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published in '65 edited in '75. lent to me by my good friend

this was an interesting look (and gave me hope) for the future of Psychiatry and Therapy.

Dr. Glasser's outlook is that everyone should be held accountable and responsible for there actions and in understanding this most neurosis will go away.

that instead of repeatedly delving into the past and pointing out the problem, that the person should be forced to look at the now and the future. what they are doing now and what they want to do.

that the idea a person can be diagnosed with one mental condition with a specific definition and 'cured' or inhibited by a set of rules set for the diagnosis is superficial and only makes things worse. the patient then continues to act out with the excuse that they have a problem that is not there issue and cannot be fixed. he does admit on some extreme cases medication is needed but on a generic level no.

these things i greatly agree with. i have been to all forms of psychotherapy and have only left feeling that i am more pathetic than i had been before, and now had a good excuse. though i have made it clear to all i have talked to that i refuse to take meds on the basis i do not need them and have seen the wrong they can cause.

the last time i saw a profesional was more or less to get another point of view on the things i had been looking into. turns out i knew more than her... even her boss who wanted to write down in record the things i had found documented conclusions on and how i was personally able to turn the boat around.

not saying i am crazy; i cause no harm to myself and others. i do believe that things can be dealt with when the person in question comes to a conclusion about what they want to do with there own future. personally, when i was confronted by the possibility that my needs may harm my manor of living i found ways to understand it wholly and move on with my life.

the one thing that pisses me off more than anything about psychiatry and ALL related is that despite the field growing to be more personable to the patients and understanding that all are individuals... they still want people to fit into this perfect knit form of life. that all should be the same all the way around.

as i stated before i think it should only be dealt with when the person causes harm to themselves or others.

then again. some people use taboo to cause trauma, havoc and stand out. which in itself is a lie and harmful to all involved. in saying this it seems that some still think of all taboo is a sign of irresponsibility and the person delving into the life of the other should look closer before deeming it an issue...

this book was a great read as far as how to handle people in there life who are deviant or such. this goes for children, adults, parenting and working with the mentally insane.

ok im done ranting.

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next Mind Meld

then a chunk of War and Peace; im almost done!! after two years!

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GOT BLESS YOU ALL WHO PUT THIS TOGETHER

and yes. this is coming from a fangirl- so i really have no standing.

its been so long since i have seen the movie i cannot make a fair comparison of that, but i can try to keep my fangasms at bay in order to try and write some decent review.

i have to say that reading this has made me laugh more in recent than i have in a really long time. really really long time.

that includes comedy shows and movies or anything like that.

it also helped to explain a lot to both me and my roommate about the relationships of McCoy, Spock and Jim. i had tried once before but did not have all the facts and this was of great help.

i have to worry though that by continuing my reading and fanning over this series i will become one of those know-it-all trekers who gets mad at people when they get facts wrong...

i hope i can keep my sense of humor through this geekout.

it was really fun to read this book and see what was going on in my head, to feel what they felt, instead of watching it on a TV.

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to make things worse we got our xmas tree...

[link]

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next chunk of War and Peace then Reality Therapy and Mind Meld

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Mr Frankle is a psychologist who survived Auschwitz. He had written this book with intent of no-one knowing who did, and to try and show the mind of those who were in a concentration camp through the eyes of a psychologist.

his main line of thinking revolves around Logotherapy: the strive for personal meanings of life per the individuality of each patients own life.

he said what i have for a while; that there is no dominant and defined meaning in life, that each person has there own personal meaning.

he also has the view that a world where suffering is shunned to form more guilt and more suffering is self destructive; that the neurosis of both the common person and the dire mentally ill can be cured with the work of Logotherapy.

so many wonderful quites came from this:

"... the meaning of life, differ from man to man , and from moment to moment. this, it is impossible to define the meaning of life in a general way. questions about the meaning of life can never be answered by sweeping statements. 'Life' does not mean something vague, but something very real and concrete and unique for each individual. No man or no destiny can be compared with any other man or any other destiny. No situation repeats itself, and each situation calls for a different response."

"What you have experienced no power on earth can take from you."

"Having been is the surest kind on being."

"Instead of possibilities, I have realities in my past."

"The patient who learns to laugh at himself may be on the way to self management, perhaps to cure"

" 'Sed omnia praeclara tam difficultia Quamrara sunt. (but everything great is just as difficultto realize as it is rare to find)' "

*sigh*

READ THIS BOOK.

He is a brilliant writer and man, and this book will help... well... anyone.

PLEASE READ THIS.

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next is the novelization of Star Trek IV the Voyage Home.

two disks to go and im done with ST2009 book

after the next chunk of War and Peace (which i love dearly) is Reality Therapy a New Approach to Psychiatry (another book leant to me by ), then Star Trek Mind Meld

my dad showed me a vinyl of George Harrison's All Things Must Pass so i dled it... and i cried... that man can make me cry by just thinking about him. i wanted to sob but held back as best i could.

it was not a sad crying... it was one of those 'its so beautiful' that i cried things. i do that a lot though...

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this book it about two-hundred pages and a quick read (once again i have been lazy).

i have always wondered what exactly McCoy's wife had done tht broke him for so long. This Explains it. i have to say that for McCoy to be as upset as he is for more than half of his life about it... i guess i have to look at it from the point of someone who is very emotional to start out with and was very deeply in love.

this is about McCoy and an Assassins Cultural Guild on the planet Ssan. how the Diplomatic needs of the federation can harbor hatred more than thanks.

this was a great reminder to me of the vast cultural differences that even out little planet has- as Spock was so prime to point out. that how hard it would be as Starfleet to keep this in mind while working with other species and just starting to meet them all.

that also reminds me of how sad i am over Gaila- off topic... but i have been reading some wonderful fics with her... and i have this nagging feeling she was not on the Enterprise... and none of the other ships seemed to have survived... at all.

for such a short introduction to a character i still really like her. the Deleted scenes made me almost explode in joy only to hate Kirk just a little more.

OK back to book.... i dont know if this is a must read on any level- as a book or as a Star Trek book. but it does explain McCoy's past and for that i would read it if you are a fan.

also i was at a part where McCoy was punching the crap out of a guy and the Pink song So What was playing... and right as he punched him the part where she sings "my Husbands guna start a fight" played and i laughed for a good half hour... it was so fitting.

i think my next book will be Grimiore for the Green Witch. Tis the season. that is after this next chunk of War and Peace

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Congressman Ron Paul's book End The Fed was an eye opener on several accounts.

it is rather hard in a small amount to describe what exactly this all amounts too, even if the book is only two-hundred pages.

the idea is simple:

the fed is printing money, that money no longer is backed with anything of true value- like Gold or silver, and in this the massive amounts that are printed cause Inflation. inflation just means that our paper money is worth less and we can buy less and less as time goes on. The premise that the Fed is a privately owned government ran company that is printing money... is illegal- if normal Americans did it.

the money that is being printed in general goes to these companies as well as paying for the things that government wants done.

.... oh lords... this is getting complicated.

please read this book. please.

it is perfectly sound in all but one thing:

i am confused by the Congressman's view on SS. which i have recently written to him about- so we shall see.

in order for me to describe this a basic understanding of how our money works is needed, and in that this book should be read.

in the end this book explained more than my college government class ever could. though, i doubt my teacher would admit to anything like this.

i will openly admit my political views played the great part in me buying this book, but he is also being seen for the things he has tried to bring attention to from the beginning- finally.

i also admit that he is rather adamant and passionate, and that can be seen as overkill. i think we are due for a passionate person who cares about the people and not just money and power.

anywho.

next book: Star Trek- Shadows of the Sun

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as usual i finish two books nearly at the same time.

by reading two different genres at the same time i keep my interest more than reading just one.

this time i finished James Clavell's Shogun:

synopsis is: an English ship captain [Blackthorn] makes the great cape horn and lands in Japan were only previously it had been the Portuguese only who could get there.

these thousand or so pages describes the political turmoil and unease around this time and with the foreigners starting to land in Japan and the foreign religions of the God-Christ. As well as the love that binds and forms paths. the plans within plans that unfold with Blackthorn in the middle.

i had once told my mom that i like to read books that others cherish because you can learn about the person through the books. she chose to buy me this and a couple others out of the Asian Saga by James Clavell quoting me my own quote.

the last bit had me rolled on my bed crying and wishing for the bloodbath that all the Samurie were poised for.

the whole of this book was also a wonderful way to see the cultural differences that are taken advantage of so often. i can laugh at what the English did wrong and what the Japanese had done to make the English mad. but both sides were right in there own way for being raised the way they were.

i recommended this greatly and can't wait to read the next six or so.

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in the meantime the owner of the local comic book shop and my x saved around sixty Star Trek books for me to have.

i have a lot of reading ahead of me. not that i didn't before. these look like semi easy reads and encompass most of the entire series and not just DS9 or OST. I am excited to get into another long series of short reads. the last one was Dune and it is one of the things that keeps me living.

ah Paul... you will always make me cry.

after the next chunk of War and Peace i am going to start at least End the Fed by Ron Paul and possibly the star trek books.

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my father recommended this book: The Lost Light An Interpretation of Ancient Scriptures by Alvin Boyd Kuhn

i recommend this book only for those with an open mind. if you are steadfast and squeamish about entirely new outlooks on something then stay away, this will only upset you.

as much as i would like the entire world to read this, for the better good not all should.

the summary of this is exactly the tittle: An Interpretation of Ancient Scriptures.

it was nice to read that, though i am young, people have been seeing the similarities in most religions that i have started to see.

the similarities are in the not so direct translation and utter historical truth. that most religious scriptures are taken as historical fact are instantly overlooked for what they truly mean. that they are all compact symbolism in trying to convey something that seems almost impossible to describe.

the largest of this was that the soul is a being that was vanquished from it's heavens and must live life over and over in a mortal body to learn a heavenly respect again.

this is what i meant by keeping an open mind. i think some of you just started writing me flaming hate comments.

this is not a direct belief of mine just because i wrote it and read the book.

i have no personal proof of this other than what Mr. Kuhn has stated with his own quoted scriptured thesis.

i have come to the common conclusion, as i have in more than most of the other scriptures i have read, that there is a common peace. in which, you do what you can when you can in the best way you can and deal with the after when that comes. no real need to destroy what love an hope you have for this life.

in that i mean: when you bog yourself down with things to make you ' pure' you loose the whole idea. you can't stop to smell the roses if you are too worried they will cause you sin. that goes for more than one religious staple i have run across.

i can see why my father likes this book as much as he does, it sums up a lot of what both of us have read to try and find our own answers. it also showed me more about how my father thinks, and i can see now more of where he is coming from.

once again i wish the world could read this book, but it is not for all, and should not be read by all.

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this did not happen though like my friend i did get misty eyed.

we both also agreed that for a book with about ten lines, to make a move that fit so well was great.

the book was really about nothing in general and so was the movie.

underlying angst for a kid who wants more attention than he can get but other than that- it was like Zorba the Greek. nothing really substantial happens.

the cinematography was so very beautiful- shaky cam, but understandable why.

i loved the use of puppets and cg so well. it was nice.

this was not a bad movie but not great. it was rather scary at some points for kids. not everything can be a mind FFFF though so....

it was good.

