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~DarkZombie — Thu, 12 Nov 2009 19:23:52 PST

I'm back in the art game, drawing and banging my head against the wall trying to get more drawings out of it. I guess there's not much happening in my life. Had an unemployment-based set back and got stuck living at the parents' house for a while. Hoping it'll only be a month or two.

Argh! Death to the Infidels!

~DarkZombie — Tue, 08 Sep 2009 15:38:55 PDT

For those of you out there peeing in your pants over the recent Disney acquisition of Marvel... please, please, think before you rant. Please take into account the fact that Disney almost certainly only wants a cut of the many licesing fees recently raked in by comic book companies licensing out to Hollywood to make movies based on their comics. Please take into account the fact that Disney already owns several edgier, more adult subsidiaries and that they are no strangers to pg-13 and R rated content. People hear "Disney" and they suddenly think Mickey Mouse. It's only common for the unwashed masses to make that simple minded association (that any 5 year old would). PLEASE, I'm begging you! You are Deviants! Keep in mind that Disney also owns Miramax, Touchstone, and Dimension films! (For a list of Disney's assets, see [link]) Do you really think Disney wants to kill a cash cow by capping off Wolverine's claws with fuzzy, pink, bunny sheaths? Seriously, people. Damnit. I'm done.

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~DarkZombie — Thu, 15 Jan 2009 19:20:54 PST

Some may have already heard about the recent shark-parthogenesis event (A shark reproduced without male fertilization of their eggs). It isn't, by far, the first incidence of a sexually-reproducing species being found to be able to reproduce asexually through parthenogenesis.
Anyone who read my last rant, on the increase of UV radiation increasing the rate of mutation in many species, might see the problem here. This form of asexual reproduction means little to no genetic variation. It has been speculated that this ability to reproduce without a male allows a shark, and other species with this ability, to carry on it's genetic lineage in the midst of a lack of sexual counterparts... in other words, with no way to contribute new combinations of genes to increase the variety in the gene pool, the shark may "opt" (biologically speaking) to simply hold out (genetically) until a mate is available to merge genes with.
From the short list of species known to be able to perform such feats, it seems to me that this is available to species that haven't changed much in millions of years. This could have been an ability picked up to survive ice ages and other mass extinction events. Regaurdless, it proves that A) genetic variation isn't neccesarily the only factor in the survival of a species... sometimes it's a mechanism that works AGAINST genetic variation that can help a species survive... and B) That this very survival mechanism may hinder a species ability to change and evolve.
I won't even begin to speculate that this could have important applications for the human race. It's just a fascinating look into the inner workings of the genetic lineage of life itself on earth.
It seems so logical... so rational... so mechanical... that a species can put it's genes in queue to await processing. Each species seems almost like a different module in an overall program that is earth's genetic pool program. What species will be "printed out" as the final product?
On a completely stupid note, it brings to mind my old ponderings that all of life may exist as a precursor to god... each generation becoming more and more advanced til finally, the last organism is born who is god... in the throws of the universe's destruction... and left in the void of nothingness, he recreates the world anew, exhausting himself to death, but birthing a universe that will complete the cycle anew. It's just mind numbing entertainment to think such whimsical thoughts...

Delicious mutations

~DarkZombie — Fri, 31 Oct 2008 18:51:09 PDT

[link]

Oh joyous day! Genetic mutations are excelerating in amphibian species! Their evolution will increase biodiversity and usher in a new era for amphibians! Of coarse, the masochists and self-loathers in society will beat their chests and cry out that humanity is evil, and that we're killing amphibians. Let's just forget our science here. In times of increased genetic mutations, progress occurs within a species. Millions of evolutionary misteps do lead to a high mortality count... but revolutions are bloody, and the advances of tommorow are built upon the foundation of yesterday's dead bodies. Of coarse... we should be wary... lest the amphibians overtake the mammilian lords of the earth... >.>

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~DarkZombie — Fri, 19 Sep 2008 05:42:23 PDT

So I'm pretty sure they'll be selling "I survived hurricane Ike!" T-shirts soon... They already started throwing "Hurricane Ike After-Party"'s. Houston faired okay, minus the annoyances of the absence of modern conveniences (lo and behold, all of today's modern marvels operate on electricity! And many here have no power at all... some are running generators for neccesities, and there is one unconfirmed report of a hamster-driven power device though the source of this report is still under investigation). There's alot of foolish speculating about it being "one of the most devestating storms in this city's history", but the kitten like storm didn't even manage to wipe out my enemies, so I've deemed it a failure. *smokes a corn-cob pipe and looks of finto the distance all squinty-eyed* I stood in the brute lashing rain and endured the gale forced winds. Arrr... she was nary a fledgling.

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~DarkZombie — Wed, 27 Aug 2008 10:47:36 PDT

OMG, I JUST escaped from being held captive by mad aliens with rabies in their spaceship, and THAT's why I haven't updated my journal since... oh... February. >.>
Nothing much to report. Hopefully I'll have something to post someday soon.

Second verse: Light God

~DarkZombie — Tue, 12 Feb 2008 14:16:08 PST

I've been working alot of graveyard shifts lately, and there's not much to do but listen to the radio at some places my security company sends me. So I've been listening alot to this show on News Radio 740am (Coast to Coast AM with George Noory). That show can get really weird. Why? It's on early in the morning. Like... early, early. I think it's on between 12am and 2am. It's a very long show. The host entertains all sorts of strange paranormal and spiritual subject matters and has some pretty interesting guests (such as numerologists, and a guy who wrote a book entitled "How to build a robot army". And alot of brain dead lunatics are listening at that time of night (case in point... me. ) I guess they had so many crazy people calling in that they created special call-in lines... one night they had the "anti christ line" specially for people calling in who "thought they were the anti christ".
Last night's show was pretty interesting. They had a guy who thought that light was god. His theory was that light (the electromagnetic frequencies of radiation) were god because light is "omnipresent", and he also theorized that time does not exist for light the way "it does" for the rest of the universe (This is not a segue for my "time does not exist" ramblings, btw).
The problem with these types of characters is that they try to mix religion and science. Usually this is due to an inherent lack of understanding of both religion and science, which, though they are NOT mutually exclusive and polar opposites... they ARE probably not connected by any threads that humans have the capability of understanding.
I've said it many times. If you believe in god, it's because of faith. Any theory, no matter how much "evidence" there is to support it, can be countered. There's no way to PROVE god's existence with science. So you either have to have faith, or like me, not have it. Period. Every time I hear someone trying to "prove god's existence" it's like NAILS on a FREAKING CHALKBOARD!!!
With that being said, there were some interesting points. Background radiation (thought to be remenants of the big bang) is present throughout the known universe (supposedly... it is, at the very least, detected through out the known universe). People don't realize we're living in a "sea of light". Photons, the fundamental "particle" of light, exist all around us, in visible and invisible spectrums. In a sense, light DOES exist at all points in the universe. An interesting theory I've heard in science is that, as something approaches the speed of light, the laws of physics break down. At speed = infinity, the object would expand to fill all corners of the universe, existing at all coordinate points within the universe simultaneously. And of coarse, there is the ever annoying characteristic of light that enables it to exhibit properties of both particles, and waves. Particles are discrete, individual units, while a wave is energy expanding and radiating outward from a source in all directions. Light is the ultimate wave.
This could explain why light is so fast. With electricity, you have a wire of X length. And you have electricity moving at about an inch per minute. Why does it take only an instant for the light bulb to turn on when you flick the switch? A wire is made up of atoms packed into a thin "pipeline". As electrons enter one side of the wire, a whole line of atoms passes one of it's elctrons to the next atom. In essence, each atom advances one electron one space forward to the next atom. This is called elctric CURRENT, and it is the CURRENT itself that moves near neigh instantaneously, like stuffing a pipe to capacity with stuffed pikachus. If you stuff one more in, one pops out the other side. It almost gives the illusion the you transported a pikachu from point a to point b instantaneously.
What does this have to do with light? Well if light really is "omnipresent" through out the universe, it would mean that photons could transfer their kinetic energy, rather than travel THEMSELVES across distances, very very fast. If we, say, shoot a photon from a cannon, it would collide with another photon in the sea of light within which we exist... a whole string of photons would advance one space forward moving the beam insanely fast! Yet, the original photon would not be required to move very far at all! Further, a very strange twist in the physics of light indicates that light always approaches an object or observer at the same speed relative to that object... even if that object is moving. For instance... if I was running away from a predator at 5 miles per hour, and the predator was chasing me at 5 miles per hour, it wouldn't catch up with me because we're both moving at the same speed. However, no matter how fast you move away from a beam of light that is speed...

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~DarkZombie — Wed, 26 Dec 2007 17:18:41 PST

Merry "Not-really-jesus's-birthday-but-as-good-a-day-as-any-to-celebrate-it (or to celebrate in the spirit of anything or anyone you'd like to)", and a happy "new year-according-to-our-"romanized"-calander, or whichever calander you adhere to"!

Best Christmas Moment: My mom is handed a present that is shaped like a cylinder, from my dad. She opens it, and there before her sits something that invokes confusion. I look and there in her hands is an unwrapped canister of shoe-cleaner. She stares, unsure of what to say. "What is this?" she asks several times. And lo, there descended amongst us an awkward silence.

Worst Christmas Moment: Tossing two paintings away that were supposed to be gifts to the family and settling for a small, hand drawn card.

Worst Gift: A little plastic transformer. They just don't make em Like they used to. Big, and made out of Die Cast.

Best Christmas Gift: The new printer/scanner and tool set! Both equally awesome!

Worst Christmas TV Special endured: It's a Wonderful Life is only 2 hours long. I now understand and know the story well enough that it seems closer to 2 hours than 10 (when I don't know what's going on, it seems much longer). But it just doesn't engender the feeling of christmas.

nonsense

~DarkZombie — Sat, 01 Dec 2007 21:31:35 PST

Today is very real. It's here... it's now... it's almost as if it's fused with me. But tommorow, it will be a memory with a dream-like quality to it, and along with that, will come a level of uncertainty of weather today ever occured, that will grow with each passing day, as the memory fades. Eventually, since today was not very memorable, it will end up completely erased and I'll never get that day back. What if nothing that occured today had ANY residual echoing impact on me... what if nothing from this day enriched or changed me in any way? It will be like it never happened. It's as if my very existence was ommitted for that particular day by the universe. There are ALOT of days I don't remember... Probably 90% of my life is a series of unmemorable days. I'd like to believe that every single day matters... and that every moment effects who I am and who I become, as we are all a logical product of our experiences... the sum of our past. But maybe alot of it is superfluous waste. Days that are eventually flushed out of existence.

My self-made survey... one of the questions made me think alot. I dunno if I posted any thoughts on this already, but a freind and I once had some lengthy discussions on the soul/spirit. If we don't just rot in the ground when we die, one of the prevailing theories is that there is a spirit/soul that seperates from the physical body and continues existing. I couldn't previously wrap my brain around WHY it should be possible for the spirit/soul to carry the bodie's memories away with it, as memory is a function of the brain, a very corporeal organ. When you die, you don't get to take your flesh with you, so I figured if there was a spirit/soul that existed past death, it would probably not take actual memories with it... but I didn't see why it couldn't carry impressions and feelings with it... (heh... ironically... even though I now realize that emotions are a function of chemical and sensory receptors... serotonin and such... and you don't get to take that with you either... theoretically). But... duh... I'm so stupid. What point would there be to a faceless, characteristic-less phantom spirit? It wouldn't have any remenants of you, so you still would have ceased existing, and the spirit would be excess garbage really. Just a blank page. So if there is a spirit/soul that survives death, there's no point to it if it doesn't retain some memories. There wouldn't even be any point in pondering that possibility. It's the same as rotting in the ground. Although, there is something to be said for a spirit that only retains some sort of phantom impression... not the memories themselves... but perhaps a pattern of behavior... or a preference towards being a good person, or to malice... phantom impressions that, because of the close integration between the spirit/soul and body during life, have imprinted themselves on the spirit/soul. You may not remember you're name, birthday, and specifics. But you would retain some sort of "core being".

So bored survey I wish I hadnt made

~DarkZombie — Sat, 17 Nov 2007 22:34:59 PST

Hey, have you ever wanted to take surveys? Well now you CAN! In your very own home! It's as simple as copying this post, paste it to your own journal post, erase the manufacturer's answer-inserts. and then fill in your own answers! It's fun for the whole family! Even little billy. Maybe now he won't have to play with matches to have a good time.

*Some assembly required*

1) Room A contains one thousand monkeys, each pressing keys at random on their own typwriter with an indefinite supply of paper. Room B contains one thousand monkeys, each painting random swishes and marks on their own infinite supply of canvases. Do you think Room A could churn out Shakespeare by random luck faster than Room B could produce a Rembrandt (painting)? Or would room B finish their masterpeice by random luck before room A could produce Romeo and Juliet?

I say Room B's monkeys would be able to achieve their task more quickly. Monkeys have been known to finger paint, after all.

2)You've just died. Your spirit/soul is still hovering, immaterial, in the "here and now", invisible to anyone in the physical realm. An entity appears to you and tells you that you cannot remain. He gives you three choices....

a) Allow your spirit/soul to be reincarnated into a fetus that has not been issued a spirit/soul yet. You will loose all your old memories forever.

b) Join a sort of god-soul amalgamation... made up of the fused souls of all that came before, and chose this option. Your memories will be contained in the collective mind, but you will loose all sense of self and will not be an individual entity anymore.

c) Cling to your memories and individuality both... in a land of eternal suffering and pain where you will be tormented for eternity.

