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I haven't done anything to this for a while. Easter holiday, however, gives me time to give you all this small piece of news.

I will catch up with all deviations, just don't know when. Same for messages, comments, etc...

One day I might be able to actually upload things... funky times!

As to the rest of it, I've moved out of home and am currently studying Uni full time and working casual otherwise. My time is divided between Uni, work and sleep. Unless of course you count the nights out on the town, where sleep is not accessible at all, but much dancing and acting like a lunatic is

I have four subjects, next semester I shall have five. Holding it all together is proving interesting hehe. I love my family and friends, they are my everything, my proof that without them I would be but a husk of who I am. Thank you for contributing . I hope I can contribute too!

And to all of my friends who have said that I am strange, but that's okay, because it is a good kind of strange.... Thank you very, very much, it's made my day over and over again...

Maybe there's a point that so many people have said it in the past week, month...

Much love to all!

~Karah

P.S, Maree is my little sister Also, happy 19th to Sean and Mickee!

]]> ~Elusifaer http://Elusifaer.deviantart.com/journal/16317563/ http://Elusifaer.deviantart.com/journal/16317563/ Tue, 08 Jan 2008 15:21:55 PST
Anyway, comments from people I love and self-realisation from those words have made me understand that a lot of my problems that I thought were dealt with are really only making me worse.

Psychologically speaking of course

I was watching a documentary this morning, entitled Forgiving Dr Mengele. In case you didn't know, Dr Mengele was the most involved German doctor in genetic experimentation during Hitler's attempt at genocide. He performed most of these experiments on human guinea pigs, twin Jew children at a concentration camp at Auschwitz in Germany during the early 1940's. One of the survivor's, Eva Kor is amazing in that she has taken it upon herself to forgive all of those who wronged her, her twin and her people. Her sister died from kidney failure from one of the injections and she still has the capacity to forgive, but not forget.

I mean hell, if she can do it, why can't I? I didn't go through anything as remotely horrific as her experiences, a bad childhood is easy to blame for dysfunctionality but not any more. If she can forgive Mengele and the SS, then I can certainly forgive my mother, father and step father.

Hehe, I'm sure it sounds like a lot of tosh to you lot but it means quite a bit to me. I don't have to live in fear, anger or contempt any more. It's about letting oneself heal. I want to heal myself, so therefore I can.

In regards to strength, I've found myself to be a bit of a pushover and bend over easily to please others, because it makes them happy. To be myself, I can't let that happen any more. The plan is not outright defiance, more a quiet determination. It's the establishment of me as an individual with my own life, goals and choices. No more following anyone, but no more discounting advice from my friends who are just trying to help me.

Finally, pursuit of dreams. I've been treated with incredulity as to my choice of career. I don't care. I want to teach art and I want to teach it to secondary students. My goal is to finish my degree, complete my diploma and possibly do honours. The reason for honours, is that if I want to, I can go back and study for free, if I get decent marks in honours of course . Anyway, next step is to find a country town to teach in for three years because in Australia, a teacher has to, at any one point, teach three years in the country. This will hopefully give me experience as well as a chance to get out and away from everything I know, a test if you will. Then I want to teach overseas, definitely in England, but I'm not sure if that's where I want to go first. I know there's not a cement way there but I want to keep moving, I want to travel, I want to live my life . And hell, I will!

I just wanted to say thank you to everyone in my life who has supported me thus far and I am certain will support me in the future, pull me up by the bootstraps if I slide and give me heaps of hugs. I love you all, I love the happiness I get from spending time with you and I love that you can mean so much to me without even trying, because you like me for me. I love you for you, never forget it

]]> ~Elusifaer http://Elusifaer.deviantart.com/journal/12979611/ http://Elusifaer.deviantart.com/journal/12979611/ Wed, 16 May 2007 15:57:16 PDT
So, I have an essay to write and three projects to finish. Wish me luck! I found a quiz on a friend's myspace page so I'm going to fill it in

Check the BANDS YOU'VE HEARD OF
Don't lie, cause it will make you look like a fake poser whore if you mark them all...


ALTERNATIVE:
[x] Breaking Benjamin
[ ] Paramore
[x] Panic! At The Disco
[x] Linkin Park
[ ] The Academy Is...
[x] Coldplay
[x] Three Days Grace
[x] Yellowcard
[x] 30 Seconds to Mars
[ ] Chevelle
TOTAL SO FAR = 7

COUNTRY:
[ ] Rascal Flatts
[ ] Carrie Underwood
[x] Leanne Rhymes
[ ] Garth Brooks
[x] Dixie Chicks
[ ] Kenny Chesney
[ ] Tim McGraw
[x] Faith Hill
[x] Shania Twain
[x] Johnny Cash

TOTAL SO FAR = 12

EMO:
[ ] Hawthorne Heights
[ ] Chiodos
[ ] Forgive Durden
[ ] Amber Pacific
[ ] The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
[ ] From First to Last
[ ] Senses Fail
[ ] Underoath
[ ] Something Corporate
[ ] Hit The Lights
[ ] Dear Whoever

TOTAL SO FAR = 12

INDIE:
[ ] The Hush Sound
[ ] Eisley
[ ] Death Cab for Cutie
[x] Dashboard Confessional
[x] The Killers
[x] Yeah Yeah Yeahs
[x] Hot Hot Heat
[x] Gym Class Heroes
[x] Franz Ferdinand
[ ] Modest Mouse

TOTAL SO FAR = 18

METAL:
[x] Slipknot
[x] System of a Down
[x] Disturbed
[x] Metallica
[x] Guns n' Roses
[x] Lamb of God
[ ] Slayer
[x] Hatebreed
[ ] Killswitch Engage

TOTAL SO FAR =25

POP:
[x] Teddy Geiger
[x] Ashlee Simpson
[x] Kelly Clarkson
[x] Jesse McCartney
[x] Avril Lavigne
[x] Pink
[x] The Veronicas
[x] Daniel Powter
[x] James Blunt
[x] Natasha Bedingfield
[ ] Ryan Cabrera

TOTAL SO FAR = 35

POWERPOP/PUNK:
[x] Hellogoodbye
[ ] Cute is What We Aim for
[ ] Cartel
[ ] The Click Five
[x] Fall Out Boy
[x] Rage Against the machine
[x] Good Charlotte
[x] Bowling for Soup
[ ] Relient K
[ ] Anti - Flag
[x] Simple Plan

TOTAL SO FAR= 41

RAP:
[x] Ying Yang Twins
[ ] T.I.
[ ] Paul Wall
[x] 2pac
[x] Jamie Foxx
[x] Ludacris
[x] Lil' Jon
[x] Outkast
[x] 50 Cent
[x] Kanye West
[x] Notorious B.I.G
[ ] Young Jeezy

TOTAL SO FAR = 50 My brother likes rap.

SKA:
[ ] Reel Big Fish
[ ] The Specials
[] Mad Caddies
[] Rancid
[] The Aquabats
[ ] Sublime
[x] No Doubt
[] Madness
[ ] Operation Ivy
[x]Bob Marley

TOTAL SO FAR= 52

ROCK:
[ ] Taking Back Sunday
[x] All American Rejects
[ ] Motion City Soundtrack
[ ] Avenged Sevenfold
[ ] Angels and Airwaves
[x] Evanescence
[x] My Chemical Romance
[ ] Drowning Pool
[x] GreenDay
[x] Blink 182
[ ] Madina Lake

TOTAL SO FAR = 57

CLASSIC ROCK:
[x] The Beatles
[x] Led Zeppelin
[x] The Rolling Stones
[x] The Cure
[x] The Who
[x] Pink Floyd
[x] Jimi Hendrix
[x] Queen
[x] Van Halen
[ ] Poison
[x] AC/DC

TOTAL SO FAR= 67

multiply your answer by 2
then repost with: I am 134% obsessed with music.

By the way people, this is a small representation of the music out there. As we all know, there are many more. If you can think of a band not listed here, could you please list it for me? Just your favourites ^^

]]> ~Elusifaer http://Elusifaer.deviantart.com/journal/12816482/ http://Elusifaer.deviantart.com/journal/12816482/ Wed, 02 May 2007 14:03:03 PDT

How is everyone? I'd love to know. I've been aware of it all along but it seems more prominent to me at the moment the fact that with Uni and work taking up most of my time, I don't get to see my friends. Some I haven't seen or talked to for months. It's rather sobering.

Anyway, back to what inspired this update. I was brushing my teeth and trying to talk to my brother in the bathroom and it reminds me of the time my sister and I tried to have a conversation while brushing our teeth. It's quite hilarious, I strongly urge you to do it, just don't choke!

Oh, also, I've gotten my results back for everything. For my essay, I got 67.5%, which is a Credit. I hope to do better with the next one that's due in three weeks. For Jewellery, I earned 42/50, which is a Distinction, so I'm rather happy about that. The next project worries me though because it's collaborative and we haven't come up with anything yet. Sculpture was 33/50, a Credit. Not so happy. Fortunately, while I'm still yet to get an explanation from my teacher about what I did so wrong, (I still don't know), our collaborative group has come up with a really interesting idea so I'm hopeful I can pull up my marks. Creating the image, I got 23/30, which is a Distinction. I'm glad though that I got my results back, because it shows where I've got to improve to get to where I want to be.

Wow, that was long, sorry about that. I've got half an hour 'til I have to leave for work. My hair is a mess and I haven't got shoes on yet . We're getting in a new load of staff, all young newbies in the next couple of weeks and my brother happens to be one of them. Also, Dairy has said they'd love to have me, but Service, (where I've been the last almost three years), have said they'd like to keep me too. It makes me rather nervous actually because loyalties are mixed.

I think that's about it at the moment. Oh, aside from the fact that I like a cutie at work. I'm honestly not expecting that to go anywhere though, because, plain and simple, something always goes wrong . Ah well, maybe someday. Tell me what's going on with you!

24 minutes 'til departure. Wish me luck!

Much love

~Karah

]]> ~Elusifaer http://Elusifaer.deviantart.com/journal/12331158/ http://Elusifaer.deviantart.com/journal/12331158/ Mon, 26 Mar 2007 02:40:57 PDT
I have a thousand word assignment due in a week.

My first driving lesson is this Thursday. Wish me luck and I won't try to run over any pedestrians... *shifty eyes*

I start in Dairy at work on Saturday.

The aim of tomorrow in sculpture is to figure out how to make a smaller version of the second Victoria Bridge that connected Brisbane.

I've yet to come up with a decent idea for creating the image.

The only thing that stopped me from nodding off entirely this morning in my lecture was that the lecturer had made a word error.

My tutor doesn't read drafts... blast it!

