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]]> ~Dragon-Xisle http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/14243132/ http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/14243132/ Sun, 19 Aug 2007 16:03:41 PDT The thing is we never know what not to do.
Kill a man in the name of 'God' and break the commandments.
Sometimes that scraficial dagger cuts more then just skin.
Watch the flesh rot and die.
Watch everything go sour.
But don't expect forgiveness when you feel sorry about it's death.

To the merry tune of the foolish.
Forgive or forget.
But never know what is best.

]]> ~Dragon-Xisle http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/12896432/ http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/12896432/ Wed, 09 May 2007 06:34:47 PDT

Anyway wish me luck and I'll try and steal some wireless from somewhere *Cough* AOC *Cough* School *Cough* Starbucks *Cough*

]]> ~Dragon-Xisle http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/12768990/ http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/12768990/ Sat, 28 Apr 2007 16:50:28 PDT

Anyway!

I'm listening to Josie and the Pussy Cats and actually just found out that like so many of my favourite things, Josie was a Spin off... from the same thing the Sabrina the Teenage Witch was a Spin off of (A comic called Archie).

At the moment I'm working on several projects,

Ragged Dollz (A Magazine/E-Zine on Gothic Fashion/Fetish Modelling)
Valentine (A story about entropy of society and social structures that run on religion rather then polotics)
Abandonment (A modern day Storytelling game about outcasts and social exiles)
and finally Homework (A boring activity that must be accomplished if I am to do anything in my life)

]]> ~Dragon-Xisle http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/12599969/ http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/12599969/ Sun, 15 Apr 2007 01:07:14 PDT [link]

]]> ~Dragon-Xisle http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/12547940/ http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/12547940/ Wed, 11 Apr 2007 01:51:46 PDT
Visit me at [link]

]]> ~Dragon-Xisle http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/12285428/ http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/12285428/ Thu, 22 Mar 2007 14:55:41 PDT [link] AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

*Runs off to kill something*

]]> ~Dragon-Xisle http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/12214881/ http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/12214881/ Sat, 17 Mar 2007 04:16:12 PDT
Aussie Breakfast Taco:
How to make!
Get a Taco Shell
Get Bacon LOTS OF BACON
Get Eggs
Fry Bacon LOTS OF BACON
Fill Taco Shell with LOTS OF BACON
Break Egg on top of bacon and then cook in oven on mild temp until egg is cooked.
Eat and repeat.

Sundried Tomatoe and Basil Pesto Lasanaga Aussie Style
Get Sundried Tomatoe Pesto
Get Basil Pesto
Get Bacon (That' of cause what makes it Austrlian, makes you wonder what Australian Beer is!)
Get Lasanga Sheets
Mix everything together BAR Sheets and the put in sheets of Lasanaga like you DO!!! (Little explanation means experimentation, here's one we prepared Earlier *Pulls out something that looks like the Eifle Tower* To tell the truth I'm really impressed we did this one)
Pour Milk over it and put Cheese on Top. Cook like you should!!

]]> ~Dragon-Xisle http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/12046874/ http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/12046874/ Sat, 03 Mar 2007 22:30:58 PST
Nickie Told me that I shook her world with my Bum...

I fart very bigly!

]]> ~Dragon-Xisle http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/11857137/ http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/11857137/ Sat, 17 Feb 2007 15:54:38 PST
Inside I'm dying. I dream it every night. Last night I dreamed that there was a man. He was fat and bald and he sent demons at me. I killed them and then forced him off a cliff. It struck me as being the strangest dream I've ever had in a long time. I have never done things like that in my dreams. I have always run from the scary things or tried to befriend them and make them better. It often works.

Last night I killed a swarm of creatures in my dream. I pushed a sword through them and then threw them off me. Then I forced the fat man off a two story drop. He lay there for a while, his fingers twitched and his legs were broken in almost every viable spot. I watched... I feel I am loosing myself. This dream was Violent, and for those who know me I am not a violent person.

In brighter news I've had two horrid days and I feel like I am on the brink of letting go on some aspects and just reverting to my old self. Brooding, Dark, almost Sinister... I don't want to be that person again. Spite for me has returned somewhat but has not targeted anyone, it's just blarring outward at the world and I'm having a hard time dealing with anything.

]]> ~Dragon-Xisle http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/11824088/ http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/11824088/ Thu, 15 Feb 2007 01:19:26 PST
I wish that the world could be back to where it once was. Global warming, War, Terror has become a threat rather then an emotion and it's all coming down so hard that we cannot misinterpret it as being something else. Lack of Spirituality is pretty much making us go insane and suicide rates have gone up. We are living in an age that needs hope and we can't really provide it.

I spoke to a friend recently that really got me down. They live in the states in a pretty normal part of town, they were dating someone and the heard them get shot over the phone. I feel so helpless when I hear these things... I feel I should rush there and make it all better but know I can't... this kind of thing is never a good thing and I just wish... wish one day I could make amends for all the side sitting I have done... the waiting... all the debts I should have paid... the people I should have helped... but yet I still what remain selfish because I just want to be alive and rejoice my own life. I find it so hard not to care. It is so hard to be detached... I long not to be me sometimes and just to be cruel but I know I never could be. So if you see me a bit depressed just know I'm fine I'm just trying to smile, all I need is a smile back.

I appolgise to everyone that is so closed to me that I should tell them everything for not saying anything but you know I have a hard time attriculating how I feel, I much prefer talking to otherpeople about their feelings... it means I don't have to worry about mine.

]]> ~Dragon-Xisle http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/11753022/ http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/11753022/ Fri, 09 Feb 2007 21:22:33 PST
Show me what it means to live...

]]> ~Dragon-Xisle http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/11642738/ http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/11642738/ Thu, 01 Feb 2007 03:05:49 PST
I'm really enjoying being at school with KITTY AND MEGZIE!!!

Also made afew new friends!

However a message to everyone! I plan on having an Abandonment Photo Shoot Pretty soon!

Get your Costumes together for your character! Bring them to the next session. Also the first Abandonment Write up is up! READ IT!!!

]]> ~Dragon-Xisle http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/11329282/ http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/11329282/ Fri, 05 Jan 2007 19:45:06 PST
CHECK IT!!!

[link]

I did all the work on it myself

]]> ~Dragon-Xisle http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/11203046/ http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/11203046/ Tue, 26 Dec 2006 16:38:58 PST
I got pressies!!!
-External Hard-Drive aka Lily Frog!!!
-Promethean the Created!!!
-Thank God Your Here!!!
-Pinacolda Stuff!!!
-Thank God Your Here!!! (Yes I got it twice... damn people should cross check!)
-Wizard of Oz (NOT GAY!!! BUT STILL EXCITED!!!)

and my favourite...

THE ELYSIUM CONPENDIUM!!!

Thank you nickie for making my Christmas perfect You are so beautiful and I love you, I'm sorry that I've been so sleepy and that I kicked you in your sleep... I didn't mean to...

on a lighter note... once I have money I might get peoples late christmas pressies!

]]> ~Dragon-Xisle http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/11031986/ http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/11031986/ Mon, 11 Dec 2006 18:11:40 PST
I appologise to anyone whom I rely on... I just want to be able to sustain myself without other's help.

]]> ~Dragon-Xisle http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/10988870/ http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/10988870/ Thu, 07 Dec 2006 21:02:45 PST
]]> ~Dragon-Xisle http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/10574006/ http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/10574006/ Tue, 31 Oct 2006 17:40:08 PST I'm AUSTRALIAN so I MUST be a drongo

I'm A YOUNG WRITER, so I MUST be emo

I'm EMO, so I MUST cut my wrists.

