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and my cute little pet kitty Talia [link]
tehe and my mummy Mistress of Wolves ^_^ [link]
Ah I truly love you all and will miss you so much.
Think I will use this time to let some feelings out.. I love my girls they are my world and all I care about is there happiness and for this reason I am not going to be in good moods when I cannot talk to them.. Always happens to me.
Hmmm well now I am moving in with my mum I will be sleeping in her lounge room... but I have an old friend who wants to share a place so I will be looking into that ^_^ should be interesting and scary.. I need to get to Canada so the first thing I need to do is talk to the Canadian embassy *thank you my Talia for telling me* and find out what I need to move and live in Canada.
I am torn a little, my heart is all over the place the need to hold my Snaedis is all but soul consuming.. I burn with this need but I am trying to be strong for your sake baby.. I love you so very much.. You mean everything to me.
My beautiful little kitty Talia :3 you are also everything to me and I adore you with all my heart and soul.. You help me to stay strong and to keep moving you fill an emptiness I did not know I even had until I met you and you submitted to me.
So many friends I have.. So many people I care for.. My puppy you know who you are and I care for you and your puppies so much.. ^_^ tell them there Uncle Wolfie will miss them greatly!
Mum..Even though we only share online blood you have been a true mother to me and I love you dearly for that.. Everyone please go show love to her!
Well I guess this is it.. It’s not goodbye! I will be back this is just a talk to you soon moment ^_^
*Waves smiles and starts singing “Show me the way to go home” as I walk out the door*

]]> ~DarkIgnis http://DarkIgnis.deviantart.com/journal/25638656/ http://DarkIgnis.deviantart.com/journal/25638656/ Mon, 29 Jun 2009 20:43:54 PDT
Rules:

1. Publish [copy] these procedures.
2. You must state 8 things about yourself.
3. When you have ended the 'journal' you must choose 8 people and tag him/her.
4. Then it is necessary to go to his/her page and say to them that they have been tagged.

1: I am actually a perverted wolfie P: but i control myself good i think.
2: I am thinking of changing my name to my caricature in my story Demon.
3: I ish a witch though i go by the name Magi.
4: I'm a little hooked on Damien rice songs....
5: I got a bad case of writers block!
6: I have the star hots for Shilo from Repo! the genetic opera.
7: I want to learn French..
8: OH I ish writing in a black book called "My book of darkness"

That's about how random I can think of.
I tag:;


]]> ~DarkIgnis http://DarkIgnis.deviantart.com/journal/24661919/ http://DarkIgnis.deviantart.com/journal/24661919/ Sat, 09 May 2009 01:55:03 PDT However I think I might know where my end is... that thing I have been searching for, for so long I can feel it getting closer! I’m sure it’s in Nova Scotia Canada! I’m sure this is good news for someone.
I just wish I knew and end to all the pain that deep inside me, that pain I thought I was finished with! This pain should have never come back I thought I had found me end. Found that sweet bliss I have been searching for ever since that night on the cliff...but I was wrong, it’s funny when you really think about it I mean *Shakes my head sadly* I’m not sure what I’m even talking about anymore... everything is just so hard and confusing for me I don’t even feel like a good Alpha anymore, I have lost my teeth it seems.
I would not say that I have become weak per say, more that I simply no longer care about anything. I find it hard at times to feel anything at all, regardless who I am talking to sometimes I simply can’t feel anything *Slumps in my chair* so they say there is a reason for everything but I don’t see it... what was the reason behind what’s going on in my life? Tell me that one.... why is it its happening to me now? You can’t answer that!
I am sorta happy, I know you are a wonderful woman my kitty and I will do better for you ^_^ when I actually get to talk to you..... I tell you long distance is a killer lol....
Anyway I’m not feeling this blog right now... so ima go... talk soon ya’ll!

]]> ~DarkIgnis http://DarkIgnis.deviantart.com/journal/24437828/ http://DarkIgnis.deviantart.com/journal/24437828/ Sun, 26 Apr 2009 01:07:43 PDT My life's news :
HA.. fucking my life’s news huh you honestly want to know whats going on in my life do you? Ok then here it is... first the one woman i actually gave a fucking shit about up and lied to me and vanished! And i log onto a site and fucking WOW there she is online.... couldn’t even send me an email saying you know something like.. “all this time i didn’t fucking love you now fuck off and die” at least then i would not have wasted so much time flipping out about missing her!
ah well what ya gonna do huh??? Well I’m still planning on moving to live and wor in Canada just not going to say where or when....
RANT
WOW I’m so not doing this tonight but i will in two days once i have calmed down ok..
DA news:
Well I’m writing Demon 2 onto the laptop slowly and have decided its going to be uploaded piece by piece so you will have to keep an eye on my page to get the next part ^_^ also working on a few more things... but there still in the air so to say ^_^
Other news:
Well I’m single.... there’s my other news lmfao
Pet:

Wonderful friends:


]]> ~DarkIgnis http://DarkIgnis.deviantart.com/journal/24231721/ http://DarkIgnis.deviantart.com/journal/24231721/ Tue, 14 Apr 2009 02:23:58 PDT My life's news :
Well this blog is being posted everywhere because I don’t have the internet to do one for all my sites.
First off I want to say I’m sorry!
I have not been online for some time now and it has taken its toll on me. I know I keep saying the same things over and over, but it’s only because I miss HER. I will try not to keep saying it but...there it is. I won’t be online for awhile still... I need to do so much to get my internet back.
There is also getting to Canada that is on my mind too! I need work...I can’t stand this waiting! It’s slowly killing me. I am doing a lot to try and get work, like trying to find a good cruise ship (Just a two year trip and I will have enough to support myself and Ayako in Canada until I have a stable job) Also if I could get a resort to sponsor me as a permanent employee it would help my chance’s! Then with all this I could save for a small place two bedroom ^_^ and then I would be home... a place where no one knows me... a place where I can start fresh and offcourse be able to bring you Ayako to Canada and we could try and live happy ^_^ I know it will happen... just takes time! So much fucking time!
AND yes I know there is a risk that we will not work together... BUT I will fight to be everything she needs, I will be the best Master, Gentle lover (when that time comes P: ) and friend she would want ^_^ It’s a lot of work too but I will not fail...I can’t...at the same time I have to NOT be clingy! Everyone needs there space^_^
Hmmm what else? I have and still am in a bit of a shit of a mood... I know why and a lot of you do as well but for those that don’t it’s none of your business! SO NO BULLSHIT OK JUST SHUSH!
OK... I will try to keep you all up to date on my internet ^_^
um those of you still waiting on a story or poem I won’t say sorry I have just been really lazy lol I will make up for it though ^_^
Disappointment is something I am getting used to now... being told something and then being deprived of it just knowing that it is so close but I am not allowed to touch it! Sometimes it is better to be forgotten! At least then you can’t get hurt by misjudged good deed’s... I AM SICK OF AUSTRALIA! All it has is emptiness and coldness... day by fucking day little by painful little the people that keep me here show me just why I need to get out!
Sometimes I wonder why do I bother with friends? As it is the last of my friends from the old days has shown me just why you should not care about those you don’t truly know and why you should never meet them! Its better this way, at least this way there is no chance of getting hurt later on...like me...always me...I sometimes wonder why I don’t just turn my phone off... That way I won’t get good news that turns to shit in an instant!
I am sure of this now!
I am getting out of Australia if it’s the last thing I do, then maybe the hurt will stop! Then I can leave my past behind me where it belongs!
Cry all you want I am finished with false hope that just maybe a dream will come true when really it’s just another nightmare!
reminds me of a song I wrote “lease god’s turn me to stone so I don’t have to feel” so true at this moment, sure writing all this helps a great deal...but I can’t take it all away!
Soon everyone will be home and once again I have to smile and pretend that I am not so empty inside! Not that they care...but...I don’t know why I bother? Maybe it’s just if I keep pretending I might fool myself into believing it.
This is one long ass blog! But then I have been gone for some time now haven’t I!
Who cares! Fucking bullshit and I know no one really cares! It’s ok...I am used to it now...just another part of my life to love ^_^ at least I’m trying!
Pet:

Wonderful friends:
http://DarkIgnis.deviantart.com/journal/21658025/ Tue, 25 Nov 2008 03:12:49 PST
but i need your help... when you got free time can you click on these links please!!!!!!

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Help the little dragons to hatch and live ^_^
and remember i lurvs you alll
but i loves my Wolfeh most of allllllllll ^_^

]]> ~DarkIgnis http://DarkIgnis.deviantart.com/journal/21227294/ http://DarkIgnis.deviantart.com/journal/21227294/ Thu, 30 Oct 2008 04:40:41 PDT My life's news :
Well Not that much really... working on a few thing’s concerning Canada.. some of you know this other’s.. well I don’t tell everyone my business.. I’m not all together happy, and for me that’s different seeing as how all this week I been in a good mood meh... it was bound to happen at some point my own fault the more I think about it. That’s about it for life news...

RANT
Wow... *Swear... idk.. I got a *Swear* load I would like to rant about but I think I should not, I’m mad for soo many reason’s tonight it’s not *Swear* funny anymore! ARHHHHHHHGGGGRRRRGHHH

DA news:
COMMISTIONS!!!! Oh noes... ok I am working on and also my beautiful but they are moving slow.. Demon 2 is coming along also slow but I am up to chapter 2 well half ways through that actually… ahh life… it’s just not a friend to me at the moment.

other news:
OK let’s see I have not been around as much as I normally am and I think it’s about time I took a leave from DA for a while.. Some things are getting on top of me and I would rather work them out then have to deal with it when it explodes... i might be on long enough to answer comments but looking at your deviations will have to wait... i will try to look in on your blogs but again... who knows...Don’t bother asking.. I really don’t want to have to explain my self...

