http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:DeadAndBroken16&section=today deviantART RSS for by:DeadAndBroken16 en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Mon, 21 Dec 2009 23:08:15 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/26129926/ http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/26129926/ Thu, 23 Jul 2009 12:57:24 PDT .< we pay 2/3 rent for the bedroom >.> meh... what's done is done. i get vacation hours at work now =] they're willing to pay me for 6 days of not being there lol no clue what to do with the hours though.

i've been doing a lot of thinking lately. about everything and nothing all at once. i haven't done this much thinking since highschool heh. i'm starting to feel like i'm stuck... i just need a change. desperately. it's just kinda hard to do without the funds for it.

my birthday is creeping up on me. soon i'll be 21 and i'll have a reason to go out again that should be nice. i never go anywhere anymore lol oh! and i chopped my hair off again =] 7 1/2 inches gone lol no, it's not super short, but i'm thinking about getting it cut a little bit shorter. just another inch or so. 2 tops.

i pretty much stopped talking to my mother. long story, not gonna bore you with it. not speaking to my brother either. Riley's getting big. haven't seen Seth in forever and a day =[ i miss my nephews...

my sister had another surgery last week. the doctor thinks he's finally done with her nose. hopefully he finally got her pallate fixed too.

does anyone want a cat? he's well behaved for the most part. the only thing he does wrong is clawing the furniture, but it's not that bad. i love my kitty dearly, but my allergies have been getting really bad lately and i think it's time to give in...

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zack and i got back together at the end of january. things are going great now =] we're kinda living together again, but not exactly cuz most of my stuff is still at my parents house. speaking of which, they had to move to south roxana cuz they lost their other house... but everything is ok with them now. my brother moved to alabama, but it's not working out so they're supposed to be coming back next week which means i'm losing the car i've been driving. zack's trying really hard to fix his car so we won't have to use my mom's truck cuz that's a pain in the ass x.x it's only taken him about 300 bucks in the last two days >< but it's almost done now. HOPEFULLY my car will be functional soon. it's really kinda sad that i bought it in february and i still haven't gotten to drive it yet >.> lol ummmm OH! my brother's girlfriend is pregnant again heh so he's just turned 23 and is now expecting his third... blah... anywho, zack and i are considering moving to new jersey. he's got a friend out there that can offer him either of 2 mechanic jobs making really good money. we're gonna try to take a trip out there to check things out first before we make any permanent decisions.

i got my 2 year evaluation at walmart a couple weeks ago. starting june 29th, my official hire date, i'll be making 10.25/hour which is awesome but sucks at the same time cuz i was kinda wanting to get away from midnights cuz i never sleep anymore but there's no way in hell i can find an entry-level job making that much just starting out... but then again, if zack and i do go to new jersey, he'll be making enough money that i probably wouldn't have to actually work. though i would imagine i still would just so i'd have something to do. but then it won't really matter where or how much i make heh

so yeah... anyone else have any news?? i've been waaaaaaaay out of the loop lately lol i'd like to get back in touch with people while i still have a chance =]

]]> ~DeadAndBroken16 http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/22490293/ http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/22490293/ Fri, 09 Jan 2009 15:39:34 PST

1] Post these rules.
2] Each tagged person should post 8 facts of themselves.
3] Tagged people should write a journal\blog about these facts.
4] In the end tag and name 5 people.
5] Go to their dA pages and comment saying that they are tagged.
so here goes:

1 i'm recently single again
2 i'm pretty sure my mom doesn't want me living in her house anymore
3 i switched to midnights at walmart
4 i am ungodly confused with life
5 i need to go back to school but i have no idea what to go for
6 i've been sleeping in my nephew's racecar bed lol
7 i like chocolate milk =]
8 fire is pretty


so yeah... um, i tag...


]]> ~DeadAndBroken16 http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/21757078/ http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/21757078/ Sun, 30 Nov 2008 21:08:23 PST i won't have to sleep alone all the time anymore xD and and and we'll save in gas cuz then me and zack can ride together lol not that it matters right now cuz his car's broken, but that's not the point lol so i'll be working 10pm-7am and i'll make an extra dollar an hour =] so 9.85 mon-sat and 10.85 on sunday o.o i so can't wait lol

oh, and as for my last journal, i'm feeling much better now. i'm eating normally again and the queeziness is gone =] and i'm eating healthier cuz of it too so it did me a lot of good lol

things are starting to look up money-wise too =] we're getting caught up on all our bills (except my credit card ) and it's gonna stay caught up too lol

for those of you that don't already know, i have another nephew too =] his name is Riley and he is soooooo cute!! i'll never understand how my brother keeps having such adorable kids xD i know i know, i'm mean, but i'm allowed to say that cuz he's my brother lol

in case you haven't noticed yet, i'm a bit on the energetic side tonight lol i dropped zack off at work a little over an hour ago and i need sleep, so naturally, i can't sleep lol but oh well, i'll survive =]

]]> ~DeadAndBroken16 http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/21491730/ http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/21491730/ Fri, 14 Nov 2008 20:35:03 PST
*sigh*

my mind has been wandering all over the place lately... probably to places where it doesn't belong heh. don't mind me tonight... i'm just moody and thinking too much...



