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Heres my new one:

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Cant view naked people until Im 18. What kind of crap is that?

]]> ~DeadlyDoorKnob http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/14823750/ http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/14823750/ Fri, 28 Sep 2007 07:13:27 PDT
But I seem to feel younger...

Meh

BRING ON THE GIFTS!

]]> ~DeadlyDoorKnob http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/14174502/ http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/14174502/ Wed, 15 Aug 2007 03:21:46 PDT



The Basics

1. First name
Alisha

2. Age
15

3. Gender
Fem

4. Happy with it?
Not totally

5. The current time is?
4:57pm

6. Eye color
I'll just say hazle

7. Happy with it?
At times

8. If not, what would you change it to?
A gorgeous blue

9. Hair color
Blackish brown

10. Happy with it?
No, it will be black and blue pretty soon...Maybe...I hope...

11. If not, what would you change it to?
...Blue

12. Hair length
Jesus I had some weird dreams last night

13. Hair style
Its a mohawk still, kinda

14. Have you ever dyed your hair?
...

15. What color?
Red, blue, purple, green, black, blonde

16. Do you dye your hair frequently?
Used to

17. Has it ever gotten damaged?
God...My hair was about to fall out

18. Are you clean-shaven?
Um?

19. What's your body type?
Gigantic?

20. Are your fingers long and slender, short and fat, or somewhere?
Short

21. Thin or full lips?
My lips are in between

22. Thin hair, thick hair, or somewhere in between?
Right now its thin since I dont have all of my hair

23. Have you ever had lice?
Yeah, when I was little. I dont really remember it.

24. How old were you?
...Like 5?

25. Nicknames
Ali and Mother

26. Happy with them?
Not with Ali

27. Aliases
Isnt that...the same thing?

28. What made you choose them?
I didnt

29. If you were born a member of the opposite sex, what would your name be?
Mom told me it would be Mathew

30. Think of the situation above. What would you want your name to be?
Something cool and unique and suave and such

31. If you had a choice, would you drop your last name?
Yeah, its cursed

32. What heritage does your first name imply?
American?

33. Middle name
...

34. Last name
Irish

35. Place of birth
Riverside dumpster

36. Date of birth
Sept 28

37. Nationality
Irish, german

38. Were you named after anyone?
In a sense

39. Who?
A collection of people

40. What side of the family does your name come from?
Both

41. Did your parents immigrate?
Nope

42. How about your grandparents?
My Grandfather did to escape the holocaust

43. Your great grandparents?
On my moms side

44. Farther back into your family?
That would be my dads side

45. Where did they emmigrate from?
Ireland

46. Where did they immigrate to?
America? Duh?

47. Skin color
Snow

48. What's your facial structure like?
Round

49. Height
Short

50. Happy with it?
No

51. Weight
A lot

52. Happy with it?
Eh

53. How old are your parents?
Old

54. What's your father's name?
Stephen Scott

55. Your mother's?
Robyn Lynn

56. Do you have any siblings?
No ma'am

57. How old are they?


58. What are their names?


59. Do you get along with your family?
Mostly, no

60. Do you wish they were different?
No

61. Were you ever abused by any member of your family?
My cousin

62. Were you ever betrayed by a member of your family?
My Grandfather

63. Did your family ever disown any other member of your family?
Not that I know of

64. If so, why?


65. Who do you get along with most?
My Grandma



Favorites

66. Color
Blue

67. Month
June

68. Year
1999

69. Decade
Ive only been alive for one and a half

70. Century


71. Millenium


72. Animal
Polar Bear

73. Movie
Too many

74. Book
Bleh, The Outsiders

75. River
Side...?

76. Lake
...

77. Ocean
None

78. Country
Ireland

79. City
Riverside

80. Stat... ]]> ~DeadlyDoorKnob http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/13825267/ http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/13825267/ Sat, 21 Jul 2007 19:48:43 PDT
Well, I havnt been doing photography until recently. I hadnt a model out here in Idaho. But luckily, my gorgeous friend Alesia is willing to model. Yay.

No, shes not like the others. She actually reliable.

]]> ~DeadlyDoorKnob http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/11332202/ http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/11332202/ Sat, 06 Jan 2007 01:59:38 PST Its amazing. Beautiful, really.

Tomarrow im going to take it for a test run.
Jordon is going to be my first model.

And sometime next week im going to have another photo shoot with this girl named Sara.
Im excited!

You all should be too!



]]> ~DeadlyDoorKnob http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/11023383/ http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/11023383/ Sun, 10 Dec 2006 23:11:51 PST
Yep. Me.





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]]> ~DeadlyDoorKnob http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/10966942/ http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/10966942/ Tue, 05 Dec 2006 23:22:58 PST
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]]> ~DeadlyDoorKnob http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/10241017/ http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/10241017/ Sat, 30 Sep 2006 20:22:22 PDT

I finally did it and got it. Ill have pictures soon (i hope) so i dont have to explain it.

Weee. It took 5 hours to torch my hair and make it weird lookin. Chyea.


So my bday wasnt a total bust.
I got a $110 gold neclace and the sweetest card ever from my sweetheart.
And he gave that to me in a real romantic way:
We went to the waterfalls near here and theres a path where you cross a small creak, go up a hill, under a tree, climb rocks, blah dee blah and you get face to face with a waterfall. Right as we were there, he goes into his pocket, pulls out a bluish box and ill be honest, i thought "...little box..wawa fall...is he proposing or something?" But he said "Here, if you dont like it, i dont care" and handed it to me (ahh so sweet) and it was a neclace. I was all "awwww" until i saw the price he forgot to take off and i was like "YOU DICK!!" and yeah.

Heh


The aind

]]> ~DeadlyDoorKnob http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/10185798/ http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/10185798/ Mon, 25 Sep 2006 18:53:37 PDT
Im doing nothing
Whats there to do?

But imma be 15
Happy happy joy joy

]]> ~DeadlyDoorKnob http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/10125158/ http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/10125158/ Tue, 19 Sep 2006 17:56:40 PDT "The Highwayman"

But, considering where i am and who im socializing with, i really doubt these fucking ideas will ever get into my god damn camera. All my "friends" out here are unreliable and drugged up. So fuck trying.


Heres the damn blunt ass truth: I HATE IT HERE!!!!!

The only damn person holding me together while being here is Jordon and thats...sad. Its down right pathetic. I have no friends or anywhere to go or anything! So i have to rely on Jordon 100% and thats not fair to him...or me really.

I dont like having nothing. Im back to where i was in elementry. No friends, no brains, no drugs, no futur, just pain that i have to hide a good majority of the time.


