http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:Dropkicker1&section=today deviantART RSS for by:Dropkicker1 en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Fri, 04 Dec 2009 02:17:59 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/27013948/ http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/27013948/ Fri, 04 Sep 2009 11:52:56 PDT very excited.

started classes on monday. CRAZY busy!
taking a commercial photo class, which is going to kill me, but i'm OK with that.

nothing new to report.
hopefully more photos coming sooooon.


brittany por vida
xoxo.



]]> ~Dropkicker1 http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/24850563/ http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/24850563/ Wed, 20 May 2009 03:39:15 PDT i'm going to be backpacking through Brazil, Argentina, Chile, and ending the two month journey in Peru.
words cannot describe how excited i am!
i will also be documenting my journey with my video camera as well as my DSLR.

wish me luck!


brittany
xoxo



]]> ~Dropkicker1 http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/23077454/ http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/23077454/ Sun, 08 Feb 2009 08:32:12 PST can't wait!!!
also i've got a sweet new camera, so maybe i'll actually start updating this thing more often.

lovealways,

brittany
xoxo.



]]> ~Dropkicker1 http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/22416368/ http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/22416368/ Mon, 05 Jan 2009 14:38:08 PST new school.
new friends.
new love...

i'm going to a new city next week (seattle).
and a new continent in june (south america).

all my flights are booked, as of yesterday.
it's just a matter of time passing to get me there.

i'm really happy right now in my life.


brittany por vida
xoxo



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more than i do this.


brittany por vida
xoxo



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three cameras will be joining me.
hooray! hooray!

can't wait!

brittany por vida
xoxo



]]> ~Dropkicker1 http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/19944238/ http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/19944238/ Wed, 13 Aug 2008 23:37:52 PDT
no looking back now; wrong or right.


brittany por vida
xoxo



]]> ~Dropkicker1 http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/17659549/ http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/17659549/ Wed, 02 Apr 2008 21:57:13 PDT i have a travel/photo blog.
you can follow me here:
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see ya!


brittany por vida
xoxo




]]> ~Dropkicker1 http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/16714383/ http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/16714383/ Sun, 03 Feb 2008 20:25:03 PST china in the summer.

things cannot get any better... or can they??


brittany por vida
xoxo.


]]> ~Dropkicker1 http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/16161894/ http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/16161894/ Sun, 30 Dec 2007 04:50:49 PST yay!
i can finally work on the pile of photo shoots i have planned. i'm ready.
some wonderful things have been going on.
i'm in love with someone really amazing. i can't see the future and i'm excited. i've been spending a lot of time with my sister-in-law, which makes me feel closer to my brother who's deployed.sometime between now and this time next year i will be living in northern california.
i have a few photos that i'll be uploading soon.
that's all for now.


brittany por vida
xoxo



]]> ~Dropkicker1 http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/15413655/ http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/15413655/ Wed, 07 Nov 2007 22:05:11 PST how is everyone??
as for me, i've moved, i have two jobs, i'm hating my current photo class... and life is pretty good.
has anyone every used a 4x5 camera? it's driving me insane trying to use that thing!!! i can't stand it. i miss my 35mm.
i'm in the process of converting my holga 120 (from the ex boy; thanks a lot) into a 35mm... so hopefully i will have some more shots to put up.
anywho, fill me in on YOU now!

lovelovelove,
brittany por vida
xoxo.



]]> ~Dropkicker1 http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/13917770/ http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/13917770/ Sat, 28 Jul 2007 18:21:57 PDT lately things have been really tense, but oddly enough i've been happier than ever.
i wouldn't change a thing.
not a single thing.

i think i'm going to be moving in with my friend and her sister and her sister's friend. there will be four of us living in a one bedroom apartment, but it'll be super cheap. we are all very happy and excited to do this.
it's like, the starting of a new era for me.

out with the shit, and in with the gold... ya dig?

i've been falling in love with pretty much every one i've met lately. and it's not a bad thing. i'm so inspired and motivated than i can ever remember being. i'm loosing interest in past relationships and friendships. i no longer think and dwell about the past, but rather look forward to what the future holds for me.
i love my life right now. and things are just starting for me.

i start a photo class as well as an art class on august 27th. i will be working in the photo lab and have a photo lecture for ten hours a week. it's going to be very expensive, but in the end i know it will all be more than worth it. i just know that right now i need to focus on what i moved here for, and my obsession at the moment is keeping a smile inside and outside.
and although my passions are changing everyday as i experience new facets of this crazy, insane, messed up, ever-changing, amazing world... i will always be that same girl who lays in the ice.


brittany por vida
xoxo.



