http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:Doberz&section=today deviantART RSS for by:Doberz en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Sat, 05 Dec 2009 23:49:06 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/24369860/ http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/24369860/ Tue, 21 Apr 2009 23:25:58 PDT Hey, mates. <3 Long time no post. Sorry about that--life threw me for a loop for a while. I don't really feel like getting into it, but suffice to say no one had a job, and there were a lot of emotional troubles and stress. It's looking up now, though. After about six months of being unemployed, I managed to pick up a job for a gaming company doing customer service. It pretty much rocks. I'm really enjoying it. In the meantime, I'm looking at new places to rent in the area around work, since it's a hell of a commute, while my roommate puts the current house in order. Prices are a lot more affordable now around town, so it's not as scary to look, and it won't be hard for me to find a place where I can get a dog. <3 Things have calmed down considerably back home, as well. I even managed to afford to get my brakes fixed yesterday. Things are just looking so much better. There's the annual mansion LARP in a couple of weeks, and it's going to be crazy until then with me already running back and forth between home and work, but it's going to be completely worth it. I'm excited. Out of this stupid rut, and back to at least limping again. Sometimes, that makes all the difference in the world.

]]> ~Doberz http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/20879901/ http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/20879901/ Tue, 07 Oct 2008 18:58:26 PDT Man, I'm getting really tired of getting whapped on the nose with a rolled up newspaper for trying to be a better person, or trying to stand up for myself.

]]> ~Doberz http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/20350961/ http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/20350961/ Sat, 06 Sep 2008 03:11:41 PDT Hey, mates. Sorry for the somewhat last-minute update, but I'm leaving in a couple of hours to go back to Florida for a week. I seem to have phenomenal timing, though--I'll be arriving just in time to evacuate with my family for Hurricane Ike. I'm not -too- worried about it--we've been through worse--but it's bigger than any of the ones they've been through recently, so things will probably be a little hectic. We'll be staying in Orlando, though, and maybe even going to Universal Studios. So, wish me luck with all of that. Hopefully I'll get to actually spend time in the Keys before I come back next saturday.

I have no guarantee of internet while I'm there, of course. Thanks to Ike, I don't even have guarantee of electricity. XD But I'll see what I can manage while I'm out. <3 you lot.

]]> ~Doberz http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/19993817/ http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/19993817/ Sat, 16 Aug 2008 19:54:41 PDT So, has tagged me. XD Seven random things about myself. Let's see if I can come up with seven I haven't posted before.


1. My nickname in California is Twin. I'm no one's biological twin. XD But Mowi and I seemed so similar when we met, that that was jokingly what she started calling me, and everyone else just picked it up when I moved out here, no matter how much Mowi tried to get them to call me "Kari."

2. I want another tattoo. I want a tribal design along my collarbone, with shaded circles implemented in it to represent the phases of the moon--from a full moon right under the hollow of my throat to new moons near the points of my shoulders. But I have no money.

3. I have been playing World of Warcraft since a couple of months after it first came out, and I still don't have a max level character. XD I have a bunch of mid-levels, because I spend all my time role playing and screwing around.

4. Until very recently, I disliked hamburgers because of their texture. They are now a regular part of my diet. >.> But then, I've been eating a lot of things recently that I never used to like. Being poor will do that to you. I also used to not like potatoes. o.o

5. I cannot stand seeing people use chatspeak, but Kai, Mowi and I got into such a habit of using it to make fun of people, that I often implement it into daily speech. I have accidentally become what I hate. XD Or, "H8," I suppose.

6. I can't make myself go to sleep early, despite the fact that I now work at 6am. I just can't stand it, and my body is more awake at night. It has resulted in a long period of unhappiness as far as my job goes.

7. I have an aversion towards those grabby hair clips. They're terrifying.



Forgive how odd this all was. XD The others have been using contact cement to make LARP weapons, so I may be a little high. <3
-Dobes

]]> ~Doberz http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/18648958/ http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/18648958/ Tue, 03 Jun 2008 16:44:52 PDT Step 1: Put your music player on shuffle.
Step 2: Post the first line from the first 30 songs that play, no matter how embarrassing.
Step 3: Strike through the songs when someone guesses both artist and track correctly.
Step 4: Looking them up on Google or any other search engine is CHEATING!
Step 5: If you like the game post your own.

1. On a dark desert highway / Cool wind in my hair
2. Sometimes I feel like I don't have a partner
3. Beat me up, Beat me down / Mess me up beyond all recognition
4. You're such an inspiration for the ways that I will never ever choose to be
5. An old man turned 98 / He won the lottery and died the next day
6. Hello, I've waited here for you
7. Don't you want to end up with this Mister?
8. Breathe in, Breathe out
9. Pain, without love / Pain, I can't get enough
10. If you feel so empty / so used up / so let down
11. Don't fret precious, I'm here / Step away from the window
12. I've got my head, but my head is unraveling
13. Delusional / I believed I could cure it all for you, dear
14. Scar tissue that I wish you saw
15. The bass, the rock, the mic, the treble / I like my coffee black just like my metal
16. Don't be aroused by my confession / Unless you don't give a good god damn about redemption
17. I know I've been mistaken / Just give me a break and see the changes that I've made
18. Tell your friends not to think out loud until they swallow / Whisper things into my brain, your voice sounds so hollow
19. Laid to the river / Midsummer, I waved
20. One desire / One sexual being
21. Breaking my back just to know your name / Seventeen tracks and I've had it with this game
22. You don't mean it / You need a uniform / So you won't be ignored
23. Dead as dead can be / My doctor tells me
24. Tilling my own grave to keep it level / Jam another dragon down the hole
25. Throw your dollar bills and leave your thrills all here with me
26. Answer me, it can't be so hard / Cry to relieve what's in your heart
27. I have control of a history untold / It begins with the father of sin
28. Silky tidal wave / In the midst of summer
29. Why are you doing this to me? / Am I not living up to what I'm supposed to be?
30. Hello, I'm your martyr

I think I've done this before, and a -few- are repeats, but not too many. I'm waiting for Aya to post and just own the whole thing. XD

]]> ~Doberz http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/18516238/ http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/18516238/ Mon, 26 May 2008 18:31:13 PDT Definitely 's fault. XD

I think I have done these before, but my music has changed a little since then, and besides... "Everybody's doing it."

IF YOUR LIFE WERE A MOVIE, WHAT WOULD THE SOUNDTRACK BE?

So, here's how it works:
1.Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2.Put it on shuffle
3.Press play
4.For every question, type the song that's playing
5.When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don't lie.

Opening Credits: Life Support, from Rent (...Most depressing opening ever)
Look, I find some of what you teach suspect
Because I'm used to relying on intellect
But I try to open up to what I don't know
Because reason says I should have died three years ago...

Waking Up: Nymphetamine Mix - Cradle of Filth (...There's a change of gears)
Sick and weak from my condition
This lust, this vampiric addiction
To her alone in full submission

First Day At School: Head Like a Hole - NIN (Worst teachers ever, clearly)
Head like a hole
Black as your soul
I'd rather die
Than give you control

Falling In Love: The Tango: Maureen - Rent soundtrack (Wow. Won't even comment on this one)
And you toss and you turn
'Cause her cold eyes can burn
Yet you yearn and you churn and rebound
(I think I know what you mean...)
The Tango: Maureen

Fight Song: Magdalena - A Perfect Circle (Calmest fight song ever...)
I'd sell my soul
My self-esteem
A dollar at a time
For one chance
One kiss
One taste of you my Magdalena

Breaking Up: Everlong - Foo Fighters (Aww. T_T)
And I wonder
When I sing along with you
If everything could ever be this real forever
If anything could ever be this good again
The only thing I'll ever ask of you
Gotta promise not to stop when I say when

Prom: Pain - Three Days Grace (...Wut? XD So, clearly, I get drunk and pissed and go sleep with someone?)
Pain, Without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all...

Life: Cold (But I'm Still Here) Evans Blue
(Cold) But I'm still here
(Blind) 'Cause I'm so blind
(Savior) We're far from comfortable this time
(Cold) Now we're so cold
(Blind) And you're not my
(Savior) We're far from obvious this time


Mental Breakdown: Collide - Howie Day (Again, calmest mental breakdown ever. Where's all my angry music? XD)
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find you and I collide...

Driving Far Away: Pretty Girl - Sugarcult (I don't even listen to this anymore... wtf XD)
Pretty girl is offering
While he confesses everything
Pretty soon she'll figure out
What his intentions were about
And that's what you get for falling again
You can never get him out of your head...

Flashback: Shut Me Up (remix) - MSI (I must be having a retail experience flashback...)
The bass, the rock, the mic, the treble
I like my coffee black, just like my metal

Wedding: Only - NIN (Best wedding ever. XD)
I'm becoming less defined
As days go by
Fading away, and well you might say
I'm losing focus...

Birth of Child: The Night the Lights Went Out in Georgia - Reba McEntire (What? XD)
That's the night the lights went out in Georgia
That's the night that they hung an innocent man
Don't trust your son to no backwoods southern lawyer
'Cause the judge in the town's got bloodstains on his hand...

Final Battle: Break Me, Shake Me - Savage Garden (I blame Wolfy for even having this one)
So break me, shake me
Hate me, Take me over
When the madness stops
Then you will be alone...

Death Scene: Weak and Powerless - A Perfect Circle (That's actually pretty appropriate)
Desperate and ravenous
So weak and powerless
Over you...

Funeral Song: Automatic Lover - Theatre of Tragedy (...)
Don't you wanna end up with this mister?
He is just being nice with his kisses and he
Thinks you're not one of the smart ones
Say it sexy
Doesn't seem like you want that kind of honey, honey

End Credit: Ironic - Alanis Morrisette (Considering the rest of these titles, that seems pretty appropriate, as well...)
It's like rain on your wedding day
It's a free ride when you've already... ]]> ~Doberz http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/16083217/ http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/16083217/ Mon, 24 Dec 2007 19:39:26 PST Merry Christmas, girls! I miss you!

<3
Your Doberz

]]> ~Doberz http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/15406276/ http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/15406276/ Wed, 07 Nov 2007 13:09:15 PST Just so you US gals know--since you're pretty much the only ones I know who use MSN. I've been using a borrowed computer lately, and I've been trying to install/run MSN so I can chat with you, but it's been entirely unhelpful, and I actually don't think it will run on this operating system. >.< If any of you have Yahoo or AIM, let me know, because I -have- been using those! <3 Stupid computers...

-Dobez

]]> ~Doberz http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/14383846/ http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/14383846/ Tue, 28 Aug 2007 16:52:10 PDT Gah, tagged by TWO people. XD Fine, fine.

The 1st player of this "game" starts with the topic "6 weird habits/facts/dislikes about yourself" and people who get tagged must write in their journals about their 6 weird habits/facts/dislikes as well as state this rule clearly.

In the end, you need to choose the next 6 people to be tagged and list their names..
Don't forget to leave a comment that says "you're tagged" in their deviant page comments and tell them to read your journal.


1. My characters exist to me. They're there, lurking about somewhere in my head, and occasionally one will randomly pop up to give me an idea/plotline, or to yell at me if I make them do something they don't like. Yes, I know I'm fucking crazy.

2. On a similar note to DarkO's limb obsessions, I have this weird fascination with the muscle structure of the human back. I'm no artist, but it drives my artistic mind wild, and there's something inherantly beautiful about it to me.

3. If I'm barefoot and on tile or hardwood floors, I walk on the balls of my feet. But not as much on carpet.

4. I am frighteningly possessive, but only with people, never with material things. I'll lend out almost anything I own, but I'm almost violently protective of people I come to love, and I get jealous over stupid things with them. And I'm not just talking about significant others--I'm possessive with my friends, too. It's all I can do sometimes to give them enough space and not smother them, because I know it would drive -me- insane.

5. My food can't touch on my plate. It can't, or I won't eat the part that touched. Unless it's something that's -meant- to go together, like rice and beans, or something. Otherwise, I can't handle it being near any of my other food. If I weren't too lazy to wash them all, I would eat everything on separate dishes. Seriously.

6. Most of the time, unless I am tired enough to sleep where I fall, I can't go to sleep without covering my head with either my pillow or my blankets, leaving just enough room to breathe. By the time I wake up, this is usually no longer the case, but I can't fall asleep with my head and face completely uncovered. If I'm sharing the bed, I usually bury my face in someone's shoulder in order to sleep. I have no idea why I do this.

Now, as for tagging others... Most everyone I know on here has already been tagged. XD But, err... I'll taaaag...

, , , , and , as well as anyone else who's interested. XD

]]> ~Doberz http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/13622790/ http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/13622790/ Thu, 05 Jul 2007 15:14:10 PDT This is, literally, the first day off I've had since I moved to California! *Laugh* I've either been putting the place together, LARPing, helping Mowi at work, working the con, or -actually- working (since I just got a job a couple of days ago, immediately after the convention finished). I just slept for twelve hours. XD It was absolutely fantastic.

So, aside from the fact that everything has been crazily busy since I got here, Cali is great. It's been awesome to share a place with Kai and Mowi and not have to worry about jumping back on a plane. The LARP was awesome, and even the convention was fun, despite hotel chaos. I haven't really had -time- to be homesick, though I have already been missing people. I can't say I've been disappointed in the slightest to be out of the Keys, but I do miss everyone. Especially Aya. I miss my parents, too, but it was definitely time for me to break out on my own, get out of the house. It's not as though they were oppressive or any such nonsense, but they were still parents, and I was still clinging to their hands a little. I miss the boys a little bit, but I almost never got to see them, as it was.

Getting used to the valley has been a little interesting. It's not as though it's an amazingly difficult place to navigate, but compared to the Keys--which has one road running north to south--it's been something to get used to. I have not, amazingly, gotten lost yet. Which says a -lot-. I think I've just been more determined to pay attention because I -know- this place is different. And it's home, so I -need- to figure it out. It's all amazingly more convenient than the Keys. There's SO much more in the way of places to eat, places to get my oil changed, places to grocery shop, pet places to get stuff for the girls, bookstores, etc... It's pretty strange to hear "Where do you want to eat?" and actually have an array of different kinds of restaurants to choose from. A very nice change, though. I've been enjoying it.

The only complaint I've had thus far is that the air conditioning is out in the house, but we'll supposedly have a guy over to look into that today. And honestly? It's not that bad. If we had lost our air in Key Largo, we would have been looking for somewhere else to stay until it was taken care of. It's not comfortable, but it's not miserable, either. Possibly because we can leave the windows open without being concerned about mosquitoes and palmetto bugs. Seriously, where the fuck did the bugs go? I've seen nothing but ants thus far.

As I mentioned earlier, I have a temporary job. I'm working with Kai at the furniture store. I apparently -am- going to be working sales, which makes me a little uneasy since I know very little about furniture. I'm learning, though. And it's only got wooden, primarily unfinished furniture, so it's mostly just learning wood types and finishes, etc. Kai and Wayne (the boss) have both been really patient and helpful, which makes a difference. And everyone there is friendly and easy-going, which makes an even bigger difference. So, it's a paycheck for now, until I find something I prefer. I will probably be looking into bookstores, since that's what I have the most experience with.

By the way, the cross-country trip? Rocked pretty damn hard. I'm still amazed that I spent four days in the car with three other people, and there was never any arguing or fighting. Even when poor Mowi was trying to sleep and I was bored out of my skull and kept harassing her. XD It was pretty cool to watch the terrain change as we drove. Seriously, it was different every day. Monday we went from the Keys to the tip of Alabama, so it was pretty much all Florida, which I was familiar with. Day two, we went through Mississippi and Lousiana, then into Dallas, so it was mostly country roads, etc. And crazy rainstorms, but that's another story. Day three was pretty much just Texas, and the very beginning of New Mexico, so it was a lot of rolling hills. Day four was the fucking desert. XD New Mexico, Arizona, and California. Scrub lands and desert until the last couple of hours before we got home.

I did, however, get to see Wolfy! She's about how I expected, and we did, of course, get along famously. And now we're on the same side of the country! ...Albeit still a couple of states away. *Laugh* But hey, closer is closer.

I think that's all for now. Kai should be home soonish, and I am absolutely starved. And need to get the oil in my car changed. So I shall go. But I figured I'd throw a post up here about how things were going, and to let you all know that I'm alive! <3

-Dobes

]]> ~Doberz http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/13497642/ http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/13497642/ Tue, 26 Jun 2007 11:10:29 PDT So, I'm here safe in California. Got the room mostly set up, and I'm just now beginning to really unpack. I've actually got a ton more to do, so I won't give too huge an update right now, though I've tons of stories to tell later! Just figured I'd stick a note up here to let everyone know I was in safe and settled, and my 'net is set up and all that.

