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And he won't go to the hospital.

-.-

I understand now, where I got my stubborness. HIM. I have every intention of sneaking into his room tonight every two hours to wake him up and make sure he's ok, but the likelihood of ME waking up every two hours is highly unlikely.

And him shooting me if I did this is VERY likely.

So.... WORRIED. Yeah...

On another note, my bird is fine, but can't decide if he likes me or not.

]]> ~DallyloverXD http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/28824191/ http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/28824191/ Tue, 08 Dec 2009 12:09:40 PST
This one's different.

See, when I was little I thought getting birds would be something new to cuddle with. Not the case, the two we got sort of hated me. A lot. It began my hatred of all things feathery and their hatred of me. I'm terrfied of seagulls (I was viciously attacked as a child, but I kept those french fries dammit) and I was chased around The Tower of London by a small flock massive ravens. It's sad to say they could hop faster than I could run. Piegons pooped on me througout London, Bath (as in, The City Of) and Dublin.

Needless to say, I am not fond of birds.

However, yesterday while I was at class Cleopatra (our pet budgie, yes, the others one's name is Antony. Hush) died. She'd been sick for a while, and finally just wore herself out. Well now, Antony is alone and without his mate, and since the bird is mine, we thougt it best to put him in my room.

He loves me. This bird, who has previously tried to eat my Dad, Mom, and me, now feels that when I leave the room, I have left him forever and ever, never to be heard from again. He nibbles on my fingers when I press them to the cage (a sign of affection in bird world) and when I get too far away chirps like no tomorrow. Also, he apparently likes my singing. He's only quiet when I'm wailing away to Nelly Furtado, or whoever else I'm listening to and sometimes sings with me. He has a much better voice.

I have become a bird's best friend, but am sad to say he might not live too long without his mate or he may have caught whatever disease she had. And I'm attached. Dammit...

Ah well. Off to pet feather face.

]]> ~DallyloverXD http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/28514273/ http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/28514273/ Sun, 22 Nov 2009 17:09:03 PST
Our scanner committed suicide and refuses to print, scan, or copy anything, so it be dead. We have a new one. I hate figuring out new things.

Been tired lately, thinkin' about stuff, no interest in anything. College is sucking up my life. Can't wait 'till summer.

Swear to God I was possesed by Rorshach when I wrote this. Least it wasn't the Comdeian. Sexist asshole.

]]> ~DallyloverXD http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/28332758/ http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/28332758/ Fri, 13 Nov 2009 13:18:07 PST
It sounds cute and quirky, but really? Imma die.

As long as I finish it before Monday I'm not sweating it, but I have to BS 4 or so double spaced pages of Osirisy-Cultness. Hmm... methinks I should get started....

After CSI Miami. Promise.

Oh, and to add, I still have all my ather homework to get done, by Monday.

This college stuff? Totally kicking my ass.

]]> ~DallyloverXD http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/27998416/ http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/27998416/ Tue, 27 Oct 2009 16:26:53 PDT
My new favorite sweatshirt has arrived! WAH!

Ya wanna know what it says?

Yes you do, don't lie.

Liar.

It says: And then Buffy staked Edward. The end.

I will model it in a few anti twilight pictures for you guys to see!

Until then, over and out...

]]> ~DallyloverXD http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/27831422/ http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/27831422/ Sun, 18 Oct 2009 09:13:01 PDT
I plan on doing a special Halloween piece for you guys (that will probably be late) and I might actually color it and actually give it a background. I'm just not sure what I'll do... hmm... I'd love some suggestions!

I just love Halloween, it's my absolute favorite season, including Christmas. The costmes, the creatures, the myth. Do you know the actual point of All Hallows Eve? It was a Druid (Gaelic? Well, that general areA) ceremony where the people would dress up as creatures to confuse the evil spirits. There was more significance to it, but I'd rather not ruin the details. 'Cuz I don't remember them all...

Anyways, Halloween... I can't wait! Unfortunately I'm too old for trick or treating (according to Mom, I'm not inclines to agree) so me and Mom have started a tradition of settling down and watching spooky movies all night. Some years there's a Tales from the Crypt marathon om Chiller, and we watch that instead. It's just as good, sometimes better.

I CAN'T WAIT!!!!

Another note:

Due to the popularity of my rant (see previous journal) I'm putting the essay on hold. Sounds backwards right? No. I'm waiting until summer time to work on it so I canput my full concentration on it. I want this to be a good piece, something SMeyer should have considered when she was writing her crap books.

I hope you guys don't mind the extra long wait!

]]> ~DallyloverXD http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/27189635/ http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/27189635/ Sun, 13 Sep 2009 11:52:06 PDT
"I strongly disagree with you. First of all, I’m wary to believe that you actually read all the books completely; many of your facts are wrong. For instance, it was explained that the vampires only went to high school to blend into the human town. It was the only way they could live there without their secret being discovered. Of course it wasn’t the first thing teenagers would do, because… they aren’t really teenagers. In fact some of them are hundreds of years old. I’m sure they don’t have the mindset of your average teen. They’re old souls in a teenage body, if you will. They didn’t want to go to high school, it was the only way they could survive.

The books also explained that the family of vampires had only lived in Forks for about two years. People WOULD notice that they never aged, which is the reason that the family never stays in one place for long. They are constantly moving to avoid humans finding out their secret.

Not thinking things through and following instincts DOES NOT make someone stupid. ‘Stupid’ is someone who is not smart. Bella’s character follows her heart, and does what she thinks is best. Sometimes she may not make the best choices. But she is a teenage girl. That’s just the way her character is. I don’t understand how that makes the story “suck”.

Stephenie Meyer’s story is just that. It’s a STORY. Don’t pick it apart and flip things around to make them seem like something they’re not. It only shows that you didn’t read very carefully. It’s fiction. Like the books (or not# for what they are, and leave it at that."

was the defense and rebuttal agains this:

"Okay, I’ll say it: I hate Twilight.

For those of you who aren’t regularly around teenagers, you might have seen this book cover on your way through Borders or Barnes and Noble:

{Picture of Twilight Cover}

Twilight is a publishing phenomenon, to say the least — it’s sold something over 3.5 million copies, even muscling out Harry Potter on some lists, if memory serves, and is responsible for -among other things- one of my first-period students writing “I Heart Edward Cullen” all over her notebook.

The first thirty pages of the novel had me somewhat intrigued: a young teenage girl from Phoenix moves to rainy Forks, Washington to be with her estranged father. There, she starts high school and immediately encounters a brooding, mysterious group of students whose strangeness seems to have the air of another world, or at least an older time. In that respect, it initially reminded me of the relationship between the outsider Richard and the élite Greek scholars of Donna Tartt’s obsessive and weirdly fascinating novel The Secret History .

Suffice it to say that the bloom started to come off the rose fairly swiftly after about page 30, and there were more than four hundred pages to go. Let’s start with the main character, shall we?

I knew I was in trouble when I couldn’t remember the heroine’s name even though I was well into the book and I had to check back a few pages to see whom I was reading about. The name, by the way, is Isabella Swan, a moniker that seemed more suited to a trashy Bertrice Small-type romance than a young adult novel, but I was willing to go along with the ride — hey, I’ve enjoyed novels with protagonists named Amber St. Claire – but to my annoyance, the heroine seemed to be barely more than a blank page. As some reviewers for Amazon noticed, this character vacancy is probably a chief reason for the novel’s popularity, for how better to project one’s own fantasies than onto a blank screen? What passes for characterization is Meyer’s description of Bella as one of those faux-naive types existing nowhere except in trashy romances — the type who seemingly has no idea she’s attractive even though she could walk on a carpet of dropped male tongues on her way to biology class. Instantly upon her arrival in not-so-sunny Forks, she’s surrounded by a circle of cutouts from Central Casting: the goofy, chatty girlfriend, the nice-but-a-loser would-be suitor, the clueless dad who seems like a cross between Sheriff Andy Taylor and Gomer Pyle, and -of course- the mysterious Edward.