Which would you choose?

I'd choose C, but I'd probably regret it.

3) You find yourself sitting at a table with Yahweh, Allah, Buddha, and Zeus. Do you have any questions for them? If so, what would they be? If not... why not?
None of them have any earthly currency and have all ordered very pricey menu items. Will you pay their bills for them?
Which one of them would win in a fight to the death?

I'd ask them all what the one true path to heaven is. Then when they start arguing, I'll eat all their food, and skip out on the bill. When the inevitable fight to the death ensues, I'll place my bets on Buddah for the win!

4) You wake up naked on a deserted island with your leg amputated at the knee and no memory of how you got there, or how the lower half of your left leg (yes, they took lefty) ended up in a cooler of ice next to you. The island is desolate, with no animals or plants, and is flat.There's driftwood on shore, and there's a lighter by the cooler. You don't know how long you've been there, nakedly baking under the sun, but you are weak and starving. Will you gather up the driftwood, light er up, and cook your leg for nourishment?

First I'd exhaust all my options. Wade through the ocean trying to find kelp and sea weed to eat... possibly try to catch some fish (nearly impossible without some sort of tool like a spear or fishing rod). If all else failed, I'd so eat my own leg.

5) A viscious killer has been terrorizing the neighborhood at night, killing, maiming, and generally carrying about in a homicidal manner. You find yourself exhausted as if you haven't slept for days. You open your dresser drawer and find all of the tools described on the news as the weapons that the killer uses, and they are all covered with blood. There are journal accounts of the killing sprees in your handwritting and signed by you attesting to you being the killer. And you already have specks of blood on you even though you didn't touch any. Would you sooner think you were being framed, or that you commited the murders and somehow (perhaps through some form of psychiosis) don't remember? Would you a) proceed to destroy all the evidence and disavow all knowledge of this, b) Run away to another state/country because eventually they'll be onto you weather you did it or not, or c) report it all to the authorities since they can sort things out and get you into a mental rehabilitation center?

I'd probably suspect I was the killer, and that it wasn't any kind of setup. Then I'd destroy the evidence, then I'd run away to a country with a terrible police force so that if I kept killing in my psychotic night-trances, I wouldn't get caught.

6) Would you rather:

Go somewhere with interesting and beautiful people, or somewhere with interesting and beautiful landscapes?
landscapes. Inanimate things never let you down.

Drown to death or burn to death?
drown

Rid the world of spirituality, or rid...

Hand Washing

~DarkZombie — Fri, 02 Nov 2007 17:07:23 PDT

People don't really realize this about me, but I am very obsessive about hand hygeine. So I noticed that I am, the only one I have ever witnessed, who puts soap on FIRST, then lathers, THEN wets their hands and washes (and relather while washing). I can understand that people equate the lathering power of water + soap with cleansing power, but I've actually found with the tougher dirt, it's more efficient to rub the syrupy sludge of soap alone into the hands, then lather and rinse. The sludge adhere's like sticky tape to the dirt and grime and THEN the water washes it all away. (especially if you're working on cars... but that can actually require more than mere soap... something with grit in it like the orange hand cleaner at autozone stores) Anyways, weather it's more efficient, or weather I'm just dillusional, the point is that I don't know anyone else who washes their hands like that. Anyone? Anyone out there like me?!

Some sort of... survey... of sorts... or something

~DarkZombie — Mon, 29 Oct 2007 17:28:52 PDT

1. If you HAD to get a tattoo, where would you want it?:
B... but I already have one. If I got ANOTHER... It'd be a mural tatoo'd across my back! Huzzah! I'd desing my own demon-dragon. It'd be awesomeness

2. If you HAD to dye your hair a color what color would it be?
Forest Green.

3. If you HAD to get a piercing what would you get?
I wouldn't, but if a gun was to my head, and I didn't feel like dying that day, I'd just get one in the ear.

4. If you HAD to change your name, what new name would you choose?:
Enoch... or Baruch.

The "WOULD YOU?" section:

1. if you could go bungee jumping, would you?:
Heck Yeah! But I'd rather sky dive.

2. Would you move somewhere else, if you could?:
I'm not sure. I'd visit ANYWHERE ELSE in the world I could, but move permanently? America's pretty darn great, in spite of all it's flaws.

3. If you were given the chance to go to Paris, would you go?
I suppose. It wouldn't be my first choice, but if it was my only choice, I wouldn't mind too much. I wouldn't get too chummy with the locals though.

4. If you found 10 million dollars, and it was YOURS to spend, what would you buy?
I wouldn't buy anything. I'd leave it. I don't like the sound of spontaneous money.

The "LETS SAY" Questions:

1. Let's say you see a big ship sink...only 3 people have a chance to survive.
Is this the whole question, or did someone (I'm looking in amy's direction) accidentally erase some of it? Ah well... Am I one of the three people? Cause if not, then I'd be scrambling for my life. If I knew my life was secure, I guess I'd let the other two survive, since their survival is somehow apparent... no need to stop them from survivng. If my life would still be secure while saving people, I would try to help others.

2. Let's say you became President...what is the first thing you would do?
Put on a dirty hobo jacket, and give the "State of the Union" speech without pants on.

3. Lets say you had to eat a live tarantula for $1,000..would you?
Wait... is a tarantula poisonous? If not... I'd pour some chocolate syrup on that foo' and chuck him down the gullet! Huzzah!

4. Let's say you could star in any movie (made or in the works) what movie?
I'm a terrible actor, if my freind's amateure movies are any indication.

The "OTHER STUFF" section:

1. what makes your bedroom unique?:
That it's not just a bedroom, but also a living room, computer room, AND a gymn! Booyah!

3. Do you go to parties?
I wish.

4. What's your favorite season of the year?
Fall / Winter

5. Do you like cheese?:
And how!

6. What's bothering you now?
Money (I will be a whopping $80 short this payday for rent), getting a decent job so I can go to school... I'm worried that I'll hate the medical field, etc.

________________________________________ ____________
Reflection on 2007

1. Have you had your birthday yet?
I've had 26 birthdays. Next March I'll have my 27th.

2. Are you the same person as you were at the beginning of 2007?
Probably less hopeful for the future. Less happy to stay in the same place (in many ways)

3. Are you still in the same job?
Yes

4. Is your favorite color the same color?
I don't like this question... Every color has Some shade or variation I like just as much as others.

5. Have you got the same style/color hair?
Nope. My hair has lengthened a bit.

6. Have you bought a NEW car this year?
Heh. I wish. This car is a peice of crap. The Transmission keeps disengaging when I make right turns while the engine is still warming up.

7. Anything exciting happen this year?
Of coarse not.

8. Have you been involved with the police this year?
I just got back from Jury Duty... does that count?

9. Favorite all time drinking place for 2007?
Numbers. It's alls I got

10. Is your best friend still your best friend?
Probably not. I haven't talked to many people lately

11. Got any tattoos or piercings this year?
Nope

12. Had a haircut this year?
I trim my hair to get the layers even.

13. Been in a hospital this year?
Yep. My mom had her kidney transplant. Went to visit her.

14. Lost someone you care...

Survey! New and Improved!

~DarkZombie — Thu, 25 Oct 2007 12:44:21 PDT

1. You're in the hospital, who on your top 8 comes to visit you?
Lmao. I don't think anyone would. Maybe my family, but i wouldn't want them to.

2. If alcohol were banned, what would your reaction be?
I'd be upset. Even if I don't drink too much these days.

3. Your CD collection is repossessed. But you may keep one. Which CD would that be?
I guess I'd keep the hardcopy backup of my favorite metal songs. Just in case.

4. I'm a genie. Name your wish.
To free you from the shackles of being a genie.

5. Name one thing about the opposite sex that automatically turns you off?
Agressive Abrasiveness.

6. Name one thing about the opposite sex that automatically turns you on?
I'd have to say there's no particular magic bullet there. There are any number of aspects of a person that could become an automatic turn on.

7. Speaking of sex, what did you think about Brokeback Mountain?
Never heard of it. Never saw it. Not interested in doing so.

8. What are you obsessive about?
When I'm drawing, the proportions. They never come out right no matter how much I scrutinize. But i keep re evaluating and changing things and analyzing the results, then doing it all over again.

9. Leather face is in the kitchen... What do you do?
Get out my leather-belt making kit.

10. Do people under estimate you?
I think people both underestimate me, and overestimate me... depending on what we're talking about.

11. When you're in a bad mood, what will always put you in a better mood?
I suppose that depends. It's usually better for me to just brood til it goes away on it's own. I don't know that there should be a magic cure for a bad mood... I mean... they've gotta happen for a reason, right? Why not let them run their course.

12. Honestly, do you talk about myspace in real life?
Almost Never.

13. Have you met someone online in person?
Once

14. What do you hope to have accomplished by the end of the year?
A job, and to be back in school hopefully. To have gone to at least one anime convention. And to have gone anywhere that is NOT Houston, TX (USA).

15. Do you believe minimum wage should be raised?
It is going to be, in Texas, but it won't help. When minimum wage goes up, prices inflate across the boards to compensate. It's like cutting one end of a blanket off and sewing it to the other end to make it longer. It's gonna be the same length!!!

16. Do you have any really crazy relatives?
Probably. I don't know many of my relatives.

17. Pretend you're 15 deep in beers. Describe what you would be doing.
15 deep in beers? WTF? (I assume I've drank 15 beers?)
I'd just be sitting there staring. Maybe wobbling. If someone approached me, I'd either shun them if I wasn't that drunk yet, or joyfully welcome them if I'm too drunk.

18. Does everyone in your life know the real you?
No one really does. You could tell everyone everything about you and they still wouldn't know you. For one, they would only absorb the information THEY felt was important, and would miss key points. People have a tendency to accept that which fits their preconcieved views and notions, and ignore that which does not fit their reality. Secondly, if we can't understand ourselves, how can anyone else? Lastly, Some things about oneself just aren't communicable.

19. Last thing you said to a guy/ girl?
Thanks for ruling out hermaphrodites... that's helpful... So... the last thing you said to anyone? Geebus, who thinks up these questions anyways?!

20. What is the most ridiculous fear you have?
Rediculous? I don't think I have a rediculous fear. The main thing I fear is death. I guess there are other things I fear mildly.

21. When is the last time you ate peanut butter and jelly?
AND jelly? Wow I dunno. I've been eating alot of peanut butter lately. I inherited a large jar of it in a surplus charity acquisition from my parental unit.

22. When did you last have a home cooked meal?
This morning. I cooked it at my parent's home. Booyah! It was at a home... cooked...

23. Have you ever gotten naked at a party?
Have I?! well... no...

24. Name someone you miss:
Alot of people. None of whom miss me

25. Are you named after a grandparent?
Nooo... After a parent. Boo!

26. Who loves you?
Robots can...

Partial insanity

~DarkZombie — Fri, 05 Oct 2007 22:15:51 PDT

I dunno how common this is, but while i'm taking a quizz, I'll not only try to find the answers which best fit me, but I also analyze the quizz and questions to predict the types of answers that would tip the scale one way or the other. Often times I could easily manipulate my answers to get the scoring I want. I try my best to answer honestly despite this, but I've often wondered if my "knowing what answers will move my score in which direction" has any influence on which answers I choose. Ocassionally when I can't find an answer that applies to me, I will default to the answer I think will score me where I either want to, or predict I will, end up at. I think back on how many numerous questionaires have all landed in the middle... especially the ones that test weather you're more right-brained, or left brained... weather you're more mathmatically inclined, or creatively inclined... and I wonder... did I manipulate it wishing to be equally good in each arena? This is my main curse in life... overanalyzing my overanalysis of the way I analyze things... etc. The observer observing the way he observes himself observing his observation methods... It's an endless ring that can freeze my brain up the way a computer with a virus freezes up when it has to attend to too many memory-sopping applications all at once. Sometimes I wonder what my life would be like if I had never second guessed myself... never analyzed my analyses... if I just went with my gut. The process feels like when I was a kid, and I'd lazily lay down on the floor (which is SO comfortable... for posture, to stretch, to just do nothing) and I would vegetate for too long. Then I'd think to get up. And I would be too lazy. Then I'd think "what if I'm not too lazy? What if I CAN'T get up for some reason?" Then I'd wonder where the link was severed between the part of my brain asking me to get up, and my body which didn't do so. Sometimes I would draw out my resistance, keeping it just below the threshold where I'd actually get up, to the point that reality blurred and I'd maddeningly think I was paralyzed. eventually I would simply surpass the threshold and get up... but in those magical moments when I was precariously balancing my need to move, and my refusal to... I could analyze and reanalyze and wonder and theorize. Here's to my strange and insane mind.

Boomshaka-what?

