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From Claire I got a Sansa Fuse MP3 Player. YAY!!!! Finally an MP3 player that does not play all the songs I upload on it in one playlist. I am currently 260/622 done rating songs. The second thing she got me was a portable hard drive so I can save all my projects and shit on it. I also plan on finding a way to put my anime on it so I can upload it to my sansa fuze and randomly watch anime when I am bored. Wont be much though, 4 GB Sansa with a 2 GB sd card mini in it. THe third thing she got me is the Freakazoid cartoon DVD. I LOVED THAT CARTOON WHEN I WAS A KID! So do most of my friends. She gets bored of it easily though. We "watched it to many times" after finishing it once... on the 14th. I played it again today for Wayne. *shrugs* Whatever. She grew up with educational TV and I grew up with Freakazoid.

Appearently though, a few days before, Claire was talking to my dad about what James should get me. My dad responded "Why not what I got him, nothing." and proceeded to joke about how I am worth shit and so forth. I am so pissed at him. He has no fucking right to say such a thing.

]]> ~Deth2mainstreamlove http://Deth2mainstreamlove.deviantart.com/journal/19855787/ http://Deth2mainstreamlove.deviantart.com/journal/19855787/ Sat, 09 Aug 2008 01:54:56 PDT
"I am fully committed to creating this comic, I assure you of this. But I need one more week of relaxing for good reason. Randomly, on the night of the seventh, some jack ass mother fucker pushed me over, caused my head to hit the cement and then ran off and jumped into a van, I kid you not. I am fine, I have survived two concussions in my life, this was nothing compared to that. But I need a week to make sure everything in my head is... normal to me. Plus some healing time wont hurt.

On the brighter side of things, my birthday is coming up on the 14th of this month. And my dad will be gone for 6 days starting on the 20th of this month."

]]> ~Deth2mainstreamlove http://Deth2mainstreamlove.deviantart.com/journal/19711323/ http://Deth2mainstreamlove.deviantart.com/journal/19711323/ Fri, 01 Aug 2008 02:38:39 PDT
*1. Post these rules.
*2. Each tagged person must post 8 things about their self on their journal.
*3. At the end, you have to choose and tag 8 people and post their icons on the same journal.
*4. Go to their pages and send a message saying you tagged them.
*5. No tag-backs.

j0, this is me:

1. I can get extremely paranoid.

2. I am working on a manga in another account of which I may not be able to post for this week.

3. When I get extremely tired, I see things.

4. I am turning 20 on August 14th... and I hate it.

5. I need a lot more Manga, I want so much manga that is covors an entire wall in an office sized room.

6. Coffee equals life. My body is the most productive when on an unhealthy diet. (I rarely ever drink water [with the exception of tea] I drink water at most once a month)

7. Though i may seem social around my friends, I honestly hate approaching new people and meeting them in real life.

8. Though mistaken for a stoner, I have never touched weed or any other drug in my entire life.

I shall tag:
:Fluffythesis: :Songeln: :gothicgummybear: ai-baif still alive. 0.o) apaw: touto: rincessNut: :wolfehzero:

]]> ~Deth2mainstreamlove http://Deth2mainstreamlove.deviantart.com/journal/19501031/ http://Deth2mainstreamlove.deviantart.com/journal/19501031/ Sun, 20 Jul 2008 13:52:52 PDT
XDD Don't ask, I got bored and decided to type secret and all it's other variations as much as I can in one paragraph. But yeah... I've been working on a manga in the background that is not one that anyone on deviant art knew about... until now.

It is called Angels Unearthed. It is going to be pretty fun. I made my first post of the first page on the account. Click here to see it: [link] My friends are going to kinda help me with it by putting in random comics when I am feeling sick or dead. Go, go fourth... check it out.

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Bleach: 4554-0999-4177

FullMetal Alchemist TCG: 1633-5910-8820

Pokemon Pearl: 5026-2000-5152

Zelda Phantom Hourglass: 1246-8734-1309

]]> ~Deth2mainstreamlove http://Deth2mainstreamlove.deviantart.com/journal/19378613/ http://Deth2mainstreamlove.deviantart.com/journal/19378613/ Sun, 13 Jul 2008 19:49:24 PDT
Other than her making me realize this it seems as though no body cares as to how much hell my life is at the house I am in now (living with my dad, which is the thing that Claire made me notice). I have been helping everyone with their life issues and no one seems to give a shit about mine. I want to move out once I get a job but Claire does not want me to for her convenience.

It is really pissing me off and getting me down and everything to the point where I almost want to cry. .... WHERE THE FUCK IS THE DEATHNOTE???!!!?!?!?!???!!!??!?!?!?!?

]]> ~Deth2mainstreamlove http://Deth2mainstreamlove.deviantart.com/journal/19118856/ http://Deth2mainstreamlove.deviantart.com/journal/19118856/ Sun, 29 Jun 2008 23:17:37 PDT ____________________________

So, Claire and I went to Wayne's house and talked to his parents so we could get information so I could work at a job for $11 an hour. That's a little less then $2 over min. wage. So his mom told us that Wayne's bike was pawned by none other than Wayne. I went outside to where Wayne was with his G/F Kasey. (To those who are local, yes they are dating, they changed their my space profile from single to taken in the same day.)