Fuck i miss home... ]]> ~DeadlyDoorKnob http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/9807559/ http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/9807559/ Mon, 21 Aug 2006 18:04:05 PDT

Welp, As far as the lyric writing on pants i realized i cant do that if i want to be allowed in school. -_-

Oh and Jordon should be here friday.
FOREVER!
Muahahahahahaha ]]> ~DeadlyDoorKnob http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/9749069/ http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/9749069/ Wed, 16 Aug 2006 14:01:10 PDT Yeah theyre gonna be chopped up.
Theyre gonna be scattered anyways.
I need to record them somewhere...
And i figure this'll work.

Im gonna be writing these on every pair of jeans i get.
Why? To piss off my mom.


If anything its a nice collection of cool lyrics



Marilyn Manson

The most that I can learn
Is in records that you burn

Your selective judgements
And goodguy badges
Don't mean a fuck to me
----------------------------
Isolation is the oxygen mask you make
your children breath into survive

But I'm not a slave to a god
that doesn't exist
But I'm not a slave to a world
that doesn't give a shit

the death of one is a tragedy
but death of a million is just a statistic
-------------------------------
I went to god just to see, and I was looking at me
-------------------------------
I've got an F and a C and I got a K too
And the only thing that's missing is a bitch like you

You wanted perfect
You got your perfect
But now I'm too perfect for someone like you
I was a dandy in your ghetto with
A snow white smile and you'll
Never be as perfect whatever you do
--------------------------------


Jack Off Jill

When I am queen I will insist with perfect scars upon my wrists
that everything you once held dear is taken away from you

and all the tears that we have cried will suck back in our eyes
--------------------------------
I want to drag you down, down with me
I wanted to help, to help destroy the world
I wanted to be that, to be that special girl
--------------------------------
Call me cumdumpster
Call me a cunt
Call me clever
Is that still ok

Did you watch the TV
Or hear it on the radio
Watch out for afteschool specials
Are we still ok
Well Ok
-------------------------------


Godsmack

Hazing clouds rain on my head
Empty thoughts fill my ears
Find my shade by the moon light
Why my thoughts aren't so clear
--------------------------------
Where were you when I was down?
Staring into the dead
My pain is caused by my pleasure
My soul mate lives in your body
I can't get you out of my head
It never goes away
In my life I'll need you here, don't ask why
I'll never disappear
--------------------------------
Never knowing the answers, calling myself names
Now is not the question for us
will it ever be again
Why don't you just fly, fly to me?
How long will you wait for me? Never?
Now or never again
--------------------------------


Lighthouse

forgetting all i'm lacking
completely incomplete
i'll take your invitation
you take all of me

now.. i'm falling even more in love with you
letting go of all i've held onto
i'm standing here until you make me move
i'm hanging by a moment here with you

i'm living for the only thing i know
i'm running and not quite sure where to go
i don't know what i'm diving into
just hanging by a moment here with you
----------------------------------


To be continued...

meh ]]> ~DeadlyDoorKnob http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/9673379/ http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/9673379/ Thu, 10 Aug 2006 04:27:56 PDT

I stayed up talking to Jordon all night
Thats become a habit


Im really happy right now
And thats odd for me to say
Especially at 5am


Im jus grinnin
Listening to Billy Idol
Thinkin bout Jordon
Pushing aside crappy thoughts
And feeling so peaceful



Ever wonder what pubic lice tastes like? ]]> ~DeadlyDoorKnob http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/9651851/ http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/9651851/ Tue, 08 Aug 2006 16:44:43 PDT
DA is all crack-head-like....




weird....


Anyways, im in Idaho.

Theres a corn feild
And a llama

The end ]]> ~DeadlyDoorKnob http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/9521920/ http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/9521920/ Fri, 28 Jul 2006 11:07:32 PDT
I didnt end up crashing til abut 6am and i had to sleep on a real bed for once. So my back hurts like mad.

The rest of my body is numb and worn down if its not hurting. Thats not good cuz i need to clean my room and run a moving sale. Also, my kids are coming over. Its gonna be bad enough that we're saying goodbye, last thing i want is our last memory for a while to be with me being unhappy for whatever reason. Gotta suck it up...yup. Its only physical pain anyways.

Thanks, Jess, for the picture you drew me.
She drew me a bunny strangling a racoon. Well, to me it looks the the bunny is trying to decapitate the racoon with its bear hands but ill just assume its strangling it. Imma put it in my lockers at home


Ok, yo. I am gonna pack up this computer later and ill be without it for a while. Hope ill get to come back to stuff *nudge nudge* ^^

Peace n Love ]]> ~DeadlyDoorKnob http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/9491657/ http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/9491657/ Tue, 25 Jul 2006 15:38:43 PDT
Wednesday ill be with Kady. Maybe.
Friday im packing more and hopefully seeing my kids.

Hey Jess, Thurs im free...are you? We should chill.

And um. My computer will prolly be unplugged and packed away like...wednesday or thursday and i wont be online for a long while.
God how ever will i survive without my daily dose of MySpace?

Anyways. Just thought id keep you all in the know.


... ]]> ~DeadlyDoorKnob http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/9479059/ http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/9479059/ Mon, 24 Jul 2006 12:59:03 PDT
But anyways.

There was a homocide down the street.

And i got married yesterday.


Yep. Good times buddy. ]]> ~DeadlyDoorKnob http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/9451135/ http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/9451135/ Fri, 21 Jul 2006 18:16:18 PDT
I dont think it can be fixed

Its toast

It got slammed dunked into tiled flooring by a friend

There goes my photography

Fuck ]]> ~DeadlyDoorKnob http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/9432603/ http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/9432603/ Thu, 20 Jul 2006 00:27:09 PDT

About him:

His name is Jordon.

He is 18

Hes a vocalist, drummer, bassist, guitaris, violinist, and pianist

He is in about 5 million bands

A taurus

Hes native american

He has a few tattoos and some peircings

Hes way tall

Hes very sweet, honest, loving and giving

He shares my same passion for music

Yet he is still skipping tour so he is sure to be with me on my birthday

And hes unlike anyone ive dated before


I feel really lucky right now. ]]> ~DeadlyDoorKnob http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/9427718/ http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/9427718/ Wed, 19 Jul 2006 14:30:42 PDT !! damn you to helllllllll!!!!!

so im tagged. and YOU may be tagged too. scroll down to find out. DUN DUN DUN...


THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Alisha
2. Mother
3. Ali -_-

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU'VE HAD:
1. Nut_Cayse_91
2. Alicat9119
3. Narcoleptic_Insomniac_3

THREE THINGS YOU'VE DONE IN THE LAST 33 MINUTES:
1. woke up..
2. got a message on myspace
3. replied to it

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. hair
2. eyes
3. personality

THREE THINGS YOU DISLIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. almost
2. everything
3. else

THREE PARTS OF YOUR ORIGINS:
1. broken condom
2. the whome
3. hospital

THREE THINGS YOU'RE AFRAID OF:
1. spiders and bugs
2. HOW i will die
3. being hurt again

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. black shirt
2. black pants
3. black bra

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. food
2. pepsi
3. myspace

THREE IMPORTANT OBJECTS:
1. my cell phone is my life
2. my computer is my soul
3. my boom box is my heart

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS:
1. Manson (copycatjess)
2. Blue October
3. Pink

THREE WAYS TO BE HAPPY:
1. be in a good relationship
2. do something productive
3. eat

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT:
1. cant
2. EVER
3. choose

THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
1. making new friends
2. lose about 15 pounds
3. survive Idaho

THREE THINGS YOU REGRET:
1. way
2. too
3. many

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1. honesty/trust
2. romance/love
3. attention/affection

THREE IMPORTANT THINGS YOU'VE GIVEN TO THE WORLD:
1. me
2. of
3. course

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE (in order):
1. i have weed
2. i have a pipe
3. im not a pot smoker

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX:
1. longish hair
2. big hands
3. great voice

THREE EMOTIONAL THINGS YOU LIKE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX:
1. sense of humor
2. giving
3. caring

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
1. run
2. play an instrument
3. stop eating

THREE THINGS YOU MISS FROM YOUR PAST:
1. middle school
2. being happy
3. being happy

THREE GIFTS YOU WOULD LIKE TO RECEIVE:
1. flowers
2. "ill miss you" cards
3. ...posters?

THREE REASONS WHY YOU ARE WHO YOU ARE:
1. cuz god gave me two screw ups for parents
2. and an eating disorder at an early age
3. then a big heart everyone cant help but step on

THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE HOBBIES:
1. photog
2. myspace
3. chillin

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. see someone i know get hurt
2. scratch my nose
3. keel my cell phone

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. photographer
2. cosmotologist
3. band manager

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO FOR HOLIDAY:
1. Irland
2. Canada
3. Scottland

THREE CARTOON CHARACTERS:
1. Spongebob
2. Faomy
3. Stewie Griffin

THREE BOY’S NAMES:
1. Bryan
2. Jordon
3. Cory

THREE GIRL'S NAMES:
1. Brooke
2. Alexis
3. Kori

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. be rich
2. be in love
3. be all smart

THREE PEOPLE WHO MUST DO THIS OR A ZOMBIE WILL RAPE YOUR KITTIES EYE SOCKET:
~C-Para-noir
=ushouldknowme
~Daoran ]]> ~DeadlyDoorKnob http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/9378747/ http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/9378747/ Fri, 14 Jul 2006 18:53:34 PDT

Anyways. So ok im not leaving today but for sure im leaving next week. Make plans with me now if you wanna chill. ]]> ~DeadlyDoorKnob http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/9312963/ http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/9312963/ Sat, 08 Jul 2006 15:03:12 PDT
Dont think their enough and i dont even know how they turned out or if theyre worthy of DA at all
Things went down that kind of...made me rush through this photoshoot at the very end...
*sigh*


I also have one more doodle to make and stuff...

Expect some posts tomarrow
Not today cuz yeah

I hope yall like my "not-so-grand" finale ]]> ~DeadlyDoorKnob http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/9287514/ http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/9287514/ Thu, 06 Jul 2006 00:43:16 PDT
Taken from Kegels ]]> ~DeadlyDoorKnob http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/9283733/ http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/9283733/ Wed, 05 Jul 2006 16:34:19 PDT
And if i dont have them by then im going to freak.

So pray for me or else DeviantArt, Myspace and LiveJournal will permanently go down cuz ill have nothing better to do than create the worst virus anybody whos owned a computer has ever seen...What else is there to do without pictures to edit and review?


Rawr ]]> ~DeadlyDoorKnob http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/9271049/ http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/9271049/ Tue, 04 Jul 2006 12:44:47 PDT Daoran and yeah

Personal
2. Nickname: Mother, SnuggleMunchkin ^^
5. Zodiac Sign: Libra
7. Education: What education?
11. Screen Names: Narcoleptic_Insomniac_3

My 'firsts'
22. First best friend: Kady
23. First Award: Second place in cutest baby -_-
24. First Sport You Joined: Soccer
25. First Pet: Dog
26. First Real Vacation: Um Oregon i think
27. First Concert: ...No comment...
28. First Love: Cory...and i hope to god its not my last

My favs
34. Song Right Now: All Blue October songs ><
36. Candy: whatever
37. Sport to Play: ummm...Soccer i suppose
38. Restaurant: unsure
39. Favorite brand to wear: i really dont care for brands but i guess Tripp
40. Store: uh....................fuck
41. School Subject: lunch. yay food.
42. Animal: cat!!!!!
44. Magazine: erm...Rolling Stone
45. Shoes: WalMart boots

Right now
46. Feeling: groggy. parinoid.
47. Single or Taken: single...of course.
49. Eating: YO BRAINS
50. Drinking: YO DADDY....ok ew...
51. Typing: typing
52. Online: ...duh DA...STEWPID
53. Listening To: Marilyn Manson: Last Tour on Earth album
54. Thinking About: Tonight. Him. Him. Them. That. Last night...
55. Wanting To: Sleep
56. Watching: My fingers type
57. Wearing: Dirty clothes

In the future
58. Want Kids: hell no
59. Want to be Married: hell no
60. Careers in Mind: So so many
61. Where do you want to live: Near those i love in a house i bought myself with my own money that i earned
62. Car: Mustang or a Ranchero

Boys with...
63. Hair colour: Blue, Purple, Green, Black
64. Hair length: Depends on the guy. Normally longish.
65. Eye colour: Blue...green...amber...
66. Measurements: Taller than me. (no im not thinking about penises!!!)
67. Cute or Sexy: Both
68. Lips or Eyes: Eyes more
69. Hugs or Kisses: Hugs from behind
70. Short or Tall: tall
71. Easygoing or serious: serious at the right moments. but normally easy going.
72. Romantic or Spontaneous: very romantic
74. Sensitive or Loud: sensitive
75. Hook-up or Relationship: relationship
77. Trouble Maker or Hesitant One: trouble maker cuz im always the one to think twice

Have you ever...
78. Kissed a Stranger: no
79. Had Alcohol: ew. yes.
80. Smoked: Ciggs? yes. Weed? yes.
81. Ran Away From Home: Mhm
82. Broken a bone: close
83. Fallen in love: definitally....too bad it didnt last
84. Stayed up the whole night: mom thought i was on drugs cuz of it
85. Broken Someones Heart: no
86. Broken Up With Someone: had to
87. Cried When Someone Died: of course
88. Cried At School: yeah...wasnt good...

