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I'm in college, I'm single, I'm driving all over the place, I'm loving my corgi, and I'm not writing or drawing as much as I used to. Maybe that will change soon.

Kerstyne

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Check it out.

Love it.

Tell your friends.

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Taken from Scott (a lame-o )

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Isn't my mood icon te cutes thing ever? Gah!

Yeah, that was my update.

I like a girl, her name is Megan. She's beautiful, and I cannot wait to get the big hug coming to me.

]]> ~DollTrashed http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/10000995/ http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/10000995/ Thu, 07 Sep 2006 16:48:25 PDT Mood: Good
Listening to: Clear the Area - Imogen Heap
Reading: Lost and Found - Carolyn Parkhurst
Watching: Fever Pitch

SO yeah.. they switched around everything on my school. Since I do everything on the computer, I rely on consistancy,,,and they failed me. This year it is COMPLETELY different. I mean, I think I can figure out how it runs, but it's still rather confusing. I'm working on psychology right now. I love the ideas of it, I know it is the carreer for me, but I want to do a lot of things. Part of me wishes I had like...8 years of college so I could take every class I want, but the other part wants to finish college and start my life as an adult. Are most girls like this? They can't wait to have thier carreers and thier families, children and husband (or in my case, wife. If they ever legalize it in the states.) and houses with animals and normalcy? I cannot wait.

So yeah, in like...nine days my brother is having a birthday. Woot! And this weekend my best friend's little sister turns 5, so we are celebrating at a cabin. It sounds like fun to me. Well, it was a lame update, but I made one. When my subscription expires, I won't be able to buy another until after January...that stinks.

]]> ~DollTrashed http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/9779199/ http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/9779199/ Sat, 19 Aug 2006 05:19:14 PDT Mood: Happy
Listening to: Say Goodnight & Go - Imogen Heap
Reading: It's a dirty job - Christopher Moore
Watching: Ice Princess

I dyed my hair on Sunday night. Well, actually Abbi dyed it. I have my normal blondish/brown hair, with black bangs and the underneath of my hair black as well. (So if I wear my hair half up, the hair up will be blond and the hair down will be balck. It's pretty sweet. Abbi's hair is the same as mine, except her original color is more of an auburn brown. My new profile picture was taken this morning, as I had my hair in the Farah Faucette. Hmm, exciting.

I stayed at Abbi's house on Sunday night, until Monday afternoon. We went and saw The Descent at the Tiffin theater, which was a good movie. It sucked knowing that the American version was "dumbed down" so that all the idiots here would understand it. The UK version is SO MUCH BETTER. So hopefully when it comes out on DVD, the UK ending is added. But Abbi jumped a lot, and we had a good time. Seeing all the previews (a good half hours worth) before The Descent was okay, because I now want to see:

1.) Texas Chainsaw Massacre: The Beginning - Because Jordana Brewster is in it, and I want to make sweet, sweet love to her. Plus, I think she is the only chick that survives.

2.) The Quiet - Because it has some hott girls, it seems crazy, and I belive there is a breif moment of lesbianism. Always a plus.

3.) The Return - Because Sarah Michelle Gellar will always be Buffy to me, and she needs my money. Plus, the movie looks schweet.

4.) Saw 3 - That's a no-brainer. If you don't like the Saw movies, your either dumb, a pussy, or both.

5.) Pulse - I love me some horror movies.

Yeah. The stuff to fix my computer comes today. I have to get past my password, save everything to a disk, and then reformat my computer. So yay. And by yay I mean boo. But at least I get to save my shit, so that is nice.

Jasmine stopped by yesterday afternoon, and I was sleeping. I heard pounding on the door, and woke up. I ran out of my room in my hotpants (booty-shorts) and her Miles Davis tshirt. And answered the door that way. It was funny. So yeah. She thinks my hair is cool. She is going to dye hers soon, which is neato.

I'm talking with a girl, and by talking I mean "talking." Which means I am into a girl, and she is into me.

I am in love with the song 'Say goodnight and go' by Imogen Heap. I want to marry it. It's my profile song. Yummy. And I also love Face Down by The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus. They are almost polar opposites. Hmm.

<3 Keer

]]> ~DollTrashed http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/9731213/ http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/9731213/ Mon, 14 Aug 2006 22:56:20 PDT Mood: Watching PETA videos

THREE QUESTIONS

You can ask me 3 questions.
Any three, no matter how personal, private, or random.
I have to answer them honestly.
In turn, you have to post this message
in your own bulletin and you have to answer
the questions that are asked to you.
So go ahead and ask me any 3 questions


Abbi is over, we are watching PETA, and I feel so bad for animals.



Kerstyne

]]> ~DollTrashed http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/9672376/ http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/9672376/ Thu, 10 Aug 2006 01:44:19 PDT Mood: Confused and worried
Listening to: Vienna - The Fray
Reading: Bitch - Elizabeth Wurtzle
Watching: Orgasmo

So I leave devART for what...a week? And I come back and I'm like...WTF? What is this? It's nice, real nice, but what? How long have they been planning this, and when did it happen? Nevermind, not important.

Jasmine wants to see Snakes on a Plane. No thanks. The original name was 'Please don't pay to go see this movie. The only thing even remotely good about it is Julianna Margolies and Samuel L. Jackson, and even that isn't enough for us to ask you to pay to watch this steaming pile of shit...on a plane.' But that title was too long.

She said she wants to take fake snakes and scream 'Snakes in a cinema' and so that alone would be enough for me to go, to watch and perhaps participate in that act, but I am not sure. I am much more excited about SAW 3, Pulse, The Descent, Barnyard, Little Man, and a few more. I love scary movies, what can I say? SAW 3 IS GOING TO MAKE ME CREAM IN MY JEANS. I love Shawnee Smith, especially as a bad chick....drool.

Somethings scratching it's way out...something you want to forget about

Well, life. Yes. It's been pretty boring. Dealing with my ex's craziness. I just wish I knew what to do. I want to be civil because I have to see her often (since she's dating my best friend...) but at the same time, everytime I try and be nice she mistakes it as vulnerability and tries to...whatever. She's just not that easy of a person to try and deal with. I don't want to just blow up at her, because I am trying to consider my friend's role in all of this.