"Wayne, Where was your bike?" I asked in the kind of tone you would use to a dog that just crapped in your room.

"No where." He responded.

"Wayne, where is your bike?"

"It's in the front lawn, didn't you see it?"

"Wayne, where was it when it was stolen?"

"I sold my soul..."

"Wayne, where WAS it when it was STOLEN?"

"I pawned it."

"You lied to me Wayne, don't lie to me again. Next time you do I will make sure that no one can recognize that you are male."

I got half way back to the house when he said "Wait, did you just threaten to castrate me?"

I shook my head. "No Wayne, worse than that."

So my full plan is to kidnap him, pump him full of female hormones until he shows signs of sexual change. Then, before I release him, I will cover him in female crow or seagull hormones so that male crows or seagulls will never leave him alone and possibly attack him. *nods*

Oh and if any of you think it's a stupid idea to post this when he can read it because he'll just run and hide, I have something to say to you. The thrill is not in the hunt, but in the chase.

]]> ~Deth2mainstreamlove http://Deth2mainstreamlove.deviantart.com/journal/19066550/ http://Deth2mainstreamlove.deviantart.com/journal/19066550/ Thu, 26 Jun 2008 23:06:05 PDT
Let us see here now... what is going on in Ansel's little world... A lot of people around here, in mount vernon, are acting Gangsta and are actually starting to jump people. They are acting like Crypts and it is pissing me off/making me laugh. Through out the entire city I have not seen a Blood member so... there is not really a point to being in a gang. Of course, if you ask be, being in one is extremely stupid anyway. Where the fuck did the Juggelos go? I liked them. They didnt start stupid fights, they finished them.

I am trying to figure out how to actually accomplish making a comic since I am still out of the job. Of course, I dont really think I am that good at it anyway but *shrugs* if people like it, then people like it and I wont know till I post.

]]> ~Deth2mainstreamlove http://Deth2mainstreamlove.deviantart.com/journal/18821908/ http://Deth2mainstreamlove.deviantart.com/journal/18821908/ Fri, 13 Jun 2008 14:01:29 PDT
Yeah... I hate sleep now... well not really. I like to sleep. I like to go to bed when I feel tired and slowly drift on my soft and comfy bed. I DON'T, however, like to stay up really late, try to sleep, can't sleep, and finally black out into a dream like I was knocked out. I do not like that. Then I wake up dreary, head hurty, and body numby...

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I have finally finished my Book of Shadows. Well... the prerequisite of it. The quick of the quick reference. The rest will be filled in with my own inventions of charms, spells, and rituals.

I had three books to learn from. I shall list them in order of importance: The Complete Book of Witchcraft (by: Raymond Buckland), The Gothic Craft: The Magickal Side of Dark Culure (by: Raven Digitalis), and The Ultimate Book of Shadows for the New Generation: Solitary Witch (by: Silver Raven Wolf).

The Complete Book of Witchcraft by Raymond Buckland is a great book to start off a Book of Shadows (a wiccan book of personal rituals and spells and such). This book DOES NOT cover only one belief system, rather most, if not all, the rituals and information is neutral and can spark a start to creating your own rituals. It also gives information about the various types of Wiccans. It is also a good place to find your specialty as a Wiccan/Pagan whatever.

The Gothic Craft by Raven Digitalis is a personal favorite of mine. Though the only information I put into my Book of Shadows from it is the spiritual Symbols they had within. Other than that the book is a very entertaining read and shows (from compare and contrast of the "invocation of the god/dess" in The Gothic Craft and The Complete Book of Witchcraft) how personalized your rituals, charms and spells actually can be. Also, if you don't understand the dark culture (meaning goth and punk by this I mean ONLY GOTH and ONLY PUNK not emos) but wish to look into it, understand it, or whatever, you should read this book.

After reading these two books and learning and knowing what is truth or not from personal research, you can now read Solitary Witch by Silver Raven Wolf. I say that because most of this book is propaganda. It is the Wiccan equivalent to Christians coming up to you randomly and trying to convert you to "the truth of Jesus Christ" and "the only truth". The intention of audience for this book are teenagers and young adults (16-21 possibly) but is written in a way that appeals to 10-14 year olds who are being pagan MOST-likely to be "rebellious" with a certain undertone that leads me to believe that she/he whatever thinks 10=14 year olds are the same as 4-8 year olds. A lot of the book is bullshit like "how to bless your first car" and the section about sigils which may be the MOST bullshit part of the book. Silver takes a couplet, takes all the first letters of each word in it and makes a monogram and calls it a sigil. To make a sigil you need to know numerology and what the magical square is.

These three books use the word "magick" instead of "magic" which was a concept brought up by Crowely. Honestly, there is no difference in the word except for the fact that "magick" is not in the dictionary and "magic" is. Does the "k" make that much of a difference? No. It just shows how sensitive you are. Some witches get pissed if you use "magic" instead of "magick" which pisses me off. Its so trivial it doesn't even matter. My view on it, use which ever word you want because you want to. Don't get pissy over it because the dictionary knows all that is good and proper English, magick is slang, not a word. Bite me.

