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I'm Slashfiend on Kargath, and I'm currently a Draenei Paladin of level 9-ish. I am leeching off my friend Sean's account, because I am cheap and like to inconvenience him by being on when he wants to play.

Randomly, Lordi is the shit. I have been listening to "Would You Love a Monsterman?" nonstop for days. It is my ill-suited but awesome theme song. Plus, I can sing along with it without leaving my vocal range, make fun monster hand gestures, and confuse my roommates. Download it illegally now!


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~Devas http://Devas.deviantart.com/journal/14723639/ http://Devas.deviantart.com/journal/14723639/ Fri, 21 Sep 2007 04:05:27 PDT
As such, I'm planning on having an art week. While I make no promises, I'm thinking about doing a coloring tutorial, as asides from LeeGaara smut (...You will be getting no smut of any sort. Just to be clear.), is the most commonly requested thing from y'all, my awesome watchers. Whom I love very, very much. I also plan to work on more traditional stuff, because I haven't played with my markers in forever, and just got this huge thing of card stock. Or, knowing me, will do a bunch of bullshit doodles that none of you will ever see, because they are bullshit doodles.

Another non-promise: I'm thinking about taking commissions. After a fun conversation with , she persuaded me to try and start doing things for money. I thought I'd see if anyone was interested in that sort of thing before putting anything formal into the works. I'm still kind of hesitating, because I know my procrastination problems are quite epic, but it'd be awesome practice for when I have a real job. Once again, no promises about whether or not it'll pan out.


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http://Devas.deviantart.com/journal/14538990/ Sat, 08 Sep 2007 00:36:50 PDT :

The rules are:
1 - Post these rules
2 - Each person tagged must post 8 random facts about themselves
3 - Tags should write a journal/ blog of these facts
4 - At the end of the post 8 more persons are tagged and named
5 - Go to their page and leave a comment telling them they're tagged

And thus, eight random facts about me. I've done this a few times already, so if there are repeats, ignore them.

1.) Today, I went and tried on dresses, just for shits and giggles. I reaffirmed that I am a jeans and t-shirt kinda creature, and that I cannot wear things with plunging necklines.

2.) I have been playing the crap out of Rune Factory (the new Harvest Moon). I am pimping it to everyone who owns a DS, and needs a social life so badly they're willing to settle for a digital one in which you stab monsters and try to get a pixelated lady to marry you. It's fun for reasons that are beyond me to explain.

3.) I need new shoes. When I stepped in a puddle, the bottom of my foot got wet. When I looked down, I found that I could see my sock through a hole I'd worn in it. I have many blisters on them now, because I am also cheap.

4.) I dropped Drawing, Proportion, and Perspective again. I have not been to the class in six weeks.

5.) Lately, I've been drawing lady folks. They're fun, and give me a chance to try and draw my latest OTP, Yoruichi/Soifon. So far, I hate everything, and obviously need to practice more females.

6.) Somehow, my mattress moves about three inches away from the wall when I sleep. For the life of me, I can't figure out what I'm doing while unconscious.

7.) I'm incapable of staying angry at someone. I have too much empathy for my own good, and I was raised to always try and see where the other person is coming from before making any judgments.

8.) If I could have a superpower, it would be telekinesis. It's only the coolest thing ever, and I'd never have to get up to do anything ever again.



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http://Devas.deviantart.com/journal/14032582/ Sun, 05 Aug 2007 18:06:43 PDT
I've also got a brand spankin' new set of art resolutions, put here more for my purposes than yours. You are free to ignore this part.

Since I'm going to try and do this for a living and all, there are things I need to work on:

- Work more on bodies. Start with more torsos, and work your way down to hands. Then, Bob Ross willing, full bodies. It is time to stop drawing endless faces only to hate them two weeks later. Anatomy is important.

- Make bodies less stiff looking.

- Only half of the stuff I do should be fanart, if that. We need to get cracking on proper portfolio things! Or things for cons, because we are poor and need to sell things.

- Practice more in 3D things! It's probably going to be where you end up, and you want to be employable for reasons other than a sunny personality and big boobs.

- Practice more in Photoshop: your buffer is now gone, and your classmates are quickly catching up and surpassing you, because you have not touched it since you've been in California.

- Do more proper backgrounds: try speedpainting.

-Start playing WoW. ...It has absolutely nothing to do with art, but it looks fun and you have zero self-control.

So, get on that self.

In other news, I have discovered the magic of utorrent with port hacks and an awesome torrent site. The world is mine!


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http://Devas.deviantart.com/journal/12056364/ Sun, 04 Mar 2007 15:53:48 PST
It all started with this comment made on my LeeGaa Sketchdump. Normally, I'd ignore this sort of comment, but upon a visit to her page, discovered she was an idiot. She had been pulling this shit on other Gaara yaoi pieces. Thus, I called her on it.

Apparently, I am evil, evil person who unjustly makes fun of her and wrongly accuses her of art theft. Thus, she is "leving devond" (a feat so large she posted it twice), and wrote some crappy gawth poetry, because I ruined her life. My favorite part is the part about how my life has no meaning because I think Gaara is gay. Technically, I think he's asexual, but has romantic feelings for certain men that may or may not lead to a sexual relationship. But the best part is easily how she hates me as much as Gaara hates the world.

This isn't an invitation or call to go harass her too, amusing though it may be. I just wanted to share.

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http://Devas.deviantart.com/journal/10717735/ Mon, 13 Nov 2006 22:17:16 PST
Listen to the vocals. You know it to be true.

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Entwine
Comments: 19
Favourites: 87


LeeGaa Sketch Dump
Comments: 16
Favourites: 51


Kankurou sans Hood
Comments: 17
Favourites: 79


D'awwww, Lesbians
Comments: 14
Favourites: 45


We Three Sand Sibs
Comments: 38
Favourites: 199

Notice anything? A trend, perhaps?

(And no, I'm not targeting anyone in particular, nor trying to guilt anyone into belatedly commenting. No apologizing, because then I will feel like a bitch.)

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~Devas http://Devas.deviantart.com/journal/10020841/ http://Devas.deviantart.com/journal/10020841/ Sat, 09 Sep 2006 15:57:31 PDT
But with good reason ! I have just invested in a new laptop, and for the price I paid for it, I expect it not only to outperform my current laptop, but stalk and devour it. While singing Camptown Ladies.

It's a pimped out Dell Inspiron 1550, with a 2 GHz dual processor, 2 GB of RAM and a 120 GB harddrive. I'm going to hump it vigorously when it arrives. It is a Photoshopping machine. Because my Daddy rocks, he called the Dell people, and got a company discount, plus like... 300 bucks worth of upgrades, software, and techno bling for free <3!

I'm just excited in general at the moment. Please forgive any excitement related babbling.