I mean, this weekend I hung out with my friend and I wanted it to be our time to hang out and watch movies since we haven't done it in a while, and my ex had to stop by...for more than an hour, and soak up our time by crying and pissing and moaning about me being there (when she knew I was going to be there...) And then she called 50 bazillion times, about the stupidest shit, even though my friend was like, "Dang, we're gonna watch a movie, I will call you after it's over. Promise."

So instead of waiting the hour and a half to let us enjoy the movie, she had to call every ten minutes to see how much longer the movie is. I used to date this girl, and when I was the one dating her, she did that shit too, but it didn't seem as annoying as it does now. I really just want to take the phone and be like, "Fuck, if you need to call her that fucking much, why don't you just sew yourself to her fucking side and share a godamned lung with her already?" Fuck! So yeah, it gets me pissed. Uh...I think that's the end of the venting for that...

We're only taking turns holding this world. It's how its always been, when you're older you will understand...

Other than that, life is pretty tame. Going tomorrow to apply at Wendy's, McDonalds, Subway, and Drugmart (all of which are in Clyde.) I am hoping to work at Drugmart, because working in fast food is A.) A risk to my health and B.) Something I am sure to hate. But I don't know if Drugmart hires people that aren't 18.

Love life...still a big fat goose egg. I mean, I don't think I am going to fall into the lap of some beautiful girl and make her my wife or something, but dang...where did everyone go? I am out in the middle of nowhere, with the friends being...2. I was popular before I left school, or at least I had something to do every weekend, somewhere to go, someone to see. Now I am basically on house arrest. I love my family, but it would be great to just get together with a bunch of friends and just...hang out.

I haven't hung out with more than two people (who weren't my best friend and her girlfriendng) in over a year. How devestating. God I need a life. I need a girlfriend. Or at least a good friend that...get's me. I can't wait for college.

I don't know. I used to be in a relationship. I'm not one of those girls that needs a lover...it's just nice. I miss having a warm hand, having a soft cheek. I made so many mistakes in the last round, and they were countered, believe me. I was a liar, paired with a cheater, it was really doomed from the start, though it lasted two years on and off...that's big for a highschool relationship.

But take it from me, we don't give sympathy. You can trust me, trust nobody...

I just want a girl that...I can kiss and hold. That I can call at anytime and just vent to or wake up at 3am because I saw a lesbian kiss on tv. It's big news. I freak out. A girl that is smart and funny, and respects herself enough to be who she really is. Someone who will laugh at me and with me. I want a girl w... ]]> ~DollTrashed http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/9259790/ http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/9259790/ Mon, 03 Jul 2006 10:54:14 PDT Mood: Happier than ducks
Listening to: Craving - t.A.T.u
Reading: Blind Sight
Watching: The Hills Have Eyes

WOW! We are breeding our miniature dachshund in a few days/weeks. But, heres the kicker....we are breeding her to a chihuahua. That makes her puppies chiweenies. I suggest you look up a picture, because they are facking cute. Basically a mini dachshund with bigger ears that stand straight up and a curly tail.

I am excited. They are registered as a Hybrid Mix which means two purebreds mate to make a hybrid purebred offspring. If anyone desperatly wants one...they will be ready around December 1st. Most likely they will be a light brown, dark brown, brindle, and maybe spotted bunch of pups.

The pups will get no larger than 8lbs, and won't shed much, if at all. I will obviously document the growth of these guys. If anyone wants one (If we have three you are SOL, because we already have homes for three puppies. One with me, one with Jasmine, and one with her neighbor.) they are 250$ a peice, which sounds like a lot, but they will have all their first shots, and be heathy little guys/gals. They make great indor pets or apartment pets. Let me know!

I love chiweenies!


-Keer

]]> ~DollTrashed http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/9228599/ http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/9228599/ Fri, 30 Jun 2006 05:58:28 PDT Mood: Busy but happy.
Listening to: Cable car - The Fray
Reading: Empress of the World
Watching: The Breakup

I have two handsome little boy kittens. I got one two days ago, and the other one yesterday. How do I add pictures into this post? I want to show what the kittens look like!

Anywho, I am going to describe them in great detail until someone tells me how to add pictures.

Gus - is a small kitten, maybe 8 weeks old at the most. He's mitten-pawed which means he has an extra toe on both front paws, and it looks like he is wearing mittens. He is a really light orange color, with a white tummy. He has pretty bluish-green eyes. What a cute kitten!

Spencer - is bigger, maybe 12 weeks old or so. He looks like a main coon cat, which is a very lovely type of cat. The only difference is his facial structure, and he doesnt have any white on him except for his ears. He has long hair and gorgeous orange eyes. He is a trouble maker, but he is also a big sweetheart.


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What lovely little boys I have. (But I can't forget my girl Maggie May and my other girl Josie.)

]]> ~DollTrashed http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/9211210/ http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/9211210/ Wed, 28 Jun 2006 14:06:48 PDT
Mood: Tired though.
Listening to: Cable car - The Fray
Reading: Empress of the World
Watching: Crash

We are going to get (a) kitten(s) tomorrow. They are 10$ and we thought they were 15$ so we may get 2 instead of 1. I am excited. I like kittens. I like cats too, but the thing is we are getting a kitten for my puppy. She has no one to play with and we had foster kittens that we gave back because they were old enough to be adopted. I am sorry this journal sucks. I will fix it later.

I've acted out my life in stages ]]> ~DollTrashed http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/9104920/ http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/9104920/ Sun, 18 Jun 2006 11:42:05 PDT
Mood: Tired though.
Listening to: The First Taste - Fiona Apple
Reading: Empress of the World
Watching: Million Dollar Baby

12:35 AM - Dang!
Current mood: excited
Category: Pets and Animals


Dang, today I'm all sitting at home right? And Donna Moore calls me, and as everyone (who matters) knows, I'm a foster volunteer for the Toledo Area Humane Society, and she's the director of that and she calls and says, "I know you have three kittens from us right now, but would you want to take some pups too we're really in need because everyone is full now, except you. Can you do it?" So I'm like, "Puppies? Okay. How many." "11." .... "11...?"

Dang, so yeah. We have 11 little shepard puppies plus their mom. They are 1 week old, but I think we may have 9 soon, because there are two runts that the momma is not paying any attention too, and they are small. The other pups are about...2-4 lbs, but these ones are about 1 lb and half the size, so she probably will just let them die, which is sad. I mean, at this point, I can't do anything to save them because I can't like...milk the momma and feed them, and I can't give them formula cause it can kill them at this age. So if they are okay tomorrow, I'm gonna have my mom pick up some formula on her way home from work. Oh! We have 8 girls and 3 boys.

