http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:DeerDance0084&section=today deviantART RSS for by:DeerDance0084 en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Mon, 07 Dec 2009 05:18:32 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/25787901/ http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/25787901/ Tue, 07 Jul 2009 02:39:31 PDT i have to be a better bassist. im thinking about buying a keyboard too.
there is a bit of writing too, but not to much. mostly song lyrics...

though life has been pretty good i suppose. i try to keep myself busy and keep the madness at bay. though i think its been pretty much the worst year of my life. it may just be starting to look up.

]]> ~DeerDance0084 http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/22533951/ http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/22533951/ Sun, 11 Jan 2009 20:58:16 PST 2] Each tagged person should post 8 facts of themselves. (i could do this)
3] Tagged people should write a journal\blog about these facts. (yup)
4] In the end tag and name 5 people. (oh hells no)
5] Go to their dA pages and comment saying that they are tagged. (better luck getting my boot out of your...)
so here goes:

1. i love chocolate.
2. i don't do much of the art thing anymore.
3. most of what i do is just browsing.
4. i get hung up on one activity at a time, quit, and then go back to it in a couple months.
5. i also love beer... i also love vodka, but the love is not returned.
6. i may seem like a nice guy, but i'm actually an asshole.
7. i don't get on here to often.
8. i don't think forever should be a measurement taken lightly.

this is where i tag people. in all honesty, this is where i tell you do it if it pleases you.

]]> ~DeerDance0084 http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/12965776/ http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/12965776/ Tue, 15 May 2007 13:33:14 PDT
sometimes, in the blur, i begin to wonder if i really do exist. if im just part of the big picture. and that everything i do is so heavily influenced that individualism is lost. maybe its just me wanting to influence the world.

am i scared of losing myself? no, if i was, then i would know i never existed to begin with. And i was never my own person to be.

]]> ~DeerDance0084 http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/12883082/ http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/12883082/ Tue, 08 May 2007 02:04:07 PDT
its not stalking when youre watching those who watch
filing paperwork with the poplace at your palpates
the data shifts over and under while score is determined
but paranoia is just a probability thats predetermined
while the untrusting struggle seems one sided
the policy remains to police the powerless
while guiding stars may come and go
prying prayers appears apparent to the preying prior
an appropriate product of the peoples popular practices

]]> ~DeerDance0084 http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/12837373/ http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/12837373/ Fri, 04 May 2007 08:03:04 PDT ,
that time |is| on our sides.
"cause the moment waits for no man."
now dont go closin your eyes...

if you havent had your fill, good!
but dont stop when you had (enough)
its time [to] get with the going,
& its going to get tough#

you gotta {know} where youre headin
lets not keep waiting for a sign?
following paths only takes you.
to be behind, standing in line.

]]> ~DeerDance0084 http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/12627536/ http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/12627536/ Tue, 17 Apr 2007 03:24:36 PDT maybe a little by anticipation
maybe a little by expressions
maybe distance is more
but frequently lies between two points
whatever they may be, point A and point B
sure theres point C and point Q
but they dont matter at the moment
just keep A & B in focus
now this, "point A and Point B" concept
can nearly be applied to just about anything
different times
different places
different events
the keyword is different
and i just appeared odd
that we keep trying to calculate differences
while they float in the infinite
like we are trying to get a foothold

]]> ~DeerDance0084 http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/12537722/ http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/12537722/ Tue, 10 Apr 2007 10:18:24 PDT you never thought that i had knew
when honesty is falling through
and apologies,
your apologies,
just wont do.

it tortures me, whats killing you
fact is that i had no clue
know that my heart is not untrue
with memories,
these memories,
of me and you.

there's more to it, i could only remember the first two segments. but i was planing to make changes to it, a lot of it just filling. i was just spinning shit off while i was working.

]]> ~DeerDance0084 http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/12207772/ http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/12207772/ Fri, 16 Mar 2007 14:52:02 PDT boy youre already dead.
happiness is with the living,
and its all in your head.

those tears are your own,
and no one made you cry.
no one put you down,
so control your damn lie.

taste your own defeat,
but you watend it this way.
so i guess you win and lose,
and its the price you pay.

pretend the world is falling down around you,
if thats what you wanna see.
grab yourself a tissue,
just dont come crying to me.