My beloved :


Puppy:


Wonderful friends:


]]> ~DarkIgnis http://DarkIgnis.deviantart.com/journal/20962057/ http://DarkIgnis.deviantart.com/journal/20962057/ Sun, 12 Oct 2008 23:17:40 PDT
I finished my course and passed with flying colours ^_^ so now I have a certificate 2 in hospitality operations, fucking WHOO for me loll. Hmmm what else can I say... I love my girl Ayako fuck I need you with me, honestly there is nothing in this world that matters more then you! Tell me to kill and I will, tell me to leave and I will, baby I may be your master but if you wish for something then I will burn this world so you can get what you want...

Made some good friends on my course... fellas your tops... girls you lot are crazy but I do miss ya’s a little lol... ah fucking hell I got a call from the rental place telling me that my ex is ignoring there phone calls and messages.. WTF... they’re going to send a um... what is the name... ah... a bailiff to collect the goods and if that does not work... then the police will be called but not by me this is all the rental company, I tried to explain a little of this but it fell on deaf ears normally I would not write this here but its pissing me off as I will have to pay $200.00 for the bailiff to go out to her place.. I don’t fucking have this cash to just throw around but if you want to act like a bitch then fuck you I’m sick and tired of bull shit.

I’m highly angry today more so then I would have thought but the more I write the more I get mad! Baby none of this anger is directed at you so don’t worry ^_^ no this is for the rest of humanity, they piss me off so much that it’s no longer funny! Trying to figure out what is getting to me the most... so bare with me... let’s see... whining little bitches are a big one, people who lie to my face and think I’m stupid enough to believe there bullshit, simply people that think I care about there opinion of my girlfriend I know who she is and I know why I love her so you can go shove your opinion up your mother fucking ass! This happened an age ago but I don’t forget it... and I fucking know it was you yak bitch you can pretend to be someone else until you believe yourself but I can see through your fucking shit! I blocked your fucking ass anyway so who fucking cares! Keep up your shit and all my accounts will have you blocked! So think careful what you’re doing! I let you come and look in on my profiles co sim a good sport but push a little more and you will never be allowed to see my profiles! I can only take so much shit before I go over the fucking top!
This is all I want to say... oh... I have more but if I keep at it ima say something really bad so this is all you get!
Fuck off and go bug someone else fuckers! ^^

]]> ~DarkIgnis http://DarkIgnis.deviantart.com/journal/20834099/ http://DarkIgnis.deviantart.com/journal/20834099/ Sat, 04 Oct 2008 23:43:21 PDT What can I say....? I have not had a good rant in such a long time... i think it’s about time...
I have no bad things to say about my girlfriend she is the one light in this darkness though you’re a cheeky fucking shit at times I still loves you!
[RANT BEGINS HERE]
Ok... so firstly my ex is a tard... I don’t really care what you fucking think of me but stop using my real fucking name in your blogs and shit.... I don’t do that to you! I at least HAD the decency to not use it!
Suzan....SUZAN.....fucking sue.....SUZY.... there now we are partly even... not close but it will happen. I feel the need to say something... Shiranui did not make me change... SHE actually likes me as I really am... the darkness, the light, the evil... she holds me up and does not tell me to hide who and what i am! I love her... and i was the one to tell her that first... i remember that day... i came online and told her i needed to say something and that i hoped it did not change how she felt about me... i was soo worried.. Nervous and frightened. I remember asking myself if I should just not say it... just turn the computer off and walk away... thinking back on it now i am glad i did not do that ^_^ i told her then... “I love you!” THAT was the best thing I ever did... but i digress... i was talking about something else! Now I am mad... I was reading a blog my baby wrote... [link] and no... I’m not mad because she wrote it I’m made by what I found in it... seems a mutual friend of mine in Sydney found this info while digging through the net... now she changed the names to our nick names but this did contain my real name... just imagine my anger at reading such things! Yes I did put my msn message to I LOVE SHIRANUI WITH ALL MY HEART but so what it’s my msn... your heart I understand that but do I have to put my life on hold for you..... No... Call me cold... evil... a monster i don’t care... i am cold to those who slander and otherwise mistreat me and my friends... i remember the nights when she would call one of my good and decent friends a SLUT!... WTF... that’s just wrong... i never called her friends bastards or whores... or fucking nut jobs... Jasmine... Jasmine is the name of something I used to hear a few years ago... I think she was in my head... to me she was real... I don’t know if she actually was real but she knew things I did not, and she stopped me from committing suicide two years ago... so to me she was a light in the darkness... when she left my head i felt empty and i still do a little but i have a new voice now, one that is by far louder then all the others! My wonderfully beautiful Shiranui ^_^
Ok here is another thing... cursing people... fuck you. Ya don’t curse people over things like this cos you will get the curse back three fold!
Rar I had more to say but I can no longer think of anything... comment on this if you want to I don’t care...

]]> ~DarkIgnis http://DarkIgnis.deviantart.com/journal/20320149/ http://DarkIgnis.deviantart.com/journal/20320149/ Thu, 04 Sep 2008 07:23:32 PDT My life's news :
Well Hello again.. this is a more professional blog.. the last one was rushed so much, SO where am I now in life? That’s a long one.. after leaving Sydney I have moved back in with my sister and have been arranging all my things so that I may move to America, it is going to take me a lot to get there but I will not stop, will not quit, I will never give up until I have my is in my arm’s! This will all come in time... for now however I am looking forwards to starting my course in hospitality a certificate 2. It is an easy to get ^_^ I got this laptop through a ..... *CoughFriendCough* :-P but yeah had my pay cut off but I still got the lappy... she is a darl she is doing an extended pay thing.... so at least now I’m online more!... you know what I feel like a little rant....

RANT
WELL, WELL.. now there is something that really makes me mad.... and I mean MAD.. I don’t give out my real name for simple reasons and I make sure people understand that, well what happens when someone you know who WAS close to you decides that they are going to post your real name in a blog.. there is nothing I can do.. I know that but it does make me mad when people should know better! I mean ok your angry so what when I get mad I just don’t mention names! It’s not that hard to do that you know!.... thankfully no one knows that person is me otherwise I would have really got ton mad!.. ahh but I’m above those feelings.. why get mad at the silliness of other people especially when they do such things.... like the children they are! Ok I guess this is enough of a rant for now... lol

DA news:
Hmmmm news huh.. ok well I’m still working on demon 2 deaths awakening. But you will have to wait for that one as its going to be long.. hmm well I’m also working on a commission for a friend of mine but she doesn’t talk to me anymore so I’m thinking about burning it...

Other news:
Other news huh..... well I don’t know.... anything really.. If anyone wants a piece for themselves note me with the details and I will see if I can do it ^_^

My beloved :


Pet:


Wonderful friends:


]]> ~DarkIgnis http://DarkIgnis.deviantart.com/journal/20178823/ http://DarkIgnis.deviantart.com/journal/20178823/ Wed, 27 Aug 2008 05:13:15 PDT
just thought i would let you in on what is happening in my life todate!

I'm writing this on a laptop i got dirt cheap cos i knew a friend of a friend lmao..... but yeah its cool... i am about to start a easy course in hospitality, goes for 5 weeks so that should be good!

ah huh and also..... Ayako.. ah woman you drive me wild every bloody day... mmmmm what? oh.. yes ok. i have changed alot since i found out that love can still be a living thing and not just a dead part inside my soul.. i am happy now that i am in the open with Ayako, she drives me.. feeds my hunger and fules my lust!

I'm also reading up on my counseling skills... they always come in handy!

ah my neck is killing me and i have not been sleeping right lol gotta stop putting tatu on my ipod!!!!

my bitch Ayako

my Puppy

Friends:


]]> ~DarkIgnis http://DarkIgnis.deviantart.com/journal/18613871/ http://DarkIgnis.deviantart.com/journal/18613871/ Sun, 01 Jun 2008 16:42:50 PDT I am sorry to say I am going to be leaving for a while... I need to sort out things in my love life... my life... and my reason for living,
When I have sorted myself out I will tell you why this is happening... and who is involved but until I know what I’m doing I need to step back... all the comments and devotions you have done will have to wait for me to sort my life out.. And also my writing will be on back log for the time being...

I’m sorry that I can not be around as you should know I love you all! You give me a reason for living... but... there is more to me then just this nice kind guy... that darkness is something I have to look into... and to see if it will look back!... this may be confusing to you all but i am about to do something that is wrong... very very wrong......but it has to be done.... I need someone in my life and every moment i stay away from her is another moment I feel my heart is breaking....
I wish I was not going to do this... but I have to.... and... No... I’m not going to hurt myself... I’m not that silly no I’m just going to go away for a little and see things from another place... hopefully I will be back online before you know it.... until then.. I must walk back hug you all tightly and say good bye...
May you all have luck in the shadows & in the light!

Wolfie.

]]> ~DarkIgnis http://DarkIgnis.deviantart.com/journal/18502244/ http://DarkIgnis.deviantart.com/journal/18502244/ Sun, 25 May 2008 21:58:49 PDT Wolfie....... you don't get to know my real name unless i like you a lot!

2) Male/Female?
Male last i checked! .....let my look again....*Looks* yup... male ^_^

3) Were you named after anyone?
a wolf ^_^ cos just like them im soft and cuddly

4) Does your name mean anything?
same as above! soft and cuddly wolf

5) Nickname(s)?
Master, Wolfman, and a few i can't add here...... lmfao

6) What do you think you look like?
a little like wolverine ^_^

7) Date of birth?
March 12, 1983

8) Place of birth and current location?
Borne in Adelaide south australia.... now i live in new south wales Sydney

9) Nationality?
English with a tad Irish in there! really comes out when i touch whiskey ^_^

10) Astrology sign?
Pisces

11) Chinese astrology sign?
bore

12) Religion?
Dragons way, but i hold a wiccan way as well...