Lay off the cards and all the condescending toning. ]]> ~DollTrashed http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/9081462/ http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/9081462/ Thu, 15 Jun 2006 21:03:14 PDT
Mood: Sad.
Listening to: A Mistake - Fiona Apple
Reading: Empress of the World
Watching: Million Dollar Baby

It's just one of those nights when I wish I had a best friend. I mean, beggars can't be choosers. I have the greatest best friend in Jasmine. We can laugh and talk seriously, but haven't moved to being able to cry on each other. Plus she's so busy with Lauren now and barely has time for me. I used to be the girl too busy with Lauren for anyone else. I know now how annoying everyone must have found me. I apologize.

I have been happy lately. Comfortable, even. I have good friends, I have high-tech toys to keep me happy, a funny dog, and every now and then I smoke some pot because I'm bored...and then...there is Jim. I have refrained from calling him dad. I know, how teenage. No, it's not. God it's so much more than that. I have this man living in my house. If he isn't on the computer, he is on the couch. He does nothing around the house, and when he does, he bitches about it.

1.) I ask for some chicken breast and half and half, he returns with peanutbutter cups, and cookies. I ask him where the food is and he says, "I don't have a job, your mom makes all the money." No, but you have the money to buy cookies and shit, and then expect to eat the food I cook tonight. Fuck.

2.) While I am making the food for everyone, and doing the dishes he is watching Everybody Loves Raymond. Later, I send for my brother, since my 'father' can't get off his ass and get his kid. I bring him in for his medicine, which Jim promptly tells me not to give him. It's nine 'o' clock by now, and this kid is supposed to have his medicine by 8:30. I argue with him, saying he needs it and his comment, "How about I be the dad, and you be the daughter who doesn't listen." Yeah? How about I kick you in the fucking ballsac?

3.) I make tacos, with no help (yet again) and Jim procedes to eat all of the taco meat. I'm sure my mom who has a fulltime job didn't want any. Asshole.

God I have so many more, but it's really just the same stuff. Never does the dishes, never cleans up, and STILL bitches at everyone else about their mess. He just peels off dirty socks and leaves them. And I leave them there because he needs to pick up his mess, I pick up mine. And then my mom picks them up and bitches at me, but I know it's just because she is fed up. Same thing with dishes. I did the dishes at least four times today, and there is a sinkful right now. My dad is watching Seinfeld. My mom wakes up, angry that no one has done the dishes, and I explain I am not the only person with arms and no job in the household. What does Jim do upon hearing this? Go to bed.

I am 17. I have no job, no car, I don't even have a permit. I do, however, have a jackass for a dad who does nothing but complain and make a mess. And he is always looking at his mess and saying "What is this place going to look like when I leave?" Better. And he's always saying nigger this and nigger that. I hope some black person hears him and shoots him in the face. It's sad but I'm passed the stage where I would miss him if he died. If you gave me a shovel and a get out of jail free card...I bet you wouldn't be able to tell whose body it was floating down the Mississippi cut up in little baggies. I'm so serious, I would just...urgh! The worst part? That I have no one to confide in. Just this stupid blog that strangers read and say 'aww thats so sad' to. I need a shrink.

Lay off the cards and all the condescending toning. ]]> ~DollTrashed http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/9074944/ http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/9074944/ Thu, 15 Jun 2006 08:46:18 PDT
Mood: Bored. Really bored.
Listening to: Tegan and Sara - Living Room
Reading: Empress of the World
Watching: Million Dollar Baby

School ends for me tomorrow. I have accomplished...some. I havent finnished History...or Math. But Biology, Computer, English, French, Art...did them. Maybe I just hate math, haha. No, my history teacher sucked. I mean, he was cool, but it was all...homework. Lol, I like reports and quizzes. Homework sucks. How do I insert pictures? Right here I would like a picture of me being bored over homework.

Got in trouble recently with a friend, but not too bad considering what I did. (Told her girlfriend she cheated...ouch.) But she understood, she was just upset she didnt get to tell her first, which is understandable. I want to write a movie...If I write a novel in here, you guys PROMISE to read it and tell me what you think?

I need to take the ACT soon. And hang out. Someone efifn hang out with me! God, being at home 24/7 sucks!

Finally we've got something, something we can bring down the house with. ]]> ~DollTrashed http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/9004979/ http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/9004979/ Thu, 08 Jun 2006 01:43:11 PDT
Mood: Confused
Listening to: Eve 6 - Think Twice
Reading: Empress of the World
Watching: Lost and Delerious

I have changed...


The one from October 31, 2004.

I AM: surprisingly shy and secretive
I WANT: ...people to let me be serious once and a whileI want to spill my heart out
I HAVE: ...no life obviously, because I'm doing one of these
I WISH: ...I understood everything...
I HATE: ...Well I'm not supposed to hate, but I hate it when I try to help and no one wants my help, even though they need it! GRR!
I MISS: being able to confide in my mommy
I FEAR: ...the unknown, men, being lied to, ending up a druggie and broken hearted
I HEAR: that everything will work out eventually
I LOVE: Abbi, Lauren, Katie, Alissa, and Ericthats the basic friendsoh, and Chad
I ACHE: to be able to share my secrets and know that they will stay secret
I ALWAYS: ...feel bad after I fight with my mom
I AM NOT: ...ready to deal with adulthood
I DANCE: when no one is looking... (And very badly. Eric taught me a few dance moves)
I SING: everyday...I'm singing right now. (Vindicated by Dashboard Confessionals.)
I CRY: ...all the time...I hear it's healthy
I AM NOT ALWAYS: a bitch and funny
I WRITE: ...poetry, songs, lyrics....all kinds of things
I WIN: ...a cookie? OHH I WANT A COOKIE!
I LOSE: myself in the music
I CONFUSE: ...myself every freaking time I talk
I NEED: ...a life... (As previously stated)
I SHOULD: ...get in recovery for drugs...and take a shower