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Halloween was ok.

i got drunk- as drunk as i was allowed. which was more than half the bottle of chocolate vodka i brought.

i was female dead spock.

no one threw up the Vulcan Salute or said 'live long and prosper' so i could say ' peace and long life' so i was greatly disappointed...

my xbf was Kirk so that was fun.

i took a lot of time on that costume damnit. fing ppl.

s'ok i made friends with Rasputin so we bro-fisted all night and drank. Rasputin: Bringing Sexy Back yo

i did get told to dress up again for the Christmas parade here in a few weeks for the local comic book shop. i think ill just wear my 2009 blue-shirt... go as a guy. or something.

oh yeah worst part? i made my bf cry when we broke up last night. i take full blame for the whole four months of crap- but i have full faith that he will find a girl who loves him as much her and wants a family. i just cannot provide to him what he is looking for- as much as he cares about me.

so i feel like a dick, but at least now i can try to get some things together that had been bothering me...

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the new Miyazaki film was so very cute! just like all his other films. there did seem to be more of a plot than i noticed in the other ones

and a solid ending, which shocked me.

basic plot: little mermaid.

second was Inglorious Bastards:

i am not a fan of shoot'm up and violent humor. i can see where it would be entertaining. but i feel like my life is now down two and a half hours.

i dont care that what-his-name was the director. that doesn't mean i like the content. sorry.

i thought it was grotesquely violent and uncalled for. if i want to watch something like that ill watch Flags of Our Fathers. cuz then i dont feel ill when people laugh... cuz no one does.

now don't get upset people: my roommate loves those kinds of movies, so i let her watch her things she lets me watch my so-very-very boring things.

plot: be Jewish American and violently bash and kill Nazis.

third was an older film The Secritary:

OH MY GOODNESS

this is a kink movie. trying to explain to some people why others are into 'kinks' and honestly... it made me feel so much better about some of the things that i think about.

i have gotten very upset at an old acquaintance of mine who was angry at the idea of sadism and masochism. if you dont like it. great- you dont like it. doesnt mean that someone who does is retarded for partaking in it.

same thing with music. i dont have to explain to you why i like techno and you dont. i am not going to force you to like it. i know most people dont, so ill go about my day and not force it down your throat.

same thing with sexual tendencies- whatever they may be.

i am who i am and if you dont like that great. i wasnt asking to do them with you. also means that if you dont want to know me anymore; i could care less, im not going to change myself so i can be friends with everyone.

ignor the more angered ranting here. i blame YOU mother-nature... i blame YOU...

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when it came out i was sad by the response i got from people who had seen it- but i guess it really was the only to truly describe it- "lots of guns and explosion!"

i generally am not a fan of shoot'm'ups so i just opted to stay away.

why i wanted to see it though was it looked so realistic as to how humanity would genuinely handle something like a non-hostile alien invasion.

my roommate had started hearing things about it on a site we frequent and wanted to know what was up with it.

so we saw it.

and it's brilliant.

both of us cannot wait for the next one- which they better make or there will be some very upset fans.

the effects in this were so very very good! and the way it was filmed was perfect as far as making the person feel that they were getting what may be considered a non-biased view from the news and public; then when things become known letting you form your own views on how the situation is going.

as some on here know i am not our biggest fan- this film to me was a testament to that, and i still do not like the main character... even after everything; which like i said is all a matter of perspective.

there are some things that got me that i had to stop and think about, only realizing that just like humans have different cultures- aliens are something totally different.

just as i try to realize that Sarek (Spocks father) is a Vulcan and not human, so naturally the reactions we would have to situations would not be the same to him, not because he's a butthead, just because they are not there.

this i am also trying to put into play in my day-to-day life.

the more i take a distant observation of my behaviors and thoughts, then openly compare them to others in a social manner do i see that i am a cultural oddity in some respect. coming to grips with that has now become a matter of how i want to try and represent myself.

the more i think of these things does it put the world and all that it encompasses into a bit clearer perspective.

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to say the least i was HORRIBLY pissed off at the last movie. but i could not deny dressing up for the midnight release of this one.

so i donned my slytherin tie, seekers jacket and draco's wand... also drawing a dark mark- before heading to the theater FOUR HOURS EARLY. and apparently there had been a small crowd there all day.

we spent seven hours there. SEVEN... but we got good seats that we had to fight to keep for the most part. up fairly close and with a bar to put our feet on. though my feet were hauled up against me most of the time.

i cried a lot. there was a decent amount of laughter- but on the basis of this books content i started sobbing pretty much as soon as Narcissa showed up. I love how they did her hair- it makes perfect sense seeing as her sister has dark brown-black hair.

i may not like Rowling's writing so much these days, now having read so much more in comparison... but i have this undying love for the malfoy clan. undying...

but Tom Felton has really grown up well and i am so proud to have been a fan of his from the get-go. that vein on his forehead was darling... and sexy. did anyone else see that he had his dad's staff snakey? that was sad to me... knowing the wand is not in there but that draco took/was given it- knowing it was his life that would save the rest of his loved family. they might be rich snobs but they have just as much to worry about as the brat-fuck potter. potter does nothing but make it all look easy- and hermione does most of the real work while ron gets shafted.

please do not try to understand me on this nor argue with me on my innate dislike for Potter and Dumbledore. it's there- i can explain it very well- but people refuse to see it... so they harp on me a bunch of blatant defensive shit that i dont care about. cuz i could care less about yout opinion as soon as you start raping it down my throat- so heads up peeps.

this is also a matter of relation-symbolism to me. so no matter what it only makes sense to me. if you care to know about this then ask me. judge me on it and ill think very much the lesser of you.

anyway- the movie did well, they parted out the plot so there was less sex/snogging and more action/intent.

thats all i have to say about the movie... for the most part. Luna was a brilliant doll

now- i said i would not cry over Dumbledore's death, and i did not. for those who were in the theatre with me you were not the one who'd hand i was wetting all over and crying and drooling while whispering no about draco... and snape... dammit! Dumbledore wanted snape to do it! he knew full well in his dying ragged feeble mind that it was the best way to go about this. that flow of clarity before one dies kind of thing.

suffice to say i went to a friends and cried for three more hours. congrats to him for now knowing just how adaptive my brain is when i need a symbol to represent how i am not ready for life... such a horrible way.

go see it peeps. it was great for a potter movie. i dont think i can see it again for a while.

that much draco blood makes me want to kill.

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as this was playing i would pause it to look up actual interviews. and the movie is done so well... so very very well. i hope that this won some awards.

this is about the interviews that Sir Davis Frost (a British comedian and talk show host) had with the former President Nixon shortly after his resignation and the scandal of Watergate.

there is i believe a set of nine hour long interviews, having been condensed down from the two hour interview that it originally was.

Nixon trully seemed to have full grasp of frost. taking charge of all questions he would ask and using the interview time to his full advantage- leaving little to no room for Frost to retaliate.

though i have to believe that Frost knew full well what he was doing in these interviews. maybe not monetarily but that was not his doing that was the sponsors idea who wanted nothing to do with him.

as i am one to love historically inclined movies this is one of the most brilliant things i have seen, especially of the more recent historical years. a lot of the ones that are based of more recent tend to be horribly biased and make me want to kill things.

the last one was on 9-11 and i had to walk out of the room while yelling at the others who were watching it.

if you dont usually fall asleep in movies then i recommend this. i only say that because the movies i love tend to knock people out. (master and commander for example)

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i got bored and made a Twitter page. I'm at: [link]

also me and my roomy came to the same conclusion about Michael Jackson's death:

we loved his music- not really him... but he was nuts and you can only bash someone like him until it just gets pathetic.

also- since he owned all the rights to the Beatles music... what happens to it now?

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then we got in line at ten thirty.

at twelve thirty we were allowed to enter and shove for seats.

now before i go into the movie itself.. i have to say that...

WHY IN THE HELL GO TO A MIDNIGHT MOVIE RELEASE OF A GEEKDOME GENRE IF YOU HATE "FAGOT GEEKS"?!

there were so many mean angry posing jocks... and they had no idea that most people wanted to kill them (except the two foreign kids next to us- they just looked frightened).

*fumes* it surpasses me that this giant jackass had the gull to tell a kid who wore a cardboard Prime outfit that he wanted to ' punch the fagot in the face then knee him in the nuts for the gay shit.' as my roomy said 'it takes a lot of guts to wear a costume in public.'

what felt even sadder to me was: i was dressed in a tux (bow-tie and all) and felt and looked more like a woman then most of the girls there. the ones who looked decent were in there pajamas.

i dont think much explanation is needed of what exactly i am talking about there....

now; about the movie:

i liked it a lot. i was a bit lost as to how they jumped to something like that so fast in the movie-series.

also that there was little connection to most of the characters because there was little to no interaction with them. mostly blasting and death.

now you can have those last two with some soul-wrenching heart to heart.

i liked how the first one explained a lot, this one hardly did any of that.

also there was a teaster to the beast wars. i had almost prayed that they were going to say they had found the arc... since that is the only season in full i have seen over and over. thus i am trying to make connections between all of the ones they have in the movie to the characters in beast wars. i think the little one that humps her leg is pretty close to what i think rat-trap should be- but i hate rat-trap and liked that little guy. then again i love B and hate Cheetore (that just falls into the pattern of me hating teenagers)

i love that the S7 guy was in it again... he was one of my faves from the first one... i had hoped they would give him a heroic death where he ruined the destruto-bot (er.. whatever he was T_T)- like... shot the thing in his dangling balls and he blew up!

the new indian kid... i have no attachment to. none. and how he got from the whiny puss to being tazed and wanting to save the world only the creators understand.

i liked the bikes... but i like bikes. i liked the twins for comedic effect since B took a back seet for the most part.

the effects were great.

they showed NO PREVIEWS that i cared about.

the ;ast Air-bender looks interesting... but i didnt much like the anime.

i did see the poster for the new Sherlock Holmes and drooled all over. i told my roommate that i will have to watch it with two views in mind; 1: that i think Robert Downey Jr is possibly the sexiest thing alive; and 2: that i adore the Holmes series more and along with my roommate are horribly picky about who they chose. i can see why they chose those two... but it doesnt really fit in with it being Canon. and that makes me sad.

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Rob-Rob's pillow: 1/2 done. yaye. it looks like Frankenstein's face. T_T

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i have been looking at this comic for at least a year now... and had the opportunity to buy it.

The Alcoholic written by Jonathan Ames and drawn by Dean Haspiel.

Lords above please read this.

i love this so much- for a couple reasons at least; but first off:

this is a short span explanation of Mr. Ames and the life of being an Alcoholic and coming to grips with the issues of life in general.

*tears up as she flips through it again*

it's not my place to think that my life is anything like another's... but a couple of scenes made me angry and cry... and relive the shame of moments so very similar.

in the tiny town i live in it's hard to talk to people about certain things and to try and get them to understand... a good quote i heard tonight from Kiss Kiss Bang Bang is: "i mean... i don't look at an elephant and decide 'hey lets bleed that animal so i can paint my townhouse...'." about a man trying to figure out how a gay man looks at another man and decides 'i want to sleep with that.'

its a shame to think about how much i have held on to the bitterness and confusion of a pain that is rather petty.

but how wonderful it is to read something played out so well. so almost... exact to the soul-wrenching effect things can have on you.

a lifetime of pain from several smalls things can do untold amounts of damage to a highly adictive personality... and it has taken years to realize that not all actions can be logically fixed by knowing that they are indeed... illogical.

even longer so to work up the courage to face them and ask for help when needed.

but... even then... you have to want it.