~DarkZombie — Mon, 10 Sep 2007 19:59:22 PDT

Hey, Mr. Policeman... here's a bulletin for you: Get your asses out of donut shops and fast food resturaunts and start DOING YOUR JOBS! Fucking asswipes. Instead of fighting crime, taking on gangbangers and drug dealers, they are keeping the world "safe" from license plate holders and salty burgers. Yes. Salty burgers. I thought it was retarded when they started fining everyone who had license plate holders, weather they obstructed the plate number or not. And most don't. But now they arrest people who serve them burgers that are too salty?! [link] . OMG fucking get a life!!! What the hell kind of prick...? Was this guy trying to obtain a laugh at some minimum wage-workers expense, or is he really THAT f'd up in the head that he doesn't realize that a burger that's a bit too salty DOES NOT WARRANT arresting someone?! Fuck! Someone needs to beat that guy with a stick! He wasted tax payer dollars jailing this girl, he wasted taxpayer dollar on stupid lab tests, and he will clog our court system with her court date. Rawr! I am through.

One question Survey

~DarkZombie — Mon, 16 Jul 2007 09:26:44 PDT

If you went back in time and met a distant ancestor who was super hot, wanted you badly, and you felt a deep emotional connection to... would you A) "get with them" knowing that you could ALREADY be the inevitable end product, down the line of ancestory, of their union or B) not "get with them", because you could be the product of that ancestor's union with someone else, and changing the time line might destroy you?

Devious Journal Entry

~DarkZombie — Thu, 12 Jul 2007 20:38:51 PDT

Exerpt from a REAL LIFE actual conversation... I know... sad isn't it?

Me: So where exactly would the soul of a sandwich be? In the meat? The cheese? The mayonaise? And what of before it's birth? Is the soul located in any ONE part of the sandwich before hand, and simply inhabits the sandwich after it's creation by mere incorporation of that part.... or Is the soul of the sandwich created by the fusion of the ingredients? What if the soul is in peices... part of it in each sandwich part... and it doesn't become a complete sandwich soul til the parts are combined. What is it before hand? Is it seperate souls conjoined to form a new one... or several incomplete souls joined into a full one, once the sandwich is done? OR, does the soul of the sandwich exist somewhere out there... in some unworldy realm... waiting for the sandwiches creation before it can fuse with the body of the sandwich?

My freind: I think the soul would be in the bread.

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Fun thought: If Naruto occured in Merry Ole England, his catch phrase may have instead been " Entrust in it!"

Projects and fishes

~DarkZombie — Tue, 19 Jun 2007 15:44:42 PDT

You may be wondering where I been. " A surge of art... then nothing?!" You might ask yourself. But much more likely, you're thanking the gods that I haven't posted Well... sorry to dissapoint, but soon there will be posting.

EDIT: I said previously I have no internet at the moment... well that JUST changed! huzzah! I'm back in business!

This is just Effing retarded

~DarkZombie — Wed, 02 May 2007 14:12:22 PDT

Wanna know why your gas prices at the pump are so gee darned high? Why not ask Chevron (oneof the biggest oil companies in America)? Cause' they will give you a siniterly correct answer. I was reading the Houston Chronicle yesterday, on on one page of the business pages There was a Q and A with one of Chevron's "higher ups". He says that they have been trying for years to convince the public that gas prices are dictated almost completely by crude oil prices. Interesting that he would choose to say it that way... sure they've been trying to convince us... that doesn't mean it's true... for on the very next page, and I QUOTE, "...gas prices soared today as oil prices dropped...". WAIT... WTF?! I turn to one page... "...gas prices are dictated almost completely by crude oil prices...", then I flip to the VERY NEXT PAGE "...gas prices soared today as oil prices dropped...". It then goes on to describe the different crude oils andhow each one varied in price... the point is there are too many contradictions. Everytime I turn around, the oil companies are saying gas prices are high cause of crude oil prices, but then crude oil prices are down at that VERY TIME. And the most hilarious thing is that no one seems to notice. Though I suppose not many people read the business pages. It's crazy... in one of the most capitalistic societies in the world, one of the biggest commodities (gas) on the market has a price that is not dictated by consumer demand, supply, and cost of production. It's only dictated by how fat the oil companies want their wallets to be this quarter. And just for those who are actually paying attention... in articles that actually cite that gas prices went up (despite the obvious falls in crude oil price) they add a short note that prices inflated because of refinery trouble. Sometimes, they even have the gall to continue blaming Katrina, which was their pocketbook's salvation when that disaster occured. They had a plausible scapegoat. The only problem is, if that's consistently what's driving up gas prices, then why are they reporting that it's the price of crude oil rather than refinery problems? Maybe because it's big news that oil refineries haven't invested in new refineries (at least here in Houston) since the 70's. It's easier to bank off the profits than invest in new technology that might keep refineries safe, and working properly. And knowing that, there'd be public outrage that they are passing on the price of their mistakes to the consumer. When asked why they don't build new refineries, their responses have always varied. Today's new one, try not to laugh, is that with Bush's declaration of the goal to have america using at least 10% ethanol to 90% gasoline by... well I forget when... that if they invest in refineries, and ethanol makes it big, then they wasted their money putting it into a greater oil production capacity. Good god... how lame can they get?

Devious Journal Entry

~DarkZombie — Sat, 28 Apr 2007 21:20:23 PDT

If you're wondering why I'm all of a sudden posting journals again, it's to try and poke the slumbering beast in my head out of it's repressed lethargy and try and get the gears in my head turning so that maybe... just maybe... I can do something creative again. Bah... I just don't know if I have it in me anymore.
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I kinda fell bad now. At work the girls posted a little email letter I suppose is going around now riding the popularity of the Virginia Tech killer incident. The letter takes the form of a letter from a student, adressed to god, asking why he would allow such incidences to occur and proceeds to list many of the incidences, and includes the Virginia Tech one. Then, a mock reply from god comes next saying "I'm not allowed in schools anymore." So... being the nice and humble person I am, I tacked on a letter from student #2 (me) on a sticky post it (in case it offends anyone, they can remove it without tearing the paper) asking "So, in all of your infinite wisdom and infinite power, your one weakness... the one thing you cannot over rule even to save the lives of children... is school board policy? If I'd known that ahead of time, I'd converted to Buddhism long ago. Sincerely, Student #2". I think I might be getting harsher in my old age. Eventually I'll be the old man sitting on his porch turning his garden hose on teh neighborhood kids to get them off my lawn. My only defense is that, If they are gonna post religious opinions at work, I should be able to post my religious opinions as well. It wasn't really intended to be anti-religious though... it was more a jab at the person who wrote it and their eternal ignorance. Religion doesn't solve problems. God never said he'd save people's mortal lives... if he does exist, he seems to be more interested in people's souls. Shoot, look what the jewish god did to Job! He killed his family, made him go broke, and inflicted him with illness! And Job was supposedly the most righteous man of his time! The christian god Allowed Peter to be crucified... I think it was Peter (crucified on an upside down cross out of respect to Jesus's right-side-up crucifixion). And he was a devout follower of christ! Allah promotes martyrism! And... well... those are the three religions I'm most familiar with and I'm too tired to think in depth of others. It just pisses me off that people cling to religion to make their lives happy and lengthy, believing like dumb sheep that they have gained some form of tangible gain in teh here and now. Does nobody understand that religion IS SPIRITUAL!? The spirit! It is concerned with the soul and spirit! NOT THE BODY! I doubt god gives a crap if a few hundred pounds of flesh fall lifeless to the floor. He only cares if the freed spirit will rise to join him, or fall into the pits of a darker realm. All the bad things that happen to man during his lifetime can either be attributed to chance, or their own damned faults. I wouldn't trust god with my mortal life. If he even exists.

Human Ignorance

~DarkZombie — Thu, 19 Apr 2007 15:22:32 PDT

I'm glad that student (that all of America is abuzz about... for those who are living under a rock... or perhaps another country... he killed a bunch of students, then offed himself, at school) shot himself. It might sound heartless that I'm glad another human being committed suicide, but I can't help but love the fact that he was kind enough to remove his defective genetic makeup from the human gene pool before he had a chance to procreate and contaminate the gene pool with his filthy aberations. If he was stupid enough to kill himself, then he didn't deserve to live in the first place. The only beneficial members of our species are the one's with their self-preservation instinct still intact. And in a way, I sort of wonder if this wasn't natures way of cleansing itself of a defective organism.
What I do hate is that he killed others before he killed himself. The aberation was purged, but at what price? And I know... it could be argued that those he killed were apparently not physiologically evolved enough to have the survival skills to escape a crazed gunman... and perhaps they, lacking those survival skills, have now been cleansed from the genome too. The only thing is, mankind's greatest survival mechanism is it's brain... not it's physiological abilities. Even if those students lacked the speed of a cheetah to outrun the shooters ability to aim and fire, even if they couldn't disjoint their bones and squeeze inbetween some lockers and hide til it was over... their BRAIN was the important assets that could have contributed to the survival of the species. And now that is lost.
Mankind has advanced no further than the ape-like beings that threw rocks at each other so long ago. We have this big grand organ made of nuerons and glial cells (the brain) and what do we do with it? We point guns at each other, and worst of all, at ourselves. It's as if all our advances are superficial... as if our brains keep getting bigger and bigger... but we don't use any more of it than two men in an alley punching each other drunkenly til they both fall over.
And we worry about preserving the environment and endangered species... pffft. The animals shall inherit the earth after we're done cracking each other's skulls open. They'll dominate on our ashes and piss on our corpses. Why? Cause mankind is the only species stupid enough to care more about another species survival than it's own. The animal kingdom mocks us and I feel sad to be on this side of the fence. Any other animal would dominate, trampling any other species til extinction, using all the resources available til they are exhausted and poisoning the atmosphere indescriminately (it has happened many times in earth's past) and not shed a single tear, if left unchecked. But we stop. We ponder. And standing still frozen in fear, are pummeled by a world that doesn't give a crap. Meanwhile, we extinguish ourselves in stupid wars, and in schools for chrissake... beating our chests, as if feirce beasts, fierce beasts with a 45 glock, at a society we feel has betrayed us... then we die like the idiots we are.
And we worry that nuclear weapons will destroy us all. We'll die at each other's throats before the big red button is ever pushed.
And we worry that fast food is killing us... but Cholesterol can't kill you as fast as someone pulling a trigger.
And we worry that videogames are corrupting our kids minds. WHO THE HELL MADE THE VIDEO GAME OR TV SHOW your attributing the violence to anyways?! It was an adult, who more than likely is a parent themself. And by the way, the kid has to be IMPRESSIONABLE if something violent is going to encourage him to be violent. WHERE OH WHERE could a kid get a solid foundation that would allow him to distinguish reality from fiction so that when he inevitably does buy that explosion-and-gun-filled game, he won't be tempted to emulate it? Apparently no one in this country has accountability anymore. Parents are blaming video games and TV for raising their children wrong?! FUCKING RAISE YOUR GODDAMN CHILD YOURSELF!!! For the love of anything you hold dear and holy, raise your god damned child yourself!!! Words and pictures in comics, and on the screen can't make you pick a gun up, point, aim, and shoot it. But I guarantee you a lack of parenting can. A lack of instruction can. Ignorance at the hands of ignorant forebearers... the first impressions made on a child... can. The human race disappoints me more and more everyday.
Eventually they'll lock me up in a padded room. I'm truthful... to the point of being heartless. But at least it's the truth, no matter how ugly or sinister it might seem.
Still... I'm glad to be alive and not dead. I'll stomach the world if it means I have a chance to find some sliver of happiness somewhere.

ergh

~DarkZombie — Thu, 22 Mar 2007 09:10:30 PDT

Humanity does not quite grasp that it is NOT the last segment of it's own evolution. We are still developing, and are not the prim and proper, conservative, ladies and gentlemen we'd like to believe ourselves to be. Our brain has just begun folding itself at certain key points and has yet to fully develope specialized compartamentalized sub-organs to organize and calculate in a more logical manner than perhaps even computers will ever be capable of. We have yet to do away with the appendix, a completely useless organ that a fully evolved species would have "evolved away" out of existence by now. Our bodies still dispense waves of chemicals through generic channels (such as the bloodstream) to send signals, invoke flight or fight responses, and sense certain pains... even though evolution should have finished deleting that most inefficient system of sensory/response long ago in favor of the simple and more efficient circuitry of the nervous system... which would have already occured in a more evolved species.
As it stands, we are still dictated by instincts. We still allow emotions to control our actions. We're still crawling out of the mud and thrashing around at the world around us to protect ourselves, so vulnerable. The animal in us is still there. And I wouldn't want it any other way.

Survey

~DarkZombie — Mon, 19 Feb 2007 09:51:44 PST

Quick update: Haven't drawn much lately. Maybe if I get all my learning done soon, I'll have time to draw a bit. I'm going to school now, but it's just to become a Medical Assistant, nothing big. Maybe after that, I might go to college. Who knows. Anyways, Here's a survey. Booyah.

1. What's bothering you right now?
The impending ship coming in soon to dock at work. I've never been there when a ship was at dock before, and there will probably be much more stuff going on. People and vendors wanting to come onto the property to sell the sailors stuff, sailors wanting to leave the property that must be documented, more security hazards if sed sailors come back drunk... etc.

2. Where do you live?
S.E. Houston, in a deluxe apartment (snickers)

3. Wallet:
Very thin black lether business card holder. I can slip a few bills, a couple of cards, and a liscense in there. It's all I need, as far as wallets go.

