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My Son is Born!

~DarkChildOne — Thu, 12 Feb 2009 22:10:52 PST

My son Dakota Michael Howell was born Janurary 6th, 2009 at 7:33pm. Weighing 8lbs 3.7oz and 21ins in length. He has my eyes and my husbands nose.

^^
More later.

I'm horrible, and i'm sorry for that.

~DarkChildOne — Wed, 29 Oct 2008 11:08:24 PDT

I rarely ever submit and i rarely ever update my journal. Sorries! Its been hectic. I am a full-time college student, married, and 7 months pregnant. So, i am a little swamped. Not to mention i just had a car accident last wednesday. Don't worry, baby is fine. Oh, and my the way... Its a boy! His name will be Dakota Michael. He's kicking away making my life miserable.
Jason is super excited about being a dad and i just can't wait for this pregnancy thing to be over with. Uuuuugh!
I feel like a whale.
And i hope *thegirlinthebigbox reads this. I have uploaded something you inspired me to do. ^^

OMG

~DarkChildOne — Fri, 04 Jul 2008 09:25:04 PDT

I felt the baby move last night for the first time! It was soooo neat. It felt like being underwater and someone was makign waves against my skin except it was on the inside.

My mom doesnt think i am 3 months, if so i am BIG 3 months. And i shouldnt feel that much movement (moved for like 20 minutes last night) for this early on. And she was feel my lower abdomen and she thinks i may be 4 months.

i feel fat. Happy 4th!

3 months pregnant

~DarkChildOne — Fri, 27 Jun 2008 16:02:06 PDT

Most of the nausea is gone. THANK YOU GOD! I am on 2 different anti-biototics for a reason or two and its rather irksom. It boosts my nausea directly after i take them, but a bottle of water smooths the way for it.
According to the household i am starting to "show." Bull malarky. I will show when i feel like i am started to show. And right now i am just a little pudgy. Yes i'm pregnant, i know this, but i just dont feel pregnant. I guess no woman does until she starts to feel the baby move. I cant wait. My ultrasound is scheduled for Aug. 5th. I am looking forward to it, but also not looking forward to it. Why? Simple. They want me to have a full as possible bladder. And then they are goign to push on me. Yes, i will get the see the baby, but... i am not excited about the agony of having to hold that much water.
Jason is losing his mind he is so excited. Can you blame him? First child on both sides. Actually, both me and jason are scared shitless.

I'm tired now. I think i am going to add more later.... goodnight world.

Challenge for everyone

~DarkChildOne — Tue, 03 Jun 2008 22:01:54 PDT

I need something. Commission. I need someone with talent to look at my tattoo (link provided) and add something around it. I need ideas for new additions to my lotus. Whether its waves and a koi or flames and a Pheonix, doesnt matter. And the winning submission will be BOUGHT. Yes, if you are chosen i will buy the hard copy.
Seriously, i will buy it.

[link]

-H

i'm growing a brine shrimp

~DarkChildOne — Fri, 23 May 2008 22:26:46 PDT

WTFOMFGLMFAOBBQ!

An abdominal alien CHEST-BURSTER!

or a Brine Shrimp. You decide.

[link]

(P.s. Thats a baby at 6 weeks.)

For all who know me. . . READ THIS

~DarkChildOne — Thu, 15 May 2008 10:12:29 PDT

I'M PREGNANT!!!!
This is not a joke! This is for real.
I just found out today. I'm pregnant.
I'll give you guys pictures of it soon.
Hopefully tonight.

But
I AM PREGO!!!!!!!

I am so lazy

~DarkChildOne — Fri, 29 Feb 2008 10:53:21 PST

Ok. Well, heres the jazz; i am currently at the library in which i school and i wonder: WHY ME? I dont know the question just came up. It seems eveytime i have a good morning something has to come over in the evening to completly screw everything up? I have WONDERFUL DAYS! And the then the vening gets shot to shit. ;_;

If the world was square all emos would go to the corners and cut themselves. . .

/random

UPDATES
Married.
In School.
Hungry.

COMING SOON
nothing. o_o

Long time no SEE

~DarkChildOne — Fri, 18 Jan 2008 12:53:59 PST

Heyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy loooooooooooooooooooo People-ings. I'm Married.

I know, i know. You are all probably wondering
"OMG! I have like so totally missed reading your stuff! Where have you been?!" Well, to tell you the truth i have been doing alot of thinking and going alot of things in general. I have been doing the Christmas thing, planning a wedding (finished and went through with unscathed and attached), getting things ready for school (still havent gotten one of my books. But, thats not my fault. Publisher sent the wrong books and the school had to send them back and get these resent. So i am hoping on friday i will have them.), and enjoying the wonderful things of marriage. Mostly Sex. Its a wonderful thing. I enjoy it. Though mostly the intimacy of it. Being so close, and sharing your most private peices of yourself (and i dont mean just the organs i mean pieces of your heart and mind.)

But, it wasnt so easy. No, at first i was so scared to be with someone like that. Be be completely exposed in such a way that there was no turning back from it. It was to late. My secrets were out, my hopes, dreams, ambitions, fears, and loves were exposed. At first i felt so vulnerable to the critisism of my most intimate places. That something might be wrong with me and i might be tossed aside like some old ragged doll. Torn up and abused. Never nurtured, cared for, or even, heaven forbid, Loved. Knowing that there was no turning back. "I Do" and that was it. I did what most people take lightly. I did it. WE did it. We said our vows, made our promises, and cast aside all thouights of anything else and Swore our lives to one another.
Much like creatures in the world. Those who mate for life and stick it out thick or thin. Till death do they part. So much like Eagles: Majestic, strong, mighty, and regal. Or the Albatross. Graceful, flowing, beautiful. No, i dont think either of those would do. No, i see myself as short, tubby, and the waddly sort. All seen as adorable in the eyes of my Beloved. He in his own follow a similar sort of catagory. But not really. He is my Penguin. And i am his. Penguins mate for life. And i look kinda waddly dont i?
Continuing, He is strong where i am (and sometimes need to be) weak.
He has tolerance where i am sensitive.
He follows me around like a puppy in silent adoration as i have him so many times and so many days before.
He touches me. Just soft gentle caresses. For no reason. Just to feel my skin. Just to smell my hair, or taste my lips.
He is dark where i am light and tender.
He is innocent.... where i am very guilty. Yet, he holds none of it against me. Embracing every bit of my past i find so disgusting and i feel so dirty.
He is a dreamer where i am nightmare.
He is a kiss where i am a bite.
He is a hug where i am a scratch.
He is tall..... where i'm short.
He is gentle where i am rough.
He is a gentleman where i am a ruffian.
He is adorable when i am complete bitch. But the "Dork fish" could crack a smile even on my worst days. He has done so.
I cry and he just silently holds me while i bawl my eyes out over somethign probably so little and stupid we both will laugh at when i recover.

How did I come to love this much? Call the flush of newlywed-ism, but i have always felt this way, As he has always held me that way. In my worst times he would gently cup my heart, chisel off the cold hard ice formed over my burns, and breath my life in a world of frost and earth.
I love you.

If those who intend on malice are reading this, be happy for us BOTH. Not just Jason. He married me and he is happy. Isnt that what you want? Thick or thin, i am here to stay. And Jason will never let you chase me away. He has waited to long for these moments, as have I. Please, dont ruin it because you think he's too young or i am using him. Because i'm not. And he's not. He is a grown man and wants a future, even if its with me. He loves me. And i love him. NOTHING, Not even you, can change that. He wont let you interfere.
I love you, reader, let us love one another and be happy. Please. Wish us well even if you dont like me. Or the fact we are together.
Please, love me as i love you.

::Jumps off her soapbox::

-Heather Howell-

What more can i lose?

~DarkChildOne — Mon, 30 Jul 2007 01:21:16 PDT

in the course of this year i've lost so much.

Psycho; our squirrel (5 months old)
Renata; our kitten (7 months old)
Tigger: our cat (12yrs old)
Russell; my fiance (11 months together)
Bob; our dog (10 yrs)

i lost tigger..... thursday.... i lost bob...... yesterday. i'm still numb.

what more can i lose? has what i gained... cost so much.......?

Bore- de - dor!

~DarkChildOne — Thu, 29 Mar 2007 06:31:19 PDT

Arrrrrrrrrrrrrrgh! I'm bored. I have had nothing excting going on here lately. But i do have one good piece of news. We have set a date for the wedding.

Saptimber (September) 22nd. The day me and Russell met. Its going to be small and really quiet. But send me some love and wish me luck with the married life.
As a wedding gift from you all, you all must send me 1$(or 1 euro if you are in Europe.) Its only a small token of your love for me. Lawl.

Ok, other than that. Me and Russ have been offically together 6 months the 22nd this month. Great isnt it? It will be a full year the day we get married. I love him.
And i love you all.
Send, for me.

Ice storm

~DarkChildOne — Tue, 30 Jan 2007 07:49:21 PST

Well, we had a wicked evil icestorm down here. Wagoner = Reverse Hell, but not Heaven. The other place. Just colder. It equaled the intensity of Hell's heat in

COLD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Didja miss me? I know i missed everyone here. Message me. Send love. Show who missedes me.
^_^

How was it?

~DarkChildOne — Wed, 03 Jan 2007 08:56:53 PST

Christmas.

How was yours? Mine was insane.

We woke up at 9ish and did the opening of theÂ Christmas gifts. It was wonderful to be around family. The gifts were great, but the best one i got was Russ. He pulled a fast one on me, i swear. He mentioned something about a suprize, but i didnt expect this one.

He proposed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Didnt see that comin, didja? Booyah!

Um, yeah, check my pictures. They are there.
Oh, wait! And here!
My Ring

Celtic, silver, and amethyst.
I cried.
He made me sit down.
One knee and everything.
I love him.
I love you, Russ.

OOOOOPSISISIES!

~DarkChildOne — Sun, 17 Dec 2006 17:20:23 PST

First of all, oops.
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I am sorry for all the people who have been waiting in deep anticipation for my art but i just havent had time to submit much. School and work has been tossing me around like a ragdoll smeared in cow blood for the badgers in the world.

But on the upside, i am happier than i have ever been. Me and my boyfriend are finally seeing more of each other. And NO! I do not mean that army maggot. He dumped me for some other chick and then was a douche bag when he said he wanted me back. I'm sorry. DOUCHE BAGGE! He can suck shit through a used jock strap while lying in a pool of warm afterbirth for all i care.
Oh yeah! He was a ass today i shall link you to his myspace. You know what? He got hacked.... by....someone. Then he got skeeted all over! Check it out and message me back on here, Click here for the funniest thing in the world!

And as for the new boyfriend, it follows as such. Thats me and him. His name is Russell. When you can say its the best you've ever had, you know you've got something great.
Russell, i love you. <3

More to come!!!!!!!!!!!!
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I've just been O'TOOLE'd

~DarkChildOne — Thu, 26 Oct 2006 08:22:21 PDT

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You have ANY idea how much this BLOWS?!?!?!?!??!?!?!!?

Hokay, here ish teh storee.