]]> ~Dropkicker1 http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/13851806/ http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/13851806/ Mon, 23 Jul 2007 21:12:11 PDT it's a good feeling.

brittany por vida
xoxo.



]]> ~Dropkicker1 http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/13803842/ http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/13803842/ Fri, 20 Jul 2007 04:25:14 PDT
i miss the darkroom.



brittany por vida
xoxo



]]> ~Dropkicker1 http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/13615818/ http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/13615818/ Thu, 05 Jul 2007 02:59:45 PDT but when you do find out what it is, it's even more hard to get it.
i know what i want... in life.
in a relationship.
and just day to day.
although i'm not sure if i'll ever reach it.

i was at a local bookstore the other day. i picked up some random book, opened it, and read the page to myself: YOU DESERVE A FUCKING PHONE CALL!
if i deserve it, why can't i get it????
i've always hated cell phones. they wake me up in the middle of the night. they text me bad news. they cost A LOT... so on and so forth... but recently i've been obsessed with mine. i just sit there and stare at it... waiting for it to ring... or alert me that i have a new text.

it's not necessarily a call or text that i want... it's more about WHO i want that call or text to be from.... ya dig?


brittany por vida
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but the only one that's really ever going to matter is the one who truly cares about you...



brittany por vida
xoxo.



]]> ~Dropkicker1 http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/13080439/ http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/13080439/ Thu, 24 May 2007 19:07:24 PDT guess i'll just have to save my money and get another one soon.


brittany por vida
xoxo.

]]> ~Dropkicker1 http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/12894932/ http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/12894932/ Wed, 09 May 2007 01:58:32 PDT make it hot... take me over and over and over.

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but i know i'm not confused about how i feel (in song lyrics, of course!)

carry me home, the night is dark and long. i think i'm done with all the people taking part. so i move much closer, i don't mind. and i leave a mark on your face, i don't mind, no. my heart it grows. fallin'. fallin' in. i've fall'n in love with you.

it's a pretty song...


i'll be posting some photos soon. i took a bunch at coachella fest. both digital and 35mm.


brittany por vida
xoxo.

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and life is really confusing right now.


brittany por vida
xoxo.



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my roommate read my journal aswell as went through all my stuff when i was gone for the weekend...

i'm loosing interest in life and the human race.


brittany por vida
xoxo.



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]]> ~Dropkicker1 http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/12410493/ http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/12410493/ Sun, 01 Apr 2007 02:38:11 PDT make it hot... take me over and over and over.

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so what happens when you find someone you think you could be with for the rest of your life?
they could possibly be a little insecure and crazy... but, well, who isn't?
there is not and never will be perfect. if you try to change someone, it's you that, in the end, will do all the changing to yourself.
it's only taken me about 18 years and talk over the phone on the rooftop(with an amazing friend); gazing out over the west l.a. skyline at 12am, to figure that one out.
well i'm scared as shit, as usual. and i know i want something more outta what we have, but i feel too weak to go for it.

this picture is far too big to look at, my eyes won't open wide enough.
maybe soon, though.


brittany por vida
xoxo



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]]> ~Dropkicker1 http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/12383812/ http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/12383812/ Fri, 30 Mar 2007 02:34:41 PDT make it hot... take me over and over and over.

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whoa,

so i haven't updated anything in a looong time..
and boy, did they really change the uploading process of this site!

not too sure if i prefer it much.

but hey,
i finally have new stuff!

hooray!

brittany por vida
xoxo.