4. Background on your cell phone: >.> Some random deviantart anime woman in a bathing suit.

5. Jewelry worn daily?
None.

6. Pillowcase:
Black

7. Love life:
Non existant

8. Sport:
Marathon X-Files watching.

9. CD in stereo:
No stereo, I don't really use CD's anymore.

10. Piercing:
None. And probably will stay that way forever more.

11. Wearing:
Gray hooded sweater and black jeans.

12: Wanting:
To have a better job, to be finished with school already so I can pay off my loans and start college maybe.

RANDOM...

13. Listening to:
The Price is Right in the other room. God I hate that show, but someone's watching it.

14. Something you are afraid of:
Being alone, dying, the usual.

15. Do you believe in love?:
I guess.

16. Do you believe in love at first sight?:
I don't know.

17. Do you sleep naked?:
Ewww. No.

18. Do you like seafood?:
Depends on the food and the way it's been prepared I suppose.

19. Do you remember your dreams?:
Last night was shocking. I was at the parent's house, and for once, the impression was I was visiting and not still living there. My sister was putting a feeblish looking cat in the washer/dryer room. I told her to get that cat out of there. She said she was putting it in there because it was hurt, with multiple lacerations to the trachea. When she brought it close, I could see it had sutures running diagonally across it's body, only the sutures were made of zippers. When I asked what happened, she said someone had dug 6 inch steel nails into it. I became so pissed that someone would do something like that, and then I had more dreaming which I can't really remember well.

20. Do you consider yourself a study freak?:
I seem to be now. I used to wait til the last minute, and then I'd study in small peices as I can't study long without a break, then before long I'd realize I was out oftime and I'd only gone through 25% of the material, and I'd give up. But now... I'm almost done with this chapter's studying and I still have three more days til test day!

21. Do you like tattoos?:
Meh. I'm ok with people who get them for a reason. But I hate it when people cover themselves in tatoos "just because they can". It's gay-tarded.

22. Do you burn easily in the sun?
I used to. I dunno if I do anymore.

23. Do you speak another language?
Nope.

24. What's something you wish you could understand better?
The human body, the inner workings of the universe, why people are so damned dependent on theircell phones these days...

25. Are you shy around a crush?
Yeah.

26. Are you doing anything this weekend?:
Working. My weekend is Thursday and Friday. I'll probably be studying those days, and doing computer stuff.

27. Favorite number?
Infinity, Negative infinity, Zero, Pi, etc.

28. When was the last time you ate a homegrown tomato?
Years ago. Tomatoes are good with a lil salt on em.

29. Have you ever won a trophy?
in little league baseball. Bleh, I hated that crap.

30. Are you a good cook?
I can be, when I try. I rarely do these days. No time.

31. Do the Chinese really use cats in their food?
They do. I've seen documentaries. Alot of it is mostly probably in the poorer regions though, but that's not to say the chinese would give any special thought to eating a cat or dog. An animal is an animal.

32. Sprite or 7-Up?
Sprite Zero!

33. Have you ever had to wear a uniform to school?
Yes. Twas craptastic. Khakis and a blue polo shirt? Geez. I hated it.

34. Last thing you ate today?
Ra...

Devious Journal Entry

~DarkZombie — Tue, 13 Feb 2007 09:39:05 PST

Dec of 06 was my last journal post. I'm sure my last picture post was much longer ago. I fail everything. If only there was a swanky new survey to post...

It's just that easy! (instant bake answers kill di

~DarkZombie — Thu, 07 Dec 2006 09:44:38 PST

It's an easy-bake instant world out there. Don't have an answer? Make up something that fits! It's just that easy. Just because the theory fits the facts doesn't mean it's THE ANSWER. I can think up any number of scientifically sound reasons for why fireflies glow... many ways that would fit the facts. But there's only one true answer. I've complained about this for ages with M Theory (Superstring theory), and now some dumb f' mathmetician has proven the ignorance of today's style of "discovery" (just think up something that fits) by "finding a way to divide by zero". How did he do it? he didn't find some fundamental theory or equation... he didn't point out a different way of dividing. He decided there was a magical number that no one knew about before that sits outside of the number system. Seriously... anyone can solve any equation by making up magical numbers that aren't part of the actual number system. You have NO IDEA how pissed this makes me. I am seconds away from erupting into a giant ball of flames. Here's the link... view the retardedness! view it! Thanks to ~OreBaka for the link.

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Devious Journal Entry

~DarkZombie — Mon, 27 Nov 2006 13:44:11 PST

TRUTH OR DARE So here's the deal...You get to ask me *TEN QUESTIONS*, no matter how crazy, inappropriate, or just random, and I promise to answer it 100% truthfully (thats the "truth" part) ....now I dare you to repost this and see what people ask you...

surveeeey

~DarkZombie — Wed, 22 Nov 2006 08:31:47 PST

*accepted graciously, found by Amy*

1) How old do you wish you were?
Answer: I wish I was in 7th grade again. Those were some FUN times. I dunno how old that was

2) Where were you when 9/11 happened?
Answer: o.O where was i when a date occured? i went many places that day. If you're reffering to the exact moment planes crashed into the towers, i dunno what exact time that was. when i first HEARD about it, i was in english class at houston community college. they sent us home. i was annoyed.

3) What do you do when vending machines steal your money?
Answer: Try more money. it's obviously kinda low on cash, and just needs a few extra bucks to get by.

4) Do you consider yourself kind?
Answer: Not a chance. i dont give money to the homeless. i dont open doors for anyone unless i know them. i try my best to avoid people so i dont have to actually talk to them or associate with them in any way, shape, form, or fashion.

5) If you HAD to get a tattoo, where would it be?
Answer: Already have on on muh finger. only place i want one.

6) If you could be fluent in any other language, what would it be?
Answer: sumerian first. then after that, hebrew, and then japanese.

7) Do you know your neighbours?
Answer: dont have any really. i'm alone on an island above the main office of the apartment complex. LOUD MUSIC WONT DISTURB ANYONE!

8) What do you consider a holiday?
Answer: any day the calender says is a holiday. i'd love to celebrate them all in some way.

9) Do you follow your horoscope?
Answer: follow? no. read? ever so often. just to prove it wrong.

10) Would you move for the person you loved?
Answer: Definitely.

11) Are you touchy feely?
Answer: o.O i dunno. i'd need someone to touch and / or feel around to find out.

12) Do you believe that opposites attract?
Answer: aye. positive and negative particles do attract. as do Northern and Southern magnetic poles.

13) Dream job?
Answer: no such thing! i am bound to be a job nomad. changing jobs is the only way to stay sane.

14) Favorite channel(S)?
Answer: Ewww... TV

15) Favorite place to go on weekends?
Answer: home. but usually i have no weekend.

16) Showers or Baths?
Answer: Showers. marinating in a tub of water that seeps into ALL parts of you, and thus, begins becoming a soup of orifice matter... bleh. no way.

17) Do you paint your nails?
Answer: of coarse not. i'm a boy.

18) Do you trust people easily?
Answer: i trust no one. i hate everyone i dont know. i hate some of the people i know.

19) What are your phobias?
Answer: i... uh... death? that's pretty much it.

20) Do you want kids?
Answer: HELLS NOOOES! but i'll tolerate one or two

21) Do you keep a handwritten journal?
Answer: no. i tried when i was young, but my mom snooped through our stuff occasionally. it never worked out.

22) Where would you rather be right now?
Answer: asleep.

23) Heavy or light sleeper?
Answer: Depends. it varies these days. sometimes a pin dropping a mile away will wake me, others i'll wake up and there are ten messages on my very loud ringing phone... all telemarketing calls of coarse.

24) Are you paranoid?
Answer: why are you asking?! what alterior motive do you have!??!

25) Are you impatient?
Answer: i mean... depends on what we're talking about. but mostly i'm patient enough.

26) Who can you relate to?
Answer: No one. gamers and geeks have become the new hip group. i'm not a gamer. i'm too stupid to be a geek. i'm not popular and i'm not good looking or rich. i dont really fit in with any group. i'm in that small handful of people that are so awkward we dont have a group, and dont even make a group unto ourselves.

27) How do you feel about interracial couples?
Answer: o.O how should i feel? should i even feel anything about it? love is love. it crosses all boundaries.

28) Have you been burned by love?
Answer: burned? no.

29) What's you...

Einstein was a 'tard

~DarkZombie — Tue, 17 Oct 2006 18:09:17 PDT

I've gone over it in my head all day and it just makes no sense.

According to einstein, things in motion experience accelerated time. Things at rest experience time slower.

To illustrate, think of a person on a moving train bouncing a ball. The ball bounces up and down and up again. This all seems perfectly normal to the person bouncing the ball. The train, the person, and the ball are moving along the tracks at the same speed. It's the same to the person weather the train is sitting still at the station, or moving at 45 miles per hour.

Now enter the "outside observer". To a person not on the moving train, and sitting still relative to the train (we'll assume the ground the observer is on sits still, even though we know the earth itself moves too) the ball isn't just bouncing up and down. it's also accelerating along the tracks with the train. So instead of simply bouncing up and down, it's also moving forward along the tracks. Seen from a side view it's trajectory is at an angle as it must drop to where the train compartments floor will be at that time, then accelerate back up to where the person's hand will be when it's done. None sits still. So to the "outside observer", the ball covers a larger distance in the same amount of time as the experimenter on the train views it going a shorter distance. The person on the train sees only up and down movement in x amount of time (we'll say x = 2 seconds) while the "outside observer" sees teh ball bounce further in x amount of seconds. since the second observer sees the ball bouncing further in less time, it's as if the observer is watching accelerated motion, while the observer him/herself is moving slower relative to the experiment.

Right? wrong. There's no such thing as an outside observer, and heisenberg's principle sees to that. Heisenberg's principle states that you cannot know both the velocity AND the position of an object simultaneously. The best way to explain that is to simply apply it to this experiment.

This "outside observer" decides he is going to observe the velocity of the train. Great. He sits there with his eyes sitting still while the train passes him by. Grande. He is getting quite the show. The train is whizzing by relative to his still eyes and perception. But... whoops... now this observer can't keep an eye on the experiment. So he adjusts his eyesight. Now his eyes are following the train car and... i guess he has xray vision, or the car has a really big window. He follows the experiment as the person on board drops the ball, and it bounces back up. Great. It's as if the person isn't moving. Like when a film maker follows a moving object and the object seems still, and everything else whizzes by the object. And thus we come to the catch-22. If this so called "outside observer" decides to turn his perception to the experiment, he neglects the speed of the train. His eyesight and perception move with the train so it's as if he's moving with the train and experiment at the same speed and voila! no more "outside observer". For the person to be an "outside observer" he must percieve his own motionlessness relative to the train so that he can see the full distance the ball moves. So he adjusts his eyesight once more to be still while the train whizes by. Doh! Now he perceives the train is moving, but again he's lost his perception of the experiment.

Kids, there is no such thing as an outside observer. The theoretical experiment falls apart. Within science, there is a need for a standard. This is why, einstein, we have standards of measurement. Observations are relative. Duh, i thought that was the whole point of relativity. You cant look at a full system (the moving train, the ball, and the experimenter) then decide you'll just take one part of the equation out (the moving train), take the two readings and compare them. That's like cutting an orange in half and saying it's so much smaller now than the original... it must have dillated and shrunk. Nooo... you just left part of it out. I hate einstein. Long live Heisenburg!!!!

Survey

~DarkZombie — Fri, 15 Sep 2006 06:28:15 PDT

1) What is your deviant-name and what does it mean?
It doesn't really mean anything. i suppose it originates from a character i used to ponder who was a "zombie", loosely speaking.

2) Why did you join this site?
I was directed by a freind.

3) What fandom were you obsessed with when you joined?
I wasn't. I don't really obsess

4) Were any of the fandoms you have currently brought about by this site?
No.

5) Look into your stats. What is your:

- most Favorited Deviation: Hinata pic. I can't for the life of me figure out quite WHY it's so popular that so long after i posted it, it still draws so many comments

- most Viewed Deviation: Hinata with 3137 views

- most Commented Deviation: 58... geez, i thought it'd be more

6) How many watchers do you have at this moment?
45

7) First ever watcher?
~Phoenixelement

8) How many pageviews do you have at this moment?
5814 (did it ever occur to the maker of this survey that all that info can be accessed on the same site that one's dev journal is on?)

9) What is your artist's title shown beneath your "status"?
Lurker. I lurk. it's what i do.

10) What is your most "meaningful" work?
Meaningful? jeebus... it's just art.

11) Best COMPLETED piece you ever did?
Nothing in my gallery stands out at me

12) Work that took the longest?
Dunno. could be the pirate girl leaning against the mast that i had to redo a bazillion times.

13) DA artist who has influenced you the most?
I dunno that anyone has changed the coarse of my art. dense people like me are hard to teach through example

14) What is currently the funnest thing to draw?
I dunno. I'm not currently drawing.

Easiest thing to draw?
a dot of coarse.

15) Your first ever giftart was to:
i dunno. i've taken alot of art down the last few years.

First ever giftart received was from:
dunno.

16) How many clubs are you in?
Zero

17) How long have you been here?
Oct 29, 2003

18) Are you on any other art sites?
i doubt it. if i am, i dont remember the username and password.

19) Can you remember the old DA layout?
nope. i forgot it in like 5 minutes.

20) Are you still as passionate about art/poetry/prose as when you joined this site?
nope. but after this survey, i miss it.

end survey.

Devious Journal Entry

~DarkZombie — Mon, 04 Sep 2006 21:15:16 PDT

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What crime would you most likely commit?

