http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:Estradoll&section=today deviantART RSS for by:Estradoll en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Thu, 17 Dec 2009 17:50:55 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/27418117/ http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/27418117/ Fri, 25 Sep 2009 21:11:13 PDT I've been gone for a while...
I kinda fell in a hole and just crawled out....sorta I'm still working on it
I'm a really busy person so don't expect too much outta me...
Hah, I uhhh had allot of messages and whatnot...So I really didn't get through it.
I want to delete a buncha crap and edit my page. But don't have the time...
I'm going in a way different direction then I originated,
I can't be on everyday but I promise I'll do a little something something.

]]> ~Estradoll http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/25178363/ http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/25178363/ Sun, 07 Jun 2009 11:50:26 PDT I need to keep up with what's going on...
I'm sooo Sorry Life's been hard it still is but it's normalizing I hope
I anticipate for Summer
I got a new sketchboook and I haven't bothered fenagling with it and my scanner yet ughhh
So I'll try and get work up If not Soon then fer sure after the 18th er soo
--
Over all I feel: Flabergasted
My main pain is: My Neck
Last Night I was: Watching Disney Movies
I hope I can: Relax
I'm happy about: Yesterday Morning
I'm sad about: Fighting Again and Again
I'm irate about: I'm fine but you say I'm different
I worry about: Come What May...
I want to go: Get Some Tattoos
I'm gonna go: Shower and Shizz
Quote of the Day: I tried Nos last Night *falls over*

]]> ~Estradoll http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/24567058/ http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/24567058/ Sun, 03 May 2009 13:39:04 PDT Lotsah shit to filter through
Sorry I didn't read anybody's journals tooo much to read right now...
So If anything's new I missed lemme know!
Allot's been happening with me Lately
Dance Ensemble Auditions For One
Secondly My Birthday
Thirdly the Possibility of Something Big Changing My Life
Fourthly Finishing The School YEar
Fifthly PRom
Sixthly Moving
Like I said Lotsah Shit
I need to start drawing this week
I posted a few pics to subside your art desire
haha
<333 You All
--
Over all I feel: Exhausted
My main pain is: My Dancing Muscles
Last Night I was: Talking to Patzsch
I hope I can: Relax
I'm happy about: Friday
I'm sad about:Nothing Really
I'm irate about:NOthing I can think of
I worry about: That something that can chenge allot
I want to go: get Ice CreAM
I'm gonna go: Check Myspace
Quote of the Day: "I'm going to Hot Topic, I don't own any Goth kid Clothes"

]]> ~Estradoll http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/23768461/ http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/23768461/ Wed, 18 Mar 2009 17:47:07 PDT Lotsah Reasons why
It's making me exhausted
NEgative Inspiration Brewing
Great IDea's
SAd Story Behind it
Work to Come
Expect it
--
Over all I feel:Wiped
My main pain is:Still No comment...
Last Night I was:Nowhere important
I hope I can:Fix This
I'm happy about:This Weekend..
I'm sad about:Stuff...
I'm irate about: Hairrr.....I think I'll shave it off
I'm mad aboutenis Magnet....
I worry about: Everything
I want to go: Sleep
I'm gonna go: Do House Work
Quote of the Day:All You need to do is lay off

]]> ~Estradoll http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/23575620/ http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/23575620/ Sat, 07 Mar 2009 13:53:11 PST Losing Him
Losing Her
Losing Weight
Losing Blood (donated blood dummies)
Losing at Life
--
Over all I feel:Sadness
My main pain is:No comment...
Last Night I was:Crying in My Bed
I hope I can: Win Him Back
I'm happy about:Junk Food Binge Shortly
I'm sad about:Him lying to Me...
I'm irate about: Hairrr.....I think I'll shave it off
I'm mad about: All These Happy Couple Shizz
I worry about: Everything
I want to go: Sleep
I'm gonna go: Watch Eternal Sunshine and Eat Junk Food
Quote of the Day: I Just Haven't gotten there yet

]]> ~Estradoll http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/23199430/ http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/23199430/ Sat, 14 Feb 2009 15:48:04 PST Singles
Awareness
Day
*sings*
If you're single and you know it raise your hand
*raises hand*
If you're single and you know it and you really want to show it raise your hand
*raises hand*
Damn Superficial Holiday
hahaha
I'm going to a party later and am debting if I want to wear my chucks with my hott pink dress

<33 You
--
Over all I feel:Just okay
My main pain is: Hips...
Last Night I was:Laughing in Brock's car
I hope I can: Go get my Combat boots STILL dammit!!
I'm happy about:Shopping FInnnnnnaaallllyyy!!!!Tommorrow..
I'm sad about: today...
I'm irate about: Hairrr.....I think I'll shave it off
I'm mad about: Patzsch hanging out with not me
I worry about: Monday
I want to go: Eat some Ice Cream
I'm gonna go: Shower Soon
Quote of the Day: Augusting we need more swoosh....nono no more!!!

]]> ~Estradoll http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/22894481/ http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/22894481/ Thu, 29 Jan 2009 21:07:14 PST Dammit
I'm too lazy to do homework
I'll just do it later when I can't sleep
And my phone is dead-ish
Needs charging I'm glad I got off when I did
twas in thee REd Zone
I'll put up my promised need to do Zombie work, just because....
I need to go shopping Need to buy...
+REpo
+combat boots
+Green Shorts
+Undies (hehee )
yupppp
--
Over all I feel: Giggly and Happy
My main pain is: Hips...
Last Night I was: Talking to Brandon
I hope I can: Go get my Combat boots still dammit!!
I'm happy about: Hanging Out With Patzsch tomorrow
I'm sad about: Jacob signing my bag today
I'm irate about: Hairrr.....I think I'll shave it off
I'm mad about: Lips hurt
I worry about: What Brandon is going to think....
I want to go: Make Cookies
I'm gonna go: Shower
Quote of the Day: *gigglesblush* Ohhh mahhhh hahahahaha

]]> ~Estradoll http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/22630250/ http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/22630250/ Sat, 17 Jan 2009 09:39:41 PST And Tank Top and Pillow Pants Weather
I just rolled outta bed and I'm sitting at my computer pondering what adventure I'm going to have today.
I'm waiting for my tea to brew...
I really want to draw, but I DON"T KNOW WHAT??
Gahhh....
Lamers
Maybe after some huge adventure with my typical boys I'll have something fun to share....
--
Over all I feel: A Little Sore
My main pain is: My back,,,
Last Night I was: Talking to Ian
I hope I can: Go get my Combat boots dammit!!
I'm happy about: GEtting to have Some Free Time
I'm sad about: The two Bug bites I have
I'm irate about: IAN!
I'm mad about: My Mom....Presents halala
I worry about: FINALS!!! *runs*
I want to go: Sleep
I'm gonna go: Get Ready for the DAy
Quote of the Day: STop Teasing me...Oh Baby

]]> ~Estradoll http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/21989234/ http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/21989234/ Sun, 14 Dec 2008 22:04:17 PST I feel like my life is lagging
I'm happy about someone spaecial in my life
He's taking me to Disneyland on Friday!!!
I drew him a picture
He loves it...
(pshhh okay a few)
*giggles*
I'm missing my mom, james, brady, tori, jacob, my one and only who I refuse to talk to for too long.
Ehh yeah
STep mom is a bitch!!!!
Yeah I have art to post will doo soon
I need tah sleep tho,,,
Kayyyy
NIGHT
<333
--
Over all I feel: Happy
My main pain is: My eyes they're sleepy
Last Night I was: dreaming
I hope I can: See you in the morning
I'm happy about: Patzsch
I'm sad about: what I want to do
I'm irate aboutain/Missing/Misery
I want to go: Sleep
I'm gonna go: Talk to him some more :3
Quote of the Day:STOP MY CHEEKS ARE ON FIRE!!!!

]]> ~Estradoll http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/21636897/ http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/21636897/ Sun, 23 Nov 2008 18:47:44 PST Im in a standstill with art
I'm not sure what to draw
I have a few concepts, but they aren't panning out...
Any ideas would be FAbooo!!!!
PS I AM HAPPY!!!!!!
--
Over all I feel: Happy Duh
My main pain is: Legs
Last Night I was: Sleeping
I hope I can: See Brady again
I'm happy about: School
I'm sad about: what I did
I'm irate about: Homework/dad/grades
I want to go: get some soda
I'm gonna go: do Homework
Quote of the Day: It is such a flipping happy DAY!!!

]]> ~Estradoll http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/21473721/ http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/21473721/ Thu, 13 Nov 2008 17:32:48 PST I shouldn't have responded
I've worked so damn hard for my happyness
and what do I get
That sad apathetic empty feeling
of regret....
Damn you Nestor!!!!!
I'm considering reverting back to old ways....
:{
I dunno
--
Over all I feel: Depressed
My main pain is: My heart
Last Night I was: Doing Homework
I hope I can: Get Happy
I'm happy about: TDK tom....
I'm sad about: Jacob...
I'm irate about: Feeling Fat again
I want to go: murder something
I'm gonna go: Cry some more
Quote of the Day: BLAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

]]> ~Estradoll http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/21323289/ http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/21323289/ Tue, 04 Nov 2008 17:46:29 PST I didn't take any Halloween Pictures......*rawr*
I'm sooo Sorry
Twas an Epic night
A few mishaps happened but Gah
And the thing is,,,
I can't go and take pictures....becus
I Cut my Hair....
Short.....
Like Josie from Josie and the Pussycats the Movie....lalala
twas what I was going for anyway, but I appologize....
I'll post pictures of my new hair...:]
But yeah....
I edited a few Pictures....
Sweeney, Jack, LSB, After Corruption....yadayada....
Kurtis Sux!!!
hahahajk
Um...I'll post a few more soon I just need to color!!
Ahhh...which I'll do tom...
yeah
Hope all is well
--
Over all I feel: Happy
My main pain is: My Legs....bruised,cut, ect
Last Night I was: Falling asleep reading
I hope I can: Get Courage
I'm happy about: Copy Room tom..
I'm sad about: Series of Sad Events
I'm irate about: Needing to do Laundry
I want to go: make Koolaid
I'm gonna go: Wait
Quote of the Day: I get alittle to excited, because I think it's you

]]> ~Estradoll http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/21022263/ http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/21022263/ Thu, 16 Oct 2008 19:13:51 PDT Aside from being constantly ridiculed or ignored daily.....
I am MAd at people....
A few to be specific
One who was my friend, and another....who I'm not sure what
But...
I am mad
On the plus side I am in love....
HUGE bigger then huge
Ginormously huge!!!!
So....nyeeaaahhh

Okay sorry I needed to get that out, but I just did
My costumes are done....
Will post joker pix soon
when I'm not lazy
or busy
I have had absolutely no time to draw....
IT SUX!!!
I promise I'll put stuff up just give me time..
<333
--
Over all I feel: Pissed and Happy
My main pain is: My Lips...chapped gah
Last Night I was: Falling asleep everywhere
I hope I can: Get someone to stop ignoring me
I'm happy about: MURPHY!!!!!!!!
I'm sad about: Being Broke...
I'm irate about:Grrrr....person
I want to go: Swimming
I'm gonna go: Do Homework
Quote of the Day: Please Dont Ignore me cus You know I adore you..

