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i was replacing this with something else. hmm.. should i colour those images(that i recently submitted)? what do you guys think?

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Got rid of it. How long? I don't know.

It's just a program, Mmmm. I'll be on AIM.

IM me you need me. Unmerciful Sea

I still do commissions, yes.

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I LOVE YOU ALL.

I GIVE YOU INVISIBLE CANDY THAT I WISH I COULD JAM INTO MY HARDRIVE TO EMAIL YET IT WOULD SEVERELY SCREW IT UP

LOVE

Hatsu

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In the end, I love someone I loved.

But did I love them enough? I don't hurt so much.

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Commissions are open.

Portraits - Portspace/Roses of the same price

~!Full body art~
Black and white - Wings
Color - Wings

Anything else. Whisper me/email/leave me a note and I'll negotiate price. Be weary, I don't charge so much. >>;

]]> ~DreadfulEmbrace http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/11236918/ http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/11236918/ Fri, 29 Dec 2006 18:35:21 PST To Wine(Red Kool-Aid)
To Esctacy(Altoid Mints)

[:

I'm addicted to Phantom of the Opera, and I still haven't seen it, ftw. ):

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So Irresistable

Thorns prickle skin irresistably
Oh, the pain, it feels so great
She uses shards of glass to rip
my flesh on my arms
And he uses the butcher knife to
tear off my neck and heart
My eyes wander in this sedating
Pain. The warmth of life leaving me.
A smile leaves me as they gouge out
my eyes.. The ones I once love
are the ones that I've come to resent
Oh god, they make me feel so uncomfortable
Yet.. This is like heaven. This sadistic love
I hate it so, this love. I hate you people.

Why won't you just let me to die?

Mmm.. Funny how life is. How horrible it can be to you after being somewhat nice to you. I don't really have anything else to say.

So this is the heaven that was created for me. Mmmm... Music, sedate me now.

]]> ~DreadfulEmbrace http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/11139351/ http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/11139351/ Thu, 21 Dec 2006 13:56:37 PST Happy New Years. <3
Happy Hannakuh. <3
Happy Qwuanzah(sp?). <3
Happy Everything else. <3

]]> ~DreadfulEmbrace http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/11096633/ http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/11096633/ Sun, 17 Dec 2006 16:27:31 PST I wonder.. If that the real chance will be mine..
The faithful beauty
Joy.. And Estacy of Life.
But then.. That's happiness itself, is it not?

Rejection. Something we all fear..
Something I've befriended.
Something I've loved now for.





Okay, well. I'm done with that. Stupid movie that's making me all aklfjksfjdhsjkf hopeless romantic.



I.. Probably am a hopeless romantic. Ah, well. You live, you die. ^^ I like this movie: Never Been Kissed.



Drew Barrymore rocks.. Meh..



What do you do when you like a guy but you know he doesn't want to date? I mean. At all. With anyone.. or at least, it seems like it.

Ah, well. xD Life is life.~

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SWEET 16 OMFG. <333333

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... Fuck. >:





Oh, well. I'll do art anyways. <3 I sold a piece today.~ How sweet is that? It was for $15.. But, that's cool, I guess. x3 I love you guys. <333 Meeeeeh.

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I went to Conroe, and I got to ride a horse. 'Tis was fun.. I love Evanescence, XD

Seems like I keeping getting taken and single. Well, single it is. Freeee bird! I'm like Gojyo.. Except.. Less pervy and more self-concious, LOL. DDDD okay.

I had sugar.

I admit it. Leave me alone. ;_;

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I understand I have kiribans well over do. When I get the time to do some spectacular piece, I will do them. I'm really sorry that I haven't.

Commissions are open, by the way.

Portraits: Portrait Space
Larger Picture, B/W: 3 Roses (Preferably B/W)
Larger Picture, Color: 4 Roses (Preferably B/W)

Anything else, just send me a note or email. I'll catch up with you soon.

]]> ~DreadfulEmbrace http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/10673158/ http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/10673158/ Thu, 09 Nov 2006 20:08:15 PST
Yuri is hot.


That was my random journal for the day. <3

]]> ~DreadfulEmbrace http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/10623298/ http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/10623298/ Sun, 05 Nov 2006 09:41:38 PST
I've been after this really cute guy that I like a lot in real life..

Then a friend comes and tell me his feelings for me.


And like, I don't know what to do. A part of me wants that cute guy, and then the other part of me wants to go for my friend. ;_____;


I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. FUCKIN' COMPLICATIONS. *cryheaddesk*

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But I'm getting really fecking sick of people on youtube criticizing people in the worst way. Like. OMFG, YOU SUCK.

At least I tried. I was also called a wannabe just because I like doing karaoke and made a video? What the hell is wrong with them? I know I didn't do as well as I could on it, but wow. Shame, shame, shame. They call me wannabe, and tell me to sing my own songs. I will, somehow. I want to create a band and all. >/


Anyways, end of my rant. I can't imagine what more is wasting your time. These people, however, don't so much as effect me. No, I'm too cold for their bad opinions to really have effect on me. And so far, based on first impression, they are shitty people.


To all you motherfuckers who insist on doing crap like that: Go die. (:

Really.

Save us breaths and let us live longer. We don't need you.



Good night.

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When you just got your ass up and said hi and introduced yourself.

When you've crushed over him for a while.

Then your friend says he may have a girlfriend because she sits next to him and that so called girlfriend so does make out, nibble on ear, and all this shit.

This just in, over a retarded relationship, and falling and HOPING for this one.

*CRY*


Highschool is starting to suck again.
I posted a Japananized(Made up word) version of him in my scraps.

Edit:

GUESS WHAT? HE MAY NOT BE THE SAME GUY, BECAUSE THIS GUY HAS B LUNCH, AS MY FRIEND QUAN SAYS. OOOOOO:

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AUGH, I HATE IT.

Went to the guy I crush on's page. And like. It had "I love you" and "Sweetie" by some girl by it. OOMMMMFGGGGGGG.


I was like: .. Son of a.. I wanted to hit my computer for letting myself even feel like that. I don't deserve this. Karma is getting back at me, and I'm so very annoyed. Man, he said he was a free spirit and wants to focus on his graduation. That was complete BS, as it seems. So, I've been pretty pissed today. Told my friend, "Fuck You." Because he was trying to mooch off me and I was moody and impulsive. I'm also depressed.
I've been so stressed at home, it's really been hectic. I mean. My mom doing the crap she does. Everything.


Augh. My grades are getting bad from this stress and I swear. I don't want to fail and turn out in a ghetto. I don't want to become something bad. Perhaps I'm not trying hard enough. I don't know. Thanks for reading.

P.S. Thanks, Zach, for giving me the laughs.

]]> ~DreadfulEmbrace http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/10096851/ http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/10096851/ Sun, 17 Sep 2006 00:53:27 PDT
MONTH YOU WERE BORN
January-----------i married
Febuary-----------i licked
March--------------i kissed
April--------------- i bitch slapped
May----------------i stole from
June---------------i killed
July----------------i fucked
August------------i lied to
September-------i choked
October---------- i ate
November------- i watched
December--------i spanked

- DAY [NUMBER] YOU WERE B0RN 0N =]
1-------a spork
2-------my friends parents
3------- myself
4-------a football player
5-------a hobo
6------- p diddy
7-------a pickle
8------- my dog
9-------a lawn gnome
10-------a banana
11-------a monkey
12-------my neighbor
13-------an elephant
14-------my TRUE love
15-------a goat
16-------you
17-------bigfoot
18-------a spoon
19-------a fireman
20-------a mexican
21-------a ninja
22-------you
23-------my best friends boyfriend/girlfriend
24-------a gangster
25-------1000 people
26-------a noodle
27------- A SANDWICH
28-------your mom
29-------my science teacher
30-------a squirrel
31-------my uncle


- C0L0R OF Y0UR SHiRT ;]
White------- Because i keep it gangsta
Black--------Because dat bitch took my taco
Pink---------Because im in love
Red----------Because the voices told me to.
Blue----------Because thats how i roll
Green--------Because I hate myself.
Purple--------Because i can
Gray---------- Because im sexy and i do what i want.
Yellow--------Because someone offered me 1,000,000 dollars
Orange----Because i hate my family.
Other-------Because i was high
maroon-----Because i was drunk.
teal-----cuz they were illegal
Brown-----Because im emo
Caramel----cuz Charlie told me too.
Striped------cuz ur mom said so
black..pink----Because i am kool like that
bra-----cuz im to kool for tv
bathing suit----- cuz im so sexy and i freak like no other
Camoflage ----- cuz I thought it was a deer


Repost this as "I..." or else you will
have bad luck for the next 17 years

Aha. Just had to do this, sorry. x)

"I bitch-slapped A SANDWICH because that's how I roll." ]]> ~DreadfulEmbrace http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/10080638/ http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/10080638/ Sat, 16 Sep 2006 11:25:10 PDT don't deserve it. Which is sad. Anyhow, since I realized I haven't written a journal in ages, here I go.

