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Estur ]]> ~EsTur http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/5515145/ http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/5515145/ Tue, 31 May 2005 19:22:47 PDT God Bless ya'll
Esther ]]> ~EsTur http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/4989278/ http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/4989278/ Sun, 03 Apr 2005 15:16:00 PDT
~estur ]]> ~EsTur http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/4926044/ http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/4926044/ Sun, 27 Mar 2005 15:29:20 PST God Bless and have a good one eh?
Esther ]]> ~EsTur http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/4616857/ http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/4616857/ Fri, 18 Feb 2005 18:38:37 PST Have a good one
God Bless
~esther ]]> ~EsTur http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/4580578/ http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/4580578/ Mon, 14 Feb 2005 14:14:08 PST
Jk...I'm not bitter, its just a quote from one of my fave movies(Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind) that I always though was quite funny...And since it's valentines day I had to promote some bitterness...hoho
So spread the love and have a good one eh?
Lots of love
God Bless
~estur ]]> ~EsTur http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/4558929/ http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/4558929/ Sat, 12 Feb 2005 00:37:02 PST I am done now...goodnight and God Bless tomorrow.
~esther ]]> ~EsTur http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/4507988/ http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/4507988/ Sat, 05 Feb 2005 23:15:10 PST ! She has such an infectious smile and loveable outlook...That's enough, but it was quite a touching affair. Alas...I think I must leave thee before I fail to make sense. Tragic indeed.
God Bless and scout out some beautiful weather for me...This morning was a winner, and the sun was obliging.
~Esther Joy St.John
P.S...Tell me something random from your day okay? Or anything of major or minor interest to you...WOOT! keep it real. ]]> ~EsTur http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/4464147/ http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/4464147/ Mon, 31 Jan 2005 16:52:12 PST What does your name mean? “Shining One…Star”
How old are you? 18
How old are you mentally (as in are you mature?)? Ummm….Dunno, rather young probably, I tend not to take life too seriously, which is both good and bad at times…But I’ve got a whole life to grow up…why start so soon? Geeez…I feel young, or maybe just unprepared and a little scared at times, but very excited non the less(about the furure)…But meh, I’ll make it just fine. Where’s the fun in being completely prepared and composed anyhow??? Really…come on.
Describe yourself in 5 words: Dyslexic, Narcissistic, Violent, Obesessive/Compulsive. Just kidding…haha
What are your worst qualities? Procrastination…And laziness….ugh(kinda the same).
What are your best qualities? There are far too many, really. Just ask someone I know.lol
How long does it take you get get ready in the morning? Depends….Usually about 10 minutes. Ya, I am high maintainance…
~SLEEP~
Do you dream at night? Ummm ya….who doesn’t at least sometimes?
Do you remember your dreams? Sometimes
Describe one: I had this one about a duck that asked me where he could find the nearest wishing well…And So I told him that he could use the one on my basement…So, he and I had a merry time drowning spatulas and tossing pennies in after them…Good Luck!
What time do you go to bed usually? Like 11:30ish when I don’t have exams the next day…or earlier…depends when I feel the need.
What time do you wake up normally? Like 7:30ish…depends.
What time do you wake on weekends? Later than I should, I’m changing that….
Do you find waking late nice or annoying? I usually hate it…but I am learning to love the morning…Well, once I get up that is…
Do you sleep with one pillow or two? One usually….I hate having my head up on a platform…it hurts me…
~SCHOOL~
Do you like school? Twill suffice
Whats ur fave subject? English, Art…
