http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:Demon-Nightshade&section=today deviantART RSS for by:Demon-Nightshade en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Mon, 21 Dec 2009 23:23:44 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2649799/ http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2649799/ Sun, 13 Jun 2004 10:33:48 PDT reno 911 is the bestfucking show ever.
yay selling babies
.....
..
..
.
..yeah
anyway
im leaving
alot of the poeple here have no idea what has been happening with me the past few weeks, and since thats big shit, it matters. htta incluides most of my friends.
and its only making things worse, so.... im leaving
all buhbye
new email
new s\n
new gj
everything
and new da
starting over with a clean fuklcing slate
only my mates are gonna follow me there.
..
..
iguess
its been alot of things that makeing me do this.
tarot card devil- sweep away stagnant residues lest they drag you down
this is a stagnant residue
all the stuff here.
its stagnation
it will remain, all of it, here
all the pics, but im moving
...
..
alot of things havge inspired this, ive been htinking about this for months now.
and now im acting on it.
i guess the final straw was when someoen said panda was only as real as i made him. cuz he's not. he came himself. and ive told him alot tht hes not real, but he wont leave.
but then, my mind was made up before i saw that so meh.
.,..
..
..
TOODLES! im gonna miss you guys, and thanks for your support. ]]> ~Demon-Nightshade http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2623310/ http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2623310/ Wed, 09 Jun 2004 18:26:41 PDT
fact is
a relitvie term

*shrug* i dont know if its true
i todl ymself that
i told myself it was true too
but imean
come on
if a stranger can see it, there aint much hiding it.
..
sorry
im bitter right now
and soon il be sad
adn then il be hyper
and then il be distracted
and then il be pissed
and then il be sad
and then the whole goddamn thing will start again
and then we'll have entries in GJ about how im splitting into peicees and my head is falling ofdf
and my brain will fall out of my ears...
and so i predict the future to amazing feats
...
or maybe i know myself well enough to see a cycle starting over.
course this time it'l be worse.
sorld storm one. two. three. four. five. six. and fifteen.
indesision is the other form of balance
the one we all love to hate
and panda says im the epitome of balance
well then
i get the indisision too
but panda doesnt exist
andnsaying that makes me want to vomit
ah how lovely it is to hang here in the middle. ]]> ~Demon-Nightshade http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2605606/ http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2605606/ Mon, 07 Jun 2004 14:49:57 PDT RainsxTonight: confused
RainsxTonight: the wall
RainsxTonight: confuses me
RainsxTonight: and so does pron
RainsxTonight: and fish
Bluedecember16: sure.... (_,_)
RainsxTonight: adn monkeys
RainsxTonight: lmfao
RainsxTonight: you just stop my tangent with an ass
RainsxTonight: i see how it is
Bluedecember16: (_;_)
RainsxTonight: ..
RainsxTonight: doode
Bluedecember16: (_)(_) hahahahaha
RainsxTonight: (_;_)
RainsxTonight: mine is fatter?
RainsxTonight: lmao
RainsxTonight: yes
RainsxTonight: (-)(-)
Bluedecember16: hahahhaha!!
RainsxTonight: sorta
Bluedecember16: 69.
RainsxTonight: (x)(x)
Bluedecember16: muhahaha!
RainsxTonight: omg censored
RainsxTonight: lmao
RainsxTonight: doode
Bluedecember16: doode!
RainsxTonight: were having too much fun
...
Bluedecember16: <+++<
Bluedecember16: i give u a fish bone!
RainsxTonight: eeee!
RainsxTonight: fishboen!
RainsxTonight: what about fishboner
Bluedecember16: ( I+++<
RainsxTonight: fishhead ]]> ~Demon-Nightshade http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2604336/ http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2604336/ Mon, 07 Jun 2004 11:46:34 PDT its still graduation day. that hasnt changed.
i am now clearing my computer of files. why? becase i can. and because soon i will have to reinstall windows. when soon is exactly is anyeons guess, but mrar.
hsss
i have to get anotherstorage geocitis account. which in itself isnt so bad except its hell to actuallyget the damn thing working. x.x
im bored adn i want soda and 13ghosts. i have 20$.... im tempted to take an hour to walk to purple potomus, or catch the bus or something.
i want soooda~~ ;-; and starbucks.
and the laundry got my clothes all wet, so i'm topless. soon i'l be pantsless as well, cuz theyre all wet and stuff. needless to say pandys having a feild day
...
ha. not really
he said feeld day
mrar
FAYE NO MARSHMELLOW ]]> ~Demon-Nightshade http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2602663/ http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2602663/ Mon, 07 Jun 2004 07:00:56 PDT but tomarrow is a full week of exams
x.x
mrar
and i dont leave early cuz i stay behind wiv faye. so mrar

fishsticks/
so yeah
today im gonna work on owed art... ive got it all doen now i think. i just need to color. and stuff.
mrar
ps fish ]]> ~Demon-Nightshade http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2582631/ http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2582631/ Fri, 04 Jun 2004 14:02:40 PDT he's being such a brat
so he comes down here on MY computer, looks on sites ive told him before have spyware, prints something out on MY printer and MY paper, or tried to anways, since its broken, and is not stomping around upsairs because im oh so selfish. yes. omg. i dont want him to destroy my compuer as he has done 1000000000 times before. > im gonna kill him
and now hes crying. awww. my heart bleeds. *sarcasrm* im half midned to go up there right now and to tell him to cry me a river. ]]> ~Demon-Nightshade http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2576219/ http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2576219/ Thu, 03 Jun 2004 17:42:50 PDT mmm, cheese frys.
gnight secks monkey ]]> ~Demon-Nightshade http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2574154/ http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2574154/ Thu, 03 Jun 2004 12:31:43 PDT ~Demon-Nightshade http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2570729/ http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2570729/ Wed, 02 Jun 2004 23:21:21 PDT most of this shit is old; like a week or so. maybe more. x.x
..
i should be asleep. ]]> ~Demon-Nightshade http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2557768/ http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2557768/ Tue, 01 Jun 2004 11:51:32 PDT im blind. im stupid. my only object is to protect what i care about. literally. im not being selfless... quite the oposite. im very selfish, and i cant live without them, so i protect them from everything, even themselves. which may hurt them, but as long as theyre there im somewhat happy, so yeah. selfish. but sorry, no one falls on my watch. its not allowed.
im weak. yes. and the only people i will be strong for is them, and they know who theyare. rip out the throat of any attackers, i will.