**update**

i met the girl tonight and let's just say i don't think i have anything to worry about anymore her face already looks like ass so if i did anything to her it would probably improve her appearance

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and im now burnt to a crisp again haha

]]> ~DeadAndBroken16 http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/14603578/ http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/14603578/ Wed, 12 Sep 2007 13:25:22 PDT

theeeeeeeen.... i got my first speeding ticket i hate cops... he said i was doing 49 in a 35, i don't believe i was going that fast... but not only that, he said he smelled alcohol on me >< i had just gotten off of work!! i worked a 1-10 and he pulled me over on my way home and thought i had been drinking... how the hell could i have been drinking???? argh... so yeah, he gave me a breathalizer, i passed. whatever lol


and last night...




i dyed my hair again =]



it's very pretty and black

]]> ~DeadAndBroken16 http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/13800870/ http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/13800870/ Thu, 19 Jul 2007 21:28:02 PDT
.....


don't mind me, im medicated

]]> ~DeadAndBroken16 http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/13623686/ http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/13623686/ Thu, 05 Jul 2007 16:38:13 PDT heh


no worries tho... everyone's fine =]


'cept my car T-T it's sad...


but that just gives me more incentive to buy a new one =]

]]> ~DeadAndBroken16 http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/13322906/ http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/13322906/ Tue, 12 Jun 2007 22:19:48 PDT

you have no idea how excited i am =]





i feel very privileged ^-^
<3

]]> ~DeadAndBroken16 http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/12612314/ http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/12612314/ Sun, 15 Apr 2007 22:30:02 PDT k? k.



i got my first tattoo tonight xD im all excited hehehe it looks *amazing*

<3


loves it

k, goodnight now ^_^

]]> ~DeadAndBroken16 http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/11828785/ http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/11828785/ Thu, 15 Feb 2007 11:55:29 PST
1. im OCD about the way my bed gets made (when i make it )

2. im actually a pretty decent singer, i just don't let people hear me hehe

3. i hate it when people hafto go thru other people to let u know how they feel... it really pisses me off heh

4. i absolutely HATE being cold >.>

5. i don't even know who i am anymore heh

6. i've been thinking of moving in with my cousin in Texas.... >.> don't ask...

i tag...





ok, now on to my big important anouncement....




i've been informed... that this year...





OZZFEST TICKETS ARE FREE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

they're calling it freefest this year. yes, there are still tickets, and there's a limited number, but they're FREE! i dunno about u, but im definitely gonna try my hardest to get my hands on some lol


kthnxbye!

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]]> ~DeadAndBroken16 http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/11025849/ http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/11025849/ Mon, 11 Dec 2006 08:12:26 PST .> especially when u know ur coming down with something and prolly won't be there the next time... yeah, i got busted skipping. cuz im a smart cookie... i suppose i'll see everyone in like 20 years heh...

]]> ~DeadAndBroken16 http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/10894677/ http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/10894677/ Wed, 29 Nov 2006 19:18:43 PST
"Chasing Cars"

We'll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

]]> ~DeadAndBroken16 http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/10781202/ http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/10781202/ Tue, 21 Nov 2006 20:42:12 PST .> but either way, the car is MINE!!! i have the money for it, as well as for the tax, title, and licensing... so alls i gotta do is pay for it and get it legal ^_^ *bounces* yayayayayayay! no more asking to borrow the truck or asking for someone to pick me up



***edit***

so i got the car tonight, and it's not as great as i'd hoped it'd be... i think there's something wrong with the transmission... anybody know a thing or two about cars that could help me out?

the problem:

when shifting from first to second, it goes neutral for a minute, then slams into second. and it's an automatic... so it's not like im driving it wrong or something... someone already told me that it could be low on transmission fluid... but i dunno how to check that im car illiterate haha so someone should definitely help me out here lol

]]> ~DeadAndBroken16 http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/10603640/ http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/10603640/ Fri, 03 Nov 2006 12:38:40 PST .< but im not doing well with it at all so i won't be getting on or even out much anymore. i suppose i shall post another journal to inform everyone when the situation has changed. 'twas nice knowing everyone

]]> ~DeadAndBroken16 http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/10521424/ http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/10521424/ Thu, 26 Oct 2006 20:20:53 PDT it's not gonna be much of a change i don't think, but it will be a change lol just making it a little darker ^_^ i shall post pictures of it when i get a chance

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]]> ~DeadAndBroken16 http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/10501710/ http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/10501710/ Tue, 24 Oct 2006 20:21:10 PDT he's an adorable little tabby cat that i have named Thomas. don't as why, that's just what i decided on lol i will get some new pics up eventually too

]]> ~DeadAndBroken16 http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/10311831/ http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/10311831/ Sat, 07 Oct 2006 07:52:38 PDT
"Call Me When You're Sober"

Don't cry to me.
If you loved me,
You would be here with me.
You want me,
Come find me.
Make up your mind.