I'm BLACK, so I MUST carry a gun.

I'm HISPANIC, so I MUST be dirty.

I'm ASIAN, so I MUST be smart.

I'm NOT LIKE EVERYONE ELSE, so I MUST be a loser.

I'm JEWISH, so I MUST be greedy.

I'm GAY, so I MUST have AIDS.

I'm a LESBIAN, so I MUST have a sex-tape and be a girl

I'm ARAB, so I MUST be a terrorist.

I SPEAK MY MIND, so I MUST be a bitch.

I'm OVERWEIGHT, so I MUST have a problem with self control.

I'm RELIGIOUS, so I MUST shove my beliefs down your throat.

I'm an ATHEIST, so I MUST hate the world.

I DON'T HAVE A RELIGION, so I MUST not have morals.

I'm REPUBLICAN, so I MUST not care about poor people.

I'm DEMOCRAT, so I MUST not believe in being responsible.

I'm JAMICAN so I must smoke weed.

I’m SCOTTISH, so I MUST love haggis

I am LIBERAL, so I MUST be gay.

I'm SOUTHERN, so I MUST be white trash.

I TAKE ANTI-DEPRESSANTS, so I MUST be crazy.

I'm a GUY, so I MUST only want to get into your pants.

I'm IRISH, so I MUST have a bad drinking problem.

I'm INDIAN, so I MUST own a convenient store.

I'm NATIVE AMERICAN, so I MUST dance around a fire screaming like a savage.

I'm PREPPY, so I MUST shun those who don't wear Abercrombie & Hollister.

I'm a CHEERLEADER, so I MUST be a stuck up whore.

I'm DUTCH so I MUST be on drugs and sell my body for money.

I'm on a DANCE team, so I must be stupid, stuck up, and a whore.

I wear skirts a lot, so I MUST be a slut.

I'm a PUNK, so I MUST do drugs.

I'm YOUNG, so I MUST be naive.

I'm RICH, so I MUST be a conceited snob.

I WEAR BLACK, so I MUST be a goth.

I'm BLONDE, so I MUST be a stupid ditz.

I'm a WHITE GIRL, so I MUST be a nagging, steal-your-money kind of girlfriend.

I'm CUBAN, so I MUST spend my spare time rolling cigars.

I'm MEXICAN, so I MUST have hopped the border.

I'm NOT A VIRGIN, so I MUST be easy.

I FELL IN LOVE WITH A MARRIED MAN, so I MUST be a home-wrecking whore.

I’ve NOT HAD MY FIRST KISS, so I MUST be afraid of everyone.

I'm a TEENAGE MOM, so I MUST be an irresponsible slut.

I'm POLISH, so I MUST wear my socks with my sandals.

I'm ITALIAN, so I must have a big peter.

I’m NEITHER MALE NOR FEMALE, so I must be messed up in the head.

I do MARTIAL ARTS, so I MUST be compensating for something.

I MASTURBATE, so I MUST have no love life whatsoever.

I GOT A CAR FOR MY BIRTHDAY, so I MUST be a spoiled brat.

I'm PRETTY, so I MUST not be a virgin.

I HAVE STRAIGHT A'S, so I MUST have no social life.

I DYE MY HAIR CRAZY COLORS, so I MUST be looking for attention.

I DRESS IN UNUSUAL WAYS so I MUST be looking for attention.

I'm INTO THEATER ART, so I MUST be a homosexual.

I'm a VEGETARIAN, so I MUST be a crazy political activist.

I’m a VEGAN, so I MUST be a hippy.

I HAVE A BUNCH OF GUY FRIENDS, so I MUST be fucking them all.

I HAVE A BUNCH OF GIRLS WHO ARE FRIENDS, so I MUST be gay.

I HAVE BIG BOOBS, so I MUST be a whore.

I'm COLOMBIAN, so I MUST be a drug dealer.

I WEAR WHAT I WANT, so I MUST be a poser.

I'm RUSSIAN, so I MUST be cool.

I'm GERMAN, so I MUST be a Nazi.

I hang out with GAYS, so I MUST be GAY TOO

I'm BRAZILIAN, so I MUST have a BIG BUTT.

I'm PUERTO RICAN, so I MUST look good and be conceited.

I'm SALVADORIAN, so I MUST be in MS 13.

I'm POLISH, so I MUST be greedy.

I'm HAWAIIAN, so I MUST be lazy.

I'm a STONER, so I MUST be going in the wrong direction.

I'm a VIRGIN, so I MUST be a prude.

I'm a FEMALE GAMER, so I MUST be ugly or crazy.

I'm BLACK, so I MUST love watermelon and fried chicken.

I'm BI, so I MUST think every person I see is hot.

I'm ASIAN, so I MUST have a small penis.

I'm a GUY CHEERLEADER, so I MUST be gay.

I'm SKINNY, so I MUST be anorexic.

I'm PREP, so I MUST be rich.

I dont like the SUN so I MUST be albino.

I have a lot of FRIENDS, so I MUST love to d... ]]> ~Dragon-Xisle http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/10338082/ http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/10338082/ Mon, 09 Oct 2006 15:06:11 PDT
This is just a quick sum up since my last Journal.

I have helped Nickies move house and she has settled in relatively okay. I miss her alot when she is not here or I am not there. So *Sniffe* I tend to be getting myself into ruts now-a-days. It's strange, I wish that I could pull myself out but I guess I'm not in any emotionally crippling pain so I'm not that bad, just a bit restless within myself i guess.

I failled my Drivers Liscence yesterday... I have to spend more money now to get another test done.

Playtesting also at the moment, Kudos to all those that are particpating.

Who's Playing Alexander Carthage (Fool/Elementalist)

Who's Playing Dorian Black (Guardian/Necromancer)

Who's Playing Eddy Red (Guardian/Carrier)

All of them are doing a Fantastic Job.

Also Who has said she'll play but unfortunately couldn't make it to the last session who will be playing a Dreamer/Beast Master.

Finally, I loves you all but more then anyone else I love my Elysium Girl

P.S. Sean and Charmers are also Playtesters but are not currently DAed.

is also playing but hasn't come to an officail session yet (Rogue/Dealer)

EDIT:

[link]

This is my ex-english teacher doing interpretive dance in the class room... we hope to make him world famous

]]> ~Dragon-Xisle http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/9763933/ http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/9763933/ Thu, 17 Aug 2006 19:02:13 PDT


Mood: Intelligent
Listening to: Robins Music for the Eighty-Billionth time tonight
Reading: Abandoment (Writing)
Watching: Chimera

Name

T- You're loyal to those you love.
H- You have a very good personality and looks.
O- You are one of the best in bed.
M- Success comes easily to me.
A-You are one of the best in bed.
S- Easy to fall in love with.

J- Everyone loves you.
O- You are one of the best in bed.
S- Easy to fall in love with.
E- Damn good kisser.
P- You are popular with all types of people.
H- You have a very good personality and looks.

B- You like people.
U- You really like to chill.
L- You live to have fun.
L- You live to have fun.
E- Damn good kisser.

