http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:Denkomaru&section=today deviantART RSS for by:Denkomaru en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Mon, 30 Nov 2009 07:43:43 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/28417541/ http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/28417541/ Tue, 17 Nov 2009 16:10:05 PST
Either in a note or in response to this journal, just tell me what you're thinking. Right now. Or, if it suits you, what you were thinking right before you found this journal in your message box.

If people respond, then I may announce a contest with a similar theme, so please drop in on me and say hi. I'm not always on, but you can be as sure that I'll respond to you sooner or later as you can be that if you dangle a bar of chocolate in front of me I will attack you for it.

]]> ~Denkomaru http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/27160813/ http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/27160813/ Fri, 11 Sep 2009 23:04:12 PDT
The comic...is another story.

So, if anyone has requested me, if you still care about it, tell me because I've forgotten myself and I don't want to leave anyone hanging.

]]> ~Denkomaru http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/26268414/ http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/26268414/ Thu, 30 Jul 2009 03:11:53 PDT
I have to get up at 8:30 to go babysit some annoying itty-bitties. We're out of my refrigerated coffee drinks. FML (Thanks for the book, btw, Mira. I lol'd)

And now for the grand finale of Fail:
I have spent the last four hours trading Pokemon with myself. Top that.
I dare ya.

]]> ~Denkomaru http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/25274323/ http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/25274323/ Fri, 12 Jun 2009 13:55:04 PDT
So, I have finally devised a plot for each of my fanfics (as for the moment my original character ideas are all temporarily screwed upside-down and sideways) and the comics that they will correspond to. Now this is a question I want answered - will you guys read all the stories/comics and do you think I should post them on fanfic.net? If so, would you read them there if I didn't post them here?

And as a note; anybody I promised a picture has not been ignored. I'm just really, really lazy and a horrible procrastinator, but I promise they WILL get done...eventually.

]]> ~Denkomaru http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/24084315/ http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/24084315/ Sun, 05 Apr 2009 21:32:30 PDT Second, does anyone know of any other art sites, other than conceptart and sheezyart?

That's all to report, but I NEED to know! Seriously, guys, quit ignoring me.

]]> ~Denkomaru http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/23923487/ http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/23923487/ Fri, 27 Mar 2009 19:46:53 PDT
Most of my prices vary because people don't all want the same thing. So here's the basic prices...

Grayscale pencil drawing : About $7-15 depending on complexity whether I include a background or not.
Example: [link]

Traditional colored drawing : About $10-20 depending again on attention to detail and the background's presence.
Example 1: [link]
Example 2:[link] Yes, I know it's on a different account. That is the one I used to use for fanart but now I post it all here.

Digital works: You'll have to trust me here, we can discuss the price.
Example 1: [link] I apologize for the quality of that one; it is very old and I can do a lot better now, again on the old account.
Example 2:[link]

Watercolors, paintings and clay sculptures: Anywhere from $1 to $6, as I'm not very experienced with them and have no examples.


If you're interested, note me stating what exactly it is you want, with a few links, and then we can determine a price.






*Notes To Myself*

~Pocky-Machine = B-day present
~BloodStainAffiliate = Colored traditional phoenix w/ BG
~Marcynuk = Kayato Acrillate
~mitsuki-kunoichi = Mitsuki headshot w/ flowery background digital
~AcuraAquatosPhoenix = Twilight Ninetales
~camychan = winged wolf (gift)
~Coronadofwb = oil painting
~possionwolf = some sort of demon wolf

]]> ~Denkomaru http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/23770399/ http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/23770399/ Wed, 18 Mar 2009 19:45:19 PDT
So...I have a poem in mind, but I haven't posted yet. Most of the art coming up will be poetry, fanfictions and pages of the fan-comics, but there may be some real art sprinkled in there somehow, keep an eye out.



*Ignore If You Are Like Me And Hate Hearing About Problems That Aren't Problems*
Now, if you'll permit me one stupid, emo moment, my dad and mom both prefer my sister over me, and it's been made clear that I am the only one that screws things up for people and absolutely everything's my fault just because I'm not as uptight and strict with schedules as someone with autism (schedules are important to them) and I haven't grown up at all and I'm a teenager with the maturity of a little kid.





Just the requests again...

~Pocky-Machine = B-day present
~BloodStainAffiliate = Colored traditional phoenix w/ BG
~Marcynuk = Kayato Acrillate
~mitsuki-kunoichi = Mitsuki headshot w/ flowery background digital
~AcuraAquatosPhoenix = Twilight Ninetales
~camychan = winged wolf (gift)
~Coronadofwb = oil painting
~possionwolf = some sort of demon wolf

]]> ~Denkomaru http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/23496988/ http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/23496988/ Mon, 02 Mar 2009 19:26:37 PST
And what's the point of friends, or relatives or relationships or anything? Your actions towards that person on whenever they're around (something to that effect) are based on their feelings, how they would feel if you did or didn't do something, and what their opinion is of you. Internet friends, I've noticed, are far more flexible, less susceptible to drama, and you can just have a whole conversation without ever having to reveal the whole of your feelings, which sucks if you're having an online fire party, but I suppose you reader(s) get the point?

Next up, drama and emotions, YAY!! Why do you have to care when someone is sad, angry, stirring up drama or anything like that when it doesn't involve us? Why should we even feel pity or sympathy for others, less fortunate than us or otherwise? Why shouldn't we just be selfish little bitches all day every day and stop putting on masks for people because we'd lose them as friends? If you can't trust someone not to lie to you, or your friend can't trust you not to lie to them, then I don't see a real friendship here. Why do fear, jealousy and greed even exist? Why does any emotion even exist? If you ask me, we'd all be better off without them. No more drama, no more stress, not a care in the world, except focusing on work, but work wouldn't be boring because we couldn't feel boredom. We'd just feel nothing.

