am nothing. and im feeling down.

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1. "mention this to me and watch the weather change." -Maynard James Keenan.
or...
2. "I thought what I'd do was I'd pretend I was one of those deaf-mutes." -J. D. Salinger

eh? which one?
the firsts i like a lot because after a VERY long time (like ever since i first got into tool) i've finally decided that Disposition is my favorite song. but i like the second because i feel EVERY kid acts this way at school. so i thought it'd be nice to give them insight?

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-_-

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i have teh ultimate...

hehehehheeh

i have found and will soon own...
in comics...:

CAPTAIN HARLOCK (1989)

CAPTAIN HARLOCK: DEATHSHADOW RISING

CAPTAIN HARLOCK: MACHINE PEOPLE

CAPTAIN HARLOCK: FALL OF THE EMPIRE (1992)

and then when i have more money... i will get:

CAPTAIN HARLOCK: THE ORIGINAL TELEVISION SCRIPTS TPB

CAPTAIN HARLOCK CHRISTMAS SPECIAL


HO HO HO HO HO HO HO HO!!!!!



i've searched high and low for this shit...so praise me for finding it.
and if you end up getting it too, fucking radical.

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other than that i've been listening to tool lately, and oh boy is it great to listen to them. i'll never lose my interest in them. they make me feel so...well alive and understood. and being understood is such an important thing in life, don't you agree?

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somehow i feel unanswered...

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eh so i made a business plan and i think i might do it. i'll be teaching children how to draw. first im going to volunteer at OHSU to teach the kids there so i get a feel of it, then during school i still might be vlunteering but i'll try to kick start my business. i'll put up flyers, spread the word and use Kaboo to help. i'll charge 10-15$ a week. and i'll be willing to go where ever is most convenient for the parents, whether it be their house or a park near by. as long as i can have the bus or max take me there. but of course this all depends on my school schedule.

sound good to you?

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you should already know them...


1. i like pirates and ninjas.
2. i play puzzle pirates, city of heroes and villains and maple story.
3. i have a thing for hating carpet.
4. i have this thing for leading on dorks.
5. i like pandas way too much.
6. im typing this.

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A bias kids inside an intervening shower.

Why can't the sect fume?

After the unknown reverts a musical.

The compromise cubes a cynic harmony within the steam.

When can a misunderstood soul persist?

An insecure needle negotiates the circuitry.

Everyone smokes weed?

Why can't the criminal interest the tough?

An inherent amateur threatens whatever machinery around every demanding fringe.

The vain hopes?

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i wish i could just draw what im feeling(which i do) but so that the person im trying to help understand will fully understand it. oi. but people just don't FEEL my work, they just look at it and go oo0o0o how nice, your a talented young artist arn't you *pinches cheeks* >_<


i wish i had all the time in the world to do every piece of art work idea thing in my head.


wow i feel so bad/sad right now i have no idea what to do or think....i can't believe i feel this bad. ugh. i hate this. lol, i just gotta deal with it....in due time it'll pass. i hate ging through the process though. oi.

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and Andrew introduced me to a really cool band. velvet acid christ...im falling in love with them. ^_^ yep i sure am.

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a nintendo computer.


im going to gut it, and put in a motherboard powersupply..ect...and a touch screen monitor!!!!!! yea...anyone have any ideas or advice???

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so far during my summer its been really boring...so...i've made a trip for myself!