Do you believe in...
89. God: yes
90. Miracles: yes
91. Love At First sight: no, not so much.
93. Aliens: yes
94. Soul Mates: maybe
95. Heaven: unsure
96. Hell: unsure
98. Kissing on The First Date: yeah why not
99. Horoscopes: no. astrology, yes.

And now...
100. Is there someone you want but you know you can't have? two people actually. one i love and have loved forever and one id like to love someday.
________________________________________ _____________


So happy 4th. Go blow up your face.

Havnt gotten my pictures as soon as i thought i would. But they will be here before tomarrow, im sure...i hope.

Yesterday i went to the mall and some mexican gangster dropped a 10 and i stopped for a minute, knowing if i didnt pick it up someone else would so i picked it up, and ran after him to give it back. I knew it was the right thing to do even though i would have loved that extra 10. He was appriciative. "Thanks for being so nice to me" yeah no problem. And my kids said i was too nice of a person. Yeah. Id have to agree. I know that little things like that will count sometime in life, wont they? Meh. I dunno. I dont know if ill ever be the reciever of a good deed yet i still do these things for everyone. Itll bite me in the ass like it has before but ill get my break sometime...someday...surely. I have to. Yeah... ]]> ~DeadlyDoorKnob http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/9242921/ http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/9242921/ Sat, 01 Jul 2006 14:45:02 PDT
Jus thought id share. ]]> ~DeadlyDoorKnob http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/9234470/ http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/9234470/ Fri, 30 Jun 2006 17:06:16 PDT
Suggestions? ]]> ~DeadlyDoorKnob http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/9212534/ http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/9212534/ Wed, 28 Jun 2006 16:30:02 PDT
I posted some videos on myspace and one in particular has been irritating people and i jus dont know why...

The title is screwed up. I said "mormons" when i meant Jahovas and people get on my back for it and i cant even change it.

But anyways...Watch it...Religious jerks attack!!!!!11

[link] ]]> ~DeadlyDoorKnob http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/9202233/ http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/9202233/ Tue, 27 Jun 2006 16:57:10 PDT
I hope it goes well. Ive known her for 11 years but never asked her to be a model because shes been to self concious (i dont know why cuz shes gorgeous). I told her its only hand shots so she is doing this for me. But ill convince her to do other things for me. Im awesome like that.

Expect stuff in a couple days ]]> ~DeadlyDoorKnob http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/9195761/ http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/9195761/ Tue, 27 Jun 2006 04:17:04 PDT
So i talked to Korin today and shes grounded for talking to me.

I accidentally sent an email to somebody who really shouldnt have gotten it.

Dad made me go out and get ice cream with him even though i felt too bad to walk and i hate ice cream...

I was supposed to have a photo shoot today but like i said. Too sick.

I saw an anoconda throw up a whole hippo

Oh and i saw about 3 fist fights between men and damn to they get bloody


Ummm...damn now i think im getting tired. Well, I guess that means im off to bed then. If i dont get cought up in my video games again and then get bored and come back and write another journal.





Grrrreeeaaattt...a cat is puking -_- ]]> ~DeadlyDoorKnob http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/9184146/ http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/9184146/ Sun, 25 Jun 2006 23:45:50 PDT
Ive been doing this online since i dont go outside much. No reason to. And i would do this to their face but its not as entertaining nor something that would work as well. I mean, if i go up to someone and say "fag" and walk away...they would prolly laugh before get angry.

Before anyone gets on my case about it, its not just emos i give a hard time. I get on everyones case if they lable themselves because its stupid to do so.

OOOOOOOOOOOOOK so im spent.




Now im bored again... ]]> ~DeadlyDoorKnob http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/9179533/ http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/9179533/ Sun, 25 Jun 2006 14:18:11 PDT
To top it off its that time of the month, so my immune system is lower.

Grrrrrr ]]> ~DeadlyDoorKnob http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/9168478/ http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/9168478/ Sat, 24 Jun 2006 11:28:05 PDT


Blue October:


Are you female or male: Chameleon Boy

Describe yourself: Overweight, Everlasting Friend

How do some people feel about you: Hate Me, Amazing

How do you feel about yourself: A Quiet Mind

Describe your ex girlfriend/boyfriend: Ugly Side

Describe your current girlfriend/boyfriend: You Make Me Smile

Describe where you want to be: Into The Ocean

Describe what you want to be: Somebody

Describe how you live: Leaving This Place

Describe how you love: Sound Of Pulling Heaven Down

Share a few words of wisdom: Lust Is A Very Dangerous Thing ]]> ~DeadlyDoorKnob http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/9161933/ http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/9161933/ Fri, 23 Jun 2006 17:44:02 PDT
seriously


i was sitting at home. depressed. around 1am. mindin my own business...

then

someone calls and i cant recognize the voice...all i know is hes mexican...trust me in the voice you could tell that much. heres a rough summary of our convo...


"hello?"

"is Alisha there?"

"..this is her"

"hey"

"..hi? whos this?"

"Sam"

"i dont know any Sam"

"dont play me like that. i know you know me"

"..no i dont. ok tell me how i know you and how you got my number?"

"you gave me ure number"

"when?"

"last time we talked"

"oh your from the internet?"

"no"

"....how did i give you my number"

"last time we hung out"

"where?"

"you know where"

"sure. um. what do you look like? your mexican right?"

"yeah im mexican. howd you tell?"

"i just know. um so you have black hair and brown eyes. dark skin?"

"...yeah? wtf...how do you know?"

"ure mexican. i can gather a lot from ure ethnicity..."

"oh so your stereotyping. i ought to shoot you. racist"

"your angry because its true."

"jus cuz its true dont make it ok to assume"

"true. sort of. anyways. when did we meet."

"Arlington?"

"uh huh. where do you live?"

"riverside" (thats my town)

"...oh......shit...um near?"

"Jackson elementry" (thats my school)

"...................................uh....what street"

"colorado" (thats down my street)

".....and your name is Sam?"

"yeah"

"who told you to call?"

"nobody"

"uh huh...howd you get my number"

"friend"

"you changed your story"

"i did?"

"ugh. who gave you my number?"

"Mike Jones"

"who the...what the fuck?"

"-laugh-"

"seriously. arg. annoying. this is like abadly written movie."

"oh yeah im like hiding in your bathroom"

"-goes look in bathroom- dude you got me checkin rooms now"

"-laughs-"

"im so confused"

"you got me straight trippin..."

