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Lately I've been working to re-assess my priorities, being that my passion for gaming is finally on the back burner as I am not trying to decide what the do with my life. I would like to pursue some form of art but honestly with my lack of formal training and the lack of time and money to buy the books i need to just sketch draw all day from instruction.... yeah. My progress in that department is some-what limited. Granted I have seen improvement over the years from where I have started from but nothing too significant, I can hardly draw bodies and hands/feet still are a bane. Coloring/shading I must work on and the details of anatomy are also a priority. So if any artists out there that happen to read this and with to have a slave, -er i mean pupil, let me know. I need a master to teach me the ways.

So going back to stuff that I can actually do, my current projects are to: Complete an Emote Set for each of my characters from my story world. Actually start writing the chapters instead of keeping them as outlines and what have you. Oh and sometime this decade, graduate from college. A humble list, not.

Also for any who read this and are interested in acquiring my emotes of their own characters, I'd be willing to open commission slots for them. *snort* Fat chance anyone would pay monies for my stuff, but offer is out there none the less! Since this more informal opening of slots, just note me with the title: "Emote Commission" and I will get back to you as soon as I can.

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My Art teacher would always have us do random assignments, using her printing press, or what ever it was...She'd have us make random ink blotches and then press them on paper and then try to create something out of it. I could not stand that. While the others were busy with making her happy, I snuck off to the computer lab to edit photos for the school newspaper and yearbook committee. For a while i felt a sense of pride that *I* could edit these pictures, and I concidered these edited pictures a work of art. But then I later asked that same imaginary friend, " Is this truely art?". I could just imagine that friend smiling to me and putting his hand on my shoulder and say, "If you question the very nature of your art then you cannot ask someone else to tell you if it is or if it is not."

Do I question the nature of my art? I thought I found my art, by editing pictures for the school. I was very disturbed by this for a few weeks. I pondered upon weither or not editing the school photos really was a form of art. Where else could there possibily be art of this nature in the world? I began to ask myself that over and over. I decided that instead of beating my head over it, that I would take a trip to the Moder Art Museam of San Fransico. From the moment I walked into that building, a sense of dread fell apon me. As I looked around I saw great piece of art, all constructed or painted in various curious fashions. The journey through the museam seemed to wake me up some. I even saw examples of the very art that I thought was my own, editied photos. But these weren't mere editing where certain profane T-shirts were blurred out or just made completely black and white. But these were genious edited versions of many things. I remember one was of an edited picture of a beautiful girl on a horse. I remember staring at that the piece for what seemed like hours. I curse my poor memory for not being able to remember the name of the piece nor the artist, I've never had a good memory of such things. As I traveled up through the galleries I finally came to one piece of "art" in particular, again artist and name of picture elude my attempts to recall the moment exactly but here is the best I can do. I remember the canvas being large in size, much taller than myself. And it was all white, untouched. And at the very center of the picture was a big, red DOT. This infuriated me. This wasn't art! This was more like the Japanese flag! Not art at all! As I glanced once more at the piece and in a puff of smoke I stormed out of the building and never have returned since. It's simplicity was what infuriated me the most at the time. And then I looked at what I was doing and I saw the same simplicity, nothing creative, just the same thing over and over again. "Why do you care so much about that?" My friend would ask, my only reply would be, "Because it symbolizes just how much time I have wasted, time I could have used improving myself in other mediums," and I for one cannot stand having my time wasted. I quit my position of editing the photos shortly there-after.

In fact, after that I never went back to art class. For a long time I saw art as a fraud, as a sham, nothing new or creative. It had been all done before. Want with my fury came rage, anger and depression. And it was in this dark time that those pictures in my head turned to grey and dissapeared. For a period of two years, the bright pictures in my head were gone, and I was left with nothing. I would ever give reason that my "friend" would have gone off to never speak to me again. I was alone for the longest time. It was so very lonely, and that was all I could ever think about, was about how alone I was. I began to become bitter and snappy at those around me, I particularlly got jealous of other artists, especially a few of the really talented ones at our school. A few were my friends from before, and the... ]]> ~Darkin http://Darkin.deviantart.com/journal/1291518/ http://Darkin.deviantart.com/journal/1291518/ Sat, 18 Oct 2003 03:55:41 PDT ~Darkin