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                <title>Update: Motorcycle and motorcycle wreck.</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 27 May 2006 19:59:44 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Two updates in one here. For those who don't know, I got a new Kawasaki Ninja 250 just last Friday (8 days ago today). <br />
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Now, today, there was a Spanish Clud party at my school in the cafeteria. it's hard to explain this part because I'm sure most of you don't know the layout of my school and the area around it. I'll explain as best I can: <br />
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I parked out front and went to the door, and there was a sign basicly saying to go around to the back door to the cafeteria. So I did, found the door, and sat for a while waiting for the aprty to start. I decided at one point to go and bring my bike around back so I could leave faster when I was ready to go, since I was effing bored anyway. I took it around, and decided to take a ride up to the middle school, since the junior high and middle school are practically right next to each other. I ride up the bus "ramp" and down that road, and turn into the bus dropoff/pickup. Now, see, this is where everything went wrong. On the end of that road, there's a circle the buses use to turn around. I went to make the turn around in the circle. And, of course, my tires lost traction on the loose dirt and gravel, and I went sliding on the road for a good few feet, almost hit the curb, even. My knee got a pretty ugly burn, and the back of my upper arm got burnt really bad, along with a small spot on my shoulder and my forearm. <br />
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I rode back to the school on my friend's moped with him since my bike wouldn't start right away. I swear, my teacher nearly had a heart attack when I walked in with ripped clothes and huge, black road burns. Luckily, Maestro's friend who was there helping with the party was a paramedic, so I got fixed up pretty fast. (The real miracle: When he sprayed the peroxide stuff on me, I did NOT curse or scream. <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/biggrin.gif" width="15" height="15" alt="=D" title="=D (Big Grin)" />) Some guys had gone to push my bike back for me, so I didn't have to worry about anything else but sitting there till I felt good enough to go home. <br />
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Now, damage reports on things other than my body: <br />
Shoes: Ruined. Pants: Ripped in the crotch and knee. Inuyasha shirt: Shoulder torn out. Bike: Small spot on the chasis under the left rear-view mirror got ground down, and a very small spot on the tire guard thingy got burned. All in all, I'll live, and my bike's not in bad shape at all. MY CLOTHES ARE JUST RUINED.   T_T<br />
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Now I just gotta worry about sleeping on these injuries, they stink like hell. x.o ]]></description>
                <author>~Erwing</author>
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                <title>. . .</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 06 Feb 2006 21:45:29 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I was sick all last week, and I still feel crappy.  Not to mention, one of my best friends killed herself over the weekend, and I've been uber lonely lately.  I can't even sleep right now.  All I can do is cry.  I need someone with me, I'm so tired of being alone and not having anyone to lean on when I need help.  No one's ever around when I need them, no matter how much they say they care, they're never around to prove it when I really need them too, and I'm sick of it.  Everyone's so self-centered that they can't see me falling farther and farther away.  No one cares.  There's only been one person lately who's demonstrated any love to me at all, and even she's not around enough to help.  I need someone.  Just one fucking person to help me. ]]></description>
                <author>~Erwing</author>
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                <title>...</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 12 Nov 2005 18:12:03 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I haven't been updating often here anymore.  I'm sorry everyone.  i'vebeen really upset lately, a lot of crap just keeps pelting me, and it's really wearing me down.  I don't honestly know how I can wake up in the morning knowing that the day ahead is just going to bring even more pain. ]]></description>
                <author>~Erwing</author>
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                <title>o.o;</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 06 Oct 2005 22:25:30 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Today was awesome. I actually feel like I have a life now. A real one. I'm making lots of new friends, Brooke's getting jealous over some girl who started hanging out with me after she and I broke up, and I got to hang out with Brooke and Amy after school today. Even though it was cold and wet from the rain this morning. Sarah was with us too, but she had to go to work at 3:50, so she didn't get to stay long. I helped her get a malt from the diner before she left, 'cause I'm just that nice. <br />
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We went to the diner and talked for a while. (They split a burger and a couple drinks, I just sat and waited. And I paid $5 out of the $10 they used to buy the meal. Aren't I nice?) <br />
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Then we walked around town for a while, went to the grocery store so Brooke could buy gum, and ended up hanging out at my house for the restof the afternoon till they left to go to a game to bug the jocks and preps.  <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/x/xd.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":XD:" title="XD" /><br />
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I never knew Amy could play guitar. Or that Brooke liked cuddling so much that she'd do it with her ex. Then again, like I said, it was cold. Even I was cold, and I'm very warm-natured. Brooke and I basicly got a private concert with Amy in my room since there was nothing else to do. That was pretty fun, even though my old guitar is out of tune and has only 5 of the 6 strings it's supposed to have. ]]></description>
                <author>~Erwing</author>
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                <title>...Interesting...</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 25 Sep 2005 10:59:03 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I had an interesting day yesterday...<br />
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Went out to party with someone.  ^-^  They didn't pick me up to go until about 3 and a half hours after they said they would though.  But after tyhat, we all went to the movies, then the mall, then back to my friend's house.  It lasted about 8+ hours total, plus the girls got to sleep over.<br />
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And the 22nd was my birthday, to those of you who didn't know.  (Which I'd say is all of you, since no one said anything.) ]]></description>
                <author>~Erwing</author>
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                <title>Update</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 29 Aug 2005 00:00:33 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Figured you guys needed an update, though there's not much to update about, unless I go into detail about the new school year starting.<br />
'Cause my life still sucks.  I'm still depressed.  I still wish people would actually care about me instead of just using me for their own selfish desires.<br />
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Anyway, back to school ... Yeah ...  This new school year is gonna suck, especially if I don't drop my honor's English course.<br />
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The teacher assigned two paragraphs on the first day: I made a B for using the word "I" three times. (First day was a Friday)<br />
Then, through the course of last week, he assigned a test in which we HAD to make a 100%.  If we missed even one question, out of nearly 100 questions, we made a 0%.<br />
Then, he assigned another paragraph or two, and an oral report, and then an oral book report.<br />
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All in one week.<br />
<br />
But other than that, my classes don't seem quite so bad.  At least, not compared with that.<br />