Don't go near my bedroom, it's an absolute pigsty, the pigs would be overjoyed if they had my room for home.

My marigold flowered! The snapdragons aren't that far off either. I'm so excited.

I paid for camp today. I hope it's worth it!

I've run out of things to talk about at the moment. That's my update. Tell me yours ^^ Dare you!

]]> ~Elusifaer http://Elusifaer.deviantart.com/journal/12000995/ http://Elusifaer.deviantart.com/journal/12000995/ Wed, 28 Feb 2007 13:43:18 PST

There have been a couple of developments since I last updated dA. I have a boyfriend ^^ for one. My family is the same as usual . Uni is absolutely awesome, except all that money I saved working is steadily going towards Uni stuff.... We made a group of friends out of the groups we were put into on Orientation week and lately we've been developing a habit of all sitting at the same table. Work keeps calling me, even though I told them I'm not available... It's fun... totally.

Oh, there's an international artist, Emil Goh, who has this great big project of the Umbrella people. Basically they ask for volunteers to walk around holding umbrellas, to shield people from sun or rain. I volunteered willingly, with a friend who got me into it and the curator called yesterday to organise things. On the 10th , I get to be an Umbrella Taxi! Can't wait

This is a quiz I stole from the ever-enjoyable ^^


1.- If I were a fruit I'd be... a mango.

2.- If I were a colour I'd be... purple.

3.- If I were an animal I'd be... panther.

4.- If I were a domestic appliance I'd be... a pop-corn maker.

5.- If I were a book I'd be... Tithe.

6.- If I were a clothing item I'd be... a lacy light-green, patterned bra.

7.- If I were a jewel I'd be... an amethyst.

8.- If I were an object I'd be... candle.

9.- If I were a car I'd be... a BUGGY.

10.- If I were an element I'd be... fire.

11.- If I were a tree I'd be... a poinciana.

12.- If I were a drink I'd be... a caramel thickshake.

13.- If I were an ice cream flavor I'd be... mint with chocolate kisses.

14.- If I were a person I'd be...a cheeky little brat.

15.- If I were a planet I'd be... Venus.

16.- If I were an insect I'd be... a lady beetle.

17.- If I were public transport I'd be... a tram.

18.- If I were a song I'd be... A Praise Chorus by Jimmy Eat World.

19.- If I were a movie I'd be... Domino.

20.- If I were a season I'd be... Winter.

21.- If I were a flower I'd be... a double impatien.

22.- If I were a job I'd be... a jewellery maker.

23.- If I were a cartoon I'd be... Warner Bros collection.

24.- If I were a place I'd be... a parkland filled with climbable trees and robust flowers.

25.- If I were a gift I'd be... teddy bear.

26.- If I were a memory I'd be... Wedged in a tree in the wind.

27.- If I were a city I'd be... Brisbane, Australia.

28.- If I were a sense I'd be... a taste.

29.- If I were a game I'd be... scrabble

30.- If I were a candy I'd be... FRECKLES!

31.- If I were a time of the day I'd be... early in the morning.

32.- If I were an invention I'd be... a can opener.

33.- If I were a bodypart I'd be... a hand.

34.- If I were a country I'd be... Australia.

35.- If I were a flavor I'd be... fairy floss.

36.- If I were a sport I'd be... European handball.

37.- If I were a smell I'd be... a rose.

38.- If I were a subject I'd be... art.

39.- If I were a flag I'd be... the Australian flag.

40.- If I were a building I'd be... a traditional Queenslander.

41.- If I were a month I'd be... June.

42.- If I were a perfume I'd be... Secret Garden.

43.- If I were a gummy candy I'd be... Gummi Bear!

45.- If I were a toy I'd be... a plush dog.

46.- If I were a textile I'd be... thick, soft carpet.

47.- If I were a shape I'd be... an eclipse.

48.- If I were a answer I'd be... the chicken or the egg...

49.- If I were a common liquorice I'd be... sherbet liquorice.

50.- If I were a word I'd be.. discombobulated!

]]> ~Elusifaer http://Elusifaer.deviantart.com/journal/11794483/ http://Elusifaer.deviantart.com/journal/11794483/ Tue, 13 Feb 2007 05:08:39 PST

There are quite a few things going on at the moment and it's all taking a bit to get organised!


Oh, slightly depressing moment, the guy I like at work is being transferred a very far distance away :tear: Lol, I need the guts to tell him I like him

First of all, before I get sidetracked, I'd like to share with you a lovely little poem in the book I was reading a few days ago. It's called The Dark Flight Down and it's by Marcus Sedgwick.


"Surely you won't run?
When your boat is ready to sail.
Surely you will stand
And face the gentle rain?
In the morning you should think
You might not last unto the night,
In the evening you should think
You might not last unto the morn.
So dance, my dears, dance
Before you take the dark flight down."


Kind of melancholy but it really touched me.


It's eleven at night here and I've still got a frying pan to wash, itchy mozzie bite scabs all over my legs and things to talk over with mates. I went for my Learner's today and failed because I got 16/20 when I needed 18/20 so I'm going again tomorrow. My friend is staying over tomorrow night so we're celebrating Valentine's together. Uni open week starts next week and everything is just coming to a head, I can't wait!

~Karah

]]> ~Elusifaer http://Elusifaer.deviantart.com/journal/11643632/ http://Elusifaer.deviantart.com/journal/11643632/ Thu, 01 Feb 2007 05:40:09 PST
I am mere weeks away from starting university full time. The holidays have been fun but in a way I can't wait because having all this time on my hands is seriously not fun, especially when that aforementioned time is used up not updating this site, but rather cleaning/washing/folding/cooking etc. I can't wait to have things to do so that my mother doesn't take advantage of me being home more than I ever have been

I think Yoxxy tagged me, so here goes.

"game" starts with the topic: "6 weird habits/things/hates about yourself"
Here's my habitual action that you may (NOT) want to know:


1. I have a lot of sugar, a hell of a lot of sugar. I buy lollies, chocolate, etc all of the time. My only surprise is that I'm not as large as a house. I have withdrawals too, I feel weird if I haven't had sugar in a week.

2. I love the rain, as soon as I know it's raining outside, I run out to sit in it. For instance it just started raining then and I had to run out and dance in it ^^.

3. I can't stand not having something to read. If I don't have anything new to read and no foreseeable way of getting to the library shortly I'll re-read old books, attack my mother's magazines, and/or actually buy a book, usually of which I will hate and never read again. Such is life.

4. I'm obsessed with my underwear. I love feeling comfortable and looking great. As luck will have it though, most of what I really like aren't in my size and I'm usually very particular in my tastes. If I find a set I like, it's usually an impulse buy and I'll wear it as much as possible. I try them on of course

5. I'm a nature freak. I love clouds, the moon, rain, the sun, storms, snow, greenery, plants, flowers, waterfalls, I could easily live in a rainforest etc. It's also really, really hard for me to litter and I find myself frequently picking up after others.

6. I'm really fanatical about having clean hands, body etc. It's funny because my room is usually messy but if I take out the rubbish, touch dirt, clean the toilets, if my hands feel grubby at all I just absolutely have to wash them.

Freaked out yet?

P.S. I'll get some work done when I find some inspiration. Things have been lacking lately.


~Karah

]]> ~Elusifaer http://Elusifaer.deviantart.com/journal/11345051/ http://Elusifaer.deviantart.com/journal/11345051/ Sun, 07 Jan 2007 02:54:44 PST
How is everyone? I hope your year has started well

I'm good, I've just done two full days at work in a row and my body is complaining Sorry I haven't made any new deviations in a while, there's been a serious lack of time. I've either been working or hanging out with family or mates. I'm having a ball, just tired, need my beauty sleep

There's a quiz I've taken from a friend of mine simply because I was intrigued Please bear with me Also, I got bored with the last post.

4 Things Many Don't Know Or Maybe Many Do Know:

- I continually wake at three in the moming for no apparent reason. It's like my body has some abnormal alarm clock.
- I have a Britney Spears tape from those "Hit Me Baby One More Time" days. Please forgive me, I was ten.
- I love hills, mountains etc.
- I always lose safety pins and they're found a week later in someone's foot.


4 Movies I Could Watch Over and Over Again:

- 10 Things I Hate About You
- Van Helsing
- Constantine
- Domino


4 Places Where I've Lived:

- Browns Plains
- Kingston
- Slacks Creek
- Rochedale South

4 TV Shows I Love:

- Grey's Anatomy
- House MD
- Supernatural
- Bones
(There are many more )


4 Places I've Been For Holidays:

- Cairns
- Bargara
- Tewantin
- Darwin


4 Of My Favourite Foods:

- Ice cream
- Mangoes
- Pies
- Cherries


4 Places I'd Rather Be:

- Kirra
- Tewantin
- Montville
- Byron Bay


4 Favourite Songs:


Count on Me - Default
Breathe in Now - George
Cruel to be Kind - Letters to Cleo
Middle - Jimmy Eat World


4 Dislikes:


- Bossy and aggressive customers.
- Rude people.
- Hypocrites.
- Things breaking.


4 Music Artists I dislike:

- Paris Hilton, she just wants to try everything once I think.
- 50 Cent, some of his songs are just too rude.
- Snoop Dog, just don't like his style.
- Celine Dion, it's all they play at work lately and I really don't want those songs in my head.


Bed time for me soon I think, we're supposed to go to the coast tomorrow. Much love




~Karah

]]> ~Elusifaer http://Elusifaer.deviantart.com/journal/11156921/ http://Elusifaer.deviantart.com/journal/11156921/ Sat, 23 Dec 2006 00:35:46 PST
Karah is having a little trouble getting into the Christmas vibe. Oh dear lordy.

This is just something I wrote up the other day and it wouldn't let me submit it on here without a picture apparently, and I post it with the picture and all it shows is the picture. I'm so confused but anyway...

I've called it Talons.