Stolen from Breone


A-You are one of the best in bed.
B- You like people.
C- You are absolutely beautiful.
D- You have one of the best personalities ever.
F- People adore you.
E- Damn good kisser.
G- You never let people tell you what to do.
H- You have a very good personality and looks.
I- You have a fine ass
J- Everyone loves you.
K- You are really silly.
L- You live to have fun.
M- Success comes easily to me.
N- You're wild and crazy.
O- You are one of the best in bed.
P- You are popular with all types of people.
Q- You are a hypocrite.
R- F*ckin sexy.
S- Easy to fall in love with.
T- You're loyal to those you love.
U- You really like to chill.
V- You are not judgemental.
W- You are very broad minded.
X- You never let people tell you what to do.
Y- One of the best bf/gfs you could ask for.
Z- Always ready.

Sub note: Any-one else noticed that now you can BLOCK people on DA? Ain't life GRAND!!!

-Thomas J Bulle, the Solus

~Elysiums~

~Friends~


http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/9746044/ Wed, 16 Aug 2006 16:41:14 PDT


Mood: ARG!!!!
Listening to: Robins Music for the Eighty-Billionth time tonight
Reading: Abandoment (Writing)
Watching: Chimera

Well everyone I'm going to make my announcement first. I have something I'd like you all to look at

this is really important to me please take the time to look atleast for now and watch until I get some stuff up.

Okay other news... it's 2am and I'm awake... just like I was yesterday, But this time nickie is here awake with me... Unfortunately we are not asleep... hence the being awak... We are working on Nickie's Media PROJECT!!! that's right another project isn't it sniffy? or is it supposed to be spiffy.... Don't let me get sleep deprived it will rid you of valuable brain cellulars... hehe... they are the phones that allow your brain cells to talk to each other when they go out.

Anyway the main point I'm trying to make is I'm tired and slightly dehydrated... I doubt I'll know what's happening in a few minutes and actually forget that I'm writing this... God are there spelling errors? What is nickieness doing with her legs? hehe funny frogs... *Smack* yes I are strange. Don't let me get sleep deprived! YOU HEAR ME!!! IT'S NOT A GOOD THING!!! LAST TIME THIS HAPPENED I GOT ADICTED TO HERBAL TEA AND STORMED INTO A MILKBAR SCREAMING THAT I WAS THE KING OF THE ATLANTIC (not even atlantis) AND I WANT A KING SIZE MARS BAR BECAUSE I AM KING AND BECAUSE I AM KIN I DON'T NEED T O PAY!!! GIVING ME THE MARS BAR IS NOW TAX DEDUCTABLE!!!

for those of you playing at home the answer is C!

A) Don't let me get sleep deprived
B) Force me to go to bed earlier
C) TOO LATE!!! MWAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!

Oh god I'm sleep deprived... Good nighT!

P.S. Tom when you read this in the morning a hefty fit of "WTF???" is going to be coming in handy...

Oh and Nickie I love you... very dearly, but understand I might want a sleep in... much the same as you might.

Chris... sorry I didn't call tonight I've been busy... making with the Media...

and Stuart... Nudge all you want that's not going to stop me from being at dinner...

-Thomas J Bulle, the Solus

~Elysiums~

~Friends~


~Dragon-Xisle http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/9722444/ http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/9722444/ Mon, 14 Aug 2006 08:13:15 PDT


Mood: Whimsical
Listening to: Silence
Reading: Abandoment (Writing)
Watching: Pleasantville

I find myself sitting in the dark feeling Emo and un-forfilled...

I don't know why even. I have a beautiful girlfriend and she has everything I could ever want in a partner. Some days I just wish that I could visit a place I once was though just to see everything once more.

So maybe I'm a bit unstable at the moment but tomorrow I'm going to wake up and go for a job application in a store I actually know stuff about the product... I hope I get the job.

People from school and people from outside school I appear to be loosing contact with. It's scaring me... I love my friends. All of them. Just wish there were some way I could remain in contact, have time to write, cuddle with Nickie and maintain a job. I'm just under alot of me being a dimwit right now...

I hate myself in many aspects. It's not like I'm going to break down and cry over it, that'd create more problems then it's worse... granted be I'll let a tear run down my face if it feels the need to escape the ducts, that's it's choice not mine. I can't stop it or anything that wants to break away from the rest... I did it and look what good it did me. this morning I was making Lasanga and watching television, everything felt so perfect. Why does it leave me feeling like a shmuck at this moment.

I just want somethings to change... I want a job... I want freedom in myself... I want people to be happier... I want polution to stop... I want there to be equal rites for everyone... I want people who work hard to be rewarded and people who deserve benefits to get them... I don't want people to abuse anything... I want people to only ever speak the truth and never bend it though I myself have bent it (in year 8 9 and 10) when I made up excuses for not having work... Since then I've taken another stand point and just said I haven't done it... now I've left school... Now I don't care anymore...

Anyway I'll cut this off before it gets too long.

People think I'm childish, say I'm rash and un-reliable... In response to this I will say this.

If you think I am childish, if you judge me thus then stop and think. Who is childish? If I am childish then so are many more peope older then me, the only difference is that I don't judge because it's a childish thing to do and the way I see it. Let people be who they are and what they are because nobody else is going to be that except copy cats who will fail and be misserable... So to those who think I'm childish, that is all I have to say because if I say more it'll be a waste of breath/typing.

-Thomas J Bulle, the Solus

~Elysiums~

~Friends~


http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/9591679/ Tue, 08 Aug 2006 16:53:12 PDT


Mood: Almost Evil
Listening to: People in the Mac Lab
Reading: Abandoment (Writing)
Watching: Jedi Heritage

I have a riddle for all of you, the person who figures it out will be recieving an award that is not a beetroot or turnip!

You will have to live in Melbourne though to be able to win this because it involves an actual journey.

Follow the instructions in the riddle below and find the ultimate goal.

GOOD LUCK!


Go to the street with station,
And now you must go,
Passed the validation,
And over melted snow.

Turn before it gets wavy,
Don’t go down the stairs,
Your path will be pavy,
But travel with cares.

Don’t turn at the Soldier,
Don’t turn at the Clock,
Don’t turn at the Water,
This isn’t you Dock.

You’ll come by a man,
With a hat and a smile,
With flowers he will stand,
Stop for a while.

Your journey continues,
Down the same path,
March where it takes you,
To where many have passed.

Walk down the lane,
Each tree with its plaque,
Every plant has a name,
Of those who turned stark.

Go passed Sari Bair,
Then look at the time,
Go passed Messines,
Make sure it’s before five.

Go through the door,
Remember your gold,
Stone is the floor,
And the prize your goal

Now climb to the stars,
And look to the observer,
You don’t have to look far...

Your final goal is to be typed as a reply to this your last clue is:

A flourishing symbol of faith in it’s bounds, Three Symbols.

END

-Thomas J Bulle, the Solus

~Elysiums~

~Friends~


http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/9488457/ Tue, 25 Jul 2006 10:00:41 PDT


Mood: Reflective
Listening to: Lilium - Konishi Kayo & Kondoo Yukio
Reading: Abandoment (Writing)
Watching: Mallratz

Well I don't know. It's been a while since I've done a recap of my life so I feel the need to.

I was born at a young age, as you are. Very much a bright spark I believe. I was obsolete in my own life and barely even spoke until the age of seven. My Mother no matter how hard she tried couldn't shut my sister up. By the time I was old enough to remember I had met my grandfather only once. I remember him as being a kind man who gave my candy and smiled. My grandmother had died I think and that's why I was there. I was a bit to young to really understand what was going on I think but I remember him so vividly still in my mind. Afew years later he died. Never actually got to speak with him and looking back I would've loved to. All I've really ever known is that he was a great man who worked hard and never got recognised for his work. All his work had his bosses name imprinted on the back and the people who sold it to didn't ask a single question. It seems that he was ignored for his entire life. I always wondered what type of thing he'd tell me to do when I've been in hard spots, what he'd tell me to do and I guess it'd be the same that my mother tells me because she is his daughter. But the stories I've heard of him I guess are inspiring.