Should I let you fall?
Lose it all?
So maybe you can remember yourself.
Can't keep believing,
We're only deceiving ourselves .
And I'm sick of the lie,
And you're too late.

Don't cry to me.
If you loved me,
You would be here with me.
You want me,
Come find me.
Make up your mind.

Couldn't take the blame.
Sick with shame.
Must be exhausting to lose your own game.
Selfishly hated,
No wonder you're jaded.
You can't play the victim this time,
And you're too late.

Don't cry to me.
If you loved me,
You would be here with me.
You want me,
Come find me.
Make up your mind.

You never call me when you're sober.
You only want it cause it's over,
It's over.

How could I have burned paradise?
How could I - you were never mine.

So don't cry to me.
If you loved me,
You would be here with me.
Don't lie to me,
Just get your things.
I've made up your mind.

]]> ~DeadAndBroken16 http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/10262172/ http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/10262172/ Mon, 02 Oct 2006 16:30:45 PDT .< heh so does anyone else think it's wierd that my 2 burns turned into bruises instead of being normal burns? O.o



my schedule for the remainder of this week:

tues. 12-4
wed. 12-4
fri. 12-4
sun. 11:30-2:30

people should come up to visit me after 2:30ish this week, cuz it slows down and i have nothing better to do lol


ooo ooo, i get my first check on thursday ^_^ im excited, even tho the hours on it will be shitty haha

]]> ~DeadAndBroken16 http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/10131952/ http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/10131952/ Wed, 20 Sep 2006 12:09:48 PDT ~DeadAndBroken16 http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/10125490/ http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/10125490/ Tue, 19 Sep 2006 18:28:12 PDT well, wish me luck! and ya know, u could always call/text me later in the day/evening to ask me how it went *hint hint wink wink* ]]> ~DeadAndBroken16 http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/9886163/ http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/9886163/ Mon, 28 Aug 2006 15:17:59 PDT 'tis country, but it's really good. even if u don't like country so much, u should check it out. it has a really good message to it

Lindsey Haun

Broken

Wake up to a sunny day
not a cloud up in the sky,
then it starts to rain
My defenses hit the ground, And they shatter all around.
So open and exposed.

I found strength in the struggle. Face to face with my trouble.

Chorus
When you're broken in a million little pieces and you're tryin but you cant hold on anymore. Every tear falls down for a reason. Don't you stop believing in your self. When you're broken.

Little girl don't be so blue, I know what you're goin through. Don't let it beat you up. Heaven knows that getting scars only makes you who you are...only makes you who you are.

No matter how much your heart is aching, there is beauty in the breaking....yeeeaaaahhh

Chorus
When you're broken in a million little pieces and you're tryin but you cant hold on anymore. Every tear falls down for a reason. Don't you stop believing in yourself. When you're broken.

Bridge
Better days are gonna find you once again every piece will find its place!

Chorus
When you're broken in a million little pieces and you're tryin but you cant hold on anymore. Every tear falls down for a reason. don't you stop believin in your self When you're broken. ]]> ~DeadAndBroken16 http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/9814192/ http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/9814192/ Tue, 22 Aug 2006 09:45:15 PDT ]]> ~DeadAndBroken16 http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/9786006/ http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/9786006/ Sat, 19 Aug 2006 19:37:25 PDT it's better around 11pm or midnight... ]]> ~DeadAndBroken16 http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/9773715/ http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/9773715/ Fri, 18 Aug 2006 16:07:21 PDT blame my brother xP

Panic! At The Disco

Lying Is The Most Fun A Girl Can Have Without Taking Her Clothes Off

Is it still me that makes you sweat?
Am I who you think about in bed?
When the lights are dim and your hands are shaking as you're sliding off your dress?
Then think of what you did, and how I hope to God he was worth it
When the lights are dim and your heart is racing as your fingers touch your dick

I've got more wit, a better kiss, a harder touch, a better fuck
Than any boy you'll ever meet, sweetie, you had me
Girl I was it, look past the sweat, a better love deserving of
Exchanging body heat in the passenger seat
No no no, you know it will always just be me

Let's get these teen hearts beating faster, faster!

So testosterone boys and harlequin girls
Will you dance to this beat and hold a lover close?
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls
Will you dance to this beat and hold a lover close?

So I guess we're back to us, so cameraman swing the focus!
In case I lost my train of thought where was it that we last left off?
Let's pick up pick up

Oh now I do recall, we just were getting to the part
Where the shock sets in and the stomach acid finds a new way to make you get sick
I hope you didn't expect to get all of the attention
Let's not get selfish, did you really think I'd let you kill this chorus?

Let's get these teen hearts beating faster, faster!

So testosterone boys and harlequin girls
Will you dance to this beat and hold a lover close?
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls
Will you dance to this beat and hold a lover close?

