http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:E-Nigma-El&section=today deviantART RSS for by:E-Nigma-El en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Wed, 09 Dec 2009 23:28:17 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://E-Nigma-El.deviantart.com/journal/21016958/ http://E-Nigma-El.deviantart.com/journal/21016958/ Thu, 16 Oct 2008 13:24:47 PDT
After quite some time I've started my study at the Ruhr-University in Bochum. Quite some strange feeling being a student. The university is...freedom in a way, although it is a kind of school it's the first time in my life that I'm really given the choice - school was a kind of duty back in the "old days" and civilian duty...well it's not called duty for nothing.
But now here I am, free to decide what to to, where to go, what to learn.

But I do feel home as well now. I've got to know many nice people in the past few weeks (I have attended the preparations in September and now have started the real thing at past Monday), who all share common interests, common knowledge and more or less common goals in life. Actually I kinda feel as a part of a group for the first time.

Kind of ironical is, that I, being an writer and poet, will study a subject of logic and maths - IT-Security and -Technology. It sounds complicated, but is quite fun. Actually we all kid around being hackers-to-be *g*


But there is not only freedom...my friend, asked in one of his deviations about love ([link]) and that is something that has kept me busy for the last weeks.

Love is a strange feeling...I mean, I've been a really _happy_ single for so many months now...almost one year, since my last girlfriend left me for another guy. I...didn't really miss it being with someone, I had my friends, I had the civ-duty and then my work (EDV-Assistant, part-timer) and never really had the time to think about it...

But then one day and everything changes. Suddenly there is one person, telling you three little words...and then...what do you tell in that case? I dunno, was my first time...just...staying friends...it sounds easy and plausible, but it is a hard time for both of us I guess. But I know her, she'll be alright, she is strong.

Me on the other hand...heh, I had my reasons to reject her in the end, but after all I'm a lonely wolf. Memories can taste bitter, as can possible missed chances. And yet destiny can be sadistically ironical. After all this time there is now a single person, someone I just met that gives me a strange kind of happiness when she's around. Even if I'm in the saddest mood, even if I am desperate...if I see her name blinking, read her simple, kind words and I cannot else but smile.

Heh, life is full of surprises...I really dunno what the future brings, I'm not even sure of my own feelings in the present, but in a way I am happy...happy because of a feeling long forgotten, a bittersweet one. Who knows, maybe it will be the wonderful feeling it used to be again.

]]> ~E-Nigma-El http://E-Nigma-El.deviantart.com/journal/17602667/ http://E-Nigma-El.deviantart.com/journal/17602667/ Mon, 31 Mar 2008 08:52:10 PDT Finally have finished my civilian service today. On the one hand I'm really happy, since now I am relieved of this duty and can concentrate on my future - means, study. Yet I kinda miss it now, that it's over. The last 9 months were something new to my life and I think I matured due to the experiences that I made during my duty.

Well, for now I have one month free time to relax and to get new energies for the things, that are yet to come.
I'm going to write more poems and maybe other works during that time too, so I hope that I finally will be able to update this account more regularly.

By the way, everyone who wants a poem or a short ballad done, you can write me and tell me every strange idea or wish you have! I won't say, that I will do them all, but if it's an interesting idea and I have the time and inspiration, I will sure try!

So...thanks to all my watchers for watching me and letting me know, that someone cares about my works ^^

Till the next time...

]]> ~E-Nigma-El http://E-Nigma-El.deviantart.com/journal/16238073/ http://E-Nigma-El.deviantart.com/journal/16238073/ Thu, 03 Jan 2008 10:33:36 PST
First of all a late 'Happy New Year!!!' from me. And for all those wondering, yeah, I'm still alive and will be submiting things again soon. Ehm....well....extremely lacking ideas what to write....eh...ah, yes XD I've been tagged by


The rules:
1. Post all the rules!
2. Write eight things about yourself.
3. Post these things into your journal.
4. Tag eight other people.
5. Visit their journals so that they have NO excuse not to do it!

I leave out 4&5, if anyone wants do do it - consider yourself as tagged! XD

1. I'm a complete nerd and proud of it
2. I'm currently doing my civilian service at an old people's home
3. I love sweets
4. my favourite colours are black and white
5. I'm afraid of dogs
6. I simply love cats and hamsters
7. I never understand why people like my poems XD
8. I usualy use a melody when making poems to lead me


Well...so much for today. Is it just me or am I awfully hyper and confused today? ^^'
Anyway, bye, till the next time *winks*

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