]]> ~DeerDance0084 http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/12062685/ http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/12062685/ Mon, 05 Mar 2007 03:58:09 PST we grew up together you and i
i turned you into a man
and you taught me how to be one
i didnt take much time
between you and i
just time for both of us
growing up, had its troubles
i may have not had everything
the most presents under the tree
or a smiling face in the crowd
but i was definately spoiled
by the love that i got
that shadowed the bad
and gave me the ability
to love so much
with this heart that you gave me
though i may not show it much
i do, and thats why,
it hurts so much when it breaks

]]> ~DeerDance0084 http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/11974545/ http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/11974545/ Mon, 26 Feb 2007 13:05:58 PST or is it the wind blowing by
the icy chill that comes and goes
leaving you stunned and numbed
to reality and all that seems real
when words can take you away
for that one moment of your life
and make the rest of the world
go away
only to say hello again...

]]> ~DeerDance0084 http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/10024158/ http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/10024158/ Sun, 10 Sep 2006 03:53:30 PDT
you got yours and i got mine
cause in the end, its just the way it is
nothing more, nothing less
nothing creative or dreamlike
just reality
lets face it
with our eyes open for once ]]> ~DeerDance0084 http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/9756228/ http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/9756228/ Thu, 17 Aug 2006 05:14:35 PDT
i may say its nothing, i may say i can or have to do it on my own. i may even block you out, but please, come inside... ]]> ~DeerDance0084 http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/9625645/ http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/9625645/ Mon, 07 Aug 2006 07:17:53 PDT iono, i just havent talked to a lot of people lately...

oh yeah, life updates:
still not going to school...
i have a job...
still not making enough money...
i miss whossit...
still dating this incredible girl...
playing Wow for the time being...
stil not gaming enough...
i need more sleep...
still not wanting more...
ive been trying to write...
still sucking at it...
thinking about joining the military...
still wanting to leave this place...
im hungry...
still hungry...

the more things change the more things seem to stay the same... ]]> ~DeerDance0084 http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/9566531/ http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/9566531/ Tue, 01 Aug 2006 13:42:06 PDT ~DeerDance0084 http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/9517398/ http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/9517398/ Thu, 27 Jul 2006 23:44:01 PDT When I get bored... i try to go to sleep and i pass out finally, or stare at the ceiling
When I get lonely... i think about people, and want to call them, but refuse to
When I get sleepy... i ignore it, most of the time
When I wake up... i wanna go back to sleep
When I am happy... i might actually smile
When I am upset... ill push it aside for later
When I am awake... im usually bored and lonely....see above
When I sleep... i wake up every other hour, or more frequent
When I talk... ill somtimes put words together and say sentences with my words all mixed up
When I get hurt... physically, i swear a lot. emotionally, i swear a lot more, and then get depressed
When I don't feel pain... its a good day
When I work out... is never
When I want attention... ill do something stupid or funny
When I die... i want to leave the world a better place than when i found it

]]> ~DeerDance0084 http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/9460055/ http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/9460055/ Sat, 22 Jul 2006 16:38:18 PDT
i leave in like 5 and a half hours, and my plane takes off in 10, then its a 9 hour flight to newark, and the an hour and a half wait there, and then a 2 and a half hour flight home.

]]> ~DeerDance0084 http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/9454268/ http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/9454268/ Sat, 22 Jul 2006 01:54:53 PDT
funny, i regret something, not that i did anything that i shouldnt, but i didnt do what i couldve.

i had a few to many last night, 5 beers, 10 shots, and 4 red bull and vodka. i think that was all

so yeah, went to the strip club for v-sex's birthday

its pretty vague but its all still there

last night, didnt end to well

i spent about an hour in a half after i woke up, to see what i did with my effing glasses

damn....sorry, but its prolly gonna be a week before i drink again

]]> ~DeerDance0084 http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/9437631/ http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/9437631/ Thu, 20 Jul 2006 13:00:59 PDT so is anyone back there still alive?
or do i have to bury y'all when i get back?

]]> ~DeerDance0084 http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/9427336/ http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/9427336/ Wed, 19 Jul 2006 13:54:29 PDT Let me sing among those stars
Let me see what spring is like
On jupiter and mars

In other words, hold my hand
In other words, baby kiss me

Fill my heart with song
Let me sing for ever more
You are all I long for
All I worship and adore

In other words, please be true
In other words, I love you

]]> ~DeerDance0084 http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/9423353/ http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/9423353/ Wed, 19 Jul 2006 06:14:36 PDT
]]> ~DeerDance0084 http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/9388484/ http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/9388484/ Sat, 15 Jul 2006 19:47:25 PDT
damn...

i gots some stories to tell when i get back.