...
..
.
and that was censored thoughts. i hate censored thoughts. im not used to it cuz on GJ, everything there is basically raw.
nad my eyes blur and im starting to slip, so mooo
this has a point.
updatE: definalty failing now, no possability of raising grades. i want my dr pepper that the library ladee stole, and i want a random fish. i have a bunch of shit i just scanned, but i have to wait till im home to upload it. i may upload a teaser of this one image im really proud of. yeah. mooo ]]> ~Demon-Nightshade http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2555842/ http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2555842/ Tue, 01 Jun 2004 06:05:21 PDT ~Demon-Nightshade http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2555833/ http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2555833/ Tue, 01 Jun 2004 06:04:10 PDT im seriously fucking insane
and *i* wont admit it, really. im repeating what *THEY* said. and i sort of see it too.
my gj is proof. x.x
in other news, school is evil, i hunger for meat, and food is not here. and i want a tio. get on, a tio!
*snuggle* ]]> ~Demon-Nightshade http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2538175/ http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2538175/ Sat, 29 May 2004 19:50:10 PDT here at a party. this cop im using belongs to a fourty year old man, whose room im in. theres playboy here....

lalala
but it was cool. i went to a big thing in rockville. Gin Blossems played, and then a band called HIVE, which was awesome except for thier slow songs.
and i met the librarian there. ;-; it was funny, cuz i know her, and i asked her if anyone else was there, and she said, "i wouldnt know, i only know the bad kids."
*snickers*
so yes
that was my brief reprieve.
on a more serious note, things are getting bad. longest storm ever. connections with thee people are hard... but theyre very very worth it.
i love you guys, ok? Tio,Faye, and panda. (sapalert) you make life worth living. *snuggle* ]]> ~Demon-Nightshade http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2531315/ http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2531315/ Fri, 28 May 2004 19:06:21 PDT that saved movie... i was looking it up, beacuse tho it may seem anti christian from teh beginning, but it has the potential to have one of those hyperass annoying endings that prove that god exists and blahblahblah
but this review proves it is something i want to see. excuse me while i laugh my ass off at iot, and feel free to do the same: [link]
please note: i have nothing against christains unless youre like that
basically a complete refusal to accept anything. and he prolly has no idea why his religion is so against homosexuality in the first place. excuse me while i giggle. ^^
but read it, its funny ]]> ~Demon-Nightshade http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2528913/ http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2528913/ Fri, 28 May 2004 12:50:26 PDT you mean people make me do it myself...
i still feel like theres tons missing. if anyone knows anything tell me?
mrar
feel free to use this. ^^
this version was meant to be printed, hense the lines. takle away the lines and you have something to post online.
Fullname: ________________________________________ ________________
Meaning: ________________________________________ ________________
Nickname: ________________________________________ _______________
Age: ________________________________________ ____________________
Sex: ________________________________________ ____________________
Sexuality: ________________________________________ ________________
Species: ________________________________________ _________________
Subspecies: ________________________________________ ______________
Anthro? yes/no-if not: ________________________________________ _______

Location: ________________________________________ ___________
Ethnicity: ________________________________________ _________________
Position: ________________________________________ __________________

Eyecolor: ________________________________________ __________________
Haircolor/style: ________________________________________ ______________
General fur color:__________________________________ __________________
Head/neck: ________________________________________ _________________
________________________________________ __________________________
body: ________________________________________ ______________________
________________________________________ ___________________________
________________________________________ __________________________
Arms: ________________________________________ _____________________
________________________________________ __________________________
Legs: ________________________________________ _____________________
________________________________________ __________________________
Tail: ________________________________________ ______________________
Wings:__________________________________ __________________________
________________________________________ __________________________
Other: ________________________________________ ____________________
________________________________________ __________________________
________________________________________ __________________________
________________________________________ __________________________
Height: ________________________
Weight: _______________________
Clothes style: ________________________________________ _______________
________________________________________ ___________________________
________________________________________ ___________________________
________________________________________ ___________________________
Jewelry: ________________________________________ ___________________
________________________________________ __________________________
________________________________________ _________________________
piercings: ________________________________________ ________________
________________________________________ __________________________
________________________________________ __________________________
________________________________________ __________________________

Favorite color: ________________________________________ ______________
Favorite Food: ________________________________________ ______________
Favorite drink: ________________________________________ ______________
Favorite game: ________________________________________ _____________
favorite Tv show: ________________________________________ ___________
Favorite movie: ________________________________________ _____________
Favorite book: ________________________________________ ______________
Favorite author: ________________________________________ _____________
Favorite artist: ________________________________________ _____________
Favorite art form: ________________________________________ ___________
Favorite animal: ________________________________________ ____________
Favorite band: ________________________________________ _____________
Music style of choice: ________________________________________ _______
Drugs: Yes/No -fave: _______________- tried: ___________________________
________________________________________ __________________________

Fighter: Yes/no
Weapon: ________________________________________ _________________
Magic: ________________________________________ ____________________
________________________________________ _________________________
___... ]]> ~Demon-Nightshade http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2527792/ http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2527792/ Fri, 28 May 2004 09:56:30 PDT like, the whole 50 yards?
i mean realy detailed.
name age meaning ectect.\*puppy eyes*












mary mary quite contrary got eaten by a bug.
ns is still grounded, still has a lack of scannerage, still wonders where the monkeys went, and still cant get only long enough to check this backlog.
moooooo
3,286 new messages ( 96C | 2367D | 823J ) ]]> ~Demon-Nightshade http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2521341/ http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2521341/ Thu, 27 May 2004 13:11:06 PDT just one more medicated peaceful moment...
that song is god. its stuck in my head.
random update on real life: still failing 6/7 classes. getting my ass in gerar isnt really helping. im so tired i can barely stand, im in artblock and im making it worse by not really drawing anyhting.... hsss
ive got a bunch of random shit to scan, but im not allowed on at home... might have a brief reprive this weeklend; my parents are leaving for a bunch of parties memorial day weekend, not to mention that its a threeday weekend anyways.
still, its not gonna be pretty when that report card comes home.
hmmm
just one more medicated pecaful moment...
like the one i had before, that passes all too quickly. ]]> ~Demon-Nightshade http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2512849/ http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2512849/ Wed, 26 May 2004 11:28:42 PDT peopole of late have been saying i have no smartness
actually, i do. i can talk as scholally as i want, if i want. i can write a 14 page paper on minor characters in romeo and juliet, and still not be done. i know all sorts of latin, and science. Sic Transit Gloria Mundi, a very wise proverb, can anyone here translate it?
math is hard, yes, but im in a 11th grade mathclass, which is far above my level. english is bloody easy, i can memorise anything in history, i have a huge vocabulary, and i write pages for bcrs. i know tons about chemistry, physics and psycology by instinct, and its all right, and ive used this. im very logical
make a point and i will write a scientific proof to point you correct or wrong.
i wirte strangly, but thats artistic. if i want to, i can conform. which i dont.
alot of times, i just dont try. but that DOESNT mean i'm dumb.
and this has been spruned by the way people, irl and non irl, are treating me. its just one of my pet peaves to be called stupid, when actually, im not.
course, this is a rare moment of clarity. ^^
so yeah
g'night ]]> ~Demon-Nightshade http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2505626/ http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2505626/ Tue, 25 May 2004 12:43:29 PDT
um, also, ps and stuff... if anyone loves me they will give me seven dollars, cuz i just saw this amulet thing that was all, rar i call to you. O.O it was so pretty... and mooo. so yeah. 7dolllars?
its this: [link]
;-; innit pretty? ]]> ~Demon-Nightshade http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2505042/ http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2505042/ Tue, 25 May 2004 11:09:08 PDT except tio and faye
thats all
the rest of you, even the nice ones, i dont know, so i dont like you
omg
hisss
yesss
only i dont care
im a bitch
deal with it
im just sick of subtle abuse no one else cam see
and also
yessss
last entry had a point
what i described was a chronic illness, and i had decribed it
omg
yes
but you couldnt decefer that- so sorry
idiots ]]> ~Demon-Nightshade http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2498402/ http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2498402/ Mon, 24 May 2004 14:10:52 PDT lovely day
i think the teacher who is watching me is getting annoyed. its five, and he's still here. i think its my presence tho; he stays till five thirty every day.
...
i think im too sensitive.
i miss tios, and im gonna leeeve soon
*sigh*
but for now, il sit content with my chin on the cold black metel of the windowsill, and stare out the window, enjoying the warm humid breeze
the plants in the library are shaloking, i dont know why...
this calm serene peace... theres another storm building. and mistoffelees's umbrella doesnt help.
penance penance
what am i being punished for.
i dont want to go home...
i want a cuddle, but no one is here....
....
;-;
chleo
....
tired.
and ill
new relationships wil bring chaos
i know i dont know how
so help me, guanicam
none of you understood that.
...
sighs
this ilness,,,
never goes away...
no dramatics; i'm dying
i'm not alright, i've never been alright
adn it only gets worse.
i catch every cold, and none of them leave. they just become dormant
inside me
gods.
penance
penance
penance all i've got. ]]> ~Demon-Nightshade http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2497690/ http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2497690/ Tue, 08 Jun 2004 18:45:11 PDT imean on the journal entry.



