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deviantART: by:EmerinSoul http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:EmerinSoul&section=today deviantART RSS for by:EmerinSoul en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Wed, 09 Dec 2009 18:13:07 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png Devious Journal Entry http://EmerinSoul.deviantart.com/journal/23686870/ http://EmerinSoul.deviantart.com/journal/23686870/ Sat, 14 Mar 2009 00:44:06 PDT __> WEWT!

Anyways, I'm back and better than ever! Or atleast *I* like to think so. Alots happened since my last journal entry, too much to put in a single entry. Lemme sum it up for ya........nah. Nvm. Oh! I got a job now! Like, a legit job. Benefits and taxes and all that good, grownup stuff :: puffs out chest importantly::

I still draw though. LOTS. o___o Probably more than I should if I don't wanna get fired XD Oh well. Onto the artiness!!

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Where're you off to?
Such a hurried girl.
Is something chasing you?
Everythings spinning round in circles.
Is it the world or is it you?
There's no use trying to stop this.
There's no use trying to make it go away.
Before you disappear,
just give it time.

What're you hiding from?
What will you think will happen
if you see this one through?
There's no use trying to stop this
There's no use trying to make it go away
Before you disappear,
just give it time.

Where're you off to in such a hurry, girl?
Give it a little time...
Give it a little time...

]]> ~EmerinSoul Left Behind http://EmerinSoul.deviantart.com/journal/18094776/ http://EmerinSoul.deviantart.com/journal/18094776/ Tue, 29 Apr 2008 23:32:55 PDT I'm running and running and running, and I've been running for so long I've forgotten what it is I'm running for, or where I'm running TO. Am I even moving anymore?

Bobby died today. 8:13 AM. He had gone into the hospital yesterday complaining of stomach pains and difficulty breathing. The doctor called me at 6 this morning after Bobby had a seizure and I was with him every second until the end...It was the second person I had to watch die beneath my fingertips.

He was scared at first. Or maybe he was just reflecting what I was feeling. It was JUST like Sarah, only in full, horrifying color. But looking into those beautiful grey eyes, I knew he knew the truth behind everything we'd been lying to eachother about. Everything we'd been lying to OURSELVES about;Nothing was ever the same after Jason left us, there's no debating that. No one will EVER be able to replace him in our hearts. I don't know why we even tried...

There's ...just nothing I can say. I don't know WHAT to say...Bobby, for as much of an asshole he liked to be, was my best friend. He was there through out EVERYTHING. And despite the ugliness of our past, remained my friend.

Maybe the reason I'm so sad is because this truly is the closing of that chapter of my life. No one else knew Jason, Luke, Jonathan, no one can reminisce with me about all the stupid things we did together or how desperately i loved each and every one of those boys. No one will ever understand what they meant to me and how big a part of my life they are. With Bobby's passing, I think I lost the last bit of hope that I could turn around my life, that I could keep something from my past, in my future...

I don't feel the loss or emptiness as badly as the others. I think I'm numb to the pain. So many precious people in my life have left me behind and I'm just ...so tired.

How much can one heart take?

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Robert Charles Lekowski
November 22, 1985
April 29, 2008

"And if you ever change your mind, you know I'm not hard to find. And if you ever find the time, you know I'm not far behind. And if you ever need someone...I'll still be waiting."

]]> ~EmerinSoul GYAAAAH! http://EmerinSoul.deviantart.com/journal/16824236/ http://EmerinSoul.deviantart.com/journal/16824236/ Sun, 10 Feb 2008 20:43:06 PST Sooo I bought a new HP Officejet, BUT I can't upload the right driver. I'm close to tears @_@

so soon as I figure it out, I'll be uploading a load of new stuff. PRAY FOR ME >_<

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http://EmerinSoul.deviantart.com/journal/15324889/ Thu, 01 Nov 2007 23:48:40 PDT So anyway, I wanted to post SOMETHING, so here's the tag i got from Miss

I can already tell I'm TOTALLY not gonna have a life...