I was on my.space and i think... a radio site to listen to whilist at school. Well, i get back from a class meeting and the school addymin like OWNs me while i was gone and turned on my Cyber-Sitter! x.X

My 455 has been handed to me. I've just been O'TOOLE'd...

I need a bandaid for my ravaged an4l cavity...

Dont get OWNed like that. It hurts. And annoys the H3ll out of me. But, things should be back to normal soon. (I hope.)
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Aside, from the rect4l ravaging, i'm ok. Saw my Boyfriend last saturday. I missed him so much. I'll see him next week. And i cant wait.
Till then, i'll revel in my own "Privy" thoughts and seethe over my OWNage.

Anywho, HAPPY FRIKKIN MUCUS DAY!

Errm, things to STEAL!

~DarkChildOne — Mon, 16 Oct 2006 21:50:46 PDT

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Here is the deal: Free sketches. HOWEVER. If you ask for one, you have to post this on your journal and do 10 for other people too!!! Just sketchies, nothing too crazy... but definitely fun!!!

(HAH!! Like anyone EVEN cares ... or notices my journal for that matter. lol.) This could be challenging, but don't be too tough on me okay??

1-- - Angel Fish!!!
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Stereotypical BULLSNOT

~DarkChildOne — Mon, 11 Sep 2006 18:31:34 PDT

I'm SKINNY, so I MUST be anorexic.

I'm EMO, so I MUST cut my wrists.

I'm BLACK, so I MUST carry a gun.

I'm HISPANIC, so I MUST be dirty.

I'm ASIAN, so I MUST be smart.

I'm NOT LIKE EVERYONE ELSE, so I MUST be a loser.

I'm JEWISH, so I MUST be greedy.

I'm GAY, so I MUST have AIDS.

I'm a LESBIAN, so I MUST have a sex-tape.

I'm ARAB, so I MUST be a terrorist.

I SPEAK MY MIND, so I MUST be a bitch.

I'm OVERWEIGHT, so I MUST have a problem with self control.

I'm RELIGIOUS, so I MUST shove my beliefs down your throat.

I'm an ATHEIST, so I MUST hate the world.

I DON'T HAVE A RELIGION, so I MUST not have morals.

I'm REPUBLICAN, so I MUST not care about poor people.

I'm DEMOCRAT, so I MUST not believe in being responsible.

I'm JAMAICAN so I MUST smoke weed.

I am LIBERAL, so I MUST be gay.

I'm SOUTHERN, so I MUST be white trash.

I TAKE ANTI-DEPRESSANTS, so I MUST be crazy

I'm a GUY, so I MUST only want to get into your pants.

I'm IRISH, so I MUST have a bad drinking problem.

I'm INDIAN, so I MUST own a convenient store.

I'm AFRICAN, so I MUST dance around a fire screaming like a savage.

I'm a CHEERLEADER, so I MUST be a whore.

I'm A DANCER, so I MUST be stupid, stuck up, and a whore.

I WEAR SKIRTS , so I MUST be a slut

I'm PUNK, so I MUST do drugs

I'm YOUNG, so I MUST be naive.

I'm RICH, so I MUST be a conceited snob.

I WEAR BLACK, so I MUST be a goth.

I'm BLONDE, so I MUST be a stupid ditz.

I'm WHITE GIRL, so I MUST be a nagging, steal-your-money kind of girlfriend.

I'm CUBAN, so I MUST spend my spare time rolling cigars.

I'm MEXICAN, so I MUST have hopped the border.

I'm NOT A VIRGIN, so I MUST be easy.

I FELL IN LOVE WITH A MARRIED MAN, so I MUST be a home-wrecking whore.

I'm a TEENAGE MOM, so I MUST be an irresponsible slut

I'm POLISH, so I MUST wear my socks with my sandals.

I'm ITALIAN, so I MUST be a gangster.

I GOT A CAR FOR MY BIRTHDAY, so I MUST be a spoiled brat.

I'm ALWAYS SMILING AND LAUGHING, so I MUST have a great life.

I'm PRETTY, so I MUST not be a virgin.

I HAVE STRAIGHT A'S, so I MUST have no social life.

I DYE MY HAIR CRAZY COLORS, so I MUST be looking for attention

I DRESS IN UNUSUAL WAYS, so I MUST be looking for attention

I'm INTO THEATRE & ART, so I MUST be a homosexual.

I'm a VEGETARIAN, so I MUST be a crazy political activist.

I HAVE A BUNCH OF GUY FRIENDS, so I MUST be sleeping with them.

I HAVE A BUNCH OF GIRLS WHO ARE FRIENDS, so I MUST be gay.

I HAVE BIG BOOBS, so I MUST be a hoe.

I'm COLOMBIAN, so I MUST be a drug dealer.

I WEAR WHAT I WANT, so I MUST be a poser.

I'm RUSSIAN, so I MUST be cool and thats how Russians roll.

I'm GERMAN, so I MUST be a Nazi.

I HANG OUT WITH GAYS, so I MUST be GAY TOO.

I'm BRAZILIAN, so I MUST have a BIG BUTT.

I'm PUERTO RICAN, so I MUST look good and be conceited.

I'm SALVADORIAN, so I MUST be in MS 13.

I'm POLISH, so I MUST be stupid.

I'm HAWAIIAN, so I MUST be lazy.

Im a VIRGIN, so I MUST be prude.

I'm a FEMALE GAMER, so I MUST be ugly or crazy.

I'm BLACK, so I MUST love fried chicken.

I'm BI, so I MUST think every girl I see is hot.

I'm BLACK, so I MUST have a big dick.

I'm MEXICAN so i MUST be someones pool cleaner or gardener

I'm a HOOKER, so I MUST have crabs.

I DO DRUGS so I MUST be making nothing of myself in life

I'm SHORT so I MUST be a MIDGET

I'm FRENCH so I MUST eat frogs

I'm BI so I MUST like every guy i see

Dont you agree?

Stereotypical BULLSNOT

~DarkChildOne — Mon, 11 Sep 2006 18:31:34 PDT

I WIN!!!! ..moo

~DarkChildOne — Sun, 10 Sep 2006 17:00:41 PDT

DUDE!

I went 4wheeling for the first time. And the bitch flipped on my legs!
Good thing it was some sand banks over on the arkansas river. Damn it was
FUN!

I was muuuuuuddy! Duh

Anywho, call this.. a Mini-Blog.

Kirbyan! Kirbyan!

~DarkChildOne — Thu, 31 Aug 2006 06:22:17 PDT

I'm holding a Kiriban for my 3,500th Pageview!

Just Do It. Now.

ON A SIDE NOTE! Here are all my problems thanks to the Phobialist.com

A
Achluophobia- Fear of darkness.
Acrophobia- Fear of heights.
Altophobia- Fear of heights.
Amathophobia- Fear of dust. (its so....... dirty)
Anuptaphobia- Fear of staying single.
Atomosophobia- Fear of atomic explosions. (who wouldnt be?)
Autophobia- Fear of being alone or of oneself.
B
Barophobia- Fear of gravity. (it lets me down so much.)
Bathophobia- Fear of depth.
Bogyphobia- Fear of bogeys or the bogeyman.
Bromidrosiphobia or Bromidrophobia- Fear of body smells. (-snort-)
C
Cacophobia- Fear of ugliness.
Cardiophobia- Fear of the heart.
Cathisophobia- Fear of sitting.
Catoptrophobia- Fear of mirrors.
Chronophobia- Fear of time. (there is never enough, thus run from it)
Claustrophobia- Fear of confined spaces.
Cleithrophobia or Cleisiophobia- Fear of being locked in an enclosed place.
Cleptophobia- Fear of stealing.
Cypridophobia or Cypriphobia or Cyprianophobia or Cyprinophobia - Fear of prostitutes or venereal disease. (-snicker- GET BACK YOU VAGINALLY CRUSTED BIMBOS!
D
Dentophobia- Fear of dentists.
Dishabiliophobia- Fear of undressing in front of someone.
E
Eisoptrophobia- Fear of mirrors or of seeing oneself in a mirror.
Eosophobia- Fear of dawn or daylight.
Ephebiphobia- Fear of teenagers.
Epistaxiophobia- Fear of nosebleeds.
Eremophobia- Fear of being oneself or of lonliness.
Ereuthrophobia- Fear of blushing.
Ergophobia- Fear of work.
F
Francophobia- Fear of France or French culture. (Gallophobia, Galiophobia)
G
Gallophobia or Galiophobia- Fear France or French culture. (Francophobia)
Geniophobia- Fear of chins.
Genuphobia- Fear of knees.
Gerontophobia- Fear of old people or of growing old.
Geumaphobia or Geumophobia- Fear of taste.
Graphophobia- Fear of writing or handwriting.
Gymnophobia- Fear of nudity.
H
Hadephobia- Fear of hell.
Heliophobia- Fear of the sun.
Helminthophobia- Fear of being infested with worms.
Hexakosioihexekontahexaphobia- Fear of the number 666.
Hippopotomonstrosesquippedaliophobia- Fear of long words. (irony.)
Hyelophobia or Hyalophobia- Fear of glass.
I
Isolophobia- Fear of solitude, being alone.
Ithyphallophobia- Fear of seeing, thinking about or having an erect penis. (-snicker-)
J
Judeophobia- Fear of Jews.
K
Kakorrhaphiophobia- Fear of failure or defeat.
Katagelophobia- Fear of ridicule.
Kathisophobia- Fear of sitting down.
Kenophobia- Fear of voids or empty spaces. (Like your head. xD)
Kleptophobia- Fear of stealing.
Kopophobia- Fear of fatigue.
Koniophobia- Fear of dust. (Amathophobia)
Kosmikophobia- Fear of cosmic phenomenon.
L
Leprophobia or Lepraphobia- Fear of leprosy.
Leukophobia- Fear of the color white.
Levophobia- Fear of things to the left side of the body.
Linonophobia- Fear of string.
Logophobia- Fear of words.
Luiphobia- Fear of lues, syphillis.
Lutraphobia- Fear of otters.
Lygophobia- Fear of darkness.
Lyssophobia- Fear of rabies or of becoming mad.(-foams at the mouth-)
M
Macrophobia- Fear of long waits.
Malaxophobia- Fear of love play. (Sarmassophobia)
Maniaphobia- Fear of insanity.
Mastigophobia- Fear of punishment.
Medomalacuphobia- Fear of losing an erection.
Medorthophobia- Fear of an erect penis.
Megalophobia- Fear of large things.
Menophobia- Fear of menstruation.
Merinthophobia- Fear of being bound or tied up.
Metallophobia- Fear of metal.
Microbiophobia- Fear of microbes. (Bacillophobia)
Microphobia- Fear of small things.
Mnemophobia- Fear of memories.
Mycrophobia- Fear of small things.
Myctophobia- Fear of darkness.
Myrmecophobia- Fear of ants.
N
Necrophobia- Fear of death or dead things.
Nelophobia- Fear of glass.
Nephophobia- Fear of clouds.
Noctiphobia- Fear of the night.
Nomatophobia- Fear of names.
Nucleomituphobia- Fear of nuclear weapons.
Nudophobia- Fear of nudity.
Numerophobia- Fear of numbers.
O
Octophobia - Fear of the figure 8.
Odynophobia or Odynephobia- Fear of pain. (Algophobia)
Oenophobia- Fear of wines.
Olfactophobia- Fear of smells.
Oneirogmophobia- Fear of wet dreams.
Onomatophobia- Fear of hearing a certain word or of names.
Osmophobia or Osphresiophobia-...