it actually has a point! *die*
rar.
so... im gonna list my chars. if anyone wants info on them, ask.
and all but the ones marked so are rp-able. *hint hint* and if any have boyfriends/girlfriends, thier names are in ()
*ahem* here goes
----
notes on them
(private journal excerpt) -"i mean, i know all the ones ive got now, and i'm pretty damn close to them. some closer to others, of course.
The only reason i can have that many is cuz they come and go, some more than others; and some are tied to specific worlds in my head that they rarely leave. so mrar.
but mew.
its just getting so confusing. i'm closer to some than others; anti, desma, chesh, ect; than others like katanya and najoko, who live in thier sepreate world and rarely leave. They all have personalities, and serpate beings, and as such, and having more than i've got now will get so confusing."
---
also, now with species, status, and place of origin

1-anti [?, advisor to chesh, ?]
2-Cheshire (fao) [hesh dog, kind of wonderland, wonderland]
3-pandemonium (............) [kirin, -, -]
4-Desmamorde [rat/ vampire, -,-]
5-Glammour [totestsu, /, /]
6-metephor [obscure lizard, / ,/]
7-Guanicam *nonrp* [///]
8-bat *nonrp* [ethereal/moth, /, /]
9-katanya (najoko) [bambooshark, escaped slave, ocean plain]
10-najoko (katanya) [white tipped reef shark, aristrocrat, ocean plane]
11-indigo [fennic/vampire, /, /]
12-azure [blue wolf/vampire, /, /]
13-donnetello [animated pinata, /, /]
14-ashtray (eleven) [eastern quoll, /. /]
15-quoth (ariel) [raven, /, /]
16-ariel (quoth) [albino crow, /, /]
17-dreamkeeper *nonrp* [husky/wolf, /, /]
18-mullegra (dreamrunner) [werehyena, shamen, plains]
19-dreamrunner (mullegra) [werewolf, shamen, plains]
20-anatsi [ethreal/spider, sotryteller, plains]
21-shadowlover *nonrp* [godspirit lemur, /, /]
22-morpheus *nonrp* [godspirit obscure elk, /,/]
23-dominique [?, /, /]
24-fortune *nonrp* [godspririt obscure canine, /, /]
25-urd *nonrp* [godspririt kandaroo fairy, /, /]
26-sculd *nonrp* ["]
27-vendredi *nonrp* ["]
28-styxx *nonrp* [godspirit crane, /, /]
29-wintergreen *alternate fursona* [arctic fox, /, /]
30-facade *fursona* [obscure fox, /,/]
31-tanuki bambivere [cheshire dog/ obscure canine/vampire, /, /]
32-iris bambivere ["]
33-iori bambivere ["]
34-angel, aka today [albino aspheal, /, /]
35-yesterday's suicide note. [albino aspeal, /,/]
36-pandeazel [incubus, /, /]
37-pandora [bigcat/ succumbus, /, /]
38-ying yang [obscure humanshape, /, /]
39-hush [gentleman, /, /]
40-neqrius tara [blackbuck serephim/ kingsnake naga, /, higher sky plains]
41-straw [animated scarecrow, /, /]
42-remorse [animated cactus pokemon thing, /, /]
43-vervain [ghost pokemon thing, /, /]
44-puppet [obscure canine, /, /]
45-messiah [obscure canine, /, /]
46-march hayer [kiah, march hare, wonderland]
47-rottichieli [white rabbit, white rabbit, wonderland]
48-papillion [obscure lapdog, madhatter, wonderland]
49-Macavity [ginger cat, random theif, /]
50-MrMistoffelees [black cat, ", /]
51-lupam [wolf, /, rome]
52-reich and nemo [doberman zombie, /, /] [corpse snake, /, /]
53-dove *nonrp* [////]
54-Espidarapa [unicorn, /, winterplains]
55-Vice [pegusus, /, /]
56-Domino [zebra, /, /]
57-Detante [centaur, /, britain]
58-holly/ harlequin [afgan hound were,/, france]
59-Lekurusha [tiger, /, random african plain]
60-Diedre [tiger/lion, /, "]
61-Gentleman Death *alterego* [foxwolfthing, /, /]
62-Skin [ethreal, /, /]
63-Figurative Facade [foxthing, /, /] *alternate fursona*
64-lucid [bat, /, /]
65-Dey [godspirit dragon, /, /]
66-nuight [godsprit dragon, /, /]
67-Bodythief [dragon zombie, DEAD, /]
68-harry gazelle [gazelle pheonix, DEAD, /]
69-draco ferret [dragon/ferret, DEAD, /]
70-Debauch {obscure ethreal lion, historical figure, /]
71-ikarus [ayeaye/egyptian vulture, historical figure- first king of wonderland, rome]
72-Ayajinka [flower mantis/ polecat, historical figure- first queen of wonderland, presettledwonderland]
73- Aggamemnon [african wild dog, bard, /]
74- Rowan [black jackyl, druid, ancient ireland]
75- Chleo [arctic/fennec fox, /, some spanish speaking country]
76- Gamble [maned wolf, model, europe somewhere]
77- Fog [cattish fog elemental (water/air), /, elemental planes of water]
78- Alan [black lab/fox, singerso... ]]> ~Demon-Nightshade http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2497603/ http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2497603/ Mon, 24 May 2004 12:27:28 PDT i hate this book im reading, but im addicted too it. curse scientests and thier names for every little thing
i have returned to the TRHOES of art block; i have few ideas, no drawing skill, and randomly changing styles.
more voices, as per usual, but my gainage of them is slowing down. yesss, it isssss
still oh so fucking tired
still grounded, and failing more classes than i was originally... badly. if i cant pull myself out of this rut, im gonna ....have bad things happen to me. especially since i was an IDIOT a week ago, and let my mom see part of who i really was, and now she's gonna take so much advantge of me
i hate me when i cry
um, random
yesss
but anwyay
if i cant pull myself out of this whole, i might have a whole summer without computer and phone,a nd the thought of that makes me so nervous i want to rip my heart out, literally. im scratching at my neck a tad too hard now, as it is.
i dont need your pants
current fail count: 4 out of 7 classes, perhaps 5
lets count on our paws:
algerbra two
computer programming
gym (lc; i didnt go to a single class this semester)
biology,
and probably history...
the only things i'm passing are
english, a class i love to death,
and latin- no wait, i'm failing that too, maybe with a d
recaps:
failing 4 out of 5 classes definatly, probably 6 out of 7, and maybe a b in english
dear fucking god
i wish my interem had been worse; cuz... it was literally right after the interum where my grades dropped to failing
shit
jesus shit
*just realised how sad that was*
i hate me now. ]]> ~Demon-Nightshade http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2492040/ http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2492040/ Sun, 23 May 2004 16:42:01 PDT did anyone else notice how the world at the moment is all about drama? i mean, humans cant stand calmness, no matter how much they scream for it. cuz imean, if things are even starting to slow down, then theres a bunch of tragic martyrs on the news, even though there are tons of people who die like that every day. so someone was killed by a stray bullet. who decides that one person gets to be the martyr. its alot more commen than you would think, like that.
slowing down even though that drama exists, adn the government says, "HEY! LETS START A WAR!"
seriously, look around; theres proof everywhere