"yeah...ok...uh well...WHO ARE YOU???"

"i told you"

"you told me ure name"

"yep. what else you wanna know?"

"who you know, how i know you, schools, age, etc"

"makin me fill out a profile?"

"mhm"

"well im 19...and i dont know nobody"

"so how do you know me?"

"Mike Jones?"

"WHO THE HELLL IS THAT?"

"-laughs-"

"how do you know my name and where i live?"

"i just do"

"when did we hang out last? whatd we do?"

"oh you remember. you were on top"

"i dont think so asshole. goodbye."




and yeah...


it drove me crazy like it does every white girl in those movies. no wonder they get killed, we are curious fuckers. i still want to know whos behind it cuz its one thing if they dont know ure name and live out of state, but when they live near you and know ure name...its...weird...cuz i seriously dont know a mexican named Sam...hell i dont know a mexican... ]]> ~DeadlyDoorKnob http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/9154670/ http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/9154670/ Fri, 23 Jun 2006 01:10:12 PDT

Part 1: The Birth of You

- Were you a planned baby?:
Somewhat. Only reason im here is cuz mom had a miscarriage. So...im the result of someone elses death. go me.

-Were you the first?:
yep

- Were your parents married when you were born?:
yes. were.

- What is your birthdate?:
sept 28


Part 2: The Family

- How would you describe your family?:
oy vey

- Are your parents married? Divorced? Seperated?:
divorced..

- Siblings or an only child?:
only child...

- If you have siblings are you oldest, middle, or youngest?:
N/A

- What are your siblings names?:
N/A!!!

- Which parent do you get along with best?:
mom i guess

- What do you fight about?:
me wanting to grow up too fast or something

- Do you have step parents?:
no


Part 3: The Friends

- Do you have more than one best friend?:
yes. no. maybe.

- What do you like to do when you are together?:
usually, i jus like to chill...sometimes i get energy and like...want to...get off the couch and maybe move to another room

- Do you share the same interests?:
always

- Which friend can you tell anything to?:
none. there are some things i cant tell all of em.

- How high/low is your self esteem?:
a good majority of the time i put myself down unless im in front of people. you put yourself down in front of others they see you as weak...thats one thing im not.

- Do you get depressed about things easily?:
not about stupid things

Are you an extrovert or an introvert?:
depends

- Happy?:
not lately

- Do you live life to the fullest?:
cant


Part 5: The Past

- Were you a strange child?:
you have no idea

- What did you use to love that you no longer do?
bugs

- Do you have the same friends?:
no

- Was there anything in your past that was traumatizing?:
*sigh*

Part 6: The Future

- What is your ambition?:
to become succesful and make more money than anyone could ever dream then go back and find ex boyfriends and shove my money in their face

- Are you scared of growing old?:
nope

- Do you want to get married?:
no. never.

Part 7: The Outdoors

- Do you prefer indoors or outdoors?:
indoors...feels more comfortable, secure.

- What is your favorite season?:
fall

- Favorite weather?:
chilly

- Do you like walking in the rain?:
mhm...


Part 8: Food

- Are you a vegatarian?
no sir

- What is your favorite food?:
chikkin

- What food makes you want to gag?:
oh anything unamerican

- What is your favorite dessert?:
canalope?

- What is your favorite restaurant?:
meh...

- Are you a picky eater?:
very


Part 9: Relationships and Love

Are you single or taken?:
single...again..

Do you think love is the best feeling in the world and how do you know its real love?
when you have it, it feels like life is worth living, the sky seems bluer, the stars shine brighter, your heart beats so fast and you wonder if its a health hazard...your mind never gets tired of storing little facts and memories about that person...when you hear their name your finger tips go numb alogn with the rest of your body and you cant ever help but smile bigger every time rings in your heart...yes...when its there...you know it..i know it...and yes...its the BEST feeling in the world

Believe in love at first sight?:
complicated

Do you think you're in love currrently?:
i was. ]]> ~DeadlyDoorKnob http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/9139652/ http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/9139652/ Wed, 21 Jun 2006 16:45:35 PDT
Im so psyched. This is so cool.

I have to take about 8 hand pictures of hands and give them to the guy for him to put on the sites along with my link, then there will be a vote on who's hand pictures are the best all year. Whoever gets more votes wins a year subscription to DA or 30 bucks! Yes. The reason theyre hand pics cuz its like hand fetishy kind of sites. Meh. And honestly, i think i have a chance at winning.

Still, wish me luck.

And hey, my models need to contact me damnit. I want to get these in by next week! ]]> ~DeadlyDoorKnob http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/9125639/ http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/9125639/ Tue, 20 Jun 2006 11:19:28 PDT
When you fave someones art, sometimes people come back with a thank you.


And thats it.



I mean, they could fave something of yours at least. And if they find nothing thats fave worthy, why not comment some things with good critique and tell me what would make it fave worthy?

Thats what i try to do most the time. Unless the people who fave my stuff are beyond help or are from another country.

Balance.

Even those really popular people on here should stop and fave the little people, na mean?


Bleh.

This was pointless. I just needed something to bitch about. As if i dont have enough but still...



Oh and you people who get faves and dont even thank the person who faved you at all...DIE. ]]> ~DeadlyDoorKnob http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/9114883/ http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/9114883/ Mon, 19 Jun 2006 11:08:21 PDT imagnee cuz she said whoever wants to take it can and even though i didnt need her permission i went n did it. yay me.


Say 10 things about your art. Then tag 6 other people.

1. Im passionate about it
2. For photography, my most used model is Alexa
3. My writing is usually about torment, pain, heartbreak, murder and all that jazz
4. I think i only have 2 that arent
5. I rarely get time to work on my photography since all my models live far or are gay
6. I would rather do photography because my writing seems to be getting worse and worse
7. I dont post over half of my shots because i think a good majority arent DA worthy
8. I draw too but never post things because they, too, arent DA worthy
9. I get inspired by music or random things like people pissing in an ally or some dogs having sex behind a building
10. All my art is bullshit


And since i dont think i can name 6 people at the top of my head, YOU are it!! and YOU too!! ]]> ~DeadlyDoorKnob http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/9106162/ http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/9106162/ Sun, 18 Jun 2006 14:09:43 PDT gay black kid: Axl/Andrew

both are fuckheads

im at Alexas house right now and the gay guy is here and yeah

these people are driving me nuts

i say so cuz the nigger is reading this as i type

haha



lawl


anyways yes...

hopefully imma have new photography once i return to my...place

so expect like 2904748463768 deviations

crappy ones at that




Alexa is emo and Axl is preppy...