The mysterious Edward’s mystery is that he’s a vampire. Oh, and he’s gorgeous. His amber eyes occasionally glare, occasionally gleam, and are occasionally onyx. He’s a genius and does everything with precision and perfection. He is far more sophisticated and street-smart than the heroine, and makes his knowledge known in a world-weary tone that does great credit to the writers of the Cliffs Notes for The Picture of Dorian Gray. He’s gorgeous, and he drives a Volvo, and his house contains a lovely collection of antiques, including his family members. Oh, and in case you forgot, he’s gorgeous.

Meyer bends over backward – really, the woman does a... ]]> ~DallyloverXD http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/26845085/ http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/26845085/ Wed, 26 Aug 2009 20:14:40 PDT
He told me to just close my eyes and imagine baloons lifting me. he told me to feel lighter than air, and as he said everything, I felt like their were strings attached to my shoulders and arms and I LEVITATED ABOUT AN INCH OFF THE FLOOR. Now, I'll be honest, I was nervous and part of me was elsewhere so only my heels went up, but I WASN'T HOLDING MYSELF UP WITH MY TOES, THEY WERE JUST REMINDING ME I'M STILL ON EARTH. I actually TIPPED FORWARD SO MUCH THAT I wouldn't have been able to hold myself up, no matter what. Criss Angel MINDFREAKED ME THROUGH THE TELEVISION.

OH MY GOD I'M SHAKING!!!!!!!

OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!

]]> ~DallyloverXD http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/26812814/ http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/26812814/ Tue, 25 Aug 2009 08:44:25 PDT
IMMA DIE.

I already have homework in every single class, I got lost twice (yet still wasn't late, hot damn) and I've realized my math teacher (an Italian man who's name isn't pronounceable) is the only one capable of losing me using WORDS. As if I didn't have enough issues with math... My body aches all over and I'm so tired I can't hold my head up because I was stupid and signed up for a class at 10:00 at night. STUPID. But a funny teacher, so it's worth it...

Overall though, I really liked it, I saw a friend from my trip to Ireland and there are eight cute boys per classroom.

Well, I have to start on that homework, later.

IMMA DIE.

~Dally

]]> ~DallyloverXD http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/26440285/ http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/26440285/ Fri, 07 Aug 2009 08:39:15 PDT
Is it my fault I'm on my period?

Is it my fault that my period makes me want to kill babies and kittens and other fluffy/adorable things?

Is it my fault I can't concentrate and shouldn't be operating heavy machinery when on my period?

So... why I am the one getting the cold shoulder and being blamed for skipping parking practice until my blood flow lessens to a degree that won't kill me and I can concentrate?

Why am I the one being called unreliable when my period comes once a month and my symptoms don't change, when I realize I said I would practice, but due to the above reasons, can't?

Does anyone see logic in this?

No. Didn't think so.

Thank you for your cooperation, you may now return to your regularly scheduled program.

]]> ~DallyloverXD http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/25914589/ http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/25914589/ Mon, 13 Jul 2009 07:32:20 PDT
It's a list: 8 facts about yourself, tag 8 friends

1. I'm stubborn.
2. I'm opinionated.
3. I'm intelligent (and a smart aleck, you get the best of both worlds!)
4. I have a good sense of humor.
5. I have gorgeous red hair.
6. I hate suburbia and anything to do with houses that look exactly alike
7. I swoon and squale "My baby!" every time I see Draco Malfoy (Harry Potter) or Ryan Wolfe (CSI Miami).
8. I can horseback ride.

MY VICTIMS:

~putress
~inwhitehouses
~A-Beautiful-Martyr
=ilovemybishies87
~ChoppertheNinja (I'm guessing you don't have to do it a second time, but I only have 7 friends on here so far, meaning I'm short by one as it is...)
~black-blaze-inferno
~jzzmnky89

]]> ~DallyloverXD http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/25567086/ http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/25567086/ Fri, 26 Jun 2009 12:53:21 PDT
I was in the bathroom yesterday drying my hair when Mom came in and said "Michael Jackson is dead." I remember the feeling of time kind of slowing almost, like, no-fucking-way could be put into emotionn and felt. My eyes went wide, my stomach fluttered and I went "What?" I thought I had misheard her, what with Metallica blasting away the ceiling when she said it again and I just stared at her like she had three heads. It's still not computing, no matter how many times I see it in the news and hear the words it's just not computing.

Dammit. He may have made some mistakes, but he's still an idol, and his music still kicks ass in ways not many other's can. Kanye West's (the asshole) got nothing on MJ and never will.

It just doesn't feel right... something in the world is off now, and will never be the same.

R.I.P. Michael. Moonwalk to paradise and rock the socks off those angels.

]]> ~DallyloverXD http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/25305314/ http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/25305314/ Sun, 14 Jun 2009 08:52:12 PDT
I've started my period. It's extremely not fun.

I had this freaky-ass dream last night, and, at the time, it scared me. It's the kind of dream that starts in the middle and ends not really ending, ya know? And it doesn't really make sense the whole way through because you don't know the rest of the story, but you're scared anyways because of what you do know, and what you do see...

I don't know if I really want to write it out, but I might as well. Only my friends read my journals, so it's not like anyone else is going to find out how wierd I am...

It started with me and my Mom going into this office for a meeting of some kind, and an ex friend and her family going in as well. We all sat down and waited for a minute before another, more current of my friends walked in (Hey Chopper...) with her Mom. I don't remember if anything was said, but someone walked in (who is completely faceless, and therefore unimportant) and said something like "There's a really nasty storm outside!" I go running out to check it out and when I reach this hallway that has brick on the inside wall and all glass windows on the outside, I'm suddenly carrying my dog Holli. -.- It was weird. So I'm looking outside at this storm and this is where the dream gets scary:

The sky is blue, clear and reminds you of a warm balmy day but in the distance is a huge funnel of black and white clouds with lightning slicing through and around it. Whenever the lightning hits the ground, a ball of white light lingers and, after a bit, explodes, leaving a huge crater and destroying anything and everything around it. I guess the building I'm in is on a hill because I'm looking down into this white city where the funnel is destroying everything... There's water crashing up around the brick building I'm inside (I guess from broken pipes) and people running around everywhere, moving electrical stuff out of the way, people giving orders, trying to find friends and family, mass chaos, and in the crowd I run into another friend; Sarah, who doesn't have an account on here.

We move through the building together for a bit, searching for family, when we leave the building. Now, note that I don't remember any words being said or any sounds at all from my dream, so it's likely someone said something to make us go outside. We go out, me still carrying Holli, and immidiately my suddenly waist-length-again hair starts whipping around because of the wind from the cloud-tornado thing. People are being buffeted by waves, cars are going everywhere, my friends are struggling through it all when, suddenly, the funnel starts to break apart. The clouds split upwards and go into the sky and, for a second, everything is still, when the lightning starts again. Remember those white balls of light I mentioned earlier? Well, I'm standing with Sarah, and now Hannah frm nowhere (who also doesn't have an account on here) when suddenly lightning crashes next to us and one of those things appear.

Of course, everyone flips out and starts running through this knee deep water (but somehow the city isn't underwater... go figure) and I'm trying to pull myself through, but I can't move all that fast. I remember now yelling for Sarh to try and help me, but suddenly she disapears and I start yelling for Hannah, who can't hear me over the roar of the wind. I'm dragging myself through the water, still carrying Holli who's flipping out, crying and sputtering because there's no way I can get away fast enough and I'm going to be obliterated.

