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Mood:
Listening To: "Riddle Box" by ICP.
Reading: Monster.
Watching: Saw II.

New account peeps! BOOYEAH!!! O_O Cya there! ]]> ~Darth-Ambzilla http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/8409751/ http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/8409751/ Sat, 08 Apr 2006 16:15:30 PDT Listening To: Nothing.
Reading: Monster.
Watching: Saw II.

[link] - I'm tempted to start crying again. Oie. I would say he's in a better place than I am, but I'm still trying to figure out what I really believe in. Blargh.

Besides all that wonderful (sarcasm...) stuff, I just finally watched Saw II. That muscular dude fucking pissed me off throughout the whole movie! ARGH!!!! *stabs his ugly face* I was like... screaming at the movie when he threw the chick into those needles and crud. I was all like, "YOU'RE SO DAMN TOUGH, YOU FUCKING DO IT!!!!!" My mom was scared, she had to come up here to see if I was okay. xD; Heheh, I do tend to get a lil' over-excited during horror movies. But ARGH, that guy's a frikkin' TERD!!!!!

*cough* I'm okay now. *twitching*

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BUDDEH!!!! *tackles*



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[link] ]]> ~Darth-Ambzilla http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/8403174/ http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/8403174/ Fri, 07 Apr 2006 22:51:56 PDT BUDDEH!!!




My Wonderful Watchers

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On the bright side... I'm looking for the old Space Jam figures on e-bay... I lost-ed all mine as a kid and now I vant them. xD; I CAN HAVE CHILDREN'S TOYS AND NOT BE A BABY, DAMNIT!!! *cries, rocks back and forth, sucking on thumb*


Mood:
Listening To: "Bitches" by ICP.
Reading: Monster.
Watching: The Flavor of Love- reunion. (*dies laughing*)

I wanted to get the other journal entry off of there. I'm feeling slightly better. Still sad, but better.

Haha, after watching TFOL reunion special, I'm laughing so hard... Does anyone else here watch that stuff? I love Goldie, she should've won damnit, but oh well.

Didn't go to school today so I'm dreding tomorrow, but oh well. At least it'll be Friday.

Things'll slowly start getting better, which makes me feel a bit more postitive. YAY!

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[link] ]]> ~Darth-Ambzilla http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/8378069/ http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/8378069/ Thu, 06 Apr 2006 07:14:28 PDT

My uncle leroy died of bone cancer... I guess he's had it for years and never told us. That's why he's been hanging around the past few years. Argh, he was really nice and even though I didn't know him as well as some people, I'm still crying. I remember how much he like my art and stuff. ;_; Argh... so that's... FOUR funerals in one year? Wonderful.


Mood: Relieved slightly.
Reading: Monster.
Listening To: "Bitches" by ICP.
Watching: Space Jam.

Can you guys do me a favor? Leave me comments on my page? I really want Alli's dumbassed-ness off my page so I can go on with my life without seeing her shit everytime I go on here. Please? It just really pisses me off she won't admit the way she's treated me and how she has the nerve to try to make ME feel bad. -_-; I won't cry though. Stupid bitches with no brain aren't worth that. And I want you to all know how much I appreciate you guys out there. I'm glad that I have some good friends... no, make that GREAT friends. Without you all, I couldn't get through everything I've been going through. I love you guys so much, you couldn't possibly know how greatful I am. And that goes to all my online and real life buddies. I you guys. And I'm sorry I've been so stressed and stuff lately, but once I get all this crap behind me, I feel I can be a happier person. At least I hope so. I mean, we all have our lil' or big problems occasionally, but this shit's just been eating me from the inside out for a long time. With it behind me, I'll feel happier. So yeah, I love you guys and thanks for all the support. ]]> ~Darth-Ambzilla http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/8376026/ http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/8376026/ Wed, 05 Apr 2006 18:13:22 PDT
And have you ever hated somebody so much, you'd give ANYTHING just to stab them in the face? I have. *big grin*


Mood:
Listening To: "Tear You Apart" by She Wants Revenge.
Reading: Monster.
Watching: All Dogs Go To Heaven (haha, I've been feeling like watching a lot of old movies I haven't seen since I was younger...)

HAHA!!! I TOLD THE BITCH OFF!!! I FINALLY DID IT!!! RELIEF AND HAPPINESS ARE MY ONLY FEELINGS!!! I'm done pretending to be nice!!! AHAHAHAHAHAAAAAAAAAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!! *falls off chair*

... yes. The rest of today went kinda good, I guess. The jackass teacher apologized and went on about how he feels really bad. I cried too, which probably helped with his feeling bad. *smirk* I WANT TO BE AN ACTRESS!!! *cough* ... so yeah... I'm still in his class, but at least he knows if he treats me bad, my dad will have his head chopped off and put up as a trophy. And all first hour, I hung-out with Jaeden and Daniel. *squees and falls over* We were being so perverted. Jaeden n' me had Daniel looking up "orgasm", "orgy", etc. in the dictionary. I had Jaeden rolling when I said something I'd rather not go into detail about on here because it's a long story... But I've NEVER seen him laugh that hard. And in 5th hour we all got on the computers and I was looking up pictures of Carmen Electra and Jenna Jameson for them. When I told Daniel about the bi thing (because it was kinda obvious... *dur!*) he got this funny look on his face and was all like, "*in dreamy voice* I'm starting to like you more and more..." Haha, I think he was joking, but it still made-ed me happy. I was tempted to say, "I HOPE SO!!!!!!!! O_O" But I kinda resisted. Heheh, I can SEE the horrified look on your face, Sam! I CAN JUST SEE IT!!!!!! O_O *ker-point* Lunch was awesome toooo... THONG MAN!!!!!!!! *cough*

Haha, so yeah... I'm in a pretty good mood. I'm back to my normal self too. Since like... Janurary, I haven't been my usual self. It was hard for me to talk to people and everyday was just... bad. So yeah, I'm feeling happy and unusually outgoing once again. YAY!!! Though, I feel like a lost puppy whenever I'm... well, ANYWHERE... since I can't see. I swear I could get lost in a school hallway... or classroom... hell, at this point, I'm thinking I could get lost in a freaking chair. ; Which reminds me, someone peed in a chair in one of the upstairs computer labs. A girl came down to the nurse's office in an extreme need of pants after sitting in the peed-upon chair. Ewwww. What I wonder is why the person that DID it didn't come downstairs for a nice change of clothing. O_o Note to self: stay away from people with wet pants....

Well, I'm outtie, y'all! *west-side symbol thingy*


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[link] ]]> ~Darth-Ambzilla http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/8367221/ http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/8367221/ Tue, 04 Apr 2006 18:57:33 PDT Listening To: "Get Stoned" by Hinder.
Reading: Monster.
Watching: Space Jam.


Yesterday started as a really good day. Jaeden, Daniel, and one of Jensen's hot friends hit on meh. Argh, it's fun. So yeah, everything was going good until art. Right when I walk in, I'm in a good mood, I smile and I'm ready to say hi to that asshole teacher when he starts screaming at me, telling me he wants me to sit at a different seat than I usually do. I'm like, 'WTF?!", but as the fucker requests, I sit in Julya's seat instead. Then halfway through class, I'm not even talking to Jessica or anything, he comes over and starts screaming at me, saying that he told me to move.

Me: You told me to switch seats, I did!

Mr. Roseyass (wonderful lil' nickname for him): That's not what I mean!!! *goes on screaming for like an hour* ... I want to you to switch tables!

Me: ... why?

R: ... because.

Me: ... because... why?

R: ... it's not just YOU! I switch everybody around!!!

Me: ... urm, you're only moving ME.

R: Well.... yeah!

Me: ... *moves to other table*

So I was basically stuck sitting with a bunch of preppy bitches that hate me. They kept giving me death glares and I was the ONLY one there wearing black. It was embarrasing as fuck, but does the asshole care? Nope. I was trying to be nice and smile and start a conversation with the bitches, but they completely ignored me. One of 'em smiled at me, but it looked like she caught herself and was like "oops!" and started glaring at me again. I'm going, '...WTF?' Are people really THAT fucking stupid over stereotypes? Argh. But this isn't the only time that art teacher's done shit to me over NOTHING. So I told the nurse yesterday and started crying and shit. My parents found out and my dad called the teacher and screamed at him, he was so pissed. It was funny because I guess the teach made-up a bunch of stupid excuses and crap. Today I talked to the counselor and I guess he gave her the same lame-assed excuses so I'm stuck coming in tomorrow morning to talk to him and her. Yay. Fuck. The nurse told me he told her stuff too. She was telling me that he was talking about my dad yelling at him and crap and she had to keep herself from laughing. Haha, Noreen's so cool. Julya, Carolyn, and meh already decided we're doing something for her at the end of the year. So I basically spent all of 6th and 7th hour talking to her and stuff. It was cool, but I'm worried as hell about tomorrow because I know he's gonna keep giving excuses and the counselor will probably side with him. Ha, it's ironic. People that're actually PAID to listen do the worst job of it. But I don't care what happens, I'm getting out of his fucking class, I shouldn't have to take his shit. Everything else is going so damn great all of a sudden, and this shit just explodes in my face. It's fucking annoying, especially when there's not much school left. Julya was complaining about my switching classes earlier, but I guess he treated her like shit all day so right when she walks up to me, she hands me this paper that you use to switch classes and she was all like, "We're switching to drama, lil' buddy!" Haha, I love her so much. So yeah... wish me luck with tomorrow and hope I don't die painfully. Like I told Noreen, I'll probably start crying when I talk to the fucker (I've been uber sensitive and emotional lately). But she just said that'd be better to make him feel bad. Though, I'm not as good at explaining stuff when I'm crying... Blargh. I dunno, I guess I should stop worrying for now. It won't do much good.

BTW, I lost my glasses in Idaho Springs and I'm gonna be blind until I get new ones or contacts... hopefully contacts. I look so much better without glasses. ;>_> But yeah, I guess it's not that bad. I just feel kinda rude if I don't smile at everybody because I can't tell if they're smiling at me or not. ; Haha, my eyes suck.

C'ya all later mah homie-g dawgs. *west-side symbol hand gesture thingy*

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[link] ]]> ~Darth-Ambzilla http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/8334028/ http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/8334028/ Sun, 02 Apr 2006 03:07:49 PDT


Mood: Blah.
Listening To: "Emo Kid" by Adam and Andrew
Reading: Monster.
Watching: Nothings.

Argh, back to school on Monday. Kill me now. NOW, I SAY!!! O_O Break's practically over and I haven't done ANYTHING worthwhile. But then again, do I ever? -_-;

I was supposed to stay at Nana's today, but I guess not now. Maybe they'll change their minds later, but I 'unno. Blargh. I'd just be stuck cleaning anyways since tomorrow is my long-lost (haha) uncle's b-day. I don't wanna go because it means seeing Sydney. Fuck. Whatev... I'll just try to ignore her bitchy bratiness. Like that's easy.

Amber is in a bad mood and considers stabbing herself in the face with a spork. Amber is starting to think she's hated by everybody. Amber is gonna go die now...


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[link] ]]> ~Darth-Ambzilla http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/8299721/ http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/8299721/ Tue, 28 Mar 2006 22:04:18 PST Listening To: "Chicken Huntin'" by ICP
Reading: Monster.
Watching: Nothin'.

Stolen from

[x] I am shorter than 5'4.
[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[x] I have many scars.
[ ] I tan easily.
[x] I wish my hair was a different color.
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[x] I have/I've had braces.
[x] I wear glasses.
[ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[x] I have more than 2 piercings.
[ ] I have piercings in places besides my ears
[ ] I have freckles.

Family/Home Life

[x] I've sworn at my parents.
[x] I've run away from home.
[ ] I've been kicked out of the house.
[x] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[x] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've had children.
[ ] I've lost a child.

School/Work

[x] I'm in school.
[ ] I have a job.
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[x] I almost always do my homework.
[x] I've missed a week or more of school.
[x] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[x] I've stolen something from my job
[ ] I've been fired.
[x] I've skipped school.

Embarrassment

[x] I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[ ] Disney movies still make me cry.
[x] I've peed from laughing.
[x] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[x] I've glued my hand to something
[x] I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
[x] I've had my pants rip in public

Health

[ ] I was born with a disease/impairment.
[ ] I've gotten stitches.
[x] I've broken a bone.
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[x] I've sat in a doctors office with a friend.
[ ] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I've had chicken pox.

Traveling

[ ] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[x] I've been on a plane.
[ ] I've been to Canada.
[x] I've been to Mexico.
[ ] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[ ] I've Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[ ] I've been to Europe.
[ ] I've been to Africa.

Experiences

[x] I've gotten lost in my city.
[ ] I've seen a shooting star.
[ ] I've wished on a shooting star.
[ ] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[ ] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator
[x] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[ ] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[x] I've been an abuse victim.
[ ] I've gone skinny dipping.
[ ] I've played spin the bottle.
[x] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] I've crashed a car.
[ ] I've been Skiing
[x] I've been in a play.
[ ] I've met someone in person from the internet.
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ ] I've seen the Northern Lights.
[x] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[ ] I've played chicken.
[x] I've played a prank on someone.
[x] I've ridden in a taxi.
[ ] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[ ] I've eaten Sushi.
[ ] I've been snowboarding.
[ ] I've been bungee jumping.

Relationships

[x] I'm single
[ ] I'm in a relationship.
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[x] I've had someone cheat on me.
[ ] I've gone on a blind date.
[ ] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[ ] I have a fear of commitment.
[x] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've cheated in a relationship.
[ ] I've gotten divorced
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[ ] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[ ] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[x] I've kept something from a past relationship.

Sexuality

[x] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex
[x] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[ ] I love to flirt.
[ ] I've been kissed in the rain.
[x] I've hugged a stranger.
[ ] I have kissed... ]]> ~Darth-Ambzilla http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/8294423/ http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/8294423/ Tue, 28 Mar 2006 12:10:38 PST Listening To: "Chicken Huntin'" by ICP.
Reading: Monster.
Watching: Nothin'.

I have to wear my rubberbands on different teeth now and please allow me to say... I want to rip my teeth out. I'd rather not have teeth at all than go through this shit to have a nice smile. Then parents took me to a crappy place last night. Idaho Springs, was it? It sucked my balls. MY BALLS!!! We ended-up just staying one night, thank the clouds. I had nightmares all last night too. I woke-up crying and shit. Fun. I'd rather not go into detail about it. And today I wanted to go to a bookstore on the way home. OH, GOD FORBID!!! I might as well just go play video games like a normal teenager. So yeah, WONDERFUL spring break so far. WHEEEEEE!!!!

Isn't it funny when someone can't take a hint? I think it's the only thing that's made me laugh all day...

I think I'm gonna sleep since I didn't do much of that last night. C'ya peeps.

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[link] ]]> ~Darth-Ambzilla http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/8272500/ http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/8272500/ Sun, 26 Mar 2006 08:24:56 PST
Listening To: "My Axe" by ICP.
Watching: Jurassic Park.
Reading: Nothin'.