Dear God,

~DarkChildOne — Thu, 24 Aug 2006 08:38:44 PDT

Current mood: Complacent

Dear God,

Some things have happend to me and i dont know why i needed to feel them. It hurts alot now. Why must we experience pain? In the begininng i thought you had given me this wonderful gift, but in the end it became a curse in form of letters and words. I dont understand why they happened, in some way part of me feels relieved in the hurt i have gained from this... happening. It feels like a bitter sweet spell of comfort and misery. The realization of things, but the road to it... almost unbearable.
I dont know why i have to go through with this, but part of me thinks it was the best thing you could have done.
Thanks, God. Just make sure i can pull through.

Love,
Heather

I am aware.

~DarkChildOne — Mon, 21 Aug 2006 15:40:17 PDT

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Words From the Mouth of Misery

~DarkChildOne — Mon, 21 Aug 2006 14:54:44 PDT

Do you believe in Angels?

The day of my birthing has arrived. Sitting upon my chair thinking of the events that have transpired, i can only pause to reflect.
These past 17 years have been filled with happiness and torment. I learned things from people whom have been shunned due to unpleasant circumstances. Others, whom have taken a quiet place in my heart bringing me solice in my thoughts, pains, and hazards.
As of late i find myself pondering on the real world, as it happens that is not what i have been living in. As i sit here writing this i am exchanging e-mails with one of my best friends whom i can proudly call my Avuncle. Avuncle Cedric. A salt and pepper haired man, married, and the best damn fiddler I have ever had the chance to meet. The Bedlam Bards Also, if you are a Firefly fan, they have a Browncoats page aswell.
Yes, i am a Bedhead and a Browncoat. Piss off.
Hanyway, As me and him have been exchanging e-mail back and forth he has given me a good deal of advice. Mostly dealing with the relationship genre. He tells me:
Here's something people often don't know about love--if you can't be happy by yourself, then you'll never really be happy with someone else.
And here lately i have been feeling sorry for myself and moping about how lonely I am. Dont get me wrong, Spending your birthday without your other half or even hearing from him IS DEPRESSING. But, moping over how alone i am only makes me emo. It doesnt get me anywhere. Thus, why his advice inspired me so! I am going to concentrate on working on this job i am hopefully getting. I AM PRAYING TO GOD I GET IT! Its a teaching job. One day a week. Teaching 5th and 6th graders how to use a computer. I love to teach people about computers. So, i pray i get this.
Ahh, well, as i bring this to a close i hope you all have had a good day. And i hope my own will finish out as such.
Until then, be well, AND SEND ME A DOLLAR! Or a picture! Either way i'll send you my address. Hehehehehe.
-Heather

As The Day of My Birth Days Nigh...

~DarkChildOne — Thu, 17 Aug 2006 11:10:19 PDT

Mood: Apathetic
Reading: My Fair Viking - Sandra Hill
B-day Counter: 3 days

As the day of my birth draws nigh, i find myself in wonder...
Whats the point of a celebration when you arent able to celebrate it with the one your heart craves most? Without them... its nothing but another empty day with them.
Michael wont be home till next month. I havent heard from him since last week. Tuesday of last week. Tuesday is when i saw him. Face to face. Kissed him, touched his face, held him close. Only last week and i feel as empty as ever. Like a tease. Yesterday it seemed like a i saw him. I have only a few things to hold on to. My Ring. My necklaces. And my hoodie. Best damn hoodie in the world, i'd say. Got a dragon on the back ripping through a castle.
Delta Dragons.
Shadow Warriors.
Delta 35th Engineering Battalion.
Yesterday, i got in th mail letters. Sent back ebcause the address was wrong it said. He hasnt sent me anything. I ahvent heard anything of him since last week. I'm worried. Because until he sends word to me.. i am on my own.
I called Sandman, a buddy of his, but his cell was off and i couldnt leave a message. Called Rich, another buddy of his, left a message on his phone. I can only hope for word soon back.
Please, Michael... i'm worried.
Anyone who thinks they might be able to cheer me up.....
Take your best shot.
Clowns, you have your greatest challenge right here.

(Quote from previous journal entry) "GIMME A FRIKKIN DOLLAR , BISHES! Not me i'll give you my address."

My 17th B-day Nukkah!

~DarkChildOne — Tue, 15 Aug 2006 20:44:03 PDT

OMG!!!!!!
I turn 17 in like 5 DAYS!!!!

Everyone..... SEND ME A DOLLAR! Or send me $17! Its only tradition! do it now! Or send me drawings. That works too.

You'll do it for me... yeah.. NOTE ME AND I'LL GIVE YOU MY ADDRESS! ^_^

please do this. ;_; i want to be able to have gas to see Michael. Its just $1 if nothing else. Please.

I LOVE YOU ALL FOR THIS!

If you comment on this post...

~DarkChildOne — Mon, 14 Aug 2006 18:41:38 PDT

1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal. You MUST. It is written.

Zo My Gord!

~DarkChildOne — Fri, 11 Aug 2006 14:18:56 PDT

Mood: Happy as a fucking clam!

I got to see my baby Tuesday! ALL DAY! -happiness-
It had been 9weeks since i had seen him face to face. Bootcamp is horrible. I miss him so much. -nuzzles hoodie-
But, he will be within home and reach instead of out of state soon. He only has 5 weeks left then he graduates and i get to be with him.

Soon my love. Survive till Sept. 22nd. Survive, my love, survive.

DIARY FROM OKLAHOMA

~DarkChildOne — Tue, 08 Aug 2006 00:04:29 PDT

Current mood: amused

Just moved to Oklahoma! Now this is a state that knows how to live!!

Beautiful sunny days and warm balmy evenings. What a place! It is
beautiful. I've finally found my home. I love it here.

June 14th:

Really heating up. Got to 100 today. Not a problem. Live in an air-
conditioned home, drive an air-conditioned car.

What a pleasure to see the sun everyday like this. I'm turning into
a sun worshipper.

June 30th:

Had the backyard landscaped with western plants today. Lots of
cactus and rocks. What a breeze to maintain. No more mowing the lawn
for me.

Another scorcher today, but I love it here.

July 10th:

The temperature hasn't been below 100 all week. How do people get
used to this kind of heat?

At least, it's kind of windy though. But getting used to the heat is
taking longer than I expected.

July 15th:

Fell asleep by the community pool. (Got 3rd degree burns over 60f
my body). Missed 3 days of work. What a dumb thing to do.

I learned my lesson though. Got to respect the ol' sun in a climate
like this.

July 20th:

I missed Lomita (my cat) sneaking into the car when I left this
morning. By the time I got to the hot car at noon, Lomita had died
and swollen up to the size of a shopping bag, then popped like a
water balloon.

The car now smells like Kibbles and $hits.

I learned my lesson though. No more pets in this heat.

Good ol' Mr. Sun strikes again.

July 25th:

The wind sucks. It feels like a giant freaking blow dryer!!

And it's hot as hell. The home air-conditioner is on the fritz and
the AC repairman charged $200 just to drive by and tell me he needed
to order parts.

July 30th:

Been sleeping outside on the patio for 3 nights now, $225,000 house
and I can't even go inside. Lomita is the lucky one. Why did I ever
come here?

Aug. 4th:

It's 115 degrees. Finally got the air-conditioner fixed today. It
cost $500 and gets the temperature down to 85. I hate this stupid
state.

Aug. 8th:

If another wise a$$ cracks, 'Hot enough for you today?' I'm going to
strangle him. D@mn heat. By the time I get to work, the radiator is
boiling over, my clothes are soaking wet, and I smell like baked
cat!!

Aug. 9th:

Tried to run some errands after work. Wore shorts, and when I sat on
the seats in the car, I thought my a$$ was on fire.

My skin melted to the seat. I lost 2 layers of flesh and all the
hair on the back of my legs and a$$ . . . Now my car smells like
burnt hair, fried a$$, and baked cat.

Aug 10th:

The weather report might as well be a d@mn recording. Hot and sunny.

Hot and sunny. Hot and sunny. It's been too hot to do $hit for 2
d@mn months and the weatherman says it might really warm up next
week.

Doesn't it ever rain in this d@mn state? Water rationing will be
next, so my $1700 worth of cactus will just dry up and blow over.

Even the cactus can't live in this d@mn heat.

Aug. 14th:

Welcome to HELL! Temperature got to 115 today. Cactus are dead.

Forgot to crack the window and blew the d@mn windshield out of the
car. The installer came to fix it and guess what he asked me??? "Hot
enough for you today?"

My sister had to spend $1,500 to bail me out of jail. Freaking
Oklahoma.

What kind of a sick demented idiot would want to live here??

You know you wanna.

~DarkChildOne — Sun, 06 Aug 2006 17:54:09 PDT

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Try it. You'll like it.
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Have some common sense.

~DarkChildOne — Wed, 02 Aug 2006 10:07:42 PDT

Okay, i have a REALLY big question........
Exactly who is going to take the time and count how many times a certain message is posted to send money to a person in need?
And why would a ghost want to kill you if you dont send along an e-mail?
What difference does an e-mail make if you have a horrible love life for not sending it? Personally if you have a bad love life its your own fault.
And if an e-mail says "YOU ARE GOING TO DIE IF YOU DONT JUMP OFF THAT CLIFF!!!" or "YOU'LL DIE IN 7 DAYS IF YOU DONT SEND THIS E-MAIL TO A GAZILLION PEOPLE WITHIN THE NEXT 5 SECONDS!!!"
Who actualy if going to follow that e-mail and wait around for 7 days just to go and off you?

Why would they care? If you were such a jerk that you didnt send the e-mail..... why would they care? Its a fecking E-MAIL! Used for nothing more that communication between parties.

Jeez...

-Heather

Words to Truly Live By

~DarkChildOne — Mon, 24 Jul 2006 09:05:38 PDT

ONE. Give people more than they expect and do it cheerfully.

TWO. Marry a man/woman you love to talk to. As you get older, their conversational skills will be as important as any other.

THREE. Don't believe all you hear, spend all you have or sleep all you want.

FOUR. When you say, "I love you," mean it.

FIVE. When you say, "I'm sorry," look the person in the eye.

SIX. Be engaged at least six months before you get married.

SEVEN. Believe in love at first sight.

EIGHT. Never laugh at anyone's dream. People who don't have dreams don't have much.

NINE. Love deeply and passionately. You might get hurt but it's the only way to live life completely.

TEN.. In disagreements, fight fairly. No name calling.

ELEVEN. Don't judge people by their relatives.

TWELVE. Talk slowly but think quickly.

THIRTEEN. When someone asks you a question you don't want to answer, smile and ask, "Why do you want to know?"

FOURTEEN. Remember that great love and great achievements involve great risk.

FIFTEEN. Say "bless you" when you hear someone sneeze.

SIXTEEN. When you lose, don't lose the lesson

SEVENTEEN. Remember the three R's: R espect for self; Respect for others; and responsibility for all your actions.

