http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:DevilmanXS&section=today deviantART RSS for by:DevilmanXS en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Mon, 21 Dec 2009 08:17:43 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://DevilmanXS.deviantart.com/journal/17029037/ http://DevilmanXS.deviantart.com/journal/17029037/ Sat, 23 Feb 2008 16:54:42 PST
Natural Hair Color:
[] Black = $100
[ ] Blonde = $50
[ ] Red = $75
[x] Brown = $15
[ ] Bald = $5
[ ] Other=$2

Total: $15

Eye Color:
[x] Brown - $150
[ ] Green - $75
[ ] Blue $50
[ ] Hazel $100
[ ] Other - $15

Total so far: $165

Height:
[ ] Over 7' - $200
[ ] 6'8" to 7' - $175
[x] 6'0" to 6'7" - $150
[] 5'5" to 5'11" - $75
[ ]4'9" to 5'4" - $50
[ ] Under 4'9 - $45

Total so far: $315
Age:
[ ] 41 to 50 - $150
[ ] 31 to 40 - $100
[ ] 26 to 30 - $75
[x ] 21 to 25 - $50
[ ] 19 to 20 - $25
[] 0 to 18 - $100

Total so far: $365

Birth Order:
[ ] Twins or more than twins - $300
[x] First Born - $300
[ ]Only Child - $250
[ ] second born - $150
[ ] Middle child - $100
[ ] Last Born - $200
[ ] third born - $100
[ ] fourth born - $100
[ ] fifth born-$375

Total so far: $665

Drink?
[] No - $400
[ ] Only Holidays - $250
[x] Sometimes - $215
[ ] YES - $200
[ ] only weekends - $300
[ ] Every other day - $50
[ ] Once a day - $15
[ ] I live from the bottle

Total so far: $880

Vision?
[ ] perfect vision $300
[x] need or have glasses/contacts but don't wear them $200
[ ] No correction $100
[] Glasses $50
[] contacts $25
[ ] Surgical correction -$1080

Total so far: $965

Car Color [or family's car(s)]:
[ ] White - $2,000
[ ] Maroon - $800
[] Gold - $700
[ ] Gray - $600
[x ] Blue - $900
[ ] Pink - $475
[ ] Black - $450
[ ] Red - $400
[ ] Green- $350
[ ] Silver $300
[ ] Purple- $250
[ ] Metallic - $200
[ ] Yellow - $100
[ ] Primer - $75
[ ] Tan- $20
[ ] Rusted - $15
[ ] No Car - $0

Total score: $1980

Shoe Size:
[ ] 13+ - $300
[ ]12 and a half to 13 - $250
[x] 11 to 12 - $700
[] 7 to 10 - $600
[ ] Under 7- $550

Total so far: $ 2680

Favorite Colors (three):
[x] Green-$750
[x] Black - $600
[x] Red - $800
[ ] Yellow -$475
[ ] Brown - $50
[ ] Purple - $225
[x] White - $400
[ ] Aqua - $350
[ ] Orange - $300
[x] Blue - $300
[ ] Pink - $100
[ ] Other - $ 50

Total so far: $5630

Did you use a calculator to add it all up?
[ ] Yes $0
[x ]No-add $1000
[ ] on some- $750

Total so far: $6630

how many people are you going to tag?
[ ] 91-150 = 250,000
[ ] 71 -90 = $100,000
[ ] 51 -70 = $50,000
[ ] 31 - 51 = $10,000
[ ] 21 - 30 = $5,000
[ ] 11 - 20 = $1,000 (I'll tag my buddies only...mah too lazy)
[ x] 1 - 10 = $500

See How Much You're Really Worth!

Total so far : $ 7230

now add your number of pageviews 2,061

Total: $ 9,291

Hah! and I keep telling people I wasn't a cheap date, so there you have it, bust out those pocket books

]]> ~DevilmanXS http://DevilmanXS.deviantart.com/journal/16687153/ http://DevilmanXS.deviantart.com/journal/16687153/ Sat, 02 Feb 2008 08:37:13 PST
So I don't know how well you folks out there know about dream interpretation but here's one for you; this morning I woke up to the sound of a telephone going off, but before that this was the dream:

I was in the basement of an older house, the basement was partially flooded and I was helping to clear a few things out, and along the way I and others kept finding what I knew to be ancient greek relics and artifacts, yet the strange thing of it was, they looked as though they were just made or brand new, but I also knew that was impossible, yet when I looked at them, and held them in my hands, I knew they weren't fake, I just somehow knew and I was awed by the beauty and craftsmanship of the artifacts. Truly a curios thing that I feel I shall ponder upon for the day, and if any of you kind people out there would like to offer your thoughts, opinions, and whathaveyou, I would be more then eager to hear them.