13) What's your favorite smell?
Dragons blood, "A rare plant"

14) Political position?
HA!..... omg... no way... Anarchy

15) What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
COFFEE!!!! or red eye....

16) Hair + eye color?
Brown hair, spakly blue eyes

17) Do you look like anyone famous?
Been told i kinda look like the killer from wolf creek lmao >.<

18) What do you look like?
a wolf in heat lmao

19) Any unusual talents?
Well i can like make you.....umm....sorry i can't say that on here!

20) Righty, lefty, or ambidextrous?
Righty

21) Gay, straight, bi, or other?
Straight.... i like my girls soooo very much! ^_^

22) What do you do for a living?
I write now..... but not much still looking for work...

23) What do you do for fun?
Well i play with......well..... ok.... ummm ^_^ .... i go for walks and drinks with mates ^_^ also love to role play on many levels ^_^

24) Materials to work with?
Camera, pens, pencils, and paper! <=same really ^_^

25) What kind of materials would you like to work with?
Whips chains and.....oh wait..what!....

26) Have you met your grandparents?
inded i have... i luffs them both! ^_^

27) Boyfriend/Girlfriend?
Engaged ^_^

28) Crush?
HA..... my Ayako ^_^ she's sooo sweet

29) What celebrity would you date if you could?
mmmmm too many i think.....

30) Current worries?
That my writing will be hated and my darkness will take me over and i will start to hurt people again!

31) Favorite online guy/girl(s)?
AYAKO!!!!!

34) Do you burn or tan?
I tan >.<

35) Ever break a bone?
nope not yet....

36) What is your favourite cereal?
None ^_^

37) Person you cry with?
That would be my dark princess ash..... she is the only one to hear me cry EVER...

38) Any sisters?
Just one

39) Any brothers?
2 brothers... one i despise with a vengeance! tried to kill me three times!

40) Any pets?
yes Ayako..... she is a good little slave girl ^_^

41) An illness?
Nope thank goodness

42) A pager?
No.

43) A personal phone line?
no

44) A cell phone?
samsung

45) A visible birthmark?
Not that i know of lol.....

46) A pool or hot tub?
I love hot tubes ^_^ but dont have ether...

47) A car?
just sue's car.... "My wonderful woman!"

48) Personality?
Dark, cute and lovable

49) Driving?
Nope >.<

50) Your clothing style?
Everything lol..... i like to blend in and vanish

51) Room?
white.....too.....my sue's room ^_^

52) What’s missing?
Just my Ayako ^_^

53) School?
Nahhhhh dropped out... adn stupid for doing so ^_^


54) Bed?
mmmmmm wanna come see? ^_^

55) Relationship with your parents?
close with mum..... dad was a goner... never met him..

56) Do you believe in yourself?
indeed i do!.... thats what scares me!

57) Do you believe in love at first sight?
yeah..... sadly..

58) Consider yourself a good listener?
yup yup! ^_^

59) Have a future dream that you would like to share?
To take over the world and rule with my pet by my side! ^_^

60) Get along with your parents?
yeah mostly

61) Save your e-mail conversations?
No not really...

62) Pray?
Indeed i do ^_^ but not to who your thinking of.

63) Believe in reincarnation?
Yeah i do actually ^_^

64) Brush your teet... ]]> ~DarkIgnis http://DarkIgnis.deviantart.com/journal/18473982/ http://DarkIgnis.deviantart.com/journal/18473982/ Sat, 24 May 2008 05:12:20 PDT My life's news :

Well I don’t know really... been a little upset over an argument I had.... but other wise everything is going as slowly as always!....my writing has been taking a hit I am sad to say.. but then that dose happen! I am still looking for work.. and not having too much luck, I just finished doing stock take for my local target and I was hoping they would keep me there but I am yet to hear the call lol... my mood has been a little off so to say recently.. I am having problems eating, I mean I am over weight and I’m ashamed of myself for it but I am not starving myself.. I just seem to feel sick when I look at food... I don’t know what it is.. meh.. any ways onto my other news..

DA news:

Well now I have finished a few things poetry mostly, but I am working on some new raunchy works. There coming slow for some reason though!... I am not taking any commissions just now as I am back logged on the ones I have already lol mm well now I was thinking of doing a little gore writing but I’m not sure on that one... people seem to like my smut more then my gore lol ^_^ I know I’m a sell out hehe.... Demon 2 is still on the back burner till I get some feeling back into my brain lmao..... but I will try soon!

Other news:

Hmmm well now I don’t know really... I luv all my friends ^_^ you mean a lot to me... ya know that!.... I mean without you all I would be nothing ... and I mean that! I would do anything for you all lol ^_^ well... almost anything! I keep saying it I’m not getting naked and dancing in the street! So stop asking ah well so now I don’t know! I just got my DVD “Wolves at the door” can’t wait to watch it... I have seen it before but I just love wolves so much ^_^ hence why I’m called wolfie hehe...... yeah that’s right everywhere but here I’m called Wolfie... I can’t help being sweet and cute I try.. REALLY.... but it just can not be stoped! To the pain of my love sue... lol but she bears with my constant cuteness to everything.... she is a strong one ^_^ why I loves her ay! Lmao...... well I think that’s it for now!.... will get back to you soon ay! Lol ^_^

Pet:



Wonderful friends:



]]> ~DarkIgnis http://DarkIgnis.deviantart.com/journal/18186516/ http://DarkIgnis.deviantart.com/journal/18186516/ Mon, 05 May 2008 18:49:15 PDT
Well what can I say.... I have been confused as of late and I know why but I am not telling you all... one of you knows... probably two... but meh that is not a major problem... I am still looking for work... but I am thinking I should go ahead with this Freelance journalism course... what do you think? Ether way... I do not like this damn Microsoft word... its strange and weird!..... Grrrrrrrrrr
Anyhow... on to my other news I think...

DA news

Well I am currently working on a few good projects’s one is my lovely Demon *Part 2* this is going to be longer then the firs one and I'm also going to be adding my good friend fenrir character. and well I am also going to be doing a collaboration with him it is going to be a big project so some of my things will be put on hold like my new yiff fur stories ^_^ hmmm well I'm still working out the details. Therefore, when I start to work I will let you all know how this is working out! On a side note, I am thinking of opening my commissions up for poetry and the like... but I am not too sure on that just yet.. Now about my little side projects the new yiff line I'm working on... mainly rape fantasies but I'm going to try... I said TRY working on a romance... and also a new horror... not enough of that around... but we will see *Giggles*

In other news

Nothing of too much interest! Just the normal things like the need to see blood... maybe drink some too... no animal stuff thanks...but hey.. That’s life.. What else can I say.. Have been feeling a little on the ..Well messed up side lately over some things but lol who doesn’t go through this? Trying to help friends with there problems as always and forgetting about mine... but that’s what I do! I help you... and if I can’t I try to find a way... think I'm too open to a few of you.. if I offend you I’m sorry... this is just how I am... if I call you M’dear I'm just saying lady nicely... and I hug everyone! ...yes...even guys ^_^ so what sometimes everyone needs a hug even if it’s just for a second! Just because I hug, ya don’t mean I love you ^_^ nahhhh I'm just being a friend who dose not know or understand boundary’s lmfao... okey... I think this will do for now... I will get back to writing if I can... will give you updates when I can or when I remember too! Lmao.
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Laters

Darkignis
Master of

]]> ~DarkIgnis http://DarkIgnis.deviantart.com/journal/17998266/ http://DarkIgnis.deviantart.com/journal/17998266/ Wed, 23 Apr 2008 20:06:31 PDT Well I want to kill... and I honestly mean that I don’t know why but I just want to kill someone you know what I mean ...... kill as in stab them in the face and cut up the body kill.... fuck.... I don know anymore!..... I am just so confused lately that its no longer funny! My mind is racing back and forwards and there is no stopping it!...... I can’t slow down and I just need to..... I can’t write cos every words I write just dose not FIT for fucks sake!........ I'm kind of cold inside as well so thats not a good thing.... nothing I do seems to make me happy.... well...talking to wolfeh makes me happy.... but that only lasts until she goes away... then it all comes back...
I don’t know anymore.... I'm really not in a good mood at all.... there is so much on my mind that I can not see straight!..... its like someone has put something over my eyes and I just can not get it off.... man I don’t even know why I'm writing all this!?!...... I just don’t fucking know anymore!..... What the hell is going on with my head!?!....... why will it not just shut up and let me BE!!!!!!!
Meh..... I would cry if I could.. but I don’t see a point to it all anymore!..... sometimes I do wish I could find someone and kill them! It would take a lot off my mind.... but it’s just not that easy these days...... I mean .... you can’t just go and kill someone!....
I'm going to stop now before I say something I will regret..... so ..... bye...