Now on the subject of strange human customs, most of the following applying primarily to teenagers. Why is everyone so goddamn skinny, and why am I the only one out of my friends that wishes I could be a skinny little stick? Pocky asked me in choir today why everyone thinks they're fat. That one's simple - the media and peer pressure. Then she asked why having body fat is a bad thing, saying it was interesting. Now, I'm not sure who agrees with her and who doesn't, or for what reasons, but that's not the point. The point is why more people can't think like that, why more people don't question the things around them. The answer to that one is because in most cases, individuality has been crushed out of us by society or by our parents. And why do people think fat is bad? Just ask the dumbasses who started the exercise craze in the 1900's... XD (You know that's where it started.)

Also, why does everyone feel the need to compare their problems and try to outdo each other? Even at that, why does everyone feel like they have to outdo their friends? My personal reason is because I feel considerably inferior to the majority of my friends in many fields, and inferior to all of my friends for at least one reason or another, but again, not the point. Life has turned into a contest, and it's forced (tempted) me to make some bad choices, allowed me to sink into a harmful mindset, and has chained me with the very blades I used to free myself from the barbed wires of depression and all that lovely stuff in the past (which, actually, I can't remember much of). Another example with the problem-comparison thing, even if you do win, if you're able to sit around whining with your friends about your petty little problems, and even if they're not petty in the slightest, you're still sitting here, in AMERICA, at least if this is happening in real life in my area. People in America do not have problems. People in Africa do have problems. You get my drift? I could sit around and complain about meaningless, petty problems and beliefs, and though almost all of it is self-imposed, I'm not looking for sympathy because I do not believe in sympathy - I just want it to stop, and yet I realize that my problems are nothing, NOTHING compared to starving underneath a harsh sun and a harsher community, living on the streets under a freezing cold rain, or even as close to home as kids being beaten by their parents, or raped, or having parents or relatives who are drug addicts, alcoholics, in the hospital, on their deathbeds, kids who are living in foster care, or even people who are suffering from the recent money crisis. I could have a crazed psycho relative a... ]]> ~Denkomaru http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/23205494/ http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/23205494/ Sat, 14 Feb 2009 21:29:47 PST
Oh, and apparently I'm Asian. XD


just the requests again...

~Pocky-Machine = B-day present
~BloodStainAffiliate = Colored traditional phoenix w/ BG
~Marcynuk = Kayato Acrillate
~mitsuki-kunoichi = Mitsuki headshot w/ flowery background digital
~AcuraAquatosPhoenix = Twilight Ninetales
~camychan = winged wolf (gift)
~Coronadofwb = oil painting
~possionwolf = some sort of demon wolf

]]> ~Denkomaru http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/22941146/ http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/22941146/ Sun, 01 Feb 2009 11:07:24 PST
First of all, what is the point of life? Why do we all live, when we are destined to die? To benefit the next generation? What's the point of their life, too? To benefit the planet? Like that's gonna happen. What's the point of all the creatures on this earth? Entertainment? Is it God or whoever's up there or down there or right here's way of having fun? Why is it that people feel they have to be a certain way, both in appearance, skills mentality, whatever? What is the point of the things we create, what we destroy? What is the point of emotions, of a heartbeat, of anything in this whole universe? Would I be able to find the answers if I were to die and go to heaven? Probably not. Hell? Hell no! XD What's even after death? I don't care too much about that; it's not one of the questions that hits my mind that often, but it's there. Why do people think that happiness is the ultimate state of being? What's so wrong with being sad, or angry, or even overhyper? Because it annoys the others around you? That just goes back to the question of happiness. What is the point of emotions, relationships, or expressing feelings? Emotions just get in the way, relationships with other people just mean you have someone else other than yourself you have to care about. Don't get me wrong, I love my friends, but still, I wonder...and I would never want a boyfriend simply because this is exactly how I would end up feeling about him, I'm almost certain. What's the point of music? Of art? Of writing? Of cooking? Of looking a certain way, feeling a certain way, or even just doing something for the hell of it? Who made all this up, and is life going the way it was supposed to? I'm going to take a wild guess and say "no", but what about what's out there? Do our fantasy worlds actually exist somewhere in the wide expanse of space? On the physical plain, the spiritual plain, or even the frickin pancake plain?! XD And if they do, would there be any point in us going there? We'd all still be living. With our characters, having the time of our lives, maybe or maybe not, but in the end what is the point? What's the point of all the trivial stuff that sets humans off? What is the concept of fun? Sex? Kissing? Playing with trains? Friends? And what's the point of all of that? What's the point of working, of everything in this world? It all boils down to my initial question, what is the point of life? What is the point of it all? Are we here to actually do something that will last forever? If we either save or destroy the Earth, it's going to die when the sun burns out, anyway. So there is nothing humans, or anything else on Earth can do that will last forever. Any living thing that depends on something else for its survival will come across this problem. What's out there? What do we have to offer? Probably nothing.

And, for the sole reason that my fingers hurt, I'm stopping the rant here...for now.




On a side note...

Once I'm done with all of these, and if they are satisfactory, I will be opening commissions.