The one from April 3, 2006

I AM: more lonely and mature than ever
I WANT: a best friend that I can say anything to, without thinking
I HAVE: A lot of goals in love
I WISH: I knew everyhting was going to be just fine
I HATE: When I try and make things better and they only get worse
I MISS: My old friends, even though I know I'm better without them
I FEAR: That I will settle in life, and not get the most from it
I HEAR: That nothing lasts forever
I LOVE: My family and friends.
I ACHE: To have a friend and lover again, one in the same.
I ALWAYS: Regret fighting with my mom or brother
I AM NOT: Ready to be an adult, though I say it all the time
I DANCE: Frequently, and horribly
I SING: In the shower, and to the computer
I CRY: At least once a week. Sometimes cause I'm sad, sometimes because it's just nice to have a good cry. It's a girl thing.
I AM NOT ALWAYS: A happy-go-lucky person
I WRITE: Down my feelings
I WIN: Very rarely, I have no luck.
I LOSE: My temper all the time
I CONFUSE: Things to easily, and often blame myself or others too harshly
I NEED: To get a grip and grow up
I SHOULD: Take things more seriously and get some couseling.



The one from June 8th, 2006

I AM: Pretty comfortable with who I am
I WANT: To be an adult already...I think
I HAVE: A lot to learn
I WISH: I could go back in time, knowing everything I know now
I HATE: When I can't stop doing something even though I know it's wrong
I MISS: My past
I FEAR: That I won't make the right choices
I HEAR: That I am pretty facking amazing
I LOVE: Being with my friends
I ACHE: To have great friends and a girlfriend
I ALWAYS: Get caught
I AM NOT: Over my ex girlfriend
I DANCE: All the time
I SING: Whenever I get the chance
I CRY: When I sing a song, I don't know why
I AM NOT ALWAYS: A complete bitch to my family
I WRITE: Because I love to
I WIN: When it comes to talen, not luck
I LOSE: My temper all the time, and I hate it
I CONFUSE: My feelings toward people, when it comes to liking them
I NEED: TO get a job, car, and lisence...not necessarily in that order
I SHOULD: Act more like a seventeen year old

When I showed up and he was there, I tried my best to grin and bear. And took the stairs but didnt stop at the street, and as we speak, I'm going down. ]]> ~DollTrashed http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/8879109/ http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/8879109/ Thu, 25 May 2006 23:36:19 PDT
Mood: Nor
Listening to: Coheed and Cambria - Wake Up

I'm a LESBIAN, so I MUST not be faithful to my girlfriend.

I SPEAK MY MIND, so I MUST be a bitch.

I'm OVERWEIGHT, so I MUST have a problem with self control.

I'm an ATHEIST, so I MUST hate the world.

I'm DEMOCRAT, so I MUST not believe in being responsible.

I am LIBERAL, so I MUST be gay.

I'm SOUTHERN, so I MUST be white trash.

I'm IRISH, so I MUST have a bad drinking problem.

I'm YOUNG, so I MUST be naive.

I'm BLONDE, so I MUST be a stupid ditz.

I'm WHITE, so I MUST be a nagging, steal-your-money kind of girlfriend.

I'm INTO THEATRE & ART, so I MUST be a homosexual.

I HAVE A BUNCH OF GUY FRIENDS, so I MUST be fucking them all.

I HAVE A BUNCH OF GIRLS WHO ARE FRIENDS, so I MUST be gay.

I'm GERMAN, so I MUST be a Nazi.

I hang out with GAYS, so I must be GAY TOO

]]> ~DollTrashed http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/8859140/ http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/8859140/ Tue, 23 May 2006 22:47:45 PDT
Mood: Happy.
Listening to: Dammit - Blink 182

Life is pretty good. Time for an update. So...

1.) Getting a job in October at a 'Wicca Store'
2.) Moving to Kansas next Fall for college (Go Shockers!)
3.) In need of girlfriend...or just someone to make out/cuddle with.
4.) Looking at apartments in Kansas, deciding if I should get a roommate...
5.) Dad is paying for his apartment but living here...?
6.) Worried about school and college...
7.) Need to be closer to my friends...but loving JASMINE!
8.) Apartments are nice in Wichita...pet friendly, and big. With pools.
9.) WTF IS A STUDIO BEDROOM? Anyone know? Is it like...a loft?
10.) I will miss Jasmine the most, because me and Abbi hardly see each other...
11.) Life in general is perfect
12.) I owe 61.$ for my CD'd but it's okay.
13.) Jasmine- all weekend, this weekend. Da Vinci Code, need I say more?
14.) Nazonex.

Who?


Kerstyne, your pleasantly plump lesbian friend.

I guess its just another night alone ]]> ~DollTrashed http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/8657830/ http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/8657830/ Wed, 03 May 2006 00:21:42 PDT
Mood: Tempted
Listening to: I Bruise Easily - Natasha Bedingfield

Well...Saturday I went to Jasmine's house...saw Lauren's car. Knocked, knocked, knocked, yelled, knocked, heard the door open, saw french tipped nails...and...saw Lauren for the first time in almost six months. She smiled a shocked smile, Jasmine laughed, I laughed. She was still the same old Lauren. She got pretty mad when she called Jasmine (after she left...apparently didn't want to hang around to long...) I have to admit it was pretty weird. After a while, Jasmine and I had a great couple of conversations in which we talked about sex, life, love, but mostly Lauren. It's weird having conversations about her. Especially since I'm her ex, and Jasmine is her current. But I think I may have to stop talking to Lauren...I am starting to put trust back into her, and as many flaws as she has, the girl has something that draws people in, and I don't need to be back into her life as anything other than a good friend. Plus, we talk sporatically...one day we may talk for 3 hours...and we wont speak again for a week, or we will talk every night for a week...I need a good, dependable friend...so that is my plight.

I bruise easily, can't scratch the surface without moving me underneath ]]> ~DollTrashed http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/8555460/ http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/8555460/ Sat, 22 Apr 2006 21:53:34 PDT
Mood: Respectful
Listening to: Se has a girlfriend now - Reel Big Fish
Watching: Over the hedge

The Day of Silence®, a project of the Gay, Lesbian and Straight Education Network (GLSEN®) in collaboration with the United States Student Association (USSA), is a student-led day of action where those who support making anti-LGBT bullying and harassment unacceptable in schools take part in activities to recognize and protest the discrimination and harassment - in effect, the silencing - experienced by LGBT students and their allies.

