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Why have I been gone so long and why am I coming back now? Well, the last semester of school was very busy for me. Trying to work part time and getting a bunch of work done in two months for my exit show gallery was very time consumming. After that, I graduated and I was burnt out on art. I decided to take a little break from doing art and went to full time working at my current job. During that time, we got really busy at my retail job so I was working 40+ hours and just coming home and being exhausted. I started to get more and more into playing World of Warcraft as a way to relax after working long days. So time went on and I got stuck in this pattern of working all the time and then playing WoW or hanging out with friends as a way to unwind.

But now I'm getting really sick of my job and really want to get an actual art job since it's been over a year since I graduated and I've done nothing with my degree (besides teaching that part time comic book illustration camp during the summer). I'm trying to work on a good professional portfolio and trying to get back into the groove of producing art again. I'm coming back to here to get inspired by other artist and feed my drive to make new shit and get my stuff together.

So expect more of me in the days to come. ]]> ~Demongel http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/6002129/ http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/6002129/ Fri, 22 Jul 2005 06:22:00 PDT Mood: planning ahead

So they let me have a trial run of what a paid account is like again. I must say, the naviagation menu for browsing through comments and friends deviant pages is really easy. Probably one of the best features that I wouldn't mind paying for. But still not worth paying the full amount every month when I most likely will only use that and not the other features that I don't know anything about no how to use.

So, yeah, it's been a long while since I had an entry. I've been really busy with a lot of shit. I have my exit show in two weeks, so I've been working like mad on getting art done, but it is taking time (like usual for my work). It sucks only having two months to create a full body of work for a gallery show compared to all the other seniors who have four months. Summer exiting just plane sucks.

I'm moving tomorrow. So I've been really busy with packing up my shit for the past month. Then after I move, I will be spending about another month unpacking all of said shit. *sigh* But can't wait to get into my new place, it is so awesome. I'm exicted.

On August 6th, I will graduate from college. I'm really excited and yet scared about that. For one, I will finally be done with school forever. But another hand, no more insurance and I will have to start paying my loans back in six months. uuuuuugh

I will be working full time at Junkman's now and will be getting a promotion, hopefully that means a raise. Because I'm going to need the money. I'm going to look into other part time jobs as well just to make end's meat.

Hopefully soon I will have more time to spend on here and catch up on everyone's art. Later guys!

]]> ~Demongel http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/4462140/ http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/4462140/ Mon, 31 Jan 2005 13:09:08 PST I could go get the supplies I suppose, but it would just take too long to catch a bus there and then back. Also I apparently left the art piece that I did that I wanted to take a photo of and upload it to here to show off. Double damn.

Oh well, at least this has given me the time to work on some sketches for pieces that I plan on working on. I swear, I'm getting more and more disturbed I think. ]]> ~Demongel http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/4261416/ http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/4261416/ Fri, 07 Jan 2005 11:13:09 PST [link]

Wish they had a larger preview available. I can't wait to see this movie now. I'm glad to know that Frank Miller helped direct it so that it can stay true to his comic. ]]> ~Demongel http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/4064600/ http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/4064600/ Tue, 14 Dec 2004 09:52:27 PST ~Demongel http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/3098807/ http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/3098807/ Wed, 11 Aug 2004 10:41:16 PDT ]]> ~Demongel http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/3001563/ http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/3001563/ Fri, 30 Jul 2004 05:44:25 PDT ]]> ~Demongel http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/2866640/ http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/2866640/ Mon, 12 Jul 2004 18:41:39 PDT
I will start working on my Children's book. [link] That is the first brainstorm idea of it. I'm excited now! ]]> ~Demongel http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/2782372/ http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/2782372/ Thu, 01 Jul 2004 18:47:36 PDT
Thanks to everyone who dropped by page to check my shit out. ]]> ~Demongel http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/2756759/ http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/2756759/ Mon, 28 Jun 2004 15:49:35 PDT [link] Free Comic Book Day. Go to your participating comic shop and grab your freebee. ]]> ~Demongel http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/2645132/ http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/2645132/ Sat, 12 Jun 2004 17:22:27 PDT ]]> ~Demongel http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/2600370/ http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/2600370/ Sun, 06 Jun 2004 21:37:13 PDT