sorry... i ve just been noticing that everywhere, and now, watching dateline, its all
rar
doode
in other news, my brother has managed to download lots and lots of annoying spyware on this comp, and spybot cant controll it all the way
also
fish.
]]> ~Demon-Nightshade http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2488994/ http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2488994/ Sun, 23 May 2004 08:13:15 PDT that movie was bueatiful.
bueatifully constructed, lovely plot, completely surealabsorbing, trueish... doode
everyone go out and rent it.
right now
and watch it.
O.O

in other news, if all goes well, ns will go to the mall today and get tio some amber. ;heart: adn maybe go with a friend, cuz its gonna be while my dad goes GOOOLFING and that takes like 5 hours~~ *singsongvoice* ]]> ~Demon-Nightshade http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2474972/ http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2474972/ Fri, 21 May 2004 06:08:15 PDT
yay influx

random servey thing that i maybe stole from sync but dont tell cuz its a secret ok?
1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4, Write down what it says:
cout << "what is the next number" << endl;

2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first?
my backpack, that is on the desk

3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?
watched or listend to it vagually as background sound? cuz.. i did the second last night to american idol auditions, cuz my brother was watching it while i was trying to do hw, but i got annoyed so i turned it off and ate him... O.o

4. WITHOUT LOOKING, guess what time it is:
i dunno...9:00
5. Now look at the clock; what is the actual time?
9:03

6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
people talking and typing. stupid peple

7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
6:50, to go to school

8. Before you came to this Web site, what did you look at?
gj shit

9. What are you wearing?
black tshirt, black jeans, a bra, and hair.

10. Did you dream last night?
no

11. When did you last laugh?
i dont know. a day ago maybe? or was it two...?

12. What is on the walls of the room you are in?
paint.

13. Seen anything weird lately?
dead squirrel

14. What is the last film you saw?
mean girls with my ex. it was hillarious.

15. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first?
books- no candy- no, a plane ticket to tios! a tio! a house? the last two for sure.

16. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
make a small seculded island for myself, that magically has internet capabilites, electricity, ruinning water, ectect and a tio

17. Do you like to dance?
no one shall EVER see me dance

18. Imagine your first child is a girl. What do you call her?
stew. and i'd make her just that. x.x
no really, her name is rain.

19. Imagine your first child is a boy. What do you call him?
stew. and i would make him just that.

20. Would you ever consider living abroad?
omg! does cheeseland count? (hi tio) ]]> ~Demon-Nightshade http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2471787/ http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2471787/ Thu, 20 May 2004 17:40:31 PDT free pic for anyone who can send me proof of pageview 5000. ]]> ~Demon-Nightshade http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2470979/ http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2470979/ Thu, 20 May 2004 15:56:03 PDT well, actually, it was cooked then frozen. but i wish it were raw.
still tastes a bit like blood

i want to finish watching helen of troy
aslo, i;m ravenous. ]]> ~Demon-Nightshade http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2470119/ http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2470119/ Thu, 20 May 2004 13:47:38 PDT Which of your characters is...
Part 1

1. The happiest?
Donnetello, cheshire, indigo, quoth

2. The most depressed and unhappy with life?
Holly, azure, iris, tanuki, vervain, papillion

3. Easily gets angry?
Glammour

4. Would rather be alone most of the time?
Agammemnon

5. Annoying as hell?
glammour, dinner

6. Just a complete asshole?
Desma, glammour

7. Would jump in front of a Bullet to save their Friends?
most of them, though they wont admit it. though alot of them would stop it by magic.

8. Shy and not very talkative?
azure, ariel, skin,

9. Full of themselves?
desma, panda, cheshire, glammour

10) always ready for a fight
desma, panda, glammour, indigo, iris, wintergreen

11. Would find the best way to avoid a fight?
anti, meta, azure, donne

12. Needs Company 24/7?
Donnetello

13. Loves the sound of their own voice?
...none of them really

14. Tries to be the leader of the pack?
...none

15. Wanting revenge
not particularly, holly maybe

Part 2
1. Who is your main character?
there is none

4. Does he/she have a rival? If so are they a friendly rival and do they hate each other with a passion?
nope

5. Does your main char represent the r/l you?
facade is me physically, figurative facade is me one step beyond that, gentleman death is my alter ego, and wintergreen was my pissed site

6. What character are you really proud you created?
i didnt create them. they acme to me

7. Do you think about your chars a lot?
twenty four seven

8. Do you ever wish you could meet your chars in r/l?
ohgodyes. physically, that is, they already exist.

9. Do you remember the moment you created your first char?
First char?
i told you, i didnt create them. but i remember exactly when darling anti came to me. the exact second.

10. Is originality important to you when creating a character?
...doode, they diesign themselves

11. Do you ever look at somebody's character and wish it was yours?
*tilts head* not really, but i always think theyre cool.

12. Can you see yourself keeping this up in the future?
keeping the ones ive got, yeah. getting more... maybe. x.x ]]> ~Demon-Nightshade http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2469561/ http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2469561/ Thu, 27 May 2004 13:12:16 PDT imean on the journal entry.



it actually has a point! *die*
rar.
so... im gonna list my chars. if anyone wants info on them, ask.
and all but the ones marked so are rp-able. *hint hint* and if any have boyfriends/girlfriends, thier names are in ()
*ahem* here goes
----
notes on them
(private journal excerpt) -"i mean, i know all the ones ive got now, and i'm pretty damn close to them. some closer to others, of course.
The only reason i can have that many is cuz they come and go, some more than others; and some are tied to specific worlds in my head that they rarely leave. so mrar.
but mew.
its just getting so confusing. i'm closer to some than others; anti, desma, chesh, ect; than others like katanya and najoko, who live in thier sepreate world and rarely leave. They all have personalities, and serpate beings, and as such, and having more than i've got now will get so confusing."
---
also, now with species, status, and place of origin