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1st period: Study Hall.  Enough said.<br />
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2nd Period: Physical Science.  Teacher seems cool enough.  Hasn't given us any overly hard homework, but did make one lesson as confusing as hell because she can't read the goddamn conversion sheet.  She had us dividing numbers when we should've been multiplying.  So one of her answers looked like, "175 feet = 568 yards" or something along those lines.<br />
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3rd Period: Honors Civics.  Not too bad, except the oral essay that she already assigned to us.<br />
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4th Period: Honors Algebra II.  Easy as pie.  Homework equals full credit if all questions are answered, quizzes are partial credit for showing work.  And by the time you've done homework and quizzed on something, it's not hard to take a test on it, even if it is no extra credit for showing work/doing the problems.<br />
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5th Period: Honors English.  Already mentioned.  I swear though, this teacher is like a preacher or something.  He talks like the guy I used to have to listen to when I went to church a few years ago.  He paces bacjk and forth and emphasises his words, and tries to make everything relate to life and such.  It's interesteing and he seems like a great teacher and all, but his grading scale is way too harsh for me.<br />
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6th Period: 1st Semester: Communications.  Or, speech, as we like to call it.<br />
Won't be bad until the last portion of the semester when we have to deliver two speeches in front of the class, while dressed up.  I'm SO not dressing up for ANYBODY.  I'd prefer not to even do the damn speeches, but feh.  I've got grades to maintain, whether I like it or not.  But I'm not dressing up.<br />
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7th Period: Spanish.  THe only class I actually consider remotely fun.  The teacher is fun, the language is interesting.  So feh.  Great way to close a day.<br />
Funy thing is though, the teacher never finished SPanish courses in school.  He actually went to college and got a degree in accounting.  But he'd toured Mexico with a punk rock band (I love him for that.  I swear, the coolest teacher I've ever had.) and he loved it so much he came back a few times, and eventually learned the language.  (For the most part.)<br />
I still can't get over that he was a punk rocker though.  That really just takes the cake. ]]></description>
                <author>~Erwing</author>
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                <title>...</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 11 Jul 2005 21:16:35 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Well, aside from joining a new MMORPG...my life sucks again...<br />
Again, not getting into details... ]]></description>
                <author>~Erwing</author>
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                <title>*sigh*</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 02 Jun 2005 19:44:18 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Well, I feel like crap again...  ._.;;   *sighs*  Won't go into any details...<br />
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Hopefully, I'll have some piccies of me  to put up before too long... so you  guys can see how much I've changed  since that last crappy pic... <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/n/nod.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":nod:" title="Nod" /><br />
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HOpe you guys are doing alright... Much  love to ya all...  ^^<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~Erwing</author>
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                <title>Goth/Punk</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 04 May 2005 03:09:28 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Well, it's official.  I'm working up a  wishlist on Hottopic.com full of  goth/punk gear, and I'm actually  planning on saving my money to buy it  all.  So, yeah, I guess you could give  me a label now.  At least, after I go  on my shopping spree.<br />
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<a href="http://www.hottopic.com/WishList/viewSomeonesWishList.asp?W=667935&LS=0&">[link]</a> <br />
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Maybe you can even be nice and buy meh  a lil something. >.> Just a suggestion. ><   I don't wanna have to work a summer job  to buy it all though... @_@<br />
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Not really an important entry, but feh,  figured you guys needed an update.<br />
I'm still feeling kinda crappy, but I'm  alive.  Yay me. ]]></description>
                <author>~Erwing</author>
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                <title>o.o</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 17 Apr 2005 21:23:40 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Not much needed to say here.  Got a new  kitten, I love her to death ^-^  I took  piccies, you can see it all at my Gaia  jouurnal entry -- [url=<a href="http://www.gaiaonline.com/journal/index.php?mode=view&amp">[link]</a><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/w/winkrazz.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=";p" title="Wink/Razz" /> =1121101[/url] ]]></description>
                <author>~Erwing</author>
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                <title>.....</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 10 Apr 2005 22:59:26 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Well, tonight has been the worst.   Ever.  I don't think I've [i]ever[/i]  felt pain this bad.   [i][b]Ever[/b][/i].  And as some of you  know, i've had a [i]very[/i] crappy  life so far, with the exception of a  very small ammount of people/things.   After tonight I feel like I've lost all  will to live, all will to be happy, all  will to even give a damn about  anything.  So, in hopes of not bringing  anyone else down, I'm gonna close this  one here. ]]></description>
                <author>~Erwing</author>
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                <title>Fanart o.o</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 22 Mar 2005 01:15:14 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Oooh, I haven't posted this yet, but I  have fanart. ^-^<br />
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<a href="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v732/Erwing/MebyKuRaiYuKiShiNobi.bmp">[link]</a><br />
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<a href="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v732/Erwing/Me.bmp">[link]</a><br />
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<a href="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v732/Erwing/MINE.bmp">[link]</a><br />
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<a href="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v732/Erwing/Slave.bmp">[link]</a><br />
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<a href="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v732/Erwing/MeandJezza-.jpg">[link]</a><br />
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And of course, thanks to <a href="http://kealli.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/k/e/kealli.gif" width="50" height="50" alt="" title="kealli" /></a> for <a href="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v732/Erwing/ErwingbyKealli.jpg">[link]</a><br />
((Not sure how to get them to post as  pics, so just click the links o.O)) ]]></description>
                <author>~Erwing</author>
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                <title>Yay!</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 21 Mar 2005 18:19:32 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Fun, my friend made a new RP guild on  Gaia, and I get to be a mod. ^-^  I'm  so excited.  This is gona be fun.  If  anyone wants to check it out... <a href="http://www.gaiaonline.com/forum/guilds/index.php?page_mode=4&guild_id=4046">[link]</a><br />
If you go in and read the  announcements, then you'll notice that  we need a banner.  If anyone can help  with that, I and the rest of the guild  would be very happy. ^^ ]]></description>
                <author>~Erwing</author>