Today was an okay day. I'm making up for what I have not been able to do, and tying the loose strands that broke up my life. I got bangs(OMFGYES), because I cut them myself. They look alright, but I'm going to have to straighten my hair every morning(damnit.) even if it's going to get tiring. Today, I asked a sort of an aquiatance if he cut himself, because I saw the scars on his arm. It really surprised me.. I didn't think he was the type. Self-mutilation is a very sad resort, in my opinion.

Nothing comes out of cutting your arm.


..... Except blood.

Lately, I've been crushing over a guy named Isaoru, who is nick named Vince/Vincent and Zero. Don't know why, haha. He's cute, and.. I asked him out. Rejected me. He said he was a free spirit and was focusing on graduating.. I understand, I guess. He's a cool guy and really sweet. And funny. The three qualities that attract me. That, and appearence, LOL. I flirt. Sort of. ..Or not, I don't know. And yes, I am no longer with Mark for personal reasons.

That and being hit by reality.

And now, since Isaoru, I've been getting a new crush. I sort of still like Hui, but.. Ralph seems to really. Grab my attention more. He seems kind, and I'd like to get to know him. Really. >____> Shush. My guinea pig died and my dog dug up it's grave. I was soooo. SOOOO. SOOOOOOOOOOOO Pissed. But, I got over that. I guess I was so stressed out Thursday, I had to go home. I couldn't concentrate, I couldn't get comfortable, and my hand was going ballistic. Really.

-------

I'm adding this. I still like Isaoru most of all. I can't. Stop. Crushing over him, jshdfjksdf ahhh.

During HLTHTECH1, there is this girl. She was smelling soo bad one day, then she goes up and blames it on me. Bitch, I shower in the morning. >/ That ticked me off so bad. However, I keep my sanity by Chasity and Hang in there. Which is good. Farwa too.. Anyways..

That's the end of my rant for today. ]]> ~DreadfulEmbrace http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/9902175/ http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/9902175/ Tue, 29 Aug 2006 22:45:38 PDT
SA like. Confused. The fuck. Out of me. Entirely.

My day sucked today.

My guinea pig died today. I got chewed out by skeeters(Mosquitoes) when I made her grave, which I'll finish tomorrow, I twisted my ankle today, I'm tired, I didn't finish my home work, I'm depressed, and I'm pissed on how cold and careless I'm acting. I can't help it.. I'm.. So stressed.. And hungry.. Meh, after I post, Imma go sleep and dream. This is so much torture. And to go with it, I made a poem. If it sucks, sorry. But deal with it.

Thanks for listening, guys. I need to rethink things for a while.. ]]> ~DreadfulEmbrace http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/9855291/ http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/9855291/ Fri, 25 Aug 2006 20:34:49 PDT
Yeah.

Anyways, I'll more than likely post new art there, if I ever scan art worthy of such, rooooofl. ]]> ~DreadfulEmbrace http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/9529687/ http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/9529687/ Sat, 29 Jul 2006 03:25:24 PDT
Stolen from Damn her. xD

Just post a comment in this journal and...

1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll challenge you to try something.
3. I'll pick a color that I associate with you.
4. I'll tell you something I like about you.
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. If I do this, you must post this in your journal.

And I will.~ <3 ]]> ~DreadfulEmbrace http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/9411173/ http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/9411173/ Mon, 17 Jul 2006 23:05:27 PDT
How dare my mom even THINK that my friend Tara is a fake. How DARE she. She can think anything she want, except that. It's so fucking insulting, when she said that. I know people who go through shit worse than her, and she complains. I listened to her, and then she gets all like that with me. We are suffering in a financial hole. I understand. I learned what has been happening lately, and it's depressing that I can't do anything about it.

What's worse, bleeding continously isn't all so GREAT. And this is making me just so intolerant to her view. I want to smash my computer screen in, because all of this shit is happening at the worse time. All of it. For god's sake, why can't it just stop? Life is like this, I know, but why can't it just be nice for once to my parents? They are getting older and older each day, and I know that they need to retire at some point. But right now, we have to survive through this, but if she's like that, making it seem like we won't be able too, it's not helping. I guess, for now, I need to stay to myself, silent, isolated, away from my mom. I'm having a hard time taking it. A really hard time. ]]> ~DreadfulEmbrace http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/9394964/ http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/9394964/ Sun, 16 Jul 2006 13:13:48 PDT BLAME HER <---

[ ] I know how to make a pot of coffee.
[x] I can do my own laundry.
[x] I can cook for myself. {..I can sort of cook, yes.}
[ ] I do my chores after being told once.
[ ] I always do my homework/work.
[x] I actually enjoy intellectual conversations.
[ ] I think politics are exciting.
[ ] My parents and grand-parents have better things to say than my peers. {No. Just no.}

total: 3

[x] I show up for school/work every day unless I'm sick. {IFAKESICKTOO. But I'm not going to to that so much anymore.}
[ ] I always carry a pen in my pocket/purse.
[x] I've never gotten a ticket. {The only time I screwed up was when I was young and was trying to call someone I know, instead. Called the police.}
[x] I watch talk shows. {Some of them are good.}
[ ]I know what incredibility means without looking it up. {..No. I don't.}
[ ] I drink black coffee. {..FRAPPUCINOS FOREVER, BABY.}

total: 3


[x] I know how to run the dish washer...and/or do the dishes. {I've learned.}
[x] I can count in more than one language. {......I sort of learned once, and forgot. I learned in Chinese.}
[x] When I say I'm going to do something I do it. {Most of the time.}
[ ] I mow the lawn. {... >>;}
[ ] I wash the car. {There are carwashes.}
[x] I can make adults laugh... without being stupid...
[ ] I remember to water my plants. {Flowers die, anyways. I'd water them, just.. I'd rather ones in the ground than ones that are cut from their true beauty.}
[x] I study when I have to. {I try hard, when I do. I only study when I find a huge need too.}
[x] I pay attention at school/work. {Yes. I do mostly.}
[x] I remember to feed my pets. {I do forget sometimes, but I do feed my guinea pig.}
[ ] I'm generally organized. {NONONONO}
[ ] I know the meaning of capital punishment. {Oh, poor capitals.. Why do lower case letters get away from it? :[}

total: 6

[x] I can spell experience without looking it up {That's way too simple.}
[x] I clean up my own messes. {Most of the time.}
[ ] The first thing I do when I wake up is get coffee. {Coffee makes your teeth black.}
[ ] I can go to the store with out getting something I don't need. {No, I can't. Dx I just always want something a little extra if I have enough money.}
[x] I understand jokes the first time they are said. {..In a good deal with them.}
[x] I listen to my elders. {When I do so, it's more than not likely my parents, but I listen to Tara. She's my elder, and I love her as a friend. I also look up to her, I admit.}
[x] I can type fast. {SORTAFASTWTF. I never went to a typing class, but I type really fast for the way I type.}

total: 5

[x] My choice in clothing is acceptable in an office. {..Most of the time, I dress modestly. I hate my arms, I hate my weight. Yet, I'll wear what I want if it's comfortable.}
[ ] I can watch politics and laugh. {..}
[x] I have realized that the weather forecast changes every hour. {.. Wtf.}
[x] I can look at someone hot and not think of sex. {Yes, I can do this. I can control my thoughts. >/}
[ ] I have realized that no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 and have a job. {BS. Anyone can be taken seriously. That's why the world is how the world is.}
[x] I can read a book and actually finish it. {When.. I'm really interested in it.}
[x] People have said that I act older than I am. {Sound, Look, and sometimes act older.}
[x] I can be sent on an errand and not get side tracked. {Yeah.}

total: 6

Grand Total: 23

Now add up how many x's you have and put "I act (X) years old." ]]> ~DreadfulEmbrace http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/9267708/ http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/9267708/ Tue, 04 Jul 2006 05:21:15 PDT
I LOVE YOU, MAN. <3 ]]> ~DreadfulEmbrace http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/9238284/ http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/9238284/ Sat, 01 Jul 2006 02:35:18 PDT
THE REAL YOU

would you rather...

[ ] Ask someone out.
[x] Be asked out. - .. It's probably best at this point. But you never know, man.

[ ] Have a sunny day
[x] Have a rainy day - Rain is pretty. It's my happy day when it's like. Fucking less than 95 degrees.

[ ] Have a computer
[x] Have a cell phone - Dude, I can walk around talking to people. Lol. And the generation of being able to talk with your voice.

[x] be poor & live till you're 100. Rich bastards, you live short. Experience life, and know what it is. Then Die. Tell your stories of hardship and use it to help life so people won't be so selfish.
[ ] Be rich & live till you're 30.

[ ] Be blind.
[x] Be deaf. - I'm not letting you kick me.

[x] Have it be Winter all year round. - Let it snow, let it snow.
[ ] Have it be Summer all year round.

[ ] Be beautiful.
[x] Be loved. - So be hated and beautiful? lmfao. No.

[ ] Take a bath.
[x] Take a shower. - As much I like baths, you get cleaner in a shower.

[x] Be born poor and die rich. - All the way.
[ ] Be born rich and die poor.

[ ] never have to go to school.
[x] never have to go to the dentist. - .. I love school. I hate the dentists.