(x) Rocky Horror Picture Show
(x) Grease
(x) Pirates of the Caribbean
(x) Pirates of the Caribbean 2: Dead Man's Chest
( x) Boondock Saints
(x) Fight Club
(x ) Starsky and Hutch
(x) Neverending Story
(x) Blazing Saddles
( x) Airplane
Total: 10

(x) The Princess Bride
( ) AnchorMan
(x ) Napoleon Dynamite
(x) Labyrinth (i am dressed as Sarah tonight!!!!!)
(x ) Saw
(x ) Saw II
(x) White Noise
(x ) White Oleander
(x) Anger Management
(x) 50 First Dates
(x) The Princess Diaries
(x) The Princess Diaries 2: Royal Engagement
Total so far: 21

(x) Scream
(x) Scream 2
(x) Scream 3
(x) Scary Movie
(x)Scary Movie 2
(x) Scary Movie 3
(x ) Scary Movie 4
(x) American Pie
(x) American Pie 2
(x) American Wedding
( ) American Pie Band Camp
Total so far: 31

(x) Harry Potter 1
(x) Harry Potter 2
(x) Harry Potter 3
(x) Harry Potter 4
(x)Resident Evil 1
(x) Resident Evil: Apocalypse
(x) The Wedding Singer
(x) Little Black Book
(x) The Village
(x) Lilo & Stitch
Total so far: 41

(x) Finding Nemo
(x) Finding Neverland
(x) Signs
(x) The Grinch
(x) Texas Chainsaw Massacre
(x) Texas Chainsaw Massacre: The Beginning
( x)White Chicks
(x) Butterfly Effect
(x) 13 Going on 30
(x) I, Robot
(x) Robots
Total so far: 52

(x ) Dodgeball: A True Underdog Story
(x) Universal Soldier
(x) Lemony Snicket: A Series Of Unfortunate Events
(x)Along Came Polly
(x) Deep Impact
( ) KingPin
(x) Never Been Kissed
(x) Meet The Parents
( ) Meet the Fockers
( ) Eight Crazy Nights
(x) Joe Dirt
(x )KING KONG
Total so far: 61

(x) A Cinderella Story
(x) The Terminal
(x) The Lizzie McGuire Movie
(x) Passport to Paris
(x) Dumb & Dumber
(x) Dumber & Dumberer
(x) Final Destination
(x) Final Destination 2
(x) Final Destination 3
(x) Halloween
(x) The Ring
(x) The Ring 2
(x ) Surviving X-MAS
(x) Flubber
Total so far: 75

(x) Harold & Kumar Go To White Castle
(x) Practical Magic
( x) Chicago
(x) Ghost Ship
(x) From Hell
(x) Hellboy
(x) Secret Window
( )I Am Sam
(x ) The Whole Nine Yards
( ) The Whole Ten Yards
Total so far: 83

(x) The Day After Tomorrow
(x) Child's Play
(x) Seed of Chucky
(x) Bride of Chucky
(x) Ten Things I Hate About You
(x) Just Married
(x) Gothika
(x) Nightmare on Elm Street
(x) Sixteen Candles
(x ) Remember the Titans
( ) Coach Carter
(x)The Grudge
(x)The Grudge 2
(x) The Mask
(x) Son Of The Mask
Total so far: 97

(x) Bad Boys
(x) Bad Boys 2
(x ) Joy Ride
( ) Lucky Number Slevin
(x) Ocean's Eleven
(x )Ocean's Twelve
(x) Bourne Identity
( x) Bourne Supremecy
( ) Lone Star
(x) Bedazzled
(x) Predator I
(x) Predator II
(x) The Fog
(x) Ice Age
(x) Ice Age 2: The Meltdown
(x) Curious George
Total so far: 111

(x) Independence Day
(x) Cujo
(x ) A Bronx Tale
(x) Darkness Falls
(x) Christine
(x) ET
(x) Children of the Corn
(x ) My Boss's Daughter
(x) Maid in Manhattan
(x) War of the Worlds
(x) Rush Hour
(x) Rush Hour 2
Total so far: 123