]]> ~DeerDance0084 http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/9379529/ http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/9379529/ Fri, 14 Jul 2006 20:33:59 PDT
]]> ~DeerDance0084 http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/9360842/ http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/9360842/ Thu, 13 Jul 2006 03:14:48 PDT Would it make things right if I was never wrong
Would it make things easier if I were gone
Would it make things easier

All the times you took for granted that I waited here for you
I was on another planet, I was waiting there for you

She said
Would it make things easier if I were gone
Would it make things right if I was never wrong
Would it make you happy when you sing your song
Would it make things easier

I was blind and I was faded and I didn't have a clue
I was always into something that I always had to do

He said
Would it make things easier if I were gone
Would it make things right if I was never wrong
Would it make you happier to move along
Would it make things easier

All the awful things we say, all the stupid games we play
Every night and everyday, I don't know what else to say

Would it make things easier if I were gone
Would it make things right if I was never wrong
Would it make you happier to be alone
Would it make things easier
Would it make things easier if I were gone
Would it make you happier to be alone
Would it make things right if I was never wrong
Would it make things easier
Would it make things easier

]]> ~DeerDance0084 http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/9356459/ http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/9356459/ Wed, 12 Jul 2006 16:34:21 PDT i had a lot of things i wanted to straighten out
and i had to know what were my priorities and wants
and i have to say this....
i dont think im afraid anymore

]]> ~DeerDance0084 http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/9348589/ http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/9348589/ Tue, 11 Jul 2006 21:50:32 PDT
instead of me coming back to the states, you all move to germany....

sound good to anyone else?

]]> ~DeerDance0084 http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/9317694/ http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/9317694/ Sun, 09 Jul 2006 02:52:43 PDT
]]> ~DeerDance0084 http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/9284261/ http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/9284261/ Wed, 05 Jul 2006 17:34:18 PDT -ty

]]> ~DeerDance0084 http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/9272189/ http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/9272189/ Tue, 04 Jul 2006 14:48:24 PDT
]]> ~DeerDance0084 http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/9265378/ http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/9265378/ Mon, 03 Jul 2006 21:41:34 PDT best way to get ahold of me would be msn...so add me mother fuckers.
cause i only have three people on there.
aisforapathy@aol.com

]]> ~DeerDance0084 http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/9263210/ http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/9263210/ Mon, 03 Jul 2006 17:06:27 PDT
]]> ~DeerDance0084 http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/9256409/ http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/9256409/ Mon, 03 Jul 2006 01:08:03 PDT
FUCK! my head hurts, so not only am i sickly over here, i get my first hangover. i have to tell you, i feel like shit. but in a fun way, cause i know what i did to get here. last night was kinda of a chilling period, we all had to let the old people recouperate after day one. so woke up watched get rich or die trying. i didnt get to finish it, but i tell ya, for the whole gangsta thing, it a pretty good movie. after that we ended up goin to vandersex's, and by vandersex, i mean vanderbeck. we watch a movie, and stuffed our faces. theres some machicoli lasagna mix, garlic bread, cheese sticks, some stawberry cream pastry(i wanna make this one again) and sweet sweet white wine. im blamin this wine for this wonderful morning im havin. so we go to the store, bottle of jager, 12 of budlight, 12 of hieniken, 6 of champs, some wine and probably something else on top of v-sexs stuff. i drank the hieniken, and few shots of jager. we played asshole, just goofing around. wasnt a crazy night, but its nice to chill everyonce in a while. its crazy enough not to remember how the fuck i got back, i know its a few blocks from here. i only remember so much...ill ask jake about it later....well, i gotta start day three....
peace

oh side note, i have yet to get my ass kicked while stayin here. even after passin out at the comp, even after lighting up, even after being a smartass. well, i have to say my sister-in-law is abusive...j/k shes a sweetheart...