Most hated subject? Math!!!
Do you have a fave teacher? Ummm, did…
Ever had a crush on a teacher? Dear God no.
Are you a maths/science person or an english/drama person? english/drama
~FRIENDS~
Do you have heaps of friends? Nope, I’m fine with it.
Do you have a best friend? yep
Do you have more guy friends or more girl friends? Dunno…girls probably
Do you ever get annoyed at any friend? Who doesn’t?
Have you ever lied to a friend? Probably…not intentionally though, not usually…I try to be honest, I hate lies.
Have you ever stolen a friends boyfriend/girlfriend? Nope
~FAMILY~
Do you like your parents? Mostly, ya they’ll do…haha
Ever run away from home? nope
Ever thought about it? Maybe…but why really?
Do you have any siblings? Sadly yes.
If so, do you like or get annoyed with them? Never! What ever for!?!? They are sweet, innocent dears! The idea….REALLY! (note the major sarcasm….right)
How old are they? Young and charming
Do you feel your parents spoil you? Um, no…I was abandoned at birth, and I just happened upon these cheapskates…It’s a hard life I tell ya!
Do you not get along with any of your family? One uncle was the spite of Ben and I awhile ago….die.
Do you have big family get togethers ever? Sometimes…this summer we went to England and had a jolly time with my dad’s fam.
~Sex~
Ever had sex? Nopers
Believe that a person shouldnt have sex before marriage? Yep, very strongly so
Believe in casual sex? Not ever
When do you plan/when did you lose your virginity? Once married
Did you regret it? Regret what? Exactly my point, there isn’t any regret if you wait it out…My opinion.
Religeon~
Do you have a religion? yes... I am Christian
Do you practice it i.e go to church? Ya, I go…And I try to make it apart of every day life etc…
Do you believe in God? Fo Sho…I’d be lost without him.
Jesus? Yes! He’s rather essential to my life….understatement.
Satan? Yup
Heaven? definitely
Hell? Yup
If you died tomorrow what do you believe will happen to you? I would go to heaven…unless the rules have changed…haha, jk.
Does death scare you? The process…a little, but not death itself really….I have hope.
~Morals~
Have you ever been drunk? Once…bad idea, never again.
Taken drugs? Nope, nothing illegal.
Stolen? When I was young and foolish
Shoplifted? Nope
Tried to commit suicide? I’m way too scarred to even seriously consider it, let alone do it….YIKES!
Gotten into a fight? Not seriously…over dumb stuff, ya..
Are you more innocent or guilty? Well I am a full fledged sinner like everyone else….so probably quite guilty. But I try to be good….right.
Would you date a drug addict? Nope, but people can always change.
Have you eve... ]]> ~EsTur http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/4382261/ http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/4382261/ Sat, 22 Jan 2005 02:41:53 PST "I'm coming out of my cage, and I've been doing just fine, gotta gotta get down, because I want it all..." great song...
Life is good, a few wishful moments that brush against me every now and again, but nothing much. Not wishful love, just wishful moments in wich I wish I could spill my thoughts, share them for a little while...Meh. Exams are coming up, and I just watched a good movie "The Age of Innocence" It was well done and I recommend it. Made me get all thoughtful and wanting to discuss it, but you can't always do that, not just with anyone...And sometimes not at all.
Well have a good one
~esther ]]> ~EsTur http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/4354893/ http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/4354893/ Tue, 18 Jan 2005 19:05:11 PST I've never attempted to meddle in the strange and wonderful world of bread, I mean that's my mothers job(jk)....But here you have it folks, not only am I extremely hot, and vain, but I make bread aswell. I am a killer package deal...And no, you cannot stalk me or have my number.
~estur ]]> ~EsTur http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/4339096/ http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/4339096/ Sun, 16 Jan 2005 23:30:56 PST
"But I cannot forget
Refuse to regret
So glad that I met you
Take my breath away
Make every day
Worth all the pain that I have
Gone through..."