]]> ~Estradoll http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/20690827/ http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/20690827/ Fri, 26 Sep 2008 16:55:20 PDT Some things have worked themselves out...
Others haven't...
Which makes me Mad...But not too mad
Well at one person...at my school for simply being a Dickface
Ditching me standing me up in a way and showing up later with some fat slutty ho bag...
Anyway Kayleigh and I are buddys we have BAMFly Batman Rings....I know....
Jacob is another Story
*Slightly pukes a little*
Curtis is such my buddy right now....
And RJ hahahhaha.....
Well Yes.

Expect some pictures and poetry left I have loads of Ideas....

Some I need to finnish and have been putting off...
Hopefully I'll Finnish Mrs Lovett
--
Over all I feel: Pissed and Happy
My main pain is: My Stomach...gah
Last Night I was: gonna do something aweful
I hope I can: FIx my curent pain in the Ass
I'm happy about: TEA DONE!!!!
I'm sad about: Being Broke...
I'm irate about: JACOB!!!! GRRRRR
I want to go: Shower
I'm gonna go: GEt My Tea
Quote of the Day: We're just dancing, we're just hugging,Singing, screaming, kissing, tugging...On the sleeve of how it used to be

I support Anorexia!!!!
Less Then 105 and Losing.....

]]> ~Estradoll http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/20509750/ http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/20509750/ Mon, 15 Sep 2008 17:05:26 PDT some care some don't
some care don't show it
some don't care but show it
--
Over all I feel: Sad
My main pain is: My Stomach Bitches!!!
Last Night I was: Crying
I hope I can: Mend this Broken-ness
I'm happy about:....
I'm sad about: Life at the Moment
I'm irate about: The Truth
I want to go: Do what I ought not Do....
I'm gonna go: Drink some Diet Coke
Quote of the Day: You know you truly love someone when you can't have them leave

I support Anorexia!!!!
Less Then 110 and Losing.....

]]> ~Estradoll http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/20443991/ http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/20443991/ Thu, 11 Sep 2008 18:10:30 PDT Love leaves you lost Dizzy and Confused
Just when you think you're happy Life "sewages on you"
I just want to sock someone....
Which isn't like me
I'm not Me Anymore...
I'm Changing...
I'm Fading
Away...
Maybe it's Better
Then having a Broken Heart
--
Over all I feel: Sad
My main pain is: My Stomach Bitches!!!
Last Night I was: Sleeping Well
I hope I can: Figure Out What to Do
I'm happy about:....
I'm sad about: Life at the Moment
I'm irate about: Myself....I SUCK!!!!
I want to go: Do what I ought not Do....
I'm gonna go: Draw My foot and Cry
Quote of the Day: I haven't Been Me for A While....

I support Anorexia!!!!
110 and Losing.....

]]> ~Estradoll http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/20426899/ http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/20426899/ Wed, 10 Sep 2008 17:07:52 PDT
♥To every guy that said, "You're beautiful"

♥To every guy that was never too busy to drive across town to see her

♥To every guy that gives her flowers and a card when she is sick or down.

♥To every guy who has given her flowers just because thats how he rolls

♥To every guy that said he would die for her.

♥To every guy that really would.

♥To every guy that did what she wanted to die for

♥To every guy that cried in front of her...

♥To every guy that she cried in front of...

♥To every guy that holds hands with her.

♥To every guy that kisses her with meaning..

♥To every guy that hugs her when she's sad.

♥To every guy that hugs her for no reason at all.

♥To every guy who would give their jacket up for her.

♥To every guy that calls to make sure she got home safe.

♥To every guy that would sit and wait for her for hours just to
see her for ten minutes

♥To every guy that would give his seat up...

♥To every guy that just wants to cuddle.

♥To every guy that reassured her that she was beautiful no matter what.

♥To every guy who told his secrets to her.

♥To every guy that showed how much he cared through every word and every breath.

♥To every guy that thought maybe this could be the one.

♥To every guy that believed in her dreams.

♥To every guy that would have done anything so she could achieve them

♥To every guy that never laughed at her when she told him her dreams.

♥To every guy that walked her to her car and opened the door

♥To every guy that gave his heart.

♥To every guy who prays that she is happy even if you are not with her.

]]> ~Estradoll http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/20344392/ http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/20344392/ Fri, 05 Sep 2008 17:24:22 PDT GRrrrrrrrr
I'm so mad at him...
7:00 isn't getting here quick enough
I'm so mad...
But on the plus side I made Jacob Jealous....
HA HA HA HA Chyess....
I rock
Silly Boy gonna make you cry
Rice and Beans.....Burrito!!
Well school is okay...I suppose
--
Over all I feel: Angry Excited
My main pain is: my Feet
Last Night I was: Dancing
I hope I can: Lose Weight
I'm happy about: Tonight
I'm sad about: Jacob.....*sigh*
I'm irate about: DREW!!
I want to go: DANCE with somebody *winks*
I'm gonna go: Call Emily
Quote of the Day: Silly Boy gonna make you cry

PS: Homecoming is Batman Themed!! Wootness!

]]> ~Estradoll http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/20331031/ http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/20331031/ Thu, 04 Sep 2008 19:37:19 PDT
- Choose a singer/band/group

- Answer using ONLY titles of songs by that singer/band/group

Band: My Chemical Romance
1. Are you male or female?
Helena
2. Describe yourself
I’m Not Okay
3. What do people feel when they're around you?
Disenchanted
4. How would you describe your previous relationship
I Don’t Love You
5. Describe your current relationship
To the End
6. Where would you want to be now
Cemetery Drive
7. How do you feel about love
Romance
8. Whats your life like
Dead!
9. what would you ask for if you had only one wish
Heaven Help Us
10. say something wise
Give ‘em Hell Kid

]]> ~Estradoll http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/20314154/ http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/20314154/ Wed, 03 Sep 2008 19:10:16 PDT Be honest no matter what.

1. Who were your 3 latest emails from?
Jacob, My Mom, and Miranda

2. Where did you get your favorite pair of shoes from?
My Chucks...urrrmm Not sure

3. What's your middle name?
Victoria

4. What’s your fave number and why?
13....idk it just is

5. Does your crush like you back?
crush..HA

6. What is your current mood?
Happy dancing

7. What's your mom's name?
Christi

8. What color shirt are you wearing?
RED!!!

9. Would you kiss the last person you kissed?
who was that??

10. If you could go back in time and change something, would you?
allot of things...the time machine would break

11. Have a crazy side?
HA HA HO HEE HA HA

12. Ever had a near death experience?.
I AM ALWAYS HAVING A NEAR DEATH EXPERIENCE

13. What is something you do a lot?
Dance I love to dance

14. Angry at anyone?
YES!!! passionately

15. Do you wanna see somebody right now?
All too much.

16. Do you like drama?
LOVE!!!

17. When was the last time you cried?
A few day ago....I didn't want to leave

18. Who would you do anything for?
Hmmmm....Anyone

19. Who is your hero?
Kurt Cobain

20. What is the one thing you notice first with the opposite sex?
Kindness

22. What's your biggest secret?
I'm dating Joe Jonas...shhhhh don't tell anyone
HAHAHAHA JK

24. Would you ever take your latest ex back?
Jacob Jacob Jacob....
it's a touchy subject

25. Do you still watch kiddy movies or tv shows?
YESSSS!!!!
He he Brandon.

26. What are you eating or drinking at the moment
WATER!!

27. Do you speak any other languages?
Francais.
and Franglais

28. Whats your favorite smell?
Coffee

29. Describe your life.
NON STOP JAM PACKED CRAZY AND FUN!!!

30. Have you ever kissed in the rain?
Durrr..they es amazazing

31. Do you like the rain?
Does a pig like mud?

32. What are you thinking about right now?
Fucking Someone XP

33. What should you be doing right now?
Fixing my Scanner

34. What is your favorite memory?
Hehe at the moment running aross the freeway
NO JOKE...

35. What are you listening to?
MSI-Tornado

36. Who was the last person you told I love you ?
My Lover...

37. Who was the last person you yelled at?
My Brother

38. Do you act differently around the person you like?
Passionately maybe?

39. What is your natural hair color?
Dark Brown

40. Who was the last person to make you smile?
DRew..dork

]]> ~Estradoll http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/20298278/ http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/20298278/ Tue, 02 Sep 2008 20:26:04 PDT Let's throw a party
I'm so happy to be home...
But alas happiness must end with seeing Jacob's Punk ass face on thursday
So I'm enjoying th smell of a UA free 48 hours or so...piming my music
ick...NO!!!
But I'm Rocking out CHilling...breathing my last breaths of summer
Soon to taste...Fall
I'm looking forward to dead leaves...cold weather
Halloween!!!! eeeep...MY COSTUME
*frantically runs about*
It's Half done!!!!
Well yes, Christmas...mmmm i love it
--
Over all I feel: Calm
My main pain is: my back *grrr's at the stairs*
Last Night I was: Decorating my Walls more
I hope I can: Lose Weight
I'm happy about: Halloween
I'm sad about: Not going Shopping tonight
I'm irate about: School
I want to go: Sew
I'm gonna go: Get...WAter
Quote of the Day: YEah!!!! *happy dances and headbangs*!!!