( ) Best Bet
(x) How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
(x) She's All That
( ) Calendar Girls
( ) Sideways
(x )Mars Attacks
(x ) Event Horizon
(x) Ever After
(x) Wizard of Oz
(x) Forrest Gump
(x) Big Trouble in Little China (OMG haven't watched that in FOREVER ^^)
(x) The Terminator
(x) The Terminator 2
(x) The Terminator 3
Total so far: 134

(x) X-Men
(x) X-2
(x) X-3
(x) Spider-Man
(x) Spider-Man 2
(x )Sky High
(x) Jeepers Creepers
(x) Jeepers Creepers 2
(x )Catch Me If You Can
(x) The Little Mermaid
(x) Freaky Friday
(x) Reign of Fire ~EmerinSoul Dear Grandpa http://EmerinSoul.deviantart.com/journal/15029880/ http://EmerinSoul.deviantart.com/journal/15029880/ Wed, 17 Oct 2007 01:55:23 PDT and I'm wondering why these little black clouds seem to like JUST me.
Wasting time
and I'd rather be fine.
Think I'll take a walk outside,
find a rainbow and a smile,
cause they're free.

Because maybe tomorrow,
is when I find my way home...

Let me look around at a beautiful life.
We've been on the other side of up,
been the inside of out,
but we breathe.
I want a moment and an open mind.
I want to swim in the ocean,
I want to take some time for ME.

Because maybe tomorrow,
I'll find my way home.

It's never as easy as it seems.
Its better to have loved and lost.
The grass is greener.
Stop to smell the roses.
Beauty is within.
And don't do tomorrow, what you can do today.

Because maybe tomorrow,
We'll find our way home.

in loving memory
Henry D. Anchondo

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http://EmerinSoul.deviantart.com/journal/14992663/ Tue, 09 Oct 2007 22:12:34 PDT Badass Uke

Badass Uke
Take Are you a Seme or an Uke? today!
Created with Rum and Monkey's Personality Test Generator.

You are the highest level uke. Other uke admire you, some seme fear you. At times, you can even fool other people into thinking you are seme with your mischievous, manipulative attitude, but when push comes to shove, your true submissive nature emerges - all you really want is the punishment. It takes a seme with just enough sadistic tendencies to dish out the punishment you really want, but enough patience not to outright kill you, so you are best paired with the "Don't Fuck With Me" Seme.

DOOD! WHERE am I gonna find a "Don't fuck with me" seme??? *le sigh*

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... ]]> ~EmerinSoul Emerin's Birthday SHINDIG! http://EmerinSoul.deviantart.com/journal/14921943/ http://EmerinSoul.deviantart.com/journal/14921943/ Fri, 05 Oct 2007 04:15:16 PDT YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY

ITS MEH

BURFDAY!!.....again

Draco: Imagine that, coming around every year. Shocking...

Emerin: SILENCE MORTAL!!!........lemme enjoy my moment ^^

Justen:: Happy Birthday Emerin!

Emerin:

YAY! Kitteh

Lovings!!

Justen:

Harry:

Happeee burfday Emerin!

Emerin: YAY! Hero

Lovings!! ::clings::

Taylor:

hey hey its your birthday! one more year, just seemingly one more day, i said hey hey!

Happy birthday! *hip thrust*

Emerin: Yaaaaaay! Blondie Lovings!!

Jimmy:

Emerin: PUPPEH

LOVINGS!!! ::squeezes Jimmy to death::

Jimmy:

Naoe: Think you might've been a BIT overzealous there...no complaints, though. ^^

Emerin: ooooh, my newest manbeef, Naoe!!

Naoe: Yes, I'm here...Justen dragged me -__-;

Justen:

Emerin: I'll take it!!

Naoe:

Happy Birthday Emerin

Emerin: *SQUEE*

Draco: Yes, because THAT was sincere

Emerin: Shup!! Atleast he wished me a happy birthday. I don't see YOU doing that

Draco: Thats because I am a Malfoy, and Malfoys don't DO birthday wishes

Harry: then what DO Malfoys do?