1-anti [?, advisor to chesh, ?]
2-Cheshire (fao) [hesh dog, kind of wonderland, wonderland]
3-pandemonium (............) [kirin, -, -]
4-Desmamorde [rat/ vampire, -,-]
5-Glammour [totestsu, /, /]
6-metephor [obscure lizard, / ,/]
7-Guanicam *nonrp* [///]
8-bat *nonrp* [ethereal/moth, /, /]
9-katanya (najoko) [bambooshark, escaped slave, ocean plain]
10-najoko (katanya) [white tipped reef shark, aristrocrat, ocean plane]
11-indigo [fennic/vampire, /, /]
12-azure [blue wolf/vampire, /, /]
13-donnetello [animated pinata, /, /]
14-ashtray (eleven) [eastern quoll, /. /]
15-quoth (ariel) [raven, /, /]
16-ariel (quoth) [albino crow, /, /]
17-dreamkeeper *nonrp* [husky/wolf, /, /]
18-mullegra (dreamrunner) [werehyena, shamen, plains]
19-dreamrunner (mullegra) [werewolf, shamen, plains]
20-anatsi [ethreal/spider, sotryteller, plains]
21-shadowlover *nonrp* [godspirit lemur, /, /]
22-morpheus *nonrp* [godspirit obscure elk, /,/]
23-dominique [?, /, /]
24-fortune *nonrp* [godspririt obscure canine, /, /]
25-urd *nonrp* [godspririt kandaroo fairy, /, /]
26-sculd *nonrp* ["]
27-vendredi *nonrp* ["]
28-styxx *nonrp* [godspirit crane, /, /]
29-wintergreen *alternate fursona* [arctic fox, /, /]
30-facade *fursona* [obscure fox, /,/]
31-tanuki bambivere [cheshire dog/ obscure canine/vampire, /, /]
32-iris bambivere ["]
33-iori bambivere ["]
34-angel, aka today [albino aspheal, /, /]
35-yesterday's suicide note. [albino aspeal, /,/]
36-pandeazel [incubus, /, /]
37-pandora [bigcat/ succumbus, /, /]
38-ying yang [obscure humanshape, /, /]
39-hush [gentleman, /, /]
40-neqrius tara [blackbuck serephim/ kingsnake naga, /, higher sky plains]
41-straw [animated scarecrow, /, /]
42-remorse [animated cactus pokemon thing, /, /]
43-vervain [ghost pokemon thing, /, /]
44-puppet [obscure canine, /, /]
45-messiah [obscure canine, /, /]
46-march hayer [kiah, march hare, wonderland]
47-rottichieli [white rabbit, white rabbit, wonderland]
48-papillion [obscure lapdog, madhatter, wonderland]
49-Macavity [ginger cat, random theif, /]
50-MrMistoffelees [black cat, ", /]
51-lupam [wolf, /, rome]
52-reich and nemo [doberman zombie, /, /] [corpse snake, /, /]
53-dove *nonrp* [////]
54-Espidarapa [unicorn, /, winterplains]
55-Vice [pegusus, /, /]
56-Domino [zebra, /, /]
57-Detante [centaur, /, britain]
58-holly/ harlequin [afgan hound were,/, france]
59-Lekurusha [tiger, /, random african plain]
60-Diedre [tiger/lion, /, "]
61-Gentleman Death *alterego* [foxwolfthing, /, /]
62-Skin [ethreal, /, /]
63-Figurative Facade [foxthing, /, /] *alternate fursona*
64-lucid [bat, /, /]
65-Dey [godspirit dragon, /, /]
66-nuight [godsprit dragon, /, /]
67-Bodythief [dragon zombie, DEAD, /]
68-harry gazelle [gazelle pheonix, DEAD, /]
69-draco ferret [dragon/ferret, DEAD, /]
70-Debauch {obscure ethreal lion, historical figure, /]
71-ikarus [ayeaye/egyptian vulture, historical figure- first king of wonderland, rome]
72-Ayajinka [flower mantis/ polecat, historical figure- first queen of wonderland, presettledwonderland]
73- Aggamemnon [african wild dog, bard, /]
74- Rowan [black jackyl, druid, ancient ireland]
75- Chleo [arctic/fennec fox, /, some spanish speaking country]
76- Gamble [maned wolf OR raptor (not quite as defined yet)/ model/ europe somewhere]
77- Fog [catfogelemental/, elemental planes; the one between air and water] ~Demon-Nightshade http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2462933/ http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2462933/ Wed, 19 May 2004 13:47:12 PDT becuas I dont think i really ever explained his personality on here.
...
DEssy, the purple rat vampire boy who i rarely ever draw, is actually one of my main voices.
he's pretty.. apathetic. nad stuff.
but there's times when he shows through, if he cares
which he does, though he hates to admit it.
...
he's pretty cruel, and usually kills without mercy (hey! a coincedental play on words! hi mercy!), and he does rape things, but not alot.
..
but yeah
when he cares about someone, he's really quiet around them, but in a normal way. it may seem like he ignores them ,cuz he looks lost in thought, in a strangly cold way, but yeah. He shows he cares by comforting them, and doting on them (he's given me tons of fancy dresses that i never wear. -.-), and randomly hugging them. He's suprisingly gentle for one so cruel... those same hands that kill so ruethlessly can stroke a kitty unbelievably lightly.
He's also pretty sexual, which is another way he shows affection...
yeh
i lost my train of thought.. so heres my furry code:

My Furry Code FCFmpw2a A++++$ C- D? H+++ M? P++ R+ T+++ W- Z? Sf++ RLA/C/M/TH/U !a clmnu++ d? e- f+++ h* iwf++ j+ p++ sf#

]]> ~Demon-Nightshade http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2461089/ http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2461089/ Wed, 19 May 2004 13:18:05 PDT
thats maga and syntax, arespetivly

ps, raineseeker, syntax has one of the coolest designs i've EVER seen


yeah
...
word
i've gotten caught for skipping classes, so mrar. grounded from phone and internet for 2 weeks.
which means mrar
i hate ppl.
i'm gonna stay after school and stuff, and sneak on when my parents are away.
mrar
hssss
tio, i miss you already! x.x
mrar
butyeah
means few uploads, binge uploads, and late comments. im already not done with all the comments ive got now! x.x ]]> ~Demon-Nightshade http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2461085/ http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2461085/ Wed, 19 May 2004 07:19:23 PDT ...
word
i've gotten caught for skipping classes, so mrar. grounded from phone and internet for 2 weeks.
which means mrar
i hate ppl.
i'm gonna stay after school and stuff, and sneak on when my parents are away.
mrar
hssss
tio, i miss you already! x.x
mrar ]]> ~Demon-Nightshade http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2456511/ http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2456511/ Tue, 18 May 2004 15:19:58 PDT my mom is home. x.x
but she hasnt noticed me yet