500,000 students from approximately 4,000 schools will take part in this year's Day of Silence® on April 26, 2006.

YOU MAY SAY IT'S WRONG AND WEIRD, BUT THERE IS NOTHING BETTER THAT THIS. BETTER THAT THIS LOVE. ]]> ~DollTrashed http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/8548174/ http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/8548174/ Sat, 22 Apr 2006 06:58:33 PDT
Mood: Meow?
Listening to: Man - Yeah Yeah Yeahs
Watching: Over the hedge

Wow, I am bored. Went fora walk today at 7ish and got some good pictures, uploaded one. Check that shit out. This was short and dumb...sorry.

Boy your stupid bitch and girl your just a no good dick ]]> ~DollTrashed http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/8534931/ http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/8534931/ Thu, 20 Apr 2006 18:44:59 PDT
Mood: Mad
Listening to: Once Upon Your Dead Body - Coheed and Cambria
Watching: American Dreams

Well, I had only three entries...which was basically the entire thing...and so the contest is caput. I am very sorry, but I did recieve good work from these people:

KillTheSky
StillxOutsiders
DragonMaster165

To those people, your stuff was amazing, I loved it, and I appreciate your entering. Hopefully in the future, I can have another one.

Sorry guys.

Love Always, Keer ]]> ~DollTrashed http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/8525409/ http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/8525409/ Wed, 19 Apr 2006 20:37:51 PDT
Mood: Angrified
Listening to: Once Upon Your Dead Body - Coheed and Cambria
Reading: Compendium of lesbian erotica
Watching: Silent Hil

Only 3 people have entered submissions to my contest....come on, one more day...at LEAST 7 more, or I have to call it off! Wouldn't that suck?

Before I hold you down ]]> ~DollTrashed http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/8420872/ http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/8420872/ Sun, 09 Apr 2006 19:07:24 PDT And she told me, "Don't trust them trust me."

Mood: Excited
Listening to: I Am Me - Ashlee Simpson
Reading: Bitter Sweet Love
Watching: Mean Girls

Okay. You need to trust me on this. We've decided to be friends. Now, usually I would be like, "WTF! Why did I trust her?" But I do trust her. I was her lover for two years, and after speaking with her tonight, I have a feeling we could be really good friends. I am no longer in love with her, and I don't hate her. We have a history together, we were girlfriends for a very long time, but we were also friends, and it's a shame we let a romantic relationship come in between that, but we have both shared a lot of things with each other, and she deserves a second chance. Yes, I gave her many DURING our relationship...but I fucked her over alot of times as well. We were both immature, childish, and unready for the commitment we said we wanted. Hopefully me and her can become good friends. I do miss her, though not as a lover. She was a good friend...and I hope she will continue to be. Please forgive all the cool (but stupid) poems I wrote in those days. I didn't see things, and wanted no blame. I think this will be good. If I don't trust her, I will always wonder, 'what if?' So fuck it, if she screws me over, I'll learn...as of now. She has my trust.

♥Keer♥

Doesn't that familiar? Doesn't that hit to close to home? Doesn't that make you shiver, the way things could have gone? ]]> ~DollTrashed http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/8419727/ http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/8419727/ Sun, 09 Apr 2006 16:47:17 PDT
Mood: Bored
Listening to: Girl Next Door - Saving Jane
Reading: Bitter Sweet Love
Watching: Mean Girls

Okay, am I spreading dirt by doing this? You guys...whoa. Lauren called me. Yeah, Lauren. After 5 months. She randomly calls me after her ex and her break up...why? Why now? I'm over you! I don't want you back! I don't even want you in my life...so why don't I just tell you that?

Believer, you'll leave her, in leaving them all
No but I don't buy it
Like anything you do, as anyone you are


I am trying to play things out. I don't want to hurt her feelings and have more drama start. I wanted out of all of that drama. I just don't know what to do! She burned me a lot of times and I burned her as well, but me and Jasmine have been talking and she sounds like the same Lauren that I couldn't trust. I can't tell if she's honestly trying to catch up because she missed me and wanted to talk to me, or if she has some kind of agenda.

You could've been all I wanted
But you weren't honest
But if you really loved me
You would've endured my world

I have no idea what to do. I have no idea what to do. Part of me wants to spill this to her, and see what her reaction is, the other part is like, no dude. That is SUICIDE!

Would things have changed if I could have stayed, would you have loved me either way?

This is so...dumb! I can't stand this! What the heck man? It's like...I don't know. I just don't know what my next move is. This is so crazy and highschool-y. Why am I getting caught up? I'm not.

God only knows when your word isn't pure
And the blood on your hands isn't yours
I won't believe any word that you tell
And I won't drink the blood if it spills

I know this is some sort of hoax. Come on, Ashton, where are the cameras? This is bogus.

I'll make you wish you hadn't burned our time before
I'll live through this in a manner cursed at my own accord

Do I miss her? I highly doubt it. I just would like to be friends with her. I would like her to stop being what I knew her to be. I would love to be her friend...but I doubt it. This has to be a sceme.

I'm going to ride this plane out of your life again.
I wish that I could stay but you argue.
More than this I wish you could've seen my face
In backseat staring out the window.

If we were to be friends, I would enjoy it. It would be nice to be able to talk to her again, because I am not in love with her. I love her, yes, I always will. She is a great girls, but she has so many flaws, so many faults. And she left me...

Do you remember why you did it? (No, I don't)
Do you remember why she left?
(Unless you did what you thought would be friend)
Do you remember why you did it?
Do you remember why she left?

I remember why she left...and I don't want to watch it again. To trust or not to trust...you tell me.

Goodnight, tonight, goodbye ]]> ~DollTrashed http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/8347528/ http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/8347528/ Sun, 02 Apr 2006 22:39:30 PDT
Mood: Bored
Listening to: Light my candle - Rent
Reading: In Cold Blood - Truman Capote.
Watching: Mean Girls

Okay, I have this whole premium thing now. So...people randomly visit my site. I ask that if you are to visit my site, please either comment on my featured deviation or my most recent one. I would really appreciate it, and if you like my stuff, tell your friends. A lot of people read my work, but never comment, so it's hard to tell who liked what.

And on the topic of comments, please leave me real comments. Dont just say, "wow, nice" or "pretty cool" tell me what was good, I ma trying to improve and I can't learn anything if you just say "good" so those are my new rules, please follow them or I will track you down. And if you leave me a comment, I promise I will give a look at some of your stuff and comment as well. ALso, if you favorite something, please comment on it.

