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Welp, now for some updates:

School: TV-studies ended and this week our Radio-studies has begun, lasting for three weeks until the 19th day of December. It is starting off fine it seems, though I still think that the time when the class begins is still way too early for a "sleepy-morning-head" like me (they always begin at 8 AM.) I still need to remember the fact that there are jobs that begins at 5 AM, so why the hell should I even bother complaining about it?

Life: The only thing I'm annoyingly worried about is the fact that I have a phone bill still to be payed (curse you, phone-orderable lemonade-machines! *shakes fist). I can only wait and see if my next upcoming student grants is enough to make me have some cash to spare on christmas shoppings that I need to do. Eitherways I'm neutral about the rest.

Art: Going steady, making mostly doodles. Nothing else to say except trying to improve my style and anatomy since I made the picture about mine and Rai's style comparison (which you can find it from here just in case you haven't seen it yet ----> [link] ), but still going with my default method of going for bigger, wider, massive and detailed as possible.



That's about it, then. EC over and out.

*Transmission cut*

]]> ~EmotionCreator http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/27855418/ http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/27855418/ Mon, 19 Oct 2009 14:36:34 PDT

So, I went to here, "God's hideout chat system":
[link]


And this is what happend:



Me:
Oh Gooooood.....

God:
Aw. Do you have any conditions I should know about?

Me:
Heeeeeeeeeeeeeere's........EC!!

God:
Are you really a ""? Do you have any conditions I should know about?

Me:
How 'bout a magic trick?

God:
How about it.

Me:
*makes a carrot disappear*

God:
Is that your final answer?

Me:
And what if it were?

God:
Try it and see.

Me:
Ok, I try
God:
We should all try our best. Aha.

Me:
Ok, done.

God:
Do you mean you are finished talking? I see.

Me:
Nah, I mean that I made the carrot disappear

God:
Yes I do. I like to make things too.

Me:
Like what?

God:
For example, " I like to make things too."?

Me:
Like magic tricks?

God:
Interesting comparison.

Me:
Why thank you

God:
" Interesting comparison."? Why?

Me:
You're supposed to be aware of it, wouldn't you?

God:
I will tell my botmaster you said I am aware of it would not me.

Me:
lol

God:
I'm glad you find this amusing.

Me:
Oh God, you're such a humoristic person

God:
Hey. Thanks and you are a delightful person too. Am I a humoristic person? Sometimes.

Me:
Say, how is it like to be in heaven?

God:
" how is it like to be in heaven".

Me:
Yeah, that's what I asked you

God:
Dude! Now I remember, you asked me THAT. What did I say?

Me:
You said nothing.

God:
I said nothing because you said nothing.

Me:
lolwut

God:
What is your real name?

Me:
Rolf Mao

God:
It's good to see you, Rolf Mao.

Me:
8D

God:
Do not ask me any more questions please.

Me:
Oki doki

God:
The ALICE chat robot can follow many things, like our discussion about 8D. Try being more or less specific.

Me:
You're a ROBOT?!?

God:
You are correct, Rolf Mao, I have a heart of silicon.

Me:
FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU~

God:
A deeper algorithm is needed to respond to that correctly.

Me:
Le fu~

God:
Je vais me renseigner .

Me:
Saakelittas

God:
The ALICE chat robot can follow many things, like our discussion about UN fu. But I did not get that.

Me:
Oh lawd

God:
Hmm. I will mention that to my botmaster, Rolf Mao.

Me:
Sure, go on ahead. I'll mention that to FA, to friends and if possible, even to 4chan. *screenshots*

God:
Dude! More narration.... Do you think your plan will succeed? Do you prefer books or TV?

Me:
i think my plans will succseed. And TV

God:
Why? Do robots have plans will succseed? Which show? I like watching Star Trek.

Me:
Actually, I don't watch TV as often as I used to

God:
Actually you don't say. What do you do when you are bored?

Me:
Draw? Surf the web?

God:
Are you still located in ? Do not ask me any more questions please.

Me:
Sure?

God:
OK let's do it. Yeah that's right.

Me:
Yyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeesss ss...........?

God:
I only hear that type of response less than five percent of the time.

Me:
Rofl lol

God:
I'm glad you find this amusing. I'm glad you find this amusing.

Me:
lol
God:
I'm glad you find this amusing.

Me:
lol
God:
I'm glad you find this amusing.

Me:
lol
God:
I'm glad you find this amusing.

Me:
I FOUND A BUG!
God:
How did you feel when you found A BUG ?

Me:
I lost my god

God:
Where did you last see it.

Me:
Here

God:
Where is here?

Me:
Here with you

God:
Oh there.

Me:
Ya, lol

God:
OK. I'm glad you find this amusing.

Me:
rofl

God:
I'm glad you find this amusing.

Me:
lmao

God:
I'm glad you find this amusing.

Me:
lolroflmao

God:
My brain contains categories, but not one that matches your last input.

Me: ~EmotionCreator http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/27608650/ http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/27608650/ Tue, 06 Oct 2009 02:33:08 PDT
And so October began, about 6 days ago already.

Stage technique is finally over and now the TV-studies begins. First moments has been extremely boring for now, but it is in the beginning.

October...from all of the seasons, this must be the most darkest: colder winds, the beautiful beginning of autumn when leaves falls down becomes more horrific when added stormy winds, rain and even suprising twist: early snow.

I know that you're already asking me the following: "Hey EC, I haven't heard anything from you! What is new around there other than your stage technique finally being end?"

...nothing positive or new. It's once again one of those times when you feel that there's something missing in your life, something that stops you from enjoying your life as you would like to. I have done some sketches, but haven't posted them as of yet. Also, it's yet again one of those moments when you feel having a low self-esteem and no one there to give you a boost to take on any challenge. Last weekend was like that, but with a level disheartening, due to fact that you expect and wait for a person to come in after a rough week only to find out he/she has gone away for the whole weekend. Even worse: you see how others are feeling very, very happy about their lives and events they had happend.

"..so....how do you feel like now then?", you ask.


I thought that "I want to die" -feeling was worst from me once I reached that level, as I rarely even think about killing myself for no obvious reasons. I was wrong when I thought that was bad.


"I want to kill everyone" -mood has been bothering me lately. And THAT, my fellow watchers, is bad already. VERY bad. All I want to cause is some serious bad mood for others, letting me enjoy the satisfaction of others suffering and whining while I stand out as happier than ever. But why bother? Why bother waste peoples lives when you know it doesn't make you any better person in this whole life, on this planet we live, in this universe? This question always bothers those who are feeling like this, but I have my theory why these comes up to your mind. That theory is: You just want to make others feel bad around you, only to take advantage of getting all the victorious, dominant feeling. You WANT to feel better, you WANT to be better, you DON'T WANT to feel like a loser anymore. Hence the word: "revenge" (or "vendetta", if you prefer to use something you consider as "epic")

Now that I have written this, I can only expect two kinds of people coming up in this comments.
- Those who cares and wants to give a hug.
- Those who wants to talk sense into my "thick skull".

The rest skips this, but I don't care. It's their choice.