PS: I'm making my Brothers Halloween Costumes too!! Possibly Mr T's
Two Face Harvey Dent- Jon
Scarecrow- Jacob
Joker/ Mrs Lovett- Olivia
Mr Todd- Drew

]]> ~Estradoll http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/20092397/ http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/20092397/ Fri, 22 Aug 2008 08:51:10 PDT I'm so ready and psyched for my Vacation Today!!!
Wooot!!
I gotta pack...*runs at the stairs*...ehh later
Anyway..School hasn't started...Oh Wow that was a big...okay shutting up Now
So...For all you fun people who want to know I went up 3 pant sizes in one month. My mom says it's healthy I'm eating more....I was repulsed..Oh well.
So I'm going to be gone..well not gone gone,....I'll check in every couple of days. I mean I'd love to take you all with me. but there isn't enough room for all of you and my family.
So I won't be submitting any Deviations til the 1st or so...Bummer right.
I'll post A journal or two. I'll let you know when I go Base Jumping before I do. In case I die.
I Love YOu all!!!
--
Over all I feel: EXCITED!!!
My main pain is: head
Last Night I was: Finishing My cards
I hope I can: Get my book before I leave
I'm happy about: VACATION!!!
I'm sad about: Leaving someone behind
I'm irate about: Being a 5
I want to go: Make coffee
I'm gonna go: WAsh my Hands
Quote of the Day: Oh...Excuse Me I Want to Drive!!!

]]> ~Estradoll http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/20005795/ http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/20005795/ Sun, 17 Aug 2008 14:08:01 PDT --
Over all I feel: Angry
My main pain is: My Butt
Last Night I was: Sleeping
I hope I can: get happy
I'm happy about: Disneyland
I'm sad about: My Mom's Birthday tom.
I'm irate about: HAte
I want to go: Sew my Skirt
I'm gonna go: Ride Coasters
Quote of the Day: I should be a hummingbird

]]> ~Estradoll http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/19948920/ http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/19948920/ Thu, 14 Aug 2008 08:48:36 PDT I'm happy.
Going to see my shrink today.
I'm feeling skinny..
In Love and Happy.
--
Over all I feel: Happy
My main pain is: Nowhere
Last Night I was: Sleeping
I hope I can: GO to Chipotle with MEghan
I'm happy about: EVERYTHING!!!
I'm sad about: Nothing
I'm irate about: Nothing
I want to go: Party on My Trampoline
I'm gonna go: Sing and Dance
Quote of the Day: I love you like a fat kid loves cake

PS.I can't wait to go base jumping

]]> ~Estradoll http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/19939340/ http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/19939340/ Wed, 13 Aug 2008 17:43:26 PDT I was supposed to go with Andrew. Now I'm just going alone
My mom Im'ed me and I thought she didn't care
I called Jacob and what do you know he's not there
I'm sitting here all alone feeling out of place and sad
--
Over all I feel: SAD
My main pain is: the place where my heart should be
Last Night I was: Sleeping
I hope I can: Be happy
I'm happy about:
I'm sad about: Everything
I'm irate about: Everything
I want to go: away
I'm gonna go: Cry
Quote of the Day: FUN! this isn't fun...

PS.I'm not happy I'm too lazy to change my thing

]]> ~Estradoll http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/19882216/ http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/19882216/ Sun, 10 Aug 2008 16:25:30 PDT *gets up and runs upstairs to my bedroom*
*looks on my desk and starts sing about gum*
*looks on dresser*
*finds gum*
GUM!
*gets package and picks at the clear wrapping*
Come On
*Grabs a straight pin and scratches at the wrapping*
That didn’t work
*looks at fingernails*
Why did I just cut you
*bites at wrapping and pulls*
YAY!
*Pulls at red stringy tab thing*
Aww Dammit
*drops two pieces of gum on the floor and picks them up*
Gum gum gum yummy gum (sings)
*places gum and package in jewelry box*
GUM!
*Unwraps piece of gum and plops it in my mouth*
*chews gum as I pick up the wrappings off the floor*
*chucks wrappings in the trash*
*leaves room*
*falls down the stairs*
Oww Crap
*gets up*
*sits in seat*
*Blows a huge bubble*
HA HA HA HA
*bubble pops in my face* ewwwww....
Lalala....*sits at computer and types*

So I have a swim meet to go to...Well it's no a meet it's a meet party. But errr I'm not going there'll be speedoh's everywhere and I do not want!!!
So chyess...technically I have one week of vacation left....oh sad beans. Wel not really...But I'm going on a vacation during my vacation!!!WOOTT Aren't I cool? Not so much but...anyway I'm going to Oregon... Getting out of this town!!! SO I must do something rad and amazing this week!!
If anyone has any ideas...tell me! Oooh and it can't be base jumping because I'm doing that in Oregon!!! I can't wait!
--
Over all I feel: Tortured
My main pain is: My Tummy
Last Night I was: Awake
I hope I can: See Andrew
I'm happy about: This Week
I'm sad about: My Brothers
I'm irate about: Jacob
I want to go: Skate
I'm gonna go: Play Guitar Hero
Quote of the Day: Torture is the only cruel Punishment

PS..Jacob called GUh....

]]> ~Estradoll http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/19850490/ http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/19850490/ Fri, 08 Aug 2008 18:21:16 PDT Well Graaaahhh!!!! It keeps happening to me...no matter who I call I get there VM
I must be diseased or even better cursed.
So this was the plan Andrew and I were going to go see a movie "eat" and then go swimmming!!
BAd Ass right? Nooooooo
Biggg stupid sexy hobo isn't picking up his phone.
I'm so mad...I ws goiing to tel him how my heart goes thump thump.
I'm MAD!!!
But I still love him...but I'm MAD!!!
Maybe I'll go to Jacob's kickback...JK...Hell NO!!
So I'm alone at home...
--
Over all I feel: Alone
My main pain is: My Tummy
Last Night I was: Awake
I hope I can: See Andrew
I'm happy about:
I'm sad about: Today
I'm irate about:
I want to go: Somewhere with Andrew
I'm gonna go: Cry
Quote of the Day: Friday I'm NOT in Love

]]> ~Estradoll http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/19804919/ http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/19804919/ Wed, 06 Aug 2008 08:37:13 PDT Well....not exactly. So I went to this one Orioles Vs Angels Game...ehhh Baseball...ehh So we walk to our section then as we're walking down the isle getting to our row...Who Do you think I saw?
COME ON GUESS! GUESS!! GUUUUUUEEEEEESSSSS WWWWWHHHHOOOOO????!!!!!
Ok Ok OK!! I Saw....ANDREW OH MY GAWD My HEart Jumped Outa my Chest and did Laps around the Baseball Diamond!!! I Swear I saw nim from the back of his head!!! I am so damn good!!! I ran over to the empty seat next to him and sat Down!! My Face was proabably so Red and my heart was beating so Damn Fast you'd have thought I just sprinted a Marathon!! I was so excited.. I put my hand on his hand...he loooked at me and I was so glad that his emotion was the same for me!!!
YYYYYYYYYYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!
*HArdcore Kid Happy DAnce* Woot Woot!!! *waves fists in the air*
Okay so he and I jumped up and hugged each other I was so fucking happy!!!! I pressed ever nch of me to him as possible. I love this Kid!!! So he sat down and was like ohh Wow Olivia out of all places to see you I wouldn't expect to see you here!! I was like ohh same here....Ohhh I'm so happy to see you I miss you so much!!!
He smiled at me and said same here...He's sucha a sweetie he wanted to buy me ice cream...and Ice Cream at an Angels Game is EXPENSIVE!! Even if I did eat i wouldn't eat at an Angels Game.
Ice CReam was like $5.75!!! WTF?? BUll Shit Right!! So in the 8th inning I was cold and he held me in his arms to keep him warm. LOL
*smiles and swivels in chair* So needless to say that made me forget about Jacob inviting me to his Kickback this weekend...BLAH
Ya...I know wtf? Right...Mmmm Come Over to my house, My parents will be out of town, We'll get drunk, and fuck....Ohh Haha ya lemme just come over right NOw...NOT!!!!
So Ya Hope your Wednesday is going Great so far!!
--
Over all I feel: Ohh so HAPPY!!!
My main pain is: My Tummy
Last Night I was: In Andrew's Arms
I hope I can: Go to Andrew's House
I'm happy about: ANDYDREW!!!!
I'm sad about: My Mom
I'm irate about: Jacob...being an ass
I want to: go: skate
I'm gonna go: Make More Coffee
MOOD: Happy Ohh so fucking Happy!!!

]]> ~Estradoll http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/19695932/ http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/19695932/ Sun, 03 Aug 2008 16:46:57 PDT I do tom.

Do you get along better with girls or guys?
Both

Do you hide your emotion?
I bottle it up inside

When was the last time you received flowers?
Well, My brother picks me daisy's does that count??

Who have you texted today?
Phone grounded durrr

Who was last person you got in an argument with?
JACOB....

Do you prefer to take showers at night or in the morning?
MOrning...or after soccer

When was the last time you had pizza?
mmm...well I know we had 3 boxes in our fridge

What do you wish you had right now at this moment?
It's more of a who....and Andrew

When was the last time you got really anxious?
uhhh...running into Jacob at the school

Worst relationship mistake you wish you could take back?
Uhh...dating Jacob Luls

Who are you more like your mother or your father?
Mother...natural born fuck up

Who is the last person you added to your contacts list in your phone?
idkkkkk....Nerissa

How many states in the US have you been to?
2 tops...or wait counting California??

How old do you think you will be when you finally have kids?
NEVAR!!!!

What was the last thing you cried about?
JAcob...Durr

If you could either float on the moon, or snorkel the ocean, which?
Float on de ocean

Do you think you'll be married in 5 years?
Hell NO

Who was the last person that called you?
ummm...Johnny Depp

Where were you on July 4th, 2008?
Lost

Do you plan on moving in the next year?
NO WAY!!!