W00T!!! The museum was so much fun! We didn't get to see the bodies until the very end (because 3:15 was the only time we could get tickets for), so we went to the rest of the places first. The dinosaurs looked about the same as they did the last time I went, but twas still cool. It really makes me wish Jurassic Park was real... I mean, if they did it RIGHT instead of to where everyone dies. But yeeeaaaahh... Julya's dad knows A LOT about science... She wouldn't listen to him though, so I did because I wanted to be nice. He did have a lot of interesting facts to listen to though. I think that's why he likes me so much though, I actually listen. Haha. I like the rest of Julya's family, but I'm pretty glad they didn't hang-out with us the whole time. Her mom's pretty bitchy (though she's nice to me) and her step-dad really creeps me out (he kept giving me weird looks and he actually had his hand on my hip at one point, I was like "WTF?!"). Her sis is cool though... she should've hung-out with us, but she didn't. Blah. But yeah... we went to the IMAX theater too. I was freaking out the whole time because of my lil' phobia, but Julya was cool about it and I had my head on her shoulder with her head on mine half the time, which really helped. Argh, I hate my stupid phobia though... I know of other people out there that have it, but I'm the only one I actually KNOW that has it. It sucks my balls. Maybe I could go to a hypnotist or something? Blah, I dunno. The movie was kinda lame though... basically about how the brain works. Not very cool, just basic stuff I already knew. After that Julya, her dad, n' meh went up to this place on the 4th floor that was kinda like a balcony... The view was freaking awesome... You could see a lake, the park, a bunch of uber tall buildings, and the mountains. All in one landscape, it looked pretteh cooool. On the way up there, Julya and me broke into ICP song, "My axe is my BUDDY, I bring him when I WALK, me and my axe will leave your head outlined in CHALK... EVERYBODY, EVERYBODY, EVERYBODY RUN! MURDERING, MURDERING, MURDERING FUN! SWING, SWING, SWING, CHOP, CHOP CHOP! SWING, SWING, SWING, CHOP, CHOP, CHOP!!!" Haha, I saw this one guy giving us weird looks. Then we went down to this place by the elevators with a bunch of red chairs and couches. Julya and meh took random pictures with her dad's cell phone and we called Carolyn just to moles-*cough* I mean... bug... her... yeah. And then we got in line to look at the bodies... We were in the line for like... over an hour, but it was worth it. There were so many displays for body parts... I'm really surprised all that crap fits in our body. O_o The polycystic liver was fucking CREEPY though. I got shudders from just looking at it. Yuck. But I got to hold a brain, heart, and a liver. The dead bodies were cool... Most of 'em were standing up in funky positions or whatever. They had a dead pregnant chick too, it showed the fetus in her stomach and stuff. Then they had a bunch of aborted fetuses and stuff in a seperate room. I'm not really surprised at how controversial people are about the whole thing, but they really shouldn't be, since these people freakin' DONATED their bodies to science. It's not like these people were dug-up from a cemetary and just put on display. THAT would be sick. I think I kinda wanna donate my body to something like this when I die... I'd rather that than be burned or buried underground. *shudder* But yis... They had this guy with 6 fingers on each hand and 6 toes on each foot. I kinda wish I had that... At least, if they looked normal. One of the guy's fingers was hanging off of his other one, which looked really gross... And pretty much all the guys still had their manhood... haha... And this one chick had her "part" there too... which was gross because it was still fuzzy... *twitch* And they had a fat guy sliced in half, next to a skinny guy sliced in half. You could REALLY tell the difference there... This other dude was exploded... looked cool... but that's not a way I'd like to die... But yeah, they had a bunch of cool stuff there. Twas fun. The giftshop kinda sucked though. The only thing I really wanted was the cute stuffed llama, but I didn't have enough money and I wasn't gonna ask for it. Blargh. But I could've NEVER went to something like that a few years ago. Now I'm not really bugged at all... I can even watch live surgeries and stuff on the discovery-health channel. But I'... ]]> ~Darth-Ambzilla http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/8261907/ http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/8261907/ Sat, 25 Mar 2006 05:29:26 PST
Listening To: "My Axe " by ICP.
Watching: Dodgeball.
Reading: Nothing at the mo.

Does anybody here know why the comments on my last journal aren't showing-up? Does anybody else have this problem? Could it be from system maitenance and crap? It's not a majorly big deal, I'm just curious...

I got like... 3 inches chopped off my hair yesterday. It looks different, but I like eet.

Going to the mueseum with Julya in a couple hours. IT'S GONNA BE AWESOME!!!! Haha, dead bodies, wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!! And maybe IMAX... hopefully... But yeah, it shall be fun.

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[link] ]]> ~Darth-Ambzilla http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/8250459/ http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/8250459/ Thu, 23 Mar 2006 21:06:34 PST Listening To: Random ICP and Slipknot songs.
Watching: Jurassic Park.
Reading: Nothing.

(some of these I did last week, I think...)

1.0.F.A.V.O.R.I.T.E.S.

TV show: South Park
Flower: White and red roses.
Name Brands: I dunno...
Movie: Can't choose just one...
Color: Black.
Sport: Swimming or basketball.
Quote: "You make your jokes! Mr. Jokey... Joke-Maker..."
Mall: Westminister or Flat Irons.
Music: Rap or metal.
Food: Too many...

.1.0.F.A.C.T.S.

Height: 5'1
Hair Color: Blonde... yaaay...
Hair length: Lil' past shoulders.
Hair style: Um... normal?
Eye color: Hazel.
B-day: 12/16/1991
Personality: Funny at times, usually really nice... unless you're an asshole shithead, then yeah...

.1.0.L.I.F.E.

How's life? Tis okay.
Whats your mood right now?: I dunno... Ish.
What are you doing right now?: Filling this out and listening to ICP, haha...
What are you doing over the weekend?: Humping- I mean... hanging-out with Julya at the museum...
What do you want to do with your life?: Eat pie...
Where are you right now?: My house...

.1.0.L.O.V.E.L.I.F.E.

Have you ever been in love: Yep.
Do you believe in love?: Yis.
Why did your last relationship fail? He cheated.
Have you ever had your heart broken?: Yep.
Have you ever broken someones heart?: Yeah.
Have you ever fallen for your best friend?: Yep.
Are you planning on getting married?: Yeah.
Are you afraid of committment?: No.

.1.0.R.A.N.D.O.M.S.

One thing sitting next to you: Bizarre's sexy CD...
Do you like the color purple? Yis.
How many cds do you own? 100+
Longest phone conversation? Like... 5 hours?
What is your most prized posession? Many things... pictures, CDs, movies, rings, etc...
Who's your closest relative? My mom or Nana...
If you could go anywhere? Mexico again!!!
If you could change ONE thing about yourself: My gut!

.1.0.T.H.I.S.O.R.T.H.A.T.S.

Pepsi or coke?: Pepsi.
CD or Radio?: CD.
Tommy Boy or Black Sheep?: Neither...
Saturday or Sunday?: Saturday.
Colored or black and white?: Colored.
Phone or in person?: In person.
carpet or wood floors? Wood.
chocolate or vanilla?: Chocolate.
wheat or white? Wheat.
peas or carrots? Neither...

.1.0.H.A.V.E.Y.O.U.E.V.E.R.S.

Have you ever been caught sneaking out?: Yeah.
Have you ever fought someone?: Yeah.
Have you ever done something you regret?: Yep.
Have you ever bungee jumped?: I want to!
Have you ever been on a house boat?: No.
Have you ever finished an entire jaw breaker?: No thanks..
Have you ever wanted someone so badly it hurt?: YES!!!

.1.0.A.R.E.Y.O.U.S.

Are you missing someone right now?: Yeah.
Are you in love with anyone?: YES... *dies*
Are you happy?: Kinda.
Are you talking to anyone right now?: Yeah.
Are you thirsty?: No.
Are you bored?: No.
Are you German?: No... *cries*
Are you Irish?: Yep.
Are your parents still married?: Yeah, but they shouldn't be...
Are you crushing on someone?: Yep...

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100 have u evers?

1. Made out for more than 3 minutes? Nope... *cries*

2. Slept in a different bed? Yep.

3. Made out in a movie theatre? Nah.

4. Made out in the forest? No.

5. Thought your cousin was hot? Yeah, this older guy cousin of mine... but I didn't know he was my cousin at the time. Blah.

7. Slept naked? Yeah, LOL. IT WAS HOT OUT, OKAY?! *hides Biz pics behind back*

8. Taken a shower with the opposite sex? My dad when I was younger... *shudders at the thought*

9. Gone over the speed limit? No...

10. Painted your room? No. My parents did though...

11. Drove a car? No.

12. Danced in front of your mirror? Yis, LOL.

13. Gotten a hicky? No, heheh...

14. Been dumped? No.

15. Stole money from friend? No.

16. Gotten in a car with people you just met? No.

17. Been in a fist fight? Yeah.

18. Snuck out of your house? Not MY house, no.

19. Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back? Yep.

20. Been arrested? Not yet... *cough*

21. Made out with a stranger? Nope.

22. Left your house with out telling your parents? No.

23. Had a crush on your neighbor? Yeah, when I was younger.

24. Ditched school to do something more fun? Yeah.

25. Slept in a bed with a member of the same sex? Yeah.
~Darth-Ambzilla http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/8241087/ http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/8241087/ Wed, 22 Mar 2006 21:35:58 PST Listening To: "My Axe" and "I Don't Care" by ICP.
Reading: Nothin'.
Watching: Space Jam-ness.

HAPPYHAPPYHAPPY!!!!! I'M HAPPY!!!! This week has been a good week so far. I dunno why, but it has... Actually, teachers have been PMS-ing more than usual, but oh well. Because next week is spring break. And THAT, my friends, is a good thing. And only 2 months before I get out of this shit-hole school! YAY! And Julya's taking me to the museum this weekend... They have a bunch of dead bodies and stuff you can look at. IT'S GONNA BE AWESOME!!! *cough* ... Haha, I'm so morbid... but oh well.... it's fun. So yeah, things are nice at the mo. FOR ONCE, LIEK OMG!!!!11one1 Oh, and I'm starting to like Jaeden again... I was feeling lonely in extensions so I just went over and sat with him. We spent the whole class hour playing a bad game of air-hockey with a penny and just talking about stuff. And in science, Brandon was gone, so Jaeden just came up and sat with me again. *dies* When he's not TRYING to be an ass, he's a really sweet guy. ARGH, I'M HAPPY!!!!! SQUEEEEEEEEEEE!!!! I think I'm gonna rock-out now, c'ya peeps. *runs off, squealing likka... something on crack...*

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[link] ]]> ~Darth-Ambzilla http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/8214723/ http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/8214723/ Mon, 20 Mar 2006 08:25:34 PST
Listening To: "Wings of a Butterfly" by HIM
Reading: Nothing.
Watching: Dodgeball and Space Jam (I find myself obsessed yet again...)

I missed school, YET AGAIN, because of snow. And my mom's got some kinda flu so I guess that's part of it too. I really don't wanna miss anymore, but what can I do? I'm not walking to school in this shit...

Anywho... mah buddeh, Sam, just joined us here at dA. EVERYONE SAY HI!!!!

As to other stuffs... I'm starting the whole Slim Fast thing today... I'm only gonna replace one or two meals with it because it'll probably be unhealthy to not at least have one normal meal a day... But yeah, I realized that ALL of my body is muscle except for my flabby gut... which has lead me to believe I need to stop eating boxes of cookies by the cart-full... Going through 6 boxes in 3 days can't be healthy. xD; So yeah, from now on, I'm health freak. I don't like the sound of that, but it needs to be done.

I'm happy. It's a nice feeling I haven't had much the past few months. It's nice to have it back. ^__^ Wheeeeee!!!!

I'm gonna split. I LOVE YOU ALL!!!! *humps everyone and runs*

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[link] ]]> ~Darth-Ambzilla http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/8189908/ http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/8189908/ Fri, 17 Mar 2006 15:53:49 PST
Listening To: "Pimp Like Me" by D12
Reading: Nothing.
Watching: Dodgeball

Today was pretteh good. I had to search through my closet repeatedly last night to find a green shirt that doesn't have a stupid lil' Care Bear on it. I found one though so it's all good.

Art class is fun. The teacher's a complete ass-monkey, but the subject itself is nice. We did abstract art today. YAY FOR CIRCLES, DOTS, AND CURVED LINES!!!!!! *cough*

I'm considering what club to join in highschool. I want to GET INVOLVED!!! *gasp* I'm thinking either the art club or community service type stuff. w00t!

So yeah, that's basically all that's up. Oh, one more thingy... I looked up the precious Jamal Duff (Me'Shell dude) and he's 6'8. OMG THAT MAKES ME SO HAPPY!!! TALLNESS!!!!! I WANNA TOUCH HIM!!! *cough* Okay, I'm done. I swear.

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[link] ]]> ~Darth-Ambzilla http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/8172093/ http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/8172093/ Wed, 15 Mar 2006 19:07:12 PST Reading: Nothing.
Listening To: Nothing.
Watching: Dodgeball.

Today was frikkin' horrible for the most part... sitting next to Kyle REALLY pissed me off today... He kept saying stupid shit to me and flicking me in the head with pencils. I stabbed him as hard as I could with a REALLY sharp pencil in his leg, which made me feel slightly better but yeah... I feel like I have to sit there and take his shit because the stuff I REALLY want to say and do, I'd probably get suspended for doing. Argh. I nearly broke down like... 5 times... I really don't want to go tomorrow, but I have no choice. Yay for me. CSAP = Completely Stupid And Pointless.

I gashed my leg twice last night... Really big, deep cuts too. And now they feel all infected. How exciting.

I feel like watching Dodgeball. It might cheer me up out of this wonderful lil' mood of mine. I wanna die just a lil' bit. Just a LIL' TINY ITTY bit. I keep promising myself I'll get happier, but it's been over 3 months and it's still not happening. I'm gonna start exercising (yet again...) tonight and I'm gonna eat healthy. That might help some things. I think it's kinda funny that my parents yell at me about not eating healthy, but there aren't any fruits and vegetables around that don't belong to the turtle. Then they buy me four boxes of cookies at a time. Gee, why can't I eat right? There must be something terribly wrong with me.

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[link] ]]> ~Darth-Ambzilla http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/8152913/ http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/8152913/ Mon, 13 Mar 2006 19:03:52 PST
Listening To: "Wings of A Butterfly" by HIM
Watching: The Flavor of Love Finale
Reading: I forgot the name of it... I'll look later...

Today was good, but sucked at the same time. CSAP tests suck my BIG, BLUE, HAIRY BALLS!!!!! O_O The only good part was Sam sitting next to me... but Kyle was on the other side. Oh how I long to sock him in that ugly-assed head of his. I swear, you could switch his ass and his face around and you'd NEVER know the difference. Maybe they were already switched... all that ever comes out of his mouth is shit anyways... *cough* ANYwho, yeah... Carolyn, Julya, Sam, Teresa, and me are tending to have lil' after school orgies lately. WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!! LOL, the only thing that made my day nice was hanging with them. Art is kinda fun too since Julya, Jessica, and Neal are in it. I figured I hated Neal since we were best friends for 2 years, but he turned all goth... But he's not that bad anymore.... I just really miss the old him. The talkative, dorky, one... Not the goth, quiet, I supposedly hate everyone, one. But yeah, anywho... We're taking text and painting over them randomly. Tis kinda fun. I'm printing out "24" by Jem and I'm gonna take that in to paint. WHEEE!!! Besides knowing that I'm gonna be spending the next 3 days taking CSAP tests (KILL MEEEEE!!!!), there's only one thing that's made my day bad. Hec, it's made every day bad for a long time. Goddamnit, I wanna do something about it, but after some things were said to me, I'd feel like kind of a bitch if I did (even though I'd have a right to do it). I'm confused and dunno what to do. It's basically all that's been taking up my thoughts lately. Blargh.

C'ya peeps.

~ Ambz (aka. Mrs. Bizarre (ARGH I WANT TO TOUCH HIM SO BAD!!!!!!!!))