I moved from Park Orchards and left the last place I've ever really considered home. I have called places home but in truth I believe they are just houses and where I live, never home. I lost my friends and neighbours and started to live in a very different place. There were no trees and my guardian and friend Rufus (family dog) had been given to our friends to look after because when you live above a shop you can't keep a dog. I cried alot, didn't let anyone know but I did. I missed everyone and I didn't understand. We moved in on Christmas and we didn't even have many nice presents. I started to explore who I might be.

This is the first point in my life where I'm not sure exactly the truth. I have many things recently that have started coming back but that I can't remember completely. I remember getting into fights after dark and meeting a girl whom I loved, this was a little bit on though when I had started to settle in. She was a nice girl with problems though. She had watched her Grandfather get shot from under a bed and I couldn't really understand how she managed to hold herself together so well. She was strong, in mind and physic but she dissappeared from my life and I can't remember ever seeing her again. I remember her journal though. I remember her writings in it. I remember driving myself mad trying to figure out where she went and I remember burning it knowing that it was impossible and that I wasn't meant to know.

So I moved out of the shop whilst this was all going on. I was kinda happy I guess. Through my schooling after the move I had been bullied, picked on and tortured almost. Called names, for actions I had made that probably justly caused these names to be made. I also got beaten afew times but nothing to bad. One day I had a shoe thrown at me, another I was suffocated, another dangled of the edge of what was then a giant drop and now just over my head. I hated it. I had no friends and those I did have betrayed me and constantly pushed me to do things I didn't want to do. So I retreated and started to write. I made up a world where nobilty and honour still meant something. Where love was pure and people were still fair to each other. I wrote myself in constantly as a character called "Tredlos" who had been pulled out of his life when his family had been killed and his entire township destroyed. My friend Carlos featured aswell as Solerack who though he didn't realise was a bit of an inhuman person and alot of my other friends also appeared. I ended up re-writing the story later on in year nine and things changed slightly. Tredlos was more dark, Solerack was distant and Maword (a lesser character) became a key figure.

My life then started to revolve around writing. By year nine I had a new friendship group who have since split up. They were great, they were possibly the first friends I had that cared about my own well being. I felt accepted and my sister for the first time in ever had left. I could talk at home now, I could actually get a word in and my mother was almost a tad surprized to notice my vocabular... ]]> ~Dragon-Xisle http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/9474582/ http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/9474582/ Mon, 24 Jul 2006 03:12:56 PDT Mood: Not in
Listening to: Lilium - Konishi Kayo & Kondoo Yukio

I have subscription... Hmm...

-Sorry, Tom isn't in at the Moment, Please wait and try again later. ]]> ~Dragon-Xisle http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/9470777/ http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/9470777/ Sun, 23 Jul 2006 19:18:45 PDT
Today is my first day of true freedom, I am free of school for the next half year and then I'm going somewhere pretty! I can't wait till next year and I am so happy right now. My Nickie is Smitten and I am so happy!

My only key regret is that I couldn't get her a month ago... that's rights people I have been in a bad place for a longs time but now everythings are getting better and I don't have to put up with Cyranose De Fucktard or His Royal Opnipants with the funny hat (No Stuart you are not one or both of those people). Neither do I have to put up with The Right Hand of God, who by all accounts is doing as good a job as the ACTUAL Right hand of God. God himself at that School is quiet alright but to quote "It's his fan club I can't stand." (BTW just for everyone this is all Metaphorical). The Constrictive Broadminded, the Pryingly open, The Upfront Backstabber and many more.

Anyway at the moment I'm writing me RESUME!!! and I'm going to get a job somewhere!

Also maybe be heading into school today to tick my name off the REG and say hello to some old friends

I do miss my friends at St. Kevins. Chris, Robin, Jerrad, Alan, Will, Stuart, Mori, Chris, Rocky, infact the entire Art Class You guys were great. I miss you all! Bar afew individuals at the school *GLARES* yeah...

Anyway I loves my nickie and she are here for me through all of this YAY!

I says Hi to all and Adios!


EDIT: Change of plans everyone, not going outside the house today.

I started feeling Queezy and just threw up... God I feel sick. ]]> ~Dragon-Xisle http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/9092234/ http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/9092234/ Sun, 18 Jun 2006 19:31:32 PDT
Granted be I'm not a fan of school but now I have to somehow entertain myself with my nickie... *sniffle*

This morning I waved her goodbye at the airport. I don't know how I am going to survive without her but I guess that's what phones are for.

Anyway... This morning was sad to leave her go and now I'm entertainning myself with useless stuff... I made a business card for a fictitous company. (I have submitted it) Pangur Ban is one of my favourite things since I found out about him. he are cool

Also earlier I was trying to get some video work done but my computer (Jenny) desided she was gonna to BITE THE DUST and crashed and now all my work is gone... *sniffle*

I have spent the last two hours sitting infront of the printer trying to print off my god damn business card onto photo paper! YOU KNOW HOW MUCH IT JAMMS!!! OH FOR THE LOVE OF SETT!!!

Anyway... Tomorrow I myself am Leaving and going to the city of churches... that's right! ADELAIDE!!! I can't believe you thought I was speaking about Rome! BAH! no! I am going to the place that has the same amount of churches as melbourne does Cafe's! THAT'S RIGHT MORE THEN THERE ARE STARBUCKS IN NEWYORK!!!

I miss my Nickie... *sniffle*

I loves her so much...



she is not here...

Anyway, anyone who wants to contact me whilst I'm gone I'll be more then happy to receive a phone call even from you guys in America that love me so much I know you guys won't read this but yeah... CALL ME! CALL ME NOW!!! !!!

EDIT: you had your chance 'FRIENDS' that's right, I only have two friends now.. that's my buddy Robin and my Baby girl Nickie!!! Just coz you did't come online, read this journal or live in a different country gives you no right to NOT CALL when I'm bored stiff in the car!

Anyway, Adelaide is full of Churches... Church counter at 12 ]]> ~Dragon-Xisle http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/8936936/ http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/8936936/ Thu, 01 Jun 2006 04:39:33 PDT
1. Simba is Hot! you can't Deny that out of all the Disney Characters he is the hottest! AND HE'S A BLOODY LION!!!

2. Drinking the liquid from a can sauage thingies stops a stummy ache.

3. You can play oblivion forever and get nowhere... you can play Alice for afew Hours and actually have a storyline going somewhere!

4. Words that can be spelt the same backwards as forwards are not words like "Idiot" or "Dyslexia"

5. Dyslexic Satanists Sell their Soul to Santa!

6. BARRY WHITE IS DEAD!!! HOW COULD I HAVE MISSED THIS FACT!!!

7. My sisteres friends HUNG OUT with ROBIN WILLIAMS!!!

8. Elton John and Anne Rice made a Musical... and yes it was called LeStat!!! WTF?!

9. Mobile phones take too long to update...

10. When Depression hits you are not the worlds GREATEST fasion stylist!

11. Short hair SUCKS!!! where am I meant to hide when I'm scared?

12. White Paint and PVA glue are very different things! ]]> ~Dragon-Xisle http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/8917672/ http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/8917672/ Tue, 30 May 2006 03:35:12 PDT [in the morning i was]: confused
[all i need now is]: my kie
[love is]: all you need, also elysium
[i'm afraid of]: myself, loss, the past
[i dream about]: stuff

You:
-- Middle name: Joseph
-- Birth time: after 12... not sure whether it was AM or PM though...
-- Birthplace : Cancer Ward, Melb, Aus
-- Last place traveled: McDonalds
-- Eye Color: Blue
-- Nail Color: kinda pinkish flesh... sometimes invisible!
-- Height: 6"0
-- Zodiac Sign: Pieces

Describe:
-- Your heritage: Dutch... The Strictest Father with the most bizzare ideas...
-- The shoes you wore today: Snazy Shoes
-- Your hair: Brunette
-- Your weakness: stress
-- Your perfect pizza: gluten free with egg, cheese, tomatoe sauce, more cheese, ham, cheese, tomatoe sauce, onion, more cheese, bacon, cheese.