CONTEST HERE:
Hi everyone, I am holding a contest.

Enter a NEW work or art, either a poem, prose, photo, whatever with anything as the subject. I have changed it because I really appreciate art in general, so do anything, about anything. You can use my pictures of me as a reference, if you want it to be me related or create your own.

All works must be in by the 20th of April at 11:59pm, and the winner will be chosen the next day by 11:59pm. Please send me a link of your work in a note, and in your description (when you are entering your work) please give a fantastic description, and note what the peice is for, and whom it's for. (That would be me.)

The prize?
1st place gets a 1 month subscription to devART, peice by me (poetry or photo made for them, and within certain restrictions, as in I can't take porn shots of anyone or anything like that), and put on my site in a journal and in my signature

2nd place gets a peice by me and put on my site in a journal and in my signature as a 'to look at artist'

3rd place put on my site in a journal and in my signature as a 'to look at artist'



Thank you, and please tell all your friends because at LEAST 25 people need to enter. If 25 people don't enter, then the contest if off because if 10 people enter, I don't like any of the work they did, then that screws up the whole contest. SO SERIOUSLY TELL ALL OF YOUR FRIENDS.

Cheerio and whatnot. ]]> ~DollTrashed http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/8323565/ http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/8323565/ Fri, 31 Mar 2006 13:00:21 PST
Mood: Bored, Tired, and in
Listening to: Light my candle - Rent
Reading: None, yet.
Watching: Ice Age 2

Haha, now I have devART platinum or whatever it is called. DevART SUPREME! Lol. Still waiting for my fuckin laptop. Tried to open up a checking acount today but no go because I am not old enough for it or some shit. What BS. I am going tomorrow to see Ice Age Numero Dos. Should be funneriffic. Steal the word, you die. Um...yeah. Much love. I only updated so I could see what the $7.95 bought me, lol.

Love Kerstyne, the most amazing person in the world. ]]> ~DollTrashed http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/8316927/ http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/8316927/ Thu, 30 Mar 2006 18:05:24 PST Life is going pretty good. I guess it's time for a long update so that when I'm 50 and looking back, I will know exactly what was happening. It was nothing. Haha...um...I like someone...they like me back...we're deciding to just chill for a while and not rush into anything (which is good because I like a couple of other people as well.)

I cut off ties to a lot of people over these last few months...which is surprisingly turning out to be a good thing. I am building better friendships with the friends I kept. I have a lot of aquantinces though. I hope to either throw them in the friend pond, or throw them back. I want to have alot of solid friendships when I leave, and I want to make more. I haven't had my period in a while, but I also haven't slept with anyone, male or female. Haven't even come close. I have started smoking pot again, but its not an everyday thing. Maybe...twice a month, if that. Don't get on my case about the pot please, it's just something to pass the time, and mellow myself out...with a family like mine...well, it's my fault. Time to start taking blame I guess. I smoke because I want to. I drink as well, but haven't drank in 2 weeks...and before that, I hadn't drank in...4 months or so. I hope to find a best friend that lives close by. A new person, not someone I already know. Maybe I'll just accidently stumble past her in the lesbian section of the library (when they get one.) and she'll be like, "Whoa, my name is Marnie." and I'll be like, "Wanna be friends?" and after that there will be a lasting friendship with this person. Hey, a girl can dream right? I have come to that point in my life where I'm like, "Time to grow up." I know, I know, I'm seventeen, what do I know? Well, I know I have made a mess of a lot of things in my life, and it's time to fix what I can, leave what I can't, and stop breaking shit. Well that is all for right now...

xoxoxoxo

KEER ]]> ~DollTrashed http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/8265680/ http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/8265680/ Sat, 25 Mar 2006 13:52:31 PST ~DollTrashed http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/8224105/ http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/8224105/ Tue, 21 Mar 2006 05:57:23 PST ~DollTrashed http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/8053048/ http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/8053048/ Fri, 03 Mar 2006 04:36:32 PST
7th grade: slapped in the face, told a police offericer who happened to be at school.
8th grade: slammed into a door, told the guidance counselor (sp) who in turn, called social services, nothing was done.
9th grade: threw into a wall, told guidance couselor, nothing was done.
10th grade: hit in the face, got a cut lip, bruised eye. Ex girlfriend told couselor, police came, interveiwed...and left. Nothing else was done.
10th grade (revisited): Slapped in the face, thrown on the ground, ex girlfriend had mother pick me up, who called the police. Nothing was done.

Jesus Christ, are we going to have to be KILLED before anyone fucking does anything? I love my mom, but I think she still loves him and sympethizes. I get that, Lauren did some awful stuff and I stayed by, but at the same time, Lauren wasn't beating my children. I draw the line there. Well, enough ranting, I circled some adds in the paper about apartments, and I'm going to leave them out for him to find. I don't care if it kills me...this time he's gone. ]]> ~DollTrashed http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/8013640/ http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/8013640/ Sun, 26 Feb 2006 23:00:39 PST
quod me nutrit me destruit ]]> ~DollTrashed http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/7961176/ http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/7961176/ Tue, 21 Feb 2006 10:31:41 PST
Also, working on my Alaysia peice...I miss my baby. Well, not my baby...Paul's baby...but I still miss her. R.I.P little angel, and never forget, Aunt Kerstyne Loves You!

Kerstyne Is Gorgeous ]]> ~DollTrashed http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/7906157/ http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/7906157/ Wed, 15 Feb 2006 12:11:09 PST
Keer ]]> ~DollTrashed http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/7868021/ http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/7868021/ Sat, 11 Feb 2006 19:42:28 PST
Kerstyne ]]> ~DollTrashed http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/7848622/ http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/7848622/ Thu, 09 Feb 2006 16:33:06 PST
Keer ]]> ~DollTrashed http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/7848593/ http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/7848593/ Thu, 09 Feb 2006 16:29:34 PST ~DollTrashed http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/7818415/ http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/7818415/ Mon, 06 Feb 2006 12:04:49 PST
Keer ]]> ~DollTrashed http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/7786360/ http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/7786360/ Thu, 02 Feb 2006 23:56:39 PST
Okay...I'm 17, newly 17. Nothing feels different, nothing feels better. Same old stuff, just one year closer to menopaus. Yay me. I really got into this who photoshoot thing and I was really excited, then someone told me "poorly done." Well I dont have 6 bazillion dollars to hire models and studios and buy a big fancy camera. I have a fucking Kodak. but it's what I can afford. Since when did the picture become about photoshopping? I mean, there are alot that I love that are photoshopped, but I love the simplicity of it all. I love the face a todler makes when he cries, not the magical fairies fluttering over some brats bed...god, I mean, I know, they aren't perfect, but I can't achieve anything if I don't have oppertunity.