my glasses hurt my ears. which randomly reminds me, that today in latin this happened.
kiki; *hands test to teacher* happy chickenfish day!
teacher: ^^ chicken fish day? *pause* everyday for you is chickenfish day, right? cuz youre a cat. ^^
i dont know why, but that made me happy.
i do act like a kitty in that class.
x.x
]]> ~Demon-Nightshade http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2456360/ http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2456360/ Tue, 18 May 2004 14:56:58 PDT and im running around like a moron
a very hungry, bloodlusting moran
a very lusting in general moron
cuz... i am a lusting MORON!
yay morons
eee
ps, omg! second entry in 5 mins!
broken a record
there
HI TIO I LOVE YOU CAN WE GO MAKE BABIES NOW PLEASE?!????? ]]> ~Demon-Nightshade http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2456172/ http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2456172/ Tue, 18 May 2004 14:32:39 PDT and it storms outside
..
and for somereason, im really really really really hungry.
ive had 2 whole bread things and i still want more
ooo!
the lights flicker and the rain pours on the ceiling! and i hear the thunder!
eee!
too bad its karate in 10 mins,
-.- ]]> ~Demon-Nightshade http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2453402/ http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2453402/ Tue, 18 May 2004 06:11:49 PDT wow
vagerger just almostcorrectly guessed what was wrong with dessy on the dontshakeme pic ([link]) Kudo's bars for him, cuz he's the closest anyone got.
and ...
the bell rings.
im of to skip third period~~~ ]]> ~Demon-Nightshade http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2448632/ http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2448632/ Mon, 17 May 2004 14:12:29 PDT cuz you feel so alone.
i feel so alone
severe storm warning today.
thats good atlease
/...
please
just one more
sweet
repreive. ]]> ~Demon-Nightshade http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2441568/ http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2441568/ Sun, 16 May 2004 14:12:43 PDT tio's not on.
...
....
..
.
*chews on pizzacrust*
could i have my pants back please? ]]> ~Demon-Nightshade http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2427581/ http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2427581/ Fri, 14 May 2004 12:38:13 PDT It was early, 6am. he had been hit by a car.
His middle was completely squished.
it made me sad. really.
cuz.. i have cats. i love cats.
...
There was another kitty too. licking itself, disturbed.
imagine
coming out of your house in the morning
and waking up
to a dead cat
a cat you cared about, fed, raised and loved.
dead
squished
on the road
another peice of roadkill.
and maybe you saw that kitty as a person.
which makes it all the worse too.
...
It made me hate humans
the actuall hitting is excusable; it could have been early in the morning, in the dark.
no one helping it is too, becuase the road might have been empty
no one alerting the family is too, because that, too, is unconventional
but what is unexusable is that it was so squished.
the middle was literally flat
which meant that people didnt even have to decency to swerve a bit to avoid the corpse.
that is so sick...
and imagine if youre that kitty
and to be walking in front of a house
and get hit by a car
and die ALONE.
...
maybe i'm hyper sensitive.
scrath tham.
i am hper sensitive.
but im a fucking empath too.
and i like cats.
...
...
...
...
...
...
..
.
on the way home yesterday, i saw another peice of roadkill.
a squirrel
a wild animal, so it didnt hurt me as much.
becuase this one didnt have anyone who would be distraught when it didnt return; it was too young for a mate.
...
today i looked at it again.
peaciefull
a bit flat
and in the crook of its arm, hidden by shadows.
maggots
tons of tiny tiny white maggots, all reaching up to it like piglets to a sow.
eating it
lovely irony
such a lovely mocckery
i went home laughing
and watching the 17 year cicadas dying on the street.
...
...
..
i think imy getting sick ]]> ~Demon-Nightshade http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2422650/ http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2422650/ Thu, 13 May 2004 17:14:54 PDT omg. someones recent post just reminded me of its existance and now i have CRAVINS!
ings of crave.
so yeah.
i am offering a happy trade of sorts?
i will give arts (or money. if i HAVE to), lots and lots and lots of arts, to anyone who can get me a DVD (or vhs, but i prefer the dvd), &/or music cd of the musical. reletivly good quality plz.
and it will be lotsa arts.
atleast 5 pics for the music cd.
*puppy eyes*
please?!
i beg you!!!
*need cats*
i've been a huge cats fan ever since i saw it when i was five. my dad used to read me from the original book of t.s.eliots poems when i was really young too..
so pls?
and yes, that was random ns pupppy info. ]]> ~Demon-Nightshade http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2415834/ http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2415834/ Wed, 12 May 2004 18:18:42 PDT the problem is you have to dance away from the embers or else you'll get burned.
...
yeah. interem caused much problem.
namely yelling. and that bitch of a mom.
if she EVER EVER puts her face that close to mine i will rip her sorry eyes out.
i kept seeing her face devolved into big puddles of skinjuice and blood.
hssss
...
mrar.
i'm in a very not good mood.
sitting here, perfectly still, moving only my hands, literally. In pants that smell like rotten death.
the wound faye gave me from that headlock is festering.
...
i hate hatehate people.
espceicailly when they get on my case.
yeah.
i'm failing
what the fuck did you expect.
This whole year i have heard nothing except how worthless and selfish i am. my mother has done naught but attack me, physically and verbally. on Vday she threw scissors at my head. i got thrown down the stairs for drinking a glass of water after the dishwasher started.
first quarter: i was slacking. yes, omg.
parents get on my back. Second quarter grades are worse. hmmm. parents get worse. third quarter tops them all on the badgradeometer. i wonder why.
fourth quarter. they leave me alone.
but fuck
ok, ive failed the past school year.
i tried to concentrate, and i failed then too.
why the fuck should i try anymore.
....
i seriously did try. in math, i studied my ass off. and i still failed.
i couldnt do it.
omg.
...
so i dont try anymore.
yeah.
i dont know what it is. maybe it sthe fact that since i was 5, pot smoke has floated up from downstairs and infiltrated my doors, which actually does affect your brain.
or maybe im just stupid.
in any case, i give fucking up.,
i skrew everything up.
...
and next year, i go to blake. no friends there, only cunts who betrayed me in the past.
and yes,
i know thats my fault too
shut the fuck
up...
and here, my friends, is ANOTHER futile attempt to express myself. all problems are real, oh so fukcing real. but this is half assed.
idontcareanymore.
....
im gonna go now and sleep with ppl who give a damn about me, namely panda and the rest of them. ]]> ~Demon-Nightshade http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2411788/ http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2411788/ Wed, 12 May 2004 06:29:51 PDT yeah
chikens?
my mom has tutor today, so i can sneak on till 430.
..
anyways
my mom found my interum yesterday. i shouldve stolen it while i had the chance.
;-;
but mrar.
she says that if these grades dont impoove, its no comp or phone for 2 weeks.
course, il still sneak on.
but yeah.
nophone;-;
and thats if they dont improve, which they wont. but i prolly wont be able to anytime soon, either.
rar
*shrugs*
oh well. it happens ]]> ~Demon-Nightshade http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2408224/ http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2408224/ Tue, 11 May 2004 17:08:37 PDT ...
life is good.
cuz i (THELETTERSOMG) with tio.
and theres more than (GASP) 2 posts!
...
but before i was all ;-;*randompainanger*
and i really didnt know why
...
i dont deserve mates when i cant even keep myself stable. how can i help them then?
but now, times like this, are worth it.

i want cheese. ]]> ~Demon-Nightshade http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2406727/ http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2406727/ Tue, 11 May 2004 13:43:15 PDT what the hell is this bloody sick feeling?
that makes me want to vomit blood?
owwie.
god.
ummithinkitmay be empathy, a bit.
but some of it is me today.
and a lot of it i think is cuz its just...
one of thsoe days
and i cant explian those days, cept as sometime when you feel sick inside and want to badly to cry into someones arms and then take a nap till everythings ok again/...
im gonna regret posting this later. ]]> ~Demon-Nightshade http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2399195/ http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2399195/ Mon, 10 May 2004 12:59:58 PDT give me links to your fusonas ref sheets so i can draw you
specifically:
Cooterbone
Jaskie
Yuzi
Leelu
skinkubluerat
and teh rest of you.