What did you do last night?
READ....Frigging Vampires LOL

Is anyone mad at you?
Not that i know of

Does it matter to you if your boyfriend/girlfriend smokes?
Nooo

How long can you hold a handstand?
FOREVER....NOT

Third message in your inbox?
Batman Quiz thingy

Have you been to New York City?
I wish...with a peppermint fish

Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
Val, shrink lady

Do you think you have made a difference in anyone's life?
Everyones..Fer Sure

Do you remember the name of your first school you ever went to?
Moved too much can't think...err Remember

How many piercings do you have?
Have 2
Had 4 other than the 2

Do you want more?
Fux YA

Last time you laughed really hard?
CAn't Remember

When is your next road trip?
23 of Aug

Do you know anyone addicted to anything?
Me and the internet...and Everything..ie sex..JK

Where is your phone?
On the Pool TAble

Do you know anyone by the name of Lee?
Umm No...weird name

Where is your pet(s) right now?
OUTSIDE BAD DOG!!

What color phone do you have?
BLACK..like my coffee

Does a heartbreak feel as bad as it sounds?
WAY WAY WORSE!!!

What happened at 10 am?
Brother's fighting

Do you need to say anything to anyone?
ya to Jacob....FUCK YOOOOOOOUUUUU

What were you doing at 7am?
Waking up

How do you feel?
sick...diseased

What do you think of your number 3 on your top friends?
It's Kevin I think....Uhhh Whore JKJKJKJKJK

What is bothering you right now?
JACOB!!!!!

Have you ever injected a drug?
No...ickk

Any plans for this weekend?
BEACH PARTY

How was your friday night?
typical Friday

What about saturday?
okay...I think I stayed home

Kissed anyone?
Allot of someones

Unexpected visit?
You have no I dea

Miss anyone?
Oh Ya...ANDYDREW

Do you drink alcohol?
Sometimes

Who made you laugh last?
James

wear glasses?
Sunglasses

Who is the last person to text you?
Phone GROUNDED DURRR

What are you listening to?
HIM

When did you last see your mom?
REAL MOM March
Step mom 30 mins ago

What color are your nails?
Strawberry pink and black

Favorite place to be?
with friends

When is your birthday?
May 1st

How tall are you?
5' 4 ish

What time is it?
9:15

Anything bothering you right now?
JACOB/Headache

Do you untie your shoes every time you take them off?
Chucks...yes
Vans...Nope

When is the last time you showered?
After soccer

Do you like your life?
at the moment...NO

What did you last eat / drink... ]]> ~Estradoll http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/19670178/ http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/19670178/ Tue, 29 Jul 2008 21:25:23 PDT No One wants to Talk To Me
Jacob is there bugging me
I'm so sad...
*cries a little*
I'll be fine...Don't worry
--
Over all I feel: Depressed as hell...
My main pain is: My heart
Last Night I was: Drawing
I hope I can: Get some Ice Cream
I'm happy about:
I'm sad about: Being alone
I'm irate about: Jacob
I want to: Cry
I'm gonna go: Play more MCR
MOOD: SOooo alone

]]> ~Estradoll http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/19568844/ http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/19568844/ Thu, 24 Jul 2008 08:19:38 PDT
What is more difficult for you; looking into some one's eyes when you are telling someone how you feel, or looking into some one's eyes when they are telling you how they feel?
Always telling how i feel!!

Think of the last time you were REALLY angry?
When Jacob ate my Fruity Pebbles!!!

You are on a flight from Honolulu to Chicago non-stop. There is a fire in the back of the plane. You get enough time to call one person...who would it be?
Hmmm, I’d call…..Fuck It I’m jumping out the Plane, But that’s not the idea. I’d call to leave my dying breath with James fer sure!!!

You are at the doctor's office and she has just informed you that you have cancer, Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die?
I’d tell no-one….

What do you do with your remaining days?
Do all sorts of crazy things like jump off of buildings, kick Jacob’s Ass, Strip in the middle of a freeway. I dunno fun stuff like that..

Would you be afraid?
Not really, I’m not afraid to die. I think that to die would be an awefully great thing to do


You can have one of the following two things: trust/love?
Love….God knows I need it

You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street.
Save the doggie!!! Quick Fast like Lightening. Or Light? Either one.

Where would you want to go and live the rest of your life?
Mmmm good question. Prolly on a beach surfing the day away blaring music out of my VW Van.

Who's the last person who you knew that died?
Heath Ledger!! Or as we will always remember him, The Joker! HAHAHAHAHAHA! Why so Serious?

Are you the kind of friend that you would want to have as a friend?
I suppose so…I’d prolly get sick of me!

If one of your friends cheated on their boyfriend/girlfriend and you were friends with them too, would you tell them?
Eerrr….It’s sort of their business to say so, I’d still want them to be friends and I wouldn’t want me getting in their shit ending their friendship

Your best friend(s) dies, what would you do?
Already happened…Adam died when I was in 7th grade I was already upset then he goes and kills himself on me. Be emoer, wear even more eyeliner, and walk around in the rain crying, playing loud ass Music Forever!

When and how was the last time you told someone HONESTLY how you felt?
Uhhhh, I suppose Devyn last night. But I don’t even know all my problems

What would be harder, for you to tell someone you love them or that you do not love them back?
I’d say it’s harder to reject love then to accept it.

Have you ever lied to someone about your feelings?
It was for their own good. I didn’t need them worrying.

Excluding romantic love, when was the last time you told someone you loved them?
Yesterday, I told Devyn before I went to sleep.

If you had to go back in time and change one thing, what would you change?
My life…rolly meeting Jacob

Would you give a homeless person CPR if they were dying?
As long as I don’t contract some horrible disease, Everyone deserves to live
Even HObos

Are you old fashioned?
Not sure I understand the question..

Which would you choose, true love with a guarantee of a heart break or have never loved at all?
heartbreak every time...I already deal with it anyway so why not

Have you ever truly experienced love?
I thought I did….

Is there someone that you believe you will always be attached to?
I can think of 2 right now…one hasn’t even been a week and the others been for what feels like forever!!
--
Over all I feel: DIrty...
My main pain is: My eyeball
Last Night I was: Drawing
I hope I can: Tell Jacob I can't go
I'm happy about: Going Shopping
I'm sad about: My fugly looking ARM!!
I'm irate about: MY eye
I want to: Eat
I'm gonna go: Get some more peanut butter
MOOD: Joking.... :]

]]> ~Estradoll http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/19562794/ http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/19562794/ Wed, 23 Jul 2008 21:01:55 PDT I'm currently dreaingf other more importantly evil things. at the moment and No I will not post them!!! the'yre to horrid for your little ears. They'd make your ears bleed and you'd cry in aggony.

But I am pleased to report I have started on my Vampire story...unfortunately I'm not so sure how I want it to pann out. 'll hopefully have it posted by the end of the week.

And My Suicide ED lalala story is on halt too!! DAmn wRITERS BLOCK!!!

And If you'd like to telephone an Asshole to report that Olivia doesn't want to go to his Birthday Party Message me about it!!
I'm in dire need of courage.

My Love Life is a big figure 8 Right now going NOWHERE!!! BLah!!

I did a very good Joker imitation I wish you guys could have seen it. Amazing the things I'll do when I'm home alone. Like run around naked!! JK...or am I???
--
Over all I feel: SExy!!!
My main pain is: My thighs
Last Night I was: Singing horribly
--
Over all I feel: CRAZY!!
My main pain is: Where my heart should be
Last Night I was: Crying
I hope I can: Tell Jacob I can't go
I'm happy about: Going Shopping
I'm sad about: My fugly looking ARM!!
I'm irate about: SUn BURN!!!
I want to: Eat
I'm gonna go: Get something to drink
MOOD: Joking.... :]

]]> ~Estradoll http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/19514474/ http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/19514474/ Mon, 21 Jul 2008 08:49:48 PDT [x] I cry allot. (everyday inside or outside)
[x] I go to local shows.
[x] I wear black everyday (everyday something is)
[x] I write sad poetry.
[ ] I play an acoustic guitar. (DRUMMER! What crazy person are you??)
[x] My favorite bands include: Fall Out Boy, My Chemical Romance, or Panic! at the Disco. (sadly yes)
[x] I self mutilate myself. (jeesh hash words)
[x] I think about suicide or death often. (hmmmmm...)
[x] People have told me to cheer up.
[x] I cry when I see dead animals.
[x] My myspace pics are black are white or angled. (the one of Jew, Em, and me is...lol it's in a bathroom.)
[x] I wear many band shirts. (excessively)
[x] No one understands me.
[ ] I don't talk too often.
[ ] I look down when I walk.
[x] I wear black eyeliner. (hell yeah i do!!!)
[x] My fingernails are black.
[x] I have an ex I still cry over.
[x] My hair is black.
[x] My hair covers one of my eyes.
[x] I love Hot Topic. (LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE!!!!)
[x] I always say 'life sucks'.
Total = 19 from 22

Nerd

[ ] I have straight A's.
[ ] I wear glasses.
[ ] I always do my homework and study.
[ ] Lord of the Rings was a massive achievement.
[x] Computer games = Love. (used to love WOW)
[ ] I'm 'teachers pet'.
[ ] I've never had a real boyfriend/girlfriend.
[ ] I have a bedtime.
[ ] I use an asthma inhaler.
[ ] I carry a calculator with me.
[ ] I bring my lunch to school.
[ ] I always follow the rules.
[ ] I'm shy around the opposite sex.
[x] I'm always on the computer.
[ ] I've never had beer or cigarettes.
[ ] I always answer every question in class right.
[x] I correct people's grammar.
[x] I read a lot. (HELL YEAH)
[ ] School is very important to me.
[x] I always stump people. (i think i do)
Total = 5 from 20