<3
Doberz

]]> ~Doberz http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/13262498/ http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/13262498/ Fri, 08 Jun 2007 08:05:39 PDT Everything's really beginning to wind up for The Move. I've been cleaning and stealing boxes from the store, packing what little I can, making plans, and doing my best to ignore the nervous feeling in my gut. I'm excited, but I feel like everything's going to explode at any given moment.

This weekend's my last chance to see my oldest sister for a while, as she, unfortunately, will be out of town for my last weekend here. I also play my last AD&D game in a couple of days. I've already said goodbye to a co-worker, and a bunch of the high schoolers. So it's all really beginning to hit me--I'm leaving. After almost twenty years in the same place, I'm really, actually leaving. My family and the people I've known for years are going to be across the country from me. I think it'll be good for me, honestly. But that doesn't keep it from being a little terrifying.

On the other hand, I have a -lot- ahead of me to look forward to. As terribly unnerving as it is, I adore the people I'm moving in with, and I absolutely fell in love with the place. No more bitching and moaning about the humidity. There's so much more for me out there. A chance to start over. A chance to leave behind some of the baggage that's accumulated over the last few years. A chance to scrape my own knees, make my own mistakes, solve my own problems, be my own person. Living here's been driving me mad--now not only am I finally getting out of the house, I'm getting out of the whole damn state. The whole time zone. The whole side of the country. In retrospect, I may have waited a little too long to get out of the house--clung a little too hard to familiar things. It's like a rubber band effect. But hindsight is always 20/20. Now I get somewhat of an adventure, which is certainly nothing to complain about.

My ponderings aside... I've got a week before the others are here. In the meantime, I'll be doing my best to get packed and ready, and enjoy what time is left with family and friends. I'll probably still be online on messengers fairly often, but I don't know how much time I'll be spending sitting around on the internet. I'll try to get over to the US boards and respond, but I don't know if I'll make it before I leave. Then I leave on the 18th, and will be driving for four to five days. Almost immediately after that, I go to a LARP for a weekend. *Laugh* So, long story short, I don't know when I'll have my 'net set up there. In theory, it shouldn't take too long. But no promises. If it turns out it'll take longer than expected, I'll try to keep you mates updated. Once I'm there and all set up, though, I imagine you'll never hear the end of me! *Grin*

"I'd rather die on my feet than live on my back."

-Dobes

=100 Theme Challenge=

XX. Introduction [link]
XX. Love [link]
XX. Light [link]
XX. Dark [link]
5. Seeking Solace
6. Break Away
7. Heaven
8. Innocence
9. Drive
10. Breathe Again
11. Memory
12. Insanity
13. Misfortune
14. Smile
15. Silence
16. Questioning
17. Blood
18. Rainbow
19. Gray
20. Fortitude
21. Vacation
22. Mother Nature
23. Cat
24. No Time
25. Trouble Lurking
26. Tears
27. Foreign
28. Sorrow
29. Happiness
30. Under the Rain
31. Flowers
32. Night
33. Expectations
34. Stars
35. Hold My Hand
36. Precious Treasure
37. Eyes
38. Abandoned
39. Dreams
40. Rated
41. Teamwork
42. Standing Still
43. Dying
44. Two Roads
45. Illusion
46. Family
47. Creation
48. Childhood
49. Stripes
50. Breaking the Rules
51. Sport
52. Deep in Thought
53. Keeping a Secret
54. Tower
55. Waiting
56. Danger Ahead
57. Sacrifice
58. Kick in the Head
59. No Way Out
60. Rejection
61. Fairy Tale
62. Magic
63. Do Not Disturb
64. Multitasking
65. Horror
66. Traps
67. Playing the Melody
68. Hero
69. Annoyance
70. 67%
71. Obsession
72. Mischief Managed
73. I Can't
74. Are You Challenging Me?
75. Mirror
76. Broken Pieces
77. Test
78. Drink
79. Starvation
80. Words
81. Pen and Paper
82. Can You Hear Me?
83. Heal
84. Out Cold
85. Spiral
86. Seeing Red
87. Food
XX. Pain [link]
89. Through the Fire
90. Triangle
91. Drowning
92. All That I Have
93. Giv... ]]> ~Doberz http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/13036095/ http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/13036095/ Mon, 21 May 2007 09:24:11 PDT I have had the nastiest case of insomnia lately... I mean, I've always been one to stay up later than I should, because I prefer night hours. When I only went to college in the evenings, I'd be up until eight in the morning, and sleep until it was time for classes at 6 that night. But I hadn't really had trouble getting to sleep for a long time--partially -because- I'd stay up so late, I'd just crash as soon as I hit bed. But lately I've had to take at least an hour just to go to sleep. It's ridiculous. I finally just popped a Benadryl last night--it's the most sleep I've had in a week.

My sleep issues aside, I'm slowly beginning to work on things for the move. There's only so much I can do--can't pack because I need the stuff I'd be packing, etc. But I can at least begin to take care of cleaning/organizing, switching banks, and all of that.

Anyway. I've been in a bit of a writing funk lately, so I think I'm going to pick the 100 Theme Challenge back up. See if I can kick-start my writing again. Maybe if I'm lucky, it'll give me some ideas for planning and such.

<3
Doberz


=100 Theme Challenge=

XX. Introduction [link]
XX. Love [link]
XX. Light [link]
XX. Dark [link]
5. Seeking Solace
6. Break Away
7. Heaven
8. Innocence
9. Drive
10. Breathe Again
11. Memory
12. Insanity
13. Misfortune
14. Smile
15. Silence
16. Questioning
17. Blood
18. Rainbow
19. Gray
20. Fortitude
21. Vacation
22. Mother Nature
23. Cat
24. No Time
25. Trouble Lurking
26. Tears
27. Foreign
28. Sorrow
29. Happiness
30. Under the Rain
31. Flowers
32. Night
33. Expectations
34. Stars
35. Hold My Hand
36. Precious Treasure
37. Eyes
38. Abandoned
39. Dreams
40. Rated
41. Teamwork
42. Standing Still
43. Dying
44. Two Roads
45. Illusion
46. Family
47. Creation
48. Childhood
49. Stripes
50. Breaking the Rules
51. Sport
52. Deep in Thought
53. Keeping a Secret
54. Tower
55. Waiting
56. Danger Ahead
57. Sacrifice
58. Kick in the Head
59. No Way Out
60. Rejection
61. Fairy Tale
62. Magic
63. Do Not Disturb
64. Multitasking
65. Horror
66. Traps
67. Playing the Melody
68. Hero
69. Annoyance
70. 67%
71. Obsession
72. Mischief Managed
73. I Can't
74. Are You Challenging Me?
75. Mirror
76. Broken Pieces
77. Test
78. Drink
79. Starvation
80. Words
81. Pen and Paper
82. Can You Hear Me?
83. Heal
84. Out Cold
85. Spiral
86. Seeing Red
87. Food
XX. Pain [link]
89. Through the Fire
90. Triangle
91. Drowning
92. All That I Have
93. Give Up
94. Last Hope
95. Advertisement
96. In the Storm
97. Safety First
98. Puzzle
99. Solitude
100. Relaxation

]]> ~Doberz http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/12778593/ http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/12778593/ Sun, 29 Apr 2007 13:00:45 PDT Well, I got in at some ridiculous hour friday from California. I'm alive and well--probably better than ever.

About five minutes ago, I finished a discussion with my parents about moving out there. It went about a thousand times better than I could have imagined. I had expected upset and tears and disappointment. Instead, I got some sadness, uncertainty about my college future, and "Well, you've gotta do what you've gotta do." Which was more than I ever could have asked for. Again, I thank whatever deities exist out there for the family that I have. They're... amazing, and I couldn't have asked for better.

So. Come mid-June (in theory), Doberz is moving to California. I am absolutely terrified, and at the same time, thrilled for the chance. The last couple of months have been a huge, huge turn-around in my life, and the whole thing has me set on my ear. But I'm hoping to roll to my feet in fresh, new surroundings. At the very least, I'll have people who love me supporting me--thankfully both here AND in California.

And with that, I'm off. Sorry, I know it was a brief update, if a big one. *Grin* But I'm antsy now, and have to go do -something-.

Much love. <3

((...Huh. I guess I'm still "Anxious." XD DA's not letting me change my mood.))

]]> ~Doberz http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/12642108/ http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/12642108/ Wed, 18 Apr 2007 11:29:31 PDT I suppose I should let everyone know I'm going to be gone for a week again. XD I've managed to tell everyone -else- this time, but not you lot. I'm leaving tomorrow (tonight, really) for California again, and will be back next thursday. Well. Technically friday, since I took a red-eye. Yay, nasty flight times.

Anyway. <3 Don't destroy the house while I'm gone. Be good. And try to make sure the mail doesn't build up too much.

]]> ~Doberz http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/12167542/ http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/12167542/ Tue, 13 Mar 2007 10:35:05 PDT Won't go into too much detail here--I've already ranted myself ragged. But I've got to get out of this town, and this house. I'm starting to put checks away, and look into exactly where I'm going. I may just be shipping out early to Gainsville, or I might just get completely the fuck out of here and go to LA. But I can't stay here much longer--it's making me insane.

That aside, I pretty much just wanted to throw a general update out and say that I was still alive. I've been getting into a little too much of a routine, so I've not been paying DA much attention beyond lurking. I've written a few new things, but none I'm really interested in putting up here. I have, however, finally gotten a real start on my book--wish me luck.

God I miss theatre.

"How do you document real life when real life's getting more like fiction each day?"

]]> ~Doberz http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/11608763/ http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/11608763/ Mon, 29 Jan 2007 08:11:11 PST So I was sort-of-tagged by Chris. XD Guess it's about time I did another one of these, anyway--my last few journal posts have all been REAL posts. *Grin* Someone's gotta fix that.

1.) List four obsessions you have.
I am horribly addicted to RP. I go through withdrawals.
I'm also getting pretty addicted to blood elves in Burning Crusade, the new WoW expansion. >.>
Writing
Manacotti. >.> God I love that stuff.

2.) Have you ever slept in the back of a car?
Er... yes. On very long trips only, but I've done it once or twice. Not restfully, though...

3.) Have you recently dyed your hair/cut it?
I can't say I have. I haven't dyed it since high school, and the last time I cut it was when my mother lopped it off at the shoulders and I got so grumbly about it--because I'd liked it long. So no. XD Letting it grow back out.

4.) List four people that you look up to the most.
Deanna, my ex-director and now friend. That woman can do it ALL. And -likes- it.
My father. He would do anything for his family.
Craig, my friend and knight-master in Adria. Just... because he's Craig.
Marsha, also a friend from Adria, who is insane enough to give her house over to a half-dozen teenagers nearly every weekend. And sometimes even cooks for them. She's like our mother away from home.


5.) How many pets do you own as of now?
Heh. Well. I only really take care of the two ferrets. But there's also one dog, a couple of birds, and a fish tank of interesting stuff.

6.) Which do you prefer white or black?
Black, most days.

7.) Who is your most player character?
...I'm thinking this is supposed to be most "played" character. XD And that's more than just a tough question for me--I bounce around between Mav, Robalt, Treion, etc. But lately it's been Kynerian.

8.) Choose one or the other, not both
-Being stuck on an island with your best friend
-Being stuck on an island with 5 acquaintances
Admittedly, having it be with the five acquaintances would be much more -interesting-, but I'd far rather be stuck on an island with someone I -know- I like.

9.) Name three aspects that tell who you are.
Idealistic realist
Sarcastic pain in the rear
Hopeless romantic

10.) If you could have a power what would it be?
I've always envied the shapeshifting ability. What I wouldn't give...

11.) Who was the last person you talked to?
Err... some random chick who came into the store asking about the "framing shop" that used to be here. O.o

12.) Who was the last person you said "I love you" to?
My sister.

13.) Write down the first five words that pop into your head.
Food
Work
Can't
Eat
Graaaaah... >.<

14.) What's one thing you wish you could do better?
Manage my freaking life. *Grumblemutternotbitter*

15.) Do you like the way you are?
For... the most part.

16.) Choose, Summer or Winter?
Winter, at least in FL. Too freaking hot...

17.) Choose, rain or snow?
Never seen snow. T_T I <3 rain, though.

18.) Water or ice?
...I like to eat ice. XD

19.) List two odd things about yourself.
I absolutely abhor the sight/feeling of writing on a chalkboard. I can't stand it.
I far prefer the nighttime and have a habit of staying up ridiculously late and then hating myself at work the next morning. ...Like today. T_T

20.) Now list 3 people who should do this quiz!
Pff. Three people who want to. XD

]]> ~Doberz http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/11359305/ http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/11359305/ Mon, 08 Jan 2007 07:29:26 PST So I spent the weekend up in Boynton for my reenactment group. Saturday was the East Coast Steel Invitational, and sunday was a regular meeting. Definitely got to meet and fight some new people, which was a total blast. But I do have to brag about one thing--I'm now fully qualified to fight live steel. In other words, I can don a suit of plate mail and grab a sword, and go beat on other people doing the same thing. I'm starting to look into armor pieces that aren't quite so heavy, and definitely finding a few, which is awesome. I think I'll start really looking into it, gathering pieces where I can. I can even make a few pieces myself.

Granted, after I spent a good portion of yesterday either dressed in scale mail or driving, I'm SO exhausted today. And I'm at work. :/ My shoulders are one big knot of soreness, but it's definitely a good soreness. It's the soreness that says I learned something new and improved myself. So I'm not too upset about that at all. In other news, I'm now on knights' list and huntsmen list for combat and archery, respectively. (Means I'm actually fighting/shooting along with the knights now, and have to prove myself there to earn my knighthood) Which is pretty freaking cool, AND Craig will be swearing me in as his squire within the next couple of months. Which will be pretty freaking cool.

Anyway, I -am- at work, so I should probably... you know... go do work. But I should have pictures soon, to post of me in my tin can! XD

]]> ~Doberz http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/11256656/ http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/11256656/ Sun, 31 Dec 2006 10:15:37 PST Well, my trip turned out even better than I could have expected. I was so exhausted -before- we left, and the drive was such a pain, that I didn't really expect to get any time to myself or any relaxation done while I was there. Christmas, however, was a blast--as it tends to be when kids are involved. We had the most wicked winds, I haven't seen any that strong since I wandered out during a Tropical Storm... but it served to make the beach deserted and roil the surf up to awe-inspiring points. So, being half-mad as I am, I went for a walk. It ended up being some much-needed alone time to think, and when the kids let me have it, I managed to garner a few more occasions of solitude. The kids left the day after Xmas, leaving just my aunt, uncle, parents, and myself. Well, and the dogs. I managed to read a book--actually read a whole book that wasn't once interrupted by customers--and even got some planning done for my writing. I was generally a slacker, wandered about like a lazy ass, and loved every minute of it. After a long, long semester end and chaos with friends for about a week after, it was nice. Granted, I could have gone without the second eleven-hour drive yesterday. But hey, it works. Got me home, to see my girls (the ferrets) and sit at my computer to continue being lazy. It was a little weird to be away from home for Xmas, but the weather up there was way colder than here, so I guess it kind of helped.

I did, however, manage to get a small piece written on the way home, which I'll post here in a few minutes.

Beyond that, I really don't have much planned for New Year's except continuing the laziness, though a friend is trying to drag me to some big party going on at the coffee house--which is one if our favorite locations. I don't know, I might go, I love the people there to death. I've just generally never been much of a partier for the new year. Maybe that'll change once I can drink it in, eh? Though admittedly, last year I went to my first club for a New Year's party. XD Free glass of champagne and a strip at midnight? No objections. Either way, I'm pleased to be home, and back to harass my mates at US once I get the chance, and the energy.

I've got Xmas gifts for the lot of you girls, really, I'm just waiting on the last one--though some already have them waiting at Wajas. *Grin* Incidentally, Shell and Sash need to increase their cave sizes. *Wink* <3

]]> ~Doberz http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/11167016/ http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/11167016/ Sat, 23 Dec 2006 20:48:32 PST Just wandering on to let everyone know I'm gonna be away for about a week. Leaving eeeeearly tomorrow morning to go do Xmas with the family-units up in northern FL. Rented a house right on the beach--should be a blast. I'll be back next friday or saturday.