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]]> ~Devas http://Devas.deviantart.com/journal/9868502/ http://Devas.deviantart.com/journal/9868502/ Sun, 27 Aug 2006 01:25:20 PDT
HOLY SHIT, I JUST REACHED 12,000 PAGEVIEWS.

Thank you and goodnight.

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You see, back when I was a wee lass of thirteen, I did not like gay. I did not mind gay, it just made me uncomfortable. Ha HA, Irony.

However, looking back at some of my old (old, old, old) stuff, I think I was already subconsciously corrupted:



...Nothing suggestive about a man caressing a big ass sword at all. What are you talking about?

Also, I could not design weapons back then.

End transmission, hope you all find this as terribly amusing as I do. ...Though I doubt it.

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I was too confused to watch the actual movie, save for the albino, as the whole unquestionable, blind loyalty he had towards the priest paralleled my favorite albino's situation with his father figure. Long story short, I got into Evo again. Just a little. I even ventured back to FF.Net to fill my Pietro/anything with a penis and a pulse need (it still hasn't improved, but look! The best Pietro fanfic in the entire frikkin' UNIVERSE is updating again after like, a year of being dead. I was awake until five thirty this morning running it through my head, and put myself on the verge of tears as a result. It's some good n' angsty shit.)

And I've even started doing fanart again, so I can have acceptable Evo stuff in my gallery that doesn't make me want to cry in shame, albeit not a whole lot. I'm not too sure if this is going to be a lasting thing, like the Specs/Trapper obsession, or a little week-long redabbling as my Sailor Moon obsessions go. I've already decided I'm never even looking at Blink again, and most likely won't really be an active member of the community again. I miss my Evo friends too much to make new ones, and am getting too disturbingly withdrawn socially to try.

However, you can probably expect to see, at the least, a fanart or two, and maybe a few Evo comics I never finished, if I can bring myself to search through the tiny mountains of paper that are my old doodles. I have two in mind that I don't mind showing people, and may even redraw one, because I still think it's funny and kinda want to finish it.

Anyways. Onto more personal news: for those of you I haven't seen and talked to in ages (read: everyone), I'm heading off to Orange County, California to try my hand at the Art school. Ultimately, I've decided that I want to work in video games, making character designs and rendering models, and the Art Institute of California is one of the only schools (that are reputable) in the country that offers a BoS in Game Art and Design. There are others, such as Collins College, and the X'pression Institute of the Arts (or something) that wanted me, but the names scared me off, to be perfectly shallow and honest .

I just got my wisdom teeth yanked like... five days ago, and the right side of my mouth is getting considerably painful. I think there's something wrong in there.

I'm heading up to my Mom's on Monday, where I can indulge my love of pornagraphy without fear.

I miss people in general. I haven't been on AIM in months because I'm too much a chickenshit to block someone and don't want to talk to them, and my social life has suffered for it.

I'm eating ice cream. It is creamy goodness. ...Come to think of it, all I've been eating is sugary, wonderful foods lately. I think that may have something to do with the general hyperness ands ability to function properly on four hours of sleep a night.

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~Devas http://Devas.deviantart.com/journal/7808999/ http://Devas.deviantart.com/journal/7808999/ Sun, 05 Feb 2006 12:35:02 PST
It makes her speak in third person.

The classes are two-hours long, Monday through Thursday, and are eating about three-and-a-half hours from my schedule daily. On the plus side, I don't eat from the hours of six to ten, so I'm losing some weight, which is never really a bad thing in my case. It's either the lack of food or the incredible, mind-numbing boredom that eats my soul alive causing this, I can't be sure.

Most nights, my teacher is a funny little man who speaks as if he's a three-year-old from an old Warner brother's cartoon, the lisp, vaguely helium-ized (TOTALLY a word) voice and all. I think he's cute.

The sad part is as of last Friday, I can already technically get a permit. I'll probably have one by the last week of this month.

Lock your children indoors, Houstonians. Chiru's gonna be out on your roads.

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]]> ~Devas http://Devas.deviantart.com/journal/7733615/ http://Devas.deviantart.com/journal/7733615/ Sat, 28 Jan 2006 16:17:55 PST may have made my computer hate me.

In a frantic effort to get sketchbook pages scanned, I ceaselessly imported picture after picture into Photoshop for like, two hours straight, with the intention of compiling a bunch of individual doodles to make it seem like every single sketchbook page I've ever done is overflowing with an unhealthy amount of doodles.

When I finally stopped, I had about thirty windows neatly tiled at the bottom of the program, and my computer made an angry clicking sound at me when I was cleaning them up.

Long story short, even more scrap pages are on there way, once I feel more like posting again.

Oh, and randomly, the Gaara fangroup I recently entered has somehow made me revert back to adoring Specs/Trapper. I think its because I've discovered I hate a considerable percentage of Naruto fans from observing them in their natural habitat, and to a greater extent, I am unable to get into Gaara's head. I just can't figure out his thought processes without worrying I'm going too out of character.

...That, and I like being a fandom of one. There may not be any fanart or fanfiction, but there are no fangirls who argue about which character is the "uke", and give the reasoning that Gaara is too evil to be bottom.

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~Devas http://Devas.deviantart.com/journal/7670116/ http://Devas.deviantart.com/journal/7670116/ Sat, 21 Jan 2006 19:34:47 PST
It is to be noted that my scraps is now twice the size of my gallery XD.

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And, sad to say, there isn't much going on on the Chiru radar at the moment. for the less well informed and more curious among you, I'm going to go to Art School in California, getting a B.S in Game Art and Design, with which I hopefully plan to plop myself down in the Video game industry, being able to ruin both my posture and eyesight for a job. I'm excited, as I'm sure you are as well.

Latest fandom dive was into Static Shock, as some of you saw earlier, and was able to leave that with no bitter hurt feelings I feel when I remember Evo, for reasons I cannot explain. Well, maybe I can. I wasn't part of any wars and didn't have to deal with any people I'd rather have not of, and because I was the sole fan of Specs/Trapper, was able to enjoy and develop them in my own mind and not feel compelled to debate about them with others. It was cathartic. Evo was a part of my life and I still have fond memories of the friends I made from it, even if we are no longer in touch.

But it's hard to stay in a dead fandom in which you are only a lurker, and when the oppurtunity presented itself to me, moved onto Naruto, much to my suprise. I don't plan on getting intimately involved here either, and strongly suspect I will never let myself do so again. I like it, and love the occassional soul rocking fic or pic I find, but have been cautioned of it's followers and how psycho the fans can be, just like any fandom.

This fangirl is growing up.

...Y'know, I didn't really mean for this to be so damn emo when I started writing XD. Geez. I'm not that grown up yet.

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http://Devas.deviantart.com/journal/5484488/ http://Devas.deviantart.com/journal/5484488/ Sat, 28 May 2005 10:36:02 PDT ! It is the time for celebration, and if I don't get a job, the time for more obsessive art-ing. And playing Skies of Arcadia. Which will lead ot more art-ing!