EIGHTEEN. Don't let a little dispute injure a great friendship.

Nineteen. When you realize you've made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.

TWENTY. Smile when picking up the phone. The caller will hear it in your voice.

TWENTY-ONE. Spend some time alone.

My Confessions

~DarkChildOne — Tue, 06 Jun 2006 16:12:24 PDT

Mark your confessions:

[x] i'm afraid of silence.

[x] I Talk A LOT when I get really nervous.

[x] I am really ticklish.

[x] I'm afraid of the dark.

[X] I'm afraid of facing my back to open doors at night.

[] I can't sleep in a room if the door is open

[ ] I am homosexual.

[X] I believe in true love.

[] I've run away from home

[x] I've listened to political music

[] I collect comic books

[x] I shut others out when I'm sad.

[x] I've stayed out all night.

[x] I open up to others easily.

[x] I am keeping a secret from the world.

[x] I watch the news

[] I own over 5 rap CDs.

[x] I love Disney movies.

[x] I am a sucker for pretty eyes

[x] I dont kill bugs

[x] I curse.

[x] I have "x"s in my screen name.

[x] I've slipped and fell in public.

[x] I've slipped out a "lol" in a real conversation

[] I love Spam

[] I bake well.

[x] I have worn pajamas to class.

[] I own something from Abercrombie.

[] I want a better job

[x] Talked on a phone for 6 hours.

[ ] I love Dr. Phil.

[x] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.

[x] I am self-conscious.

[X] I love to laugh.

[X] I have tried alcohol.

[] I drink alcohol on a regular basis.

[x] I have tried a cigarette.

[x] I have smoked a pack in one day.

[] I loved Lord of the Flies.

[] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.

[] I can't swallow pills.

[x] I have a lot of scars.

[]I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.

[x] I love chocolate.

[] I bite my nails.

[] I am not comfortable with being me.

[x] I play computer games

[x] Gotten lost in the city.

[x] Seen a shooting star.

[x] Have kissed someone really strange....

[x] Hugged a stranger.

[]Been in a bloody fist fight with someone of a diff. sex

[x]Been in a fist fight.

[x] Been arrested.

[x] Laughed and had some type of beverage come out of my nose.

[x] Pushed all the buttons on an elevator.

[x] Made out in an elevator.

[?] Swore at Liberace

[x]Kicked a guy where it hurts on purpose

[] Been skydiving.

[] Been bungee jumping.

[x] Gotten stitches.

[] Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.

[x] Bitten someone

[] Been to Niagara Falls.

[x] Gotten the chicken pox.

[x] Crashed into a car.

[] Been to Japan.

[]Ridden in a taxi.

[x]Shoplifted.

[] Been fired.

[x] Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.

[] Stole something from your job.

[] Gone on a blind date.

[] Had a crush on a teacher/coach.

[] Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.

[x]Wanted to die.

[x] Slept with a co-worker, and/or employee.

[] Been married

[] Gotten divorced

[x] Saw someone/something dying.

[] Have a list of people you want to kill.

[x] Driven over 400 miles in one day.

[] Been to Canada.

[] Been on a plane.

[x]Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.

[x] Thrown up in a public place

[x]Eaten sushi.

[] Been snowboarding.

[x] Been ice skating

[x] Cried in public.

[x] Walked purposely into traffic with your eyes closed.

[x] Liked someone even though you knew you shouldn't have.

[xxxxxxxxxxxxx] Thought of someone a lot

[]Hooked up with more than one person in a night

[x] Hated the world.

What does your music say about you?

~DarkChildOne — Mon, 01 May 2006 06:31:58 PDT

How does the world see me?:

The Reason - Hoobastank

Will I have a happy life?:

Yall want a single, say fuck that - Korn

What do people really think of me?:

Here without you - 3 Doors Down

Do people secretly lust after me?:

Cold - Crossfade

How can I make myself happy?:

Veins of Glass - Lacuna

What should I do with my life?:

Better than me - hinder (wtf?)

Will I ever have children?:

Pheonix with a heartache - kids in the way

What is some good advice for me?:

White wedding - murderdolls

What do I think my current theme song is?:

Rough Sex - Lords of Acid

What does everyone else think my current theme song is?:

Dear Angel - april sixth

What song will play at my funeral?:

Time - Helloween

What type of men/women do you like?:

Screams of the Undead - Demon Hunter

What is my day going to be like?:

The ghost woman and the hunter - lacuna coil

Why am I here?:

Lips of an angel - hinder

What will people remember me for?:

Honeymoon Suite - Lacuna Coil (*snicker* that says sex)

What song will I get stuck in my head tomorrow?:

Nothing good about goodbye - hinder

Are there people outside waiting to take me away?:

My heartstrings come undone - demon hunter

What will this year be all about?:

Cry on my shoulder - overflow

*CLUBS*

Manifesto Bitchez!

~DarkChildOne — Sun, 16 Apr 2006 12:24:24 PDT

Another one got caught today, it's all over the papers. "Teenager Arrested in Computer Crime Scandal", "Hacker Arrested after Bank Tampering"...

Damn kids. They're all alike.

But did you, in your three-piece psychology and 1950's technobrain, ever take a look behind the eyes of the hacker? Did you ever wonder what made him tick, what forces shaped him, what may have molded him?

I am a hacker, enter my world...

Mine is a world that begins with school... I'm smarter than most of the other kids, this crap they teach us bores me...

Damn underachiever. They're all alike.

I'm in junior high or high school. I've listened to teachers explain for the fifteenth time how to reduce a fraction. I understand it. "No, Ms. Smith, I didn't show my work. I did it in my head..."

Damn kid. Probably copied it. They're all alike.

I made a discovery today. I found a computer. Wait a second, this is cool. It does what I want it to. If it makes a mistake, it's because I screwed it up. Not because it doesn't like me... Or feels threatened by me.. Or thinks I'm a smart ass.. Or doesn't like teaching and shouldn't be here...

Damn kid. All he does is play games. They're all alike.

And then it happened... a door opened to a world... rushing through the phone line like heroin through an addict's veins, an electronic pulse is sent out, a refuge from the day-to-day incompetencies is sought... a board is found. "This is it... this is where I belong..." I know everyone here... even if I've never met them, never talked to them, may never hear from them again... I know you all...

Damn kid. Tying up the phone line again. They're all alike...

You bet your ass we're all alike... we've been spoon-fed baby food at school when we hungered for steak... the bits of meat that you did let slip through were pre-chewed and tasteless. We've been dominated by sadists, or ignored by the apathetic. The few that had something to teach found us willing pupils, but those few are like drops of water in the desert.

This is our world now... the world of the electron and the switch, the beauty of the baud. We make use of a service already existing without paying for what could be dirt-cheap if it wasn't run by profiteering gluttons, and you call us criminals. We explore... and you call us criminals. We seek after knowledge... and you call us criminals. We exist without skin color, without nationality, without religious bias... and you call us criminals. You build atomic bombs, you wage wars, you murder, cheat, and lie to us and try to make us believe it's for our own good, yet we're the criminals.

Yes, I am a criminal. My crime is that of curiosity. My crime is that of judging people by what they say and think, not what they look like. My crime is that of outsmarting you, something that you will never forgive me for.

I am a hacker, and this is my manifesto. You may stop this individual, but you can't stop us all... after all, we're all alike.

Cocaine<3 Makes you Craaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaazy!

~DarkChildOne — Tue, 11 Apr 2006 07:57:25 PDT

You opened it & you're going to have the WORST week of your life next week, unless you repost this within the next 5 minutes, calling it:

Ecstacy:
If you're single & love it.

Heroin:
If you're single & whatever happens, happens.

Speed:
If you like someone but they don't know.

Steroids:
If you're taken.

Cocaine:
If you're taken & madly in love.

Captain Morgan:
If you like someone who doesn't like you back.

Marijuana:
If u are confused about someone

Acid:
If you feel like giving up on love all together.

PCP:
You really like someone and you think they like you too but your not totaly postive.

Crystal Meth:
If u like someone and they like you back but haven't asked them out yet.

Weed: your just a ninja

Bacardi: if you miss someone but don't know if they want you back in their life again.

HURRY UP & RE-POST

Hypocrisy (The Unfinished Story)

~DarkChildOne — Mon, 10 Apr 2006 17:48:35 PDT

Hypocrisy- is the act of pretending to have beliefs, virtues and feelings that one does not truly possess. The word derives from the late Latin hypocrisis and Greek hupokrisis both meaning play-acting or pretence. The word is arguably derived from hypo- meaning small, + krinein meaning to decide/to dispute. A classic example of a hypocritical act is to denounce another for carrying out some action whilst carrying out the same action oneself.
Double Standard- A double standard is a rule which is applied more stringently to one party than to others. Double standards are seen as unjust, because they violate a principle of justice known as impartiality.

Often seen as the same sort of thing. True this, but when applied in life its a real bitch. Wanna hear my story? Well then... Gather round gentlemen, ladies, and tramps,
Crosseyed mosquitoes and bowlegged ants.
Grab a chair and sit on the floor,
I'll tell you a story you never heard before.

(Story part 1)
Quite a few months ago, almost a year now, i met a Man. Or at least a boy for the time. I will admit he is still growing. He has done well. We got to know each other, he became open, honest, sincere, caring, and loving. We became quite fond of one another till mother found out about some things he dabbled in on occasion. He will admit he has made mistakes, but when i met him i was blind and naive to what i was told. I just went along with it. So many times i have ended up giving up what i wanted for my family to make them happy. What about me? Hmm? Well, we'll get to that. Going along with what they said being the religous, NOTHING AGAINST THEM, i cut off contact with him. The shredding inside my own heart and the never ending battle begins. To seem off subject my sister is at this time with a man who is to be her husband. They are sleeping together. Yes, like that. And unmarried. Why? Hellifiknow, but she is. Well, lets see... she tells them AFTER they get married. Ok, if that wasnt so bad, HE crashes with us everynow and then we screw up. At this point my sister is married and me and HIM are going out. From the beginning my mother and father didnt like the idea. Why? I dont know. I guess beign so honest pissed them off. So what if he has made mistakes? Maybe he just wanted someone to know and understand and accept him. Is that so bad? Hokay, back on subject. Its a little into october now and he calls me up. School night and i had the phone by my bed. Why i dont know but i did. Well, he calls me up broken and sobbing and needs a place to run to. 3am and we go on a 45minute trip to pick him up. He's still a bit broken and we take him home. What happend on the phone and why he needed to leave i am going to omit for privacy reasons, but just to say the situation was severe.
Its about a day or two later now, me and him have broken up a couple of times before in the past(all my fault on every one of them but not without the *Parental Guilt Trips and *Emo Tears goin on [will footnote the definitions at the end]) but we are back together. Much to my suprize we kinda went out into the back woods of my house and well.... lets just say we got caught and leave it at that, k? Well, its December now. We (more like me) invite him over to spend christmas with us. It was alot of fun. It was a good meal and good company. Needless to say there was still animosity and hard feelings over it. More so them at us because we still loved each other and couldnt bare to be without one anothers touch. So, that night he went home. We gave him some leftover munchies due to that he had little to eat at the time. So, they took him home and i slept well and happily knowing my beloved was fed and safe.