Finally I caught up on everyone on my list. Been so busy that everyone's entries kept piling up. Yesterday I had 2000 messages in my inbox (though that did include comments and someother stuff). But now it reads 0. YAY! Hopefully now I can keep a better pace with everyone's DA, unless I get busy with real life again. ]]> ~Demongel http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/2599411/ http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/2599411/ Sun, 06 Jun 2004 19:21:25 PDT ~Demongel http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/2417028/ http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/2417028/ Wed, 12 May 2004 21:06:17 PDT [link]

I put a piece up there that won't show in my gallery for obvious reasons. Not too proud of the piece, but will show you what I think is at least the descent part of the painting. ]]> ~Demongel http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/2395270/ http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/2395270/ Sun, 09 May 2004 20:50:20 PDT
But I finally have an entire month free from classes in well over a year. I'm so happy and don't know what to do with my time now. ^_^

I hope to not pick up a brush until classes start up again. I would like to not pick up a pencil either, but I will be working on this comic thing for a friend of mine.

Can't wait for next year when I finally graduate! ]]> ~Demongel http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/2191153/ http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/2191153/ Sat, 10 Apr 2004 08:01:46 PDT
Mood: OMG

Go to page and check out his animation short that he did with some other people. It is AWESOME! His work is funny and creepy, definitely inspired by Jhonen and Zim.

]]> ~Demongel http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/2091808/ http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/2091808/ Fri, 26 Mar 2004 20:51:47 PST
Well, I didn't eat like I was partially wanting to mainly because they didn't really fix anything vegetarian and I decided to say screw it and continue going without food anyway.

We watched Pink Floyd's The Wall. I must say that I really understand the feelings that the singer goes through in the video. When I first saw it years back, I thought that he was really messed up and just weird for being trapped in his own world and not interacting with anyone. But now, I fully sypmathize with him. I feel the same way he does now. It is strange to have it all make sense to me, but it does. I just hope I don't reach a real bad snapping point and explode like he did and shave everything off.

I should have just stayed home tonight. Really didn't accomplish anything there and the video just made me feel worse because of related subject matter with what is going on in my life. ]]> ~Demongel http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/2084643/ http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/2084643/ Thu, 25 Mar 2004 18:31:22 PST
I've been hurt really badly. I've been hurt before, but I thought I would not be betrayed like this, at least not again since I was little.

I'm at the point where I cannot take care of myself and I don't think anyone can. I feel so awful. I have not been able to eat anything for almost two days. Didn't have the desire to drink either until today finally, only because my body was really getting dehyrdated.

The only time that I can escape is from drinking. I get so dizzy and trashed that I cannot comprehend all that happened to me and of course the liquor makes me pass out. When I'm asleep, I don't have to deal with the real world. I'm somewhere else in my dreams. It is sad to wake up and realize that I'm still alive in a cruel and hurtful world.

If only I could sleep forever.... ]]> ~Demongel http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/1987070/ http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/1987070/ Wed, 10 Mar 2004 13:22:02 PST
Sometimes I have to admit to myself that I am a pretty awesome artist after being impressed with some of the work that I do. Normally I don't think I'm that great despite people telling me how awesome and stunning my work is. But I'm still working on the Chi-Chian painting and after working on this one glove, I step back and am blown away. It looks so good and just pops out at you. But I'm not finished yet. I just hope that what I still have to do to it won't fuck it up and I lose what I created right now. That is the problem with art. You reach a point where it looks good, but not finished. And then the more you work on it, the more you lose that special moment and can never gain it back.