]]> ~DarienKMarshelly http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/25198895/ http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/25198895/ Mon, 08 Jun 2009 13:51:49 PDT Foundation by Isaac Asimov...:

won the Hugo Award for Best All Time Scince Fiction Series... and i had never heard of it until it was handed to me.

that went for Watchmen too though.

big difference is i LOVE Watchmen and this book had been great to smash flies.

this was a very hard book for me to follow as it jumps timeframes and doesnt really have a segway for it! as well as being as small as it is it doesnt allow for a real emotional connection to anything and doesnt explain a lot of the lingo well enough to understand some of the hight tech that goes on.

i finished this book only because the award made me think that the end of it might be epic and bring it all together and make me want ot read the rest of it... nope.

now that i think about it a lot of people gave me an odd look when i told them i was reading it or asked them if they had... they all said yes a long time ago- them handed me some other book that they thought i would like more.

they were right.

this book is about the end of a space dinasty and the forseeing of this by an old man who tries to get people hundreds of years in the future to stop the million year barbaric period... through secret messages he saved for them.

a good description i have found- at least for myself- about this book is 'like taking the entire original book series Dune and shoving it into two-hundred pages.'

hmmmm... nope.

i dont really recommend this book... i didnt find it a good book on its own and i dont think the rest of the series may help either. but i have not read them.. and wont due to my lack of enthusiasm for this one.

i am sorry to those who do like this book... i mean no harm but it was just not in my alley.

maybe thats why i read billion page books and write zillions of pages. because i cant explain anything shorter. *shrug*

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on another note:

today is my birthday... twenty-three. I am in Denver visisting my Mom- we are having a blast ^_^

i have to say this is like the pre-midlife-crisis though.

i have dreams that are out of touch and hopes that are pathetic. so i am panicing.

i told both my parents that it must be odd to look at me and think that just yersterday i was small enough to be cradled in one arm- also that no matter what i will always be there little girl and understand that.

k-

Rob-Rob's Val Pillow: 1/3 done

anything else i listed? no changes.

my parents both gave me a lot more books ot read so i will be busy for a while which is good i was starting to see my selection dwindle...

]]> ~DarienKMarshelly http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/25053123/ http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/25053123/ Sun, 31 May 2009 14:30:40 PDT
this goes to say nothing about the religion- just my personal ability to perceive God as a mean fearing thing who will burn ninety-five percent of humanity.

as in most of the scriptures i have read- it is a perfect set list of how to live your life to the -nth detail: eating, drinking, wooing, splitting property, sex... etc...

that is fine and i understand it- it's a great establishment to give people the life needed to live in a morally ethical way.

what made it hard for me to continue and i actually cried was how unforgiving it is for the most part. you can't befriend anyone outside of your religion or you go to hell, you do one thing wrong and repent you still suffer but are ok, you lie at all even in your head and you go to hell- no questions asked.

God to me isn't a wrathful thing at all... not one bit. and all this EVIL and non-believers and infidels... with Satin planting seeds in there souls... it doesn't make me want to bow to God and fear Him, it only makes me sad that people feel that way towards the world.

as far as the stereotype of them killing all American-Infidels... bull.

two things about that:

one: i think they took there own book and ran headlong into it- taking it all for an even more exact word than it already is (hard to misinterpret it... other than making the rules HARSHER as the pattern seems to be with most poetic ancient writings.).

paying the families of suicide bombers is 'blood-money' to help support the family for the loss they have caused in killing there own people. I do have to admit that more than a few of the attacks on each other (the different tribes) was rather sick in ruining the temples and disturbing a time of peace that has been established for thousands of years at the same time.

two: who were we to bud into a thousand year war that we don't understand in our most basic of nature? other than yes. they did attack us- so yes an initial attack is called for, but they dont have anything to really attack us with!

for more than a few of our own pride issues i can see why due to there strict beliefs they would be mad at us... we seem to flaunt sex and money and violence on TV- and that is all most of the world knows of us, that goes for our news programs as well.

ever watched BBC news and said "damn i hate the world! WE SUCK!" if you have... well... holy crap. i tend to leave it thinking "holy shit we look like brutes."

i am sad in a way that i cant finish reading it, but it is very repetitive and very grim (in the way of no error in front of god) and that is not a way i want to think about the world- for it isnt that way at all.

I also did not finish watching Vandread due to realizing have seen it before o-o;

it's cute- reminds me of Nadesico a lot though.

and i am sorry if i have offended anyone i never meant that at all... never. i respect the Koran and all it does for its people- to it i am a sinner, but i can live with my choice even if it hurts me more, for i think that was already ordained.

]]> ~DarienKMarshelly http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/24846349/ http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/24846349/ Tue, 19 May 2009 19:45:20 PDT
i had this book in my collection for more years than i care to admit, and when i finally opened it i found that it had been my dad's schoolbook. and i agree- most people should read this. not that the intention of awakening possibilities will happen for young minds on such a scale, but it's a better start then not.

what i mean it this:

most of the book is more about action and scientific explanations, but the end says what is all so very true and should be looked at.

of all the possibilities in the known and unknown to have the balls to say that this is the only inhabited planet- they have a lot to learn. in order for anything to exist technically it is alive, with protons, neutrons, etc... and that is just to have a thing with no crawlies visible to us on it. then think about all the bugs we cant see... those are living things, just not human shape.

so for a child to try and grasp things like this... well that's a bit far-fetched, but there is a hope that it will start something in the mind flowing.

now there comes the inevitable: "what would you do if there was an alien invasion?"

hide in the basement until i run out of insulin then die in my sleep. or if i run out of food first i will sneak my way into other houses and stores until; A) i run out of insulin, B) get cought by the aliens, C) am murdered, or D) there is no food and i starve.

i would like to think some kind of invasion is inevitable in the history of this planet. if it lives that long. if not i fear in a way that we may become completely oblivious to what may come from space, leaving ourselves open to attack.

not saying we spend millions to stop it- we have bombs. just saying that as long as the thought is there that at least we know. just like any other country that may take over some other land; its hard to believe in such pain and death and greed but it has happened for thousands of years here (earth) alone.

in the end, this book picked up great pace towards the very end, and was a bit hard to read for the rambling in parts but it is written in the first person of a man in the middle of the war, so crazy rambling and such is more than needed i say. It is also a short read and i believe: worth it.

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Rescue Me season IV was good, none of the MASSIVE drama that the last ones had, but that is ok, the ending was great and i hope it will give the character Tommy some resolve

]]> ~DarienKMarshelly http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/24815752/ http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/24815752/ Mon, 18 May 2009 02:26:36 PDT
not that it's a bad book- no- it made me feel a lot better about my rotting dead black thumb of plant doom.

The Way of the Green Witch by Arin Murphy-Hiscock is mostly a general list of plants and such and what they represent as well as lists of how to dry herbs and make candied flowers... which i want to do *drools*

my curiosity tends to lead me towards things like this book, and i like it in the sense that when is says 'magic' really she means love of nature more than: spells, curses, dead cats and poking dolls.

though as i have said before in books similare to this, most of what is associated with magic and such in it (the book) is: symbolism of all things (colors, stone, dates etc...) and the ability to tell your mind that you believe in the mental activities called 'spells' which tend to be no more than the imagination pretending to see what you want to see and then telling yourself to believe it. That's not to say that by touching a plant you can't tell that it is alive... no... but there's a difference between that and telling yourself you just fought a symbolic dragon and can go on in your wisdom seeking life- which this book had none of thank gods.

i am more interested in making foods that make people feel better for whatever ailment they have, and having different and all natural things to work with. i would go into herbalism but i do not have the memory. more than anything i love to make soups and she has a great selection of new and tasty ones. this kind of healing and whatnot was brought to my attention when i saw that Peppermint helped my Excema more than anything, and that people asked for my soups when they didnt feel well.

this book also helped me to understand a little more why i seemed to kill all plants in my general area. TO MUCH LOVE... like... how my dog died too- you would think i would have put two and two together after that >_> (long story short we fed him EVERYTHING he wanted and he died of it T_T[while ago im ok dont worry]). also some neat all natural gardening tips for fertilizer, compost and pest repellent.

AND

about Wolverine Origins...

THAT'S NOT HOW ANY OF THAT HAPPENED AT ALL BTW

and there was no emotional connection to the movie or any of the characters... it ended... and we went home.. like... "what the hell was that?"

but... im not into the action movies so much... or at all... my movie selection is boring sci-fi and history. so *shrugs*

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working on several projects:

Pillow for Rob-Rob: one side sewn almost done with other

Huge Andy Warhol Nite Owl Painting: nine colorful squares done

Sanzo clay bust: head and cloths

]]> ~DarienKMarshelly http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/24676592/ http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/24676592/ Sat, 09 May 2009 21:48:55 PDT
i Opened a selling Ebay page for my headbands. so if anyone is interested in headbands or baskets you can note me here or [link]

i only have three listed at the moment but have at least twenty more to put out. bidding starts at $10.00 and shipping is $5.95.

on another note i saw Start Trek yesterday!!

i love it... i cried through most of it. but it was not only a beginning for James but also for everyone else and a HUGE intro for Spock. which was all i was looking for.

Along with Speed Racer and Johnny Quest, Spock was one of my first loves. It may explain a lot of how i am as far as puzzles and reactions to things.

the graphics were beautiful, the witty banter between them all was perfect and at the end our little auditorium clapped profusely.

i have to say the changes that were made i see why they did it, and i am only ok with them because the New Spock was so perfect and Nimoy gave the best "here you go kid"... so i was REALLY sobbing by that point.

i am proud of this movie, very very proud.

although if you are not an original fan it may be a bit lack-luster.

i was also happy with who they chose for Scotty! it's the man from Run fatboy Run, and Shawn of the Dead! Yes, he did a great accent.

nothing else to report on.

WATCH THE MOVIE IF YOUR A FAN! <3

]]> ~DarienKMarshelly http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/24499305/ http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/24499305/ Wed, 29 Apr 2009 15:18:52 PDT
the series is about an organization who creates beings called Claymores from human and Yoki (demon) to fight other Yoki. The main character is Clare who of course is a bit different from the other Claymore, and her friend Raki. you also learn a lot about the other members which was nice and a good change of pace.

so take all other anime where they fight demons and place a squad of armored and talented women with blond hair and silver eyes. there you go.

i LOVE the art though, and the idea that it's ladies and not a mass of guys. They do leave a lot to be answered but it was left open for another season- which i will be looking for.