What is:
-- Your most overused phrase: I'm sorry
-- Your thoughts first waking up: what the fuck!
-- Your current worry: loss... hair and otherwise
-- Your plans tomorrow: get up, ram my head into a wall, do sac, see nickie
-- Your best physical feature: eyes, not hair
-- Your bedtime: with nickie?

You prefer:
-- sunrise or sunset: sunset
-- gore or horror: horror
-- eastside or westside: easty
-- stripes or polka dots: polka stripes!
-- Planes or trains: plains/tranes?
-- metal or hardcore: hehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehe hehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehe hehehehehehehehehe... my mind is no in the gutter...
-- Pools or hot tubs: pool sized hot tub (yes I agree with Nickie on this one!)

Do You:
-- Do you think you've been in love: yes
-- Want to get married: yes
-- Type w/ your fingers: Well I am quiet proficient with typing with a fifth centary catapult
-- Like to take baths: with candles, inncence and lavender salt
-- Get motion sickness: not that I know of
-- Like talking on the phone: yes
-- Like thunderstorms: yes
-- Workout: twice a week
-- Like reading: short things... yes!

Favorite:
-- Body part: on me? my hand. On someone else? eyes and soul.
-- Kind of fruit: AVACADO!!!
-- Music to fall asleep to: What ever is playing
-- Car: The one from supernatural
-- Number: 24
-- Thing to do: stuff with cheese, zebras, flux compasitors, hazard signs, chuck noris, benchs, lamps, willow trees, playgrounds, chairs, monkeys, roofs, teaparties and potatoes called ted.
-- Horror movie: Ten things I hate about you... NOT AT ALL A GIRL!!!
-- ColoUr: Teal
-- Food: chocolate or Irish Coffee Cake

The Future:*sighs*
-- Age you hope to be married: before I am like you know... too old
-- Numbers and Names of Children: don't know
-- Describe your Dream Wedding: Wiccan handfasting, forest
-- How do you want to die: doing something brave, after my love, in a confusing way so i get into the Darwin awards.
-- What do you want to be when you grow up: better
-- What country would you most like to visit: england, ireland, egypt, holland, germany, haiwii, rome, america, canada, utopia

Gender Attracted to:
-- Best hair color: darkish
-- Best personality trait: caring
-- Best height: (guy) my height (girl) my height or slighly shorter
-- Best articles of clothing: stockings on girls, jackets on guys
-- Best first date location: coffee, then if you don't like them you don't feel obliged to take them out again.
-- Best first kiss location: lips... either one will do.

Finish:
-- I eat: everything
-- I think: I love nickie more then anything
-- I am: hehehe... at safeway
-- I suck at: everything
-- I can: hardly understand a thing
-- I can't wait: the next few weeks to be over
-- I am annoyed with: my thoughts ]]> ~Dragon-Xisle http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/8899171/ http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/8899171/ Sun, 28 May 2006 06:07:29 PDT Rules: Name six weird things/habits about you and then pass it on!

One. I am more emotionally fragile then a ming vase

Two. I believe love is fated but it just depends on how you get to your true love

Three. If I could change any moment in my life I wouldn't

Four. I more then regullary step on the tiles and not the cracks and when I step to the next tile I'll jump to one that the one I am currently on is touching corner to corner with on a diagonal like a Bishop in chess

Five. It is not easy to angry me, it is even harder to calm me down

Six. I hold myself responsible for someone elses death that happened a long time ago.

I tag ~Sazroy and ~RavenSkyeDawn ]]> ~Dragon-Xisle http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/8790499/ http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/8790499/ Tue, 16 May 2006 16:35:35 PDT ~Dragon-Xisle http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/8780561/ http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/8780561/ Mon, 15 May 2006 16:29:56 PDT ~Dragon-Xisle http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/8679375/ http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/8679375/ Fri, 05 May 2006 07:22:32 PDT
A word within the vernacular that does not discriminate against any one group but itself and is used by others to describe an enemy.

A word so strong in power and detestable hatred that we would never consider to think that we ourself are this.

Black, Putrid, Abominations of what whatever deity or freak accident created us to be.

Evil is the scum and the truly disturbed.

But what is evil. Not one person abides by the rules laid down by the prophets. Mohammad is forgotten, Budda erased, Christ dead, Abraham cracked, the angels silenced and us alone. Not even God will hear us.

Miracles are for those who believe in it. Magic for those who know it. Illusion is more real now then any form of Godlike powers and we believe them because we know them false.

Not a single mind believes, not a single mind comprehends.

The only rule that one can try to follow is not to harm if they can help it.

The only rule is that you should know what is coming for you.

The only rule is to stand down when you know you are beat and to forget your evils so that when they are executed in return upon you, you may know that you are never forgiven by those who you exact your will upon.

So I ask you,

What is evil?

Is it evil to take revenge?

Revenge is such a word that many people do not truly understand.

Chinese Proverb
在尋找復仇之前, 第一個開掘二墳墓
Rough Translation: Before you set out on revenge, you first dig two graves

Romans 12:19
Vengeance is mine, I will repay, saith the Lord

Francis Bacon
Revenge triumphs over death; love slights it; honor aspireth to it; grief flieth to it.

Revenge is death for both, Revenge is done in the name of glory and vanity, it is the greatest thing a person can ever achieve.

Is it evil? To exact revenge is to carry out Karma.

But according to doctrine we are not to do this.

If we lack in faith then we do this, to disbelieve in Gods will is to disbelieve in God himself.

So we are lead to believe that non believers are evil.

But they are not.

Self Believers and not evil either, infact to say a Satanist worships the Devil himself is to say that Scientology is a decent and honest religion.

Evil is not a person, it is not a thing, it is not a lable to be given as it is often used for.

Evil is free will and the ability to exact any action upon your fellow human beings.

Evil is transferred gradually until it is returned.

Evil turns to hate.

Evil turns to blind seering rage and finally confusion and disbelief when you come to relise that you have become a monster and that the blood on your hands can only be blamed on you, not the evil within you because it left when you made that first choice. To do something against another for any reason, any cause.

This is why Hitler took a gun to his own head.

This is why John Newton lay down the chains and wrote Amazing Grace.

This is why Saul gave up his beliefs to an ideal now long forgotten.

This is why people are who they are...

We will never know Evil until it has left,

We will never understand it's purpose,

All we can know is that it exists, not within us, but in what we do.

Signed The Solus, Humble Servant. ]]> ~Dragon-Xisle http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/8495539/ http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/8495539/ Mon, 17 Apr 2006 02:18:15 PDT
if your a girl repost this as "The Sweetest Things A Guy Could Do"
if your a guy repost this as "I'd Do This For Her"

if you dont repost this in 4 minutes you will loose the one you love


This is just paranoia that I'll loose someone really important to me! ]]> ~Dragon-Xisle http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/8349902/ http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/8349902/ Thu, 13 Apr 2006 01:05:24 PDT



~HAPPY FAMILY FRIENDS!~



~CLOSE TO HOME!~

http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/8315002/ Thu, 30 Mar 2006 14:13:32 PST
Gah didn't sleep last night... horridly horrid.

