http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:Eatshit2&section=today deviantART RSS for by:Eatshit2 en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Thu, 17 Dec 2009 00:44:23 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/5921685/ http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/5921685/ Wed, 13 Jul 2005 09:20:29 PDT auto-da-fe ]]> ~Eatshit2 http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/5471395/ http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/5471395/ Sun, 19 Jun 2005 15:42:19 PDT
I'm not updating my gallery anymore.

I know I only have maybe 3 actual watchers so sorry to you few people... oh well, I'll still comment on your photos, that's all that matters.


edit: how is it possible that I'm still getting pageviews even when I don't update? ]]> ~Eatshit2 http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/5419415/ http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/5419415/ Sat, 21 May 2005 09:11:12 PDT [link] ]]> ~Eatshit2 http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/5402413/ http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/5402413/ Thu, 19 May 2005 13:15:24 PDT




I wish I could just lay outside somewhere and not be seen.
I'm having trouble sleeping. I miss sleeping at the park...
I stayed up till 4:30 am today. It was horrible. I kept wanting to just take and axe and chop at my window frame.

This video project is really stressing me out. Having the teacher waste my time with trying to understand my video concept and then trying to get the class in on my idea too, just to change the whole thing around and then change it right back and then she has the nerve to get on my back about how I have to get it done this week pisses me off.

My group is no help either, they had no opinions except Mike and he's psycho. If I put the camera in their hands they'd just ask, "what do I do? what are we doing?" and I don't have time for that.

My eye twitches alot now. I sometimes feel like pounding my head to make it stop. Fudduddgge... there it went again.

I can just picture myself, going on a killing spree. I really have no way to release my frustration so it builds up. These thoughts of attacking people and things with axes shows no sign of a healthy mind.

They say, "hit a pillow!" but I just can't. I used to tear paper but then I'd feel bad for wasting paper or I'd break beer bottles but then I'd feel bad for making a mess.


I need a date to my sister's wedding, I have a feeling I won't be able to get one.

So depressing....


I can't wait until June. I will be seeing NoFX, hopefully with Adam, if not, what's his face will go, if he's not working. Then summer will be here, and I'll go visit what's his face and maybe Ren too because he has a car and is nice too hehe.

Oh, I just made myself feel a little better. Gosh darnit, where's a time machine when you need it?! ]]> ~Eatshit2 http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/5350086/ http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/5350086/ Fri, 13 May 2005 18:12:25 PDT
I got so many amazing shots tonight but errrrrrtgdfjdals;faja... 90% of them came out blurry. Like... FUCK!

I need a tripod, can I have yours?



Tonight was sad. I killed a couple snails. I cried. I didn't know they were there! And then CRUNCH! .

Poor little thingies. I love snails... I kept apologizing to them as I walked along the trail.

I thought maybe, I'd feel better when I came home to see all the cool shots but... they all were crap. All blurry. I had some amazing close ups of snails on the long grass, very nice bright clear dew drops. They were so pretty! It was getting dark and the drops reflected off the grey sky which lit them up.


BOOOURNS.

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I wish Adam and me could work together, they split us up because we both have these "leadership skills". Bah.

Booourns. I want someone else to lead.

I wish Alex was around. He has the sweetest voice and we could have long passionate sex and all that jazz.


The health nurse talked to me today. It was nice. She wasn't old and yah, she herself was nice. I don't need help but it feels nice to have someone to talk to if I need to talk about anything.
I don't have to get counselling which rules most of all .

]]> ~Eatshit2 http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/5301537/ http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/5301537/ Sun, 08 May 2005 11:16:54 PDT
Why must I have so little friends? I'm so tired of being out by myself, taking photos by myself. It'd be nice for once for me not to be the model. I have a headache now. I feel like puking. Blaaaaah. Just like that. Maybe I'll go stare at my awesome cake for a while, that cake seriously rules.

]]> ~Eatshit2 http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/5273934/ http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/5273934/ Thu, 05 May 2005 11:08:12 PDT
I was on at 3 this morning and uhhh I wasn't. It's nice and all but... like... wtf?