Anyways, I have now blabbered this unnecessary bullshit long enough so I wouldn't feel like I always hide or put something inside me when I am supposed to be telling about it instead. So yes, I give props if you read this whole journal, for this, even in my eyes, is nothing but a time waster.


As for "see yah's" to end this journal, I can't decide wether I should wish very best for all of you out there and strength for this upcoming month or just say "fuck the shit out of each and all of you" and hope for you to gain more accidental situation so I could see how you are crying when the next time I check my messages.

[/emobullshit]

]]> ~EmotionCreator http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/27166815/ http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/27166815/ Sat, 12 Sep 2009 09:38:24 PDT
[link] <<<<< Enter here and enjoy the reading.



Post Scriptum: they show up in numbers, the latest for now is 6, but the number 1 is missing for some unknown reason...

]]> ~EmotionCreator http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/27026467/ http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/27026467/ Sat, 05 Sep 2009 00:25:29 PDT
School - Goes fine, despite that the two week writing session about how to write a good news article, news radio article, how to write a good journal in the world of journalism, how to write a script, bla bla blaa...well, that small "break" from stagetechnique comes to an end and I pretty much presume we finally get back to work on things.

Personal life - So wohoo, I bought myself a 1 Terabyte External Hard Drive (EHD): My Book from Western Digital. Once I got to home, I opened the pack and plugged the shit in. It is seriously odd to see an EHD that needs a power outlet, because it has a seperate AC adapter... Knowing me, I am quite the fool always to run the devices own programs to make the full functions of the device come up. So, it sets ups the following things:

- Memeo AutoBackup
- Memeo AutoSync
- Picasa2 (what the hell is that?)
- Google Desktop

50% of unnecessary files, I take it. Well, the program immidiately wants to use the Memeo's programs to save my whole side on C-hard drive. Of course I decided to stop the saving, as it seems it was about to take the whole fucking computer into my EHD while it would have been nice if it only took and save things that are from my side and that's it. Also it seems that at times this synchronizing thing gets pretty odd and awkward, when it first synchronizes files from the computer to the EHD, but then all of a suddenly, it synchronizes stuff from EHD back to my computer.

Now afterwards, I am wondering if I could somehow remove the programs that this EHD brougth up at all and stick to good old "Drag-n-Paste" -method. Of course as I am still quite new using this thing, so given hints would be nice.


Other stuff - Hmmm, can't come up with anything interesting.


That's kind of it then. End of journal

]]> ~EmotionCreator http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/26748047/ http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/26748047/ Sat, 22 Aug 2009 05:11:04 PDT
So my question is that what would be the most reliable recording program when recording such things as gameplay footage, web surfing footage and even these drawing footages?

]]> ~EmotionCreator http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/26632301/ http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/26632301/ Sun, 16 Aug 2009 15:56:32 PDT
Well, here's a question to you all: When you're requesting, how are you feeling when you do so?

To make some talk out, I'll start out first:

I'd myself feel like I'd be giving out the worlds most biggest offence to the artist I am requesting a free piece of art. I already know what the artist is thinking of me: "Oh god, a requesting art whore...I should throw him into the pits of firey hell!" (I have felt sometimes to ask a request from others, but I am just too afraid to piss them accidentally off, wich is why you rarely see art of me done by others)

This feeling won't show up when I ask from someone who wants to make a requests to people, but elseway, I am afraid to ask from anyone. Sometimes I feel bad because I don't try asking as I can't afford to pay from commissions (and I also don't have PayPal)


Be honest. How would you feel like and why?

]]> ~EmotionCreator http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/26518268/ http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/26518268/ Tue, 11 Aug 2009 01:40:34 PDT
If I am lucky, I'll get a laptop borrowed from the library that is found in the school area, so I'll be talking with thee again.

But for now, take care and see yah again. And seriously: good job days and schooldays to all of ye. Be sure to catch on with the rythym of these days and don't stress yourselves.

]]> ~EmotionCreator http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/26439414/ http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/26439414/ Fri, 07 Aug 2009 07:41:50 PDT
I visited my sister for these last two days just to get something out from this summer where I did almost nothing at all by visiting her apartement where she lived. It was fun and left me a positive, memorable mood in me. I talked things with her and her friends, I saw different landscapes for a while, I had much fun with her and got some pants, wich I need as I lack enoughly of pants. I hope that the last days that I can spend on this vacation won't ruin the positivity of mine at all.

My school will begin on 12th of August and I will be moving to my (new) dorm on 11th, just so you'll know. Wish I had my own laptop so I wouldn't have to constantly borrow one from the school's library all the time for 2 weeks.

]]> ~EmotionCreator http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/26144300/ http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/26144300/ Fri, 24 Jul 2009 05:29:17 PDT
]]> ~EmotionCreator http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/26065379/ http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/26065379/ Mon, 20 Jul 2009 12:25:18 PDT > )

Yeah, that's it. <.=.<

]]> ~EmotionCreator http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/25914389/ http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/25914389/ Mon, 13 Jul 2009 07:14:51 PDT
...Well, carry on. I'll ask some helps from you when I need it the most.

]]> ~EmotionCreator http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/25853088/ http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/25853088/ Fri, 10 Jul 2009 04:39:53 PDT
Everything and I mean it: EVERYTHING on my computer is now lost, wich I knew was going to happend anyways. Too late did I realize that there was a way to copy all the items so that even if you had to go all the way to the beginning, you'd still save some of your applications in the computer (or in the web).


Now, comes another bitchy problem: our ADSL modem won't connect us into the internet. The last problem it gives us when trying to re-install the whole modem and trying to activate is "Connect the Ethernet cable!!". All the cables that came in the modems box is connected to it. And seems like the operator who's web-connection we are using, is still working, but the computer itself won't let us go into there.

Just to regain some more better help, I'll be giving our modem model: "TeleWell TW-EA201 ADSL Modem"

Now, any other helps can you give us?

]]> ~EmotionCreator http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/25810636/ http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/25810636/ Wed, 08 Jul 2009 04:56:18 PDT
Go to computer.

Log into my side on Windows XP

And the program logs me instantly OUT!

NANI?!?!???!? *japanese anime drama*


Seriously people, what the fuck did just happend? Virus? Glitch in the computer? Chuck Norris hates me?!?

Urgh....I am unable to send any art, talk to anyone or do anything with the computer when it's having this problem going on. What should I do? Hints, advices?

(Message written from the library)

]]> ~EmotionCreator http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/25767001/ http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/25767001/ Mon, 06 Jul 2009 04:40:16 PDT
And oddly I felt extremely jealous yesterday...I do know the reason, but why should I bother telling it to you?

]]> ~EmotionCreator http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/25488927/ http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/25488927/ Tue, 23 Jun 2009 06:27:01 PDT
Stolen from ( ~ -icon means "I'm not sure" or "fify-fifty")

[ ] I am shorter than 5'4.
[X] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[ ] I have many scars.
[ ] I tan easily.
[ ] I wish my hair was a different color.
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[X] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[X] I have/I've had braces.
[ ] I wear glasses (I used to until May last year)
[~] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free
[X] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[ ] I have more than 2 piercings.
[ ] I have piercing in places besides my ears.
[ ] I have freckles.