Clare is not my fave Claymore i like Jean a lot as well as the pair who spar together (forgive me i forgot there names and can't find them at the moment). and Raki can go suck a rock.... no really.

it was great to not have some very predictable epic ending though- though it did get insanely corny like they tend to; but that's what makes them anime XD

]]> ~DarienKMarshelly http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/24265759/ http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/24265759/ Wed, 15 Apr 2009 22:25:45 PDT
k so i just woke up... after getting back at like... 1 am monday morning.

we all got a bad cold. except one person. lucky him T_T thats ok ^_^

so this year i learned that my nitch is in Lolita, way more recognition and way more fun!

first day (Friday) was the famale version of Amal from :bigbigtruck: s Less Than Epic series, in which i wore a green and blue Sare. a woman in the dealer room was nice enough to help me wrap it the right way. she was so sweet ^_^ many asked me who i was and it was odd to try to explain it *laughs*

the second day (sat) i was in Samantha's Birthday dress from American girls catalog. that got a lot of pics. it was a really puffy dress that my friend liked to play with the sleeves.

the last day i wore my 'coat' i got on line on Angelic Pretty. long brown and white with lots of layers and my handmade headband. the headband got a lot of pics as well as the dress.

i wore a long black wig with with all three.

the first day i went into the dealer room and happened to a small booth with an old man and no one giving him love. i looked down at his tabletop and thought i was going to die. The voice actor for Speed Racer! i gave a calming breath and told him "my first crush was speed racer... may i have your autograph, sir?" he grinned and i got the page with Trixi and speed signed, and giggled and squealed and shook his hand. i never thought i would react that way... but i love Speed so much!

then i got three things from custom cosplay that i have been looking forward to for a year and two artbooks from Heise, as well as the three Minekura artbooks she decided to release outa know-where....*gasp*

also a set of snap on molded vamp teeth and purple devil wings for an awesome Darien cosplay.

the rave was short... we left after the first couple songs to get air, then i went back and pushed to the front and ended up dancing with the cutest half naked guy in the place, his name is Jon, and we had a blast through Smile.dk!

of course there were the normal tifts and such... and misunderstandings.

but in a large group like that where you cant hear things or know where everything is, it's bound to happen.

we also went to dinner at The Pink Door, five star Italian... OMG OMGOMGOMG... i foodgasmed just thinking about it.

all in all this was the best con so far ^_^ *knocks on wood*

i did not sell any headbands there but i am goign to online hopefully. =^_^=

]]> ~DarienKMarshelly http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/23995331/ http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/23995331/ Tue, 31 Mar 2009 22:24:16 PDT
not only sex... less still than first season- but talk about emo.

of course death... which i was kind of happy with because of who it was.

the only thing that bothers me is how Tomi cant seen to tell the truth no matter how hard he tries and when he does it fucks everything up worse than if he had lied.

there's a time and a place and even real people dont seem to see that. not saying i am great at it, never... but blatant? come now people- prioritize.

i do have to say that the character Ken is a total pimp and i think all the other guys (and Tomi the most) are jealous of him. to the -nth degree. hell who wouldn't be? think of all the kinds of people you would want to sleep with and he has pretty much had them. like... wtf.

i am really glad that this didn't have so much to do with the kids though, that was getting a little too Fox Family for me.

and the last episode makes me mad that i like to do other things between seasons. WHAT A DAMN CLIFFHANGER!

but i am not even close to having 4th season dled yet. there are five seasons out i think and i have two more anime in storage to watch. so it may be a couple months before i am caught up with it. and more horrible journals for you peeps to deleate. hey i think i am writing this to no one; have for a while *shrug*

whatev, not for me to care. i do this to keep track of the stuff i have finished and to rant like i have a decent opinion.



]]> ~DarienKMarshelly http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/23977271/ http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/23977271/ Mon, 30 Mar 2009 21:47:38 PDT
so i did some research and came across Dan Brereton the comic artist. funny he has the same name as my dad. i think i even wrote him a letter or two to see if we were related in some way. the name comparison was awesome to my dad as well.

only recently have i gotten to read what has been sitting on my comp for close to a year or so.

This was a rather short collection and i really like the artwork. The plot was short and sweet and was nice and to the point. This was also heavily dedicated to his kids.

it's about Dr. Horror and his little girl Evening (her daddy calls her Fruit Bat which i love) and how they ran away from their world to ours; making friends with all the creepies that we have grown up hearing about (swamp people, half human half animal science experiments, zombies and ghosts). Fruit Bat gets into all kinds of trouble with her undead, untalking bodyguard Gunwitch, who i think i like the most even though hes got possibly the smallest part.

and i also liked Starfish (frog-swamp-girl) because she has no idea how she is like she is but finds out in a rather sweet way.

Fruit Bat is also very cute and pretty and i wish i was more like her

i recomend this just because it's something new and different. and the artwork is interesting as well as the collaboration issues.

]]> ~DarienKMarshelly http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/23959602/ http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/23959602/ Sun, 29 Mar 2009 21:26:19 PDT
it has mixed reviews of being the most horrible movie and also one of the best sci-fi ever made.

i have to agree with the second much more- this movie saved Nicolas Cage for me, i had really hated him for being in those last two movies for kids. They were horrible.

this movie is about the end of the world and how some people can see it coming and how it happens.

i have seen a couple of specials on the scientific explanations of the goings-on in the bible as far as how they are really possible; and this is a movie about that for the most part.

more than a few of the people who have an opinion on the things in the bible as far as angles and godly sightings say that if indeed these things were seen they are either a laps in the cerebral cortex that leads one to believe they saw lights and voices; or aliens.

i know a couple people who honestly believe the alien thing, i have nothing against that, or for it- if it's so it's so, if not then whatever. My only opinion is that something in only omnipotent until it is explained and named; then its just another thing in the world.

now as far as people seeing the future and the end of the world i believe it. Nothing is an accident; everything happens because of something else, it's just a matter of knowing all the things to see what will happen. i can understand how some people's brains are working overtime when the dont know it and they actually can see an outcome. i will never jump right out to believing someone when they tell me they have this ability, but i think it is a very good possibility.

the other thing that this movie brought to mind was the 'aliens' who save people when our world as we know it is gone. who are we to think that we matter enough to another race that they will come to save some of us? as curious as i am to know who might be saved and for what reason and to where, i would have to opt to die with everyone else. this is our planet- even if we are a creation of other outside lifeforms. if we were meant to live past what may come then we would find a way. if not then let us be.

i will admit honestly though that a lot of my opinion is based on the fact that no matter what there is really nothing to be done about almost anything of this sort and that i am afraid of death. so i am jealous of those who will be saved if indeed that is the case.

thinking about it; humans to be saved should be chosen on three things: health, intelligence and moral stability. health to breed a healthy population, intelligence to create and find good living conditions, and moral stability to ensure the long life of the species. I personally have no right to say i fit in any of those categories.

but this was to be more about the movie. it takes quite a bit to make the hairs stand up on the back of my neck and this did that. despite obvious personal flaws i have with the movie.

i recommend it just because i am curious as to what others think of it. also it is another way to look at Ezechiel in the bible- another side of the coin.

]]> ~DarienKMarshelly http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/23818104/ http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/23818104/ Sat, 21 Mar 2009 17:09:35 PDT
i had really figured after the first three episodes i would delete the rest and cry a little inside. but i wanted to know what was going on despite really corny costumes.

Jiro Mochizuki and his little brother Kotaro Mochizuki are old blood (Black Blood) vampires in a world worried about a violently contagious type of vampire called the Kowloon Children. After Hong Kong was destroyed by a mass of these 'children' a group of people came together to create a place called "Special Zone."

Jiro and Kotaro want to go here only for the small reason that Kotoro is 10 and wants to make friends and Jiro really has nothing better to do and would do anything for his little bro.

Mimiko Katsuragi is whats called a Compromiser for the large company that runs the Special Zone, and she invites them in.

of course this never ever goes as planned and shit hits the fan.

the episodes start with a tiny back-story that to me was damn confusing even at the very end. and it was a rather short explosion of stuff and didn't really make me feel close to any of the characters. but i still wanted to know what happened because the way the vampires were described was interesting.

a lot really was left to the imagination as far as why things where that way or whatnot.

at least i got through it and wasn't so sad at the degradation of anime as of lately.

all in all its a large hit and miss. you aren't missing much if you never watch this.

there better be a second season thought to explain things... wiki said there is only one manga......

it was also nice to watch though because it didn't really go at all like i had guessed it would.

]]> ~DarienKMarshelly http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/23738236/ http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/23738236/ Mon, 16 Mar 2009 21:37:35 PDT
unlike the last couple series i have tried to watch i wanted to desperately know what was going to happen.

Haruka's best friend Mitsuki helps Haruka to ask out Takayuki- who'm Mistuki secretly is in love with, but cares more about her friend. after a horrible accident Haruka is left in a coma with everyone blaming everyone else for years; and it only gets worse once she wakes up.

it is the perfect definition of a soap opera. i have never really liked them, but i feel a horrible sympathy for Haruka. she really hates herself for being weak and having emotions for people who only seem to want to take care of her. i hate myself for those same two reasons. I can take care of myself damnit- if i need help i will ask.

i also found Takayuki intriguing because of the torment he puts himself through as well; as the mask he tries to wear in life. the self-torment smacks of my main character (my sn namesake.). the mask is interesting because i seem to have an issue of some kind accepting that they are sometimes needed and put on more often then not. in some ways i see why but in others it hides who you are and seems like a lie- aspecially if you are hurting.

Mitsuki really just makes me sick. end of that. i feel/felt no remorse for her.

in the end i would recommend this- not that i have an all knowing in what's awesome.

it's not the best thing i have ever watched, but it's rather short and very realistic.

i am sure many people have a life story similar to this. it was a rather nice change from the odd sci-fi and fantasy mech crap.

]]> ~DarienKMarshelly http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/23670850/ http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/23670850/ Fri, 13 Mar 2009 04:23:45 PDT
but the character development was so that the last few episodes had me crying and hating humanity.

It's not only about Tommy Gavin (Denis Leary's character) but about the rest of his crew, his family and his dead brother's family.

also unlike last season he's not talking to dead people. just Jesus and his girlfriend Mary. which is interesting to see the shows take on the two.

there also is little of his normal humor. really none. but at times the goffing noises he makes remind you of several skits.

this season was also less in the random crazy crap that everyone around him was doing. more in the realistic deaths and coping with them.

i personally have never had to deal with a close death- i was too little when my grandparents passed to know any better; but this show really has shown me a better view of the outside world than i have given myself and have been provided by other similar shows.

on another note i have two art projects i am working on:

one- a bust of Sanzo for my roommate (made one of Hazel and thought if anything it would be fun to try it again)

two- k so in the intro of the Watchmen movie Andy Warhol is showing a painting of Nite Owl that he did. i am going to try to do my own little rendition of that- still Nite Owl just different pose and colors.