PS- I just saw Dodgeball the other day... OMG... I love it... Especially that one tall, muscular, black dude... Me'Shall? Or something? But I was drooling over him the whole time. SO BIG AND MUSCULAR!!! IMAGINE THE THINGS WE COULD DO-*cough* ... yeah. I like big dudes, so sue meh... The movie was funny too.

- White: "Your "gym" is a skidmark on the underpants of society!"

- White: "Go ahead, make your jokes, Mr. Jokey... Joke-maker..."

- White (again..): "Nobody makes me bleed my own blood! NOBODY!!!"

*ahem* ... yep. That guy had some good lines. Wheee!


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[link] ]]> ~Darth-Ambzilla http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/8143812/ http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/8143812/ Sun, 12 Mar 2006 21:05:11 PST Listening To: "Wings of a Butterfly" by HIM
Reading: Nothing really.
Watching: Nothing.

Well... today officially sucked my balls. First off, I feel like someone I liked for a really long time hates me. I kinda had a crush on him, but now I realize how stupid that is and he don't even act like he wants to talk to me anymore. So yay. Then the family came over... Minnie (grandma I don't like) brought this creepy guy "friend" of hers... Everyone else liked him, but he kept giving me these... weird looks. It creeped me out. And the cousins weren't as bad as they normally are. Sierra's a sweetie-pie, Sydney's the one that always bugs the shit out of me. It pisses me off so much because when I was younger, Uncle'd practically make me listen to Syd... Everyone else did too. Blah. And she'd always act like she likes me because I'd let her boss me around and whatever, but lately I haven't been doing every little thing she wants me to so she pretended to be sick so she could leave early. No complaints on my part, the less I have to see the little brat. I find it ironic she doesn't like me when I don't follow her every little demand. I'm not even mean about it, but she just fucking HAS to have her way. Whatever, hopefully I won't have to see her until Christmas. But besides that, my dad had me fucking bawling my eyes out over here in front of Nana and Papa because of a lot of stupid shit. Then he HAD to bring up homosexuality (grandparents don't know about me). He didn't even have to, but he did just to piss me off so I can hear about it, but I can't say anything because I don't want my grandparents to know. I was just sitting there crying. Goddamnit, I hate everything so much. The only people I love in my family are Nana, Papa, and Uncle... and sometimes my parents... depending on their soberness level... which is usually pretty low... So yeah, today sucked so much ass. And with CSAP tests and everything tomorrow, I just wanna crawl off and die... I hope it snows to where there's no school, but I doubt it. I swear it'd have to snow over 20 feet before they even THINK about closing OUR schools. On the news if it barely even sprinkles, other schools are closed or even delayed... I woke up and it was blizzarding so bad you couldn't see out the frikkin' WINDOW, all other schools were closed, ours? Nope. *snort* OH THE FUN!!!! I LOVE BEING IN A FUCKING GOOD MOOD, DON'T YOU???!!!

On a slightly happier note... I figured out how to post pics on my page on Myspace... YAY!


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[link] ]]> ~Darth-Ambzilla http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/8123694/ http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/8123694/ Fri, 10 Mar 2006 17:17:06 PST Listening To: "Rockstar" by the precious Bizzy.
Reading: Some stupid book I don't even remember the name of.
Watching: Nothing.

Okay... so I feel a way about somebody (not love, not a good "way"), but I don't know what to say or how to deal with it... because I figure as soon as I do, I'll regret it... but I've felt like this for a really long time and I'm trying to get up the courage to do something about it. Blah, it makes me feel sick to my stomach. -_-; Though... that might be because I just ate a whole pizza... And I think they feel the same awkward distance-ness, but they aren't really saying anything about it... Blah, life happens.

Besides that, today was good. ARGH, BRANDON IS SO DAMN PURDY!!!!! He was staring at me when I walked out of school today and I couldn't get myself to wave at him... I just kinda... stared. And Jensen waved and smiled at me! IT'S LIKE, ORGASM!!!!!!!! *cough* ... yeah. And I swear to the clouds, if either of them ever read this, I shall die. PAINFULLY. (*a lil' crowd of people go "YAY!!!"*)

Argh, my stomach really feels sick. I don't wanna throw-up anymore damnit!!! I've done enough of that the past few days!!!

Oh, and before I forget... Mesa signed up for highschool last night. LIEK YAY!!! I'm actually excited about it... It's an old school and it seems a lot more laid back than this damn middle school. Wheeeeeee!!! Extremely excited about getting out of this lil' hell! EXTREMELY!!! LETS FUCK TO CELEBRATE!!! LMAO, yes. I like coffee... AND COFFEE LIKES ME!!! *runs off*

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[link] ]]> ~Darth-Ambzilla http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/8064930/ http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/8064930/ Wed, 29 Mar 2006 23:23:33 PST
When you walk away, you don't hear me say,
please, oh baby, don't go,
Simple and Clean is the way that you're makin' me feel tonight,
it's hard to let it go

You're giving me
too many things lately,
you're all I need
You smiled at me and said,
"Don't get me wrong I love you,
but does that mean I have to meet, your father?"
When we are older you'll understand,
what I meant when I said "no",
I don't think life is quite that simple,

When you walk away,
you don't hear me say,
please, oh baby, don't go,
Simple and Clean is the way that you're makin' me feel tonight,
it's hard to let it go

The daily things,
that keep us all busy,
are confusing me,
that's when you came to me, and said,
"Wish I could prove I love you,
but does that mean I have to walk on water?"
"When we are older you'll understand,
it's enough when I say so,
And maybe, some things are that simple

When you walk away, you don't hear me say,
please, oh baby, don't go,
Simple and Clean is the way that you're makin' me feel tonight,
it's hard to let it go

Hold me
whatever lies beyond this morning,
is a little later on,
regardless of warnings,
the future doesn't scare me at all,
nothings like before...

When you walk away, you don't hear me say,
please, oh baby, don't go,
Simple and Clean is the way that you're makin' me feel tonight,
it's hard to let it go

Hold me
whatever lies beyond this morning,
is a little later on,
regardless of warnings,
the future doesn't scare me at all,
nothings like before...

Hold me
whatever lies beyond this morning,
is a little later on,
regardless of warnings,
the future doesn't scare me at all,
nothings like before... ]]> ~Darth-Ambzilla http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/8049155/ http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/8049155/ Thu, 02 Mar 2006 17:08:53 PST Listening To: "I'm Already There" by Lonestar
Watching: Nothing.
Reading: Roll of Thunder, Hear My Cry.


It's time, once again, for me to vent and torture you all with my problems (not on purpose, mind you). If you don't wanna read this, don't, I just really wanna get this out of my system.

I guess I'll start from the beginning. Every freakin' day since this year started has been bad. At least every school day. Whether it's teachers being stupid, overload of work, or people pissing me off. It's at the point I don't even want to go to school at all anymore. I used to actually ENJOY school a little bit. Not anymore. There's a lot of other shit I'm not gonna go into detail about, but it makes feel like jumping off a fucking cliff from all the damn pressure. I feel like I have to put on a "happy face" for everyone. And I keep missing school from being sick... I'm off the medicine now and the shit feels like it's coming back. FUN!!!

Then there's my home life. Oh, THE JOY!!! Last night's episode was REALLY FUN. My throat still hurts from screaming so damn much. My mom really needs to jump off a fucking cliff. She STILL doesn't have a job, then mopes around and gets drunk all fucking day. Then, she has the NERVE to take out her low self-esteem on me! Dad's no fucking prize either... He was telling me that I HAVE to get a job in highschool to help pay the fucking bills since she won't! I was kinda gonna save the money I earn to help when I start my own life, but I guess plans change. With all this talk of highschool, I can't wait to go off to college. The sooner I get away from here, the better. Unlike my dumbass mom, I'm gonna have a good job and I'm not gonna mope around and be a fucking drunk. It's pathetic and it makes me wanna slap her and shout, "GET YOUR SHIT TOGETHER!!!!!!!" She's almost 40 though so I doubt she's gonna. If she can go this long, things aren't gonna change. My dad was the one that caused my pain all those years, but at least he's not as bad as he used to be. She's just gotten worse. And the family's coming over on Saturday... Yay. I getta deal with my homophobic, racist grandma (who doesn't "approve" of the way I am) and bratty cousin who treats me like shit (and I get yelled at if I don't obey every little thing the brat says).

Everything's so fucking bad lately. I don't even feel like anyone REALLY cares about me anymore. Killing myself would be cowardly so I won't go there, but my razor looks pretty damn inviting right now. Sorry to vent on everyone, but I had to get this out. C'ya all later. ]]> ~Darth-Ambzilla http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/8011039/ http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/8011039/ Sun, 26 Feb 2006 17:19:40 PST Reading: Roll of Thunder, Hear My Cry.
Watching: Celebrity Fit Club Finale.
Listening To: Nothing.


***Crying Section.****

*When was the last time you really cried your heart out? Um... the other day.

*Ever cried yourself to sleep? Yeah.

*Ever cried on your friend's shoulder? No.

*Ever cried over the opposite sex? Yep.

*Do you cry when you get an injury? Not usually.

*Do certain songs make you cry? Kind of.

*Ever cut yourself? Yup.

****Happy section****

*Are you normally a happy person? It depends.

*What can make you happy? Friends.

*What makes you the happiest?: Friends.

*Is being happy overrated?: No.

*Can music make you happy?: Yep.


****Love section****

*Do you still have feelings for any of your old significant others? Nah.

*Have you ever loved someone so much, that you'd die for them? Yep.

*Did you ever love a guy/girl, tell them that, and only got 'thnx'? Yeah... I wanted to murder him. >>

*Has anyone besides your friends and family ever said 'i love you' to you?: Yep.


****Hate section****

*Who do you actually hate? Too many people.

*Ever made a hit list? No.

*Have you ever been on a hit list? Probably.

*Are you a mean bully? No.

*Do you hate any one that breaks your heart? Maybe.


****Self esteem section****

*Is your self-esteem extremely low? Lately, yeah.

*Do you believe in yourself? Sometimes.

*When people say they think you are pretty/hott, do you deny you are? Yep.

*Ever wanted to kill yourself because you thought you weren't good enough? Yeah.

*Are you happy with who you are?: Sometimes.

*Do you wish you can be someone else?: I dunno.

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I have...
[ ] Been drunk
[ ] smoked pot.
[ ] done ecstasy.
[ ] done coke.
[ ] done crack.
[ ] done heroin.
[ ] done opium.
[ ] done prescription narcotics for recreational purposes.
[] huffed air-duster
[ ] been to a rave.
[x] kissed someone.
[x] ridden in a taxi.
[ ] jumped a ramp with a bike.
[x]been dumped.
[x] been used.
[x] shoplifted.
[ ] ran from the cops.
[x] been in a room of your school that you could get suspended for being in
[ ] been fired
[ ]been kicked out of a movie theater.
[ ]snuck into a movie.
[x] been in a fist fight.
[ ]got hit by a car.
[ ]fired a real gun.
[ ] snuck out of your parent's house.
[ ] been arrested.
[ ]gone in a mosh pit
[x] stolen something from your school.
[ ] Celebrated new years in times square.
[ ] gone on a blind date.
[x] lied to a friend.
[x] had a crush on a teacher.
[ ] celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans.
[ ] been to europe.
[ ] been to australia
[ ] skipped school.
[ ] thrown up from drinking.
[x] played 'clue'
[x] had a sleepover party.
[ ] gone ice skating.
[ ] cheated on a bf/gf.
[x] been cheated on.
[ ] had your tonsils out.
[ ] been exposed to laughing gas.
[x] had a car. (I just can't drive it yet)
[ ] driven a car.
[ ] Totaled a car.

Do you...
[ ] feel loved.
[x] feel lonely.
[ ] feel happy.
[x] hate yourself.
[ ] have a dog.
[x] have your own room.
[x] sing along with your music.
[ ] dance around the house in your underwear.
[ ] listen to Hawaiian Music.
[ ] listen to classical music
[ ] listen to underground hip hop.
[x] listen to rap.
[x] listen to classic rock.
[x] listen to new rock.
[x] listen to country.
[ ] listen to reggae.
[ ] listen to techno.
[x] listen to hardcore
[ ] listen to pop.
[ ] listen to r&b.
[ ] listen to jazz.
[ ] listen to crooners.
[ ] listen to folk rock
[x] listen to alternative rock
[x] listen to bands that can't be put into a category.
[ ] have hobbies.
[ ] skateboard.
[ ] do aggressive inline.
[ ] snowboard.
[ ] ski.
[ ] surf.
[ ] skim board.
[x] have more than 1 best friend.
[x] get good grades.
[ ] play an instrument
[x] have slippers
[x] wear boxers
[x] wear black eyeliner
[x] like the color grey
[x] like the color blue.
[x] like the color pink.
[x] like the color red
[x] like the color green
[x] like t... ]]> ~Darth-Ambzilla http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/7897144/ http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/7897144/ Tue, 14 Feb 2006 15:28:01 PST
Mood: Penis.
Listening To: "Wait and Bleed" by Slipknot (HELL YEAH BEEEE-ATCH!!!!!)
Reading: Nothin'.
Watching: My penis grow larger.

LMAO, I need to try to limit myself to saying "penis" less than 500 times a day... I know it'll be challenging, but I need to try.

ANYwho, today was a good day... amazingly... I feel lonely because me no have boyfriend/girlfriend/whatever, but I got hit on by 3 dudes today so I'm happy. This one AMAZINGLY FREAKING ADORABLE dude came into the nurse's office 7th hour and he kept smiling at me... OMG, HE WAS SHO KYOOOOOOT!!!!! *dies of happiness* And Julya brought me flowers. When I came home I told my parents it was from my new sexy Mexican boyfriend with a hot accent. I CAN DREAM, DAMN YOU!!! And I have mint chocolate cookies! I WANT TO HUMP SOMETHING!!!!!!!!! *runs off*


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[link] ]]> ~Darth-Ambzilla http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/7801041/ http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/7801041/ Sat, 04 Feb 2006 15:39:00 PST ~Darth-Ambzilla http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/7797095/ http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/7797095/ Sat, 04 Feb 2006 07:01:34 PST ~Darth-Ambzilla http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/7782184/ http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/7782184/ Thu, 02 Feb 2006 15:08:57 PST
Listening To: D12 World
Watching: Nothing.
Reading: Nothing.


Argh, I feel like shit... I can't stop coughing and I'm like... sweating from this insane fever I have. I haven't had this shit in A LONG time... It's usually where my nose juices (heheh...) are running down my throat. I dunno what's worse. O_o I even had to come home early and I wasn't faking it for once. xD;

On the bright side, I am many CDs richer. I bought my precious' "Hannicap Circus" and Devil's Night at this cool CD store I found on Saturday (they had EVERYTHING O_O), then I ordered "Attack of the Weirdoes" and "D12 World", then I burned 3 Eminem CDs. Life is good. I may be sick, but I have kickass music to listen to while I die slowly. D12 should be happy... I never buy CDs if I can help it... but there was over 40-something songs I wanted and god knows how long that would've taken. O_o

So yeah... C'ya around peeps. Much luff. Feel my love on your hip. FEEL IT.


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[link] ]]> ~Darth-Ambzilla http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/7638337/ http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/7638337/ Wed, 18 Jan 2006 10:57:55 PST Listening To: Nothing.
Watching: Dave Chappelle: Killing Them Softly.
Reading: Hatchet.