]]> ~Deth2mainstreamlove http://Deth2mainstreamlove.deviantart.com/journal/18733827/ http://Deth2mainstreamlove.deviantart.com/journal/18733827/ Sun, 08 Jun 2008 16:02:58 PDT
The upshot of having an apprentice, or the goal if you will, is to open up someones mind to the truthS (emphasis on the plural of the word truth) that are out there. That there is no one way to enlightenment and happiness. I mean, if you are Christian and never harmed no one and some one else is Wiccan and never harmed anyone, and a third person is Muslim and never harmed anyone, and all three of you are very studied in your beliefs, what is the real difference in enlightenment? All three of you have your different opinions and views as to heaven and hell and god, but if you never harmed anyone and never did anything bad intentionally then what is the difference of your enlightenment? None, they are all one in the same. The rituals, the stories, and the name(s) of the god(s) (and/or goddesses) are different, but the enlightenment and the wisdom is the same.

I never quite understood how people can be so hard headed about heaven and hell and try to save people from their "impending eternal doom of flames and sulfur" when it is all in the same. What I find very funny, as well as Claire does is that, the diagram of hell (which is actually a metaphor for a government) is in a straight line or pyramid. The diagram of god, however, and the things that follow with his love is in the diagram of a circle. God being in the middle and all others being equally as far from god for god loves all equally and blah blah blah. But most Christians and Catholics view god's diagram as a straight line, much like hell, and there for they are all caught up in hell and looking at god totally in false belief. Not that the stories are wrong and their god is wrong nor the rituals, but their diagram of him is wrong.

But now I am babbling which is getting away from the point, kind of. Anyway, I want a younger apprentice that can study safely under my wing, so to speak. But that is very difficult to find. I also want to do Tarot readings for extra cash BUT I need to get my self in the right mentality so I am not further spiritually fucked than I already am. I can't do readings for money for that would be greedy, instead I have to do it to help people and the money is only a type of mandatory gift rather than reward. If that makes sense. Birthdays have mandatory gifts, though that is only under social rules and self paranoia on what others will think if you arrive empty handed.

... birthdays confuse me. You were born, YAY! Here is your reward.... wtf?

]]> ~Deth2mainstreamlove http://Deth2mainstreamlove.deviantart.com/journal/18619414/ http://Deth2mainstreamlove.deviantart.com/journal/18619414/ Sun, 01 Jun 2008 23:54:08 PDT
Currently I am in hiding... kinda... so tempted to just "die" on a lot of people. To disappear and never show my face again. I fucked up... really really badly. All of it, once again, is my fault. Why? Because I am a dumb fuck... and extremely stupid dumb ass mother fucker.

I really don't know what to do anymore... at all... it all gots fucked up and all explody with doom and impending doom and pre-doom syndrome with post-doom syndrome as well. So close to final redemption, so close to final forgiveness and I fuck up. Or maybe I fucked up before hand... or maybe my mom and dad fucked up by having me but that is not the case here.

Basically I can some everything up with one Jhonny the Homicidal Maniac quote: "Its funny, Pinoccio is a real boy now, but his wiring is all fucked up."

Oh, and FYI: The speed racer movie sucked ballz. That and I saw MSI live.

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Oh, and Claire? Be at my house roughly at 10 or 11 pm and bring some fags, I'm gonna need them.

today is the 25th, I leave the 27th... goddammit...

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Sweeny Todd came up missing. There was a stack of games and movies in Chaye's room that I looked for it in. It seems like a miracle that I "missed" seeing it on the very bottom of the stack of 8-10 games and movies. *cough cough cough*

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]]> ~Deth2mainstreamlove http://Deth2mainstreamlove.deviantart.com/journal/18318989/ http://Deth2mainstreamlove.deviantart.com/journal/18318989/ Wed, 14 May 2008 11:01:32 PDT
When I look further into their profiles, their art is extremely good. They have comics or paintings close to that, if not, masterpieces. So after being on deviantart for a few years, it seems that there is no point to even bother. I want to be noticed but all my friends on here who are watching me seem to be the only people willing to listen.

But none of that truly matters, especially now. There is no point to even bother writing by my self or drawing by my self or even breathing if I choose to give up because of the lack of comment loves from random admirers. All what this information tells me is that I need to work more and work harder on what I love to do until finally something pops out for everyone else. There is a lot of competition that goes on in the background of art and literature and it all goes to the Shakespeare quote of "Alls fair in love and war."

I can't just give up. It's to easy and I HATE things that are to easy. There are so many easy routes and exits I can take right now in my life and they are all oh so tempting. But it's not me, for better or for worse, and therefore I cannot do it. I have a lot of people looking up to me, supporting me, wanting to see me shine. So I can't just fall back and throw in the towel. I may "die" every once in awhile and disappear, but by no means does that mean I will remain that way or that I have given up.