I've gone through my gallery and scrapped many things, as well as some new scraps. Things I would proudly put in my gallery a year ago are in there. I feel I'm getting a lot more critical of my own stuff.

...I feel bad for the lack of fanart lately, especially in the Evo category. It doesn't mean I haven't been drawing it or thinking about it, but the stuff that I've been able to do on the computer lately is at school, where fanart is a no-no. Some small things have been doodled at home, because it will die if I work on anything larger than six megs. The stuff that gets into my gallery often exceeds fourteen. At least lately.

So, I will be asking for a scanner for my birthday. It'll help the whole "Chiru is being an inactive ho" situation, I feel. Hopefully, by then, we'll have a new computer as well. I will whine until my parents bow to my commands XD!

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http://Devas.deviantart.com/journal/5010598/ Tue, 05 Apr 2005 19:32:59 PDT
Contrary to "popular" belief, I am not dead! Only resting my eyes for a bit. That, and 75% of the people I know here are no longer really doing anything either, so my community spirit has like... died. I miss everyone, but decided that my unannounced hiatus had gone on long enough !

I'm sure you're all thrilled *eye roll*. ]]> ~Devas http://Devas.deviantart.com/journal/4041682/ http://Devas.deviantart.com/journal/4041682/ Sat, 11 Dec 2004 10:49:23 PST Get off 'yer ass and do these for people you've owed forever before you break is over:
Requests:
- Lance/Pietro
- Her OC + Lance
- Lance/Pietro
- Pending !

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Fangirl rantings aside, there are some scraps in the gallery that aren't Evo fanart. Doodles from my sketchbook filled with my current favorite brainchild, and Harvest Moon fanart consume all!

Also, my Thanksgiving beat everyone's here, because I got LOBSTER and pumpkin cheesecake XD. ...Unless you don't celebrate it. In which case, please disregard that last sentence.

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]]> ~Devas http://Devas.deviantart.com/journal/3825992/ http://Devas.deviantart.com/journal/3825992/ Mon, 15 Nov 2004 17:52:11 PST Attention girl who has been harassing my girlfriend:

Please note that telling her that "seeing that girl and you holding hands made me want to throw up" does not really offer a huge incentive to stop. If you believe we're disgusting, the problem is on your end, not ours.

...Bitch.
Thanks <3! ---Chiru

I find it amusing that people are offended by us. And how little I actually care!

Buuut apparently it got to her. I am back on the singles market, after a nicely worded "it's me, not you. I have some stuff going on in my life, and I don't want to leave you on the back burner during it, we can still be friends, right?"

For those who need it: translation from girl to human - I'm not as ready as I thought for an open relationship yet. I still want friends.

That's okay though. I do genuinely care for her. I want her to be happy, and could never expect her to choose her family and friends over me. At least it never got serious.

...Still. ONE ballsy same-sex couple in our school. ONE. All I ask.

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All in all, I felt pretty good! I had a pretty gypsy costume I converted into a witch by means of the awesome hat from above, treashy fishnet stockings, and candy giving me a buzz. I felt I looked REASONABLY attractive (keep in mind, I'm a DD and can't really see anything over my boobs when I look down), and had a good night.

Until my brother told me his friend thought I was pregnant.

...Insert the sound of a happy balloon deflating. I saw pictures of me, and see that it really, really looks that way. Jeebus, I look huge XD! I might post pictures of me in my witchy might later, when I am less excessively squishy feeling.

Which means I spent two hours on my feet walking around for nothing ! I'm not touching that candy unless it's lollipops are gum. Thaaaat's right folks! Diet time! Again. Which I will kinda sorta stick to until I go into a jealous rage when I see my brother eating my hard-earned Reeses cups while he sat on his ass playing video games.

I'll post pictures of him playing soccer later as retaliation >_>.

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Next Saturday, I watch her for at least 8. The concept of putting a small child to bed with minimal harm to myself and my eardrums frightens me, but the knowledge that they give 5 bucks an hour quells this.

I'm savin' up for a new computer !

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My ex-girlfriend has been dropping major hints she wants to get back together. Convo is as follows, the remnants of a conversation I'd rather not get into starting it off:

Me: So now he wants to turn it into a three-way friends with benefits thing with Marcy...
Her: Hell, I wouldn't mind a three-way friends with benefits thing with Marcy! She's cute! ...You are too.
Me: Awww! Thanks! You're pretty cute yourself!
Her:...Y'know, at the dance, Anna told me she wasn't ready for a relationship, hanging off that GUY. I was crushed... I went home and cried afterwards.
Me: That biznatch! ...Oh well. Life goes on. Not like it got past anything but a crush, right?
Her: Yeah... I'm over her. I kinda have someone new in mind. I liked them a lot last year too.
Me: Oh? ...Well, good luck with her!
Her: We went out, but it didn't really work out the first time around. Hopefully, things'll go better. Turn out differently. We graduate the same year this year! *smile*
Me: *pretends to be dense* Maybe. I gotta go to Chem now! See ya!
Her: *smooches cheek* Bye!
Me: :3 ...(mentally: Oh shit)

Now see, I DO like her. However, I know how she works pretty well. Once she finds out that a lady folk likes girls (and is nice to her), she tends to be attracted to them, as a general rule. Since we're in the massively conservative bible belt, coming out loud and proud is a rarity, so our gay scene in underground at the school for the most part. There are girls that cuddle in the halls, that kind of thing. A basis for a lot of attraction in same-sex couples down here is "Are you attracted to the same sex too?", regardless of personality or really anything else that is a basis for a normal relationship.

That said, I have a difficult time with getting into a relationship not only because of the shallow nature of it, but because I'm scared of commitment and getting outed to my parents. They wouldn't freak out at me (I suspect they already know. My step-mom no longer specifies a gender when we're talking about romance, Dad has gotten quite adamant that my guy friends are the biggest "threat" to me, which is more than likely denial. he's looked through my history before, and if he hasn't seen a lot of the things I've written, I'm amazed. ...If you're reading this, HI DAD! Guess what?)

I mean, she's really cute, nice, smart, insightful, mature, etc., but I don't really trust her motives as being genuinely attracted to me. To add to this, there's also this other girl that I met at homecoming that I really took to, but don't know if she actually likes me that way. I know she's bi (we kissed n' stuff :3), but I'm worried that starting up a relationship with EITHER of them will jeopradize the other.

...I think too damn much for my own good XD. I need some stupid pills to make me mentally the right age for this kind of crap! I'm a 30-year-old in a 16 year old's body! ...Mmmkay. Gonna stop ranting now.