Being Drunk in Public 58%
Theft 58%
Public Nudity 50% (not a pretty site )
Murder 25%
Fraud 0%

EDIT:
Stealing Katrina's bulletin at 11:05 pm
Q:WHAT MADE YOU SMILE YESTERDAY?
A: The aprent's cat's. They make me happy

Q: WHAT WERE YOU DOING AT 8 THIS MORNING?
A: watching movies

Q: WHAT WERE YOU DOING 15 MINUTES AGO?
A: filling out this damned survey which myspace didn't take causing me to redo it.

Q: SOMETHING THAT HAPPENED TO YOU IN 1995?
A: I became a freshman in high school.

Q: LAST THING YOU SAID ALOUD?
A: DAMN YOU MYSPACE!!! DAMN YOU'S STRAIGHT TO HECK!

Q: HOW MANY DIFFERENT THINGS DID YOU DRINK TODAY?
A: 4. Smoothie, water, ramen broth, and soda

Q: DO YOU THINK YOU'RE PRETTY?
A: Hell's no. I don't look good at all.

Q: WHERE IS YOUR BEST FRIEND RIGHT NOW?
A:

Q: WHAT COLOR IS YOUR TOOTHBRUSH?
A: Who pays attention to that sort of thing? i think it might be green...

Q: LAST THING YOU BOUGHT?
A: Ramen

Q: WHAT COLOR IS YOUR FRONT DOOR?
A: Green on the outside I think, and white on the inside

Q: WHERE DO YOU KEEP YOUR CHANGE?
A: a plastic cup til it's full, then i pour them into a gallon water jug.

Q: WHAT'S THE WEATHER LIKE TODAY?
A: Mich cooler than it has been in a long while

Q: BEST ICE CREAM FLAVOR?
A: cookies and cream

Q: SOMETHING YOU ARE EXCITED ABOUT?
A: nothing. there is nothing exciting that i can foresee in the near future

Q: LAST RAINBOW YOU SAW?
A: in the background in gta 3. at first i thought i was seeing things, or that it was just a glitch. then i realized they had actually put a rainbow in the background for some reason. it was short lived

Q: WHAT SIZE SHOE DO YOU WEAR?
A: 12 - 13

Q: DO YOU HAVE ANY SISTERS?
A: 3

Q: ARE YOU VERY RANDOM?
A: Speaking of random, i love taquitos!

Q: DO YOU WANT TO CUT YOUR HAIR?
A: NO! I want to grow it out, then put it in a pony tail, and wear a cape and fly into the horizon

Q: ARE YOU OVER THE AGE OF 25?
A: I am 25. ancient

Q: DO YOU TALK A LOT?
A: Hells no. If I'm not comfortable with them, i am dead silent. if I am comfortable with someone, i will occasional talk in short bursts.

Q: DO YOU WATCH THE OC?
A: NO! that is a sin!

Q: DO YOU KNOW ANYONE CALLED STEVE?
A: the only Steve I knew was my uncle. dont know him enough to form an opinion of him

Q: DO YOU MAKE UP YOUR OWN WORDS?
A: Absotutely notz!

Q: ARE YOU TICKLISH?
A: yes, and it pisses me off. I especially hate being tickled around the kneck

Q: NAME A FRIEND WHOSE NAME STARTS WITH THE LETTER "J"
A: Joseph. That's all really

Q: NAME A FRIEND WHOSE NAME STARTS WITH AN "A"
A: Amy, Anibal

Q: 4TH PERSON ON YOUR MISSED CALLS?
A: I don't ahve any missed calls... or calls at all

Q: WHAT DID THE LAST TEXT MESSAGE YOU RECEIVED SAY?
A: i dont know or care.

Q: DO YOU CHEW ON YOUR STRAWS?
A: sometimes.

Q: DO YOU HAVE CURLY HAIR?
A: When my hair grows out, but i dont take care to cut it in such a way that all layers can grow evenly, it gets wavy

Q: WHAT IS THE NEXT CONCERT YOU'RE GOING TO?
A: dunno

Q: WHO IS THE COOLEST PERSON IN YOUR LIFE?
A: Amy.

Q: WHAT SAYING DO YOU SAY A LOT?
A: I hate people.

Q: IS MARRIAGE IN YOUR FUTURE?
A: yes. maybe in a year... maybe in a decade... maybe in 30 years. *sobs*

Q: DO YOU HAVE A NICKNAME?
A: J.J.

Q: ARE YOU A HEAVY SLEEPER?
A: when I'm content. havent been content in a while

Q: WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
A: nothing, but i think I'll put on Utada - Sanctuary

art? is it madness?!

~DarkZombie — Fri, 01 Sep 2006 03:06:45 PDT

I shook off the dust on my site (which has oddly enough grown with more watchers and more comments... mostly on that one Hinata pic... while i took a long break from drawing) and I posted art. Well.. I use that term (art) loosely. Anyways, THANK YOU Amy for the Micron pens. The thinnest one is a godsend. the thicker ones will take some getting used to before i work them in. I like thin lines. :/

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~DarkZombie — Wed, 02 Aug 2006 22:18:20 PDT

So I'm not exactly sure where all of this came from, but my freind on myspace posted a strange bulletin which simply stated as teh subject "Suicidal Animals" and then said "What other animals commit suicide" in the body. Then the following poured out in reply...

"All animals who die of natural causes commit suicide. as the Khazars said, "God sewed death into the chest of adam.". He actually sewed it into the chest of all creation. Scientists have found that there is a blackhole in the center of each galaxy, and theorize there probably is one in the center of teh universe, just waiting to swallow them up once their life flickers towards teh end. All animals self destruct as well. It's part of the aging process. There is actually no reason the cells of the body shouldn't continue perpetually except that they receive signals from the DNA instructions they follow to slow down/stop replacing themselves at a certain age. The body slowly deteriorates til it can no longer sustain itself. It's actually a survival mechanism. The older a member of the species is, the less useful (in terms of survival of teh species). An organisms main goal is to propagate future generations, then step aside to make way for the new and improved. Reproduction ceases at a certain age to keep genetic abnormalities (which build up over the coarse of ones life reaching higher and higher through old age) from being passed on to the next generation. After reproduction is no longer a possibility, the organism no longer has a purpose towards the specie's survival. It's unfortunately neccesary that death be integrated into the experience of life. Otherwise we simply threaten our own survival and existence which is antithetical to life itself."

I sitll hate death. screw you death! I will cheat you yet! I WILL! If it's the last thing i do!

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~DarkZombie — Wed, 14 Jun 2006 18:07:54 PDT

So my turtles continue growing. And in order to toughen them up for when i eventually release them back into the wild, i have introduced harsh currents (i had to... they needed a more powerful aquarium water filter) and live feed to stalk and devour (shrimp, and fish). After the last one grows to full size and leaves "the nest" i will probably get a box turtle. they seem pretty sweet tempered and I've heard from a reliable source that they are like reptile puppies! As far as these aquatic turtles i have now... they aren't very tolerant of human intervention. But I loves em. BTW If anyone out there ever decides to own aquatic turtles... they like to bask under a lamp on a floaty plaster rock... but even MORE so, they like to cling to artificial rock sculptures while still mostly submerged.
I bought some triops to raise today. Earth's most ancient multicellular lifeform still alive and well (except for microorganisms) i think is how it was advertised. I've heard they are F.I.C.K.L.E. The conditions have to be near neigh perfect to hatch them and keep them alive. I shall take it as a personal challenge. I also got TWO new art lamps. So I will have no more excuses not to draw. expect art. Expect to be horrified. huzzah!

Booyah! Survey! wheee!

~DarkZombie — Wed, 12 Apr 2006 08:31:28 PDT

Okay... meme! Source not divulged as a matter of national Security.

Lucky Thirteen
1) If you had TWO wishes, what would they be?
-a. To not have to do this life-thing on my own.
-b. To have more wishes.

2) Okay, now if you had TWO wishes about your lover (or next lover, if you're single) what would they be?
-a. That they be breathing with no major deformities
-b. That they like me. It's sorta a prerequisite.

3) If you could live in any other city in the United States, what would it be? Why?
-Somewhere in Wisconsin. and it would be a town, not a city. Ah, country life. Quiet. Easy going. luscious.

4) Choose which one you would rather be: wealthy & hated _OR_ famous (and not as wealthy) & lonely
-Wealthy and Hated. I don't care what others think of me. But if i get the added bonus of money, then why not?

5) What's the meanest thing you ever said?
-Why don't you just die already? (last things I ever said to that person before cutting off all contact)

5) What are your lover's three best physical features?
-That they don't nag, that they don't hover over me, that they never ask "why are you going out so late?!"... but they only don't ask cause' they don't exist. I don't currently have a lover XD Booyah! The set up, then the punch. .. .. line. yeah.

6) What are your three best physical features?
-That I'm usually not physically present around anyone observing (cause i hate people). I'm not sure about the other features since i don't talk to anyone, but if i had to guess, i'd say my hair is ok, and my fingers are tough (I like to slam them into doors to open them... somewhere in my head, it makes me feel ninja-y)

7) Name a song that makes you cry?
-I don't think a SONG has ever made me cry.

8) Name a song that makes you feel like you are understood.
-I dunno about understood, but i identify with I'm No Superman. (yes it's a theme song... no I WILL not divulge which show just to give the best show ever a free plug )

9) Name a movie that you believe is amazingly artistic in it's own way. Whether people agree with you or not.
-amazingly artistic? That's tough as it is a BROAD and GENERAL question. There are about a zillion different ways you can be artsy, and comparing each way could be like comparing apples to oranges. But if i had to pick one out of the air, I suppose Eternal Sunshine was pretty artsy.

10) What is your LEAST favorite color? Why?
That 70's shade of pea green. It's gross.

11) Love at first sight....It's amazing! Let me hear your comments!
-I like how you ASSUME love at first site is even possible, and acknowledge it's existence and it's "amazing"ness... discouraging anyone from veering into the wrong direction and actually thinking. (hats off to yah Amy for disputing the statement itself! Oh NO! I divulged teh source of the meme!!! *fbi surrounds the apartment)... ahem... I do believe it's possible though, but highly unlikely. It's more likely that you are simply INFATUATED with the person at first site, not in love. Of coarse, this isn't to assume you don't know them already. You can know someone BEFORE you meet them if you talk some other way long enough. But, even that aside, i think it's possible for two people who have never ever met in any way, shape, or form, in present life, or any possible past ones that may exist, to fall for each other on site. But again, NEARLY impossible, so why botehr entertaining the thought. Of coarse there's also always the possibility that your infatuation will LEAD eventually to a good solid meaningful relationship, so there's no reason to dump on infatuation and obsession.

12) Choose one of the following batman Villians you would be if you had a choice. WHY?

Catwoman - I REALIZE I'd have to change gender... but i like cats

Penguin

Two-Face

Poison Ivy

King Tut

The Joker

Harley Quin

Mr. Freeze

The Riddler

Egg head

Scarecrow

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~DarkZombie — Wed, 08 Mar 2006 20:44:57 PST

1. Honestly, are you in love right now?
No

2. Honestly, what color is your underwear?
no underwear. i find them restrictive and unneccesary

3. Honestly, what's on your mind right now?
wondering where Chrno Crusade (anime series) will lead to next... and what kind of dreams i might have tonight

4. Honestly, what are you doing right now?
honestly im filling out a survey. honestly.

5. Honestly, what did you do today?
Did my taxes, went to academy to buy more weights for my weight set, went with a freind to his mom's house to move stuff out of the garage so he could put his camaro he's still working on back inside, but she wasnt there and he didnt have keys to anything there, went to hobby lobby to get model paint for my model Volkswagon beetle and to walmart with same freind, then came back home and watched lots of chrno crusade and talked alot with amy online

6. Honestly, do you think you are attractive?
Hells no.

7. Honestly, have you done something bad today?
I try and do at least ten bad things before breakfast each morning

8. Honestly, do you watch disney channel?
I dont have cable. if i did, i prolly still wouldnt as i dont watch much tv. i might watch some court tv when they have the investigator shows on... maybe some of those shows that take you into the ER to see first hand trauma... and i'd catch a movie every now and again im sure. and anime on cartoon network... hmm... why dont i have cable again? argh!

9. Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now?
I dont know very many people right now and none have given me any reason to be jealous of them

10. Honestly, what makes you happy most of the time?
Honestly, i dont get very down very often. and i dont get extatically happy very often. so i dunno

11. Honestly, do you bite your nails?
what nails? they are all bitten short

12. Honestly, what is your mood right now?
blah. a little woozy. i think sleep is finally come to claim me for the night

13. Honestly, who do you want to see at this very moment?
anyone i might meet in muh dreams... for i wish to sleep soon

14. Honestly, do you have a deep dark secret?
Not really.

15. Honestly, do you hate someone right now?
No one i can think of. I'm not fond of most of the entire human race though, but i dunno if its hatred per se

16. Honestly, do your wrists hurt?
no... should they?

17. Honestly, wouldn't you rather be having sex right now?
Well damn... i suppose. Not until you brought it up

18. Honestly, do you like someone?
sure

19. Honestly, does anyone like you?
probably no one in the world

20. Honestly, did you answer all these questions honestly?
if i didnt, wouldnt i be dishonest about it and say yes?

more more more

~DarkZombie — Thu, 02 Mar 2006 19:37:26 PST

People keep posting them... and i keep not being able to resist.