]]> ~Eatshit2 http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/5263772/ http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/5263772/ Wed, 04 May 2005 09:45:03 PDT
I'm such a sensitive emotional person, I can't stop crying now. I really hate talking about my dad. It's the worst thing for me. I break down in tears just thinking about it. I'm probably like this because I'm so good at keeping everything bottled up, now it's just all coming out. URGH.

I'm not looking forward to this. I'm only comfortable talking to my friends about it because they're my friends, not some stranger.

When I was talking to the people about it, the one girl started crying, it was kinda nice in a way. I guess that sounds bad but it was like, bah, I can't explain.

I'm off now.

blah. ugh. ]]> ~Eatshit2 http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/5249166/ http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/5249166/ Mon, 02 May 2005 17:09:24 PDT
I don't know, I'm so frustrated today, though I am everyday, today especially.

I hate it, I want to kill today. I may just sleep or go sit in the rain or just...

I wish I had some empty beer bottles to just break, that always helps. ]]> ~Eatshit2 http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/5231403/ http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/5231403/ Sat, 30 Apr 2005 16:15:37 PDT


Tony: "What's the point of having tinted windows?"
Me: *looks in window and fixes hair.* "I dunno." ]]> ~Eatshit2 http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/5212727/ http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/5212727/ Thu, 28 Apr 2005 12:46:34 PDT
If Adam can't go, it'll be the opposite of ruling, it will suck.

But. . . NoFX!!! they themselves rules.


it would be a 50/50 night if adam can't go. ]]> ~Eatshit2 http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/5188654/ http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/5188654/ Mon, 25 Apr 2005 18:39:47 PDT
subject: <3... because april 23 ruled, major, stuff. says:
if you could have 3 wishes, what would you wish for?

And living this life is easy, if you never look behind the scenery says:
all i need is one

subject: <3... because april 23 ruled, major, stuff. says:
what would you wish for?

And living this life is easy, if you never look behind the scenery says:
to see you ]]> ~Eatshit2 http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/5170147/ http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/5170147/ Sat, 23 Apr 2005 18:46:24 PDT
subject: you're driving me down to california tonight okay? kgr8thnx bye says:
ok what if i was flat chested, would they be no longer cool?

And living this life is easy, if you never look behind the scenery says:
not as cool

subject: you're driving me down to california tonight okay? kgr8thnx bye says:
awwww

subject: you're driving me down to california tonight okay? kgr8thnx bye says:
well i'm flat chested

subject: you're driving me down to california tonight okay? kgr8thnx bye says:
so they're uncool

And living this life is easy, if you never look behind the scenery says:
you are not

And living this life is easy, if you never look behind the scenery says:
im not even flatchested, i have something there ]]> ~Eatshit2 http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/5149958/ http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/5149958/ Thu, 21 Apr 2005 15:19:23 PDT when you crop the photo, you tell a lie.''

-Douglas Coupland, Hey Nostradamus! ]]> ~Eatshit2 http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/5116561/ http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/5116561/ Sun, 17 Apr 2005 23:12:03 PDT
That's right.

And then I cried.

[link]


this. didn't make me. orgasm.
though. still nice.
very.
very.
nice... [link] ]]> ~Eatshit2 http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/5077512/ http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/5077512/ Wed, 13 Apr 2005 11:01:53 PDT
The Mars Volta.

I.

Am.

Stupid.

SOLD OUT!

Frowns. ]]> ~Eatshit2 http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/5071246/ http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/5071246/ Tue, 12 Apr 2005 16:33:57 PDT
The worst feeling you can feel is just, well, I don't know if it's even a feeling you can describe. Missing someone or something is just crappy. ]]> ~Eatshit2 http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/5030199/ http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/5030199/ Thu, 07 Apr 2005 23:08:39 PDT

moooooooooans

"Hey Sexy!

You have filled out your e-mail address to receive Love Letters From This Love Machine.
You must visit the URL listed below to confirm your subscription....

We've Been Waiting our whole life for you! You are now officially a part!"