I don't want to disappear anymore. I made a horrible mistake by doing that in the past. I disappeared for 6 years. I died for 6 years and when I finally made an appearance there were so many things going on that I wanted to do it again. But I didn't, I refuse to. If I disappear now on the one person I love, there will be no reason to live at all anymore. I refuse to make that mistake once again.

So, never again. I will always be known as a Writer, if nothing else. I will always be known as a Leo, a leader. I will always be known to represent the heart and fire, the passion and love and determination that everyone needs to be successful in life. I may not be rich, but I know that I am successful and forever will be.

]]> ~Deth2mainstreamlove http://Deth2mainstreamlove.deviantart.com/journal/18316391/ http://Deth2mainstreamlove.deviantart.com/journal/18316391/ Wed, 14 May 2008 06:46:32 PDT
All right... another update just for Chaye-ko... this is annoying... Your lucky I love you Chaye-ko!!!


I discovered that as each day passes with Chaye, I am feeling more and more like my self. Like I am coming out of my wonderland finally, or out of a long movie in theater and out to the bright sun. I become some what depressed when Chaye is not around, which is fine, but its worse when Cindy is the first person to rape all 5 of my senses. Her slightly sexist views and her power trips really piss me off and it makes the Leo in me want to come out and shut her up. She is a fucking P.E. Teacher and I am skinny as fuck, but Crissy needs a real man in her house to help her paint.... what?

Anyway, enough of that. I have not had a cherry coke in forever until last night and it was like omfg jiz in my mouth. The only soda I have had recently is fucking Diet Pepsi and if that's gone, I drink tea. "I made some crystal light tea, why don't you have some of that?" "Cindy, your a weight watcher and I respect that, but how can you trust a tea that is a powder and not the actual herbs? You didn't make tea, you made kool-aid."

Well, Cindy is giving me an office upstairs... on the middle floor... with no doors.... just windows, right next to the living room.... so I don't have to carry my stuff up and down all the time. *headdesk headdesk* I like privacy and working on things in darkness, like my art and such. I have a laptop, carrying it isn't that much trouble. Mainly, when I move down here, I hope Cindy will be to distracted by her wedding so she can't "help" me un pack and put things away.

]]> ~Deth2mainstreamlove http://Deth2mainstreamlove.deviantart.com/journal/18301823/ http://Deth2mainstreamlove.deviantart.com/journal/18301823/ Tue, 13 May 2008 08:27:37 PDT
Sickly

I have been feeling pretty sick. Today, one of the main issues of it was Cindy, Chaye's soon to be step mom, was the first human I saw today and heard and spoke to. And yes, this makes all the difference. It pisses me off, I am so use to seeing Chaye first thing in the morning.

Cindy is extremely hypocritical. I often sleep in Chaye's room on the floor and Cindy is getting pissed at that. I hate not sleeping in there. When I do sleep in there I feel that I am needed, even if I am not, and that when Chaye needs me I am next to her bed (though I wish I was on it). It's all fine and well that Cindy is concerned over this fact. But she wishes to marry Rick, Chaye's dad. In order for this to happen, Rick is not allowed to, by church rules, move in with Cindy until AFTER the wedding which is on August 23 of this year. If short term memory serves me right, and it does, my condition for staying here in Kentucky for the extra time was to HELP RICK MOVE INTO CINDY'S HOUSE.

So let us look at this from a metaphorical stand point. Chaye's room is the house, and I am moving in to it before marriage. Let us ignore the fact that neither Cindy nor Rick know we are dating nor will they know until the opportune moment. This would essentially be exactly the same, if not mimicking, the sin of which Cindy, as an adult, is laying on the table as an example for us. I am tired of her bullshit lies and soon all truth will be known to her. Soon I will move out and confess who I really am, what I am to Chaye, and that I will not apologize for it nor will I EVER apologize for being who I am and doing as I feel is right.

Maybe, just maybe, if Cindy had done her studies and staid in school, maybe she would know more about me and my actions. But no, she doesn't know. But she will, she will know soon, and when I tell her everything, all hell will break loose and there is nothing Cindy can do about it. I have been sugar coating things for so long, its pissing me off.

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But then, of course, if I did that, Chaye would not be able to read whats going on in my brain (is that necessarily a bad thing? I dont even want to know. XDD) and why I am fritzing out all over the fucking place. So I think I will do a copy and paste, for the most part, from one account to another so that you all, but ultimately Chaye, can be updated on DA which is the only proxy Chaye-ko knows.

Oh, and yes, Chaye, you can use my laptop if you want. I could even let you use the wacom tablet if you want to try drawing directly on the computer, but be warned, its hard as fuck sometimes.

So... doo dood doo, whats going on now. Well, I think I left my body last night in my sleep. I walked all the way out to the horses and watched them go into the barn to rest, then I believe I closed the barn doors and then blacked the rest of it out.... OH, and, the house I am in... is haunted beyond all reason.