~Pocky-Machine = B-day present
~BloodStainAffiliate = Colored traditional phoenix w/ BG
~Marcynuk = Kayato Acrillate
~mitsuki-kunoichi = Mitsuki headshot w/ flowery background digital
~AcuraAquatosPhoenix = Twilight Ninetales
~camychan = winged wolf (gift)
~Coronadofwb = oil painting
~possionwolf = some sort of demon wolf

]]> ~Denkomaru http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/21688391/ http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/21688391/ Wed, 26 Nov 2008 20:38:42 PST 001. Name → Marlena Elaine Bautista (I know, stupid name, right?)
002. Nickname - Lena, Denko-chan, Blackblade (last two are DevART names)
003. Status → Single, looking at someone
004. Zodiac sign → rooster
005. Male or female → female
006. Elementary → valley view, valle verde (the latter was a hellhole)
007. Middle School → Foothill (More of a hellhole!)
008. High School → Northgate (Ah, not so bad)
009. Smart → NO
010. Hair color → Black, faded red streaks (more like a natural red-brown)
011. Long or short → center of shoulderblades
012. Loud or Quiet → quiet (softspoken, I wish I could make myself heard, though)
013. Sweats or Jeans → jeans (sweats are icky)
014. Phone or Camera → camera (waaay more fun, and more useful)
015. Health freak → I like blood...does that count?
016. Drink or Smoke? → Drink (smoke tastes bad)
017. Do you have a crush on someone? → yes
018. Eat or Drink → milk
019. Piercings → no (owie)
020. Tattoos → no (owie)

FIRSTS:
023. First piercings → no
024. First best friend → a pack
025. First award → ?...perfect attendance (5th grade)
026. First crush → an asshole
027. First pet → KITTY!!!
028. First big vacation → Hawaii
030. First big birthday → ? (I don't generally remember such unimportant events)

CURRENTLY:
049. Eating → soup
050. Drinking → air
052. I'm about to → go play pokemon...or write (I change my plans every five seconds)
053. Listening to → my mom on the phone
054. Plans for today → play, draw, type, sleep

YOUR FUTURE:
058. Want kids? → NO (FUCK NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
059. Want to get married? → Again, NO - FUCK NO!!!!!!
060. Careers in mind → Artist, writer, drive-thru order at Wendy's (that's about all I've got the smarts or talent for, referring to the latter should my artistic plans fail, which they almost certainly will)

WHICH IS BETTER WITH GIRLS/BOYS?
068. Lips or eyes → eyes (lips taste bad, eyes look good, enough said)
070. Shorter or taller? → shorter (i'm a dominatrix_
072. Romantic or spontaneous → sponateous (romance is boring)
073. Nice stomach or nice arms → pie (who gives a fuck?)
074. Sensitive or loud → neither (understanding, relatively happy)
075. Hook-up or relationship → relationship (whatever, both involve cheating with skinny blonde eight foot tall bimbos)
077. Trouble maker or hesitant → both

HAVE YOU EVER:
080. Lost glasses/contacts → yes (i smashed them, i smashed 'em good)
081. Ran away from home → no
084. Broken someones heart → hes (and proud of it)
085. Been arrested → no (I had an inapropriate comment, but i'm to sleepy to remember what it was.)
087. Cried when someone died → yes (at the funeral for my cat, not my uncle)

DO YOU BELIEVE:
089. Yourself → no
090. Miracles → no
091. Love at first sight → yes (whatever floats your boat)
092. Heaven → yes (if that's what you believe, that's where you go)
093. Santa Claus → YES!!!! (He's Jesus, too! 8D)
094. Sex on the first date → no (no fuckface on the planet is good enough for that)
095. Kiss on the first date → why noe (if I don't punch them in the face first)

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now → yes
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life → no (its fine, I just wish it was better)
099. Do you believe in God → hi, Al!
100. Post as 100 truths and tag someone: Glasses, Pocky and Shefiv

Just did this to get that angsty rant off my page, and because I got tagged.

]]> ~Denkomaru http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/21558198/ http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/21558198/ Tue, 18 Nov 2008 20:39:45 PST
This started with a recent journal from Pocky-Machine; I thank her for posting it as it helped me realize a lot of things. In her journal, she mentioned living in a colorful world, where music can be associated with feeling, and emotions can be associated with colors. Compared to what she was describing, I live in a world of morning-gray, midnight black and brightass white.

I feel like I'm living in a vat of smoke, for lack of a better word, (I would have used shadow, but it's become too dark and dramatic thanks to people...) and I can't see the beauty in anything, or anyone. I think that's why I hate my own art, and I hate myself, and I don't want a boyfriend, and why I can't stand it when others around me are happy, such as at a party. They all see it, and they all feel it, and sometimes I have to ask myself, why can't I?

And then there are those times when I feel just so fucked up that I know I belong in a mental institution. Nobody ever seems to believe me; they just brush it off like, "Oh, you're just being dramatic" or what have you. I dunno, it just feels like there's something wrong with me, and I'm slipping more and more, not into the pit of despair or anything like that, but still...it's just so weird. I feel abandoned and ignored when people are around me, and I feel completely at peace alone, and yet there are those times when I feel myself thinking homicidal thoughts. More than once, I've thought of running off and finding some kind of criminal circle to join, but then my logic sensors kicked in and bladdabladablah....

You can tell I'm tired here.

And you know what? I wish we could type in our own emotions down at the "mood" option at the bottom of the journal. If anything right now, I feel disturbed, cold, even maybe curious, and there's just not a word to describe it, let alone an emoticon. However, the bet they've got is distressed, which is actually pretty accurate.

I wonder what the lives of others would be like if I were to die. I wonder what would happen if there were two of me and one died. What would I feel like? What would I do in the place of one of my friends if I died? There are just so many of these things that I wonder about, things that people either never hear, choose to ignore, or have no answer to. I just want someone to hear me for once, and give me an honest answer or response, rather than something generic or some kind of distracted half-word, half-gesture.

And then I realize what a selfish person I am. In all honesty, I've been just ranting about myself, what is wrong with ME and what I don't like about the world. i apologize to all of you people who had to go to the trouble of reading this shit.

...Does anyone ever want to hurt themselves when they cry, just to make themselves stop, or is that only me and my magick freakishness?

]]> ~Denkomaru http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/21282826/ http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/21282826/ Sun, 02 Nov 2008 12:10:22 PST
]]> ~Denkomaru http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/20694128/ http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/20694128/ Fri, 26 Sep 2008 20:03:22 PDT
It's a depression usually about my art, my worth as a person, my personality, my appearance, wanting to be normal, and wanting to be able to beat somebody at something. Now, it's less of a depression and more of a heavy feeling. If anything, I'd have to say I feel weighted, that my back is being bent, and is halfway to broken.