]]> ~DeerDance0084 http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/9245125/ http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/9245125/ Sat, 01 Jul 2006 19:32:10 PDT
i can tell you one thing, alcohol over here, so much friggen better...

so first day in germany, after the longest flight of my life, 9 and a half hours. was pretty cool, it was a two hour drive to base, which i got to see some pretty country-side. i took a five hour nap, since i didnt spend any of the 20 hours traveling here sleeping. ate some bbq with some of my brothers people. so i met some interesting people... after a few beers.....we ended up going to the local strip joint...where we chilled, had a few shots of jager til my sis in law came in. she draged me to the bar to see the strippers....i blame her entirely. it wasnt like it was torture, but it wasnt that great....but let me tell you, german people are freaky. we got back at four in the morn, after a few beers, a few shots , and a vodka and redbull. so i sit here to tell you about the night, pretty much drunk off my ass, to tell you im having a great time...
later people,
ty

]]> ~DeerDance0084 http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/9238742/ http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/9238742/ Sat, 01 Jul 2006 04:29:38 PDT
]]> ~DeerDance0084 http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/9225532/ http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/9225532/ Thu, 29 Jun 2006 20:45:19 PDT
im probably gonna come back and everything will be different...

but who knows, maybe it will be better that way...

probably not...

bye, and dont have too much fun without me, cause i know you will.

]]> ~DeerDance0084 http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/9216953/ http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/9216953/ Thu, 29 Jun 2006 02:32:14 PDT
]]> ~DeerDance0084 http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/9216859/ http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/9216859/ Thu, 29 Jun 2006 02:13:07 PDT 2) Name Backwards: relyt
3) Were you named after anyone? iono
4) Does your name mean anything? im sure it does
5) Nick Name(s): t-mac
6) Screen Name(s): ISM4CKK1T73N5
7) Date Of Birth: 3/28/87
8) Place of Birth: alton, IL
9) Nationality: american
10) Current Location: whoo driver
11) Sign: aries
12) Religion: um...non existant
13) Height: 5'10
14) Weight: 151 lbs
15) Shoe Size: 12 1\2
16) Hair colour: black
17) Eye colour: hazel
18) What do you look like? i look like a gnome, thats right a gnome
20) Righty, Lefty, or Ambidextrous? righty
21) Gay, Straight, Bi, or Other? Straight
22) Best friend(s): plum, AH, Kate, Sam, nikki, joe, ashley
23) Best friend you trust the most: plum and nikki
24) Best friends {your sex}: piercton and Antix
25) Best friends of the opposite sex: Kate, Sam, Nikki, Ashley
26) Best Bud(s): wait, what?
27) Boyfriend / Girlfriend: Keri
28) Crush: so i have one
29) Parent(s): 3
30) Worst Enemy: time
31) Favorite on-line Guy(s): Joe
32) Favorite on-line Girl(s): ashley
33) Funniest friend: brandon
34) Craziest friend: antoine
35) Advice Friend: plum he's the easiest to talk to
36) Loudest Friend: joe
37) Person you cry with: i dont really cry with anyone

Do You Have...

38) Any sisters: 1
39) Any brothers: 2
40) Any pets: nope
41) A Disease: schizophrenia
42) A Pager: No
43) A Personal phone line: no
44) A Cell phone: Yes.
45) A Lava lamp: No
46) A Pool or hot tub: niether, i miss my pool
47) A Car: nope

Describe Your...

48) Personality: wait, im supposed to have one of those...
49) Driving: im alright, i dont follow rules very well, and i cant drive in reverse
50) Car or one you want: one
51) Room: big open space with some stuff in it
52) What’s missing? happiness
53) School: none
54) Bed: uncomfortable
55) Relationship with your parent(s): almost non-existant at points

Do You

56) Believe in yourself: not really
57) Believe in love at first sight: yeah, i kinda do
58) Consider yourself a good listener: yeah, bout all i can do
60) Get Along with your parents: we get along
61) Save your e-mail conversations: nope
62) Pray: no, not usually
63) Believe in reincarnation: no
64) Like to make fun of people: yeah, but usually when everyone laughs
65) Like to talk on the phone: i hate the phone, but some people make it worth while
66) Like to eat: yes
67) Like to drive: matters if im in a hurry or not, i like the thought of taking my time
68) Get motion sickness: no
69) Eat the stems of broccoli: mhmm
70) Eat Chicken fingers with a fork: nope
71) Dream in color: yes i do
72) Type with your fingers on home row: most of the time
73) Sleep with a stuffed animal: nope

What Is…?