It just kind of got me down. Blech. I should be used to critisism by now, but I guess not. I shouldn't let it affect me like this, but these are professionals on this site...and here I am...a lowely teen who just wants to capture REAL LIFE on pictures. I don't want some made up history. I want the picture of my best friend laughing in her messy room so I can remember that day, and share it. I mean, people on this site are so nice and tell you what your doing is nice...well what if they are lying? What if no one cares what t-shirt I was wearing when I fell into a river, maybe no one cares how wide my best friends eyes can get when shes scared.

What if I'm basing what I love on something I suck at? I enjoy doing yeah, don't give me the lecture about doing what you love. I also love hearing people brag about how awesome I am...let's face it, I'm not awesome at a lot of things. I even kind of suck at being me. I want to do the shoot with RC that's not cancelled, but what about these big time models? What are they gonna say? What are they going to think? It was clearly stated in EVERYTHING I WROTE ON THAT SITE that I am a senior in highschool. That should be known. If you offer to work with me, how about checking out my shit first? Damn...It just got me down. RC, I love you. Can you drive yet?

Keer



;;;;;;;[EDIT];;;;;;;;


I have canceled all appointments except for the ones with RC and the girl he has chosen, and a young female from Toledo. I am still deciding whether or not to cancel the BIG ONE it's the one that I made a huge deal about...I'm also the most worried about it...I guess I'll just have to see. If I had a ride there, and a friend with me, I wouldn't be so scared...unfortuanly, my friends suck and won't drive me there, or stay with me. Jerks.

Keer ]]> ~DollTrashed http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/7777167/ http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/7777167/ Thu, 02 Feb 2006 02:39:15 PST
.: x Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first? My stuffed animal pig that Eric got me 2 years ago when he went to New Jersey

.: x What is the last thing you watched on TV?

.: x Without looking, guess what time it is: 5:30

.: x Now look at the clock. What is the actual time? 5:36 hooty hoo bitchez

.: x With the exception of the computer, what can you hear? My mom coughing, my heater, and my dog snoring

.: x When did you last step outside? What were you doing? I took my dog out for a shit an hour ago

.: x Before you started this survey, what did you look at? My site on Mayhem

.: x What are you wearing? Blink 182 shirt, patriotic pajama bottoms...

.: x Did you dream last night? Can't remember

.: x When did you last laugh? 6 secon...nope...1 second ago

.: x What is on the walls of the room you are in? white walls and a poster I made that has 60 differnt lyrics and they spell out 'loose lips'

.: x Seen anything weird lately? I saw a guy eat his own face yesterday...does that count?

.: x What do you think of this quiz? It's funerific

.: x What is the last film you saw? What women want (watched it yesterday)

.: x If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy? A big effin house and a horse and a mustang and children...

.: x Tell me something about you that I don't know: I have a tongue ring...

.: x If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do? More tolerance for everyone.

.: x Do you like to dance? Yes but I suck horribly

.: x George Bush: If you can't say something nice....

.: x Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her? Adelaide or Jillian

.: x Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him? Jameson or Lincoln

.: x Would you ever consider living abroad? Heck yes.

.: x What do you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates? Oh Jesus, I have been waiting to meet you! Come this way to the buffet of food and naked women. ]]> ~DollTrashed http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/7763898/ http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/7763898/ Tue, 31 Jan 2006 17:34:35 PST
rc ackerman/someone he chose - shoot 1
joey nguyen/mary mills - shoot 2
??/?? - shoot 3
??/?? - shoot 4
??/?? - shoot 5 ]]> ~DollTrashed http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/7746670/ http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/7746670/ Mon, 30 Jan 2006 16:56:46 PST
Boy - must be slightly thin (120 lbs to 200 lbs: This is a round number and if you are more than this, you can still contact me.) and willing to be emo-esque. This term is to say he will be very emotive and wearing such clothes as wristband, bracelets, somewhat tight pants. I don't want to get into a lot of detail on dressing, because I want it to be natural, not forced. Preferably of medium height (5'4 - 6'0). I would like brown hair, but anything natural-looking is fine too. Glasses are okay. A recent picture is a must. Should not be opposed to wearing a light make-up consisting of concealer, and compact to brighten the face, if needed. I can provide these, if you do not wish to use your own.

Girl - also must be slightly thin/curvy (105 lbs to 155 lbs: This is a round number and if you fit into a plus size then you can still contact me.) Natural colored hair, and an original dress sense. Glasses are okay. Medium to long hair, short is not an option. I like short hair, but it's not what I want for this photo shoot. Upon contacting me, I will inform you of a dress sense I am looking for, for the shoot. A recent picture is a must. Most likely wear mascara, eyeliner, eye shadow, lip gloss, blush, and compact/concealer. I can provide these, but should you want to do the make up on your own, I have no objections.

Money - This work is for a few national pieces and will be featured in their websites, and magazines, upon winning, or placing. Monetary prizes are awarded to the winners/placers of each competition, and should I win, a split will occur. Most have an average of 5,000$. Both models will receive 15% each. Should I win the 10,000$, each model will, in turn, gain 1,500$. This money, however, is not guaranteed. I apologize for this, but not much else can be done. Should you be traveling long distances, I will more than likely (win or lose) pay a portion of gas money.

Please contact me for further details. My email is dolltrashed@yahoo.com or you can contact me through the Model Mayhem website.

If you, or anyone you know, could be the models for me, please contact me as listed above. This may sound unprofessional, but then again, I am only a senior, and trying to get an art scholarship.