I know what I SHOULD do: Tell her I'm not ready for anything like that if she asks and continue being friends with both gals (with occassional smooching, because... I'm hormonal teenager. ...May not be right, but it's loads of fun). ...But that would really hurt her feelings because that's the same damn excuse (although in my case, it's the truth) that was used on her the last time. Plus, I like being with her. Actually, my biggest concern is what happens when college time comes XD! Like any high school relationship could seriously last that long. Jeebus, I'm such a dork. I can't even handle something this simple.

Why must I be so paranoid?

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http://Devas.deviantart.com/journal/3597587/ Fri, 15 Oct 2004 16:18:24 PDT
Torpid's real folks O_o! And voyeuristic.

Weird, yes?

Also, i would just like to express how much I loathe Exodus international. Our history teacher was watching their speech on how god hates his gay children and wants them to love opposite genders on CNN earlier today before class. Just... URGH! I kicked my backpack into the wall (it made a loud noise and my foot hurt afterwards) in rage. ...My gaydar was totally going off the whole time the president was talking about how disgusting his former life used to be too XD. He's still so totally queer.

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Filthy Lies!-Genuinely hilarious. It relentlessly mocks fundamentalist christians (one of the main characters is a closeted gay fundamentalist Christian republican, who's really fun. He's likeable as opposed to put there just so you can hate him), and Mr. Bush. ...Seriously. Read this.

Valkyrie Yuuki-How many other comic out there have a reluctantly transgendered magical girl from a magic DVD? None. None I tell you! ...Well, there's another transgendered magical girl comic, but it's rather poorly drawn and gives off a whole "my characters are canon sues" vibe. This particular comic boasts great art, a fun story, and the ability to confuse me as to which pairing I want.

Chugworth Academy-...Dave rocks me. It's funny in the sitcom meets drugs sense. ...It has the hottest girls ever in there. Seriously. ...The boy is pretty cute too, but it's allll about the girlies. I whore for his art.

Anime Arcadia-A new comic that just got off it's feet, but promises to be great. With a violent, bossy catgirl and her pet human, what could be bad?



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My dad said that we'd get two new computers (one for his work, one for me and Photoshop/Brother's games, one for his work), and I was all excited and bouncy. I asked a week later, and my step-mom had apparently talked him down to getting a new computer for THEM and giving us the antique. Which, to reiterate, won't play our games without tremendous lag, or do any of the things I need it to do.

AUGH. I'm gonna go stab things.

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So, like... Go. And draw things for me. Because I command it, and it's easier if not funner than a virgin sacrifice. Said virgin is sacrificed to me. Although they are alive afterwards, they are no longer a virgin.

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]]> ~Devas http://Devas.deviantart.com/journal/3371262/ http://Devas.deviantart.com/journal/3371262/ Wed, 15 Sep 2004 16:22:27 PDT
Well, I believe when you're walking by a door, the handle gets stuck in your pocket as yopu keep walking, and it pulls you down flat on your ass is a good indicator.

'Cause... OW. *rubs it*

Plus, people can see my granny panties when my shirt isn't down past the... part where you put your body in? Opening? Guh. Language is dead. So very dead.

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]]> ~Devas http://Devas.deviantart.com/journal/3357897/ http://Devas.deviantart.com/journal/3357897/ Mon, 13 Sep 2004 19:47:11 PDT
Don't get me wrong here: former practicing christian, bear a slight hostility to religion being forced down my throat and anyone who uses Jesus to hate, but I don't have a huge problem with christianity. Some of my best buddies are christians! It's just it kind of pissed me off in a righteous "state has a restraining order against religion here" deal. I put myself in my empathy shoes (namely, I replace christianity with something I firmly believe in and is potentially offensive to others, like Gay Rights. ...Like? Well, no. It IS gay rights), and try to see it from the opposite point of view.

I realized I woudl be REALLY pissed if someone got all righteous about anything having to do with gay people in school (although this IS Texas. It happens like... daily), so I kept my mouth shut out of respect and the knowledge that we get to miss class for this.

I mean, I have no real right to be cheesed off about having to attend a hellfire and brimstone sermon when a good 30 minutes is taken out of AP English. It's not hurting anyone, yadda yadda yadda.

Then why am I still pissed?

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]]> ~Devas http://Devas.deviantart.com/journal/3343570/ http://Devas.deviantart.com/journal/3343570/ Sat, 11 Sep 2004 23:19:25 PDT "It"

I present to you, the Evo Slash Oekaki Board. You may wet yourselves with glee now!

However, before anyone draws anything, I reccomend reading the Help page. I personally haven't gotten anything to upload yet, so I'm wondering if it's my computer, or the board itself? I really wanted a "Welcome Harem" pic up before it got to y'all too. Oh well.

Chiru angst! I will now cry salty tears into a wife's chest. However, they are happy tears, because I actually met a self-imposed deadline! ]]> ~Devas http://Devas.deviantart.com/journal/3338874/ http://Devas.deviantart.com/journal/3338874/ Sat, 11 Sep 2004 10:30:39 PDT ! This was by sole means of replacing cafeteria food with a salad and eating grapes after school. I haven't even given up my ice cream! I noticed it this morning when my boobs didn't have a shelf to sit on and I actually needed to wear a bra.

What does this say about the school nachos?

Oh! And in other news, The fantastically wonderful has given me nifty keen webspace to put the Evo Board on, in exchange for security that it will actually be made so I don't make excuses for pussying out.

Expect it coming to a URL near you by like... Sunday.

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]]> ~Devas http://Devas.deviantart.com/journal/3319171/ http://Devas.deviantart.com/journal/3319171/ Wed, 08 Sep 2004 16:37:04 PDT
I did my hair in a neat do, put on some cool little tiaras I had around the room so it looked elfish (especially with my braids over it), and dug around in my closet for a little black dress and this sheer robe, which I made a neat little gown out of, and put on some pretty dangle sparkly earrings my best friends Mom gave me. After that, twirled around because I'm a dork. I frightened my little brother when I came in to hug him goodnight at 10:42 (He bitched at me because I was weird and couldn't come in at a normal time like 10:30.)

I felt so much better after that :3. I felt glamorous and pretty and not unattractive. I went to bed in a good mood now that my PMS was uinder control again.

So, I've resolved to lose weight, or something like it. Dad's enstated mandatory YMCA night. So work out, and I'll slowly wean myself off of junky type things by replacing one nacho meal with like... a salad. Today I did that, but I followed it with ice cream >_>. Bad me. I don't know what to do with all that extra time after I eat, because I don't know anyone well enough to talk to, as I am incapable of having an informal conversation in which I don't flirt or call someone a ho.

Yay for resolutions that are gonna be broken in half a day!