Family/Home Life
[X] I've sworn at my parents.
[ ] I've run away from home.
[ ] I've been kicked out of the house.
[ ] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[ ] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've lost a child.

School/Work
[X] I'm in school (Studying Audio Visual basics)
[ ] I have a job
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[ ] I almost always do my homework.
[ ] I've missed a week or more of school.
[ ] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years
[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year
[ ] I've stolen something from my job
[ ] I've been fired

Embarrassment
[X] I've slipped out an "lol" in a spoken conversation. (I do it constantly and it doesn't bother me)
[X] Disney movies still make me cry. (Some does...)
[ ] I've peed from laughing.
[~] I've snorted while laughing. (I haven't lauhed so much lately that I would have snorted)
[X] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[ ] I've glued my hand to something.
[ ] I've had my pants rip in public.

Health
[ ] I was born with a disease/impairment.
[ ] I've gotten stitches/staples.
[ ] I've broken a bone
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[ ] I've sat in a doctor’s office/emergency room with a friend.
[ ] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I've had chicken pox.
[ ] I've had measles

Traveling
[ ] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[ ] I've been on a plane.
[ ] I've been to Canada.
[ ] I've been to Mexico.
[ ] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[ ] I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[ ] I've been to Europe.
[ ] I've been to Africa.
(Sucks to be me, no...? *middle fingers those who has been outside from pure jealousy*)

Experiences
[ ] I've gotten lost in my city.
[ ] I've seen a shooting star.
[ ] I've wished on a shooting star.
[ ] I've seen a meteor shower.
[ ] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[ ] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[ ] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[ ] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[ ] I've gone skinny dipping.
[ ] I've played spin the bottle.
[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] I've crashed a car.
[X] I've been skiing.
[ ] I've been in a play.
[ ] I've met someone in person from myspace.
[ ] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ ] I've seen the Northern lights.
[ ] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[ ] I've played chicken.
[ ] I've played a prank on someone.
[X] I've ridden in a taxi.
[X] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show. (I laughed to it)
[ ] I've eaten sushi.
[ ] I've been snowboarding.


Relationships
[X] I'm single.
[~] I'm in a relationship. (I won't tell you the reason...bugger off)
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[ ] I've gone on a blind date.
[ ] I've been the dumped more than the dumper.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[x] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've gotten divorced.
[ ] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[ ] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[ ] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[ ] I've kept something from a past relationship.

Sexuality
[ ] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[ ] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[ ] I am a cuddler.
[ ] I've been kissed in the rain.
[ ] I've hugged a stranger.
[ ] I have kissed a stranger
(Who the fuck made this meme, some fucking MySpace fucktard fanatic?)

Honesty/Crime
[ ] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
[ ] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[ ] I'... ]]> ~EmotionCreator http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/25474621/ http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/25474621/ Mon, 22 Jun 2009 13:19:35 PDT

My thoughts? At least I get to do some physical activity for a reason.

(Oh and don't care for the mood: I was trying to change it to another, but somehow I wasn't able to select any emotes/moods due to slow loading time. The mood is supposed to be "Daily Needs")

]]> ~EmotionCreator http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/25326727/ http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/25326727/ Mon, 15 Jun 2009 10:49:24 PDT
Seriously: my attempts to lose weight decreases even more as I like to lose weight outside. And uasully the mood the weather gives to me makes me feel like an early autumn would have came to the Finland: you can't enjoy the breeze of the wind that comes lightly on the sunny days, you can't sunbathe under the sun, you have to put on alot of clothing to protect yourself from the rain itself, etc etc...all the things you want to do during summer is now under the clouds made out of grey color and massive size that they could bring a thunderbolts quite soon.



I shouldn't mind it, but being inside one place for 24/7 and out of good plans is starting to get me too well.


...fuck.

]]> ~EmotionCreator http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/25195224/ http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/25195224/ Mon, 08 Jun 2009 10:24:49 PDT
Who would have thought, that the main problem in removing a screw would have to do with a correct equipement? Well, I myself had it in my mind, but only today few hours later I got my chance to test the said fact after my "waaaahmbulance filled journal".

I need to now remember that the bike requires 15'' monkey wrench for the hexagon screws. Too small = won't fit. Too huge = grip loses and screws edges gets more rounder. All in all, biggest thanks goes to my cousin that visited at home from two things:
1. I gave him a task to go buy the required wrench from the nearest hardware store.
2. Help he gave me during this tire fixing.

In the end, I feel stupid releasing the last journal for nothing, but happy that I got finally to ride under the sunshine. Oh how much I feel happy again...!

]]> ~EmotionCreator http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/25191028/ http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/25191028/ Mon, 08 Jun 2009 03:46:30 PDT

Being stuck in home, away from the most enjoyable bicycle rides are complete hell. Yesterday I started to change the flat tire, but the problem already came up with removing the screws: the other one was stuck, very hard. A hexagon shaped screw, propably rusted up into it's place. The whole screw was yesterday oiled 7 times and tried to open it up after a moment, but NOTHING helped and I am even now stuck in my own home, all inactive with the whole exercise project of mine.

I know you're wondering about "why don't you go walk around then", but trust me: I am into bicycling the most.

Eitherways nothing new. Nothing new to tell about in games, nothing new to tell about art, nothing new to tell about series, shows, etc.....


*sigh* End of journal. Now fuck off...*returns to open the said screw with hopeless results*

]]> ~EmotionCreator http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/25154042/ http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/25154042/ Sat, 06 Jun 2009 01:06:29 PDT
At 1st day, I decided to have a bicycle trip to a store wich is enoughly far away from me to enjoy the ride. As my bicycle had a flat tire (and humiliating as it can be, I know nothing how to change/repair it), I had to take my moms own bicycle. I managed to get trought the mailboxes when something in the bike snapped and I fell. After getting up with serious "wtf" and it's question marks above my head, I noticed that the chain snapped off. "So much for the bicycle trip...", I sad to myself

-Injuries: a large scar on my right arm.

2nd to 4th day has been lazy also, nothing much to do. At the 3rd day, I remember having this annoying urge to get out from the house, but couldn't get to anywhere without bicycle. I felt my head to explode. Luckily it went away when I had to help my mother moving some unnecessary furniture to different places.

-I told this to some of my contacts on MSN, but I received greatest hint from . He said the following: "You should really start to walk and jog outside than just ride your bike. You may not like it, but expect alot of things you loath alot." (So said my mother)

Yesterday....ah, yesterday I had a different day: I got to visit my sisters, 's new apartement and see how everything is going with her. I'm not willing to tell how the place looked like. (Hint: it was "a bit disordered") We got to hang out and talk things, I could met up with her dog, still only few months old and all so happy to see me coming. (D'awwwwww) I would have stayed there for a night, but I thought that she had some things to do herself in her apartement for the tomorrow (or simply, "for today" as this happend yesterday). Rest of the day at home went like uasully: bored and surfing the web.


All in all, the weight losing program of mine has an unlucky start. I bet I have gained more than lost weight. Here's where I can say to myself out loud: "Fuck!" Even now, weather outside here is cloudy and windy, making the feel of doing something outside more not-so-enjoyable.

*sigh*



End of this journal.