So a <3 to all my US mates. I'll have no 'net access unfortunately. >.< But you'll all be getting a major tackling when I get back--and some Xmas gifts! *Grin*

]]> ~Doberz http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/10957692/ http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/10957692/ Tue, 05 Dec 2006 07:57:27 PST Well. Turz's journal made me realize I was pretty behind on keeping you mates updated on my life, because -I- just went and got my own tattoo friday and no one even freaking has a clue. XD

I'd been waffling on getting one for quite a while, and had pretty much started leaning heavily towards "Yes" for about three days beforehand. Then I had to go into the shop, anyway, to get another type of earring (my cartilage one failed at life). And found I design I automatically loved. So I came back Friday, sat down, and had it done. I'm still kind of getting over the shock and the "Omfg I have a tattoo" but it's there. XD And I have been obsessively taking care of it, which is good. I was always bad about that with my earrings. I promise I'll have pictures up within the next couple of weeks--there's some pics I've been promising, anyway. I just have to finish my semester first.

Speaking of, I really should be doing homework. Considering there's one week left and I'm WAY behind. Catch you guys soon.

]]> ~Doberz http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/10876635/ http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/10876635/ Tue, 28 Nov 2006 07:45:36 PST For those who haven't played my game in the last journal, don't read this. XD Go play it first. I'm posting the answers here to all the various lyrics. Man, I -own- the songs and I'll have to look some up.

1. (>.> Well, the first first line is in another language. "ASPIRAT PRIMO FORTUNA LABORI" But here's the first actual line. XD) You know just who I am... (March of Mephisto - Kamelot)

2. Dead as dead can be - (Passive - A Perfect Circle)

3. Everything has been said before... (This is the New Shit - Marilyn Manson)

4. Don't fret precious I'm here (Pet - A Perfect Circle)

5. Never seem to find a reason to let you in again (Needles - Seether)

6. You're keeping in step... (The Hand that Feeds - NIN)

7. I will break into a sweat ((Hah! Found it!)) (I'm so Sick - Flyleaf)

8. All simple monkeys with alien babies (Rock is Dead - Marilyn Manson)

9. Threw you the obvious and you flew with it on your back (3 Libras - A Perfect Circle)

10. Why are you doing this to me? (Terrible Lie - NIN)

11. Breathe in, breathe out, breathe in, breathe out, breathe in... (Machinehead - Bush)

12. Tilling my own grave to keep it level (Weak and Powerless - APC)

13. I like your pants around your feet (Figured You Out - Nickelback)

14. Somewhere beyond happiness and sadness... (Getting Away With Murder - Papa Roach)

15. Driving black on black, just got my license back (Animals - Nickelback)

16. I'm through with standing in line to clubs I'll never get in... (Rockstar - Nickelback)

17. She's the kind of girl you bring home to your mother... (Blue Jeans - Silvertide)

18. Keep holding on when my brain's ticking like a bomb (Coming Undone - Korn)

19. Nobody's safe round here no more (Casualty - Marty Casey & Lovehammers)

20. Hey you, hey you, devil's little sister (Twisted Transistor - Korn)

21. There must be something we can eat (Everything Zen - Bush)

22. Tell your friends not to think out loud until they swallow... (Leader of Men - Nickelback)

23. Got money, do anything for you ((My apologies, apparently this is "God money," not "got money.")) (Head Like a Hole - NIN)

24. Don't disturb the beast, the temperamental... (Rose - APC)

25. Uncle Sam taught him to shoot maybe a little too well (Side of a Bullet - Nickelback)

26. Let the bodies hit the floor... (Bodies - Drowning Pool)

27. Laid to the river, Midsummer, I waved (Nymphetamine Fix - Cradle of Filth)

28. They gave me 24 hours to tie up loose ends and make amends (24 - Jem)

29. You can dig me up a grave and try and stick me in the ground... (Follow You Home - Nickelback)

30. I've got my head, but my head is unravelling... (Perfect Drug - NIN)


*Snicker* As you all can probably tell, my library is still fairly limited. I pretty much find a song I like on the radio or through a friend, and then end up listening to several other songs of theirs and downloading them. So most of my playlist consists of the same artists. XD Mostly Nickelback and A Perfect Circle, though I love both those bands. Feel free to toss some names out there at me, guys. It's about time I expanded my music.

I think I shall now go beat my face against the keyboard and hope it forms words. Or try to study. Working on two hours of sleep...

]]> ~Doberz http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/10851250/ http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/10851250/ Sat, 25 Nov 2006 23:51:57 PST Swiped from Chrisseh again.

1. Put your library on shuffle.
2. Post the first line from each of the first 30 songs it plays.
3. Make people guess the song. NO CHEATING

1. (>.> Well, the first first line is in another language. "ASPIRAT PRIMO FORTUNA LABORI" But here's the first actual line. XD) You know just who I am...

2. Dead as dead can be

3. Everything has been said before...

4. Don't fret precious I'm here

5. Never seem to find a reason to let you in again

6. You're keeping in step...

7. I will break into a sweat

8. All simple monkeys with alien babies

9. Threw you the obvious and you flew with it on your back

10. Why are you doing this to me?

11. Breathe in, breathe out, breathe in, breathe out, breathe in...

12. Tilling my own grave to keep it level

13. I like your pants around your feet

14. Somewhere beyond happiness and sadness...

15. Driving black on black, just got my license back

16. I'm through with standing in line to clubs I'll never get in...

17. She's the kind of girl you bring home to your mother...

18. Keep holding on while my brain's ticking like a bomb

19. Nobody's safe round here no more

20. Hey you, hey you, devil's little sister

21. There must be something we can eat

22. Tell your friends not to think out loud until they swallow...

23. Got money, do anything for you

24. Don't disturb the beast, the temperamental...

25. Uncle Sam taught him to shoot maybe a little too well

26. Let the bodies hit the floor...

27. Laid to the river, Midsummer, I waved

28. They gave me 24 hours to tie up loose ends and make amends

29. You can dig me up a grave and try and stick me in the ground...

30. I've got my head, but my head is unravelling...



Hokay, done. XD A few of those are wicked easy, but I guess that depends on your taste. Lucky guessing, guys.

]]> ~Doberz http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/10816110/ http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/10816110/ Wed, 22 Nov 2006 20:28:18 PST Has to be done, doesn't it? XD <3

Name 12 of your characters and write their names below.
1. Me
2. Aya
3. James
4. Valerie
5. Alex
6. Jeff
7. Jon
8. Mowi
9. Kai
10. Chris
11. Wolfy
12. Shell

Q1) Would 3(James) kick 11(Wolfy)'s ass, or vise-versa?
Actually, that would be a hell of a good fight. XD The only reason I might choose James over Wolfy is just that he's had fencing experience before.

Q2) Descirbe what would happen if 8(Mowi) and 1(Me) joined forces to throw a surprise party for 6(Jeff).
Hah. So we spend half the day standing around talking instead of actually getting the party together, knowing us. Last minute, we'd both go "Ohshit, Jeff!" and throw together DDR and some random snacks and games, hoping no one notices our half-assed attempt. XD

Q3) You are lost in a strange forest, with night rolling in, mist curling around your ankles and a steadily bleeding wound on your left arm. You run into 10(Chris). What happens?
*Snicker* We both spend a few moments fumbling over trying to find something to bind my injury with, and then wander around, her jokes keeping me sane until we find help.

Q4) What would happen if your boss was 2(Aya)?
Man, that wouldn't last long. I <3 Aya, but neither of us works well when the other is considered "in charge."

Q5) Are there any circumstances 12(Shell) and 7(Jon) would get together?
Jon's a robot. I swear. XD So no.

Q6) What is 8(Mowi)'s favourite food?
Not spicy things. XD

Q7) As part of a team-building exercise, 3(James), 5(Alex), and 11(Wolfy) have to build a raft and cross a river...
They all have a fairly decent grasp of common sense--especially James and Wolfy. And none of them are afraid of work. I think it'd actually go really smoothly. XD

Q8) If 1(Me) had a middle name, what would it be?
>.> NOT Elaine. No. Definitely Connor. ...Eventually.

Q9) What is the most likely reason for 9(Kai) challenging 7(Jon) to mortal combat?
...Uh. Because... Jon... stole his... favorite game controller. XD They both proceed to wrestle about and beat on each other until they both collapse from exhaustion. At which point they begin to throw the controller back and forth at each other.

Q10) 4(Valerie) and 8(Mowi) just turned up for 6(Jeff)'s surprise party.
Valerie immediately snatches Alex and begins to badger him about... either looking at something she's done or playing one of the games with her. XD Meanwhile, Mowi and I fight for DDR pads.

Q11) What does 12(Shell) find when they finally turn up late for the surprise party the following morning?
Sleeping boys strewn about the floor, tons of empty food wrappers and dirty dishes, and no sign of me--for I would have retired to my room. XD

Q12) 9(Kai) just offered to drop you off at work/school. How do you react?
"o.o ...I've... never seen you drive. ...Okay."

Q13) 6(Jeff) and 7(Jon) team up to get revenge on 1(Me), who recently betrayed 10(Chris).
So I betray Chris by... uh... making fun of her accent? XD Jeff and Jon learn about it and see only an excuse to initiate combat.

Q14) Name four DVDs in 2(Aya)'s collection.
Pfft. ONLY four? The Stargate seasons, Blade, Italian Job, and Boondock Saints.

Q15) 8(Mowi) has to kill and eat either 11(Wolfy), or 5(Alex). Which do they choose?
XD I don't think Twin is a cannibal. I could be wrong.

Q16) 4(Valerie) just kidnapped 1(Aya)'s true love. Why?
Because she could. What other motive does Valerie have?

Q17) 8(Mowi) and 12(Shell) will obey you for exactly twelve hours and two seconds. What are your orders?
Zomg, just sit and talk with me. XD I <3 those two.

Q18) 3(James) accuses 5(Alex) of treachary... what happens?
They both suit up in full rapier gear, pick up weapons, and proceed to have such a good time sparring that they forget what the treachery was.

Q19) 6(Jeff) and 12(Shell) - best friends or worst enemies?
...My God. Putting those two in a room together would be the equivalent of putting a pair of ping pong balls in a box, shutting it, and shaking it violently. SO. Much. Energy.

Q20) You have to save 1(Me) or 2(Aya) - which do you choose?
Aya. I mean, that's what I know I'd choose if I had any logic. No one can ever really say they'd automatically put someone else first in a reflex, instinct situation.

Q21) Which one is 1(Me) more likely to have an affair with - 2(Aya) or 10(Chris)?
I dunno. http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/10799102/ Tue, 21 Nov 2006 11:22:12 PST *Grin* Okay, now I -have- to do my lupe characters.

Name 12 of your characters and write their names below.
1. Shultz
2. Mav
3. Slagar
4. Bacchus
5. Tae
6. Lance
7. Ketlan
8. Omehn
9. Ice
10. Themis
11. Mask
12. Khalor

Q1) Would 3(Slagar) kick 11(Mask)'s ass, or vise-versa?
I feel bad for Slagar. XD He's not had much of a chance to -show- that he's a good fighter lately. And this is another situation where Mask would just totally humiliate him. She's not as good without her sister and Challie, but she's wicked fast, and would probably outsmart him.

Q2) Descirbe what would happen if 8(Omehn) and 1(Shultz) joined forces to throw a surprise party for 6(Lance).
... Omfg. XD *Cackle* The worst two candidates for party-planning ever. They would both kind of stare helplessly at the party decorations, uncertain as to what to do. Shultz, irritated, would just stalk off grumbling. Omehn would sigh and try to put together what he could, popping half the balloons and managing to shred half the streamers in the process. Lance shows up and manages to look surprised--albeit not necessarily the -good- kind of surprised. XD Shaking his head, he helps them fix the decorations and he and the other pack members realize how stupid it was to assign them, doing what they can to salvage the party. XD

Q3) You are lost in a strange forest, with night rolling in, mist curling around your ankles and a steadily bleeding wound on your left arm. You run into 10(Themis). What happens?
D'aww. I'd probably jump a little at first. He IS big. XD He'd double-check to make sure I wasn't injured anywhere else and then escort me somewhere where I could get tended--Jean or Sev, whoever's closest. The big teddy bear.

Q4) What would happen if your boss was 2(Mav)?
I certainly wouldn't object. *Laugh* Intelligent -and- courteous. And she wouldn't treat me like hell.

Q5) Are there any circumstances 12(Khalor) and 7(Ketlan) would get together?
HAH. That's highly entertaining. Each would tear the other to pieces for suggesting it.

Q6) What is 8(Omehn)'s favourite food?
Something meaty. Probably something like deer.

Q7) As part of a team-building exercise, 3(Slagar), 5(Tae), and 11(Mask) have to build a raft and cross a river...
XD That's also terribly entertaining. So, Slagar decides he needs to cross some river, and orders Mask to start doing the dirty work for him. She immediately snaps and snarls and gripes, claiming she's not in HIS pack. Tae comes across them arguing, beats them both up, builds the raft herself, and goes on her way. XD

Q8) If 1(Shultz) had a middle name, what would it be?
Pfft. I have NO freaking clue. XD I don't even give my lupes -last- names.

Q9) What is the most likely reason for 9(Ice) challenging 7(Ketlan) to mortal combat?
Aww, poor Ice. T_T Well, if Ketlan killed Rebel, Ice wouldn't even challenge. He'd just jump him. And then promptly get his butt kicked, but not without digging into Ketlan a time or two first.

Q10) 4(Bacchus) and 8(Omehn) just turned up for 6(Lance)'s surprise party.
Omehn has been sulking in a corner this time because the others are teasing him about his failed decorations. Bacchus comes along and promptly fixes all of that, and bounces on to give Lance his gifts, earning a grumble from Omehn.

Q11) What does 12(Khalor) find when they finally turn up late for the surprise party the following morning?
He shows up, all ready for apologies, to find Shultz and Omehn grumbling as they clean up and trading war stories. Sighing, he falls in to help his older brother and packmate.

Q11.b) Why on earth is Chris fixated with surprise parties?
*Cackle* I still think it's because she's never had Doberz throw her one.

Q12) 9(Ice) just offered to drop you off at work/school. How do you react?
"Okay, grea--... Waaaait a minute. You're blind."

Q13) 6(Lance) and 7(Ketlan) team up to get revenge on 1(Shultz), who recently betrayed 10(Themis).
...*Snortgiggle* So, Shultz "betrays" Themis by... accidentally dropping an acorn on his paw? XD Lance, highly entertained by his family's bickering, wraps up Ketlan and brings him over for them to release their frustrations by smacking him around.

Q14) Name four DVDs in 2(Mav)'s collection.
Oh, Christ. My lupe Mav is SO different from my human Mav. XD It's so confusing. Uhh... "Rent," "Mulan," "The Fox and the Hound," and... for the hell of it, "Wolf" with Jack Nicholson. X... ]]> ~Doberz http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/10787106/ http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/10787106/ Mon, 20 Nov 2006 09:28:53 PST XD Chris made her own, so now I've gotta test it, right? *Cackle* I'll go ahead and use my generic medieval setting. I <3 that one, anyway.

Name 12 of your characters and write their names below.
1. Mav
2. Robalt
3. Matthew
4. Eve
5. Straife
6. Lance
7. Jarvis
8. Treion
9. Xaelan
10. Natch
11. Callan
12. Kattayana

Q1) Would 3(Matthew) kick 11(Callan)'s ass, or vise-versa?
Aww, poor Matthew. He's a good fighter--look at his parents--but he'd be a total paladin and be using this honor, and Callan would use every inch of it against him. He'd do all this underhanded crap Matthew wouldn't be expecting and definitely come out on top.

Q2) Descirbe what would happen if 8(Treion) and 1(Mav) joined forces to throw a surprise party for 6(Lance).
... *Cackles* Okay. So. Treion, fueled by his jealousy for Lance after he "stole" Treion's lover, decide's to throw a "surprise party." At the same time, Mav is planning one for him, since he's Harlingston's head mage. Of course, Mav is absolutely terrible at planning parties, being Mav. So everything's going wrong, but Treion's ambush goes off just when things are looking down. Mav picks up her swords and kicks some serious ass, thereby saving the day and the party. XD

Q3) You are lost in a strange forest, with night rolling in, mist curling around your ankles and a steadily bleeding wound on your left arm. You run into 10(Natch). What happens?
Though most wouldn't believe it of him, Natch is a compassionate man. As terrified as I would be to be in the hands of any Dyosin men, I imagine he'd patch me up as best he could himself and then escort me back to the palace infirmary to have me taken care of.