Also I would like to say I am sorry to those friends of mine that get this, for having become somewhat of a ghost these last few months; I fear that between my responsibilities of two jobs and a few other trying responsibilities I have shut myself off and become rather solitary, so if I have caused any concern or frustration, I most sincerely appologize, and I wish you all the best.

]]> ~DevilmanXS http://DevilmanXS.deviantart.com/journal/13309953/ http://DevilmanXS.deviantart.com/journal/13309953/ Mon, 11 Jun 2007 22:40:26 PDT
Now another quandery to put to you fine educated folk, have you ever had a moment, out of nowhere, it could be related to the thoughts in your head, it again could be something completely different, yet it's just the right thing that sets off the sparkers in your head to spook the gerbil on the wheel to get it spinning? Well I was watching Highlander: The Search for Vengeance, a new spin on the franchize with an anime twist, but there was something in there that made me realize something about well..life in general. You see, I've always felt that when one passes away, the very core, essence, soul, whatever you want to call it, is given a choice, a choice they might not even be aware of and it happens in an incalculable amount of time for when one passes beyond the physical, what does time matter? That is a mortal concern is it not? In any event, I believe that we are all given the choice and chance to move on, to begin a new life, a new experience, and while from the flesh and all that ties into it we are different from what we once were, but within us, our souls, our essences, remain the same, which is why I believe a piece of who/what we once were comes with us, each time. The best way I guess I can put it is in this phrase:

The body is finite, but the spirit is eternal

And thus, at least, I believe, we move on from life to life, experiencing different facets and opportunities life has to bring and playing the roles fate has for each of us, for ultimately, even those who say they forge their own fate, are in fact playing a role, for yes I believe everything is goverened by choice, but whatever that choice may be, can lead to what we are fated to do, or not and that task is left unfinished and I believe also when we pass from the flesh we realize this, and those who have done what they were meant to do, or have not but accept the fact that they failed, can move on to try again, while those who cannot let go are doomed to remain, thus you have ghosts. Now I could be talking out of my ass, or rambling on and on about something I believe, but it is something I believe, true to my core, that each of us is meant brought to the life and world and experience what we experience because we are meant to do something; learn from those experiences and move on, taking that understanding and knowledge with us as we pass on, thus evolving who we truly are at our very core. Ultimately? To What purpose do thus? Mayhaps our spirits continue on this timeless trek of understanding and expansion so that perhaps one day, we can evolve beyond the elaborate chessboards of fate and those faceless beings that watch as we move ourselves across the board, watching to see what the outcome of existance itself may become.

Now this journal was not meant to insult or offend anyone, but if anyone out there who reads this feels that it has in any way, then I appologize, it was, as religion at its basis is meant to be, an idea, a thought, as ever changing as the skies above us or the seasons of the world. Now to those who feel I have done them harm, I then ask you to look within yourselves, and find the truth for yourselves, for we are only sheep if we let ourselves be. We have minds and wills of our own, and thus the power to choose for ourselves what we wish to believe or not believe, and anyone who says otherwise is far more the fool then one who speaks their mind and finds he was wrong, for the way I see it, if someone is wrong, there is no reason to chastize that one, for while he/she/they might have made a wrong decission, the important thing is they took it upon themselves to make a choice, and that is one of mortal man's ultimate gifts: the power to choose, and that is at the very core of all others: the choice to be kind or cruel, the choice to wage war or make peace, the choice to believe in something greater then oneself or not to...the choice to love, or to hate...the choice to forgive, or condemn.