Has personal meaning for me, but the message rings true. When reflecting on the past, focus on the good, not the regret...The blessings and not the curse. There is good if you look for it, believe me...Make today count, for those days of past pain that failed to...There is so much beauty if we look for it. Don't fail to see that. Ever.
Have a good one eh?
God Bless
~Esther ]]> ~EsTur http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/4330850/ http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/4330850/ Sat, 15 Jan 2005 22:45:06 PST (I am in a jovial mood....hehe, jovial and strange.....stopping now...now.)
EsTur ]]> ~EsTur http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/4327281/ http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/4327281/ Sat, 15 Jan 2005 13:50:06 PST Anyhoo....see ya'll and have a good one!
Esther ]]> ~EsTur http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/4265910/ http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/4265910/ Fri, 07 Jan 2005 22:42:15 PST I think I'll make it though. Yup. I'm reading a really random, yet good book called "Geek Love" about a carny familly. It is bizzare, but it is a daring twist that makes you think about our concept of "normal". Ya...
It's Friday night and the weekend is mine. Oh yes it is...

Have a good one eh?
~Esther ]]> ~EsTur http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/4240992/ http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/4240992/ Tue, 04 Jan 2005 19:37:45 PST 1. a movie:
2. a book:
3. a musical artist, song, or album:

(B) I want everyone who reads this to ask me three questions, no more, no less. Ask me anything you want. No kidding, ANYTHING, I'll give you the absolute honest truth, to the best of my ability. Unless it's horribly wrong...Don't even try it.

(C) Then I want you to go to your journal, copy and paste this allowing your friends to ask you anything. ]]> ~EsTur http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/4208322/ http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/4208322/ Sun, 02 Jan 2005 01:58:49 PST That is fricking exciting...
God Bless
Esther
P.s....I just finished watching "Saved" Not too shabby, I liked it quite alot. Anyhoo... Just a line that made me chuckle in my head.

"I crashed my van into Jesus, okay? I have a pimple the size of Jupiter, I am NOT okay!!!"

Anyhoo....ya, don't ask...Its late.
See ya
Have a good one ]]> ~EsTur http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/4165916/ http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/4165916/ Sun, 26 Dec 2004 23:53:31 PST See ya ]]> ~EsTur http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/4150725/ http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/4150725/ Sat, 25 Dec 2004 01:10:19 PST Keep the true meaning in mind and have a good one...God Bless you all!
Lots of love
Esther ]]> ~EsTur http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/4084793/ http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/4084793/ Fri, 17 Dec 2004 16:00:53 PST
One world was not enough for two
Like me and you...
Excert from poem: "Her Voice"

Could we live it over again,
Were it worth the pain,
Could the passionate past that is fled
Call back its dead!
(Personal fave...) Excert from poem: "Roses and Rue"

"But surely it is something to have been
The best beloved for a little while,
To have walked hand in hand with Love, and seen
His purple wings flit once across thy smile.

Ay! though the gorged asp of passion feed
On my boy's heart, yet have I burst the bars,
Stood face to face with Beauty, known indeed
The Love which moves the Sun and all the stars!"
Excert from poem: "Apologia"

Anyhoo...I just really liked those pieces, I think he captures the beauty and pain of love so well...Better to have loved, then never loved at all....But, it is hard I find to see the sense in it at times, I mean it can be so amazing and then go so horribly wrong and seem so unfair. But I think we are privaledged to have lived those moments, and to have felt that way, even if it did not last... Our memories are precious despite the pain they may cause. Because in time the pain will wear off, and we will be left to reflect only on the pure unadultered beauty of those moments that we chanced to live...Those memories are ours alone, proof that we did not fail to risk it all for that chance to truly come alive, to taste life, to feel so deeply that it left us in helpless awe...That is a beautiful reality I think. Even if it hurts like hell and seems useless now... ]]> ~EsTur http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/4081978/ http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/4081978/ Thu, 16 Dec 2004 16:04:49 PST Esther ]]> ~EsTur http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/4069720/ http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/4069720/ Tue, 14 Dec 2004 22:25:51 PST
"I'm kicking out fiercely at the world around me...What went wrong? I'm kicking....."

Not relevant for me...but man it could get me in the mood quickly...Oh boy...moving on...
Life is good, a little flawed in sections of my brain, but when isn't it? I'm trusting that God knows what's going on, cuz I dont...
But he is so faithful...Hold on to that a l w a y s . . .
Well I got a skirt and crap for our school Christmas banquet tomorrow...Which is great since usually I wouldn't have found a freaking thing (I am dress challenged...really). But I did.
So, yay for moi and moving on...
God Bless...And have a stellar day!!!
Esther ]]> ~EsTur http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/4045986/ http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/4045986/ Sat, 11 Dec 2004 22:19:48 PST It went surprisingly well, cuz I was a tad nervous, being so new and all(Saturdays are quite crazyand busy)...But I am getting the hang of the Ol' cash register, and I'll be a pro in no time. Not that I have choice, it is the Christmas season...You HAVE to learn fast...Madness. Us poor trainees, some people must think we are complete idiots, but meh, they can deal with it (as we void their receipts and loose their change...Good times). Its all good...But, dear lord...This one old lady freaking reeeeeeeked! Lets just say she's got waaaay too many cats, and God knows what else living in her trailer. Old people are funny... Well, remember to be extra nice to the next fumbling cashier you come across this Christmas season(patience is key...), for my sake and the good of all man kind... Have a good one!
God Bless Ya'll
Esther
P.s....Today was a gorgeous day....The weather was perfection...Hmmmmm.... ]]> ~EsTur http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/4012974/ http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/4012974/ Tue, 07 Dec 2004 17:00:45 PST !!! Its disturbing my peace of mind and love of normal warm waether....DIE SNOW DIE!!!
Who the heck came up with this lame excuse for a season anyway? Oh deary me...I'd better leave before all the snowboarders stone me ....Naw..It's not so bad I guess...Just too cold and far too wet to be of much use to me, but I guess its nice to look at..Nice and, er...white...(no kidding). Well, before I get too profound I'll leave this madness and seek saner pastures...mooo
See ya and God Bless
Be Good...Or guess who's gonna screw santa's benevolence? You, silly...
Esther ]]> ~EsTur http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/3981474/ http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/3981474/ Fri, 03 Dec 2004 16:40:06 PST are amazing...Sniff*