Here it's less scary and more action movie ridiculous... Now, this black sports car comes out of nowhere and driving it is a guy friend of mine (who's actually a crush, and therefore shall remain nameless). He pulls up and says "Get in the car!" I set Holli in thhe front seat and reply "I need to find my Mom!" and go back to the building, white ball of death be damned. I get myself against a brick wall to protect myself from the wind and make my way to a window that I break with my elbow (and since it's dream land, I don't get hurt. Ha ha!) I climb through and run off, now free of the water, find Mom in record time and we make our way back to the get-away car when BAM!

I wake up.

-.-

Can you say issues? I could stump a therapist, I swear...

Reminds me of the other intensly odd dream I had about a year ago where the only friend I had there was mentioned by name and he was a warlock or something... Ah well. That's a story for another time I guess...
~DallyloverXD http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/24961791/ http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/24961791/ Tue, 26 May 2009 13:55:38 PDT
Oh my God, it's suck a frickin' relief to FINALLY have that thing... I mean, I have to know how to drive, but if was like a cement wall had built itself up between the learning process to drive and the main section of my brain... and I broke it with a BIG HAMMER TODAY. HA.

That's really all the news I have for now, so...yeah...short journal...YAY!!!!!!

]]> ~DallyloverXD http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/24910900/ http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/24910900/ Sat, 23 May 2009 16:50:52 PDT
You remember watching
[x] Kenan and Kel -- I watched this show purely to hear what Kenan had to list at the end of every episode for their next plan...
[x] Doug
[x] Ren & Stimpy
[x] Pinky and the Brain -- What are we going to do tonight, Brain?
[X] Rocko's modern Life
[x] Animaniacs
[x] Gargoyles
[x] Hey Arnold -- My God I miss this show...
[x] Out of the Box
[x] Bear in the Big Blue House
[x] You’ve ever ended a sentence with the word "PSYCHE!"
[x] You just cant resist finishing this . . ."In west Philadelphia born and raised..." Fresh Prince of Bel Air -- "On the playground was where I speant most of my days; chillin' out, maxin' relaxin' all cool..."

You remember:
[X] Step by Step
[x] Family Matters -- It's on Nick at Nite these days
[x] Dinosaurs
[x] Boy Meets World
[x] Full House
[x] You remember when it was actually worth getting up early on a Saturday to watch cartoons -- because it sure as hell ain't worth it now
[ ] You remember reading Goosebumps

When everything was settled by:
[x]-rock paper scissors
[x]-miss mary mack
[x] When kick ball was something you did everyday
[ ]-You used to listen to the radio all day long just to record your FAVORITE song of ALL time on a tape.
[x] You remember Super Nintendos and Sega Genesis
[x] You remember The Original Game Boy
[x] You always wanted to send in a tape to America’s Funniest Home Videos... but never taped anything funny.

You remember watching:
[x] The Magic School Bus
[x] Wishbone
[x] Reading Rainbow
[x] Ghostwriter

[x] You remember when Yo-Yos were cool
[x] You remember those Where’s Waldo books.
[x] You remember eating Warheads and Splashers Gushers

You remember watching:
[X] Batman the Animated Series
[x] Aladdin
[x] Ninja Turtles
[X] Ghost Busters
[x] You remember Ring Pops -- I still get those at the gas station near my house. It's like the 90's captured in a little store waiting to be found again.
[x] If you remember when everything was "da BOMB!"
[x]-You remember boom boxes .vs. cd players. -- I still have a CD player.
[x]-Making those little paper fortune cookie things, and then predicting your life with them. -- I could never make them, but I loved playing with them.

You watched the original cartoons of
[x] Rugrats -- That show with them as teenagers is kind of stupid.
[x] Wild Thornberrys -- I miss this show.
[x] Power Rangers -- I was always the pink ranger until I realized I hated the color pink...then I was yellow.
[x] All your school supplies were "Lisa Frank" brand

You collected
[x] Beanie Babies. -- I stll do
[x] Pokemon cards
[ ] Carebears
[ ] Silver dollars, which were cool to have
[x] Everyone watched the WB
[x] When everybody knew all the Pokemon by heart.
[x] When Digimon was still on.
[x] you know the Macarena by heart -- I mess up every so often, but I hear it and I'm off...
[x] Before the Internet & text messaging. -- I miss those days, I am so sick of cell phones and texting it isn't even funny.
[x] Before Sidekicks & iPods -- What the hell is a sidekick?
[x] Before PlayStation3 or X-BOX 360
[x] Before Spongebob.

[x] When you rented VHS tapes, not DVDs -- I rented The Mummy so many times the store had to get a new copy.
[x] When gas was $0.95 a gallon.
[x] When we recorded stuff on VCR.
[x] You Actually played outside until it was dark!
[x] Post this if you smiled at least more than 5 times -- I smiled the whole way through
[x] And if you remember at least half the stuff on here....

]]> ~DallyloverXD http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/24808785/ http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/24808785/ Sun, 17 May 2009 16:31:06 PDT
My stomach hurts. I'm going to bed.

F--- the world.

]]> ~DallyloverXD http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/24605191/ http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/24605191/ Tue, 05 May 2009 16:44:56 PDT
For instance, right now I want to work on this story idea that's been swimming in my brain for weeks now. It's a good idea, and what with the vampire hype at it's strongest right now is the time to get on it because it's a vampire story. It's the co-write that jzzmnky89 and I had been attempting, but we haven't mentioned it to each other in weeks and I really want to get on it and...I'm not good at co-writes. I really, really suck at them because so much of it has to be the other author and if I have an idea they don't like, I'll get pissed, and it's not their fault, but I want it to be more of me and less of them and... gah. Jzzmnky, my dear, I love you, and I would very possibly take a bullet for you, but I just don't think we can continue working on this co-write since we, ya know, haven't even talked about it in, like, weeks. If you want, we can co-write something else that's originally YOUR idea so I'll be less defensive about what we change, but I think I'm flying solo on this one. I feel like shit since I can't say this to your face or even over IM, but it is what it is. Hope ya still can love me.

Now that that extremely painful crap is out of the way, I still don't know what to do about my writer's block...

On another note I want to do a "Shout it Out!" but I'm not sure how to go about starting it. I've been looking at some and I have a few ideas, but I'm really not too sure of how to start. If anyone who's done one happens to stumble upon this journal, I'd love some advice or tips. My friends are kinda useless. None of them have done one either and I'm pretty sure I'll be putting some soul-bearing stuff on it so... yeah. Soul-bearing in a conversation with my friends gets messy...

Prom is this weekened and I haven't decided if I'm excited or not. I love dancing (even though I have two left feet) and music is the one thing in my life that lets me express who I am in terms and expressions I don't normally use so when I hear it and start dancing I feel more myself than when I try to articulate my feelings with words, so those are reasons to be excited... but I'm not excited because of all this crap with getting a ride and doing make-up and wearing a frilly, expensive dress I'm never going to wear again and...frankly...I'm just not looking all that forward to it. I get to see my little brother for the first time in almost a year (because I'm dragging him down from Delaware to hang out that night) so that's absolutely got my stomach churning because I don't know how well my friends will get along with him, (and vice versa) and I'm just so worried he won't have fun and I'm so worried I'll suddenly look like crap in the dress, or I won't have fun or something will happen between now and then...or...I know I sound like one of those girls from a cliched T.V. drama, but I'm not as media proof as I'd like to be. I'm getting... I don't know. I've just got this feeling hat something is going to happen on prom night and it's not a good feeling but it's not a bad feeling... It's thrown me all off kilter.

I don't know, I'm all screwed up. I don't even know what I'm saying half the time...