Now, I realize that every piece of crap I've ever done deserves to be thrown in a fire, and you know what? I'm okay with that. I realize I'm not the best artist in the world and I never will be. Even if I get to selling my art, there will always be someone who's better than me at something. Maybe even at everything. So, I can strike that from my list of possible reasons for this feeling.

Now, my appearance. Fuck that. I'm curvy. I have boobs. Next question.

Wanting to be normal. Now, that's a wish I really hate myself for, just like how I hate people who are immature and are always complaining about themselves and talk about things they think they know when they really don't, which is basically a summation of the way I think. But I have a solution to that, too: Grow Up. I know I'll get there, and fuck the norms; I'm an artist.

Wanting to win...well, I never have, I never will. That's that.

Then there's also the possibility that stress from school or my recent "cold" has gotten to me, but I highly doubt it.

Maybe it's just the fall. I can't wait for winter so I go crazy in the fall? Then there's the fact that I have a mental breakdown every four to six months, because I try to never show my emotions, because I happen to cry for almost every emotion there is on the face of the planet. I hate that about myself, but I've discovered little tidbits of help that make it a bit easier.

Not even ranting makes me feel better. It's like I'm carrying three things on my shoulders; my own emotional issues, the stress and anger my dad invokes in me, and jealousy, and yet, jealousy isn't the right word. Neither is self-hate. I feel distant from the few family members I like, even from my friends. When Pocky said she might not come back for us, it made me think - would I come back for them? Unfortunately, I inexplicably finding myself saying...no. I...don't think I would.

And now I feel like a bad person.

On a happier note, ~Slayer-Halo , your request is done. Mituski, I'd like to talk to you about some edits, and I may need another ref. Other than that, everything else is either not sketched or is a WIP.

Ah, who am I kidding? Nobody cares about a stupid drawing, and why should they? why should anybody pay for this stuff?

I've said this before and resented it, but...I question whether my art is my life or just a hobby.

]]> ~Denkomaru http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/20593821/ http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/20593821/ Sat, 20 Sep 2008 23:45:30 PDT
*Note*Makirach and mitsuki-kunoichi are off the hook.

If your name has a star by it, we need to talk and consider other options.


Full body, colored w/background digital: ~Pocky-Machine
Full body, colored w/background traditional: ~BloodStainAffiliate
Full body, colored w/ white or gradient background: ~Marcynuk (sketched)
Full body, w/o background traditional:
Headshot, colored w/ background digital: ~mitsuki-kunoichi (sketched)
*Full body lineart: ~Slayer-Halo (sketched, in process of inking)
Full body sketch:
Headshot sketch: ~Makirach

I STILL HAVE OPEN SLOTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

]]> ~Denkomaru http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/20328293/ http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/20328293/ Thu, 04 Sep 2008 17:03:33 PDT
Also, he complains about everything. When he gets annoyed, he gets on your case for absolutely everything and is completely anal about it, too. If he's too hot, he complains. If he's too tired, he complains. He complains about having to do the cooking and cleaning the dishes and straightening up the kitchen. All of those jobs happen to fall to me, with the exception of cooking. If I don't get there to do them right that second, he gets mad at me and starts doing them anyway, not leaving any room for me to get anything done. Then later, he totally guilt trips me about it.

Tei, you know about this one. I was going home from school and, since his back was hurting him, he didn't go to work so he could pick me up. For salvation of his own patience, he either parked somewhere I couldn't see him or just zoomed by me. The first two minutes in the car, he was fine, then my friend called my on my cell, we talked, and I hung up. Okay, right? Wrong! Dad suddenly freaks out at gets all mad and starts ranting about how I kept him waiting. As we step in the door, he says, and I quote, "This is the second time you haven't seen me, what the hell is wrong with you?!" At this point, I've had it, so I head up to my room, unsheathe my double daggers and imagine myself stabbing things with it. Then I go back downstairs twenty minutes later, and he still gives me the evil eye...urgh...

Then there's today. I had nowhere to go. One of my friends couldn't give me a ride because her brother's an asshole, I had no idea when the bus came, and it was probably in the hundreds today. No way I was walking home in that heat, so I went over to another friend's house, where I got the majority of my homework done. Everything is fine until we get home. Then my sister says she has piano practice, and there's still groceries in the car. Dad runs out with some bags to carry the stuff in, and while passing by, he makes it clear that today was a horrible day to go over to a friend's house. Dad also hates to be rushed. THen he comes back, panting like he just ran a mile, making a huge-ass deal about it, and when he figures out he has to sign a check, he gets madder. As he leaves, he says, "Next time just get yourself home. You're killing me!"

I know. What. A. Bastard.

And he does this every single night at dinner, too. He's always tired and moody, and he won't take any pills for it, even though a novice nurse could diagnose him with depression, and he's on like ten other pills. (not kidding, though that is a rough guess...)Heh, and my mom says I'M the one who needs them. Well, with him around, I certainly do.

Okay, end of rant.


Now, for people who have requested me, I have a shitload of homework, but am getting to your stuff as fast as possible without rushing so much the quality drops.

]]> ~Denkomaru http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/19134674/ http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/19134674/ Tue, 19 Aug 2008 10:27:40 PDT
Note : for future reference, human headshots may or may not be offered as they are not my best point.

Full body, colored w/background digital: ~Pocky-Machine
Full body, colored w/background traditional: ~BloodStainAffiliate

Full body, colored w/ white or gradient background: ~Marcynuk (sketched)
Full body, w/o background traditional:

Headshot, colored w/ background digital: ~mitsuki-kunoichi (sketched)
Headshot, colored w/ background tradidional:

Headshot, colored w/o background digital:
Headshot, colored w/o background traditional:

Full body lineart: ~Slayer-Halo (sketched, in process of inking)
Full body sketch:

Headshot lineart:
Headshot sketch: ~Makirach

Plz comment, and I will do one of these for you.