]]> ~DarkIgnis http://DarkIgnis.deviantart.com/journal/17937403/ http://DarkIgnis.deviantart.com/journal/17937403/ Sun, 20 Apr 2008 02:59:01 PDT Something you probably know is that I control myself a great deal when I talk to people...yes even you kitteh! If I did not I may & would say something that would be highly inappropriate! & I do not want to offend or hurt you all in anyway. I hold a lot back a great deal when I talk to everyone. I will say this though! I do not lie to you all! I see no point in lies; they do nothing but make people fake! So when I say something it is the truth! Unless I am joking or telling you, something about my story’s they are just works of both my feelings & fantasy.
Now I am not saying that you have to tell the truth all the time, everyone is different so what you do in your life is up to you and only you! But I will say this. “Try speaking your mind & see what happens!” I do not mind if you speak your mind with me. One gift/curse I have is that I can listen without getting bothered with what I hear, I will listen to you talking about anything from your day to the problems you are having body wise or love. I really don’t mind I just find it nice to listen to someone & to understand how they live there life & I am sure it makes them feel better when they can get it off there chest & out in the open...even if the open is just me...secrets are also something I am more then used to keeping...so many secrets...and I keep them all perfectly! I am still holding a secret that was passed to me by a dear friend no longer with us.
Life can be a wonderful place & a terrible one! It all is still a wonderful world... it just depends on how you look at it!
So talk to me...tell me what is wrong, if there is anything I can do to help or make you feel better...even more loved...but then I love you all so much. “A world devoid of love is nothing...it is a world not worth living” There for I chose to love you all...granted there are a small few I love more then I should but as I said when I started writing this it is something that I can not help. I know it is wrong...I know I should stop! But I cannot no matter how hard I try...it just dose not go away. I will not tell you who they are, I will not show my feelings to them, they mean more to me then anything on this cursed world & for this reason, alone I will not take the risk that my actions may jeopardise this friendship anymore then I am right now! No one will get this from me so please do not try! That is all I will ask.
I still have more that I wish to write about so much...so I guess I might as well since I have you here with me now.
I hide a lot from people...many things about me I just do not want people to know about. I am sorry for a great many things that I have done in my life...as I was writing just before I am feeling things I do not like to feel. Such things I know are wrong but some things are even beyond my capacity to stop. Even though I want to stop. It confuses me so much that I cannot see properly...my writing’s are failing & my mind is slowly being filled with such things that I cannot thing properly. I wish I knew why I am thinking about such things but I truly do not know. All I can say is they are a mixture of dark & lustful things that I should not be thinking. ^_^ no more about that!
I really want to just keep writing until I slip & write what I am truly thinking about but I know that would ether liberate or damn me forever! There is too much at risk to even contemplate such dreams. Such fantasy as this, for truly is it not wiser to hide that which would... ]]> ~DarkIgnis http://DarkIgnis.deviantart.com/journal/17463370/ http://DarkIgnis.deviantart.com/journal/17463370/ Sat, 22 Mar 2008 18:42:26 PDT HA.... I honestly do, some days life just seems to push me a little farther down the road all the time.. It is silly when I think about it but then when is anything how I thought it would be? Nothing is as it is supposed to be anymore!
I miss the days when I could do what I like and not have to worry what people thought! However, those days are long gone now... oh I try to remake them, but all I succeed in doing is getting more people mad at me.. And people wonder why I'm depressed... it’s like I'm stuck in a time I don’t want to be in.. And there is no escape! My mind is confused and there is nothing but unrealised thoughts and feelings!
My mind right now is clouded by thoughts I do not want to share on here... Thoughts of a time I long to be in again, a place filled with people I knew... people that are no more... I do not know how to say a lot that I really want to say here today.. I somehow feel lost... as if I do not quite know where to go... or what to do! It is a disturbing feeling for me to be stuck in this... rut... another sensation I am feeling, is one of being alone... even though I have people everywhere I still feel as though I am here alone. Maybe I want to be alone that is why I am feeling it. Or maybe it is just because no one listens to me anymore... it is like screaming into a crowd of voices and trying to be heard...
I know its not just boredom.... I have lots I can do to stop boredom... its just I do not want to do anything.. AH bloody hell this is maddening!....
The worst thing is there is no one I can talk to... at least no one I can find.... I used to have a friend who knew more about me then anyone else alive! But now.... I can’t talk to her... life always seems to take those people that you need away from you when you need them the most!..... Why is this... why .... No one ever has the answer to that! Mostly because there is no answer! You can’t answer that question truthfully!.... sometimes I just really want to scream.. but why... lol I laugh at the people that try to answer questions like this... and even go so far as to tell me that all I need to do is believe in something and it will all work out... what fucking world do they live in?
This world is full of people that hate and despise you... that want nothing more then to rape torment and bring new levels of pain to you... this is not some candy land... what the hell is going on in your mind that you can see good things in this hell?.... what ever your on please give me some!..... I think I need it!
Yes, I'm morbid and sick... my mind always see’s the dark perverted and twisted sides of this life we live!... it’s not something ...ok I am proud of it... but that holds nothing... I still have the problem that I don’t know what the fuck I'm doing!.... I love to write but I'm stuck in a rut and can’t write a single word sept offcourse what I'm writing now.... I can write like this for hours on end and not stop until my computer or my hands die!....... its just wonderfully ME that I can sit here and rant about bullshit all day even though I know no one gives a shit! But then that is the point of writing it is it not? You know no one cares but you write it anyway... I know that’s why I write it... but you! Yes you... in the corner.. Why the hell do you write?
Right now I am contemplating why I should even bother writing this?...... lmao.... ok I'm doing this manly cos I need something to get my mind away from the darker paths it was on just a few moments ago.... there are some things in my mind I think need to be burnt out!... some time I LOVE to be bad.. Down right evil! Its fun.. It satisfies the darker parts of the human soul... and yes, we are all dark in our own ways.. There is no such thing as an inherently good person! And if you think, there is I'm laughing at you! Stupid fuckers... get you minds out of the hole... good people no longer exists in this world! Shore there are still some nice people that will not do you wrong but when they turn the computer off they let there darkness come out... when they are not talking to you they let themselves go... just like me!.... I do not pretend to be something I'm not! Not anymore! I do not care what people think about me! I am WOLFIE I am who I was borne to be!... who are you?
You know it would take me at least two pages to tell you what I like to do... and have done to me.... lmao but I'm not about to do that... you all can just stay with what you know about me so far.... lolz.... I don’t know why I'm writing so much about nothing I just have this strange need to fill pages with nonsense... if you are reading this then way to go... you have gotten further now then anyone before you!.... you must ether be really bored or just want to understand what the hell is going on inside my mind... I welcome you... now to tell you the answer....
When I go to bed, I dream... ]]> ~DarkIgnis http://DarkIgnis.deviantart.com/journal/17304843/ http://DarkIgnis.deviantart.com/journal/17304843/ Wed, 12 Mar 2008 16:53:50 PDT OK where to start?...... I know... if some will note I have not been online for a long time... well that is only because the government pays me so since I am unemployed I have to go to this shit about work place training! Now this is training in writing a resume and stuff like that... so I had been doing this every day...... till I got an apprenticeship bakers place in the local tafe ... so I started to do that and well lets just say baking and me do go together it turns out! So.... I had to give it up... now I don’t know what I want to do....
Being confused about what I’m doing is a bad thing! I don’t know what to do or even why I should bother!..... Life seems to be giving me shit... bills a pilling up like every one else’s... and people are pissing am whining about me... life is grand...personally, I think life is just one big fucking joke!
One thing in life I never liked was getting sympathy from people! Now I don’t know why this is... it’s just something that I have been bad with.... I HAVE PROBLEMS! Now see this statement is something I know by heart! It’s all true I need help but I don’t know what the fuck I’m doing so how can I find something I know nothing about.
Sometimes I wonder about all the things I used to be! Now I don’t talk about this shit Manley as I’m afraid I will lose the friends I have but... now i just realize I’m hiding who I am so that I can fit in! I’m doing all the things I stand against! And for what?..... Ok I don’t actually know... but I’m sure there is a reason there somewhere!

I am unhappy as of now, and the thing that really gets to me is I don’t know why I am unhappy! I have no actual reason to be unhappy!

Fuck it all.....

Ok now onto my work Demon chapter 2 is coming along a little slower then I had liked but I am working on this one, also Birth of the mistress of wolves a shadow story I am writing is coming along quiet good, something I am proud of actually
Oh and the picture I’m colouring in for Kitteh is moving slower then a snail.... lol colouring is not a strong point of mine!
I have not played my Xbox 360 for a long time now! I have been so down I cannot touch it! How crazy is that!?! I think I'm having a little bout of writers block also,.... dammit I hate it when this happens! It puts me back on my time line!......
I don’t even know what I want to do today! I'm bored but I just don’t bloody know what the hell to do!.....

Ah well... this is just a short one today but I will try to write a better one soon ok! ^_^

Later my friends........

OH! Shit I forgot while I'm here my birthday....... lmfao..... It was shit and I don’t mean I got bad gifts.... I mean holy fuck I swear no one knows my birthday I try to remember everyone’s but My OWN FAMLY DIDN’T EVEN TXT ME A HAPPY FUCKING BIRTHDAY!?!
Fuck this for a joke! What a family! And after all the shit, I went through in my life to make them happy!....
Anyway.... I'm depressed so catch ya all later!....