lalalalalalala
gona draw for:
leelu
skinkublurat
mecha
cooterbone
nd others ]]> ~Demon-Nightshade http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2396937/ http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2396937/ Mon, 10 May 2004 05:33:27 PDT but today he is absent, and my old, hillaroius first semester C++ (her name is angel in german and she admits she is anything but) is teaching.
she's smart, shes funny, shes an old catholic lady with a sense of humor, and she can teach. *dances*
course, im so far behind that it really wont matter, so il continue to bum finished programs off my friends and do internest shit here.
ps, if anyone is interested in a simple bio-info for your chars program, you know, simple inputoutput shit, im thinking of making one. itl be really simple, just posting questions, and you put the answers, and it desplays everything at the end, and itl run in dos, which XP hates, so yeah. ]]> ~Demon-Nightshade http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2390979/ http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2390979/ Sun, 09 May 2004 09:07:29 PDT my 2 backup pairs only play out of one ear peace, which is annoying, and the ones i always use dont play a bunch of layers of sound. ;-;
like 10.
its so annoying.
i need headphones.
i htink il steal my mom's ]]> ~Demon-Nightshade http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2390501/ http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2390501/ Sun, 09 May 2004 07:21:46 PDT razerz package is done, with prismas and all.
Tio, i made you package too... its like a mini one.. with all the grey prismas i could get at peart, a random lil prayer box necklace (lil intricate box on a necklace, thats really deep. i have tons of stuff in mine), and a buncha art. all that ive done for you except very recent stuff.
i was planning to wait till later, but meh. its not an officialll package ok? like... its package 1.5.
mew.
im gonna go on a drawing binge for
leelu
skinkublurat
mecha
cooterbone
nd others
if i promised you art and youre not on here, tell me, cuz that means i accidentally forgots.
;-;
which is a bad habit.. but i have goldfish memory.
and stuff. ]]> ~Demon-Nightshade http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2381089/ http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2381089/ Fri, 07 May 2004 18:49:22 PDT The rain came down
The rain came down on me.
The wind blew strong
The summer's song
Fades to memory.

I knew you when
I loved you then
The summer's yawn, now hopeless.
You laid me bare
You marked me there
The promises we made.

I used to think, as birds take wing,
They sing through life, so why can't we?
We cling to this, and claim the best
If this is what you're offering
I'll take the rain, I'll take the rain.

The nighttime creases
Summer schemes
And stretches out to stay.
The sun shines down
You came around
You loved the easy days.

But now the sun,
The winter's come.
I wanted just to say
That if I hold
I'd hoped you'd fold And open up inside, inside of me.

I used to think
As birds take wing
They sing through life, so why can't we?
We cling to this, and claim the best
If this is what you're offering
I'll take the rain, I'll take the rain, I'll take the rain.

This winter's song
I'll sing along
I've searched its still refrain
I'll walk alone
If given this,
Take wing, and celebrate the rain.

I used to think
As birds take wing
They sing through life, so why can't we?
We cling to this, and claim the best
If this is what you're offering
I'll take the rain, I'll take the rain, I'll take the rain. ]]> ~Demon-Nightshade http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2381077/ http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2381077/ Fri, 07 May 2004 18:47:10 PDT Quote the scriptures, keep them guessing
Which pit you crawled from.
Just defy it, just deny it, was it fun?
Your time has come-
What have you done? What have you done?

That's when the insults start to sting
You can't remember anything
The chorus chime in, the Greek chorus,
The machine of god singing.

It's the poison that it measures brings illuminating vision
It's the knowing with a wink that we expect in Southern women
It's the wolf that knows which root to dig to save itself
It's the octopus that crawled back to the sea.

That's when the insults start to sting
You can't remember anything
The chorus chime in, the Greek chorus,
The machine of god ring!

Hey.....

Hammered shooting plywood in the backyard
Laughing 'cause the racket makes the blackbirds sing
Write the holy terror, suck the marrow from the bone - singe
Your own wings burning books, you got the chorus and the ring

That's when the insults start to sting
You can't remember anything
The chorus chime in, the Greek chorus
The machine sings.

That's when the insults start to ring
You can't remember anything
The chorus chime in the Greek chorus
The machine sings.

That's when the calibration brittle as a stick gets you the gold ring
And the tar museum Che Guevera wink, gold ring.
Gold ring.

Sing, sing, sing, sing. ]]> ~Demon-Nightshade http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2381061/ http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2381061/ Fri, 07 May 2004 18:44:53 PDT Have not, will travel
Have I missed the big reveal?

Do my eyes,
Do my eyes seem empty?
I've forgotten how this feels.

I've been high
I've climbed so high
But life sometimes
It washes over me.

Have you been?
Have done, will travel
I fell down on me knees

Was I wrong?
I don't know, don't answer.
I just needed to believe.

I've been high
I've climbed so high
But life sometimes
It washes over me.

So
I dive into a pool so cool and deep that if I sink I sink
And when I swim I fly, so high.

What I want
What I really want is
Just to live my life on high.


And I know
I know you want the same
I can see it in your eyes.

I've been high
I've climbed so high
But life sometimes
It washes over me.

Washes over me
Close my eyes so I can see
Make my make-believe, believe
In me. ]]> ~Demon-Nightshade http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2381048/ http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2381048/ Fri, 07 May 2004 18:42:24 PDT The nightlite is comforting.
But gravity is holding you.

Once settled into sleep
You have watched on repeat,
The story of your life
Across the ceiling;
And in review,

You've said the air was singing
It's calling you you don't believe
These things you've never seen.

"Good morning, how are you?
The weather's fine, the sky is blue-
It's perfect for our seminar..."

"Now close your eyes,
And start to breathe.
Allow the noise to recede...
...Allow yourself to drift and fly away.
But you just stay.

You've said the air was singing
It's calling you you don't believe
These things you've never seen, never dreamed.

Did you hear these voices calling

Locked into a conference room,
"We're only what our minds assume..."
And rationale is leaving you.


This conceit these systems of belief,
Your counselor agrees,
"You've always mark these boundaries now you're free..."
And with relief.

You've said the air was singing
It's calling you you don't believe
These things you've never seen, never heard, never dreamed.

You said the air was singing
It's calling you you don't believe
These things you've never seen.

Never (x19)

Once you had a dream
Of oceans, and sunken cities
Memories of things you've never known ]]> ~Demon-Nightshade http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2381016/ http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2381016/ Fri, 07 May 2004 18:37:00 PDT
I dragged my feet across a seat
Jumped out the passenger side
The only thing worth looking for
Is what you find inside

But that had not yet appeared
Lost invisible here.

Tel Aviv and Agadir
Tone deaf for almost

Before I learned to see
The vanishing point appeared.

I looked for you everywhere
I looked for you everywhere.

There is a calm I haven't come to yet
I spent half my life figuring what comes next
I telescoped in I finally win
I finally win the prize

That now eyes see comets perfect timing squeeze
Head first fighting everything
The crushing force of memory
Erasing all I've been
The vanishing point appeared.

I looked for you everywhere.
I looked for you everywhere.
Tell me why you're here.
I came to disappear.

Look at this face
Can you believe it?
Am I living in the beautiful vacuum?
Because I can't see it
The vanishing point appears.