(Rant and questions part 1)
All i want is him. Just the way he is.
But... no one likes him! Everyone calls him a freak! they say he's no good for me! But, they dont see what i see in him! Why cant they just see that!? Why!? Why, dont they jsut give us another chance? He told them he brought weed into the house just because he was transporting it... He had the decency to tell them! He was honest! He's been NOTHING but honest with us! He has told us what he does, why, and how! Yet! They condemn him for that some honesty. Theycondemn them for the sake of comfort. They arent comfortable with it. So they condemn him for the very honesty they are trying to cultivate... They are trying to teach him Christianity, but they stand miles away. You cant teach someone who can barely hear you as it is from 30million miles away. It just doesnt work that way! Why cant they see that? Why cant they see my belief in him?! Why cant they believe in him?! All he wants is to be accepted! And Loved! I supply all the love he needs. Just please.... why cant they accept him? Whats so hard about it? They teach equality, acceptance, and forgiveness, yet they turn their backs on him... Why?

The Graveyard Tales

~DarkChildOne — Mon, 20 Mar 2006 08:04:36 PST

Wishing I could
hear your voice again . . .
knowing that I never would . . .

Dreaming of you
won't help me to do
all that you dreamed I could . . .

Passing bells
and sculpted angels,
cold and monumental,
seem, for you,
the wrong companions -
you were warm and gentle . . .

Too many years
fighting back tears . . .
Why can't the past just die . . .?

Wishing you were
somehow here again . . .
knowing we must say goodbye . . .

Try to forgive . . .
teach me to live . . .
give me the strength to try . . .

No more memories,
no more silent tears . . .
No more gazing across
the wasted years . . .

Help me say . . .

. . . goodbye

Rest Well My Friend May Heaven Greet You With Warmth And Love.

R.est I.n P.iece Faith

Vote for Wet Dreams

~DarkChildOne — Wed, 08 Mar 2006 17:33:29 PST

Vote on the Hotness

Acadamies!!!!!!!!!!!!! First Weekend Over <3

~DarkChildOne — Sun, 05 Mar 2006 18:29:14 PST

Well, lets see. It is now the end of the FIRST WEEKEND or Acadamies at the Oklahoma Rennaissance FESTIVAL. We cannot stress that enough. It has survived past 10 years! It is now a FESTIVAL not a Faire.

Lets see, SATURDAYS run from 9am - 4pm. Sundays run from 9am-7pm for us dancers. Yes, i am on the dance team.
That means! I rock and you dont. Naw, just kidding. But i do enjoy dancing.

(for resources and information go to OkCastle)

For those of you WHO DO KNOW WHAT I AM TALKING ABOUT, I am learning to Lilt. Kinda like "Silt" but with an "L." Mmk? goooood.

And i have learned a few court dances so far, i have now have a HORRORIBLY gross understatement of the history in Henry the 8ths time. But, its 1539. Just before Her Majesty Margaret Queen Of Scots dies. Tragic. Good thing we will never get there at Festival! Teeheehee.

YES I KNOW I NEED TO POST MORE!!! I WILL GET THERE!!! BUT WITH CLASSES, ACADAMIES, AND EVERYTHING ELSE, NO TIEM FOR SOCIAL LIFE.

so, i hope you now have a little more understanding of my absences.

As always, i LOVE YOU ALLLLLLLLLL!

~Tenshi

V-dayJournal Thingie

~DarkChildOne — Sat, 11 Feb 2006 10:08:25 PST

This is for you who dont understand. Gato said it so well.

Okay, everyone seems to be making journals about thier opinion on V-day so I'll do one too to fit in.

I do not like Valentine's day. Personal opinion made for personal reasons. You don't have to follow my example and hate it too, in fact, please don't. Make up your own mind. I'm just letting all you guys know so that if you go "Happy Valentine's Day Gato!<3<3" It's not because I hate you if I don't reply.

And please don't call me an emo who just follows the crowd of other mindless emos who want to hate a holiday about love because it's 'cool'. Please don't call me cheap. Every one of my Valentine's days has had bad memories attached to it starting with when I was four and the kid next door stole my chocolates and ending with last year's rose fiasco.

I don't like the way people just give each other flowers and chocolate instead of building a relationship. I don't like the commercialization of it.

Please don't attack me for my opinion. I don't need that.

In fact, it would best if no talked to me for a bit because I've really been put in a sour mood. It stresses me out.
Quoted from

Doomity Doom Doom Quiz

~DarkChildOne — Thu, 02 Feb 2006 08:24:41 PST

Appearance
[ ] I am shorter than 5'4.
[ x] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[x] I have many scars.
[x] I tan easily.
[ x] I wish my hair was a different color.
[ x] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ x] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance. (Sometimes)
[ ]I have/I've had braces.
[x] I wear glasses. (Sometimes)
[] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[x] I have more than 2 piercings.
[x ] I have piercings in places besides my ears.
[x ] I have freckles. (some)

Family/Home Life
[x] I've sworn at my parents.
[] I've run away from home.
[ ] I've been kicked out of the house.
[x] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[ x] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've had children.
[ ] I've lost a child.

School/Work
[x] I'm in school.
[ ] I have a job.
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[ x] I almost always do my homework.
[] I've missed a week or more of school.
[ ] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[ ] I've stolen something from my job
[ ] I've been fired.

Embarrassment
[ x] I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[] Disney movies still make me cry.
[ ] I've peed from laughing.
[] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[x] I've glued my hand to something
[x] I've had my pants rip in public

Health
[ ] I was born with a disease/impairment.
[x]I've gotten stitches/staples.
[ x] I've broken a bone.
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[x] I've sat in a doctors office/emergency room with a friend.
[ ] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I've had chicken pox.

Traveling
[x] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[] I've been on a plane.
[ ] I've been to Canada.
[ ] I've been to Mexico.
[ ] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[ ] I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[ ] I've been to Europe.
[ ] I've been to Africa.

Experiences
[x] I've gotten lost in my city.
[x] I've seen a shooting star.
[x]I've wished on a shooting star.
[x] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas
[x] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator
[x] I've kicked a guy where it hurts. (Accidentaly)
[x] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[x] I've gone skinny dipping.
[x] I've played spin the bottle.
[ x] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[x ] I've crashed a car.
[ ] I've been Skiing
[ x] I've been in a play.
[x] I've met someone in person from myspace.
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[] I've seen the Northern lights.
[x] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[x] I've played chicken
[x] I've played a prank on someone.
[ x] I've ridden in a taxi.
[x] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[x] I've eaten sushi.
[ ] I've been snowboarding.

Relationships
[ ] I'm single
[x ] I'm in a relationship.
[x ] I'm engaged.
[x ] I'm married
[ ] I've gone on a blind date.
[ ] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[x] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've gotten divorced
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[x] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[x] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[x] I've kept something from a past relationship.

Sexuality
[x] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[ ] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[x] I am a cuddler.
[ ] I've been kissed in the rain.
[x] I've hugged a stranger.
[x] I have kissed a stranger

Honesty/Crime
[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[x] I've snuck out of my house.
[ ] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world
[x] I've cheated while playing a game. (Damn monopoly!!!)
[ x] I've cheated on a test
[ ] I've run a red light.
[ ] I've been suspended from school.
[x] I've witnessed a crime.
[x] I've been in a fist fight.
[x] I've been arrested.

Drugs/Alcohol
[x] I've consumed alcohol.<...

Quiz Stolen from Meh bahbeh friend Brad!

~DarkChildOne — Fri, 27 Jan 2006 08:27:09 PST

10 Firsts...

First Best Friend: Dustin Nuttel
First Imaginary Friend: Bob, me and him are still together.
First Pet dog name: Aphrodite
First Piercing: ears ^^
First Crush: Dustin
First CD: X 2005
First DVD: Road to Eldorado
First School: Lost City Schools
First Kiss: umm.... 3 years

*************************************

9 Lasts...

Last Time You Smoked:yesterday
Last Food You Ate: Funyuns
Last Car Ride: this morning to school
Last Movie You Watched: Lilo and Stitch
Last Phone Call: My love
Last CD You Listened To: hinder - extreme behavior
Last Bubble Bath You Took: day before yesterday
Last Song You Listened Too: Remedy - Seether
Last Fight: last night

*************************************

8 Have You Evers...

Have You Ever Dated a Best Friend: Yes
Have You Ever Been Arrested: Never Been Caught
Have You Ever Skinny Dipped: Yes
Have You Ever Been on TV: Yes
Have You Ever Kissed Someone and Regretted It: Yes...
Have You Ever Cheated on Your bf/gf: No, i have morrals and honour
Have You Ever Been on a Blind Date: No
Have You Ever Been out of the Country: no

*************************************

7 Things You are Wearing...

1. cotton t-shirt
2. black and green TRIPP NYC pants
3. several rings, and necklaces
4. bikini briefs
5. slip on shoes
6. eye liner
7. many many piercings

*************************************

6 Things You've Done Today...

1. not slept
2. listened to music more than a normal human being should
3. been to a talent show
4. not smoked
5. counted sheep but didnt sleep
6. did this

*************************************

5 Favorite Things...

1. My love Zach
2. my dog
3. My awesome friends of doom
4. my computer
5. Music

*************************************

4 People You Trust Most...

Zach, Nate, Angy, Malorie

*************************************

3 Choices...

Vanilla or Chocolate: vannila
Hugs or Kisses: Kisses
Pens or Pencils: Pencills

*************************************

2 Things You Want to do Before You Die...

1. Have kids with my mate, Zach
2. get some

*************************************

1 Person You Want to See...

I want to see my BABY! I LOVE YOU ZACH! (bahabek)

Wet Spot On The Bed

~DarkChildOne — Mon, 16 Jan 2006 18:59:11 PST

1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4.
" ...grace of form and beaty of face few women..."

2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can.
couch

3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?
Tank Girl
4. Without looking, guess what time it is:
8:00pm

5. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?
8:51

6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
Kiss of the Dragon

7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
3hrs ago, letting in the dogs

8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
Browsing stock photos

9. What are you wearing?
tinkerbell shirt, jeans, and shoes

10. Did you dream last night?
(Insert steamy teenager dream here)

11. When did you last laugh?
30mins ago when i had my nic rush

12. What is on the walls of the room you are in?
cobwebs XD

13. Seen anything weird lately?
the movie D.E.B.S.

14. What do you think of this quiz?
passes the time

15. What is the last film you saw?
huh?

16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?
i would go to europe, dye my hair black, and have wild and crazy monkey love with my boyfriend on the eiffel tower

17. Tell me something about you that I don't know:
you dont know me

18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
I would make preps wear orange cones on their heads so we would see them coming a mile away. So we could RUN

19. Do you like to dance?
Yes

20. George Bush:
sounds like a bad les porn XD

21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
December Eve

22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
Markus

23. Would you ever consider living abroad?
I live only as i go, soooooooooooooooooo i dunno!

24. What do you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates?
Daddy, whats "fisting?"

25. 4 people who must also do this meme in THEIR journal:

Random Bulletin

~DarkChildOne — Wed, 11 Jan 2006 06:54:48 PST

FIVE LESSONS TO MAKE YOU THINK ABOUT THE WAY WE TREAT PEOPLE

First Important Lesson - Cleaning Lady

During my second month of college, our professor gave us a pop quiz. I was a conscientious student and had breezed through the questions until I read the last one: "What is the first name of the woman who cleans the school?"