74) Right next to you: pens and markers
75) On the walls of your room: posters and drawings and stuff
76) On your mouse pad: i dont have one
77) Your dream car: one thats drivable
78) Your dream date: its not what happened, its who you go with
79) Your dream honeymoon spot: i have plenty of time to figure this out
80) Your dream husband/wife: heh
81) Your bedtime: i was planning to go to bed 4 hours ago
82) Under your bed: a floor
83) The single most important question: why?
84) Your bad time of the day: morning
85) Your worst fear(s): i fear hieghts a bit
86) The weather like: Thunderstorms
87) The time: 4:06
88) The date: 6.29.2006
89) The best trick you ever played on someone: i fooled myself
90) The weirdest food or drink that you like: fried pickles
91) Theme Song: banana phone...j/k, um...drowning pool- sinner
92) The hardest thing about growing up: is letting go of your youth
93) Your funniest experience: slap fights
94) Your scariest moment: getting stabbed
95) The silliest thing you've said: i mean it, or i promise, or always
96) The funniest or most desperate thing you've done to get the attention of the opposite sex: im not desparate
97) The scariest thing that's ever happened while with your friend(s): iono
98) The worst feeling in the world: heartache
99) The best feeling in the world: love, everything else is rubish, but it makes it all bearable
100) 5 people you tag: no one, what now, uh huh

]]> ~DeerDance0084 http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/9173930/ http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/9173930/ Sun, 25 Jun 2006 14:19:36 PDT i have this gut feeling that im missing out on something.
and its making me sick to my stomach.

wow, i wish i had the guts to say something when it matters. i wish i had teh nerve to say whats on my mind. speak my truth and get on with life...instead of having a staring contest with my on fears in the mirror. a fight i try so desparately to win, but always ends up in a tie, and never ends. why am i so afraid of this, why am i nervous, why do i care...what happened to apathy. what happened to selfishness, and introversion. maybe i just dont play well with others...maybe thats why ive been alone all my life...maybe thats why ill always be alone in my own way, broken in someway. grounded, staring up at the sky, looking for something more than myself...something thats not mine. something that i cant grasp, i cant even reach...and im missing out. it feels wrong, i feel incomplete...almost empty without it. theres so much i have to do, and i cant get on with it. so many places i have to go, and i cant even take the first step.

]]> ~DeerDance0084 http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/9139736/ http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/9139736/ Wed, 21 Jun 2006 16:56:00 PDT
]]> ~DeerDance0084 http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/9082867/ http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/9082867/ Fri, 16 Jun 2006 00:54:44 PDT that supposively know better with power given.
sanity lost all meaning and skipped the point.
the right to be blind by chasing transcripts.
morals lost in an fanaticism of beliefs,
formed by fears and some mother complex.

]]> ~DeerDance0084 http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/9037942/ http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/9037942/ Sun, 11 Jun 2006 14:38:49 PDT
WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

]]> ~DeerDance0084 http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/8984261/ http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/8984261/ Tue, 06 Jun 2006 02:57:17 PDT
oh me, me, me,

]]> ~DeerDance0084 http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/8949533/ http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/8949533/ Fri, 02 Jun 2006 11:04:55 PDT even more so, maybe i should tell people about my plans in advance....
yeah, so whats everyone up to tonight?

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]]> ~DeerDance0084 http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/8822812/ http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/8822812/ Sat, 20 May 2006 05:31:38 PDT no alarm clocks, no obligations, never to face anything like it again...
ever had a dream so great, that you wished you never woke up?
to dwell in and wrap yourself completely in the thoughts that bring you bliss...
i think caffine is my new best friend...

-ty

]]> ~DeerDance0084 http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/8815541/ http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/8815541/ Fri, 19 May 2006 10:25:41 PDT yeah, i gotta get out of this basement. i think im goin stir crazy.
so if youre bored, feel free to call me. cause i got one day off this weekend, and i dont know what to do with it. i just need to see somewhere else besides here and subway...gah...
peace,
-ty

CREEPY BONDAGE PENGUIN!

]]> ~DeerDance0084 http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/8627384/ http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/8627384/ Sun, 30 Apr 2006 04:15:58 PDT
so yeah, i might as well get around to it...its about time.
sorry sam.

so here it is, six facts about me...