]]> ~DarienKMarshelly http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/23551603/ http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/23551603/ Fri, 06 Mar 2009 04:34:31 PST
but that's besides the point.

you know how when you watch the movie version of a book you read in school the teacher has to explain just about everything?

not with this.

holy crap it was just about line for line page for page. what they did change i see why they did it. made A LOT MORE SENSE than the MASSIVE 'i know why... but damn...." changes in V and and many other similar comic-movies.

one thing i hated... a lot... was that Dan saw what Jon did to Walter.

it made my heart break. that was my only big issue with the movie.

the slow-motion fighting that was used in 300 was done well with this, and was not over-kill. so no worry there.

only complaint i heard that was not from me was from a friend who thought the beginning and end could have been two totally different things.

but that would have gone against the whole meaning of the novel. so

on another note my roomy dressed as 63 Danielle, and i went as Wonda (hobo)

had sign and everything, they virtually kicked me out of the theater with it though and i had to go put it in the car. but Tim (owner of the comic book store) saw both our costumes and had us come up front- with a girl who dressed as silk spector and gave us prizes. roomy got a simpsons calender, i got Hollis, and the chick got Sally Jupiter.

and i was surprised at how many people didn't know anything about the series but who were there none the less. and really geeky people too. like i thought i was bad. i was embarrassed to know some of those people- yet for all their 'i know all' they knew nothing.

which brings me to: Viet was right, Jon should not have been used like that though... but remember after 9-11? when the US stopped bitching and fighting and grouped together to help? same idea. grander scale. perfect sense though.

only issue to me is where i agree more with Walter. no matter what people will be evil and do horrible things. why save a few to start all over again?

but you all should know my view on humanity by now. and i am one, and i would die first in all circumstances, so i have a right to say it.

since i have no real goals or things to do or tittles to call myself. i still think saying im a vigilante sounds good. what are they going to do? put me in jail? like i am some threat giving myself a title like that.

that's all it would be too. i can never act on my wishes. i know how i would do it, but i am in no state to ever try. so i can call myself what i want and stand there with my picket sign but in the end i am no more a threat than the person calling the cops on me.

well that turned into a rant that really had little to do with the movie.

oh and Laury is still on my EW list. *gags*

]]> ~DarienKMarshelly http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/23390979/ http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/23390979/ Tue, 24 Feb 2009 22:26:43 PST Master and Commander by Patrick O'Brian.

most people know about the movie Master and Commander, with George Cloony. i LOVE his character (most of the movies he's in) and Steven (the Doctor). i can watch that movie almost on repeat and laugh each time.

not because it's rather boring and gay, but because of the banter between everyone. It's one of those slow British humor kinds of things that i get a kick out of. And Steven is the inspiration for the design of my own room when i get the chance if ever.

so i was wandering around the book, store like i usually do, and ran upon the original book and started to read it. the first four pages through and i was busting a gut.

most of the books is shipmen lingo that i know next to nothing about, at least Steven said the same thing throughout and every-time someone would start to rant about something nautical.

the relationship between the two main characters are beautiful and witty, though this is a very hard read.

and as far as the movie is concerned- its a great movie but i have no idea where they came up with most of it. i think what happened is that there are about ten books in the Caption Aubry series and they mushed them all in some very odd fashion that worked wonderfully well.



]]> ~DarienKMarshelly http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/23334103/ http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/23334103/ Sat, 21 Feb 2009 23:31:12 PST
the best comparison i have was to my roommate:

it's just like Dr Who where you cry in every episode for some damn reason except Denis Leary is sexy instead of the Dr and there are tons of guys in firemen uniforms and one really pretty girl... o-o

this is so an HBO show... lots of cussing and sex and violence and real life wronchy things.

oh and sex. and it's Denis Leary.

*screams*

it also is great to see the point of view of the guys like i haven't gotten to ever see, as well as 9-11 reminders.

really... people need to be reminded. a lot. A DAMN LOT.

not to be mad at anyone... not to blame anyone... just to see what humans have the capability to do.

why things were done that were done.

i swear as soon as someone even hints at "oh yeah that did happen" im guna kill them.

cuz thats just the ICEBERG of what we have the capabilities to do as a functioning THING. as HUMANS.

we are sick... really really sick.

]]> ~DarienKMarshelly http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/23314258/ http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/23314258/ Fri, 20 Feb 2009 21:05:08 PST who stole it from who stole it from

ANIME/MANGA NERD
[x] You watch anime.
[x] You read manga.
[x] You buy/collect anime DVDs or manga volumes.
[x] You own some other form of anime/manga merchandise.
[x] You have referred to an anime character as 'hot' before.
[x] You have cosplayed.
[x] You have done so in public.
[x] You have been to an anime/manga convention.
[x] You have created/joined a fanclub for an anime/manga character.
[ ] You have created/joined a hateclub for an anime/manga character.
[x] You have squealed when you found out somebody had the same name as an anime character you knew.
[x] You enjoy drawing anime.
[x] People you know know you as the 'anime' person.
[x] You know that it is pronouced 'mawnguh' and not 'manga' like it is spelled.

Anime/manga nerd = 13

ART NERD
[x] You like art.
[ ] You actually consider yourself an artist.
[x] When using art supplies, the brand of them matters to you.
[ ] You have a favorite brand.
[x] You have asked for art supplies as a Christmas/birthday gift before.
[x] You give people your drawings as gifts.
[x] People actually ask for your drawings.
[x] You are/were known as 'the art person' at your school.
[x] Instead of just 'brown' or ' pink', you'd be specific; it's 'sienna brown' or 'blush pink'.
[ ] You have taken an art class outside of school.
[x] You have considered a career as an artist.
[x] Your school papers are always covered in doodles.
[x] You have a favorite artist.
[x] Your drawings have been framed.
[ ] You carry a sketchbook with you everywhere you go.

Art nerd = 11

MUSICAL NERD
[x] You play a musical instrument.
[ ] You play more than one instrument.
[ ] You actually really enjoy playing your instrument.
[ ] You've given your instrument a name.
[x] You've participated in an extracurricular activity for your instrument. SCREW YOU MARCHING BAND!
[ ] You are known by what you play.
[x] You listen to classical music.
[x] You have a favorite composer.
[ ] All of your friends are from your band/orchestra class
[ ] You write music.
[x] You've had discussions with your friends about music; your favorite composers/instruments/musical time periods/key/etc...
[x] You have considered a professional career with your instrument.
[x] You are never nervous playing for other people.

Musical nerd = 7

VIDEO GAME NERD
[ ] You play video games.
[ ] You own more than 4 different video game systems.
[ ] You've had debates over which system is the greatest.
[ ] You play video games every day.
[x] You have played a video game for over 10 hours.
[x] You have songs from your favorite video games on Cds.
[ ] You love to talk about video games.
[ ] You memorize the dates for when a new game is being released.
[ ] People know you as the 'gamer' person.
[ ] You spend more time on video games than you do hanging out with friends.
[ ] Your gaming system is in your room. (always has XD)
[ ] You have preferences when it comes to what company your game came from.
[ ] You've had debates over which company is the best.
[ ] You keep playing a game until you beat it.
[ ] It makes you angry when you found out somebody looked up cheat codes on the internet to beat their game.

Video game nerd = 2

COMPUTER NERD
[x] You use the computer every day -
[x] You have an account/username on some sort of social website.
[ ] You go into random internet chatrooms.
[x] You spend at least 2 hours a day on the computer.
[x] You use computer faces.
[x] It is hard to go a day without using the computer.
[x] You spend time in online forums.
[ ] In the forum/chatroom you use, you are known there by everyone else.
[x] You have friends you have only met online.
[x] You have actually met an online friend in person.
[x] U cn ezly rd 'txttlk.'
[x] You have said 'lol' or 'omg' in speech that is not online.
[x] You can type really, really fast.

Computer nerd = 11

Otaku wins... comp and art nerd se... ]]> ~DarienKMarshelly http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/23245084/ http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/23245084/ Mon, 16 Feb 2009 22:33:32 PST Brian's Song.

i downloaded it and asked around to see what other people thought of it before i watched it.

i was warned that it is INCREDIBLY sad. i thought that it couldn't be that bad.

it didn't do to me what some things do- like leave me sobbing in a ball on my bed.

but it was a heart wrencher

it's about Brian Piccolo and Gale Sayers of the Cubs football team.

it was a breakthrough at the time to stick a black and a white guy in the same room as teammates- but the two became great friends despite all.

as Denis tried to explain how a guy thinks- this movie explains it very well; and damn, more people should be as blunt, honest and humorous and the world would be a better place.

i recommend this movie if you have not seen it yet, it is also a great football movie and an awesome true story.



]]> ~DarienKMarshelly http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/23203176/ http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/23203176/ Sat, 14 Feb 2009 19:17:54 PST
not worth $11.00 and crappy glasses.

cute kids movie.

]]> ~DarienKMarshelly http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/23166688/ http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/23166688/ Fri, 13 Feb 2009 01:09:25 PST Why We Suck by Dr. Denis Leary.

i really was wishing he would call it 'shut the F*ck up* like his skit- but he made that up by actually showing he has a Doctorate with a scan of it at the beginning of the book. *chouchDrPhilcough*

and he tells the reader that he does not care what you think personally and WILL at some point be offended by his book.

luckily for the most part i dont care what he thinks of me so- Meh. he only got me on two... make that three: dumb asian symbol tattoo, latte's and the like, and steroids. but i wasn't offended; just like- well he has a viable point- tattoos are kinda dumb, starbucks should rot and die as well as the word 'barista', and anyone who can should be doped up on steroids to fight- hell were on everything else medicinal- why call them the ass-whole?

I do have to say that it was a lot slower than i had expected it to be until the last three chapters. Those i think EVERYONE should read. EVERYONE.

he has a great point. you wana fuck up? fine... go ahead. do it somewhere you may kill other retards who should have died of natural selection. and hey- i am one of those so i have room to talk. i should have kicked the bucket at four- lord knows i have tried after that but damnit im still here, so if i am forced to live this life i might as well make the best of it and learn what i can and call idiots what they are when they are it. who the hell am i trying to impress? nada... just myself by making less dumb mistakes.

so. read the last few chapters at the store, or the library.... no buy the book- sexy man needs love.

other note: watched 4 ep of Trinity blood. pretty art... BAD acting and character design. it was just too over the top and stereo-typical for me to watch more.

Also got through... most of the INTRO to D Gray Man before i deleted it. talk about basing a book on its cover- but it was really old school and seemed like i was watching a sailor moon intro and couldn't do it. sorry for the bias but i have also not heard anything about it other than the wonderful pron on 4chan...... >_>;

]]> ~DarienKMarshelly http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/23029337/ http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/23029337/ Thu, 05 Feb 2009 20:15:14 PST
k so i know my parents read these sometimes: i would never have it any other way. what makes me all emo about shows and things with this kind of thing in it is just that its SO unrealistic i get mad.

best example i can think of is August Rush. i felt bad my friend payed for it.

anywho. the series is really good and i know it's a bit older and all you fans are going "dude... get with it." but at least im not leeching anything new that Japan pukes up in five seconds. Go old school!

there was a bit lacking i think in some of the character development, but at the same time i cried more often as i do with anime than i seem to with anything else.

the art was very pretty as well and i love the colors. they were those beautiful bright with the deep darks to make is stick out. no monotone like how i color XD

anywho- i recommend this for the bettle scenes, art, and plot.

]]> ~DarienKMarshelly http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/22617618/ http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/22617618/ Fri, 16 Jan 2009 15:58:08 PST
well that is if you like realistic British humor.

just finished watching the whole series and i want more- so i will have to buy and read the books.

it's about Wooster and his man-servant Jeeves in England during the time of our Prohibition.

