http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:DearRebeccaRose&section=today deviantART RSS for by:DearRebeccaRose en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Mon, 14 Dec 2009 14:31:00 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://DearRebeccaRose.deviantart.com/journal/24687447/ http://DearRebeccaRose.deviantart.com/journal/24687447/ Sun, 10 May 2009 13:39:51 PDT Can't wait to move and get out of this hot and hellish state I've been living in for all 18 years of my existence.
I feel so lonely here
I sit here everyday, looking for a job.. waiting for people to answer their phones..
no one ever does.

I need the change like I need oxygen.
I'm going mad.

]]> ~DearRebeccaRose http://DearRebeccaRose.deviantart.com/journal/23841546/ http://DearRebeccaRose.deviantart.com/journal/23841546/ Sun, 22 Mar 2009 23:18:41 PDT It was really long.. not hard at all.. but my brain wanted to fall out after it.
I was sitting in there for like 7 hours!
On my lunch break, some creepy black hobo started talking to me.. I gave him my crackers haha

Kyle, my boyfriend of almost 2 years, got his wisdom teeth out like a week ago. It was not fun for me, but it was easier for him.. probably cause he at least got a doctor who knew what he was doing...

I'm looking for a job.. to no avail. Im hoping to get a job at this place called Earth Pets. My friend's mom owns the place and they're both pretty awesome! I hope they will hire me.

Hope everyone is doing well and staying alive :]

]]> ~DearRebeccaRose http://DearRebeccaRose.deviantart.com/journal/22457593/ http://DearRebeccaRose.deviantart.com/journal/22457593/ Wed, 07 Jan 2009 17:44:33 PST and you're ignoring me.
Wonderful
I just hope one day you'll understand how bad it hurts
my mouth is the very gates of firey hell.

[link]

]]> ~DearRebeccaRose http://DearRebeccaRose.deviantart.com/journal/22410859/ http://DearRebeccaRose.deviantart.com/journal/22410859/ Mon, 05 Jan 2009 09:34:37 PST
Step 2: Now that you've got that great ego boost that you needed, you can sit and revel in it, and believe (falsely) that you are so superior to everyone else.

1. [x] When you doodle, you say it's a simple drawing.
2. [x] Always provide excuses such as "Still in development"
3. [ ] Can only create an excuse of "I used a mouse, not a tablet"
4. [ ] You only draw faces.
5. [x] You always draw faces at the same direction.
6. [x] The proportion is awful.
7. [x] Every character looks the same.
8. [ ] Uses different hairstyle to distinguish characters.
9. [ ] Cannot distinguish left and right direction.
10. [x] "Sketch? Who cares about that?"
11. [ ] You only draw sketches.
12. [x] What's a LAYER??? (wait...there was this button...no!!!not this one!!)
13. [ ] You always draw one character.
14. [x] You always draw characters in same angle.
15. [ ] No matter how you draw, it's the same expression.
16. [x] You couldn't draw characters with movement.
17. [x] You barely draw feet. ( Who TOLD YOU!?? )
18. [x] You can't draw figures from high or low angles.
19. [ ] You don't even know the definition of high and low angle drawing.
20. [x] A shitty figure drawing in dynamic pose can be turned into a 4th Dimensional abstract.
21. [x] Same character looks totally different when it is drawn in different angle or direction.
22. [ ] You can't even draw anything other than characters or draw everything except characters.
23. [ ] You can only draw cute characters.
24. [ ] You can only draw handsome characters.
25. [x] Hands are your nightmare.
26. [x] Your character's hands are always hidden behind.
27. [ ] The idea sketch is professional but the actual quality is shitty.
28. [ ] You try to cover up one of the eyes with hair so that you can draw only one eye. (I've done this, but I'm trying not to..)
29. [x] Your works are always asymmetrical.
30. [x] Line art only = Finished piece.
31. [ ] Rough sketch only = Finished piece.
32. [x] You have no anatomical knowledge.
33. [ ] You only draw eyes.
34. [ ] Character's hand and eyes are huge.
35. [x] You're poor in drawing the position of boobs.
36. [x] Your artworks are free from all logic. Awkward anatomy and proportion.
37. [x] You lose confidence when other people's works look great.
38. [ ] You think they are genius when they come up with satisfied quality.
39. [x] You collect other people's works as practice references but you actually collect them as a collection.
40. [x] While drawing, you easily lose patience and go do something else. ( True D: )
41. [ ] Tablet is your god item.
42. [ ] You regain confidence when other people's works look crappier than yours.
43. [x] You are more than willing to draw but you lose the spirit so easily.
44. [x] You completely lose the confidence when you see the works of true genius.
45. [ ] You draw once a month or even once a year.
46. [ ] You get mad when your favorite artists are being lazy.
47. [ ] When you draw hentai art, you end up drawing grotesque horror pictures because their proportion is so fucking awful.
48. [x] You don't even have faith in yourself.
49. [ ] You can't even draw since the beginning.
50. [ ] You realized there are problems and know where to fix but you never do.