Draco:

Harry:

http://EmerinSoul.deviantart.com/journal/14612702/ Thu, 13 Sep 2007 04:51:21 PDT
if i try hard enough, i can hear it, whispering sweet words that pierce like a rusty knife

I can almost see your smile.

if i try hard enough, i can see it, shining beautiful light that haunts the very corners of me

I can almost taste your skin.

if i try hard enough, I can taste it, buttery sweet and feather soft as it wraps all around my mind, suffocating me

i can almost...

i can...

i...

if i close my eyes, the tears on my face feel like fingertips.

]]> ~EmerinSoul Updaaaates UPDATES! <3 http://EmerinSoul.deviantart.com/journal/14159883/ http://EmerinSoul.deviantart.com/journal/14159883/ Tue, 14 Aug 2007 04:47:26 PDT

Justen: [link]

Naoe: [link]

Draco: [link]

Jimmy: [link]
Rainy Day Jimmy: [link]

Harry: [link]

I'm still trying to talk myself into making a profile for my character Naoe, but my perpetual laziness gets the better of me whenever 3AM rolls around *le sigh*

I need to finish "How to save a life" for my rabid Ron/Harry fans who're threatening to cut off my precious bits soon if I don't deliver the last chapter of GRAVITY which is SOOOOO not even close to being done

My drawing has pretty much ceased to a complete STOP. Dunno why

I guess I'm lacking inspiration, though I have about a million ideas. Its just a matter of waking up during the daytime so I CAN draw >_<

AND THE PLUSHEEEEZ! Ohhhh, the plushies

They are my latest obsession. I've already finished a Justen Cohen, Jimmy Potter, Harry Potter, 2 Draco Malfoys and a Lucius Malfoy. Snape, Naoe Dehler and Ron are in the process of being made clothes

After that, series 3 will include James, Sirius and Remus. Series 4 will be :devblzrosez85: 's CC, Danni and Dane. Then series 5 will be the animagus heads of Justen, Jimmy, Ron, Draco, James, Sirius and Remus. Don't worry if that doesn't make sense, you have to see it to get it

Lucius is DEFINITELY my fav so far, simply because I made him for my mum, so he haaaaad to be "PERFECT" *twitch* Perfect entailed white silk shirt, chains, silver pendant and white-blonde tassel hair. Ohhh god, I don't even wanna THINK about all the time and effort and bitching that went into that guy ::grumbles darkly:: I know I'll be happy soon as I get all of them done.

and THUS, I have updated my life

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... ]]> ~EmerinSoul Ficcy BONANZAAAA! http://EmerinSoul.deviantart.com/journal/13996219/ http://EmerinSoul.deviantart.com/journal/13996219/ Fri, 03 Aug 2007 04:24:09 PDT

OOh! And I got to update my clubbies!

2 birds with one stone!

i'm efficient like WHAT!

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... ]]> ~EmerinSoul Doing my part http://EmerinSoul.deviantart.com/journal/13387232/ http://EmerinSoul.deviantart.com/journal/13387232/ Sun, 17 Jun 2007 23:00:22 PDT
Well, here's the link. [link]
Spread it around!! Art thieves NEED to be stopped...cause it just takes WAY too long photoshopping shit just to have someone else steal it >_<

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http://EmerinSoul.deviantart.com/journal/13364552/ Sat, 16 Jun 2007 04:21:29 PDT
She promised me....she promised to love me forever, to be by my side. She said there wasn't anything that could take her from me. I wanted her to be right. I wanted so badly to believe she'd be the first to prove me wrong, that she'd be ok in the end...I hate always being right.

Sarah's gone.

Two words....and it's enough.

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http://EmerinSoul.deviantart.com/journal/13147472/ Wed, 30 May 2007 06:02:07 PDT
Yep! What i thought was a step in the right direction actually turned into a NIGHTMARE. After months of prep (buying supplies, sweating over prints, hollering endlessly at my craptacular printer) it went all down the drain at Artist Colony. My stuff tanked. But I'm not discouraged. Next year I'll give myself MUCH more time and make sure each and every one of my pictures is photoshop GOLD. I'll bring out the bookmarks for a second run, but probably upgrade them. Maybe even add some more anime ones. THAT was my problem. Not even anime, too much Harry Potter x____x;

Oh well. Those who don't learn from history, are doomed to repeat it.