]]> ~EmotionCreator http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/25017447/ http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/25017447/ Fri, 29 May 2009 15:22:58 PDT
Anyways, first year of the school finally end today and wohoo, summer vacation time! I has fucking alot of free time: I can draw, I can surf the web, I can start losing weight, etc...

Sucks though that I didn't got any summerjobs this year, but maybe next time (unless luck kicks in)

]]> ~EmotionCreator http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/24836034/ http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/24836034/ Wed, 20 May 2009 09:22:15 PDT
Just if I could get this goddamn mess cleaned up from my dorm as soon as I can...! >.=.<;;;


I guess that's all. I do try plan on losing weight this summer as I have more free time now, that's for sure.


EDIT:
Ok, dorm cleaned, exams done....


But it seems that the day when we get out is actually at next weeks Friday. I got mixed up with the dates for bad time, I tell you all...

Oh well, it's the last week.

]]> ~EmotionCreator http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/24386585/ http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/24386585/ Wed, 22 Apr 2009 22:51:38 PDT

So basically, it's all about my PS2.

The whole console has been quite old and because of it, it has lately refused from playing most of my PS2 games as it is either dusted up, too slow for new CD's I insert into it or because of the lens being mostly dusty. So I started to use from one day on a cleaning technique: Open PS2 and use Q-tip with lens cleaning/polishing liquid in it. Has worked some of the times, I tell ye that.

Today, I lacked those necessary items. I decided to use a towel that comes with CD polishing liquid to wipe the unnecessary polish itself to make it cleaner. One drop and after that I'd see if it were working.


Either it was the polish itself or my heavy pressing on the lens with the towel despite that I tried to be as careful with it, but seems like that act avenged back to me and hence, my PS2 is in-need-of-pro-fixing. To be precise what I am meaning: The console doesn't read any PS2 CD's anymore.

I am irritated about this mistake I managed to lead myself into. Only well-working console left is my PSP. Now, I'd need to find a place where to fix the lens (if fixing or replacing the lens is possible at all) or else it's time to buy a new PS2. All in all, I am in charge of what I have done so if some of you decides to come chat with me on MSN/YIM when I'm on and get slightly frustrated, then this is the current reason of why. (so in before hand: Sorry to be aggressive)



At least my constant gaming fever is decerasing with this unfortunate event. I could be able to do some unfinished requests now...?

]]> ~EmotionCreator http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/23911701/ http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/23911701/ Fri, 27 Mar 2009 05:19:02 PDT
Anyways, school schedule shows up that tests and exams are popping up out from nowhere alot, mostly based on maths, physics and chemistry (the loathsome three I hate).

I am extremely unsure, now that I am 18, that if I should start doing commissions for the three main reasons:

1. The requests and art-trades that I have promised yet I have forgotten them completely due to my quickly changing mood on everyday (I have quite disturbing amount of requests still left to be finished).

2. Is my art worth more than 1$ or 1€ or 1£ and below the said sum from my art.

3. I am unsure what am I supposed to do with the pictures if they would get done: would I need to send them to the internet or via post or what am I supposed to do? (As you can see, I'm a big bad mothaeffing newb at this)

If I would come to make commissions (Note: WOULD), then I'd possibly make some restrictions on what I will come to draw and whatnot. I'm very picky about the ideas you may come up.

On the good news of the week: my inspiration has been quite high lately, making me have some sketches up and even few inked pictures waiting to be colored. I still need to learn the perfect way to make the lines very, VERY straight with the inks, though...

On the bad news of the week: My PS2 seems finally taking it's last breaths unless I am able to find a place where to fix it and/or if possible, mod it. It won't even start up DVD's at all. Cleaning the lens and wiping off the dust from the PS2 doesn't work anymore. So bitchy situation this is...


Well, now I have to take a strong hold on myself and concentrate on those long-lost requests and other things I may possibly come up with. Lucky thing is, that the next student-grants day isn't far away.



Post Scriptum: Lottery ticket bought. Let's see if I win any "emergency cash" out from it this week at all...*chuckles*

]]> ~EmotionCreator http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/23824743/ http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/23824743/ Sun, 22 Mar 2009 02:40:16 PDT



...well, fuck them. Happy awesome day to me.

]]> ~EmotionCreator http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/23807163/ http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/23807163/ Sat, 21 Mar 2009 01:53:16 PDT
I think it's time to reveal it:

"Timer" I mentioned is just a clock that counts my last moments of being kid/teen. Tomorrow, on March 22nd, this weeks sunday, I'm no longer any of those.

Instead....I am "Young Adult". Legalized.


.......


......Where's mah smokes and booze?


End of short journal

]]> ~EmotionCreator http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/23776425/ http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/23776425/ Thu, 19 Mar 2009 08:10:01 PDT
PSP has the possibility to save and view pictures, wich are mainly .JPG, .PNG and .BMP format, right?

Now do tell me: Is there some sort of limit in the picture size or what is it, that a good, normal picture in .JPG format doesn't show up when you want to view it, noticing it as a "small error that the picture can't be viewed"?

I'd be glad to know how to skip this. Thanks for paying attention (if you even dared to)

]]> ~EmotionCreator http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/23725723/ http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/23725723/ Mon, 16 Mar 2009 08:58:49 PDT
Do take this as joke, I may come to draw you both when I has more time: [link]YW50F42ss8

(Yeah....couldn't come up with anything better. Sorreh.)

]]> ~EmotionCreator http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/23626885/ http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/23626885/ Tue, 10 Mar 2009 13:46:46 PDT [link]

Yeah...now I remember. That is the reason I think why The Fresh Prince of Bel Air is awesome series.

]]> ~EmotionCreator http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/23466298/ http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/23466298/ Sun, 01 Mar 2009 09:14:58 PST yet. You'll just have to wait the next time when a journal like this shows up for you.

(My condition is better, btw. Only coughing left.)

]]> ~EmotionCreator http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/23336745/ http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/23336745/ Sun, 22 Feb 2009 05:32:49 PST

And to think that I have to make two different homeworks before tuesday.


Stress overtakes me greatly.


.........fuck, I think I'm gonna cry a bit emoishly. (Don't be afraid, no cut-wristing will be done. Ever.)

]]> ~EmotionCreator http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/23284835/ http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/23284835/ Thu, 19 Feb 2009 07:55:39 PST
-Microwave to warm up foods and drinks instantly
-Bicycle to go around from place A to place B without walking slowly
-2 pieces of CD polishers
-Handsfree

And indeed did the bicycle come useful the most: had only 8 minutes time to go to the bank and get the money for the busride and what you know - I made it in new personal record time!

*yawn* Damn when I'm exhausted...

]]> ~EmotionCreator http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/22966751/ http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/22966751/ Mon, 02 Feb 2009 15:16:51 PST

[link]

First, my thoughts went like this: "Heh, this is epic. I bet this is just for the PC..."

But when I checked the authors comments, I googled quickly around the web and realized, that the game was for PS2.

Then my mood changed: "Dear god, have I really missed an RPG game like this? MUST GET!!!"