Wooster is always getting in trouble with his relatives and friends with his harebrained ideas and Jeeves has to save his reputation; just like so many other series.

what makes this great is that Jeeves is played by Steven Fry (the Voice of London in V for Vendetta) and Wooster is played by Hugh Laury (if that name doesn't ring a bell you should be shot- House MD).

The two of them work great together and also are in the Black Adder, and there personal series A Bit of Fry and Laury- which is like a Mad TV/SNL thing and Really good as well.

as much as i love this series there isn't a whole lot more to say about it.

and it is also good to watch three episodes and take a break then continue, or you loose interest and stop laughing.

More than anything it is cute- horribly horribly cute.

and me and my roomy has established that Jeeves must be a Time Lord (Doctor Who) and that is how he is so damn awesome. Hey... he DOES have a pocket watch!

]]> ~DarienKMarshelly http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/22483079/ http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/22483079/ Fri, 09 Jan 2009 07:04:15 PST
It is the name of the main char of my book, and i joined because was a member.

2. What fandom where you obsessed with when you joined and what are you into now?

Anime in general- mostly Saiyuki- and still am.

3. How many watchers do you have now?

hell if i know.


4. Name 3 of your favourite artists on DA.

NyankoChan, Bigbigtruck and Heise (sp?)

5. Do you comment, fav and both?

fave more than comment

6. Do you participate in clubs' contests here on DA?



8.What are your favourite non-anime shows?

Jeeves and Wooster, House, Ghost Hunters and Monk.

9. What are the things you wish you could draw better?

ANYTHING

10. Summer, or winter?

winter

11. Rain, or sun?

rain

12. What's your favourite type of music?

Alternative

13. PC or Mac?

PC

14. Anime or Manga?

Manga

15. Coke or Pepsi?

Coke

16. Read or TV?

Read! i LOOOOVE books.

17. How many hours a day do you spend on DA?

like thirty minutes.

18. Name a hidden talent.

o-0; no XD

19. Flash or traditional cartoons?

Traditional

20. What is your favourite fast food restaurant?

jack in the crack

21. What is your top 3 favourite 3 books?

Gita, Dune (series), Plato's Republic

22. Wii or Playstation?

PS2

23. Name 3 of your favourite bands.

Blue Man Group, IMonster, Beatles

24. Are you a fast, slow or medium typer?

fast

25. Do you like Denny's?

yes

26. What is your favourite emoticon?

Q_Q

27. What do you want to be now?

Vigilante

28. If you could eat one person, who could it be?

um... wow... someone i dont know XD

29. What character would you hate to be stuck in a room with?

MISA.... I WOULD RIP HER PRETTY LITTLE HEAD RIGHT OFF AND SPRAY HER BLOOD EVERYWHERE

30. When is your birthday?

June 8th

31. Favourite type of ice cream?

none

32. Last book you read?

Druid Power... it was DUMB

33. Which store would you max out a credit card at?

almost any book store or a craft store

34. Do you buy/sell/both on E-bay?

buy

35. What is the annoying thing people ask you?

ARE YOU OK?? damnit NO... im puking my guts out.. u think im ok?

36.Favourite All-time TV Show?

HOLY CRAP... um.... i dont know

37. What was your favourite show as a kid?

Darkwing Duck, Gargoyles, Loony Tunes.... Gummy Bears... MY LITTLE PONIES.

38. What are you listening to right now?

not a damn thing...

39. What is the last thing you ate?

giant beef ramen bowl

40. If you were a crayon, what colour would you be?

i love the fact you spelled color colour ... um... some green one.

41. What is the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?

Hair

42. Favourite sport to play?

Kill the human race- you should try it sometime

43. Favourite Day of the year?

ST PATTIES AND HALLOWEEN!

44. Hugs or Kisses?

Hugs

45. Chocolate or Vanilla?

chocolate

46. Favourite Board Game?

none

47. Favourite smells?

Happy by Clinique and Cow (the cat)... i know........

48. What inspires you?

NO SLEEP

49. Do you have any piercings?

just my two lobes

50. How many siblings do you have?

One that i know of

51. Bacon bits or croutons?

'Bacon bits embedded in croutons' love the idea

52. Favourite Day of the Week?

i never can remember what day it is... so the ones where im not sick and ones where i get cool things?

53. Favourite Phase?

the kind that kill when aimed at people ^_^


54. Favourite Restaurant?

Bistro

55. Favourite Animals.

bat, c... ]]> ~DarienKMarshelly http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/22461469/ http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/22461469/ Wed, 07 Jan 2009 21:42:30 PST Druid Power by Amber Wolfe...

it is HORRIBLE. I got it because i have been interested in the Druid religion since i wrote my fifteen page essay for history class my sophomore year on it.

i love the idea that they were open to all interpretations of anything and changed whatever could and needed to to fit that. As well as the whole nature thing.

I am not a 'witch' so please do not get the wrong idea. I use logic to my best understanding instead of jumping to someone else's formal explanation.

i started this book... and it started out interesting. Symbology, the elements, a bit of speculative history...then it turned into a giant VOMIT of her own personal crap. literally crap.

most of the chapters are 'mental' journeys she has had with 'symbols' of druidistic things that she thinks is awesome and we care to read about.

then the rest is elaborately explained symbology and never ending connections- that really only need about one sentence to explain.

for no reason do i EVER recommend this book....




]]> ~DarienKMarshelly http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/22446584/ http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/22446584/ Wed, 07 Jan 2009 05:53:08 PST
so like my roommates, i want to get an art-book or something for them to sign. So i went to trusty Ebay and didn't find that; instead i ran across the Live Action version of the series.

i had to download it, and i did. I had thought it had English subtitles, but that has never stopped me before.

I LOVE IT... well... not as much as some things, but they did a BEAUTIFUL job! i really hope that they make more, i would love to own and watch them over and over.

The live action also had scenarios that are different than the series itself and that made me like it more because it explained a lot more about Ginko.

short little puke of a journal i know, but i have to share that i watched something new and that it was awesome and i think people should watch it if they have ever read or watched MushiShi at all. I am not sure how people who have not will take the movie- it IS two and a half hours long and may drag a bit i guess.

one thing that i was a bit sad about with it is that they didn't have the intro song in it, and i really like that song.

on another note, i made another basket for my roommate's cat and i hope she likes it, she did sleep in it a little bit (The cat!.....). i will post pictures once i get the bravado to edit all of them and whatnot.

Stormy's basket is a brown and yellow warn looking plaid cloth with a orange sparkly ribbon, a ribbon with brown dragonflies, and a large ribbon of brown with white polka-dots. The flowers are silk and aged looking sakura blossoms, and some aged looking leaves. My roomy added stuffing to the bottom of the basket which i thought was an awesome idea, and she picked out all the stuff and helped me to make sure it looked good.

i got extra fabric and once again made a bad to go with it. It can be used as a drawstring but i did use only hot-glue so it doesn't really work all that well but looks damn cute!

]]> ~DarienKMarshelly http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/22426856/ http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/22426856/ Tue, 06 Jan 2009 02:41:03 PST Courting Emma Howe by Margaret A. Robinson.

I had thought this was the Novel of the popular Manga Emma... i was SORELY wrong!

I got this book from the "PLEASE TAKE THIS NO ONE WANTS IT" box at my old library. I couldn't resist it- like a kitten in a box... i had to take it home and give it some love and not just let it sit there.

in summery it is what it's tittle says. Emma goes to visit her pen-pal Arther in Washington State and the both of them spend the book trying to court one another.

It is based in the time of T.R. the hunter... so the early 1900's.

It was a great visual for me; the clothing and the scenery of early Everette area- which i still deeply consider moving to.

the read itself was odd to me- when i pick it up i had a hard time putting it down, but when i did put it down i felt no need to ever pick it up again.

in all honesty i have no reason to recommend this book to anyone, but it was an enjoyable break from the genre's i have been reading. Then again i don't really tend to like books that are romance novels- this is not, but it was right along those alleys.

on another note- i have insomnia and have had it for at least a week now, and not sleeping well when i do pass out.

also i have finished my Cosplay for Sakuracon! im excited! It's Samantha's birthday dress from the American Girls collection

]]> ~DarienKMarshelly http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/22219870/ http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/22219870/ Sat, 27 Dec 2008 02:15:26 PST
so the three of us got all bundled up and began to dig, music blaring and whatnot.

one of the turds living nearby drove his 4x4 out to his truck and was all "wow guys good luck with that" laughing... his 4x4 has a shovel on the front.......

so we take a break and go back out, and the brother of another neighbor drives buy.

he STOPS and calls his brother to bring out his industrial plow to clear our driveway! him and his bro had that whole thing done in fifteen minutes and it would have taken us DAYS! we were soooo happy that when the car was driven out by the neighbor we were all hugging and hollering.

the brothers mentioned to one roommate about how they were going to go warm up with some liqueur- so i asked them was they liked.

we went to the store later today and got a bottle of some stuff that they liked and put a bow on it. Dani made a card for them that we all signed saying "You were our nights in shining Bobcat, and thank you SO much!"

then walked it over and he was so shocked! As was I that they helped us...

the douche from the other house came buy again "wow girls!" and i said "Yeah the guys down the road were NICE enough to OFFER HELP- how about that?!" and went about my way.

its so nice to have nice things done and to do them... it really needs to happen so much more often, it's not hard and the world would be a better place.

for New Years they invited us to come over and celebrate with them, and the horde of us girls may go over to meet his family more formally.

i just thought that i should share my happiness, and how proud i am to have had such an awesome moment

]]> ~DarienKMarshelly http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/22205086/ http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/22205086/ Fri, 26 Dec 2008 07:26:31 PST The Day the Earth Stood Still with my dad on Christmas-eve... i like the movie on the bases that it is a good cheaply made movie. dad hates it.

my only thing is that i dont agree at all with most of the movie.

alien comes to earth to help it, and get rid of the Humans.

OH PLEASE YES!

no.... the Pulitzer Prize winning scientist 'Neo' talked to said that all civilizations as the catalyst of existence change willingly to survive. Then 'Neo' has to look at the main chick and her son and change his mind... sacrificing himself thinking that they are right- that they will change to save teh earth and themselves.

I have my Innate-Human-Flaw... that we cannot be fixed and should not exist here as we are- we are a fungus. and i do not think that when forced against a wall we change... the movie showed that much when we were trying to blow up everything that we did not understand. What happens is the death of thousands or millions and those who survive create the next mass of humans.

i am a human and i hate us... and would kill myself along with everyone else- for i am no better than all others.

so in the end i think the aliens should have gone through with killing off all human prints...

]]> ~DarienKMarshelly http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/21841289/ http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/21841289/ Sat, 06 Dec 2008 01:53:09 PST Pride of Baghdad a VERTIGO comic is based on a true story about the bombing of Baghdad rather recently and the escape of a pride of Lions from there Zoo.

it is short, filled with mostly beautiful frames and blood.

it is also very sad... but they did a great job of trying to relate to the animals and convey there ideas and thoughts in a humanistic way.

the art is beautiful and what got my attention in the first place- and of course the idea that it is based on a true story. It's just a very beautiful comic- i am use to reading V for Vendetta, Watchmen, and Fables... so this to me was quite a bit of difference.

i recommend this comic.