Rebel

[x] I always speak my mind.
[x] I have 0% of school spirit. (FUCK NO!!!!)
[x] Forget you I won't do what you tell me!
[x] I stand up for what I think is right.
[ ] On spirit days at school, I wear the rebel's colors.
[x] Whenever people are doing something, I do the complete opposite.
[x] I won't listen to authority figures. (hardly do..)
[x] I always break the rules. (ALWAYS ALWAYS!!
[x] I refuse to compromise.
[x] I'm always arguing with people.
[x] I love debate.
[x] I always do what's unexpected of me. (Now what fun would come out of doing what everyone expects?)
[x] I don't give a FUCK what people think of me.
[x] If I watch a shitty movie in theaters, right after it's over, I'll say 'that sucked'.
[ ] I'm not afraid to trash people's opinions.
[ ] I only respect my own beliefs.
[x] If I don't want to do something, I won't do it, no matter what.
[ ] I laugh at compromising people.
[ ] I cheer on the rival's sport team to stand out.
[x] Rules were meant to be broken.
Total = 16 from 21


Comedian

[x] I'm very funny.
[x] I'm always making jokes.
[ ] I interrupt class by making people laugh.
[x] I always entertain people by being funny.
[x] I worship Kevin Smith. (worship is overexaggerated lol)
[ ] I watch comedies more than anything.
[ ] I also watch SNL and Mad TV a lot.
[x] I'm sarcastic.
[x] I've been told I'm hilarious.
[ ] I always imitate people.
[ ] I pull lots of pranks.
[x] I always make sarcastic remarks after everything.
[ ] I have to prove myself by being funny.
[x] People expect me to make jokes, always.
[ ] I have a lot of pressure to make everyone laugh.
[ ] If I don't make jokes, people ask me what's wrong.
[x] Jim Carrey is my idol. ( Frigging A he's my uncle!!!)
[ ] I mostly get along with everybody.
[ ] At pep rallies, I'm the one acting crazy and silly.
[ ] My teachers or parents tell me I need to focus more on work and less on joking around.
Total = 9 from 20

Goth

[x] I wear black.
[x] I don't like to be seen.
[ ] I'm very, very pale. (not no more)
[x] I listen to metal or emo-ish music.
[x] I love creepy, weird movies.
[x] I love Gothic cartoons and drawings.
[x] I don't like people.
[ ] I only go out during the night.
[x] I have black fingernails.
[ ] I wear a long black coat.
[x] I also wear big black boots. (sometimes)
[x] 'The Crow' is one of my favorite movies.
[ ] I only date other Goths.
[x] I love pain.
[x] People think I'm crazy.
[ ] I don't talk to anyone who isn't as deep as me.
[ ] I love to scare people.
[x] I laugh at teenyboppers.
[ ] People are afraid of me.
Total = 12 from 21
Okay yayaya I won't be on later I have an Angels game I must MUST attend to despite... ]]> ~Estradoll http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/19514468/ http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/19514468/ Mon, 21 Jul 2008 08:49:16 PDT [x] I cry allot. (everyday inside or outside)
[x] I go to local shows.
[x] I wear black everyday (everyday something is)
[x] I write sad poetry.
[ ] I play an acoustic guitar. (DRUMMER! What crazy person are you??)
[x] My favorite bands include: Fall Out Boy, My Chemical Romance, or Panic! at the Disco. (sadly yes)
[x] I self mutilate myself. (jeesh hash words)
[x] I think about suicide or death often. (hmmmmm...)
[x] People have told me to cheer up.
[x] I cry when I see dead animals.
[x] My myspace pics are black are white or angled. (the one of Jew, Em, and me is...lol it's in a bathroom.)
[x] I wear many band shirts. (excessively)
[x] No one understands me.
[ ] I don't talk too often.
[ ] I look down when I walk.
[x] I wear black eyeliner. (hell yeah i do!!!)
[x] My fingernails are black.
[x] I have an ex I still cry over.
[x] My hair is black.
[x] My hair covers one of my eyes.
[x] I love Hot Topic. (LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE!!!!)
[x] I always say 'life sucks'.
Total = 19 from 22

Nerd

[ ] I have straight A's.
[ ] I wear glasses.
[ ] I always do my homework and study.
[ ] Lord of the Rings was a massive achievement.
[x] Computer games = Love. (used to love WOW)
[ ] I'm 'teachers pet'.
[ ] I've never had a real boyfriend/girlfriend.
[ ] I have a bedtime.
[ ] I use an asthma inhaler.
[ ] I carry a calculator with me.
[ ] I bring my lunch to school.
[ ] I always follow the rules.
[ ] I'm shy around the opposite sex.
[x] I'm always on the computer.
[ ] I've never had beer or cigarettes.
[ ] I always answer every question in class right.
[x] I correct people's grammar.
[x] I read a lot. (HELL YEAH)
[ ] School is very important to me.
[x] I always stump people. (i think i do)
Total = 5 from 20

Rebel

[x] I always speak my mind.
[x] I have 0% of school spirit. (FUCK NO!!!!)
[x] Forget you I won't do what you tell me!
[x] I stand up for what I think is right.
[ ] On spirit days at school, I wear the rebel's colors.
[x] Whenever people are doing something, I do the complete opposite.
[x] I won't listen to authority figures. (hardly do..)
[x] I always break the rules. (ALWAYS ALWAYS!!
[x] I refuse to compromise.
[x] I'm always arguing with people.
[x] I love debate.
[x] I always do what's unexpected of me. (Now what fun would come out of doing what everyone expects?)
[x] I don't give a FUCK what people think of me.
[x] If I watch a shitty movie in theaters, right after it's over, I'll say 'that sucked'.
[ ] I'm not afraid to trash people's opinions.
[ ] I only respect my own beliefs.
[x] If I don't want to do something, I won't do it, no matter what.
[ ] I laugh at compromising people.
[ ] I cheer on the rival's sport team to stand out.
[x] Rules were meant to be broken.
Total = 16 from 21


Comedian

[x] I'm very funny.
[x] I'm always making jokes.
[ ] I interrupt class by making people laugh.
[x] I always entertain people by being funny.
[x] I worship Kevin Smith. (worship is overexaggerated lol)
[ ] I watch comedies more than anything.
[ ] I also watch SNL and Mad TV a lot.
[x] I'm sarcastic.
[x] I've been told I'm hilarious.
[ ] I always imitate people.
[ ] I pull lots of pranks.
[x] I always make sarcastic remarks after everything.
[ ] I have to prove myself by being funny.
[x] People expect me to make jokes, always.
[ ] I have a lot of pressure to make everyone laugh.
[ ] If I don't make jokes, people ask me what's wrong.
[x] Jim Carrey is my idol. ( Frigging A he's my uncle!!!)
[ ] I mostly get along with everybody.
[ ] At pep rallies, I'm the one acting crazy and silly.
[ ] My teachers or parents tell me I need to focus more on work and less on joking around.
Total = 9 from 20

Goth

[x] I wear black.
[x] I don't like to be seen.
[ ] I'm very, very pale. (not no more)
[x] I listen to metal or emo-ish music.
[x] I love creepy, weird movies.
[x] I love Gothic cartoons and drawings.
[x] I don't like people.
[ ] I only go out during the night.
[x] I have black fingernails.
[ ] I wear a long black coat.
[x] I also wear big black boots. (sometimes)
[x] 'The Crow' is one of my favorite movies.
[ ] I only date other Goths.
[x] I love pain.
[x] People think I'm crazy.
[ ] I don't talk to anyone who isn't as deep as me.
[ ] I love to scare people.
[x] I laugh at teenyboppers.
[ ] People are afraid of me.
Total = 12 from 21
Okay yayaya I won't be on later I have an Angels game I must MUST attend to despite... ]]> ~Estradoll http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/19506932/ http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/19506932/ Sun, 20 Jul 2008 20:20:52 PDT ggghaaaaa today is Aweful.
From dying while playing The Phantom Menace to My Step-Mom almost having a heart attack. Not literally BTW. Just saying...uhhh makes me wannna puke!!
SO to Start off today DAd left for a week with my Disney Land pass.
Dying non-stop and totally sucking while playing the Phantom Menace.
Jacob calling coming over and inviting me to his BD party. Eeerrrm Obsessively drinking and eating Coke and Toasted PB&J's iccckk. I'm addicted to them.
NOw that my dad is gone my mom/step is flipping out over simple ass crap. Like a Straw being left in a cup on the counter. I mean who does that?? Then of course I bought this Bad Ass Razorblade bead/charm thing and she flipped a bitch over me having it! w/evs i bought two. Little does she know. hahaha!
I'm so fed up with this week already. I have $25 dollars to last me this week. I'm gonna need out.
Ohh and I'm babysitting one of those chia pet computer Robot Penguin things for the week too! I have an Angels game to watch on Monday as well as going to see my shrink!! so mondays are going to suck 10x's worse then they typically do!! ehhh grosss. So that is that.
And Mom is cooking EWWW!!
--
Over all I feel: CRAZY!!
My main pain is: where do you think??
Last Night I was: Crying
I hope I can:GET THE FUCK OUT!!!
I'm happy about: BATMAN!!!
I'm sad about: JACOB!!!
I'm irate about: This Week
I want to: Get out of this house
I'm gonna go: SCREAM!!
Mood: ANGRY!!!

]]> ~Estradoll http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/19489975/ http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/19489975/ Sat, 19 Jul 2008 20:56:39 PDT Age: 16

Natural Hair Color: Brown

Dyed: Black-ish, Brown-ish, blond-ish

Eyes: Change color

Height: 5’ 3

Weight: 102

Born: LA

Live: OC Irvine, Ca

ME IN A NUTTSHell

I am a very outspoken person. I am not afraid to speak my mind. People automatically judge me before they get to know me, but when they finally get to know who I am they find out I am a very unique, individual, cool person. I like anything that is not cliché or all over the place if it’s out of the ordinary, different or totally off the wall, chances are I like it. I like…NO I Love Music! Friends and family are first priority always! Peace Love and Happiness is what life should be about.