starting..July 27th i shall be taking the train to Seattle meeting up with my Aunt Jenny, and she shall take me to the ferry and i will ride the ferry to Port Angeles, where my Uncle Jonathan will take me to my Grandma's house. which she owns about 10 acers (sp?) of land and i will stay there till August 6th and i will chill at my house untill August 16th where i will be flying to missouri and staying with my grandma ermma and visiting my grandma celo before she dies..she tells GREAT stories...so i want to hear them all..i will back on Augsut 25th. im so excitied!!!! *dances around* ]]> ~D4RK-NINJ4 http://D4RK-NINJ4.deviantart.com/journal/9410855/ http://D4RK-NINJ4.deviantart.com/journal/9410855/ Mon, 17 Jul 2006 22:22:12 PDT im making my own pirate costume. my friend is making a movie and he needs a pirate so..im gunna be his pirate. (also i just want a pirate costume) i got a saber too. (a broad sword) its really sharp. my size(?) it just fits me, its a nice weight too. i have to practice swinging it around to get used to it so in the moive it'll look ral. yea. im so excitied. im sewing my pirate shirt tomorrow, and hopefully going to pick out my fabric for the vest and maybe pants. sometime soon im going to port angeles to hang out with my unlce Jonathan, we made a deal where we're going ot make a comic book together. its going to be very long term, so i can build up on my experience...y'know deifferent styles of drawing. im so happy. hes a great story teller...i haven't read most of his stuff, but hes told me stories before...plus hes a philosper...oh my god how do you spell that???? lol. oh well...i hope you get what im saying. yea..so thas whats happenin with me. ]]> ~D4RK-NINJ4 http://D4RK-NINJ4.deviantart.com/journal/8681291/ http://D4RK-NINJ4.deviantart.com/journal/8681291/ Fri, 05 May 2006 12:02:59 PDT ~D4RK-NINJ4 http://D4RK-NINJ4.deviantart.com/journal/8030717/ http://D4RK-NINJ4.deviantart.com/journal/8030717/ Tue, 28 Feb 2006 17:58:13 PST Pour one quater teaspoon of despair,
Slice one knifetip of suffering,
Half a pound of pessismism,
Chop 50 pieces of türkisches haschisch,
A little extra annihilation,
Und keine eier.

In eine Schüssel geben,
Add your own eulogy,
Add in tortured and defiled hope,
Whisk a dose of agony and terror,
Beat down emotion,
Den Teig verkneten.

Drain the noodles of love and care,
Roll in the powdered sugar of racism,
Bei zweihundert Grad für fünfzehn Minuten backen,
Die Eier.

-Spit Linaly Totoro ]]> ~D4RK-NINJ4 http://D4RK-NINJ4.deviantart.com/journal/7014822/ http://D4RK-NINJ4.deviantart.com/journal/7014822/ Fri, 11 Nov 2005 02:28:31 PST what i hope is really going to help me is this book.

[link]

its called SmartBomber, all about the gaming industry thingy. (or atleast a snapshot of it)

so yea hopefully the library has it, i'll read it and if i think its really gunna help me then i'll buy it. hopefully, i told my mom i wouldn't ask for anything if she got me this awesome gambit action figure, and she did..so i have to be coutious....however you spell it. ]]> ~D4RK-NINJ4 http://D4RK-NINJ4.deviantart.com/journal/6762668/ http://D4RK-NINJ4.deviantart.com/journal/6762668/ Fri, 14 Oct 2005 00:39:51 PDT -Julian


(this is perfect for my super hero the Oppressor.) ]]> ~D4RK-NINJ4 http://D4RK-NINJ4.deviantart.com/journal/6340355/ http://D4RK-NINJ4.deviantart.com/journal/6340355/ Sat, 27 Aug 2005 07:23:02 PDT ~D4RK-NINJ4 http://D4RK-NINJ4.deviantart.com/journal/6123777/ http://D4RK-NINJ4.deviantart.com/journal/6123777/ Wed, 03 Aug 2005 15:03:44 PDT
PORTLAND OR,-
friday august 26th
@ the Ground Kontrol.

SEATTLE WA,-
saturday august 27th
@ the pax 2005

CHICAGO IL,-
friday september 16th
@ the double door
21+

CLEVELAND OH,-
saturday august 17th
@ the beachland ballroom



so anyone in portland wanna come with me?
check out their website
[link]


if no one knows who the minibosses are my god your horrible!! they play nintendo music...yes from the games, like castlevania, ninja gaiden, contra, megaman, and theres alot more. lol. please come with me! ]]> ~D4RK-NINJ4 http://D4RK-NINJ4.deviantart.com/journal/6073419/ http://D4RK-NINJ4.deviantart.com/journal/6073419/ Sat, 30 Jul 2005 00:33:11 PDT ~D4RK-NINJ4 http://D4RK-NINJ4.deviantart.com/journal/6024035/ http://D4RK-NINJ4.deviantart.com/journal/6024035/ Sun, 24 Jul 2005 19:30:54 PDT

17 15!!!