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]]> ~Dropkicker1 http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/12214493/ http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/12214493/ Sat, 17 Mar 2007 03:03:47 PDT make it hot... take me over and over and over.

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since i'm not taking a photo class this semester and migh not be taking one this summer either, i've planned two rather big photo projects that i'll be working on my own.
i'm pretty excited about it, but it's not all planned out yet so i won't go into details now.

also i got my nose pierced today.
i really like it.
i'll probably have a picture of it sometime within the next week or so.

happy st. patty's day!



brittany por vida
xoxo.




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]]> ~Dropkicker1 http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/12075709/ http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/12075709/ Tue, 06 Mar 2007 01:33:58 PST make it hot... take me over and over and over.

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so this past sunday i was feeling bored and really lazy. so when i woke up i got changed, grabbed my camera and hopped on the bus heading east towards downtown los angeles.
i ended up going to this park in westlake, it's called MacAuthor Park. it's a real neat place. i like it a lot.
the first time i went there was when i had to get off the subway because there was abomb threat. i was on my way home enroute to union station to catch a train.
it's not the safest place. and i'm sure that it was the first time most of the people there had ever seena white girl... i've never gotten so many stares.
well i shot some stuff.
there was a bunch of soccer games going on, so i got a few shots of that.
and then there was this really really sweet theatre, but it's now been turned into a swapmeet. it looks so cool, so i got a shot or two of that.
i still have about 9 shots left on the roll, so i won't have them posted on here for probably another week or two.

i don't feel anymore, but it's a good thing.... in some weird unexplainable ( i just spelt that word wrong) way it's a good thing.

brittany por vida
xoxo.



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i don't feel anymore.


brittany por vida
xoxo.



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]]> ~Dropkicker1 http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/11606201/ http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/11606201/ Mon, 29 Jan 2007 00:17:25 PST make it hot... take me over and over and over.

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yeah, man!

brittany por vida.
xoxo



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]]> ~Dropkicker1 http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/11559504/ http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/11559504/ Wed, 24 Jan 2007 23:24:54 PST make it hot... take me over and over and over.

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why do i still feel sad about something that happened so long ago?

brittany por vida.
xoxo



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]]> ~Dropkicker1 http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/11483529/ http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/11483529/ Thu, 18 Jan 2007 15:00:51 PST make it hot... take me over and over and over.

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i'm printing. more
and more
and more
and more
and more
and more.

this is outta control, man!

my photo class is intense, but i really like it.

much better taking it in winter session rather than the regular semester.

i'm dropping my english class in the spring so i can fit a photo class in.
is that bad?
yeah.

fuck it.

first day of work today!
later.


brittany por vida.



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]]> ~Dropkicker1 http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/11448133/ http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/11448133/ Mon, 15 Jan 2007 13:32:26 PST make it hot... take me over and over and over.

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so i met this guy in my speech class. we started talking. he's from the philipines and he's been living in the u.s. for four years now. anyway, i mention something to him about how i wanted to teach english overseas... well, he said his grandfather works in the governement in the philipines,,, and he could probably find me a job there!
maybe i'll meet you afrodshock, sometime in the near future?!?!

i'm really excited for the future.

my camera now goes wherever i go.

i finally have job.

life has been interesting lately.


brittany por vida.



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]]> ~Dropkicker1 http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/11362760/ http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/11362760/ Mon, 08 Jan 2007 13:28:53 PST make it hot... take me over and over and over.

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today i was sitting in my speech class, it's focused on group communication.
well anyway, we were talking about relationships and how to communicate with people whom we are in a relationship with (friendship, marriage, dating, anything).
it really got me thinking.

i want marriage. i want kids. i want a career. i want friends.
i want all of that but with none of the people that are in my life right now, or have ever been in my life.

i love my friends, but i can't honestly say that i trust them.

i've been doing a lot of thinking lately.


brittany por vida.



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]]> ~Dropkicker1 http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/11295829/ http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/11295829/ Wed, 03 Jan 2007 00:42:57 PST make it hot... take me over and over and over.

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fuck you 2006!!!!!

glad i made it through new years eve, and am still alive and well.

i can confidently say that my life is INSANE!

but i'm really liking it.

here's to a new year, new friends (hopefully!), and new experiences.