--sweetest thing ever ]]> ~Eatshit2 http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/5010905/ http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/5010905/ Tue, 05 Apr 2005 20:04:19 PDT well,i was 56k then so it appeared like a pic anyway



ugh, i love him.

my 32 year old uk punk ]]> ~Eatshit2 http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4999787/ http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4999787/ Mon, 04 Apr 2005 16:57:03 PDT There were things in there that I wrote about Kenny, the things we talked about, the things we dreamed, and, it made me horribly sad. Sad because he cut off all contact with me, sad because things never went back to how they used to be.

It get's worse.

Because I'm such a fucking idiot, I missed out on Duran Duran tonight. Original line up too... Because I didn't get my papers from the police department earlier, I fucked myself over.

And now lately, I'm thinking about the things I always ignore, like my dad dying. It started by me thinking about Kenny, and how the night my dad died, me and Kenny were playfully chatting on the phone, right when the hospital was trying to call. It's my fault my mum didn't get to be there when he died. I wonder if she hates me for that.

I'm such an idiot at times.

I guess I really do deserve everything I get. ]]> ~Eatshit2 http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4983207/ http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4983207/ Sat, 02 Apr 2005 21:06:57 PST What else is depressing is this weather. Toronto will have to wait.

On a good note, Silverstein was played on the Punk Show tonight. Hourrah. I've been watching them at shows for a long while, kinda stopped recently because the local scene isn't my thing anymore but they're ON T.V. That's just ca-ray-zay.

like a fox.


On another good note, this journal entry is over.


P.s. They played Lamb Of God on Loud tonight, almost creamed my pants. ]]> ~Eatshit2 http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4964201/ http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4964201/ Thu, 31 Mar 2005 19:33:42 PST night adam
I like to think that my girlfriend is very lucky..............................that im single says:
goodnight katelyn ]]> ~Eatshit2 http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4947199/ http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4947199/ Tue, 29 Mar 2005 20:46:43 PST
Photobooth

Sleep Spent ]]> ~Eatshit2 http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4926897/ http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4926897/ Sun, 27 Mar 2005 17:24:26 PST

The only time I go out is when I'm doing family stuff or just shopping with family.

Well, the only other time is when I'm out getting laid.


I'm not happy. ]]> ~Eatshit2 http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4909280/ http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4909280/ Fri, 25 Mar 2005 12:31:30 PST
What's up with that?

Tall, good looking... how could I lose? ]]> ~Eatshit2 http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4891485/ http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4891485/ Wed, 23 Mar 2005 14:04:50 PST
Etta James ]]> ~Eatshit2 http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4866785/ http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4866785/ Sun, 20 Mar 2005 20:19:20 PST but i dont liek when your sad

subject: screwed. says:
awww

subject: screwed. says:
well buy me a new button and i'll be good

Don't like me, Don't you know im good for nothing, Don't like me, Even though inside i know i want you to says:
alright, i will

subject: screwed. says:
nuh uh

Don't like me, Don't you know im good for nothing, Don't like me, Even though inside i know i want you to says:
uh huh

Don't like me, Don't you know im good for nothing, Don't like me, Even though inside i know i want you to says:
and if i dont, id give you one of mine

subject: screwed. says:
awww adam

subject: screwed. says:
you could give me some of your lint and i'd be happy

Don't like me, Don't you know im good for nothing, Don't like me, Even though inside i know i want you to says:
id give you me fever sheds button, becuse you would never see one anywhere else ]]> ~Eatshit2 http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4853931/ http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4853931/ Sat, 19 Mar 2005 12:01:01 PST

I'm going to tell everyone I'm moving away away then I'll pack up all my stuff but I'll really be selling everything I own.

And then I'll go kill myself somewhere where no one would find me or think to look.


Tralala la lalala la I no longer exist.


No I'm not depressed. Everyone needs a backup plan. ]]> ~Eatshit2 http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4853764/ http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4853764/ Sat, 19 Mar 2005 11:36:05 PST

this is nothing, just wanted to remember something, ignore it. ]]> ~Eatshit2 http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4844015/ http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4844015/ Fri, 18 Mar 2005 08:14:31 PST [link] ]]> ~Eatshit2 http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4824288/ http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4824288/ Tue, 15 Mar 2005 21:38:52 PST


edit: (dun wanna make new entreeeeeeee)

Side note, hourrah... 2005 page views. That's just ca-ray-zay.