Dance to this beat
Dance to this beat
Dance to this beat

Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster!
Let's get these teen hearts beating faster

I've got more wit, a better kiss, a harder touch, a better fuck
Than any boy you'll ever meet, sweetie, you had me
Girl I was it, look past the sweat, a better love deserving of
Exchanging body heat in the passenger seat
No no no you know it will always just be me

Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster faster!

So testosterone boys and harlequin girls
Will you dance to this beat and hold a lover close?
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls
Will you dance to this beat and hold a lover close?

So testosterone boys and harlequin girls
Dance to this beat
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls
Dance to this beat
(And hold a lover close)

Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster!
Let's get these teen hearts beating faster ]]> ~DeadAndBroken16 http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/9766734/ http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/9766734/ Fri, 18 Aug 2006 00:41:53 PDT note me if u want my number and i'll give it to ya just as soon as i get it lol ]]> ~DeadAndBroken16 http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/9633780/ http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/9633780/ Mon, 07 Aug 2006 20:32:27 PDT .> so yeah, the wall is fresh again and anyone that wishes to sign or re-sign should let me know. ]]> ~DeadAndBroken16 http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/9618105/ http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/9618105/ Sun, 06 Aug 2006 13:47:12 PDT
Alabama

Born Country

Clear creeks and cool mountain mornin's.
Honest work out in the fields.
Cornbread in my momma's kitchen.
Daddy saying grace before the meal.
Family ties run deep in this land.
And I'm never very far from what I am.

Chorus
I was born country and that's what I'll always be.
Like the rivers and the woodlands wild and free.
I got a hundred years of down home running through my blood.
I was born country and this country's what I love.

Moonlight and you hear beside me.
Crickets serenadin' in the yard.
What more could two people ask for.
Laying here in love beneath the stars.
Now this is where I wanna raise my kids.
Just the way my mom and daddy did.

Chorus 2X
I was born country ]]> ~DeadAndBroken16 http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/9602007/ http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/9602007/ Fri, 04 Aug 2006 20:19:39 PDT

Jinxed

To Whom It May Concern

Truly,
Completely,
Always unconditionally,
Always free, yet calmly,
I always seem to pull through.

I still see that same look in your eyes,
As if you think there's something to hide,
We both know that it's pointless to trust you,
We both know I can see right through you.

And I will never understand the things you put me through,
And you will never understand the ways I looked at you,
I don't always need your helping hand to pull me through,

Not many places I can go,
I see the signs you're skeptical.

Pretending that it's fine with you will get you so far,
But when the truth comes out,
They'll all see how you really are...

And I will never understand the things you put me through,
And you will never understand the ways I looked at you,
I don't always need your helping hand to pull me through.

Truly,
Completely,
Always unconditionally,
Always free, yet calmly,
I always seem to pull through.

And I will never understand the things you put me through,
And you will never understand the ways I looked at you,
I don't always need your helping hand to pull me through.

And I will never understand the things you put me through,
And you will never understand the ways I looked at you,
And I don't always need your helping hand to pull me through. ]]> ~DeadAndBroken16 http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/9505625/ http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/9505625/ Wed, 26 Jul 2006 21:12:52 PDT


Linkin Park

One Step Closer

I cannot take this anymore
Sayin' everything I've said before
All these words they make no sense
I found bliss in ignorance
Less I hear the less you say
You'll find that out anyway

[Just like before]

Everything you say to me
[Takes me one step closer to the edge]
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe,
[Cuz I'm one step closer to the edge,]
I'm about to break

I find the answers aren't so clear
Wish I could find a way to disappear
All these thoughts they make no sense
I found bliss in ignorance
Nothing seems to go away
Over and over again

[Just like before]

Everything you say to me
[Takes me one step closer to the edge,]
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
[Cuz I'm one step closer to the edge,]
And I'm about to break
Everything you say to me
[Takes me one step closer to the edge,]
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
[Cuz I'm one step closer to the edge,]
And I'm about to!!!!

Break!



Shut up When im talkin to you!
SHUT UP!
SHUT UP!
SHUT UP!
SHUT UP WHEN IM TALKIN TO YOU!
SHUT UP!
SHUT UP!
SHUT UP!
SHUT UP!

Im about to break!
Everything you say to me,
[Takes me one step closer to the edge,]
And im about to break!
I need a little room to breath,
[Cuz I'm one step closer to the edge,]
and im about to break!
Everything you say to me,
[Takes me one step closer to the edge,]
and im about to break!
I need a little room to breath,
[Cuz I'm one step closer to the edge,]
AND IM ABOUT TO!!!!!!
BREAK!