1. i'm very intraverted

2. i think to much for my own good

3. i really dont care, no, seriously i do, but i try not to

4. im an insomniac

5. i tend to laugh a lot sometimes, yeah...its annoying

6. i love to make people laugh

so i tag flamingo, yes you

]]> ~DeerDance0084 http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/8505597/ http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/8505597/ Mon, 17 Apr 2006 23:36:19 PDT im scared of trying, ill stop so i dont have to worry about results
i rather lay back and accept the fate of what the world hands me, than accept one that i make.
success...failure...doesnt matter. both interchangeable though intangible...lost in the effort of defining both of them.
if left undefined, should i care
if i fail, i could always say i never tried...
if i die, i could always say i never lived...

]]> ~DeerDance0084 http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/8398770/ http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/8398770/ Fri, 07 Apr 2006 14:36:28 PDT
I'm back to put it in motion
I'm back to tell you no lies
Sit back and sip on this notion
I'm back to put it in drive
I'm back watch out I'm back
What ya gonna do
I'm back to cause a commotion
I'm back to demoralize
Sit back and feel the emotion
I'm back to keep it alive
I'm back watch out I'm back

What ya gonna do
When the sound goes boom
What ya gonna do
Make a make a move
Motherfucker
When the sound goes boom
Watch out I'm back

I'm back to put it in motion
I'm back to reemphasize
Get back don't need your promotion
I'm back to keep it alive
I'm back watch out I'm back
What ya gonna do
I'm back because of devotion
I'm back to capitalize
Sit back and feel the explosion
I'm back to put it in drive
I'm back watch out I'm back
What ya gonna do

What ya gonna do
When the sound goes boom
What ya gonna do
Make a make a move
Motherfucker
When the sound goes boom
Watch out I'm back

I'm back to put it in motion
I'm back to tell you no lies
Sit back and feel the emotion
I'm back to keep it alive
I'm back watch out I'm back

]]> ~DeerDance0084 http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/8342728/ http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/8342728/ Sun, 02 Apr 2006 11:24:47 PDT
]]> ~DeerDance0084 http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/8223289/ http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/8223289/ Tue, 21 Mar 2006 02:34:37 PST
1. forgivness- in my pants
2. perfect to stay- in my pants
3. not the one- in my pants
4. no more, no less- in my pants
5. gel- in my pants
6. there's a way- in my pants
7. december- in my pants
8. goodnight, good guy- in my pants
9. reach- in my pants
10. precious declaration- in my pants
11. disciplined breakdown- in my pants
12. she gathers rain- in my pants
13. wasting time- in my pants
14. blame- in my pants
15. shine- in my pants
16. sister dont cry- in my pants
17. hapiness- in my pants
18. love lifted me- in the pants
19. heavens already here- in my pants
20. collection of goods- in my pants

]]> ~DeerDance0084 http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/8211695/ http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/8211695/ Sun, 19 Mar 2006 21:42:03 PST That's got this all under control
Never a minute has passed you all by
When they haven’t invaded your soul

It’s not something you can hold
It’s not something you own
It's not something you can buy or steal
You've got it when you're alone

]]> ~DeerDance0084 http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/8176352/ http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/8176352/ Thu, 16 Mar 2006 08:45:11 PST -Ty

]]> ~DeerDance0084 http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/8023960/ http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/8023960/ Tue, 28 Feb 2006 01:42:00 PST If I were a day of the week I would be: saturday
If I were a time of day I would be: 4 in teh morn
If I were a planet I would be: planet bob, oh yes
If I were a animal I would be: coyote
If I were a direction I would be: stand still
If I were a piece of furniture I would be: a bookcase
If I were a historical figure I would be: Socrates
If I were a liquid I would be: salt water
If I were a tree I would be: cedar
If I were a flower/plant I would be: O.o um.....
If I were a kind of weather I would be: a windy fall day, with a bit of overcast
If I were a musical instrument I would be: everything, but i dont play any notes, im the silence between them
If I were an emotion I would be: confusion
If I were a color I would be: dark grey
If I were a vegetable I would be: a pepper
If I were a sound I would be: silence
If I were an element I would be: water
If I were a car I would be: 67" ford mustang, fastback
If I were a song I would be: voices - disturbed
If I were a movie I would be directed by: iono
If I were a book I would be written by: iono....some sort of epigram
If I were a food I would be: ramen
If I were a place I would be: the back of your mind
If I were a material I would be: cotton
If I were a taste I would be: sweet
If I were a scent I would be: coconuts
If I were a word I would be: apathy
If I were an object I would be: out of sight, out of mind
If I were a body part I would be: a hand
If I were a facial expression I would be:
If I were a cartoon character I would be: gaz
If I were a shape I would be a: a seven pointed star
If I were a number I would be: 3