]]> ~Denkomaru http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/18828860/ http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/18828860/ Fri, 13 Jun 2008 21:31:54 PDT I suggest you pay a bit more attention to this account, as I will try to be on DevArt more, get more stuff done, and actually talk to people, especially those who i've started to lose touch with.

Expect to see more work, both art and writing, and if there is anyone who I have promised a gift or trade and forgotten, I'm SORRY!!!!!!!!!! And please remind me.

]]> ~Denkomaru http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/17835347/ http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/17835347/ Sun, 13 Apr 2008 16:02:47 PDT
For the full article - [link]

Please, if you have done any work involving my characters, take it down. If the law passes, I want no trace of them anywhere but in my own house, where I can keep an eye on it and make sure it doesn't become a way for some business to profit off characters and concepts that I've put my heart and soul into.

I'm not saying you should freak out, though. I've heard that clearly watermarking your stuff and keeping the original up will give you a chance, if the law is even passed. I'm just saying I want to keep my stuff safe because I plan to write novels and stuffs, and I really needed to clean out my gallery.

]]> ~Denkomaru http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/17614170/ http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/17614170/ Mon, 31 Mar 2008 21:01:40 PDT
I shouldn't even still hold this against him, but it pisses me off anyway.
So, my friends and I planned to go to a coffee shop near my house at lunch today, but I had made the stupid decision to have my dad pick me up early. My friend called her mom and it turned out she couldn't come, so I let her go. Then it took my other friend ten minutes to show up, but for some reason, she didn't tell me where she'd been, and to top it off, we had to drop something else off at her classroom, but nobody was there, so the trip had been pointless. Afterwards, my dad picked us up. We had our coffee, went back to my house, and hung out for a while. When she left, I did my homework and spent the evening relaxing. Then at dinner, my dad gives this whole speech about how he expects me to show up when I say I will. Reasonable, right? But then he goes on about how he wants me ready within five minutes or he's driving away. He said, and I quote, "and if you're late, well then, see ya. You're walkin'. And don't bother calling." I won't come back. Then he changes the subject to my other friend, the one whose house I go to every Monday and Wednesday, and now it's looking like Fridays too, and says that he's been kept waiting every single time because of something or other. I guess I can understand this one, though. First of all, when one is kept waiting in that house, one must speak to the mom of the house, and that alone is enough to drive one insane. But then he says that he expects me ready ten minutes before he even picks me up. That gets me just a little more annoyed because half the time he shows up fifteen minutes late! Then he says that my friend wouldn't pull that crap with her dad. (Tei, you know why this is actually kinda funny.) After that, he just rants about how he hates waiting and, as the father of the house, he expects to be obeyed, absolutely, without question. I guess it was due to happen sooner or later, though. He always rants at me and never my 19-year-old sister, who is a high-functioning Autistic. She gets a talking to every now and then, but it's always my calm, though dingy and forgetful mom who talks to her.

I must be losing it. I've had a lot of aggression and other stuff holed up inside me for a long time, but I thought I was doing a really good job of keeping it somewhere else and this stuff usually does bug me, but I never get this bent out of shape about it. I even punched a locker today, twice, in the sharper side. My knuckles are still skinned, and slightly bruised. Ah, well. I'll blow up in about a week, then this will start up all over again and I won't have to deal with this stuff for a whole five months! Whoo!

]]> ~Denkomaru http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/17397831/ http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/17397831/ Tue, 18 Mar 2008 15:55:37 PDT
I will be doing a web comic, though I don't have much of a plotline yet, and I'm pretty sure :iconpockymachine: will be doing one too. Once we're both finished, it's highly probable that we will create a crossover sequel together. I'm also doing a challenge on my other account to see how many pokemon I can draw, so it will take some time, but I will get it posted...eventually....

]]> ~Denkomaru http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/16406583/ http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/16406583/ Mon, 14 Jan 2008 17:12:26 PST
I got a tablet, I got Phtotoshop, I got more patience, and I'm accepting commsissions. See payment rules and stuff below.

Avatar - 25 cents

Animals

Profile sketch - 50 cents
Full Body Sketch w/o shading - 75 cents
Full Body Sketch w/ shading - $1.00
Profile Digital - 75 cents
Full Body Profile w/o background - $1.00
Full Body w/ detailed background - $2.00
Realism with background - $3.00

Anthro


Full Body Sketch - $1.50
Digital w/o Background - $2.00
Digital w/ Background - $3.00


Humans*

Profile Sketch - $1.00
Full Body Sketch - $1.75
Any Sketch w/o background - $1.75
Any Sketch w/ background - $2.50
Any Digital - $5.00-$6.00 (Those are harder to do)

*Males may cost less to do than females.

Prices may vary depending on the size of the picture.
Each extra character will cost an extra 50 cents.

Note me if you're interested.

]]> ~Denkomaru http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/16243804/ http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/16243804/ Thu, 03 Jan 2008 17:08:27 PST
]]> ~Denkomaru http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/15841661/ http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/15841661/ Fri, 07 Dec 2007 22:54:54 PST
Avatar - 25 cents

Animals

Profile sketch - 50 cents
Full Body Sketch w/o shading - 75 cents
Full Body Sketch w/ shading - $1.00
Profile Digital - 75 cents
Full Body Profile w/o background - $1.00
Full Body w/ detailed background - $2.00

Humans*

Profile Sketch - $1.00
Full Body Sketch - $1.75
Any Sketch w/o background - $1.75
Any Sketch w/ background - $2.50
Any Digital - $5.00-$6.00 (Those are harder to do)

*Males may cost less to do than females.

Prices may vary depending on the size of the picture.
Each extra character will cost an extra 50 cents.

