http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:Desperish&section=today deviantART RSS for by:Desperish en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Tue, 08 Dec 2009 01:36:18 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://Desperish.deviantart.com/journal/28429195/ http://Desperish.deviantart.com/journal/28429195/ Wed, 18 Nov 2009 09:18:57 PST We've gotten new lessons at school. Which, is good. One of them is designing artwork (which basically means I get to draw the shit I always draw- but for school) and learning flash, HTML....etc etc
so anyway
I went to school today, with ma WIP angel for photoshop design class (was looking forward to it, wanted to know what my teacher would say) turns out the teacher is sick.
I wasted a train ticket. They didn't mail me while it was already known yesterday. I mean...
well I have got even less free time as before, and I need to work on my portofolio... thank goodness I can do that in class but I had so many shiz I wanted to do first. Play games, roleplay and write epic plots, draw some drawings, finish a small movie but NOOOOO. Well whatever. I am doing this. I cna do this, I must do this. Yeah.

Did I mention I preordered AC2? I get it tomorrow.
Even less free time. 8|

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]]> ~Desperish http://Desperish.deviantart.com/journal/28071847/ http://Desperish.deviantart.com/journal/28071847/ Sat, 31 Oct 2009 18:14:04 PDT IMMA LET YOU FINISH BUT THIS JOURNAL WAS ONE OF THE BEST OF ALL TIME

okay now that that is out of my system, I have a favor to ask for an upcoming drawing. Hurr.
Aside from the hellbeast I am working on ATM, I have another thingie planned and I am requesting you people kindly,
please post "You will not break me!" in your mother language. C8
I have these:
-English
-Dutch
-Finnish
-Polish
-Welsh

and sorry Estelle I lost the French version :'D

also please post /what/ language it is. Thanks so much!
Also, Happy Halloween!

]]> ~Desperish http://Desperish.deviantart.com/journal/27988075/ http://Desperish.deviantart.com/journal/27988075/ Tue, 27 Oct 2009 00:42:23 PDT !
She took the effort to report the art theft to me. And the problem has been solved~!
GO AND PRAISE HER AND LOVE HER. She deserves that.

]]> ~Desperish http://Desperish.deviantart.com/journal/27974401/ http://Desperish.deviantart.com/journal/27974401/ Mon, 26 Oct 2009 09:14:23 PDT My art was stolen :'DD
They used Wither's newest picture (the cat) on neopets 8| and even called their pet Withuer. I mean, whut. xD thank goodness someone sent me a note.
I lol'd, then went FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU
then went what's this I don't even
and THEN I felt both angry and flattered. BUT, reported said person.

first time someone stole my shiz.

]]> ~Desperish http://Desperish.deviantart.com/journal/27178921/ http://Desperish.deviantart.com/journal/27178921/ Sat, 12 Sep 2009 21:00:26 PDT But for now, I will.
I’ve gone off to my new school. Rough start, but a fantastic class. I’m the only girl- it’s a Gamedesign course and I hadn’t expected that my class to be so nice. I guess they just weren’t used to a gamer with a vagina, but I’ve made some friends, and the first conversation was started thanks to a dumb little doodle of Wither. Thanks, man. I’ll cherish you forever. Can you believe it? He’s even earning me friends these days!

Alright, I have recently received my new laptop which enables me to contact people much more efficient, something I am happy with- because I have noticed that for some reason I am never around when people need me. Well, now I am. Cheers.
Aside from that, the laptop is lovely. He’s black which means you see every fucking little stain on it but so be it. Pretty, he is! And huge, holy crap! Black and huge. Sounds like the ad for a porn site. God we had a lot of fun picking a name for the network. I wanted to do something like “Batcave” or whatever, but ended up with Behemoth, because that’s badass. No, don’t ask. Please.

Main reason why I am so happy with this baby I am typing this journal on right now is that I get to role-play so much more. And my goodness, I have been doing that a lot lately. The flame that fueled my love for role-playing had silently been fading away until a certain person offered to role-play- and now that crappy little flame is like an incinerating inferno. And he gave birth to Tristan. New character, and developed a lot already- I can’t say that of many of my characters. I’m happy.

