http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:DerExitusEngel&section=today deviantART RSS for by:DerExitusEngel en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Fri, 11 Dec 2009 01:33:48 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://DerExitusEngel.deviantart.com/journal/9164678/ http://DerExitusEngel.deviantart.com/journal/9164678/ Fri, 23 Jun 2006 23:41:09 PDT You know what, I've been gone for sooo long and only one person noticed. Isn't that wonderful? {k0i} is so great. Goodness, I haven't written anything in forever ... I've been so busy with this stupid thing called life. I can't believe it's been since 2004 since I've touched a pencil.

Anyhow, I'll try to return to those of you whom care. A lot has happened and maybe I'll be able to jump right back onto the paper and let you all know about it. Lets see, I had my 18th birthday, found the love of my life, messed that up, am currently on the road to recovery with my TRUE love. His name is Daniel and he's what I've been waiting for. We're expecting a baby December 16th, 2006. Yeah, I'm scared to death but more excited now. I think that being scared is what messed the both of us up and took us back a few steps. We've been together for 2 years now, and are getting married, but not rushing that. I think we've got enough on our shoulders as it is now. I get to find out if the baby is a girl or boy soon! In 3 weeks actually!!! That in mind, does anybody have any good suggestions for a middle name? The first name would be either Caiylin or Amberlin, just can't think of a middle. Well, I shall get back to you with some more poetry. Hopefully it can be at least half as decent as I left off, if it was decent at all. Much love!

-Me ]]> ~DerExitusEngel http://DerExitusEngel.deviantart.com/journal/3349836/ http://DerExitusEngel.deviantart.com/journal/3349836/ Sun, 12 Sep 2004 18:27:38 PDT
R.I.P 9/11 victems. ]]> ~DerExitusEngel http://DerExitusEngel.deviantart.com/journal/3192221/ http://DerExitusEngel.deviantart.com/journal/3192221/ Mon, 23 Aug 2004 02:01:07 PDT ~DerExitusEngel http://DerExitusEngel.deviantart.com/journal/2923263/ http://DerExitusEngel.deviantart.com/journal/2923263/ Tue, 20 Jul 2004 00:39:40 PDT My vacation sucked major booty. I almost killed my cousin because she's such a spoiled rotten *****. She complains about everything, I tired to be nice and help her out but she whined about that too! Then we almost got into a fist fight but she wasn't worth it. So she called her other relatives and decided to leave for the rest of her vacation, away from me. Then her mother [my aunt] blamed EVERYTHING on me and said that she'd kick my ass herself. So needless to say, I cried and was pissed off and had the most cruddy "vacation" ever.
On another note. Alexis and I are no longer talking. Blah blah blah, big drama. It was mostly my fault. But he threw gasoline onto the already vigorous fire. I won't get into that ..
Yesterday I was driving around with my friends Mike and KK down a long strip of road and Mike decides to drive 115 f***ing mph! And guess what, there was a cop behind us the WHOLE time. He got pulled over and got a $115 ticket. He surely got out of that one lucky considering Clay County officers are a-holes and he could have gotten a $500 ticket and hauled off to jail. hah.
Scary .. I'm going to my drug and alcohol class this saturday so I can FINALLY get my permit [I should have had my license for a half year now] ||ehm|| Yeah .. But I feel that I'm finally ready for it. Never thought I would be. I'm so scared of cars. But I'm good now.

!! GOOD DAY TO YOU !! ]]> ~DerExitusEngel http://DerExitusEngel.deviantart.com/journal/2721057/ http://DerExitusEngel.deviantart.com/journal/2721057/ Tue, 22 Jun 2004 16:56:51 PDT .< Um .. I hate church .. All the people here are very much into church and such. I'm around a bunch of Bush freaks!! ||goes mental|| I won't be home until the 6th of July, so happy independence day everyone !! Lets not blow any fingers off this year. .. I've been taking care of 13 children in daycare at my grandmother's church for that vacation bible school junk. I've been kicked in the face plenty of times and such. ||sigh|| I really should be doing some homework .. but being on the computer is much more fun and I don't get many chances over here. My grandfather's stupid gateway computer. Bleh. Darno, I'm not as much of a southern girl as I thought I was. lol. I'm much more a city girl. Everyone here has grown up so much, I remember them as ity bitty little things. Now they're like close to 10 years old and such. Oh well ||sigh||>.< But anywho, I'm off now. LOVELY FEW WEEKS TO YOU ALL !!