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                <title>DMC ^-^</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 12 Mar 2005 12:45:03 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Yay! ^_______^  I just got Devil May  Cry 3!  <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/d/dance.gif" width="29" height="21" alt=":dance:" title="Dance!" /><br />
I love it.. o.o;  Only on Mission 4 and  I'm already addicted. <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/n/nod.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":nod:" title="Nod" /><br />
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Other than that, not much else new.  <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/a/animesweat.gif" width="19" height="19" alt="^^;" title="Sweating a little..." />   Missing you guys!  <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" />  Seeya later. ^^ ]]></description>
                <author>~Erwing</author>
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                <title>What's New</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 15 Feb 2005 23:40:09 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Well, things are getting better, slowly  but surely.  I'm alive! <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/biggrin.gif" width="15" height="15" alt="=D" title="=D (Big Grin)" /><br />
<img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" />  Miss you all... Talk to meeeee~!!!~   ; ; <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /><br />
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School sucks.  I don't sleep or eat  enough anymore, and my grades are  falling... ><  It's so hard to keep up  weith everything, even though my life  is fairly easygoing outside my mind.   My friends here and on Gaia, and maybe  1 or 2 people from FFXI are the only  things that keep me going. (Special  shout-outs of the most prominent of  these people will be added at the end,  I'll link you to their pages <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/n/nod.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":nod:" title="Nod" /> )<br />
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I hope you are all still doing well. ^^  And I apologize for not adding many  deviations lately... I just don't know  what to submit and what not to anymore. <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/a/animesweat.gif" width="19" height="19" alt="^^;" title="Sweating a little..." /> <br />
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Love you guys, talk to ya later, I hope  ^^<br />
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~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~<br />
SHOUT-OUTS<br />
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~<br />
<a href="http://kealli.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/k/e/kealli.gif" width="50" height="50" alt="" title="kealli" /></a> -- Love ya! <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /> <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/a/aww.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":aww:" title="Aww" />  And thanks for the [url=<a href="http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/15208955[/url]"> [link]</a> ^^<br />
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<a href="http://silhouette-kiss.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/s/i/silhouette-kiss.gif" width="50" height="50" alt="" title="silhouette-kiss" /></a> -- Love ya! <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" />  Hope you're still doing  alright, I miss talking to you ^^<br />
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<a href="http://nomorenothing.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/n/o/nomorenothing.gif" width="50" height="50" alt="" title="nomorenothing" /></a> -- Thanks for all your support ^^   Sorry I forgot to add ya last time,  slipped my mind since I haven't gotten  to talk to ya for so long <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/f/frown.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":(" title=":( (Sad)" /><br />
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<a href="http://nalini.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/default.gif" width="50" height="50" alt="" title="nalini" /></a> -- You rock ^^ <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /><br />
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[url=<a href="http://www.gaiaonline.com/profile/profile.php?mode=viewprofile&u=830747[/url]">[link]</a> -- @ Gaia.  Thank you very  much for everything, even though you  probably won't be reading this. <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/a/animesweat.gif" width="19" height="19" alt="^^;" title="Sweating a little..." /><br />
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[url=<a href="http://www.gaiaonline.com/profile/profile.php?mode=viewprofile&u=1309539[/ur]">[link]</a> -- @ Gaia.  Thanks for  everything, much love ^^  Hope  everything works out for ya <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/n/nod.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":nod:" title="Nod" /><br />
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[url=<a href="http://www.gaiaonline.com/profile/profile.php?mode=viewprofile&u=1309539[/ur]">[link]</a> -- @ Gaia.  Love ya, thanks  for being such a good friend. <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/n/nod.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":nod:" title="Nod" /><br />
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[url=<a href="http://www.gaiaonline.com/profile/profile.php?mode=viewprofile&u=1046723[/ur]">[link]</a> -- @ Gaia.  Much love,  thanks for being so awesome to me! <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /><br />
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[url=<a href="http://www.gaiaonline.com/profile/profile.php?mode=viewprofile&u=1294628[/ur]">[link]</a> -- @ Gaia.  Love you, you  rock! <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/n/nod.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":nod:" title="Nod" /><br />
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[url=<a href="http://www.gaiaonline.com/profile/profile.php?mode=viewprofile&u=1282931[/ur]">[link]</a> -- @ Gaia.  Love ya, you're  so sweet. ^^<br />
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[url=<a href="http://www.gaiaonline.com/profile/profile.php?mode=viewprofile&u=1113695[/url]">[link]</a> -- @ Gaia.  ^^ <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" />  Thank you  for being so loyal and sweet.  I'll  never forge... ]]></description>
                <author>~Erwing</author>
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                <title>..Depression..</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 26 Jan 2005 21:53:32 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Yeah, I've been pretty down lately, and  it keeps getting worse.... <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/f/frown.gif" width="15" height="15" alt="=(" title="=( (Sad)" /><br />
<br />
I made a huge hole in the wall today...  I was so hurt inside that I just turned  around and slammed my fist through  it.... ><<br />
<br />
Fighting really hard not to commit  suicide.... As usual.<br />
<br />
Sorry I haven't been very active here  lately... I still love you guys <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" />  I  just ... have too much to deal with, so  I've become a lurker... I still see all  of your wonderful works, and I still  read journals a lot of the time.<br />
Don't think I've abanoned you.  <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/s/smile.gif" width="15" height="15" alt="=)" title="=) (Smile)" /><br />
<br />
Hope you guys are doing better than I  am, seeya! ^^ ]]></description>
                <author>~Erwing</author>
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                <title>...*sigh*...</title>
                <link>http://Erwing.deviantart.com/journal/4233554/</link>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 03 Jan 2005 21:56:55 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Sorry everyone... I've been feeling  terrible lately.... and I've been very  inactive, I'm sorry.... ><<br />
<br />
Today has been horrible... I feel like  I'm ready to die... I wish someone  would give me a reason to live, but any  time I find one ... it's taken away....<br />
<br />
<br />
I hope you guys are all better off than  I am... I don't wanna be hearing about  anyone's funeral anytime soon... <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/a/animesweat.gif" width="19" height="19" alt="^^;" title="Sweating a little..." /> ]]></description>
                <author>~Erwing</author>
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                <title>Umm</title>