*ching-ching*



brittany por vida.



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i'm back to los angeles tomorrow... and for some odd reason, i'm really looking forward to it.
i start my photo class on the 2nd... that's one thing i'm not looking forward to, though.

blahblahblah.


brittany.



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i've never really liked the holidays... and i haven't really gotten into the "holiday spirit" since i was about 8 or so.
i think it's mostly because i don't understand it all.


fuck the holidays.

i'm just waiting for this month to be over.



oh by the way, MERRY XMAS


brittany.




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i came home for the weekend to study for finals and clear my mind.
my mom surprised me with a casset tape of no doubt's Tragic Kingdom!
hoooooray!!!!!!!

oh, and i finally know what i want!

brittany.



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]]> ~Dropkicker1 http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/10915293/ http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/10915293/ Fri, 01 Dec 2006 16:01:02 PST make it hot... take me over and over and over.

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brittany



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why is it that the one person i need/want the most is the one person i'll probably never speak to or see again?

my heart is aching all over again and i'm falling apart.
i wish i didn't feel this way.

any words of wisdom or advice?
i could really use it now.


brittany.



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i haven't been home in over a month. but wednesday night i'll be going back home for a few days. i'm really looking forward to thanksgiving.
things have been crazy around the apartment these past few weeks. actually things have been crazy in general.
but i'm moving out in january. to a new place. with new roommates. things can't get any worse, so that's something to look forward to.
i've been drinking sosososo much. next time i'm going to bring my camera with me and see how my pictures turn out when i take them intoxicated.
that should be interesting.

hm.

brittany.



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i haven't been to my photo class in about a month.
i've lost all motivation.

los angeles is sucking me dry.

my camera hasn't been used since the 2nd week of august.
i've lost all interest.

i think i'm giving up.

has this ever happened to you??


brittany.




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i'm sitting in my schools library where i should be doing homework, working on my photo assignments... but i'm not.
i started watching "dead man walking" last night while i was here again. then i finished it today. i also checked out a book called "lolita". seems interesting.
this past weekend was pretty intense. my birthday was on thursday... and i celebrated it... every night this weekend. a lot of really fucked up things happend. but i guess the bad always comes with the good.
los angeles is not really a fun place... actually, mostly just the people here. no one is friendly. i met this really cool person, but he ended up turning out to be a complete fuck face. oh well...

woe is me,

brittany.



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i'm drained,,,

oh but i like it!




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in three days i will have a new place to call "home".

i'm finally moving to Los Angeles! i'm so scared, nervous, but most of all excited!!!

i won't have a scanner, so i'll probably only update once a month, maybe twice.

well i gotta get to packing, i have LOTS more to do!!!


brittany.



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i dunno if i like the new dA layout... maybe i just need to get used to it?

okay, to everyone who i promised a mirah cd: the cd is being put together as we speak!!!
if you sent me your address, i'll let you know when it's done and sent.
there probably won't be a return address on the package because i'm moving soon and i have no idea what my new apartments address is so i'm gonna confirm that you gave me the right address before i send it.

ok, i think that's all i have to say for now.


brittany.




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check this out...
this is my bf and i... not the most flattering picture, of course

maybe it's just me, but doesn't this picture also look like us...?

this kinda looks like us, right?

brittany.



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okay guys.. this is rafchel. she wants to write a journal for all of you. because we are druk and she is one of my good friends, okay?
you're all pretty an di love you, now listen to rachel. huh? yeah!

dude yr fucking stupid if uyou dont listren to lady sovereign. hey brittany fridnds wwee the guys from the philipines: yr rlly cool and breittNT THINKS SO TOOOOO! tiba: britna sats she likes talking to you ok?~!!!! welll acll you after we makr yr liverjournal pic! BLAKE:britany thinks yr cute and me 2. NOWWWWWWWWw can write sometihg that s not mean. breathing cfeels tso fgodd. i want to tak an otjher wokat ito thwe brees. blake i love you please bone your sister. k?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yr sistter is a virgn. thats noteven mean im just sayting ok? talk toyou soon gopefilly sorey i dont have a t5hing i love toy all <33RACHEL!!!!!