Early Childhood

When I was 5 I was a fireball I had no problem telling people off just like I do today. I was the little girl who caused all sorts of mischief. I had to wear uniforms all the way up until about 6th grade but to break out of the norm of being a normal child I wore Misfits high top converse shoes. On the first day of kindergarten I got into a fight with this kid named Dylan. He came up to me during recess and poked his chubby little finger into my chest and said “I don’t like you!” SO I grabbed his chubby little finger and bit it until it bled. So I go to the office they call up my mom and tell her what happened so my mom comes to pick me up and she asked what happened. So I told her this kid told me he didn’t like me and I showed him how I felt about him. So she told me next time anything like this happened to handle it a different way. The very next week the exact same kid was picking on my best friend Madison, so I walked up to this kid and socked him in the stomach. Again the same process of going to the office happened! My mom asked now what happened. So I told her this time he was picking on Madison and I handled it a different way. She held me close and said that’s my girl!!! First Grade was toned down a bit no more naptime! But what I do Remember About 1st grade was show and tell on Dr. Seuss week I had been practicing and practicing how to read Fox and Sox as fast as possible just to blow my teachers mind. So on Friday show and tell I got up in front of the class and began to read as fast as I could no stumbling or stuttering whatsoever. Then I got to the part where the poodles eating noodles and I look up as I am saying it, and there is this kid making a funny face at me in seeing this I messed Up!!! I was so mad I started screaming at this kid!! I was so MAD!! AS I went on in school impressed people with my wit and smarts always trying to end up being right and proving other people wrong. I was invited into GATE at 4th grade and told them no because none of my friends would be there. As I went on I took liking to dancing, singing, dressing up, and boys.



MY Future

SHORT TERM

I’d love to make up with my mom and spend an entire day with her like we used to. I’d love to build a strong trust with my dad. I’d love to finally accept my Stepmom as my mom yet without losing my actual mom. I’d love to go and spend a week In Redlands and revisit old friends that I miss so much.

LONG TERM

I would love to go to a college a UC more specific. I haven’t given much thought as to where, but I know I’d like to major in Fashion and Design or as a Cosmetologist, for hair most likely. I am taking college Prep classes in High School to get me there even though I have no idea how any of these classes are going to help me get to where I want to go, but if they say so why not!! I’d love to become a successful independent woman who doesn’t need to rely on a man or woman to live. I’d like to stand on my own two feet for a while before I settle down. But no matter what I don’t want to lose my independence. I also don’t want to be strayed from my children in life I want to know what is going on with my children I will not let some baby sitter raise my children, but yet I don’t want to be an at home mom. I will never force my children to do something they don’t want to do, or over work my children in any way shape or form. I always want to have my children feel that they can come to me with whatever problems they have.

Little Known Facts about Me

I am naturally a brunette my hair is always going to change depending on what I want to try out. I have this weird obsession with licking windows; I don’t know why I just do. If my hair or Make-up is not done I refuse to go out in public. I occasionally wear my slippers to school sometimes on purpose most of the time on accident. I will never wear sweatpants out in public; I will only wear them on the weekend. I love to eat Oreos, peanut butter, and marshmallows. I’ve never eaten Jack in the Box ever!! I don’t know how to surf but would love to learn how!! I am afraid... ]]> ~Estradoll http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/19473030/ http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/19473030/ Fri, 18 Jul 2008 21:28:30 PDT M-kay gys I'm on love with the movie if you havent already seen it I suggest you get your ass to the movie theatre PRONTO!!
I'm sure that watching batman is ten times better then reading my Stupid Journal I guarantee it!!! WHAt AM I talking it is Ten Times BETTER!! SO GO NOW!!!

]]> ~Estradoll http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/19416578/ http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/19416578/ Fri, 18 Jul 2008 08:59:28 PDT
I am so fed up with Jacob!! End of Story!!! But it was very funny. I called him babe. Because I was feeling in a good mood. Well I was going to Disneyland later. So I decided to invite him. But he had his Band practice. He's such a slacker tho. IDC But he's all oh ya and don't call me babe. SO I said ya sure babe. I know I'm so clver!! But as always I still love him to pieces because he's so damn gorgeous!! But Arrgh!

Disneyland was rad as usual. We decided to do this new thing where you pretty much torture your ride partner the whole time we were there.It was so Fun!!! Ohhh Btw Davyn we need to go on matterhorn!!luls

Babysitting went okay.Up until the sugar kicked in. But thank god they crashed at 11. Oh and I ended up watching 5 kids!!sshhhh

Going to go shopping with and buy Black Skinny Jeans todayeither before or after depending on movie times.

Batman Unmasked: The Psychology of the Dark Knight is going to be on the History Channel(Ch. 120) on
Wednesday, July 16
09:00 PM

Thursday, July 17
01:00 AM

Monday, July 21
10:00 PM

Tuesday, July 22
02:00 AM

Saturday, July 26
11:00 PM

Sunday, July 27
03:00 AM
For all you big Batman dorks who are drooling over the clock like me waiting to see the movie Today!!! It was very interesting but educational to watch to improve your batman knowledge

So soccer practice has officially started so Wootness for making me skinnier!!But it's kicking my ass!!!LOL

But I am giving up cutting.I know right. I was talking to my brother's friend, Jared. (and no he looks nothing like the jared of my dreams so I doubt it's him lol)But my brother was at work and he came over to chill with Ryan but ended up chilling with me. So I got up and brought him a coke because he asked. I handed it to him. And he saw my cuts/scars things and flipped a bitch like normal. So I was calming him down trying to explain why they were there. He told me that when guys see that sorta thing that's a red flag to stay away from that girl she's dynamite!! Which is very true! But I promised him I wouldn't I'd try to stop! But my Razorblade and me go together like Peas and carrots! I love my razorblade! "Razorblade Romance" Lol it's hard I want to! But he's a sweet guy! So I wanna keep his promise. But so far so Good.

Oh I also hope you'll be pleased to know I ate a huge ass Chipotle burrito yesterday!!Uhh huh I know!!! And I kept it down too!!!

I'll post the 12th dream fer sure later and possibly the begining of my vampire story!!!
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Over all I feel: CRAZY!!
My main pain is: Thighs
Last Night I was: Sleeping
I hope I can: ...
I'm happy about: BATMAN!!!
I'm sad about: nothing really
I'm irate about: JACOB!!!
I want to: Buy the Soundtrack for BAtman!!
I'm gonna go: make coffee
Mood: EXSTATIC!! OVERJOYED AND VERY RETARDED!!!

]]> ~Estradoll http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/19376105/ http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/19376105/ Sun, 13 Jul 2008 17:07:43 PDT Dark brown I think. I'ts been a while since it hasn't had dye in it.

2. Where was your avatar pic taken?
In my Bathroom

3. What's your middle name?
Victoria

4. Your current relationship status?
Single. Rrrrrr

5. Honestly, does your crush like you back?
I seriously dout it

6. What is your current mood?
Antisocial

7.what's the colour of your underwear?
Black with a dangly skull and bow

8. What is one thing that makes you happy?
Jacob

9.Who was the last person you cuddled with?
Lestat my Teddy Bear hahaha

10. If you could go back in time, and change something what?
I'd tell Jacob the truth

11. If you MUST be an animal for ONE day-
Kitten

12. Ever had a near death experience?
Yes, bleeding that's all I'll say

13. Something you do a lot?
Drink Diet coke

14. What's the name of the song stuck in your head right now?
Green Day-Paranoia

15. Who did you flip off last?
My Dad

16. Name someone with the same b-day as you?
My cousin Scotty

17. When was the last time you cried?
This Morning

18. Have you ever sang in front of a large audience?
NEVER NOOOOO!!!!!!

19. If you could have one super power what would it be?
Invisibilty

20. What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
Hearts...

21. What do you usually order from Starbucks/Tim Hortons?
I don like Starbuks. I like Seattles

22. What’s your biggest secret?
I LOVE PANKACES!!!

23. What's your favorite color?
Purple!! BITCH!

24. When was the last time you lied?
Lat Night (I have my retainers in mom)

25. Do you still watch kiddy movies or TV shows?
I hav elittle brothers so ya!!

27. What are you eating or drinking at the moment?
Water

28. What's your favorite smell?
Baking cookies

29. If you could describe life in one word what would it be?
HARD

30. When was the last time you gave/received a hug?
This morning Frenchie followed by Eduardo


31. Have you ever been kissed in the rain?
Yess Verry Shmexy

32. What are you thinking about right now?
Food

33. What should you be doing?
Visiting with Family

34. What was the last thing that made you upset?
My brother Yelling at me

35. Do you like working in the yard?
Gardening when it's not hot

36. If you could have any last name in the world, what would
Leto lols

37. Name 5 things in your closet:
1. Dirty Clothes
2. Misfits Shirt
3. Lotsa shoes
4. My Action Figures
5. Books and Magasines

38. Do you act different around your crush?
No, I dun think so

39. when was the last time you slept with a stuffed animal?
Last night

40. How many times do you take a shower a week?
every day

41. Do you brush your teeth everyday?
yes unlessI'm really really sleepy

42. Have you ever said something stupid in front of your crush?
Yep. I'm dying right now~!

43. Have you ever watched a hockey game?
yes Ilive near anaheim so ya

44. Do you lie about your age?
Sometimes. *alcohol cough cough*

45. Ever been jealous about something stupid?
Chyaa

46. Do you pick your nose?
eww Gross

47. whats the one food you hate?
All FOODD!!!

48. What the one junk food you cant live without?
No FOOOD!!

49. How old were you when you found out Santa was fake?
10

50. Have you ever blown your nose and looked inside it the napkin?
Yuck why??

51. Describe your favorite underwear you have?
My red plaid thong hehe black bow

52. Did you lie in any of these questions?
Why???

]]> ~Estradoll http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/19361953/ http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/19361953/ Sat, 12 Jul 2008 20:55:53 PDT Estradoll It means my last name pus like Doll
It's my nickname. From Soccer. Oh so clever right.
I used to be all fragile and emotional. So they were joking like we do. Ok dolly get over here mark her mark her!!

2. Why did you join this site?
My bestie or I should say ex bestie since I moved. I was over at her house being typical Redlands kids broke, reaking havok. But we were eatin pickles and frozen burritos. we wereboth checking emails and crap. She was on DA instant LOVE! So I lve it I can share art with the world LOLs.