]]> ~DarkIgnis http://DarkIgnis.deviantart.com/journal/16731752/ http://DarkIgnis.deviantart.com/journal/16731752/ Mon, 04 Feb 2008 22:50:44 PST You know its been a long time since the good old days when I had nothing to worry about but what I was going to have for dinner......but those days are long gone.... now I have to worry where the cash is coming from.... I went for an inter view just a few days ago and almost the next day I get an email back saying they have all the people they need..... You know how many times I have been told this? Huh...... fuck 23 times since I moved here! Wtf is it about me that makes people thinks twice about hiring me!..... Maybe if I dressed Goth like I used to I would actually get the fucking job! Retarded fuckers!.....
Ah well this is what life has made of me.... so this is how I will go.... just cos I have been knocked back dose not mean I’m going to give up!..... No fucking way! It takes a hellava lot more then that to stop me!.... but I’m allowed to piss am moan about it! Lmao.....
Ok for the first time in a really fucking long time I’m actually depressed! Have been for about a week now! But don’t give me your pity.... I don’t want it.... call me self centred I don’t fucking care!..... *Yeah hard to peg huh* the people I talk to don’t see it thank goodness I’m getting better at hiding the fact my heart is cracking...... I try to write something nice for a dear friend of mine but all I get is dark and disturbing things!...... not that I mind but it really makes for a bad gift to give someone a story about killing things slowly ....... 3 pages I have on the best ways to kill painfully...... I would go to a therapist but I could not be fucked!..... meh....
Have a fare bit going through my head right now.... just want to crawl into a dark cave and surrender to what lies inside me!. Not to mention the cravings..... DARK fucking cravings.... for thing I would rather never share with anything living!...... let me put it this way.... when I scare myself... it must be fucking bad...... the human mind is a disturbing thing.... and I have no idea why I’m even thinking half the stuff I do..
Ok feeling huh... here are my feelings... I’m empty inside. I feel as though there is something missing inside me and I don’t understand how to feel it! I have no idea where I’m going or what I’m doing! Time just seems to fly by and I’m so confused that it is starting to hurt!.... there is a coldness creeping into me... one I have long since feared it has been coming for a long time and there is only so much I can do alone to stop its advance!.... sometimes I just sit on the bed and just star into places that I have no right to go..... places filed with hate and death.....cold places I used to life when I was younger.... those places that you saw in the dead of night in your nightmares..... you know something odd.... horrors don’t scare me anymore... not even zombie flicks... now I just sit there and enjoy the gore and horror... dose this make me bad..... am I become depraved.... I know I’m perverted.... but this just feels more natural.... if I’m coming out then what am I?.... some kind of monster!... some nightmare better left in the dream where I belong!... I don’t feel hate any more.... the last thing I hated my friend helped me see was not so bad.... so now what’s left... nothing to hate but myself... all my weaknesses all my pathetic nature.....
Well.... I have more but if I write it you would still be reading it! That is if you are even still reading this... lolz... not that I mind if you dont1... as I said I’m not after pity .... just needed to write this I guess.... prolly write a lot more before this month is up......
Anyway.. I’m off... catch ya round some time....
Wolfe~

]]> ~DarkIgnis http://DarkIgnis.deviantart.com/journal/16280388/ http://DarkIgnis.deviantart.com/journal/16280388/ Sun, 06 Jan 2008 03:34:34 PST
Stole from

Oversexed Quiz

1.[x]you watch porn ( DUHHHH)

2.[x]you are watching porn (lolz yups )

3.[x]you have a favorite porno (hmmm friedcake on the M-track)

4.[X] when looking through porn, you look for certain people (Japanese)

5.[x]you have "toys" (be a good dog and sit before i get the WIP!?!)

6.[x] you have a fetish (REALLY not telling)

7.[X] you masturbate*(really who dosent?)

8.[x]you masturbate when bored (lolz STFU!!)

9.[x] you masturbate for any reason (ok....its relaxing shut up!!!!)

10.[x] you have a rape fantasy (i really should not tick this but STHU!!!! )

11.[x] you read/write sex stories (i wrote three only one is on here!)

12.[X] you like yaoi/yuri (only the lesbian factor....)

13.[x]you like hentai (LOVE IT!!!!!!)

14.[] you have/want piercings in "special" places

15.[X]You think you're the best in bed (I know i have actually been told lmao)

16.[X]You get looked at by people and look back at them seductively (i disturb people!)

17.[x]you want to have sex for no reason (der)

18. [x] you want to work in porn (lolz such fun!)

19.[x] you have special "features" (lets just say my fingures are REALLY talented!)

20.[]you look in the mirror and want to screw the reflection

21.[x] you would have sex anywhere (THAT'D BE FUN!!!)

22.[X] you have had sex (10 minutes ago......)

23.[X] within the last 6 months

24.[X] within the last year

25.[x] after taking this quiz, are you horny? (yup...... brb.....)

score: 23
LMAO i bet you again Kitteh!!!!!!!

]]> ~DarkIgnis http://DarkIgnis.deviantart.com/journal/16110350/ http://DarkIgnis.deviantart.com/journal/16110350/ Wed, 26 Dec 2007 14:04:59 PST
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Wolfie

]]> ~DarkIgnis http://DarkIgnis.deviantart.com/journal/16015423/ http://DarkIgnis.deviantart.com/journal/16015423/ Thu, 20 Dec 2007 14:03:05 PST


1.smoked. *Yup but never again*
2.consumed alcohol. *yeah lots of times lmao*
3.slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex.*Every night thank you *
4.slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex. -nope-
5.kissed someone of the same sex.-nope-
6.had sex.*Yeah lol plenty*
7.had someone in your room other than family. *yup yup many times*
8.watched porn. *im watching some now!*
9.bought porn. *i have to get some more.. dose downloading count?*
10.done drugs.*Once with my uncle*
TOTAL: 8

1. taken painkillers. *yeah*
2. taken someone else's prescription medicine. *yup i really needed pain relief*
3. lied to your parents. *yeah....*
4. lied to a friend. *sadly yes for her own good*
5. snuck out of the house. *yeah to many times ^_^*
6. done something illegal. *(Coughbreakandentrycough) yes*
7. cut yourself. *ah huh....bad times in my life*
8. hurt someone. *tried to kill my best friend in a fit of rage*
9. wished someone to die. *hehe i do right now*
10. seen someone die.*Strangely yes i have*
TOTAL: 10

1. missed curfew. *yeah*
2. stayed out all night. *yupyup*
3. eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself.-nope-
4. been to a therapist. * yeah but it took him three days to lose it at me and join the army to get away... i wasent that bad REALLY*
5. been to rehab.-nope
6. dyed your hair. *lol yeah Blue*
7. received a ticket.-nope-
8. been in an accident.*yeah our car rolled ^_^*
9. been to a club.*yup lol*
10. been to a bar. *plenty*
TOTAL: 7

1. been to a wild party.*Dam straight*
2.been to a Mardi Gras parade.-NEVER!?!-
3.drank more than four beers in a night. *Try whiskey beers are for light weights!*
4.had a spring break in Florida.<.< no.....
5.sniffed anything. * (pixie stick) me too..... i was hooked on the PS!@!
5. wore black nail polish. *lol yes.....*
6. wore arm bands. *im wearing one now! {Linkin park}
7. wore t-shirts with band names. -nope-
8. listened to rap.*Sad isnt it....yes...*
9.owned a 50 Cent CD.*lol i stole it off my sister*
TOTAL: 7

1. dressed gothic. *always use to....but now...only on weekends*
2. dressed prep. ewwwwwwww no!!
3. dressed punk. -Shudders- no....
4. dressed grunge.lmao no....
5. stole something. *yeah plenty of things!*
6. been too drunk to remember anything. *that was last month....i think??*
7. blacked out. *same time as above lmao*
8. fainted.*OH YEAH! loss of blood*
9. had a crush on a neighbor. *hehe an unnatural one yes....*
TOTAL: 6

1. snuck into someone else's room. *yup yup*
2. had a crush on your friend. *>.> yeah still do too lol*
3. been to a concert. *yup yup*
4. dry-humped someone. ...* lmao yeah that was fun......till she called the cops!!!*
5. been called a slut. * actually yes!!! lmao..... fun times*
6. called someone a slut. * hell yeah..... Breanaka you fucking whore bag!!!!!*
7. installed speakers in your car.*my sisters*
8. broken a mirror. *lol it Smasheded gooood*
9. showered at someone of the opposites sex's house. *yeah lol*
10. brushed your teeth with someone elses toothbrush. *yeah lol*
TOTAL: 10

1. consider/considered Ludacris your favorite rapper.*sad time in my life!*
2. seen an R-rated movie in theater. *lol yes who hasent??*
3. cruised the mall. * every weekend! what!?! im a mall rat! shut up you stupid fat head! ^_^*
4. skipped school. *yeah.......*
5. had surgery. *yup yup.... had to reattach my heal to my foot.....DAM cuttle fish!*
6. had an injury. *yeah same as above plus my hand witch i cut with a coke bottle*
7. gone to court . *lol yeah.....*
8. walked out of a restaurant without paying/tipping.8yup yup the food sucked ass!!
9. caught something on fire. * burnt down my naburs shed lmao....
10. lied about your age. * yes...... im not really 200 years old..... lmao what a retard for believeing me!
TOTAL: 10