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]]> ~Devas http://Devas.deviantart.com/journal/3301991/ http://Devas.deviantart.com/journal/3301991/ Mon, 06 Sep 2004 16:41:50 PDT
1.) Do projects for English (due Tuesday), and World Geography (due LAST Tuesday).
2.) Finish English homework (which I did).
3.) Finish math homework.
4.) Finish Chemistry homework.
5.) Work on the Evo Slash Oekaki Board (Now official that I have it, I just need to un-crap my tablet. I've grown frighteningly attatched to it O_o)
6.) Do requests for Rach, Mayu, Lia Amari, and the bitch in Algebra that asks me EVERY. SINGLE. DAY whether or not I've done them. First thing she says upon catching sight of me! Then has the audacity to tell me to stay after school and finish them! After I told her I have to do all that shit up there O_o! I'm gonna start charging her if she asks again. I swear to Jeebus I will. I will draw them tiny and crappily, because she's getting me pissed at her.
7.) Get to Chapter 5 in X-2. ...Which I did. Which explains why nothing else got done. On the plus side, I'm level 52, and kicked the crap out of everything thrown at me, including how preachy it's getting about the power of music and memories.

I take that back. I love you so very bad X-2, even if you make me mad with how stupid you think your female audience is. You cinematics make me quiver.

Stupid junior year. Why must you make it difficult to slide by on natural ability with little to no exertion on my part? WHY?

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]]> ~Devas http://Devas.deviantart.com/journal/3247835/ http://Devas.deviantart.com/journal/3247835/ Mon, 30 Aug 2004 18:26:49 PDT UPDATE!: Here is the link, for all of you dying to get a peek at it. It has only the pragamatic babble of a triumphant web designer, but I'm rather pleased with the layout and want to show it off.

The only problem is the text in the box. It looks icky, and I haven't a clue what to do with it.

(end)

Okay, I've been giving some serious thought to this. I'm gonna start up an Oekaki board of my own, where I can get rid of people like Azlea before they stir up too much trouble and annoy everyone. Don't get me wrong: I ADORE Asukuwa's. I love it to death and still plan to frequent there.

It's obviously gonna be slashcentric, but not exclusively so. In my Wanda pic, I heard some concerns over having to draw two people and now knowing how ot use the system. Well, I'm gonna link the nifty tutorial Oekaki BBS has, and add in some stuff of my own.

As for the having to draw two people, this really isn't neccessary. I sure as hell know I won't be doing it that often. The main idea is just to have a slash-friendly board. I won't be banning het (hell, I've started to like Toad/Wanda, thanks to TTQ. Acursed cuteness!)

So, I've come up with some rough rules I wanna run by you people first, since I respect you and know that YOU know what the hell you're talking about.

1.) You must have a tolerance for slash. Even better if you like it! If I see any "OMg U R So icky and goign to HElllll", I will be banning you. Nobody harasses my harem!

2.) Nothing excessively graphic. Meaning I will allow nudity, softcore naughtiness, even bits, so long as you keep it somewhat tasteful. As much as I'd love a spank board, I'd rather not have my pending membership revoked.

3.) No crap. While I'm not imposing a time standard, I'd like to see effort. Before you post, look over it and make sure that you like it well enough not to diss it to gain guilted compliments and attention. While I may not delete it, I won't be defending you when someone agrees that it IS ugly.

4.) Be reasonably mature when recieving critiques! If the person is nice about it, you have no reason to be offended or bitchy about it. Vice versa, let's not be horrible to people.

5.) Please PLEASE, for the love of Jeebus, don't leave "WOW TAHT IS SO KEWLIES1!!!11!! OMG WTF LOL" comments. We're allowed to be immature pervs, but not idiots.

6.) If you MUST draw an OC, they may not be romantically entangled with an existing character, or a stand alone thing. All pictures must be Evo. Things that are not Evo (unless they look really nifty and you can skillfully BS it in your explanation) will be deleted.
While the OC thing may seem mean, keep in mind I am a bitter veteran fan who's seen one too many Mary-Sues in her day. I'm not gonna completely ban them, because I;ve seen some really cool ones that I like, but please just put a canon character in there so I'm happy.

So... Am I being reasonable? Do need more rules? Less? Input, please!

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http://Devas.deviantart.com/journal/3231599/ Sat, 28 Aug 2004 12:03:22 PDT Here are some actual statements made by everyone's favorite slash catalyst XD:

"Can anyone tell me where Marvel stated Pietro and Lance are gay and in a relationship? They both seemed straight and clean to me. I am sorry, but slash is just wrong and goes against Jesus. I wanted to keep my mouth shut, but my Christian faith is stronger than my fear."

" I don’t like it when straight characters are portrayed as homosexuals. I wouldn’t like Pietro and Lance anymore if they were revealed to be gay. That is not the case though. They are straight and should be drawn and written as such. There is no debate on this matter. The facts do not lie. "

"This will be my last comment on the matter. I don’t like gay characters, but I just ignore them and hope their creators see the light of Christ. I do have a problem when people force their gayness onto characters. Pietro likes girls. He dated girls on the show. He is straight and I happen to like him with Rogue. Lance always loved Kitty and never stopped loving her. Kurt has a serious girlfriend and he is a Catholic. Toad likes Wanda even though she doesn’t like him. Scott likes Jean. Gambit likes Rogue. All the major characters have girlfriends. Where is the queerness that you see? Show me.

Lesli: By clean I mean that they don’t engage in any sexual activity. The thing with the mayonnaise was very disgusting. You don’t need to go there.

I am leaving so I don’t care if you fill the board with slash, but remember that Jesus will be watching all of you.

For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.

John 3:16" (Goodbye number 1)

"That really showed me. You really put me in my place. No matter how many pictures you draw, Pietro and Lance are not gay with each other. None of you can be fans of Pietro and Lance if you present them in such a sleazy and sick manner. They are not gay lovers. They love girls. I would ask you nicely to please stop drawing them like that since they are my favorite characters, but you would only laugh at me like I am an idiot. You cannot argue with fools. So I will pray for you and the others and just leave.

I am glad I didn’t put any artwork on here. I wanted to draw Kurt, Pietro, and Lance, but I guess they would all have to be sexually engaged in order to induce a response. Your lose."

"That is nonsense. Your pictures proved nothing. They were probably altered by a photo program. Visuals can always be interpreted differently. I have facts on my side and not queer fantasy. No cartoon show would have unmoral gays featured as characters.

In the episode where everyone dates, Pietro shows interest in Tabitha Smith and takes four girls to a dance. FOUR GIRLS NOT BOYS! He seems to be a playboy and ladies man.

In the episode where Wanda comes home, Pietro tells Lance he needs Lance’s auto fixed so he can go on a date. (How does she know they're not with a boy? He never specified a gender O_o. Gay people go on dates too, last time I checked)

Give it up and admit they are not lovers. "

"Pietro and Scott never even go near each other. What type of silliness is this? The worst is people who think Lance and Scott like each other because they are rivals. I have seen art and stories with those two. Why? Jake, are you a boy? Pietro is not the leader of his group anyway. He is not the leadership type. Leave Pietro alone and draw more Kurt. (From a die-hard Rietro fan)

"I am a Pietro with Rogue fan. Why would you have a problem with that? I know. Rogue is not a guy. Poor me for liking what God intended. The difference is that Pietro with Rogue is possible because Pietro likes girls and is not a gay. Your gay pairings could never happen. They are childish fantasy from a depraved mind.