[link] ]]> ~D4RK-NINJ4 http://D4RK-NINJ4.deviantart.com/journal/6019463/ http://D4RK-NINJ4.deviantart.com/journal/6019463/ Sun, 24 Jul 2005 09:07:58 PDT
no really it did....i finished making my web site now its time for step two!! to actually put it on the wired! woohooo....::falls down crying::


its amazing what you find face to face.


DAFT PUNK RULES ALL! ]]> ~D4RK-NINJ4 http://D4RK-NINJ4.deviantart.com/journal/5994976/ http://D4RK-NINJ4.deviantart.com/journal/5994976/ Thu, 21 Jul 2005 11:57:46 PDT Startling the fearful.
Is this a test? It has to be,
Otherwise I can't go on.

But I'm still right here
Giving blood, keeping faith
And I'm still right here.

This body holding me. Be my reminder here that I am not alone in
This body, this body holding me, feeling eternal
All this pain is an illusion?

people say to me...

'Twirling round with this familiar parable.
Spinning, weaving round each new experience.
Recognize this as a holy gift and celebrate this chance to be alive and breathing.'

Black then white are all I see in my infancy.
red and yellow then came to be, reaching out to me.
lets me see there is so much more
and beckons me to look through to these infinite possibilities.

Over thinking, over analyzing separates the body from the mind.
Withering my intuition, missing opportunities.

Feed my will to feel this moment urging me to cross the line.
Reaching out to embrace the random.
Reaching out to embrace whatever may come.

I have come curiously close to the end, down
Beneath my self-indulgent pitiful hole,
Defeated, I concede and
Move closer
I may find comfort here
I may find peace within the emptiness
How pitiful...

I embrace my desire to
feel the rhythm, to feel connected
enough to step aside and weep like a widow
to feel inspired, to fathom the power,
to witness the beauty, to bathe in the fountain,
to swing on the spiral
of our divinity and still be a human.


but over all the sorrowful will over come and embrace all of me till there is nothing left but dust. ]]> ~D4RK-NINJ4 http://D4RK-NINJ4.deviantart.com/journal/5979685/ http://D4RK-NINJ4.deviantart.com/journal/5979685/ Tue, 19 Jul 2005 17:29:14 PDT ~D4RK-NINJ4 http://D4RK-NINJ4.deviantart.com/journal/5924212/ http://D4RK-NINJ4.deviantart.com/journal/5924212/ Wed, 13 Jul 2005 14:34:24 PDT
I will choke until I swallow... What is this but my reflection? Who am I to judge and strike you down? Rest your trigger on my finger, bang my head upon the fault line. Take care not to make me enter. 'cause if I do we both may disappear. Slipping back into the gap again. But i'd trade it all for just a little bit of piece of mind. Never wanna see that place again. Some say we'll see armageddon soon. I certainly hope we will. I sure could use a vacation from this bullshit three ring circus sideshow of Freaks here in this hopeless fucking hole. Saw that gap again today as you were begging me to stay. Managed to push myself away, and you, as well. If, when I say I may fade like a sigh if I stay, I must persuade you another way. My shadow's Shedding skin and I've been picking scabs again. I'm down digging through my old muscles looking for a clue. I've been crawling on my belly clearing out what could've been. I've been wallowing in my own confused and insecure delusions for a piece to cross me over or a word to guide me in. I feel the changes coming down. I wanna know what I've been hiding in my shadow. Change is coming through my shadow. I feel the outside turning in. I wanna feel the metamorphosis and cleansing I've endured within my shadow. Listen to my muscle memory. Contemplate what I've been clinging to.

