Anyways, that was just a message to foreigners who are not familiar with American "holidays." But on to me, which some of you may be wondering about with my absence.

~I failed one of my classes three weeks before the end of the semester. Luckily that gave me enough time to withdraw and not take an "F" grade (which is the lowest grade you can get here, for you foreigners). I was too late to leave and save it. Ironically, it was not the class I lost the data of my mid-term project to TWICE.

~I am currently working on three websites now: My Final for Web Design I. One I am employed to make for an instructor here. One for a business competition where I am building the entire thing form scratch to advertise the organization that is having the competition. If I could just sit down and actually focus on doing it, this would be REALLY easy with my fancy Dreamweaver CS4.

Two are due in two weeks and the other one sometime near the end of March. Two of those I am doing to build my personal resume in Web Design, my new job path I am taking (formerly Meteorology [weather]. If it was not for these websites, this remainder of the semester would be a cakewalk now that I do not have to worry about my hardest class I dropped.

I will post the Final web site here when it is ready. It is an art portfolio of my works (I got to choose the topic). The other sites are really boring and you would not want to see them. X3

~My video games are still out of reach but I do not really miss them that much. They were my only real entertainment I got but... I can live without them. This is not a complaint but rather a remark that I kinda like not having those distractions around. It helps me build my real life so maybe I can play them later.

~No art. Not a big surprise. Or rather, nothing like digital painting or pencil drawing. I have been doing banners and stuff for my Final but nothing truly new.

Well, it is time for me to go to work now (4:25am). It is kinda selfish I think to say this, but I know it is true. I know my friends/watchers here will leave some nice things for me to glance at when I get home from today. So I kinda feel better already, knowing that have have such great support here.

Lol, I should really be leaving journals on FA and SA. I bet they are wondering where I am, as I have not said anything in a long time on either. X3

~Eclipsis

So before I go, you are probably wondering: What could I have possibly done to do all this drama? Well, early this morning, after weeks of struggling to finish my Mid-Term Project, I finished it. 100% of. It was all done and ready. But upon a simple file transfer from one part of my flash drive to another. I accidentily hit "X" instead of "C" and in a mix up of the commands, I lost all of my coding. I still have all the pictures I worked on, but long hours of coding and debugging are all gone. I tried several free recovery programs but they all brought them back corrupt. I tried trial software, but I have to purchase them to actually see the recovered file, so I do not know if it is corrupt or not. I am not going to pitch $50 here, $50 there just for the POSSIBILITY of recovering it. 25% of my grade is not worth that much money.

I am already doing well in this class, I have good grades, scored well on tests and so on. I still have a final to work on which I MUST get started on right away if I am going to do well to make up for this. The mid-term is already a week late. Spending another 18 hours for a highly reduced grade and sacrificing grades in my other classes just will not cut it. I have no choice but to go on and accept this blow.

Its funny actually... when I started that mid-term, early in the process my flash drive was stolen, losing everything I had made for it. Now, two weeks later it happens again. Well, as you can see, I did not learn well enough from the first mistake to make a proper backup of the files. So the blame rests entirely on me.

Well, I shall see you later. If something traumatic happens to me within these next six weeks, you will see me back sooner.



Because my DA family has always been my comfort in my most dire times of need. Thank you all for being there. *waves*

~Eclipsis

P.S. I want to stress this is not your same old good-bye forever journal. This is just temporary, not permanent. I am not doing this for attention. I just want proper explanation for a long absence rather then just disappearing here on DA all of a sudden.

And like before, if I watch you and you post a journal, I will likely not see it. I have a hard enough time keeping up with journal spams checking every couple days. When I come back, I will just delete them all. So if I am ignorant of something you do, that will be why.

There is a lot of drama out there, and I am ashamed I am apart of it. v.v'


Special note: A few of you know my private e-mail account on g-mail, particularly the people I have commissioned. If you need me, you can still contact me through there.

I had another breakdown/burnout today. Pretty bad one but not like that last one a few weeks back. I feel terrible physically/mentally. I cannot focus on my already two days late, major assignment that is only 2/3rds done.