]]> ~DallyloverXD http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/24045138/ http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/24045138/ Fri, 03 Apr 2009 17:37:46 PDT
No, I'm not sick but I have started a new-work out "program" to get abs so I can wear a bikini and jeans to theme parks this summer...and I want to be healthy. I just did these work outs from this magazine and at first I was skeptical. I was all: "Um, yeah, this isn't going to work..." but now? My stomach is slowly making its way to my throat. Blech...

It's the kind of feeling you get the first time you pick up a pencil when school starts again and your fingers just will not co-operate...only in my stomach.

I don't really care about the whole: "Oh, abs are sexy! Guys only like girls with a flat tummy..." but it is nice to look nice and be noticed I guess...and my Prom dress is so tight if I gain a pound I'll rip a seam. It hits every curve, makes my ass look great, and you can see the outline of my legs in it. It makes me look sexy (which is damn difficult. I'm girl-next-door pretty, I don't do sexy) and so tight in the chest I actually don't have to wear a bra... goin' commando baby... XP

On another note school was...different today. Almost all my friends are all in chorus (which is, kinda weird now that I think about it. They want me to join. I can't sing. End of story) and they had all county (or something) and weren't there so I was basically on my own today. Surprisngly...I wasn't too lonely. In fact, I wasn't lonely at all... I just read my book, listened to music, got to eat all my food for once, and eyed cute guys I normally don't eye because I'm terrified my friends will catch me and demand to know who he is. (I love them dearly, I would take a bullet for any of my friends, but they always happen to be around when I want to talk to my crush or check out a guy's butt. It's annoying and I'm sure they feel the same way about me.) I was refreshed and relaxed for 3rd block instead of tense and exasperated and I actually managed to pay attention to some of the court cases... I got to think about my long-term crush too and day dream which was a nice change.

Is it bad that I sometimes find myself wishing my friends were gone for just a few minutes so I could do what I wanted? I guess that's the loner coming out in me, ready for college...I mean, I love them dearly and I don't want to offend the ones that may or may not read this but...I kinda wish they'd go to all county (or whatever the Hell it is, I can't remember, I swear I have A.D.D) more often, just to give me some time to myself for a little bit.

Ah well. I may have potentially started a fight with this journal, but I am who I am. I won't change for anyone. I played that game before, and I'm not playing it again.

~Dally

]]> ~DallyloverXD http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/23903985/ http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/23903985/ Thu, 26 Mar 2009 16:55:53 PDT
Ok, look, I'll be honest, I'm forcing myself to write this entry right now. My creative flow has been put on a complete stand still and I absolutely have no idea what to do with myself. My diary (it's not really a diary, more like a poetry book full of my thoughts and observations. It's purely me, so I guess that makes it a diary) is suffering and my arms feel heavy as I type this, like it's taking all my energy just to lift my hands and apply pressure to the keys on my keyboard. The only rime I have any creative flow is when I'm in my art class working on our visual journals and I'm feeding off the energy of the other people in the room, like a parasite. My very eyelids feel heavy.

Dammit! I can't even write this entry properly! Everything's got a typo or needs to be corrected and nothing feels right! I'm so damn tired, but I don't want to sleep. I'm tired of sleep. I don't dream anymore, and I miss my dreams. It's almost like a part of me's kinda driftin' away.

I've been daydreaming a lot in school lately. I completely space out when my friends start talking and damn if I don't forget everything around me. I don't mean to, but I just can't help it. My thoughts start wandering away and I catch myself wondering about things...things I don't normally wonder about and at 17 I've wondered about a helluva lot of things. And they aren't even things I've given a lot of thought to before. I mean, I don't think about sex a lot, but lately I've been wondering about it...is it really as great as everyone says? Is it really and seriously worth the absolute heartache if the relationship goes sour? What if the guy's not the right guy, and it doesn't work? (No, not his dick, the relationship)What if... just so many damn questions...

It's almost like I'm walking through a sort of haze when I go to school. All I see are faces of people I know and care about and don't give a shit about...all I hear are the inane babblings of classmates that don't care about me and don't feel the same way I do... or classmates that are friends and do care, but either haven't noticed my daze-like state, or don't know what to do about it. I've been getting headaches too, and...Hell, all this might be my period on it's last legs and trying to f@&% with me while it still has the chance, but I don't think so...

I've been noticing a few boys at school more than usual, (on a completely unrelated note in a poorly disguised attempt to distract myself from being so damn tired) and they aren't my normal goth/skater/druggie/artistic type. They're kind of prep, actually, and I'm pretty sure my friends either don't like them, or have no idea who the hell they are. I don't particularly care what my friends think of my boyfriend/crushes/whatever, but...trouble can get started if they don't like him and I have to divide my time even more than I already would. Ah well, they can deal. The only approval I need is my own and my Mom's, so I'll make my own decisions on that. My only issue is they both have girlfriends...although one is having trouble in paradise it seems.

He's wild, and hates being tied down, and this girl is trying to tie him down. If he likes her more power to him, but...I know it's petty and jealous of me to say/type, but I wouldn't try to control him. I'd let him be himself and do what he wanted. It's not my place to say what he can or can't do and it's not his to dictate what I can or can't do.

The other seems happy, but there's a spark there between us, something a little deeper than friendship it seems. I mean, when there are three empty seats on the bus where he can sit and he chooses to sit with me in the small one in the back that has to be a sign he doesn't hate me and does want to talk to me...right? Damn. Now I'm second guessing my instincts. I always do that. I screw with my own head until I can't decide if I'm me or them, or the cat or...I dunno...The only issue is (besides the whole, he's taken thing) is that he avoids dating girls at his school so if something bad happens he doesn't have to interact with her too much. If we did date and had a falling out...the bus would be horrible...well. Not really. I can always talk to my druggie buddy Kevin or listen to music.

...

Look at me I'm already planning avoidance maneuvers (which I've given up trying to spell correctly, just a heads up) and I'm not even dating the guy...jeez...

Shit I need a nap...I'll let y'all know how it's goin' later. Until then, later dayz...

~Dally

]]> ~DallyloverXD http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/23123894/ http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/23123894/ Tue, 10 Feb 2009 15:48:02 PST
I don't see why people need a specific day to show their girlfriend/boyfrined/spouse/what have you that they care deeply about them. They should show them every day that they love them, not just wait until Valentine's Day rolls around.

I don't like going to school on Valentine's Day. There's too much mushy crap for me. Luckily though Valentine's Day is on Saturday this year, so I get to avoid watching happy couples mke googly eyes at each other as I go to class. That won't keep them from doing it on Friday, but it will be more bearable since it's Friday The 13th.

]]> ~DallyloverXD http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/22870602/ http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/22870602/ Wed, 28 Jan 2009 17:07:07 PST
Also, to take up time and valuable (not really) energy I'm writing a different kind of Bully fic but I don't think I'll post it until AFTER the other one so...don't expect that one either.

I am, however, still working on There and Back Again so expect an update on that anytime now.

Also, if you read jzzmnky's journals you know we're working on a co-write together and that should be up-to-snuff soon...ish...yeah right...bascically, don't expect much from me anytime soon.

Thanks for reading! ~Dally

]]> ~DallyloverXD http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/22619152/ http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/22619152/ Fri, 16 Jan 2009 17:21:14 PST
The only decision left is whether to eat the full course or send it back to the chef and say: sorry, not my thing... so enjoy this little whiff, and let me know if you want the next course or would rather leave the resturant without paying.