I stress about things and then I can't seem to remember to well what happens whilst I'm stressed but I know things didn't improve last night...

I spoke with my Elysium Girl last night, she's so adorable. I guess I haven't actually had a journal entry about that but yeah... I've found someone new, she cooked me dinner the other night when I had a breakdown at school. But the breakdown thing was scary...


At school I litterally shut down and they found me shaking with my eyes open in one of the classrooms just lying on one of the desks... when I came too the Deputy headmast was standing overme and I was holding the receptionists hands. My understanding is that alot of the teachers found out about it and paniced... Around 20 people asked Mr. Toohey how I was, going into his office... I kinda have to admit that makes me feel somewhat loved.

Anyway, I'm still kinda on recoil. I'm at school trying to do work but finding it hard to concerntrate without having much sleep after a different stressful incident last night. I have a funny feeling that someone kept me up last night. ]]> ~Dragon-Xisle http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/8105937/ http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/8105937/ Wed, 08 Mar 2006 18:04:12 PST
Anyway... Wish me luck. ]]> ~Dragon-Xisle http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/8027246/ http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/8027246/ Tue, 28 Feb 2006 11:54:38 PST [link] ]]> ~Dragon-Xisle http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/7953597/ http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/7953597/ Mon, 20 Feb 2006 14:13:39 PST
To start with my ex-girlfriend, my first girlfriend last night found something I said about her on someone elses Journal entry as a comment... I admit it was cruel but didn't think she was going to try kill herself over it. She had said some pretty bad things about me in the past but I guess it doesn't give me any right. I feel very guilty about it all... which I guess is what she was aimming as the effect but still.

On the other hand there is something in my life that has made me very happy over the past two three days that has managed to make me smile alot, and it isn't the fact I no longer have to walk along with a cain by my side (Did I tell anyone here about that? Yeah I sprained my ankle and acted like house for about two days with a walking stick... better now though) Anyway all I can say on the matter is that the world has become a happier place for me, abit confusing but in a fun way. ]]> ~Dragon-Xisle http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/7928154/ http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/7928154/ Fri, 17 Feb 2006 18:12:18 PST
recently i have been going through a rough patch with my girlfriend, say the past month or even two months we've been fighting about something trivial that i myself believe was unneeded and tried to recktify in almost every way I could but in the end we split up.

I've avoided doing things I've had to and even contemplated suicide... I've done things during this time I'm not proud of and that I never intend to do again.

Once again I am alone, me and Amy broke up on Valentines day or it became most apparent that we had on this day.

I am trying desseperately to find myself again but I don't like some aspects of myself so I am trying to cut those sides out and regrow better ones... no I have not been cutting my wrists!

I'm better now I guess but still very lonely... :: has been very very much there for me during this time and of cause I couldn't have done it without my dear dear friends

Adam, Kitty, Nickie, Chris, Kirsty, Lou and Ariel. I love you guys thanks...

of cause I know that all my other friends are there to support me but some people I have not been in contact with and I am sorry for not telling you sooner. ]]> ~Dragon-Xisle http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/7879062/ http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/7879062/ Mon, 13 Feb 2006 00:22:45 PST

you're not going to... you can here it coming... you're getting scared... you're not going to stop me... *SPLISH* To late now... hehe...

SHUT ME UP! ]]> ~Dragon-Xisle http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/7777396/ http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/7777396/ Thu, 02 Feb 2006 04:42:36 PST
ANYWAY! He started up a comic the otherday and it's already WIZZ BANGED it's way up to NUMBER 8!!! OMFG!!! out of 1987468276587346592873456 comics on DrunkDuck.com so here's a link to the three FABULOUS peices of work he's done sofar!

[link]

The second on he did is my personal favourite

EDIT!!!

This is my new comic [link] ]]> ~Dragon-Xisle http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/7732366/ http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/7732366/ Sat, 28 Jan 2006 13:43:52 PST
I have to work today...

I wish I didn't...

I'm getting messages from people saying that their worried about me...

Saying that they are behind me all the way...

I don't want people on my side...

I want people to help this all be fixed...

I want what only time can bring...

I miss my muffin...

I miss her so much...

She hasn't talked to me in so long...

I cried myself to sleep last night looking at her photo...

I can't stop hitting my head either...

I have spasms and can't controll them...

My stress is higher then it was last time I was in a situation like this...

Far higher...

If it wasn't for the girl in blue I propably wouldn't be making this journal...

I want my muffin...

I miss my muffin...

I love my muffin and know deep down she might still love me...

I want things to be better...

I have to go to work now... ]]> ~Dragon-Xisle http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/7716208/ http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/7716208/ Thu, 26 Jan 2006 17:43:34 PST
Things aren't good...

My girlfriend is upset because of something I did...

I've done nothing wrong yet she wont speak to me...

My friends tried to help but things just got worse...

I'm going away for awhile...

I need time...

Goodbye. ]]> ~Dragon-Xisle http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/7682283/ http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/7682283/ Mon, 23 Jan 2006 05:06:17 PST has helped me and writen some parts to it which have made some of the chapters incredibly long... I would really like as many people as possible to read it though... if you find the prologue boring you can skip that but I'd really like people to read it.

Prologue [link]
Chapter One [link]
Chapter Two [link]
Chapter Three [link]
Chapter Four [link]
Chapter Five [link] ]]> ~Dragon-Xisle http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/7596559/ http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/7596559/ Fri, 13 Jan 2006 20:50:57 PST [link]) and I wanna see what people say!

WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF I:

» I committed suicide:
» I lived next door to you:
» I started smoking:
» I stole something:
» I was hospitalized:
» I ran away from home:
» I got into a fight and you weren't there:

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:

» Personality:
» Art:
» Comments:
» Character Designs:

WHAT ABOUT US:

» Who are you?
» Are we friends?
» When and how did we meet?
» How have I affected you?
» What do you think of me?
» What's the fondest memory you have of me?
» How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?
» Have I ever hurt you?
» Would you hug me?
» Are we close?
» Emotionally, what stands out?
» Do you wish I was cooler?
» On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I?
» Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
» Am I lovable?
» How long have you known me?
» Describe me in one word.
» What was your first impression?
» Do you still think that way about me now?
» What do you think my weakness is?
» Do you think I'll get married again?
» What about me makes you happy?
» What about me makes you sad?
» What reminds you of me?
» What's something you would change about me?
» How well do you know me?
» Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
» Do you think I would kill someone?
» Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you? ]]> ~Dragon-Xisle http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/7570239/ http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/7570239/ Wed, 11 Jan 2006 02:31:15 PST Totally have to agree with all of you who say people are getting fake on here. So I gave in and let's see who really reposts this. This is a test to see who's paying attention. It serves to eliminate people who are desperately trying to add "friends" like its a popularity contest in High School. This is a test to see how many people in my friends list actually pay attention to me. Copy and repost in your own journal. Lets see who the true friends are and I think I know who you are... Repost this if you are a friend.. if you don't, you get deleted.. Don't reply... just copy and paste this in a new journal as "Fake Friends".