Iris

And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
And sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yhea you bleed just to know you're alive

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am...

Esther
GodBless
P.S....Hope all is well with ya'll, I'm good and school is whatever, its just school...Life is fairly decent and I am doing quite swelly(not a word...now it is!)...Anyhoo, drop me a line if you feel so inclined....Word~
Keep it real ]]> ~EsTur http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/3942097/ http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/3942097/ Sun, 28 Nov 2004 18:42:17 PST
"Who's To Say"

Stand up straight
Do your trick
Turn on the stars
Jupiter shines so bright
When you're around to tell us slow down,
We're too young you need to grow
The speed's the key
And they don't know who we are

And who's to say that we're not good enough?
And who's to say that this is not our love?

Mother don't tell me friends are the ones that I lose
'Cause they'd bleed before you
And sometimes family are the ones you'd choose
It's too late now
I hold on to this life I found

And who's to say we won't burn it out?
And who's to say we wont sink in doubt?
Who's to say that we wont fade today?
Who are they anyway? Anyway they don't know

And you say we're too young, but maybe you're too old to remember
And I try to pretend but I just feel it when we're together
And if you don't believe me, you never really knew us
You never really knew

You and I, packin' up my room, we feel alright
But we're not well consumed
We'll be drivin', 'cause they don't know who we are
Who's to say we won't stay together?
Who's to say we aren't getting stronger?
Who's to say I can't live without you?
Who are they anyway? Anyway they don't know

And you say we're too young, but maybe you're too old to remember
And I try to pretend, but I just feel it when we're together
Who is to say?
And who is to say?
And who are they anyway?

Stand up boy, I shine so bright when you're around

God Bless
Esther ]]> ~EsTur http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/3918560/ http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/3918560/ Thu, 25 Nov 2004 17:00:34 PST One question...What song would you play at your funeral?
And....Would you date yourself?

A nice song quote to end this...

"What you feel is what you are, and what you are is beautiful..."
- GooGoo Dolls "Slide"
(love that song)
Well...God Bless and stay out of trouble
:hugs: ]]> ~EsTur http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/3888518/ http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/3888518/ Sun, 21 Nov 2004 20:39:19 PST Thankyou all....Good times here, it has been a royal slice. So School is upon us again (school is the PANTS, lol)...Anyone for a little teacher mutiny? I says yes to that proposal, give em' a little of thier own medicine! KILL THEM ALL!!!...Wow, calming down now....Not all of them deserve to die, just the majority...
My fingers are so dyslexic on a keyboard, they are so challeged...I need to go on a finger diet, I think they are too fat...Finger Atkins here we come! Stupid dodgy fat fingers...
See yall
God Bless
:Hug: ]]> ~EsTur http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/3873021/ http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/3873021/ Fri, 19 Nov 2004 17:24:21 PST Oh man....gotta love Will Farrell, yes...funny stuff.
Anyway, I think I passed my math retest today, horray for me(dear Lord, test score was a good ol' 20%, can you say F-A-I-L?)!!! Woot...So, its friday, again, and I was thinking gee, this week went by quite quickly, but while I was in it, it seemed to drag on and on...wierd sensation...
On another note, there is this strange mold growing in my shower, and this horrifying thought came to me..."Gracious me, do you think it's contagious*gasp*?" Hey, you never know...

Word....and God Bless
Esther the Fester Molester....