they make good fuck buddys


but its more like...Alexa raping Axl cuz...the pussy is not tickling Axls tampon -_- picky person ]]> ~DeadlyDoorKnob http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/9086599/ http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/9086599/ Fri, 16 Jun 2006 11:40:53 PDT ]]> ~DeadlyDoorKnob http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/9085779/ http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/9085779/ Fri, 16 Jun 2006 10:00:32 PDT
something crazy happened...



i had a bunch of favs, watches, comments, etc.

so i was like "woah"

that may be normal for you all

but to me i was like "HOLY SHIT THE WORLDS ENDING!! I GOT MORE THAN A COMMENT A WEEK ><"



and yeah

go figure people faved stuff i didnt care for though














































































tinkle













THE AIND ]]> ~DeadlyDoorKnob http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/9041674/ http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/9041674/ Sun, 11 Jun 2006 22:18:00 PDT
i leave in a couple hours
to visit and all

leaving to have the worst "vacation" i will have ever experienced


life = shit ]]> ~DeadlyDoorKnob http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/9037944/ http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/9037944/ Sun, 11 Jun 2006 14:39:52 PDT


anyways...i was talkin bout gay rights shit with someone who disagreed with me. im for it. they arent.

they were being an ass about it too. not only did they type in all caps (wich annoys the fuck out of me), they really had no clue what they were talking about. heres some of the covo word per word on this very tired subject:



"OMG ITS SO GROSS!! GOD DIDNT INTEND FOR GAYS TO FUCK"

"hey. what country you live in?"

"AMERICA BITCH"

"hm ok. now. i live there too. theres a little phrase that goes around here and there. may have heard it. 'land of the free'. yep. also. we have a thing called 'seperation of church and state' here. heard of that? that means religion has no part in political decisions. meaning jesus's opinion doesnt matter. mhm."

"YOUR GONNA BURN IN HELL!! ITS ALWAYS BEEN LOOKED DOWN ON. WHY STO[P NOW!!!??"

"actually...in acient greece men had sex with each other because they felt that girls didnt deserve it from them. it was surely not looked down apon then. although their reasoning is not something i agree with. but they had no problem fucking each other"

"WHATEVER I DONT THINK YUR TELLING THE TRUTH"

"look it up then"

"NO. FUCK YOU. YOU SUCK. AND URE GONNA BURN IN HESLL!!"

"isnt it weird how we're both people?"

"ALL I KNOW IS FAGS NEED TO DIEK"

"you dont know much then..."

"OH AND YOU DO? YOU THINK YOU KNOW EVERYTHING HUH?"

"pretty close"

"GO SUCK SATANS COCK YOU DEVIL WORSHIPPER"

"ooo. kinky."



i dont understand some people. i was just trying to talk about it at first...until they started being immature. i deal with these people a lot and whats sad is that they are usually older than me and can vote. that is a majority of America. see those people in the audience of the Jerry Springer show? those are real people. thats America. we're fucked.

anyways...

i dont care if people disagree. but why take away someones rights jus cuz a book supposedly said "NO"? why should you worry? your obviously going to heavan, correct?

whatev. thought id share this...bored...mhm ]]> ~DeadlyDoorKnob http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/9021253/ http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/9021253/ Fri, 09 Jun 2006 18:24:55 PDT <

Its a tie between Cali and Idaho...
Who knows what'll happen?


Mainly, me staying in California depends on how badly my friends want me to stay and how hard they are willing to work to keep me here. Im having trouble finding places cuz mainly i have no idea where to begin to look.

So, most of my close friends are searching through internet, in their area, in books, etc to see if there is a 2 bedroom place 500-700 (preferably 5-6 hundred. doubt mom will be too happy on 7) in Cali. anywhere in So-Cal really.

I never really realized how much people loved me. People really are working hard to keep me here. Especially Josh and KD. I love them for it...But its sad that i have to find out like this, ya know? Like...they dont miss me unless im gone for good. But whatev.


All help is most appriciated.
If you have any information or know where to get it or can get it for me, please let me know...

I dont want to leave California... ]]> ~DeadlyDoorKnob http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/9000051/ http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/9000051/ Wed, 07 Jun 2006 14:34:35 PDT

I dont know where im goin
I dont know how long ill be gone
I dont know if ill even be gone at all
I dont know if i can ever come back
I dont know much at all really

All i do know is...my grandpa is dead to me.



*sigh*

So whats the grand finale to my trail of bad luck?
Only way things could be worse is if someone dies or Shelley forgives Cory.




Gr. ]]> ~DeadlyDoorKnob http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/8996640/ http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/8996640/ Wed, 07 Jun 2006 07:31:46 PDT



*sigh*...months before i can get the cash
before i can make this happen
he goes and tells me he loves his other bitch more than me


and here i thought that the 24646544th time was the charm?



all i can say is when he tells her about what hes been saying to me behind her back she better kick his ass to the curb.

pig...




this is what love does to you...
when it isnt shared anyways

i had a good feeling about this time too








whatever

fuck men


on to wemon ]]> ~DeadlyDoorKnob http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/8991138/ http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/8991138/ Tue, 06 Jun 2006 16:54:48 PDT

MySpace Instant Messaging

[link]


its true! its finally here! and its AWESOME!!!



]]> ~DeadlyDoorKnob http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/8939572/ http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/8939572/ Thu, 01 Jun 2006 11:11:16 PDT Hate Me by Blue October has become my new fave song for the next few days. im like obsessing over it. I woke up and that song was my very first thought this morning! seriously. its so like...loved by me im putting it into my photo shoot today. yep. crazy obsession.

i hope yall enjoy what imma be doin today...im excited ]]> ~DeadlyDoorKnob http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/8926018/ http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/8926018/ Wed, 31 May 2006 00:30:31 PDT
the aind. ]]> ~DeadlyDoorKnob http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/8901544/ http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/8901544/ Sun, 28 May 2006 11:48:28 PDT Daoran


SEVEN THINGS TO DO BEFORE I DIE:
1. graduate highschool
2. become a cosmotologist, photographer and fashion designer
3. become wealthy enough to build my own house near a waterfall
4. have enough money to support a charity or two
5. get something published
6. look pretty
7. find love

SEVEN THINGS I CAN'T (OR WON'T) DO:
1. ever hurt an animal/reptile
2. get over my aracnaphobia
3. find love
4. choose who my family is
5. get people to like me
6. motivate myself to do homework
7. eat new foods

SEVEN THINGS I SAY THE MOST:
1. fuck
2. Shit
3. penis
4. something sexual
5. GRRR
6. yeah, yeah ok
7. damn