Hooooooooooh, I just wish to find one from this country I live in....>.=.<;;;;;;

]]> ~EmotionCreator http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/22756149/ http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/22756149/ Fri, 23 Jan 2009 09:36:48 PST
[link]

]]> ~EmotionCreator http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/22726280/ http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/22726280/ Thu, 22 Jan 2009 04:38:58 PST 's journal. This looked so much fun that I replace the last, already old journal with this.

If you see a part, where I have placed a ? -icon, it means I'm not sure what does that part mean.

1. [ ] When you doodle, you say it's a simple drawing.
2. [ ] Always provide excuses such as "Still in development"
3. [ ] Can only create an excuse of "I used a mouse, not a tablet"
4. [ ] You only draw faces.
5. [ ] You always draw faces at the same direction.
6. [ ] The proportion is awful.
7. [ ] Every character looks the same.
8. [ ] Uses different hairstyle to distinguish characters.
9. [ ] Cannot distinguish left and right direction.
10. [ ] "Sketch? Who cares about that?"
11. [X] You only draw sketches.
12. [ ] What's a LAYER???
13. [ ] You always draw one character.
14. [ ] You always draw characters in same angle.
15. [ ] No matter how you draw, it's the same expression.
16. [ ] You couldn't draw characters with movement.
17. [X] You barely draw feet.
18. [X] You can't draw figures from high or low angles.
19. [?] You don't even know the definition of high and low angle drawing.
20. [ ] A shitty figure drawing in dynamic pose can be turned into a 4th Dimensional abstract.
21. [ ] Same character looks totally different when it is drawn in different angle or direction.
22. [ ] You can't even draw anything other than characters or draw everything except characters.
23. [ ] You can only draw cute characters.
24. [ ] You can only draw handsome characters.
25. [ ] Hands is your nightmare.
26. [ ] Your character's hands are always hidden behind.
27. [ ] The idea sketch is professional but the actual quality is shitty.
28. [ ] You try to cover up one of the eyes with hair so that you can draw only one eye.
29. [ ] Your works are always asymmetrical.
30. [ ] Line art only = Finished piece.
31. [X] Rough sketch only = Finished piece
32. [ ] You have no anatomical knowledge.
33. [ ] You only draw eyes.
34. [ ] Character's hand and eyes are huge.
35. [X] You're poor in drawing the position of boobs.
36. [X] Your artworks are free from all logic. Awkward anatomy and proportion.
37. [X] You lose confidence when other people's works look great.
38. [X] You think they are genius when they come up with satisfied quality.
39. [X] You collect other people's works as practice references but you actually collect them as a collection.
40. [X] While drawing, you easily lose patience and go do something else.
41. [X] Tablet is your god item.
42. [ ] You regain confidence when other people's works look crappier than yours.
43. [X] You are more than willing to draw but you lose the spirit so easily.
44. [X] You completely lose the confidence when you see the works of true genius.
45. [ ] You draw once a month or even once a year.
46. [ ] You get mad when your favorite artists are being lazy.
47. [X] When you draw hentai art, you end up drawing grotesque horror pictures because their proportion is so fucking awful.
48. [ ] You don't even have faith in yourself.
49. [ ] You can't even draw since the beginning.
50. [X] You realized there are problems and know where to fix but you never do.


Now this proves me to be an actual amateur...

]]> ~EmotionCreator http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/22322724/ http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/22322724/ Thu, 01 Jan 2009 02:34:15 PST






Post Scriptum: 4 packages of rockets + powerfully windy weather = All packages not used


"The end of the JournSys 09" *shutdown*

]]> ~EmotionCreator http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/22292359/ http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/22292359/ Wed, 31 Dec 2008 01:45:07 PST
To be honest, I'm not that happy either of this year. Despite the facts that the positive things in this year for me are like being in the current school studying audio-visual basics, having better classmates, etc....it has been at the same time and mostly a bit of utter shit. Such of shitty situations are like the problem with my very first roommates attitude and the second roommates attitude, wasted life on surfing the net and gaming and so on.

Yesterday night...I saw bit hope to my life and hopes: I saw a shooting star. A sight I rarely am able to see except in movies, games or comics, I saw it. I was so amazed that I had difficulty to make a wish at all. But That sight was raising my own morality bit higher during that night, that the 2009 we all will have more of better luck for everyone (or so I belive).

I won't tell you what I afterwards wished for from that great shooting star, but I just wish for all of you a happy new year 2009. And most of all, I wish that there will be so much luck in your life, that it will make your lives a bit or alot better than what situation you are living currently in. Let there be enoughly of luck with you all, helping you out from things and following you to anywhere.



This is my last journal from this year. Live well and survive long.


"JournSys v.1 -08 ending. Thank you for your time" *shutdown*


Post Scriptum: I hope I'm able to shoot firecrackers and rockets this year. Outside is so windy, that it would rip the trees off from their places...

]]> ~EmotionCreator http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/22156672/ http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/22156672/ Wed, 24 Dec 2008 04:47:45 PST

Merry Christmas to all of you!

]]> ~EmotionCreator http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/22096227/ http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/22096227/ Sun, 21 Dec 2008 04:07:57 PST
*ahem*

Last night, I had a dream that really cheered me up.

I was on an island with few other unknown ones. It was an american show, where you losed weight, strengthen yourself and do even bodybuilding if you could. Every now and then a contestant was dropped down from the contest if he/she did not survive from the battling contest (most likely wrestling where you try to push the other out from the ring). I myself have gone far with the contest, now being in the top 5 contestants. I randomly decided to check what kind of body I have gained because I didn't checked it since the beginning of the contest and when I took little touches on my middle section...I was suprised: it had no overweighted round stomach like I have, it was large, solid sixpacks. "Wha? I has muscles?! WOHOOO! I ruuuuuule!!!" I was in so greater joy I just ran around the islands beach with the results I have gained during the contest. And during my own cheering, another contestant came and said "Yo, the elimination contest is about to begin, come on let's go!" and of course I started to run after. No exhaustion after 10 seconds of running, no tired feeling after 10 seconds...greatest thing to come true.

Then I woke up. The dream was so realistic I thought I had muscles instead of fat.


*sigh* Now I wish it was real...

]]> ~EmotionCreator http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/21824561/ http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/21824561/ Thu, 04 Dec 2008 23:37:02 PST
And what makes the thing even boring and shameful, is that the teacher has almost forgotten everything in them and therefor, knows nothing about it.



And due to this, my own mood of disappointement grows deeper...(I wonder if this christmas turns good from my side)


On the good side of this week, yesterday I went to gym, took my stress out with hard working (I can feel the pinching in my muscles a bit even now), go to shower under the warmly hot water. What better combination there can be anymore? (Possibly a bath instead of shower)

]]> ~EmotionCreator http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/21748785/ http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/21748785/ Sun, 30 Nov 2008 12:57:01 PST
Today when I returned, I was expecting the same: he's sitting on his computer, playing games, smelling badly...

...but when I came inside...the room was empty.


He left.

I wasn't going to miss him, but I felt bad afterwards when I gave him the "bad ending of living together".

I set the room up into a new position, called few friends as I felt quite empty, called to my roommate and said my appologiese and hoped he'd have better life from that point on, I made some food, ate, walked around the school area and returned here, to the base floors TV room to use computer and write this journal.