The food is too hot. I sit down and nibble it sparingly, relishing the feel of burnt taste buds. It’s pouring outside and I’m sitting in my underwear at the computer, which is wreathed in coolant. I wish I could go out but I know that I can’t. There’s too much at risk.
Bobby walks in and stares. I forgot about the latex cups and how they give the illusion of bursting out. I’ve had the same body for quite a few months now and you get used to it. If I ever switch skins again I’ll be like a baby; helpless and with no control.
“Quit gawping, moron,” I snap. He’s still staring at me like a dog with its eye on a juicy bone. If it’s one thing I hate, it’s feeling like a lump of tasty meat, especially when I can read the words forming in their minds.
“I… I’m sorry, you look stunning Leila. Really, really s-“
“Please, if you’re going to say sexy, I swear I’m going to gnaw my own ear off.”
He blinks at me, stunned. I’m not in the best of moods at the moment.
Bobby, in his natural form, is the sweetest kid I know. Dark brown hair that looks like he’s just woken up, eyes like chips of the purple sky, ivory skin and the perfect muscles obtained by long, disciplined practice over months of captivity.
Outside, the rain just stops. We both halt; wide-eyed and wary. There’s no way they’ve tracked us down. Not after three years. Nature stops for no-one but the Elyria patrol. We have scant time. I yank out my USB port, wincing as the sparks fly while Bobby systematically types the code in. A five flashes on the screen and counts down. I can hear footsteps outside. Within seconds, Bobby has transformed into an obsidian dragon and I a pearlescent eagle. The five layers of bricks crinkled like cars in a crusher under the onslaught of his widespread wings and momentum of take off. When I said I’d be hopeless if I ever changed skins again I lied. Otherwise I wouldn’t be alive today.

~

“Target spotted Sergeant, I repeat, target spotted!”
An animalistic howl arrived over the speaker. Two heat shapes showed up on the screen. Partners Amber and Travis were elated. It was them, it couldn’t be anyone else. Travis kicked the door in and the partners faced an empty room. It wasn’t possible. Travis checked the screen again and the shapes were still there. So the rumours were true. They stepped forward. Ever since those pathetic children blew up his ship, the boss had been hell-bent on making them suffer. He’d already decided that for every one of his men blown to pieces, double that is how many times he wanted his best team to rend their souls apart.
Caution thrown to the wind, Travis and Amber charged down the hallway. Their equipment had verified that the escapees were harmless and they had no compunctions about going in without a fair go. That was the reputation Elyria was known for. They got there and nothing, ice. Ice covered everything and Amber felt her lungs as they contracted. Where were they? Travis’s eyes darted with frantic panic. Something ticked over close by. Amber leaned forward, intent on the sound just as toxic green flames ate the flesh off her bones. Travis fared slightly better, his butt scorching first as he turned to retreat. Both of them were little more than biological sludge by the time the rain started pouring again and the flames hissed and spat.

~

I shouldn’t like it but I do. Those soldiers know nothing of the power struggle taking place on this planet. Bobby soars above me, destination in mind. We’re on the run again and part of me loves it. Life was starting to get boring for a second.



That's just me being bored and slightly creative. Thoughts?

Merry Christmas to all!

Love Karah

]]> ~Elusifaer http://Elusifaer.deviantart.com/journal/11001607/ http://Elusifaer.deviantart.com/journal/11001607/ Sat, 09 Dec 2006 01:58:30 PST I'm going to rouge my knees and roll my stockings down and all that jazz!

A lot has happened in the last few days. Ever since school finished everything has been so hectic. I've had the good with the bad and it is rare to have something really good without something really bad following from it or vice versa. I've been working my little butt off and at the moment all I'm looking forward to is a good day out with my mates

Something really good is that I won the trophy for my dance class, and without any warning whatsoever. I'm still over the moon about that and I get to do advanced jazz and hip hop next year, so happy. I think that this year is the year that I really let go and stopped caring what people thought of my dancing at all.

Something really bad is that I didn't get into the course I wanted because my portfolio was rejected. Here all, here all, I'm not talented enough darlings. I'm sorry if I'm bitter but a lot was resting on that and I wasn't accepted and I'm still trying to deal with it. Particularly as all the courses I went for were apparently not in existence according to the website that manages the whole shebang in the first place, so I couldn't nominate it, so I went for Fine Arts. I'm really in trouble. Now I can't get in because I've lost my student number. I'm really scared for my future now... call it tunnel vision but...

twenty years time, Karah is 47 and behind the counter saying 'Hi, how are you?' to a customer, while sporting a badge that says '20 years service' on it. The middle-age spread has begun, the kids are at after school care tearing eachother's hair out and the husband is sitting at home with a couple of coolies in front of the tv...

I'm just scared I won't get to achieve my dreams. I'm scared I'm going to be a checkout chick for the rest of my life and hate my fellow kind for being such rude bastards at times.

I want to make something out of what I've got and at the moment I don't think I have a hell of a lot going for me. I don't want to end up with a future that I hate, especially now knowing that this is the time for me to set my path.

Why does it have to be now? Why can't I just hang out with my friends? Why can't I just sit and watch movies all day if I want to? I want to sit outside and stare at the clouds, I don't want to be inside, sneezing because of aircon, continually repeating... 'Do you have flybuys at all?'

I want to live. At the moment it feels like I have to be hurting to feel like I'm alive. Otherwise I'm just numb and tired and feel like I'm stretching through a thick fog that is my mind. I don't really have a lot of people to turn to. Either they're busy, or I can't broach the subject because even in my head it sounds insane or the last one, they're much too happy, they don't know how to fix me and it's easier just to let them be happy without me bogging them down. I know what it feels like to have a depressed person chewing off your ear and it's nasty.

I seem to have lost myself somewhere. When I find myself I'll be fine and if anyone sees me please give a shout, I need it. I need to know that I can actually do something with what I've been given. Even if it's making more of it than I have. I can create things, I know I can. I need back the fabric of myself, it's taken a bit of a knocking lately. I haven't submitted in a while simply because I haven't taken any pictures I like enough. I will get there though. I'm not becoming what I hate. If you've made it to the end of this, congratulations, I hope I didn't drive you up the wall.

There is my whole life to look forward to, I have to stop being afraid.

~Karah

]]> ~Elusifaer http://Elusifaer.deviantart.com/journal/10957145/ http://Elusifaer.deviantart.com/journal/10957145/ Tue, 05 Dec 2006 06:42:57 PST
Tonight was my dance concert. My third one actually and this year, surprise, surprise, I got a bit of confidence for once. I invited my friends. They came. I got an award, I'm so happy and just keep thinking... I DID IT! I DID IT!

I'm probably not making very much sense right now For those who don't know, it's the middle of summer, stinking hot and I do jazz and hip hop for dance. I had the most amazing night, I love everyone!

~Karah

P.S, I'll probably come online and fix this up tomorrow morning so don't be scared just yet

]]> ~Elusifaer http://Elusifaer.deviantart.com/journal/10762112/ http://Elusifaer.deviantart.com/journal/10762112/ Sat, 18 Nov 2006 01:20:49 PST
I really don't know what I'm feeling at the moment, it's strange.

Yesterday, Jen gave me a hug after our graduation ceremony and while I was standing there, hugging her tight and being hardly able to breathe from her hug, we were saying we were going to miss eachother and I said:

"Your hair smells really nice."

To which she replied: "Karah, you absolute idiot, of all things, why did you say that? Is that all you are going to remember me by?"

At this point we're both crying and laughing fit to burst. I swear, I'm never wearing make-up to a graduation ever again and I've already promised to go to next years and the year after's.

My granddad hugged me so hard I couldn't breathe and my Grandma made me cry. My mum gave me one of her rare hugs and after that I ran around getting hugs from everyone and getting pictures, and swearing that we're not losing contact because we just CAN'T! It's not ALLOWED okay? I couldn't imagine ever not talking to these lovely, adorable people ever again.


It still hasn't hit me yet that I'm not actually going back to school. I saw a friend at work today and she said she'd see me at school on Monday but we both realised it wasn't happening and it felt like someone had kicked me in the stomach.

I'm going to miss my little TIP kids saying hi and talking to me. I'm going to miss my friends scattered throughout the grades, most of them established by me being half asleep and full of sugar going up to the next person and saying...'Hi, what's your name?!'

I'm going to miss stuffing around with Eli in applied art. He has his spares then and we tease eachother, I beat him up, chase him around, we nearly die from laughter most of the time and I know it's silly, but I wonder what he's going to do in his spares next week.

I remember this one time in the darkroom when I was preparing film for developing - for which absolute darkness is vital and Eli was in there with me. Someone came knocking and I screamed out, full of panic for my film because once it's exposed, it's shot, dead... and they didn't believe me. I kept calling out not to come in and someone said 'why'

I almost killed Eli when he tried yelling out 'We're having' before I went 'NO!' and reached out blindly to slap him to which he goes 'Owwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww!' Except it sounded like a moan and then he started giggling because I growled at him for making it sound so bad. There's still this person at the door and it was honestly so embarrassing, I really don't want to know what they thought hey.

I'm going to miss my little grade ten buddies. They peg balls, food, bottles at eachother and at me, give me hugs when I ask, talk excitedly and just plain amuse me. If I feel sad or really busy I go talk to them because nothing is really that serious for them yet and they're still having the time of their life

I'm going to miss my classmates. I'm going to miss Pharan switching between three seats in biology, the plain craziness of my modern history class, Sunny biffing Cameron over the head for calling her chihuahua a rat in Maths, sitting there staring into space in English, or watching Andrew playing games, the buzz of creation in Art and the stupidity in Applied Art.

I'm going to miss running back in the middle of school between classes just to hug a friend or talk to them, or poke them. I'm going to miss my name being called out by someone trying to get my attention, I'm going to miss all of those lunchhours in the art block working on majors with L-J. I'm going to miss the buzz I get from helping out in the art block. I'm going to miss running around school in between classes like a kid, just because I felt like running. I'm going to miss running late for class at school and pelting up the hill to the oval. I'm going to miss calling out to my friends that I love them and them calling out they love me back. I'm going to miss swearing at the useless school computers. The thing is, I don't want to go back there, I just want to make sure that I never grow out of my high school years and forget who I am, what I was made from and who sculpted me. Apparently I'm up to the next level. Let's just hope I know how to deal. And to everyone...

I MADE IT! I FINISHED TWELVE YEARS OF SCHOOLING! IT TOOK A LOT OF EFFORT BUT I'M HERE AND THEY'RE ALL RIGHT! I FEEL INVINCIBLE! BRING ON THE WORLD!

Go on, feed the ego, you know you want to In a few months I'll probably be sobbing in t... ]]> ~Elusifaer http://Elusifaer.deviantart.com/journal/10503749/ http://Elusifaer.deviantart.com/journal/10503749/ Wed, 25 Oct 2006 06:28:07 PDT

The world is a strange and wonderful place. In four weeks I won't have the 'shelter' and endless standard routine of school keeping me out of 'the real world.' I mean sorry, no disrespect to the next generation above me but I already have a pretty good idea of what the world is about. It's not like that when I graduate, I'm suddenly going to be thrown into 'the real world' like a goldfish from a bowl to the deep sea and die of the shock of it all. It's more like I'm already in there, just whoever put me there is standing in the shallows and has still got a hold on my tail.