I leave these words for those who will read them to think on, and if any of you think I'm a ranting fool, please feel free to say so, but please, think that only if you choose to think it, and not think that only because of what you were raised to believe or told... ]]> ~DevilmanXS http://DevilmanXS.deviantart.com/journal/12599614/ http://DevilmanXS.deviantart.com/journal/12599614/ Sun, 15 Apr 2007 00:12:10 PDT
I've been trying to get back into writing, though I gotta admit, finding the drive to write is quite different from the ability to do so. But oh well, doesn't mean one can't try...right? Aside from that...I've been going through alot, coming to understand alot of things, coming to learn not to take things or people for granted...funny how the most important lessons you learn are often times learned through the most painful means. For me, it had to come to losing someone very dear to me, and running the risk of getting myself blown up. Though now, I have something else to contend with: Loss. As of a few hours ago, my grandmother, one of the kindest and sweetest women I've ever known, who visited all the time when I was growing up and did her best to be a great influence on me, died a few hours ago after having a stroke. The paramedics tried to bring her back, but she was gone...may she finally find peace after all these long, agonizing years of suffering. I can only imagine how my mother is taking it, for she was there and saw her at the hospital, while I, on the other hand, have the memory of when I last saw her, lying in her bed, muscles all but gone, skin hanging off her bones, unable to leave her bed or move unassisted...slowly wasting away....that's how I and all who knew her have seen her for the last few years...for her, the last 10 years of her life was, I have no doubt, a living and terrifying hell. But now, if fate be kind and if their is a Heaven, she is there right now, finding peace finally. This I hope and pray for more then anything else.

As for the family...well...the best we can hope for is to put aside our collected differences for just one last time and be there for one another, if for anything else, for my grandmother and my grandfather, who, to me, is the prime example of what loving devotion is. He truly did everything he could for his wife, he loved her so that he put no care to himself except for what was needed. He truly did everything humanly possible for her, because she was his wife and he loved her, more then his own life, and now, she's gone, and the sad truth is, she's been slipping away for a very, very long time, which to me is far more agonizing than anything else in this world.

Well...there it is..I hope everyone is well, and may the fates be kind everyone. Take care of yourselves.

]]> ~DevilmanXS http://DevilmanXS.deviantart.com/journal/11103834/ http://DevilmanXS.deviantart.com/journal/11103834/ Mon, 18 Dec 2006 10:18:40 PST
hard to imagine another year has come and quite nearly fully gone. So much has happened no? Well, as for yours truly things have been pretty busy, crowds upon crowds of people storming the store like waves upon a turbulent shore, crashing against the rocks, never ebbing, but never truly stopping. But hey that's a good thing, means more work and $$$ heh. but unfortunately it seems that the route of illness has caught up with me finally....first mom, then dad, now me. joy. oh well, better now then on christmas I suppose. So how's everyone else doing? Hope everyone has alot of fun over the holiday!!

oh, minor sidenote, I have a commission in mind to anyone and everyone who might be interested, there is the possibility of payment as well for anyone who would be interested, and this would be a 2-part, possibly a 3-part commision: rough scetch, inked, and if willing to do so, colored. However this commission might be a bit of a challenge, giving the subject matter involved, but then again some might consider the challenge beneath their notice...in which case, sorry to have wasted your time.

Well gotta get going, need to find myself some medication, bye!!!

]]> ~DevilmanXS http://DevilmanXS.deviantart.com/journal/10816709/ http://DevilmanXS.deviantart.com/journal/10816709/ Wed, 22 Nov 2006 21:32:18 PST
In our last episode there was quite a bit of drama and issues flying around our heroes head. Time's passed, stress has been releaved..a little, and things are starting to look a little better, yaaaaaay. Well the holidays are rolling around again, and why the rest of my relatives are kinda giving us the cold shoulder right now, my brother's home for the holiday, I got a new job (WOOT!!) though it's not in my field, hey, I can't complain. and I just wanted to wish to all those dearest to me (and even you folk I don't know all that well) a good, save and fun turkey torching day and Christmas! And to those I don't talk to very often, for that I am sorry, you are never far from my thoughts or feelings and you are all deeply missed.....

....well, enough of the mushy stuff, heh, HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!!

]]> ~DevilmanXS http://DevilmanXS.deviantart.com/journal/10042348/ http://DevilmanXS.deviantart.com/journal/10042348/ Mon, 11 Sep 2006 17:36:15 PDT
Civil war isn't just a concept that's in the history books...not for me at least...my family is tearing itself apart. Battle lines have been drawn, bad blood now flows where tendernace and love once was. Bitterness, regret...everywhere. All because of one. I don't know how bad things are going to get...but I know this...my children (and god willing I'll be able to have and support a family one day) may never know my aunts and uncles, only the happy stories that I tell them of when I was a boy.