Copy and paste, and show your real self through other things! (or dont. doesnt matter)

]]> ~DeerDance0084 http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/7975889/ http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/7975889/ Wed, 22 Feb 2006 21:08:34 PST
dope - falling away

The more things change
The more things change
Ain't it funny how
Apparently everything is the same
Ain't it funny how
I think I'm waking up
I think I'm waking up or I'm about to be
I think I'm waking up
And now I'm breaking up or so I ought to be
I think I'm breaking up
Let it go

I'm falling away from my world of destruction
I'm falling away from the pain

Ain't it funny how
The more things change
The more things change
Ain't it funny how
I think it's shaping up
I think it's shaping up or it's about to be
I think it's shaping up
And now it's breaking up or gonna set me free
I think I'm breaking up
Breaking up

I'm falling away from my world of destruction
I'm falling away from the pain

We all
Fall down

I'm falling away

]]> ~DeerDance0084 http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/7781026/ http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/7781026/ Thu, 02 Feb 2006 13:08:24 PST i care to much...
i have no self control...
im gonna lose my mind again...
and i hate myself for it.

sorry, been rather emo lately...

stabby rip stab stab

]]> ~DeerDance0084 http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/7683449/ http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/7683449/ Mon, 23 Jan 2006 09:15:15 PST
]]> ~DeerDance0084 http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/7410089/ http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/7410089/ Sun, 25 Dec 2005 04:57:53 PST
well i ate myself sick...gluttony was kind of fun....but really i think it was foriegn food that did me in. i got to see some of my fam, skipped out on some parts of it to...but theyll be at me house in less than a week...

so, my sis got me a phone....yay! though i was gonna get one myself...but it works, and that is good enough for me. so i can actually be reached, that is as if someone would call, hehehe...the number would be 917-1079. hmmm, maybe putting my number on here is a bad thing...eh

well ill see you all when this bone chillingly merry holiday is over...peace
-ty

]]> ~DeerDance0084 http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/7351498/ http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/7351498/ Mon, 19 Dec 2005 04:56:00 PST
go placidly amid the noise and haste...remember what peace there may be in silence. as for as possible without surrender be on good terms with all persons. speak your truth quietly and clearly. listen to others, even the dull and the ignorant; they too have their story. Avoid the loud and agressive persons, they are vexations to the spirit. If you compare yourself with others you may become vain and bitter; for always there will be greater & lesser persons than yourself. Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans. Keep interested in your own career, however humble;it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time. Exercise caution in your business affairs; for the world is full of tickery. But let this not blind youto what virtue there is;many persons strive for high ideals; and everywhere life is full of heroism. Be yourself, especially, do not fiegn affection. niether be cynical about lovefor in the face of all avidity and disenchantment it is perrenial as the grass. take kindly counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth. nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. but do not distress yourself with imaginings. Many fears are born out fatigue and loneliness. Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. you are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars; you have the right to be here. And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should. therefore be at peace with god, whatever you conceive him to be, and whatever your labors and asperations in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul. with all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams. It is still a beautiful world. be careful. strive to be happy....

]]> ~DeerDance0084 http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/7308482/ http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/7308482/ Wed, 14 Dec 2005 10:19:43 PST
fuck it, i got tired of writing so i stopped there......

depression blah blah blah self loathing yadda yadda yadda hidden....its the just of it right about now, so as a warning im not very fun guy to be around or talk to for a bit...

well later
-mac

]]> ~DeerDance0084 http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/7277438/ http://DeerDance0084.deviantart.com/journal/7277438/ Sat, 10 Dec 2005 20:43:41 PST
i had an interesting enough trip to the mall today, brandon got a little over zealous...

GAHHHHH, this boredom consumes me, and turns to something else

well goodnight my pretties,
-mac

]]> ~DeerDance0084