With that said, enjoy the bookmark series 1!! Coming soon!!

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http://EmerinSoul.deviantart.com/journal/12699026/ Sun, 22 Apr 2007 23:57:43 PDT 'A green plastic watering can, for a fake Chinese rubber plant, in a fake plastic case that she bought from a rubber man, in a town full of rubber plants. To get rid of herself. It wears her out...it wears her out...'
Walking out onto the abysmal balcony this run-down french inn offered, the boy stared out at the city, the lights of the taxis driving by reflecting off his white-blonde hair.
'She lives with a broken man. A crackpot, styling man. She just crumbles and burns.'
Sweeping long blonde hair from pale grey eyes, he grabbed onto the aged metal railing and hoisted himself onto the roof directly above him.
'He used to do surgery, for girls in the 80s. But gravity always wins. And it wears him out...it wears him out...'
Settling back on the dirty brown tiles, he stared up at the endless black sky, noticing the specks of white taking on the pattern of freckles on her thigh. Closing his eyes to the stars, he turned back to the fragments of memory left to him.
'She looks like the real thing...'
A smile unbidden and unguarded, strands of dark chocolate falling across delicately pinked cheeks.
'She tastes like the real thing...'
Lips stained red from strawberries parting willingly, wantonly, shamelessly, for his.
'My fake plastic love.'
Smiling across a crowded classroom, genuinely.
'But I can't help the fear...'
Walking away, so many times, tears at his back and on his cheeks.
'I can go through this sea, if i just turn around...'
Slender hands so small and so soft, yet so strong, and a voice screaming desperately for him.
'And it wears me out...it wears me out...'
Opening his eyes, cold tears welling in the corners of his resolve, he stared up at the sky, feeling smaller than before. Because he was. He was small. So very very small.
'and if I could be who you wanted...'
He wasn't strong. He wasn't brave. He wasn't determined. He wasn't clever.
'if I could be who you wanted...'
A sigh fell from his lips as he hugged his knees to his chest, the French air cool and sharp against his naked feet. He lowered his chin to rest on his knees and stared, memories dancing like ghosts across his eyes. And tears, as silver as his eyes, fell, like heavy burdens, like sins long since and repeatedly committed, like crimes never forgiven, like her body as he left. "All the time..." Draco sang quietly to the silence and listened as the radio crackled in dead air. And it fit. And he cried.

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~EmerinSoul While You Sleep http://EmerinSoul.deviantart.com/journal/12650822/ http://EmerinSoul.deviantart.com/journal/12650822/ Thu, 19 Apr 2007 05:00:01 PDT Touch me

Do you see me? Do you see the humiliated blush on my face as you spread my legs shamelessly for you...

Taste me

Do you feel that? My body involuntarily shivering for you, for your lips, for more...

Consume me

Do you know? Know how much I've ached for skin against mine, for affection, for the love I pretend you give me...

Use me

Did you enjoy that? Taking my final scrap of dignity and throwing it away as carelessly as you do a piece of garbage. Because that's all I am; Garbage...

Leave me

Did you see that? That won't be the only tear I shed for you tonight. Even if I fight it, even if I force myself not to register a thing, I still taste you on my tongue, still hear you breathing softly in my ear, still feel your flesh warming mine, surrounding me.

Kill me

Do you know no mercy? You took the last of what I had been saving. You destroyed the little shreds of hope for my heart I had locked away...but you don't care...So just keep sleeping.

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http://EmerinSoul.deviantart.com/journal/12451346/ Wed, 04 Apr 2007 00:14:52 PDT
Nothing?

Nothing.

Good. Because had you chose to look harder, deeper, just a LITTLE longer, you'd realize my barriers broke the second you looked away. You'd see the tears you forced from me with your cruel words. You'd see my heart falling at our feet, thick sticky crimson spreading across the floor like fingers reaching for some small hope of relief.
You'd see...I'm only human.