                <link>http://Erwing.deviantart.com/journal/4077193/</link>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 15 Dec 2004 22:35:17 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Hey everyone!  <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/hug.gif" width="38" height="15" alt=":hug:" title="Hug" />  Hope you're doing  alright ^^  <br />
Anyone wana talk about what they're  doing for the holidays?  I'd be glad to  listen  =3<br />
<br />
Myself, I'm probably just gonna do the  usual...  have some quality time with  friends and family while the vacation  is going on  ^^  Hopefully you guys  will get a chance to chat too  =3<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<a href="http://www.gaiaonline.com">[link]</a> <<< GO THERE!  It rocks  =3  I'm  Erwing there as well ^^ ]]></description>
                <author>~Erwing</author>
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                <title>Hehehe</title>
                <link>http://Erwing.deviantart.com/journal/3982630/</link>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 03 Dec 2004 19:39:46 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Hey everyone!  <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/s/smile.gif" width="15" height="15" alt="=)" title="=) (Smile)" />  I understand that a  lot of you have wanted to know what I  look like... so about 45 minutes ago, I  took this...  please forgive the  crappiness, I didn't have time to edit  it  <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/a/animesweat.gif" width="19" height="19" alt="^^;" title="Sweating a little..." />  <a href="http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/12865647/">[link]</a><br />
<br />
Also, if you haven't taken the quizes,  please do so!  I'll repost them at the  bottom of this journal  ^^<br />
<br />
Much love guys!!  <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /><br />
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---------------------------------------- -------------------------------<br />
<br />
Here are the quizes again ^^  Remember, <b> be honest</b><br />
<br />
What Would You Do If.....<br />
I cried:<br />
I asked you to help:<br />
I was becoming suicidal:<br />
I killed myself:<br />
I died from natural causes:<br />
I said I liked you:<br />
I kissed you:<br />
I started smoking:<br />
I stole something:<br />
I was hospitalized:<br />
I ran away from home:<br />
I got in a fight and you were there:<br />
<br />
What Do You Think About My.....<br />
Personality:<br />
Eyes:<br />
Face:<br />
Hair:<br />
Clothes:<br />
Voice:<br />
Humor:<br />
Choice of music:<br />
Mannerisms:<br />
Family:<br />
<br />
Would You....<br />
Be my friend:<br />
Tell me the truth, no matter what:<br />
Lie to make me feel better:<br />
Spread rumors about me:<br />
Keep a secret if I told you one:<br />
Loan me some cash:<br />
Hold my hand:<br />
Take a bullet for me:<br />
Keep in touch:<br />
Try and solve my problems:<br />
Love me:<br />
<br />
~Questions~<br />
1. Who are you?<br />
2. Are we friends?<br />
3. When and how did we meet?<br />
4. How have I affected you?<br />
6. What's the fondest memory you have  of me?<br />
7. How long do you think we will be  friends?<br />
8. Do you love me?<br />
9. Do you have a crush on me?<br />
10. Would you kiss me?<br />
11. Would you hug me?<br />
12. Physically, what stands out?<br />
13. Emotionally, what stands out?<br />
14. Do you wish I was cooler?<br />
15. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I?<br />
16. Give me a nickname and explain why  you picked it:<br />
17. Am I loveable?<br />
18. How long have you known me?<br />
19. Describe me in one word:<br />
20. What was your first impression?<br />
21. Do you still think that way about  me now?<br />
22. What do you think my weakness is?<br />
23. Do you think I'll get married?<br />
24. What makes me happy?<br />
25. What makes me sad?<br />
26. What reminds you of me?<br />
27. If you could give me anything what  would it be?<br />
28. How well do you know me?<br />
29. When's the last time you saw me?<br />
30. Ever wanted to tell me something  but couldn't?<br />
31. Do you think I could kill someone?<br />
32. Are you going to put this on your  journal and see what I say about you? <br />
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ <br />
y=yes<br />
n=no<br />
p= perhaps<br />
<br />
Would you....<br />
<br />
() worry about me if you notice I'm  sad?<br />
() go out with me?<br />
() give me your number?<br />
() let me kiss you?<br />
() watch a movie with me... even a  really sappy one?<br />
() let me take you out to dinner?<br />
() drive me somewhere/anywhere?<br />
() take a shower with me?<br />
() let me draw something for you?<br />
() draw something for me?<br />
() be my gf/bf?<br />
() have a fling with me?<br />
() visit me if you come to my city?<br />
() listen to me if I called you crying  even if you were out with all of your  friends?<br />
() buy me a drink if i didn't have  money?<br />
() take me home for the night?<br />
() let me sleep in your bed?<br />
() sing car karaoke with me?<br />
() sit in the doctors office with me  because I didn't want to go alone?<br />
() re-post this for me to answer your  questions?<br />
() let me give you a piggyback ride?<br />
() have sex with me?<br />
() come pick me up at 3 am because my  car ran out of gas in the middle of  nowhere?<br />
() give me your mail address to be  penpals?<br />
() be scared to talk to me? <br />
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~ ]]></description>
                <author>~Erwing</author>
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                <title>What would you do if...</title>
                <link>http://Erwing.deviantart.com/journal/3889478/</link>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 21 Nov 2004 23:39:33 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ This one stolen from <a href="http://silhouette-kiss.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/s/i/silhouette-kiss.gif" width="50" height="50" alt="" title="silhouette-kiss" /></a><br />
<br />
I know, I know... 2nd one today, but I  really wanna know how you guys feel  about me  <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/s/smile.gif" width="15" height="15" alt="=)" title="=) (Smile)" />  <br />
Again, <b>please be honest</b>, even if it  means I won't like the answer.<br />
<br />
What Would You Do If.....<br />
I cried:<br />
I asked you to help:<br />
I was becoming suicidal:<br />
I killed myself:<br />
I died from natural causes:<br />
I said I liked you:<br />
I kissed you:<br />
I started smoking:<br />
I stole something:<br />
I was hospitalized:<br />
I ran away from home:<br />
I got in a fight and you were there:<br />
<br />
What Do You Think About My.....<br />
Personality:<br />
Eyes:<br />
Face:<br />
Hair:<br />
Clothes:<br />
Voice:<br />
Humor:<br />
Choice of music:<br />
Mannerisms:<br />
Family:<br />
<br />
Would You....<br />
Be my friend:<br />
Tell me the truth, no matter what:<br />
Lie to make me feel better:<br />
Spread rumors about me:<br />
Keep a secret if I told you one:<br />
Loan me some cash:<br />
Hold my hand:<br />
Take a bullet for me:<br />
Keep in touch:<br />
Try and solve my problems:<br />
Love me:<br />
<br />
~Questions~<br />
1. Who are you?<br />
2. Are we friends?<br />
3. When and how did we meet?<br />
4. How have I affected you?<br />
6. What's the fondest memory you have  of me?<br />
7. How long do you think we will be  friends?<br />
8. Do you love me?<br />
9. Do you have a crush on me?<br />
10. Would you kiss me?<br />
11. Would you hug me?<br />
12. Physically, what stands out?<br />
13. Emotionally, what stands out?<br />
14. Do you wish I was cooler?<br />
15. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I?<br />
16. Give me a nickname and explain why  you picked it:<br />
17. Am I loveable?<br />
18. How long have you known me?<br />
19. Describe me in one word:<br />
20. What was your first impression?<br />
21. Do you still think that way about  me now?<br />
22. What do you think my weakness is?<br />
23. Do you think I'll get married?<br />
24. What makes me happy?<br />
25. What makes me sad?<br />
26. What reminds you of me?<br />
27. If you could give me anything what  would it be?<br />
28. How well do you know me?<br />
29. When's the last time you saw me?<br />
30. Ever wanted to tell me something  but couldn't?<br />
31. Do you think I could kill someone?<br />
32. Are you going to put this on your  journal and see what I say about you? ]]></description>
                <author>~Erwing</author>