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]]> ~Dropkicker1 http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/9422911/ http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/9422911/ Wed, 19 Jul 2006 04:39:06 PDT make it hot... take me over and over and over.

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that's amy, andrew and me.
we went bowling and took pictures at this little photo booth. then afterwards just drove around for like 3 hours. amy let me drive her car for most of the time. it was great! i don't have my license, and i've only driven once before (in a small parking lot).
it was sooooooooooooo fun!!! i was really paranoid about getting pulled over, but god was it worth it!!

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]]> ~Dropkicker1 http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/9317104/ http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/9317104/ Sun, 09 Jul 2006 00:33:06 PDT make it hot... take me over and over and over.

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my heart is full of hope and wonder, and an awful fear of boys who show any interest towards me that is more than plutonic.
yet,
that is exactly what i want.
my heart is full of art, love, freedom, acceptance and intimacy.
yet,
i can't seem to express any of those.
intimacy in particular.
i'm falling over. i need something real. i want full time. i want serious, but no one else does.
stability is what i am,
and you need it.
what the fuck is wrong with people these days?
are you there god? it's me, brittany. the little girl who doesn't believe in you; i'm gonna ask you something good: what the fuck is wrong with people these days?
answer honestly, please.
my heart, in reality, is full of emptiness.
torn apart by a familiar someone who is now an unfamiliar no one..
it aches so much.
my eyes seem to water more often then usual.
i hate this gutted feeling.
lately i feel homesick, though i'm home all day.
i need comfort. i want to be close.

i just really need a remedy from all this emotional agony.
any suggestions?

brittany.



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]]> ~Dropkicker1 http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/9204968/ http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/9204968/ Tue, 27 Jun 2006 22:00:39 PDT make it hot... take me over and over and over.

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...is what i am.

i was so bored today, i cried.
it was weird.

i swear i only cry like once a year, and i've cried like 30 times this year... i can't cry for another 30 years.

i want to be hugged again. i want someone to warm my cold hands. i want late night phone calls (when i'm sober). i want a lot of things. am i being selfish?? it feels like it. i want to sleep with someone really great for more than one night and feel good about it, not feel like i'm lying. it doesn't feel like that's possible anymore... is it?
lately i've been really blunt and honest. i need to be like that more often.
i need to talk more too. and drink more.
you know, a couple weeks ago i got really, really wasted. i mean i was fucking shit-faced, and that doesn't happen very often at all. but anyway, i called A LOT of people that night. i felt so good. i haven't felt happy since my relationship ended with my ex, but i was so happy. i called so many people and told them i loved them. it was really great. it's pathetic that i need something mind altering to make me happy, isn't it?
i went camping at the beach with my parents for five fucking days!!! it was weird. they both can't stand to be around me for that long... but the feeling is mutual. i love them, i'm not gonna lie, but there's only so much of some people you can take, you know? well, anyway, i (of course) brought my good ol' camera with me. took a few shots. i still have to get them developed, but i should have some new post soon.

ok, so there's this singer named Mirah.
SHE IS AMAZING!
if you note me your address, i'll send you a mix cd of her stuff.
and don't worry, i'm not gonna go to your home and like kill you , or send you a bomb or anything... just some good, clean, honest music.
so do it, send me a note with your address, i promise you won't regret it. i love introducing people to new things, especially music.

and if you want a drunken phone call, note me your name, and phone number with your area code!



brittany.



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]]> ~Dropkicker1 http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/9052385/ http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/9052385/ Tue, 13 Jun 2006 00:18:11 PDT first off, i just want to thank everyone that take the time to comment on my photographs and journals. it really means a lot to me. you guys all let me know that you're listening. and whether your feedback is positive or negative, i love it.
thanks!!!

ok...
so i graduated!!!!





...and i ended the night with a big smile!
that night was probably one of the best nights. for obvious reasons.