In a way I'm both scared and excited about this 'transition.' Depending on what happens and where I end up, I still have high aspirations and part of the fear is that somehow I will lose my way or my hope and end up twenty years from now in a job and a relationship that I hate. That I will lose close contact with my family and that I won't have the type of friends and relationships that I have and treasure now.

I'm excited because I like where I am and I want to further that part of my life. I want to learn new things. I want to enjoy myself. I want to help others. I want to do what's right for myself and what's right for others that I love. Above all I just want to live. You know you're in a good place when everything possible goes wrong and instead of crying you just resort to some sort of manical laughter.

Things go wrong. People get hurt. Accidents happen. These things may make you stop for a little while but while you pause on that trail in life, the world keeps passing you by, it doesn't stop for anyone and eventually you feel like you'll be able to get back in there, up the pace again. The important thing is to keep living. You're here so you may as well make the most of it.

I have a quote that says "A positive attitude may not solve all your problems, but it will annoy enough people to make it worth the effort," Herm Albright. It makes me laugh. People always ask me why I'm so happy and I don't actually have an answer for them, as sad as that is. I just feel this overwhelming sense of bouyancy. I can't explain any further than that.

I am rather predictable however, because good quotes, great pictures and happy people inspire me to be the best person I possibly can be. It isn't always like that however, and there are some tough times where it seems like it's never going to end and everything sucks and believe me, I hate those times with a passion. There are innocuous little comments and actions in every day life that stab me deep inside because whoever said it doesn't have my history and doesn't know how it's going to affect me. Sometimes I get tired and hate how I feel. To live you have to experience everything and pain is one of them. I'm just lucky I have people surrounding me that think I'm worthy enough for them to bring me back up again

"What lies before us and what lies behind us are small matters compared to what lies within us.
And when we bring what is within us out into the world, miracles happen".

Henry David Thoreau

Everybody hurts sometimes but love is what we're based on. That's what I believe at least

Have fun!

~Karah

]]> ~Elusifaer http://Elusifaer.deviantart.com/journal/10397157/ http://Elusifaer.deviantart.com/journal/10397157/ Sun, 15 Oct 2006 03:45:19 PDT
I decided I had to change my journal. had to do a quiz the other day and I took my pick out of it Otherwise it's far too long ^^

Oh and if you're wondering about the title, I asked four of my friends for a word each... that's the result

CAN YOU
Sing the alphabet backwards: With a lot of concentration and rending of other peoples' eardrums
Stand on your tip toes without wearing shoes: Yes
Speak any other languages: A few words maybe, not all of them polite.
Go a day without food: It's been done before... please never again
Remember your dreams: Depends on the dream, sometimes I can hold on to them for a little while, others I can remember really vivid parts.
Read music, not just tabs: Not sure what that means.
Roll your tongue: Yes
Eat a whole pizza: If I'm really hungry, maybe just over a half.

HAVE YOU EVER
Won something in the lottery: No
Snuck out of the house: Yes
Lied to get out of trouble: Yes
Had a computer crash: Yes
Gotten lost in your city: Yes.. so not good..
Seen a shooting star: Yes and I got goosebumps ^^
Been to any other countries: No, more's the pity.
Had a serious surgery: Yes
Solved a rubiks cube: If I have I can't remember.
Gone out in public in your pajamas: Yes
Kissed a random stranger: No
Hugged a random stranger: Yes, New Year's.
Been in a fist fight: No
Been arrested: No
Done drugs: No
Had alcohol: Yes
Laughed and had milk come out of your nose: No
Sneaked into the opposite sex's bathroom: Yes
Gone to school only to find you had the day off because of a holiday/etc: No
Swore at your parents: Yes
Kicked a guy where it hurts: Tried to.
Been to a casino: No
Ran over an animal and killed it: Not personally but I've been a passenger when it's happened.
Broken a bone: Yes
Gotten stitches: Yes
Had a water balloon fight in winter: No, more's the pity.
Made homemade muffins: Yes
Bitten someone: Yes
Been to disneyland/disneyworld: No

MISCELLANEOUS

How much money do you have right now: Enough
Are you hungry right now: No
What are you doing right now: This questionaire, msn.
Do you like the moon: Yes
What are you going to do when you're done with this: Post it probably.
If you could have any magical power what would it be: To be able to transport myself somewhere else when I need to.

DO YOU THINK YOU ARE
Funny: Sometimes
Cool: More oddball than anything.
Pretty: On a good day.
Sarcastic: No.... not at all honey...
Lazy: Depends on what needs to be done.
Hyper: Most of the time.
Friendly: Yes
Evil: I think evil thoughts at times.
Unforgettable: That's hard to tell from my own point of view now, isn't it?
Smart: At times.
Strong: At times, and also depends in which context.
Talented: At certain things.
Dorky: Yes

WHAT COMES TO MIND WITH THE WORD
High: sky
Lonely: shadows
Pen: paper
Flower: nature
Window: outside
Psycho: crazy
Brain freeze: slushy
Strange: weird
Sassy: sweet
Suffering: hurt
Art: creation

WOULD YOU EVER
Sky dive: Yes
Run away: Sure, though I'm still debating the pros and cons
Curse at a teacher: Always, just not obviously.
Not take a shower for a week: No, please, the insanity!
Ask someone out: Yes
Lie to someone to make them think better of you: No, they take me as I am ^^
Visit a foreign country for more than a month: Yes
scuba diving: Yes
Write a book: It's a dream that will probably be unfulfilled ^^
Assemble a computer: If I knew how.
Become a rock star?: Yes
Have a long-distance relationship: Probably not.
Marry someone you don't know: No

LAST QUESTIONS ( FINALLY )
What kind of computer do you have: My personal one is an outdated laptop, the other one is just the family one http://Elusifaer.deviantart.com/journal/10263673/ http://Elusifaer.deviantart.com/journal/10263673/ Mon, 02 Oct 2006 18:42:31 PDT
It’s funny. I spend five days in Darwin and the title of this journal is the only real thing that stuck in my head. I found it amusing because the words “GET STONED WITH TOM” were on the side of a building that sold landscaping supplies. The meaning changes somewhat then Anyway, we went past it so many times that the image of it is stuck in my head.

Darwin was absolutely awesome and I am so tired right now that I have a headache . Oh, one thing before I start talking about everything… flying does not agree with me not at all.

Anyway, I had so much fun! We flew up on Wednesday night last week, the same flight as my grandparents, except they were further back on the actual plane. The best thing about the flight to Darwin from Brisbane was that you could see the city lights and there were so many! The worst was the fact that some idiot believed the seat design could give people a comfortable sleep. There is no ROOM to stretch out; you have a space the width of your hips to shuffle around in and two little armrests that do nothing, NOTHING for your arms. My mum and brother took travel calm tablets but I didn’t because mum didn’t think I’d need them. Boy, did I suffer. If being pregnant means I feel that nauseous every morning I think I’d rather not be pregnant at all. Nausea is incredibly unpleasant. The landing was really rough, my ears felt like someone had put glass shards through them and my ears were telling my stomach to divulge everything. And then there’s mum going… woooooooooooooow…. Karah, look at that view! I was sitting bolt upright, eyes screwed tight, teeth gritted saying… I’d rather not.

We’d just gotten our hire cars at two thirty in the morning and were following my cousin to our accommodation when we realised we couldn’t see my grandparents. Turned out their hire car was bogus and we had to sit on the side of the road for close to half an hour waiting for them to get sorted. We had the same accommodation as them, with only one key so that was so much fun. Everyone just pretty much collapsed. It was really muggy too and sleep was sketchy.

Our accommodation was a two-roomed cabin with an ensuite, kitchen and what could be called at a stretch a lounge room. There was a little deck out the front and bush as far as the eye could see out the back. I couldn’t sleep so I went to watch the sunrise with bleary eyes. The first day, Thursday, the only thing we did was go out to the shops and get food supplies. Then we went to the Mindil beach sunset markets in the afternoon and evening. Boy, I loved those markets! They had so many things, the atmosphere was great, and because of the humidity I didn’t even have to wear a jacket. You should have seen the food stalls, so many of them, and all different varieties so it was hard to pick what to eat for dinner. Got a few good bargains but the best thing was just wandering around, soaking up the atmosphere. We also ran into everyone at the markets… everyone going to the wedding that is. There was also the most beautiful sunset and I’ll post it as soon as mum wakes up and I find out where she put the family camera.

The second day, Friday, we went to lunch at a place called Lizards with most of the people that were going to the wedding. I had grilled barramundi with chips and salad… *divine* The fish was so good. What was really strange though was that, aside from my grandparents, that only live twenty minutes away at home, I hadn’t seen most of my family for a year in some cases and several in others. My cousins are so much older, they look really grown up, it’s so awesome but scary at the same time. Hehe, my cousin Chris has two daughters, one I don’t really know, I’ve never seen her but the other one, Ashleigh was there. She’s six months old and so adorable! I had a lot of fun talking to her and playing. I’m not one for social situations with people I haven’t seen since I was eight so I mainly just stuck to the people I knew I got sunburnt too…. Blah… In the afternoon we went to Howard Springs. We had trouble getting there. Darwin is usually pretty good with signs but in this case not. Whoa man, the barramundi there are huge! This guy was feeding them little fish and they jumped out of the water. I have picture but they’re not very good. The barramundi were about five handspans at a guess. We also saw a turtle. The water wasn’t very clear but it was nice and cool.... ]]> ~Elusifaer http://Elusifaer.deviantart.com/journal/10149315/ http://Elusifaer.deviantart.com/journal/10149315/ Fri, 22 Sep 2006 04:41:41 PDT
How's doing?

I have news and a quiz. I'll put the news up first and it shall be brief.

I HAVE PHOTOSHOP BACK!!!!

School holidays are official. ^^ " "

I think that's about it, brain isn't exactly functioning on the highest speed at the moment because I am a bit tired


Quiz time:

ODD HABITS - Like & Dislike...


Likes: --> Taking photos of people unawares. Some would call that creepy. I would say that I care

--> Saying hello to random people. I'm one of those horribly optimistic types

--> I like walking everywhere. I could also get lost in a garden park quite easily and for a long time. Same as per library ^^

--> I really, really like small creatures that I can chase and watch.

--> I say 'wheeeeeeeeeeeee' an awful lot and I have no idea why. When I finish something, I take a deep breath, breath out and say 'wheeeeee'

--> I love dancing in the rain, I love being in the rain. When it rains, I'm out there and grinning my head off.

Dislikes: --> I don't like getting depressed, I have weird habits. My usual is to make custard and go eat it while watching Hulk. No soppy movies, Hulk for me. I have no idea why.