]]> ~DarienKMarshelly http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/21790611/ http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/21790611/ Tue, 02 Dec 2008 20:12:03 PST The Universe in a Single Atom: The Convergence of Science and Spirituality written by the Dalai Lama is a perfect way to find out about the Holey man.

i picked this up for my birthday and is has taken a couple months to get through, but it was worth it. I have an interest in Buddhism and yet knew nothing about him, and the tittle was right up the alley for things that i am very interested in.

this was a perfect fallow up to Ethics of the Mind that i read several months ago. The Dalai Lama talks about the correlation between Buddhism and Science. There is a large similarity between the two which was interesting to find out. For one, a lot of the things that we are looking into now, they have been for thousands of years, and even come to some of the same conclusions we have; the String Theory is one of them (the smallest possible thing and the ramifications of it as being the mathematical equation to solve all).

on the whole his hope is that both spirituality and science can work together in a moral-compass so that the new Genome Project (mapping out all the Human Genes in order to find genetic disease and such- which may, and most like will, lead to genetic selectivity in people) will not help just right NOW but also take into consideration the distant future.

that last part fits perfectly to me with my own view on Darwin's Theory of Evolution and the scientific possibility of reincarnation.... its long... complicated, and horribly confusing; and i have only told it to two other people both of whom dont understand where it comes from, and i dont blame them i am still working on it.

My personal theory though is what makes me question the Dalai Lama; which i am sad at doing, but logic says that something isn't right and i cant seem to prove his point is- not that mine is right either.

And despite all his rigamoralle about how much Buddhism and science have in common and how Buddhism needs to learn from it in order to better itself and such he still can't accept a lot of what has... HAS... been proven by science (despite physics and there probability equation)- which to me seems a little odd for a man who is supposed to be accepting and enlightened, and he didnt even back up the points he refused to accept with anything worth noting. It made me sad.

not that i was hoping to find my own personal Jesus or anything in him, but i had higher expectations. Possibly a little too high, but maybe that comes with the name.

i am NOT and NEVER will doc what that man has done for his people and what he has gone through, NEVER! I have a lot of pride in knowing that he is here and has such love and hope- i really wish i had that much.

as some of you know. i hate Humanity, and i know i am one, and i would kill myself along with everyone else if i ever could go through with my plan, but i cannot and thus will do whatever else i can to improve the world for the better while i live.

so in the end, this is a rather droll book on his introduction to science, his thoughts on how it correlates to Buddhism in both there written theories, and how we should go about what we are going into currently. So read it for a good look into his kind soul and mind as well as a scientific understanding. Don't if you get bored easy.

]]> ~DarienKMarshelly http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/21759666/ http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/21759666/ Mon, 01 Dec 2008 02:34:10 PST
the first season was frick'n awesome, the second season was too, the third season was a bit boring and redundant but right up my alley in my current quest to finish my book. Made a lot of sense and was kind of funny to see something else with a bit of the same plot as mine.

the last season went where all dying Sci-Fi seem to go.

Earth.

DAMNIT..... that alone ruined it for me, but i pressed on because i had questions... was not worth it.

i love Kai, and i want Zev's hair and stanly grew on me. I love Prince in the last season a lot! 7-90 was so cute as well... Squish will always be my most fave though, and i pretty much made my roomate watch most of first season because of him. <3

]]> ~DarienKMarshelly http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/21670765/ http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/21670765/ Tue, 25 Nov 2008 19:53:50 PST A lion Among Men is the third book of the Wicked series by Gregory Maguire.

sadly this book which started out something to never put down, became harder to pick up as it went on.

in large it is a synopses of the other two books. The very good thing though is that you learn a lot about questions that needed to be answered.

i still love this series with all my heart for several reasons. One, he shows the other side to the coins that people so often over look, he has these small witty lines of incite into the human mind and actions, as well as the character development.

this cannot be the last one yet and am excited for the next one, yet i do not think there is even an idea of it out.

]]> ~DarienKMarshelly http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/21512809/ http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/21512809/ Sun, 16 Nov 2008 06:03:33 PST Son of a Witch not so much because i want my roomie to read it and i love it and THIS one... well...

The Mick an American Hero: the Legend and the Glory written by Mickey Mantle and with help from Herb Gluck.

Not a big fan of this book. Thats one reason i stayed up till six AM reading it- just to get it over with.

I am a HUUUGE fan of Babe Ruth, i love the man and he makes me feel all warm inside when i think about him, even though i have not memorized his stats and blahblahblah.

so my dad gave me this book to read because Mantle is his fave. Dad knows way more about baseball than i think i ever will, i got into it in middleschool for a bit but not long enough to understand it as well as i should to be a true fan.

Reading this book was a great way to learn how it use to be for the players that i do like and know and was nice to see the comparison to Babe; but towards the end i got this angry feeling about Mantle and how he handled his own life. His family not only took the back burner but they were virtually non existent. Babe and his wife at least seemed to have the common sense to not have kids of there own but he still would go hang out with the orphans and whatnot cuz he loved kids as much as his wife and prostitutes- and at least he owned up to that.

and talk about a type A personality! Mantle seemed to be more antsy than someone being eaten alive by ants. i have a good feeling we would not have gotten along AT ALL. i would have thought a lot more about my image and my family. But putting one billion percent into your job is what makes you money and gets you wins, and Lord did he do that!

i really dont understand in full why Mantle now rubs me the wrong way.

he's a hometown boy with all the spunk and stuff that makes him one of the people- but something seems very very wrong about his life's attitude.

mostly i think it's the family thing- he even said he wished he had spent more time and yattayatta... but then goes on about all the OTHER things he is doing AWAY from home that's awesome cuz he can't sit still long enough to watch his son sneeze.

anywho... if you like baseball read it- its jammed full of things that i dont know XD otherwise its a nice look into someone's very calculated life.

ooh yeah and the emote is cuz i am sick- that's the other reason im still up at six AM XD

]]> ~DarienKMarshelly http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/21506307/ http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/21506307/ Sat, 15 Nov 2008 18:32:31 PST Son of a Witch and it is even better the second time because i picked up on more detailes and actually established how i feel about the main character.

in summery this book is the second in a series of three by Gregory Maguire about the Wicked Witch of the West out of the Wizard of Oz.

the way it is written reminds me a lot of those live actions 'true story' kind of made for TV movies that pop up every once in a while about Oz and anything of the liking- which makes me wonder if maybe some motion picture company may buy the rights if they have not yet.

yes i know that there is a play and i have not seen it yet but i want to when it comes to town. I found that a play in live is so much more tingly to my senses than watching it on TV. buuuut i have a feeling that will be a while, since i am also waiting for Blue Man to come back.

back to the topic:

i originally read the book because a friend handed it to me, and i love it so thank you (though they dont read these i think) and i have to know about her more, about everything!

its a book filled with twists and turns and a bit of mystery as well as some political turmoil- which i love very much so.

these books are not a very hard read but do have substances. The first one drags a little bit at the beginning but is worth it to know about her and the culture of Oz; so its a but Tolkien-y to start but like i said IS WORTH IT.

and this was a nice break from the other books i am reading...

i kept telling myself i dont need anymore books but i always find one or... a lot more... that i need... so this will be a while... and a lot of book-journals.

in the realm of the real i learned how to make a Bisque! and its YUMMY! and i also got an awesome headset for my phone! ... wow its nice to have some resemblance of an income... let me show off T_T

]]> ~DarienKMarshelly http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/21341419/ http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/21341419/ Wed, 05 Nov 2008 14:06:23 PST
My sign said: "I don't believe in anything, I am just here for the violence."

i wore a Guy Fox mask and men's clothing.

One lady got our information, and took a pic- she was wonderfully nice. The Bistro laughed on one side, the other side ignored us. We got several thumbs up, once curse and A LOT of people pretending to look at there watch... and more then a comfortable few who called the cops- outside the coffee shop. I said nothing as to why i was doing it, and to what i meant. One hippy's first comment in defense was "you want to fight?" Being the first comment then that must have been what he really wanted; either to argue or he really wanted to fight me- i think he wanted to fight.

we then walked up to ABC, and that's when the cop found us. He was laughing in his eyes- i could tell. I was laughing because what are two people going to do as far as violence? He then saw my ID and my face... he asked us how long we would be doing this, we said until we get sick of it; then asked what we were doing. We told him: a social experiment that means nothing other than a small celebration for Guy Fox Day, and even more to me now that we ellected a Marxist-Fascist.

we then walked home, and i saw an old friend that i had not seen in years and was wondering where he was.

this day so far is a good day- a day to stand up for who you are, a day that God/ the Gods approve of. The sun is out and i have done nothing that i regret.

It was sad to see the students walking buy from the local college who had nothing to say in there own views other than the couple guys who wanted to fight or to see me get beat up as it were. The other was the older people who had to call the cops and didn't have the guts to ask me first why i was there. I may not have said anything to people who talked to me and let my best friend talk- but she knows more than i do how people work, how we as a duo think.

I appreciate her more than words can say. I do not think i would have been as enthusiastic about this without her.

As i say, "do Whatever makes for a good story." and i handed out my good story to everyone who would look.

I hope all that did was make people think. The sign meant nothing other than a love of Banksy...

pictures should be up soon, i will give a link or you can keep an eye out on 's DA page

]]> ~DarienKMarshelly http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/21331091/ http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/21331091/ Tue, 04 Nov 2008 23:01:59 PST You are all fools.

Remember, remember
the fifth of November,
The gunpowder treason and plot.

I see of no reason
Why the 'Gunpowder-Treason'
Should ever be forgot.

I am having a social experiment tomorrow.

we shall all see how it goes.

]]> ~DarienKMarshelly http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/20436906/ http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/20436906/ Thu, 11 Sep 2008 10:51:36 PDT REMEMBER IT:

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i would post a pic, but i dont know how to. This is our generations: "where were you when?"

please tell me where you were.

I woke up and was getting ready for school, the news said it was a plane. I thought when i first saw the images that is was a technical fire from a comp or something.

i was eating my burrito when i saw the large plain hi the second tower... i choked, and was stunned. I was sobbing in the car as i listening to the radio, my mom tried to calm me, but it didn't help. She drove me to school that day instead of taking the buss.

My first class was Health and Mr. Reed was trying to follow the rule the Admins had put out that we were not to watch it. Someone in the hall said that Denver had been hit and i broke down into hysterics. Mr. Reed sent me to one of the other health teachers who didnt have a class then, and she tried all she could, and made sure the TV was on to watch. There was only about four or five other kids in the classroom as hurt as i was.

I tried to call my mom but no one answered, she was trying to call her sister who's husband worked there, i think she said he happened to call in or have the day off.

and bless him... My history Teacher MR EDMONDS (whom i love dearly and cry whenever i see him [i know im a sap], refused with all his power to let us go without watching it, without witnessing what was happening, he turned off the tv when admins would walk in, knowing he was doing it... but we would have defended him at all costs to us, he's a great man.

another story was just last year when some guys went to the fourth of july down town and picked up some cd's about the truth of 9-11.

they could watch it, and got mad when i started to cry and walked away saying it was sick.

its fine to make a comparison of facts to science and what was put out. But PLEASE dont play OVER AND OVER the bodies falling... the sounds... the images... its sick and not needed; and this was not a REMEMBER thing other wise i would have been ok with that. This was a conspiracy film.