"so now what's next for brittany?" you ask...
(in no particular order and some not anytime soon, of course)
1. get my career going.
2. get married.
3. start a family.
4. drive a mini van.
5. travel the world.
6. retire.

my mom and i drove 3 hours to go to the college i'll be going to in august.
it's a mile from the beach, which is pretty much the only thing i'm looking forward to. to be totally honest with you, a college degree isn't really on my "goals to accomplish" list. (really, it isn't).
school has just been something i've never been interested in. but, i'm gonna try it. that seems good enough, right?
while we where there, i also looked at some apartments and rooms to rent. it's really exciting, but at the same time kinda depressing.
like, it's weird to think that in about 2 months i'm gonna be living all alone.
it pretty much scares me to death.
what am i gonna do if something happens? my parents are going to be 3 hours away.
who am i gonna talk to when i really need someone to talk to? i've already lost one person, and i feel like i'm loosing another.

i know i say this all the time...
but,
life is fucking weird.

like my mood says: i feel like i've been emotionally raped.
don't get me wrong, i've really been having good times lately. but i feel so numb to emotions. like they're all gone... please come back, yeah?
hopefully this passes soon.
i just feel really uncomfortable. and i don't ever want to get close to anyone again.

okay. i'm gonna stop right now before i get too stupid and emotional and all that uglee shit.

well, whoever reads this, thanks.
really, thanks.



brittany.



]]> ~Dropkicker1 http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/8970757/ http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/8970757/ Sun, 04 Jun 2006 17:09:20 PDT i'm sick.
i'm sick of this life, and this place and most of all the person i've become.
things changed fast. i don't like it.
i want to leave this place and never look back. i want to spend as much time possible with my friends. i want to meet new people. i want to forget about the goodtimes because it only hurts. i know i'll never get them back. i want to have the best summer ever. i want to be the Queen of summer and never take off my swimsuit. i wanna live. i wanna party. i want to kiss everyone. i wanna drink till the sun comes up. i want to consume illegal substances. i don't want to pretend everything is okay, i want everything to be okay. i wanna love. i want to go through as many rolls of film a week as someone would go through in 5 months. i want make money. i want spend money. i want to go to the indio street fair every saturday and wednesday night and buy candles and underwear and watches. i want to sleep outside every night. i want to lie, cheat and steal. i don't want to be just a good girl anymore. i wanna get in trouble and loose the trust that my parents never had with me. i wanna write letters and postcards and mail packages. i don't wanna be angry. i don't wanna cry about something/someone who doesn't care. i wanna bake and decorate. i wanna move into my own apartment already. i wanna start college. i wanna make a nice home for my turtle. i wanna have fun.

i want to choose life.



brittany.


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really, it was...

and yes, i do.



brittany.



]]> ~Dropkicker1 http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/8656097/ http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/8656097/ Tue, 02 May 2006 19:52:29 PDT wow.
so sunday was probably the best day of my life... and i think i can die now... really, i can.
i went to the coachella music and arts festival, and it was amazing. i got to see a bunch of bands, and i took sooo many pictures (i'll be uploading some very soon). ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! i got to see 3 of my favourite bands: METRIC(!!!!), Sleater-Kinney, and the Yeah Yeah Yeahs. they were all fucking great!!! i also saw james blunt, he was pretty good, although his set was a little mellow and slow. but i was front row for both him and Metric's show.
i really do feel like i can die now.
i also got to see madonna. there was so many people so it was really hard to actually see her, but i was there. my friend and i left before Massive Attack played, so i missed out on them, but it's cool. that just gives me an excuse to go to one of their shows.

so i'm feeling a little nervous/anxious. next week on thursday i'll be having an art show (with a bunch of other people too) at my school. i'm excited, but i'm also a little nervous about getting all my photos. i gave 5 to this scholarship thing, and i have yet to hear back from them, and they still have my prints. i'm not sure what to do about that. but i'm also very, very, very excited to put my show together. everyone gets part of a wall, and the part i got happens to have a window. so i'm turning my space into the outside of a house with a window. i covered the window with yellow paper, and i'm going to add some sheer curtains, and then around and below the window i'm going to put up some paper which i will have painted bricks on them. then on the floor in front i'm putting a long flower pot to go across, and i'm actually going to put real flowers in it the day before the show. then as for my photos, they're going to be in the "window" part of the house. i can't wait to get it all finished!! i just hope it turns out the way i want it to, i guess i'll just have to wait and see.

well, i hope everyone had as good of a weekend as i did!

brittany.