*tummy grumbles 'i'm hungry'*


that's all you're getting, no dancing a jig today. ]]> ~Eatshit2 http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4820589/ http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4820589/ Tue, 15 Mar 2005 14:26:23 PST
Me and Adam talked for a long long time and then he went on cam and... I almost died. I was crying and like.. well I could I could say screaming but not as dramatic. I was so excited and happy to see him being him.

Then around 5 am I could see him yawning alot so I told him to go to sleep and he said he wouldn't go untill I would go. It was so sweet. And then I said the same thing back to him.

He has eyes


Ugh.. I need to calm down. ]]> ~Eatshit2 http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4815264/ http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4815264/ Mon, 14 Mar 2005 21:31:49 PST
Oh well, I got a new shirt today. It rules. 75% off. Booya.

I also got sunglasses and a scarf and yesterday I got more earrings from Value Village and I got a bunch of skirts. Hourrah!

Today at the dentist, ok well I ended up going to sleep around 4:30 (stayed up to talk to Adam <3) but uhh yah and I had an appointment for 10 and I was so tired so I started laughing at everything while waiting. I was crying, I couldn't breathe. And then while sitting in the chair, getting my teeth checked, I start laughing while the lady's just scraping away lol. I bit her finger and then some toothpaste flew in my eye and she was all "thats what you get for biting me!" it was grand.

Oh yes, and now I have an ear ache... houuurrrrahhh. ]]> ~Eatshit2 http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4776340/ http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4776340/ Thu, 10 Mar 2005 10:12:17 PST
I'm more alone at school now than I am at home.


Ughh... I've cried at least 5 times since I woke up and before I went to sleep around 4am, I cried for half an hour.


Blah. I'm losing it. ]]> ~Eatshit2 http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4762676/ http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4762676/ Tue, 08 Mar 2005 17:38:03 PST
I wish it was summer.
I wish I could lay under the stars.
I wish Sigur Ros would just magically drown out every sound.


At my funeral, I'm totally having people play Lamb of God for music. It will rule. I doubt anyone would even come. My family because its like manditory of course. Sometimes I feel like dying just to see who really would care if I died. ]]> ~Eatshit2 http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4742066/ http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4742066/ Sun, 06 Mar 2005 10:46:42 PST
There's no point to this journal entry.

Currently listening to: The Mars Volta
(me loves their new cd like woah)

I want Death From Above 1979 music in my cd player... right now. Just because. I found myself dancing in my room to their lovely music as it came from my television.
*wiggles* mmm yah, gotta love them boys.


I want a boyfriend. Or girlfriend. Whichever will take me.

I need to cut my hair again. I miss having my bangs go into a point .

I think I'll go put Spiderman tattoos on my face. ]]> ~Eatshit2 http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4709744/ http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4709744/ Wed, 02 Mar 2005 09:35:46 PST Next to: Adam Ronbeck
Listening to: Glassjaw + Adam getting pissed off
Doing: English Homework
Feeling: Crampy + Sick ]]> ~Eatshit2 http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4675567/ http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4675567/ Sat, 26 Feb 2005 07:28:57 PST
No going to see what's his face today... It would've been nice to be hugged today.

I feel so... what's the word... I don't know, in the words of Adam Ronbeck, I will say floppy doppy. ]]> ~Eatshit2 http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4655766/ http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4655766/ Wed, 23 Feb 2005 16:59:16 PST
Booourns to nightmares.

I dreamt that the cast from Saved By The Bell, my sister and I were at some beach house and it was my dad's. So we were outside and then we came inside and then it got to a point where me and my sister were crying scared so we ran down the hall to another person's room so we wouldn't be alone.

I tried calling 911 but it wasn't working. It was that lady that comes on and says "please hang up and try your call again." So I hung up and listened for the dial tone and I could hear my dad, imitating what she says. Thinking he's doing that just to listen if I'm trying to call someone.