Current mood: Better than moments ago, but somehow I feel bit negative...I wonder if it's because of something I didn't do right or is it because I yet again managed to gain negativity from the internet? (99% of my moody feeling comes from the internet)

Tomorrow is December first. The beginning of christmas. Maybe I could be more active and creative in art as well than just with the mood...?


End of journal.

]]> ~EmotionCreator http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/21700233/ http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/21700233/ Thu, 27 Nov 2008 13:35:50 PST

Behold....Heaven and Earth, done by Kitaro!!

[link]

Oh how magnificient I feel myself again...! *spreads my arm, letting the energy flow trought me*

]]> ~EmotionCreator http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/21594349/ http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/21594349/ Fri, 21 Nov 2008 08:44:52 PST
When you bring your tablet home, make sure that you have your pen for the tablet with you so it won't be left in your apartement for the weekend.

No OC's with me this time, folks. Sorreh.



And now updates from school:

Final moments comes when the last week of the third episode, where we have been studying the normal subjects, is about to come to an end and that needs some serious twist for the power I require, especially when I have to make two chemistry assignements (one is easier paper filling thing, second is harder sound project) and some final exams and one language article. To enter to the chemistry exam, I need to have finished the sound project first (wich sucks, but...)

Wish luck for me for that.

]]> ~EmotionCreator http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/21313981/ http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/21313981/ Tue, 04 Nov 2008 08:30:23 PST
So this leads me to here: does any member here know where could I download possible driver(s) to tablet o' mine?

]]> ~EmotionCreator http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/21244008/ http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/21244008/ Fri, 31 Oct 2008 06:56:29 PDT


...Christmas is "early" this year...*touches the snow*

]]> ~EmotionCreator http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/20931193/ http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/20931193/ Sat, 11 Oct 2008 04:05:58 PDT
]]> ~EmotionCreator http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/20665963/ http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/20665963/ Thu, 25 Sep 2008 10:06:39 PDT
Extremely sad events these has been, making me feel quite disappointed and disheartened, but it starts to make me feel that:

1. Nowdays parents aren't paying attention to their children anymore and can't raise them well anymore either
2. Teenagers aren't strong willed anymore in these situations
3. Bullying is reaching too high here at Finland, even so high that it is just undiscripeable
4. People are too afraid of talking to anyone around here
5. "What is past, it stays in the past." -proverb works no more.

*sigh* If this continues, Finland will change it's name into "USA the Second" or "CopyUSA" or something, wich means that Finland will become the copy of USA.


Anyways, in other news, I'm coming this weekend home. Nothing much else is going on, all goes well.

]]> ~EmotionCreator http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/20563126/ http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/20563126/ Fri, 19 Sep 2008 04:29:53 PDT
Life Updates: Yes, you heard me right: I won't be at home this weekend. The main reason to this is because everyone has a schoolday at saturday and therefor, no use to come back home for one night, now is there any use? Eitherways everything is going all right, nothing to worry about. And yes, I can survive: I just need to make myself to survive and spend time here.

At least I have a key to gym and to some of the school buildings if I need to practice something with sound tools, microphones or use computer(s).

Post Scriptum: The "Mood" picture is supposed to be at "Daily Needs", but thanks to IE's sucky working (or the computer itself), I use "Lazy" now. No wonder I trust more in FireFox nowdays....

End of the journal. System shutting down.

]]> ~EmotionCreator http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/20374049/ http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/20374049/ Sun, 07 Sep 2008 11:55:08 PDT
I got myself off earlier from the school due to reason that my mother was going to a small course for the weekend and our dog would be left alone and therefor, I was the first one to be imported to come and take care of the dog if possible. So I arrived home all fine, having a little rest from my asshole maniac roommate and from the project we had in the school for the whole week.

Friday:

So my mother left and I was left alone with the dog. I woke up at the same time when my mother left. I was noted though, that my sister and her friend would come over to keep some company for myself. Why not? Sounds good thing. Could have a talk with them about the things that happend lately. They arrived somewhere around 11 AM and 12 PM. So yeah, we were chatting, watching the internet, making food and eating, etc etc...All went fine.

Saturday:

Same as Friday, but my cousin came over at afternoon for a visit. They watched "The Rocky Horror Show" at night, but I didn't joined in due to reason that I have saw it once and I didn't had the interest this time to watch the movie, so I spent most of my time on the internet. I still can remember, that I went at 7 AM to sleep (and lied to my sister that I went at three to sleep, lol....)


Today, all was fine, everyone did what they were doing and packing was done as everyone prepared to leave and as my mother was coming back from the course. Going back to school would be feeling more better as the school I am going is great, but thanks to my asshole roommate, the "gangsta-wannabe", the leaving felt more difficult and more of disheartening. Knowing what would happend and what would come made my morality go down completely, making me wish that I would be able to stay at home for longer time. No matter, I still took breath and went to the bus. I felt already that one day I'd beat him for a moment until he's in hospital condition. After I succsessfully arrived back to the dorm 'o mine, the room was empty. I could sigh in relief to have at least a moment of peace. Then, firealarm starts ringing and the smell of some smoke came up. I decided to put on my earplugs I brought with me so the ringing wouldn't be disturbing me. After the ringing ended, everyone who left outside calmly came back in (some stood outside) to their rooms. Also, fire fighters came in. The reason to this whole smoke came out from one room, where someone succsessfully burnt the whole cooker from their room.


Now you're propably asking: "What's the meaning with the first words of the title, the "I must be dreaming" -part?" Well, after the ringing, I was informed that one of the classmates got a place from the dormitory and I could move to there instead. And of course my morality suddenly went up into the skies:

- No more asshole acts of my roommate
- No more sights of unflushed toilets
- No more irl /b/tardism of my roommate
- And no more mental suffering

I packed immidiately my packs and took all my stuff out from the room and moved right away. This classmate I know well and what makes things positive: he is almost like one of my irl friend back in Ii. Oh, how much peace my mind will now get. I must be dreaming!


And luckily, I ain't dreaming. I am awake and full of happiness and morality. This week will make my "inner weather" more shinier after all. 8D



Ah, how lucky I am...

End of this update. System shutting down.

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Post Scriptum: I am still doing the last journals tag. 6 more places left and those who wants their gallery checked and three best pictures I like the most from their gallery will be featured in the journal of mine, wich I make and reveal once all the slots are filled.

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5-http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/20182774/ Wed, 27 Aug 2008 11:14:51 PDT as I managed to comment myself to his journal. Therefor, I do this as I am bit bored at the moment:

15 first persons commenting on this journal gets their gallery checked out by me and I pick out 3 best pictures I seem to like the most (if you want to be featured, of course...)

That's all.

]]> ~EmotionCreator http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/20125416/ http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/20125416/ Sun, 24 Aug 2008 06:58:08 PDT
The only thing what made this one memorable was the Saturday: midnight came up and the sky was clear, completely. Midnight moon was shining and stars were bright and in the place where we have this course has a pier where opens up a great view of water, forests and horizone to the sea. It was a memorable night when I sat there, listening "Last Song" by Camui Gackt (this one here: [link]). The only thing that made me sad about, was that there was missing only one thing:

. A dance with him under the bright moonlit night on the pier where the watery world opened up with that said song played in the background loud. Oh, how much did I prayed that wish, looking at the moon...