But you're not, are you?

I don't think you ever were.

And as you're slamming into me, rancid breath reeking of alcohol rolling in sick waves against my collarbone, ripping me apart from the inside out, I'm reminded of all those childhood stories about the evil villians, the monsters.

I guess my mom was wrong...Monsters really do exist.

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http://EmerinSoul.deviantart.com/journal/11663721/ Fri, 02 Feb 2007 19:39:49 PST
And for some reason, its all I can do to not punch her mouth in.

Its times like these I realize it probably wasn't a good idea to keep all my anger, frustration, pain and spite bottled up inside of me. Those things are bad for a person. If they linger too long, they fester and grow. They develop a mind of their own and infect other parts of you that were once healthy and happy.

Capping off my rants or stopping them before they even started wasn't necessarily the best thing to do. People vent for a reason, and I guess I just never found a person on whom I could vent....not healthily, that is.

So here I am, back where I started, and she hasn't stopped talking. What am I supposed to do? Just continue to stare blankly until she decides to stop? Why is her voice so annoying now? Why does it grate at my nerves like a cheese grater?

I feel my blood boiling and hot tears stinging the back of my eyes. I can feel the words scratch up my throat before I can stop them and its like I'm a whole different person. I'm beginning to understand why murderers plead insanity; the rush rage gives you, hell, makes even ME, Captain Indifferent, a god-damned bonafide lunatic.

So I do what any self-respecting murderer who has yet to be caught does...

I bottle it up.

And as blood trickles from the 8 crescent-shaped wounds in my palms, she continues to talk.

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http://EmerinSoul.deviantart.com/journal/11477757/ Thu, 18 Jan 2007 03:38:37 PST
__________________ _ _ _

Holding a shirt to her nose for a few moments, she lowered it into the box and finished taping it up. Really, it was something she should've done a long time ago...but she was foolish. Clinging to a feeling, a moment in time that was ugly and distorted. But that was over now and this was something that was a long way coming. Things change... As do feelings.

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I can't be with you again. Don't remind me of the good times that we've had.I 've learned alot from us since then. Now I never want these feelings to ever come again.

Please don't tell me that you've changed. Don't want to hear of how you've lost your evil ways; The one who's changed this time is me. And I won't go back to feeling helpless and diseased.

To think you had me fooled every now and then. You had me believing that I was the reason that you left...But I won't go back inlove with you again. I don't even wanna be...your friend.

You'll never hear me crying, you'll never see me trying to love you once again.

Your love is so past tense.

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Maybe someone else would make good use of those old memories, because she no longer needed them. As she climbed back into her car, the truck and its volunteers loading boxes viewable in the rearview mirror, she gave a shaky exhale and nodded. It was over and done with. And as she stared at the drawing of the two girls entwined in the water, her fingers ripped it apart as flashes of a painful kind came to mind, she let the pieces fall from her fingertips and flutter to the ground.

The rain pounded on the roof of her car, trickling down the windshield and the entire world felt as if it paused, if only for a few brief seconds, and a collective sigh was released from a breath no one knew they were holding. She sighed as well, closed her door and drove on, never once looking back on the memories she gave up or the scattered remains of a picture covered in misery and raindrops.

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http://EmerinSoul.deviantart.com/journal/11248762/ Sat, 30 Dec 2006 18:27:26 PST Why Do I...?

dedicated to: S.J.B.

Because I can smile and it actually reaches my eyes.
Because I can laugh and actually feel it in my gut.
Because I don't know the meaning of sadness anymore.
Because I remember exactly what's been missing in my life.
Because I can look back on my life and know it hasn't been a complete waste.
Because you fixed what was broken.
Because you refused to give up.
Because you kept your promises.
Because you can never shut up.
Because you make snuggling one of my favorite pastimes.
Because whenever you laugh, I find myself smiling and I don't know why.
Because your family loves me.
Because you'd want me in a swimsuit, as is.
Because when you're helping your brother or sister playing video games, yelling, screaming, I can picture myself RIGHT there and being content.
Because Pansy GETS Draco.
Because you eat right yet smoke cigarettes.
Because you're my Hufflepuff.
Because I can hear your smile whenever I say "My love."