I looked for you everywhere.
I looked for you everywhere.
Tell me why you're here.
I came to disappear.
Tell me why you're here.
I came to disappear.
I came to disappear. ]]> ~Demon-Nightshade http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2380978/ http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2380978/ Fri, 07 May 2004 18:31:05 PDT
--

Easy to poke yourself
Square in the eye
Harder to like yourself,
Harder to try
These Elvis poses,
Postcards and neopryn
Roses a dollar a stem
Everyone's sleeping or
Pulling a long haul,
The keys in the cooler,
It's 3 AM
And Saturn is beckoning no one
Is off on its own
Is offering up

Late shift convenience store
Cut out the lights
Telescope roof towards the
Northwestern sky
You pull the ladder you
No one's the wiser
Tou find your sights and discover

That Saturn is orbiting nothing
Is off on its own
Is breaking from home

Harder to look yourself
Square in the eye
Easy to take off

You found the ladder in

The pattern of your wrist
You've seen and
You've marked horizons
Mother was difficult,
She made you cry
Cover the mirror,
Look to the sky
You climbed into
Your rocketship triumph
Lift up and hold out your hands

Saturn is orbiting nothing
Is off on its own
Is breaking from home

Saturn is orbiting nothing
Is off on its own
Is breaking from home

Saturn return when
You chase down its moons
Throw them into a new gravity

Harder to look yourself
Square in the eye
Easy to poke yourself,
Easy as pie
Easy to take off,
Harder to fly
Harder to wake Galileo ]]> ~Demon-Nightshade http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2380935/ http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2380935/ Fri, 07 May 2004 18:23:16 PDT Come
As you are
As you were
As I want you to be
As a friend
As a friend
As a known memory
Take your time
Hurry up
The choice is your
Dont’ be late
Take a rest
As a friend
As a known memory
Memory ah
Memory ah
Memory ah

Come
Doused in mud
Cept in bleach
As I want you to be
As a trend
A a friend
As a known memory ah
Memory ah
Memory ah
Memory ah

And I swear
That I don’t have a gun
No I don’t have a gun
No I don’t have a gun

Memory ah
Memory ah
Memory ah
Memory ah {don’t have a gun}

And I swear
That I don’t have a gun
No I don’t have a gun
No I don’t have a gun
No I don’t have a gun
No I don’t have a gun

{memory ah}
{memory ah} ]]> ~Demon-Nightshade http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2380921/ http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2380921/ Fri, 07 May 2004 18:20:36 PDT
--
That's great, it starts with an earthquake, birds and snakes, an aeroplane -
Lenny Bruce is not afraid. Eye of a hurricane, listen to yourself churn -
world serves its own needs, don't misserve your own needs. Feed it up a knock,
speed, grunt no, strength no. Ladder structure clatter with fear of height,
down height. Wire in a fire, represent the seven games in a government for
hire and a combat site. Left her, wasn't coming in a hurry with the furies
breathing down your neck. Team by team reporters baffled, trump, tethered
crop. Look at that low plane! Fine then. Uh oh, overflow, population,
common group, but it'll do. Save yourself, serve yourself. World serves its
own needs, listen to your heart bleed. Tell me with the rapture and the
reverent in the right - right. You vitriolic, patriotic, slam, fight, bright
light, feeling pretty psyched.

It's the end of the world as we know it.
It's the end of the world as we know it.
It's the end of the world as we know it and I feel fine.

Six o'clock - TV hour. Don't get caught in foreign tower. Slash and burn,
return, listen to yourself churn. Lock him in uniform and book burning,
blood letting. Every motive escalate. Automotive incinerate. Light a candle,
light a motive. Step down, step down. Watch a heel crush, crush. Uh oh,
this means no fear - cavalier. Renegade and steer clear! A tournament,
a tournament, a tournament of lies. Offer me solutions, offer me alternatives
and I decline.

It's the end of the world as we know it.
It's the end of the world as we know it.
It's the end of the world as we know it and I feel fine.

The other night I tripped a nice continental drift divide. Mount St. Edelite.
Leonard Bernstein. Leonid Breshnev, Lenny Bruce and Lester Bangs.
Birthday party, cheesecake, jelly bean, boom! You symbiotic, patriotic,
slam, but neck, right? Right.

It's the end of the world as we know it.
It's the end of the world as we know it.
It's the end of the world as we know it and I feel fine...fine...

(It's time I had some time alone) ]]> ~Demon-Nightshade http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2379174/ http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2379174/ Fri, 07 May 2004 13:25:44 PDT and yes. i know its about sex.
butiloveitanyways.
notparticularly dedicated but thats ok
or maybe it is
*wink*
noonewilleverknow

--

I got no regret right now I'm feeling this
The air is so cold and low I'm feeling this
Let me go in her room I'm feeling this
I wanna take off her clothes I'm feeling this
Show me the way to bed I'm feeling this
Show me the way you move I'm feeling this
Fuck it it's such a blur I'm feeling this
I love all the things you do I'm feeling this

Fate fell short this time
Your smile fades in the summer
Place your hand in mine
I'll leave when I wanna

Where do we go from here I'm feeling this
Turn all the lights down low I'm feeling this
Smiling from ear to ear I'm feeling this
Our breathing has got too loud I'm feeling this
Show me the bedroom floor I'm feeling this
Show me the bathroom mirror I'm feeling this
We're taking this way to slow I'm feeling this
Take me away from here I'm feeling this

Fate fell short this time
Your smile fades in the summer
Place your hand in mine
I'll leave when I wanna

This place was never the same again
After you came and went
How could you say you meant anything different to anyone
Standing alone on the street with a cigarette on the first night we met
Look to the past and remember and smile
And maybe tonight I can breathe for a while
I'm not in this scene I think I'm falling asleep
But then all that it means is I'll always be dreaming of you

Fate fell short this time
Your smile fades in the summer
Place your hand in mine
I'll leave when I wanna

Are we alone do you feel it
So lost and disillusioned ]]> ~Demon-Nightshade http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2379154/ http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2379154/ Fri, 07 May 2004 13:23:16 PDT and ps, omfg sap
for 2 people. they know who they are.
(bothofthemmorethanfriends)

--

i've found a way to make you
i've found a way
a way to make you smile

i read bad poetry
into your machine
i save your messages
just to hear your voice.
you always listen carefully
to awkwards rhymes.
you always say your name.
like i woulden't know it's you,
at your most beautiful.

i've found a way to make you
i've found a way
a way to make you smile

at my most beautiful
i count your eyelashes secretly.
with every one, whisper i love you.
i let you sleep.
i know you're closed eye watching me,
listening.
i thought i saw a smile.

i've found a way to make you
i've found a way
a way to make you smile ]]> ~Demon-Nightshade http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2379130/ http://Demon-Nightshade.deviantart.com/journal/2379130/ Fri, 07 May 2004 13:19:18 PDT It's bigger than you
And you are not me
The lengths that I will go to
The distance in your eyes
Oh no I've said too much
I set it up

That's me in the corner
That's me in the spotlight
Losing my religion
Trying to keep up with you
And I don't know if I can do it

Oh no I've said too much
I haven't said enough

I thought that I heard you laughing
I thought that I heard you sing
I think I thought I saw you try

Every whisper
Of every waking hour I'm
Choosing my confessions
Trying to keep an eye on you
Like a hurt lost and blinded fool
Oh no I've said too much
I set it up

Consider this
The hint of the century
Consider this
The slip that brought me
To my knees failed
What if all these fantasies
Come flailing around
Now I've said too much
I thought that I heard you laughing
I thought that I heard you sing
I think I thought I saw you try

But that was just a dream
That was just a dream ]]> ~Demon-Nightshade