Somewhere I Belong

(When this began)
I had nothing to say
And I get lost in the nothingness inside of me
(I was confused)
And I let it all out to find
That I’m not the only person with these things in mind
(Inside of me)
But all that they can see the words revealed
Is the only real thing that I’ve got left to feel
(Nothing to lose)
Just stuck, hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own

I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I’ve felt so long
(Erase all the pain till it’s gone)
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m close to something real
I wanna find something I’ve wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

And I’ve got nothing to say
I can’t believe I didn’t fall right down on my face
(I was confused)
Looking everywhere only to find
That it’s not the way I had imagined it all in my mind
(So what am I)
What do I have but negativity
’Cause I can’t justify the way everyone is looking at me
(Nothing to lose)
Nothing to gain, hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own

I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I’ve felt so long
(Erase all the pain till it’s gone)
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m close to something real
I wanna find something I’ve wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

I will never know
Myself until I do this on my own
And I will never feel
Anything else until my wounds are healed
I will never be
Anything till I break away from me
I will break away
I'll find myself today

I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I’ve felt so long
(Erase all the pain till it’s gone)
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m close to something real
I wanna find something I’ve wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I am somewhere I belong
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I am somewhere I belong
Somewhere I belong ]]> ~DeadAndBroken16 http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/9411014/ http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/9411014/ Mon, 17 Jul 2006 22:45:29 PDT ~DeadAndBroken16 http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/9391887/ http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/9391887/ Sun, 16 Jul 2006 05:58:20 PDT
Second Stage:

1. Bad Acid Trip
2. All That Remains
3. Between the Burried and Me
4. The Red Chord
5. Strapping Young Lad
6. A Life Once Lost
7. Full Blown Chaos
8. Walls of Jericho
9. Norma Jean
10. Bleeding Through
11. Unearth
12. Atreyu
13. Black Label Society

i don't exactly remember if that was the order they played in, but i think it is... well, that's the bands at least heh. i can say for sure that 1, 12, and 13 are all in the correct place >.> i'll figure out about the others later and correct it if need be.

ok so yeah, the only ones i really saw, was some of whoever actually played second... or was it third... >.> *shrugs* i'll figure it out later heh... Atreyu, and Black Label Society... the others i just sat at an umbrella table with peoples and listened and chatted a bit. the bands i didn't actually watch were really good too lol. especially Norma Jean and Unearth and Bleeding Through.

Main Stage:

14. Dragonforce
15. Lacuna Coil
16. Hatebreed
17. Avenged Sevenfold
18. Disturbed
19. System of a Down

didn't watch Dragonforce cuz me and linsi were trying to get food lol we hadn't really eaten much at all >.> they sounded alright tho...

Lacuna Coil.... rawked. plain and simple. lol

Hatebreed was pretty cool, but i couldn't understand them so it got kinda boring after a while cuz everything sounded the same

ok, so everyone should know by now that Avenged Sevenfold is one of my favorite bands of all time... well, their live performance isn't that great cuz they try to do the old stuff and it sounds funny since he had throat cancer and all >.> it just isn't the same. don't get me wrong tho, they still did an awesome job

Disturbed... was... orgasmic o.o the best show by far. all around awesomeness hehe. i really loved how David was talking to the crowd about all kinds of shit, like how our dipshit president doesn't value the lives of each and every american... mostly talking about how he wants the soldiers brought home. and he made references to how whiney screaming emo bands have ruined rock lol. he said it was all those bands that start with 'the' so yeah, he talked to the crowd a lot. and the songs were amazing hehe. they sound even better performed live so my suggestion to u is if u ever get the opportunity to see Disturbed live in concert, do whatever u hafto to get there >.> u will not regret it...

System of a Down was actually somewhat of a let down... love the band, i really do, but live performance just doesn't seem to be their thing... it wasn't all the great at first, but near the end it started getting better. there was only one show that i really enjoyed thouroghly... Ariels. the light show was orange for that one xD hehe




so yeah, this journal has become ungodly long for me... but i have one more thing to say....


next year, front row. ]]> ~DeadAndBroken16 http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/9331776/ http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/9331776/ Mon, 10 Jul 2006 11:31:48 PDT by Modern Day Zero

I can see
The sickness deep inside
It is the end of me,
It's rising to the surface
I feel the walls are closing in on me
I've lost control now
And I can't break free

[Chorus:]
Sick inside,
Sick inside
Somebody tell me what the fuck is wrong with me
Why do I always feel so
(Sick inside,
Sick inside)
Sick inside,
Sick inside
My head is wrong and I know that I'm not right
Why do I always feel so
(Sick inside
Sick inside)

Why does it always feel so right
When I let the worst of me come out
And sink down so low
Alone and lost at night and i can't sleep
All these fears
They're making me

[Chorus]

So low
Someone show me
What I need to do
To feel like you

[Chorus]

Sick of myself ]]> ~DeadAndBroken16 http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/9174104/ http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/9174104/ Sat, 24 Jun 2006 23:46:54 PDT ~DeadAndBroken16 http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/9155684/ http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/9155684/ Fri, 23 Jun 2006 04:57:45 PDT i don't really have much to say cuz i've been up all night and my brain quit working the moment the last bell rang on the last day of school about a month ago hehe tho i do have one update.. i have a new friend ^_^
go say hi cuz she's cool xP