Because?...Just because.

I love you.

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http://EmerinSoul.deviantart.com/journal/11148303/ Fri, 22 Dec 2006 09:25:27 PST

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http://EmerinSoul.deviantart.com/journal/10920910/ Sat, 02 Dec 2006 03:58:56 PST A diddy I wrote just for you
Forgive me, though, if I can't quite sing it
Forgive me if the notes don't come through

The words are a little muddled
Though the emotion is very clear
I'm sorry if its kinda off key
I'm hoping it comes damn near

I'll sing you this little diddy
As loud and best I can
Forgive me, though, if I can't quite sing it
Forgive me if it turns out bad

My heart is crumbling
My eyes are red
Forgive me if my voice breaks
Forgive me for the things I never said

I'll sing you a little diddy
A simple song so full of pain
And though my smile is cracking
I'll keep on singing this little diddy for you again

]]> ~EmerinSoul As the Sun Sets http://EmerinSoul.deviantart.com/journal/10873447/ http://EmerinSoul.deviantart.com/journal/10873447/ Mon, 27 Nov 2006 21:30:11 PST And though the sky is filled with color and life and good intentions,
My body shivers.
A wish, a want, of fingers burning paths down my bare arms and I see stars.
Sweet oblivion in fiery green eyes.
Her name is a breathy sigh on my lips.
Night is perfect as it wraps velvety black round two aching hearts.
Kiss away my protests...

I only smile.

]]> ~EmerinSoul Broken http://EmerinSoul.deviantart.com/journal/10539179/ http://EmerinSoul.deviantart.com/journal/10539179/ Sat, 28 Oct 2006 15:36:00 PDT .i'd fill your every breath with meaning and find a place we both can hide.

All I know is this same bare patch of wall, the cold carpet and the colder tears on my face...

.I'd freeze us both in time and find a brand new way of seeing. Your eyes forever glued to mine.

All I know is the grin. The laugh. The sweet words my heart knows are lies...

.don't go and leave me.

"I love you...mine..."

.and please don't drive me blind.

It was never mine. Never ours.What we had, have, will never be...because how can something belong, return, ache, when it never existed to begin with...?

.i know we're broken.

You never existed.

]]> ~EmerinSoul R.I.P baby http://EmerinSoul.deviantart.com/journal/10502930/ http://EmerinSoul.deviantart.com/journal/10502930/ Wed, 25 Oct 2006 03:45:50 PDT we cannot become one forever.
More than kindness within a deep place,
touching eachother brings only pain.

Please bind the two of us.
We can no longer dream.
Having lost our way,
we hold hands
and walk into the direction of the harsh dawn.
The real words are surely somewhere
in the real world,
concealed in our reticent night.

-+- Ron Anchondo -+-
December 25th 2004 ~ October 24th, 2006

]]> ~EmerinSoul Emerin's Birthday Bonaza! http://EmerinSoul.deviantart.com/journal/10293889/ http://EmerinSoul.deviantart.com/journal/10293889/ Thu, 05 Oct 2006 14:04:22 PDT

[Harry]:bounces: YAY! ^//^

[Ron]:huggles Emerin: Happee birthday!

[Remus]:smiles warmly: Congrats!

[Sirius]:grins and glomps Emerin:

WooT!

[Draco]:watches on boredly, folds his arms and sniffs:

So how old are you?

[Harry]

:whaps Draco upside his head: What kinda question is that!

[Draco]:rubs his head, looking scandalized: A perfectly good one, actually!

[Emerin] heh, I'm 22

[Sirius] Have you considered joining G. R. I. P. ?

Geezers R Ideal Pedophiles? We meet on Tuesdays :hands Emerin a business card:

[Emerin] Ehm...: pockets card:

[Ron and Harry]:...what's a pedophile?

[Sirius]:grins: WELL m'lads!

[Remus]Oh dear

...