]]> ~Denkomaru http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/15603162/ http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/15603162/ Wed, 21 Nov 2007 10:23:13 PST
I'm supposed to have emotions, right? Why can't they be good? Why do they have to be painful? Becasue I'm that kinds of person. This is worse than fearing yourself for not having emotions, having them come back in a wave of pain.

I don't want to wallow in it, but that's all I can bring myself to. There are so mant things I could be doing right now, but my couch doesn't deserve to be ripped up by this sudden aggression brought on by pain. Goddess help me!

oh, and if you say this is so I get attention, I'll rip your fucking trhoat out, I don't fucking care who the fucking hell you are!

]]> ~Denkomaru http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/15471092/ http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/15471092/ Sun, 11 Nov 2007 21:45:16 PST
I've never been able to live up to my own standards. Maybe that's what started all of this in the first place. See, I've been jealous of one of my real life friends for a long time, and not for just one thing. I'm jealous of almost everything she has, and I'm exagerating, but that's what it feels like.

I'm jealous of her artwork, the fact she has a tablet, the fact she has a boyfriend that treats her like a person, the fact she has a normal sibling, however annoying he may be, a kickass mom, despite her moments, and so much other stuff I can't list simply because of the bulk of it all.

Then there's the lives situation. Two of my friends have way worse lives than me, but they seem to manage well enough while all I do is sulk around about how my life sucks when it really doesn't. Sure I have an older sister with a disability and the mind of a ten to thirteen year old, and a really pissy dad, but that's it. We're not strapped for cash, my parents aren't fighting, and nobody here is abusive, unless I count.

Then there's the whole situation focused on art. I'm extremely jealous of my friend's tablet, and her traditional media. Whenever I go into an artist's slump or get aritst's block, she breaks out something I could never hope to do. Whenever I improve and do something, she does something five times better in half the time. I should be happy for her, though, shouldn't I?

Also, I'm extremely angry at the fact that I'm the only one of my artist friends without a good tablet. I'm simply jealous of one of them and I feel the other doesn't deserve it, even though she was the first one to want a tablet and has actually gotten pretty good.

I've been beating myself up for the longest time for all of this. I sicken myself, and I'm actually crying as I write this. What the fuck is wrong with me?!

]]> ~Denkomaru http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/15437695/ http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/15437695/ Fri, 09 Nov 2007 17:04:00 PST Isn't that great...

Not in the mood to rant, just sarcastic.

So, yeah. This is for my real life friends because I was out of school for a couple of days.

And now for some melodrama.
I'M TOO YOUNG TO DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

]]> ~Denkomaru http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/15264475/ http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/15264475/ Sun, 28 Oct 2007 20:28:42 PDT
Recently I tried to do something with lineart. I tried for three hours, dead serious, and I couldn't make anything as good as Pocky or Sheelos, and I've been beating myself up for it. My "realisms" hardly look their part anymore, and my lineart is nowhere near as good as either Pocky or Sheelos. I keep on asking myself what the fuck is wrong with me, but nothing comes to mind.

Maybe it's artist's block, maybe I'm just pissed that I can't have an Intuos3 Wacom tablet or Photoshop yet, but I don't think so.

Also, Pocky's bf's friend dedeuced that I don't like my "boyfriend", which was right on the mark, and I don't know how to tell him to back off and give me some space. He's almost worse than my other bf that got too clingy and turned into a total ass.

What, is the world out to get me today?! This week?!

]]> ~Denkomaru http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/14952944/ http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/14952944/ Sun, 07 Oct 2007 09:18:11 PDT I'm in.

]]> ~Denkomaru http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/14930831/ http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/14930831/ Fri, 05 Oct 2007 18:03:14 PDT
New names for the Akuma:

Elypocarians

Alarans

Elyptarans

Lyrocans

Lazjulans

Please vote. I will decide soon.

]]> ~Denkomaru http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/14857945/ http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/14857945/ Sun, 30 Sep 2007 14:49:51 PDT Ready?

ELYPOCARIANS!

]]> ~Denkomaru http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/14828869/ http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/14828869/ Fri, 28 Sep 2007 15:13:41 PDT Akumaran?
Akumarian?
Maybe not those last two. i really like the Akukami thing. It's a fusion of two words, one for demon, the other for god. I think that's what the japanese people that discovered them in my book might have been thinking. After all, demons don't generally have white markings or colorings.

Anybody got any ideas? Any other name suggestions? I need some help here... or you could just vote for the best one.

Anyways, "reasons for" time. I was looking up Akuma and got over 7,000 results, none of them mine. Well, they probably were there, but I couldn't find them. I looked up Yamirian and only got 1 result that I didn't recognize from Pocky's gallery. Akuma was originally only meant to be temporary, and if there was ever a time to change it, the time is probably now. I probably should have changed it before my first OC post.

]]> ~Denkomaru http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/14812171/ http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/14812171/ Thu, 27 Sep 2007 11:05:30 PDT
Also, Pocky's got four cats, I have two. We love them all very much.

We were going to report it, but we were like ten minutes late, so we just rant to class.
At brunch, the dude who took the picture walked up to me and asked if I really killed the cat. I lost it and slashed him across the face. There were three shallow marks on him and one extremely deep one from my middle finger.

At Pocky's count, there were at least 12 people who asked her it she killed the cat. I counted 7, but that's probably because I left a 2 inch long gash in a boy's face.

After school, I was called into the office, got a 5-day suspension, and the boy I scratched got a Saturday School. They completely ignored the fact that the two were flashing fake evidence of us "stabbing" a cat with no external wounds! No matter that we were being constantly harassed and that the group approached our group at lunch and tired to start something! But Oh! No! We can't have that! Those two are not of our concern because you assaulted someone!

What a bunch of Bullshit.