Prologue: Way Too Easy

I moved to Bullworth, Connecticut to escape the hustle and bustle of city life. I moved here to forget my past, my history, and start over, as if nothing had gone wrong in New York, as if my ex-boyfriend hadn’t beaten me within an inch of my life, hadn’t raped me, hadn’t gotten drunk every night in my apartment while I played ignorant. I moved here to start over, as if my pregnancy with a baby I hadn’t planned on wasn’t happening, and that I was just an unlucky college graduate living in the slums and playing starving artist while really starving.

I didn’t move here for a repeat of my senior year’s performance, to meet a bad boy with pierced ears and gorgeous brown eyes set into an angry face. I came here to change, to forget, but of course, that would be too easy. To just come here and be ignored so I could get on with my life…a life that was slowly going down the drain…no…that’d be way to simple…way too easy…way too normal.

And I could use some sweet normalcy right about now.

]]> ~DallyloverXD http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/22230028/ http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/22230028/ Sat, 27 Dec 2008 17:01:38 PST
I'm finally taking a crack at the Bully fanfic I promised AGES AGO, (Sorry BullyObssessed, who no loner watches me XP) and the begining is going pretty slowly. I mean, without it, obviously the story wouldn't make sense, but it seems to be taking forever to get to the fun stop in the over-complicated have-developed plot line I have forming in my brain. (Has anyone else noticed that it's easier to just sit down and start writing with no character notes on OC's and just make notes as you go so you don't forget important details?)

When I'm done typing here, I have every intention of posting the next chapter of There and Back Again as a late Christmas present for those of you actually reading an enjoying it (Hi Jessy!)

So...I'm pretty much done now...um...yeah that was quick...hurray for A.D.D!!

Thanks for reading my rant
~Dally

]]> ~DallyloverXD http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/22053584/ http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/22053584/ Thu, 18 Dec 2008 17:09:15 PST
I don't think it's depression so much as...I've fallen into this hole...this black space where no light can get in to me. Everything feels off...or wrong...almost all of my friends annoy me now (save for my guy friends and one girl friend whose such a tomboy I don't think it counts). Every word that comes out of their mouths is like a symphony of mindless, irritating babble. It's all so pointless...all they talk about are movies and manga (which I don't enjoy anymore...I used to but it got old really fast)and what their boyfriends are doing and all this other mindless shit I don't have the patience to hear anymore. Every little glance shot my way annoys me, every little touch, poke, or word spoken my way makes me want to scream: "WHY CAN'T YOU JUST LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE!? WHY DO YOU ALWAYS HAVE TO TALK ABOUT SOMETHING POINTLESS? WHY DO YOU ALWAYS HAVE TO DRAPE YOURSELVES ALL OVER ME OR EACH OTHER? WHY CAN'T YOU GUYS JUST SIT IN SILENCE AND ENJOY THE SILENCE FOR WHAT IT IS?"

God...

I'm not worried any of them will read this. They never do read my journals, and if they do, O.K. fantastic, you read the journal, you know how I'm really feeling for once, sorry if it doesn't reach your expectations of me being the perfectly happy little friend when everything around me feels so off and wrong...

It's not like they care...and they only care when it suits them, or when there's drama, then they act like it's good to tell each other what we're feeling every minute of every day so the guidance counselor thinks we've made progress (that's right folks, we can't even sort out our own issues without taking a trip to Ms. Elm's). I can't do that, I don't function that way. It feels wrong to tell people what I'm feeling, because I KNOW they don't really give a flying fuck... they just want to use it against me later or they just don't care because they have something more important to concentrate on (like manga...like that's really all that important)

I've given them all the chances they've earned. I'm so tired of catering to their stupid little rules, like: "Don't say anything bad about manga or anime!", "My fanfictions rock, read them and comment or I'll cry (even though I don't care if they cry or not)", "You'd better be nice to my boyfriend or I'll jump all over your case (even though they're never really nice and welcoming to mine when on the rare occassions I don bring a guy around)", "You'd better not insult me or I''l cry!" and the best one being "Listen to my rant or I'll twist everything around and make it sound like the world hates me when I've actually got it pretty damn good!"

I sometimes wonder if having a boyfriend would help me with this...but then I snap myself back out of these thoughts because I know it would only cause more problems because at our age, guys don't REALLY care what you're thinking and how you're feeling and why you're feeling it...they just want to get in your pants.

God I am so fucked up...I can't wait to get into college and pretend I never met any of these idiots...

]]> ~DallyloverXD http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/21471119/ http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/21471119/ Thu, 13 Nov 2008 14:54:17 PST
WHAT'S HAPPENING:
'm still hacking away at There and Back Again so updates shouldn't take too long. I'll post chapter four when I'm done here. I have a few new ideas for independent stories and a few for fanficitons (two of which are Bully fanfics, yay!) and...yeah that's about it.

I hate school, like everything else, and I'm planning on 'forgetting' my journals so I can work on my art paper NOW which is due tomorrow. Yes, we write papers but only once in a while. I;m doing mine on Andre Derain...not that anyone cares. My theatre teacher won't be there anyways, so I'll write them over the weekend and turn them in Tuesday when she comes back. So, basically I'll cheat a little.

I think I should work on my art thingy now so...yeah....ugh, I really don't want to....gah! I'm so LAZY!!!!!1!!!!!!!


Thanks for reading my rant
~Dally


ps.
Mom's going to help me figure out the scanner, so drawings will come soon! YAY!

]]> ~DallyloverXD http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/19553619/ http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/19553619/ Wed, 23 Jul 2008 11:04:42 PDT
I’m having more title troubles, and I was planning on posting my Lord of the Rings X Harry Potter fanfiction today. I can’t, however, without a title. All the ones I come up with are really corny and when I ask my Mom for help she can’t think of anything either. I’ve browsed around fafiction.net for title ideas (because I’m not sure I want to post it there, what with the many restrictions the website has for writers, so it’s not really a free expression kind of place anymore and I had every intention of either crediting the original person or changing it so it’s something different, but still crediting them and asking their permission) and I didn’t get anything.

I’ve seen a few fics where they name it after the OC character, but Linwë (my OC) isn’t the main character. She’s not really a major character, she seems that way in the beginning, but she’s more of the background comic relief and something of a plot device so everything fits together as smoothly as possible. Once the story gets to all the juicy good stuff she’ll probably fall back to being a background character. Besides, I’ve seen some blaring Mary Sue characteristics and I’m trying to pull away from them while there’s still a chance. Granted, she’s an elf and if you aren’t careful they can seem Sue-ish or Stu-ish, but I also made her different from most elves (she’s horridly clumsy) and I’m paring her off with Legolas (but not until the sequel so there’s time to make the relationship make sense I guess).

I’ve used the Litmus tests (three different ones) and they all say she’s on the fence from being a Mary Sue of lower, tolerable proportions to a character people might get annoyed with but could look past if the story was well written. (No, they didn’t word it exactly that way, but it’s good enough for me). I just hope the story is good enough to get past the few Mary Sue characteristics that she has.

~Two hours pass as I help Mom hang up new curtains~

I’ve been considering calling it “There and Back Again” as a sort of homage to J.R.R. Tolkien’s ‘The Hobbit’ which started all this mess, and I would most definitely put up a disclaimer that it wasn’t my idea. But I’m not sure...I hate the idea of people attacking me and saying “Hey that title isn’t yours bladdie bladdie bladdie…You’re uncreative bladdie bladdie…you suck bladdie bladdah…” without reading the disclaimer. I’ve seen it happen to some really good writers out there and it’s not the fact that the insults actually hurt my feelings; it’s the fact that people actually have that little of a life to stop and say “You suck! Go die yadda yadda…” instead of saying “Hey, maybe you could consider writing this part differently, or you could do something with this part to make it sound different…” you know, constructive critics.