Will it take longer then it has before to realize that someone will hold the voice that will lead me back home? I choose to live and to grow, take and give and to move, learn and love and to cry, kill and die and to be paranoid and to lie, hate and fear and to do what it takes to move through. I choose to live and to lie, kill and give and to die, learn and love and to do what it takes to step through. I am too connected to slip away, to fade away. Days away I still feel you touching me, changing me, and considerately killing me. Without the skin, beneath the storm, under these tears the walls came down. There's no love in fear. Staring down the hole again. Hands upon my back again. Survival is my only friend. Terrified of what may come. Just remember I will always love you, even as I tear your fucking throat away. But it will end no other way. What's coming through is alive. What's holding up is a mirror. But what's singing songs is a snake looking to turn this piss to wine. They're both totally void of hate, but killing me just the same. The snake behind me hisses what my damage could have been. My blood before me begs me open up my heart again. And I feel this coming over like a storm again. considerately. Venomous voice, tempts me, drains me, bleeds me, leaves me cracked and empty. Drags me down like some sweet gravity.

Fret for your figure and Fret for your latte and Fret for your hairpiece and Fret for your lawsuit and Fret for your prozac and Fret for your pilot and Fret for your contract and Fret for your car. Fuck L Ron Hubbard and Fuck all his clones. Fuck all those gun-toting Hip gangster wannabes. Fuck retro anything. Fuck your tattoos. Fuck all you junkies and Fuck your short memory. Fuck smiley glad-hands With hidden agendas. Fuck these dysfunctional, Insecure actresses. See my shadow changing, stretching up and over me harden this old armor. hoping I can block the way by stepping through this disaster, coming out the other side. Eleven. Lead me through each gentle step by step by inch by loaded memory. I'll move to heal as soon as pain allows so we can reunite and both move on together. Hold your light, eleven. So good to see you. I've missed you so much. So glad it's over. I've missed you so much. Came out to watch you play. Why are you running away? So good to see you once again. I thought that you were hiding. And you thought that I had run away. Chasing the tail of dogma. Chasing a trail of smoke and reason. Cuz I'm praying for rain and I'm praying for tidal waves I wanna see the ground give way. I wanna watch it all go down. Mom please flush it all away. I wanna watch it go right in and down. Watch you flush it all away. Time to bring it down again. Don't just call me pessimist. Try and read between the lines. What was it like to see the face of your own stability suddenly look away leaving you with the dead and hopeless? He had alot of nothing to say. Standing above the crowd, he had a voice so strong and loud and I swallowed his façade cuz I'm so eager to identify with someone above the ground, someone who seemed to feel the same, someone prepared to lead the way, with someone who would die for me.

All he says is relax, turn around and take my hand. ]]> ~D4RK-NINJ4 http://D4RK-NINJ4.deviantart.com/journal/5716787/ http://D4RK-NINJ4.deviantart.com/journal/5716787/ Tue, 21 Jun 2005 18:21:42 PDT ~D4RK-NINJ4 http://D4RK-NINJ4.deviantart.com/journal/5012032/ http://D4RK-NINJ4.deviantart.com/journal/5012032/ Tue, 05 Apr 2005 22:29:00 PDT ~D4RK-NINJ4 http://D4RK-NINJ4.deviantart.com/journal/4891785/ http://D4RK-NINJ4.deviantart.com/journal/4891785/ Wed, 23 Mar 2005 14:38:28 PST "So good to see you.
I've missed you so much.
So glad it's over.
I've missed you so much.
Came out to watch you play.
Why are you running away?"
so crucify the ego, before it's far too late to leave behind this place so negative and blind and cynical, and you will come to find that we are all one mind capable of all that's imagined and all conceivable. just let the light touch you and let the words spill through and let them pass right through bringing out our hope and reason ... before we pine away. this body holding me reminds me of my own mortality. embrace this moment. remember. we are eternal. all this pain is an illusion. if there were no rewards to reap, no loving embrace to see me through this tedious path i've chosen here, i certainly would've walked away by now. if, when i say i may fade like a sigh if i stay, you minimize my movement anyway, i must persuade you another way. there's no love in fear. standing above the crowd, he had a voice so strong and loud and i swallowed his facade cuz I'm so eager to identify with someone above the ground, someone who seemed to feel the same, someone prepared to lead the way, with someone who would die for me. you've claimed all this time that you would die for me. why then are you so surprised to hear your own eulogy? under a dead ohio sky, eleven has been and will be waiting, defending his light, and wondering... where the hell have i been? sleeping, lost, and numb. so glad that i have found you. i am wide awake and heading home. i've been crawling on my belly clearing out what could've been. i've been wallowing in my own confused and insecure delusions for a piece to cross me over or a word to guide me in. i wanna feel the changes coming down. i wanna know what i've been hiding in. i wanna feel the change consume me, feel the outside turning in. i wanna feel the metamorphosis and cleansing i've endured within. so rest your trigger on my finger, bang my head upon the fault line. take care not to make me enter. 'cause if i do we both may disappear. cuz i'm praying for rain and i'm praying for tidal waves i wanna see the ground give way. i wanna watch it all go down. mom please flush it all away. i wanna watch it go right in and down. i wanna watch it go right in. watch you flush it all away. but i saw that gap again today as you were begging me to stay. managed to push myself away, and you, as well. time to bring it down again. Don't just call me pessimist. try and read between the lines. staring down the hole again. hands upon my back again. survival is my only friend. terrified of what may come. just remember i will always love you, even as i tear your fucking throat away.
but it will end no other way. i can't imagine why you wouldn't welcome any change, my friend. ]]> ~D4RK-NINJ4 http://D4RK-NINJ4.deviantart.com/journal/4735179/ http://D4RK-NINJ4.deviantart.com/journal/4735179/ Sat, 05 Mar 2005 13:36:41 PST Beneath the storm,
Under these tears
The walls came down.