1.I have a big.....hunger... i think i should eat now
2.I wish I was in.....vincible
3.I am so tired of.....people. things. people with things. it's mostlyt he people though
4.I hate.....security stickers on DVD's
5.I was.....just typing (see above)

6.My boss is.....very unreliable, but generally she means well
7.This weather.....is too warm. i'm dying here.
8.My friends are.....around here somewhere...
9.I like to.....sleep
10.This morning i woke up.....and yawned?

11.I am very.....sleepy
12.My Bed is really.....sub par
13.My Car.....is really a truck
14.My mom said that I should.....take some money, but i didnt want to
15.Myspace is for.....im not really sure. havent done almost anything on there ever

16.When I get home.....I head straight for the restroom as i usually need to pee from all the water i drink at work
17.My phone is.....sitting on the charger... the only one i has is a cell-y
18.When I am in a bad mood I.....purposefully piss off the drivers around me and generally wreak traffic-y havok
19.my room is.....filthy. just filthy
20.I want to get.......a plane ticket to somewhere fun

21.I wish I had a.....pomegranite. i always wondered what they taste like.
22.My Computer is.....not fast enough. i need.... MORE POWER
23.The weekend is.....boring
24.When I get drunk I seem to get.....be out of sorts, but happy
25.I am.....filling out a survey

26.The last time I saw a movie in a theater was.....i cant remember... digimon? nooo... shoot...
27.I don't.....want to die before i get in a few more good adventures
28.I believe.....that i rock!
29.Life is.....a dish best served cold. i dont know... it jsut came out.

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L - A - S - T:
01. Last Cigarette: Been a while
02. Last kiss: never
03. Last Cry: been a LONG LONG time
04. Last Library Book Checked Out: Its been too too long to remember
05. Last Movie Seen In a Theater: cant remember
06. Movie Rented: Again, been to long ago
07. Movie you Bought: ooo! i bought what dreams may come last!
08. Last Book Read: The Fourth Turning
09. Last Cuss Word Uttered: "asshole" (in reference to some prick who thought he was going to cut me off... so in a retarded show of stubborness i denied him his god given right to do whatever the hell he wants at my expense)
10. Last Beverage Drank: Ice water
11. Last Food Consumed: If you count protein shakes, then that. if not... a slice of cheddar
12. Last TV Show Watched: Mellenium!
13. Last Time Showered: this morning
14. Last Shoes Worn: My tennis shoes. cheap payless shoes. mmm... all generic-y and such
15. Last CD played: Miscellaneous mix in my truck's stereo
16. Last Song you listened to: Queen mamma mia
17. Last Song stuck in your head: that damned run run run by high and mighty color!! OH NOES! It WAS gone til i typed that! no no no!!! ARGH!
18. CD you bought: OMG... that was YEARS ago!!!
19. Last Soda Drank: yesterday afternoon when i was rushing to get my rent money turned into money order form
20. Last Thing Written: a ntoe to my supervisor that some stupid customer wanted a supervisor, but nne were available, so please call her back. I'ts prolly fermenting deep within the bowels of a garbage bin by now
21. Last Words Spoken: i dont know... prolly the aforementioned curse at the guy on teh freeway
22. Last Annoyance: freeway. it is a damned annoying contraption
23. Last Time Scolded Someone: i cant remember. i dont talk to alot of people very often if ever
24. Last Web Site Visited: ummm... DEVIANT ART... duh. before this live journal
25. Person That Called You: my mom... when she thought i was in jail

B - O - D - Y:
01. Piercings: 0
02. Tattoos: 1, on my finger
03. Height: 5'9 - 5'10
04. Shoe size: 13
05. Hair color: black

DO...
01. You have a crush on someone: Maybe
02. You wish you could live somewhere else: Hai! but i doubt im going anywhere anytime soon
03. You think about suicide: sure. i have a morbid curiosity about how it fe...

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~DarkZombie — Sat, 25 Feb 2006 06:46:17 PST

9 lasts:
Last dollar spent: buying lunch yesterday since i didnt make lunch before i left for work yesterday
Last cigarette: its been a while
Last beverage: Water
Last movie: Donnie Darko (good movie)
Last phone call: My mom... asking if i was in jail apparently they got a message on the answering machine that they couldnt make out about someone being in jail
Last song played: Parade (instrumental) by chaba (jap pop... and new ending to naruto)
Last bubble bath: umm... when i was a kid?
Last thing you ate: boneless skinless chicken thigh peice

8 have you evers.
Have you ever dated a best friend: No
Have you ever skinny dipped: no
Have you ever kissed somebody and regretted it: No
Have you ever lost someone you loved: No
Have you ever been dumped: NO
Have you ever been drunk and threw up: Oh yes! and it was glorious... ly stupid
Have you ever run away: when i was a kid. i suppose if you include running away from my problems metaphorically, more recently, but still a while ago

7 states you've been to.
1. Mississippi
2.
3.
4.
5.
6.
7.

6 things you've done today: (in no particular order...)
1. Ate
2. Showered
3. Dressed
4. Shaved
5. cooked lunch
6. filled out a survey (the day is still young though!)

5 of your favorite things in no order.
1. Metal music
2. Kiwi shoe freshner (powder fresh) smell
3. My computer
4. chap stick
5. Anime

4 people you can tell [almost] anything to in no order.
1. Amy
2.
3.
4.

3 things that make you smile.
1. Anything funny i suppose
2.
3.

2 things you want to do before you die.
1. Visit out of state freinds
2. learn the truths of the universe (if there are any)

1 thing that you cannot live without.
1. Air
2. Water
3. Food
4. Toilet Paper

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~DarkZombie — Tue, 21 Feb 2006 19:55:25 PST

1. If you were to die this evening with no opportunity to communicate with anyone, what would you most regret not having told someone?
i regret not saying "F.U. buddy" to every customer who calls in every day at work

2. If a new medicine were developed that would cure arthritis but cause a fatal reaction in 1% of those who took it, would you want it to be released to the public?
Ummmm... YES?! why shouldnt it be? 1% is a good risk, and as long as the warning label lets people know, there shouldnt be a problem. maybe if they didnt know what type of people would have sed fatal reaction, we might need to think twice about it. But even then, it's worth the risk. people gamble much worse just driving down the street every day.

3. If you were able to live to the age of 90 and retain either the body or the mind of a 30-year-old for the last 60 years of your life, which would you want?
If it were somehow possible to circumvent the minds dependence on teh body, and the bodie's dependence on the mind, (which, mind you, would break one of the most crucial laws of balance in a human life) then i'd choose the mind. I must remain cognitive. it means everything to me. i sometimes despise sleep because i loose my existence for several hours when i dont dream because theres a lapse in mental existence

4. If at birth you could select the profession your child would eventually pursue, would you do so?
that wouldnt be birth... that would be fashioning a robot child. of coarse that isnt to say that they wouldnt be alive, or that they wouldnt be free. we are all trapped within the mechanizations of the clockwork universe... our freedom comes from our perspective. We arent gods and cant see the path laid out before us. so we are free to do what we wish, even if they are paths we were bound to walk down. If the child didnt know they were trapped within the path you determined for them, they would still be a free living thinking being, since from their perspective they are living the life they decided, unbeknownst to them that they are doing what they were bound to do. But from MY perspective, i'd be ashamed and dismayed that i forced a certain life on my offspring. I wonder if this is how god feels? Having created free thinking beings and placed them in a universe of action and reaction, cause and effect.

5. If you knew there would be a nuclear war in one week, what would you do? (btw, you can't stop it)
Just keep doing what i've been doing. no need to stop. we all know death is inevitable anyways... i dont see the masses swarming all chaotic like because death is inevitable. why should it change if the probability of a sooner death becomes more likely? by the way, nuclear war doesnt neccesarily mean the destruction of all mankind.

6. Would you accept twenty years of extrodinary happiness and fulfillment if it meant you had to die at the end of the period?
i would never make a contract that set the date of my death. ever. EVAR.

7. If the person you were engaged to marry had an accident and became a paraplegic, would you go through with the marriage or back out of it?
No. there wouldnt be much reason to JUST because they were parapelegic. I'd agree with amy, it'd have to alter their personality for me to back off.

8. Someone very close to you is in pain, paralyzed, and will die in a month. They beg you to give them poison so they that they can die. Would you? What if it was a parent?
Oi... i hate it when people tell me they'd rather die than live painfully. I'd be pissed as hell if someone asked me to kill them because "it hurts too much". I might end up killing them out of anger

9. Given the choice of anyone in the world, who would you want as your dinner guest? as a close friend? as a lover?
as a guest and close freind, amy. otherwise i hate guests around when im eating. other people annoy me.

10. What is the worst psychological torture you can imagine suffering? (no physical harm involved)
being dead yet concious. think about it... total darkness, total silence, no people, no freinds, you dont know what they are doing, if they are ok, how long it's been, how long you'll be in oblivion... nothing but your worries mounting, nothing but your inner demons tearing and gnawing at the inside of your mind...

11. You and a person you love deeply are placed in separate rooms with a button next to each of you. You know that you will both be killed unless one of you presses the button before 60 minutes pass; furthermore, the first to press the button will save the other person, but will immediately be killed. What do you think you w...

Song Meme

~DarkZombie — Sun, 22 Jan 2006 16:34:31 PST

List seven songs you are into right now. No matter what the genre, whether they have words, or even if they're any good, but they must be songs you're really enjoying now. Post these instructions in your journal along with your seven songs. Then tag seven other people to see what they're listening to.

Gott Sein - Mega Herz
Entombed, We Collide - Death By Stereo
Ichirin No Hana (Extended) - High and Mighty Color? (Bleach Theme)
Fuel - Ani Di Franco
Dead Girls - Voltaire
You Spin Me Right Round (Cover) - Marilyn Manson
Brackish - Kittie

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~DarkZombie — Sat, 31 Dec 2005 18:57:19 PST

Happy New Years Every One!!!!

My Quizz

~DarkZombie — Wed, 28 Dec 2005 21:39:51 PST

I'm bored and tired... so chew on this self generated 5 question survey. I'm afraid alot of the subject matter may be similiar, if not the same as previous ones. But it's the best i can do for now, so enjoy, or dont.

1. Corporate America:: Years ago Microsoft attempted to make a deal with computer manufacturers in which the PC's manufactured by these company's could ONLY operate with Windows Operating system. They were not allowed to enter into such an agreement as the courts saw it as a form of monopoly. Do you think Monopolys should be legal? Do you think they are fair? Why, or why not? Is there any type of monopoly, or any situation in which a monopoly, would be ok?

I think that businesses that sell neccesities such as food, shelter, and clothing, should definitely be protected from monopoly's. Other than that, laissez faire. If PC manufacturers want to build pc's that can only run windows, let them do so. It's their prerogative how they build their machines. I WONT be buying any of them, and I'd hope that no one else would. But I know better. The filthy unwashed masses will buy whatever they're told to buy. But eventually, they'd get tired of it and the buyers market controls what is sold. So I dont even think a true monopoly could be established or last very long.

2. Dreams:: Are dreams random compilations of memories caused by misfirings in the brain, or are there outside forces that can/do intervene and change the coarse of our dreams? If you believe they can be influenced by outside forces/entities, would having full control of your dreams interfere with that influence?

I believe dreams are random firings caused by the brain during sleep. But i believe it's very possible that somewhere in our subconcious are hidden flows of logic... thoughts in the dark... working behind the scenes, that could pick up on patterns we arent conciously aware of and can influence our dreams indirectly to make us aware of danger or unwanted trends in our life. I believe since these dreams are random, that they exhibit very malleable characteristics, and can easily be influenced by outside forces, if such forces exist, such as one's of a supernatural nature. However i believe the influence would be light, and it'd be difficult to find the meaning indicated by the influence.

3. Supernatural:: It's scientific fact that our memories are tethered to the organ called our brain. And it is at least assumed that the brain is the point at which the human brain bridges that which is concrete to that which is abstract (the mind and/or the soul). Some believe that after you die, something is (or can be at least) left behind. Do you believe this, and if so, how much of the human mind (memories, characteristic personality traits, ets) would carry over? Would you consider these truly THAT PERSON, or imprints and impressions... a shadow of what once was?

Personally, I beleive that our memories, personalities, characteristics, and such are all almost completely tethered to our brains, an organ which we do not carry with us to the "other side", if such a thing exists. I believe that IMPRESSIONS can be made on this realm that linger, if there is an "other side" to begin with. I cant imagine that an ENTIRE entity could carry over. it just makes no sense that there would be NO LOSS OF memory, appearance, voice, etc. I beleive if anything is left behind, it is VERY VERY etheral, and very difficult for anyone not very very sensitive to these kinds of things to discern. I believe that if all of this is true, and there is something after death, that only when something VERY VERY INTENSE occurs, especially at the time of death, that something strong enough to be percieved as a haunting by the common man can occur. But never is it a self contained entity, as there is no longer a physical form to contain it, and never is there complex cognitive thought processes, or complex communications, because not enough of the mind transfers over, if any at all.

4. Time:: Do you believe time is linear, or that it is malleable? can it be changed or altered? if so, what is your justification for believing it can be altered or rerouted? Do you believe other timelines could exist? that they DO exist? please justify.