Ok, new rule, for everything I write, I’m not even going to read it if it starts out sounding like a flame…I have no patience for flamers (how we went from my issues with a title to flaming I will never know… )

~Another hour passes as I help Mom make dinner~

I think I’ll call it There and Back Again…the more I think about it, the more I like the idea and who cares what other people say? If I have my disclaimer, screw everyone else right? Right…I guess. As long as my family doesn’t get sued I don’t think I can get in too much trouble…it would be really helpful is people (my so called friends, you know who you are) actually read these things and replied so I could actually receive some help and ideas, but apparently that’s too much to ask. Maybe a random stranger who doesn’t know me could help… please?

Ok, I’m done ranting now…*reads over journal* this has to be the strangest Journal entry I have ever written in my entire life …

Thanks for listening to my rant
~Dally

]]> ~DallyloverXD http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/19328053/ http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/19328053/ Fri, 11 Jul 2008 08:21:11 PDT
Anyways, on a completely other note, I've started a few new writings pieces, one of which will hopefully turn out to be a full length novel and with help from jzzmnky89 (Hi to the only person who's gonna read this!!!) it should turn out pretty well.

I've also started two fanfictions, one is the Lord of the Rings, Harry Potter crossover I mentioned in the other journal and the second one is a Bully fanfic.

For those of you reading this (again I say, Hi jzzmnky!) and who don't know, Bully is a PS2 game that another friend got me involved in a few months ago. I tried to write a fanfiction with her, a co-wriet if you will, but stuff came up in her life that distracted her and we lost a pretty good start. The game is basically about a 15 year old deliquent who fights with the different cliques at Bullworth academy, struggling to fit in and, of course, keep the sociopath (the most beautiful bad guy I have ever seen: Gary Smith *insert fanirl squeal here*) from taking over the school. It's really fun, and there's a lot of matieral for a fanfiction. Mine's still in the works, but so far doing pretty well.

Crud, I'll finish this journal entry later, I have to go to town with Mom.

Later!

]]> ~DallyloverXD http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/18384805/ http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/18384805/ Sun, 18 May 2008 14:43:51 PDT
It came out being a crossover fic between Lord of the Rings and Harry Potter, but it wasn't half bad. I have about 14 or 15 chapters done and after much inner conflict I decided to post the first chapter here and update once a week.

Hopefully it won't get ripped to shreds like ther other one (Want to Make a Memory) which I deleted less then five minutes before starting this journal.

I'm feeling fairly confident about it, but the issue is, my new crossover fic doesn't have a title...not yet at least. I haven't even considered one. The chapters practically named themselves, so I didn't think it would be too hard to think a title for the whole thing but low and behold my dekd is about to be reaquainted with my forehead. Not. Good.

I'd like to post the thing tonight, but if I can't think of a title, I can't post it can I? I guess I'll just go read over it for grammar mistakes and fix a few last minutes details and hope something comes to me...it would be helpful if my friends actually read my journal entries, then they could help me come up with an idea...but I'm not that lucky...

Excuse me while I go shoot myself *bang, thump,* OWWWWWWW!

Thanks for listening to my rant
~Dally

]]> ~DallyloverXD http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/17529884/ http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/17529884/ Wed, 26 Mar 2008 17:55:12 PDT
I think I might re-do my Want to Make a memory fan fic. It hasn't recieved good reviews, and I just don't know what to do with it...to the scrap pile! I decided to restart it and somehow, someway, I ended up making it a Harry Potter crossover fic. I let my Mom read it, and she thought it was amazing, and since she would tell me when my work sucks or not, I think I did well for myself. I already have up to 11 and 1/2 chapters written, I just have to send them to the chief editor (Hi Haley!) for grammar screw ups and then I might post it. I don't know how people will react to it, because HP LotR Cross over fics are REALLY common, so I'm not sure how people will initially react. Hopefully it won't be as badly recieved as Want to Make a Memory, ick...

Anyways, my slave driver has forced me (when I really volunteered) into a Nightlife fan fic and apparently she likes it because I finished the prologue and chapter 1 a few days ago and she's already attacked me to do 2. I must be doing something right, so, I'm just gonna go with the flow.

I also have a two Naruto fanfics underway, Random Crap with Choppertheninja as the co-author and another with Black-Blaze-Inferno as the co-author so this ought to be interesting (Kayla, I sent you the next piece to Random Crap over Easter Weekend, if You didn't get it I'll cry).

How do you go from listening to Vanessa Carlton to Three Days Grace and not have any emotional change what so ever? They aren't even on the same playing field in the music, yet I love them both very, very much...oh well, we all have our quirks.

Well, I'm out of things to talk about so I'm going to go torture friends,

Thanks for listening to my rant,
~Dally

]]> ~DallyloverXD http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/16487845/ http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/16487845/ Sun, 20 Jan 2008 09:58:39 PST
I've almost completely dropped all of the fanfictions I've started and put all my concentration into a new story that I refuse to post until I finish the whole thing and I am happy with it. I rushed into posting my LotR fic. and the people at Fanfiction.net ripped it to shreds, there was a mini war that's just waiting to be brought to the surface by the posting of the second chapter. Yeah, I have a few readers who haven't tried to kill me via words yet, but it's only a matter of time before they too get tired of my long, drawn out descriptions. So I like detail? Big freaking whoop.

Anywho, I was bored over my 4 day weekend (due to snow, another 4 day weekend is coming up this week. It makes me smile and makes my Mother frown.) and I went digging on my bookshelf for entertainment while I was eating dinner. Turns out, I had these two books stored behind the front row that I couldn't see and had never read; so I dug them out and started reading the first one. I was addicted after the first page and finished the first book about an hour ago. I'm about 1/4 th of the way through the second one (which has no sequel yet) and bingo, I'm smacked in the face by the rabid plotline bunny.

I won't reveal too much (in face of the fact that I haven't even started a prologue) but the books are Nightlife and Moonshine by Rob Thurman. I'm not starting anything until I finish the second book, that way I know who lives, who dies, who gets hit by a truck, so on and so forth...hopefully this fanfiction will be better recieved then Want to Make a Memory?...Ick...

Anywhoo...I'm running out of things to talk about...oh that's right...I had a question for the friends that read these things...

Do you happen to have any strange, prefferably (ignore the spelling) Italian names on hand for a dark, angry, brooding male character that hates everyone except his mother and future love intrest?

I offer a cookie and a hug to any who give me a name I fall in love with instantly.

Thanks for reading my rant
~Dally.

]]> ~DallyloverXD http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/15668118/ http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/15668118/ Sun, 25 Nov 2007 16:38:11 PST
The title isn't just the title of a Bon Jovi song, although I was listening to that song while typing the chapter. During the first chapter, there are a lot of flashbacks from Legolas's childhoood about a girl that he fell in love with, but who left to travel with Gandalf the Grey when she got bored with Mirkwood. Towards the end I have a scene planned out where Legolas tells her about his feelings and he tells her about a few of the memories, and when he finishes she just looks at him and says "Want to make a memory?" and they kiss.

If the actual fan fiction that leads the reader through the movie version gos well, and actually collects some readers and, I was thinking about writing a bit that tells about their childhood and separation up to the point where she leaves with Gandalf to travel. Then I was thnking about another part that tells about her different adventures (yes, she meets Bilbo during 'The Hobbit' and his thoughts and emotions during her absense.

That was really the extent of what I had planned, and it's going to take a long time, but I highly doubt any one will read it either way.

Anywho, I have an Eragon fic planned out that I'm gonna post soon if all goes well.

I discovered this really great song called Lullaby by Hypnogaja. It's this absolutely gorgeous song that I've been obsessed with over the entire weekened, I cannot get anough of it. I've been trying to find the cd, bbut I've failed miserably so far. Oh well...

I can't wait until Christmas, the break is longer then Thanksgiving and I'll have a lot more time to work on my book and stories.