Too bad however that all this role-playing has been affecting my drawing and sleeping- and on both subjects I am not talking about the quality (which isn’t that high for both –yawn-) but about the quantity, frankly. Drawing is taking me long but that is also because I have gotten better, a bit. And I guess I don’t like leaving things half done- if I begin it I better make it epic. And thus dear traders, be patient. C: I am sorry but my role-playing is extremely, EXTREMELY important to me. It has saved me in dark times and I cherish it. Please respect that or GTFO. /shot

Speaking of role-playing, Wither has developed an insane amount lately! He’s getting more and more insane and scary- while being an utter sweetcake to Surge. With other words, he’s becoming like me. I feel the terrible need to draw him in pink fake leather hotpants with some leather leashes while licking blood of his favorite metal whip. I approve. Do you?

]]> ~Desperish http://Desperish.deviantart.com/journal/26913326/ http://Desperish.deviantart.com/journal/26913326/ Sun, 30 Aug 2009 10:48:33 PDT Finished the commision and the texture for the temple, now the trades will be next.
So 1. Rainy
2. Symphony and
3. Flicka0123,

inn that order, keep yer eyes peeled~

]]> ~Desperish http://Desperish.deviantart.com/journal/26604044/ http://Desperish.deviantart.com/journal/26604044/ Sat, 15 Aug 2009 06:47:39 PDT
I got work everyday, and I need the moneyz...I'm working on a commision with an insane amount of details <- my own fault -> I'm working on the texture of a mesh, I still got to finish my part of a trade...

So this is how I'll do it:
-Work goes first
- Then my commision
-Then the texture of the mesh
- and then the trade. 8|

I roleplay and doodle in between that.

GOOD PLAN, NO

]]> ~Desperish http://Desperish.deviantart.com/journal/25643138/ http://Desperish.deviantart.com/journal/25643138/ Tue, 30 Jun 2009 03:11:33 PDT
I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.

I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.

I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.

We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.

I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.

I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.

I am one of the lucky ones, I guess. I survived the attack that left me in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able to walk again.

I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.

We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.

I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.

I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.

I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.

I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.

I am the man who died when the paramedics stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual.

I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I didn’t have to always deal with society hating me.

I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.

I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.

I am the person who is afraid of telling his loving Christian parents he loves another male.

I am the child who left school early after being beat up daily because I like boys.

I am the transvestite who gets called terrible names just because I like being a woman.

We are the lesbian couple who can’t go to church anymore because of the harassment.

I am the man who was kicked out of the army for kissing another soldier.

I am the teenager who killed myself because I couldn’t take being hated for being me.

I am the homeless man who can’t get a job because I’m a transsexual.

I am the woman who was revered as a goddess in her homeland and now can’t leave her home without being insulted.

I am the father who lost custody of his son because I live with another man.

I am the girl who can’t be herself because she knows people will shun her and push her away.

I am the therapist who watched a patient die slowly for being gay and not confiding in anyone.

I am the mother who kicked her daughter out for getting a sex-change.

I am the person who had the power to help my gay friend but decided not to and had to watch him die from the pain.

I am the preacher who loves a man but says the homosexuality is wrong or I’ll be fired.

I am the policeman who had to solve a case where two men were murdered for being in love.

Repost this if you believe homophobia is wrong.

]]> ~Desperish http://Desperish.deviantart.com/journal/24143303/ http://Desperish.deviantart.com/journal/24143303/ Thu, 09 Apr 2009 08:31:10 PDT
...yeah. That was probably it. 8D

]]> ~Desperish http://Desperish.deviantart.com/journal/23624895/ http://Desperish.deviantart.com/journal/23624895/ Tue, 10 Mar 2009 11:37:51 PDT
-goes off somewhere else to unleash the motherfucking fury of caps-

]]> ~Desperish http://Desperish.deviantart.com/journal/23373946/ http://Desperish.deviantart.com/journal/23373946/ Mon, 23 Feb 2009 23:44:19 PST
I’m back! (You’re all like damnit ;_; it had been so quiet) I have had the intake conversation and well…it went horrible. She said I was better off eating roadkill.

Did I fool ya?

It went absolutely great! <3 she said that she was surprised that I had so much (say what? xD) experience with photoshop, she was impressed of my skills and of the way I try to make things look real and organic (Wanna have roasted rock? It’s organic! <- that’s from shrek. Brilliant.) and that I knew anatomy of the animals so well. (lol no)
But whatever , she was very content, and I just got my grade-list which was really good so you can imagine my mood. <33

]]> ~Desperish http://Desperish.deviantart.com/journal/23055139/ http://Desperish.deviantart.com/journal/23055139/ Sat, 07 Feb 2009 07:03:49 PST my nerves are KILLING ME
Seriously, my heart is pounding like fuck, as if it will pop out my chest any moment.