I don't really believe it even exists. Time is just a way of trying to set up a reference by which to refer all of the activities of our lives to. It's an attempt to create a standard motion to measure every othe event or occurance in the spanse of our days. It isnt a THING, it's an idea. It's a tool for telling us at what point in the earth's daily rotation around the sun we should prepare for work, eat, bathe, shave, etc. It cant be changeable or alterable if it doesnt even exist, and NO there are no parallel timelines, since time doesnt exist enough to be paralleled.

5. Religion:: Throughout the ages, man has a...

So this is Christmas...

~DarkZombie — Sun, 25 Dec 2005 17:51:07 PST

Mmmm.... the holidays... the pissy parents who's nerves teh holidays are grating on, the increased call volume from idiots who ahve never heard of a user's manual at work, the personal headaches from a combination of sleeplessness and other things, all the things that needed putting together, and all the things given that i had to stomache (i told my mom i didnt want a tv... i told her a million times taht i HATE TV... and she gives me a tv. THANK YOU... i feel bad for hating it, and feining gratefullness), the freinds who feel bad from teh holidays (such as the one who is consumed with how greedy and commercialized teh holidays become... blah, so sick of that angle being mulled over), etc etc. But there are the good moments, so i guess it's worth it. I hope all my freinds are having fun, and lots of nog, presents, or whatever makes yah happy. happy holidays everyone!

Devious Journal Entry

~DarkZombie — Tue, 20 Dec 2005 10:09:02 PST

What is your name?: Jorge
Are you named after anyone?: Names after my dad
What's your screename?: zombiesheepx
Would you name a child of yours after you?: i dont want children, but if they happen, then I'll let their mom name them
If you were born a member of the opposite sex what would your name be?: If you mean what would my parents have named me, how the hell should I know? I don't know how their brains work. As far as there being a female version of my name, I suppose Georgia, or Georgina, or whatever. Though my name doesn't really have a female equivalent that I'm aware of (Jorge), and if I were in control of what my name is, I would CHOOSE Ariel. I like the name.
If you could switch names with a friend who would it be?: I'd steal Devlin's Name!!! just to piss him off
Are there any mispronounciations/typos that people inflict on your name constantly?: Yes, but i request it be inflicted. my name is actually pronounced (hore-hay), but a) that first part sounds alot like "whore" which isnt a word i'm fond of except in a comical sense, and b) I can't pronounce it in a truly Spanish way, since it is spanish, and so i just pronounce it George, and ask taht others do teh same, as anyone not spanish will inevitably butcher it. If one happens to be fluent in spanish, then I'm actually fine with it though. Cause they pronounce it well.
Would you drop your last name if you became famous?: No. Not much point in doing so.

Basics

Your gender: Man
Straight/Gay/Bi: Straight
Single?: aye
If not, do you want to be?: Of coarse not. no one really wants to be, they just tell themselves they do to create a false sense of comfort that's superficial and fragile enough to burst at any moment
Birthdate: March 28, 1981. (OMG i almost said 23rd!!! it gets harder and harder each year to remember my bday)
Your age: 24
Age you act: i act age-nuetral. which is a different way of saying I dont want to answer this one.
Age you wish you were: I'm fine with my current age. I dont want to go back, there's nothing for me in the past. If i changed anything in the past, i wouldnt be me, and i dont want to destroy me. every experience I've endured has made me who i am today, both good and bad things. taking any of it away could create a chain reaction that would make me different, and thus a different person making the current me null and void.
Eye color: Brown
Happy with it?: I wouldnt mind something more bold, but i wont change it and i dont hate it
Hair color: Black
Happy with it?: I'd like to do something with dyes, but i cant because of where i work now. stupid corporate america
Lefty/righty/ambidextrous: Right-handed
Your living arrangement: A small efficiency (studio apartment) in the southeast side of houston
Have any pets?: This ball of lint in my hand. *sniffles... attaches a length of string to it to make a tail)
What's your job?: Call center for acs/nextel. I hate it except for when i can deny customers their incessant whining please and harsh demands that we do the impossible for them. I love telling them they already signed a contract and it's legally binding, so, booyah.
Piercings?: Nevar!!!
Tattoos?: A kanji on a finger on my right hand.
Obsessions?: the internet.
Addictions?: I am becoming obsessed with sharp cheddar cheese. I'll never go back to american single slices again! it sucks to have to cut the block of cheese though. slices are so much more convenient. BUUUT... they do have slices of sharp cheddar (for a dollar more! those filthy bastards! denying me my god given right to have sharp cheddar slices by making it to expensive to be accessible), those little white castle burgers. had to stop eating them. they're like crack. and they'll make me fat.
Do you speak another language?: I dont think my brain is compatible with second languages.
Have a favorite quote?: it was "Time is the part of eternity which runs slow", but now i think i like "sleep is a daily excercise in death". both by those ingenious khazars.
Do you have a webpage?: Had one once, but never went back after initially making it. it was horribel

Deep Thoughts About Life

Do you live in the moment?: HOW CAN YOU NOT?! A better question would have been, "Do you live FOR the moment" because it's impossible not to live IN the moment. every moment we live is in the current particular moment. that's why it's called "this moment". I dotn particularly live FOR the moment, but i do like to sit and be blank, min...

RANT RANT RANT

~DarkZombie — Fri, 16 Dec 2005 09:40:01 PST

Every single generation looks at the current one and likes to imagine that it's the worst generation yet, full of more unruly kids and more out of control than ever. And this pisses me the hell off! First of all, I'm not even disputing it. It may be true, it may be just everyone's imagination. After all, there really isn't anything new under the sun. Death. Destruction. Theft. It's been around since the time of the most ancient civilizations. It isnt really anything new, but everytime we hear about a new edition to the long list of crimes, we shake our heads and say "things just keep getting worse." The other day while finally renewing my insurance policy, the head woman in charge of the little insurance place was all in shock that two kids were in a car in the shoulder lane on the freeway and were hit from behind by another car and were killed. And of coarse she did her "What's wrong with people these days" bit. But turn on the news any night and you see the same damn thing over and over.
But again, i'm not really disputing that its getting worse really. It may be true that it is, and it might be our collective dissillusionment. I cant claim to know as I'm not some sort of superior god-like being who can oversee all of reality and judge it collectively in one swift motion. But it IS interesting that it is the OLDER generation, stepping back and judging the YOUNGER generation. So who was responsible here? I went home this weekend to visit the family, and noticed teh kids were getting away with QUITE A BIT. and my parents say "My parents woulda wipped me good if i had done what you're doing." I wanted to say mine too, but that woulda been adding insult to injury. WHAT THE HELL?! My parents woulda, but i wont, is what you're telling them. STUPID!!! Arent you the reason they are so unruly? and isnt the older generation usually the one at fault because they didnt raise the next generation to know better!? It isnt as if kids can raise themselves, but each generation seems to not want to own up to their own responsibilities. TAKE RESPONSIBILITY FOR WHAT YOU CREATED!!! If the next generation is really so fucked up, then guess what, ITS YOUR F'ing FAULT!!! *takes a deep breath* and that is my rant for today.

222 qa

~DarkZombie — Sun, 11 Dec 2005 21:33:55 PST

222 Question Meme
Ripped from the delicious pages of amy's journal [link]
The #1 Time-Waster. I bring to you...222 Totally Pointless Questions!

1. One Kleenex or two when you blow your nose? Three

2. Have you ever drank Slimfast? no way. that stuff is for losers.

3. If so, whats your favorite kind? the kind far away from me and my stomach

4. Did you really need to drink it? I suppose not... but it could help.

5. Do you listen to music off your computer? The bulk of my music is on my computer, or ripped onto cd from the comp.

6. Do you wear headphones so you dont distract other people? I dont listen to music around other people.

7. Have you ever blown a speaker out in a car from having too much bass? LOL... ive never had more than factory speakers in my vehicle.

8. Do you use highlighters frequently? Nevar!!!

9. Do you carry scissors? dont carry em... but i have a pair stashed on top of my fridge.

10. Do you wish you did? That's why man invented pocket knives. RAZOR SHARP. You can cut to your desires

11. How about fingernail clippers? my teeth?!

12. Blue or black ink? Black Bic... mmmm...

13. Do you own a pair of flannel pants? No way.

14. Do you wear slippers around the house? i dont wear footwear in the apartment of any kind.

15. Do you untie your shoes before you take them off? That would require too much energy.

16. Can you keep a pair of white shoes clean for very long? nope.

17. Do you wash your car a lot? It DOES eventually rain...

18. How much does it cost to fill your vehicle up? 25-30

19. Is your buddy list mainly people you dont talk to? nope. i purge people i dont talk to.

20. Do you put your dirty clothes in a basket or just let they lay on your floor? floor/basket. a little of both.

21. Are your dresser drawers organized? i dont have any! ZING!

22. Will your parents kill you if you bring home a D? boy did they ever... but it was the F's that REALLY pissed them off

23. Do you belong to Sams club? I WISH

24. Do you like Super Target? Target is good enough for me

25. Whats your view on the Bakers Value Card? the what witht he who now?

26. Has someone accidentally given you back the wrong change and you just kept it? never check. its bothersome

27. Ever been to a hockey game? Hell no!

28. Ever laughed at a retard? my whole family is retarded. and yes, i point it out at every chance i get with extreme laughter. but they do the same to me. its give and take

29. Ever faked a call on your cell phone? faked? wtf? i dont understand what you mean by faked it?

30. Ever swung your left arm back and forth so much when you walked that anyone within 20 feet would get hit? why would i do something so strange?

31. Ever spit on anyone? /spit

32. Ever been spit on? yes, but not on purpose

33. Ever watched someone be spit on? i cant remember....

34. Ever growled at someone? i wish.

35. Ever been meowed at? yep! by cats AND humans! ^_^

36. Do you grab for your cell phone whenever you hear a ring? i'd be constantly reaching for it on account of this ringing in muh ears...

37. Does your mom still do your laundry? lmao... she hasnt done MY laundry in sooo many years...

38. Do you have a camera of your own? aye... but tis a crappy camera phone

39. Do you spend extremely too much time on your computer? I'm doing this meme arent I!? what ho!

40. Do you pick your nose when you drive because you think just because you have tinted windows they cant see you? i dont even pick my nose.

41. Do you think your moms hot? EWWWW... that's just filthy. even if you had a beautiful mom, how could you think of her in that way?! I dont understand weird stuff like that.

2. Do you honestly sing in the shower? Damn straight. but rarely

43. Do you ever wave at complete strangers? umm... i dont even wave at people i know. i avoid them at all cost to reduce the risk of unneccesary conversations

44. Have you ever farted in a room and walked out? umm... im sure i have. i try not to when people are there in the room though. its called manners

45. Have you ever eaten at a Truck Stop? yep. but i dont remember it much. i was a wee lad.

46. Have you ever found out that th...

CHRISTMAS in December

~DarkZombie — Thu, 08 Dec 2005 22:13:35 PST

(stolen simultaneously from katrina and amy's livejournals. mmm... devious)

1. Hot Chocolate or apple cider? Hot Chocolate... i had starbucks hot chocolate for the first time the other day. i think i only need to say one word... "mmmmm..."

2. Turkey or Ham? TURKEY!!!

3. Do you get a Fake or Real Christmas tree? My parents always had a fake tree because it's easier to take care of and clean up afterwards and chuck when it's al over. I'll be getting a tiny miniature desk tree myself for the apartment this year

4. Decorations on the outside of your house? house?! i have no house

5. Snowball fights or sledding? neither!!! get the snow away from me!!!

6. Do you like hanging around the fireplace because it's warm? We never had a fireplace growing up. We all stood around the natural gas heater

7. Do you enjoy going downtown shopping? i like downtown, but only driving straight through it

8. Favorite Christmas song? Trans Siberian Orchestra!!!

9. How do you feel about Christmas movies? wonderful life is mandatory. i love to hate it. there are others that are mandatory too. i dunno weather i hate em or love em.

10. When is it too early to start listening to Christmas music? christmas morning is still too early... maybe christmas night and thats about it

11. Stockings before or after presents? After. Presents first. ALWAYS.

12. Carolers, do you or do you not watch and listen to them? we've never ever had any. Theyd be viewed as harrassing where i grew up anyways.

13. Go to someone elses house or they come to you? Til this year its been at home with the parents, now ill be going over to their house as a guest this year.

14. Do you read the Christmas Story? No.

15. What do you do after presents and dinner? install/upgrade/plug in/etc

16. What is your favorite holiday smell? the smell of cold hard christmas cash!!! (which i never get... )

17. Ice skating or walking around the mall? if the higher powers that be wanted me to go ice skating, i'd've been born with blades on my feet. But maybe he/she/it/they decided i'd be too leathal with blades on my feet

18. Favorite Christmas memory? snow! best and worst xmas day evar!

19. Favorite Part about winter? wearing warm wooly sweaters.

20. Favorite Christmas decor??? i really never decorated myself much before

21. Lights...colored or clear???? clear. classier.

22. What is the best Christmas gift you ever received? it must not have been that great cause i cant remember

23. What is your favorite Christmas tradition in your family? going our seperate ways after present gouging

24. What is your least favorite thing about the holidays? fruit cakes. not just the edible ones.

25. What is the one thing that you would like to see under the tree this year? kittens!!!

26. What is your favorite thing to do/build in the snow? nothing! keep it away! too cooooold!

27. What is your favorite holiday drink? hot chocolate. vodka

28. Who is your favorite reindeer? i assume this is meant to be directed at the fabled reindeer that pull santa's sleigh, mythologically speaking. im not fond of rudolph. i dont know much of the others.