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                <title>Would you...</title>
                <link>http://Erwing.deviantart.com/journal/3889471/</link>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 21 Nov 2004 23:34:22 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Stolen from <a href="http://taintedkitten.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/t/a/taintedkitten.jpg" width="50" height="50" alt="" title="taintedkitten" /></a><br />
<br />
<b>Please be brutally honest</b>, even if it  means I may not like the answer.<br />
<br />
y=yes<br />
n=no<br />
p= perhaps<br />
<br />
Would you....<br />
<br />
() worry about me if you notice I'm  sad?<br />
() go out with me?<br />
() give me your number?<br />
() let me kiss you?<br />
() watch a movie with me... even a  really sappy one?<br />
() let me take you out to dinner?<br />
() drive me somewhere/anywhere?<br />
() take a shower with me?<br />
() let me draw something for you?<br />
() draw something for me?<br />
() be my gf/bf?<br />
() have a fling with me?<br />
() visit me if you come to my city?<br />
() listen to me if I called you crying  even if you were out with all of your  friends?<br />
() buy me a drink if i didn't have  money?<br />
() take me home for the night?<br />
() let me sleep in your bed?<br />
() sing car karaoke with me?<br />
() sit in the doctors office with me  because I didn't want to go alone?<br />
() re-post this for me to answer your  questions?<br />
() let me give you a piggyback ride?<br />
() have sex with me?<br />
() come pick me up at 3 am because my  car ran out of gas in the middle of  nowhere?<br />
() give me your mail address to be  penpals?<br />
() be scared to talk to me? ]]></description>
                <author>~Erwing</author>
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                <title>Hiyas</title>
                <link>http://Erwing.deviantart.com/journal/3845068/</link>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 15 Nov 2004 20:27:23 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Hey all, I've been going through  another of my depression stages lately   =/  I miss hearing from you guys, I  hardly get any notes/comments anymore   ; ;  <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/hug.gif" width="38" height="15" alt=":hug:" title="Hug" />  I still love ya even if I don't  get many chances to talk to ya  <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /><br />
<br />
School still sucks.  Home life still  sucks.  Life in general sucks.  <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/n/nod.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":nod:" title="Nod" />  It's  10:30 PM here now, and I have a 75  point project due for science  tomorow...  How screwed am I  -.-  I  was actually supposed to have it in  today, but the bell rang before I had  to present.  -.-  Then I forgot about  it alol day today, so I'm still coming  out screwed  -.-<br />
<br />
I miss you guys...  Talk to ya later  <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /> ]]></description>
                <author>~Erwing</author>
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                <title>Imperfection</title>
                <link>http://Erwing.deviantart.com/journal/3720000/</link>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 31 Oct 2004 20:42:33 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ <i>You're worth so much,<br />
It'll never be enough,<br />
To see what you have to give<br />
How beautiful you are,<br />
Yet seem so far,<br />
From everything you wanted to be,<br />
You wanted to be,<br />
      <b>Chorus<br />
Tears falling down again,<br />
Tears falling down....<br />
You fall on, your knees,<br />
You beg, you plead,<br />
"Can I be somebody else,<br />
For all the times I hate myself?"<br />
Your failures, devour,<br />
Your heart in every hour,<br />
You're drowning in imperfection.</b><br />
<br />
You mean so much,<br />
That Heaven would touch,<br />
The face of humankind for you,<br />
How special you are,<br />
Revel in your day,<br />
You're fearfully and wonderfully made,<br />
You're wonderfully made,<br />
Tears falling down again,<br />
Come let the healing begin...<br />
<br />
    <b>Chorus</b><br />
<br />
You're worth so much,<br />
So easily crushed,<br />
Wanna be like everyone else,<br />
No one escapes,<br />
Every breath we take,<br />
Dealing with our own skeletons,<br />
<br />
     <b>Chorus</b></i><br />
<br />
~<i>Imperfection</i> by <b>Skillet</b><br />
<br />
Love this song  ^-^ ]]></description>
                <author>~Erwing</author>
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                <title>Today</title>
                <link>http://Erwing.deviantart.com/journal/3667325/</link>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 24 Oct 2004 23:00:58 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ -.-;  Darn.. Weekend's already over..   -.o  At least I get Tuesday out of  school  ^^  <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/w/w00t.gif" width="23" height="23" alt=":w00t:" title="w00t!" />  <br />
<br />
Having a great time in DA..  finally  getting back into it after my weeks out   ^^  New friends rock!  <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/biggrin.gif" width="15" height="15" alt="=D" title="=D (Big Grin)" />  <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/hug.gif" width="38" height="15" alt=":hug:" title="Hug" /><br />
<br />
<img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/f/frown.gif" width="15" height="15" alt="=(" title="=( (Sad)" />  Life's not so good in FFXI right now,  though..  Friend's really doubting  herself..  *sigh*  I don't wanna  complain..  but it's hard sometimes in  my position, so many people depend on  me for so much..  *sigh*  I'm rambling  now, I'll shut up  <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/r/razz.gif" width="15" height="15" alt="=P" title="=P (Razz)" /><br />
<br />
Mah guinea pig died this morning  ; ;  <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/c/crying.gif" width="20" height="17" alt=":crying:" title="Crying" />   Mah dad found her *sniffles*<br />
<br />
All in all, still doing better than I  have been  ^^ Love you all, take care!  <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/hug.gif" width="38" height="15" alt=":hug:" title="Hug" /> ]]></description>
                <author>~Erwing</author>
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                <title>Desisions..</title>
                <link>http://Erwing.deviantart.com/journal/3651732/</link>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 22 Oct 2004 20:47:53 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Hmm..  I'm currently considering  starting prizes for pageviews...  I'll  have to draw some more before I decide  for sure, but if you're my 500th, go  ahead and let me know so I can know who  to draw for if I do decide to do it   ^-^<br />
<br />
Well, TGIF - Thank God it's Friday.<br />
<br />
Not much happened today, boring, as  usual.<br />
Having some trouble balancing FFXI,  EQ2, and DA, along with any homework I  may happen to have..  (which isn't  often because of mah study halls)  Bear  with me if I still look over some  deviations/journals - I'm working on  getting things back together here  ^^   Thanks to everyone who has been so  supportive of me, I'll need your  continuing support as I begin down the  long road of learning manga.  Much love  to you all!  <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /> ]]></description>
                <author>~Erwing</author>
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                <title>Today</title>
                <link>http://Erwing.deviantart.com/journal/3645820/</link>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 21 Oct 2004 22:24:39 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Well, school <b>still</b> sucks...  <br />
I made a (female) friend of mine cry  today..  <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/f/frown.gif" width="15" height="15" alt="=(" title="=( (Sad)" />  Let's just put it this way..<br />
<i>Guy + Girl + "No"</i><br />
Mhmm..  ._.  <br />
<br />
Still trying to imrpove my art..   (well, of course  <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/r/razz.gif" width="15" height="15" alt="=P" title="=P (Razz)" />)  If you didn't  already see..  I DREW A HAMSTER  <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/biggrin.gif" width="15" height="15" alt="=D" title="=D (Big Grin)" />  <a href="http://kealli.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/k/e/kealli.gif" width="50" height="50" alt="" title="kealli" /></a>  said to post it, so I did  ^-^  I luv  it..  ish so kyute  <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /><br />