10 things I like:
1. Voldy. O_O
2. Heavy metal and punk music.
3. Drawing.
4. Rings... @_@
5. Mah friends.
6. Horror movies.
7. Comedy Central shows.
8. FOOD.
9. My obsessions...
10. Reading stuffs.

3 things that make you happy.
1. Hanging out with all my bestest friends. O_O
2. Starbuck's coffee! XD
3. Screaming along to angsty musics.

10 things you hate. (or dislike)
1. Rapists.
2. Extremely religious weirdos... I have no problem with religious people, but you know... the people that're OBSESSED...
3. Racists.
4. Homophobics.
5. People that bitch about tiny little things to other people with bigger problems... Like if a 100-some-pound person goes up to a 500-pound person complaining that they feel fat...
6. Stereotypes.
7. Little kids.
8. Extremely immature peeps.... The ones that don't know when to be serious...
9. Most jocks/preppies.
10. My grandm-*cough* I mean... uh...

3 facts about your real name.
1. It's like... dried tree-sap...
2. My uncle came up with the name...
3. Um... it's a girl's name...

5 facts about yourself.
1. I'm perverted.
2. I luff having blue hair.
3. I prefer to live in my own lil' fantasies.
4. Beware me when I'm pre-menstral...
5. Voldy =

2 things you expect.
1. I'm never gonna find the right guy/girl for me. I'm gonna be one of those old, scary ladies with all the cats...
2. To move my fatass out of here as soon as possible.

random thoughts.
1. I think I needa go poopie again...
2. My cramps are killing me! O_O KILLING!!!!
3. Heheh, Dave Chappelle rocks...
4. I love my friends. O_O *tackles everyone*
5. I want cookies.

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1.YOUR STAR NAME
(name of first pet + street you live on):
Tigger Kearney...

2. YOUR MOVIE STAR NAME
(grandmother's/father's first name + favorite snack):
Sandy Cookie.... WHEEE!

3. YOUR FASHION DESIGNER NAME
(first word you see on your left + favorite restaurant):
Stone Old Chicago... o.O

4. YOUR SOCIALITE NAME
(silliest childhood nickname + first town where you partied):
Punky Wright Farms... mkay...

5. YOUR "FLY GIRL/GUY" NAME
(first initial + first three letters of your last name):
Apet... riiiiiiight....

6. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME
(Favorite animal + HighSchool Name)
Shark Horizon... sweeeeet!

7. YOUR BARFLY NAME
(last snack food you ate + your favorite drink):
Snickers Pepsi

8. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME
(middle name + city where you were born):
Kay Thornton

9. YOUR ROCK STAR NAME
(favorite candy + favorite musician's last name):
Twix Manson.... SWEET!

10. YOUR OPPOSITE SEX NAME
(name of [opposite sex] friend + cell phone company you use):
Dillon None... I don't have a cell so yeah. xD;

11. YOUR STAR WARS NAME
(first 3 letters of your last name + last 3 letters of mother's maiden name /+/ first 3 letters of your pet's name + first 3 letters of the town you live in):
Petuez Lucbri... hey... I kinda like that.


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Listening To: "Dance Dance" by Fall Out Boy and "The Ghost of You" by My Chemical Romance.
Reading: Hatchet.
Watching: American Dad.


Yay, I'm sick yet again... Everytime I'm supposed to go back to school, I wake up with this shit! I had it last Monday and the Monday before that too... And the next day, I'm fine again... The teachers probably think I'm faking it since I go back the next day feeling good. >.>


Mmmmmmm coffee... COFFEE... coffee =


I have part of an episode of American Dad stuck in my head...

Stan: *sitting in jail* All I was trying to do was help my family!

Guy next to him: Yeah... all I was trying to do was help my sister by killing her boyfriend and eating his brain...

Stan: O_o ....... let's be friends!

Fun.


Argh... I am feeling... love-less... Julya even has a boyfriend now! I don't even have a crush on anyone anymore... I did, but now I don't like 'em as much... mostly because I don't think they like me. Rawr. If anything, I want a girlfriend, I'm up for something new and I'm sick of guys. xD; Any takers? j/k... kind of...


My parents had a stupid drunken party on Saturday... It was kinda okay since I got to hide upstairs the whole time... But my mom was showing all of my dad's perverted friends a bunch of pictures of me in my bikini! I was like WTF?! Some of the things I heard... *shudder* And some of those guys stayed the night! Doesn't she know what they could've DONE???!!! O_O They DIDN'T, but still... I'm not just being paranoid, right? O_o


OMG!!! PEANUT BUTTER JELLY TIME!!!!!!!!!!! DUH NUNNA NUH!!!!! *dances*


OH NO!!!!!!! MY PENIS!!!! IT'S GROWING!!!! NOOOOOOOO PENIS NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO OOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *is eaten by penis*

Penis: ... *burp*

Voldy: ... *backs away slooowwwlllyyy...*


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Listening To: "Wishmaster" by Nightwish.
Reading: HPatHBP.
Watching: The Phantom of the Opera and Bullet in a Bible.

Last night kinda sucked (parents, blargh), but today hasn't been that bad. Though... I go back to school on Wednesday... YAY. But yeah, Happy New Years everybody! HAPPEH!!!

Resolutions:

- keep exercising (started the other night)
- eat at least a lil' bit healthier
- draw more/better
- control emotions
- keep better track of messages (had to delete most of 'em again...)

... and thats all I can think of at the mo...


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[link] - Ph34r it... I'm SO gonna try some of this stuff. ]]> ~Darth-Ambzilla http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/7461470/ http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/7461470/ Fri, 30 Dec 2005 22:33:54 PST
Listening To: "Down In the Park" by NIN and MM.
Reading: HPatHBP.
Watching: Space Jam and South Park.

W00T! Alli finally joined! Please welcome her to our lil' psychotic website... OR THE TOE PENGUINS WILL SEEK REVENGE FOR THE PENIS!!!!! O_O


I was gonna talk about something... then I forgot... damn... Oh well, I'll remember someday! Oh yeah! I got Voldemort T-shirts!!!!! THEY HAD THEM AT HOT TOPIC!!! *dies* They're so purdy... And hot. And mine. O_O And I got other band T-shirts and a choker/dog collar (whichever you prefer) with spikes on it and wristbands with 2 rows of spikes on 'em... which I won't be wearing too often considering the fact we're not allowed to wear those types of things at school... but yet we're allowed to bring scissors... damn those teachers are smart. No way anyone can be killed with scissors. Just spikey clothing. *snort*


I'm in the drawing mood. C'YA MY FELLOW PIZZA SLICES!!!!


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[link] - Hi... ]]> ~Darth-Ambzilla http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/7412095/ http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/7412095/ Sun, 25 Dec 2005 09:47:47 PST
Listening: "(s)AIN'T" by MM
Reading: HPatHBP.
Watching: The Exorcism of Emily Rose.


MERRY NU-NU!!! *cough* I mean... CHRISTMAS!!!!! O_O


I got so much awesome stuffs! A MM T-shirt, a Halloween T-shirt with a HUGE pic of Mike Myers and a knife on the back, a hoodie with skulls and roses on it, a plain black hoodie, a Green Day hoodie, a bunch of King Kong stuff, a Linkin Park T-shirt, 2 skull necklaces, a shit-load of earrings (skull earrings too!), a chicken with a santa hat on that dances the funky chicken, a flat screen TV, a new chair for the comp (IT SPINS!), the dragon I wanted, etc. And I got a $50 gift thingy for Hot Topic and $240 in b-day and Christmas money! I didn't even expect so much stuff! O_O I can't wait to go to the mall... I'm gonna go insane... *twitchtwitch*


I'm actually starting to convince my parents to let me dye my hair black too! Once the blue fades anyways... I'm tired of being blonde damnit! *cough* ... yes.


I hope you're all having an awesome time! Even if you don't celebrate Christmas. *pokes you all and runs away* WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!


BTW, is it just me or is MM's "Tainted Love" music video one of the sexiest things EVER? I want MM, the hot dude with face make-up that it only shows for a few seconds, the hot goth chick, and the hot dude with spiked hair that does the tongue thing and sexy dance moves. O_O Yes. MY HORMONES ARE RAGING!!!!!!! RAGING!!!!!!


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[link] ~Darth-Ambzilla http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/7345925/ http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/7345925/ Sun, 18 Dec 2005 13:40:07 PST
Listening To: "Blue Monday" by MM.
Reading: HPatHBP
Watching: Family Guy.

I iz happy. WINTER VACATION IZ HERE!!!!!!11one1 And (as some of yuu know) my b-day was the 16th. I IZZA OLD PERSON!!!! O_O Carolyn and Julya surprised me the other day during lunch with presents. Carolyn got me a Cartman action figure (WOOOOO!!!) and Julya got me a Freddy! I swear I almost died when I opened it. HE ISH SO SEXY!!! I'll try to submit pics later. Alli's coming over Tuesday or Wednesday too. W00T! And I finally got the Halloween pics of Hannah, Alli, n' meh. I'll submit zem later as well. AND we're going to get my hair dye later too. O_O So yeah... I still miss my Mexican hottie, but I'm in a pretty good mood right now. I LIKE PIE!!!!!!!!!! AND MY BUTT CRACK STILL ITCHES!!!!!!! *runs away*


BTW, check this shit out... IT ISH AWESOME!!!!

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Here's mine, LOL.


Santa Clause
North Pole, Earth

Dear Santa,
I have been a good girl.

It really wasn't my fault what happened at alli's Office party. It was julya who spiked the punch with too much vodka. I can't help it if I drank 56 glasses. It was so good---smelled and tasted just like armpit.

I thought it was funny when I put carolyn's penis warmer on my head and danced the hoky-poky on the bed while singing `baby got back'. I didn't mean to break alli's dildo and don't know why alli would accuse me of child molestation.

I don't remember calling bob's wife a hard cow---even though she looked like one with black eye shadow and purple lipstick!

And when I threw up on deana's husband's vagina, it was only because I ate too much of that french fry.

After all that fun, I admit I was a little tired. So I fell asleep on my way home and drove my motorcycle through my neighbor's bedroom. I don't think that was any reason for my neighbor to call me a wet iguana and have me arrested for chicken fucker!

So, Santa...here I sit in my jail cell on Christmas Eve, all purple and round. And I'm really not to blame for any of this penis stuff. Please bring me what I want the most---bail money!

Sincerely and fast yours,
amber (Really a nice girl!)

P.S. It's only 18 bucks!


*dies laughing*


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Listening To: "Headstrong" by Trapt
Reading: HPatOotP.
Watching: The Road to El Dorado.

OMG dude... the place was so fucking AWESOME! The resort was huge... 7 restraunts, 5 or 6 swimming pools, the beach was right there, palm trees everywhere... everything was paved... I've never even been to a place that pretty in my frikkin' dreams! We went snorkling, saw sting rays, eels, giant fish (bigger than me!), a barracuda... I don't even remember half the stuff. And OMG DOLPHINS!!!! O_O No sharks though. Kinda a good thing, I guess... I would've liked to SEE one at least... but I just wouldn't have wanted to get to know one "personally", if ya know what I mean.. But yeah, we went snorkling in these caves... there were scorpions and bats on the ceiling. I'm like... in love with the dude that took us there. He was hot in a special way! LOL. He let me hold a baby sea turtle. IT WAS SO KYOOOOT!!! *dies* It's lil' flippers all flippin' around.. And I got to set him FREE! FREE LIKKA BIRDYYYYYYYY!!!!! And at the resort there were iguanas EVERYWHERE... and parrots... we got pictures with 'em! And you must see pictures of the place! I'm definitely gonna scan zem and send zem in... I'm moving to Mexico goddamnit! But OMG, I had so many frikkin' guys try to pick up on me and shit... This one dude at a bar started trying to buy me drinks... this other dude said he wished I drank alcohol so he could take advantage of me. In front of my parents too! O_O I was like "WTF?!" When we went to see the ancient Mayan ruins, they were at a really dumpy town so... you could imagine. I hated it, but OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I could've had a freaking boyfriend if we stayed out there! This 16-year-old guy that worked at the hotel was like... obsessed with me... he was always staring... and smiling and waving... and when my mom was really drunk she embarrassed the crap out of me by calling him over so I could meet him. I was in love! He held my hand too!!!! His hand was so warm and soft... *cough* You heard NOTHING... BUT HE WAS SO PURDY!!! And we really liked each other, but I never got to say goodbye. I swear I looked EVERYWHERE. I was looking, until the point where my parents were dragging me on the bus that took us to the airport. *sobs* I didn't wanna leave! If I had the computer out there, I would've been complete!!!! Seriously, after 7 days out there, it felt more like home than here does! And I miss my husband... I don't even think we're going out there for another few years... he'll probably've forgotten me by then. -_-; WHYYYYYYYYYY????!!!! ... *cough* But yeah... it was fun... Traveling is a bitch though! I was tired (and heart broken *cough*) when we got home so I just ate a shit-load of stuff and went to bed. I'm awake now though. I izza Vampire. I hunt at night. FOOD!!!! O_O *jumps at you all* ... *cough* ... yep. I'm gonna be Mexico obsessed now. Ph34r me. PH34R MY NIPPLES!!!!! THEY EAT YOU ALIIIIIIIIIIIIIIVE!!!!!!! ... *runs away*


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"Cash, check or charge?" I asked, after folding items the woman wished to purchase. As she fumbled for her wallet I noticed a remote control for a television s... ]]> ~Darth-Ambzilla http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/7205540/ http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/7205540/ Fri, 02 Dec 2005 17:02:56 PST I'm such a 'tard.

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Listening To: "Blue Monday" by MM.
Reading: the same stuff.
Watching: Nothin'.

Stolen from

What is your name?: Amber Kay Peterson, if you didn't know that already...
Are you named after anyone?: My middle name = Nana's middle name
What's your screename?: Um... DUUUUHHH!!!
Would you name a child of yours after you?: Nah... my middle name maybe, but that's it...
If you were born a member of the opposite sex what would your name be?: Um... Hayden or something.... cool...
If you could switch names with a friend who would it be?: Um... Julya, I guess... *shrug*
Are there any mispronounciations/typos that people inflict on your name constantly?: Nope.
Would you drop your last name if you became famous?: Nah...

Basics
Your gender: Female. Wheeeeeeee.
Straight/Gay/Bi: I'm gay/bi... I'm confused which one...
Single?: Yep.
If not, do you want to be?: I am... And damn happy.
Birthdate: December 16th, 1991.
Your age: 13... 14 in a few weeks...
Age you act: It depends. I can act anywhere between 3 and 50 years old...
Age you wish you were: My age. YAY!
Your height: Like... 5'1 or 5'2...
Eye color: Hazel.
Happy with it?: Yep.
Hair color: Like... dirty blonde I guess. It's no longer blue. *sobs*
Happy with it?: Not really... black or blue hair would be nice...
Lefty/righty/ambidextrous: Righty.
Your living arrangement: House.
Your family: Parents. Fuck.
Have any pets?: A parakeet, tortoise, and fishies.
Piercings?: 11. YAY!
Tattoos?: I wish.
Obsessions?: HELL YEAH, BIIIITCH!!! Voldy, Harry Potter books, Star Wars, Marilyn Manson, Green Day, Darth Maul, etc.
Do you speak another language?: Fluently? I wish.
Do you have a webpage?: Yep.