Mr. Blaze Rocket: The only troll here is someone who would say something as ugly as you said. May Christ forgive you. "

"Enjoy hell klootzak.

And Adam said, This is now bone of my bones, and flesh of my flesh: she shall be called Woman, because she was taken out of Man. Therefore shall a man leave his father and his mother, and shall cleave unto his wife: and they shall be one flesh"

"The truth is on my side. God created man to love woman and woman to love man.

You shall not lie with a male as those who lie with a female; it is an abomination."

Leviticus 18:22

If a man lies with a male as those who lie with a woman, both of them have committed an abomination and they shall surely be put to death.

Leviticus 20:13"

"Slavery? If you knew my Ghan... ]]> ~Devas http://Devas.deviantart.com/journal/3226283/ http://Devas.deviantart.com/journal/3226283/ Fri, 27 Aug 2004 17:18:18 PDT --Kids in my history class who look over my shoulder when I draw and make fun of them.
--Alzea
--Girl in English class who told me that my Rikku/Paine cuddling picture was icky.
--The Scarlet Letter
--Alzea
--My friend who told my brother I was making fun of him today, when I did no such thing.

I want to burn them all. However, I will need gasoline, as the prices are just so gosh 'dern expensive! Oooh! Matches.

And a place to hide the bodies.

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]]> ~Devas http://Devas.deviantart.com/journal/3109208/ http://Devas.deviantart.com/journal/3109208/ Thu, 12 Aug 2004 15:47:17 PDT
My reasoning being yesterday, I went back. This isn't supposed to happen until at LEAST the 14th of August each year, as a general courtesy. We are high school students who grudgingly go back to our overcrowded school full of people we don't like for the dream of going to college, where we can choose what classes we take and not have to get up at 5:30 in the morning so our athletes can stay afterschool to a reasonable hour.

But I digress. I actually like most of my teachers this year. My English AP teacher is frightening, but it's her hyper, intense way of communication that intimidates me a bit. because I'm a geek, I'm actually kind of looking forward to progressing in that class. it seems like it's going to be fun. Literary analyzation, essays, SAT preps... I'm not being sarcastic XD. I'm THAT big of a dork. Same with my Electronic Media, because I get 55 minutes or so to mess around in Photoshop and Illustrator for a GRADE. Insert drooling here.

The other classes and teachers I am very pleased with, as we've reached a silent agreement that they won't stress us out and pile loads of work on us if we don't drive them insane. Hopefully, they won't get rabies and turn on us. I enjoy this "not starting my day off in a Nazi's classroom" thing. I have Chesmistry first, and out teacher looks like she's in eigth grade. She's cute and I want to hug her for it.

I'm still not real pleased with a majority of my peers, but thus far, none have managed to piss me off and lose my hope for humanity yet. They all seem reasonable, even the kids in the on level classes. There are no swarms of gangster wannabes in them that I immediately percieve. I know very few people up until lunch time, so it's a little alienating, even to a anti-social as myself. This is okay though, because I hold a strong suspicion that getting to know a lot of the people on a deeper level than "kid who sits next to me" would annoy the shit outta me.

Oh! We are definitely overcrowded this year, and that's sad. It's our first year with a all four grades, and the seniors don't get lockers because the freshmen desperately need them. They've yet to realize that most are enthralled with being able to tote their backpack around rater than sticking it in their locker, and they won't use it very often. Meanwhile, the seniors have huge loads of books and stuff, and desperately need them.
Getting through the crowds is like swimming in pudding, and leave you with the same feeling after you get out.

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http://Devas.deviantart.com/journal/3065914/ Sat, 07 Aug 2004 11:53:55 PDT
However, it is soon to become obsolete! My sidekick is going into retirement because... I'm finally getting a tablet! Enthusiatic wooting all around. A 6X8 Wacom Graphathingy, in sapphire. I'm pleased, because this also likely to slow down the impending carpal tunnel, as well as making computer rendered thingies infinitely easier to make.

So, this is an ode to the mouse:

I loved the way you'd make my lines jump if I accidentally ran you off the tiny mouse pad.
I loved the way you'd make my hands and wrists ore after a couple of hours.
I loved the way you'd cease to function and I'd have to bang you furiously against the desk repeatedly to revive your silicoln heart.

You will be missed, my old partner in crime.

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]]> ~Devas http://Devas.deviantart.com/journal/3057223/ http://Devas.deviantart.com/journal/3057223/ Fri, 06 Aug 2004 11:22:29 PDT
You see, I used to be 12. During those years, I was in 7th grade, and deeply into Card Captor Sakura. By deeply into CCS, I mean I loved whatever the big-bads of the fandom loved. I held the opinion yaoi was 'icky', I nearly died of shock the first time I saw a lemon, I wrote crappy crappy crappy fanfiction. At te time, I had a little lines notebook in which I drew mediocre art of my Mary-Sue type character. Fortuantly, she never met the rest of the world, as I hadn't developed her very well.

Before that, I was into DBZ and Sailor Moon, and had tyhe same character as the uber-awesome god Sue. She was a female super Saiyan in one universe *trunk loved her), and the lost senshi "Sailor Universe" in the other. As time grew on, I powered her down to make things fair. Her name was Lori, and she was a badass. I lurked in the dark corners of the fandoms, never to make my presence known because I was too retarded and shy to make any buddies there. Looking back, it was a good thing. I wasn't able to annoy the living shit out of anyone that way. But I still have endless pile of bad anime-style fanart from then. It is still painful to look at.

After CCS went to hell on the WB, I started to Watch Evo. I got into the fandom about mid-season 2, and started to interact with people. I carried over my DBZ/CCS/Sailor Moon Sue to Evo, and she had some marvelous power and dated Pietro. I can't recall her exact role, but I think she was a member of the BoM. I still thought slash was kinda iffy, but had no problems with it. I reviewed stories with the words 'kewlies', and used occasional netspeak. I thank my lucky stars I'd never encountered AIM before, or I would have been like... 3000 times worse when I spoke to people. About this time, I started Blink.

Then, I encountered the slash fans. I was floored. Back then, we had fantastic authors like Shindo, Mor, Psycho B, Dr. Worm, batE, Olhado, Nai, etc who were still quite active and producing things. The quality was above and beyond that of any of the Pietro fics I'd ever read. I just started out reading the angst and ignoring the slash, but I got more and more addicted to their work, and had eventuallly read it all. It was then I became a slash fan.