<br />
Amazingly, I'm also losing intrest in  FFXI now  -.-;  ALl because I strarted  helping to Beta test EQ2..  And because  Warrior ish such a pain in the rear  ><<br />
<br />
Whee!  I visited the forums today for  the first time in forever and added  about 5 ppl to mah watch list  <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/x/xd.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":XD:" title="XD" />  SO by  the next friend list I post, you may  see some new faces  ^-^ ]]></description>
                <author>~Erwing</author>
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                <title>Ooooohhhh...</title>
                <link>http://Erwing.deviantart.com/journal/3636343/</link>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 20 Oct 2004 17:00:34 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Hehehe...  Well, I'm finally learning a  bit of manga art, so you'll be seeing  some real art from me  :3  I did a face  already, but the colors got <b>very</b>  screwed up..  I hate my markers...   gotta fix it with Photoshop or  something or else I'll embarrass myself   <.<  I tried to do the skin.. but had no  peach.. so when I tried to mix some  together......  well...  <.<  He had  orange skin..  >.>  <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/l/lmao.gif" width="19" height="21" alt=":lmao:" title="Laughing my ass off!" /><br />
<br />
Anyways, I hope everyones doing well  <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/a/aww.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":aww:" title="Aww" />   Much luv  <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /> ]]></description>
                <author>~Erwing</author>
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          <item>
                <title>. . .  Meh.</title>
                <link>http://Erwing.deviantart.com/journal/3538736/</link>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 07 Oct 2004 22:48:39 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ *sigh*  Wow.  It's amazing how  everything can change in an instant.   My whole life went from bad to worse.   I just..  I feel like I'm caught up in  a whirlwind, heading nowhere good.  I  could <b>really</b> use your support right  now....  It would mean the world to  know you all support me...  As in this  quote:   <br />
<i>"To the world, you may be one person...  but to one person, you may be the  world."</i><br />
Thank you all, and I'll try my best to  visit more often...<br />
<br />
 So sorry, anytime I visit, I ignore  the journals and deviations now...  If  there's anything you really want me to  see, note me and I'll be sure to check  it out  <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/a/aww.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":aww:" title="Aww" /><br />
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<img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/hug.gif" width="38" height="15" alt=":hug:" title="Hug" /> FRIENDS! <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/hug.gif" width="38" height="15" alt=":hug:" title="Hug" /><br />
<a href="http://animepixie.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/a/n/animepixie.gif" width="50" height="50" alt="" title="animepixie" /></a> <a href="http://cinemastrgegirl.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/c/i/cinemastrgegirl.gif" width="50" height="50" alt="" title="cinemastrgegirl" /></a> <a href="http://codelyokofreak821.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/default.gif" width="50" height="50" alt="" title="codelyokofreak821" /></a> <a href="http://heavenlyhellion.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/default.gif" width="50" height="50" alt="" title="heavenlyhellion" /></a>  <a href="http://kite-mitiko.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/k/i/kite-mitiko.gif" width="50" height="50" alt="" title="kite-mitiko" /></a> <a href="http://luvloz.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/l/u/luvloz.gif" width="50" height="50" alt="" title="luvloz" /></a> <a href="http://nami-yan.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/n/a/nami-yan.gif" width="50" height="50" alt="" title="nami-yan" /></a> <a href="http://thundercat2.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/t/h/thundercat2.gif" width="50" height="50" alt="" title="thundercat2" /></a> <a href="http://twilightchain.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/t/w/twilightchain.gif" width="50" height="50" alt="" title="twilightchain" /></a> <a href="http://xoblondiliciousox.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/default.gif" width="50" height="50" alt="" title="xoblondiliciousox" /></a> <a href="http://sharpedge.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/s/h/sharpedge.gif" width="50" height="50" alt="" title="sharpedge" /></a><br />
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<a href="http://kealli.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/k/e/kealli.gif" width="50" height="50" alt="" title="kealli" /></a> <a href="http://minakoainosv.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/default.gif" width="50" height="50" alt="" title="minakoainosv" /></a> <a href="http://kageina.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/k/a/kageina.gif" width="50" height="50" alt="" title="kageina" /></a> <a href="http://00chalcedony00.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/0/0/00chalcedony00.gif" width="50" height="50" alt="" title="00chalcedony00" /></a> <a href="http://chibikittygrl.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/c/h/chibikittygrl.gif" width="50" height="50" alt="" title="chibikittygrl" /></a> <a href="http://koura.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/k/o/koura.gif" width="50" height="50" alt="" title="koura" /></a> <a href="http://lluvia-chan.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/l/l/lluvia-chan.gif" width="50" height="50" alt="" title="lluvia-chan" /></a> <a href="http://savageangel.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/s/a/savageangel.gif" width="50" height="50" alt="" title="savageangel" /></a> <a href="http://silhouette-kiss.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/s/i/silhouette-kiss.gi... ]]></description>
                <author>~Erwing</author>
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                <title>Mah B-day!</title>
                <link>http://Erwing.deviantart.com/journal/3423233/</link>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 22 Sep 2004 16:59:46 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Hey everyone!   Ish mah B-Day today..   :3  YAY!  <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/boogie.gif" width="25" height="25" alt=":boogie:" title="Boogie!" /><br />
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Well, other than that, same things...   Boring..  -.-;  School ish evol...  ><<br />
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I'm <b>REALLY</b> sorry I haven't been very  active in DA lately!  ><  I've only been  checking my comments, notes, and  avoiding most new deviations and  journals..  Very sorry  ><  I still love  you all though  <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/a/animesweat.gif" width="19" height="19" alt="^^;" title="Sweating a little..." /><br />
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<img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/hug.gif" width="38" height="15" alt=":hug:" title="Hug" /> FRIENDS! <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/hug.gif" width="38" height="15" alt=":hug:" title="Hug" /><br />
<a href="http://animepixie.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/a/n/animepixie.gif" width="50" height="50" alt="" title="animepixie" /></a> <a href="http://cinemastrgegirl.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/c/i/cinemastrgegirl.gif" width="50" height="50" alt="" title="cinemastrgegirl" /></a> <a href="http://codelyokofreak821.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/default.gif" width="50" height="50" alt="" title="codelyokofreak821" /></a> <a href="http://heavenlyhellion.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/default.gif" width="50" height="50" alt="" title="heavenlyhellion" /></a>  <a href="http://kite-mitiko.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/k/i/kite-mitiko.gif" width="50" height="50" alt="" title="kite-mitiko" /></a> <a href="http://luvloz.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/l/u/luvloz.gif" width="50" height="50" alt="" title="luvloz" /></a> <a href="http://nami-yan.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/n/a/nami-yan.gif" width="50" height="50" alt="" title="nami-yan" /></a> <a href="http://thundercat2.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/t/h/thundercat2.gif" width="50" height="50" alt="" title="thundercat2" /></a> <a href="http://twilightchain.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/t/w/twilightchain.gif" width="50" height="50" alt="" title="twilightchain" /></a> <a href="http://xoblondiliciousox.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/default.gif" width="50" height="50" alt="" title="xoblondiliciousox" /></a> <a href="http://sharpedge.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/s/h/sharpedge.gif" width="50" height="50" alt="" title="sharpedge" /></a><br />