And the snake is drowned and
As I look in his eyes,
My fear begins to fade
Recalling all of those times.

I could have cried then.
I should have cried then.

And as the walls come down and
As I look in your eyes
My fear begins to fade
Recalling all of the times
I have died
and will die.
It's all right.
I don't mind.

I am too connected to you to
Slip away, to fade away.
Days away I still feel you
Touching me, changing me,

And considerately killing me. ]]> ~D4RK-NINJ4 http://D4RK-NINJ4.deviantart.com/journal/4629504/ http://D4RK-NINJ4.deviantart.com/journal/4629504/ Sun, 20 Feb 2005 12:20:59 PST [link] ]]> ~D4RK-NINJ4 http://D4RK-NINJ4.deviantart.com/journal/4557565/ http://D4RK-NINJ4.deviantart.com/journal/4557565/ Fri, 11 Feb 2005 20:29:47 PST ~D4RK-NINJ4 http://D4RK-NINJ4.deviantart.com/journal/4214501/ http://D4RK-NINJ4.deviantart.com/journal/4214501/ Sat, 01 Jan 2005 17:50:50 PST ::faints:: oh man, i felt so alive, like i was flying thru space. i felt i finally fit in a place. i belong there. i just need to know some more moves. lol. i just wish some more people where there that i knew. i don't know really how to explain how it felt to be there, but it was a dream come true. im fucking serious. wow...lol. ]]> ~D4RK-NINJ4 http://D4RK-NINJ4.deviantart.com/journal/4181339/ http://D4RK-NINJ4.deviantart.com/journal/4181339/ Tue, 28 Dec 2004 22:09:05 PST ~D4RK-NINJ4 http://D4RK-NINJ4.deviantart.com/journal/4131778/ http://D4RK-NINJ4.deviantart.com/journal/4131778/ Wed, 22 Dec 2004 22:10:55 PST ~D4RK-NINJ4 http://D4RK-NINJ4.deviantart.com/journal/4091582/ http://D4RK-NINJ4.deviantart.com/journal/4091582/ Fri, 17 Dec 2004 21:17:35 PST ~D4RK-NINJ4 http://D4RK-NINJ4.deviantart.com/journal/4053985/ http://D4RK-NINJ4.deviantart.com/journal/4053985/ Sun, 12 Dec 2004 22:41:28 PST ~D4RK-NINJ4 http://D4RK-NINJ4.deviantart.com/journal/4049994/ http://D4RK-NINJ4.deviantart.com/journal/4049994/ Sun, 12 Dec 2004 12:57:16 PST ~D4RK-NINJ4