[x] Never feel physical pain - I'd say this, even though feeling pain is what makes you human.
[ ] never feel emotional pain

[x] Wear contacts. - ...I'm not having METAL SHIT in my mouth. plzkthx.
[ ] Wear braces.
--------------


You are

[ ] Short. 5'0 & Shorter.
[x] 5'1 - 5'3. - Pretty sure.
[ ] 5'4-5'6.
[ ]5'7 - 5'9.
[ ] 5'10 - 6'1.
[ ] Tall. 6'2 & Taller.


You are

[ ] Blonde.
[ ] Redhead.
[ ] Auburn.
[ ] Brunette.
[ ] Dirty blonde
[ ]Light Brown.
[x] Dark Brown.
[ ] Black.
[ ] Don't Remember. - .. LOOK IN THE MIRROR, WTF. ):

[ ] Blue-Eyed.
[x] Brown-Eyed.
[ ] Green-Eyed.
[ ] Hazel Eyed.
[ ] Gold|Gray-Eyed.
[ ] Silver|Gray-Eyed.
[ ] Blue|Green-Eyed.
[ ] Blue|Gray-Eyed.
[ ] Change Colors

You Have/Had

[x] Glasses
[ ] Contacts.
[ ]Braces. - My teeth are perfect.
[ ] none

Hair Length

[ ] Bald
[ ] Short.
[ ] Short/Medium
[ ] Medium
[ ] Medium/Long
[x] Long Hair - Azn hair, lmfao. .. That waves a bit.


You've Done

[ ] Rafting.
[ ] Water Skiing
[x] Camping.
[x] Horseback Riding.
[ ]Surfing
[ ] Water Polo.
[x] Skateboarding.
[ ] Skiing.
[ ] Street Luging
[ ] Cheerleading.
[ ] Lacrosse.
[ ] Street Hockey.
[ ] Gymnastics.
[x]Martial Arts.
[ ] BMX.
[ ] Tubing.
[ ] Rock climbing
[ ] Dance

You Can't Stand Listening To

[ ] Country - Sometimes.
[ ] Classical.
[ ] Techno.
[ ]Oldies. ...Depends.
[ ] Opera.
[ ] Reggae.
[ ] Emo.
[ ] 80's.
[ ] Disco.
[ ] Metal.
[ ]Hardcore.
[ ] Rock.
[ ] Rap|HipHop.
[ ] R&B
[x] Classic rock. It really depends.
[ ] Polka. - ...Eh.
[ ] Gospel



Clothing Brands You Like

[ ] American Eagle.
[ ] Hollister.
[ ] The Buckle
[ ] Abercrombie & Fitch.
[ ] Wet Seal.
[ ]O'Neill.
[ ] PacSun. - I blame my friend.
[ ] Aeropostale
[ ] Dickies.
[ ] Roxy. - Blaming her for this too.
[ ] Guess.
[x]Hot Topic. - <3
[x]Spencers. - <3
[x] Tripp - OFUCKYES.
[ ] Champs.
[ ] Old Navy.
[ ] urban vibe
[ ] Forever 21
[ ] Limited Too.
[ ] Salvation Army|Goodwill.
[ ] Other thrift stores.
[ ] Wal*Mart. - >_>;
[x] If I like it I'll wear it.
[x]Other. - Uh. AMERICAN BLUE. <3

Your Confessions

[ ] I am reallllly ticklish. - BS.
[x] I've collected comic books. - ..MANGA. <3
[x] I read and watch the news. - Just to see whats happening.
[x] I LOVE Disney movies! - Socute. <3
[ ] I don't like killing bugs. - I can't stand TOUCHING them. AT ALL. Even with CLOTHING.
[ ] I have/had x's in my screen name. - Not that I can remember.
[ ] I cook well. - >>;
[ ] I have worn pajamas to class - Can't remember.
[ ] I like Martha Stewart - .... The so called prisoner?
[ ] Ozzy is my hero - ......
[ ] I love church - No. It sometimes gets annoying.<... ]]> ~DreadfulEmbrace http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/9105658/ http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/9105658/ Sun, 18 Jun 2006 13:10:58 PDT <-- BLAME HER. >_>

--THEATRE KID--
[x] Ever been in a play?
[ ] Have you ever seen a Broadway show?
[ ] Seen more than 10 shows?
[x] Have you ever been/Are you in school shows? CRUCIBLE.~
[ ] Does your current job involve theatre in some way?
[ ] Want to end up working in/for theatre
[ ] Can you recite all of the lyrics to your favourite play/musical?
[x] Do you break out into random songs whenever/wherever!!
[x] Do you like the Sound of Music?
[x] Did you like the Broadway show? I like the thought of it.
Total X: 5


--REDNECK--
[ ] Do you have a couch in your front yard or porch?
[ ] Do you drive a four-wheeler? I've no liscence, LOL.
[ ] Do you ride four-wheelers? .. What?
[ ] Do you like to get dirty? ... Ew.
[>] Do you like country music? Only sometimes, so..
[ ] Do you have a broken car in your back/front yard?
[ ] Do you own a cowboy hat? .....
[ ] Do you live on more then 1 acres? ..God, if I know.
[ ] Do you have more then 4 different animals at your home? Used too.
[x] Do you watch Larry the Cable Guy movies? Once.
Total X: 1 and 1/2

--GOTH--
[x] Do you wear black eyeliner? Now I wear midnight blue eyeliner, lmao. I lost it.
[x] Is most of your clothing dark? Sort of.
[ ] Do you think about death often? .... Uh, not really.
[ ] Do you want to die? LMAOLOLOMGROFLMAO
[ ] Are you a social outcast? No.
[x] Do you like Hot Topic?
[x] Do you enjoy Tim burton movies? hrt
[x] Are you mean? I can be.
[ ] Do you like to be alone? No.
Total X: 5

--SKATER--
[ ]Can you skateboard
[] Do you wear Vans? Once I wore Efnies.
[x] Do you do stupid stuff with your friends?
[x] Have you gotten in trouble with the Cops? Once I was a kid, I called the wrong person..
[ ] Do you watch the x-games? ....No.
[x] Do you like/wear a mohawk? MOHAWKS ARE AWESOME, MAN. no, i don't wear one.
[x] Do you wear Band t-shirts? .. Spice Girls. <3
[] Are you a rebel without a cause? I like to rebel hard.
[] Have you called someone a poser recently? .. Iono, people who are stereotypical are losers. ):
Total X: 5

--PREP--
[] Do you say the word "like" a lot? IT'S LIKE, OMG!~
[] Do you shop at Hollister/Abercrombie & Fitch/AEO/Aero?
[] Do the people in Hot Topic scare you? FUCK NO, WTF. D<
[x] Do you laugh a lot when you’re with your friends/girlfriend or boyfriend?
[] Have/do you watch LAGUNA BEACH?
[x] Do you like pop music?
[] Do you want/have a little dog?
[x] Do you smile & laugh a lot!
[x] Do you hang out with your friends a lot? Mhm.
[x] Do you always carry a purse/wallet? Once carried a purse a couple of times, use a wallet in my pants. Touch my leg and your hand will be torn straight off.
Total X: 5

--HIPPIE--
[x] Is your hair long?
[x] So you own a tye-dye shirt?
[ ] Do you want to save the animals? .. Uh. No comment.
[ ] You think war is unnecessary? AARRGHHH WAR BE TO YE FOR MESSING WITH ME PARROT. SCULLYWAGS! .. I don't know, war is war. I think it's pathetic.
[x] Do you like classic rock and trippy music?
[ ] Have you ever participated in a protest? ..Dun remember.
[ ] Have you ever been overcome with a desire to hug a tree? Let the ants rob my sanity.
[ ] Do you play a eukalele or bongos?
[ ] Do/have u ever smoked the peace pipe?
Total X: 3

--GANGSTA--
[] Do you act ghetto? Depends.
[] Do u wear do-rags?
[x] Do you like hip-hop?
[] Was Tupac truely the greatest rapper in the world?
[] Do you believe he's alive?
[] Do you like afros?
[x] Have you ever said "Fo Shizzle"?
[]Do you like to dance?
[] Do you own any Baby Phat or G-Unit?
Total X: 2
OHMY!

--EMO--
[] Do you cry often?
[x] Do you wear hoodies? How the fuck does this have to do with the label?
[x] Do you like soft music?
[x] Do people not understand you? I'M CRAZY, I LOVE A LOT OF THINGS. PINK AND THE GRIM REAPER. *Grim reaper comes running at her.* .... *runslikehellwtf.* I <3 creepy emily things.
[x]Do you write your own poems?
[x] Ever dyed your hair red, black or dark?
[] Slash wrists? OMGIRSOALONENCRYALOTOMGSLASHSLASHSLA-no. just. no.
[] ARE U LONELY? Are you? OHHH, BURN. ):
[] Do you like "Ohio is for lovers" by Hawthorne Heights?
[x] Do you have square (rectangle), black rimmed glasses? recircangle ): They aren't quite square, but are ovalish.
Total X: 6

--SURFER--
[... ]]> ~DreadfulEmbrace http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/9090282/ http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/9090282/ Fri, 16 Jun 2006 19:18:55 PDT
Such a great band.. Even though they are like, lesbians in the music video. Doesn't bother me. All I know, I'm so bounded to my feelings, and I want to scream as it reaps my soul and tears my flesh apart.