P.s....And yes, seahorses ARE mammals... ]]> ~EsTur http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/3837514/ http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/3837514/ Sun, 14 Nov 2004 22:55:39 PST The Jews sure have a crazy legacy...Holy crap! The Holocaust was so insane...Then Saturday April went home...sniff*
I went to Emily's house (~istarwyn) and we saw "Mean Girls" It was pretty funny...Anyway....Slept in this morning, tried in vain to do some poetry for our anthology due on Thirsday, but didn't get much done(I skipped church, I was so tired) which was stupid...I think I'm done with this boring account...blah blah....School tomorrow....Oh joy and severe excitement..I can't wait... ]]> ~EsTur http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/3803957/ http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/3803957/ Wed, 10 Nov 2004 18:01:45 PST
|| You ||

name = Esther Joy St.John (said "Sinjin")
piercings = Four, my ears...
tattoos = nope
height= A nice hobbity size, 5"3
shoe size = Uhhh....like 8 womens
hair color = Brown
siblings = Three brothers...yes, *sniff* I am all alone...
braces? = nope
glasses? = nope
do you have any pets? = A fat beagle named Chloe, she is such a geek!
what upsets you? = Regrets, my own stupidity, and that sad way that kids throw themselves away...it breaks my heart.

|| Do... ||

you wish you could live somewhere else = Uhhh, no I think I love Salmon Arm, maybe some day though...
you think about suicide = Nope, I get melancholy quite often(especially recently) but not suicidal...I love life too much, its so beautiful and there is so much to live for...
you believe in online dating = Hmmm...I dunno, I guess it works for a select few.
others find you attractive = Its been suggested by some....meh...I'm pretty average.
you want more piercings = maybe my nose (I had it done before) again someday, and some more in my ears.

|| For or Against ||

long distance relationships = Uhhh, thay are really hard, but if its right then yes, I do....
using someone = Depends what they can get you...lol, no I don't.
suicide = against
killing people = always against
teenage smoking = stupid and trashy
driving drunk = totally stupid
gay/lesbian relationships = against, I don't believe that it is Gods plan for marriage. I think they should be respected as individuals and I do not agree with shunning them. We are called to love everyone despite our differences. But, I dont agree with the gay lifestyle.


|| Do you think you're... ||

pretty = sure
funny = most of the time, I find myself quite amusing and others seem to think so.
hot = no not hot, I am delightfully average and I am glad for it!
friendly = I have an introveted tendancies, but I am usually quite outgoing.
amusing = its been suggested, yes, I think so...
ugly = nope, not perfect, but I like how I look for the most part.
loveable = At times, I suppose I could be...
caring = not enough

|| Number... ||

of times I have been in love? = Not sure if I have been fully, yet...
of girls I have kissed? = none
of boys I have kissed? = only 1 that I count.
of girls I've slept with? = none
of boys I've slept with? = none, not till I'm married and found my soul mate....That will be the day!
|| Have you ever... ||

said "I love you" and meant it? = Yup
gone out in public in your pajamas? = Heck ya, I love pajamas!
kept a secret from everyone? = Ya
cried during a movie? = Ya, I get really moved my movies that are genuine and that I can relate to...*sniff*
been on stage? = Oh the glorius stage! Yes I have...
been to another country? Yup, GB, Scotland,Spain, Morocco, Dominican Republic, and some parts of the U.S.
wished you were the opposite sex? = Ya...Not many times, but girls get all the crap (girls you know what I mean...arrrgggg) and pain....
apples or bananas? = depends
spring or fall? = Maybe fall, but both have their appeals to me.

|| Other Info ||

criminal record? = nope
do you speak any other languages? = No, I'm still mastering the English language...
name some of your favorite things in your bedroom = My music(hmmmm, I need it!), my bed(I adore sleep), my Blink poster and my art on the walls(exresses me), my antique stuff(I love old crap), my lamp, my journal and books on my nightstand...and well the whole thing, I love my room...! ]]> ~EsTur http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/3796904/ http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/3796904/ Tue, 09 Nov 2004 19:49:15 PST Check out the poem by our fellow deviant *thetwilight*
I love these lines in it...

Get out, Break Out, Do it loud, Do It Hard
Just do it, because you're off the leash
Allowed to live, for only these few hours
For only these few minutes.