I am so good at painting leather and pleather. ]]> ~Demongel http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/1929331/ http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/1929331/ Sun, 29 Feb 2004 19:04:48 PST
Beginning of the month, I injured my hand at work. Banged it against the corner of a fryer and bruised the bones and damaged some tendons in my wrist. This was my right hand, my working hand that I use to write and do art with. So that severly put a tamper on my art progress for classes. It is better now even though from time to time I have to take breaks from using it because my wrist will start to ache. I'm trying my best to catch up on my artwork right now. It is really hard. Lost a lot of sleep already because of this. So I'm not having the best of times.

I'm really really getting tired of being an artist. It is not satisifying anymore. I should have went into an easier field. Something with more money in it at that. ]]> ~Demongel http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/1830672/ http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/1830672/ Wed, 11 Feb 2004 21:05:50 PST ~Demongel http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/1786176/ http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/1786176/ Tue, 03 Feb 2004 03:15:27 PST
Yeah, I didn't get any sleep last night because of my damn drawing assignment. Now to go to class and then work. I'm going to be dead by the end of the day. ]]> ~Demongel http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/1778520/ http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/1778520/ Sun, 01 Feb 2004 16:13:06 PST ~Demongel http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/1770698/ http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/1770698/ Sat, 31 Jan 2004 05:06:33 PST
Also I'm sorry for not commenting lately, been really busy with school work. I promise to catch up eventually. ]]> ~Demongel http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/1743888/ http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/1743888/ Mon, 26 Jan 2004 09:30:58 PST
Though I wish I didn't have to do that and have a fully free extra day to do nothing but sleep in. Man, that would be nice. But must be responsible and do the right thing despite temptation. ]]> ~Demongel http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/1736736/ http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/1736736/ Sat, 24 Jan 2004 23:22:00 PST
The whole inside of my mouth feels really really really weird.; Amongst other things. whoa shit ]]> ~Demongel http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/1722309/ http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/1722309/ Thu, 22 Jan 2004 06:29:46 PST
A donation page has been created by our friend Germaine. So if anyone can help, thank you.

[link] ]]> ~Demongel http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/1702686/ http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/1702686/ Mon, 19 Jan 2004 03:09:56 PST Live Journal and felt th need to post it here since it really does hit the nail with my Demongel persona. Very wonderful quiz and I love it a lot because I can relate to many of the results and it is an interesting theme. I don't think I can get the image to work on here, so if you want to see it, just go to my LJ.

">[link] Your wings are BROKEN and tattered. You are
an angelic spirit who has fallen from grace for
one reason or another - possibly, you made one
tragic mistake that cost you everything. Or
maybe you were blamed for a crime you didn't
commit. In any case, you are faithless and
joyless. You find no happiness, love, or
acceptance in your love or in yourself. Most
days are a burden and you wonder when the
hurting will end. Sweet, beautiful and
sorrowful, you paint a tragic and touching
picture. You are the one that few understand.
Those that do know you are likely to love you
deeply and wish that they could do something to
ease your pain. You are constantly living in
memories of better times and a better world.
You are hard on yourself and self-critical or
self-loathing. Feeling rejected and unloved,
you are sensitive, caring, deep, and despite
your tainted nature, your soul is
breathtakingly beautiful.


*~*~*Claim Your Wings - Pics and Long Answers*~*~*
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I have a lot to work out with myself still. ]]> ~Demongel http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/1658873/ http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/1658873/ Sat, 10 Jan 2004 15:21:50 PST
I just wish I could take that part of me that I hate, pull it out and kill it for good. That way I know I will never harm anyone again because of my actions.

I hate being a human.

I've not eaten anything all day besides one candy bar to give me some sugar for my system. I'm just too miserable and angry with myself to really be hungry.

I deserve a punch in the face. ]]> ~Demongel http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/1640199/ http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/1640199/ Tue, 06 Jan 2004 19:14:49 PST Versus, then you should. Hopefully you like Japanese martial arts films with blood and lots of guns and sword fighting. Because this movie has it all. Plus the humorous cheesy moments that many of them have.