This song makes me think of Kad, yes, but.. Well.. Meh, I hate love so much right now. It's torturing me, but.. Yeah..

Instead of she.. it's..

All the things he said..
All the things he said..
Running through my head..
Running through my head..

Is it that I need to learn to not love him? Or is it that I need to learn for more hope? The questions that are never answered. He isn't commited, but.. God, I want to be with him. Though.. Maybe I'm just trying too hard with myself. I really don't know. My friend tells me that I need to learn. Learn what? That love like this will never die within me. And that's what I feel is entirely true..

Should I believe him? Or is it all a lie? God, why does it have to be like this? Like Dimmster said.. I don't deserve to go through as much pain as I'm going through.

..Perhaps, perhaps not..

Thank you all for caring, honestly. Thank you so much. ]]> ~DreadfulEmbrace http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/8571710/ http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/8571710/ Mon, 24 Apr 2006 13:52:32 PDT You go to hell, you damn morons.

Those who care..
Thank you..


I don't know, I just woke up feeling shitty. Very nice, isn't it? Why have I've been feeling really shitty lately? Seriously?.. God. .-.

I have a huge art block, really. So, I think I'll just go quiet and let myself die in a corner. ]]> ~DreadfulEmbrace http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/8265434/ http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/8265434/ Sat, 25 Mar 2006 13:24:33 PST
Thats what I thought, but only for things.. Now...

It seems to be proud is wrong. I never noticed how America can be.. So reckless.. I don't mean to speak badly about it, but.. Jesus Christ, don't you see what you're doing? It's wrong, and you said you'd prevent and never do genocide ever again. Look at what you're doing!

You try to blind children's eyes but all you are ever doing to their happy future is destroying it..

I was once proud of my ethnicities, especially that I'm Chinese.. But when I heard America has a possible chance of becoming enemies with China.. It really.. Just made me want to break down and cry. America is dissapointing me each more at every second, and I still prefer to spell it Amerika. It looks better in German.

I wish I had Mark by me to hug me and tell me it's alright and such. I wish I could talk to someone on the phone that I trust. I just need to get this out so badly, because I'm.. Ashamed at what I thought this country had. I still thought badly of it, but we still have our freedom.. But now, all that I heard. It just.. Makes me feel so crappy about whats happening in the real world, and how useless I feel.

People are dying everyday, whether of starvation, murder, or even disease, but by war is just pathetic. Please Bush, don't start a Genocide, and please stop the one thats happening at the very moment. Be the smart Texan we thought you were. (Or at least I was told he's a Texan..) ]]> ~DreadfulEmbrace http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/8237147/ http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/8237147/ Wed, 22 Mar 2006 13:47:20 PST
Anyways, it's been good and bad. I went down town over spring break, but like, my mom ended up spraining her ankle incredibly bad to go to the hospital and got a cast. When she fell, people stared like we just hurt her or something. But she did get a few seconds on T.V.! Like, she's in the Red Hat Society for women of the age 50 or older, and the camera flashed on her. I was so, so happy for her! I was on T.V. once, for Green Meadow.. They were showing children reading after making a book and all. I messed up and they didn't edit it out which made me so angry. I got over it, though, so yeah. But thats the only time I remember actually being on T.V..

I stayed with her the entire time and such, because I felt it would be wrong for me to stay home just like that and all. So, spend hours frustrated and worried in the waiting room. Then I spent the rest of my time with Mark and all.. I was really tired though.


It was raining today. Started while I was walking and such, talking with my friend Caitlin and this girl, Cynthia. Cynthia isn't the.. greatest of people, really, being in a gang and all and does drugs. I asked her why she wouldn't try to do it any better, and she says she can't. She tries, but basically teachers won't help her with her grades.. So she stopped and fucks it up even more. I think thats the most unintelligent thing I heard come out of her mouth. I mean, seriously! Doesn't mean you should stop trying! Caitlin is a good friend of mine, though..
She can be hyper, like me, a lot.

I want to see Stay Alive, the movie. It looks really interesting.

So far, I'm passing all of my classes, and have to walk the track 'till May because people didn't participate. I know I'm guilty for sitting down AND playing, and sometimes just because I was tired.. But most time I participated.. I got one non-dress, probably because I wore my tight green hoodie over my gym shirt. It pisses me off so much..

I'm still with Mark. It's been 9 months since I got with him! I'm so happy.. I'm just really tired, ahaha.

I found two things that I lost: My two snake rings that are made silver. Turns out they were in a box that was given for my birthday. I swear, it's so retarded. I need to find other things.. And clean my room and do laundry. I've been repeatedly wearing these jeans. How sick!(Not like people say anything..) Though, I do adore these because they look jaded and worn. They are also a darker color.. I prefer them over the others, so yeah. I also love my mushroom shirt, ahaha. 'Shrooms, man. ):

I need to get things scanned... Anyways, this is the end of the journal. Later. ]]> ~DreadfulEmbrace http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/8095935/ http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/8095935/ Tue, 07 Mar 2006 17:13:37 PST
I love school, LOL.

Anyways, yeah. I pissed someone off, and I didn't mean too.. I was just using sarcasm as I told them to stop getting me interested into something.. I didn't mean it to go all that far.. Really.
Word's can be so evil. So vicious and vile..

Anyways.

Poem, I wanted to post it in Neopets, LOL:

Soft embrace tackle down the sweet kiss
Someone asked me before they took my bliss
Throwing it down as blood mangled softly from my eyes
It hurt so much...
With each tainted word of your pitiful lies
Judge me not, filthy thing
Nothing you say has life's melody, sweet beat
Now your story comes with a deadly ending
Covered by Underworld's sheet.

Sadly, they don't let you type long. >/ But yeah.

End. (PIZZA COMING, LOLZ.) ]]> ~DreadfulEmbrace http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/8078594/ http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/8078594/ Sun, 05 Mar 2006 20:59:24 PST LOL. >>;

1. YOUR NAME SPELLED BACKWARDS?
..Uh. Sara would be Aras. Almost A Rat...

2. OBSESSIVE OR COMPULSIVE?
.. I can be Obsessive.. I don't know about Compulsive since I don't know what the fuck it means.

3. THE LAST THING YOU DOWNLOADED ON TO YOUR COMPUTER?
Some song. o_o;

4. HAVE YOU EVER LICKED A 9 VOLT BATTERY?
.. Batteries have mercury in it, you dumbass. You can be killed by one. :/

5. LAST TIME YOU SWAM IN A POOL?
Sometime during November.

6. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN A SCHOOL PLAY?
..I don't think I have.

8. TYPE OF MUSIC YOU DISLIKE MOST?
Country and Old Rock like ACDC normally.

10. DO YOU HAVE CABLE?
Yes.

11. HAVE YOU EVER RIDDEN ON A MOPED?
..What the hell is a moped?

12. EVER MADE A PRANK PHONE CALL?
No, but I called the police by accident, and maybe even the FBI due to trying to call one of my friends. For both of them. :/

13. PETS?
Dog and Guinea Pig.

14. WOULD YOU GO BUNGEE JUMPING OR SKY DIVING?
SKY DIVING!~

16. DO YOU HAVE A GARDEN?
No, but I want one. My mom has plants growing in the little area before the front door.

17. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE COMIC STRIP?
Garfield and Foxtrot

18. DO YOU KNOW ALL THE WORDS TO THE NATIONAL ANTHEM?
.. No. ._.

19. BATH OR SHOWER, MORNING OR NIGHT?
Shower in the Mornin'.

20. BEST MOVIE YOU'VE SEEN IN THE LAST MONTH?
Uh.. Final Destination 3

21. FAVORITE PIZZA TOPPINGS?
Extra Cheese or Spinach.~

22. CHIPS OR POPCORN?
Chips taste better than popcorn, unless it's cheddar or white cheddar.

23. WHAT TYPE OF DEODERANT DO YOU USE?
Suave and Adidas and suchlike.

24. HAVE YOU EVER SMOKED PEANUT SHELLS?
What the hell? HOW CAN YOU SMOKE PEANUT SHELLS?

25. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN A BEAUTY PAGENT?
.. I can't remember.