]]> ~Deth2mainstreamlove http://Deth2mainstreamlove.deviantart.com/journal/18287705/ http://Deth2mainstreamlove.deviantart.com/journal/18287705/ Mon, 12 May 2008 11:09:52 PDT
Oh, and by the way, FUCK THIS SHIT, see you on live journal. I'll still post art and shit here though, I am just tired of no one fucking reading my shit, like thats anything new.

[link]

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Now playing: Mindless Self Indulgence - Evening Wear
via FoxyTunes

]]> ~Deth2mainstreamlove http://Deth2mainstreamlove.deviantart.com/journal/18206689/ http://Deth2mainstreamlove.deviantart.com/journal/18206689/ Wed, 07 May 2008 04:49:46 PDT
Ok, anyway, now that that's out. Here are the updates. I broke up with Claire to be with Chaye (who has been my friend ever since I was 2 and she is the only person who knows me and gets me the most) and to follow my heart for a happier life. If I would have staide with Claire, then deep down I would have just used her to get information out of my step dad, whom of which wont give it to me till I marry. I saw that that was going to happen so I called it off.

Chaeley and I have been dating for about 3 days now and I couldnt be happier, relationship wise anyway. I mean, its been forever since I have seen anyone light up a room when they walk in as much as she does.

Ok, enough of the mushy mushy bullshit that you might not care about. Now for the fun part.

I've been planning to move to Kentucky so I can be with Chaye, get my Barber license, get a job, make money, and live in a house with her, Ashely and possibly Quat depending on what he does. And Haha silly me, I have not really talked to my step mom recently. So she called me, I answered the phone and she starts freaking the FUCK out because I am in Kentucky and to far away from her. She wants me to come back home and live with her. But I want to fly, I need to fly, I am tired of being in a cage.

While we are at it, Cindy, Rick's fiance, tried to get all motherly with me again and its pissing me off. She touched my back and my ass in that weird motherly loving way and its pissing me off! I dont like being touched like that unless I know you well enough, I dont like anyone randomly poping in and saying I am going to try to be your mother, Cindy doesnt know shit about me or my life and automatically believes I am a good god loving kid... yeah, what the fuck ever. I stay in the middle between good and evil, I am wiccan, I want to see the back waters of spirituality.

All of this stuff and more is adding up and adding up and now just the littlest negative message comes close to bringing tears to my eyes and its pissing me the fuck off!!!

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1. Introduction
2. Love
3. Light
4. Dark
5. Seeking Solace
6. Break Away
7. Heaven
8. Innocence
9. Drive
10. Breathe Again
11. Memory
12. Insanity
13. Misfortune
14. Smile
15. Silence
16. Questioning
17. Blood
18. Rainbow
19. Gray
20. Fortitude
21. Vacation
22. Mother Nature
23. Cat
24. No Time
25. Trouble Lurking
26. Tears
27. Foreign
28. Sorrow
29. Happiness
30. Under the Rain
31. Flowers
32. Night
33. Expectations
34. Stars
35. Hold My Hand
36. Precious Treasure
37. Eyes
38. Abandoned
39. Dreams
40. Rated
41. Teamwork
42. Standing Still
43. Dying
44. Two Roads
45. Illusion
46. Family
47. Creation
48. Childhood
49. Stripes
50. Breaking the Rules
51. Sport
52. Deep in Thought
53. Keeping a Secret
54. Tower
55. Waiting
56. Danger Ahead
57. Sacrifice
58. Kick in the Head
59. No Way Out
60. Rejection
61. Fairy Tale
62. Magic
63. Do Not Disturb
64. Multitasking
65. Horror
66. Traps
67. Playing the Melody
68. Hero
69. Annoyance
70. 67%
71. Obsession
72. Mischief Managed
73. I Can't
74. Are You Challenging Me?
75. Mirror
76. Broken Pieces
77. Test
78. Drink
79. Starvation
80. Words
81. Pen and Paper
82. Can You Hear Me?
83. Heal
84. Out Cold
85. Spiral
86. Seeing Red
87. Food
88. Pain
89. Through the Fire
90. Triangle
91. Drowning
92. All That I Have
93. Give Up
94. Last Hope
95. Advertisement
96. In the Storm
97. Safety First
98. Puzzle
99. Solitude
100. Relaxation

If you decide to do this, I hope you have fun with it. I know I will.

]]> ~Deth2mainstreamlove http://Deth2mainstreamlove.deviantart.com/journal/18069201/ http://Deth2mainstreamlove.deviantart.com/journal/18069201/ Mon, 28 Apr 2008 11:08:15 PDT
I have not updated for awhile and I thought that, in the very least, I could make a new journal entry. And here it is. So... I hope you enjoyed it.... it was a blast writing? Well, C-Ya!

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So yeah... Only today do I really wish I was in Washington. But whatever. I need to celebrate my mother's death with friends when I get back (My mom always wanted a party when she died and not a sad event funural).

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The temperature here in Kentucky is... AWESOME!!! Its warm and I love the heat. I got two pirate rings... I plan to get more. They are pricey! 50 cents at Pizza hut, XDDD.Oh, the antique store here is... oh god... I saw a pair of swords that forced me into a want to fap frenzy! A Katana and a wakazashi, ninja made (flat hangle) and they are only $8.56............ I WANT!!! N33dz m0r3 m0n3y though... wahhhh... oh and a ride.... I doubt that Kentucky state laws allow for a 19 year old kid to walk home with weapons.