!! I LOVE YOU ALEXIS !! ^.^ ]]> ~DerExitusEngel http://DerExitusEngel.deviantart.com/journal/2587672/ http://DerExitusEngel.deviantart.com/journal/2587672/ Sat, 05 Jun 2004 07:15:54 PDT
.. help .. ]]> ~DerExitusEngel http://DerExitusEngel.deviantart.com/journal/2547658/ http://DerExitusEngel.deviantart.com/journal/2547658/ Mon, 31 May 2004 03:40:12 PDT I got a strong cleaning chemical in my eye. Was walking up the stairs and the top came off and it fell and half the bottle got me right in the eye an some in my mouth. Damn, did that crap burn like all hell! So I flush my eye out with water for about 5 minutes and it still burns. So I call up poison control and he tells me to stick my head under a faucet and flush my eye out with cold water for a half hour because there was Aliline or Alkelide .. something to that effect [don't know how to spell it] in the cleaner and it causes more severe burns than acid. So I did that and called back because it still hurt and he told me to go to the ER because I probably burnt my eye. So I go to the ER and they flush my eye out once again and put some dye in my eye and stuck me under a black light to see how badly I actually burnt it. I burnt the cornea and a good portion of my eye. But she says it'll heal within the next 48 hours with the eye drop medicine stuff she gave me. Oh the joy .. but now I'm going to sleep and rest my poor eye. Tah tah.
!!GOOD DAY TO YOU !! ]]> ~DerExitusEngel http://DerExitusEngel.deviantart.com/journal/2533485/ http://DerExitusEngel.deviantart.com/journal/2533485/ Sat, 29 May 2004 04:08:46 PDT Feeling better, going shopping today, had the funniest moment with my Mother..ever.
Heh, was talking on the phone with Alexis and playing with the water thiny in the tub.
It's like putting together a puzzle without it knowing wtf it looks like! Frustrating.
But, I pulled a little piece out and BAM! Water shoots out at me and all over the bathroom and I'm holding the phone telling my Mother to shut off the water while trying to contain the water in the tub.
HAHAHAH Oh man .. water EVERYWHERE, I was soaking wet.
Too bad no one got that one on camera.
Anywho, on a sadder note, Mom saw my scars from previous cutting and I told her it was nothing .. luckily she's gullible and believed that they got cut from the cats and shaving my arms?
Heh .. thought it was a good excuse ..
I miss Issa! >.< Tell her to come back ]]> ~DerExitusEngel http://DerExitusEngel.deviantart.com/journal/2502629/ http://DerExitusEngel.deviantart.com/journal/2502629/ Tue, 25 May 2004 01:06:43 PDT I got bit by a tick on the 8th, and then the bite mark went away and it's back and looks .. hideous.
Maybe I should see a doctor?
But I don't like doctors ...
Which reminds me, I have a dentist apointment today.
I don't like dentists either.
Maybe I'll get ice cream ..
Sorry, just thinking outloud.
I'm going to Mississippi on the 18th I do believe.
Going to teach bible school to little children with my grandmother.
No, I don't believe in God or any of that.
But I love kids, gives me a chance to spend time with my grandmother, and I get to teach arts and crafts ! yAy!
Sorry for rambling about stupid things that are not of any kind of importance.
Ah, and I'd like to thank for making my avadar. ^.^' Lovliness!
Good day to you !! ]]> ~DerExitusEngel http://DerExitusEngel.deviantart.com/journal/2353994/ http://DerExitusEngel.deviantart.com/journal/2353994/ Mon, 03 May 2004 19:35:15 PDT Saw pictures of him from his senior ball, all my feelings of love flooded back into my heart and I wanted to be with him so bad. I talked to Alexis about it and of course he understood .. we had a really long talk and -o\ I cut myself for the first time in a couple months .. I was sure that he couldn't make things better this time.
But he always continues to amaze me, and he snapped me back into reality and made me realize that he is the one that I will love forever.
I didn't ever see how scary it could be to someone when a person they care for hurts themself .. until he threatened to hurt himself because I did so.
My heart sank deep under this thick black water and there was no way to reach the surface...
Now I know ... ]]> ~DerExitusEngel http://DerExitusEngel.deviantart.com/journal/2268101/ http://DerExitusEngel.deviantart.com/journal/2268101/ Wed, 21 Apr 2004 13:25:28 PDT I .. AM .. CLEANNN!
LoLz!
And..I burnt my leg with solder .. owwie.
Mommy is getting me some medicine for it now ^.^; YEY!
I just about got the pipes all together and fixed correctly, yes, it took that long to complete.
I am a first time plumber [w00t] I'm so good though. lolz
You really never know how good life is with indoor plumbing, until you don't have it for about a week.
I feel spoiled rotten just using water now haha
But at least the hard part is over.
^.^; Thanks everyone that cheered me up in the last journal.
Still trying to figure out how to put people's avadar thingers in my journal so that others can see *-shrugs-* I'll find out soon enough.
!!LOVELY DAY TO YOU!! ]]> ~DerExitusEngel http://DerExitusEngel.deviantart.com/journal/2242241/ http://DerExitusEngel.deviantart.com/journal/2242241/ Sat, 17 Apr 2004 12:20:22 PDT Well, I dyed my hair the other day and it was supposed to be dark brown, but, it's blackish color.
Then, my "Mother" breaks the faucet in my bathroom and now I'm stuck doing all this plumbing crap.
Tearing tiles out of the shower, cutting the wall, cutting pipes open, welding them back on fixing the wall and tiles blah blah blah.
So we haven't had water in about 3 days now.
Oh the joys of life.
I grew up with 3 brothers and always wanted an older sister, then my brother, Joshua, gets married to this girl and she was just like a big sister.
Until they got married, now she's just a stuck up bitch and that totally ruined it for me.
And at the wedding I wanted to be a part of it, something in the wedding and so she made me someone who shows people ot their seats which pissed me off.
And yesterday I just found out she doesn't want kids, and I've been waiting to be an aunt for such a long time.
Now I never will be an aunt except to kids either , A, I don't know. Or B, That aren't blood related.
So she's just out to ruin my life ..
The only damn thing keeping me going is TrAnce. [link]
But w/e .. good day to you! ]]> ~DerExitusEngel http://DerExitusEngel.deviantart.com/journal/2168344/ http://DerExitusEngel.deviantart.com/journal/2168344/ Tue, 06 Apr 2004 22:32:08 PDT [link] for the loss of a loved one. He's a great artist and you should check out his work!