From there, I turned into a snarky, discerning fangirl. I ditched Lori into a pit, took up the theory Pietro was bi (I eventually caved to the charms to Gay!Pietro when I realized the potential angst in 9th grade), and stopped being stupid.

You see, it's my theory that slashy people can influence the non-slashers into being smarter. It may be just a coincidence, but in every fandom, those who are cool with the concept of boy on boy (or girl on girl) create better stuff. It doesn't mean they have to be a FAN, but are tolerant of it. Giving them an open mind makes them see stuff they couldn't before. Granted, there are some frikkin' STUPID slashers out there (you all know who I'm talking about), but in most cases, they're fixed.

....Now to fix the cutter fic people >_>.

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http://Devas.deviantart.com/journal/2995910/ Thu, 29 Jul 2004 12:18:25 PDT ! I have made so much progress.

For instance, I am no longer wearing diapers and talking into the phone cord. That stopped MONTHS ago.

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]]> ~Devas http://Devas.deviantart.com/journal/2953958/ http://Devas.deviantart.com/journal/2953958/ Fri, 23 Jul 2004 23:51:45 PDT And bigots get a one up!

MAJOR fuck-a-roony. The only thing keeping me from screaming is the knowledge they can't possibly keep this in effect for very long.

...They couldn't possibly keep this.

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]]> ~Devas http://Devas.deviantart.com/journal/2869156/ http://Devas.deviantart.com/journal/2869156/ Sun, 18 Jul 2004 14:15:03 PDT
They have an original sound (plus they don't really stick to one style in specific. Some are like Euro Pop, others sound like they came straight from background music of RPGs, and even have some bearable rap in there), and have... Cartoon public personas? I dunno. Thet are neither cute nor cuddly, but are frikkin' cool.

Speaking of RPGs, I found a great turn-based RPG for the Gamecube ! I'm so proud of me. Skies of Arcadia tis the name. Why is it great? PIRATES. You play as a bunch of pirates! This keeps me deeply amused.

...I might do fanart for either, because I've already slashed the characters. Murdoc/2D forevah, and ditto to Vyse/Enrique.

There's a sliiiiiim chance someone may know what I'm talking about here. If not... Well. Ner.

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]]> ~Devas http://Devas.deviantart.com/journal/2852638/ http://Devas.deviantart.com/journal/2852638/ Sat, 10 Jul 2004 23:12:37 PDT
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]]> ~Devas http://Devas.deviantart.com/journal/2826460/ http://Devas.deviantart.com/journal/2826460/ Wed, 07 Jul 2004 15:11:43 PDT
It's really pretty funny. We replaced everything for our computers internet purposes, including wiring and such, and it was the stupid phone jack adapter the whole time! I went inot withdrawl, and literally started to hear the modem-y noises whenever I ventured into the living room.

...*group hug* I missed you all.

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]]> ~Devas http://Devas.deviantart.com/journal/2760147/ http://Devas.deviantart.com/journal/2760147/ Tue, 29 Jun 2004 12:58:17 PDT Note! Lietro whores! There is a new, fantabulous community for us to pollute! just started and is squeaky clean and new, so join! Join and be voyeuristiv pervs to a man with a mullet and his shagtoy!

I am one month away from being 16.

Let excitement fill my life .

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]]> ~Devas http://Devas.deviantart.com/journal/2716105/ http://Devas.deviantart.com/journal/2716105/ Tue, 22 Jun 2004 00:52:38 PDT Adultfanfiction.net?! WHY?! You're causing many a pervert to cry.

But on a less Chiru is a slash driven fiend note, I'm TIRED. Mom's working me this summer, so it's difficult to stay up until 3 and wake up at 10:30 ready to go now. Acursed exertion! It's draining me of my will to remain conscious.

Stay tuned for more late night rantings.

*beats digital camera with non-functioning software/USB cable*

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]]> ~Devas http://Devas.deviantart.com/journal/2678858/ http://Devas.deviantart.com/journal/2678858/ Wed, 16 Jun 2004 23:27:03 PDT ! This is a happy occassion, because my mom is cool. However, I'm away from any sort of proper scanner, have a 28.8 connection dial up connection, as well as unable to install Photoshop because I forgot the registration code.

This makes me sad.

However, I'm now in the possession of a digital camaera that refuses to cooperate with me at the moment, and I'm really frustrated.

The connection is too slow for Oekaki, and the only image program we've got is MS Paint. I forgot my web template for the BHC at Texas home.

I will be artistically frustrated this whole summer ;_;. ]]> ~Devas http://Devas.deviantart.com/journal/2590451/ http://Devas.deviantart.com/journal/2590451/ Sat, 05 Jun 2004 15:24:26 PDT
...While some of my gallery is more suited to the Scrapbook, I don't want to move it because I'm lazy and want it to look like it has more stuff in it.

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]]> ~Devas http://Devas.deviantart.com/journal/2241592/ http://Devas.deviantart.com/journal/2241592/ Sat, 17 Apr 2004 10:36:17 PDT .

I'm dizzy, have a headache, and dehydrated. Here's a tip for all of the other people with allergies this time of year: Don't take some deconghestants and go to sleep. You wake up feeling like crap.

Tingly crap.

WHEEEE.

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]]> ~Devas http://Devas.deviantart.com/journal/2171971/ http://Devas.deviantart.com/journal/2171971/ Wed, 07 Apr 2004 13:41:38 PDT
The only thing I could think of was 'So THERE was where time ran off to...'

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]]> ~Devas http://Devas.deviantart.com/journal/2159569/ http://Devas.deviantart.com/journal/2159569/ Mon, 05 Apr 2004 17:54:18 PDT ! Normally, she lives in Washington, but I see her during Spring Breaks, Chirstmas stuff, and summers. She's down this week, and we poing about and have a grand old time.

My grandparents have kidnapped her.

While they are my family, they drive me insane. They dominate all aspects of our personal lives when we have the oppurtunity to visit. Currently, they have given my mother a 7:15 curfew, and they are the only relatives she is allowed to visit while she's down here.

She originally wanted to spend it with just us. When she asked if she could use their lakehouse while she visited, my grandma got REALLY pissed and gave her a 'how could be so selfish' speech, and again last Tuesday. Hence, we are wrangled into ANOTHER weekend spent with two entirely unpleasant people.

Now, I love them. Don't get me wrong, but they can be a little... scary. My germ-a-phobic grandfather made nine meatloafs the other day in the kitty litter box (he put Clorox in it. By reason, it shoudl be clean), and the other night at dinner, he wouldn't stop interrupting me. My grandma takes great personal offense to even the smallest of things. She wanted to see my sketchbooks, so I brought one to show her, having forgot the other one at home. She told my mom (while I was still in earshot), 'She thinks I won't like her drawings!', when I had implied no such thing. It was as if I'd wounded her by 'refusing to show her' my 4/5 empty sketchbook... She is also the mastermind of the 'kidnap Chiru's mother' plan.