I think I'll go post my fan fictions and work on some stories. C'ya!

]]> ~DallyloverXD http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/15303758/ http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/15303758/ Wed, 31 Oct 2007 14:55:29 PDT
I have several new story idea, one that was inspired by the Halloween atmopshere in the air so this story will be Halloween themed and will hopefully be finished in time for next year's Halloween. The story takes place in Targets and what would happen if someone were to get locked in Targets after hours on Halloween. There's a bit of a twist. The store is full of shoppers, but centers around the main heroine (who isn't named yet, so don't ask) and her family. The story starts out normally, with the family shopping for Halloween goodies, and her being irritable about it. She stays around the Halloween sectionuntil it's very nearly time to leave. They are literally making their way out the door when the antagonist (also unnamed) appears and makes an announcement... that the enitre store is on lockdown, until the eve of Halloween. The trick is, if the shoppers can't find a way outside the store before Halloween is over and the doors are unoocked, it will remain Halloween forever. At first, this seems easy, until everything in the Halloween section of the store comes to life.

This is about as far as I've gotten, but it will probably end up about the length of a full length novel, or at least a short book.

I've almost figured out how to work our scanner, and I've drawn so I will post that as soon as I know how.

I have a new crush at the moment, yay, and according to some of my friends that are much more observant then I...ahem all of them...he might like me back. Yay!!!!

I'm pretty close to starting a new LOTR ff that I hope to post soon...here and on Fanfiction.net...so any who care watch out for that...

...That's about all I have at the moment...

]]> ~DallyloverXD http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/14974558/ http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/14974558/ Mon, 08 Oct 2007 17:05:12 PDT
I have some drawing ideas though, and it's based on the elements...well, it started based on the four elements, then I thought, why stop there? I morphed the idea into something big, any and all elements that can be thought of.

That's where you come in. The list below is all I could think of, and I'm not sure I can think of many more. If anyone who actually reads these things could give me an idea. It would be greatly appreciated, but don't expect any rewards, other then the suggestions I like and feel I can do being worked on faster then the others.

Fire
Earth
Air
Water
Metal
Stars/Moon (space)
Shadows
Light
Sound

The drawings will take an extremely long time for me to work on, giving me ample time to test the theory of how to work our scanner. Once I figure that out, a lot of drawings will be ccoming up and I can only hope they get good reviews.

Aby ideas you have, can be posted in a response to this journal, so I can keep them all in one place.

Thanks for the support!

]]> ~DallyloverXD http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/14829624/ http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/14829624/ Fri, 28 Sep 2007 16:11:35 PDT
I've been mulling over this new fanfiction I've wanted to do that centers around this OC and the character Gaara from the popular anime/manga Naruto. I'm making him like, 25 oor 26, and the OC like, 21 or 22, and yes, they are eventually going to fall in love, but this is just my perspective on the type I think Gaara should have, so no rock and/or spear throwing if she turns out too Mary-Sue. I'm still arguing with her profile, so we'll just see where it goes.

I'm still working on my fantasy book/story, and I have a lot of positve comments from a friend (the only friend that seems to care about this thing) so I think it will turn out alright. He's going to be my editor of sorts so it will be a while before this thing is posted here.

I have an idea for another story too that was inspired by the trip to London over the summer. I don't think I'll tell anyone about this one and I'll let Mom do the editing, so the writing process will not go down here. I'll just post it when I get it finished up. I have a new notebook to write it in too, so it doesn't even get a computer edit on it. I have a feeling this one will be a little rough around the edges...even for my work.

I've been working on the plotline for a new Hary Potter fanfic (more then likely set during the seventh year) and will be centered mostly around my personal OC and Draco Malfoy. I'm making it a basic AU, so Draco isn't as much of a weakling in it, bcause let's face it, as much as I love the Slytherin Prince and want to kiss the guy (from the books by the way, although Tom Felton is smexy) he's a total weakling. I love him though...

I think Draco is a good example of my thing for blonde guys...dammit...

]]> ~DallyloverXD http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/14660605/ http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/14660605/ Sun, 16 Sep 2007 13:49:12 PDT
I'm currently working on the character profile (along the first chapter, which I plan on finishing and posting later today if I get the chance) and hopefully it will be well liked. I don't really care, I don't have reviews on either of my two poems, so who's to say this thing will be well recived, but whatever. I write because I enjoy it, not to get someone's approval.

Anywho...the main character's a bitch, and I'm not too fond of her as a person, but I love her character, but I need her to be bitchy so I can make people yell at her. The bad guy isn't completely finished (but I know he's sexy as hell) and I'm not sure about his name, but I'll probably make something up as I go (I do this a lot) and the main characters future love intrest is lightly based off of Legolas (New Line Cinema version, not Tolkien's) but only really in appearance and some a little but in personality (but I love him) I seriously need to get cracking and get this boy a name, because he's in the first chapter and he cannot remain {fill in name here man!} which is exactly how I type it when I'm writing yes.

I need a title too, otherwise I can't very well post it. To be honet, this is the first time I actually even thought about the title at all, so that may very well be my problem...Oh well...I'll worry about it when it's time to post the chapter.

Nothing' else to write about, so I'm gonna go finish working on the first chapter now...

]]> ~DallyloverXD http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/14532205/ http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/14532205/ Fri, 07 Sep 2007 15:02:45 PDT
I've also been considering a Lara Croft fanfiction that I was inspired by when were at a bus stop today. I was looking around at all these kids and the thought came to me "Would Lara Croft do this kinda thing? Or would she home school the kid? Maybe she'd send Zip or Alister to do it...no clue..." and so began the writing process in my head. I already have about six or seven scenes planned out and two bad guys along with all the fancy mercenaries and quite a few locations. All I have to do is character profiles for the kid and bad guys, pick a predominant personality trait of Lara's for the kid to be a total opposite on and begin the writing process. I'm more then likely going to kill Lara off, and I will post it here, and not on fanfiction until I've finished the entire thing. I've been mentally working on a drawing for the character design (Chopper gets to see when I'm done) and I'm most definitely going to try and draw one for the two bad guys (one isn't really a bad guy, but more of a lackey so I can make him a romantic intrest for Lara's daughter, but that's not written in stone either.

If there's anything someone would like to see in relation to the new characters, lemme know and I'll see what I can do.

...and that's all I got for now, I'll write more later.

]]> ~DallyloverXD http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/14424731/ http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/14424731/ Fri, 31 Aug 2007 11:39:19 PDT
...like stuff for here! My God, I've been here for months and I only have 1 deviant, that's not cool. I guess I could always edit Welcome to Hogwarts, (like add some details, a scene or two, get the first few chapters up to my current writing speed) and post it here. I'm not sure how well it would be receieved, but what the hell. I'll get started on the editing process tonight! I think I'll actually post this poem I wrote a while ago after I finish with this journal. I hope this one actually gets reviews, unlike my other one.

School's starting next week! OH MY GOD! I am so not ready for school! I mean, I have supplies, but physically? No way am I ready...I've been staying up till about 2 o'clock in the morning and sleeping in till midday. I have never done that before, normally I'm in bed around 10 and up at about 10 (moving around is my 'up' if you're awake and in bed, you aren't up!) I have to wake up at 6:30 for school because the damn bus comes at around 7! My God what is wrong with these people? I want sleep dammit!