You see, I just got a letter from the school I realllllly want to do once I'm done with this one. It's Gamedesign, how awesome is that?
The letter said I've been invited to an intake conversation. sdnasjdasdlasd my nerves are stabbing in my brains, I feel like my legs are made of jelly.

Maybe I am excaggerating, I most likely are, but I really want to do this, and there's a good chance I'll be accepted but still ;_;

]]> ~Desperish http://Desperish.deviantart.com/journal/22372081/ http://Desperish.deviantart.com/journal/22372081/ Sat, 03 Jan 2009 11:06:56 PST late merry christmas and happy new year y'all

I'm totally better~

]]> ~Desperish http://Desperish.deviantart.com/journal/22134342/ http://Desperish.deviantart.com/journal/22134342/ Tue, 23 Dec 2008 04:24:36 PST I'm totally feeling better now and I've learned a lesson- two cans of energy drink is too much.
I had a virus, but that was probably the thing that got me vomiting.

But I'm better now. I've missed:
1. A trip to Amsterdam
2. The school's Christmas Ball
3. and with that, the chance to see friends in a tuxedo.

A goddamn TUXEDO. Those things are sexy and I missed my chance. -sigh-

O well. Happy holidays everyone!

]]> ~Desperish http://Desperish.deviantart.com/journal/22046805/ http://Desperish.deviantart.com/journal/22046805/ Thu, 18 Dec 2008 10:12:24 PST
I threw up. Big time. In the toilet -I am awesome- but, I threw up. I've been sick till then.
It is a school week so seen from one point of view it's nice. No school. But it means not seeing my awesome friends. AND IN THIS CASE, it means I have missed a trip to Amsterdam I was looking SO much forward to, and Christmas...Gala? Like, Christmas Ball. I wanted to go to both so bad, so at the moment I stil feel quite sick but also so sad, damnit.

Not a nice december, so far. ._.

]]> ~Desperish http://Desperish.deviantart.com/journal/21591112/ http://Desperish.deviantart.com/journal/21591112/ Fri, 21 Nov 2008 01:07:24 PST It takes the already low quality of my gallery down, lol.

But anyway!
I'll colour them later. Will be much work but I feel like doing it and if I want to be accepted to the education called "gamedesign" I'll need some nice drawings and I think they'll do just fine. I'll go and colour them awesomely! xD

Maybe you've already noticed, but I don't know mcuh to say. I've only just got up and I'm already in class...I shouldn't be writing this, but shhh.

Oh, and we've got a ps3! <333 and the best thing is, dad bought it. And Assasin's Creed. And Call of Duty 4. Isn't he awesome?

]]> ~Desperish http://Desperish.deviantart.com/journal/21310890/ http://Desperish.deviantart.com/journal/21310890/ Tue, 04 Nov 2008 02:38:53 PST I´m at school now. Biologyclass normally, but the teacher is sick as hell. Screw him, he should turn up anyway. I like Biology. And I dunno if that´s written correctly but I-don´t-care. And I don´t like free hours, my days at school are like a cheddar cheese, seriously.
It´s been long since I´ve submitted anything, anyway.
No drawings. -_- frankly, I´m a bit lazy nowadays and I have lots of shit that I can scan but that I don´t scan. But I will.
Promise.

]]> ~Desperish http://Desperish.deviantart.com/journal/19658187/ http://Desperish.deviantart.com/journal/19658187/ Tue, 29 Jul 2008 09:59:01 PDT Yesh I am. I went to France for vacation and it was super-mega AWESOME. I loved it!
We went to Paris and acted like all tourists should do- we have visited the Eiffeltower, the Notre Dame, we saw Louvre (is that spelled right?) we took a boat tour AND a bustour...and both killed us, for it. Was. O. So. HOT. We were boiled alive, but it was still awesome. :3
We went to Disneyland and oh, it was so cooool *A* We went in a lot of attractions, and had lots of fun, and we bought lovely stuff.
Then we went to Normandie, wich was not bad either, but especially my father had a good time- for all the stuff that happened there in the second world war. We went to some museums and stuff. Not bad either, although I liked Paris better.

But hey, home sweet home, right? <3

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