And a song quote to finish off this ranting:

"I saw this field that grew perfection, full of things you do..."
-BOXCARRACER "watch the world"
(I love boxcarracer....hmmmmm)

Now let the madness of today commence, and don't fight the voices, they'll only get louder....lol, no...I'm serious, trust me...
God Bless ]]> ~EsTur http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/3796890/ http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/3796890/ Tue, 09 Nov 2004 19:48:04 PST Check out the poem by our fellow deviant *thetwilight*
I love these lines in it...

Get out, Break Out, Do it loud, Do It Hard
Just do it, because you're off the leash
Allowed to live, for only these few hours
For only these few minutes.

And a song quote to finish off this ranting:

"I saw this field that grew perfection, full of things you do..."
-BOXCARRACER "watch the world"
(I love boxcarracer....hmmmmm)

Now let the madness of today commence, and don't fight the voices, they'll only get louder....lol, no...I'm serious, trust me... ]]> ~EsTur http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/3757260/ http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/3757260/ Fri, 05 Nov 2004 01:41:36 PST
"The most important things is life are the hardest to say, because words diminish them..."

"Speech destroys the functions of love..."

I guess I love then though, because its so true...Words are often so clumbsy and they can really get in the way. They come out wrong, or they misrepresent our true feelings. Feelings were never made to be confined or limited to something so simple or so structured as words...Feelings are so much more than that and sometimes all we can do is sit in awed silence, because words would ruin the moment.
Anyway, just a thought...Drop me a line and let me know whats happening!
God Bless
Esther ]]> ~EsTur http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/3746213/ http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/3746213/ Wed, 03 Nov 2004 17:54:16 PST ~EsTur http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/3738094/ http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/3738094/ Tue, 02 Nov 2004 21:20:28 PST God Bless despite it all ]]> ~EsTur http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/3725013/ http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/3725013/ Mon, 01 Nov 2004 13:39:23 PST It's monday, the worst day of the week, since it means we are shoved back into school(arrrgggg!). But I am so stoked about our 4-day weekend coming up....YESSSSS!!!! So, I hope all is swell and happening with ya'll! God Bless and drop me a line...or just tell me something really random about your day, that'd be amusing indeed!
See ya ]]> ~EsTur http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/3710431/ http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/3710431/ Sat, 30 Oct 2004 17:52:28 PDT God Bless ]]> ~EsTur http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/3698477/ http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/3698477/ Fri, 29 Oct 2004 00:06:09 PDT "I Caught Fire"
"Lunacy Fringe"
Really good songs....Give it a listen k?
God Bless and drop me a line! ]]> ~EsTur http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/3639103/ http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/3639103/ Thu, 21 Oct 2004 00:24:42 PDT x. I WANT: YOU!
I HAVE: A short attention span....
x. I WISH: I could fly
I HATE: Math Class.....arrrggg
I MISS:Well, normality in my brain...although, this wierdness does produce some amazing results!
x. I FEAR: Fear....needles, seaweed, spiders(I am such a girl)...
x. I HEAR: the hienous sounds of my younger sibling spawns...
x. I WONDER: When this stops and I begin
I LOVE: stuff....come on, thats a bit too broad!
x. I AM NOT: Gay....No offense if that sounds rude, I'm just not, peace to ya"ll!
x. I DANCE: in my head
x. I SING: whenever I like
x. I CRY: when I remember...
x. I WRITEoetry
x. I WIN: When you loose
x. I LOSE: RISK (the game silly)
x. I GET CONFUSED: Alot
x. I NEED: To trust God more..
x. I SHOULD: Try harder in school(who does that?)
x. Father thinks: I'm disturbed
x. Mother thinks: The same
x. Boyfriends thinks: ummm, no longer....probably that I was and am a jerk
x. Makes you happy: little things...simple pleasures(my philosophy book..he he), writing poetry, drawing stuff that's in my head, tea...
x. Upsets you:Remebering and regretting
x. NATURAL HAIR COLOR: Brown
EYE COLOR: Blue/Green
PARENTS: Are cool enough
x. SIBLINGS: Arent cool enough
x. LIVE WITH: my fam