Surely this was some kind of joke. I had seen the cleaning woman several times. She was tall, dark-haired and in her 50s, but how would I know her name? I handed in my paper, leaving the last question blank. Just before class ended, one student asked if the last question would count toward our quiz grade.

"Absolutely," said the professor. "In your careers, you will meet many people. All are significant. They deserve your attention and care, even if all you do is smile and say "hello".

I've never forgotten that lesson. I also learned her name was Dorothy.

Second Important Lesson - Pickup in the Rain

One night, at 11.30 p.m., an older African American woman was standing on the side of an Alabama highway trying to endure a lashing rainstorm Her car had broken down and she desperately needed a ride. Soaking wet, she decided to flag down the next car. A young white man stopped to help her, generally unheard of in those conflict-filled 1960s. The man took her to safety, helped her get assistance and put her into a taxicab. She seemed to be in a big hurry, but wrote down his address and thanked him.

Seven days went by and a knock came on the man's door. To his surprise, a giant console color TV was delivered to his home. A special note was attached.. It read: "Thank you so much for assisting me on the highway the other night. The rain drenched not only my clothes, but also my spirits. Then you came along. Because of you, I was able to make it to my dying husband's bedside just before he passed away. God bless you for helping me and unselfishly serving others."

Sincerely,
Mrs. Nat King Cole.

Third Important Lesson - Always remember those who serve

In the days when an ice cream sundae cost much less, a 10 -year-old boy entered a hotel
coffee shop and sat at a table. A waitress put a glass of water in front of him

"How much is an ice cream sundae?" he asked.

"Fifty cents," replied the waitress. The little boy pulled is hand out of his pocket and studied the coins in it.

"Well, how much is a plain dish of ice cream?" he inquired. By now more people were waiting for a table and the waitress was growing impatient.

"Thirty-five cents," she brusquely replied. The little boy again counted his coins.

"I'll have the plain ice cream," he said. The waitress brought the ice cream, put the bill on the table and walked away. The boy finished the ice cream, paid the cashier and left.

When the waitress came back, she began to cry as she wiped down the table. there, placed neatly beside the empty dish, were two nickels and five pennies.. You see, he couldn't have the sundae, because he had to have enough left to leave her a tip.

Fourth Important Lesson - The obstacle in Our Path

In ancient times, a King had a boulder placed on a roadway. Then he hid himself and watched to see if anyone would remove the huge rock. Some of the king's wealthiest merchants and courtiers came by and simply walked around it. Many loudly blamed the King for not keeping the roads clear, but none did anything about getting the stone out of the way.

Then a peasant came along carrying a load of vegetables. Upon approaching the boulder, the peasant laid down his burden and tried to move the stone to the side of the road. After much pushing and straining, he finally succeeded. After the peasant picked up his load of vegetables, he noticed a purse lying in the road where the boulder had been. The purse contained many gold coins and a note from the King indicating that the gold was for the person who removed the boulder from the roadway. The peasant learned what many of us never understand!

Every obstacle presents an opportunity to improve our condition.

Fifth Important Lesson - Giving When it Counts

Many years ago, when I worked as a volunteer at a hospital, I got to know a little girl named Liz who was suffering from a rare & serious disease. Her only chance of recovery appeared to be a blood transfusion from her 5-year old brother, who had miraculously survived the same disease and had developed the antibodies needed to combat the illness. The doctor explained the situation to her little brother, and asked the little boy if he would be willing to give his blood to his sister.

I saw him hesitate for only a moment before taking a deep breath and saying, "Yes I'll do it if it will sa...

X x Z.O.M.F.G x X

~DarkChildOne — Mon, 02 Jan 2006 18:36:46 PST

LOVE T3H Squeedge!

Thoughts and thoughts and thoughts

~DarkChildOne — Tue, 20 Dec 2005 15:16:58 PST

Dammit, whats wrong in my head?!
I can't even figure it out.
so long i seemed to almost hate you yet every time i watch you move....... everything seems to go away. no hate, no pain. a single solitary moment of bliss.
Last dance,
first kiss
Your touch,
my bliss
i look into those murky waters, glittering crystal pools brimming with thought only a glass lid over the shimmering passions.
i dream f those eyes
i kill myself over the words i said
the worlds i shattered
i cant let go
i cant let go
letting go is giving up.
i'm not wieghed down

so many times i say i wont give up yet i do and i seem to pick it all back up again

salavagable?Kage is still breathing, still salvagable.
can i save two at once?
Kage... Dorf... myself
can i keep holding on while i salvage two things that threaten to rip me limb from limb?

So many things i hear in my head
lyrical perversions
with every song i hear
its Your voice
haunting
like the day you sang those words to me

" Looking back at me I see that I
Never really got it right
I never stopped to think of you
I'm always wrapped up in things I cannot win

You are the antidote that gets me by
Somethin' strong like a drug that gets me
High

What I really meant to say
Is I'm sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold
Never meant to be so cold
What I really meant to say
Is I'm sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold
Never meant to be so

Cold, to you, I'm sorry 'bout all the lies
Maybe in a different light
You can see me stand on my own again
'Cause now I can see

You were the antidote that got me by
Somethin' strong like a drug that got me
High

What I really meant to say
Is I'm sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold
Never meant to be so cold
What I really meant to say
Is I'm sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold
Never meant to be so cold

I never meant to be
So cold

I never really wanted you to see
The screwed up side of me that I keep
Locked inside of me so deep
It always seems to get to me

I never really wanted you to go
So many things you should have known
I guess for me there's just no hope
I never meant to be so cold

What I really meant to say (Say)
Is I'm sorry for the way (Sorry for the way) I am
(I am) I never meant to be so cold
Never meant to be so cold

What I really meant to say (Say)
Is I'm sorry for the way (Sorry for the way) I am
(I am) I never meant to be so cold
Never meant to be so cold "

fighting for you
on your side
come on bae
lets take a ride

i smell you deep
i touch your scent
i hear your eyes
i now repent

i'm so sorry
for what i said
for believing lies
put into my head

dear one now
i trust so much
i am sorry
how i hurt you such

i hate myself
for that day
that goodbye
when i wanted to stay

i here now
i dont want you to go
please stay with me
before the winters snow

last dance
first kiss
your touch
my bliss

the aches are back
for hurting you
my kisses heal
our pain too

kiss my forehead
i'll make a deal
i'll love you forever
together we heal

salvaged love
chunks of heart
close in touch
yet far apart

I'm sorry again
for hurting us
every night
myself i cuss

every night
you face i miss
a candles death
begins, a kiss

i keep that hat
near my heart
next to my nose
never far apart

yes, it there
under the "best"
your nuzzle spot
beneath my left br---- (ok, children my read this)

yes its close
i keep it there
holding my heart
blissful snare

its coming now
my time to sleep
my dreams i want
my dreams to keep

i loveyou dear
now hear me say
i love you now
forever a day.

"i run up the door
close the stairs
said my pajamas
and put on my prayers
i turned off the bed
hopped into the light
all because you just kissed me goodnight.

Last Dance...
Remember our dance, baby? Ceildhi(sp?) pronounced - Kaylee

First Kiss...
Remmebr our first kiss? It was in a hall away...

I didnt ya know, wanna face a Doomy Doom

~DarkChildOne — Mon, 12 Dec 2005 07:30:19 PST

from n3m1515

WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF:
» I died: i would cry
» I said I liked you: i would purr
» I kissed you: i would kiss back
» I lived next door to you: i would see you every day
» I stole something: i would scold you then laugh
» I was hospitalized: i would cry and see you as often as i could
» I moved far away: i would cry but i would still do what i could to stay in contact with you

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:
» Personality: kinky
» Eyes: gorgeous
» Face: sweet
» Hair: beautiful
» Clothes: hawt
» Mannerisms: gentle

[1] Who are you? Heather aka DarkChildOne, KittyPie, Searex, Bug, Kitten, Jes
[2] Are we friends? Damn skippy
[3] When and how did we meet? Over a message board
[4] How have I affected you? you have made my life a little nicer
[5] What do you think of me? i think i like you ^_~
[6] What's the fondest memory you have of me? when you smile and blow me kisses
[7] How long do you think we will be friends or enemies? till the end of time
[8] Do you love me? yes
[9] Have I ever hurt you? never
[10] Would you hug me? yes
[11] Would you kiss me? yes
[12] Would you fuck me? O_O that would be telling ^_~
[13] Are we close? yes
[14] Emotionally, what stands out? your compassion
[15] Do you wish I was cooler?nope
[16] On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I? 1,000,000,000,000,000
[17] Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it. Raven; Because you are dark, mysterious and beautiful
[18] Am I loveable?yeah
[19] How long have you known me? almost a year
[20] Describe me in one word. Sweet
[21] What was your first impression? "W00t, aussie goth!"
[22] Do you still think that way about me now? Yes
[23] What do you think my weakness is? Nicotine
[24] Do you think I'll get married? Yes
[25] What about me makes you happy? How nice you are to me
[26] What about me makes you sad? that you are taken
[27] What reminds you of me? the dark night sky
[28] What's something you would change about me? uhhh nothing?
[29] How well do you know me? Well enough to get us both into trouble
[30] Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't? No
[31] Do you think I would kill someone? if they hurt me or Kryhs
[32] Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you? Yes

Love you Lestat! ^^

This is My D.e.c.e.m.b.e.r.

~DarkChildOne — Sat, 03 Dec 2005 20:00:07 PST

This is my December
This is my time of the year
This is my December
This is all so clear
This is my December
This is my snow covered home
This is my December
This is me alone

And I
Just wish that
I didn't feel
Like there was
Something I missed
And I
Take back all
The things I said
To make you
Feel like that
And I
Just wish that
I didn't feel
Like there was
Something I missed
And I
Take back all the
Things I said to you

And I give it all away
Just to have somewhere
To go to
Give it all away
To have someone
To come home to

This is my December
These are my snow-covered trees
This is me pretending
This is all I need

And I
Just wish that
I didn't feel
Like there was
Something I missed
And I
Take back all
The things I said
To make you feel like that
And I
Just wish that
I didn't feel
Like there was
Something I missed
And I
Take back all the things
I said to you

And I give it all away
Just to have
Somewhere to go to
Give it all away
To have someone
To come home to

This is my December
This is my time of the year
This is my December
This is all so clear

And I give it all away
Just to have somewhere
To go to
Give it all away
To have someone
To come home To

Linkin park - My December

i stole this from Bradley! ^_~

~DarkChildOne — Sun, 27 Nov 2005 12:55:35 PST

1. Full Name: Heather Chemen (shimain) Carter
2. Nicknames: Bug, Dark, Tenshi, Shoujo, Chick, KittyPie(Dont you DARE ask)
3. Birthday: August 20, 1989
4. Place of Birth: Tahlequah Oklahoma
5. Zodiac Sign: Leo
6. Male or Female: Female
7. Grade: 11th
8. School: Homeschooled
9. Occupation: Web/Graphics Designer
10. Residence: Wagoner
11. Screen Name: DarkChildOne

__Your Appearance___
12. Hair Color: Red and Black
13. Hair Length: almost to my ass
14. Eye color: grey, but it changes
15. Best Feature: Eyes
16. Height: 5'7
17. Braces?: No
18. Glasses?: yes
19. : Yes
20. s: Very Soon
21. Righty or Lefty: Right

___Your 'Firsts'___
22. First best friend: Dustin
23. First Award: Uhh
24. First Sport: Basketball
25. First pet: Dog
26. First Real Vacation: Camping
27. First Concert: John Ruebens
28. First Love: ummmm I believe that we only love once the rest is a concept. I Love you, Kage.