------------------------------------------As stated by Kitty

I AGREE WITH EVERYTHING SAID!!! ]]> ~Dragon-Xisle http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/7523299/ http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/7523299/ Fri, 06 Jan 2006 03:38:32 PST
1. Incubus: Not all to bad, Singing has very little to convince of the meaning.
2. The Agony Scene: Death Metal, Screeching... Does not do the song justice
3. U2: AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHH!!! U2!!!!
4. At All Cost: Intro good, Cannot understand a word of what they say.
5. The Tea Party: Not all to bad. YAY! First semi good one!
6. Johny Lang: This Person... should not be allowed inside. EVER... Not good... sorry Johny your a dick
7. The Black Dahlia Murder: Once again Death metal cannot understand a word.
8. Utada Hikura: WTF? I swear this isn't the 'Paint it Black' I know and love.
9. The Standells: Not all to bad...
10. The Unseen: Actually quiet good until they start screaming it... controll people... controll!
11. The Meteors: Not bad... could be put into an action film... a second rate one though.
12. Deep Purple: Live... and twelve minutes in we STILL HAVEN'T GOT LYRICS!
13. The Vines: Pretty Good, I likes this one... still not the best one though.
14. Venessa Carlton: AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH HHHHHHHHHH!!!!
15. Gob: BEST EVER!!! I LOVE THIS ONE!!! Seriously download.
16. Canadian Idol: Nuff said. ]]> ~Dragon-Xisle http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/7405085/ http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/7405085/ Sat, 24 Dec 2005 16:08:40 PST
Ok last night was Christmas Eve. I had Amy come over and we watched the Christmas Carols "Carols by Candlelight"

There was a big dinner with chicken and food and I got like ten quadbillion pressies... I feel like I don't deserve it but I got a digital camera which I have dubbed DIGI CAM!!! (Yes the !!! is included in the name)

I also got a cool book box from Amy! And I got an earlier chrissy pressie from Kitty Kat that I've been writing in no stop. A new BoS I love my friends and family and miss kitty because she's away.

I miss Amy too but I saw her yesterday. ANYWAY!

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE! From both me and DIGI CAM!!!

P.S. DIGI CAM is my Pokemon now! ]]> ~Dragon-Xisle http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/7328733/ http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/7328733/ Fri, 16 Dec 2005 14:35:19 PST
It all started when I was at work yesterday, I was on shift with one other person at the time whom I will reffer to as One... Now at around seven thirty someone else whom I and One knew called Jezerbel (not actual name) Jezerbel was going to see a movie with her parents and One was officially invited to come but then he realised the shop was open at the time the movie was on. I had seen the movie before, Kiss Kiss Bang Bang... I really enjoyed it as did One who had also already seen it. So we closed up early and One shouted me a ticket.

On the way up to the cinema however I get a message from Emily who was very upset... I became panicy and messaged her back. Emily had been forced into something she didn't want to do. I tried to help but I fear it didn't help and after a while the messages stopped when she had informed me that she was taking to cutting herself and I became more then paniced but devestated... I hate myself for not being able to control my emotions when it comes so close to things but I have lost friends before and don't want to loose them again. And now I was out of credit on my phone and couldn't txt anymore.

I went to the toilet feeling un-easy and threw up blood into the sink, looking up I saw something I didn't want to, asside from the blood on my lip that was freaking me out I saw a friend standing behind me... Not Emily but another friend whom I haven't seen in a long time. Very shaken I started to walk back to the cinema and then walking up the stairs I saw her again sitting in the seat infront of me... I froze for a second then when I blinked it was a different person completely... I sat down and tried to watch the rest of the movie...

After this I tried to call Emily on a pay phone and got her answering machien afew times meaning I lost around a dollar sixty on it... Half way through one of the calls I got a call from my mother and was able to be picked up...

I really am not feeling well even at this moment... Emily is ok from what I've heard but I just don't know about everything else... I have to work again today and I really don't feel up to it. ]]> ~Dragon-Xisle http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/7304291/ http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/7304291/ Tue, 13 Dec 2005 19:09:37 PST
1. Jeans have a tendancy to make your groinal area look like it is standing up when you sit down. No matter which gender you are.

2. French Cheese Cake Yogurt is great when mixed into coffee

3. Design by Desir sells Really large inncence sticks but the holders they sell are half the size.

4. People who are depressed by nature like to draw eyes... Seriously! Think about it! WHY!?

5. Girls get told they are going to hell alot more then men.

6. People who tell you that "You shouldn't be walking all alone" are considerate but scary (That happened to my girlfriend.)

7. Male homosexuals and Female homosexuals apparently fall in two completely different catagory and prejudice against each one is never equal.

8. Witch a bi-gender term

9. You have to be Catholic or Jewish to be a Satanist.

10. Christ, by deffination is a Bastard. (Born before his parents were married)

11. Having Dairy Products before you go to sleep apparently will give you nightmares yet desserts tend to usually be Dairy based.

12. The land of Nod the place you go when you sleep is apparently the same place (as reffered to in the bible) where the first murderer and the city of Enoch (the Great city of Vampires) is situated!

13. Nazis killed Millions of Jews in the name of Christ... Who was a Jew.

14. Jews and Catholics are against Pagan Rituals and beliefs when half of the stuff that Catholics practice was stolen from Pagan religions and Abraham himself according to research was probably one himself. ]]> ~Dragon-Xisle http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/7252580/ http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/7252580/ Thu, 08 Dec 2005 03:43:44 PST
Ok everyone! I have a question, and I want you all to answer it. The person with the best answer wins a prize.

A man walked every day down a road to catch the 6:05 Bus to work a local junkyard, every day the bus came on time and every day he got on right foot first. He would always carry a large paper bag with him and a briefcase. He would always wear the same suit day in day out for a week then he would get that one dry cleaned and wear another for a week before getting that one dry cleaned and swap back to the other one. One day the bus didn't come on time, the bus was running a minute late and when saw the bus coming he pulled a gun out of the brown bag and placing it in his mouth he shot himself. Why?

Thank you for reading... hugs may be included in the prize... hugs may be the prize... ]]> ~Dragon-Xisle http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/7234357/ http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/7234357/ Tue, 06 Dec 2005 00:15:12 PST
Tonight I hope at some point in time to be recieving the Character Sketches I made today so I might be able to make the first comic. The second and all comics after we will see about as Chris is going to be writing... ]]> ~Dragon-Xisle http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/7225646/ http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/7225646/ Mon, 05 Dec 2005 02:18:46 PST I wish I could live forever...
I know I wont...

Three by three, Let me be.
Three by three, Death by me.
Three by three, Trinity... ]]> ~Dragon-Xisle http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/7217328/ http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/7217328/ Sun, 04 Dec 2005 03:53:57 PST ~Dragon-Xisle http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/7158650/ http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/7158650/ Sun, 27 Nov 2005 13:39:26 PST
It started with Tuesday morning. I went over to Amy's (as always) to walk with her to school. She wasn't feeling to good because she had cuts on here feet from walking around far to much the previous day without socks on and wearing sneekers. So I went there and picked her up and we desided to walk to the station instead of the four kilometers to school. Half way there though she started feeling really ill and almost threw up. So I called her mum and I got a lift to school whilst she went to the doctors... I spent the entire day thinking she would just be at home with a hot coco...

I was wrong.

Later that night I got a phone call "Tom, we're in hospital, Amy would really like it if you came down."

So I jumped out of my PJs and into some casuals and went down to see my dear girl. My first words were "You've got something on your arm." in referal to the drip she was on, she later named it, I can't remember what.

Anyway so I spent something like two or something hours with her and was reluctant to leave when I had to.