3.What fandom were you obsessed with when you joined?
Errm I dunno exactly

4. How many watchers are currently watching now?
Good question.

5. your first gift was to?
Art, pictures, poetry, and photography

6. list 6 things you are a fan of
-Super Hero's ie Batman and Spiderman
-STAR WARS!!
-Johhny Depp and Tim Burton (kinda go hand in hand)
-Emo Kids
-Friends (Both the show and mine lol)
-Music

7. list for people that you look up to the most
Umm used to be my MOM
Lets' see
Nerisssa
Jacob
My Uncles

8. Favorite clothes
Chucks, SKINNY JEANS, Misfits Tee, Heavy Eyeliner, a thousand Braclets, Stud Belt, a few rings, Straight Hair shit loada hair spray!

9.Pets
2 dogs

10.most played song?
Errm Die Die My Darling Prob either that or Helena At the moment.

11.do you prefer white or black?
Stupid Question But...Black

13. if you could have a power then what would it be?
Fairy Glamour
or Invisibility

14. who was the last person you talked to?
Jacob

15. who was the last person you said i love you to?
Jared luls


16. first five things that pop into your mind?

-skinny
-makeup
-tampon
-Diet coke
-Jacob

17. what do you wish you could do better?
I dunno go ask Jacob what would make me better??

18. do you like who you are?
Hardly

19. winter or summer
Winter, you can wear long sleeves and no-one asks why?

20. rain or sun
Rain, No one can tell I am crying.

21. name two odd things about you
ED/SI
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Over all I feel: Bored STUPID
My main pain is: Headache still
Last Night I was: Readng
I hope I can: go Shopping
I'm happy about: Getting $$
I'm sad about: Not having having any Diet Coke
I'm irate about: Not Having Fruity Pebbles
I want to: Have somoene over
I'm gonna go: Pee
Mood: Bored

]]> ~Estradoll http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/19359587/ http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/19359587/ Sat, 12 Jul 2008 18:15:56 PDT --
Over all I feel: Bored STUPID
My main pain is: Headache still
Last Night I was: Readng
I hope I can: go Shopping
I'm happy about: Getting $$
I'm sad about: Not having having any Diet Coke
I'm irate about: Not Having Fruity Pebbles
I want to: Have somoene over
I'm gonna go: DAnce
Mood: Dancy!!!

]]> ~Estradoll http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/19344144/ http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/19344144/ Fri, 11 Jul 2008 21:17:33 PDT Mark the ones you are take the total over 8 then the numbers you get are the percentage. If you end up with 3 digits round to the second digit. Repost pulleasee!
RICH BITCH
[ ] You go/have gone tanning.
[x] You own an iPod/mp3 player.
[ ] You love Starbucks.
[ ] You have been called a brat.
[x ] You have tons of shoes.
[ ] You hate buying things that are on sale.
[x] You have/had a laptop
[x] You love shopping. (at Hot topic)
36% Rich Bitch

GOTHIC
[x] Black is one of your favorite colors.(Chya.)
[x] You wear spikes. (on occasion)
[x] You like heavy metal.
[x] You've shopped at hot topic.(Luv)
[x] You have worn black lipstick.(Hells YA)
[x] You have/had/or wanted piercings.
[x] You own a pair of Tripp pants
[x] You have at least one unnaturally colored haired friend. (umm Nerissa)
100% Goth

PUNK
[x] You can skateboard (YESS)
[x] You like plaid.
[x] You have Converse. (Hell YES)
[x] You hate MTV. (with a passion)
[x] You have/had/want blue, pink, red, purple, or green hair. (pink and green)
[x] You love mohawks (love love)
[x] You LOVE Music.
[x] Hate people who pretend to be something they are not. (absolutely)
100% Punk

EMO
[x] You are sad sometimes. (try all the time)
[x] You have Skinny Jeans
[x] You cry easily.
[x] You like emo music (love)
[x] You've kept a journal/diary
[x] You have written a sad poem.
[x] You have dyed your hair. (allot)
[ ] You're sad when you're drunk (hell no)
88% EMO

GHETTO
[ ] You like rap. (hate)
[ ] have said "Fo Sho, Fo Shizzle, Fo Sheezy, etc. (no! NEVER!!)
[ ] You have worn/wanted a grill.
[ ] You have had a freestyling contest.
[ ] You have worn your shoes with the tongue flipped out.
[ ] you know most of the lines from Boyz N Da Hood
[ ] You own a huge gold chain with a giant gold pendant
[ ] Listen to Kiis fm
0% Ghetto (Thank GOd)

HARDCORE
[x] You like loud music (YESS)
[x] You love/like the Ninja Turtles. (own a t shirt haha)
[x] You have slip-on shoes. (yeshaha)
[x] You like Norma Jean. (HEll YEs I DO!!)
[x] People have called you a freak and meant it lovingly
[x] You love to "hardcore" dance (LOVEEE)
[x] Your hair has been dyed more than one color. (FER SURE)
[x] You wear jeans a lot. (You are Speaking to the Queen of Skinny Jeans)
100% HArdcore

PREP
[ ] You LOVE The OC. (GAG)
[ ] You had/have/want a tiny/small sized dog.
[ ] Your usual outfits consist of pink. (Umm hardly)
[ ] You like buying shoes A LOT.
[ ] You have clothes from Hollister, AE and/or Abercrombie
[ ] Getting your nails done is a fun thing.
[x] You have/had big sunglasses.
[ ] You can't go anywhere without your hair perfect.
13% Prep

ATHLETIC
[ ] You watch/watched the Superbowl
[x] You own track shoes or cleats other sports related shoes. (spikes and cleats)
[ ] You collect jerseys.
[ ] You have/had a special shelf for trophies and awards.
[x] Your garage/shed consists of sports equipment. (what happens when you live with boys)
[x] You belong/belonged to a team.
[x] You have a specific number preferred for your jersey. (It's my besties BD so YA!!!)
[ ] Love Sports (soccer ya!)
50% JOck haha

SCENE
[x] You like putting little bows in your hair (all the time)
[x] You have mini-skirts (allot)
[x] You have parted your hair to the side. (My whole life)
[x] You think polka-dots are way cute.
[x] You have done a peace sign while you pose for a picture.
[ ] You've been called scene before.
[x] You wear/wore long, colorful socks (Tube SOX LOLs)
[x] Love Ballet Flats
88% Scene KID!

REDNECK
[ ] Gone four wheeling.
[ ] Went hunting.
[x] Owned a four/three-wheeler or dirt bike...ect. (Dirt BIKE!!!)
[ ] Like to go fishing.
[ ] Eat beef jerky
[ ] Ever said GIT-R-DONE. (NO!!!!! WAY)
[ ] Have/had a screen door with no screen
[ ] say Ya'll and Aint alot
13% HICK

METALHEAD
[x] You wear band shirts alot.(key word allot!!)
[x] If people down talk metal you down talk their favorite music. (I give 'em a whoop ass in metal)
[x] You like bands like As I Lay Dying, Lamb Of God, and All That Remains.
[ ] You HATE emos. (errm NO!!)
[ ] You like Black Sabbath. (actuall no! SLAYER!!!)
[x] You have gone to Ozzfest. (Chyaaa!)
[x] LOVE SLAYER!!!
[x] own a Judas Priest shirt
75% Metal Head!!

I AM
36% Rich Bitch
100% Goth
100% Punk
88% EMO
0% Ghetto
100% HArdcore
13% Prep
50% JOck haha
88% Scene KID!
13% HICK
75% Metal Head!!

]]> ~Estradoll http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/19341723/ http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/19341723/ Fri, 11 Jul 2008 18:55:07 PDT --
Over all I feel: Carazy MAD!!! look out!!!
My main pain is: Headache!! BIG
Last Night I was: awake reading
I hope I can: Wait long enough... For Hellboy Dammit!!!!
I'm happy about: Gumm
I'm sad about: Hellboy!
I'm irate about: Who else other than Notorious Nestor.
I want to: Eat Fruity Pebbles
I'm gonna go: Cry
Mood: Angry

]]> ~Estradoll http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/19298223/ http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/19298223/ Wed, 09 Jul 2008 18:57:42 PDT Apples
Cranberries
Grapefruit
Orange
Pineapple
Raspberries
Tangerine
Carrot
Lemon
Mango
strawberries
Pickles
have no calories!!!
Wootness Right!! I found this Website.
[link]
Supposedly. If you eat them they have calories. But the digestion process eliminates more then the calories they have in themselves. It says in the article. i think it's oober cool.

So my printer isn't working. My mom needs to get home!!NOW!!
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Over all I feel: Carazy!!! look out!!!
My main pain is: Stomach
Last Night I was: awake
I hope I can: Wait long enough... For everything Dammit!!!!
I'm happy about: Gumm
I'm sad about:Who else other than Notorious Nestor.
I'm irate about: Jacob Overall!!!
I want to: Eat Fruity Pebbles
I'm gonna go: Turn on some Music
Mood: Dancy!!!