April 6, 2004 - First of many anniversaries of Alexis and I.
He wrote me a beautiful poem and I just have to share it with .. everyone. LoLz. Of course I asked him permission before putting it on DA.

ANNIVERSARY by Alexis Vazquez
It's been one month, the intro to the first chapter...
you are my Queen, my Goddess, my Mistress and Master...
I forever and beyond belong to you always...
Kissing and holding you for so many days...
we celebrate on this day our first month in our unity...
walking together in our world stepping past infinity...
your hand touches your chest I feel it too...
your skin is my skin I live within you...
the first of endless Anniversaries...
our life filled with happiness and many stories...
Happy Anniversary baby, I love you without end...
we live for each other and our future children...
each day has been my greatest, being your man...
I can hardly wait, to be your husband...
getting on both knees taking your hand...
as I balance myself steady in the sand...
looking in your eyes expressing from half of your soul...
asking you a question with the answer I know...
on both knees because I worship you so...
no words to describe no way to ever show...
returning to my feet, complete in your embrace...
moving my head back to look at your face...
kissing you softly on your heavenly lips...
as I place my hands onto your hips...
we will then gaze upon the stars, as we lay...
now holding, in our home, your fiance. ]]> ~DerExitusEngel http://DerExitusEngel.deviantart.com/journal/2061393/ http://DerExitusEngel.deviantart.com/journal/2061393/ Mon, 22 Mar 2004 09:57:50 PST Well my weekend was actually pretty fun instead of it's long boring usual self. I got to go to the beach with Aaron and Issa, but the water was freakishly cold. Yet, after numbness kicked it, it wasn't so bad. Hehe We found jellyfish and burried one .. why .. I'm not really sure, but we did. Um, then we rented a weird movie .. Donnie Darko. Pretty good movie I suppose, kind of confusing though. Anywho, my father is supposed to come over today and help me fix my computer since it's being all weird on me. *-sigh-* Wish the computer illiterate girl some luck. Ah, yes, and sorry Marshall about not getting those pictures for you, have to get my camera fixed because it's acting all funky. Must be off now, until we meet again, Batman!!