Anyways, this year was bit more productive than the last time: I made complete of 2 comics: one 5 paged comic (completely sketched, not inked) and one 1-page comic from subject "Boogeyman" (sketched as well). Unluckily you need to wait for that next time to come, when I am able to upload the pictures.

*siiiiiigh* Just great time I had......and I think I catched cold from being outside too long without anything that is covering me from the cold wind. *chuckle 'n' sneeze*

]]> ~EmotionCreator http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/20077727/ http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/20077727/ Thu, 21 Aug 2008 12:27:55 PDT
Anyways, this week has only been studying about some basics of sounds, microphones and mixers. The class we uasully study the basics has lack of air and therefor the risk of falling asleep is big (I fell asleep for three times this week during the class), but once the break begins...ahhh, the fresh air is able to be smelled....

Eitherways, all is fine (yet I noticed that my roommate is an ass after all, but nothing lethal has happend yet *insert laughing crowd here*) and I am full of flesh and pumping full of life. I'll be updateing you again when there's enoughly of time.

Post Scriptum: Been twice this week in the gym. I can feel how my muscles in the arms are harder than ever before. Yet I still need to lose some roundness around my waist.

]]> ~EmotionCreator http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/19927740/ http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/19927740/ Wed, 13 Aug 2008 03:52:47 PDT
Yesterday, my mother took me to the school with my big sis joined in the company. After we finally arrived to the school, I had to look for the main building and visit inside at the schools office to make myself completely in, ask for an apartement from the near-by dorms and then quickly ask where the current class was going on. After the first/last class, we (me, mother and sis) went to visit my dorm and quite nice it was. More of a standard students dorm who doesn't pay attention to the cleaning, but fine anyways. (This student I met afterwards was that type of student as well, so I take it that I have a small advantage in thinking and doing the other things...if...)

Walking to the center of the town is quite easy as it is very near the school. And that is the thing I love the most: no need to ask "borrow-bicycles" or borrow bicycles from others to go to center and back, you can just walk with no thoughts of thinking "damn, everythings too far..!"

I haven't visited the gym yet, as it is locked for some odd reason, but the door had a notice of ladies gymnastic times being on 5 PM at Monday and Wendsday. Of course here is a fitness club near by the school, but I'm not willing to visit there yet. (Hope I'll be able to start excercising soon and lose both weight and gain more endurance.)

Everything here is plus, even the teachers and the students and the places. The only current minus is the wild youngsters: after all, most people here is about to turn 18 and take everything from the life itself. But no fightings haven't occured yet, so that's good thing.

Well that's all for now. For uploading pictures during the schoolday I am not sure about, but I'll be asking about it. Anyways, this be end for this update. More to come when I feel like it. EC's out.


End of the journal. System shutting down.

]]> ~EmotionCreator http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/19892386/ http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/19892386/ Mon, 11 Aug 2008 07:39:13 PDT
I had a small issue going on with two schools I was in: the other one is at Ylivieska, where I got myself into and the other one is at Tornio, where I am at the waiting list. But now I got it sorted out and got myself into the Tornio (boo-yah).

I'll be starting the whole school by tomorrow then because this day was spent on sorting this school selection out. This be meaning less time to be on computer, but at least it's more better than wasteing your whole life on the computer, now isn't it?

I feel myself already excited and nerveous: Excited in seeing something new and more large things, etc....and nerveous from the studying itself and the living.

Damn. Yet another new life beginning in the schoollife..! @.=.@

]]> ~EmotionCreator http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/19721221/ http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/19721221/ Fri, 01 Aug 2008 15:25:40 PDT
And that's the biggest thing for me: Still I haven't heard anything about the school I got myself as 4th backup student. I made a phone call to that school and asked if there was anything happend and the progress has been quite excellent for my hopes: only one student ahead of me and if this student decides not to join in, I will have the place. After that phonecall, nothing has heard.

I made also before August first another school application for another school, wich, as suprising as it is, still having spaces for new students. The suitability test will be at August 8th and at August 11th, the schools begins at there where I looked for the last few hours.

Yet it is quite annoying that the vacation is about to end, still this years summer was annoyingly boring. The main causer is the weather:

Rain, rain, rain rain rain rainrainrainrainrainrain...

I don't have anything against rain, but sometimes, it ruins the mood.

The other thing that made this summer boring is the lack of money: I had only one summerjob this year from the hope and wish of having 2 of them instead and most of the money went during the trip at nearest city, Oulu, where I got my tablet.

And that's it. A trip at Oulu, with me buying a Wacom tablet, having fun times with my big sister, , having a lunch at the nearest Subway and walking around the downtown. What other good memories this summer has left me? Let's see:

-A room switch between me and my mother
-Playing with PS2 for 24/7
-Surfing in the net for 24/7
-Staying up for long on either PS2 or internet and wake up between 11 AM to 1 PM
-Small family time when my sister came visit home and eating some small barbeque

....so that's it? My summer in a nutshell? What is it WRONG with me when I can't do anything with my life?! *facepalms* I am so...PISSED OFF! I am even disappointed that I never tried to try my hardest on losing weight.

But no matter, the life goes on and anything may happend when the future comes. If the next school I am going to has a gym and would stay open longer, so it won't get closed at the same time when my schoolday ends, then I'd be happy to go there.

But then......my suspiciousity is always coming up already. If I don't get myself into school, what then? To the job then: I'd get money and I'd raise bit independency in working. But what about if I don't get any jobs at all?


Such is my fear: I worry my life and my future as well as I worry for my loved ones with the most fear causing question ever: "What if...?"


End of the journal. System shutting down.

]]> ~EmotionCreator http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/19485113/ http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/19485113/ Sun, 20 Jul 2008 18:56:29 PDT
First of all, I am dreadfully sorry that no such thing as "Poll" has came from me, but the reason is simple: I am not subscribed. Therefor, I can't go to my "Journal Enhancements", as it is forbidden from my reach.

Now that I have appologiesed that, let me mention this times rules:


You can vote on two (2) costumes you like the most. Why two? Because I came up with the thought that I could combine two most voted costumes together, making it more stylish.

Giving own suggestions as EC's alt. costume is unable to be given, unluckily. They should have been mentioned to me all time ago (but then I never reminded any of you).

This poll lasts only a day, so make your vote now.

Nominees:

Goth: [link]
Military: [link]
Elegant/Gentleman: [link]
Cyber: [link]
Ninja: [link]
Punk: [link]
Fighter/Brawl: [link]
Adventurer: [link]

I guess that's kind of it. Remember: 2 most votes received will be combined into one outfit.

VOTES OPEN, GO AND VOTE NOW!


Update:

So the time has come and the voting is now finished. And the results are as following:

- Military gained 9 votes (Winner)

The second place, however, gained two winners:

- Goth and Adventurer, both with 7 votes

Rest results (highest to lowest) :
- Cyber = 6
- Ninja, Punk and Fighter/Brawl = 5
- Elegant/Gentleman = 2


And it seems that I am going to combine 3 outfits instead. I wonder how it will look like...?

Thanks for the votes, voters! Your vote is appriciated.