]]> ~DearRebeccaRose http://DearRebeccaRose.deviantart.com/journal/22039577/ http://DearRebeccaRose.deviantart.com/journal/22039577/ Wed, 17 Dec 2008 19:58:07 PST
Sorry for not being on lately.
I haven't drawn or done anything really creative in a while, because my mental health has MAJORLY been slacking. Everyday I think "this is it! I'm finally at my lowest and start to pick things up and live again", but apparently I keep surprising myself and get lower. I just want this unhappiness to end so I can draw again, also I'm really unpleasent, a real grump and no one likes to be around me.

When I get better, I want to write a book. I have no idea why, but I have always felt compelled to write. Currently, I cannot because my brain is all in a rut and thinks mainly on how I hate holes and ruts..

Black holes.. rabbit holes.. tire ruts.. holes that you trip on and break your ankle...

and also thinks about killing my father.. but I promise I'm not going all Jim Morrison on ya.

Anyway, life stinks right now.

]]> ~DearRebeccaRose http://DearRebeccaRose.deviantart.com/journal/17339558/ http://DearRebeccaRose.deviantart.com/journal/17339558/ Fri, 14 Mar 2008 22:37:42 PDT
]]> ~DearRebeccaRose http://DearRebeccaRose.deviantart.com/journal/16268556/ http://DearRebeccaRose.deviantart.com/journal/16268556/ Sat, 05 Jan 2008 10:33:16 PST it's quite true.
I dropped out of highschool.
it was too much.
the constant nagging from my teachers telling me to stop doodling and actually do some work.
and the idiots who tell me I'm weird.
the only thing good was my friends who I was skipping with everyday..
they weren't part of school though...
lol.
I guess many things have been going on also that have made me loose interest in school.
A few I cannot say because of the law involvement and how they are against said laws.
Another is my boyfriend Kyle, who is wonderful and amazing and so cute I just want to eat him all up.
My art has been on another break, but I heard somewhere that it is normal because your brain is getting ready to create more amazing works and what not. it's probably not true though.
I've been inventing things.. they're not very noteworthy though. It just makes me feel special to say that I am an evil genius :]
lol.

anyway.
I hope all is well with you my DA friends!

<3 Rebecca

EDIT!: I forgot to say that I am taking 2 classes online. Mainly I'm getting ready to move though.
Sorry for not saying this.
my mind has been other places :/

]]> ~DearRebeccaRose http://DearRebeccaRose.deviantart.com/journal/15176206/ http://DearRebeccaRose.deviantart.com/journal/15176206/ Mon, 22 Oct 2007 16:15:51 PDT I have too much school
and not enough art :[
I don't even take art in school..
because sadly..
I failed it last year and mommy said "NO MORE!"
now I'm just failing psychology :]
and Math..
and English..
and American History..
not Science though.
I'm number one in the class O:
WOOOOOOOOOOO
party P:

anyway.
things have been crazy..
that's my intent of this journal :]
and I apologize to you guys for being so neglectful.
I must say that my computer broke :[[[[[[
so I had to get a new one..
and ended up needing a new one...
lol
this one works fine..
so far... haha
something is BOUND to happen O__O
oh well.

I have been doing art..
but crazy hippie art..
haha
it's probably not worth putting on here. :]

]]> ~DearRebeccaRose http://DearRebeccaRose.deviantart.com/journal/14783333/ http://DearRebeccaRose.deviantart.com/journal/14783333/ Tue, 25 Sep 2007 08:11:56 PDT What I don't know is a mystery.
there is too much to learn O__O

]]> ~DearRebeccaRose http://DearRebeccaRose.deviantart.com/journal/14647720/ http://DearRebeccaRose.deviantart.com/journal/14647720/ Sat, 15 Sep 2007 16:49:40 PDT hello!
I know I haven't been doing any art..
and I feel bad.
I'm sorry for that.
I will be doing some soon.
so you might want to keep tuned to this station...
wait..
this isn't tv..
anyway..
keep a look out for art.
I'm starting drawing tonight.
I expect comments.
-____-

you guys still need to comment my last work.
do it.
or die -pulls out gun-

jk
I love you guys too much to shoot you.
please comment my stuff though.
I feel awfully discouraged when no one comments
:/