Anywho...school. Bleh. I mean, I love seeing my friends they all kick total ass (are you listening Chopper? You rock!) and I rarely have problems with teachers cuz I'm the one sitting in the back reading and being quiet (in writing or reading class, sometimes History) or doing my work (anything else, cuz I suck otherwise) and I kinda sorta enjoy the hour long bus ride cuz I get some "leave me the fuck alone" time, but school itself? Bleh! All the drama, not wearing the right clothes (like I care, but I get glares from the ' preps' cuz Hot Topic should be getting an advertising deal from me) not having the right boyfriend, not have a boyfriend at all (single and alone...*sniff*) and the stress of making sure you say the things friends like to hear so they don't try to cut your head off. (That last one I've been ignoring recently though) Ugh! School = Stress = BAD!!!!!!!

Thank you for reading my rant, back to the creative stuff!

I've been trying to write a Lord of the Rings fanfiction for a while now, and I have a great character by the name of Inis. I love her, she's not a Mary Sue (I used the Litmus test to be sure) which rocks and I've been trying to write it as if a girl had gone with the Fellowship (for those of you who have read so many of these you want to claw out your eyeballs, move on to the next paragraoh please) but she has ties to our Favorite elf ever Legolas, because they were JUST friends when they were younger (and I intend to keep it that way, besides a little flirting here or there, maybe a kiss on the cheek or a hug, nothing lemon worthy. The only issue is, I have no idea where to get started, because I'm introducing her in the Council of Elrond scene and I don't want the first thing to be "Inis yadda yadda....". I want to introduce her towards the end of the chapter. (Like, a real introduction, she'll be mentioned, I can feel it.) I also really want to drive away from the common Lord of the Rings fanfictions, and I've read a lot, but the ones I've read haven't been helpful. Anybody got any tips?

I've been working on an Outsiders fanfiction, and as much as I hated to change the book at the end where Dallas and Johnny die, I had to. I hated to do it, cuz people do it all the time, and when Dallas' speaks his first line everyone will groan and go "you revived them? DEATH TO YOU!" and I hate getting flames. It's one of my pet peeves when someone flames someone else because it proves that the flamer just doesn't have a life. Anyways, back to the topic, I have up to chapter 3 just how I like it and I'm halfway through editing chapter 2, and I'd really like to post them, but I'm not sure how they'll be recived at this point cuz the main OC character I have has some noticeable Mary Sue tendencies. They aren't the bad ones, but they are just blatantly (spelling?) there. I hate worrying over absolutely nothing.

Ok, I have nothing else to say, so I guess I'll just post my poem.

Later!

]]> ~DallyloverXD http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/14270488/ http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/14270488/ Tue, 21 Aug 2007 10:34:19 PDT
I've also had one helluva writer's block. I can't write anything. Nothing...when I was traveling in Europe last month (which rocked for those of you who care) I was attacked by the rabid plotline bunny and I had this fantastic idea for a book. At the time, I wasn't sure about a lot of it, just a few creatures I was thinking about and two or three main characters, and a little bit of a plot line, but also at the time, I didn't have a pen or paper with me so I could scribble down all my ideas, so I had to remember them. These ideas came with the countryside of Ireland (Sneem to be exact and my God that place is beautiful) and when I left, the ideas stayed there. I mean, I remember what I want to write, but I'm not sure how to start it or where I should even begin. I have the prologue done, that was the easy bit. That thing was just a little bit of a back ground analysis on the entire world and what's going on, but I havem't got a clue for what to do with the first chapter. Then came along this entire situation with my ex-friends (still awkward on the tongue to call them that, but I might as well get used to it) that got me all tense and distracted from my goal, so now I've got nothing for a first chapter.

I was thinking about introducing the main character, but I realized I didn't even have a character profile for her so that wiped that clean. I want to write the profile about her, but I'm not sure what to do... Maybe if I write it here, acting like I'm talking to someone, it will come to me...

Name: I'm so not sure it's not even funny. If there is anyone out there reading this and they have suggestions based upon what they read with the rest of her design, I'd be happy to take a suggestion or two.

Age: 17 or 18, I want her to be a teenager so she'll have all these idea about how things should be so I can rip them apart later in the game, but I also want her to live alone so I don't have to worry about another character in the house.

Gender: Female

Physical Description: I'm not too sure about this bit. I don't want her to be too attractive, but I don't want her hideous. Average looking I guess...brown eyes, tan skin, average weight, average height, brown haircut in a Raven-from-the-Teen-Titans-style so another character can tease her about it later.

Bio: She was born in New York, but lives in Ireland because her granfather took her in when her father died. Her Mom died in childbirth. She was little when her father died, so she doesn't remember much of him. The story itself starts with her in the house her grandfather left her after his death just recently and...where the hell's the rabid plotline bunny when you need him? I'll add to this if I think of anything else.

(Note:If there are any tips on how to eliminate writer's block...I'd love to hear them)

]]> ~DallyloverXD http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/13411609/ http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/13411609/ Tue, 19 Jun 2007 20:07:47 PDT
I don't know what's been wrong witih me lately, I haven't been able to sleep, I'm not that hungry, I get sappy and miserable everytime I try to write something so I just can't, nothings happened recently, except the death of my daddy, but that's not it, at least, I hope it's not. It's been about 9 months, that's quite a while...but it still feels like he went yesterday...I'm getting off, I need to stew and have a nice long cry...great, now I need to cry to heal myself, I am NOT the type to want to cry...fan-fucking-tastic (do pardon my language)

]]> ~DallyloverXD http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/12914072/ http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/12914072/ Thu, 10 May 2007 17:46:55 PDT
I'm planning on posting chapter one of my 'Outsiders' Fanfiction pretty soon and hopefully it will be well receieved. I've got my novel started and everything and it seems as though I have bitten off more then I can chew and am now choking. Who here knows the heimlich? (spelled wrong, don't pester...) This thing is huge, I have so much going into it, so many ideas and so many...plotlines branching off of it, I may have to turn it into a series.

It's a fantasy thing, (and I haven't quite worked out all of the kinks yet, but I'm getting there) about a girl who learns that she has been chosen for something so big and grand she's not sure she can handle it. It's more about coming to age, learning some unique powers and learning about herself then actual fantasy, but the fantasy theme is very big with me and is one was or another incoorperated into something I write. Trust me, my friends know...they're always trying to get my nose out of a Harry Potter or Lord of the Rings book or something like that. I'm hoping this book doesn't tunr out like Eragon or any other of the clones. Don't get me wrong, I want to marry Eragon and have an affair with Murtaugh (watch the movie) but I'm sick of the seemingly-weak-person-finding-out-they-have-magical-powers bit. I want something different.

Now I have to worry about the characters, an antagonist, protagonist and plotline...where's the rabid plotline bunny when you need him?

]]> ~DallyloverXD http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/12889205/ http://DallyloverXD.deviantart.com/journal/12889205/ Tue, 08 May 2007 14:54:51 PDT
I've started an Outsiders fanfiction that I'll be posting on Fanfiction.net as well as here, and I hav the first chapter completed, now I just have to do grammar fixits and wait for a week or two then go back and re-read it to see if I still like it or if I should change some things...which I more then likely will change.

I've also started the first beginings of a Harry Potter and Lord of the Rings Fanfictions (done seperatley, so no, not a crossover) and I'm only putting the Harry Potter one here because I'll forget to update it here. If the Lord of the Rings one is well recieved at Fanfiction, I might post it here, but only if the Outsiders one (untitled as of now) and Harry Potter one are both finished so I can concentrate more fully on Lord of the Rings. I want all three to be really well written and sound serious and to be taken seriously, but I can't do that by working on three at one time (and yes, I do this a lot, I'm always taking on litke three or four projects at one time)

I'm considering starting a novel, but I'm not sure. I'll write down my story ideas and maybe start a first chapter but it may not get much past that. If I do, I'll post it here and not on fanfiction.net so it will be easier on me to update and work with.

...I have run out of things to write about, so I guess I'll go do grammar fix-its on The Outsiders...until the next time I remember to write in this!

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