Q4) What would happen if your boss was 2(Robalt)?
Robalt has plenty of experience operating a tavern. He's a great boss, I'd love to work under him.

Q5) Are there any circumstances 12(Kattayana) and 7(Jarvis) would get together?
o.o ... *Snicker* *Giggle* *Busts up laughing* Well. Jarvis heads the military of Dyosin. Kattayana is a corporal in that military--and a good fighter, but she's also an angry, irritable woman. Though if anyone could "tame the shrew" with her, it would probably be Jarvis. XD Only because he doesn't care that she's snarky. And because she already respects him as her commander. As long as she didn't suspect him of trying to pull rank on her, it might actually work. ...Though it would probably be a one-nighter to Jarvis where Katt was looking for something more.

Q6) What is 8(Treion)'s favourite food?
Oh, Jebus. Like I know. I'd say fowl, something like chicken or turkey, cooked in exotic spices.

Q7) As part of a team-building exercise, 3(Matthew), 5(Straife), and 11(Callan) have to build a raft and cross a river...
... *Giggles* Okay. So Callan dons his disguise of 'Scott,' the Harlingston military man. Straife and Matthew are going about things in a fairly direct way, hauling logs, etc. 'Scott' continuously points out things they are doing inefficiently, which makes them both feel like idiots. Straife starts to actually pay more attention, and ends up wrapped in planning with 'Scott,' while Matthew does all the grunt work.

Q8) If 1(Mav) had a middle name, what would it be?
...Funnily enough, as long as I've had her... I've never given her one. Her name is Mavra Nari, of course. Huh. I'll have to think on that when I'm not at work.

Q9) What is the most likely reason for 9(Xaelan) challenging 7(Jarvis) to mortal combat?
Now there's a hell of a match. The only reason it would happen would be if someone hired Xaelan to kill Jarvis--and offered him a LOT of money for it.

Q10) 4(Eve) and 8(Treion) just turned up for 6(Lance)'s surprise party.
...Uh oh. *Laugh* Treion makes his big appearance in which he brings the ambush. Eve turns out to be a part of the ambush, and reveals that she's been working with Dyosin's assassins all the time. Only Mav and Robalt's blades keep them from succeeding. ...And those of several other guards.

Q11) What does 12(Kattayana) find when they finally turn up late for the surprise party the following morning?
Poor Katt. She comes stumbling, wide-eyed into the scene, where there's streamers torn down, splintered tables, broken weapons, and the bodies of dead soldiers everywhere. She throws her hands up in the air and storms back to Dyosin, wondering what the nine hells she was doing at a party for Harlingston's head mage in the first place.

Q11.b) Why on earth is Chris fixated with surprise parties?
XD Because she's never had Doberz throw her one! <3

Q12) 9(Xaelan) just offer... ]]> ~Doberz http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/10775301/ http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/10775301/ Sun, 19 Nov 2006 08:40:56 PST Man, I just noticed I typoed my last journal title. XD I'll fix that later.

So, I'm snagging the idea from Wolfy/Chris. And doing the song thing I did last time, but for a character.

I do believe I shall do this for Robalt. *Grin* Modern Robalt. So... that'd be him as teh vampire, running the bar. XD

If Your Life Was A Movie, What Would The Soundtrack Be?
So, here's how it works:
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don't lie and try to pretend you're cool…

Opening Credits:
"Nymphetamine Fix" - Cradle of Filth. o.o That's... an interesting opening. Apparently, this is going to have lots of crazy drama and maybe some really good sex in it. XD ...Come to think of it, it suits Robalt.

Waking Up:
"Wish I Had an Angel" - Nightwish. ...Yeah. There's gotta be some lust going on from the first two songs. XD Aww, I was hoping this wouldn't be the usual, cliche vampire movie.

First Day at School:
"Coming Undone" - Korn. Uh oh. Sounds like the first day of school isn't going so hot.

Making Your New Best Friend:
"Call Me When You're Sober" - Evanescence. *Cracks up* Sounds like "making the new best friend" involves breaking up with a lover, who then -becomes- the friend. Poor guy. Either that or it's Rayne calling to bitch him out.

Falling In Love:
"I Think I'm Paranoid" - Garbage. Silly man. Being a tease. Sounds like -someone's- got their eye on him, though. ...Either that or he's the one dealing with a tease.

Breaking Up:
"Remedy" - Seether. That's... pretty fitting. Sounds like he's not taking the break-up so well. Man, where are all my APC songs? XD Those always remind me of Robalt.

Prom:
"Rock Star" - Nickelback. *Cracks up* Okay. So. Robalt's so pissed after the breakup that he's "cutting his hair" and "changing his name" to look badass and show off the fact that he could be famous to get back at the significant other. ...Yes.

Graduation:
"Judith" - A Perfect Circle. Well, there's one of their songs. ...He's upset because someone made a religious speech at graduation. *Cackle* Either that or the ex just had themselves "saved" and is now reaming him out for... being a vampire? XD

Life's Okay:
"Passive" - A Perfect Circle. Huh. Sounds more to me like everything's boiling under the surface and they're -pretending- life is okay.

Death Of A Close Friend:
"The Hollow" - APC again. XD I asked for it. ...Uh. Well, the song -appears- to be about a need to fill up a hunger for lust, but it could be used to show that he's... empty... after his best friend's death. >.> Yes.

Mental Breakdown:
"One Hand in My Pocket" - Alanis Morissette. *Laugh* Sounds like he's pretty okay with himself for a mental breakdown. Either that or he loses it and reverts back to the 60's, wearing tie die and throwing peace signs at anyone he passes. ...Silly man.

Driving:
"Someone That You're With" - Nickelback. Suitable. A great beat for driving. I love it, myself. XD Shows that he's a fast little bugger when he drives--especially on his bike.

Flashback:
"March of Mephisto" - Kamelot. o.o Sounds like he's flashing back all the way back to the wars... XD This could be dangerous.

Getting Back Together:
"Follow You Home" - Nickelback. *Laughs* Actually, that suits. So, the significant other (Rayne?) has started maturing and dropped the "I'm a pious little man" act, and suddenly remembers how much he <3's Robalt. So he starts obsessing over him and following him around, with Robalt trying really hard to ignore it, until he finally gives in. ... "Duchess of Detroit." *Giggles madly*

Birth of Child:
"Collide" - Howie Day. Aww... Sounds like the... err... adoption >.>... of a kid brought everyone together. Incidentally, this is a really great song, and I'd recommend it to anyone. But not if you're bitter about your love life. XD Only if you can look at things as a hopeless romantic for a bit.

Wedding Scene:
"Next Contestant" - Nickelback. *Cracks up* Well. Sounds like Rayne's dressed pretty hawt, so Robalt's kicking some ass 'cause people are looking at him a little too hard. Must be an interesting wedding...

Car Accident:
"3 Libras" - A Perfect Circle. ...Uhh. I have no idea. XD I can't even begin to connect those.

Final Battle:
"Pet" -... ]]> ~Doberz http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/10764804/ http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/10764804/ Sat, 18 Nov 2006 09:27:50 PST *Snicker* Stolen from

If Your Life Was A Movie, What Would The Soundtrack Be?
So, here's how it works:
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don't lie and try to pretend you're cool…

Opening Credits:
... "Figured You Out" Nickelback. XD Don't tell me this is going to be some awful high school romance.

Waking Up:
"Head Like a Hole" - NIN. XD Waking up after the party, I guess. Damn, what a headache.

First Day at School:
"Blue Jeans" - Silvertide. Man, this is some awful high school romance.

Making Your New Best Friend:
"Someone That You're With" - Nickelback. Considering this is about wanting to be with someone and coming in "second place," that's an interesting friend. XD

Falling In Love:
"Down With the Sickness" Disturbed. ...Well, what a crappy love life. XD

Breaking Up:
"Glycerine" - Bush. Fairly suitable.

Prom:
"Next Contestant" - Nickelback. Uh oh. Sounds like the ex came in dressed like a ho and I'm kickin' some ass for it. XD

Graduation:
"Pet" by A Perfect Circle. ...Wtf, is there a war starting on graduation or something? XD Or am I just disillusioned?

Life's Okay:
"Vermillion" - Slipknot. ...No. XD Life's NOT okay.

Death Of A Close Friend:
... Uh oh. XD "This is the New Shit" - Marilyn Manson. Apparently, I am a very angry person.

Mental Breakdown:
O.O "Getting Away With Murder" - Papa Roach. Well. That could be bad. XD Now we see why the anger comes into play.

Driving:
"Coming Undone" - Korn. *Grin* A good driving song. I've got it on my "driving" CD, in fact. XD

Flashback:
"Casualty" Marty Casey & Lovehammers. Aww. I must be thinking back to the ex.

Getting Back Together:
"Rose" - A Perfect Circle. ...Must be a rocky "getting back together." XD

Birth of Child:
"The Haunting" - Kamelot. Huh. Sounds like someone died. Either mother or child. >.>

Wedding Scene:
"Cold (But I'm Still Here)" - Evans Blue. XD Uh oh. That can't be good.

Car Accident:
...This is eerily suitable. "Bodies" by Drowning Pool. Must be one HELL of a car accident.

Final Battle:
"Wish I Had an Angel" - Nightwish. Sounds like a pretty badass song to fight a final battle to. I'd be okay with that.

Death Scene:
"Judith" - A Perfect Circle. And there's that anger coming back into play. XD I must refuse to repent as a lay dying.

Funeral Song:
... "Twisted Transistor" - Korn. Dude. XD I want that played at my funeral. Confuse -everyone- with it.

End Credits
"24" Jem. A cool closing credits song. And suitable if I died. XD

]]> ~Doberz http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/10602581/ http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/10602581/ Fri, 03 Nov 2006 10:38:11 PST Okay. So. Not that I had much done on it, but I'm putting my "hundred-theme challenge" on a temporary hold.

Why?

NaNoWriMo. That's why. National Novel Writers' Month. The goal? 50,000 words by November's end. I'm signed up, I'm working on an outline, I'm almost ready to go.

Wish me luck, guys.

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]]> ~Doberz http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/10558509/ http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/10558509/ Mon, 30 Oct 2006 11:15:48 PST Okay. So. I know all I've been doing lately involves those crazy surveys. XD So I figured I should actually update this stupid thing with something worthwhile.

I dropped two of my classes. I get a 'W' in them, or essentially no grade. Doesn't hurt, doesn't help. I won't go into details, but a mix of no books and a teacher driving me nuts pretty much slowly worked into me dropping my Algebra class and my Biology class. So now I'm just down to Statistics, Computer App, and Intro to Education. Which I really should be reading for right now. >.> But I'm lazy.

I'm going nuts over here. I've had a serious need to cuddle and to touch, and absolutely -no- one to remedy it. My love has been MIA for a while, and even if I did see my friends, none of the guys are exactly the touchy-feely type.

I'm hoping to participate in NaNoWriMo. For the first time. Wish me luck! I didn't even know it existed until a few days ago. Now I've got a -bunch- of planning to do over the next couple of days before Nov 1st. I'm thinking I may finally put a modern story into play, instead of trying to wrestle so hard with all my varying medieval plots. I'm thinking I may toss poor Omehn in as my protagonist, and see where it goes from there.

I've spoken to the parents about the thing. Some of you will have NO idea what I'm talking about--Wolfy and Sarah should know. If any of my US girls catch them before me, feel free to ask, I don't mind. But yeah. I spoke to them about it a few weeks ago, actually. And they took it fairly well, all things considered. Mom will need some time to adjust, but I don't think it'll be so huge. I've started looking into therapists--I've found one, I just haven't worked up the courage to call her in response to our e-mails just yet. I'll get there eventually... But I'm slowly getting a start on things. Now. If I can work something out in the way of finances....

Speaking of, I'm back in the positives at my bank again. *Snort* And got another paycheck coming this friday--I've been trying to save a little more. Not so many nights eating out with friends, etc.

And I've decided not to get my AA at the community college. I'm just gonna apply to the uni with what I have/will have, and hope to get accepted on a four-year program. ...I guess I should start getting that together, since I'll start sending apps out in about a month. Another "wish me luck" situation. God, the thought of going up to the uni terrifies me. But it's also satisfying at the same time. The thought that I'll be moving out, living on my own, being "an adult," supporting myself... Which I technically should have been doing two years ago. It's gonna be nuts, but I'm looking forward to it. I'm trying to convince my love to go with me, and go to community college up there. She seems to actually be considering it seriously. So we'll see.

And with that, I believe I shall go read the rest of that stupid book.
<3

]]> ~Doberz http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/10515526/ http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/10515526/ Thu, 26 Oct 2006 09:32:17 PDT XD I blame Wolfy for this. She did it for buddies. No -I- have to do it for buddies.

01. Me
02. Alex
03. Jonathan
04. Valerie
05. Jeff
06. Aya
07. Chris
08. Wolfy
09. James (Canadian James)
10. Mowi
11. Kai
12. Randy


01)Who would make a better college professor, 6(Aya) or 11(Kai)? What subjects would they teach?

...As much as I <3 both of them, the idea makes me laugh. XD Aya may teach high school one day, and that's one thing. But the two of them would probably be more likely to corrupt their college students and go out to have beers with them than teach much. *Laugh*

02) Do you think 2(Alex) is hot? How hot?

Alex is a good-looking guy. :3 He's already starting to fill out, and he looked -great- with the long hair before he cut it. It's unfortunate that he's with Valerie. ...And I don't date men. XD

03) 12(Randy) sends 8(Wolfy) on a mission. What is it, and does it succeed?

...Randy is feeling lazy and not up to driving people around. XD So he sends Wolfy to pick people up. Wolfy lives in another state. The mission fails.

04) What is or would be 9's(James) favorite book?

I know he luffs teh reading. And we've discussed books before, and what we like, but never favorites. XD But I'd bet it was something from Forgotten Realms series or summat.

05) Would it make more sense for 2(Alex) to swear fealty to 6(Aya), or the other way around?

...They're definitely both equals. XD Both of them would probably chafe if the other was considered "in charge."

06) For some reason, 5(Jeff) is looking for a roommate. Should s/he share a studio apartment with 9(James) or with 10(Mowi)?

Heheh. That's an amusing image. I pity Jeff's roommate. XD Though Mowi would probably just be "O.o" with him. And I imagine he and James would hit it off and banter back and forth about games. And co-op and make each other laugh. :3 So they'd be a good choice.

07) 2(Alex), 7(Chris) and 12(Randy) have dinner together. Where do they go, and what do they discuss?

Alex and Randy start laughing about the usual random stuff and talking games and martial arts and stuff. Chris sits and stares at the strangeness and occasionally has something to offer about the Final Fantasy series. XD

08) 3(Jonathan) challenges 10(Mowi) to a duel. What happens?

...Now there's a sight. XD They'd be the kind to both sit there and wait for the other to move first. For like... 20 minutes.

09) If 1(Me) stole 8(Wolfy)'s most precious possession, how would s/he get it back?

I don't even know what I'd steal. XD The mutants? But Wolfy would tackle me and squeeze me until I couldn't breathe and had to give them back. XD As she has threatened before.

10) Suggest a title for a story in which 7(Chris) and 12(Randy) both attain what they most desire.

Well. Chris would probably have all the current chaos calm down--not to mention attain financial stability. And Randy would... I don't know wtf Randy wants in life. XD Probably to kick ass. "The Calm Before the Storm" or summat. *Bad with titles*

11) What kind of plot device would you use if you wanted 4(Valerie) and 1(Me) to work together?

Valerie works with who she -wants- to work with, when she feels like it. XD Such a god damn cat. ...Valerie... wants to submit something, but she needs it checked for grammar, so she gives it to me. XD

12) If 7(Chris) visited you for the weekend, how would you get along?

If I could stop tackle-hugging her long enough, Chris and I would have a blast. *Laugh*

13) If you could command 3(Jonathan) to perform any one task or service for you, what would it be?

Teach me how to haxx0r. XD No, really. I'd make him show me how to override that "10 seconds between nudges" thing on MSN. So I could spam people. ...To show them my love, of course.

14) Does anyone on your friends list write or draw 11(Kai)?

...No one knows Kai. XD Though Mowi draws his characters sometimes.