]]> ~DearRebeccaRose http://DearRebeccaRose.deviantart.com/journal/14614139/ http://DearRebeccaRose.deviantart.com/journal/14614139/ Thu, 13 Sep 2007 08:11:58 PDT

I really want to, but my brain keeps saying "NOOO! DON'TT IT'S NOT WORTH IT"
my body is telling me otherwise... telling me I should.. it would be good and since I like this guy it would mean something.
although it would be illegal if I did loose my ears to him.
(don't call me jailbait....)

So what should I listen to?
My brain... ?
or my body?

what would be most logical?
because normally I use common sense to sort through things..
only common sense is too confusing.


the other thing is...
I hate being in relationships.
I hate people taking time out of their day for me.
making me feel loved
and saying sappy things about how they feel about me.
snuggling.
I'm not really someone who is comfortable with outward expression.
I do all mine in art...
I don't normally say how I feel.
and yet I find myself having too big of a mouth in this conversation.
which makes me wonder what drugs I'm on.
because I'm not shy anymore.
and I'm facing things I never have faced before.

I don't get this.
how did I get into this? O__O

]]> ~DearRebeccaRose http://DearRebeccaRose.deviantart.com/journal/14395448/ http://DearRebeccaRose.deviantart.com/journal/14395448/ Wed, 29 Aug 2007 12:57:30 PDT I got all sorts of lovely things like hugs and kisses..

but.. the three things I received were..

Pocky
Ramune
and
Manga..


lol
I have pretty much devoured all the pocky...
drank all the ramune at lunch
and am in the middle of Loveless v. 4



It was a good day ^__^

]]> ~DearRebeccaRose http://DearRebeccaRose.deviantart.com/journal/14380991/ http://DearRebeccaRose.deviantart.com/journal/14380991/ Tue, 28 Aug 2007 13:36:04 PDT I loose my flash drive when I need it the most..
how typical.

I mean it goes missing for a week or so, but I took it to school because I needed it...
and now...
there must be a hole in my bag that I do not have knowledge of..

or someone is a theif.
god.
I'm so scared people will find it and look at my stuff
I should not have taken it..
I ended up not needing it anyway.

dammit.
T___T

[EDIT]
Found it with my Pocky...
it apparently doesn't like me and plays games with me..
bad flash drive..
bad!

]]> ~DearRebeccaRose http://DearRebeccaRose.deviantart.com/journal/14346059/ http://DearRebeccaRose.deviantart.com/journal/14346059/ Mon, 27 Aug 2007 12:54:09 PDT I would first of all like to thank Pon for encouraging me in my art journey to better myself and create a style I like.
Her encouragement really helped me move forward and start to draw.. and I am very pleased with the one picture I have drawn so far..
and now I'm going to make an attempt to color it on PS...
i dun have a tablet though so this'll be fun (T__T)'
I have been doing my best though and have gotten criticism from ZombieLuffBrains.. who told me to work on my arms and said otherwise it is kawaii.
I really hope i turns out wonderful.. because I really like this picture and I'm going to keep you in suspense for a wee bit... I can't promise to finish anytime soon because of school.... -______- I'm already failing.. D: jk.. but I soon will be because I'm already getting that procrastinating vibe that normally comes at the END of the year... it's a tad bit early... O__O -worried-

I have a recent obsession in case you haven't read my other journal..
It is Loveless.. the art makes me heart feel... i don't know.. indescribable and the plot.. to me.. is wonderful.. now if noly Ritsuka would lose his ears to Soubi ;].. i have a feeling that will happen haha
I haven't read the manga yet but I'm hoping to embark to BAM today to buy it.. and maybe hope that some people buy it for me for my birthday.
Which, by the way, happens to be on WEDNESDAY! ^___^ I'm so happy.
I could drive then if I had my flashy card with an ugly picture... but iie .... I don't even have my permit -steams- it is my fault entirely though... I procrastinate too much.. I need to work on that. -sigh-
anyway..
yeah..