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<img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/l/love.gif" width="23" height="16" alt=":love:" title="Love" /> <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /> People I love <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /> <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/l/love.gif" width="23" height="16" alt=":love:" title="Love" /><br />
<a href="http://kealli.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/k/e/kealli.gif" width="50" height="50" alt="" title="kealli" /></a> <a href="http://kageina.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/k/a/kageina.gif" width="50" height="50" alt="" title="kageina" /></a> <a href="http://00chalcedony00.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/0/0/00chalcedony00.gif" width="50" height="50" alt="" title="00chalcedony00" /></a> <a href="http://chibikittygrl.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/c/h/chibikittygrl.gif" width="50" height="50" alt="" title="chibikittygrl" /></a> <a href="http://koura.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/k/o/koura.gif" width="50" height="50" alt="" title="koura" /></a> <a href="http://lluvia-chan.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/l/l/lluvia-chan.gif" width="50" height="50" alt="" title="lluvia-chan" /></a> <a href="http://savageangel.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/s/a/savageangel.gif" width="50" height="50" alt="" title="savageangel" /></a> <a href="http://silhouette-kiss.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/s/i/silhouette-kiss.gif" width="50" height="50" alt="" title="silhouette-kiss" /></a> <a href="http://stealthscope.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/s/t/stealthscope.gif" width="50" height="50" alt="" title="stealthscope" /></a> <a href="http://nomorenothing.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar" src=... ]]></description>
                <author>~Erwing</author>
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                <title>Hmm..</title>
                <link>http://Erwing.deviantart.com/journal/3328714/</link>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 09 Sep 2004 22:12:34 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Hey everyone!  <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/w/wave.gif" width="25" height="20" alt=":wave:" title="Hi!" />  How are you?  <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/a/aww.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":aww:" title="Aww" /><br />
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Well..  This seemed  cool/odd/interesting to me..  so...  <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/a/animesweat.gif" width="19" height="19" alt="^^;" title="Sweating a little..." />   (True Story)<br />
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Little Girl: You're 13?!?!<br />
Me: Yah... Why?  o.o<br />
Little Girl: You look older than my big  brother!!<br />
Me: And how old is your brother...?<br />
Little Girl: 16!  <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/w/weirdface.gif" width="27" height="15" alt=":O_o:" title="O_o" /><br />
Me: Uhmm..  Hehehe  <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/a/animesweat.gif" width="19" height="19" alt="^^;" title="Sweating a little..." /><br />
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Hehe  <.<<br />
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Well, school is evol  <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/biggrin.gif" width="15" height="15" alt="=D" title="=D (Big Grin)" /><br />
Today, those girls talked me outa my  moneh..  ; ;  Ohh well, was only 5  dollars..  <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/a/animesweat.gif" width="19" height="19" alt="^^;" title="Sweating a little..." />  <br />
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<img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/hug.gif" width="38" height="15" alt=":hug:" title="Hug" /> FRIENDS! <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/hug.gif" width="38" height="15" alt=":hug:" title="Hug" /><br />
<a href="http://animepixie.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar"  src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/a/n/animepixie.gif" width="50" height="50" alt="" title="" /></a> <a href="http://cinemastrgegirl.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar"  src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/c/i/cinemastrgegirl.gif" width="50" height="50" alt="" title="" /></a> <a href="http://codelyokofreak821.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar"  src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/default.gif" width="50" height="50" alt="" title="" /></a> <a href="http://heavenlyhellion.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar"  src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/default.gif" width="50" height="50" alt="" title="" /></a>  <a href="http://kite-mitiko.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar"  src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/k/i/kite-mitiko.gif" width="50" height="50" alt="" title="" /></a> <a href="http://luvloz.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar"  src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/l/u/luvloz.gif" width="50" height="50" alt="" title="" /></a> <a href="http://nami-yan.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar"  src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/n/a/nami-yan.gif" width="50" height="50" alt="" title="" /></a> <a href="http://thundercat2.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar"  src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/t/h/thundercat2.gif" width="50" height="50" alt="" title="" /></a> <a href="http://twilightchain.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar"  src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/t/w/twilightchain.gif" width="50" height="50" alt="" title="" /></a> <a href="http://xoblondiliciousox.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar"  src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/default.gif" width="50" height="50" alt="" title="" /></a> <a href="http://sharpedge.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar"  src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/s/h/sharpedge.gif" width="50" height="50" alt="" title="" /></a><br />
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<img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/l/love.gif" width="23" height="16" alt=":love:" title="Love" /> <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /> People I love <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /> <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/l/love.gif" width="23" height="16" alt=":love:" title="Love" /><br />
<a href="http://kealli.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar"  src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/k/e/kealli.gif" width="50" height="50" alt="" title="" /></a> <a href="http://kageina.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar"  src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/k/a/kageina.gif" width="50" height="50" alt="" title="" /></a> <a href="http://00chalcedony00.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar"  src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/0/0/00chalcedony00.gif" width="50" height="50" alt="" title="" /></a> <a href="http://chibikittygrl.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar"  src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/c/h/chibikittygrl.gif" width="50" height="50" alt="" title="" /></a> <a href="http://koura.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar"  src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/k/o/koura.gif" width="50" height="50" alt="" title="" /></a> <a href="http://lluvia-chan.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar"  src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/l/l/lluvia-chan.gif" width="50" height="50" alt="" title="" /></a> <a href="http://savageangel.deviantart.com/"><img class="avatar"  src="http://a.deviantart.com/avatars/s/a/sava... ]]></description>