!! Have A Lovely Day !! ]]> ~DerExitusEngel http://DerExitusEngel.deviantart.com/journal/2022604/ http://DerExitusEngel.deviantart.com/journal/2022604/ Tue, 16 Mar 2004 09:07:42 PST Yet it isn't the best since it was forced .. thats fine.
I had to do it .. I was scared that I lost my imagination
That is the last thing in the world that I need, the loss of imagination.
Anywho, ever since I left school seems like everything is whacked out.
It's all Issa's fault .. she causes too much trouble. lolz Love you Issa!
But .. other than that not too much has been happening.
Just thought I needed to update my journal and all.
So that you know I'm still alive .. yeah ..
Much love! <3

!!!Have A Lovely Day!!! ]]> ~DerExitusEngel http://DerExitusEngel.deviantart.com/journal/1944313/ http://DerExitusEngel.deviantart.com/journal/1944313/ Wed, 03 Mar 2004 09:43:27 PST Last month sucked so bad ..
I kept having really bad pain in my neck.
Turns out that I have a sprained neck and pinched nerves ..
Oh the freekin joy!

Ryan's b-day is the fifth.
We're still buddies.

I want to write some poetry but just haven't been able to concentrate for crap.
Oh wells. I suppose life isn't too bad.
I've got Alexis after all. -o)

GOOD DAY TO YOU !!!! ]]> ~DerExitusEngel http://DerExitusEngel.deviantart.com/journal/1862968/ http://DerExitusEngel.deviantart.com/journal/1862968/ Tue, 17 Feb 2004 18:39:57 PST Working on several different projects (lolz)
Why .. I suppose to keep my mind off things for a bit.

Hehehe Got film for my camera and I'm going to try to capture some photos for a project Marshall and I are thought of and are trying to put together.

Also attempting to draw a little something. Not so sure it'll come out as well as I want it (lolz) but then again what does?

Writing my Fantasy Lit I suppose you'd call it, of "Our Only Escape"
Also thinking about a project my friend Jon and I had, we started writing a little something. (hah) It's an insane story but pretty interesting. Maybe I'll start working on that after I get these other things completed.

Busy writing letters to people. Blah blah I hate writing letters, one thing that bores me. -yawn- Sending him a really good book that I read. I have to find it, it's somewhere in my room, which is a wreck! lolz!
I believe the book is called " Well of Darkness " Written by Tracy Hickman and someone else. Not absolute. But pretty confident that's it!