Deep Thoughts About Life
Do you live in the moment?: Sometimes.
Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: Argh... not peticularly...
Do you have any secrets?: Um... I guess. I'm usually pretty open about stuff though. I GOTTA GO TINKLE!!!!
Do you hate yourself?: A lot of the time. Sometimes I'm okay.
Do you like your handwriting?: Yep.
Do you have any bad habits?: Um... worrying too much. And giving too much information.
What is the compliment you get from most people?: Um... that my art shit is good.
If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?: Shit: An Amber Peterson Story.
What's your biggest fear?: Um... being raped aaaaand... having a seizure or getting cancer, I guess.
Can you sing?: Sometimes... kind of. *coughcough*
Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: Nah. I AM MEEEEEE!!!!
Are you a loner?: Sometimes.
What are your top priorities in life?: To not die. Yet.
If you were another person, would you be friends with you?: Um... yeah, I guess.
Are you a daredevil?: Fuck yeah BITCH.
Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?: MY BLUBBER!!!!
Are you passive or aggressive?: Um... passive? WTH is that?
Do you have a journal?: Yep. I wrote in it 3 months ago. I think.
What is your greatest strength and weakness?: Strength: My ability to not give a shit what others think. Weakness: My brain.
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?: My weight goddamnit! Or my miiiiiiind.
Do you think you are emotionally strong?: Sometimes.
Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?: Hell yeah.
Do you think life has been good so far?: *shrug*
What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?: Don't trust people easily. Argh.
What do you like the most about your body?: My eyes, I guess... Or my lips... or something... *shrug*
And least?: CHUBCHUB!!!!
Do you think you are good looking?: Sometimes I look okay.
Are you confident?: Not all the time.
What is the fictional character you are most like?: Um... I have... no clue...
Are you perceived wrongly?: Eh... I dunno.

Do You...
Smoke?: Nope.
Do drugs?:... ]]> ~Darth-Ambzilla http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/7204659/ http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/7204659/ Fri, 02 Dec 2005 15:14:20 PST
Listening To: Nothin'.
Reading: Speak, Salem Witchcraft Trials, and Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince.
Watching: South Park.

W00T! Tomorrow we're FINALLY gonna go to Mexico! Sweeeeeet! We have to leave at 2 AM... not so sweet. Ah well. It's a 5 hour plane flight too... at least I'll catch up on a lot of reading. We'll be back by next Saturday if we don't die.


Argh I need to rant... I hate my science teacher. Not hate as in "he gives me too much work!" or "he yelled at me today!", but hate as in I have no fucking clue how he became a teacher. First off, he treats us like babies. He asked who in the class has written a report before and everyone raises their hand. He says he thinks we're too young to be able to write reports. He's trying to teach us how to write summaries. First off, that's not his job. Second off, we know how. And he makes more mistakes than any teacher I've met my whole entire life. He gave us these papers on how to write summaries and I had to correct a bunch of mistakes before I could even read it. He does shit like that ALL the time. He was also the one that tried to BRIBE me with giving me my own locker. *rolls eyes* He doesn't grade papers either, he thinks it's too much work. He gives us all A's. And brags about it, as if that makes him a cool teacher. And if someone's talking a lot, he barely pays any attention to them, but if somebody says ONE word, he starts SCREAMING at 'em, telling them what retards they are and shit. Like today, Kutay talked out of turn ONCE and the teach started screaming at him, calling him a "blabbering idiot" among other things. He made fun of Kutay's Turkish accent. A lot of the other kids laughed. You know what the teacher did? He smirked. Not only does he do this all the time, but Kutay is MY precious and Mr. Assface had no reason to yell at MY husb-*cough* ... friend... like that. Yeah. But really, should I ask someone at the office to watch him teach classes or something? Or should I just sit there and consider science class a free period? Sorry, but I'm really pissed. And if you actually read all that than you deserve a cookie.


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The first of the twosome teed off and watched in horror as her ball headed directly toward a foursome of men playing the next hole.

The ball hit one of the men and he immediately clasped his hands together at his crotch, fell to the ground and proceeded to roll around in obvious agony.

The woman rushed down to the man and immediately began to apologize. "Please allow me to help. I'm a physical therapist and I know I could relieve your pain if you'd allow me," she told him earnestly.

"Ummph, oooh, noooo... I'll be fine in a few minutes", he replied breathlessly as he remained in the fetal position still clasping his hands together at his crotch.

But she persisted, and he finally allowed her to help him. She gently took his hands aw... ]]> ~Darth-Ambzilla http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/7151870/ http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/7151870/ Sat, 26 Nov 2005 18:22:49 PST Listening To: The voices in my head...
Reading: HPatPoA, TSWT, and Speak.
Watching: Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire

Um... I dunno if anything below would really be considered a spoiler... I don't think so though... nothing major at least.

OMG... I saw HPatGoF with Julya last week... OMG. I hated the other HP movies because... well, they sucked. They weren't absolutely horrible, I guess, but they weren't exactly wonderful either. But GoF... OMG. Best movie on Earth. MY PRECIOUSSSSS. O_O And almost everyone in it was freakin' sexy! Harry, Ron, Hermione, Fred, George, Krum, Cedric, Snape, Draco, Lucius, Sirius, etc. And Voldemort. OMG, Voldemort. My new husband. O_O I vant to hump him... *cough* Yes. And Julya knows me well. As soon as it showed Voldie-poo she was all like, "You think he's hot, DON'T YOU?!"

But yeaaahhh... the movie was awesome. And I dragged Nana and Papa off to see it yesterday and even Nana loved it, when she always says how she hates HP. I got beads too. I made a bunch of bracelets with my obsessions' names on 'em... *wearing Voldemort bracelet* ... what?


So I guess everything's going okay... Except for these damn cramps... But at least I won't have to worry about "da curse" when we FINALLY go to Mexico on the 3rd... argh... so close, but yet so far away... And my toe's acting up again... my parents plan on taking me to the doctor tomorrow so he can take the nail off or something. *shrug* It hurts like a mofo, but I'm not that worried about it. It only pisses me off because I wanted to start exercising and shit tonight... I've been doing it on and off, but I feel all fat and I'm gonna have to wear a bikini in public and they'll see me and my fatness and ARGH... I worry about everything, don't I? Okay, I'll stop before I die of a frikkin' anxiety attack or something...


C'ya peoples! O_O I LOVE YUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!! *tackles everyone and runs like hell*


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The ball hit one of the men and he immediately clasped his hands together at his crotch, fell to the ground and proceeded to roll around in obvious agony.

The woman rushed down to the man and immediately began to apologize. "Please allow me to help. I'm a physical therapist and I know I could relieve your pain if you'd allow me," she told him earnestly.

"Ummph, oooh, noooo... I'll be fine in a few minutes", he replied breathlessly as he remained in the fetal position still clasping his hands together at his crotch.

But she persisted, and he finally allowed her to help him. She gently took his hands away and laid them to the side, she loosened his pants, and put her hands inside. She began to massage his privates.

She then asked him, "How does that feel?"

He replied still in agony, "It feels great, but it doesn't do a thing for my thumb. It... ]]> ~Darth-Ambzilla http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/7082133/ http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/7082133/ Fri, 18 Nov 2005 16:06:21 PST
Listening To: "Blue Monday" by MM (OMG, this song fucking ROCKS my BUTT!!!!!!!)
Reading: Speak, Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban, and The Salem Witchcraft Trials.
Watching: Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban

Argh, thank my butt it's Friday... I am so tired I could die. People go "YAY!". My life is getting slowly happier... even though I keep trying to start exercising again, but I like... stop... Grr. But yeah, I've been talking to Julya and Alli like... 2 hours each every night. Since Julya and me haven't really been that close since I left our elementary school in 3rd grade, tis making me happy. She brought a notebook that we write back and forth to each other in. Tis fun.

*the other night on the phone*

Julya: Dude, guys are so desperate for sex... they might even do it with Katie !

Me: *fake gasp*

Julya: They'd be trying to find her vagina under all that fat... Guy: "I can't find it! It's gotta be under here SOMEWHERE..." Katie: "Yeah, I haven't seen it in a while, but I go pee so it's gotta be there!" Guy: "I think I found it... Oh no! It's a penis..."

The way she said it, I fell off my chair laughing. Wheeee! Fun.

Julya: *playing with her fuzzy pink bird pen*

*after a while*

Julya: Oh no... birdy went down my cleavage! He's a horny little birdy!

LOL... And we talked about... EVERYTHING... I do mean EVERYTHING. And all my real life friends know about me being bi now and they're fine with it. ^__^ It makes me happy. LIKKA TUUURTLE.


PENIS. I don't even like penises that much, but yet I find myself saying that word ALL the time. PENIS. Speaking of which, () Jaeden had his arm around me when we walked out of school yesterday! EEEEEEE!!!! *dies*


I gots to go... And I haven't been very active on here... my messages built up and I had to delete most of 'em . I'll try to get better at keeping track of stuff on here. Beep.


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A couple of women were playing golf one sunny Saturday morning.

The first of the twosome teed off and watched in horror as her ball headed directly toward a foursome of men playing the next hole.

The ball hit one of the men and he immediately clasped his hands together at his crotch, fell to the ground and proceeded to roll around in obvious agony.

The woman rushed down to the man and immediately began to apologize. "Please allow me to help. I'm a physical therapist and I know I could relieve your pain if you'd allow me," she told him earnestly.

"Ummph, oooh, noooo... I'll be fine in... ]]> ~Darth-Ambzilla http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/7023673/ http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/7023673/ Sat, 12 Nov 2005 02:12:58 PST
Listening To: Nothin'.
Reading: HPatPoA and TH.
Watching: Family Guy.


Well... I'm feeling better n' stuff. Also trying to organize a lot of shit in my life right now. Rawr.


And I decided to not worry/get my hopes up with that guy at school. It's not like it'd work-out anyways. Grrrrrr. I just don't see myself finding the right one, ya know?


Going to Alli's house tomorrow... yep. Be glad to get out of the house and stuff. I actually cleaned the office and my BATHROOM today. O_O I REALLY need to get out of the house... I might be becoming seriously ill. Even my parents were asking if I was feeling okay.


SMACK DAT MONKEH!!!!


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A couple of women were playing golf one sunny Saturday morning.

The first of the twosome teed off and watched in horror as her ball headed directly toward a foursome of men playing the next hole.

The ball hit one of the men and he immediately clasped his hands together at his crotch, fell to the ground and proceeded to roll around in obvious agony.

The woman rushed down to the man and immediately began to apologize. "Please allow me to help. I'm a physical therapist and I know I could relieve your pain if you'd allow me," she told him earnestly.

"Ummph, oooh, noooo... I'll be fine in a few minutes", he replied breathlessly as he remained in the fetal position still clasping his hands together at his crotch.

But she persisted, and he finally allowed her to help him. She gently took his hands away and laid them to the side, she loosened his pants, and put her hands inside. She began to massage his privates.

She then asked him, "How does that feel?"

He replied still in agony, "It feels great, but it doesn't do a thing for my thumb. It still hurts like hell!"

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[link] ~Darth-Ambzilla http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/7003772/ http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/7003772/ Wed, 09 Nov 2005 20:03:07 PST
Listening To: Nothing.
Watching: The Simpsons.
Reading: Stuff.


--Edited--

On the bright side, I got these fuzzy bird pens... they're cute. And fuzzy. Yes. And I told Alli about me being bi and, amazingly, she's cool with it. Wow. It took me forever to get the guts to do it, but... yep.

I g2g... still have more homework to do. Yay.


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A couple of women were playing golf one sunny Saturday morning.

The first of the twosome teed off and watched in horror as her ball headed directly toward a foursome of men playing the next hole.

The ball hit one of the men and he immediately clasped his hands together at his crotch, fell to the ground and proceeded to roll around in obvious agony.

The woman rushed down to the man and immediately began to apologize. "Please allow me to help. I'm a physical therapist and I know I could relieve your pain if you'd allow me," she told him earnestly.

"Ummph, oooh, noooo... I'll be fine in a few minutes", he replied breathlessly as he remained in the fetal position still clasping his hands together at his crotch.

But she persisted, and he finally allowed her to help him. She gently took his hands away and laid them to the side, she loosened his pants, and put her hands inside. She began to massage his privates.

She then asked him, "How does that feel?"

He replied still in agony, "It feels great, but it doesn't do a thing for my thumb. It still hurts like hell!"

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[link] - These kick so much ass...
[link] - Hilarious stuff on here...
[link] - Ph34r it... I'm SO gonna try some of this stuff. ~Darth-Ambzilla http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/6930843/ http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/6930843/ Tue, 01 Nov 2005 21:55:32 PST Listening To: "American Idiot" by Green Day
Watching: Bullet In A Bible
Reading: Stuff.

DUDE! THE GREEN DAY MOVIE THINGY FUCKING ROCKS!!!!! I just went with Carolyn, Julya, and Stacey. And a stupid annoying little kid, but I just ignored her. She's 2 years younger than me, but yet Syd's more mature than her. THAT, my friends, is saying something. I got lots of LOVIN'! O_O Seriously, Julya and Stacey were hugging on me n' stuff the whole time. And during the movie Julya and me were like.. cuddling n' stuff. Kinda creepy, but yeah. We're like... sisters or something, practically. Friends since kindergarden, YO! But it was cool... AND IT SHOWED TRE COOL NAKED!!!!!! NAKEEEDDD!!! O_O There was a black bar over his vinky, but it was a HUGE bar! *dies*


*cough* .... yes. And Halloween was somewhat fun. Alli n' Hannah came over and stuffs. We had a lot of personal conversations and stuff. --Edited--

.... yeah. Sorry for ranting... I'm just... REALLY peeved. See y'all.


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A man was sitting on a beach. Tragically, through a recent car accident, he had lost both both his arms and legs. During the long afternoon, as he remained on the beach, three women separately walked past him. Each felt very sorry for the poor man.

The first woman said: "Have you ever had a hug?"
The man said "No," so she gave him a hug and walked on.

The second woman said: "Have you ever had a kiss?"
The man said "No," so she gave him a kiss and walked on.

The third woman came to him and said: "Have you ever been fucked?"
The fellow said "No,"
She replied, "You will be when the tide comes in."

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http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/6899274/ Sat, 29 Oct 2005 12:18:04 PDT Watching: A Nightmare On Elm Street.
Reading: HPatPoA, SS, and TH.
Listening To: Nothin'.

Argh... kinda in a bad mood. Pissed-off at some peeps... and "da curse" is probably gonna be here soon. I started exercising again last night though so I feel slightly better.