What this does tell me though, as this is my Mid-Term Web Design project I am talking about, is that I have to be extremely careful what I pick for a Final Web Site for this class, as mentioned in the previous journal. So, I am 90% certain of my subject. A simple commissions/advertisement page for my artwork and stuff. Mostly using old and recycled images rather then making new ones. I simply do not have the time to make something new and shiny in 4 weeks, not with what all I have to do in other things.

The more important part of this class is the coding, not the artwork done for it. That is why I am taking this class. I know how to do the art sufficiently but not the coding.

~Eclipsis

Any comments in my inbox I am likely not going to see today.

Art? I have done absolutely no art since I left. Seriously, none. I have the burning interest to, I just feel there are other things I would rather do. v.v' I keep my Skymin picture as my desktop. I want to be able to work on something like that again soon.

Until next time,
~Eclipsis

Anyone who knows me closely knows I am one of those dumb fools that is concerned about pageviews and popularity. Well, for months now I have been baffled about January of this year. I have never had a month like it, neither before or after. Twice the daily amounts spiked into the thousands.

For the longest time I figured it was because I had done a really good job with my art, after all, it was my most productive month in terms of sheer numbers. ^^

Well, now I know it is not true and can be said throughout most of the other days of that month. I just remembered I got two major exposures that month, hence the two spikes that do not correspond to my gallery views or favs on pictures uploaded then. The first spike I believe was the Great `hibbary's doing. She did that picture she dedicated to me and lots of people must have wandered over to see what was so special about me.

Three days later, it spiked again. This time it was, as one person called it, the "troll hunt" against me. I just call it the massive hate journal placed on LiveJournal just ripping heavily into me and a smidgen on the Great `hibbary herself. Oh gosh, bad memories. I was able to handle it for a while, but when a separate issue with an old friend blew up. I just buckled and cried.

We still do not talk to each other. Kinda hard when you are banned from their account. D:



This is a journal after all, these things on DA. I do treat it like one, keeping all the thoughts intact and rarely deleting them. It is my history, my past. I hope DA never passes a regulation that deletes old journals. That would be devastating to me. v.v'

~Eclipsis

You can flatter me and say I am, but that does not help me out as I know that is not true. =3 I am getting to the point where I am not even attempting realism anymore, on purpose. Putting full faith on my artwork as being "realistic" surrealism. But compare me to Salvador Dali, and I am an epic failing at flailing kind of artist.

(if you are in a hurry, stop reading here)

On a side note, I am fairly certain I am going to start a new account on DA. A new super secret account that I will tell virtually no one of. It will be for a new style of art I want to experiment with that is very radical from my current style you see here on this account.

The reason why I would do this is mostly because I do not want the screen name "Eclipsis" associated with the new style before it is developed. Otherwise people might be a bit biased against me. People are stupid that way. Otherwise authors like Nora Roberts and J.D.Robbs would not have alias names to write under.

~Eclipsis

P.S. Curse you *silverbirch for putting me on the "epic," "fail," and "flail" mood this whole week. D=<

Oh gosh, this was epic the last 24 hours. I killed two major issues that have been plaguing me these last few weeks. One being internet issues with my computers ever since I got the new wireless card for my desktop. When I got the new card and connected it, everything else that was wireless lost connectivity completely, including my Laptop and Nintendo DS. I struggled long hours to get it fixed running into numerous headaches along the way.

But that is all solved now thank goodness.

The other problem was for my Web Design class. For some reason, anything I made in CSS for a webpage would not display properly in Firefox but would for Internet Explorer. So I type this journal in the wee hours of night to share the I triumphed over that one too after some "smart" googling.

I still cannot wait till I learn enough to start doing CSS projects for these journals. After skimming over this journals CSS, I see there are some significant differences in that a lot of the features are already set up and that is a little confusing. c.c'

On a side not, CS4 came in yesterday, way ahead of schedule. They are all installed now on this computer. The only program I have opened so far is Photoshop but I did not do anything in it. I used it rather to get color codes for my CSS coding. For some reason, Paint Shop Pro X is really messed up on my computer now. Erf. c.c' Oh wells, the program will still have use on my laptop. ^^

I am still a smidgen reluctant to join... but we will have to see. *sigh*

Just some thoughts going through my head.