                <author>~Erwing</author>
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                <title>Today</title>
                <link>http://Erwing.deviantart.com/journal/3308595/</link>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 07 Sep 2004 13:49:24 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Well, not much else has been going  on...  THe girls still love messing  with me, school still sucks in  general..  <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/a/animesweat.gif" width="19" height="19" alt="^^;" title="Sweating a little..." /><br />
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I'mhaving a great time getting to know  you all at DA though  <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/a/aww.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":aww:" title="Aww" />  It's great to  have people that are actually..  not  so...  ugh..  as the people at my  school  <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/a/animesweat.gif" width="19" height="19" alt="^^;" title="Sweating a little..." /><br />
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Much love everyone <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/hug.gif" width="38" height="15" alt=":hug:" title="Hug" /> ]]></description>
                <author>~Erwing</author>
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                <title>Yay!</title>
                <link>http://Erwing.deviantart.com/journal/3274422/</link>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 02 Sep 2004 23:24:39 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Well, first of all, I finally got cable  today..  I love high speed internet  :3<br />
On FFXI, Dragoon is now 34  <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/a/animesweat.gif" width="19" height="19" alt="^^;" title="Sweating a little..." />  Just a  lil extra for anyone who cares  >.><br />
As for school..  Well, it's not as bad  as it could be, but it still sucks.   Except the shuttle bus ride, ish okay..   the girls I sit by make it  interested..  IF you consider being  tortured interesting  <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/w/weirdface.gif" width="27" height="15" alt=":O_o:" title="O_o" />  Just a side  note..  makeup was NOT MENT FOR GUYS!  ><   Neither was nail poish..  or  scissors.. (long story...)<br />
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<img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/x/xd.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":XD:" title="XD" />  Anyway, yah, I've been pretty decent  lately, after the recent heartbreak  passed.  I'm really glad  know you  guys!  Much love  <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/hug.gif" width="38" height="15" alt=":hug:" title="Hug" /> <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/hug.gif" width="38" height="15" alt=":hug:" title="Hug" /> <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/hug.gif" width="38" height="15" alt=":hug:" title="Hug" />!<br />
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Special thanks to Kealli and Kagiena  for being so nice to me  <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/a/aww.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":aww:" title="Aww" />  Many others  were involved, but these 2 just stood  out  :3  So don't feel jealous or  anything that I didn't add your name  here  <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/a/animesweat.gif" width="19" height="19" alt="^^;" title="Sweating a little..." /> ]]></description>
                <author>~Erwing</author>
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                <title>I feel loved</title>
                <link>http://Erwing.deviantart.com/journal/3217766/</link>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 26 Aug 2004 14:09:59 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Hey everyone!  <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /> <br />
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I'm really glad I know you all  <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/s/smile.gif" width="15" height="15" alt="=)" title="=) (Smile)" />   You're been giving such good comments,  and making me feel so special  <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/a/aww.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":aww:" title="Aww" />  I love  you guys!  :hug :hug <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/hug.gif" width="38" height="15" alt=":hug:" title="Hug" />!<br />
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<img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/g/glomp.gif" width="47" height="20" alt=":glomp:" title="Glomp!" /><br />
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<img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/s/smile.gif" width="15" height="15" alt="=)" title="=) (Smile)" />  I hope you all enjoy my..  "art"  <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/x/xd.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":XD:" title="XD" />  and my company ^^ ]]></description>
                <author>~Erwing</author>
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                <title>First Deviations Added!</title>
                <link>http://Erwing.deviantart.com/journal/3206682/</link>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 24 Aug 2004 23:36:42 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Hey everyone!  <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" />'s!  ^^   I'm sure  you've all been a bit anxious to see  what I can come up with.. so I give you  this:  Final Fantasy XI Screenshots!  <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/biggrin.gif" width="15" height="15" alt="=D" title="=D (Big Grin)" />   Most of which are VERY cute, I might  add  <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/a/aww.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":aww:" title="Aww" /><br />
I didn't upload everything I could,  because it's late already  ._.  but  I'll be snapping more off for you guys  as I go about my daily buisness in the  Vana'Diel world  <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/s/smile.gif" width="15" height="15" alt="=)" title="=) (Smile)" /> ]]></description>
                <author>~Erwing</author>
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                <title>1st Day at DA is Over!</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 23 Aug 2004 00:01:42 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Well, obviuously a part of me dosen't  want to leave..  But then again, I'm  tired as hell, and I have to be awake  in 5 hours, so..  I don't have much of  a choice  <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/c/cries.gif" width="23" height="15" alt=":cries:" title="Waaaah!" />   Thank you all for making  me feel so welcome, and a special  thanks to those of you who made me feel  loved and appreciated! (Kageina,  Iluvia-chan, Zandrixia, Zynthos, and  many others!!)  <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/hug.gif" width="38" height="15" alt=":hug:" title="Hug" /> <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/c/cuddle.gif" width="24" height="17" alt=":cuddle:" title="Cuddling up with someone close..." /> <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/hug.gif" width="38" height="15" alt=":hug:" title="Hug" />  <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/a/animesweat.gif" width="19" height="19" alt="^^;" title="Sweating a little..." />  I love you all!!    <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/biggrin.gif" width="15" height="15" alt="=D" title="=D (Big Grin)" /><br />
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If anyone ever needs anything, please  let me know!!  I'm here to help  ^^<br />
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EMAIL ME!!  Hehehe  <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/a/animesweat.gif" width="19" height="19" alt="^^;" title="Sweating a little..." />   cloud_final_fan@pol.com  <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/biggrin.gif" width="15" height="15" alt="=D" title="=D (Big Grin)" /> ]]></description>
                <author>~Erwing</author>
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