]]> ~Dropkicker1 http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/8584451/ http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/8584451/ Tue, 25 Apr 2006 18:03:41 PDT err, at least close to being official.
i'm moving to santa monica to go to santa monica college (it's a community college)... and major in photography... and then hopefully transfer to UCLA, or maybe USC. i dunno, haven't decided yet.

i just gotta find an affordable apartment... or a roommate... any takers?? i swear i'm cool to live with, just ask my parents!!!
i won't be moving till august. and i’m going to apply to this coffee place, so that’ll give me sometime to save up a little bit of money.

i can't wait to get out of this place. ugh, i'm going insane here.
i'm going to miss a lot of people, though. but 'll visit.

brittany.

]]> ~Dropkicker1 http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/8505399/ http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/8505399/ Mon, 17 Apr 2006 22:42:02 PDT i'm rude.

and

i'm selfish.

and it's ruining everything in my life.
i don't deserve anything good that i have.


brittany

]]> ~Dropkicker1 http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/8305152/ http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/8305152/ Wed, 29 Mar 2006 13:36:24 PST so i'm in photo right now... and i'm soooo bored.

so i'm here...

brittany.

]]> ~Dropkicker1 http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/8183086/ http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/8183086/ Thu, 16 Mar 2006 21:28:38 PST honestly... who wouldn't help??

[link]


brittany.

]]> ~Dropkicker1 http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/8173881/ http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/8173881/ Wed, 15 Mar 2006 23:31:14 PST
fuckin' finally!!!

i started cleaning my room today.

about damn time!!!!

i found a lot of weird shit that i forgot i had....

2 bathing suits... (my slutty one from Las Vegas (i fucking hate that city!!) and my not so slutty one (actually, it is still kinda slutty) one from target.

3 sets of earrings... (i was trying to stretch my ears, like different tribal people, and then i lost them all... i woulda looked cool with big ear lobes)

countless envelopes of pictures... (eventually i'll sort through them)

tampons EVERYWHERE!! (i swear, i felt like i was on the tampon isle at target... it was insane)

probably well over 100 of those plastic circle things that hold rolls of film... (you know, those black things? i think i was saving them up to give to my photo teacher. she said she'd give me extra credit if i brought some in)

about 5, yes, count it: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, bath towels... (why do i have so many bath towels in a bedroom?? sometimes there is just no answer to a question)

i don't even want to begin to think about how many freakin' art school books i had all OVER the floor!! (they were practically my carpet.)

i threw out 2 garbage bags of stuff that was just laying all over my floor...

true story.

and there is so much more that i found, but i'm too tired and too lazy to think... oh, and i'm not even finished cleaning. lucky me, i know what i'll be doing this weekend.

oh yeah, i just shot a roll of colour film and got it processed, so i should have some more stuff coming soon... just depends on how lazy i am within the next few days.

well it's time for me to go beddy-bye.


ciao.

brittany

]]> ~Dropkicker1 http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/7967533/ http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/7967533/ Wed, 22 Feb 2006 00:03:57 PST i have nothing left... no music... it's all gone... all 3,862 songs.

i have no photography... that's all gone too. well, for now it's on a cd that won't load right.

there is nothing left.

i fucking hate technology.

bill gates should be castrated. stupid fuck-face.