SEVEN MOVIES I COULD (OR DO) WATCH OVER AND OVER AGAIN:
1. Saw
2. Brokeback Mountain
3. Saw 2
4. Pirates of the Carribien
5. dur
6. im
7. retarded

SEVEN VIDEO GAMES THAT THE STORY JUST GRABS YOU:
1. Sims
2. Celebrity Death Match (oh yeah, great story lines)
3. dont
4. play
5. many
6. video
7. games

1. Do you like animals?
all of em

2. Have you ever met an online friend in person?
yep

3. Are you athletic?
i wish

4. Are you: thin, fat, athleticlly built etc:
fat

5. How much do you weigh?
never ask a lady that

6. What's your height?
around 5'1''

7. Shoe size?
well in mens im like a 7

8. Girls- are you tomboyish, girly, normal, etc?
a bit of everything..mainly tomboyish and gothic/grundgy

9. Guys- Are you girly, or guyish?
(instert penis here)

10. How old are you?
14 -_-

11. When's your birthday?
sept 28

12. Do you like to receive giftcards?
depends on where they are from

13. Are you sociable?
i try to be

14. Do you have many friends?
a few..

15. What's your race?
irish and german pretty much

16. Do you like to talk on the phone?
thats what i do after 7 o clock every night for hours and hours

17. Are you single or taken?
single of course...men suck

18. Do you eat meat?
yep. i love animals. but damnit survival is survival!

19. Are you paranoid?
somewhat

20. Do you read a lot?
not as much as i should

21. Do you listen to music, what kind?
of course i listen to music, what kind of question is that? and types of rock and some R & B

22. Do you play any instruments?
my voice?

23.How long have you been drawing?
since my dad first handed me a pen when i was like 2ish and i drew on the white walls

24.Whats the meaning of life?
paint ]]> ~DeadlyDoorKnob http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/8877716/ http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/8877716/ Thu, 25 May 2006 19:58:22 PDT

69 questions. fill it out AND BE HOENST!!

1. Have we kissed?:
2. Do you want to?:
3. What would you like our relationship to be?:
4. Have we dated?:
5. Did you like it?:
6. Do you want to date?:
7. Are we close friends?:
8. Would you be here if I needed you?:
9. Are you attracted to me?:
10. Mentally, sexually, or both?:
11. Do you love me?:

Appearance
Do you like my- score 1-10

12. Face?:
13. Eyes?:
14. Lips?:
15. Body?:
17. Legs?:
18. Clothes?:
19. Ass?:
20. Hands?:
21. Hair?:

Do think I'm- score 1-10

22. Sexy?:
23. Pretty?
24. Hot?:
25. Cute?:

Personality
Do you think I'm- score 1-10

26. Crazy?:
27. Nice?:
28. Fun to be around?:
29. Funny?:
30. Annoying?:

Would you...

32. Spend a weekend with me?:
33. Alone?:
34. Hook up with me?:
36. Care if I ran away?:
37. Care if I died?:
38. Miss me if I left?:
39. Hang out with me?:

What would you do if...

40. I kissed you?:
41. You found out I was missing?:
42. You found out I was in the hospital?:
43. You found out I was dead?:
44. I cried?:
45. I asked you for help?:
46. I told you I loved you?:
47. I told you I hated you?:

In the last week have you...

51. Wanted to see me?:
52. Talked to me?:
53. Wanted to tell me you loved me?:
54. Wanted to spend alone time with me?
55. Wanted to get to know me better?:
56. Thought about me?:
57. Missed me?:
58. Wanted me?:
59. Seen me?:

Have I...

61. Kissed you?
62. Hugged you?
63. Told you I loved you?:
64. Made you happy?:
65. Made you sad?:
66. Made you angry?:
67. Made you feel better if you were upset?:

Are you...

68. Happy you know me?:
69. Going to post this is so I can answer it and reply to you? ]]> ~DeadlyDoorKnob http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/8853350/ http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/8853350/ Tue, 23 May 2006 10:15:41 PDT

On myspace, i had a contest called "FUCK UP MY PAGE" and someone won it. I had people answer a questionare and whoever got more answers correct (and very creative wrong answers counted as correct ones) got to fuck up my page however they would like. only 5 people entered though. Alexa won 23 out of 25 or something. im afraid. she will start screwing up my page on the first of next month and it will be all homo/emo/whatever for a whole month.
If you have a myspace, here: [link]
add me now before my myspace is ruined ]]> ~DeadlyDoorKnob http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/8835536/ http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/8835536/ Sun, 21 May 2006 13:34:47 PDT

anyways, i got my AUGHTOGRAPHED MARILYN MANSON PICTURE this weekend. and yes, its real. it has a certificate of authenticity and plus you can tell its real by looking at it. im so jazzed.

i spent some of the weekend at Tonys. had an ok time. would have been better if he would just clean his damn house so that way i dont have to wake up to a mosh pit of flies hovering above my head. no lie, over 30 flies all flying around and thats just in one spot. flies, mold, decay, maggots, spiders, garbage, spit and sperm cover the inside of that house and it smells sooo bad. i walk in for the first time in a looong time and i try to stop myself from making the most grossed out face i could make. i hate goin there. as soon as i got home i got into the shower cuz i felt so dirty. i would have taken one there if their shower and toilet werent so nasty. i would rather bathe in a stream with fish spawning than shower there and i would rather take a piss in front of a camera as long as the toilet didnt have flies IN it like his does. its just...god...so gross.

OH and i met a black dude who was a REAL gangster. not one of those kids that go around "omg im so gankster. like yo yo homie" na mean? hes a Crip. and Tonys best friend. he is pretty cool too. stoner kid. so hes really mellow wich makes him even better cuz hes not jumpin around, all hyped up to kill someone. heh. dont shoot me.

ok the aind.



or is it? DUN DUN DUN





yeah it is... ]]> ~DeadlyDoorKnob http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/8819458/ http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/8819458/ Fri, 19 May 2006 19:04:07 PDT ~DeadlyDoorKnob http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/8789926/ http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/8789926/ Tue, 16 May 2006 15:38:10 PDT expect some really nice pictures soon. her house is PERFECT for some awesome shots. just a heads up for those who really watch meh. ]]> ~DeadlyDoorKnob http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/8703968/ http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/8703968/ Sun, 07 May 2006 19:02:00 PDT

1) Thirty percent of women over the age of 80 still have sexual intercourse either with their spouse or boyfriends. Just in case you ever wondered why Viagra stock kept rising

2) A man's penis not only shrinks during cold weather but also from nonsexual excitement like when his favorite football team scores a touchdown, etc.