~Eclipsis

What about you?

Have you drawn Lucario?

What would you have done differently?

Share your thoughts! (even though I might regret this journal. X3)

~Eclipsis

And speaking of drawing, I have done absolutely nothing since my last submission. I carry my art bag with me most of the time, but I never get into it. Just no time.

For my social people, two of my three people I regularly talk to are having their own crises. I want to get involved but in reality, there is nothing I can do. Historically I have been more of the threat in those situations then help.

Usually I smile and say, the sun never sets on my friends as the three of them cover three different areas of the globe, namely Europe, America, and the Western Pacific. But in reality, not any one of those three are always on. Hence why I need more friends but this is proving very difficult. I may talk to some one a day or two, then never again. Others just fall off the face of the earth. Then still others I am scared to death to contact as they can be a bit temperamental (points at Swedish FA member). And the last "others" are just... downright boring. I have to burn more energy to talk with them then what it is worth for me to have one.

*groans* I just needed to let that out. On the bright side, I think I might just be getting hammered with school work because I am still adjusting to find the right balance of efficiency. As one very supportive friend told me, I use a lot of brain power. It is just too often I do not divert it to the right area (much of the time because I do not know what or how to divert it too).

*sigh* This was a nice rant to type out. Specifically today I just got my butt kicked in CSS programing. A whole weeks worth in one day, including three projects and an 80 question online exam with lots of twists, exceptions, and downright irrelevant topics I will probably never need to know. c.c' Thankfully, this class is one of the two of four that require little effort. Just lots of thinking.

Time to say goodbye for now. =3 Likely I will be popping up on DA, FA, and SA now and then to look up artwork or other things. I just will not be logged in to do anything.

I hope most of you general folk are faring better. ^^ You probably are. I do not have it as bad as some, but I am not on a "slice of pie" path either.

~Eclipsis

A fun quote I made up over the weekend:

"When life gives you lemons, make lemon pie to throw it in their face." (or something like that)

I like my friend's 's version better:

"When life gives you lemons squirt lemon juice... ]]> *Eclipsis http://Eclipsis.deviantart.com/journal/27143798/ http://Eclipsis.deviantart.com/journal/27143798/ Fri, 11 Sep 2009 02:33:56 PDT
I saw some nice but pricey deals on some programs whose names are very familiar to me but I know nothing about, namely Dreamweaver and Flash. I checked my bank account and I am not doing too bad with my money. Over the last month I have been a big recluse with my money. Heck, I have not even made reservations for Explorers of the Sky yet.

As anyone knows, I try to use only legitimate, non-pirated or whatnot software. From what I know, I only have one area of stuff I think is illegal, that being my Pokemon Mystery Dungeon Time and Darkness soundtracks I got. I knew of no other way of getting them and I felt purchasing them from these other sites was buying pirated stuff anyways (though my software for doing this now is no longer an option because they all expired).

So back to Adobe software, in a few months I might be able to afford the new programs or even sooner if I do end up getting financial aid for my classes this semester (but that is not too likely). The site did mention I could only put the programs on two computers. Well, my current laptop does not have very good capabilities so I am wondering if I should get a new laptop first. The other option is to get a better network card for my desktop PC I rarely use (which is more powerful then my laptop despite being a year older). But that case would confine me to doing work at home. Most of my digital art I do away from home so the first option I am leaning towards, despite it being much more pricey.

We shall see what happens.

On a sidenote. I think I found another DD to suggest and probably stands a good chance of making it, as long as the admin can get by the fact that the Deviation fits under another category too.

~Eclipsis

]]> *Eclipsis http://Eclipsis.deviantart.com/journal/27107097/ http://Eclipsis.deviantart.com/journal/27107097/ Wed, 09 Sep 2009 02:36:46 PDT

Should not have that rant on my front page for too long and sorry for such another quick post. I feel a little better now but it is still morning (4:30am as I type this time). I leave for work in 10 minutes.