15) If 2(Alex) had to choose sides between 4(Valerie) and 5(Jeff), which would it be?

That would be an ugly, ugly situation. Alex is a pretty fair guy, but Val -is- his girlie.

16) What might 10(Mowi) shout while charging into battle?

... "I hope I don't scrape my leg this tiiiiiiime!" XD No. Kidding.

17) If you chose a song to represent 8(Wolfy), which song would you choose?

Oh Jebus. There are so many things I could use to represent Wolfy. XD I can't even begin to list them.

18) 1(Me), 6(Aya), and 12(Randy) are having dim sum at a Chinese restaurant. There is only one scallion pancake lef... ]]> ~Doberz http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/10501088/ http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/10501088/ Tue, 24 Oct 2006 19:17:41 PDT 02. Andrew
03. Mav
04. Donar
05. Robalt
06. Atlas
07. Rayne
08. Omehn
09. Cassandra
10. Diego
11. Charles
12. Jarvis


01)Who would make a better college professor, 6(Atlas) or 11(Charles)? What subjects would they teach?

Actually, those two would both make really great professors. Atlas would totally teach history, and Charles would teach English. I'd choose Atlas, only because he's older and a little less shy.

02) Do you think 2(Andrew) is hot? How hot?

Meh. Well. For a 16-year-old scruffy kid he's cute. XD Hot, I don't know about.

03) 12(Jarvis) sends 8(Omehn) on a mission. What is it, and does it succeed?

...Hah. XD Jarvis sending anyone on a "mission" is funny. He would probably send Omehn into the back room to get him something heavier to drink. Considering Omehn's a bartender, I imagine it would succeed.

04) What is or would be 9's(Cassandra's) favorite book?

She's well-known for the fact that she's read anything she could get her paws on on the history of the immortal races and war. I imagine there's some fairly large, forbidden tome on it out there--that would be it. XD

05) Would it make more sense for 2(Andrew) to swear fealty to 6(Atlas), or the other way around?

Hah. Definitely the other way around. XD Andrew's a kid, Atlas is an alpha.

06) For some reason, 5(Robalt) is looking for a roommate. Should s/he share a studio apartment with 9(Cassandra) or with 10(Diego)?

Hah again. XD Considering Cassandra's one of his house members, and Diego is... well... a slayer... And a really good one...

07) 2(Andrew), 7(Rayne) and 12(Jarvis) have dinner together. Where do they go, and what do they discuss?

...Omg. None of them have a -single- thing in common. XD Andrew's a 16-year-old sulky singer, Rayne's a temperamental blood pet who makes a hell of a drink, and Jarvis is a great lecherous bastard with a hilarious accent and good sense of humor. Well, Andrew and Rayne might get along, just because Andrew's 16 and Rayne is stuck in the body of a 16-year-old. They probably listen to the same music. XD But throwing Jarvis in just kills it.

08) 3(Mav) challenges 10(Diego) to a duel. What happens?

That'd be a pretty nice fight. But it would be over as soon as Mav got in close with her blades--Diego's a marksman. He -is- a military man, and highly resourceful. But there's no standing against an ancient lycanthrope wielding a pair of swords up close and personal.

09) If 1(Ras) stole 8(Omehn)'s most precious possession, how would s/he get it back?

Omehn would go to Chris (Ras's mate) who would bitch Ras out and she would make him give it back. XD

10) Suggest a title for a story in which 7(Rayne) and 12(Jarvis) both attain what they most desire.

Heh. "Fulfillment." Rayne would gain full control of his powers and become his own person. Jarvis would go have hawt secks with a beautiful woman.

11) What kind of plot device would you use if you wanted 4(Donar) and 1(Ras) to work together?

That would be -really- really difficult to orchestrate. ...Donar would have to be rebelling against Rallithan. Then and pretty much only then would Ras conceive to work with Donar.

12) If 7(Rayne) visited you for the weekend, how would you get along?

Probably fairly well. XD He's a good guy, for the most part. We'd probably trade tastes in music, and poke fun at stupid people.

13) If you could command 3(Mav) to perform any one task or service for you, what would it be?

...I would totally have her bite me. XD Yes, I'm nuts.

14) Does anyone on your friends list write or draw 11(Charles)?

As cute as Charles is and as much as I <3 him, no one knows him well enough to write/draw him.

15) If 2(Andrew) had to choose sides between 4(Donar) and 5(Robalt), which would it be?

Andrew doesn't really know Donar. XD And he thinks Robalt has a pretty singing voice.

16) What might 10(Diego) shout while charging into battle?

Hm. Something like "Death to the unnatural!" or something.

17) If you chose a song to represent 8(Omehn), which song would you choose?

Hmm... That's a tough one. "Rose" by A Perfect Circle

18) 1(Ras), 6(Atlas), and 12(Jarvis) are having dim sum at a Chinese restaurant. There is only one scallion pancake left, and they all reach for it at the same time. Who gets to eat it?

Hahahah. Atlas would probably immediately set back. And depending on just how badly Ras wanted it, he coul... ]]> ~Doberz http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/10484922/ http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/10484922/ Mon, 23 Oct 2006 08:44:02 PDT Okay. Doing the same thing for my US characters. This is way too fun. XD I'll do another for all my modern charries eventually.

1. Shultz
2. Khalor
3. Slagar
4. Mav
5. Driathen
6. Brou
7. Omehn
8. Bacchus
9. Craft
10. Tae
11. Mask
12. Arashi


01)Who would make a better college professor, 6(Brou) or 11(Mask)? What subjects would they teach?

Oh, Jesus. Two worst picks for a professor ever. XD Brou would never make it--he's not the most clever guy. In fact, he totally makes me think of the Juggernaut. Mask is intelligent as hell, but the subjects she'd teach... *Shudder*

02) Do you think 2(Khalor) is hot? How hot?

*Grin* Khalor is perfectly hawt, in that lupe sort of way.

03) 12(Arashi) sends 8(Bacchus) on a mission. What is it, and does it succeed?

Oh, Jebus. It would probably be something ridiculous he'd forced Bacchus to do after kidnapping someone in his family. Or possibly to hand himself over, and then he'd trick him and not release the other hostage, and then they'd have two. @_@ Bacchus just doesn't get the 'not trusting other people' thing.

04) What is or would be 9's(Craft's) favorite book?

The Wiccan Bible. *Snicker*

05) Would it make more sense for 2(Khalor) to swear fealty to 6(Brou), or the other way around?

Hah. Well, Khalor would -never- swear fealty to Brou. But if it benefitted him for some reason, more than being in the ESLP does, Brou would swear fealty to Khalor. It wouldn't mean a whole lot, but he'd do it.

06) For some reason, 5(Driathen) is looking for a roommate. Should s/he share a studio apartment with 9(Craft) or with 10(Tae)?

Honestly, he wouldn't mind sharing with Craft, even though she's in LBM--she's passive and nearly mute. But Tae would be a far better choice. If only because that way he could always patch her up when she came home from fights. XD

07) 2(Khalor), 7(Omehn) and 12(Arashi) have dinner together. Where do they go, and what do they discuss?

What a strange mix. *Laugh* It would be more like Khalor bringing Omehn out to dinner to discuss his plans in the pack, or what he's doing with Spirit. And then Arashi would be hiding outside, ready to crash the party with a big nasty lightning bolt or something. XD

08) 3(Slagar) challenges 10(Tae) to a duel. What happens?

Holeh motha of gawd. It is, most definitely, possible that Slagar would challenge Tae. XD And even though Slagar's crafty as hell and a good fighter, Tae would beat him down. She's highly trained, and has about as much mercy as he does when it comes to a fight with an enemy. Any of his crafty tricks would either be out-thought or would be dealt with accordingly. And when he ran out of that, he would be totally SOL against Tae.

09) If 1(Shultz) stole 8(Bacchus)'s most precious possession, how would s/he get it back?

...Wtf would he do? XD Steal his favorite chew toy? Bacchus would be like "Play wrestle?" at first. And then he'd lose. XD And then he'd finally just plead until Shultz tossed it back at him.

10) Suggest a title for a story in which 7(Omehn) and 12(Arashi) both attain what they most desire.

...Oh, Jebus. Well, Arashi would be achieving power. A -lot- of power. And Omehn would either gain control of his abilities, or would get rid of them altogether. Something like "Control" would be highly suitable, considering it would go for both of them in different ways.

11) What kind of plot device would you use if you wanted 4(Mav) and 1(Shultz) to work together?

Pfft. Considering they're siblings and have worked together since... ever? XD It wouldn't be much of a plot device.

12) If 7(Omehn) visited you for the weekend, how would you get along?

There might be some awkward moments if only because he's not the most social of creatures. But I think we'd get along pretty well. *Grin* If only because I'd sit and force him to cuddle until he gave in and finally admitted he didn't mind.

13) If you could command 3(Slagar) to perform any one task or service for you, what would it be?

Bwahah. That would be mean. XD And it would be acting out all of my violent desires. But I'd probably have him go tear into people I have a distaste for.

14) Does anyone on your friends list write or draw 11(Mask)?

I think... Chris has once or twice. *Grin*

15) If 2(Khalor) had to choose sides between 4(Mav) and 5(Driathen), which would it be?
... ]]> ~Doberz http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/10476714/ http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/10476714/ Sun, 22 Oct 2006 13:50:12 PDT I blame Chris.

Apparently, you list eleven characters and then answer the following questions in accordance to it. Meh, I was going to do it with my modern-based characters, but most of the people who read this don't recognize the situations there. XD So I'll go with my medieval lovies.


01. Eve
02. Natch
03. Robalt
04. Mav
05. Treion
06. Jarvis
07. Straife
08. Matthew
09. Callan
10. Xaelan
11. Lance
12. Chayton


01)Who would make a better college professor, 6(Jarvis) or 11(Lance)? What subjects would they teach?

XD Omg. Jarvis being the big sword-wielding warrior, with a terrible accent, and Lance being the highly intelligent mage? Yeah, Lance has his head in the clouds sometimes, but Jarvis would only be teaching kids how to beat each other up. While Lance would probably end up teaching magic or maybe history.

02) Do you think 2(Natch) is hot? How hot?

Natch? Meh. He's hot for an older guy. Now his -son-...

03) 12(Chay) sends 8(Matthew) on a mission. What is it, and does it succeed?

Hee. Knowing Chay, he'd send Matthew off to someplace that has an herb he needs or something, but is too dangerous for him to go. Matthew, being the good little obedient paladin he is, would go marching off, kick some arse, get the herb (if he didn't destroy it first) and bring it back. And it'd be a done deal.

04) What is or would be 9's(Callan's) favorite book?

Hah. Funny. Callan's would be something... tragic that he would find highly amusing. XD Something like Romeo and Juliet. *Laugh* Because he could sit back and laugh and call them stupid.

05) Would it make more sense for 2(Natch) to swear fealty to 6(Jarvis), or the other way around?

Well. Fortunately, Jarvis has -already- sworn fealty to his king...

06) For some reason, 5(Treion) is looking for a roommate. Should s/he share a studio apartment with 9(Callan) or with 10(Xaelan)?

...Omg, most amusing situation ever. XD It would be a sitcom, either way. Treion being the irritable, angry prince... And Callan and Xaelan both being back-stabbing rogues (a profession the wannabe-paladin Treion loathes)... Callan is his half-brother, but that just makes him hate him more. If he didn't know, he'd room with Callan. Otherwise, it'd be Xaelan, even though the bastard's half-drow. Shit, Callan would probably go live on his own. XD Be like "Screw that"

07) 2(Natch), 7(Straife) and 12(Chayton) have dinner together. Where do they go, and what do they discuss?

...That would be interesting, most definitely. Natch and Straife lead opposite sides of the war. If anything, it would be to discuss a possible treaty, or how to get the countries out of a poor situation. Chay would probably be going along with Straife as his advisor--and as a healer just in case.

08) 3(Robalt) challenges 10(Xaelan) to a duel. What happens?

...That would be one badass fight. Robalt being Mr. Defense, with all his rapier skills... who fights with all his honor... And Xaelan, who's a back-stabbing, quick little bastard of a rogue. Robalt's a hard defense to break, but Xaelan's got a ton of tricks up his sleeve. It would be a hell of a fight. Neither would come out unscathed, definitely, but I'd say Robalt may possibly win. If only because for all his honor, he never, ever trusts someone in a duel.

09) If 1(Eve) stole 8(Matthew)'s most precious possession, how would s/he get it back?

T_T Aww... Despite what a little pain Eve is, I'm not sure she'd steal anything from Matthew. Well... unless Cassius asked her to for the guild. Even then, Matthew <3's her too much. He'd go and ask for it back, and be all confused. And if she didn't give it back, he'd just mope and go back home, assuming she needed it.

10) Suggest a title for a story in which 7(Straife) and 12(Chay) both attain what they most desire.

Hm. A title? I suck at those. But something to the general effect of "Victory." Because for Straife, it would mean an end to the war without much trouble for his people. For Chay, it would mean being capable enough to become an accomplished healer. So he'd probably -help- Straife achieve his goal in... ]]> ~Doberz http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/10291667/ http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/10291667/ Thu, 05 Oct 2006 10:04:58 PDT Well, I'm back to being bored at work. Technically, I should be doing my biology homework. Which is... due tonight. *cough* But oh well. I still don't have my stupid lab book, anyway. And it seems as though my Algebra book got lost in the mail. :/ I'm highly displeased. We're going to have to find another somewhere and have it expressed. NOT a happy Doberz. I've missed the first four weeks of homework because of that stupid book.

Supposedly, there was an episode of South Park last night about World of Warcraft. XD Anyone got a bootleg copy or something? This, I must see.

Beyond that, things have been pretty much normal today. I get off early--in about an hour, actually. Unfortunately, I have to make up for it later by working Friday and Saturday, as well, which are normally my days off. *Sigh* Ah, well. My boss and my co-worker seem to have a habit of taking vacations on the exact same days. :/ So I end up working all the hours. Feh. At least getting off a little early today will give me a chance to do my homework in a place I'm much more comfortable. And it'll give the girls more time to run around and work off some of their energy before class. Gods know Nevada needs it...

Soo... thanks to a preorder charging me a bit late (and thus screwing up my calculations) as well as my missing a couple of charges on my card, I'm now in the negatives at my bank. I owe them $30 for an overdraw. *Sigh* Fortunately, I get paid tomorrow. It just means I have to bring lunch from home for a couple of days.

Aha, speaking of lunch...

]]> ~Doberz http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/10134970/ http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/10134970/ Wed, 20 Sep 2006 17:15:21 PDT So. Bored and in Computer Applications class. Slacking off. Because I can't think of a topic I'd like to research.

Well, I can. But I don't think the school computers would let me research it, or I'd research info on the transgender community, and the steps one must take up to getting SRS.

...Any ideas? I'm supposed to end up doing a paper involving internet research on "something I've always wanted to know more about."

I'm seriously debating on doing a paper on MMORPGs and using so many nerdy RPGer terms that it confuses her and she is forced to give me an "A" because she doesn't understand.

Granted, -I- could teach the class better than this woman.

... *Sigh* ]]> ~Doberz http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/10007399/ http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/10007399/ Fri, 08 Sep 2006 09:34:56 PDT Well. I'm still kind of trying to regain my footing after yesterday. I can't really go into much detail, but those that need to understand will.

A portion of my life that has been building and growing for nearly two years came to an end yesterday. It was partially mutual, though I was the one who finally had the courage to bring it up. And as much as I loved her, and as much as it hurts to not have her there as a love or a lover anymore, some small part of me is relieved that I'm not dangling anymore. That I'm not out there still waiting for some sign one way or the other. A larger part of me is glad that she has this chance to heal herself, and to feel better about herself as a human being. I just couldn't bring myself to cause her any more pain and guilt than I already had. As much as it hurts now, it will be beneficial for everyone in the long run.

*Sigh* So. Until then, I'll just keep hanging around here and waiting for full realization of what's happened to hit me right between the eyes. I've got a lot of adjusting to do over the next while, and I'm just hoping I manage to land on my feet. Or at least that I manage to roll there after I hit the floor. Gods can only hope that I continue to take it with as much grace as I can manage. And that she can work past some of her issues now that she has the chance to do so.