]]> ~DeadAndBroken16 http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/9126434/ http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/9126434/ Tue, 20 Jun 2006 12:34:58 PDT Mood: bleh

i hate being sick >.< just thought u should know lol

]]> ~DeadAndBroken16 http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/9029918/ http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/9029918/ Sat, 10 Jun 2006 17:02:38 PDT Mood: weeeeeee

- Freezepop - Sprite

What makes a Melonball Bounce?
A Melonball Bounce, a Melonball Bounce

What makes a Melonball Bounce?
The ice tart taste of Sprite

Sprite makes the Melonball Bounce
The Melonball Bounce, the Melonball Bounce

Sprite has the tingle that counts
Make a Melonball bounce with Sprite

Make a Melonball fizz with Sprite
Make a Melonball punch with Sprite
Make a Melonball float with Sprite
Make a Melonball boat with Sprite

Imagine what you can do with Sprite
Create something new with Sprite

With a melon and a scoop
And a bottle of Sprite
You can make the prettiest drinks in sight

What makes a Melonball Bounce?
A Melonball Bounce, a Melonball Bounce

What makes a Melonball Bounce?
The ice tart taste of Sprite

Sprite has the tingle that counts
Ice tart taste makes any drink bounce
Why not start with a Melonball Bounce
Buy a carton of Sprite tonight

Make a Melonball fizz with Sprite
Make a Melonball punch with Sprite
Make a Melonball float with Sprite
Make a Melonball boat with Sprite

Imagine what you can do with Sprite
Create something new with Sprite

With a melon and a scoop
And a bottle of Sprite
You can make the prettiest drinks in sight

What makes a Melonball Bounce?
A Melonball Bounce, a Melonball Bounce

What makes a Melonball Bounce?
The ice tart taste of Sprite

Sprite makes the Melonball Bounce
The Melonball Bounce, the Melonball Bounce

Sprite has the tingle that counts
Make a Melonball bounce with Sprite

What makes a Melonball Bounce?
A Melonball Bounce, a Melonball Bounce

What makes a Melonball Bounce?
The ice tart taste of Sprite

Sprite has the tingle that counts
Ice tart taste makes any drink bounce
Why not start with a Melonball Bounce
Buy a carton of Sprite tonight

]]> ~DeadAndBroken16 http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/9023079/ http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/9023079/ Fri, 09 Jun 2006 22:15:10 PDT Mood: eh...

Lonestar-Let's be us again

Tell me what I have to do tonight
'Cause I'd do anything to make it right
Let's be us again

I'm sorry for the way I lost my head
I don't know why I said the things I said
Let's be us again

Here I stand
With everything to lose
And all I know is I don't want to ever see the end
Baby please, I'm reaching out for you
Won't you open up your heart and let me come back in
Let's be us again

Oh us again

Look at me, I'm way past pride
Isn't there some way that we can try
To be us again
Even if it takes a while
I'll wait right here until I see that smile
That says we're us again

Here I stand
With everything to lose
And all I know is I don't want to ever see the end
Baby please, I'm reaching out for you
Won't you open up your heart and let me come back in
Let's be us

Baby baby what would I do
I can't imagine life without you

Here I stand
With everything to lose
And all I know is I don't want to ever see the end
Baby please, I'm reaching out for you
Won't you open up your heart and let me come back in

Oh, here I am
I'm reaching out for you
So won't you open up your heart and let me come back in
Let's be us again

Oh let's be us again

]]> ~DeadAndBroken16 http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/8982983/ http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/8982983/ Mon, 05 Jun 2006 21:45:15 PDT Mood: eh...

... that good moods are really hard to come by and keep anymore? just something i thought about. wanted to see if anyone else feels the same

]]> ~DeadAndBroken16 http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/8881838/ http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/8881838/ Fri, 26 May 2006 08:57:59 PDT Mood: weeeee

so yeah, last night, i went cruising with my friend linsi... it was fuckin awesome!! xD we were gonna go to granite city, but ended up in st. louis o.o we went thru st. clair county a couple times, thru pontoon beach, colinsville, belleville... umm... cahokia like four times >.> yeah, we got a little lost but it was the most fun i've had in so long! we laughed our asses off the whole time lol. we even ended up driving around in a couple of bad neighborhoods >.> that wasn't as much fun, but we still had a good time. so im glad i didn't get to go to the movie last night, but i had soooo much more fun xDDD she picked me up around 11ish... and we started cruising after that lol we didn't make it home til like 4:30 am then when we got to her house, she was getting bitched at for coming in so late... i felt kinda bad for that, but what can ya do? so she snuck me into her room cuz she wasn't exactly supposed to have anyone over >.> but her mom opened the door and was telling her to go to bed and saw me so the cover was blown. but i got to stay anyway. we went thru an entire tank of gas just last night O.o she put over 200 miles on her car from just our little cruise. and we might do it again next weekend xDDD this is gonna be so effing awesome if we do, cuz we'll actually have a destination >.> but im not saying where cuz it's a secret

]]> ~DeadAndBroken16 http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/8864989/ http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/8864989/ Wed, 24 May 2006 14:59:02 PDT Mood: weeeee