]]> ~Deth2mainstreamlove http://Deth2mainstreamlove.deviantart.com/journal/17876568/ http://Deth2mainstreamlove.deviantart.com/journal/17876568/ Wed, 16 Apr 2008 07:28:12 PDT
When I first got here, she told me that she quit weed and so the whole week was great. But I kinda had my suspicions. When I said hi to her after my dad and Cindy (her dad's girlfriend) left, she got surprised. All of a sudden, alot of her friends came over and I cought a scent of something that I never ever wanted to smell again. She got high, and thats the real reason why I am here, I want to help her quit. I HATE BEING LIED TO!

I have to tell Claire the real reason as well. But since I have to start working soon I dont know when the next time my cell phone will be on today.

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My friend lives there, I've known her since I was two. She is one year younger than me and is uterly obsessed with me. But she did alot of things that I dont agree with and is starting to get on my nerves. I virtually dont know her anymore.

She started drinking alchohol and smoking cigarettes and I dont really care about that. Its bound to happy and its not the worst thing there is, statistically speaking. During those times, she promised me that she would never do weed. She broke that promise a while ago and said "Dont worry, I promise to never do cocain" I scoffed and said "Oh? Just like you promised to never do weed?" Indeed this trip will be interesting.

So I'll be gone for 5 days. If nothing else, this "vacation" feels more like it will be a business trip looking for some additional insperations.

]]> ~Deth2mainstreamlove http://Deth2mainstreamlove.deviantart.com/journal/17704093/ http://Deth2mainstreamlove.deviantart.com/journal/17704093/ Sat, 05 Apr 2008 18:52:28 PDT
I got the face and hair all done and I worked on the frame for the body... but... I have no idea what clothes I'd be wearing... XDD

I have updated my gallery by adding folders. I forgot I could do that. XDD Though my manga posts will mostlikely not have a folder till I have a name for it. I shall work on the characters now that I am done posting this entry. XDD

]]> ~Deth2mainstreamlove http://Deth2mainstreamlove.deviantart.com/journal/17694563/ http://Deth2mainstreamlove.deviantart.com/journal/17694563/ Sat, 05 Apr 2008 06:50:44 PDT
Info
Name:Ryan
Age:19
Birthday:August 14th
[ ] I am shorter than 5'4.
[ ] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[ ] I have many scars.
[x] I tan easily.
[ ] I wish my hair was a different color.
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[xxx] I have a tattoo. ((I gots three!))
[ ] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[ ]I have/I've had braces.
[x] I wear glasses.
[ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free. ((HELL NO!!!))
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger. ((OMFG that was weird, I got confused, she told me I should be in movies....))
[xxx] I have more than 2 piercing. ((I never made that three connection before...))
[x] I have piercing in places besides my ears. (( Guess where -.0 ..... XDD My lip.
[ ] I have freckles. ((Only a few...))

Family/Home Life
[xxxxxxxxx] I've sworn at my parents. ((I really hate my dad))
[x] I've run away from home. ((Hell fucking yeah!))
[x] I've been kicked out of the house. (( I really fucking hate my dad))
[ ] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[x] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've had children.
[ ] I've lost a child.

School/Work
[ ] I'm in school
[ ] I have a job
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school ((only place to sleep))
[ ] I almost always do my homework. ((Ahahahah... homework makes me laugh))
[x] I've missed a week or more of school.
[ ] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years ((Could have been, but then everyone tries to mold you like clay and be who they are. No, I want to be my self.))
[x] I failed more than 1 class last year ((like I said, I like to be my self))
[x] I've stolen something from my job ((TACO TIME WOULDNT EVEN GIVE ME A DISCOUNT ON THEIR FOOD!!! I had to steal tater tots to survive.))
[ ] I've been fired

Embarrassment
[x] I've slipped out an "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[ ] Disney movies still make me cry. ((Never have))
[ ] I've peed from laughing.
[x] I've snorted while laughing.
[ ] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[ ] I've glued my hand to something.
[ ] I've had my pants rip in public.

Health
[ ] I was born with a disease/impairment
[ ] I've gotten stitches/staples
[ ] I've broken a bone ((I'm on a roll for never breaking a bone.))
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[ ] I've sat in a doctor’s office/emergency room with a friend.
[ ] I've had my wisdom teeth removed. (( I fear it will make me stupid, XDD pun! kinda...))
[ ] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I've had chicken pox.

Traveling
[ ] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx] I've been on a plane.
[XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX] I've been to Canada. ((CANADA RULES!!! Fuck you Americans who hate Canada, stop calling them a hat!! They cant be removed and techniquelly they are americans too...))
[ ] I've been to Mexico.
[ ] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[ ] I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[ ] I've been to Europe.
[ ] I've been to Africa.