___ Favorites___
29. Movie: The Mummy
30. TV Show: CSI
31. Colors: Blue, Red, Black, Silver, Emerald
32. Rapper: Um, No
33. Bands: System Of A Down
34. Song Right Now: SOAD - IEAIAIO
35. Friend: Rick
36. Candy: Cinnamon Imperials
37. Sport to Play: Hunting Emos?
38. Restaurant: Pizza Hut
39. Favorite brand to wear: ummmmm Black?
40. Store: um, none?
41. School Subject: Science
42. Animal: Cat
43. Book: Redemtion Of Althalus
44. Magazine:
45. Shoes: Uhhh, whatever i can find.

___Currently___
46. Feeling: Scared
47. Single or Taken: Taken
48. Have a crush: No
49. Eating: cheetoes
50. Drinking: Coke
51. Typing: Really need to be answered?
52. Online?: Yes
53. Listening To: Bella Morte
54. Thinking About: Khrys
55. Wanting To: Get some
56. Watching: Racing Stripes
57. Wearing: shirt and pants
__________Future__________
58. Want Kids? Yeah
59. Want to be Married?: YUP
61. Where do you want to live: Europe
62. Car: Black

__Which is Better With The Opposite ___
63. Hair color: mmm black, but doesnt matter
64. Hair length: Long
65. Eye color: green
66. Measurements: Not important
67. Cute or : neither is important
68. Lips or Eyes: Eyes
69. Hugs or Kisses: BOTH
70. Short or Tall: taller than me
71. Easygoing or serious: Easygoing
72. Romantic or Spontaneous: both
73. Fatty or Skinny: mid-way? *giggles*
74. Sensitive or Loud: Sensitive
75. Hook-up or Relationship: Relationship
76. Sweet or Caring: both
77. Trouble Maker or Hesitant One: Trouble-maker

___Have you ever______
78. Kissed a Stranger: Yes, my current bf
79. Had Alcohol: Yes
80. Smoked: Yes
81. Ran Away From Home:No
82. Broken a bone: yes
83. Got an X-ray: Yes
84. Been with someone: Yes
85. Broken Someones Heart: Yeah..
86. Broke Up With Someone: Yes
87. Cried When Someone Died: yes
88. Cried At School: No

___Do You Believe In___
89. God: Yes
90. Miracles: Yes
91. Love At First sight: Yes
92. Ghosts: Yes
93. Aliens: Yes
94. Soul Mates: Yes
95. Heaven: yes
96. Hell: yes
97. Angels: yes
98. Kissing on The First Date: Yup
99. s: No

___Answer Truthfully___
100. Is There Someone You Want But You Know You Can't have?: Nope because i have him with me

Up, up, and Awakes

~DarkChildOne — Fri, 25 Nov 2005 14:41:01 PST

Hmm, lets seeeeeeeeeeeeee............

Played a game.
Won out.

Broke up with meh boi.
That hurt.

My rents dont trust.
Either.

Got back together with him on a friend-friend basis.
Maybe...

i dont really have much more right now. catchya

yesi k now i really should update more

~DarkChildOne — Thu, 03 Nov 2005 08:12:23 PST

well, lets see..... i am gorunded till the 10th yet i still manage to get on the net everyday! I love school for that. yes, i am taking a class on webdesign! Booooyuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuh! And even though you arent able to download messengers i have found a net version of MSN messenger. So yes, i break the law everyday! Muahahahaha!

Ok, aside from that, NO I WILL NOT TELL YOU WHY I AM GROUNDED!

But i will give you a hint. It had to do with my bf >>;
But... me and him are going to end soon...

Moving along!

I am going to a hunt this saturday. But not just ANY hunt..... guess what i get to hunt with?
Raptors! Actually, i want to hunt with a Kestral. ^^ i love sparrowhawks!
I shall bring pictures if i can get some.
Hmmm.... getting some... anywho!

I have a SERIOUS itch to scratch and i am not really picky about who will right about now.

Random Tag

~DarkChildOne — Sat, 15 Oct 2005 15:17:08 PDT

1. I hate skirts. Well, unless they are ren, gypsy, scottish, or gothic.

2. I lurve eyeliner. I am a Eyeliner Addict. *goes off to EA*

3. I love Cream soda. Creeeeeeeeam Sodie!

4. I am very talkative and loud.

5. I love basketball. Even though i suck at the game i still love to play.

6. I used to be schitzophrenic, but we're OK now.

7. I hate Boy Bands. Except a few.

8. I laugh a lot.

9. I am grossly possessive over what is mine. And usually means my boyfriend. ^^ he doesnt mind though.

10. I love cartoons. Cartoooooooooooooon Network!

11. I hate snitches. Damn bastards, almost got arrested for them.

12. I love boots! Clunker, sexy, stylish, you name it!

13. I hold grudges. And i have seen The Grudge. *Shudder*

14. I'm scared of the dark.

15. My favourite subject in school is Science. Yeah I love science

16. My parents bought me my first camera in March 2005 but I start to get interested in Photography in June.

17. I wear glasses. My eyesight is not very good. But my night vision rocks.

18. I lurve meh puppy!! ^^

19. I draw to much.

20. I am a cam whore. ^^ i looooooooooooooooooove taking pictures.

"Understand Me"

~DarkChildOne — Wed, 05 Oct 2005 07:41:05 PDT

How do you understand someone so well as the help their pain when even they dont comprehend the knowledge they posses?

*A deep melodic voice slips into your concienceness as you listen to her tale as he sings to her in her sleep.*

You are my dream...
When i look into your eyes...
I see the moon beams dance on your skin...
I can never let you go...
I believe in Angels now...

I cried last night. I love you, Zach, i dont know why you want to die.

You are my reason for caring...
You are my one thing to live for...
I can never let you go...

If i am your reason for caring, then why do you wish to die?
I'm still here. Under the moon...

Your voice is so sweet..
Melodic decadence...
Sweet seduction in the innocence of your voice...
I can never let you go...
I beleive in Angels now...

Let me be your wings. Rest in my arms! I am here! Sleep so soundly in my arms before our time is gone...

We will dance upon a raindrop...
Letting everything fall away...
Swim the sea of each others hearts...

I wish i knew why you couldnt just let go...

You are my angel...
You are my eternal dream...
Let me kiss away your tears...
I will hold you forever...
I love you...

Nothing more need be said...
Ding Dong...
The B.i.t.c.h...
Is D.e.a.d...

Survey thingeh! AGAIN! W00T!

~DarkChildOne — Tue, 20 Sep 2005 19:38:58 PDT

ANSWER USING ONLY SONG LYRICS
1. Who are you?
I'm a real fruit bat. And i'm ready to rap. I'm Ready to Snap! (robin williams)
2. What's your secret?
That you dont see what i can see. Twisted pictures haunting me(East west)
3. What can't you do?
I cant faint. The way i could before. Dont turn your back on me. I wont be Ignored. (linkin park)
4. Where do you live?
I'm so tired of being here... Supressed by all my childish fears. (Evanesence)
5. What is love?
Wishing on a dream that seems far off. Hoping it will come today.(Shii's Song)
6. What is friendship?
Look at this photograph. Evertime i do it makes me laugh.(Nickelback)
7. What are you afraid of?
Feel the darkness smiling, every note is dying. Silence is refining every note in his heart.(Trans Siberian Orchestra/Savatage)
8. What would you tell the one you love/who loves you?
I wanted you to know. I love the way you laugh. I wanna how you high and steal your pain.(Seether/Amy Lee)
9. What would you tell your enemies?
How the hell'd we wind up like this?(Nickelback)
10. What do you want to do?
I cry when angels deserve to diiiiiie(SOAD)
11. Where do you want to go?
Illusia is musically. A world built on ryhme. Its carved out of space in the absence of time.(Xena)
12. What questions do you ask?
Why werent we able? to see the signs that we missed?(Nickelback)
13. What advice would you give?
In The End It Doesnt Even Matterrrrrrrr(Linkin Park)
14. What mistakes do you make?
Looking back at me i see that i never really got it riiiiight, I never stopped to think of you.(Crossfade)
15. What do people think or say about you?
Psycho! Groupie! Cocaine! Crazy! (System of a Down)
16. What do you want?
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain. Cause i'm broooooken when i'm lonesome.(Evanesence)

Alive, i think

~DarkChildOne — Fri, 09 Sep 2005 07:20:24 PDT

Well, lets see... i am enrolled in Fundamentals Of Web Design at Vo-Tech. Its pretty cool here. Only chick! Booya! XD 8 boys and 1 . Moi. I feel so proud of myself.
Well, lets see, i have like 5 sniffing after me, one has already asked me out (BUZZ!) denied! Hehehehehe. And the others are kidnas wary. dunno if the others are going to try.
Ahh, well, its interesting here anway. I'll fill in more late when i have more time. Currently doing work and talkign to people. Hehehhhheehehehe. I know, i'm just that good.
Anywho, catchya later.
~Shinde Iru Tenshi

Suite Seckstine

~DarkChildOne — Sat, 20 Aug 2005 20:23:26 PDT

Well, Well, Well, i've survived my 16th birthday, broke up with my bf, got my butt spanked, and got pounced on all in one day. I'd say it was quite interesting. Well, at least he took it well. That is good. And me and him are to going to remain friends. Its kinda nice to have someone who thinks you pay to have ones mind living in the gutter. :evil:
Erm, updates i'm guessing you want. Thats cool. Erm, well lets see... I am currently listening to sappy music and wishing for a bottle of cream soda.
Updates! Single! Bored! Needing to Update my deviations! Needing to Draw More! Needing to finish homework! Needing a big hug. I feel really shitty right now. Yeah know, post-break-up dregs.

Well, if you have bore with me for this thank you and may you all have a cookies!
PEACE!

Focking-A!

~DarkChildOne — Fri, 19 Aug 2005 06:11:05 PDT

Mood:Pissed Off.