Aside from that...money is becoming an increasingly difficult subject. Tuition has come knocking on my door and it intends to collect, heh, but some of you may be thinkin' 'oh he lives with his folks he doesn't have it so bad' well, normally you would be right....except this time. My mother is caught in the middle of a war and it's her own family...her own mother has turned her back on her and so has her father. All she really has now, is me, my brother and my father (yes, one of the few times I will ever call him that), most times I just call him dad...I've never called him 'father'....too much old resentment I guess.

And I? Hm...I'm still here, as always. Though a little more quiet then before I would imagine. My appologies go out to all my friends who may think that I have forgotten them, I have not, you all still mean a great deal to me, and you may choose to believe that if you wish, or believe it not. I just hope I have not lost anyone because of my silence.

So...there it is I guess. I know everyone is under the intense press of finals so I won't be dissapointed if noone responds to this, I just needed to put my thoughts out there. Can't bottle things up now can we? Someone once told me it isn't healthy. heh.

Oh and Al, you have every right to have your animation in Artimation, hell I'd say it would have a damn good shot of winning a slot on there(i mean did you see some of the ones they had last year? yuck! attrotious ) Not to mention the hard work and effort you put into everything you do, I've always admired that about you.

Well all, hope to catch you all later, peace. ]]> ~DevilmanXS http://DevilmanXS.deviantart.com/journal/8750234/ http://DevilmanXS.deviantart.com/journal/8750234/ Fri, 12 May 2006 14:02:44 PDT
Where does it stop? Where does it end? IT DOESN'T AAAAHAHAHAHAHHAAAAHHHH!! because deep down, we won't let it stop, we can't no matter how much we may think we want to or how hard we try, it won't stop. There will always be miscommunications, people who are too frightened or unsure of themselves to speak their minds or people who like to generate drama cause they get off on it or some other craptackular reason. And there is no such thing, as innocence when it comes to this, I'm not even going to try and say I'm innocent of this, hell I'm as guilty of it as anyone.

*sigh*

Now my rant is complete, thank you you were a wonderful audience, may the burning begin. ]]> ~DevilmanXS http://DevilmanXS.deviantart.com/journal/8244153/ http://DevilmanXS.deviantart.com/journal/8244153/ Thu, 23 Mar 2006 08:46:21 PST
From that little accident I had over the winter break I went to court and was cleared of all charges (and who says the American justice system doesn't work? ) I've been working nonstop getting everything ready for Portfolio Show and finally graduate from the lovely school that we all know and love. *sigh* you wanna talk stress? Trying to get everything ready and everytime you've accomplished something something goes wrong and it throws everything for a loop, I'm sure other graduates could agree with me on that point. Then, finally the day arives. All my work is finished, (HAZAAAAHHHH!!!) and then, I wake up quite early that morning with the joy of the stomach flu....fuckin' A!! But, I made it...I sucked it up, persevered, and made it through Portfolio show!! WWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE EEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and got more then a few job possibilities which I will be hearing from next week! *takes a deep breath and sighs* I'm done, finally, finally done. Now, before I go on I want to thank everyone, all of my friends, yes, even you asshole Tyler. You all in your own way helped me get this far. There is no way I could ever thank all of you for all the help you gave me along the way to this point, but what I can do is that in the future if you ever need a hand with something, you know who you can call. And I wish each and every one of you the best of luck in the time to come. Hell, if I can graduate, anyone can, even you Jeremy

Now I don't know what the future has in store for me, I could get lucky and find myself a job around these parts, or I could end up in New York, California or some other place, but whatever happens, wherever I end up, I'll never forget any of you. ]]> ~DevilmanXS http://DevilmanXS.deviantart.com/journal/7380092/ http://DevilmanXS.deviantart.com/journal/7380092/ Wed, 04 Jan 2006 15:30:28 PST Due to an unfortunate accident my car must now be taken into the shop (as of tuesday, my brother's birthday of all days) and repaired. All I gotta say is, thank god for insurance.

As for other matters...erm..dunno. I don't know about everyone else but I'm gonna use this break to relax as much as possible, and if I can, spend as much time with my dear friends (yes that means you guys) as I can. And a blessed event coming up by Jan. 3, me birthday, hoorah. Another year older..wootwoot. heh. So, how 'bout everyone else? I hope fun and excitement are going your way this break, if not, relaxation.

Well, gotta go, shopping to do and t-minus 2 days to do it. goodbye, goodluck, and happy hollidays to you all!!