26. ORANGE OR APPLE JUICE?
Apple Juice tastes better than Orange sometimes.

28. FAVORITE TYPE OF CHOCOLATE BAR?
White chocolate ):

30. LAST TIME YOU ATE A HOMEGROWN TOMATO?
I despise tomatoes by itself.

31. HAVE YOU EVER WON A TROPHY?
Mhm.

32. IF YOU COULD BE A CARTOON CHARACTER, WHO WOULD YOU BE?
Why? I want to be myself..

33. EVER PUNCHED SOMEONE IN THE FACE?
No.

34. EVER ORDERED FROM AN INFOMERCIAL?
No.

35. FAVORITE VIDEO GAME?
Soul Calibur III, PSO Ep 1 + 2, Sims 2..

36. HAVE YOU EVER HAD TO WEAR A UNIFORM TO SCHOOL/WORK?
Yeah =\. It was brutal torture..

37. LAST THING YOU BOUGHT AT WAL-MART?
Maybe a DvD.. .. No, it was the Christmas presents x3

38. EVER THROWN UP IN PUBLIC?
Yeah. Right during Breakfast, too, at school.

39. WOULD YOU PREFER BEING A MILLIONAIRE OR FINDING TRUE LOVE?
True love. Money isn't everything, as greed is a sin.

40. DO YOU BELIEVE IN LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT?
.. Do I have to walk by you twice?

LOL, KIDDING.
Yes and no. I'm with someone, and I love them. (:

41. CAN EX'S JUST BE FRIENDS?
It all depends. If they are an asshole, don't really count on it.


42. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU VISITED IN THE HOSPITAL?
...Never been visiting in a hospital, but I broke my thumb or something and went to the ER.. And it was also for my pinkie when I fractured it. Both by the car door slamming on it!

43. DID YOU HAVE LONG HAIR AS A KID?
.. Maybe, I forgot.

44. WHAT MESSAGE IS ON YOUR VOICEMAIL MACHINE?
I don't know.

45. WHERE WOULD YOU LIKE TO GO RIGHT NOW?
To go to Bermuda and steal Mark away.

46. WHAT WAS THE NAME OF YOUR FIRST PET?
I forgot.

47. WHAT KIND OF BACKPACK DO YOU HAVE, & WHAT'S IN IT?
Some big hiker's backpack and school shit.

48. LAST INCOMING CALL ON YOUR PHONE?
.. Iono.

49. WHAT IS ONE THING YOUR ARE GRATEFUL FOR TODAY?
My love and my friends and family.

50. WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MOST?
My love, rp, fantasies.. .. School. Life.. .-.; ]]> ~DreadfulEmbrace http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/7993837/ http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/7993837/ Fri, 24 Feb 2006 20:24:48 PST If everyone learned never to lie
If everyone shared and swallowed their pride
We'd see the day that nobody died.

- Nickelback

Thats an awesome song..
God, if it's me, or what. My friend showed me something that really.. shattered my heart in the second I read it. Apparently, Cebin has Am' Roxas in her desc, so like. Yeah. wtf. Isn't Am' OOC?

Well like, SHE claims that it's IC. And then I'm getting all this shit about how another one of my friend doesn't think that Kad isn't who he really is. I don't know what to believe at the moment. All I want to do is break down and cry.

If anyone cared..
Tell me your advice on this.

I love him, but I fear him. I fear that he's going to tear me apart like David did.

help.. ]]> ~DreadfulEmbrace http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/7968523/ http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/7968523/ Wed, 22 Feb 2006 04:56:37 PST I'm not crying for attention, but I have to admit..
My heart feels cold and deserted, LOL.

I hate being wrong, I hate feeling guilt, and I hate being so overly sensitive.

You know, it's strange.. Read people journals, but then sometimes, they don't even read yours. You feel it's important, and then when they write a journal, they expect it's important. Pfft, No.

I feel like my brain's been bashed from inside out.

Don't we have the 27th off? We were supposed to have President's Day off, weren't we? What the hell is wrong with our ISD? :\ God.

You'll get useful tips from her.

For now, I will go to school. Maybe I'll write some more.. Maybe not.
..God. ]]> ~DreadfulEmbrace http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/7957112/ http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/7957112/ Mon, 20 Feb 2006 20:44:46 PST Because baby, you can't escape it.

.. I really don't know.

I'm in pure misery. My Self-Esteem or something went from alright, to absolutely shitty in two seconds..

So, I probably won't be submitting artwork, as in, drawings, but poetry, if I even feel like doing them. Someone wants to commission me, but we're going to have to hold until they get the payment.

anyways..

yeah, people who know already, thanks for standing by as a comfort..

people who don't... ..too bad. i'm not in the mood to explain.

i love you, mark. you're the only one who can truly make me happy..

...hey, why don't i post this:


Untitled

Copyrighted © to Dreadful Embrace, me.
From the darkness of it's heart
The beast remains where it lies
No soul can ever tear us apart
Not even the monstrousity
Not even it's pitiful cries
My love, bring the sword it yearns to feel
The crucifix it fears
And the blood to be spilled, Oh Yes
Save me from the undying wraith
I don't want to end up it's everlasting taste
Swing, Slash, topple on the floor
You killed the monster now, let's go through the door
Then you stopped me..
Stopped me in your tight grips, your own arms
Your breath hot, eyes wandering endlessly in mine
And then our lips meet, hypnotizing me with your charm
And then..
Then..
We lose track of god's speeding time. ]]> ~DreadfulEmbrace http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/7895444/ http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/7895444/ Tue, 14 Feb 2006 13:11:12 PST Listening to: I-E-A-I-A-O by System of a Down.


Mark and I:

My present for you:

No from me today.

Mark -->

And here's for you all:
http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/7842013/ Wed, 08 Feb 2006 21:48:33 PST
Listening to - The Way You Like It - Adema

Okay, anyways. Through Lunch, I was feeling alright and all, then I get to Fourth Period, and I somehow attain a headache. So, I go home and all, and fall asleep

Then I get this CRAZY Nightmare, like, of the grudge. I like, somehow just learned my Guinea pig was possessed and could talk, right? Well, yeah. So like, it tells me about this guy with the two evil characters from the Grudge, right? Well, it scares me, so I go to the bathroom, just hiding. She appears again, telling me and showing me some weird thing, I forgot which what it was. Well, it poofs, so I go downstairs because I'm afraid of going in my room. I think they exist in there.
Well, I go to my computer, and try to start it, and I hear some weird noise, like a closing out of a program. I was guessing they got out, and I looked around, especially turning to the stairs. Somehow, I could see it clearly, and like the shelves we normally have there are entirely gone. Entirely. All the stuff on it. Gone. And all of the sudden, I see this green eye slither down the stairs so fast. Then I woke up.

I didn't flinch or anything, or jump, I just opened my eyes. I wanted to return sleeping, since I was really tired, but like, I was afraid of continuing that dream again. I hated Ju-On. I loved it, but it scared the hell out of me, you know?

Oh: [link] for Diablos, if you haven't seen.

Anyways, I'm guessing I need to advertise more for my ports xD. And that chick needs to pay me. Lawl. I also need to do birthday presents for Sin and Pheo. I also need to do Kiriban. All this, and I keep forgetting to do it. .-.

I miss my sister Jasmine. For the VASE thing I'm working on, I mixed my blue theme with green. It reminded me of her, when she did this certain piece and used cream and this really maroonish red. Or something like that. I adore her artwork, she's so kick ass. VISIT HER, NOW.
She's so pretty and all, I envy. I must excersize more, but I was sick today. ee; God. Hopefully, I'll start really soon. I don't want to take PE anymore, and like, I wanna have a life in medical and things. Mhm. x3

Lately, I've been getting irritated so easily with a friend of mine, Farwa. I've been viewing her more annoying each day, and it's making me jump into anger and snap at her. :/ Jesus, whats wrong with me lately? I've become all.. dsoipgy 940326t RAWR. God. I need a break. From everything. .-.;

My hair is like, so straight today. Lawl. <333

Anyways, Sweet Dreams, Unprivate Diary. oo; ]]> ~DreadfulEmbrace http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/7801140/ http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/7801140/ Sat, 04 Feb 2006 15:49:21 PST
Most of all, I'm pissed off.

1] Do you have a couch in your front yard or porch? No.
2] Do you drive a four-wheeler? No.
3] Do you ride four wheelers? No.
4] Do you like to get dirty? Sometimes
5] Do you like country music? Fuck No.
6] Do you have a broken car in your back yard? I don't even drive yet.
7] Do you own a cowboy hat? No.
8] Do you live on more then 2 acres? ..Huh?
9] Do you have more then 4 different animals at your home? Uhm.. I only have a millipede, a dog, and a guinea pig living in my house.

Total Yes: 0/9

Goth

1] Do you wear black eyeliner? Yes.
2] Is most of your clothing dark? Yes and No
3] Do you think about death often? Sometimes
4] Do you want to die? Hell no. And plus, I don't want anyone to die.
5] Are you a social outcast? Not really.
6] Are you pale? Iono.
7] Do you like Hot Topic? Mhm.
8] Do you enjoy Tim burton movies? Mhm.
9] Are you mean? Can be.

Total Yes: 4/9

Skater - Punk

1] Can you skateboard? No.
2] Do you wear Etnies? I have.
3] Do you do stupid stuff with your friends? Depends. I don't vandalise normally, and I don't drink, drive, or do drugs. Nor do I murder.
4] Have you gotten in trouble with the Cops? Yep, I by accidently called them. I also once called the FBI, I think >_>; By accident. ._.;
5] Do you watch the x-games? ..What?
6] Do you have any piercings? I used to have piercings on my ears.
7] Do you like/wear mohawks? No.
8] Do you wear Band t-shirts? Yeah.
9] Have you called someone a poser? Mhm.