--> There are some people I don't like on sight and it turns into a real dislike when I meet them in person. Not because they look funny or anything like that, just because of the way they act.

--> I don't mind putting on a load, I don't mind folding a load but I hate hanging one out and bringing one back in. I think it's just standing there, hanging up clothing... You can't really do anything else, whereas when setting up a load, you can walk away and do things during the time the load is done and when you fold you can watch TV, stuff like that.

--> I think frogs are cute but I hate toads. Partially because frogs are natural to Australia and cane toads are a pest, partly because toads flourish in this environment and ruin our natural fauna and lastly, because they're butt-ugly.

--> I really dislike artists that have two or so really good songs, but when you get their album you only really like the ones they released and you hate all of the others. I go through hate sessions sometimes and that's where downloading comes in handy

--> Magpies are really annoying but they are also really graceful. I mean, great, you know how to protect your young, but seriously, picking a PALM tree on a HILL, right in front of my LETTERBOX.... It means I do not like magpies. The magpie got sucked in though because it rained and palm trees don't offer much shelter you know... anyway... I was walking to school today and this magpie... (not the same one), soared down from an electrical cable, across the road and into the depression on the side of the road I was on. I wish I could use air currents like that!

Much love!

~Karah ]]> ~Elusifaer http://Elusifaer.deviantart.com/journal/9995086/ http://Elusifaer.deviantart.com/journal/9995086/ Thu, 07 Sep 2006 03:43:55 PDT |

Has anyone heard of the Red Hot Chili Peppers? I adore their songs! My friend has said he'll take me to their next concert in Australia... I don't know whether to believe him or not

Everyone say happy birthday to ! Yeah okay, it was three days ago and I'm a bit late but I said happy birthday on the day!

I hate things at the moment, it's all over the place but at the same time I'm having a lot of fun.... yeah I know I'm weird... ! There's massive relief that QCS is over and done with, though I'm scared shiteless that I've dug myself a deeper hole Next week is block exams and everything is just coming to a head. There is so much on at the moment.

--> It's not bad enough that I have to dance at one fete, there are two lined up, this week and the week after.

--> The new manager at work won't give me any shifts and any time that they call for me to work I'm not available, though I'd gladly be if circumstances would allow, I like my work



--> My computer keeps bleeping for no apparent reason.

--> We had the computer reformatted a week ago and everything is so alien. I can't find my music, the pictures are in a totally different folder, I can't find the Photoshop disc and I want it.... ARGH! Cummulative heart stress!

--> Speaking of clogging up arteries, helped me yesterday afternoon making fifty cupcakes for my little brother's birthday celebration with his class mates at school and this afternoon decorating them. Happy birthday for tomorrow Nathan! I'm so glad I'm not his teacher, there is so much sugar in those cupcakes! Thank you so very, very much my dear L-J, I love you to bits!

--> My room looks like a bomb hit it. I have my school bag, my school books, my QCS papers, my two costumes, my bed has fallen through again and I have a pile of new washing. Quite an achievement I reckon

--> Without Photoshop, I can't resize the pictures I take and the nifty little borders so I'm annoyed: I have so many photos at the moment that I'd love to submit.

--> I have four tests next week. Monday is Maths A: Debentures, loans, queuing, passbooks... all that lovely stuff. Wednesday is English and Biology, Schindler's List and cell biology respectively . Then finally on Thursday Modern History is response to stimulus about Apartheid. So much fun Argh!

--> Major bonus, flying up to Darwin on the 27th to see my cousin's wedding! I can't wait, I haven't seen her in ages!


So I'm off, I have things to do. Much love to all!

~Karah! ]]> ~Elusifaer http://Elusifaer.deviantart.com/journal/9422772/ http://Elusifaer.deviantart.com/journal/9422772/ Wed, 19 Jul 2006 04:09:25 PDT
Opening Credits: The Beauty of Gray - Live

Waking Up: Cast No Shadow - Oasis

Falling in Love: Iris - Live {WTF?}

Sex scene: Unpredictable - Last Week. {ROFL! What on earth is that supposed to mean?}

Fight scene: Last Beautiful Girl - Matchbox 20 { Hang on, I love the song, but another WTF factor.}

Breaking Up: Without Your Smile - Evermore. {}

Getting Back Together: Life is Better with you - Evermore

Secret Love: Americana - The Offspring {WTF?!}

Life's Okay: Slide - Goo Goo Dolls

Mental breakdown: Sunday Morning - Maroon 5 {Don't go near me Sunday! }

Partying: Message in a Bottle - Sting and the Police.

Long Night Alone: Riot Van - Arctic Monkeys

Final Battle Scene: I believe - 13. {Okay, that was random, I haven't heard this song in ages!}

Death Scene: Needles - Seether { Oh that would be a horrible way to die}

Credits: What if - Creed {Please tell me there's not going to be a sequel } ]]> ~Elusifaer http://Elusifaer.deviantart.com/journal/9294805/ http://Elusifaer.deviantart.com/journal/9294805/ Thu, 06 Jul 2006 17:31:39 PDT

A - Available: Yes
A - Age: 17
A - Annoyance: rudeness

B - Best Friend: Lzmj
B - Beer: No thanks, I'll survive without it.
B - Birthday: June 26

C - Crush: Ja
C - Car: Not in ownership yet.
C - Candy: Jelly beans!

D - Day or night: Night
D - Dream Car: Buggy!
D - Dogs or Cats: Cat.

E - Easiest Person To Talk To: Andreas
E - Egg nog: Never tasted it.
E - E-mail: Four

F - Favourite Month: June
F - Favourite Color: Purple!
F - Favourite Flower: Black boy rose
F - Favourite Band: There are too many!

G - Gummy Bears or Worms: Gummiiiii
G - Giver or Taker: Giver... I think.
G - Gum: Spearmint.

H - Hair Color: Light brown with blonde highlights.
H - Height: 165cm

I - Ice Cream: Butterscotch.
I - Instrument: Only know recorder... don't think that's much of an achievement
I - Idol: Grandparents.

J - Jewellery: Pearl, opal, silver.
J - Job: Checkout chick... if you're rude, I don't like you
J - Jail: I only know old famous ones.

K - Kids: None... little siblings are enough for me.
K - Kickboxing or Karate: Would love to do karate.
K - Kindergarten: I don't know what it's called.

L - Longest Car Ride: To Bundaburg
L - Longest Phone call: To an old friend.

M - Milk Flavor: Vanilla Malt and Chocolate are my favourite.
M - Most Missed Person: Guess
M - Movie Last Watched: Hotel Rwanda.

N - Number of Siblings: 3, all younger.
N - Number of Tattoos: 0
N - Name: Karah

O - One Wish: To go to Darwin.
O - One Phobia: Deep water.
O - One Regret: Too many, but it doesn't do good to dwell.

P - Part of Your Appearance You Like Best: My eyes.
P - Pop: The original Fanta, closely followed by raspberry fanta

Q - Quick or Slow: Who, what, where, why, when?

R - Reason to Smile: Being alive
R - Reality TV Show: No, stop that right there.

S - Song Last Heard: Dreams can come true - Gabrielle
S - Season: Winter
S - Shoes: Boots

T - Time You Woke Up: 7:40am
T - Time Now: 10:23 am
T - Time For Bed: Probably late.

U- Unpredictable: Depends.
U- Underwear: Suits me.

V - Vegetable You Hate: Mushy peas.
V - Vacation Spot: Noosa

W - Where are you going to travel nextown: Darwin, hopefully
W - Weather: 16 degrees Celsius.

X - X-tra special someone: Not telling.

Y - Year you were born: Do the math... can't be bothered? 1989
Y - Year it is now: 2006
Y - Yellow: Yellow Cushion

Z - Zoo Animal: Bengal Tiger ]]> ~Elusifaer http://Elusifaer.deviantart.com/journal/9213924/ http://Elusifaer.deviantart.com/journal/9213924/ Wed, 28 Jun 2006 19:17:08 PDT Outside (Live Version) - Staind [That's great, real indicative!] I’m on the outside
I’m looking in
I can see through you
See your true colors
Cause inside you’re ugly
You’re Ugly like me
I can see through you
See to the real you

What song reminds your friends of you?
Sympathetic - Seether [ and I'm sympathetic, never letting on I feel the way I do, as I'm falling apart again at the seams Great song, not so sure I want it to be a reminder of me to my friends though ]

How will your next school/working day be?
Dizzy - Goo Goo Dolls [o.O Watch out everyone on Sunday!] You're cynical and beautiful
You always make a scene
You're monochrome delirious
You're nothing that you seem
I'm drowning in your vanity
Your laugh is a disease
You know you're everything I need

Chorus:
Everything you are
Falls from the sky like a star
Everything you are
Whatever ever you want

What does your family think of you?
My Time - Pete Murray [What's that supposed to mean?! Does that mean they don't want to be near me? Aww, shucks! Sittin' alone in my room wasting my time
Just waiting for the news that could free me
Get me out of this mess i should i have never thought
I could be so blessed

Wasting my time watch my life
Slip away
Wasting my time watch my life
Slip away

What do your friends think of you?
If you love somebody set them free - Sting and the Police [Gee, that makes a hell of a lot of sense... not!] If you need somebody, call my name
If you want someone, you can do the same
If you want to keep something precious
You got to lock it up and throw away the key
If you want to hold onto your possession
Don't even think about me

If you love somebody, set them free

If it's a mirror you want, just look into my eyes
Or a whipping boy, someone to despise
Or a prisoner in the dark
Tied up in chains you just can't see
Or a beast in a gilded cage
That's all some people ever want to be


How much of a party animal are you?
Fortunate Fool - Jack Johnson [ROFL! That's just great! ]
She's the one that stumbles when she talks about
The seven foreign films that she's checked out
Such a fortunate fool
She's just too good to be true
She's such a fortunate fool
She's just so mmm

What should you do with your life?
Bad Habit - Offspring [I should do a bad habit with my life or my life is a bad habit? Oooooh, what about a nun? I'd be a horrible nun, maybe that's what it means Oh hang on, it's about driving... maybe I should never be allowed to drive or something ]

How will you die?
Come to Nothing - Evermore [Great! I will die in the style of come to nothing! Any brainwaves on how that actually works? ... Anyone?]

What's this Christmas going to be like?
She wants to move - N.E.R.D [Mrs Claus?]

Will you be a g... ]]> ~Elusifaer http://Elusifaer.deviantart.com/journal/9172996/ http://Elusifaer.deviantart.com/journal/9172996/ Sat, 24 Jun 2006 21:04:49 PDT
Somebody please tell me who initiated Mozilla Firefox so I can string them by their toes over a container of piranhas. The window decided to freeze and I just lost the journal I was working on

It’s holidays now. They’re letting me out. I don’t know if they should, might be bad for other people’s health but I guess they’ve got their reasons.