---UPDATE---

HI EVERYBODY!!! I hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas and a Happy New Year! Mine went pretty well, finally got my car back (sans repairs) le sigh, but you know what? it still runs and I'm on my way to saving up for a new (hopefully damage free) car. Aside from that I had a wonderous birthday, thanks to my wonderful friends for the wonderful gift they chipped in for, let me just tell you all now, it's beautiful and you helped bring to life a childhood dream. *sniffs* Ah, but, some news: Al, I'm not sure what exactly is going on Saturday, turns out my dad volunteered me and my mom to go to my cousin's play (he's actually a theatre graduate so it might not be that bad) however I don't know when it starts nor when it's over, but I will tell you this, I will find whatever loophole I can to come to your party. AAANNNDDD, to those of you who might be interested, my dad's going out of town in 2 weeks and my mom gave me the idea of having you guys come over, if you so like, please let me know. most likely it'll be 2 weeks from this friday, so let me know!

Oh and Al, to answer your question, sounds like a good plan of the dual party, I'll do my best to be there, when does it start? Well, till later everybody!!!! ]]> ~DevilmanXS http://DevilmanXS.deviantart.com/journal/6835016/ http://DevilmanXS.deviantart.com/journal/6835016/ Sat, 22 Oct 2005 08:48:00 PDT
1. My last name is but a clever abreviation given to my family by the wonderful customs people when my grandfather came over as a weee boy, the full name is Fotinacopolus.
2. Fotinacopolus translated means 'From the city of lights' (translated by grandpa not myself could be slightly off)
3. Ever since I was a small boy I have had the fear of dying alone.
4. People have accused my brother and I to look alot alike which is a horrible dirty lie
5. My family's first dog was an airedale terrior my dad named Conan(the name was most appropriate, strong as an ox) he was my best friend and he died when I was 16
6. I keep a sword collection and some of my simple pleasures is practicing with them, sharpening them and maintaining them.
7. My first car was an '89 Plymoth Voyager Turbo (minivan, and yes, had an inbuilt turbo) minivan with serious pickup? madness.
8. I had my first job when I was 14, started in the electronics dept. in Super K, next week became a cart attendant...funness.
9. I have successfully learned to use 2 instruments: acoustic guitar(which I still have) and piano, but with that I could only play the music or the chords, neither at the same time.
10. One of the first fantasy books I ever read was the Hobbit and damn was it a good read.
11. I have a serious problem with heights, yet I've always wanted to be a pilot and took flight training.
12. I reeeeeeeaaaaaally hate ladders, especially when I have to use them.
13. I've had a reaccuring nightmare ever since I was a small boy which I seem to have once a year.
14. Used to be a huge anime fan, now, not so much (save for the occassional one that catches my attention).
15. I never really had female friends until I got to college.
16. Though I'm a raised and comfirmed catholic I have no love or respect for the organization itself anymore.
17. Been hearing the phrase: "When you get older you'll miss highschool and wish you could go back to those times" since before I graduated from there and I think that whoever came up with that phrase is full 'o' shit.
18. I never like being around large crowds and was never comfortable in clubs.
19. Males who mistreat women are not men and I consider them to be one of the lowest forms of life and should be subjected to a slow and oh so painful death.
20. I was born, grew up and raised in Illinois, most moving my folks ever did was from a house in Schaumburg to a new one in Hoffman Estates.

Now you know some random facts about yours truly (worth gold I tell you!). And noooowwww it's and :icon~Vagrant-Ket: 's turn. hehheh have fun! ]]> ~DevilmanXS http://DevilmanXS.deviantart.com/journal/6772912/ http://DevilmanXS.deviantart.com/journal/6772912/ Sat, 15 Oct 2005 07:59:28 PDT ~DevilmanXS http://DevilmanXS.deviantart.com/journal/6277533/ http://DevilmanXS.deviantart.com/journal/6277533/ Sat, 20 Aug 2005 07:40:35 PDT Well been a while since I've put anything so I figured it was time for another journal. So, a few updates: To all people I tried to convince to coming to work for Target, I humbly beg your forgiveness, Target blows so much ass it's not even funny. As far as my web job goes, let's put it this way; haven't received a check yet and haven't heard a word from my boss in about 2 weeks give or take a day....sooooo yeah....screw you too dick.
And as some of you might have noticed I haven't exactly been in the best of moods the past week, and though I can't really appologize for that I would like to make the attempt to anyone I might've offended and/or pissed off. Sleep has not been coming to me easily, and the past few days I've felt like freezedried shit that got run over by a truck then chucked in a fan. I know, colorful metaphor no? Well aside from that not much else to report, oh yeah, except that my midterm had much to be desired, but I'm working on that. So, until next time kiddies. ]]> ~DevilmanXS http://DevilmanXS.deviantart.com/journal/6150260/ http://DevilmanXS.deviantart.com/journal/6150260/ Sat, 06 Aug 2005 13:19:30 PDT ).
Aside from that, not much else to say, and those of you who pay any attention to the words of yours truly, good for you, may the gods smile upon you, if not, oh well, *sniff* I'll somehow manage to get over it. So, until next time boys and girls, laters!!!!