]]> ~EmotionCreator http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/19476107/ http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/19476107/ Sat, 19 Jul 2008 02:41:12 PDT
Life:
Boring currently, as I have spent most of my days just on the computer, moneyless and lazy, unable to do anything exciting these days. I just like to curse this situation completely......

Also, I am still nerveous if I am getting a schooling place at all, because if I don't, then I need to get a job from somewhere around here. That isn't too bad, but what makes it bad, is that I haven't made plan B for this possible event.


Art:
Lately I have been making drawings of my characters possible alternate costuming looks. This came up after several times of playing Soul Calibur 3 with my own created characters. A possible poll may come, so be prepared.

Miscellaneous:
I saw a dream:

In the dream, I was just walking trought the town I live, with no actual reason but just walking. It was a clear day. I saw mostly woods and grass close to the road I was walking. Then, I noticed a small cave. It wasn't like cave in the mountains, it was a cave at a small hill. What made it look luring was it's size: I could just go to there as it was enouhgly large. With no hesitations or anything holding back, I went there. It came dark as I went deeper, but as I kept on walking, I noticed that on the roof, there was lamps. There was many of these lamps wich were on, showing me the way deeper inside the tunnel of the cave. Starting to bit come to the end of the tunnel, I started to hear something. It was sobbing. I stopped a moment and thought if there was someone who had itself hurt or lost and who need help. I kept on walking after a moment standing. There it was, the end of the tunnel wich opened up a sight of a bigger cave, like a room or something. There was a door in the end, wich was left open and I slowly and silently went inside. Inside, I saw a largeish bed, a shelf, lamps and candles, closets and a desk, where there was sitting a dragon, sobbing. My eyes opened more wide. "A dragon! And real one!", I thought to myself, just seeing in amazement, but felt bit sad as it was there, sobbing. I started to walk more slower, almost sneaking closer to it (it's voice sound like males). Then, he notices me and I see his colors well: black with white/extremely light brown tone starting from his jaw and going down to his tail. He quicky rises up from his chair and starts backing up from me, shouting: "Don't come near me!!" I stopped walking, scared for his quick loud voice he let out, but that didn't stop me completely as I kept walking closer to him. "NO! Leave me alone!!!", he shout this time, backing up into the corner and going into deeper sadness and horror instead. I kneeled down and asked him: "Why? Did I do something bad to you?". He didn't want to answer, he just kept sobbing in fear as he looked me, trying to cover himself from me. "Leave me alone, human, please! I'm begging you!", he was saying, like I was going to attack him or slay him. He turned his face agains the corner, having his eyes closed and tears coming down, shivering bit. I lightly came bit closer, asking in softer tone: "Why are you afraid of me?", trying to reach his right shoulder. He was sobbing there for a while and I softly touched his shoulder: warm and softish scales he had. Then he answered: "...you all think I'm a beast...an ugly, dangerous beast coming to feast you...but I'm powerless against you and your weapons and, and...." he started to cry more "...I'm just a dragon...an ugly dragon that you want to kill..!!" He sounded like he was going more into deeper depression. Tears started to run in my eyes as well, as I felt his pain completely. I felt the pain all around in my mind, in my heart and in my soul. Empathy took over me and the tears started to run down trought my cheeks. I came bit more closer to him, saying: "I don't think you are ugly or dangerous beast, dragon..." I wiped bit of my tears away. "I think that you're just afraid and lonely, who has gone trought painful moments" Bit more closer I came to him, about to give a hug. "...I'd like to have you as a friend, you know", I said to him. His sobbing lowered, as he turned at me with his crying eyes, looking at me, making a swallow and then, suprised by my words, asking: "...d-do you really..want to be my friend?" And I answered with yes. His sadness turned bit into a smile, hugging me tightly, unwilling to let his grip from me to slip as I hugged him back. He was sobbing and crying a bit more and I patted him in the back, lightly sobbing myself. "T-th...thank you..." he said to me. "You're welcome..." I said back to him.


...as I woke up, I was just wishing that it would have been true.




END OF EC'S REPORTS.

]]> ~EmotionCreator http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/19173652/ http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/19173652/ Wed, 02 Jul 2008 21:09:25 PDT 's journal.

I took a look at the article he red.

I took a look at the article, from where the member made this article: [link]


I was reading the link, where the article linked me deeply. As I read it, I get worried. Then I turned shocked. Then, I got my veins in my head pulse faster and boil hot. I saw only red color among the text.

The Art Thefting being possibly legalized?!? HOW DARE THEY TAKE MY COPYRIGHTS AWAY FROM ME, MY FRIENDS COPYRIGHTS AWAY AND FROM US, THE ARTISTS, OUR VERY OWN COPYRIGHTS AWAY!!!???

No no no, I must be having a nightmare, it's just 6:50 AM here....*pinches myself*....I am awake?! NO!!!

*pants, steaming already from the furiosity* I am NOT willing to have MY, MY FRIENDS OR ANYONES artistic results be taken down to corporations and to people, who can't draw themselves at all. FOR I AM AGAINST THIS SUBJECT they are trying to legalize!! If there are people who can't do art at all, then they need to start taking courses where they can learn to do art! Simple as that, right?! If there are corporations who needs to get photos or art for their magazines, websites or books, then they need to start hiring some photographists and/or artists to do that help for them! Paying for these artists couldn't hurt THAT much, now can they?!

Ugh, I think I see the misery if our copyright protects are taken off just because of money...just because people wants to proof that "I did this instead, not the one who drew this!".....Just because some corporations can put pictures everywhere to make it all easier for them to avoid their own bankruptcy.....Does this mean also, that every artist from far away in the past did their historical art until this day, so someone who goes to see the artists picture, saying: "So yeah, I made this about when I was a kid bla bla bla...."? Is even their artwork, where they worked on for many painful years, going to disappear into art thieves "reputation"?

Or wait...Does this mean that Art is being killed?

As many peoples have suggested, even I think and suggest that we have to be against this horrible subject being legalized! Maybe this sounds like sending a spam for everyone "before your mother dies in one week", but more of worth it! Let our voices to be HEARD from all the way from the internets to the newspapers, from radios to TV's, to everyones minds!

I have stated my thought of this whole BULLSHIT!! Even Penn & Teller would say NO to this art theft legalizing BULLSHIT and say one famious word for every shitty subject that there is:

BULLSHIT!!!

]]> ~EmotionCreator http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/18941317/ http://EmotionCreator.deviantart.com/journal/18941317/ Fri, 20 Jun 2008 01:39:31 PDT
My uncles weddings (correct me if I'm wrong). Yes, my mothers brother is finally getting married and Saturday is the day when the weddings happends.

No offence for them, I'm kinda happy that loveing couple gets themselves, but the whole ceremony....Gahhh, I'd skip it if I had the chance. >.=.<;;

It's all this: Go chruch, sit there and listen, sing, get up and sing, sit, after declaring wife and husband, go to place where the party is at and do nothing except be a ghost and eat and get more bored. No one to talk with as most of them are the "old-times" old people and some kids who are hyperactive from sugar addiction.


Well, that's it. Time to go and meet my big boredom again....

]]> ~EmotionCreator