Assessment is on the cards. I have four projects to work on. My last art major apparently didn’t fit the criteria of metamorphosis properly and I got a C+ but good news! I can resubmit if I do the major over the holidays. ….Ooh, ultimate crudiness! The real travesty is that a cardboard box with a 'bloodstained' teddy and army figurines bodgily painted white was given a pass. PASSED I say! Hell, if that monstrosity got a pass, I should get an A- and L-J should get an A+++++! *shakes fist* MINE didn’t fit the criteria hey? Bad application on mine hey? ‘Frankly amateur’ hey? HELLO, THE WORLD HAS GONE TO SHITE IF THAT CARBUNCLE WAS PASSED AS GRADE TWELVE WORK! A GRADE EIGHT WOULD HAVE FAILED… freakhog primary schoolers could do better! I’ll give you amateur. It’s called a teddy bear up your bum!

Sorry, he hum, *coughs*, Karah should not be allowed near a keyboard when she’s not happy

Our fridge decided to die. We’ve got it on life support and packed with ice. Anybody want strawberry milk? We have seven cartons. Don’t take the chicken though! That’s for dinner tonight.

My birthday is tomorrow. I wonder how I will feel. Do the wrinkles start on your nose at that age? Or am I just giving my imagination free reign?

My room is actually clean for once, I know! Usually it’s inhabited by thousands of books, papers, hordes of dust bunnies, the occasional cockroach and countless daddy long leg spiders. Watch out for the children’s toys, they bite, the nasty little blood suckers and the temperamental slats.

Anyway, onto business. Surely there should be a word limit to these journals, or at least mine. People will fall asleep and a keyboard can only withstand a certain amount of drool before it gets into the cracks and sticks the keys together.

”Honey have you seen my dentures?”

”I think I saw them floating around the letter Y last week.”



Don’t mind me.

has given me a quiz to fill out. Hopefully you haven’t fallen asleep yet

1) Full Name: Karah Joy Sinden
2) Name Backwards: nednis yoj harak… hehe, could almost be another language
3) Were you named after anyone?: No, mum made my name up, but my second name is also her second name. Her second name was in honour of a friend of my grandmothers’ who died of cancer, Joyce.
4) Does your name mean anything?:

Scandinavian: Nickname for Katherine
Karah Female Scandinavian Abbreviation of Katherine. Pure.

Karah Female American Meaning: Sweet melody, alternative form of Kara.

5) Nick Name(s): Joy joy, Ka Ka, dictionary, monkey… tell me if you remember any

6) Screen Name(s): Now: <"Children, Karah's not impressed. And you can forget the naughty stool bitches, cos i got the cat-o-nine-tails! WOO!"> Mooneboo
7) Date Of Birth: 26th June
8) Place of Birth: Sunnybank
9) Nationality: English, Australian, Welsh, German. I talked to Mum and I have Danish, Scottish and Irish blood in me too. It's weird to think I have so many
10) Current Location: Brisbane
11) Sign: Cancer
12) Religion: Uncertain
13) Height: 165cm
14) Weight: 64kg
15) Shoe Size: 8.5
16) Hair colour: Light brown with chemical bl... ]]> ~Elusifaer http://Elusifaer.deviantart.com/journal/9093542/ http://Elusifaer.deviantart.com/journal/9093542/ Sat, 17 Jun 2006 05:49:59 PDT
How are you all? I'm happy, really happy. All of my exams are over, just waiting for the results... I decided to try and make a quiz... if it fails just tell me okay?


1. What’s your favourite lolly? Guess... jelly beans

2. If you had to choose between seeing a sunrise and a sunset, which one would you pick? Sunrise

3. Do you like highlighters? A huh, but I don't like the way they smell.

4. It is three o’clock in the morning. You hear a girl screaming for help outside your window. Do you :

A) Run outside screaming, ‘Don’t worry, I’m coming!’

B) Try to get up but fail and fall back into bed mumbling and groaning, only to settle back to sleep.

C) Roll over and inwardly groan that the stupid git woke you up.

A, though I don't know what help I'd be.

5. Would you swim in the pool when it rained? Yeah huh, is so much fun!

6. Do you look more like your mum or your dad? My mum ^^

7. Do you like sliced cheese? NO! I hate the stuff, so slimy and squidgy and processed and stuff. I learnt that it's basically all of the offcuts of cheese they make in blocks just smushed together.

8. When you’re old will you:

A) Be the rude old cretin that nobody likes but tolerates out of politeness.

B) One of those chatty old dears with nothing else to do but yabber at the checkout about your latest colonoscopy.

C) A mad old bat that everyone loves but keeps at arms distance.

D) Really sweet and lovely, you go home and cook all of the time.

C, definitely!

9. Do you get insulted easily? Yes, unfortunately. I'm trying to grow a thicker skin.

10. What’s your dance style? Somewhere between hip hop and jazz

11. Do you like somebody? Yes, he's so gorgeous!!!

12. Do you chuck out all of your old junk or stash it away somewhere? Stash it, I have so much stuff downstairs. Tee hee.

13. It’s time to clean the house do you:

A) Hide under your quilt from the legions of dust bunnies, decayed food bits and hordes of daddy long legs.

B) Do half of it and promise yourself to do the rest of it tomorrow.

C) Get it all done, you can’t stand the mess and besides, those dust bunnies are seriously invading your space.

D) Start the music and sing along to your favourite songs to make it at least half enjoyable.

As much as I'd love to do A, I do D when I have to clean

14. How many people do you have on your msn list that you actually talk to frequently? 20

15. How many people on your msn in total? 80

16. How many songs are on your music list? This could be computer, MP3, Ipod, etc... Computer, 679.

17. Would you shave your head? Depends what for and how fast it can grow back

18. Say your nose was colossal, would you:

A) Grow your hair really long and hope it covers.

B) Get a nose job really, really early.

C) Accept your heritage.

D) Flaunt it.

Flaunt it all of the way baby!

There we go. Remember, critique is welcome, but not too harsh if you please. You can take the quiz if you like it, but those chances are probably slim

Have fun

~Karah ]]> ~Elusifaer http://Elusifaer.deviantart.com/journal/8995604/ http://Elusifaer.deviantart.com/journal/8995604/ Wed, 07 Jun 2006 04:10:15 PDT
My Granddad gave me one of those old jelly bean holders when my family and I last visited him. It's a plastic globe on a base with a little handle and everytime you turn the handle, lollies come down through a little tube I have to clean it off and fill it up, it's a compulsion! I want jelly beans!

First of all, I got my essay finished and I am very sleep-deprived and searching for any sugar I can to stay awake I want to do my biology summary but I can't find the task sheet, so that's a waste of time. Basically, I'm tired, waiting for a decent hour to go to bed otherwise I'll oversleep and feel like crap tomorrow anyway.... and it seems that I can't do any of my homework. The stuff I need to work on requires light and space. I usually do my artwork outside but I hate mozzies and plus, it's a wittle bit cold...

The real reason I started this was to do a quiz that I was tagged to do by I think it's very suitable! , different types of craziness Though I think I could write a better one if I had the time

What kind of crazy person are you most like/are?
1.) You found a dead cockroach on your pillow and what do you do?
a. You eat it.
b. <> And then wash my hands.
c. You cry and pray that it'll have a good afterlife and throw a funeral for it.
d. You get another pillow.
e. You sleep on top of the dead cockroach, pretending not to notice.

2.) Someone stole your lunch.
a. Call the police.
b. You ask your friends for food.
c. <> And find the little critter that stole mine! Oh wait, I put chilli on my sandwiches
d. You skip lunch.
e. You steal someone else's lunch and say that another person did it.

3.) You flunked a huge exam on the subject you have the lowest grade on.
a. Throw a tantrum in class and kill the teacher.
b. You think you have perfect grades, and you don't care.
c. You cry and whine, even if you just got an A- and pray that you'll do better next time.
d. <> Sounds like maths
e. Bad grades, don't care.

4.) You missed one episode of your favorite TV show...
a. Get a gun and shoot the TV.
b. <> I'd be upset but I wouldn't cry, I'd probably just whine a bit. What's Tivo?
c. You don't watch TV, since you use up your time to pray.
d. It's okay... you always watch TV, so you could see it another time.
e. You don't care, because you eat a lot of junk food and already have Tivo.

5.) You step on a snail...
a. <> Sounds like what I did when I was little, we had heaps of the little critters so I don't think I did anything to the overall population
b. You immediately clean your shoes with whatever's available.
c. You cry and pray that the snail will come back to life.
d. You get slightly frustrated and get new shoes the next day.
e. OMG I LOVE SNAILS ON MY SHOES!!!

Mostly A's:
You're an evil kid who likes to pull pranks and overreact to the smallest things. Someday, you're going to have to go to an Insane-Asylum.

Mostly B's:
You're a poor old hippie who wants to save everything, but you try to be nice, so you're not that evil. You should get a job to earn some money, or at least earn... ]]> ~Elusifaer http://Elusifaer.deviantart.com/journal/8889526/ http://Elusifaer.deviantart.com/journal/8889526/ Sat, 27 May 2006 03:36:57 PDT
I was tagged by

1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4.
-monial scene, but it is dominated <.... Introduction to Hamlet... don't ask ?

2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can.
A desk....

3.What is the last thing you watched on TV?
I think it was Everybody Loves Raymond.

4.Without looking, guess what time it is:
8:50pm

5.Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?
8:20pm

6.With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
My music, Limp Bizkit. I'm in an angry mood.

7.When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
About eight-ish, just tipping some water out of a pot.

8.Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
My biology research

9.What are you wearing?
My pajamas and earphones.

10.Did you dream last night?
No, my sleep was disrupted constantly.

11. When did you last laugh?
When I left work, at five-thirty-ish.

12. What is on the walls of the room you are in?
A couple of paintings by my Grandma.

13. Seen anything weird lately?
I don't think so, my version of weird is pretty extreme.

14. What do you think of this quiz?
It's okay, but I should really be doing something else, I'm finding it hard to concentrate and it frustrates me. I've got to be calm to do my work, but I can't get calm.

15. What is the last film you saw?
I honestly can't remember.

16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?
I'd divvy it up between me and my most immediate family. I don't know what I'd do after that, probably save it for Uni.

17. Tell me something about you that I don't know.
I'm not proud of myself at the best of times.

18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
Poverty

19. Do you like to dance?
Yes, I love it. It takes a little while for me to loosen up though, especially in a social situation.