So I say, "we're going to have to kill him." and I get out this hammer thing and we're just standing there and he's standing there and ahh...

For some reason he just left, he said he wanted proof we were really his kids and just left.

I woke up and for a split second, I really feared he was still alive. I hadn't felt that fear since like the last 2 weeks he was still alive. Having to be so afraid, wishing that the yelling would just stop and he would just die.


On the plus side today, I found a setting on my camera that will let me take photos of the stars. Hourrah.

Oh! And Adam emailed me. He said he missed talking to me, and that was only after a day of not speaking to one and other... mmm... *smiles. It feels weird to smile again. ]]> ~Eatshit2 http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4624060/ http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4624060/ Sat, 19 Feb 2005 18:35:02 PST ~Eatshit2 http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4577926/ http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4577926/ Mon, 14 Feb 2005 13:04:13 PST
Today being that oh-so-special day, I've decided to take Valentine's Day related pictures.


WHEEEEE! I'm tired. I thought it was Friday but it's Monday. That made me sad like woah .


OoOOOOooo I forgot to wish everyone a...

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!!! ]]> ~Eatshit2 http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4565844/ http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4565844/ Sat, 12 Feb 2005 21:50:32 PST
Ok well first, Chinese New Year was boring.

Then Adam, Josh, and Steve came calling on me and so we just went looking for pot and then went to Adam's and then I watched them be cheaper drunks than me lol.

Poor Adam... lol. He's so funny when he's drunk. I regret not bringing my camera. We were gonna go to the Underground and I didn't wanna bring my coat so I didn't bring my camera. Adam was so hilarious.

Then we went to Mc Donalds to get him something to eat and we ended up spending almost an hour there. And then we get this guy Alex to come with us and he brings more alcohol. Of course I didn't drink because I just don't anymore.

*pats self on back*

We get to the underground at like... 11:30? LOL a little late yes but there was police there and Adam was drunk so we stayed away for his safety. We turn around and get back on the bus.

Mmmm... Adam... teeheee.. so cute lol.

Monday should be good lol. ]]> ~Eatshit2 http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4561646/ http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4561646/ Sat, 12 Feb 2005 11:34:34 PST
Le Sigh.


Erik cancelled our plans for tomorrow. He's hanging out with his mum. I wish everyone's excuse for cancelling plans was that they were hanging out with their mums or grandmas.

Oh well, there's always next weekend. Until then, I will just dream of those soft kisses he gives.

Let's see.. what else is new. Oh yes. Today is Chinese New Year. All of my family will be over. Mmm... best part of today is that I get to eat pot stickers. Mmmm... yum. ]]> ~Eatshit2 http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4547313/ http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4547313/ Thu, 10 Feb 2005 15:26:26 PST
It's all nice and beautiful out so I go downtown after school to take photos. Lalalalala... taking a few photos I had to stand under melting icicles... my hair turns to icicles without knowing it which causes people to stare. I turn the corner and I walked slowly, knowing the back of my mind that even if I do walk slow, I'll still fall, which I did end up doing. Then I go to the underground parking lot, hoping to get a ride home with my mum but she's not even there. So I took a bus home and I'm hoping to eat since I hadn't in almost 24 hours but they're in the kitchen washing the floors. I couldn't even get in there. So now I'm grumpy, hungry, tired, me gots a headache.. but more grumpy then anything. My photos will have to be put on hold. ]]> ~Eatshit2 http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4513258/ http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4513258/ Sun, 06 Feb 2005 15:38:17 PST

My teeth are chattering and for some reason my right thumb is going numb. Only the right.

I wish Raeg was here, snugglies under a blanket sounds really good right about how.

We rented 5 movies tonight, Lost in Translation, The Grudge, Terminal, Kill Bill, and Anger Management (weirdest thing my mum has ever picked out).

I can't wait till my sister goes upstairs. She's been on the couch for a while and I want to laydown. The only dvd player is the computer and my playstation. If only we'd get a normal one, then I could take my ps2 to my room.