Experiences
[ ] I've gotten lost in my city.
[x] I've seen a shooting star.
[x] I've wished on a shooting star ((I wish on any star))
[ ] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas. ((XDD Did that yesterday))
[x] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator. ((Elevators are fun!! I miss Idaho...))
[xxxxx] I've kicked a guy where it hurts. ((Oh god, funny story))
[x] I've been to a casino. ((And when I was in the casino, I wished I was 21... ))
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[x] I've gone skinny dipping. ((XDDD Another funny story... for my ears only))
[ ] I've played spin the bottle.
[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] I've crashed a car.
[ ] I've been Skiing.
[x] I've been in a play. ((God that was bullshit...))
[xXxXxXx] I've met someone in person from myspace. ((Very sad, tragic story...))
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ ] I've seen the Northern lights. ((I WISH!!!))
[X] I've sat on a roof top at night. ((Hell yeah! Its the only place to hang out!))
[ ] I've played chicken.
[x] I've played a prank on someone.
[x] I've ridden in a taxi.
[x] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[x] I've eaten sushi.
[ ] I've been snowboarding.

Relationships
[ ] I'm single.
[ ] I'm in a relationship.
[x] I'm engaged. (( For better or for worse... XDD jk jk Dont kill me GothicGummyBear))
[ ] I'm married.
[x] I've gone on a blind date. ((ooooo another funny story... I hope people start askin... ]]> ~Deth2mainstreamlove http://Deth2mainstreamlove.deviantart.com/journal/17673356/ http://Deth2mainstreamlove.deviantart.com/journal/17673356/ Thu, 03 Apr 2008 19:19:08 PDT
How am I feeling today?
Tight
Mindless self indulgence

Will I get far in life?
Dare [Soulwax Remix]
Gorillaz

How do my friends see me?
Dick Face
Mindless Self Indulgence ( XDDD OMFG!!! ROFLMAO )

Where will I get Married?
10 More minutes with you
Kill hannah

What is my best friend's theme song?
One Life
The Pillows

What is the story of my life?
Body Crumbles
Dry Cell (...? I had this song? XDD but it is so true)

What is/was highschool like?
Danger - keep away
Slipknot (Funny thing is, I listened to slipknot for most of my highschool XDD)

How can I get ahead in life?
A Corpse in My bed
Creature feature (lol... that is awesome!

What is the best thing about me?
Overdrive
Foo Fighters (This is amazingly true, I do go into overdrive alot and I never let anything get in my way.)

How is today going to be?
It began with a letter
Yoko Shimomura
Kingdom Hearts Sound track

What is in store for this weekend?
Dethharmonic
Dethklok (o.0 ok... I am not looking forward to going to Kentucky... thats creepy...)

What song describes my parents?
She is looking at the stars
Kill Hannah (this is about my mom and step mom more than my father.)

To describe my grandparents?
Intro
Gorillaz
Deamon Days (XDDD FUNNY CAUSE THEY ARE ALL DEAD!)

How is my life going?
Delusion
Skankfunk (o.o ...............)

What song will they play at my funeral?
Just because you sleep next to me doesnt mean youre safe
Gallows (funny when you connect this song to Overdrive)

How does the world see me?
Wait
Stephen Sondheim
Sweeny Todd Album

Will I have a happy life?
Bran-new lovesong
The Pillows

What do my friends really think of me?
Will of Heart
Shiro Sagisu

Do people secretly lust after me?
Memories [Beta Version]
DJ Nova (>> ....... That was not a surprise, I know alot of people who lust after me)

How can I make myself happy?
Master Buster
Skankfunk

What should I do with my life?
The boy who accepted the star
Joe Hisaishi
Howls Moving Castle

Will I ever have children?
The meek shall inherit the earth
Creature Feature (YEEEEEESSSSSSSSSSSS!!! DOOM CHILDREN OF DESTINY!!!!!!!!)

What is some good advice for me?
Buried Alive
Creature Feature (... yeah... pretty much. XDD)

How will I be remembered?
A fight to the death
Yoko Shimomura
Kingdom Hearts II Soundtrack

What is my signature dancing song?
Disco Party
Bubblegum Octopus (XDDD DISCO PARTY!!!)

What do I think my current theme song is?
Snapped
Skankfun (Yeah.... pretty much once again. XDDD)

What does everyone else think my current theme song is?
Serial Killers Know How To Party
Schoolyard Heroes (lol... there is a difference between this and snapped/)

What type of men/women do you like?
Violent Pornography
System of a down (The HELL?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!)

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Before I actually do start on the manga, I need to do some further reading, casting characters (creating them), and then creating the plot and stuff... but I wont work on that untill later today when I awaken.... so, for now... VIDEOGAMES!!!! Video games rule. XDDDD

]]> ~Deth2mainstreamlove http://Deth2mainstreamlove.deviantart.com/journal/17659706/ http://Deth2mainstreamlove.deviantart.com/journal/17659706/ Wed, 02 Apr 2008 22:14:55 PDT
I have defeated the monster that prevented me from trying my hardest at drawing a comic. The fear of my style not being good enough was strong. But I realized that I mastered the speed and technigue of a lot of manga styles but the default one (the one you see in anime and the usuall manga books), I can draw it well but not quickely.