... i got my hair cut today xD it's so much shorter now o.o it's wierd lol but people are telling me they like it ^_^ aaaaaaaaaaand school's out now, so im officially a senior im so excited!! so yeah, i guess i'll hafto get new pics soon

]]> ~DeadAndBroken16 http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/8785597/ http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/8785597/ Tue, 16 May 2006 06:17:20 PDT Mood: weeeee

heh u know, it's amazing how nice people around u get when they see u jump at someone and see that it takes at least 3 stronger people to hold u back >.>;; don't ask, im not tellin but my day had gotten much better since then ^_^ and my mom let me skip first hour today xD i didn't feel like going heh. so yeah, now im just kinda sitting around, passing the time... waiting til 9:30 for english to be over... and wondering if she'll let me miss auto too >.> i don't feel like cleaning in there again lol. oooo random thought o.o is it wierd to have a dream that ur staying in a very large and popular hotel with other people and as u look out of the window in ur friend's room, u see that the other side of the hotel is being bombed and there are guys all over the place carrying guns and shooting random people? >.>;;; woooooooo so yeah, shower time!

]]> ~DeadAndBroken16 http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/8648809/ http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/8648809/ Tue, 02 May 2006 05:27:27 PDT Mood: ...

.... i guess i shoulda listened to others after the first time... o well. not like it matters anymore. fuck you.

]]> ~DeadAndBroken16 http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/8632475/ http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/8632475/ Sun, 30 Apr 2006 15:35:09 PDT Mood: wooo!

i got ungrounded today!

so yeah, i've decided i should really keep up on my school work now >.>;; so i don't end up grounded over summer >.<;;; and speaking of school work, i suppose i should go do my homework now

and sam, don't forget to let me know when u get those pictures developed... i want copies of the ones of me and tyler together! lol

]]> ~DeadAndBroken16 http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/8554823/ http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/8554823/ Sat, 22 Apr 2006 20:37:01 PDT Mood: ... dammit...

ok, just so everyone is up to date, i'll be grounded for the next week or two... >.> cuz im a genius like that and got 3 midterms sent home >.<;;; im at my cousin's babysitting right now which is why im online, but they don't have aim and they're having computer troubles so i can't download it either... they have yahoo and windows messengers >.> imonna die lol so when people start to realize that im gone, that's why luckily, i can still check DA every so often at school in the library at lunch since i get done eating 10 minutes after i get down there and have nothing better to do since i quit smoking ok, enough with my ramblings. have a nice week ^_^

]]> ~DeadAndBroken16 http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/8524515/ http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/8524515/ Wed, 19 Apr 2006 18:59:10 PDT
You said hold on
But I feel like I'm slipping away
You said hold on
But it feels like I'm slipping away

I won't let you down
The words you said to me
It's echoing the sound
Of what would never be

I'm standing here alone
The memories remain
The same familiar home
But nothing looks the same
And I'm standing here alone
Can't tell if I'm awake
Reality is gone
In a dream I will escape

You said hold on
But I feel like I'm slipping away
You said hold on
But it feels like I'm slipping away

I'm getting through it now
I guess it's plain to see
That everything I am
Is not everything you need

And I'm standing here alone
Can't tell if I'm awake
Reality is gone
In a dream I will escape

You said hold on
But I feel like I'm slipping away
You said hold on
But it feels like I'm slipping away

And I'm standing here alone
Can't tell if I'm awake
And it feels like i'm slipping away

Reality is gone
In a dream I will escape
And it feels like i'm slipping away

]]> ~DeadAndBroken16 http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/8463416/ http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/8463416/ Thu, 13 Apr 2006 20:55:34 PDT Mood: mrah

boredom consumes my soul!! x.x yeah, i really need to get a life >.> it's sad really, i've been on spring break all week, and all i've done is go to kt's a couple times and gone to sam and dennis's a couple times... all because of my sister >.< if she would stop being so stubborn and find someone to stay with, i could go places and have fun too... tomorrow's my last day to myself tho, my parents will both be working in the morning so i've got the house to myself from 7am to 3pm. tho if my mom doesn't leave me the truck, i can't go anywhere >.> tho i prolly wouldn't leave til around like 1 lol i dunno.. blah.. someone really needs to save me from my boredom tomorrow i need to have some kind of fun during spring break >.<

]]> ~DeadAndBroken16 http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/8452603/ http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/8452603/ Wed, 12 Apr 2006 19:34:59 PDT Mood: mrah

damn u kt!!

Rules, I list 6 facts about me, then choose six people, and they have to do the same thing.

If I tag you, you gotta do this.

1. i love to write poetry, i just don't get the inspiration anymore really... that, and i don't really post most of my writings there's a lot of them that i don't show to anyone

2. im a very secretive person with some things... there are many things that no one knows about me >.>

3. i drink juice when im not supposed to cuz i have acid reflux disease

4. i don't exactly get along well with my siblings >.>

5. tho i don't get along with my siblings, im very protective and defensive of them... i still wanna stab the nurse that cleaned my brother's wounds in the eye with a needle *grumbles*

6. i almost tore into a kid for picking on my little sister before... i prolly would have, if my brother hadn't pushed me to get back in the car... and if i had, it woulda been my first real fist fight... cuz i don't count all the fights with my brother they were just practice lol

hm... i tag...
now u all must do it too!