Total Yes: 5/9

Prep

1] Do you say the word "like"? Yeah. XD
2] Do you shop at Hollister/Abercrombie&Fitch? Hell no.
3] Do you pop the collar? ..Huh?
4] Do the people in Hot topic scare you? Uh, no.
5] Is the only nerd you like Seth Cohen? ..Who?
6] Do you watch LAGUNA BEACH? Nope. Don't even know what it is.
7] Do you like pop music? Some.
8] Do you want/have a little dog? No.

Total Yes : 2/8

Hippie

1] Is your hair long? Yes.
2] Do you own a tye-dye shirt? Yeah!
3] Do You want to save the animals? Somewhat.
4] Do you think war is unneccesary? Can be.
5] Is love essential in your life? YES. I LOVE MARK!~
6] Have you smoked pot? Hell no.
7] Do you like classic rock and trippy music? Yes.
8] Say dude alot? Yeah, dude.
9] Own a van? .. Like I said, I DON'T FRIKKIN DRIVE.

Total Yes: 7/9

Gangsta

1] Do you act ghetto? Sometimes, but very little, so no.
2] Do you wear do-rags? ..What?
3] Do you like hip-hop? Yes.
4] Was Tupac truly the greatest rapper in the world? ..Iono.
5] Do you believe he's alive? Dunno, dun care.
6] Do you like afros? Not really..
7] Have you ever said "fo-shizzle"? Uh.. I don't think I did so. Because it's sort of lame, and if I did, I was either just acting for a joke or just was.. being retarded. I find it sort of lame now.
8] Do you like to dance? Yes. But I really don't know how too. Haha.
9] Do you own any Baby Phat or G-Unit? No.

Total Yes: 2/9

Emo

1] Do you cry often? No. It's hard to cry for me sometimes, but if it's something that really hits me hard. Then Yeah.
2] Do you wear hoodies? Yes!
3] Do you like soft music? Yeah, sometimes.
4] Do people not understand you? Some don't.
5] Do you write your own songs? Have tried some times.
6] Ever dyed your hair red, black or dark? Yeah.
7] Do you cut your hair? No.
8] Are you lonely? No.
9] Is Ohio for lovers? ..I'm a New England lover of Massachusetts, and live in the southern part of America. No.

Total Yes: 5/9

Surfer

1] Do you surf? No.
2] Do you wear flip flops year-round? No.
3] Is your hair shaggy? No.
4] Do you wake up before 6 every morning? Sometimes.
5] Do you own any pairs of shorts? Yeah.
6] Are you tan? ..No.
8] Do you want to be at the beach right now? I hate showing off my skin, but in the morning, taking a walk. With Mark! <3~
9] Do you hate tourists? Not really.

Total Yes: 3/9

Geek

1] do you wear glasses? Yes! Glasses fo' ever!
2] Do you get good grades? Yes.
3] Do you use an inhaler? No.
4] Do you put calculators into your shirt pockets? No.
5] Does your mom pick out your clothes? She once did, then I wanted to wear my own things.
5] Are you on the computer often? Yes.<... ]]> ~DreadfulEmbrace http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/7704475/ http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/7704475/ Wed, 25 Jan 2006 13:16:53 PST
today, i felt a little crappy from the day before, for reasons. i go to school, have a good time all the way till lunch.. i hate chris. the fuck fuckin' touched me under my arm. it's too close to my chest, and it makes me feel.. harassed. now i'm depressed.. christian tried to pat me, but i pulled away saying, "don't touch me." he tries to make me laugh alot to make me feel better, but even laughing, i was still.. depressed and upset.
6th period i laughed alot, but in the end, i wasn't happy as i was earlier. 7th period, my friend tried to like, cheer me up in one of those.. 'mood-lifter' techniques. didn't work..

i don't know.. i feel like iming someone, but i can't even bring myself to do it or choose who.. anyways.. later.. ]]> ~DreadfulEmbrace http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/7695480/ http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/7695480/ Wed, 25 Jan 2006 04:48:48 PST LAWL, I MEANT TO PUT YORIE >_> SHIT.

1. Do you snore?
Mom told me I can.

2. Are you a lover or fighter?
What the FUCK is THAT suppose to FUCKING MEAN, BITCH?! (I love. And I hate. (: )

3. What's you worst fear?
....Trains. ._.

4. As a kid, were you a Lego maniac?
..Not really. I'd chuck some at you right now if I had some.

5. What do you think of "reality" TV?
... Iono. When I watch TV, it's movies and cartoons. Nyah~

6. Do you chew on your straws?
..Some times.

7. Were you a cute baby?
...Yes, to my sister's apparently.

8. Is the single life for you?
No.

9. What colour is your keyboard?
Black, crappy, grey boxes. boosh.

10. Do you sing in the shower?
Yes.

11. Have you ever bungee-jumped?
.. I might want too.

12. Any secret talents?
Secret? My secret! Mine!

13. What's your ideal vacation spot?
In the Old Fashion Japan, the old oriental. In China to visit the imperial type buildings.. You know.. AND ON THE BEACH, ALONE!

14. Is Jay Leno funny?
..Who the hell?

16. Have you seen the movie Donny Darko?
..Nope.

17. Do you give a damn about the ozone?
Why the hell are you messing it up?! WHY?!

18. How many licks does it take to get to the center of a Tootsie Pop?
.. What kind of frikkin question is this?

19. Can you sing the alphabet backwards?
Depends.

20. Have you ever been on an airplane?
Yes. I've been on it to Florida, and to Texas.

22. Do you prefer electric or manual pencil sharpeners?
Electric. Manual ones can be a pain in the ass, but they can be better for some utensils.

23. What's your stand on hunting?
..I don't hunt.

24. Is marriage in your future?
Yes.

25. Do you like your handwriting?
Mhm.

26. What are you allergic to?
My secret.

27. When was the last time you said "I love you"?
Just now.

28. Is Elvis still alive?
If he was brought back by a weird ritual. Which, he wasn't. (:

29. Do you cry at weddings?
..Never went to one.

30. How do like your eggs?
Over easy.

31. Are blondes dumb?
No.

32. Where does the other sock end up?
..The hell?

33. What time is it?
3:41 PM.

34. Do you have a nickname?
Sakku.

35. Is McDonalds disgusting?
It's fattening.

36. When was the last time you were in a car?
... This morning.

37. Do you prefer baths or showers?
Showers. But baths are more relaxing sometimes.

38. Is Santa Claus real?
Can't you spell Santa Clause? Sandy Klaws!~

39. Do you like having your neck kissed?
... I won't answer this.

40. Are you afraid of the dark?
No.

41. What are you addicted to?
Depends. But mainly my dear. <3

42. Crunchy or creamy peanut butter?
Crunchy! CRUUUUNNCHHYYYY!~

43. Can you crack your neck?
Most times, no.

44. Have you ever ridden in an ambulance?
.. I don't know.

45. How many times have you brushed your teeth today?
Once, because I haven't went to bed yet. =\

46. Is drug free the way to be?
Yes. (: Bite me. Drugs fucked up my sister.

47. Are you a heavy sleeper?
Yes and no.

48. What colour are your eyes?
Dark Brown, can be seen as a bloody red or with golden stripes.

49. Are you happy with your life?
Dramatic. Or weird. or creepy. I'm in love with the love of my life, though. (:

51. Who's better?
Than who? State this question correctly. :/

52. Are you psychic?
Mentally Unstabled, maybe Psychotic. Hyper, but sane. <3

53. Have you read The Catcher in the Rye?
No.

54. Do you play any instruments?
Once played the Clarinet.

55. Have you ever stolen money?
I won't answer this.

56. Can you snowboard?
No. And Snow <3~

58. Do you snort when you laugh?
No.

59. Do you believe in magic?
Depends.

60. Are dogs a man's best friend?
Can be a -little- TOO close. But, not always.

61. Do you believe in divorce?
I don't like the possibility of divorce.

62. Can you do the moonwalk?
No.

63. Do you make a lot of mistakes?
I can.... ]]> ~DreadfulEmbrace http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/7634754/ http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/7634754/ Tue, 17 Jan 2006 22:04:34 PST
Haha.

Such an addicting song. >>;

----

Anyways, I felt like writing for some strange reason.. I guess, it's not guilt thats causing me this. It's like regret, but it's not it. For some reason, I feel so damn responsible about it all, really, I do. I can't smile for so long much anymore.. I can laugh, but everytime, I just slip into that shadowy world of mine.

Emo? Gothic?

Shut the fuck up, you fuckin' loser. Stop Labeling me. I don't cut myself. (: (And for your damn info. I'm not saying that people who are considered that DO cut themselves. But their are people who had thought that of them. :\)

God, I'm changing this song. This is better. Frozen by Madonna.

I wanted to cry during this song that was played at school.. But for some reason, I didn't let myself. I didn't even know why I wanted too. I guess, I can't take how emotional I get, how cold I'm getting. I feel like falling.. Just.. Falling and never landing onto ground, until I reach death, where I'd feel my neck split in gravity and weight. I suffer. This is my consequence. Haha, this is sad..

Oh.. By the way. I'm really thinking of quitting Rping and the dream, Hollow Bastion, as well as my staff job. I'd become too much of a tyrant at this rate, and I guess this is every foe's dream of mine. One day, I might even quit the computer all together, I'm just not sure. Time will tell.