Work is where I do a lot of my thinking but most of it is wasted. I rarely actually sit down and do anything I think about there. Sometimes I do, but mostly I do not.

this is a box, fear it

Aaaaaanyways, the real source of my journal's title is that I again feel old and outdated. Cannot keep the interest of many of my watchers. I think I am losing people faster then I am gaining them (hence the sake of my recent poll).

My progress with my works is just... average to my current stats. In reality it should be better because those stats should be bogged down with many years of inferior work.

Last January was still my largest month by a long shot. Since then I have not been consistent with making excellent work. Maybe one or two a month. Totally unacceptable.

So I gotta do something soon. My historical motivation crash time is quickly approaching (late September to early December for you new people, very severe in October). Otherwise I will be out of commission again. T.T'

Sooo, I am thinking about doing another Pokemon campaign, specifically Umbreon and Espeon, hence the slide show on my front page I set up.



~Eclipsis

In the art area, I am very divided on what to work on. I have Pkmn MD: Oracles of Clockworks I want to work on but I cannot motivate myself to actually sit down and type.

I have a commission to work on too.

I also want to do an oil painting of a macro (giant character) in a cityscape. I would only attempt this if I get feedback from a highly skilled artist on FurAffinity. She used some techniques that would be highly useful if she would be willing to share them.

Well, I will figure something out. Now I just need to figure out how I am going to fit art into my new schedule...

A lot of my time is wasted on a "new" old game I bought called "Rise of Legends," the game that probably inspired me to like "steampunk." So that is where my free time has been going.

~Eclipsis

However, on the other side, the artist Kacey on FA recently submitted an epic oil paint piece and I am interrogating her on how she did it. Her answers may or may not inspire me to attempt a macro picture in oil paints. But that is a ways away. Still have to work things out first.

~Eclipsis

So you may be wondering, what are these three places? They are all combat locations in the war and are known as:

The Deep Forest Massacre
Battle of Apricot Hill
Battle of/on Special Route 11

Deep Forest

In the history of my story, the massacre that took place was probably the most gruesome ever witnessed by any living creature. The war already seen mass genocide of catastrophic numbers so the 99% eradication of a pacifist nation the size of China (in population) was nothing of note. It was the brutality of its execution that made it significant.

The intention was to symbolize the ultimate repercussion of the nation's fantastical views on sexual activity. Venasis, commander of the army that did the slaughter, single pawedly earned the "glory" of using seven atrocities against the population using only her body and no foreign object/substance for enhancement. More on the atrocities another time.

Apricot Hill

This location is not as significant in terms of symbolism as Deep Forest and at the time in the story, it did not seem to matter. Virtually everyone knew it was coming. Apricot Hill was the last great resistance to its superior attacker and marked the end and dissolving of what a decade or two ago was the greatest nation in all of existence. Human extinction now seemed inevitable.

Also of note is that this battle was the largest land engagement in the war for technical reasons.

Special Route 11

This battle, compared to the rest of the battles of the AA (Annihilation/Armageddon) Wars, was quite tiny. It was basically a macrophile's story where the key original characters of the story took up battle against their commanding counterparts on the opposing side in macro (giant) forms. Eclipsis, Aerisis and two other "-sis" characters had broken away from the aggressor, leaving seven behind. Besides the one killed at Apricot Hill, all of the bio-engineered "-sis" characters took to a series of engagements along a massive road that snaked through a city larger then the US state of Texas.

This battle decides the fate of existence as the last resistance stands up to leaders of the greatest war machine to ever travel about the stars. As I type this, the story sounds a lot like the six episodes of Star Wars. But since I am the only one who really knows this story, other people cannot quite appreciate the similarities. Lol, sort of like Star Wars with a touch of Dragon Ball Z (more so then Pokemon) (you would understand this better with a full description of the elements I actually took from that show and added to this story).



And I think that is all there really is to share about that poll.

I had fun typing this. Again, many of these plot things are subject to change.

~Eclipsis

Good gosh, this took 4 hours to figure out. This CSS stuff is not the easiest thing in the world when you are trying to build your own. This is not made completely from scratch but pretty darn close to it.

The basic set up was there but I had a LOT of problem solving to do. Lol, the artwork I did for this was the easy part. Next time I work on this, I will try for a more complicated form.

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