1. owned/rented an apartment.-nope-
2. broke the law in the police's presence* yeah and didnt get cought im GOOOOOD*
3. made out with someone who had a gf/bf.* lol yes..... so fun*
4. got in trouble with the police.* yeah my princable called the cops o... ]]> ~DarkIgnis http://DarkIgnis.deviantart.com/journal/15937488/ http://DarkIgnis.deviantart.com/journal/15937488/ Fri, 14 Dec 2007 21:52:03 PST I am sitting in the eye department of the Sydney hospital waiting for sue and her mum... and well I don’t know!
Ok I was on myspaz yesterday and I just have to say this really pissed me off!! I was sending everyone a nice Christmas picture I made and on a few of them there comment section is covered by shit! So you just can’t leave them a message!! O.o now why the fuck even have a profile if the only way to leave you a comment is for you do leave one first!!!! I really HATE MYSPAZ!!!! If not for my, oh so cute and smexy lil sis I would have deleted that shit a long time ago!
Hey I had my blood taken a while ago and forgot to share it with you all! ^_^ well I’m not contagious lol.... and no problems with most of me! BUT!.... I need to lose weight lol.... nothing unusual... I also have the blood pressure of a 50 year old...O.o... FUCK!! I am only fucking 24!?! I mean shit!!! I’m right fucking ready to pop! Being told this really scared the shit out of me! Now I was not going to even tell you this because some of you worry too much and you don’t need to know about this shit.... you gots enough to worry about..... YOU all are what keep's my heart going! With out you I would have gone over that...well...never mind... ^_^
Just know that I love you all!
You all know who you are!
Christina you have been my friend for so long and nothing will ever dull the love I hold not even hell itself!
Michael and Mary your friendships have been a goddess sent!
Zaheen my sweet lil sis you are an angel sent from heaven need I say more ^_^
Jason you are the best mate I could ask for!
Hurrem my old friend even though we have fallen apart you have never left my mind!
Cheryl you are a goddess you know? One smile from you and my worries melt....
Jeanie my dear sister you are a wonderful person and I am glad I have you in my life! Nothing on this world will change that!
Cherie^_^ you such an inspiration! I love the things you send me and your just so wonderful to know ^_^
Kajal you Vixen! You’re cute and so cool to know!!
So many people I count on and that hold me to this world! It would take me forever to thank you all!
But there is one out there that I wish I could have called my daughter! Ai-Chan your heart is so warm and your love is endless! You are the most wonderful girl I have ever had the honour of knowing!
Many people I have not mentioned but you all know I love you all with all my heart!
Now I don’t know why I feel the need to say al that I have I just feel like something is coming, and I don’t like it! I feel a great sadness coming, and it is getting closer, why am I feeling this!
I just don’t know, I want to cry... but I don’t know why? It is disturbing me so much!
I find myself thinking so much,
Just staring into space!
Like I am looking for something or someone?
Anyway... I am going to go now; I will talk to you soon!
Lots of love and huggies and of course some licks
Wolfie

]]> ~DarkIgnis http://DarkIgnis.deviantart.com/journal/15869987/ http://DarkIgnis.deviantart.com/journal/15869987/ Sun, 09 Dec 2007 22:05:05 PST

lol go here its funny as hell on a cold day!!!

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]]> ~DarkIgnis http://DarkIgnis.deviantart.com/journal/15759488/ http://DarkIgnis.deviantart.com/journal/15759488/ Sun, 02 Dec 2007 05:04:54 PST I don’t know what’s going on with me.... but what ever it is its not good! Meh..... I don’t really care! I have too much to think about! Lol I have to get my drivers licences lmao cuz I want to go for drives to the beach and sue don’t like the traffic witch is a normal thing for most drivers so says the statistics lmao....
I ACTUALLY spelt statistics correctly what a surprise lmao........ So as I was saying I have to get it so for the next few weeks or so while I’m looking for work and a course as well I have to study for my licence! Lol..... So this should all be fun! Oh I didn’t tell you...... silly me! Fuck!..... Ok I’m thinking about taking a busyness course! So I can get a better job if they think I’m good lmao...... fingers crossed!
You know the past is always with me! Things that I have done..... Terrible things.... yet also many good things... wonderful things I never tell people about.... my past is a shadow to most people.... I don’t need to tell =them don’t need to ether!.... none of there busyness ... ahh but indeed the past is a dangerous place for me to be! For those that actually know my past you would understand what this means! But everyone else well that’s just too bad something’s I just don’t like to talk about! Other things.... well what can I say I’m perverted lmao....... but then you should know this by now!?!
I’m listening to seether now! Lmao........ There cool! Well ok..... I’m listening to my gothic mix from my IPod lmao........ Still kick ass!......
I do miss a lot of you ya know!...... yet it’s like everyone is changing..... Time is not nice.... it always changes people makes them different! And also one thing I have learnt never fall in love with a friend that is not interested in you...... that really fucks up the friendship lmao...... I mean HOLY SHITBALLS!!!!! No comments on that one........ Ok I’m really tired!....... I’m barely able to stay awake!......... but fuck am I under pressure here!..... I HAVE to do this I HAVE to do that! I CAN’T do this I CAN’T do that........ It’s all I seem to hear lately!.... it’s so stupid its almost fucking laughable! Lmao........ I’m somehow lucky I guess that no one but me sees this blog these days ! lmao......
Well sept you smexy folks on DA ^_^ ya knows I lub yas ^_^
Ok I’m off! Lots to do and fuck all time to do it! Lmao

Wolfe~

]]> ~DarkIgnis http://DarkIgnis.deviantart.com/journal/15592779/ http://DarkIgnis.deviantart.com/journal/15592779/ Tue, 20 Nov 2007 15:58:59 PST This death has show me my own mortality!... something I have always known to be there but just hidden it from myself, you know I don’t know how I feel right now!..... I mean I’m good at not showing people how I feel!.... I can smile even though I’m dead inside!..... Yet to talk about how I truly feel seems to be so hard to do!... I mean there is so much I have to do today... yet inside I just want to crawl into bed and sleep ... have to find work to take care of bills have to go online to help people with there sites, have to write story’s and poems for people, have to try to understand what is inside me... so much to do and yet I just find myself wanting to do nothing.. I don’t even want to listen to music! And that’s something I love to do!.... its all so confusing, I read peoples blogs all the time, I see that they have so many problems, well so do I, problems that I never mention.... there are parts of me that even I find to be sick and twisted! Like my fascination with...Well... I can’t say it in a blog... that’s how bad it is, but I don’t let it out, I don’t go out and find this thing. I’m satisfied with just downloading this crap and watching it... funny how some people need to do what they think, they need to hurt others, I want to kill people, but I just turn on my X-box and kill lol.... there goes that urge! But I guess some people are just too weak to stop... some people just can’t help but grab a gun and kill, personally I think there trying to cope with the fact that they have no brains or honour! I was taught the hard way about honour you know, and it hurt to learn this I can tell you that! Being beat till you understand something makes it last for ever!
Regrets... everyone has them ay! But do we actually understand them? I don’t think so.. I have a few I will tell you about, but before I go on let me say this “no I don’t understand them in certain ways ether” lol.... now well my first regret is not staying in school, I missed out on a lot manly because I had to move a lot and doing this kinda fucks up how you study, but I do make do with what I have I am always learning new things via the internet!, hmmm well I regret not getting to know my cousin she was a nice one too, just never made the time to do this! All I can say is get to know your family! Understand them and try to be there for each other! Don’t lose site of what the word family means! Just like the saying (O'hana ) O’hana means family. Family means nobody gets left behind. I like this saying, it’s a good motto for family ay… one should not forget where they came from even if that place is full of horrors, we are what we are! We do not have to follow our fathers or mothers but we should never forget that we came from them, we are all different. We can change ourselves when we really want to.
My upbringing was not always the best, I was not with my mother all the time, and I never knew my father! Even when he wrote to me he did it just because he was told to, I will say I do wish him pain and death, but that’s just me.. Funny you know he is not on my birth certificate. No.. a friend of my mum’s signed it, I rather feel he was a better dad even though even he didn’t stay, OK so I guess in essence I don’t know what a father is! I mean all the ones I had left, I won’t do that though. No.. I will not abandon my child when I have one! I will stay there and show him/her what a father is supposed to be! ^_^, hard to think that even as I write all this I’m crying inside me… I want to scream, to cry out to do something to let all this crap out of me... but I can’t do a thing right now!
I must say though that I ….no… I was going to say my life is happy but that’s not true! Sure I have the most wonderful woman be love, and who truly loves me, I have wonderful friends, and a family that loves me, but there is always something missing, I just can’t put my figure on it right now! It’s like its there I just can’t reach... ]]> ~DarkIgnis http://DarkIgnis.deviantart.com/journal/15268076/ http://DarkIgnis.deviantart.com/journal/15268076/ Mon, 29 Oct 2007 05:28:21 PDT Well i have some news and well this is a short one co sim doing like 50 things at once here! Lmfao!!!...... well i just preposed to my girlfriend suzan and as i knew she would she said yes! So now i am engaged to my princess! ^_^ WOO HOO!!!!! Lol..... im excited as you all can guess! Lol thats one of the reasons i have not been around that much! Othere is that i have been out of it! My mind is just not in the net lmfao!!!!....... any way thats all i wanted to say! Lmao! So you all have a good day/night! And i’ll lick and hug you all later! ^_^ talk soon! WolfiePuP

]]> ~DarkIgnis http://DarkIgnis.deviantart.com/journal/15138870/ http://DarkIgnis.deviantart.com/journal/15138870/ Sat, 20 Oct 2007 05:35:13 PDT [link]
click this to see lol

lol im a youngblood of the Yautja race also known as predators ^_^
found this test while i was on the predator homeworld ^_^

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]]> ~DarkIgnis http://DarkIgnis.deviantart.com/journal/15091884/ http://DarkIgnis.deviantart.com/journal/15091884/ Tue, 16 Oct 2007 18:02:09 PDT O.o
The rules are:
1. Post these rules.
2. Each person tagged must post 8 random facts about themselves.
3. Tags should write a journal/blog of these facts.
4. At the end of the post, 8 or more persons are tagged and named.
5. Go to their page and leave them a comment telling them they're tagged.
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1. I secretly collect knives

2. I write things and fell sick after reading it ^_^

3. i lost my mind at age 9

4. I like the Freak people out

5. I to eat kangaroo

6. I mix gothic and pop cos i think it sounds better lmao

7. I want a tattoo of a Wolf puppy

8. I am attached to my i-pod!!!! HELP i can't get it off!!!!!!

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For tagging..