20. George Bush:
.... don't get me started on him. I don't have a political opinion persay, and I'm not the most educated but he does a lot of things that aren't very good for his country, and mine.

21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
I haven't decided yet and I don't think I will right now, or any time soon.

22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
Ditto for 21.

23. Would you ever consider living abroad?
I'm not sure, I'd have to go abroad first

24. What do you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates?
Hi ]]> ~Elusifaer http://Elusifaer.deviantart.com/journal/8860273/ http://Elusifaer.deviantart.com/journal/8860273/ Wed, 24 May 2006 03:51:49 PDT Please don't murder me!

[ ] I am shorter than 5'4.
[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[x] I have many scars.
[x] I tan easily.
[ ] I wish my hair was a different color.
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[ ] I have/I've had braces.
[ ] I wear glasses.
[ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger. >
[x] I have more than 2 piercings.
[ ] I have piercings in places besides my ears
[x] I have freckles.

Family/Home Life

[x] I've sworn at my parents.
[ ] I've run away from home.
[ ] I've been kicked out of the house.
[ ] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[x] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've had children.
[ ] I've lost a child.

School/Work

[x] I'm in school.
[x] I have a job.
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[ ] I almost always do my homework.
[ ] I've missed a week or more of school.
[ ] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[ ] I've stolen something from my job
[ ] I've been fired.
[x] I've skipped school. >

Embarrassment

[x] I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[x] Disney movies still make me cry.
[x] I've peed from laughing.
[x] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[ ] I've glued my hand to something when I was at primary school
[x] I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
[x] I've had my pants rip in public < Cullotes are pants yay, nay?>

Health

[ ] I was born with a disease/impairment.
[x] I've gotten stitches.
[x] I've broken a bone.
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[ ] I've sat in a doctor's office with a friend.
[ ] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[x] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I've had chicken pox.

Traveling

[x] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[ ] I've been on a plane.
[ ] I've been to Canada.
[ ] I've been to Mexico.
[ ] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[ ] I've Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[ ] I've been to Europe.
[ ] I've been to Africa.

Experiences

[x] I've gotten lost in my city.
[x] I've seen a shooting star.
[x] I've wished on a shooting star.
[ ] I've seen a meteor shower.
[ ] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[ ] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator
[ ] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[ ] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[ ] I've been an abuse victim.
[ ] I've gone skinny dipping.
[ ] I've played spin the bottle.
[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] I've crashed a car.
[ ] I've been Skiing
[ ] I've been in a play.
[x] I've met someone in person from the internet.
[ ] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ ] I've seen the Northern Lights.
[ ] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[ ] I've played chicken.
[ ] I've played a prank on someone.
[ ] I've ridden in a taxi.
[x] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[x] I've eaten Sushi.
[ ] I've been snowboarding.
[ ] I've been bungee jumping.

Relationships

[x] I'm single
[ ] I'm in a relationship.
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[ ] I've had someone cheat on me.
[ ] I've gone on a blind date.
[ ] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[x] I have a fear of commitment.
[ ] I have a fear of abandonment.
[x] I've cheated in a relationship.
[ ] I've gotten divorced
[xxxx] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[x] I've told someone... ]]> ~Elusifaer http://Elusifaer.deviantart.com/journal/8755864/ http://Elusifaer.deviantart.com/journal/8755864/ Sat, 13 May 2006 04:57:07 PDT and no, I wasn't tagged. She simply said that anyone on her list that wanted to could. Same goes for me!

?10 Firsts...
-First Best Friend: L-J
-First Imaginary Friend: I didn't have imaginary friends, just imaginary beings. There was the pelican on my neighbour's back fence, the rain faery on my impatiens...
-First Pet's name: Mini!
-First Piercing: My ears, when I was very little ^^
-First Crush: Heath Cundy LOL!!!
-First CD: I do believe it was Delta Goodren's Innocent Eyes
-First Car: .. ?
-First School: Mabel Park Primary
-First Kiss: So sweet

?9 Lasts...
-Last Time You Smoked: Passive smoked on Friday morning
-Last Food You Ate: caramel fudge biscuit
-Last Car Ride: Ride home from work.
-Last Movie You Watched: Sweet Home Alabama
-Last Phone Call: From my uni group member
-Last CD You listened to: It's officially titled Mix 4, just random songs
-Last Bubble Bath You took: Last night, with a lot of Radox because my upper back and legs were sore.
-Last Song You listened to: Little Drop of Poison, Tom Waits.
-Last Fight: Last Tuesday, whether or not I would tell my mum what was upsetting me.

?8 Have You Ever...
-Have You Ever Dated a Best Friend: No.
-Have You Ever Been Arrested: No.
-Have You Ever Skinny Dipped: No.
-Have You Ever Been on TV: No.
-Have You Ever Kissed Someone and Regretted It: Yes
-Have You Ever Cheated on Your bf/gf: Yes and that's never happening again.
-Have You Ever Been on a Blind Date: No.
-Have You Ever Been out of the Country: No.

?7 Things You are Wearing...
- Purple jama pants
- Pink singlet... don't worry, they match
- purple dressing gown
- underwear
-watch
-bracelets
-bangles

?6 Things You've Done Today...
- walked
- worked
- talked
- laughed
- typed
- written

?5 Favorite Things (no specific order)
- Tuesdays!
- looking at clouds
- laughing
- being with friends
- in my own little zone

?4 People You Most Trust (no specific order)
- L-J
- Mum
- Andrea
- Jen


?3 Choices...
- Love over lust
- Dance over running
- Music over T.V

?2 Things You Want to do Before You Die...
- Travel the world
- Dance all day

?1 Person You Want to see:
- *grins happily* How I wish! ]]> ~Elusifaer http://Elusifaer.deviantart.com/journal/8678035/ http://Elusifaer.deviantart.com/journal/8678035/ Fri, 05 May 2006 02:44:21 PDT [link] Take a look. The basic rule is to type your name, then looks like in inverted commas, like the title of my journal, into google. I tried it and the results were hilarious, so I absolutely had to!

Sorry for all of the journal entries lately!

"Karah looks like a preppy chick sometiomes, but is far from that. She is this cute, wierd , humper ...ooops..I ment hyper,exaugsting,exhilerating , chick. ..." (o_O)

"Karah looks like me, and almost the same name >.<." (okay then?)

"Karah looks like Aria Giovanni! " (Who's that?)

There were only three entries... but then again... they were pretty weird and random ]]> ~Elusifaer http://Elusifaer.deviantart.com/journal/8668393/ http://Elusifaer.deviantart.com/journal/8668393/ Thu, 04 May 2006 04:03:58 PDT my work out of nowhere...

Once again... I'm

THANK YOU ALL! ]]> ~Elusifaer http://Elusifaer.deviantart.com/journal/8647694/ http://Elusifaer.deviantart.com/journal/8647694/ Tue, 02 May 2006 00:47:35 PDT

I logged in this afternoon and this is what it said on the screen: 24D, 142M, 57C, 4J, 1P. It's going to take me forever to get through all of it, so I thought I'd write about my wonderful day before I forgot

I'm going to put it in dot points so hopefully I won't rabble on so much

* I was late this morning, running out of the house with a jacket half on, bag slung over one arm and head-phones bouncing madly along in mid-air behind me....

* Five minutes later, I just turn onto Parfrey and see a friend of mine that catches the same bus miles ahead, so give that up for the ghost.

* Fifteen minutes later, JUST manage to catch the bus and talk to my friend all of the way to Uni, where I get off and wait for the inter-campus bus. A first class, humunguous bus drives in and in the corner is a piece of paper that says 'INTER-CAMPUS BUS'.. apparently something happened to the original bus and this is the replacement for the meantime. I'm not complaining!

During the next couple of hours, I went to a lecture, bought lollipops and visited my tutor. Another tutor came in and gave us plums. Both of them sat their marking and talking to me, I was so expected to be chucked out any minute The other tutor's name was Ari and he had a portfolio full of pictures of his oil paintings. His talent just blew me away! I kept leafing through and grinning. That guy should have a gallery! I would have bought so much of it

Anyway, fast forward to the tutorial. We're supposed to decide this week what we're doing for our presentation in two weeks. My original 'group' reformed, two of the girls went with two other girls and the third girl was no where to be seen. I also didn't have anyone's contact numbers. Now, however, my group consists of two girls, a guy and myself and we're going to talk about witchcraft. Wish me luck! Oh, I'm so happy, I got a distinction for my contextual analysis!

After the tute, I met Chvorn at the bus stop, we went to the shops and had lunch. I also bought wire for my major. It took ages to get out of there because of all of the school kids going home at the same time. We finally got on the bus at four and I went to work to ask Mother's Day off.

I was walking to work, just about to cross a pedestrian spot, where the cars HAVE to STOP... There is a BUMP there people! Anyway, I looked up, saw my crush, called out his name, he waited, I started walking across and suddenly this red car just about ran me over! The driver braked at the last second, half on the bump, I gestured at the pedestrian strip, he made an 'I'm so sorry' gesture and I gave a kind of 'okay' wave.. Just re-reading this.... I'm sorry but I can't really explain sign language that well Anyway, I caught up with my crush, went bright red, blamed it on almost being run over.... said bye and went to talk to my supervisor. She wrote it down and I wandered home in a happy, tired daze

Sorry for the long journal! I had to

Much love all!

~Karah

P.S Check out this, it's awesome! [link] It's done by a dear friend of mine, the lovely ]]> ~Elusifaer http://Elusifaer.deviantart.com/journal/8598290/ http://Elusifaer.deviantart.com/journal/8598290/ Thu, 27 Apr 2006 03:59:03 PDT Not me, I promise! I love the song

I have been tagged by to do this quiz Thank you for enhancing my procrastination skills

Name 3 Schools you went to:
1. Mabel Park Primary State School, (maroon and white uniform... not desirable in the least!)
2. Chatswood Hills Primary State School, (in grade five, this guy threw an orange at me and it hit me in the side of the head. My mum rang up and complained. Two years later, I had the biggest crush on him... talk about irony!)
3. Springwood State High School, (I have seven months to go!)

Name 3 things in your wallet:
1. Keycard, amongst numerous other cards.
2. Millions of bits of paper, bank statements and receipts.
3. Money!