What's worse is that the real bitch was never caught. He probably intimidated the boy I scratched into reporting me, just to make things worse. I really wouldn't put that past him. Also, the boy was reluctant to tell where he got the scratches, and that was a bit more suspicious. The leader of the gang, the guy who made the boy I scratched take the pictures, is like the dude I got in a fight with last year, someone who honestly would bring a gun to school and try to start another Columbine incident.

The other guy didn't even get any kind of punishment!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The school disciplinary system sucks. fucking. ass. End of story.

]]> ~Denkomaru http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/14731489/ http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/14731489/ Fri, 21 Sep 2007 16:34:11 PDT
If I upload any more deviations, they will have taken me weeks due to the facts i'm quitting mousework and using Pocky's tablet until I get my own.

So...yeah. No more deviations till December 26 or later.

After that, my watchers will have extremely long deviation lists

]]> ~Denkomaru http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/14621684/ http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/14621684/ Thu, 13 Sep 2007 18:27:46 PDT
Unless anybody missed the point here, I'M. DOING. COMMISSIONS. AND. ART. TRADES!

REPLY, PEOPLEZ, PLZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

]]> ~Denkomaru http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/14579429/ http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/14579429/ Mon, 10 Sep 2007 17:48:52 PDT morning: 3 advil lqui-gels
afternoon: 3 liqui-gels
night: muscle relaxant, 3 liqui-gels, birth control (for pain), maybe even a sleep aid

Ima start doing character sheets, I think. Maybe I'll hold back till after Christmas though; there is an Intuos3 Wacom tablet in my future.

Also, I'm taking commissions, maybe even some art trades, but they may have to wait for awhile, unless I'm supposed to try to draw something on a tablet that draws a screwed up octagon when even a professional artist is trying to draw a simple circle. That may have to wait till midwinter...

...or I could just give people a scanned sketch. Whatever works.

]]> ~Denkomaru http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/14475088/ http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/14475088/ Mon, 03 Sep 2007 16:21:10 PDT
I wish there was an emoticon for "Healing"...

]]> ~Denkomaru http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/14471636/ http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/14471636/ Mon, 03 Sep 2007 12:30:33 PDT
]]> ~Denkomaru http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/14415381/ http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/14415381/ Thu, 30 Aug 2007 18:38:21 PDT
I haven't gotten all that many useless comments, but they still piss me off SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! If i don't get any constructive criticism, how can I possibly hope to improve at all?!

And now that Sheelos and Pocky both have Intuos3 Wacom tablets, AND Photoshop, while I'm stuck with a sucky Medion tablet and GIMP, I'm officially the worst artist of the group. I go over to Pocky's house often enough that I might get a small, semi-simple pic done in about a week or two, but I don't want to wait that long, and her computer confuzzles me.

Now, I feel really bad, and low. I haven't drawn anything good in what is acutally seven hours, but feels like seven months. This has been bugging me for a really long time, and to top it all off, I'm on horrible terms with my parents. Not the best situation if ya live with them or go to a college that you can drive to.

I can't drive, and it's too far to walk, then my dad picked me up about half an hour earlier than I had expected, then he was all pissed at me and he said that when he came to pick me up, I was ready. If that didn't happen, I was to take the bus, no questions or discussions about it. Then I told him my mom made me think he was coming later, and he said we needed to get our communications straight, or I'd be catching a public bus, which is pointless. If I can make it to the bus stop, then I can make it the last quarter of the way.

He's VERY Rebublican, and he believes that my mother, sis, and I are to do whatever he says. Even when my mother tries to negotiate with him, they usually end up not talking for the next three hours. (My father "forgives" her quickly, and that annoys both her and me.)

The one bad side of living in the suburbs, it's littered with Republicans.

]]> ~Denkomaru http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/14310821/ http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/14310821/ Thu, 23 Aug 2007 21:27:52 PDT
I'll take ideas from other peoples, too. Those three are real-life friends, so they know me a lot better.

By the way..............................what was I saying?........................................................................

]]> ~Denkomaru http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/14309403/ http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/14309403/ Thu, 23 Aug 2007 19:30:53 PDT
I've been thinkin stuff over and I've made a decision. It may or may not be temporary, but I'm giving up on digital art, possibly even DA. I'm goin back to sketches, no more, no less.

No, Pocky, the relapse hasn't reached that point yet, but I'm serious. Seeing how much you and Sheelos are improving, and how i've been stuck on almost the same lever for a long time, it's done something for me, something I think I needed. It's put me in my place. Maybe art really is meant to be a hobby for me, a pasttime, possibly even writing my so-called books. Perhaps my parents and the voices around me are right.

I've been beaten to a half-dead bloody stump of a wolf, or at least my spirit has. Sequoia Spiritwalker runs no more, but perhaps one day she may walk again.

To add to that, my physical condition has fallen so much. Since when does a mental relapse cause physical ailments? Perhaps I was right, I'm very slowly dying from the inside out.

It actually took a lot of thinking whether my mood is depressed or defeated. It's a thin line, nearly invisible. I picked depressed because I like the icon better.

May as well post that scrap before I leave DA

]]> ~Denkomaru http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/14289260/ http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/14289260/ Wed, 22 Aug 2007 14:00:34 PDT
As I write this, I tremble and shake. I keep trying to call someone, but I don't know who I can go to. I guess Pocky, but what would she say? Would she be ashamed of me? Sheelos would jsut go on a freaked out rant, and that's the last thing I need.

Somebody, help...

]]> ~Denkomaru http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/14182871/ http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/14182871/ Wed, 15 Aug 2007 15:49:38 PDT
Oh, something kinda funny and kinda sucky. I got the "dollop of Daisy" jingle stuck in my head, and, even after listening to my best music for three hours, it wouldn't fade away! It did about an hour ago, though, so at least I don't have it plaguing me anymore.