01) First name: Michael

02) Nickname on DA: DarkIgnis

03) Birthday: 11th of march

04) Horoscope sign: Pieces/Bore

05) Birth town: Adelaide, South Australia

06) Religion: I belive in the great dark one....

07) Nationality: mixed! im english irish

08) Parents: just one..... lol

09) Do you love them: ah huh

10) Brothers or sisters: two bro's! and one sis

11) Do you like the place where you live: Yeah i love it here! ^_^

12) Where would you move to live forever?: Muristous ^_^ my sexy kitty sister lives there! lmao ^_^ (Its a long story)

14) Height: 5'6"

15) Weight: lmao! i dont know! 110 i think???

16) What school/grade are you going to: Don't go to school anymore

17) What marks do you have: none! my headmaster hated me!

18) How many piercings do you have, and where are they?: I have one in my left ear

19) What do you want to be in your life: A shadow lord of all darkness!

20) Your life: well that in itself is a long and disturbing story.....

21) Personal Quote: Be your self... no one else will!

22) Lucky number: 6

23) What are you interested in: Writing, roleplaying (RPG), Reading, Playing computer games lol

24) Good side of your character: Wolfie he is nice and sweet to everyone

25) Bad side of it: Nathanial he is a demon who hates life and all whom live it....

26) Is your life happy: relatively yes....

27) Do you think that you are crazy: hmmmm well yes and proud of it!

28) What is the time: 9:40AM

29) What is the date: 17th of October

30) What’s the weather like: Sunny with a cold wind

31) Favourite day in a week: Saturday coz well dam i get to sleep the hole day lmao

32) Favourite Music: ROCK, and Japanese Classical

33) Singer: Johnny Cash, Elvis, James blunt,

34) Band: Blue oyster cult, Witches, The rolling stones, ACDC, Korn, Slipknot, Evanescence, many many more

35) Song: Through Glass-stone sour

36) Best concert you have been to: Elvis meets the Beatles lmao! i was forced to go to that!!!!

38) Manga/Anime: dragonball Z, choibits, Akira, Dark world,

39) Film: The last samurai, howls moving castle, Lady in the water, 12 monkeys, constantine, gingersnaps,

40) TV series: House, numbers, life, NCIS,

41) Theatre play: secret garden lmao

42) Film director: nope can't think of one.......oh!!! gorge lucos lol not spelt correctly

43) Do you want to be famous: noooooo its better to be hidden in the shadows! Muahahahahahahahahaha

44) Do you want to be an actor: NAHHHH not my thing

49) Colors: Blood red, Black, Purple....... lmao....

48) Flower: cherry blossom, Rose, lilly,

49) Food: Kangaroo, mmmmmm ......HAMBURGER!!!!! mmm chillies

50) Drink: MONSTER!?!

51) Sweet: Summer log lol

52) Fruit: green apples, rockmellon,

53) The worst food: Tomatoes

54) The worst Drink: suger free monster..... GAG level ten!!!!

56) The worst Band: Britney spears! i know not a band but sue me! lmao

57) The worst Actor: Kel Dolen

58) The worst Female Actor: not sure....

59) The worst Movie: Rein in darkness

60) The worst book: flowers in the attach

61) Do you drink alcohol: when i go out

62) Do you smoke: nope! its disgusting

63) Do you take some kind of drugs: nope

64) What do you adore to wear: my pentagram necklas

65) Do you think you're handsome: A bit.... only cos every one calls me cute!.... >.>

66) What languages do you speak: just English

67) Are you in love: yup yup... ]]> ~DarkIgnis http://DarkIgnis.deviantart.com/journal/14846353/ http://DarkIgnis.deviantart.com/journal/14846353/ Sat, 29 Sep 2007 19:46:40 PDT One thing! Being a Goth dose not mean that every other word you write is “life sucks man” come-on!!!!!! Get a life! Or at least an afterlife and just thin out the population for us! ..... Ok sure I’m no specialist but if parents want to teach there kids something how about the difference between emo and Goth! I have been called an emo for the last time! I swear if I hear that one more fucking time I’m going to stab someone in the eye with a fucking pen!!!!!
Sure I will talk to emo’s one of my best friends is emo! But even she don’t go on and on about how life sucks! SHE at least is cool..... Not like most of the retarded little fuckers on these websites!
Now I don’t know where this is all coming from but just felt like I needed to vent some shit out! Comment all you like I really could not be dammed about it! I don’t care what you write! Get pissy with me come on..... Come-on!!!!! Prove me right and piss and moan come on!?! FUCKERS!!!!!
Anyway! This VENT was brought to you today by the good Lycans of Clan Lupin
FUCKERS!!!!!.....
Alpha Wolfie

]]> ~DarkIgnis http://DarkIgnis.deviantart.com/journal/14776919/ http://DarkIgnis.deviantart.com/journal/14776919/ Mon, 24 Sep 2007 18:07:05 PDT Anyway lol...... Hey thanks for stopping by to read this! I just want to say regardless what you read here at this time I am happy! At least on the outside I am!

I have been thinking a lot recently about past friends namely one Roxy now there was a friend I never gave up hoping she would come back! Now however it’s just far too late! Something I learnt during this whole thing is KEEP YOUR SPOSE AWAY FROM YOUR FRIENDS!!!! I MEAN FRELL!!!!!
When I first got with my love sue me and Roxy where tight! We where great friends talk about anything and frell the consequences!!!! Well one day under a misguided attempt to show my friendship I introduced Roxy with Sue..... Well not to insult anyone but WW2 was nothing compared to what happened next! It went on for months!! Until finally one day! all because of a harmless little comment on my Yahoo360 page that I may add was one of those comments one sends to all there friends because they have too many to just send different ones lol.... well sue didn’t see the funny side in all this! Oh no..... she went homicidal over it! Now I’m not winning! Don’t get me wrong! I have never cheated and I will never do it! I run my life by strict rules and codes! But she didn't see it that way! She thought my long time friend had a thing for me! Now this, my friends was not true! Roxy was only interested in friendship she liked me sure but never any more then a friend! Not even a friend with benefits! lol..... but anyway! thanks frell you’re the only ones that will ever see this! I just need to get a lot of this shit off my cheats before I blow.... ok back to it! where was I.... just a sec.....?

ok so here I was captured in the middle of the biggest war! and now something I will let you in on! I get off on anarchy but not like this! it was killing me and no one understood what I was going through! and then to top it off sue said something to me that I can not repeat here! and followed it off with this! "mike its ether her or me"

well....this is something NO ONE EVER ASKS ME!?!
my past was a dark one ok.... I had suicidal tendencies and things like that! I never went through with it mind you! there was always a friend there to stop me! and Roxy was one of them!.... now as you can imagine having Roxy stop me and tell me that life was better then death just made our friendship stronger then life! at least it hats what I thought! turns out its not! friendship is a fleeting thing!
one day you are great friends then the next they hate you and wish you where dead!

now unlike most things I just could not take this! I was at the time highly unstable! so to off set this tragedy I tried to take my own life.... and frell me if I didn’t get close this time! but I was stopped by something else! something I just don't understand! .... oh... something I just have to tell you! I am not looking for sympathy or shit like that! I don't need this shit to get attention! on Fubar I have all the attention I need!.... so it’s all good! lol....

now it’s been a long time since the day I got the last message from Roxy and sometimes I will cry at night! when sue is asleep... she still hates her you know!..... it just dose not end!....
but well I have learnt to bottle up all my shit and just hide it.....

hey here’s something! the last thing I got from Roxy was a song called through glass by stone sour... you should look it up! it’s how I feel most times!......

anyway! that’s all I’m saying right now!... comment if you want! lol.... but thank you for reading my blog and may your day/night be a good one ^_^ talk soon! Wolfie

]]> ~DarkIgnis http://DarkIgnis.deviantart.com/journal/13171281/ http://DarkIgnis.deviantart.com/journal/13171281/ Fri, 01 Jun 2007 01:30:42 PDT I think who could be on this road but me and my kind? Yet she dose not look like my kind! She look's innocent.....But! As my mistress say's those who seen innocent are usually the ones that are tainted...... so decide to tread carefully on this dark road....
I was brought up to understand the difference between innocence and the taint yet never have I understood the need to know such things!
Anyway as I walk I see her looking at me with great interests..... This feel's strange to me! But every thing about this night is strange!!

I stop! I don’t feel right! I feel exposed here in this open stretch of road.... yet I must walk down here to reach my mistress!
So I disregard my fear and continue!

She also start's to walk towards me..... I smile to my self.... I know I am not allowed thoughts of flesh but her skin is soft and light......it is hard not to think of how it would feel to caress her skin......but I know I can not....I must do as my mistress bid’s me! Her punishments are painful still! So I contend simply with the thoughts of this girl and her soft skin....

We come to each other and stop face to face..... Oh but she is radiant and looks soo very pure!!! She notices me staring and smiles..... I smile back... say opens her beautiful mouth and speaks in a sweet voice "Hello dark child" I smile and reply "hello light child" we stare into each others eyes and drift for awhile content with just seeing what lies inside our soul's!

Then I remember that the mistress called me and I must go..... I suddenly look sad... she say's "why dark child do you follow your mistress like some kind of dog" I reply "I owe her my life, she is my mistress and I must do as she asks!" she smiles and say's "if you come with me now dark child, I fill free you from her!" I am suddenly confused....
I ask "why light child? What do you want in return?" she looks into my eyes and it feels as if she is reading my inner thoughts....... she finally speaks saying "in return of freeing you..... You will let my into your heart dark child. And together we shall share this world!" I can not answer.....I try but no words come.... she smiles and takes my hand....it is soo warm it feels so soft and good...... I allow her to take me..... For now she is my mistress and I will follow her until the world is ours and then......then we will be one! The light girl and the dark boy!