My brother and I hide upstairs the entire time we are in their homes.
It's safer that way.

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]]> ~Devas http://Devas.deviantart.com/journal/2130361/ http://Devas.deviantart.com/journal/2130361/ Thu, 01 Apr 2004 13:45:48 PST
Why, you ask? Well, they're been overworked this entire week. Normally, I cry maybe once every two or three months. This week, I've cried three times.

Now, I'm not a baby. I just tend to cry easily when I'm really upset and hormonally impaired. It's not like, sobbing or anything. I just can't keep my eyes from leaking or my voice steady. First occassion was Sunday, when I yelled at my brother for being a pain in the ass to me and Casey, and when I was explaining my reasoning for this (he was accusing me of lecturing him), *crack* Off I went! It was shortlived and confused me. Usually when we argue, he's the one that ends up crying.

Second and third times were during speech class. On Tuesday, my teacher informed the class we were all going to get 0's on our speech because four people came prepared. I got upset, starting crying over what it would have done to my grade, and expected it to stop there. I no longer felt badly after she said the maximun we could get is a 75, but tears kept running. It got to the point where she called me up to her desk after it was over and it instigated a new wave! She reassured me, and I went back to my seat.

Today was the worst out of all instances where I've cried. I fucked up during my speech. Badly. It started off as realizing I'd said the wrong intro. From there, all downhill. I began to notice everytime I said 'uh', and then forgot what I was trying to say. I started to repeat myself, which led to me talking to myself ('No, that's not right', 'I can't do this' and 'Oh fuck, what am I doing here' notably), then just freezing... There was a seven second period where I just stood up there, watching all them stare at me and felt dizzy. The teacher gave me a 'Question period!' cue, and took questions, started to regain control, and felt that it may not have been a total disaster. Until the last question. I think what happened was I forgot the english language. I couldn't get the words out! I just kinda babbled, then gave a short 'Thank you, my pleasure to speak to you... give you a speech... Umm...". Then I tried to get back to my desk as quickly as possible.
Except one kid said 'Good Job!' and I just couldn't respond... I knew that I'd get a squeaky voice syndrome and humiliate myself further.
Then the teacher said 'I think a thank you is in order', in this cold, dissapointed voice. That did it. I said a quick thank you and broke.
I stopped for what I thought was the last time half an hour later because the kids in that class are REALLY nice. The ones sitting around from me made me smile and laugh, and I was back to me in no time. Still in a CRAPPY mood, but able to act cheerful.

Then I explained my story to one of my friends at lunch and just started to sob... It was over in less than two minutes, but I cried about it sporadically through lunch. Art was good and painless, because I can draw and let loose some steam, but Geometry got me worked up again. The teacher told me stop because she thought it was because of stress over the Geomtry problems. On the bus, it happened again! There was three straight hours of sporadic crying!

It's one of the most humiliating things that can happen to me. I cry when I'm upset, but if I get embarrassed because I'm upset, I start to cry more. Tha'ts what I think happened today... I hate being looked at and being the center of attention. Especially when I'm at my worst.

...Just AUGH.
I need a hug.

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Go, you monkeys! Bring me to the devil number!

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I am... MASTER PRoCRASTINATOR!

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So yes! I will hopefully have more time for artness/Blinkness! Go ME.

I felt the need to inform everyone of this because I realize you are all hopelessly engrossed in my life's little melodramas.

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You see, I told her of my plans to go see Starsky and Hutch with Casey this weekend, and the transcript closely resembled the following:
Her: "Oh great! I can get around my grounding to go with you!"
Me: "Um, no, you can't."
Her: *startled bunny stare* "Yes I can! My mom doesn't--"
Me: "No, I mean you're not invited." ...*scamper off to bus*
Her: *probably still standing there*

While I'm proud of myself for having balls, I feel bad because I could have been a LOT more tactful and polite about it. Y'know, like "Me and Casey need some "'us' time because we don't get to see each other in person that often." or "Sorry, this is just a 'me and Casey' thing." ...But then I think about how huge of a rude bitch she's being and feel okay again.

She says that unless Casey actually comes out and SAYS that she's his girlfriend, she's free to date toher guys and flirt with anyone. I told him this last night, and his response was "What a bitch."

I take pride in the fact that he's not blinded by his desire to have a girlfriend.

Not so proud that he only has her because he wants a pretty girlfriend.


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I'm rather pissed at one of border-line personality friendly aquaintances right now. I doubt she'd understand why. She's dating my best friend, and hence, I shouod be helping her at all given oppurtunities because I have no feelings of my own.

You see, she's grounded for their last date. Apparently, it was supposed to be chaperoned, and he forgot to tell his Mom. Her mom is a psycho, and grounded her for three months. This I can empathize with.

She gives me notes to give to him. As I don't see him everyday, I just type them to him via AIM. I get a kick out of how mushy they are (he's her "darling star"), although he feels all flattered and such. Casey's one of those hetero guys that isn't a jackass.

Anyways! Note passing. I do so without complaint. She starts trying to hide the fact that she's dating several other guys WHILE dating my best friend. I find out through the rumor mill, and don't take them seriously because it's the rumor mill. I'm keeping an eye on her though... Apparently, her last boyfriend broke up with her ia e-mail about days ago. Whether it's because she cheats or just because she drove him insane, I will never know.

But yesterday was the last straw. I found out that she's making plans to spend the night at my house so she can get around her grounding, and then we invite Casey to go with us somewhere! It was not from her that I heard this. Not ONLY is she completely disregarding ME (she hasn't considered that maybe seeing them making out on my couch/in the movie theater would be weird for me in the slightest), but is being a totally pretentious bitch! Just--AUGH!

...Or am I being the one who's being the bitch? Advice on what I should do, other than tell her no?

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Today, I had to go to the dentist. Everytime I tell to this someone (regardless of whether I know them or not), they flinch and go "drilly thingy". I just had plaque scraped from my teeth. ...Hey, have ever notived how " laque" as in tooth gunk, and "laque"as in a congratulatory plate thingy of honor are spelled the same? I just noticed that! Nifty. Anyways, I have no cavities again! And I got to miss the dreaded World History class/gym! Bad news is, my history teacher is likely pissed at me because I wasn't there because I owe it to her to be at her class eeryday because she puts up with me constantly arguing with her, and gym... Well, gym is meh. MEH, I say! I hate physical activity. One more reason to hate mondays >_<.

On the other hand, I got this REALLY cool flingy sticky hand I get to fling at my brother! I call it the hand of justice. Brother unit just screams profanities at it. My little gummy hand's feelings are hurt.

Annnnd new sketch. PRIDE man. Pride at my ten minute doodle that-I-only-really-like-the-face-of. But creative cropping makes up for the awkward pose.



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