Here's to all good things that must come to an end. ]]> ~Doberz http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/9974651/ http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/9974651/ Tue, 05 Sep 2006 08:58:08 PDT I have -got- to stop staying up so late before work. It makes me brainless. Though I suppose inventory is a bit of a brainless job, anyway, so it all works out in the end. As long as none of the customers run screaming out of the store yelling something about zombies, we'll be okay. Braaaaiiins.... *Cough* It's funny how I'm not addicted to WoW so much as RP and the people I RP with on there. I definitely don't stay up until 4:30AM questing or grinding. Oh no. I stay up until 4:30AM RPing. I've been doing that since I was thirteen, though. XD There are times when I honestly wonder if everyone I <3'd on WoW came with me, if I'd leave it. ...Probably. *Laughs* Sad, isn't it?

Well, that wasn't supposed to be the direction of my pointless ramble this morning. But hey, what are pointless rambles for? I'm at work, as usual. Slacking off, as usual. Eyeing the unchecked books with resignation, and thinking about how much going to Statistics class tonight is going to suck. Amusingly, school started two or three weeks ago and I've not even seen that class yet. Wasn't there for the first week, and TS Ernesto had other plans last week. I'm interested to see how much I'm going to hate this class. Because if it's math, I'm pretty sure I'm not gonna like it too much.

As much as I loved college last year, I'm getting really snarky about it this year. I think part of it's because I'm taking classes I'm not overly fond of. I think another part of it is that after talking to my college counselor, I'm wondering if I'm going to have to stay another semester or two longer than planned. Which would displease me greatly. I thought I was going to get the hell out of here LAST year. Now not only am I needing another for my AA, I might possibly need more than -that- just to get a stupid Associate's in Arts degree? I might just call a fuck-it on that and try to get out, AA or not. I'm tired of the community college, and tired of being a legal "adult" still living with my parents. Don't get me wrong, I certainly appreciate not having to pay bills yet, or keep myself fed or even pay for gas--though I usually take it out of my money, anyway. I appreciate having people I love living a flight of stairs away, that I can go see and talk to whenever I need it. But I've definitely got that itch to get the hell out. To live for myself, to see if I can stand on my own two feet if someone were to toss me out. I think part of it has to do with how disappointed I was when I learned that I had fucked around and slacked off too long and that I was going to have to do community college for a year. Two, now, because I'm an idiot and didn't feel ready to leave yet. I was really angry with myself for a while, even if it might have all turned out better in the end with the whole money situation and Dad retiring and everything. I didn't -want- to have to go to community college. Meh, either way, I think I'm just going to grin and god damn bear it through this year and then see where things go from there. I hate to admit it, but my parents and my aunt are right. I'm glad I didn't take this year off college to work. Because I take one summer off, and I'm all irritable going back. I got spoiled with all the free time. Now I'm practically dragging myself back to classes, complete with scowl and grumbling.

Hopefully next semester will be better. I'm looking at taking things I enjoy again, like A+P and such. Though I think I'll also have to take something like college Geometry, which makes me cringe. I don't even remember high school Geo. I hated that class. I'm hoping they have some other math to offer that I can get credit for taking... Another problem with FKCC? Not enough choices. One year and I've already taken a good chunk of classes there. ...It may sound strange, but I miss my english classes. A lot. I mean, there was a good portion of work and essay-writing involved, but that's what I'm -good- at. That's what I -like- doing, if given enough creative leeway. This powerpoint project about fifteen cell structures due in a week thing is killing me. I may have liked some aspects of biology--cell composition was absolutely NOT one of them. Neither was chemistry in general. You get me back into punnet squares and genetics, and I'll devour it with a smile. But this? Jesus, I've gone over cell structure in at least three different classes and I -still- don't remember most of it. I have to relearn it all over again. Well, at least the teacher is amusing and has a good sense of humor.

But enough of my griping. I suppose I really should get back to inventory--we're down to two major sections. Both of which are more than a little chaotic. Health and religion. I refuse to touch religion--I start getting irritable when I'm checking in all the children's bibles and coloring books. I'm sorry, but "coloring book" age is -way- to early for your child to be able to make a responsible, unbiased decision on religiou... ]]> ~Doberz http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/9814272/ http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/9814272/ Tue, 22 Aug 2006 09:53:58 PDT So, I've been keeping an eye out in the paper and on the college website for weeks now, trying to figure out exactly when I should start signing up for classes. A week ago, I check the website, and their academic calendar for this year isn't even up yet. So I figure I have time. My mother mentions hearing something about registration starting yesterday. So yesterday I come back into work and check their website again. And, lo and behold, I find...

Classes started yesterday.

What... the fuck? Now, I would say it was my fault and I'd been irresponsible or something if that were entirely it. But I've been actively looking to see when I should start signing up, and when I should start trying to meet with the college counselor to determine what classes I still need to take... And I -still- missed out. So now I'm going to miss the first week of classes, and I sure as hell won't have my books for a little while. And I'm pissed off about it.

/end rant


Beyond that, I'm still supposed to be doing work. And I'm putting it off. Have been all day. I'm going to have to start busting my arse here in a couple of minutes if I actually want it to look like I got any work done today at all. Urgh, my brain is -so- not functioning. And I actually got more sleep last night than I did the night before, but my body has just decided it's going to shut down. So we'll see what some Arizona southern style sweet tea and a Dove bar with almonds will do about that. Eh. At least I've found some good RP on WoW lately, even if I've had to tell a couple of people off for being jerks to my buddies. Got an old RP friend back in town for a couple of weeks on leave, so I'm happy. She and her husband have been over in Iraq since Thanksgiving, and still have more time to go. So it's been good to see them both around again.

On another note, I've been on a kick for A Perfect Circle lately. Generally I like harder music, like Nickelback (Damn, Namidamei's gone and gotten me obsessed with "Next Contestant" ever since she got their newest CD) or just... well... metal. But between the fact that I relate the singer of the band to one of my favorite characters and the fact that it's just good moozicks, I've found myself listening to them a lot. Right this second, I have a major obsession with "Pet" which I recommend to any and all interested.

Okay, I -really- have to go at least pretend to work now. Before I get side-tracked by the rain outside or some other such nonsense. *Sigh* *Eyes un-checked books* *Grumblemutter*



=100 Theme Challenge=

XX. Introduction [link]
2. Love
3. Light
4. Dark
5. Seeking Solace
6. Break Away
7. Heaven
8. Innocence
9. Drive
10. Breathe Again
11. Memory
12. Insanity
13. Misfortune
14. Smile
15. Silence
16. Questioning
17. Blood
18. Rainbow
19. Gray
20. Fortitude
21. Vacation
22. Mother Nature
23. Cat
24. No Time
25. Trouble Lurking
26. Tears
27. Foreign
28. Sorrow
29. Happiness
30. Under the Rain
31. Flowers
32. Night
33. Expectations
34. Stars
35. Hold My Hand
36. Precious Treasure
37. Eyes
38. Abandoned
39. Dreams
40. Rated
41. Teamwork
42. Standing Still
43. Dying
44. Two Roads
45. Illusion
46. Family
47. Creation
48. Childhood
49. Stripes
50. Breaking the Rules
51. Sport
52. Deep in Thought
53. Keeping a Secret
54. Tower
55. Waiting
56. Danger Ahead
57. Sacrifice
58. Kick in the Head
59. No Way Out
60. Rejection
61. Fairy Tale
62. Magic
63. Do Not Disturb
64. Multitasking
65. Horror
66. Traps
67. Playing the Melody
68. Hero
69. Annoyance
70. 67%
71. Obsession
72. Mischief Managed
73. I Can't
74. Are You Challenging Me?
75. Mirror
76. Broken Pieces
77. Test
78. Drink
79. Starvation
80. Words
81. Pen and Paper
82. Can You Hear Me?
83. Heal
84. Out Cold
85. Spiral
86. Seeing Red
87. Food
XX. Pain [link]
89. Through the Fire
90. Triangle
91. Drowning
92. All That I Have
93. Give Up
94. Last Hope
95. Advertisement
96. In the Storm
97. Safety First
98. Puzzle
99. Solitude
100. Relaxation ]]> ~Doberz http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/9643303/ http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/9643303/ Tue, 08 Aug 2006 08:36:02 PDT Whoa. Snazzy new DA. I like it. *Grin* Very spiffy.

In other words, I, like Chris, am snagging Shell's idea in hopes of chipping through some of my writer's block. Yes, I should be working on my novel and not doing more random crap. But until I get back into the flow of writing again, I don't think I'll be able to do much of -anything- so I'm hoping this will help a little.

I'm supposed to do these in order I suppose. I may do some fan fiction for my buddies. We'll see when it's through.

=100 Theme Challenge=

1. Introduction
2. Love
3. Light
4. Dark
5. Seeking Solace
6. Break Away
7. Heaven
8. Innocence
9. Drive
10. Breathe Again
11. Memory
12. Insanity
13. Misfortune
14. Smile
15. Silence
16. Questioning
17. Blood
18. Rainbow
19. Gray
20. Fortitude
21. Vacation
22. Mother Nature
23. Cat
24. No Time
25. Trouble Lurking
26. Tears
27. Foreign
28. Sorrow
29. Happiness
30. Under the Rain
31. Flowers
32. Night
33. Expectations
34. Stars
35. Hold My Hand
36. Precious Treasure
37. Eyes
38. Abandoned
39. Dreams
40. Rated
41. Teamwork
42. Standing Still
43. Dying
44. Two Roads
45. Illusion
46. Family
47. Creation
48. Childhood
49. Stripes
50. Breaking the Rules
51. Sport
52. Deep in Thought
53. Keeping a Secret
54. Tower
55. Waiting
56. Danger Ahead
57. Sacrifice
58. Kick in the Head
59. No Way Out
60. Rejection
61. Fairy Tale
62. Magic
63. Do Not Disturb
64. Multitasking
65. Horror
66. Traps
67. Playing the Melody
68. Hero
69. Annoyance
70. 67%
71. Obsession
72. Mischief Managed
73. I Can't
74. Are You Challenging Me?
75. Mirror
76. Broken Pieces
77. Test
78. Drink
79. Starvation
80. Words
81. Pen and Paper
82. Can You Hear Me?
83. Heal
84. Out Cold
85. Spiral
86. Seeing Red
87. Food
88. Pain
89. Through the Fire
90. Triangle
91. Drowning
92. All That I Have
93. Give Up
94. Last Hope
95. Advertisement
96. In the Storm
97. Safety First
98. Puzzle
99. Solitude
100. Relaxation ]]> ~Doberz http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/9605575/ http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/9605575/ Mon, 07 Aug 2006 11:39:04 PDT Well, since my old icon was something I scrounged up off of Google images, I finally snagged the wonderful and amazing and asked her to make me a new one. The image is of my lycan Atlas, in his wolf form. <3 ]]> ~Doberz http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/9445427/ http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/9445427/ Fri, 21 Jul 2006 07:11:18 PDT I swear, there are some days where I wish I could communicate between cars, if only so I could tell people what assholes they were.

Warning: The following message will contain many explitives, as I am still waking up, but I am angry, and therefore too tired to come up with anything intelligent.

Honestly. If I could just pick up a fucking radio to the other car, so I could tell them, "Hey buddy, if you'd use your fucking turn signal, maybe people wouldn't cut you off. Or maybe if you'd calm your god damned testosterone down enough that you down zip between lanes, because neither's going fast enough for you, or rev your engine when someone dares try and pass you, even when they're in a lane that's going faster than you are. What, your tiny brain is overridden by your male ego? Oh, but I suppose I -did- break rule number one. I made eye contact. Oh. My. God. 'I can see the little red-headed 18-year-old who's just trying to get to work in the car beside me, and she knows I'm here, so I'm going to scream and show her I'm more manly than she is. And when she manages to get in the lane that does decide to finally go faster, and doesn't let me in, I'm going to rev my engine again.' Look, buddy. You need to take a fucking time-out so you can remove all that excess blood going to your dick and let it cycle on back to your head. Because you're a fucking idiot. And honking at me when I turn off, screaming out the window? Yeah. That makes me realize you're a god damned moron, not that I'm some horrible little bitch.

...My apologies, mates. I needed that.

I'm not normally one to actually get angry in cars. Sure, I'll bitch. But I don't normally get truly angry. But this guy was all about focusing on being angry at ME, ever since I pulled out in front of him because he changed lanes without a freaking turn signal, in heavy, heavy traffic where I wasn't going to get another chance for a while. I think I was also more easily irritated because I just woke up, and because I'm not supposed to be working today. ...Eh. So, my apologies again for all the profanity, and the general pointlessness of that last rant. But I definitely feel better. ...Gods, I hate driving sometimes. ]]> ~Doberz http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/9354040/ http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/9354040/ Wed, 12 Jul 2006 12:15:15 PDT Bored. As usual. So I'm here to post dreary, useless parts of my life that no one wants to hear about. XD Tha'ts what journals are for, right? "I'm bored so I'm going to talk about myself." Well, we know I'm a leo. Which reminds me. My birthday's like, a week and a half away. And I still have no idea what I'm gonna do for it. *Snicker* I mean, I'll up in Ft. Lauderdale the night before. And I'll be leaving that Thursday for Alabama... Eh, I guess I'll just drag everyone to the Coffee House or something, but we all do that anyway. XD At least I have a week and a half off for it and my trip out of town. Of course, in the meantime I'm working hard core overtime because I'm the only one -in- town right now... All the workers are playing musical vacations. So our hours are all funky. It doesn't help that there's only four of us, and two of those are the owners, who are married and go on vacations together and stuff. Man, I've already rambled off on some random tangent. That was awesome.

I finally caved in and got some crappy disposable Kodak camera. XD Because I did promise everyone pictures of my finished Ren Fair outfit. And because I've been promising -everyone- pictures of my ferrets for a while. And everyone -should- see the ferret cute loveable fuzziness. And the chaos they can cause. Of course, as soon as I try to take pictures of them they'll stop being all excited and bouncy and go to sleep or something. We finally got a new carrier in for them after Scrap destroyed the old one, so I'll be able to bring them places with me now. This one's much nicer, seems much less destructable, and it folds into an awesome little carrying case. Beautiful. Aya and I are gonna figure out how to decorate it and make it "period" in the way of Ren Fest, so we can bring them with us to Adrian Empire and all that. I dunno. Maybe we'll drape it with leather or something. One guy actually turned one of his coolers into a treasure chest. XD It was awesome, and it looks pretty authentic. But yeah, either way, I'll hopefully be putting up some pictures soon.

I've actually been doing some writing lately. Just mostly on my book and stuff, so nothing to post here. But I've also been typing up the history of one of my characters, Treion, for the site for a guild I'm in on WoW. So it's more his history according to the WoW character, but they're pretty much the same. I'm not sure if I'll post the whole thing here--it's a bit long--but I will at least post a piece or two of it. Not to mention there's a short little thing I did for character development on Straife that's sitting on my laptop, being useless. So maybe I'll actually post some writing again soon. >.> God I'm so lazy. I do have a new WoW character that I'll have to try outside of an Azeroth setting--he and his brother are both pretty awesome.

Rargh. I really, seriously don't want to be here for another three hours. I hate working full days.

Right. So. I'm gonna take up more space. By doing that -same- character survey again. XD I'm so sorry, you really don't have to read it. But it's a fun survey, and I'll do it for Mav this time. The Mav in our regular Medieval setting.



> basics <

+ What's your character's name? +
Mavra Nari

+ How old is he/she? +
She's actually a little older by regular Medieval. In her mid-thirties, I think.

+ Is your OC a boy or girl? +
Girl.

+ What's his/her race? +
Human


> appearance <

+ If this character were to suddenly become part of the 3D world, and ended up in a heavily-populated area, how many stares would he/she get? +
A couple. If only for her bright red hair. And the fact that she's a rather compact woman walking about in chain mail, heavily armed.

+ Is your character considered normal in his/her own world? +
For the most part. I mean, there's nothing supernatural about her. But she is the bodyguard/second-in-command to Robalt. She and Robalt own the freaking military.

+ What would be his/her most recognizable feature(s)? +
Bright red hair. Rawr. XD

+ Would you consider your OC as attractive? +
She's attractive in her own way, but Mav's nothing special. She's not hawt, or sexy, or beautiful. But she does have her own sense of strength and independence that shines through.