------------------

Someone once told me
How much they cared
Really, I didn't think it was imaginary
I never knew I'd be spared
This is a fault of mine, I know
With that gay saying, you reap what you sew.
Maybe so, as time developed my grief
And taken away my jaded mercy
Somehow, I got stuck between Death's teeth
And I am brought with pain into Reality
I regret nothing. Then I regret it all.
All I have to say now..
Is I'm sorry. Whats more to do?
Oh.. Thats right, live the life of mine
Knowing that without you, I would of never flew.


Now my feathers are gone
And they are what I now long
Mistake, this is what I have in my eye
I asked for it to be torn from, as a responsible for myself?
There I see, I will never lie
I wonder how this will be delt
Under the undying sun, it reigns.
The same burning emotion, of joy and hate
But under the Eye of Judgement, I will see
Maybe even, I'll be set free
Crows and Ravens, those are my favorite birds
And these are my insignificant words
"Sorry." Truly, I am.
I don't want you to be the sacrificing lamb
Religion; nothing to do with someone
But the fear will always be done.
Must I write longer?
Am I to ever remain sure?
I wasn't right. My Morality sucks.
But even with the peaceful quacks of the ducks
In the rushing river I will always stay by
Your Memory lies within the shimmering water.
And with that stream, you have my tie.

For Jacob. I don't deserve anything at the moment. I need to be taught Tolerance.

]]> ~DreadfulEmbrace http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/7616176/ http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/7616176/ Mon, 16 Jan 2006 00:34:07 PST
FUCKING
SUCKS.


k.

I guess this PMS is coming over me, because like, I got so mad, and I'm fucking tired right now. Also..

Note: I am now boycotting Hollow Bastion. I'm trying to leave it so I don't have to deal with shit there.

Thank you.

At least I got a port done today.. I just need a space for it.. .-.

I'm up for commissions, if you play Furc, and want a port space. Hell, if you advertise me, I'll do you a free one, maybe. x3

I don't feel like submitting poetry usually, since they aren't like, so kick ass. So, these are like my scraps, I guess, just in my journal. It is a journal, isn't it? I can write my feelings away in here. (:

---------------

Foolish bitch
Why do you taunt me so?
Smart ass mouth
Why can't you take the fact that you are so low?!
Damnit, why can't you just leave me be?
I always wanted to care, wanted to be nice.
Fuck it, thats over with.
You god damn wannabe
Get the hell out of my damn reality.
I don't want you to mess my life up anymore.
It's my feelings and thoughts you tore.
No longer will I accept your damn annoying personality.
And this will probably set me free.
Free from the undying spiteful lies
Now I will see the rosey skies.
Dusk will always be better than Dawn
It sets my feelings down into the darkness
Escaping destruction from my eyes.
I'm sick of you.
Just do me a favor.
One simple plea..
Just fuckin' die. ]]> ~DreadfulEmbrace http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/7612147/ http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/7612147/ Sun, 15 Jan 2006 15:28:38 PST
I need to be more known about my portraits, and always up for a commission .. Most times. ee; God. Someone still owes me.

--------------------

I wonder as I look through the glass
You will always be in my jaded past
Since when were you there for me?
Everyday, and I thought I loved you.
And I have to say, those damn words are True.
I do care for you, everyday.
But I feel torn out of your memory.
Is that what you have to pay?
Speak to me, I wonder so meaninglessly
Will I really know Morality?
Won't you take me away from me?
Right now I want to cry, for a reason I don't know
I wonder if I'm becoming that low.
Please explain to me what your feelings are
I'll listen all that far.
Today is my Dad's Birthday, can't you see?
Please tell me, thats all I really pleed.
Don't be so secretive to me, it hurts.
To withstand fear, I pull down my shirt.
It blocks my heart fraily from the insults of this world
All the crimson not touched to be swirled
I can't go on like this
It leaves me Pissed.
So just please, answer me truthfully.
Tell me whats on your mind.
I'll be your shoulder to cry on.
The bird that will sacrifice itself.
Let me know the shadows of all I have created.
Let me see the knife that I always hated.
And always will f e a r. ]]> ~DreadfulEmbrace http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/7583844/ http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/7583844/ Thu, 12 Jan 2006 14:08:59 PST

I utterly hate Chainletters.


It's not really fun, and it's boring. Zagiri and Yorie, I am really your friend, but I refuse to do a chain letter now. So Yeah, be as it be, I am stating this clearly.

To who I am friends with, to who I care too, I say the truth that I am with friendship. I don't do chain letters, because it's just some stupid game, and I'm no longer interested. Thank you for caring, thank you for being there for me. You're worth it. I most appreciate those who stood beside me when I fell. Thank you, so much.


Thats all that I will say. ]]> ~DreadfulEmbrace http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/7537405/ http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/7537405/ Sat, 07 Jan 2006 16:36:48 PST
and

I love Xemnas.

Mine.

:hrt: <-- Insert Heart there. ]]> ~DreadfulEmbrace http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/7469119/ http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/7469119/ Sat, 31 Dec 2005 16:23:47 PST

c o m p l e t e l y.


I may do ports. But yeah, Adobe pissed me off for the last time, so did my computer. I was coloring some picture that my friend did, and it was coming out WONDERFUL.. Then, crash. My computer shutted and restarted, before I got to save it.

God damnit, New Years just had it's turning point of bitchyness.

I swear, it pisses me off, SO BAD. But I learned a lesson.. Again.. I just didn't suspect it would do this. ._.;

Sorry Deathy, I'll try again some other time... ><;

Later. ]]> ~DreadfulEmbrace http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/7444998/ http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/7444998/ Thu, 29 Dec 2005 01:28:01 PST is Female
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I suppose.. this is my first time on doing this. First time I 'was' going to do it, it was on 500, hahaha.

>_>; I was... bored..

maybe i'll update the journal.

HEY, IT'S THE 555 DEAL -waits for 666- ]]> ~DreadfulEmbrace http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/7403526/ http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/7403526/ Sat, 24 Dec 2005 13:25:49 PST
I was all at camp, this weird camp, that has a lake, a beautiful one. o_o Okay

I went walking like for a tour or something, with these two tickets. Now, they were supposed to be used for two arcade games, but I really didn't care for it, and after a while, we continued on. Somehow, we repeated it, and I came by a guy, who was all bitchy. He told me this chick was stalking him for hamburgers. lmao, wtf? Then he tells me she ate 56 hamburgers, and shows me who she is. Duuude, skinny chick. Dx
So, Yeah, we go outside somehow, and I have some friends I'm chatting with, and one just was appeared to be a friend, well, we are told to leave the lake and beach, so, we do, and I just remembered I left my stuff out there by accident, so, a guard goes get it, and puts it by the steps. Well, me and my friend was chilling, with this lonely girl I sort of refused to talk to before standing at the beach, really close to the stairs. She goes up, and the guard wonders it was allowed, they say it is, well.. I asked what were in the waters at this time, like, cotton mouths, you know, those poisonous snakes.. I remember I think he said something and boas, and I was all ..wtf.. So I see something moving in the water, well, I actually examine it a second later, seeing it as a poisonous type. So, I was all edging away, and my friend was all smiling, till it's so close, I scream, "MARK, LOOK OUT!!" Really odd, right? I scream my boyfriend's name, when I thought that was my friend. He gets bitten, and passes out from the state of shock. I'm all depressed, heart sinking in fear. Two medics come over to grab him, as I get my stuff, I'm all worried, "Is he going to be okay?!" The guard nods reassuring, helping to ease my pain. The girl is helping me to get my stuff strangely, so we become friends, but.. Not soon after, I wake up from my dream.

Shit, I felt really scared, but I didn't jolt to sit up. It's just a dream.. Just a dream.. ._. It's not going to happen, not at all. God, I don't want that to happen, either way. I love my dear, very much, and if, god forbid, he dies or something unmercy happen to him, I swear. ._.;

Anyways, Yeah, that was my dream, a bit odd, right? Yeah, I came down, all sleepy, needing to use the bathroom, all the second floors are taken, so I dragged my ass down the stairs, afraid I was going to fall. I didn't shower yet, and I didn't have my glasses on, so Yeah. xD So, here I am, writing in this journal. I don't miss subscription anymore, not really. It just eased the viewing of Deviations and comments, as well added a bit to the journal. I can do without it.

Crap, I'm scared Imma fail this year. ._.;

Anyways, I just wish you all a Merry Christmas, and if i'll update this, I'll update. I think I forgot to update the other one, hahaha. x3 Anyways, yeah.

Happy Holidays. ]]> ~DreadfulEmbrace http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/7393940/ http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/7393940/ Fri, 23 Dec 2005 16:04:21 PST
Someone insulted my art and me, calling me obese and fatty, saying my art sucks. I don't care, I drove my feelings from me with two deviations. Haha.