Brrrrrrr

SOMEONE PLEASE BE MY MODEL.

Today I tried taking photos of myself in the fog but my camera will only allow a 10 second timer, well that or 2 seconds. So I'd place my camera down on a box and then runaway! lol. It was funny. I can only run so far in the snow in 10 seconds.

And then...
my camera died.
]]> ~Eatshit2 http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4500576/ http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4500576/ Fri, 04 Feb 2005 22:46:59 PST
It's dark, it's cold, Kenny's cover of Engine by Neutral Milk Hotel is playing.


I don't feel good at all tonight and I can't stop crying.

If kenny reads that he'll probably tell me I'm pathetic or lame. We both know those words aren't hard for him to use on me.


Engine keeps playing, switching between the original and Kenny's cover.


I feel like I'm 13 again. Sit at home, everynight, cry, wish I were someone else, instead of being depressed.

Reminds me of the time I sat in my room in the dark that one whole summer and my parents just said I was lazy and fat.


I think I'm crying tonight because I've been avoiding everything and it's built up so much it had to come out at some point.


I've been alive 6002 days, I regret everything I did 5992 of those days.

I do not regret the day I slept with Erik. That day I felt truly beautiful. He made me feel like I wasn't just some fat freak.

I do not regret the day, I bought that christmas hole punch thing. It was $5.00. Best investment I ever made and I did it in grade 3.

I do not regret the day I made another silly note to a person on Faceparty because today, that person keeps me sane.

I do not regret the day I coloured on Chris Smith's paper, which caused him chase me around the table and kick me and make me cry. That was the beginning of our long friendship before we changed and seperated.

I do not regret the day Kenny and I masturbated while on the phone together, I got off 8 times that night. That's the only time something like that has happened to me.

I do not regret the day I had alcohol poisoning. I've learned my lesson.

I do not regret the day I joined DeviantArt. I would not have met Raeg or Brandon without it. I would not have seen so much beauty all in one place.

I do not regret the day I mispelled Fatima's email address and found Trigg instead. He's a true friend that hasn't just disappeared on me.

I do not regret the day I punched Shane because he said I was a bitch like every other girl. There were alot of slutty teenage crack whore bitches and I know I was not one of them. Punching him let a years worth of agression out.

I do not regret the day I met Kenny. Without him, I would never have found Neutral Milk Hotel. Without Neutral Milk hotel I never would've been able to say I was listening to them. Without being able to say I was listening to them, I never would've got a message from Imogen Heap.


It's 1:50 am. ]]> ~Eatshit2 http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4489697/ http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4489697/ Thu, 03 Feb 2005 15:40:52 PST

oh well.


It's not really Mother's Day but I just like to say that everytime I say the word "today".


Hmmm... I got my marks and I failed 2 classes, Math was no surprise, I got 5% in that. But I failed that one business class but he gave me a 50, because I rule so I really only failed Math... YAY.

Thennnn... I went to shoppers, then downtown, then up the mountain, I was indeed in search for fake eyelashes. I did find some but the girl working there was a bitch so I didn't buy them.
Stupid girl = NO SALE
I really wanted them too but oh well. I'm sure I can get some really flashy hooker ones in Toronto.

I was going to go to Toronto today but I decided today will be a day of rest. I also didn't feel like going to Toronto by myself again. I'm fine going by myself but lately... I just feel lonely. I'm going to wait until Dan puts his ribs back in place, then I'll make him go with me. ]]> ~Eatshit2 http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4452929/ http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4452929/ Sun, 30 Jan 2005 11:57:13 PST

Anyways, I'm just bored, and thought "Hey, I'll just write nothingness in this journal"


Lastnight I had a dream that I was at a party except it was in a movie theatre or opera or something... and we were all drunk and Mear was all, "wanna make out" and I was all "yeah". So yah that happened and I left for a second and I saw Sam and Michelle and asked them if they wanted to make out too lol and so they went back to Mear and I started inviting all these people to join our makeout orgy and then I was downstairs and no one was around. I couldn't find anyone. So I was left by myself, no makeout orgy for me .