29. What is your Christmas Eve ritual? sleeping

30. Are you a Friday after Thanksgiving shopper? im a "whenever it gets done ill take it at my own pace leave me the hell alone" type

31. What is your favorite holiday food? i... dont... know....

32. How did you find out that Santa wasn't real? I beat him with a stick one night only to find that i was beating thin air. the parents submitted me for observation at the nearest mental hospital facility. there i speant countless hours in thearapy learning to go about my normal everyday life. so sad. (no i lie)

33. Who do you want to be under the mistletoe with? thats for me to know. damn, im stingy

34. Have you bought all your presents yet? lmao.

35. Do you spend Christmas with a lot of family? i only have the one....

ABSOLUTE BEST EVAR

~DarkZombie — Wed, 07 Dec 2005 22:05:18 PST

War of the Worlds is absolutely one of THE BEST MOVIES EVAR. And that ending, though happily cheesey... those last few narrarator comments just made the movie PERFECT. I must own it! I MUST! Other than that... nothing else to report.

Devious Journal Entry

~DarkZombie — Wed, 30 Nov 2005 00:37:22 PST

Of Turkeys and dinner rolls...

~DarkZombie — Thu, 24 Nov 2005 19:36:02 PST

Music: Counting Crows: A Long December/ Mega Herz: Gott Sein/ Coal Chamber: Loco
Movie: Blood+ Series, Ah My Godess Series

Yeah, so, happy thanksgiving everyone! Not a very eventful one for me. I lazed around the house, then went over to my parent's house a did the same til' thanksgiving dinner was done. After a little bit of shouting (just misor holiday tension... nothing unusual) we all sat down at the table and ate. Then i wandered around for a bit... visited the cats, tossed the ball to the dog a few times, then wandered back home. Tonight's incredible agenda?! A little computer maintenance, much internet type stuff, then sleep probably. Yep, the fun never ends for me. Rawr! (thats my ferocious growl )

mm... dreams

~DarkZombie — Mon, 21 Nov 2005 07:31:34 PST

Dreamage!!! So's me and a crew of people i dont know are trapped deep beneathe the earth in a large cavern. We all knew it to be the devil's cavern, and thus, dread filled us within. We were trapped, and i knew exactly what was going to happen. Like someone watching a movie they have seen several times before. And that is EXACTLY what it felt like. I knew we werent going to get out in time. I knew the seal holding the demons at bay was to be broken at a precise time... in fact we all knew that... and that the miniature midget demons would spew forth, we would put up a valiant effort, and in grand hollywood-esque cinamatics, we would die, one by one til i was the last man standing... but the demons would eventually overpower me and devour me alive. I kinda sorta didnt want that to happen Knowing that the only thing standing between me and sweet release from this hellish place, i tried to change what went wrong. We had four drilling machines boring into the walls of teh cavern on one side.it was slow work, but by our calculations we would have JUST gotten out on time... if only that fourth one didnt break down during the process.to make up for its inevitable loss, i asked them to run the other three drills longer and at a higher rpm to make up for the one we did eventually loose. And then readied my katana (hey, i can dream that i'm proficient with a katana, cant I?), because i realized that time was running out, and it still wouldnt be enough. Eventually the demons started to trickle out in small packs. they were about as tall as my foot is long, but they were many. For a while we were all able to keep up... killing as many as possible at a time... but as they started to increase in number, i started getting agitated that i was being overpowered. Then the dream switched to me inside a mall, on the other side of teh cavern, which was apparently not as deep as i previously thought... or this was a sub-level of the mall... and thats where the dreams interesting-ness ends.

random rant

~DarkZombie — Fri, 18 Nov 2005 08:46:02 PST

Mood: bah
Music: Radio Head; Track 10 - Motion Picture Soundtrack

Ah, winter... you sicken me. Literally. I dont know why, but the cold weather turns my stomach upside down. especially in the morn'. It goes away eventually, but each year it lingers longer. Unfortunately it also seems to be making me a bit blue. Argh, and there is no end to the number of sad songs that are now downloadable via peer to peer download clients coupled with cable modem!!! Eep. Here's to you winter, and all your surly depression!!! i dont even know if i used surly properly!!! mwuah ha ha ha ha.

nya!

~DarkZombie — Fri, 11 Nov 2005 21:35:04 PST

StUpiD SqUiRrElS!!!! they are downright malicious!!! I'm driving down the raod today and there's one of the lil' furry creatures hanging about on the street. So i says "move little guy, or you'll get runned over!!!" and keep driving. And getting closer. I says to the squirrel, i says "move!!! i dont wanna hurt yah!" and the thing sits there frozen. I'm practically right on top of him, ready to hit my breaks, and he starts dancing a jig back a forth! That little bastard was taunting me!!! So i speed up, and he zips by practically just under my tire, and is probably still laughing up in his tree, munching on acorns. Grrrrness....

Purrr

~DarkZombie — Sun, 06 Nov 2005 15:34:49 PST

That's it. I'm joining Surveys Anonymous. I'm addicted to questionaires!!!
PILFERED FROM DERRINGER-GIRL 'S JOURNAL...

Basics:

[Name] Jorge Joseph Gonzalez
[Birthday] March 23, 1981
[Age] 24
[Astrological sign] Aries

[Nicknames] Zombie, BEAST, hey you
[Location] SE Houston, Texas
[Marital Status] Sadly still single.
[Religion] Is very interesting. I don't pledge allegiance to any one religion.
[Eye color] Brown

[Hair Color] Black
[Height] 5'9" (last i checked)

[Parents still together] Still living together....
[Siblings] 3 sisters, 1 brother (Us guys are outnumbered)
[Pets] None of my own, so I claim the parents' pets as muh own!!!
[In school/graduated] graduated high school. barely I still think my Physics teacher just felt sorry for me and passed me anyways
[What do you drive] 95 ISUZU Pup (Pick UP), inline 4 cyclinder 2.3L with a top horsepower of 100lbs/ft and a top torque of 130lbs/ft i believe. 5 speed standard

Favorites:
[Color] black
[Number] the crazy ones... like PI, and Infinity, and Plank's Constant... mmmm..
[Vehicle] MINE of coarse
[Flower] never been fond of them myself
[Scent] Armani Mania. Spensive', but WELL WORTH IT
[Drinks] Cowboy! It tastes the way leather smells! rough and tumble!
[Soda] fresca black cherry with citrus roxxorz!
[Book] HOT ZONE, JURASSIC PARK, The Hitchhiker's Guide Trilogy, the Gnostic Bible (not sure what copy i have)

Do you...
[Color your hair?] I want to put a bit of green in it, but i dont think it'd fit the new corporate environment I'm currently working in, ghetto as it may be
[Twirl your hair?] not long enough enymore
[Have tattoo(s)?] Hai! the japanese symbol for dragon.
[Have Piercing's?] NONE. And i aim to keep it that way.
[Have a boyfriend/girlfriend] No I'm so alone
[Cheat on tests?] Hell no. I earned all my D's and F's the old fashioned way. LAZINESS
[drink/smoke?] Have done both. Not currently in the habit of doing either.
[Like roller coasters?] Those BASTARDS closed down SIX FLAGS ASTROWORLD here in HOUSTON!!! *bawls* I loveded the coasters' there.
[Wish you could live somewhere else?] Hell yeah.
[Want more piercings?] NEVAR!!! I refuuuuse!
[Like cleaning?] Oh what joy. I havent touched the bathroom in ages But it doesnt get that dirty anyways
[Write in cursive or print?] Print. I hate cursive. It's lazy and rediculous.
[Sweat a lot?] Depends on what I'm doing I guess...
[Own a web cam?] YES!!! Now if only I had the software to make it work... dunno where that damned disc went
[Know how to drive?] yes, and everyone ELSE doesnt, and that's my story and I'm sticking to it!
[Diet?] I neeeed tooo
[Own a cell phone?] YES! I just don't have service on it! ZING. and I may terminate my contract with Verizon early as I've screwed up on there enough already, and switch over to Nextel since I get a discount with them for being employed by them (indirectly)
[Ever get off the damn computer?] sure... sometimes i have to eat or work

Have you ever...
[Gotten a speeding ticket?] Damn straight. I wouldnt wanna live in a world where i hadnt XD
[Been in a wreck?] Yep! Some idiot hit me from behind. WHILE I WAS AT A STOP LIGHT!!! RETARDED JACKHOLE!!!
[Been arrested?] The FBI still doesnt know it was me!!!
[Been in a fist fight?] No, but I've been punched
[Kicked someone?] Not really
[Stolen anything?] maliciously? not really.
[Held a gun?] yep... it felt as stupid as it looked.
[Drank?] o.O is this a trick question?
[Been so drunk you couldn't remember your name?] Aye
[Considered a life of crime?] Of coarse. I considered it retarded.
[Considered being a hooker?] I dont think guys can be hookers :/
[Cheated on someone?] Hell no. That's just retarded.
[Cried over a girl?] Naw
[Cried over a boy?] Hell No.
[Lied to someone?] Of coarse. But I dont make it a habit, and almost never do these days. No reason to
[Been in love?] o.O Define love!

[How many times?] Still waiting for th...

Halloween? ALREADY!?

~DarkZombie — Mon, 31 Oct 2005 21:57:36 PST

I wanted to do some halloweenish stuff this year, but nothing panned out. being broke outta my mind didnt help. I know! "boo"! scary, neh? there's my halloween action for this year. sad isnt it?

Devious Journal Entry

~DarkZombie — Sat, 15 Oct 2005 09:29:45 PDT

I thought this was pertty good. Ended up in a convo earlier today, an is now the thought of the day! " These days, heros dont save lives, heros OD on heroine at 3am one tuesday night after a failed rock concert and are celebrated for years afterward."

ghosts in the hallway! boo! spooky!

~DarkZombie — Sun, 09 Oct 2005 21:34:56 PDT

Go see a ghost wandering a hallway! a collaboration done by Derringer-Girl and I. [link] She did the photography and editing, all i did was slap it together in image ready and i still managed to continually screw it up. but in my defense, i have never used it before. :/

japanese name generator

~DarkZombie — Thu, 06 Oct 2005 20:48:04 PDT

I have generated a name! and it is almost as horrific as the original!

My japanese name is ç¿æ¸¡ Saruwatari (monkey on a crossing bridge) ä¸ç Kazuma (one reality).
Take your real japanese name generator! today!
Created with Rum and Monkey's Name Generator Generator.

an interesting thingy...

~DarkZombie — Tue, 04 Oct 2005 20:15:12 PDT

Apparently it is LAW that I do this as well. Lila May QT put this in her journal, and I responded. Now I am obliged to both, respond back, and post this in my journal for others to respond to. PLEASE only respond if we've actually spoken before. if not, it'll be hard to come up with answers

If you reply to this journal:

1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal. You MUST. It is written.

zombie trap!

~DarkZombie — Tue, 04 Oct 2005 09:57:41 PDT

I can't believe it! My absolutely wonderful and sweet freind Katrina (derringer-girl) brought my zombie trap to life!!! see it here! [link] it's the greatest zombie trap evar! woot! Those zombies are as good as captured!

EDIT: Oct 20 - 23.... ONI-CON!!!! Houston is having it's own little anime-shin dig. It's nearby too... by the astrodome in a giant hotel! The Houston Grand Plaza, as they have apparently changed their name. I wasnt informed of this. I've seen the place, and it's frighteningly classy. I'm sure someone will break something important and Houston will be banned as a potential location for anime cons I'm pretty sure no one I know will be there... BUT maybe that's a good thing. With so much anime stuff I'm sure to make a fool outta myself. Bwuah ha ha ha ha! I'll only be attending the weekend days, as i will be working til then. It's apparently 4 days long. ^_^

ouch

~DarkZombie — Sat, 01 Oct 2005 21:39:39 PDT

SOMEBODY SHOOT ME. I can't stop listening to Hybrid Rainbow by the Pillows. Yeah, it's jap pop. From Fooly Cooly. It's the song playing as Canti flies into the air on angelic wings with halo atop. The pillows are an altogether incredible band. Addictive like soda pop.
In other news, I must shortly state how lucky I am. I got a free glass top table, a free recliner, a free TV antanae, AND a free subwoofer which i hooked up to my comp for a fuller range of music. Mmmm... i had to tone it down a bit as even 75 watts is enough to shake the walls of my poor little apartment. The vibrations were causing distortion.
Just saw Robots at the parents house. I don't think I'll ever watch anything fully CGI animated EVER AGAIN!!! That movie was so full of bad puns, and horribly FLAT jokes that I wanted to knaw my legs off to escape... but as I realized i needed them TO escape, I decided to keep em. ^_^
If I find somewhere to be on halloween, I wanna be a zombie. But I'll prolly end up not finding anywhere to be and staying home and tossing candy out the door at little trick or treat-ers.
I am broke. VERY VERY broke. I have a handful of change to my name. LITERALLY. But I will make ends meet. And I start a new job (well training for sed job, but more importantly, PAID training ) Monday. So I still rock! Woot!
And that is all. You may now go.