Thanks sincerely,

Kirsten James ]]> ~DollTrashed http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/7609757/ http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/7609757/ Sun, 15 Jan 2006 10:34:44 PST That said "use these down to your bones"
And before I knew I had shiny skin and it felt easy being clean like him
I thought "this one knows better than I do"

A triangle trying to squeeze through a circle
He tried to cut me so I'd fit

And doesn't that sound familiar? Doesn't that hit too close to home?
Doesn't that make you shiver; the way things could've gone?
And doesn't it feel peculiar when everyone wants a little more?
so that I do remember to never go that far,
Could you leave me with a scar?

So the next one came with a bag of treats,
she smelled like sugar and spoke like the sea
she told me don't trust them, trust me
Then she pulled at my stitches one by one,
looked at my insides clicking her tongue
and said "This will all have to come undone"

A triangle trying to squeeze through a circle
She tried to blunt me so I'd fit

And doesn't that sound familiar? Doesn't that hit too close to home?
Doesn't that make you shiver; the way things could have gone?
And doesn't it feel peculiar when everyone wants a little more?
So that I do remember to never go that far,
Could you leave me with a scar?

I think I realized just in time, although my old self was hard to find
You can bathe me in your finest wine but I'll never give you mine
'Cos I'm a little bit tired of fearing that I'll be the bad fruit nobody
buys
Tell me, did you think we'd all dream the same?

And doesn't that sound familiar? Doesn't that hit too close to home?
Doesn't that make you shiver; the way things could have gone?
And doesn't it feel peculiar when everyone wants a little more?
And so that I do remember to never go that far,
Could you leave me with a scar?
Could you leave me with a scar? ]]> ~DollTrashed http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/7190589/ http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/7190589/ Wed, 30 Nov 2005 23:37:35 PST
hmmm...what else? well i guess jasmine and i are kinda cool now. not that we werent. but we have a lot in common. i want a girlfriend. I watched debs again tonight and they were huggin each other and i was like... "Aww....I need a girl." I miss being in a relationship. now that im no longer in this carwreck relationship, i feel...i dunno. i dont miss my ex, i just miss the...whole having a girl that isnt like...insane....or something. i like the whole...snuggling and holding hands and i just miss it. i miss holding someone and having them feel right in my arms. i miss giving looks of love and being sappy...i think life should just be quick romances because once you've gone a couple of years, usually the spark is gone. so i think we should just live with someone until the spark is gone, and when it goes, say goodbye and move on to the next person whos going to make your breath catch in your throat and gives you butterflies in your tummy...thats what love is about! its about all the sweet love letters and the kisses and the feeling of being on top of the earth and the feeling of flying...i miss love, lol!

i like scott and he's a great guy but...i'm gay. i cant help it i've tried, TRUST ME. i just...girls are beautiful and soft and sweet and they always smell good and they just...oh man...i am so fucking gay! i love hugging girls, even if i'm not into them. i love cuddling and holding hands and being sweet. i'm a freaking romance sap! It's awesome!

let's see...dude, fucking christ-mas is going to be off the hook. see, here's the hook...and way over there is christ-mas. i'm getting an xbox 360...lindsey lohan, tegan and sara, t.A.T.u, and some other shit. my mom said she's going to get me an acoustic guitar because they are better than electric...well, whatever, man its a guitar i dont care if it has wings (actually that would be pretty cool) as long as i can play it!

katie and i dont talk much lol, dude i fucking rock! alissa and i dont talk either...hm...dude...being drunk is fun. i called a bunch of people. i tried to call katie but i got her sister instead. i drank with abbi and we did...some other stuff and it turned out to be a fucking ball...only...we werent wearing dresses lol, just playin babe!

this is the longest update in a wihle and i highly doubt anyone will read it! lol...and if ya made it this far, congrats your not a total asshole...unless you were skimming this...asshole. hehehe. i feel like a change.

im a brunnette now.

i guess it was time for a change! lol...also, i cut my hair. not much, but its more layered and its madd-sexy! hmm...i am ti-red

KeeR ]]> ~DollTrashed http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/6869988/ http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/6869988/ Wed, 26 Oct 2005 02:52:47 PDT
watch me fall

silence in black and white

things are boring

CEST DUR LA VIE ]]> ~DollTrashed http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/6841679/ http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/6841679/ Sun, 23 Oct 2005 00:49:43 PDT
Love, peace and all that other junk!

Kerstyne ]]> ~DollTrashed http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/6533766/ http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/6533766/ Sun, 18 Sep 2005 02:19:44 PDT
life is SUCKY. but whatever, the other site i opened is over, i can get onto this one now...so yeah. hopefully things get better. too much to explain...i want my life back.

k33r ]]> ~DollTrashed http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/6182721/ http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/6182721/ Tue, 09 Aug 2005 21:26:52 PDT
check there for new material, this site however, IS STILL A WORKING SITE so check here as well love to all...

kerstyne ]]> ~DollTrashed http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/5869084/ http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/5869084/ Thu, 07 Jul 2005 16:19:52 PDT ~DollTrashed http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/5846813/ http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/5846813/ Tue, 05 Jul 2005 11:50:00 PDT
Keer ]]> ~DollTrashed http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/5706050/ http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/5706050/ Mon, 20 Jun 2005 16:18:32 PDT
love to all and all for love

rip alaysia ]]> ~DollTrashed http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/5583675/ http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/5583675/ Tue, 07 Jun 2005 20:34:02 PDT ~DollTrashed http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/5436179/ http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/5436179/ Mon, 23 May 2005 07:08:23 PDT
broken heart or lose my lover to avoid that broken heart?

i think i'll chose the first one

k33r ]]> ~DollTrashed http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/5271583/ http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/5271583/ Thu, 05 May 2005 05:42:57 PDT
k33r ]]> ~DollTrashed http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/5220677/ http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/5220677/ Fri, 29 Apr 2005 10:45:12 PDT
Fuck that, that bitch is a lying cheat

K33R ]]> ~DollTrashed http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/4845119/ http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/4845119/ Fri, 18 Mar 2005 11:07:41 PST
lol

keer ]]> ~DollTrashed http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/4819031/ http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/4819031/ Tue, 15 Mar 2005 11:04:46 PST ~DollTrashed http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/4662713/ http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/4662713/ Thu, 24 Feb 2005 13:33:13 PST
love!

keer ]]> ~DollTrashed http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/4652802/ http://DollTrashed.deviantart.com/journal/4652802/ Wed, 23 Feb 2005 10:52:49 PST
love,

keer ]]> ~DollTrashed