Does anyone else hurt over this? Over the death? I have had a hard time typing this blindly because i am crying; and i dont cry just over OUR loss, over the loss of so many people all over the world. The killing will never stop, i swear that to you.

the really sad thing is... i would have never put two-and-two together about today unless a blog i made off-hand on another site would not have remanded me.

please dont forget... not just for the sake of our country, but for the people, the families and the world over.

]]> ~DarienKMarshelly http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/20281599/ http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/20281599/ Mon, 01 Sep 2008 22:55:19 PDT
anywho:

i finished reading The teachings of Buddha English/Japanese version (half in english half in japanese- i borrowed it from my dad, no particular reason why he chose that version)

i said this about the other four or so scripture based books i have read, but they all have the same basic ideas that are reiterated over and over in different ways to make sure you get the most out of it.

the major difference between this and the other books it that is gave every detail you would ever need to live your life according to buddha- so in that respect it is a lot like the bible. The ideals though are more along the lines of Hindu and Tao; where most effort is made to preserve life with no judgment towards others who may not share your views. i know i know... the bible is that way too blah blah- but the stories and rules are filled with less evil/sad/death than the bible. Some are sad, but nothing like the gory death based disease and torment i read in how far i did get in the bible.

after this book i have the Koran next- but before that i have several other books that i want to read.

now i am not reading these scriptures because i want to find a religion or want to try and disprove any of them or argue. I am reading these out of a personal curiosity and drive to learn. I may not get out of them everything i can, and i may not remember all or most of it, but at least i can say i read it, and what i did gather from them.

i can say though the aspect of nirvana/heaven/enlightenment is a goal, if i can do anything with my life, at least i can say i dedicated some of it to learning what i can to try and better myself and find out what i can about theology.

]]> ~DarienKMarshelly http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/20194747/ http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/20194747/ Thu, 28 Aug 2008 01:44:23 PDT
i finished reading The Ethical Brain: The Science of Our Moral Dilemmas by Michael S. Gazzaniga.

Gazzaniga is a member of Bush's Council on Bioethics which deals with the top issues of today in a logical mix of both scientific proof and philosophy/ethics to create Neuroethics.

This book is several chapters put together as essays on the top issues such as abortion, criminal intent and stem cell research.

i have to say of the books i have read so far, i got a lot of joy out of reading this because of how much i learned both ethically and scientifically. It is right down the alley of how i would like to more or less form all my personal ideals and such.

it would have been a horribly hard read if i had not been taking notes the entire time.

through most of it i have to agree with his viewpoints and only once have been angry at his ideals.

in all generality the book describes to date how the mind is said to work in forming moral decisions and how that should be taken to the whole of the world and community. His view is that with all the tests available there is a general line that all people seem to follow no matter whom they are or where they are from that makes the choices all about 'survival in masses not in one,' or 'sacrifice one to save more,' kind of thing. i agree and this also fits with David Hume in the 'sympathy' theory that we all react the way we do based on the certain level of sympathy that we have for the situation.

I cannot really think of much else to say on this book other than because of it i have a new leash on wanting to go back to school to see what i can do with a degree in ethics/philosophy other than teaching. If anything i love to learn more about it, and talk to people about it- so that is enough for me if i can just choke down the other classes i dont like so well.

]]> ~DarienKMarshelly http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/20141899/ http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/20141899/ Mon, 25 Aug 2008 04:05:22 PDT
in all honesty i read these comics now to see how close the films will be. i guess that's not a bad thing but at the same time i feel guilty that i now show an interest only after everyone else in that genre knows what's going on.

that and my roommate loves Joker, so she is taking the advice of the two comic nerds at our beloved book shop on what to read (as well as me) and she is letting me read her new batman comics in return for Watchmen, but we do that anyway and even though our percentage of what money we get that goes to books are the same, since her percentage of income is more, i read more of her things than what i can offer to her- but hey, i am picky now in my comics and i read most of them online now, and only really want to buy anything Minakura before i collect anything else. Those Omni-busses are great, i love those but that's another thing all together.

enough rambling with the excuses why i am now into American comics.

i read the collection Batman: The Dark Knight Returns and have to say that the recommendation was well worth the buy *thank you Lenny*

It's based ten or so years after Bruce retires form being Batman. He has a midlife crisis so to speak and decides it's not his time yet to give up on his City.

the chatacters are graet and once again the main issue is Russia- and i have to say i think the comic book artists on both ends (America, South Korea, and Japan) have that down pat and its odd to read these as you would say 1984 and see how it all adds up and is very possible- if not happening.

that may be the paranoid person in me, but the cautious side also has to agree as well as my sad heart.

for the sake of Batman and the charater that he is, i say that if you are a fan you should read this to get a wonderful perspective on him. Thus far i am at war with the movie version because i think he is more of an ass and showoff than the comic has shown me thus far, but there is an age difference and i pray on a main hero like Batman that he is more of a round character than a line in the movie respect. *crosses fingers*

and i was also told to read the comic series Fables and thus far love it, but i will restrain from commenting further on the basis that i am not done and it gives me reason to post a new journal when i am done.

]]> ~DarienKMarshelly http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/20077286/ http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/20077286/ Thu, 21 Aug 2008 12:01:32 PDT Watchmen and loved it and gave me a brief synopsis. It sounded like a more brutal version of The Incredibles and i wanted to know more about the giant naked blue guy (I think he's hot, but i seem to have a thing for guys who are blue [Blue Man, Dr. Manhatten and Octave from Interstella 5555, as well as Blue-da-ba-dee-da-ba-da]...).

so i got a hold of it and read it over the course of several days, telling anyone about it that i could along the way, just because i was so entertained by the humor and honesty put forth by the characters in the story.

what i love about this comic is that there is only one person with abnormal abilities to the T; the rest are all normal people who wanted to do what they could with what they could do and happened to do OK.

I may be a poser in the fact that i only read it out of wanting to know why it is such a loved book that i have never heard of, but i do have to agree that it is one of my more favorites, right next to V for Vendetta.

What also gets me about Watchmen is that even though it is a what if of a future that is now our past, it still hits me politically- the same way V does. I don't want to give away too much because of the movie and the book itself.

Also, from further research into the movie i have to say it looks like they have done an ultimate smashing job of the plot and filming, as well as the choice of having different actors playing the relatives and flashbacks instead of trying to mesh and special effects just the main ones. I am waiting to see the actors more closely in the film for a comparison of them to the ones in my mind (strange i know seeing as this is a DC comic with them all drawn out, but there is still wiggle room)

on another note as far as Geekdom and Live Action Movies; I was informed the other day that Cowboy Beebop will be a movie here in a couple years or so. I love this idea and have been waiting for it because God knows that of those five chosen Beebop SHOULD have been the FIRST- maybe next to Tri-Gun. I am worried though becuase it is rumored that Keanu Reeves will be playing the part of Spike.

Yeah i just died too... NO PLEASE NO... i love you Neo but as far as looking like Spike or even acting like... ANOTHER CHARACTER... he can't. I see why this seems like a good idea to the people making this- it is right up his alley in fighting movies and such.

but i don't want him to play Spike- someone start a patition... pleas.

SS: I had the court hearing and it lasted maybe a whole fifteen minutes... i had no idea what was said and had to have it all explained to me twice by my lawyer.

I GOT IT

but i have more paperwork to fill out and another interview with the local SS about my work history- to make sure im not lying; then after five months the check is cut. *crosses fingers*

]]> ~DarienKMarshelly http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/19947475/ http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/19947475/ Thu, 14 Aug 2008 06:46:09 PDT
i had lost my set of LOTR books and found them the other day while at my dad's house, i didn't realize i was most of the way through TT so to keep myself entertained for the most part- i finished it.

i remember why it was such a hard read. No one can describe a hill in more words longer than Tolkien can. T_T

but those last four chapters have solidified in my own twisted brain that Sam loved Frodo far more than just a friend. I know i would only act that way to those i love so much i want to die for them if only to be with them when they died.

enough of that though.... >_>;

im picking my way through the other two books i am far through, and not even close on another. I have not started any new anime, but DLed all of Lexx and am halfway through the second season and i have to say that Kai is f-ing sexy... and the episode with his 'squishy' worm was so cute i almost got sick over it.

SS: i had a meeting with my lawyer on monday to make sure all the bases were covered as far as all medical records, job records and such and will have the actual hearing this coming monday *knocks on wood*

]]> ~DarienKMarshelly http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/19755112/ http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/19755112/ Sun, 03 Aug 2008 15:41:07 PDT
its really a bit poor on the filming but i like it none the less, the acting seems to get better down the line.

if someone has found the rest of them i would be greatly appreciative if you could give me the link or so on, thank you.

i also went to watch Hellboy II, and i think is is BETTER than the first, then again i never expected the director of Pan's Labyrinth to have a sense of humor. Also i love how Abe gets more attention.

also the Onion movie is JUST as the online paper is, i love it thus far and am almost done with it.

]]> ~DarienKMarshelly http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/19376286/ http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/19376286/ Sun, 13 Jul 2008 17:19:18 PDT Mushi Shi. i admit i didnt want to finish because i like it so much... i really REALLY like it. It doesn't really have a major storyline with action or romance or anything of the sort. It's just about this man named Ginko who is a Mushi Shi and travels around Japan helping people and studying Mushi.

Mushi are creatures that live in our world but can only be seen few people with a 'sixth sense.' these creatures pop out of a flow in the earth that is basically the river of life.

There are more than a few episodes where i found myself about to cry; it's just that the stories are rather heartwarming or very very depressing- But have a VERY real flare to them. Everything is explained in a nonchalant technical matter that makes it easy to understand and believe.

the art is rather different, detailed backgrounds and clothing, but the hair and faces are simplistic, an art style that i grew to love very fast- then again i love Minakura and her art was very much the same way when her work was first animated.

i hope and pray with almost all of my fibor (because i enjoyed this series so much) that there will be more- there is SO much that they can do with it, and i would love to see someone cosplay Ginko, seeing as Hakkai seems to always get away from me, maybe i can get my hopes up on that one instead.

]]> ~DarienKMarshelly http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/19246289/ http://DarienKMarshelly.deviantart.com/journal/19246289/ Mon, 07 Jul 2008 01:54:50 PDT
but i wanted to read this one because i told my roommate that i didnt read the Rice books and the new big one about Vamps cuz everyone loves vamps... and i love werewolves... like a lot... like... James Spader makes THE HOTTEST werewolf EVER .... DAMNIT..... <3<3 ... so her friend at work gave her Last Wolf Standing for her and me to read.

its a short... easy ... (rather boring to me) read.

There's two more, and i have no qualm reading them... the blond i liked more than anyone in the first one is supposed to be the main guy in the second, i think i may like that one more, but since this one is over it gives me more time to read War and Peace and i love that book so far, and im only a hundred pages in... haha <3

and ignore the mood thing... it wouldn't let me change it Q_Q turd-face....im more like... shaking... from that KH2 game...

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