I am happy now...... following her...... listening to her...... feeling the closeness of our hearts........ We shall walk until the end of days but we will never be apart....... we are now one...... I am at peace!!!!!

]]> ~DarkIgnis http://DarkIgnis.deviantart.com/journal/12894493/ http://DarkIgnis.deviantart.com/journal/12894493/ Wed, 09 May 2007 00:20:20 PDT Wolfie here just want to let you know that I will be away for 5 days starting on the 11th, I’m writing this formally as I am not in the mood to write like you all know me for that I am sorry.
However I wont be on the internet for this whole time so I am sorry I have some things that I must do in this time and I do hope to talk to you all very soon! I love you all you know! You have been there for me all the time and I am happy and honoured to call you my friends! If I could I would hug each and every one of you, you have inspired me to be a better person and to be a good friend
To my family,
I wish to thank you for giving me the title of founder! And when I return I shall do all in my power to live up to the title of founder of Lestats Dark Covenant. And I will be back on the 15 which is 6 days from tomorrow so look for me on the dawn of the 6th day when the sun rises on the ridge! ^_^ I love you all and will miss you as you have all become a part of me and Emanon... I miss you ya know! One of the first to make me there friends and the only one I trust with my whole being if you get back before me and read this I missed you bro your the best friend I have had since I lost all my offline friends and I honour our friendship like you where my brother!
Well it’s getting to that time now and I must rest and pack, my travels will begin soon and I can not begin to tell you the thoughts that are going through my mind! I wish I had been smarter and given you all more time’s notice! Keep commenting and mailing me! When I get back I will answer as much as I can!
Again I will miss you all and I love every one of you! You are my family my lil sis I will miss you the most of all.... you have kept me from slipping many times in the past! And for that you have gained a brother who will never turn his back on you and I would willingly give my life for you! And you're sweet cuz! Little angel! I will miss our games! And our chats! But it is only for a few days! Then I shall return and be with you once again! Keep strong and smile! Such a beautiful smile you have never let that smile go! Your one smile could melt the heart M’dear.
I feel as though I want to say more! That I need to say something but it seems to stay out of reach of my mind and I can not grasp it, yet I feel as though something is about to happen, something big that will change everything .....Bad....good...I don’t know? But I am certain that it will be big!
Well my dear sweet friends and family! I wish I could just keep writing just keep going until I tell all of you just how you make me feel inside my core, but the words flee me now and my eyes are too clouded to see the key’s properly so now I shell go and I will talk to you soon! I feel as though I should say goodbye but it’s not goodbye..... Just.... talk soon my friends
Many, many warm hugs and sloppy licks from wolfie your brother, your friend, your mate! Catch ya later, PEACE!

]]> ~DarkIgnis http://DarkIgnis.deviantart.com/journal/12824630/ http://DarkIgnis.deviantart.com/journal/12824630/ Thu, 03 May 2007 06:19:45 PDT
Well I have it now!….. Just one keeping feeling starts from your heart….then moves to the rest of your chest! Wow this is not something I like to feel!… I am not shore what it is?

“what the hell are you staring at wolf??”

“nothing jack!!”

“well we don’t got all day to pull this off so wake up already! I don’t want to have to do this myself!” hehe… that is jack my sort of brother.. We met in foster care he killed out fuck of a foster father!

“yeah yeah! I’m getting there! Just need to finish the connections and you can play with it ok!” I’m 23 I was only 10 when I witnessed what the basted did to one of the girls! He deserved more but jack just snapped and slit his throat!….

“good! I cant wait to see how this little bute you wiped up works!” jack is 38 always been there to protect me even though he didn’t know me… he said I reminded him of his kid brother who got killed in a car crash…

I was always good with my hands and jack knew it! He trained me after we escaped the home with all the kids! And sat back and watched it burn! Hehe… can just hear the pitiful cry of our foster mother doped to her eyeballs on something… just burning…the smell is sickening….. But it is taking my sin’s away…. So I watch and breath deeply.

“ok jack it’s done!! It’s got a tenner till it blows!” I hand it to him!

“great wolf! This is gonna be a good one!” wolf… now that is a hell of a long story. But I’ll tell you while he get’s his shit together hehe…. Ok then when we we’re running from the cops we went bush! It was great jack knew how to live in it.. Say’s his dad was military so he was taught how to survive! Anyway I was gathering wood when I heard a yelp… I was about 11 at this point and still soft to life… I wen running to see what it was only to come face to face with a great timber wolf! I was scared at first but then I started to realise it was injured… foot was in a snare.. Well what do you think I did… I walked strait up to it and put my hand on it’s head and slowly walked to the back where the snare was, I knelt and removed the wire from it’s leg.. And it leapt away.. Stoped dead and turned around, looked dead into my eyes and slowly walks back to me! Now I’m scared this great wolf is going to kill me… it stops right in my face and just looks deeper into my eyes as if searching for something. It blinks and licks my face. Howls so loud and turns and disappears into the forest…. I just sit there for hours until jack walks up to me and say’s “well looks like you’re a wolf now little pup!” he had been standing there all the time!… he told me that the when “she” looked into my eyes like she did she saw the pain and fear of a lost pup.. So now all he ever calls me is wolf, I like it…

“ok wolf! I’m ready… this is gonna be it! We’re gonna send these son’s of dogs strait to hell!” I get up.. Stretch out my sore muscles and pick up my rifle.. *stole it from a hunting cabin* checked the mag..full as always and started the walk to the factory…

An hour into the walk and they spot us.. Knew they would but had hoped we would get closer! We keep silent now! Jack waves me to the right and I disappear into the scrubs… I reaper a mile ahead aim and*BANG* one light down!… the alarms start but with out the lights they cant shoot so I aim again *BANG* second light down! Now it’s just jack me and them! It’s like shotting fish in a barrel.. Hehe.. Forget where I heard that but it always makes me smile!…. I fix my night vision goggles and start forwards slowly I have to give jack time to get it all done… so I start to pick the bastards off one by one!… “take the top ones out first wolf!” jack always tells me… security and hired guards.. They are always trouble! So I start with them! One by one I take them down! It feels bad but I know they are evil! I am doing there work! My the gods protect me and steady my aim.

Jack is in place now. He sets the timer and runs… he placed it where I said! At the pumping junction…. Maximum damage that’s how we can shut them down!… when that pumping junction blows the whole place will as well!… *BANG* what was that!… not me!.. Oh my gods noooo! Jack! He’s down!…. They had men on the pump!… why didn’t I think of that… he’s not moving! And there getting closer to the pump!.. So this is that feeling.. That hollow feeling it’s getting worse!…. “Kill them wolf! Kill them all!” I hear the voice! It’s jack!…. They have him now!… the lead guard is standing there and saying something.. Jack just spits at him.. The guard lifts his gun up and blows jack away…. I want to scream! But I cant give away my position!…. I disappear into the scrubs again!…. Now wolf.. I tell myself as I make my way to the gate… no one is here there all back where jack’s lifeless body lies…… they will pay my brother!.. They will... ]]> ~DarkIgnis http://DarkIgnis.deviantart.com/journal/12823160/ http://DarkIgnis.deviantart.com/journal/12823160/ Thu, 03 May 2007 01:47:13 PDT
And I saw HIM with her!

The one that made the pain!

The one that forced the blood!

My heart fell to the floor!

When I fist met her I wanted her as mine!

But she had HIM and she was happy!

And she wanted friends!

So I hid my feelings and smiled!

I played the friend and help when I could!

I saw her smile and I forced myself to talk!

Tried not to say the words!

When I got home I got out my blade!

And I cut her name into my arm!

And even now I look upon it and wish I could!

Wish I could say it!

Wish she would see it!

See the pain I get in when I see her hurt!

See that hate I feel for HIM!

I know you don’t feel the same as me!

I know you don’t see me like I see you!

I know u only want a friend in me.

Even though my heart screams for you!

Ur heart has another name!

I will love you!

In secret I will love you!

Never to show the world what I feel for you!

Never to tell you how I feel!

Wish I had the strength to do it!

Wish I could look into your eyes!

So bright and loving!

Wish I could hold you close!

Just to hear your heart!

Wish I could kiss those lips!

And taste your sweet love!

Goodbye my secret love!

If only I had been strong enough to put in you name!

But if you look close!

You may see who you are!

Farewell sweet angel!

~The Wolf~

]]> ~DarkIgnis http://DarkIgnis.deviantart.com/journal/12775857/ http://DarkIgnis.deviantart.com/journal/12775857/ Sun, 29 Apr 2007 08:15:04 PDT Yet no matter how fast I run she never gets closer,
I cry tears of blood for my lost love!
My heart it burns with all the shadows of her life,
Yet in this darkness she has gifted me I weep,
Weep for her pain witch keeps me so far from her warmth,
From her tenderness and love.
I fear I am reaching the end of my time
And yet I am no closer to her,
She looks so radiant in the moon light!
Yet as I look upon her beauty I weep tears of blood.
I do not cry because she is so beautiful although I should!
I do not cry because I can not love her because I can!
I cry tears of blood because I can never have her for my own,
Never shear the love she has or the pain she bears,
Never hold her soft body or smell her sweet hair,
Never taste her sweetness or bed with her!
I stop running now and turn!
I do not give up!
But I do know when I can not win!
Alone I start to walk,
And I shall never stop walking until my love returns to me!
I am The Watcher and alone I walk this world!
Alone I watch the humans and the undead,
Alone I shall live forever! Never ageing, never dying!
Alone I still walk this world and alone I will be for my whole eternity!

]]> ~DarkIgnis