brittany

]]> ~Dropkicker1 http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/7851241/ http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/7851241/ Thu, 09 Feb 2006 21:39:59 PST (yeah, that hooray is a sarcastic one)

the time has come... yes, it's finally that time for me to become another productive member of society and step back into the work force. it's been long overdue. i need a job. and a job i shall get this weekend. i need some moo-la, cash, dough, money to burn, you know what i'm saying? i'm going to this two day concert here in my area, it's called the Coachella valley music and arts festival. some of you may have heard about it. the tickets are $85 a day. i already got a ticket for the 2nd day, (i just about shit myself when i found out they added Massive Attack!!!!!! AND Metric, yessss!!! METRIC!!!! sooooo happy!!!) but i would like to go the first day, although i can't afford it. ebay as taken hold of my life and bank account. i warn you: DO NOT GET A PAY PAL ACCOUNT AND GO SHOPPING ON EBAY!!
so anyways, i also plan on getting a digital camera and/or a video camera. if i play my cards right this weekend i'll be working in retail again, hot damn, i'm excited... wah-wah-waaaaaaaaah.
and also, i won't be submitting for a while. i decided that i'm going to just submit a bunch of work allllllll at once. so please do pardon the absence of work.

brittany.

]]> ~Dropkicker1 http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/7822348/ http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/7822348/ Mon, 06 Feb 2006 19:08:20 PST i think i am a feminist. yeah, that's right, a feminist.
recently i was conversing with one of my friends, and i came to realize that i, actually we, are feminist. i never really saw it before, but when i really think about it, my logics and reasons really show it.
i am a strong believer that a man or woman shouldn't support each other, but rather themselves. for instance my friend Bonnie... all she wants to do is get outta school, get married, have babies, and have her husband support her. that's cool for her and everything, but there is no way in hell i would ever do that. it's 2006, not 1950, you know what i mean? it's like... make yourself happy, then others, you know? like i absolutely despise people in relationships who freakin' live for each other. ugh, it's so ridiculous, it makes me sick. i've been raised to be so independent that i would never be able to handle something like that. clinginess, attachment, all of that annoys me. it's like you're one person, and i'm another, we are not one. please keep it that way.

ok, enough of that!!!

i'm going to start this new project. i'm not sure what the title is going to be, but i wanna have it all done by at least April. so i have a good 2 months or so.
i'm going to compile photographs that i have taken of smoke, ciggs, smoking, you know, tobacco, stuff like that. i have taken a liking to people smoking in photographs. it's not so much the smoking that is being done, but rather the smoke that is just floating around. i really, really like it. weird, huh?
i also wanna order a cheap (really cheap!) underwater camera and try some underwater stuff. maybe not even underwater, but just photographs that involve water.
smoke and water... i really like them both.

i don't really know what i'm going on about, but i'm really starting to like these journal things.

brittany.

]]> ~Dropkicker1 http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/7813913/ http://Dropkicker1.deviantart.com/journal/7813913/ Sun, 05 Feb 2006 21:38:42 PST I was tagged by: Frejyasdaeg


1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4.
"… complete guide to San Diego’s religious…”


2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can.
I touch nothing but air.


3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?
“What Not To Wear”

4. Without looking, guess what time it is:
9:45pm


5. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?
9:18pm

6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
Double Decker Supreme by Gravy Train!!!!


7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
A few hours ago to call my dog in.

8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
[link]


9. What are you wearing?
Green pants, pink shirt, black zip-up jacket.


10. Did you dream last night?
Yeah


11. When did you last laugh?
I think it was on the phone last night. Don’t remember.


12. What is on the walls of the room you are in?
A poster of the Beatles, Paris, and a big flyer I got from UCLA about the Vietnamese New Year (it was so cool I had to put it up)


13. Seen anything weird lately?
A picture of my friends boyfriend.


14. What do you think of this quiz?
I FUCKING Love it!!!!


15. What is the last film you saw?
Groundhog Day.


16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?
A plain ticket to Cambodia, then a rail pass when I get there.


17. Tell me something about you that I don't know:
I paint my nails about 2-4 different colours a week. Weird, yes, I know.

18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
I would wish that more people could be like Princess Di.


19. Do you like to dance?
Yeah.


20. George Bush?
Who?
Oh, right, the president.


21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
Juliana.

22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
Boris


23. Would you ever consider living abroad?
Yes!


24. What is your Fav thing in your house?
Probably my turtle ling-Ling.


I tag:
1) phenomteabz
2) afrodshock
3) ZombiexXxKisses

brittany.

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