(p.s. To all you single folk out there, little note: being single isn't as bad as you might think, just think of it as an openning in options. ) ]]> ~DevilmanXS http://DevilmanXS.deviantart.com/journal/6043205/ http://DevilmanXS.deviantart.com/journal/6043205/ Tue, 26 Jul 2005 20:21:34 PDT
WAAAAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAHHH!!!!! Well this quarter has had an interesting start. New jobs (yes plural) have proven quite the handful, and with them combined with my late classes I have relearned the value of a good night's sleep. And much like in old fashion, due to lack of sleep, throw in a dash of madness and a few slivers of frustration, and a pinch of garlic, I have caught myself being prickish and all around evil. I would like to appologize now to anyone and everyone, but I wouldn't mean it. AAAAAAAAAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHHAHAA!!! *sigh* ah, ranting...how I love theee.
So yeah, on to better news..........um........oh yeah. 2 very good friends of mine now live rather comfortably (or perhaps too comfortably) close to me, seeing as how they're now only 2 blocks away or so from my own land of Avalon.
To those gentlemen, I simply say, you boyoos are more then welcome to stop by, just be sure to give me a head's up ahead of time. sorry guys, I know I'm handsome and all, but I don't think you'd be too comfortable with me welcoming you at my door, half asleep and well...yeah.....
So yeh..if'n people want to talk, shoot, go for it and post, if not, oh well, see you folks later, I'm off to sleep, or at least make as valient an effort before I decide to stay up most of the night playing Vampire the Masquerade: Bloodlines. Ah, my new addiction. ]]> ~DevilmanXS http://DevilmanXS.deviantart.com/journal/5874621/ http://DevilmanXS.deviantart.com/journal/5874621/ Fri, 08 Jul 2005 07:09:02 PDT Now where do I start?..hmmm...well, my dad and I are getting along better then we have in years, (to those of you who know me this is a VAST improvement. Our gazebo is nearly complete, unfortunately we weren't able to use it for any Amber games over break, but oh well, tomorrow's another day. Due to certain...influences shall we say, I started reading the Harry Potter books and in just one week I zipped through books 1 and 2 and am now working on book 3. And you know what, I take back (almost) every mean and nasty thing I ever said about Harry Potter...But yeah...got some work done which I am greatly hoping to post here soon, got a new job, (W00T!!!) and am about to start working for a webservicing agency.
Oh man am I looking forward to it. So yeah, another break has come and (quite nearly) gone, but unlike previous breaks I'd say this one was anything but wasted, and I can thank my dearest friends for that, you know who you are. And my very special thanks to a certain pious blonde who has managed to remind me of a few of my morals that I had forgotten, and that even little things matter.
*sigh*
Well, if y'all excuse me, I'm off to pass out again, for I am a zombie and we hates sunlight my precious. Later all!! ]]> ~DevilmanXS http://DevilmanXS.deviantart.com/journal/5680708/ http://DevilmanXS.deviantart.com/journal/5680708/ Fri, 17 Jun 2005 21:14:20 PDT !!!
As well as a few things of a more personal nature. Hm. The only thing that could make this even better...well, 2 things. 1: a working copy of Photoshop and 2: my computer's audio to work. But oh well, the world ain't perfect. Well, 'ta all, I is off to sleep, hopefully it will be restful. ]]> ~DevilmanXS http://DevilmanXS.deviantart.com/journal/5616239/ http://DevilmanXS.deviantart.com/journal/5616239/ Sat, 11 Jun 2005 07:10:01 PDT At any rate, my teachers this quarter decided to rather then keep things simple, they decided to rush us through our lectures and now we have a lovely website we need to build using Java scripting and other external style sheet funness. In the words of Joe Thomson from Family Guy: BRING IT OOONNN!!!!! ]]> ~DevilmanXS http://DevilmanXS.deviantart.com/journal/5292850/ http://DevilmanXS.deviantart.com/journal/5292850/ Sat, 07 May 2005 11:18:23 PDT
1. First Name:
Sean