]]> ~DeadAndBroken16 http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/8327349/ http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/8327349/ Fri, 31 Mar 2006 20:25:23 PST Mood: mrah

ok, figured i should let people know that im better i went back to school today. my first day to school this week it wasn't so bad. i thought i was gonna get loaded down with work >.> but since it was friday, i could only get make up work for the classes i had today ^_^ to only 2 classes really i'll get the work for the others on monday hehe. im sooooo happy im feeling this much better already now if only tyler would get better ;-; get better soooon!!

]]> ~DeadAndBroken16 http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/8293227/ http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/8293227/ Tue, 28 Mar 2006 09:54:32 PST Mood: scared..

ok, just wanted to update. im still really sick. i was doing better last night, of course, cuz tyler was over but now it's worse. much worse. it hurts to breathe ;-; i hafto take short, shallow breaths just to make it bearable. and it hurts in my chest when i swallow anything.. food, liquid, air, anything. im really starting to get scared. i don't wanna end up in the hospital like my mom did can someone find my miracle cure, please?

]]> ~DeadAndBroken16 http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/8262973/ http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/8262973/ Sat, 25 Mar 2006 08:27:30 PST Mood: bleh

just to let peoples know, im rather sick right now... sorry i didn't call u back paul, my celly was in my purse which was in my bookbag and it was on silent >.> and i can't answer the celly right now anyway cuz i only have 2.5 minutes on it for another 3 weeks >.> i'll prolly stay home in bed all weekend, that is, if anyone even cares to know ok, imonna go crawl back under the nice warm blankets in my room now...

]]> ~DeadAndBroken16 http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/8180625/ http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/8180625/ Thu, 16 Mar 2006 16:50:19 PST Mood: weeeeee

im now a licensed driver!!!!!!!!! ^_^ no more sneaking when i drive alone!! im so happy! lol now i hafto get a job tho >.> and i should be getting a car, as soon as we get the boats sold >.< so it won't be much longer now

]]> ~DeadAndBroken16 http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/8090524/ http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/8090524/ Tue, 07 Mar 2006 05:37:51 PST Mood: meh

KITTIE LYRICS

"Into The Darkness"

I feel helpless waiting.
Could this all be the end?
It's all coming down all at once.
Am I losing you?
No Way Out!

Until this all crashes down, I'll hold on.
you're going to make this work
Into the darkness...not knowing at all....
you're going to make this work

Are you out there waiting, wondering about me?
Never felt so alone as I do now.
No way out!

Until this all crashes down, I'll hold on.
you're going to make this work
Into the darkness...Not knowing at all
I'm just trying to make this work

Until this all crashes down, I'll hold on.
Into the darkness...Not knowing at all
Until this all crashes down....

]]> ~DeadAndBroken16 http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/8084718/ http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/8084718/ Mon, 06 Mar 2006 14:19:17 PST Mood: meh

just a song i've been listening to nothing big.

Seether-Truth

If I gave you the truth, would it keep you alive?
Though I'm closer to wrong
I'm no further from right
And now I'm convinced on the inside that something's wrong with me
Convinced on the inside, you're so much more than me, yeah
No there's nothing you say that can salvage the lie
But I'm trying to keep my intentions disguised
And now I'm deprived of my conscience and something's got to give
Deprived of my conscience
This all belongs to me, yeah

I'm beaten down again, I belong to them
Beaten down again, I've failed you
I'm weaker now my friend, I belong to them
Beaten down again, I've failed you

The deception you show is your own parasite
Just a word of advice you can heed if you like
And now I'm convinced on the inside that something's wrong with me
Convinced on the inside you're so much more than me, yeah

I'm beaten down again, I belong to them
Beaten down again, I've failed you
I'm weaker now my friend, I belong to them
Beaten down again, I've failed you (2x)

I'm beaten down
I'm beaten down
I'm beaten down
I'm beaten down

]]> ~DeadAndBroken16 http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/8064359/ http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/8064359/ Sat, 04 Mar 2006 11:03:33 PST Mood: rawr

ok, first off, parents suck. entirely. and i may have a way away from mine >.> Sam ish awesome and told me i can live there if i can manage to get away from here. the way i see it, i'll wait til i get my license and a car at least, if not just that, then i'll get a job before leaving here too. since my research crap is almost done, it shouldn't be too difficult on me. im done with my parents.

]]> ~DeadAndBroken16 http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/8038758/ http://DeadAndBroken16.deviantart.com/journal/8038758/ Wed, 01 Mar 2006 15:16:15 PST Mood: blarg

this confusion really sucks... i need to find out what's going on >.>




btw, don't ask... please... i don't wanna talk about it right now...

]]> ~DeadAndBroken16