This aint happenin'! >.< Well, I am at class right now and i am wearing a red shirt that zips down to the bottom of the pocket over my heart. And i am wearing a halfway modest denim stretch skirt and a pair of calf high suede boots. I read the paper she gave us on "Professional Image." Its gives me guidelines to go with. I mean, big deal right? Well, i have been scolded for inappropriete dress for PID (Professional Image Day.) I should take a picture of myself and then post up here to show you all what i am wearing. I look fine!
*Tears begin to slowly streak her face as she continues to type this post up. She snuffles up not a tear showing on the outside she bites he lip and wishes it would bleed.*
Well, she says that on the paper it says "No Denim, No boots." Newsflash lady, IT DONT! Seriously, i'm gonna talk to her about this. This is stupid. It doesnt say on the paper. AND BESIDES! This is all i have. She says its alright if its all you have. Well, IT IS all i have, dammit! This isnt fair at all. I mean... *Sighs* Well, i guess this is what i get for dressing the way i am comfortable and tryign to impress people. Not everybody has all the money in the World. Some of us work for a living... and even then... fuck it... At least i will be able to see my Skruffy...
he'll make it all better.

God Hold Me... God Hold Me... God Hold Me... God hold Me... God Hold Me...
You Dont See What I Can See... Twisted Pictures Haunting Me...

Song: Disturbed -by- East West

Sappy Sod Alert!

~DarkChildOne — Wed, 17 Aug 2005 19:05:21 PDT

One night a guy & a girl were driving home from the movies. The boy sensed there was something wrong because of the painful silence they shared between them that night. The girl then asked the boy to pull over because she wanted to talk. She told him that her feelings had changed & that it was time to move on. A silent tear slid down his cheek as he slowly reached into his pocket & passed her a folded note. At that moment, a drunk driver was speeding down that very same street. He swerved right into the drivers seat, killing the boy. Miraculously, the girl survived. Remembering the note, she pulled it out & read it. "Without your love, I would die."

*Boy: i saw her today
Girl: i saw him today
Boy: It seems like its been forever
Girl: I wonder if he still cares
Boy: She looks better than ever
Girl: I couldnt stop staring at him
Boy: i asked her how things were going
Girl: i asked about his new girlfriend
Boy: Id choose her over any girl im with
Girl: Hes probably really happy
Boy: i couldnt even look at her without crying
Girl: He couldnt even look at me
Boy: I told her i missed her
Girl: I know he hadnt
Boy: I meant it
Girl: He didnt mean it
Boy: i love her
Girl: he loves his new girlfriend
Boy: I held her one last time
Girl: He gave me a friendly hug
Boy: Then i went home and cried
Girl: Then i went home and cried
Boy: i lost her..
Girl: i still love him*

Devious Journal Entry

~DarkChildOne — Tue, 16 Aug 2005 13:31:02 PDT

001: Name: Heather
002: Nickname: Jessica Rabbit (bunny)
003: Country of living: united states
004: Birthdate: August 20, 1989
005: Hair Length: lower than mid back
006: Eye color: grey
007: Shoesize: 9
008: School/work: School, 10th
009: You smoke: nope
010: Hobby's: chatting
011: Brothers/Sisters: 3 sisters, 3 brothers
012: Relationship: yeah
013: Piercing(s): a few
017: Nicest person you met this year:God
018: Person you rather not have met this year: Rachel
019: Who would you like to meet: Rick
020: Who do you admire most: Jesus!
021: Most sexy person(s): Keith
022: Favorite Pajamas: skin
023: Favorite Car: Viper
024: Favorite Movie(s): who knows
025: Favorite Music: about everything
026: Favorite City(s): Devon
027: Favorite Plush: Bunnies!
028: Favorite Perfume: Vanilla Fields
029: Favorite Magazine: TATTOO
030: Favorite sound: rain
031: Favorite TV-series: CSI
032: Favorite Writer: David Eddings
033: Favorite Nickname: Angel
034: What is on your mousepad: my mouse
035: What all is under your bed: the floor
036: Favorite color: blue
037: Favorite Song ever: Disturbed -by- East West
038: Favorite song at this moment: Promise -by- Spoken
039: Favorite food: pizza
040: Favorite class in school: lunch
041: Favorite drink: any suicide...
042: Lucky number: 5
043: What do you think is greatest about yourself: my voice
044: What deodorant do you use: Teen spirit
045: Favorite shoes: clunker boots!
046: What time do you go to bed on weekdays: 10pm-12am
047: What word do you use most: kinky
048: Most romantic moment in your life: Kissing in the rain. Oh, wait, daydreams dont count.
049:Most embarrassing moment in your life: YEAH RIGHT!
050: You spend your time rather inside or outside: inside
051: What do you do in the weekends: see meh bf
052: What class in school you dislike most: math
053: Your Breakfast: cold pizza
054: What do you really dislike to eat: liver
055: Pets:6dogs, 18cats
056: Laugh or Dream: both
057: Serious or funny: funny
058: Fast or slow: fast..always fast
059: You prefer being alone or have a relationship: depends
060: Simple or complicated: both
061: Cremate or Buried when dead: dead
062: Sex or Alcohol: alcohol
063: Stay up late or go to bed early: LATE!
064: Light or dark: Dark
065: Speak or Silence: speak
066: Tall or small : tall
067: News paper: kinling
068: Hug or kiss: kiss while hugging
069: Happy or Sad: happy
070: Life or Death: Life
071: Gig or Disco: wtf is that
072: Left or Right: Right^^
073: Sausages on top, or on the side: WTF, is this a kinky question?
074: Dark/ red/ Blonde: Red
075: What would you ask God if you could ask him 1 single question: why does everyone hate each other?
076: You believe in reincarnation: no
077: You believe in Aliens: Yes
078: When you die, what will be your last words?: I love you
079: Does true love exist: yes
080: How many kids would you like to have: 3
081: What is the one thing you can't stand: liars
082: Best feeling: Kissing.. in the rain
083: Worst feeling in the world: rejection
084: What are you afraid of: being alone
085: Are you an emotional person: a little
086: Do you ever cry during a movie: sometimes
087: Your goal in life: survive
088: What was the promise you made to yourself at new years eve: to be happy
089: Favorite art-artist: erm, dunno ^^
090: As what animal would you like to reincarnate: None; I WANNA STAY DEAD!
091: What is the most beautiful part on the female body: lips
092: Most original place to ask your love to marry you: in the rain
093:What do you think of Elftown: kills time
094: Is there something you miss about elftown: no,
095: Where did you get this question list: ElfTown
095: Besides elftown, what do you do most on your PC: music
096: Is there a question you missed in this all: nope ^^
097: Favorite Actor: Johnny Depp
098: Favorite Actress: None o.o
099: Favorite Animes: Chobits
100: Favorite Mangas: Chobits
102: What super power do you wish to have: to shapeshift
103: Your gender: female
104: Straight/gay/BI: STRAIGHT !
105: Single: no
106: Want to be: no
107: Age you act: 19
108: Age you wish you were:21 so i could umm no comment
109: Your height: 5'6"
110: Happy with it: not really
111: The color of your hair: red, blonde, brown
112: Happy with it: noyeah
113: Left/right/ambidextrous: RIGHT
114 Your living arrange...

Another Quiz Stolen

~DarkChildOne — Wed, 10 Aug 2005 17:30:41 PDT

Muahahahaha! Another quiz stolen from DINKO! AKA SoulBrake.

Bands you've been listening a lot to lately:
1. Switchblade Symphony
2. Bedlam Bards
3. The bilge Pumps
4. Queens of The Stone Age
5. VNV Nation
6. Demon Hunter
7. System of a down
8. In Strict Confidence
9. Darling Violetta
10. In Flames

9 Things you look forward to:
1. Keith
2. Friends
3. GOD
4. Classes
5. getin money
6. Drawing new stuff
7. Computer
8. Reading Comics
9. My Birthday on the 20th!!!!!

8 Things you like to wear:
1. Jeans
2. black pants
3. black shirt
4. Bracelets
5. My rubber wrist bands
6. Thongs
7. Kieth around my body
8. more bracelets XD!

7 Things that anger you:
1. Not Seeing Kieth
2. Traffic
3. Gas prices
4. guys who abuse girls
5. bullies
6. Pop-ups
7. Spyware
8. lack of money(indeed)

6 Things you say most days:
1. Talk to Kieth
2. read things in my bible
3. sleep
4. class
5. listen to music to loud
6. talking to friends and hanging out with them

5 Things you do everyday:
1. Talk to Kieth ^_^
2. go on DA..several times
3. draw...alot..
4. Listen to music.
5. Sleep

4 People you want to spend more time with:
1. GOD
2. Keith
3. Art
4. Connie

3 Movies you could watch over and over again:
1. Hellboy
2. AVP
3. Constantine

2 Of your favorite songs at the moment:
1. Bella Morte - My heart will go on
2. Enter The Haggis - Lanigan's Ball

1 person you could spend the rest of your life with:
Kieth

NUMBER OF:
- height: 5'6
- shoe size: 9 1/2
- hair color: reddish gold
- siblings: 7; 3 sisters, 4 brothers

LAST:
- movie you rented: Constantine
- movie you bought: Road To Eldorado
- song you listened to: Enter the Haggis - Lanigan's Ball
- song that was stuck in your head: The Bilge Pumps - Johnny Jump Up
- person you've called: Kieth
- person that's called you: Kieth
- show you've watched: MythBusters
- person you were thinking of: Kieth

DO:
- you have a crush on someone: yup
- you wish you could live somewhere else: yup
- you believe in online dating: Yeah, btu idont encourage it
- others find you attractive: yeah
- you want more piercings:YESH!
- you like cleaning: nope
-you write in cursive or print: both at the same time >>;'

FAVORITE:
- food: pizza
- thing to do: Talk to friends
- drinks: Pepsi, Mountain Dew
- clothes: Jeans and saftey pins
- movies: action
- holiday: christmas. Its in December and i love the month of december.

HAVE YOU:
- ever cried over a girl: Yeah
- ever cried over a boy: Yeah
- ever been in a fist fight: yeah
- ever been arrested: >>;'

WHAT
- shampoo do you use: Treseme
- shoes do you wear: Whatever is closet.
- are you scared of: Being alone
- number of people could trust with my life type friends: 25
- number of people I consider my enemies: 3

FAVORITE:
- disney movie: Peter Pan
- word: Wooohooo
- nickname: AngelBabe
- eye color: amber
- flower: Orchids

DO YOU THINK YOU ARE:
- pretty: hell no
- funny: yeah
- hot: not really
- friendly: yes
- amusing: hehhehem yeah
- ugly: yeah
- loveable: yar
- sweet: yesh
- dorky: always

DESCRIBE YOUR:
[ x ] Wallet black
[ x ] Jewelry worn daily earrings, bracelets, necklaces, piercings. But i'm not telling you where they are.
[ x ] Pillow cover dont have one on it.
[ x ] Underwear - red
[ x ] Favorite shirt "Body Piercing Saved My Life"
[ x ] Perfume/cologne - Vanilla Fields
[ x ] CD in stereo right now - A mix of mine
[ x ] What you are wearing now jeans and a red shirt
[ x ] In my mouth my tongue
[ x ] In my head music
[ x ] Wishing to be with Kieth cuddling. ~^^~
[ x ] After this I will lay on my bed and wait till Kieth calls me.
[ x ] Person you wish you could see right now - Kieth (DUH!)
[ x ] Something you're looking forward to in the upcoming month- My birthday!
[ x ] Do you like the taste of blood Yesh,
[ x ] Do you believe in love Yes
[ x ] Do you believe in Heaven Yes
[ x ] What do you want done with your body when you die - Burned and my ashes tosses over...