The next day I went to visit her again with kitty. We got a lift with Adam and I didn't actually know where we had to go. . . So we got lost and it took us something like an hour and a half to get there.

When we did get there Kat made a giant thing about how she got to sit on the bed, little did she know how comfy the bedside chair was. Amy was bright and happy and ready to go home. So we got in the car and trondled off singing merry songs down the speaker phone to a bewildered Adam (We didn't say hi exactly in that conversation... we just sung)

Then whilst we were back at the home of muffin. Amy became ill again but she was ok by the end of the night. I had to leave before the end of the night though and Kat and Amy talked 'Girl Stuff'

The next day I was coming over and as I was getting out of the car I recieved a phone call "Tom where are you? I have to take Amy to hospital again do you want us to wait?"
I replied "In your driveway and you don't really have to."

So another trip to the hospital where amy started to feel better once again. I was no allowed into the medication room but I talked with her brother Karl in the waiting room. Then it was back home. I stayed over the night because I thought she might need the emotional support... that and I'd said I was going to stay over the night in hospital with her if she had to stay... but she didn't... so I had all the stuff so might as well.

The next day... I was over my stress and tired so whilst everyone was out of the house except me and Amy I slept. Then when I got up we watched some TV and then Amy slept on the coach, I tucked her in as she had done to me before.

Then I went home thinking I should've stayed longer. I gave her twenty four good night kisses and that's not an exageration before leaving.

She's still not well but I saw her yesterday and she was ok, she couldn't stand being up to long and I spoke with her last night when she seemed chirpy.

I've been really worried about everything but she's told me to be discrated... then she said she wanted to see me tomorrow... GAH! WOMEN!! But I'm seeing her tomorrow and calling her tonight after work.

So yeah that's everything from last week, for those wondering. ]]> ~Dragon-Xisle http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/7060073/ http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/7060073/ Wed, 16 Nov 2005 01:35:50 PST
So I figure life is not about some things. I cannot enjoy anything at the moment, I cannot reach any form of happiness and haven't done so for about a month now... It is not starting to irratate me... gnaw on my soul and being...

I can't help to think about the past either, the other night I actually went out whilst it was rainning to try and think more clear. I bought a bottle of saki and sat in the playground near my house getting completely drenched... I can't help feeling sorry about some things I've done in the past but I know the things are not things to be taken lightly. One is all my secrets, the three friends that I lost last year to start off with... January 19 is the biggest but still...

I'm not sure why my life has become such a mess but I know everything has a reason... I just want this period to end though and to be happy again... I want to meet some people from my past again and I want to start afresh... I don't know why but I wouldn't mind returning to where I feel comfortable, home... I've never felt at home where I live because home always had a big yard and a dog. There were trees and not a care in the world but now even in love I appear to cause pain... I cannot be perfect like I always hoped I might be... Solus, Alone, That's what I feel I should be on some days but Amy makes me feel so at home, she's my trees and garden, the flowers and the silver shore of the bird bath, yeah I know I always promised her I'd tell her that I'd tell her what the silver shore meant but I've never told her... The bloody bird bath I grew up looking into, the one I coloured, painted with crayons... That place is my love. My old home. My still home. My Amy. My Comfort. My Home.

-The Solus, Thomas J Bulle. ]]> ~Dragon-Xisle http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/6860648/ http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/6860648/ Tue, 25 Oct 2005 02:11:42 PDT
Hope you guys will enjoy!

[link] ]]> ~Dragon-Xisle http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/6834821/ http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/6834821/ Sat, 22 Oct 2005 08:15:18 PDT
I'm being torn in a certain situation at the moment. I don't know whether I want to talk about it but I want to say something. I guess that it for that.

Started a new job today, it's fun. I got to work with Matt, he helped me through a tough time last year and I'm sure if you check my journal entries from back the you'll find them. In a way it was almost a year ago when that trouble started and now I don't know what's happening in my life again and once again mat has taken me under his arm! *Sigh* except this time he's my boss! Yeah... I'm the subway protege now... I find it horribly ironic that Matt, the person that I sometimes see as being everything I am but everything that is black in me is white in him and everything black in him is white in me. I had a conversation with him once and he told me he relates himself to the black rose and I've always done the same with the white rose so I think it's rather funny. He is a great man, no matter what he tries to convince people, and he's always been there for me in tough times... well over the past year or so atleast!

Other things are of cause I've had to start on anti-depressents resently or atleast a drug with similar effects for me. At this moment I'm scared, scared about almost everything. It's unhealthy but I'm even scared of myself. I'm not sure what I can say to be completely understandable. The other day I ran into three people, they had lost a friend to a drunk brawl over one of the girls in the group. The week before it was a person who had stumbled onto the train tracks and before then suicide... I'm getting really sick of it all. but I can't help thinking sometimes I fear that death is stalking me, trying to get to me whilst slowly weaving its way in towards me. I just want to curl up now... curl up and not come out... I'm supposed to be a man, supposed to not be scared of everything and some would call me a girl about all this but my fears are real. I know them more then anyone but still I sometimes have to wonder what stands to be the scientific ground of my fears because nothing fits and I just... I just fear that I'm not even honest to my own mind. I've been stalked by death and everything since a young age and I still can't shake it... I don't know what to do anymore... I just dont...

-Thomas J Bulle,
The Solus and Tethered. ]]> ~Dragon-Xisle http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/6805689/ http://Dragon-Xisle.deviantart.com/journal/6805689/ Wed, 19 Oct 2005 00:50:10 PDT ( ) gotten lost in your city
(x) saw a shooting star
(x) been to any other countries besides Australia (Holland)
(x) had a serious surgery
(x) gone out in public in your pajamas
(x) kissed a stranger
(x) hugged a stranger
(x) been in a fist fight
( ) been arrested
( ) done drugs
(x) had alcohol
(x) laughed and had milk/coke come out of your nose
(x) pushed all the buttons on an elevator
(x) made out in an elevator
( ) slept in an elevator
(x) swore at your parents
(x) kicked a guy where it hurts.
(x) been in love
(x) been close to love
(x) been to a casino
( ) been skydiving
(x) broken a bone
( ) been high
(x) skinny-dipped
(x) skipped school
(x) flashed someone
(x) saw a therapist
(x) done the splits (It really hurt)
( ) played spin the bottle
(x) gotten stitches
( ) had an IV
(x) drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour
(x) bitten someone
( ) been to Niagara Falls
(x) gotten the chicken pox
(x) kissed a member of the opposite sex
(x) kissed a member of the same sex
( ) crashed into a friend's car
( ) been to Japan
(x) ridden in a taxi
(x) been dumped
(x) shoplifted (only if cough lollies from the tuck shop counts)
(x) been fired
(x) had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
(x) stole something from your job (Milkshakes!)
( ) gone on a blind date
(x) lied to a friend
( ) had a crush on a teacher
( ) celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans
(x) been to Europe/live there
( ) slept with a co-worker
( ) been married
( ) gotten divorced
( ) had children
(x) saw someone die
( ) been to Africa
( ) Driven over 400 miles in one day
( ) Been to Canada
( ) Been to Mexico
(x) Been on a plane
( ) Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
( ) Thrown up in a bar
(x) Purposely set a part of yourself on fire
(x) Eaten Sushi
(x) Been snowboarding/snow skiing
(x) Met someone in person from the internet
(x) Been moshing at a rock show
( ) Been to a moto cross show
(x) lost a child
( ) gone to college
( ) graduated college
(x) tried killing yourself
(x) taken painkillers ]]> ~Dragon-Xisle