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1. Last time you farted was?: Uh... I have no clue...
2. How does your hair look like, right now?: Um... blue and down...
3. Whatcha doing right now? (Except filling this out...): Watching my sexy Freddy on A Nightmare On Elm Street.
4. HOW are ya doing right now?: I'm okay...
5. Do you like pears?: Yeah, I guess.
6. What's your sign?: Sagittarius... wait... *glares*
7. Do your feet stink?: Not unless I wear those stupid black sandle thingies I got...
8. Are you thinking of somebody?: Yep...
9. Do you use Yahoo, AIM or MSN?: Yahoo and MSN.
10. Are you eating something?: Nope.
11. What about drinking something?: Pepsi... I want my precious coffee...
12. Do you like RPing?: *shrug*
13. What kind of music do you like?: Metal, rock, punk, etc.
14. Colour of your underwear?: Right now? Black n' pink.
15. Tell me something sexy!: ... FREDDY!
16. Are you perverted or something?: Hell yes!
17. Roflpoffl!: Ur... yeaahh...
18. Tell me something funny!: "OMG... I think my nipple fell off... oh wait... there it is..."
19. Do you think you're funny?: Eh... I have my moments.
20. Do you collect something?: Action figures, I guess...
21. Are you a cry baby?: Only during "da curse".
22. Do you like pears now?: Uh... yeah...
23. What's the last thing you spilled?: Pepsi and a box of Nerds.
24. Can you read?: Oh no! Of course not!
25. Can you sing "Happy Birthday" backwards?: Haven't tried...
26. Tell me a secret!!!: Julya is pregnant with my love child (inside joke there...).
27. What's on your wall?: Lots of sexy pictures.
28. Do you think your parents raised you well?: No.
29. Ever wanted to be the opposite gender?: All the time.
30. Can you lick your ellbow?: *tries* ... um... no...
31. Can you touch your nose with your tongue?: Yup.
32. Can you curl your tongue?: Yeppers.
33. Are you annoyed by cans?: I dunno...
34. I want your autograph!: THEN GIVE ME MONEY!!! O_O
35. Do you wear hats?: Not really... if anything I wear bandanas.
36. Would you swallow a penny, if I gave you 100 Dollar?: Hell yes!
37. Do you like Yaoi?: Sometimes.
38. What made you sad today?: Lots of stuff.
39. What made you happy today?: Um... Freddy's on?
40. Do you have a crush on a cartoon?: Not so much anymore... Freddy's better.
41. Why?: Because he's my precious sexy! O_O
42. Ever got a love letter?: Uh... yeah...
43. Do you like Broccoli?: Never tried it.
44. How about spinach?: Yuck! *gags*
45. Say something that you just had in mind!: I gotta go to the bathroom.
46. Wanna go to bed with me?: Um... are you Freddy? Or Carmen Electra? OR LINDSAY LOHAN??? O_O
47. What's your religion?: My big toe. It knows ALL.
48. Satisfied with your life?: Half way.
49. Do you like Sushi?: Never had it, but I don't like any type of fish so I doubt it.
50. Are you gonna miss me?: ... maybe... *shifty eyes*

Beep... I'm gonna go draw some stuff while I watch my sexy Freddy-kins. I started drawing that Grim Reaper thingy that Alli got me, but I never finished it... and now that I see it, it looks like shit so I'm gonna redraw most of it as well. C'ya peeps.

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http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/6876898/ Wed, 26 Oct 2005 19:59:26 PDT Listening To: Nothing.
Reading: HPatPoA, SS, and TH.
Watching: Nothin'.

Heheh... OMG, Alli n' me just went to a haunted house. It was fucking SWEET! I think I made a complete idiot of myself, but it was FUN! I was holding onto the back of Alli's hood the whole time, I'm surprised I didn't rip it off.


Alli, me: *walking towards this thingy with a creepy guy standing on it*

Me: *looks up at the dude* .... NIPPLE!!!


*later*


Clown from House of 1000 Corpses: *jumps out of nowhere and says stuff* (he sounded EXACTLY like the guy too!)

Alli: Hi Chucky!

Clown: Do I look like Chucky to you?!

Alli: Maybe...

Clown: *walking up to us, asks us if we're ready to die n' stuff*

Alli, me: YAY!

Me: OMG! I saw your movie! YOU WERE AWESOME! O_O Please don't kill me. *cough*

*later*

Clown: *notices my braces as Alli n' me started walking past him* Hey! You're a little metal mouth!

Me: Um... yes! FEAR ME!

Clown: *following us* I don't fear anything, kid!

Me: Well.. you should fear the MONKEYS!

Alli: Yes... THEY'RE EVERYWHERE!

Clown: The... monkeys?

Me: Yes! They will eat yuuuu!


There was another EXTREMELY sexy clown too!

Me: I KNOW YOU! O_O

Clown: Oh yeah? What's my name?

Me: Um..

Alli: GEORGE!!!

Clown: ... riiighht...

Me: *walking away* YOU KNOW YOUR NAME IS GEORGE!!! DON'T DENY THE GEORGE!! O_O


Then later these two dudes were following us, asking us to help them and stuff, when this dude with a hockey mask and chainsaw started chasing us... OMG... we were freaking-out. We crashed through a fence and the dudes had to put it back up... It hurt though. I was all like "Umm... was that supposed to happen?"


Then there was the room with the girl from The Ring. OMFG! It was freaky! The lights kept flashing off and when they went back on, she was closer. It was EXACTLY like in the movie... with the TV in the background and everything. O_O And out of all the people in the room, she was heading towards me! >> I pushed Alli in front of me though so it was cool. I almost fell in the well though so... yeah. xD;


It was awesome when the dudes were trying to sneak up behind us though because I (being paranoid little me) kept looking behind me and right before the dudes were gonna scare us I was all like, "HI THERE!!!" They looked SO pissed. And this one lady jumped out and I was all like, "HEY! I know you!" and she started laughing. When this one dude was stalking us, I told him he looked like my mom and he kinda... went away. *dies laughing* Argh, I'm mean. But yeah... the only SERIOUSLY freaky part was when Leatherface was chasing us with the chainsaw. OMG.... he was going for Alli's feet. And at one point we were in a room with the meat in the bags hanging from the ceiling... one bag was moving. That part truely scared me because I was waiting for Leatherface to pop out from behind one of the meat thingies... which he did... eventually. Heheh... Then there was the dude that was chanting shit in a REALLY creepy voice... I think it was Latin or something.. then pretty soon he was chasing us with a chainsaw. Argh... TOO... MANY... CHAINSAWS... *twitchtwitch*


But yeah... sorry to make this so long, but it was FUN. Yes. I must go again...


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http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/6845591/ Sun, 23 Oct 2005 12:58:03 PDT Listening To: Stuff.
Reading: Stuff.
Watching: Stuff.

HYPER!!! I'M HYPER!!!!!! PH34R MY NIPPLES!!! *falls off chair*

*chokes on Pepsi* ... I'm okay. xD;

I demand you all check out this website.

[link]

And type "penis" or such a word into the sloganizing thingy. It rocks.

"Do the Penis."

"Sweet as the Moment the Penis Went "Pop"."

"Nothin' Says Lovin' Like a Vagina From the Oven."

... Argh, I'm such a dork. But it DOES provide entertainment when there's nothing left to do. Beep. I must thank Sam for showing me thee website. *nod*


We got a free marshmellow popcorn thingy in the mail today... It's awesome!

Me: *eating the popcorn* ... *points at the marshmellow, which is gooey and white* ... *to mom* Freddy squirted his sweet liquids onto the popcorn! O_O

Mom: *bursts out laughing* I don't want it anymore than... You can have it.

Me:


And there's a Freddy action figure I desperately need...

Me: *running in circles* FREDDYFREDDYSEXYFREDDYANDHE'S18INCHESANDHE'S30DOLLARSANDHE'SSEXYANDHE'SSEXYFREDDYFREDDYSEXYFREDDYANDHE'S18INCHESANDHE'S30DOLLARSANDHE'SSEXYANDHE'SSEXY...*repeats the same thing over and over again*

Dad: ... sorry Amber... we need that money to put you in a psycho ward or something...

Mom: *laughing*


RAAAAAAAWWWWWWWWWWWRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR RRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! PH34R THE SOCKS!!!!!!!!!!! THEY WILL EAT YOUR NOSE ALIIIIVE!!!! O_O *shoves a sock onto all her watchers' noses and runs away cackling likka maniac*

Freddy: o.O;


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http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/6817798/ Thu, 20 Oct 2005 10:46:01 PDT Listening To: Nothing.
Reading: HPatPoA, SS, SH, and TH.
Watching: Drawn Together.

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+Using cartoon character or show names, spell out your name

Animaniacs
Marvin Martain
Batman Beyond
Elmer Fudd?
R... ? xD;

+favorite cartoons+
1 - The Simpsons
2 - South Park
3 - Family Guy
4 - Futurama
5 - Drawn Together
6 - Looney Tunes
7 - Batman Beyond
8 - Scooby-Doo (*hides*)
9 - Sponge-Bob Squarepants
10 - X-Men
11 - Static Shock
12 - Yu-Gi-Oh! (sometimes)

+cartoons you dislike+
1 - Pokemon (*hurls on keyboard*)
2 - Dragon Tales
3 - Power Rangers (OMG... they must die...)
4 - Smurfs ("Papa smurf can I lick yo ass?" "Yeah, lick my ass BITCH!" )

+Guilty pleasure Toons+
1 - Drawn Together
2 - Batman Beyond
3 - Scooby-Doo
4 - Yu-Gi-Oh!

+favorite cartoon characters+
1 - Thrax
2 - Perfect Cell
3 - The dude from Static Shock... it's been so long, I forgot his name.
4 - Foxxy (from Drawn Together)
5 - Xandir (from Drawn Together)... (hopefully I spelled his sexy name right...)
6 - the Monstars
7 - Bugs Bunny
8 - Marvin Martian
9 - Daffy
10 - The Roadrunner
11 - Sponge-Bob
12 - Squidward
13 - Joey Wheeler, I think his name is... He's so cute!
14 - Pegasis (if that's how you spell it) ... can you say "daaaa-aaaaamn!"

+Cartoon characters you dislike+
1 - Ash Catchem or whatever the fuck his name was...
2 - That one girl that Yu-Gi likes...
3 - Misty...

+Most recently seen cartoons+
1 - Drawn Together.
2 - South Park.
3 - Futurama.

+This or that+

2D or 3D - Eh... both.

Toony or anime - Toony.

Comedy or drama - Comedy.


+Have you ever+

Drawn fan art of a toon - Yep.

Written fan fiction of a toon - Nah.

Made a fan character - Yep.

Slashed or gender-bended a toon - YIS!

Even know what it means to slash or gender-bend a toon - Yes.

Ranted over slash or gender-bending, or against - No.

Watched hentai - Nope.

Even know what hentai is - Yeah, lol.

Spent over an hour discussing a cartoon - Not really, no.

Planned on getting a job in an animation studio - Nope.

Worked in an animation studio - No.

Still have toys based on cartoon characters - Nope...

Still BUY toys based on cartoon characters - I might someday... if I get money damnit...

Had a crush on a toon - Oh hell yeah!

Cried while watching a toon - No, lol.

Laughed until you cried while watching a toon - Yes!

Liked toons more than real people - Yeah... still do.

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20 random things about me

1. I have blue hair...
2. I got 7 piercings.
3. I love the color black! MY COLOR DAMNIT!!! O_O
4. I'm in luff with meh Freddy. But I'm sure you already knew that by now.
5. I love the "goth style", but I hate stereotypes. Cal... ]]> ~Darth-Ambzilla http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/6810954/ http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/6810954/ Wed, 19 Oct 2005 15:42:01 PDT
Listening To: "Helena" by MCR
Reading: HPatPoA, SS, SH, and TH.
Watching: The Simpsons.

Argh... today was interesting. I wore these really horrible pants because I thought I was gonna do the kickwheel in pottery, but... I couldn't do it. I wasn't here when he explained it and... yeeeaahhh... a lil' embarrassing there. xD; So yeah, I getta do it next week. Blar. Yay. And RIGHT when I was walking by the school police officer I said bitch really... REALLY loud. He gave me the dirtiest look, but at least he didn't say anything. Julya was laughing so hard. xD; At least my stupidity provides a form of entertainment.

I wish death upon the majority of my teachers... they are getting truely pathetic. >> Rawr. I won't go into details, but RAWR.

Right before history class was fun though... we were REALLY hyper and stuff. Sam pulled my hood over my head and pushed me... I was like rolling on the floor laughing. Twas fun.

I find myself liking Jaeden again... KILL ME. KILL MEEEEEEEEE. *wavy hand motions*

OMG... like the other day...

*in the nurse's office*

Me: *walks in, unoticed by the nurse*

Nurse: *back turned to me, typing on her computer*

Jackie: *sitting there, waves at me*

Me: *waves back* ... *starts doing a REALLY retarded dance that involves many wavy hand motions*

Jackie: *laughing*

Nurse: *turns around and looks*

Me: *oblivious, still dancing*

Nurse: *bursts out laughing*

Me: *stops* ... oops. xD;

Ain't I special? xD; Wheeeeeeeeee!


*before lunch*

Sam: Amber! *holds out candy wrapper* Take the condom!

Me: I don't need it anymore... *cough*

Sam: Use it later, then!

Me: *shifty eyes, grabs it and runs into the bathroom, screaming "I'M COMING FREDDY!!!"*

Sam: ...


I like pie. And I've become addicted to the South Park workshop thingy... So yeah, you'll be seeing a lot of those from me. Sorry.

Conferences tonight... I'm scared. *shifty eyes*

*zooms away*

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~Darth-Ambzilla http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/6796480/ http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/6796480/ Mon, 17 Oct 2005 21:45:48 PDT
Listening To: "(s)AINT" by MM
Watching: A Nightmare On Elm Street
Reading: HPatPoA, SS, SH, and TH.

I've been... very hyper today. xD; And I'm bored so I figured I'd do this.


*e-mail to Carolyn*


"BOO!!! O_O

CAROLYN!!! WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN, CAROLYN?! WHERE?! I NEED YOU TO RUB MY NIPPLES, CAROLYN!!! DO IT!!! NOW!!! MY NIPPLES COMMAND YOU! THE POWER OF NIPPLES COMPELS YOU!! THE POWER OF NIPPLES COMPELS YOU!!!

... *cough* Okay, now that I have THAT out of my system... How are you todaaay? XD"


I wonder why she hasn't talked to me lately...


*e-mails between Alli and me*


Me: "W00T!!! OH YEAH!!! PARTEH! *dances* ... *grabs Freddy and makes him dance too*

Freddy: GET THE F*** AWAY FROM ME YOU B****!!!

*latches onto him* MOOHAHA!!! *grabs his legs and drags him off*

Freddy: NOOOOO!!! *claws the floor as Amb drags him into the closet*

*the closet door snaps shut and manly Freddy screams are heard from within*"


*later*


Me: "... riiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii-*takes deep breath*-iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiight.

*comes out of the closet*

*Freddy is still inside the closet*

Freddy: *wide-eyed expression, rocking back n' forth* I've seen things... HORRIBLE THINGS...

Umm... *shifty eyes* I didn't do anything to him, I swear. *cough* Yeah. *stuffs something under her shirt and runs away*"


Alli: "Hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii Amber!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hayden is Mine!!!!! That was random I SWEAR!!!!!!!! *runs off draging hayden behind* *evil laugh* ... WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE EEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! "


Me: "Heheheh... I almost thought you said "*runs off draging hayden's behind*". LOL! I wonder how that would work... Then again... I don't want to know. XD

*latches onto Freddy's side* O_O

Freddy: ... -_-;

MOOHAHA!!!

... I like... *dramatic pause* ... PIE."


Alli: "Mesa is tired. *falls a sleep* z z z z z z *wakes up and startes screaming* NO I DID NOT KIDNAP HAYDEN!!!!!!!!!!!

voice inside closet: HELP!!!!!!! SOME FREAKY CHICK KIDNAPED ME!!!!!!!!!!! I'M IN HER CLOSET!!!!!!! GET ME OUT A HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*walks over to closet* SHUT UP!!!!!!!! *mumbles sleepishly* stupid cockroches.
*goes back to sleep* z z z z z z z z z z z z z z z z z"


Me: "... riiiiiiiiiiiiiiiight. XD

Freddy: *sighs, to Hayden* I feel yer pain man.

*glares at Freddy*

Oh and nevermind my last e-mail... the messages are showing-up now. ^_^;

*latches onto Freddy's leg* My ickle Freddy-kins...

Freddy: *growls and bares his teeth*

Awww... ain't he so CUTE?! O_O

Freddy: I think this b**** is even starting to scare me...