> personality <

+ Temper? +
She's got a nasty temper. It's not hard to irritate her. If you -really- set her off, there's no getting her back. Mav's the kind who'll laugh if you insult her, but punch you in the face if you insult the friend with her. She calms down a lot as she gets older, though... When she was a kid, she'd nail you just for being sarcastic. XD

... ]]> ~Doberz http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/9199333/ http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/9199333/ Tue, 27 Jun 2006 12:11:31 PDT Okay. So apparently I'm making an effort to never keep anything more useful than pointless surveys and quizzes up on my front page for more than a few hours. XD Or maybe I'm just still bored because I'm still at work. But I was running through a friend's version of the character quiz I took in May, and realized how much fun I had doing it. So... I decided to do it for a different character. Treion. Treion has changed a -lot- since his creation, and the first couple writings I put up on him. And he's grown to become one of my favorite characters to step into, even if he is a pain in the ass.

So this is Treion, as he is known in our regular, Medieval setting.

> basics <

+ What's your character's name? +
Prince Treion Thead of Dyosin

+ How old is he/she? +
...In regular medieval, I think he's around eighteen or so.

+ Is your OC a boy or girl? +
Boy. Or a young man, I guess.

+ What's his/her race? +
Very human.


> appearance <

+ If this character were to suddenly become part of the 3D world, and ended up in a heavily-populated area, how many stares would he/she get? +
Eh. None, really. He's pretty decent-looking, but nothing out of the ordinary. I mean, if he walked into his own marketplace and got recognized as the prince, I'm sure he'd get a few...

+ Is your character considered normal in his/her own world? +
Err. Some ways yes, others not. I mean, he's a prince. I also originally made him to be the second hand of the goddess of death in my world, but I'm not sure I'll keep that. After he underwent all his changes, I'm no longer certain it fits.

+ What would be his/her most recognizable feature(s)? +
Err... probably his eyes. Where most Dyosin people are blonde with blue eyes, Treion got the blonde hair, but his eyes are a light gray.

+ Would you consider your OC as attractive? +
Physically, he's pretty good-looking, most definitely. An archer's build, with that long hair and sharp gray eyes. Cut features.

> personality <

+ Temper? +
Hot. He's not the childish type to throw temper tantrums, or the overly violent type who punches someone for calling him a name. But he is a bit prideful, and he doesn't put up with others' shit very well.

+ Does your character ever get depressed? +
At times. He's gone through some crap that does tend to get him down every once in a while. He -is- a fallen paladin.

+ Leader or Follower? +
He's enough of a leader to play prince well. He knows his politics, knows how to play the game. And he's smart. But in battle, he tends to follow the orders of someone like Jarvis. Not because he doesn't know what he's doing, but because he can be rash.

+ What is the main aspect of her personality? +
His bitchiness. His... mistrust of others.

> history <

+ Does your OC have a family of any sort? If so, are they still alive? +
His father, King Natch--whom he hates--his mother, Queen Lilith--whom he loves--and a half-brother, Callan. Who, at this point in the game, he doesn't know is his father's. He also supposedly has two younger brothers and a younger sister, but they've never been made or named. It is amazingly difficult to unseat the Thead family from the Dyosin throne.

+ Has he/she encountered any traumatizing events? +
Being in a war, absolutely. His main turning point, that caused him to go from paladin to blackguard, was when he attempted to run away with one of the harem girls, Sonoma (who belongs to Namidamei). Natch sent Jarvis and some of his soldiers after him, and Treion heard only Jarvis approaching. So he sent Sonoma on, assuming he'd rejoin her after holding the big commander off. But he ended up surrounded and fighting, and killed one of the men in his own ranks. So he lost his morals, his love, and his paladin abilities all in one night.

+ What was probably the best time in his/her life so far? +
Hm. Well... up until this point... Let me think. Probably when he was younger, honestly. Maybe when he first started to learn from his mother how to breed dogs, and break horses.

> romance <

+ Single? +
Yep. Sonoma managed to make it all the way to Harlingston and start a new life. Treion was forced to stay back, and they lost contact completely.

+ Has your OC developed any romantic relationships? +
Sonoma was the first. Eventually, "Legs" becomes the second.

+ Virgin? +
Heh. The royalty and their close friends have an entire harem of a dozen women in the castle. What do you think?

+ Does your character like flirting? +
Definitely not. XD He's just not the type for games like that. Subtlety is -not- one of his strong points.
... ]]> ~Doberz http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/9197009/ http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/9197009/ Tue, 27 Jun 2006 07:56:03 PDT Oh noes! A -useful- update on my life! XD Instead of some random survey and such. What can I say? I'm bored. Which--yes, you guessed it--means I'm at work.

Speaking of work, we've finally got the new software for the new system in. No more running on the same check-out system that's been in existence since the early 90's. I'm not kidding--there are books that were entered in there in '93. We also got a bar scanner, meaning I will no longer have to type in ISBN numbers manually. -And- one of our ordering companies sent us software that works through that, so that we can order new books directly through the system. It all cost a hell of a lot of money, but I imagine it will be worth it. If only so we can move everything to the new computer, so I'm not having to restart this one five times a day.

Beyond that, things have been pretty normal. I finally hit level 60 on WoW, -and- I finally have another character over level 40. Yes, I'm lazy. Oh, and Adrian Empire has become a complete and total blast. We went to a fun war this last weekend, the Crown War. I got some more archery practice in, and managed to get my ass kicked in combat scenarios for being the noob. God it was fun, though. Oh! And I got a bow out of the deal. *Grin* For damned cheap, too. I'm pretty excited about the whole thing. And Alex is taking to anything he picks up like a freaking duck to water. He actually did pretty darn well in the combat scenarios and such, for being as much of a noob as I am. Now I'm just looking to get a target set up and some arrows and such, so I can continue to practice the only thing I'm really taking to. I love shenai, and what little I've learned of rapier thus far, but I am absolutely terrible at it. *Laughs* And we've definitely all made some new friends out of the deal. Who have the same interests and very similar senses of humor. And they'll be holding a banquet on the 23rd, the day before my birthday. *Snicker* To crown the new king, who is a really great guy. Aya and I might be performing something for it, we'll see. It does mean I would like to find some new garb. But I've been wanting to do that, anyway. Unfortunately, I did manage to make a deal with Alex. *Grin* They've started a courtly dancing group. And they were trying to persuade me to wear a dress or at least skirts for it. At the same time, they were trying to persuade Alex to join. So finally, Alex says, "I'll sign up if you can get Kari to wear a dress," thinking that it was something that would never happen. So I shot him a look, grinned, and said, "I'll wear a dress if Alex signs up." XD Poor guy. So he just hung his head and grabbed a pen. Unfortunately, it now means that the others are going to be trying to dress me up. So I'll have to be prepared for that. God, it all makes me miss the Ren Fest.

But enough of my raving. At least on that subject. I've recently finished a few Kelley Armstrong books. Starting with Bitten. They're not the absolute best werewolf books I've read, and Bitten actually doesn't compare to the other two, Stolen and Broken, but I would recommend them for a good read. Stolen, the second one, is probably my favorite. I've also been leafing through A Death in Belmont, which is about the Boston Strangler. And it's pretty cut and dry, but it's certainly interesting. Other than that, I can't say I've read anything as of late to catch the interest. I finished the Anita Blake series, of course, but... I dunno. I still think the books were much better before all the romance and such came so heavily into play. I'm not saying they were bad, just that that lost some points for me. If I find any other books around here of interest, I'll post 'em.

In the meantime, I should probably get back to actually doing my work. *Snort* Yeah. More like trying to find another book to read. *Salute* Take care, guys. ]]> ~Doberz http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/8920263/ http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/8920263/ Tue, 30 May 2006 12:02:43 PDT I blame Chelsea for this entirely. Of course, I don't think she has a DA account, so she'll probably never get to see it... but hey.

69 Questions to Start the Summer

1. Are you in a relationship? Sort of.

2. Do you hate more than 3 people? ...I don't... think so.

3. How many houses have you lived in? Two. And I don't remember this first one.

4. What is your favorite candy bar? Ooo, tough question... I like Twix. But I keep going back to Hershey's with almonds. XD

5. What are your favorite shoes? Reebok. They're for people with long toes and thin feet like me. XD And I wear them to the freaking ground.

6. Have you ever tripped someone? Yeah. A few times.

7. What was your least favorite subject this year? Gotta be Music Appreciation. If only for a horrible teacher.

8. What was your favorite subject this year? ...Actually, probably English Comp.

9. Do you own a Britney Spears CD? Dear God no.

10. Have you ever thrown up in public? Nope.

11. Name something that's always on your mind? ...My skull. -_-;

12. What is your favorite music genre? ...I'm not sure I have a favorite. But I listen to a lot of Metal and harder rock.

13. What is your sign? Leo. *Grin*

14. What time were you born? I think it was supposedly a little after 10AM.

15. Do you like beer? Eh...

16. Have you ever made a prank call? ...Actually, no. At least, not that I remember.

17. What is the most embarrassing CD you own? Hm... Probably... Heh. Probably my Celtic CD. It makes me wanna dance.

18. Are you sarcastic? Pfft. No, of course not. Not ever.

19. What are your favorite colors? Gray. Green.

20. How many watches do you own? ...Just one. O.o

21. Summer or winter? Hm... Winter. Summer is too blisteringly hot down here.

22. Spring or fall? Definitely fall.

23. What is your favorite color to wear? ...Black. *Rawr*

24. Pepsi or Sprite? Sprite.

25. What color is your cell phone? ... Silver.

26. Where is your second home? Heh. My home -is- everyone's second home. But I guess... the coffee house.

27. Have you ever slapped someone? Heheheh. Yeah. 'Course, it wasn't nearly as funny at the time.

28. Have you ever had a cavity? Yeah.

29. How many lamps are in your bedroom? None. I use the light on my ceiling fan.

30. How many video games do you own? ...Shit. Let's see... WoW and DDO... Sims 2, Neverwinter Nights... Kingdom Hearts, Dynasty Warriors 4, DDR... And a bunch of old PS1 games I still have. I'm sure I've got a little more than that... So like, around 10 that aren't horribly outdated.

31. What was your first pet? A ferret. Nicknamed Little Wee by my parents. The name just stuck, whether I wanted it to or not. XD

32. Have you ever had braces? Nope.

33. Do you have good luck? Every once in a while.

34. Do you use Chapstick? No. I probably should, though.

35. Name 3 teachers from your school: Err, from the college? ... Professor Sheets, Dr. Grey.... Erm... Oh, and Deanna teaches there.

36. American Eagle or Abercrombie? *Wince*

37. Are you too forgiving? At times, yes. And other times not quite enough.

38. How many children do you want? None. At least not right now. Knowing me, I'll want one when I get older. But that's it. Just one. @_@

39. Do you own something from Hot Topic? A few things, yeah.

40. What is your favorite breakfast? Hm. I jump around. I unfailingly have a sweet tooth in the morning, but I need something slightly healthier or I get the shakes. I've always loved Capn Crunch, though.

41. Do you own a gun? Not personally, but we have some in the house. They're Dad's. Previously having belonged to his dad.

42. Have you ever thought you were in love? Yeah.

43. When was the last time you cried? ...Probably around a week ago.

44. What did you do 3 nights ago? *Snort* My memory's not that good. Let's see... Three nights ago would have been... Saturday night? That means Je... ]]> ~Doberz http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/8776585/ http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/8776585/ Mon, 15 May 2006 09:16:41 PDT So I got my book in at work that I've been meaning to read--Bitten, by Kelley Armstrong. The beginning seems pretty awesome--definitely the kind of book I'd enjoy. But I discovered a little problem... It's missing pages 25-56. They're just gone. No tears, no remains of pages... Just didn't damn well get put in there. It was damn well confusing, too--I'd managed to read three pages before I realized that there was a reason I had no idea what was going on. Actually, I'm pretty irritated by the whole thing. That book had kind of been my plans for today while sitting at work doing nothing. And I can't bring myself to just miss out on 20 pages of the book just because I'm bored. Especially since it's about the right place in the book for the real plot to start, so I'll -seriously- be lost if I'm not careful. It also sucks because even in those couple of pages I read something I'm not sure I should know yet. *Sigh* Well, either way, I'll finish the book eventually. I'll just talk to my boss when she comes in today and see if we can complain to the publishers or whatever. In the meantime, maybe one of the others has a copy of it... I'll have to ask around.

Beyond that, things have been pretty normal. I got an invite to come back to Prom on Saturday--here, you can go to Prom even if you're out of school or go to a different school, so long as a junior or senior there invites you and fills out some paperwork and all that. And if you can get someone at a college or your workplace to sign that you're a responsible individual and that kind of crap. But, hey. I figured it'd be nice to see my buddies again. Which I did. A lot of them. I got stopped all night. Which stirred a mixed response. It was kind of flattering to have so many people not only remember me, but be excited to see me. It makes me remember when, y'know... I was actually a social being, and made tons of friends all through the drama circuit, and band, and most anyone who wasn't a pain in the arse. But at the same time, it reminded me of how much I -don't- miss high school. I only had to be there about ten minutes before I was launched into the middle of some of the drama that comes with it. And as much as I might have once gotten involved with the high school drama--so long as it involved my close friends--I found myself sort of shrugging most of it off as no big deal. Which, at the same time, made me feel bad. Because I was afraid that Tara would think it was because I didn't care about her problems, when it was more that I didn't find the whole thing to be so involving. I'm sure it is to her, though. And now I'm just rambling. In a point of amusement, though, they had "gambling" there at the prom. Not real gambling, obviously. XD But each guest was given a bag of chips when they came in, and could play Roulette or Black Jack or some other game I didn't recognize. And the biggest winner at the end of the night got some sort of nice prize--not sure what, we didn't stay 'til the end. And apparently you could turn in chips for smaller prizes, as well, which I found out afterwards. But hey, I thought it was pretty amusing. I went to toss some chips towards Black Jack, but every time I went over, the table was packed. So I finally just gave up. *Laughs* I guess they wouldn't appreciate someone not in school winning, anyway. All in all, the night was amusing, and I ended up shooting some pool with some old friends. No, I didn't get pictures. >.o Well, some others did, though. So maybe I'll end up with some prints or something to scan and stick up.

But enough of my blabbing. I'm just trying to waste time, since my book is bloody well missing pages. *Sigh* ]]> ~Doberz http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/8728090/ http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/8728090/ Wed, 10 May 2006 08:00:38 PDT Heheheh, stolen from Gold-Seven, who I stalk. It's a random quiz on your original character. First I thought about doing it for Mav. Because she really is my "original" original character. But she's so similar to me in so many little ways, it'd be pointless. *Snicker* And I've done stuff like this for Robalt and Omehn before. So... I believe I shall use this as a bit of an in-depth character study for Atlas. I don't think any of my US buddies have met Atlas yet, either. So it'll be a spiffy little introduction. *Grin* Atlas is actually a character as old as Mav, but I re-vamped him a couple of months ago for our modern LARP world and fell absolutely in love with him again.

> basics <

+ What's your character's name? +
Atlas Tyrion

+ How old is he/she? +
Heh. Technically, he's a couple of millenia old, being an immortal and all. But he looks maybe in his early twenties.

+ Is your OC a boy or girl? +
Boy.

+ What's his/her race? +
Lycanthrope. Werewolf.


> appearance <

+ If this character were to suddenly become part of the 3D world, and ended up in a heavily-populated area, how many stares would he/she get? +
*Laughs* A few, if only because of his one major appearance quirk--despite looking exceedingly young in the face and body, his hair is gray. It ran in his family to go gray rather early in life.

+ Is your character considered normal in his/her own world? +
In his world? Yes. Lycanthropes are pretty normal--if you know about them and the vampires, which most mortals don't. He is the alpha of a pack, though, which I suppose gives him bonus points for unusualness. Is that a word?

+ What would be his/her most recognizable feature(s)? +
The slate gray hair. He wears it long, too. Back in a ponytail usually.

+ Would you consider your OC as attractive? +
Yeah. I think he is.

> personality <

+ Temper? +
Actually, Atlas is pretty even-tempered. For a lycan, he's rather easy-going. He has to be, with the lot in his pack. *Snicker*

+ Does your character ever get depressed? +
Well... Depressed, I don't know about. He does get a bit weary with the war sometimes--especially if pack members are lost. And he gets a bit melancholy about other various things, but depressed? Not unless something major happened.

+ Leader or Follower? +
Being alpha, he's certainly a leader. *Laughs* But you wouldn't believe it if you just met him in a casual setting. As soon as battle or pack business comes into play, though, he snaps up to the job.

+ What is the main aspect of her personality? +
Honestly? Probably his easy-goingness. And maybe his quickness to laugh.