Name 3 things you always wear:
1. My watch
2. My earrings
3. My deoderant

Name 3 things you do when you are really stressed:
1. Rush everywhere
2. never smile or laugh, unless I smile or laugh in a pained or hysterical fashion.
3. Burst into tears copiously... anywhere... and I mean ANYWHERE! O_o

Name 3 favorite songs right now:
1. "It's not a side effect of the cocaine, I am thinking it must be love" by Fall Out Boy
2. Wonderwall by Oasis
3. Love will tear us apart by Fall Out Boy

Name 3 favorite places to shop:
1. Tempt, for my favourite clothes at decent prices
2. Grab it... I absolutely love my eyeliner, eyeshadow and eyeliner!
3. Dusk, for their wonderful scented candles

Name 3 places you go to on a daily basis:
1. Outside
2. The computer
3. Parfrey Road, either on my way to work, school or Uni.

Name 3 things you like to do:
1. Laugh, apparently I have a really loud laugh.
2. Sing, with the music up so people can't complain I don't know if I can sing properly or not, all I know is it feels good
3. Talk, I talk a lot!

Name 3 most valuable possessions:
1. Peace of mind.. how else do I come up with so much random stuff?
2. Energy.. how else would I be so happy and bouncy?!
3. Music

Name 3 favorite fruits:
1. Mangoes
2. Lychees
3. Raspberries

Name 3 things you are addicted to:
1. My music
2. Good looking male bodies *please don't kill me L-J*
3. Clouds.. I tripped up one day while walking because I was looking at a cloud in the sky, I swear, it looked just like a dragon!

Name 3 favorite hobbies:
1. Reading
2. Listening to music
3. Making things

Name 3 career choices:
1. Secondary school teacher
2. University Tutor
3. Writer.. but I dream

Name 3 goals in 2006:
1. Pass everything in my studies.
2. Save up for a plane trip to Darwin in September.
3. Please, please, I wish I could capture the heart of the guy I like

Name 3 plans for next week:
1. Work, all those regular customers and the rando... ]]> ~Elusifaer http://Elusifaer.deviantart.com/journal/8454570/ http://Elusifaer.deviantart.com/journal/8454570/ Thu, 13 Apr 2006 00:39:41 PDT 's journal and I just had to Please forgive, I'll be nice, I promise!

[my name is]: Karah
[in the morning i was]: Swearing at my bed and then stumbling around in search of tissues. The slats fell through. Does anyone know what I'm talking about? No? I thought so...
[all i need now is]: Dinner, I'm hungry but I'm not supposed to cook it for another hour. Also, someone to read three books of non fiction for me would be appreciated!
[love is]: Dancing to music in the rain with books! There, I put all of my loves in a sentence for you... hey... it makes sense... o_O
[i'm afraid of]: Very deep water, heights, the unknown and ickle creepy crawly things that crawl over my feet at night.
[i dream about]: Random people, people I know, and walking through closed doors. Yeah.. I don't get it either...



You:
-- Middle name: JOY! No, really
-- Birth time: 10:30pm
-- Birthplace : Sunnybank Private
-- Last place traveled: What is classified as 'travelled'? I went to the Marsden shops, haven't been there in years!
-- Eye Color: Here we go... mostly green with a blue outer circle, brown and yellow flecks.
-- Nail Color: They have big white splotches all over them! No, I did not go crazy with the nail polish, I just bump my hands a lot.
-- Height: 165cm
-- Zodiac Sign: Cancer.. hehe, I'm a crab!


Describe:
-- Your heritage: Oh dearie me.... I can only say what people are... my father German and Aussie, my Grandmother Welsh, my grandfather, English and Aussie...
-- The shoes you wore today: Silver slip ons ^^
-- Your hair: Light brown with caramel highlights when I'm bored.
-- Your weakness: CANDY!
-- Your perfect pizza: supreme... meat... cheese... vegies

What is:
-- Your most overused phrase: "Sweet!," "bloody hell"... as you can see... polar opposites!
-- Your thoughts first waking up: "... I hate my blinds!" One fell off a couple of weeks ago and it's right over my head, so I wake up at six, roll over and curl up...
-- Your current worry: Getting things done...
-- Your plans tomorrow: No idea! I am not going to waste it though! Good Friday here I come!
-- Your best physical feature: my eyes... when they're not bloodshot!
-- Your bedtime: Anywhere between nine and two ^^


You prefer:
-- sunrise or sunset: Sunset!
-- gore or horror: Horror please.. gore makes me shiver.
-- eastside or westside: What's that?
-- stripes or polka dots: Stripes, but please don't make me wear them!
-- Planes or trains: I saw a kangaroo outside a train once! I've never been on a plane so I think I'll be loyal to the kangaroo
-- metal or hardcore: Metal maybe. Hardcore.. eff off!
-- Pools or hot tubs: Pool


Do You:
-- Do you think you've been in love: Nuh uh... I'm dodgy in that respect
-- Want to get married: I HAVE NO IDEA! I might become a spinster... o_O NO!! Well, put it this way... I might one day...
-- Type w/ your fingers: Quite well now. I used to type with my index fingers and my left thumb. It was fun! I've typed with a pen before but it's incredibly tedious.
-- Like to take baths: Yes, but I don't have a routine.
-- Get motion sickness: I get dizzy, if that's what you mean and I can't breathe properly. Oh the fun!
-- Like talking on the phone: If it's someone I love, then yes, if it isn't... EFF OFF!
-- Like thunderstorms: ~Elusifaer http://Elusifaer.deviantart.com/journal/8443815/ http://Elusifaer.deviantart.com/journal/8443815/ Tue, 11 Apr 2006 23:30:17 PDT to do this:

"Rules : The 1st player of this "game" starts with the topic "6 weird habits/things about yourself" and people who got tagged needs to write a journal about their 6 weird habits/things as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next 6 people to be tagged and list their names. Don't forget to leave a comment that says "you are tagged" in their devpage comments and tell them to read yours...."

And that, my friends, is an unabashed example of plagiarism! To the task...

1. I sneeze at Avon perfume, the sun and if someone taps me on the nose, it becomes extremely itchy and I absolutely HAVE to scratch it...

2. I have a tendency of jumping from the road to the pathways when I walk, I also do it in time to my Reckon someone will run me over some day? I reckon so too..

3. I talk to animals a lot. When a barks, I call out, "hey doggie," and when a gecko got stuck in a moth trap once I kept calling it "sweetie." I know!

4. I do little ' dances' whenever someone makes me angry and I'm not allowed or I don't dare yell, where I just basically jump up and down in rage and pretend the person that's making me angry is being by a furniture removalist.

5. I had ice cream for breakfast when I was about nine or ten... The freezer was

6. Every time I go to my grandparents, *Squeeeeeeeee* I always walk over the stepping stones twice, only have one foot down at a time, the other in the air, It's a little ritual.


So yes, my enlightened friends, was that not fun? I call to the stage..!

~Elusifaer http://Elusifaer.deviantart.com/journal/8370272/ http://Elusifaer.deviantart.com/journal/8370272/ Wed, 05 Apr 2006 04:19:44 PDT
I've been sent an email by a deviant on my watch list, in regards to the size and presentability of my works. Check out his shots, they're awesome!

I know has been telling me for a while that she doesn't like scrolling and that it would be nice to resize. I'd like to ask you all, (if anyone pays attention that is), whether or not I should reduce the size of my deviations. ~yoxx also suggested a frame. What are your thoughts people?

Oh, , I wish you best of luck with your studies and to tell you that I have dobbed myself in. Now I need to find a candy egg!

Much love to all, I hope to be taking some really good shots over the eleven day holiday...

~Karah ]]> ~Elusifaer http://Elusifaer.deviantart.com/journal/8198140/ http://Elusifaer.deviantart.com/journal/8198140/ Sat, 18 Mar 2006 13:35:52 PST I mentioned that I had a few things I wanted to do, life goals if you want to call them that and she told me to make my own dream journal. Apparently with a dream journal, you write down 100 of your aspirations in detail, and once you've completed a dream, in no particular order, cross it off. She told me about a future grandmother she knew who completed all of her goals in eight years, the last of which is to be a grandmother, which she had no control over. It makes me wonder what I would like to do, I've already started a "Wishlist," maybe I should turn it into a dream journal?
There are so many things I want to do, and hopefully I've got enough time on this earth to do all of them! Some of them are personal belongings or hobbies, for example, a mexican fighting fish, (they're so pretty!), or a garden, (I wish, I wish, I wish I had my own garden, I'd plant roses, snapdragons, double impatiens, impatiens, miniature roses, zinnias, oh so many more and most of all, once I get my own house, a lovely tree! I'm not sure which one yet though Who knows, once I get my dream journal and start writing, a lot of dreams may change, or get further extended, I just want to achieve something, *he hum* several things in this lifetime!
Oh, I'm a member of Check them out, there's some brilliant shots! ]]> ~Elusifaer http://Elusifaer.deviantart.com/journal/8126001/ http://Elusifaer.deviantart.com/journal/8126001/ Fri, 10 Mar 2006 22:10:19 PST ~Elusifaer http://Elusifaer.deviantart.com/journal/8024614/ http://Elusifaer.deviantart.com/journal/8024614/ Tue, 28 Feb 2006 04:52:21 PST
I've been dreading today for at least two weeks and while some things turned out not so good, most turned out perfect!

Today was my first day at University in the GUESTS program and tonight was my first oral presentation outside of school, for Lions Youth of The Year. At Uni, I was worrying about getting lost and being late. I did both, ironically, but it all turned out well. With the presentation, I was worried about crying and running out of there.

Some fears are totally unfounded, and even though others tell you the same thing, you are too hyped up/nervous/paranoid to really take it in or believe that what they say is actually true and not something just to stop the wasps swarming in your stomach.

This morning I learnt a valuable lesson, which has many points.

1: ALWAYS catch the early bus because it has far less people.

2: When there are two many people in the later bus and the 'standies' are moved to another one, PAY ATTENTION TO WHERE THE BUS IS INSTEAD OF WORRYING THAT IT'S ALREADY QUARTER TO NINE. That way you won't miss your stop and have to get off at the next one, wait for another coming back to where you just came from and pay more money to go backwards!

3: When you are at the wrong bus stop at the time you are supposed to be at Uni, you know you are going to be very, very late.

4: When you finally get the the lecture, half an hour late, actually take the initiative to sit right at the front instead of sitting on your bag at the back, trying to see through people's heads.

Despite the bad beginning with the lecture, and not managing to find the record of the first lecture ever, where they tell you WHAT YOU NEED, I had such a nice day!

As for the speech, I didn't win any prizes but I am secure in the fact that, faced with a room filled with complete strangers, judges, recently made friends, acquaintances and my Mum, I didn't cry, didn't run out of there, made it in time and actually did a good job!

Also, I got a nice shiny badge, a pretty certificate and a box of chocolates. Take note people, I'm actually proud of myself! *dances*

~Karah ]]> ~Elusifaer