My ideas for the comic are, at this point, skatered in mid air. I am trying my hardest to regather them into the hour glass (my head) in an orginized fashion. I have a few things down but I am far from being able to create a story. Though what I do know is, and it might piss a lot of readers off (something I am also in desperate need of), I will be updateing the comic at least once a month. Like I said, my speed in the default style is not mastered, so cut me some slack. Another thing I know is I want my friends to be involved in the comic in some shape or form (since I have so many I can only pick a few to relieve stress. Wayne and Claire are a given since I will be living with them soon). I want an element of fantasy to be in it, weither its the world it's self, or in a game created only in the comic.

]]> ~Deth2mainstreamlove http://Deth2mainstreamlove.deviantart.com/journal/17646478/ http://Deth2mainstreamlove.deviantart.com/journal/17646478/ Wed, 02 Apr 2008 06:22:02 PDT
Its not that my style looks bad, I have yet to post my best works on here. I just cant draw professionally as fast as others can. So it will take me time to finish one page alone of each comic, *shrugs* but who cares, as long as if the pages continue. Even at that there are times where I can take a break and a random mean-while drawn by a friend appears. And then with the practice, I can get faster.

Whats my stress? I never really understood it, I get so stressed out over trivial art things like I have a deadline due, which I dont. And I know that by the time I do get deadlines due, I will have enough comics to keep publishers entertained while I work far ahead of them.

As a side note, I dedicate this Deviant Art journal in the name of my rants! *flammy determand eyes* It will be awesome in ranting. If chosen to be read.... *gonk* ... I really need to get more sleep.

Update:
Just as a foreshadow for consideration, since I suck at creating titles for my books and such, I will be holding a contest at some time after I have a significant number of manga pages (which will be read as american comics because I am from america). The basic rule of thumb is that you have to have commented on more than 50% of the pages I post (if its three pages, you have to comment two of them; if its four pages, three; if five, three or four at least and so on) so I know that you have been reading AND the name suggestion can not be the same as a previously made manga or comic.

The reward will be something along the lines of a dedicated art or creating a character for you to appear in the comic with temperarily or something, idk. I'll think of something. The contest will not be up until further notice.

]]> ~Deth2mainstreamlove http://Deth2mainstreamlove.deviantart.com/journal/17334405/ http://Deth2mainstreamlove.deviantart.com/journal/17334405/ Fri, 14 Mar 2008 16:31:24 PDT [link])

Since I have no need for an actual jounal entry, it would make sence to leave it alone. BUT, deviant art lacks "About me" boxes so that is what I am creating here. All good profiles should have about mes. So here we go:


About me (the person who's profile you landed on XD ) :

Hi, I am a normal human worm baby, like all you other human worm babies. XD I am 19 years old, I live in Washington and blah blah blah.

Now with those slight formalities out of the way, lets get on with it. I love Megatokyo and I love 1337. I can 1337 5p34k almost as well as I can speak the english language as far as basic 1337 is concerned. (If you dont know what 1337 is, look it up in wikipedia, it has all you need to know and then some. While your at it, go to megatokyo.com and read it from page one.)

I love to write poetry and stories. Relax, none of them are in 1337. Currently, as of March 14th, I am working on a story book thingie... I dont know how long it will truely be. But I will add excerpts from it on here.

I love the Japanese life style and their technigue at drawing manga. I am NOT a JAPANAPHILE! I dont think Sasuke is hot and I dont brag about being married to any anime character. Anime and manga is not my favorite part of japan. (Japanaphiles, listen hard to this) there is something better than just manga and anime in japan, that thing is b33r in vending machines that are payable via cellphone bill.

I am open minded for the most part. Christians in general are annoying to me when they give me discusting looks because I smoke, am goth, and dont care if I end up in heaven or hell. Individual Christians that come to me and are nice I love. I believe strongly in the "To each his/her own" statement. This being said, If a hardcore prep comes up to me (a hardcore freelace goth) I wont be mean, I will make friends, unless they give me reason not to. Its just how I work.I have a pretty good understanding of people and society.

I laugh when ever a kid screams fag at me when they are in a car or posting it to me on the internet. "Yeah... thats real ballsy, say it in a way where I can never find you are chase you" is my thought on it. Inside I am a lover and not a fighter, I just hate the stupid people who think they are big and tough, so they practice it in a speeding car or in a long distance.


About my screen name ( Deth2mainstreamlove ) :

Well I believe that mainstream things are ok at times. I just hade it when people wrap themselves around the mainstream's finger and hardly dress themselves or think for themselves. I miss the 90's so much. Emo has started in the mainstream, it started with self induced depression when there was no reason for it. Self induced reason's to cut (though if they actually did is highly questionable).

Why isnt "Deth" spelled like "Death"? Well, have you ever heard of Dethklok? They are one of my favorite bands. I have their only CD, sadly without the bonus disk, and in their lyrics they even spell death like DETH. I like it. So I decided to use it on my own. Also, if I spelled it out death, my screan name would end up being death2mainstreamlov, or some variation of that.

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