2.Were you named after anyone:
My middle name is William, it’s my dad’s name…

3. Which finger is your favorite?
The Thumb, I mean come on, it’s opposable and think of the hours of fun you can have with it? Especially if you’re double jointed like me.

4. When did you last cry?
…I know when…and I know why…but I’d rather not say.

5. Do you like your handwriting?
Oh absolutely! I love being able to write in cursive and be the only one who can read it.

6. What is your favorite lunch meat?
Um…does steak count? Mmmm…red meat…

7. What is your most embarrassing CD on your shelf?
The Mortal Kombat soundtrack…don’t laugh! I stole it from my brother…

8. Are you a daredevil?
If you’ve driven with me, or flown with me, then you wouldn’t be asking.

9. Have you ever told a secret you swore not to tell?
More times then I’d like to admit…some I’ll tell others about…but the big ones…those I’m taking to my grave.

10. Do looks matter?
Nope, and they really shouldn’t.

11. Have you ever said a word and it sounded absolutely stupid?
…Hm…let me think on that one.

12. Do you think there is a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow?
Yes in fact there is…but my damned drunken ancestors and their cousins stole it!!

13. Do fish have feelings?
Um…fishies?....don’t know…never bothered to ask if the fish minded that I eat it…

14. Where are your second homes?
HAH!! Wherever there be books or swords is where I’m happiest…oh yeah, and friends, yeah, they’re important too.

15. Do you trust others easily?
Yes, more then I would hope…in my experience, those I have trusted have more often then not…disappointed me.

16. What was your favorite toy as a child?
My wooden sword and shield that I got from the Renaissance fair! Heh…there’s a reason I’m a sword-freak.

17. What class in school do you think is totally useless?
Gee let me think..…E-Learning!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

18. Do you have a journal?
Hm…at times, now, I just don’t have the time.

19. Do you use sarcasm a lot?
Me? Sarcastic? Neeevver…

20. Have you ever been in a mosh pit?
Only once, and that was to pull my poor poor brother out of one.

21. What do you look for in a boy/girl?
Honestly, what I look for is someone I can just talk to…someone I can cut through the bullshit and just be myself around and be comfortable with…That, and a mature mind with an…unusual sense of humor doesn’t hurt.

22. What are your nicknames?
Heh…Seen, The Greek, Zeus, Hercules, Hairy beast, Greek Sean…

23. Would you ever bungee jump?
Hell no, way too dangerous…give me skydiving any day!

24. Do you un-tie your sneakers when you take them off?
You kidding?

25. What's your favorite ice cream flavor?
Always am and always will be a chocoholic…’nough said.

26. What's your favorite color?
The look of the sky as the sun is close to setting; it’s not quite night, but it’s no longer day. The colors that play over the sky and clouds are simply almost moving…God I so long to fly again….

27. What is/are your least favorite thing(s)?
People who betray their word and their friends.

28. How many wisdom teeth do you have?
4…and for the love of God someone take them out!

29. How many people have a crush on you right now?
Earm…not quite sure…

30. Who do you miss most right now?
My old friends from high school…some more then others.

31. Do you want everyone you send this to, to send it back?
Hm…wouldn’t mind, but I’m not gonna press for it.

32. what are you wearing right now?
Old T-shirt, old jeans, and my tattered but tough steel toed sneakers…that’s right, sneakers.