*grins proudly* ... *locks Freddy in the closet again*

*from inside closet* LET ME THE F*** OUT OF HERE YOU F***ING B****!!!

Heheheh... I know what you mean Alli... those cockroaches can be a REAL pain. Mine even cuss... *whistles innocently and walks away from the closet*

*continued swearing and death threats are heard from closet*"


Alli: "YEESSSS EVIL COCROACHES *laughs stupidly*
and yet me love them...........*opens up the closet* CRASH *Hayden falls out gasping for air*

What the H**L is your problem?!?!?!?!
Yesss I love u too.
WHAT!!!!!!??????
*Stuffs him back into the closet*

God D****T!!!
Yesss cockroaches are fun arn't they?"


Me: "Yes. Such fun. *laughs evilly*

*opens the closet and Freddy tumbles out*

Freddy: YOU F***ING B****!!! I'M GONNA F***ING KILL YOU!!!!!!

I love you. *bats eyelashes at him*

Freddy: ... you need help, b****.

*grins* Yes. I'd LOVE to marry you and have your love child.

Freddy: WTF?!

I'd be GLAD to! *grabs him and starts dragging him into the closet again*

F... ]]> ~Darth-Ambzilla http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/6792225/ http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/6792225/ Mon, 17 Oct 2005 13:29:20 PDT Listening To: "(s)AINT" by MM
Reading: HPatPoA, SS, SH, and TH.
Watching: A Nightmare On Elm Street

We went to get my costume and stuff yesterday... I got another set of those gloves... I found out I was ripped off the first time! I was supposed to get two gloves and there was only one. Grrr. But yeah, so I have 2 more of those now and I bought another pair of gloves like that, but they're longer... they go like... half way up my arm. And I got these silver bracelets with stuffs on them... like little spike thingies poking out, but they're not hard.... Okay, ignore the pervertedness of that. xD; But yeah, I'll have pics of my costume up soon... I'll probably make it an ID or somik.

I am now completely Freddy obsessed. Freddy. O_O FREDDYYYYYYYYYYY........ *falls off chair*

And Alli now has internet! PH34R IT!!! O_O

C'ya peeps... I'm gonna have dreams of Freddy and chocolate syrup now...

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- Amazing talent! *nodnod*

~Darth-Ambzilla http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/6767331/ http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/6767331/ Fri, 14 Oct 2005 15:02:00 PDT Listening To: "Dope Show" by MM
Reading: HPatPoA, SS, SH, and TH.
Watching: Nothing.

Today was actually kinda good. Mostly because it's Friday, but STILL. And it's a three-day weekend! AND I'm wearing all black for once... Shirt, pants, shoes, wristbands, bracelets, earrings, etc. The only things that aren't black are my socks and my bra... Not that you needed to know that. ... *does the funky chicken........ dance* ... *cough*

The science teacher is a complete fucktard though... he was an asshole about NOTHING! Everyone was doing this science lab and he made the biggest deal when someone made a MISTAKE! It's not like it was on purpose. >> Then the math teacher... lets not go there. My only comfort is that I'll never have to see those assholes again after this year. I like the nurse though... she rocks. *nodnod*

Lunch was... interesting... xD;

Julya: *eating soup, drops a noodle on her lap* ... *gasp* The noodle was trying to get into my VAGINA!!! O_O

Me: *chokes on sandwich*

... yes.

We're going to the mall again to get my Freddy costume. I'm gonna try to convince my dad to get me some more stuff too... It's not like we go there all the time. >> I've only been there 3 times in the past few years and it wasn't with my parents so I was never able to get much stuff. Beep.

C'ya peeps! And remember... PH34R DA COCKMONKEY OF DEATH!!!!!!!! O_O *runs*

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Featured Emoticon ~Darth-Ambzilla http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/6731340/ http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/6731340/ Mon, 10 Oct 2005 15:01:12 PDT Listening To: "This is the New Shit" by MM
Reading: HPatPoA, SS, TH, and SH.
Watching: The Simpsons and Futurama.

Here ish a quizzeh I found... It was 100% true for me. *nodnod*


1) Write the name of a person of the opposite
sex.




2) Which is your favorite color out of red,
black, blue, green, yellow?






3) Your first initial?







4) Your month of birth?








5) Which color do you like more, black or white?










6) Name of a person of the same sex as yours.








7) Your favorite number?






8) Do you like California or Florida more?








9) Do you like the lake or the ocean more?







10) Write down a wish. (A realistic one).


ARE Y0U D0NE?
iF S0 SCR0LL D0WN.
(D0N'T CHEAT... iM WATCHiNG Y0U...)
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THE ANSWERS

1. You are completely in love with this person.

2. If you choose:

Red - You are alert and your life is full of
love.

Black - You are conservative and aggressive.

Green - Your soul is relaxed and you are laid
back.

Blue - You are spontaneous and love kisses
and
affection from the ones you love.

Yellow- you are a very happy person and give
good advice to those who are down.


3. If your initial is:

A-K You have a lot of love and friendships in
your life.

L-R You try to enjoy your life to the maximum
and your love life is
soon to blossom.

S-Z You like to help others and your future love
life looks very good.


4. If you were born in:

Jan-Mar: The year will go very well for you and
you will discover that you fall in love with
someone totally unexpected.

April-June: You will have a strong love
relationship that will not last long but the
memories will last forever.

July-Sep: You will have a great year and will
experience a major life changing experience for
the good.

Oct-Dec: Your love life will not be too great,
but eventually you will find your soul mate.

5. If you chose...

Black: Your life will take on a different
direction, it will seem hard at the time but
will be the best thing for you, and you will
be glad for the change.

White: You will have a friend who completely
confides in you and would do anything for you,
but you may not realize it.


6. This person is your best friend.

7. This is how many close friends you have in
your lifetime.

8. If you chose:
California: You like adventure.
Florida: You are a laid back person.

9. If you chose:

Lake: You are loyal to your friends and to your
love. And you are very reserved.

Ocean: You are spontaneous and like to please
people.

10. This wish will come true only if you RE-POST THIS BULLETIN in one hour and it will come true before your next birthday!!


... mmyup. I'm not really feeling too great right now... my headaches are back and I've got some kind of flu thingy going. I've ran to the bathroom at least 5 times in my classes today. >> Blagh. Then when I was in the bathroom, my lipstick fell out of my pocket and into the toilet... before I flushed it. I just threw it away afterwards... Like I'd use it after that. o.O *gag* And I've got a bunch of homework too now... Argh. Great day. And even Alli was feeling like shit today... Maybe we caught something at the mall. o.O; But Mondays are usually bad so... yeah. The only good thing is that the extra tooth I was growing is like... gone. It might've been a piece of candy or something... but I swear it looked and felt EXACTLY like a tooth. xD; I'm such a dork. Ah well... It's better to be a dork and proud than a dork in denial. Yes.

C'ya duuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuudes. *runs away*

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http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/6715697/ Sat, 08 Oct 2005 20:30:35 PDT
Listening To: "Bat Country" by Avenged Sevenfold.
Reading: HPatPoA, TH, SS, and SH.
Watching: Nothing.

Dude. Today rocked... Alli and me were at the mall from 7:30 AM or so until... around 5:30 PM. It was fun... I wish I had more money though. This one store had these awesome statues of dragons... and there were these glass skulls and stuff... they rocked. They make me want to redecorate my room too. Blar. I want to get rid of a lot of shit. >> But yeah, I got a bunch of those red and black jelly-type bracelets I've been wanting, a nylon black fishnet-type of glove that has the fingers cut off, a wrist thingy with a skull on it, these temporary skull tattoo thingies, and a skull necklace with fangs and spikes on it. It rocks... I'm obsessed with skulls now. Alli got a magnet with Stewie on it that says "Victory shall be mine!", a stuffed Kyle, and a stuffed Kenny. She said she'd share Kenny with me. FWHEEE! I was gonna get a MM T-shirt, but decided against it... I need to drag my parents to those stores so I can get more stuffs. The first time I went to Hot Topic, Minnie was with me. She was so fucking paranoid and bitchy... I just left the store so I wouldn't have to hear her bitching anymore. Argh. But THIS time I got as much demented stuff as I could. The stuff I knew my parents wouldn't let me get if they were there... well... they MIGHT have, but I'd've had to hear about it. >> So yeah. And Alli n' me've decided what we're gonna do for Halloween... She's gonna be Jason and I'm gonna be Freddy. They had both the costumes at Spencer's so that's an excuse for me to drag my mom there. Beep. Spencer's is the best though... I loved these magnets they had. Some of my favs said "I'm trying to see things from your point of view, but I can't get my head that far up my ass." and "My imaginary friend thinks you have serious mental problems." And they had this necklace... it had little penises on it. *dies* They had some really kick-ass stuff in there. *nodnod*

So yeah, today was pretty cool. The only thing that has me worried is that I'm growing an extra tooth... It's not my wisdom teeth or anything... it's like... on the right top part of my mouth and it's kinda between the very back tooth and the one next to it. Argh. I'll have mom make me an appointment tomorrow when she's sober... I told her about it when I got home, but she'll forget. Her tiny little drunken brain won't remember shit tomorrow. *cough* But yeah... I'm all worried about it. That's ALL I needed. More shit to worry about RIGHT when I'm feeling remotely better. Fwheee.

C'ya peeps.. Wooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo oo... *runs away*

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http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/6708290/ Fri, 07 Oct 2005 22:27:31 PDT and
Listening To: "Wrecking Hotel Rooms" by MXPX
Reading: HPatPoA, SS, TH, and SH.
Watching: Nothing.

I guess I'm pretty happy... I must get my bitching out first though, as you would probably have expected by now. xD;

I'm still depressed about my bud... I can't believe that happened. -_-; Of all people... But yeah, I guess I shouldn't think too much about it... at least they can't hurt her anymore. And since they're in jail now... maybe the horny bastards will get assfucked like they fucking deserve. >_<

Then there's the whole locker issue... The science teacher gave me my own locker a while ago. Then the other day I come into class to find out that I getta sit next to the class dumbshit. I mean really, I have nothing against truely retarded people, but ARGH... He seriously should be in a special eds class! Either that or he just PRETENDS to be retarded to get attention... but it doesn't seem that way. But the teacher fucking put him off on me! He said it was to PAY HIM BACK for me getting my own locker! If I KNEW I wouldn't have taken the locker. >> And he copies off my paper and is CONSTANTLY asking me stupid questions. I guess the teacher did it to me because I was laughing the day before... We were doing experiments and Justin (the dumbass kid) was following the teacher around THE WHOLE TIME, asking him questions about nothing. It was seriously at the point where the teacher was threatening to give him a write-up if he asked another question. I was laughing so hard... and the next day when I had to find out I sat next to Justin... the teacher was laughing that day. Argh. He was pretending to be sympathetic, but was smirking at the same time. *rolls eyes* I told my parents and they were so fucking pissed... they called the teacher. Now I'm scared to go to science on Monday. Blar. -_-; Then I REALLY feel sorry for Carolyn and Julya. In their neighborhood (school neighborhood that is), C100, the teachers are dividing it to where they have all-girl and all-boy classes! O_O WTF?! They seem to think it'll make them "learn better". That is just fucking PATHETIC. WHAT? Are they all starting to make-out or something during class? And THEN I got in trouble in the office the other day for wearing my fucking Green Day T-shirt! Because it has a HEART GRENADE on it! >_< I didn't even notice it was a heart grenade. You can't fucking tell. I even told my parents and they said that was fucking stupid. And that bastard was the ONLY ONE that said something! Nobody else gives a rat's ass. I'm still gonna wear this shirt... I don't fucking care anymore. If he dares to tell me to change my shirt or turn it inside-out I'll fucking walk right out of that goddamn school. I've had it. I'm a good student in general. I do my best on tests and assignments, I do my homework as soon as I get it, I have fucking straight A's. If they want to suspend me over THE STUPIDEST SHIT they can go right ahead. I thought this school was bad before. *snort* It's only fucking getting worse. I swear, it's like a private school or something! It's a fucking PUBLIC school! They need to CHILL. CHIIIIILLLLLLLLLLLLLLL. O_O

*cough* Okay, I feel a lot better with that out of my system. I can be happy now.... I'm getting up at 7 AM tomorrow so I can go to the mall with Alli. ^__^ Shall be fun. I only have $25, but oh well. It'll be the first time I've been to the mall in forever and at least I'll be able to buy SOMETHING. And, like Alli said, it's the Westminister mall... they can't be THAT expensive.... I hope. o.O;

Besides that I'm getting into da Halloween spirit... It's the only holiday that still has meaning to me. I'm hoping to go to a haunted house thingy with either Carolyn and Julya or Alli. Either way, I HAVE to scare one of the monster dudes. I've always wanted to do that. To have the dude try to scare me, but me scare him instead. I MUST. O_O

*cough* C'ya peeps. *zooms off into the great mysterious BEYOND... O_O... dramatic music plays*

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http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/6687886/ Wed, 05 Oct 2005 15:21:24 PDT
Listening To: "This is the New Shit" by MM
Reading: HPatPoA, SS, SH, and TH.
Watching: Mind of Mencia and the Simpsons.

I am currently kind of happy... which I don't understand since so much bad shit's happened lately. Like, one of my buds at school is in a foster home now... she got raped by her dad and brothers. So you can understand why I'm not putting her name up here. -_-; I feel so fucking horrible about it... I just can't believe it. It's shit like that that makes me want to die or sometink. I don't see the point in life really... I mean, we have a few fun years, we start school, we get a job, we retire, we die. I mean, there's some fun stuff that happens, but... it doesn't really make all the bad stuff worth it. I don't get it. What's the point in everything?

Besides that I guess I feel pretty good... better than I was anywho. I was blessed with "da curse" the other day so I'm not as... depressed and bitchy. Blar.

Still got that quote from Goldmember stuck in my head... "Look everyone! My vinky vas a key!" ... *cough* ... yeah.


Stolen from


Homophobia and You:

-I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.

-I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.

-I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.

-We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.

-I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.

-I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.

-I am one of the lucky ones, I guess. I survived the attack that left me in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able to walk again.

-I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.

-We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.

-I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.

-I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.

-I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.

-I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.

-I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.

-I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.

-I am the woman who died when the EMTs stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual.

-I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I didn’t have to always deal with society hating me.

-I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.

-I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.

-I am the person who is afraid of telling his loving Christian parents he loves another male.

Repost this if you realize homophobia is wrong.


Beep. I think I'm gonna watch Austin Powers and draw some stuff... c'ya peeps.


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http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/6664636/ Sun, 02 Oct 2005 23:57:46 PDT Listening To: Nothing.
Reading: HPatPoA, TH, SS, and SH.
Watching: South Park.