[ EDIT ] I just cleaned out all my deviations.. now I'm left with nothing but my ID.. haha.. I'm prepping this whole site for new art..
be prepared and wait for it.
even though I really think it will take a year haha
^_____^


[ EDIT... again ;-; ]
Uploaded sketchy junk.. the general idea with nothing done to it..
currently working my butt of to finish the color.
I really am pleased with it so far.
I get butterflies when I see that I CAN make art on the computer..
-giggles-

]]> ~DearRebeccaRose http://DearRebeccaRose.deviantart.com/journal/14321923/ http://DearRebeccaRose.deviantart.com/journal/14321923/ Fri, 24 Aug 2007 16:02:06 PDT really bad.
but I can't.. because I can't draw the anime/manga style even if my life depended on it.
Loveless is now my fav because of the softness of colors and how magical they made it feel... and i want to accomplish that..
I need to find it on my own.. and it may take a while
but it's they way I have always wanted to draw.
ALWAYS
and I seem to have also come to this point where I find my art mediocre..
and not worthy of even being on here.
of being shown to the world.

The fact remains that I am not good compared to the world and never will be.
and I get sick looking at my art.. I just want to puke.
yet art is my passion. my love. my hope. it keeps me sane and alive when I have nothing else.
So the fact that I need to accomplish a new style so I can be somewhat happy with my creations, exists.
I just have no idea how to come around to it... how to start... how to learn...

how to do anything without breaking.

]]> ~DearRebeccaRose http://DearRebeccaRose.deviantart.com/journal/14033256/ http://DearRebeccaRose.deviantart.com/journal/14033256/ Sun, 05 Aug 2007 19:01:15 PDT he was amazing.

I need him. ;___;





gah.
oh well.



<3

]]> ~DearRebeccaRose http://DearRebeccaRose.deviantart.com/journal/13953469/ http://DearRebeccaRose.deviantart.com/journal/13953469/ Tue, 31 Jul 2007 08:51:17 PDT I haven't been able to have time.
My dad is forcing me to do a job for him that requires folding, enveloping, addressing and sticky noting 1000 pieces of news paper O__O

If anyone knows me personally they know I'm not good at such things so it takes forever :[
I'll be doing it for a year O:
jk
I just need the money.
Saving up for a mac book so I can get off my mom's computer for the rest of my life.
it's so slow

oh well.
how have you guys been?

]]> ~DearRebeccaRose http://DearRebeccaRose.deviantart.com/journal/13518801/ http://DearRebeccaRose.deviantart.com/journal/13518801/ Wed, 27 Jun 2007 23:06:30 PDT

I puked up an apple.... T__T

it was a good one too. I like apples.
it WAS nice and green and crisp.. refreshing...
but no.
I had to get sick and puke..
for like the first time in 2 years..
I HAD TO PUKE UP AN APPLE!



-____-


I hate this..

]]> ~DearRebeccaRose http://DearRebeccaRose.deviantart.com/journal/13422739/ http://DearRebeccaRose.deviantart.com/journal/13422739/ Wed, 20 Jun 2007 17:22:47 PDT

I don't have a gf, but my life isn't so hectic...

I need to draw..... O__O







I'm procrastinating majorly on getting my permit.. have been for a year. lol I'm supposed to be taking it now.... but yeah.. we all know how that's going xD

how is everyone?

]]> ~DearRebeccaRose http://DearRebeccaRose.deviantart.com/journal/13220771/ http://DearRebeccaRose.deviantart.com/journal/13220771/ Mon, 04 Jun 2007 20:42:51 PDT

message me if you really care.


on a lighter note I have a girlfriend
<3333333333

nope.. I'm not a lesbian....






ok... so I am.... slightly......... o.o

]]> ~DearRebeccaRose http://DearRebeccaRose.deviantart.com/journal/13051258/ http://DearRebeccaRose.deviantart.com/journal/13051258/ Tue, 22 May 2007 13:32:19 PDT
I have been doing a lot of art, that is making me happy. I have been really inspired by many things lately and have a picture to put up on here that I put together last night.





Is it not insane that we are so used to words we do not have to think about them? It seems so natural the placement of words in a single sentence, but in any other language I would not understand the meaning. It would still mean the same despite my lack of knowledge of that language.

I am rambling, so I will go and spare you the boredom.

]]> ~DearRebeccaRose http://DearRebeccaRose.deviantart.com/journal/13038994/ http://DearRebeccaRose.deviantart.com/journal/13038994/ Mon, 21 May 2007 14:08:59 PDT it involves poetry, which I fail at...

I have no idea what to write about.

I'll probably write poetry about pictures that inspire me on here....



if I find and inspiring picture I will give the links here :

[link]

I will write the poem in my gallery later.

]]> ~DearRebeccaRose