33. What are you listening to right now?
Princess Monenoke theme that I downloaded back in the days of yore.

34. What was the last thing you ate?
Food? What’s that?

35. If you were a crayon, what color would you be?
I would be the seldomly used red…

36. How is the weather right now?
Overcast, probably gonna rain. YAAAAY!!

37. Last person you talked to on the phone?
Ummm…that would have to be….I dunno.

38. First thing you notice about the opposite sex?
Their posture, then if I’m curious enough, what they’re doing…I have a hard time looking at their eyes for some reason…

39. Do you like the person who sent this?
I did what my ancestors... ]]> ~DevilmanXS http://DevilmanXS.deviantart.com/journal/5065589/ http://DevilmanXS.deviantart.com/journal/5065589/ Mon, 11 Apr 2005 23:14:06 PDT ~DevilmanXS http://DevilmanXS.deviantart.com/journal/5020129/ http://DevilmanXS.deviantart.com/journal/5020129/ Wed, 06 Apr 2005 20:17:59 PDT
p.s. If I can put together some free time, I may actually be able to post something soon. scary isn't it? ]]> ~DevilmanXS http://DevilmanXS.deviantart.com/journal/4971517/ http://DevilmanXS.deviantart.com/journal/4971517/ Fri, 01 Apr 2005 15:05:48 PST Starter
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Ah, god bless used cars. But it's all good, because now, my car no longer shrieks at me when I start it, it no longer shifts straight into neutral when I put on the gas, and it runs smoother then it has in a long while..*sigh*...god I love my car. ]]> ~DevilmanXS http://DevilmanXS.deviantart.com/journal/4959509/ http://DevilmanXS.deviantart.com/journal/4959509/ Thu, 31 Mar 2005 09:04:39 PST And honestly, I'm really looking forward to this weekend. Why? 2 very good reasons..Seeing Lexi's folks again, and highway driving! I don't do it very often, well..technically hardly ever, so headin' out on a 3 hour drive down to her home town should be quite interesting, now all I need is for my poor car to be fixed so I can use it. ]]> ~DevilmanXS http://DevilmanXS.deviantart.com/journal/4904719/ http://DevilmanXS.deviantart.com/journal/4904719/ Thu, 24 Mar 2005 21:50:38 PST So anyway, yeah...this quarter had its moments, both good and bad and all in all, it didn't turn out /quite/ that bad. Hell, I learned to loosen the hell up and stop driving my friends crazy (sorry about that by the way).
Now, if you all will excuse me..I have a bed and a pillow with my name on it...somewhere under the heap of clothes that were once on my floor.... ]]> ~DevilmanXS http://DevilmanXS.deviantart.com/journal/4882917/ http://DevilmanXS.deviantart.com/journal/4882917/ Tue, 22 Mar 2005 15:51:26 PST
My parents, ah such wonderful people....they've been cracking down on me ever since I came to college..my dad, ever supportive always puts in his 2 cents on how I'm never around, and when I am he compains that I'm not doing my work...well you know what? FUCK YOU OLD MAN!!...I'm fed up with him and his bullshit and I told him that (minus the bullshit part) and I even told my mom, I'm done being told what to do, I'm fucking 22! I'm not a fucking kid anymore!! Another aspect to this was them constantly hounding me about my hair length..well you know what? it's my head, it's my hair and I'll do what I fucking want with it and I told them that.
Now as for school, it's been keeping me unbelievably busy, so much so that the only comfort I feel from the depression that is constantly creeping up on me when I'm overworked and exhausted is the company of my friends and loved ones...but at the same time, they have their own problems to deal with, so I keep my mouth shut...goddammit...even when I'm with my friends I feel empty and alone, even now as I type this I feel like I'm about ready to snap...Not a single night of decent sleep this whole fucking quarter..true their are those who haven't slept at all, but every morning no matter how much I sleep, I always wake up feeling like I hadn't slept...so everyday I feel utterly exhausted, though the last few weeks I've faked it very well...now, I just don't give a shit anymore...It seems like, no matter how hard I try. With my work for my classes...alot of it is so overwhelming a few of my classmates have either given up or dropped the class (lost 8 students since the beginning of the quarter) and more then once I thought about giving up myself...thing is...I'm too fucking stubborn..I don't know how to quit or give up, even when I can't win.
I'm just tired of feeling like I can't speak to people becuase I start secondguessing myself, and I'm tired of not having the balls to tell people how I feel because I'm afraid I'd hurt their feelings or that they'd get upset with me, or think I'm wrong...frankly, I don't care anymore..I really don't care. I'm just so tired and frustrated and I can't bring it up to my friends or loved ones because I'm stuck with this stupid mindset that it's my problem and I have to deal with it...problem with that is...I cut myself off from people and I start to wonder why they start to feel so distant...
Well...I'm done...again my apologies but I just needed to let off some steam and rant a bit...feel free to comment or just ignore it however you want... ]]> ~DevilmanXS