[Draco] : pouts, grumbling about Gryffindorks having no appreciation for curiosity or hair:

[Emerin] Life is good

]]> ~EmerinSoul Slash fanfiction- (drarry)" Rescue me" http://EmerinSoul.deviantart.com/journal/9518604/ http://EmerinSoul.deviantart.com/journal/9518604/ Fri, 28 Jul 2006 03:36:26 PDT
"Blood red lips, like soft intentions, kiss my eyes, they're black and blue.
And even if I shouldn't be here, I can not help myself with you.
Something that I should have said.
We won't get a second chance.
Just one night is all we'll spend
together and its killing me."

Green eyes stared at him from across the expanse of stone balcony and starry sky and social lines.

" He rescues me."

Arms wrapped round him and he sunk his head into that forgiving shoulder and he knew he was rescued. ]]> ~EmerinSoul drabble- "What a Boy Wants" http://EmerinSoul.deviantart.com/journal/9518602/ http://EmerinSoul.deviantart.com/journal/9518602/ Fri, 28 Jul 2006 03:35:39 PDT
"But I know he feels like a boy should feel;
isn't that the point?
With a pretty coin-operated voice,
saying that he loves me,
that he's thinking of me;
straight and to the point.
That is why I want,
a,
Coin-Operated Malfoy."

There was stunned silence, followed by the resounding thud as Ron Weasley promptly passed out.

]]> ~EmerinSoul Slash fanfiction-(Drarry)"Telescope Eyes&quot http://EmerinSoul.deviantart.com/journal/9518586/ http://EmerinSoul.deviantart.com/journal/9518586/ Fri, 28 Jul 2006 03:32:29 PDT please don't make me cry
please don't make me cry
i'm just like you
i know you know
i'm just like you
so don't leave me alone
calling me out to play, with your telescope eyes...

He leaned his head back against the wall, a cold evening breeze dancing through his ebony hair. He'd forgotten his cloak and jumper in his haste, but none of that mattered now. Adreneline and panic and hope rushed through his body, warming him to the point of perspiration.

The letter had been completely unexpected. They'd promised not to send post during regular school hours. He'd had to hurriedly tuck the note away before Ron or Hermione questioned it, which they would've had he not bolted right after. It was hell avoiding them today.
Said letter was clutched tightly in his fist, a small reminder of why he was outside the castle way past curfew, waiting like an idiot next to the greenhouses. Why was he risking everything? Why did he continue to come back when he knew he should stop this? Why did he have to care...?

A soft rustle and the cause of this entire situation emerged from behind the wall of shrubbery encasing the greenhouses. His grey eyes were wide with panic, his chest heaving with panted breaths.
Before he had a chance to question this disconcerting behavior, the boy charged at him and they both fell to the ground in a tangled mess of limbs and kisses.

"I thought...I thought so many bad things...I almost convinced myself..."

His hand petted the soft blonde locks and let the shaking boy hold him closer."Convinced yourself of what?"

Lips bruised his own but this time there was desperation in them and...relief...

"That...I'd lost you..."

Grey met green. The soft breeze ruffled hair, mixing platinum blonde with midnight black, twining, twisting, melding.

He leaned up and placed a gentle kiss on a tear making its way down that porcelain cheek."I'm sorry..."

"Never again, Harry...never..."

He nodded, cradling the lithe frame above him tenderly. It was so much to ask. It was everything to ask. But...somewhere deep inside him, he knew the boy would ask it of him...And he knew he'd give it. "I'll never leave you behind again, Dray...promise."

Draco Malfoy sobbed into Harry Potter's shoulder, trembling fist clinging onto a tie of gold and maroon that represented everything the brunette was. Blood and sunlight. Life and hope.

Harry kissed Draco's temple and lifted his face, gazing into those endless depths of mercury. He could've died last night. He would've died last night. But he didn't...not when he remembered he had a pair of stormy grey eyes waiting anxiously for his return. Draco gave him his heart, the least he could do was give the blonde something just as precious; his life.

you're my need today ]]> ~EmerinSoul