Man, I love White Russians. I'm feeling so good right now. ]]> ~Demongel http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/1626059/ http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/1626059/ Sat, 03 Jan 2004 22:23:40 PST ~Demongel http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/1589421/ http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/1589421/ Sat, 27 Dec 2003 08:20:55 PST
But last night I finally wrote out what I wanted each page to contain and some " rough" narration (which might change closer to finishing up the illustrations).

So

Now to just get in the mood to draw the illustrations. Don't know if I will wait to go back to my place where I have a drawing table, or try to get started here.

]]> ~Demongel http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/1577602/ http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/1577602/ Wed, 24 Dec 2003 12:22:18 PST
But now that I am at my mom's for the holidays, I realize that she has a working scanner. A nice one at that.

SO LET THE SCANNING BEGIN!
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Last night I started to work on some pieces in my sketchbook. Definitely related to recent events. A good way to get my feelings out through my work. It does make me feel a bit better, even though looking at it, I see how sad and painful it is. I know that if some other people saw it, they might get pissed. But hey, this is how I feel.

Soon I will start on the illustrations for my kids story. I'm looking forward to it. ]]> ~Demongel http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/1542219/ http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/1542219/ Tue, 16 Dec 2003 08:01:24 PST
Meh, probably won't do me any good.

Can't wait to finally be able to sleep tomorrow. It's been way too long.

Note: Never get the Vegan cookies (I believe it was "snickerdoodle" ) from Jittery Joe's. They taste like shit and leave the worse after taste in your mouth. I'm going to have to brush my teeth once again. ]]> ~Demongel http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/1533638/ http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/1533638/ Sun, 14 Dec 2003 12:35:18 PST ~Demongel http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/1501685/ http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/1501685/ Sun, 07 Dec 2003 08:13:03 PST
But I fully understand where Jhonen Vasquez is coming from. I mean, I read all of his stories and knew how his life was. But now I have more sympathy and respect for him because I too am falling into that path.

At age 21 he finally started in the comic biz with publishing JTHM and his career went from there. But before that and after, he lived a life of always being busy and doing art and working. He suffered from insomnia and then he just couldn't sleep because of his deadlines for art. He barely saw anyone because he was so busy. He lost some friends and gained some new ones through the business. Whenever he did have some free time, he would go out to try to have fun, though it was rare.

Now here I am wondering if I will be living the same cursid life as he? I'm never home. I barely see any of my friends anymore. I barely sleep. I'm always working and painting pretty much non-stop. Trying to make the deadlines. If Slave Labor likes my story, I will get hired and start doing that along with everything else that I'm doing right now. So it just makes me wonder if I will go through what Jhonen went through?

Also like Jhonen, I just want to do my own art. Something for me. Something for fun. That I can work on whenever I feel like. But both he and I know that is impossible to really ever do.

Because of his working schedule and becoming emotionally unstable from everything, he has had problems with relationships. I don't know how he's doing now. He could still be single as far as I know. So I wonder too if this will be happening to me?

I really do feel for you man. ]]> ~Demongel http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/1451834/ http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/1451834/ Tue, 25 Nov 2003 21:08:50 PST
btw....

TAKARA PLUM WINE IS DA SHIZNIT!!!!!!!!!!! ]]> ~Demongel http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/1442925/ http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/1442925/ Sun, 23 Nov 2003 20:14:46 PST ~Demongel http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/1435860/ http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/1435860/ Sat, 22 Nov 2003 09:16:05 PST
meh ]]> ~Demongel http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/1409004/ http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/1409004/ Sun, 16 Nov 2003 11:27:06 PST
I guess I've just been feeling this way for a while now, but been so busy for the past couple of weeks and so exhausted, that I just didn't realize until I finally caught up on sleep and had time to stop and think. I hate feeling depressed. ]]> ~Demongel http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/1378684/ http://Demongel.deviantart.com/journal/1378684/ Sun, 09 Nov 2003 17:59:00 PST
Um...I hope to have time to upload all of my art on here. Believe me, I have plenty. Should have created one of these a long time ago.

I hope as time goes on, I get a hang of this whole thing and know how to opporate and navigate though it all. Right now, I'm really confused. @_# ]]> ~Demongel