You keep a diary: Um....I call it a journal, but ya I guess so
x. You like to cook: Ya...when I'm into it, omelettes (is that how its spelt..?) and stuff...
x. You have a secret you have not shared with anyone: Umm....maybe, I think so
x. You're in love: No, DOWN WITH LOVE! I'll be ready when the time is right...
x. You set ur watch: don't got one at the mo
x. You bite your fingernails: oh yeah...to nubins, he he...
x. You believe in love: For sure, its what makes the world go around...
x. The wierdest person u know: Emily, and myself....And April, yes definately April!
x. Loudest person u know: April, Britt and Emily...Oh and Taniss (stop the madness!)
x. Your close friends: April and Em, and Jess ( Rob was...and still is I hope)
x. The person that knows the most about you: April I think (Rob knows me quite well too)
x. Your crush: none as of now
x. Most boring teacher: Well, Mr. Demeter (Bible class...God help us all!)
WhAt iS...?
x. Your most overusued phrase: um....maybe...I dunno
x. The last thought or image u go to sleep with: That depends...he he, never mind.
x. A chuck: is a chunky chick, and what you do when you hurl on someone
x. The thing you hate most: Lotsa stuff, our superficial society for instance...
Do YoU...
x. Take a shower everyday: nope, every second day...I'm so daring
x. HAVE A CRUSH?: no, we went over this
x. Think or know you've been in love: I dunno, I thought so...
x. Have any tattoos: nope
x. Peircings: ya, 4
x. Get motion sickness: sometimes, if I read in the car
x. Think ur a health freak: nope, I like food personally
x. Get along with ur parent(s): sure, most days
x. Like thunderstorms: Ya, they're sweet
x. Like rollercoasters:Ya, fun
YoU tHinK oF _____ wHeN yOu sEe tHiS naMe..
x. Ryan: Jess's Brothers friend
x. Rob: my old bf...*sniff*
x. Stephanie: Step, Stephanie siemens(giggles, great last name eh?)
x. Heather:Some chick that went to my old youthgroup
x. Will: Will Calvert...intersting guy
x. Paul: Pauly! Paul Voll, the guy I like loved for like 4 years
x. John: Ewwww....
x. Laura: some girl I knew in grade 2 I think...
x. Alex: The wigger...."Lets do a battle rap..." oh shut up Alex!
x. Dave: Numan...Ya dave!
x. Justin: Riemer
x. Ricky: My cousin!
x. Jacob: Another person from my old youthgroup...Or the guy from the Bible
x.: Jack: Black
= FaVoRiteS! =
x. NUMBER: uhhh...7?
x. COLOR: Red, blue, green...
x. DAY: Friday!!!!
x. MONTH: Either like June, or October(Birthday)
x. SONG: right now...White houses, by Vanessa Carlton, and that song by AFI, Girl to grey, I think...
x. RELATIVE: my English cousins..so funny...
x. FOOD:chicken, cheescake...
x. SPORT: that one where you don't go faster than a walk...oh ya, walking! Badminton is fun, and volleyball I guess...I dont really do the "sport" thing...except on occasion.
x. to play: Beyond Balderdash!!!!
x. DRINK: Nestea, and tea
= PrEfeReNceS: =
x. CUDDLE OR MAKE OUT? Cuddle....hmmmmm, then makeout...
x. MILK, DARK, OR WHITE CHOCOLATE? Milk choc
x. VANILLA OR CHOCOLATE? Chocolate!... ]]> ~EsTur http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/3631192/ http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/3631192/ Tue, 19 Oct 2004 23:23:57 PDT God Bless to yall ]]> ~EsTur http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/3596114/ http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/3596114/ Fri, 15 Oct 2004 12:49:43 PDT ~EsTur http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/3569663/ http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/3569663/ Mon, 11 Oct 2004 22:55:55 PDT ~EsTur http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/3515512/ http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/3515512/ Mon, 04 Oct 2004 23:34:33 PDT God Bless ]]> ~EsTur http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/3513455/ http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/3513455/ Mon, 04 Oct 2004 18:17:05 PDT So give me a shout if you like, I'd love to hear from you all!
God Bless and enjoy today! ]]> ~EsTur http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/3432279/ http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/3432279/ Thu, 23 Sep 2004 20:51:55 PDT God Bless ]]> ~EsTur http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/3356095/ http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/3356095/ Mon, 13 Sep 2004 16:18:59 PDT God Bless ]]> ~EsTur http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/3329333/ http://EsTur.deviantart.com/journal/3329333/ Fri, 10 Sep 2004 01:03:42 PDT
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God Bless ]]> ~EsTur