3) The word avocado comes from the Spanish word "aguacate" which is derived from the Aztec word "ahuacati, " which means testicle. This makes a helluva lot more sense to me than "huevos, " which means "eggs." So, would you rather be told you've got a huge set of avocados or eggs?

4) In Bahrain, a male doctor may legally examine a woman's genitals, but is forbidden from looking directly at them during the examination. He may only see their reflection in a mirror.

5) The largest penis in the animal kingdom belongs to the mighty blue whale. He is no less than 11 feet of fully functional hot whale action

6) Men say the average erect penis is ten inches. Women say it's four inches. But what about girth, people? What about girth?

7) 29 percent of us are virgins when we marry.

8) Average number of times a man will ejaculate in his lifetime: 7200.

9) Average number of times he will ejaculate from masturbation: 2000.

10) Average total amount of lifetime ejaculate: 14 gallons.

11) Average speed of ejaculation: 28 miles per hour.

12) Odors that increase blood flow to the penis: lavender, licorice, chocolate, doughnuts, pumpkin pie. This may just be the real reason that women love chocolate.

13) Male and female rats may have sex twenty times a day.

14) Sex is the safest tranquilizer in the world. It is 10 times more effective than valium!

15) For every 'normal' webpage, there are five porn pages.

16) A man's beard grows fastest when he anticipates sex.

17) Male bats have the highest rate of homosexuality of any mammal.

18) "Formicophilia" is the fetish for having small insects crawl on your genitals.

19) "Ithyphallophobia" is a morbid fear of seeing, thinking about or having an erect penis.

20) In Hong Kong, a betrayed wife is legally allowed to kill her adulterous husband, but may only do so with her bare hands.

21) An adulterous Greek male was sometimes punished by the removal of his pubic hair and the insertion of a large radish into his rectum.

22) Women who read romance novels have sex twice as often as those who don't.

23) In india it is cheaper to have sex with a prostitue than buy a condom!

24) There are men in Guam whose job is to travel the countryside and deflower young virgins, who pay them for the privilege of having sex for the 1st time

25) Topless saleswomen are legal in Liverpool, England - but only in tropical fish stores.


thats all i got fer now. im spent. ]]> ~DeadlyDoorKnob http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/8667710/ http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/8667710/ Thu, 04 May 2006 00:35:45 PDT
Mother: god your so emo
Alexa: dude, any pressure on my throat hurts
Alexa: hmhm
Mother: *cuts wrist* cry baby
Alexa: hmhmhmhmhm
Mother: you complain about your petty strepp throat. YOU DONT KNOW REAL PAIN. the pain
Mother: the pain that i feel
Mother: it is true pain
Alexa: dude, you sound exactly like frank....
Mother: i know let me finish
Mother: *ahem*
Alexa: hmhmhm...
Mother: you dont know real pain
Alexa: carry on
Mother: you dont know how it feels for your heart to slice through your soul as if rapidly drops down to your gut right after some hot babe who i thought i loved stabbed it
Mother: you have no idea how it feels to experience real pain
Mother: i gained 2 pounds today
Mother: THAT IS REAL PAIN
Mother: MY LITTLE SISTERS JEANS DONT FIT ME ANYMORE
Mother: why do i live with this unbearable amount of anguish and...pain...the pain thats all painful and pain life
Mother: like*
Mother: the pain just hurts. its hurtful pain.
Mother: more painful than the pain you claim to feel when your in pain
Alexa:
Alexa:
Alexa: LMFAO
Mother: how dare you laugh at my tears of hurt
Mother: im going to cut my self now
Mother: and maybe get another shitty hair cut
Alexa: hmhmhm.....oh...so .....funny....
Alexa:
Mother: ^^
Alexa: you're so awesome
Mother: oh, i know. ]]> ~DeadlyDoorKnob http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/8614261/ http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/8614261/ Fri, 28 Apr 2006 17:51:19 PDT

"i like cheese"

"hey, you wanna know what smells funny?"

"do you have a penis? yeah? great, something we have in common!"

"give me all ure money! now!"

"..................................................................hi..........."


yep. ive only done 1 and 5 but im sure the others will work.



dude im bored off my ass here -_- ]]> ~DeadlyDoorKnob http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/8583762/ http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/8583762/ Tue, 25 Apr 2006 16:52:34 PDT
meh.

yes, yes im jelous. come on why wouldnt i be? my "friend" is dating some dude i like. and hes my first crush in years and in like a 2 day period i get reminded why "crushs" are rediculous. so yeah. im angry and im jelous. i think i have good reason to be, too.

but whatever.

ill get over it i suppose. i got over the ones in elementry so ill get over this one. not like i loved him. thats why he was a crush. no real emotional attatchment...just a person you wish you had a chance with kind of thing. ]]> ~DeadlyDoorKnob http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/8566080/ http://DeadlyDoorKnob.deviantart.com/journal/8566080/ Sun, 23 Apr 2006 22:26:10 PDT
i never thought i would ever say this sentence again:
i have a crush on someone.

god that sounds so childish, ya know? *teeheehee* omg i lyk have a crush on him and him and him kind of thing. but yeah thats the only word to describe it. i havnt had a crush in such a long time. about 4 years. i thought guys were hot but i didnt have a "crush". i was all in love with cory. so yeah. even when i first dated tony i didnt really have a crush on him. anyways, his name is Johnathan.

How We Met:
He showed up at my doorstep. literally. ok my mom shouts out "hey ali! someones at the door for you." and its like 8 so im like "who the hell would be at the door?" she said "some kid name Johnathan" and i thought she meant Jordan. Jordans this boy who lives down the street thats sooo attractive. so i was about to have a heartattack. and i go to the door and i see this blonde haired blue eyed kid and i was like "...may i help you?" and hes like "uhhhh" and Korin and Victoria pop out of nowhere laughing. and im like "...the fuck?" and yeah. so i invite the 3 into the house and hes like "hi. im Johnathan" and im like "hi johnathan, im Alisha" and i shake is hand. and Victoria was like "hes the pastors son" and im like "...get out of my house!!!" and we laugh and we hang out for about 30 minutes. long enough for me to get my flirt on. not really but yeah. he looks about 15 and hes 18. i was like "woah! 18! no way!" and hes like "yeah. how old are you?" and im like "...how old do you want me to be?" and we all laugh and 'ooo' and yeah. then turns out he works at a bar AND can drive and im like "you may be a pastors son but WILL YOU MARRY ME!!" lol and yeah good times...

ahh why do i bother crushin on boys? i mean crush's lead to getting crushed. he'd never date me. if i think hes cute, no doubt im not the only one so yeah. i dont have a fighting chance. *sigh* but whatever. he'll be a nice new friend with a car and access to alcohol... ]]> ~DeadlyDoorKnob