Alli stayed over last night... twas fun. We were up until 4 AM in my room with Blink-182 and Green Day music full blast... lots of candy, caffiene, singing and being freaks (as usual) going on. Though, today the family came over and Sydney was annoying the shit out of me n' Alli. Argh. I'm never fucking having kids. I swear, I want to get my tubes tied NOW. Even if I want a kid later in life, I don't want to be ABLE to have one. I don't want the future me to ruin my further into the future future... if that makes any sense whatsoever. xD; But yeah, besides that it was fun. I figured out how to download videos and stuff too... it never worked on WinMX for me, but on the new thingy it does. *nod* We found the best Star Wars-South Park parody on earth. It rocked. And I downloaded the Austin Powers movies, a bunch of SP, Futurama, and Family Guy episodes, and stuff. Yes. And I can't believe I spent all that time trying to figure out what a Dutch accent sounded like and it was RIGHT THERE the whole time! The Goldmember dude... He rocked. He was scary as hell, but he rocked. "I am vrom Holland... isn't dat veird?" <--- that quote is like... stuck in my head. Well... that and "This diaper is rubbing my nuts together... it's gonna start a FIRE!" Blar. Austin Powers is the BEST. But besides all the fun stuff, we layed there and talked about other stuff too... How life is pointless, school, drunk parents, beliefs... n' stuff. I'm surprised to of found out that stuff from her. And I was completely amazed when she said she don't believe in God and stuff... But then again, I've never really talked to anyone in school about that type of shit. *shrug*

Pretty much everyone in my school is religious except for the goths... And Brittney was going on about how all people who don't believe in God are going to hell n' stuff. I was ready to scream my head off at her, but I resisted. >> Ignorance. Wheee. But yeah, I refrain from telling most people at my school ANYTHING about my beliefs and shit. To not be made fun of about it I'd have to be EXACTLY like the majority of the people at school. Which is retarded, since EVERYONE is an INDIVIDUAL. The peeps at my school are not only immature about.... certain things... but they're close-minded as well. Even a lot of my friends are. It makes me wonder. -_-; But then again... I'm menstral... and stuff. It's weird how I manage to make myself so fucking happy until "da curse" sets in... Then I explode and emotions I've been holding in go everywhere.

And I REALLY hate myself right now. I'm like... not even attracted to guys anymore. At all. I can't even force myself. Some guys I'll think are cute, but there aren't even any that I feel "that way" about. Even if I know they're cute. But I see a hot girl and I'm all like: O_O

I don't get it. I don't WANT to fucking feel this way. I could try to force myself to think differently, but that wouldn't get me anywhere. It's fucking stupid when people think I like to act that way for attention or something. I USED to like attention. Now I'm the opposite. And when some people find out about all this they're like "Riiiiight... how do you know? You're too young!" Umm... yeah. But when I thought a guy was sexy they seemed to think I was old enough. *rolls eyes* And stuff. I miss being a kid. Not having all these goddamn... emotions.

Blar. Even I get tired of my ranting on here. Tis my ventalation shaft though... Heheh... that sounded wrong... *cough* But yeah, remember, this be the only place I have to rant. And it's not like I'm holding your face to the computer and forcing you to read this so... don't bitch to me! O_O

*wanders tiredly off to bed, Lindsay Lohan pictures in hand*

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Buddehs

http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/6647230/ Sat, 01 Oct 2005 00:30:54 PDT
Mood: COFFEE. O_O
Reading: HPatPoA, TH, SH, and SS. O_O
Watching: Mind of Mencia (Best show... EVER.) O_O
Listening To: NOTHING. WOW. O_O

I like making this face... got a problem? O_O

I'm so coffee-high right now. When I drink the stuff I usually get REALLY smart all of a sudden and I think of stuff I normally wouldn't... My mind is all... clear... and stuff. Then after a while I go... COMPLETELY insane. I was just sitting here laughing so hard my stomach hurts... for NO reason whatsoever. xD; Ah... the joys of things that make your mind go "WHEEEEEEEE!".

*in the kitchen*

Me: *stroking the fridge door* Mmmm... my husbaaaaannndddd.... O_O

Mom: O...kaaaaaay...

*pretends to make-out with fridge door* So sexyyyy... *pretends to hump it* HUSBAA-AAA-AAAA-NNDDD!!!!!

Mom: *laughing*

Me: *turns away from fridge, looking around suspiciously* ... *stands like guard dog in front of the fridge, twitching and looking around all... paranoid-like* Husband... husband... *evil demented voice* HUSBAAAAAAAND!!! O_O

Mom: *still laughing* Are you possessed or something?

Me: MOO... HAHA!!! O_O *runs upstairs*

I seriously did that. And that was BEFORE I had coffee. I'm so proud of myself. Ph34r me. I like... did the same thing with a brick wall at school. Sammi and Alli swore they didn't know me. I think I need to get married. I go "HUSBAND" waaaay too much... Any takers? xD;

*the other day*

Nicole: Amber... you've changed so much since 6th grade. o.O You were all... quiet and shy. Now you're... insane. *blink*

Me: *grin*

Yes. Even I remember the days when I sat in the corner and watched everybody else... even my friends. o.O It's still enough to make me go "WTF was my problem?" Mmyup.

My hair ish fading agaaaaiiiinnnn!!! WHY CRUEL FATE?! WHYYYYYYYY???!! And my mom said the dye box thingy said not to redye it for 6 weeks! WTH don't they make the dye LAST for 6 weeks instead of 1 and a half? Seems logical to me, but OKAY....

Now I must bitch about something. I remember the days when I used to complain all the time. I still do on here because this in my little... ranting... place. But I mean IRL. I don't usually complain too much IRL. I USED to and I'm ashamed of that. But I DON'T complain all the time anymore and people that do drive me insane. Holly, for example, I can't fucking stand. ALL she does is complain! About EVERYTHING! I can't stand it... She sits at our table in algebra class and ALL she does is bitch. NEVER anything else. I swear I don't remember her EVER saying something that wasn't a complaint. EVER. And her problems ALWAYS have to be worse than everyone elses. ALWAYS. A wee example:

Holly: I'm SO hungry...

Me: Me too.

Holly: *snotty voice* Well, *I* haven't eaten since YESTERDAY AFTERNOO-OON.

Me: I haven't either.

Holly: Well, *I* have five dollars and I have to buy MY OWN food.

Me: *rolls eyes and ignores*

*Sam and Alli sit down at the table*

Holly: *starts going on about how her mom locked her out of the house until she got 1000 dollars worth of fund-raiser money*

Sam, Alli, me: *roll eyes and ignore, Alli does her little trademark eyebrow raise*

Holly: *continues to ramble on*

I mean it's PATHETIC. I used to believe her when she said her parents were mean to her, but now it's just getting WAY too exaggerated. 1000 dollars in fund-raiser money? In one night? My ass. Why would her mom give a shit anyways? And besides that, her mom let her in the house. Did Holly raise 1000 dollars? No. I didn't see her give the teachers A CENT. *snort* And she was going on about how she had to sneak out of the house to go to the Green Day concert. None of us believed that. It was over 4 hours. How could it be done? How the hell would she have gotten there? Walking? It took us like... over 30 minutes to get there and we drove... and we were speeding. And when I asked her what she thought of the concert, she went all weird and changed the subject. *rolls eyes* It's the most obvious thing she does it for attention... and excuses. She said she was failing math class because of her mom locking her out of the house and she couldn't turn in a paper because her mom ABSOLUTELY REFUSED to sign it. And her mom makes her go to soccer practice for an hour a few days a week so she can't EVER do her homework. Yep. Uh-huh. The she was always going... ]]> ~Darth-Ambzilla http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/6628995/ http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/6628995/ Wed, 28 Sep 2005 20:11:07 PDT Listening To: "Holiday" by Green Day (MY SEXY ON DRUMS!!!! MINE!!! O_O ).
Reading: TH, SS, HPatPoA, and Sherlock Holmes (for english class... blah).
Watching: Comedy Central.

I like... went through my gallery. I put a lot of shit in scraps. It's weird how I felt proud of everything when I first drew it and now it's like... *gag* So yeah, I need to draw a lot of sheet (shit witha accent ). It goes like this:

- Lola (from Space Jam) for

- An alien for

- A random MM pic...

- Tre Cool... again...

Anything I forgot? O.o

And I noticed I haven't been exercising as much lately... All summer I was doing 70 minutes on that bike with like... 500 sit-ups, push-ups, etc. It kinda... got old after a while, I guess. I now find it hard to do the bike (...sounds a WEE BIT wrong there...) even 10 minutes just because it's so fucking boring. Blah. >> I do that stupid tape though... it's just for the stomach and it hurts like a mofo. xD; It helps the legs n' stuff too... so at least I'm doing SOMETHING, but I still feel all guilty about it. Argh.

Alli brought me a bracelet that says "Tre Cool" on it today. It rocks! *boogies down* And I gave her the Hayden picture I drew and shesa loved it. ^__^ I feel happy. Happyyyyyyyy. O_O

*cough* So yeah... I'm gonna draw at least SOMETHING now and I'll probably submit a new ID too because mesa bored. I'm too full to exercise... damn spaghetti... I think I might hurl. o.O

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Friends 'n Clubs List ~Darth-Ambzilla http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/6621198/ http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/6621198/ Tue, 27 Sep 2005 22:28:17 PDT
Mood: Thoughtful.
Listening To: "Holiday" by Green Day and "Headstrong" by Trapt.
Reading: HPatPoA, SS, and TH.
Watching: Drawn Together. (heheheh... this show rocks...)

How come I've been thinking about so much lately? From future careers to how the world works to how I'm gonna die... I've been thinking about... EVERYTHING. o.O I mean, I usually think too much, but holy shit.

But yeah... after a bunch of stuff... I decided I'm gonna stay away from relationships in school and stuff... less bullshit. I hate all the guys in my school anyways and if I started going after girls I think they'd be royally creeped out. And I do like mainly just girls period now. I hate guys' personalities and I like the way girls look better anyways. I'm mean, besides that, every guy I end up liking wants me for sex or some shit... and I'm THIRTEEN FOR CHRIST'S SAKE!!! Imagine when I'm older! I know not ALL guys are like that, but the majority of them are and I'm tired of looking for a nice one. If a nice one comes along then sure! But I'm not holding my breath. >> And I notice the only guys I like "in that way" I don't even know (Marilyn Manson, Tre Cool, ect.) and if I knew them, they probably wouldn't be as great as I thought they'd be to begin with. They MIGHT, but yeah. Chances are kinda slim there... And all you guys/men/whatever out there can flame me as much as you want, but it won't change my views. Deal with it.

*cough* With that off of my chest...

Me: Dude... you know what I'm dying to do?

Alli: What?

Me: Go up to someone, shove like... a pencil or something under their arm, and shout "ARMPIT RAPE!!!"

Alli: ....

*later*

Me: *writes "Tre Cool" around wrist in red ink* ... *goes up to Julya and shows her* MY HUSBAAAAAAND. O_O

Julya: Riiiiiiiight Amb...

And I printed out "THE" picture of Keith Urban and gave it to Sam... In case you don't know... It's the picture where he's naked and he's holding his guitar over his winky. She called me a perv, but when I said she could just give the pic back to me... she refused. She's all like, "MINE!" Yep.

And stuff... a bunch of other stuff happened, but mesa forgot most of it.

Alli's coming over on Saturday to stay the night... which I'm greatful for because the family's coming over on Sunday and I'll at least have Alli there so... yeah. And Mom said that Syd won't bug me as much if I have a friend here... I doubt it, but I hope so. -_-; I really can't stand Syd anymore. I can't stand Sierra either, but I couldn't stand her to begin with. >> And yet Uncle expects me to stay the night over there sometime! He's expects me to entertain 2 little kids... *grrrrrrrrr* And they were asking me to go to Disney Land/World with them over the summer so I can be with Syd and Sierra the whole time and they can have fun! THE HELL I am! >_<

So yeah... that's basically all that's up at the mo. And yeah, I know I haven't been on much lately... been busy with shit. I still don't see how the teachers can expect to pile all the work on us while we're AT school and yet manage to give us 3 hours of homework. *kills school*

C'ya peeps.

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... ]]> ~Darth-Ambzilla http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/6589590/ http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/6589590/ Sat, 24 Sep 2005 11:33:41 PDT Listening To: "Wrecking Hotel Rooms" by MXPX and "American Idiot" by Green Day.
Reading: HPatPoA, SS, and TH.
Watching: Austin Powers.

Welp... that was fun. We took mom to the hospital last night and she had to get staples in the back of her head. She was all drunk... I was so fucking embarrassed. I'm glad she's alright though. -_-; She could've fucking DIED and all because of getting drunk and shit. We went downstairs and there was blood EVERYWHERE. All over the couches... there was a pool of blood in front of the TV. Dad was just pissed he had to clean it. >> The Dr. dudes seemed to think HE did it to her or something. *rolls eyes*

I hate my mind. Seriously, when we were driving to the hospital last night and I saw the blood oozin' out her head and shit... I completely lost it. I started shaking and twitching... My neck was like... going all weird. It kept rolling back repeatedly... I couldn't swallow. I just freaked. It was like a seizure, but... not. o.O; I do that a lot too... and I don't know why. -_-

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http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/6585441/ Fri, 23 Sep 2005 22:28:55 PDT
C'ya. It figures... I had a great night, now this shit.

Mood: *shrug*
Listening To: Nothing.
Reading: HPatPoA, SS, and TH.
Watching: Corpse Bride.

I must first say something. I hate my mom. Seriously, she's all drunk downstairs and dancing and jumping around and shit. I swear I've heard her fall over at least 5 times already and I've only been home a few minutes. Amusing really. But yeah... I haven't been exercising much lately and that's one of the reasons. I have to exercise down there and to do that I'd have to deal with her drunk ass every night. >> Hopefully she'll be passed out by around 12 or so...

But anywho, I just went with Carolyn and Julya to see Corpse Bride. Amazingly, I enjoyed it... Makes me feel like watching A Nightmare Before Christmas. xD; "He's still squishy!" Julya and Carolyn kinda talked throughout the beginning though so I was kinda embarrassed. I can't stand peeps that talk during movies, but yeah... They chilled out after a wee bit. And we saw the previews to Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire... It looked so fucking awesome. O_O Must.... see....

*in the bathroom*

Julya: *wetting hands to straighten her hair* I'm all wetting my hands to straighten my bush...

Me: ... *bursts out laughing*

Julya: ... ewww!

Both: *laugh heads off*

And we got to talk outside the mall when we were waiting for Carolyn's mom to pick us up...

Julya: *out of nowhere* PIMP UP YO ASS!!! *does finger motion thingy*

Carolyn, me: *burst out laughing*

... and stuff. And when we were in the car "Boulevard of Broken Dreams" came on the radio and Carolyn's mom had it uber loud... Julya was insane. I was like... singing... n' stuff. But she like... lost it.

I'm trying to get all of Green Day's songs... MY BABY!!! O_O *hugs Tre Cool picture protectively*

But yeah, WinMX won't work for me anymore... I was gonna re-download it, but the website won't even show up. o.O; So I just gave up. Mileiah told me about this other download thingy... LimeWire. I downloaded it and I actually like it better. *nodnod* So s'all good.

And one more thing... since the other day when I turned on the computer (that sounds... odd...) it's like... slow. Not really slow, but when I scroll down it's kind of in slow motion... same thing when I move a window or w/e. It's not HORRIBLE, but it's really frikkin' annoying. -_-; Anyone know how I can fix this? Please? I'm desperate here! *sobs*

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http://Darth-Ambzilla.deviantart.com/journal/6561233/ Wed, 21 Sep 2005 21:55:52 PDT
Listening To: "When September Ends" by Green Day
Reading: SS, HPatPoA, and TH.
Watching: Nothin'.

I'm feeling better now... yeah. Still pissed, but oh well. *shrug*

I posted this on meh other journal, but I forgot to edit it and I figured that one was long enough as it was so here we go....

Leave a comment here and...
1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal. You MUST. It is written.

Yes.

*grabs MM pics and RUNS*

EDIT: I am now completely obsessed with Tre Cool... seeing him on stage the other night... rawr. My sexy. And something MM said about sex ticked me off a wee bit... I think he's badass sexy, but Tre is... CUTE SEXY! O_O He's so cute n' adorable...

[link] - my baby

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[link] - omg... so cute in this one...

... mmyup.

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