> history <

+ Does your OC have a family of any sort? If so, are they still alive? +
I imagine he had a rather average family when he lived in Athens, but they're all quite effectively dead now. His family is the pack.

+ Has he/she encountered any traumatizing events? +
Well, when he was bitten and changed, naturally. And then being forcefully dragged into the beginning of the war. And I imagine there have been some events during the battles that won't rest easy in his mind. Ah, and the first time he changed someone else--his now-second-in-command, Galen, who belongs to Namidamei.

+ What was probably the best time in his/her life so far? +
I can't say that growing up in Athens was much easier than being a lycan unless you were rich, and he certainly wasn't a noble. So... probably around the time when he first began to form the pack.

> romance <

+ Single? +
Yup, much to his disappointment.

+ Has your OC developed any romantic relationships? +
I believe I had it set up so that he had been in one serious relationship before, but that had fallen apart for reasons unspecified. Poor thing is such a family wolf...

+ Virgin? +
After a couple thousand years? Definitely not. XD

+ Does your character like flirting? +
Not very often, and he's terribly subtle when he does.

> symbolism <

+ What animal would you accociate your OC with? (Sorry, no creatures of myth and legend allowed!) +
Hmm... as a werewolf, I wonder what. XD But symbolically? He's a bit closer to a dog than a wolf in his personality.

+ Musical Instument? +
...He likes music, but I'm not sure he plays anything. He's not told me that bit of information yet.

+ Element? +
...Wow. Astoundingly, I -hadn't- thought about that for him yet. Considering his stability and that laid back personality, I'd give him ea... ]]> ~Doberz http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/8574570/ http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/8574570/ Mon, 24 Apr 2006 18:58:07 PDT First off, allow me to start with this. Because it humors me that much. I spotted it in the livejournal of the artist for a webcomic I've been reading when I was exceedingly bored. At first, I was livid. Then... I actually read it. XD And realized that I should read past the title in the future.

10 Best reasons Gay Marriage is wrong:

1. Being gay is not natural. Real Americans always reject unnatural things like eyeglasses, polyester, and air conditioning.

2. Gay marriage will encourage people to be gay, in the same way that hanging around tall people will make you tall.

3. Legalizing gay marriage will open the door to all kinds of crazy behavior. People may even wish to marry their pets because a dog has legal standing and can sign a marriage contract.

4. Straight marriage has been around a long time and hasn't changed at all; women are still property, blacks still can't marry whites, and divorce is still illegal.

5. Straight marriage will be less meaningful if gay marriage were allowed; the sanctity of Britany Spears' 55-hour just-for-fun marriage would be destroyed.

6. Straight marriages are valid because they produce children. Gay couples, infertile couples, and old people shouldn't be allowed to marry because our orphanages aren't full yet, and the world needs more children.

7. Obviously gay parents will raise gay children, since straight parents only raise straight children.

8. Gay marriage is not supported by religion. In a theocracy like ours, the values of one religion are imposed on the entire country. That's why we have only one religion in America.

9. Children can never succeed without a male and a female role model at home. That's why we as a society expressly forbid single parents to raise children.

10. Gay marriage will change the foundation of society; we could never adapt to new social norms. Just like we haven't adapted to cars, the service-sector economy, or longer life spans.

Re-post this if you believe love makes a marriage.



*Steps off of soap box* Enough of that. Now... for the amusement of my gamer buddies... If you don't understand it, I'm sorry. XD But I was unable to resist.

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RPG Stats for
Doberz

Character Name: Doberz the Redundant
Class: Ranger
STR: 9 (Okay. For my size, I'm not weak. But I'm less than average. XD Definitely.)
DEX: 18 (What do you want? I'm twitchy.)
CON: 12 (Thanks to my Wisdom, I tend to be clumsy. So I feel pain often enough that I get used to it. XD)
WIS: 9 (I realize the irony in a ranger with a low wisdom. But man, I tend to be rash and oblivious.)
INT: 14 (I have a good grasp of certain things. I even tend to have some forms of logic. This is all completely destroyed by my lack of wisdom and common sense.)
CHA: 14 (I'd like to think my loud, outgoing nature and all those years in theatre attributes to this. And what small amount of wit I can turn out on a good day.)



Enough out of me. I'm done, I swear. I'm too tired to fill in about anything actually happening in my life, though there's a lot going on right now. <3 ]]> ~Doberz http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/8384156/ http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/8384156/ Thu, 06 Apr 2006 12:47:37 PDT I've begun to give some serious thought to moving out. I've not even spoken to my parents about it yet--or even approached the friend I'd probably share the place with. But I happened to glance through the local paper here and find an ad for a place about four miles south. I've not gone and looked at it yet, but I'd like to go have a glance at it today or tomorrow. It's a little one bedroom one bath, for $850 a month, including utilities--for the Keys, that's decent. Not great, but decent. I need to find out if they'll accept pets--I'm not going without the ferrets--and talk to Alex. Then I'll definitely need to talk to my parents. Because I'll still be here for another year, going to the community college. Get my Associate's Degree, then I'll get my Bachelor's in Secondary Education. So it's still hanging on a lot of "if"s. But I happened to spot that in the paper, and then later circumstances made me think more seriously on it. I'd like to get my feet underneath me for a little while. See if I can handle it. I'm not sure my 'rents will understand entirely. And since I can't give them the full reasons--some of which are rather personal--I don't expect them to. But we'll see how everything turns out.

Fuck your stability. I'll give you some god damned stability. You'll find yourself regretting your bullshit before long. ]]> ~Doberz http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/8362857/ http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/8362857/ Tue, 04 Apr 2006 11:12:57 PDT It has been one shitty week. My Spring Break took a nasty turn downhill, and I've had a couple of sleepless nights. Not to mention I'm a complete ass and haven't finished -any- of my projects for this week yet. In fact, I just started the one that's due tonight. Any others are completely untouched. It's ridiculous, and it's all my fault. In fact, I'm probably going to cut class tonight -because- I'm not sure I'll get this finished. I won't have much time when I get home--I -have- to get some filming done for my other class today, as soon as Aya gets off of work. I know I really can't complain, -because- it's all my fault, but it still sucks.

But turning instead to the subject of things that aren't entirely my fault... Saturday was one of my worst, most emotionally detrimental days I've had in a year or two. I just lost the best fucking relationship I've ever had. And it was... completely unexpected. I'm grateful it's not taken a chink out of our friendship, but... I've got a lot festering. And if I don't do something about it, I'm going to tear the walls down around us eventually. I don't believe that I was given the full reasons and explanations for the break-up, and that's eating at me. If the reasons I have been given are the only ones for what's happened, they're pretty bullshit reasons. Because the reasons have been there ever since this started a year and a half ago. Don't see why it wouldn't have affected the relationship before now. And to be honest... I feel kind of used right now. That may be entirely wrong, and over-dramatic and foolish. But I do. I feel like a god damn moist wipe after a set of ribs. And I've had a few sleepless nights over all this. Trying to figure out what the Hell I did. Trying to figure out where along the line I fucked up, or at least when it all began to decline. Because apparently I missed out on those chapters. I must have had bad reception then or something. Or maybe it's just me being stupid and oblivious again. Apparently, I've also been delusional for a while. Because I also apparently "knew this had to happen eventually." I don't know. I guess I thought that just maybe I'd had some scrap of hope. Because if I had thought it was a god damn hopeless situation, I would have dropped it a long time ago.

*Sigh* I'm sorry. I really didn't mean to go into a novel about my personal life. But I just needed to bleed some of that. I'm going to go work more on my report now. And hope that I manage to finish the damn thing, so that I don't have to come up with some bullshit excuse for not being there and not being able to have the paper delivered. ]]> ~Doberz http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/8304227/ http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/8304227/ Wed, 29 Mar 2006 11:51:03 PST Man. It's already been a long day, and it's nowhere near over. I'm thrilled to be on Spring Break, though--no class tonight! Of course, I have a project or paper due for every single one of my classes, the day I get back. None of which have I started. Actually, I have two due for one class--but I've got the second one half finished.

Besides that, I'm entering a writing contest. It's an annual thing, run by L. Ron Hubbard, Orson Scott Card, Anne McCaffrey, and several other authors. A short story thing, and all the 1-3 place winners(over the four quarters of the year) will get their work published in a collection in September. It's one Hell of an opportunity, and I'm just confident enough to be hopeful about it. So wish me luck! I'll be going over my piece, Kal's Betrayal, with a fine-toothed comb and sending it in. So if anyone has any suggestions or critiques about that particular piece, please let me know. Now, let's hope I can get the thing postmarked in time... There's a few other pieces I could use, or ideas I could write out... But there can't be excessive violence or sex. Yes, Kal's Betrayal has a bit of violence to it, but I'm hoping it's not so much as to get disqualified. Unfortunately, most of my best works seem to involve a lot of gore. XD Though I suppose if I need to I can tone down the violence for that particular story. Eh, we'll see... Of course, if it comes down to it and I do get disqualified, I'll have learned from my mistakes and can always enter again for the July quarter.

Aaaand... after I get off of work today, I'll be nabbing some buddies and going to the mall. Enter Chaos and Hilarity. It's been a while since any of us have had the chance to go be mall rats, let alone a whole group of us together. XD So this should be pretty entertaining.

On that note, if anyone has not yet listened to 24 by Jem, they should definitely go download it. It's a freaking awesome song. And with that, I shall say my farewells. <3 you all. ]]> ~Doberz http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/8240567/ http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/8240567/ Wed, 22 Mar 2006 19:50:26 PST So the little one is settled into her new cage, which came in today. *Grin* It's much, much bigger than the old one. So she's got plenty more room to herself, although I've spoken to Dad and she may be sharing her space soon. I've got my name on a list at the shelter, to be called if they ever get a ferret in. I'd like to get another young one, but we'll see... I'd -much- rather take in a homeless critter for ten bucks than get a fuzzy little creature for a hundred and ten bucks. But if the shelter doesn't get any in relatively soon, I'll go get one from the same shop I got Scrap. I don't want to wait -too- long before I introduce another ferret to the family. But, at least she has a bigger cage now, as well as some awesome peanut butter yogurt treats that make her lick the roof of her mouth humorously and some catnip balls that--*gasp!*--crinkle, much to her joy. She's already dragged off two of the four and hidden them under the bed somewhere. And with this new cage, there will not only be less litter scattered over my floor, but it will be a billion times easier to clean. Eh. *Shrug* We'll see how it all works out.

And, in some awesome news, my Spring Break is coming up. While I'm putting in more hours for work this Friday, I'll have no school for a week. Which is the break I've needed for bloody ages. I'll still be working, but hey... At least I'll have my evenings to myself again. I'll be able to catch up on some well-needed gaming time, and spend more play hours with Scrap. I cancelled my DDO subscription... It's a great game, but I'm just not playing it. What free time I have is spent with the little one, friends, or playing WoW. So I might as well not pump money into it if I'm not going to level my characters. Maybe if some of the others get involved I'll pick up my subscription again, we'll see. But Alex is the only one whose shown even remote interest.

And on that note, I shall take my leave. There's still pages to be read and small furry things to be harassed. G'night, all. ]]> ~Doberz http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/8171864/ http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/8171864/ Wed, 15 Mar 2006 18:42:12 PST I'm just... so freaking irritated. I'm too irritated to even go into details. It will suffice to say that today has not been my best day in a while. We got -nine- boxes of book orders in today. We got them at 1:30, and by 4:00, I still wasn't done, and a couple of the boxes were screwed up. It all just... continued downhill from there. Again, I don't think I can bring myself to go into detail.

Besides that chaos, though... I've ordered a new, larger cage for the little critter. That, along with more treats and toys, should be in in a couple of weeks. And on that note, I hope to talk to the 'rents about getting a second addition. I told him I'd just get one--but I think his main concern was that we didn't start the rescue again and end up with like, 12 ferrets. I -am- out of the house on a pretty regular basis during the week, and even when I'm not, the guys sometimes come over and their crap ends up strewn all over the floor--including pizza and dice, which restricts the little one to her cage. So I feel bad. I'd like to get her a playmate to keep her entertained and happy when I can't. Heh, wish my luck in convincing Dad. But we'll see. I love ferrets, and I'm happy enough to have Scrap either way. I don't mind giving her the extra attention and play hours because she doesn't have anyone else to do it. Actually, I think she's digging holes in my old backpack as we speak... Little rat. God, I've missed ferrets.

-Doberz ]]> ~Doberz http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/8148275/ http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/8148275/ Mon, 13 Mar 2006 10:49:15 PST Well, at work, as usual. My brain apparently isn't functioning today--I can't even bring myself to read any Salvatore, so I've been going through the store and finding lighter, more brainless and amusing things to read. Like manga. Aya got back in from her week-long trip to Wisconsin last night, but I've still not seen her. Poor thing got back in at about 2:30AM and still has to work today. I'd have called a fuck-it long before then.

I forgot to pick up my paycheck Friday. But I have no idea if David would have left it for me, or where it would be even if he did. So I'll just have to ask about it. Damnit, I need that money, too. My next plan of action is to get a new cage for Scrap--the one I have right now is an old one, partially rusty, and results in litter and other unpleasantries strewn all over the floor. I'll be getting one with a pan in the bottom. Y'know, one of those where I just have to lift the cage off and clean out the bottom of the cage. Much easier than dealing with a wire one, especially since she's still not grasped the litter-training concept. I'm sure you wanted to hear that.

I've missed Ren Fest two weekends in a row now. It's kind of depressing. Actually, it's kind of depressing that I'm depressed that I missed it. XD But there's still one weekend left, and I think -everyone- plans on going this weekend. So that should be a blast. And now that Aya's back, we've got more D&D to get to. Makes me wish I wasn't so freaking exhausted. At least I've already got the next step in my campaign with Aya and Alex planned, so I don't have to attempt being creative in this condition.

Oh, and I did far, far better on my midterms than I could have ever hoped. 98/100 on my Human Growth & Development, and something like 95 on my Music Appreciation--which I had honestly expected to get a C or maybe a B on. I had done minimal studying, and had never, ever listened in class. It makes me glad I had enough experience in musical background to do well in the listening exercise, and I've always been good at BSing knowledge for whatever reason. So hey, I can't complain too much.

I'd like to continue rambling--it would give me something to do--but I don't wanna write a freaking chapter. So for now, I'll get going. Catch you guys later. ]]> ~Doberz http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/8134655/ http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/8134655/ Sat, 11 Mar 2006 21:24:25 PST ...Why does that make me think of faeries?

Regardless. I'm tired. Always bloody tired, but Jeff is down this weekend. XD Which means no sleep. Ever. For ANYONE. We've spent two days playing D&D, WoW, DDO, Halo2, Time Splitters, and other various things that I'm not even sure I was aware of. The others have been running off of coffee and red bull. Due to my allergy to caffiene, I have been going on sheer will power alone. Mixed with some mild sugar highs. It makes my brain hurt. >.> And it makes me pity Scrap, for she -never- gets any peace with these buggers around. Everything is going from about 9AM until about 7AM, when everyone spaces out for two hours. XD Meanwhile, my room is constantly filled with the various noises of laughter, bullets, dice cracking against tables, and other insanity. I'm hoping to go to Ren Fest tomorrow--I missed it entirely last weekend and didn't go Saturday--but we'll see. I don't even know if I'll be able to get anyone to go with me. Jon and Brad are working, Jeff is going home, Val never goes, and Alex tends to stay with Val. And Aya will be flying back in on a plane, but I have no idea at what time. I'm torn between going and not going, actually. Just because I know she plans to come here when she gets back, but I don't know when that will be. Maybe if she'd actually charge her cell once in a while, I'd know. XD

Meanwhile. I have finally given in and ordered the Sims 2. XD I got endless hours of entertainment out of the first one, especially with friends over, and I've had it recommended to me a couple of times, so hey. We'll see how well it turns out. We'll just end up being morons as usual and building huge, weird-ass houses for our characters using the money cheat. No one ever actually plays the game. You just fsck around with it. *Snicker*

But enough out of me. My wit meter is in the red, and my brain's slowly beginning to shut down from staring at the screen for too long. you guys. ]]> ~Doberz http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/8123373/ http://Doberz.deviantart.com/journal/8123373/ Fri, 10 Mar 2006 16:33:50 PST Woot. Got the new account set up! I even managed to move all of my writings to the laptop in the meantime. Can't say much--currently playing D&D. But hey, everything's all set up and stuff. As soon as I get an avatar. >.> Like I know how to make one. ]]> ~Doberz