Lalalalala. ]]> ~Eatshit2 http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4423917/ http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4423917/ Wed, 26 Jan 2005 20:28:32 PST

There's a new scrap, but don't look!


Unless I don't know you, then its okay.


I have an exam tomorrow, but I'm waiting for a boy to install something.. then I'll go study.

This boy asked me out to dinner, but first he suggested bowling (that was hilarious) but I said no to that, it's too far and this boy's family is in the mafia in Hamilton, whoo! Isn't that nice? ]]> ~Eatshit2 http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4411152/ http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4411152/ Tue, 25 Jan 2005 12:31:13 PST

Over 100 shots just to get the focus on the god damned condom and to get the right angle. I'm not completely satisfied with the final product but my arms are tired and my back hurts.

There's 2 photos I like and I like black and white but I also like colour...


I'm so toooooooooorn. I like that song. It's a good song.
Though I'm not currently listening to it.

Currently Listening To: Sic Transit Gloria...Glory Fades biotch.




ergh.
I have a headache. ]]> ~Eatshit2 http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4386638/ http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4386638/ Sat, 22 Jan 2005 15:50:29 PST

3 feet of snow? That's more than half my body.


I went out today and almost died. The snow was going ajdfjaljwhoooooooooooooshEErrrrrI..Sssss uuuuuuukfkjdsal;ffal;sdfjka.




Blah. I didn't even get any good photos.


Then I still have to do that torn thing... I have an idea but I'm not sure how good it'll turn out.

I'm still deciding.



*dies ]]> ~Eatshit2 http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4355193/ http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4355193/ Tue, 18 Jan 2005 19:40:00 PST


blaaaaaaargh....


I had new ones this time too and now I'm sad .





Brandon, fix iiiiiiiiiiit ]]> ~Eatshit2 http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4339977/ http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4339977/ Mon, 17 Jan 2005 03:37:19 PST

5'8

130 lbs

skinny build

wearing a burgandy jacket

facial hair

dark hooded sweatshirt

LONG KNIFE




lol... that long knife part... oh man... that was some good stuff. ]]> ~Eatshit2 http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4306382/ http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4306382/ Wed, 12 Jan 2005 21:14:39 PST
Overall, her deviations received 384 comments and were added to deviants' favourites 39 times, while she commented 421 times, making about 1.28 comments per day since she joined DA. This means that she gave 11 comments for every 10 that she received.

Her deviation with the most comments is The Bus with 34 comments, receiving an average of 2.42 per day in the first 2 weeks, and it is also her most favourited, with 12 favourites, averaging 0.85 per day in the first 2 weeks. Her most viewed deviation is original fancy pants with 130 views.

1 favourite was given for every 10 comments.

Every 2.3 days she uploads a new deviation, and it's usually on a Saturday, with 40 (29%) of her deviations.

Her busiest month was January 2005 with 57 (42%) of her deviations.

The majority of her deviations are uploaded to the Photography gallery (96), while her favourite category was Art Photography > Miscellaneous with 21 deviations.

Comments per deviation: 2.8
Favourites per deviation: 0.28
Views per deviation: 16.24
Comments per day: 1.17
Favourites per day: 0.11
Views per day: 6.8
Pageviews per day: 2.33 ]]> ~Eatshit2 http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4217102/ http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4217102/ Sat, 01 Jan 2005 23:52:00 PST

It's quite sad but since that's the very first time I've gotten such response on a picture I took, I decided to change it to that.


Hourray?!


I smell. ]]> ~Eatshit2 http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4197373/ http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4197373/ Thu, 30 Dec 2004 21:57:28 PST

i was in my artistic groove. i haven't been in my groove for a very long time. ]]> ~Eatshit2 http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4158824/ http://Eatshit2.deviantart.com/journal/4158824/ Sun, 26 Dec 2004 00:29:11 PST
and i have gas.


i've only been eating cheese and crackers the passed few days.


i have to wake up in 6 hours to go boxing day shopping.


i married an axe murder is on. i used to love that movie when i was a kid.



i have gas. ]]> ~Eatshit2