Just for reference, who here has been concentrating on something really hard, only to be disturbed by something like a "Beauty Cuties" ad to one of your favorite songs? And who of those agrees it's one of the most annoying things on the planet?

]]> ~Denkomaru http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/14096463/ http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/14096463/ Thu, 09 Aug 2007 20:27:17 PDT
]]> ~Denkomaru http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/14020249/ http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/14020249/ Sat, 04 Aug 2007 20:20:05 PDT
Okay, so it all started a week-ish ago while we were on vacation on Kuai. My dad was being really pissy because he hates the heat, hates to wait, and when both combine after having to go on two flights when we were supposed to only go on one (because, apparently, United doesn't fly to Kuai anymore) and they wouldn't transfer our luggage, so we almost missed the plane. Anyway, he was being a total bastard the entire time, save a couple of days, even though kuai is supposed to be his favorite island.

After that, we flew to Oahu, and he was better there, but he was still a bit of a bitch. My mom and I think he needs anti-depressants, and at the moment I think he needs a fresh, freely bleeding wound to go with that.

How many people are forced to eat what the "man of the house" wants, prepares, and hardly ever eats himself? Example, my dad has diabetes, so he never eats any rice or anything, and when he does, it's a little bit at dinner. I'm dieting and had a LOT of sugary and carby stuff today, so I didn't want any rice. All of a sudden he turned o me and said, "So you think you get a CHOICE of dinner menu?" Which was the first thing that got me pissed, other than him almost literally ordering us to set the table, then he comes out with the fact that I ate all of his oh so precious rice pudding.

He's turning into a fucking dictator, and nobody can stop him. He's muscular and can singlehandedly move a really big couch a long way. Though he was hit as a kid, and seriously dislikes the thought of doing so to us, nobody speaks up anyways, because of the threat in his tone.
This is absolutely not the first time something like this has happened, I've just about reached my limit. When I was five or so, I used to have dreams that he would kill me or other members of the family.

This is nowhere near half of what I have to tell, but I can't go on with typing like this, I have to go attack something, so, without further ado...

(*&%%$%#$$^%$&^$$%#@#%^$%^$#%^!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I was just too pissed to actually write swears, so I settled for that.

]]> ~Denkomaru http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/13800746/ http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/13800746/ Thu, 19 Jul 2007 21:13:29 PDT 1. Introduction
2. Love
3. Light
4. Dark
5. Seeking Solace
6. Break Away -
7. Heaven
8. Innocence
9. Drive
10. Breathe Again
11. Memory
12. Insanity
13. Misfortune
14. Smile
15. Silence
16. Questioning
17. Blood
18. Rainbow
19. Grey
20. Fortitude
21. Vacation
22. Mother Nature
23. Cat
24. No Time
25. Trouble Lurking
26. Tears
27. Foreign
28. Sorrow
29. Happiness
30. Under the Rain
31. Flowers
32. Night
33. Expectations
34. Stars
35. Hold My Hand
36. Precious Treasure
37. Eyes
38. Abandoned
39. Dreams
40. Rated
41. Teamwork
42. Standing Still
43. Dying
44. Two Roads
45. Illusion
46. Family
47. Creation
48. Childhood
49. Stripes
50. Breaking the Rules
51. Sport
52. Deep in Thought
53. Keeping a Secret
54. Tower
55. Waiting
56. Danger Ahead
57. Sacrifice
58. Kick in the Head
59. No Way Out
60. Rejection
61. Fairy Tale
62. Magic
63. Do Not Disturb
64. Multitasking
65. Horror
66. Traps
67. Playing the Melody
68. Hero
69. Annoyance
70. 67%
71. Obsession
72. Mischief Managed
73. I Can't
74. Are You Challenging Me?
75. Mirror
76. Broken Pieces
77. Test
78. Drink
79. Starvation
80. Words
81. Pen and Paper
82. Can You Hear Me?
83. Heal
84. Out Cold
85. Spiral
86. Seeing Red
87. Food
88. Pain
89. Through the Fire
90. Triangle
91. Drowning
92. All That I Have
93. Give Up
94. Last Hope
95. Advertisement
96. In the Storm
97. Safety First
98. Puzzle
99. Solitude
100. Relaxation

My boyfriend is in New York and i'm going to Hawaii. It kinda sux.

]]> ~Denkomaru http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/13785042/ http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/13785042/ Wed, 18 Jul 2007 17:30:16 PDT
So I just came up with this new, awesome style around the same time my friend, pocky-chan got a new, more realistic style. For once, nobody gets our styles mixed up, and now, since we're both working on characters for books which wo both intend to publish.

The problem is that she's been working on her book for about six years, mine, one. So I had this character that looks a hell of a lot like one of hers, something that actually used to happen a whole lot, but i always managed to find some way to edit them and keep them the same, and as I got my own style, the problem seemed to go away, and now it's happened again! i'm so fucking sick of this! What the fucking hell is wrong with me?! Am I trying to live up to her standards, or what? i have no fucking idea!

Trace, if you happen to be reading this, I meant to call you, but our line is a bi tied up right now. When you message me back I'll try again, mybe before that. This neeeds to be sorted out, now.

]]> ~Denkomaru http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/13739063/ http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/13739063/ Sat, 14 Jul 2007 23:59:46 PDT
Now that that's out of the way, I've lost not only my talent, but mty artistic drive. i can't pick up a pencil or sit down at the computer for five seconds without figuring 'screw this, it's worthless to try' and plopping on the couch, only to be kicked out by the beginning of a baseball game.

Anybody want someone dead? I don't charge.

]]> ~Denkomaru http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/13638287/ http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/13638287/ Fri, 06 Jul 2007 19:03:50 PDT
But who cares? I'm gettin' outta here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

]]> ~Denkomaru http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/13258144/ http://Denkomaru.deviantart.com/journal/13258144/ Thu, 07 Jun 2007 21:30:53 PDT
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