Blame

1. What is your character's name? Sakkubi/Sakku/Sakky/Sakka

2. What kind of character is it (furry, anime, etc) and any particular race? Anime-like Sukkubus with sharp ears.

3. What is the first thing your character would think of when he/she first wakes up? ...Another day, hopefully dreary rain reigns from the skies, and lighten my day. Or Snow, Snow <3~

4. Your character's favorite outfit would be? Uhm, A long black complexion shirt with ass cape involved, just bra and underwear under, while platform boots veil her lower legs.

5. When your character looks into a mirror, what's the first thing they would notice? ..Am I ugly? ..I'm Beautiful.. Then.. Am I?..

6. Does your character have the same tastes in food as you? Yes, and eats the same.

7. How is your character similar to you? She's got EVERY FEATURE of me, my personality, looks. Everything.. 'Cept, she's skinnier than me, and not human.

8. How is he/she different? Skinny, inhuman, hawt.

9. If your character could speak, would they have the same voice as you? Yes

10. If you were to suddenly become your character, what do you think would be the first thing you would do as them? ..Love on my lover, after a long scream of joy.

11. Is there something about your character that you don't like how others think of them? ..Iono.

12. What advantages does your character have over you? She uses claws to shred flesh, while a trident in tearing people apart.

13. What disadvantages? ..She might be mistakened as a slut, and men might want to rape her for that cause. In other words, they are D E A D.

14. Do you have any secrets relating to your character that only you know? She has a nicer, kind, warm-hearted side only her love can see.~

15. Do you have any secret drawings only you know about? ..Must I answer this? >_>;

16. Do you have any plans for your character or are you working on something big relating to him/her? ..Not Really.

17. What misconception(s), if any, do people have about your character? I don't know. o_o;

18. If you could have just ONE characteristic from your character, what would it be? ...She has my characteristics, but I want to be skinny like her D:

19. Have you made any characters that go along with yours, based on real-life people, that have the same relationship with your character as you with the real-life person? ..Sort of, Yes.

20. Have you written any stories about your character? Rping, and, not really of this character.

21. How has your character changed since his/her first creation? Yes and No.




Okay, anyways, I've been changing somehow, I know it. o_o

I don't have anything else to say, so Sweet Dreams >_>; ]]> ~DreadfulEmbrace http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/7344970/ http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/7344970/ Sun, 18 Dec 2005 11:40:40 PST
Listening to: Broken
Reading: SaiYuki Vol. 3

Wow, I'm trying to not eat at all today. I hate exercising, and i know i'm getting fat. I know anorexia isn't healthy and retarded, but.. ~not even going to survive one day without eating, note.~ I'm biiiig, chuuubbbyyy, oveeerrwweiight. annoying.

anyways,

i love this subscription, but i love mark more.

I'm waiting for dad to get his ass home so I can scan this picture I worked for hours(suprising?) last night, because I got bored of waiting during Rp Posts. I started on it while watching Day After Tomorrow, one of my favorite movies, and.. Yeah. I need to draw more stuff. :< I'll update how my day goes, more than likely.~

Night. ]]> ~DreadfulEmbrace http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/7332960/ http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/7332960/ Fri, 16 Dec 2005 23:57:09 PST
Sort of late though, considering my birthday was about, two weeks ago. Lmao.

Mood: Sleepy~
Listening to: Deep Rivers

Okay, I'm repeating the header.

I can't believe it, after all this time, I suddenly FIND my mistakes >/ Effin Hell?!

Mark, I love you.~

And, Imma fail my exams..



hrt her, she did a beautiful drawing of my char. it's sexy.

All of them were fairly easy, but i made the most stupid mistakes! I put actualy isntead of actually, because I was tired, and i was all wtf, that da... ]]> ~DreadfulEmbrace http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/7317282/ http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/7317282/ Thu, 15 Dec 2005 09:54:23 PST
Sort of late though, considering my birthday was about, two weeks ago. Lmao.

The exams were fairly easy, except for some questions that left me in horror. I pray to God that I'll get a great grade to raise my average. :\

Thanks Larx for the song <3

Yeah, I procrastinate too much.

Lately, I've been so mixed up, inside and out.

I also wanted to feel more Asian. After I reviewed the video, I was all, ".... D: THOSE ASIAN CHICKS MAKE ME FEEL FAT Dx" I'm all chinese, overweight. Anyways, I think Edward called me a Fatass Motherfucker. A friend of chop chop, who I no longer am friends with. Haven't been, but I swear, theres this chick that reminds me of her, that has PALER skin than her. Shat, I want pale skin..
I heard she dropped out, though, doesn't matter to me. Anyways, I couldn't believe myself yesterday, I get jealous, and surpress my anger, but when someone nagged at me about a rule, I just broke completely and screamed. Immature, Yes, I know. But everyone is immature inside, right?

I miss my sister, Jasmine.
When she really will live in New York, Imma miss her so much. I need to take Choir in 10th grade, or something. I really want to be a singer, but I probably won't get the dream. Just trying, will also help. Anyhow, I also want to follow her career in art, since I am interested in drawing and such. It's fun. But lately, I felt I suck. I suck in coloring, compared to some people xD I can't doooo anime type shades! Just Adobe and such :< ~cries~

Yeah

Go figure

One more exam to go! IPC, and hell, Imma study tonight. This morning, it was so cold, I got my wish, but, WTF? >_>; It's all moist, hot, to devastatingly freezing. I loved it though! I was just trying to SLEEP, though >\ God.

Oh, Garnet, Thanks so much for the comfort, please let Kad know that I love him, and what he does to try to make me happy, makes me feel better inside to know that he cares. Because more than likely, I WILL forget.

Oh, I was trying to remember something..

Yeah

Deathy, what would happen if Michael Jackson came to Hollow Bastion? What about Master of Disguise's Pistachio and his grandfather? xD God, I had a creepy thought yesterdat >_>

Sweet Dreams all.~

Night. ]]> ~DreadfulEmbrace http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/7265669/ http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/7265669/ Fri, 09 Dec 2005 14:19:06 PST
This morning, I'm all, NO, I DON'T WANT TO LEAVE THE NICE, WARM, SPECIAL BED!

I get out anyways, take a shower, do my business. When I get downstairs, I'm all trying to get the rest done in 20 minutes or so, and my mom offers me for my orange juice, because I didn't want my chicken noodle soup(I think the regular is disgusting. Stars, Rice, and thin noodles are the best!~) so, I said, "... Sure." SO she brings it over, AND THEN STARTS LOOKING AT MY SCREEN. WTF?!?!?!?? hello--Hello--HELLO PRIVACY VIOLATER KTHX. Yeah, so. Mhm. I told my dad, "I really wish she'd respect my privacy!" He's all, "You don't have any privacy, only earnings and privelages." ... WTF

W
T
F

I'm all pissed, and he asks, "So when's Christmas break?" I'm all: Why? In a tone, since I don't give respect unless deserved. Screw the golden rule, if my parents disrespect me, I'll disrespect them. Anyhow, I'm all crying, and when I get to school, i just start chilling to my Mp3 Player. I'm all upset, and when the bell rings, I go to class, and ask to go to the counsler. Well, I do. She tells me to respect my parents whether I like it or not. Screw that. But I will, when I feel like it.

So, I'm all going back to class, pretty much listening to the music through-out the day. When I get to 2nd Period, during the end of it, I trip on the common thingies. So all these girls start to laugh at me, and I turn to them, "WHY DON'T YOU JUST PUT YOUR LOWER ARM THROUGH THE WINDOW?!" Like I did a few years back. Haha, I laugh at it now, for some reason. So, they are like, "SHUT THE FUCK UP." I return, "YOU SHUT THE FUCK UP, BITCH!" I'm all laughing inside, one day, they'll get it >(

So, third period flies.. then fourth.. We had to do a demonstration of a children story. >_>; So, fifth goes.. Six.. Finally Seventh xD I'm all .. Doodeedoo, doing my review for Midterms, and all of the sudden. "Pardon the interruptions teachers, and students. We are going to have an unscheduled fire drill this period, so move..." I didn't care about the rest, I got the point. When we got outside, smoke was in the air, I can breath and smell it, just not see it. Both my friend and I were coughing. And I have bad grammar at the moment because I'm so damn tired. So Yeah, Anime club right after <3

They still need to get approved. I SUPPORT THEM

KLEIN FOREST HIGH SCHOOL STUDENTS, JOIN ANIME CLUB! (or die.)

Anyhow, I get a ride home, missing Mark like no tomorrow, and I feel incredibly nauseas. That ends my nice, crooked weird day. I also saw seaguls, and screamed, "I KNOW WHERE YOU SLEEP!"

I am also a fan of Jackal from Getbackers, even though I don't even watch the Anime, and brely know about Jackal. Hahaha (kill me.)

I love you all as family. Later <3 ]]> ~DreadfulEmbrace http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/7161776/ http://DreadfulEmbrace.deviantart.com/journal/7161776/ Sun, 27 Nov 2005 19:34:52 PST
k

enough chocolate for me.


Anyhow, my life's been good, and I have a project that I entirely forgot of, and been happy with Kadaaju <3

And also was annoyed.

In general, Yeah, I've had an okay Thanksgiving, and happy late thanksgiving to you out there, and i hrt u all <3 <3 <3

Later. ]]> ~DreadfulEmbrace