Hopefully I can keep my mind to these things and finish them. -crosses fingers- I'm such a nerd. GREAT DAY TO YOU!! -oP ]]> ~DerExitusEngel http://DerExitusEngel.deviantart.com/journal/1852142/ http://DerExitusEngel.deviantart.com/journal/1852142/ Sun, 15 Feb 2004 20:40:21 PST ~DerExitusEngel http://DerExitusEngel.deviantart.com/journal/1831191/ http://DerExitusEngel.deviantart.com/journal/1831191/ Thu, 12 Feb 2004 00:10:23 PST ~DerExitusEngel http://DerExitusEngel.deviantart.com/journal/1818051/ http://DerExitusEngel.deviantart.com/journal/1818051/ Mon, 09 Feb 2004 12:54:44 PST ~DerExitusEngel http://DerExitusEngel.deviantart.com/journal/1747651/ http://DerExitusEngel.deviantart.com/journal/1747651/ Mon, 26 Jan 2004 21:41:44 PST .. I need help .. ]]> ~DerExitusEngel http://DerExitusEngel.deviantart.com/journal/1690066/ http://DerExitusEngel.deviantart.com/journal/1690066/ Fri, 16 Jan 2004 12:28:39 PST ~DerExitusEngel http://DerExitusEngel.deviantart.com/journal/1682424/ http://DerExitusEngel.deviantart.com/journal/1682424/ Wed, 14 Jan 2004 23:14:45 PST ~DerExitusEngel http://DerExitusEngel.deviantart.com/journal/1658330/ http://DerExitusEngel.deviantart.com/journal/1658330/ Sat, 10 Jan 2004 13:09:44 PST ~DerExitusEngel http://DerExitusEngel.deviantart.com/journal/1640880/ http://DerExitusEngel.deviantart.com/journal/1640880/ Tue, 06 Jan 2004 21:44:47 PST much love for everyone who cares haha ]]> ~DerExitusEngel http://DerExitusEngel.deviantart.com/journal/1622187/ http://DerExitusEngel.deviantart.com/journal/1622187/ Sat, 03 Jan 2004 01:26:02 PST
Song that best describes me: Staind-Epiphany ]]> ~DerExitusEngel http://DerExitusEngel.deviantart.com/journal/1584187/ http://DerExitusEngel.deviantart.com/journal/1584187/ Thu, 25 Dec 2003 22:19:31 PST Yikez .. I went to Samantha's house .. she's a "friend" that I'm kind of in an argument with .. since Halloween. Anywho .. I still gave her a nice Xmas present and she was like .. " why are you giving me this i thought you hated me ?!" I'm mad at her now because she doesn't believe that I've quit all the stupid things that I used to do .. and she chose a stupid selfish whore that lies a lot about everything .. she chose her over me . *- sigh-* oh well .. shit happens and life goes on .. Merry Christmas to all of you! ]]> ~DerExitusEngel http://DerExitusEngel.deviantart.com/journal/1554481/ http://DerExitusEngel.deviantart.com/journal/1554481/ Thu, 18 Dec 2003 22:12:50 PST Now more than ever I want to die ever so slowly. Everything has been taken from me. I'm locked inside my little cramped box and I'm becoming chlosterphobic. I can't find the way out, I'm stupid, I need a big light up sign above the door that says " EXIT ". Ryan said " goodbye forever " .. I'm so heartbroken .. I think that " Love Tragedy " will be my last poem for awhile. I don't know, maybe I'll find something to write about. My talent went away with everything else, that poem has all that is left of me at this point. .. I'm also starting to wonder if I should have showed him the poem " Believe " .. he hasn't seen it because I was waiting to send it to him with his X-mas gift .. but I guess I messed up. But .. thats what you can expect from Autumn , to mess everything up. Oh well, I guess life goes on .. I'm confused , someone help me please ]]> ~DerExitusEngel http://DerExitusEngel.deviantart.com/journal/1541017/ http://DerExitusEngel.deviantart.com/journal/1541017/ Mon, 15 Dec 2003 22:26:12 PST ~DerExitusEngel http://DerExitusEngel.deviantart.com/journal/1527690/ http://DerExitusEngel.deviantart.com/journal/1527690/ Fri, 12 Dec 2003 23:30:31 PST ~DerExitusEngel http://DerExitusEngel.deviantart.com/journal/1516505/ http://DerExitusEngel.deviantart.com/journal/1516505/ Wed, 10 Dec 2003 13:40:14 PST ~!- Autumn -!~ ]]> ~DerExitusEngel http://DerExitusEngel.deviantart.com/journal/1513916/ http://DerExitusEngel.deviantart.com/journal/1513916/ Tue, 09 Dec 2003 21:05:54 PST ~DerExitusEngel