]]> ~Estradoll http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/19280200/ http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/19280200/ Tue, 08 Jul 2008 19:23:44 PDT Day-to-Day - Life is Beautiful-Sixx AM
Happy Mood - Falling Down-Atreyu
Good Mood - First Date-Blink 182
Indifferent Mood - Green Day- Jesus of Suburbia
Sad Mood- I Feel So- Boxcar Racer
Angry - The Curse- Killswitch Engage
Sexy Mood (LOLZ) - FEr Sure- The Medic Droid
Song that describes your BF/GF/Person you like - Die Die My Darling- The Misfits
Your Best Friend - I Will Buy You A New Life- Everclear
Song that makes you laugh - I Wanna Be Sedated- The Ramones
Song that makes you drive fast - Mental Hopscotch- Newlydeads
Song you dance to -Panic at the Disco- Build God then We'll talk
Song you work out to - Jane Fonda- Mickey Avalon
Song that gets stuck in your head - I Bet you Look Good On the Dance Floor- Artic Monkeys

Okay I am obssesed with Joker lines I'm running around everywhere saying little quirbs and stuff.hehe.
I answered thephone All Day today asking, "Have you ever danced witht hte Devil in the pale moonlight??" hehe my friends like wtf is that supposed to mean. Hehe My favorite one is, "I'm a simple guy. I like Dynamite, Gun Powder, and Gasoline." Heehehe God cannot wait for the movie to come out!!! 1 week and 3 days!!!Oh noes!!! Well Hellboys out Friday!! Meghan and I are going to go!! So Wootness! ok so after dance class today I went to, Cvs to get some razors to shave and the damn lady wouldn't give them to me becaue she thought I was going to kill myself. I'm like you're joking. No I cannot sell these to you.!! Bitch! So I walked next door to Ralphs. Stood in the Isle like an Idiot waiting for someone to get them out of the display case for me. This guy was like hey. I'm like Mike can you open the case for me I really need some razors. He was totally checking me out so he didn't notice my arm. I bought Jello, and tangerines as well as gum. I was like okay back off my case just give me the fucking razors I need to shave. People....Ahh then Jacb calls me. I'm like fuck why did I pick up the phone??? Why!!!! I told him I need to take a shower. Dammit why did I say that??? He was all Ohhhh well really let me know how that goes and I wanted to telll him fuck OFF!!! But I just told him I 'd call him back. I didn't So YAY!! Hopefully he won't call. I made 2 new braclets today!! yay my cluster-fuck is massive assive!!!
<3's it!!!
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Over all I feel: Hungry
My main pain is: Thighs
Last Night I was: crying
I hope I can: Not Eat
I'm happy about: feeling somewhat skinny
I'm sad about:Who else other than Notorious Nestor.
I'm irate about: Jacob Calling!!
I want to: Go get a Coke zero
I'm gonna go: type the dreams
Mood: eh Normal-ish

]]> ~Estradoll http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/19260331/ http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/19260331/ Mon, 07 Jul 2008 18:23:36 PDT








Answer HONESTLY!

You Would....

[ ] hug me
[ ] kiss me
[ ] makeout with me
[ ] have sex with me
[ ] date me
[ ] hit me
[ ] hangout with me
[ ] be my friend only


I am....

[ ] cute
[ ] beautiful
[ ] pretty
[ ] sexy
[ ] gorgeous
[ ] ugly
[ ] FUCKING ugly
[ ] stupid


If you were stuck in a closet with me, you would.....

[ ] scream
[ ] want out
[ ] kiss me
[ ] have sex with me
[ ] do nothing
[ ] makeout with me


Do you...

[ ] love me
[ ] hate me
[ ] think im OKAY
[ ] think im annoying
[ ] see me as shy
[ ] see me as pathetic
[ ] not care about this at all?























Your Name:


Age:


Fave Color:


Whats your sign?


Location:


Height:


Hair (color and style):


Piercings/tattoos:










HERE COMES THE FUN ...
Are we friends?


Do you have a crush on me?


Would you kiss me?


with tongue?


Would you enjoy it?


Would you ever ask me out?


Would you make a move on me in a movie theater?


Would you take care of me when I'm sick?


Do you want to tell me something that you couldn't before?


Would you walk on the beach with me?


If you heard a rumor about me, would you defend me?


Do you/have you talked about me?


Do you think I'm a good person?


Would u take a nap with me?


Do you think I'm cute?


If you could change anything about me -would you?


Would you dance with me?


Would you come over for no reason just to hang out?




What Do You Think Of My...?

Personality:

Eyes:

Face:

Hair:







W0ULD Y0U...
give me your number?
kiss me?
let me kiss you?
watch a movie with me?
take me out to dinner?
drive me somewhere?
hug me?
buy me food?
take me home to meet your family?
let me sleep in your bed?
sing car karaoke w/ me?
sit in the doctors office with me because I didn't want to go alone?
give me a piggyback ride?
come pick me up at 3 am because my car ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere?


Do/Are You...
I'm cute?
want to kiss me?
want to cuddle with me?

Am I...
odd but fun?
cute?
funny?
cool?
interesting to talk to?

HAVE YOU EVER...
thought about me?
thought there might be an "US"?
thought about hookin up with me?
found yourself wanting to kiss me?
wished i were there?

Mkay I posted Hellgirl and Liz as well as re-posted my Colored pictures from afew days ago. I have two Dreams to post. Coincidentally Jacob was in one awkward weird sexy hott you'll love it hold on okay I need to type them.

-

Over all I feel: Crappy
My main pain is: Sun BURN
Last Night I was: Dreaming
I hope I can: I dunno anymore...
I'm happy about: NOTHING REALLY
I'm sad about: Jacob love...romance
I'm irate about: cutting
I want to: pee
I'm gonna go: Get a coke zero

]]> ~Estradoll http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/19225985/ http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/19225985/ Sat, 05 Jul 2008 21:22:41 PDT Hell NO!



Is your phone right beside you?:
On the Sofa 5 ft away



Do you have a bf/ gf?:
nope.





Do you wish you were somewhere else?:
Maybe...wth am I saying yess!!





Do you have plans for tonight?:
Yes have a dream of my lover draw his picture work on art more and ya...Did I say sleep already?



Are you wearing makeup?:
Are pigs pink??





Are you wearing chapstick?:
Whore lipgoss that matches with my shorts and nails hehe





Are you cold?:
comfy





Are you tired?:
No but I have to sleep


Are you excited?:
Fa SHOOOe!!





Are you watching t.v?:
no but i can hear it in the other room.





Are you wearing pajamas?:
hott pink shorts aren't PJ's silly survey!!


Who's the last person you IMed?:
Ummm Lisa er Alex.





Who's the last person that called you?
Grandma mee hee





Anything you regret?
Eating 3 bowls of Ice Cream today!!




Ever lied?:
who hasn't



Ever stuck gum under a desk?:
In Mr. Jacob's class F Geometry. Literally that was my grade



Ever spit at someone?
Jacob!! mua haha



Ever kick something living?:
Does my brother count??



Ever had your nails done?:
Last week actually and they're already f'ed up!!





Ever thrown up because you cried so hard?:
YESS!!


REVEAL A LITTLE ABOUT YOURSELF:
LAST WEEK

Had any plans last week?:
Disney land movies shopping.



Who did you see most last week?:
umm prob. Adrian



Was last week interesting?
I've had more exciting!!





Have you cussed?:
Constantly



Have you yelled at someone?
I yell at people I hate!!
Or at walls!!





Have you gotten mad at someone?
Today actually!




Have you cried?
Everyday of my Life!






Have you called more than 3 people?:
umm lemme think, Adrian, Ryan, and nope that's it.



Have you IMed more than 3 people?:
Today as a matter of fact yess!!





Have you eaten anything gross?
Ever playa little game called spoons??


SPILL YOUR GUTS


Q.First thing you did this morning?:
I went pee






Q.Last thing you ate?:
Ice Cream



Q.What's something you look forward to most in the next 6 weeks?
Mmmm Soccer camp oh ma fuckin G Hell boy and the dark night!!!





Q.What's annoying you right now?
this hacking cough



Q.What's the last movie you saw?
Pulp Fiction



Q.Do you believe in long distance relationships?:
No, never work





Q Where is the last place you went?:
To blockbuster



Q: Who is the last person you called?:
umm Ryan



Q: Been cheated on?:
Too many flipping times to count




Q: Do you think that someone is thinking about you right now?
not at all!!



Q: Choose one to have (love, beauty, creativity):
umm I need Love



Q: Do you wish on stars?:
no, why wish on a flaming ball of gas?



Q: Does it work?:
Hardly does



Q: Do you untie your shoes every time you take them off?:
Yes I have to!!





Q: When did you last cry?
Tooday!!




Q: Do you like your handwriting?
Umm ya i do!





Q: Are you a friendly person?
I hope so



Q: Are you keeping a secret from the world?
yes, i'm hanna montana. ew no jk. I believe I like Jacob again DAMMIT!!!!





Q: Who's bed did you sleep in last night?
My floor hehe




Q: What color shirt are you wearing?
Black Tank top and White Earth Shirt over



Q: Do you have any pets?
Doggie

Q: What is the color of your bedsheets?
Purple and Green hehe



Q: What were you doing at 9 last night?
uhh on the computer proabably


Q: last person you talked to:
Uhh My mommy
~Estradoll http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/19218499/ http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/19218499/ Sat, 05 Jul 2008 12:18:16 PDT Check the things you have done because these are 127 of the stupidest things you could ever do!
I actually have gone sledgin i figured it out!
BODY BOARDING OOOO!!!


LEVEL 1

(x) smoked a cigarette

(x) smoked a cigar

(x) kissed a member of the same sex

So far: 3/3



LEVEL 2

(x) are / been in love

(x) dumped someone

() been fired (umm need a job to get fired)

(x) been in a fist fight



So far: 6/7



LEVEL 3

(x) had a crush on an older person (hehe umm teachers count right)

(x) skipped class

() slept with a co-worker (again need a job hehe)

(x) seen someone / something die (ghaa both)



So far: 9/11



LEVEL 4

(x) had / have a crush on one of your deviantart friends

() been to paris (not yet)

() been to spain (umm why would i go there?)

(x) been on a plane

(x) thrown up from drinking



So far: 12/16



LEVEL 5

(x) eaten sushi (mmm yummy)

(x been snowboarding

(x) met someone through internet

(x been in a mosh pit (F YA!!!)



So far: 16/20



LEVEL 6

(x) been in an abusive relationship

(x) taken pain killers

(x) liked/loved someone who you couldn't have

(x) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by

(x) made a snow angel



So far: 21/25



LEVEL 7

(x) had a tea party (oooh so fun)

(x) flown a kite

(x) built a sand castle

(x) gone mudding

(x) played dress up (hehe)



So far: 26/30



LEVEL 8

(x) jumped into a pile of leaves

(x) gone sledging (body boarding)

(x) cheated while playing a game

(x) been lonely

(x) fallen asleep at work / school



So far: 31/35



LEVEL 10

(x) watched the sun set

(x) felt an earthquake

(x) killed a snake (with my foot)



So far: 34/38



LEVEL 11

(x) been tickled

(x) been robbed / vandalized

(x) been cheated on

(x) been misunderstood



So far: 38/42



LEVEL 12

(x) won a contest

() been suspended from school (haha james has)

(x) had detention

(x) been in a car / motorcycle accident



So far: 41/46



LEVEL 13

(x) had / have braces

(x) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night

(x) danced in the moonlight



So far: 44/49



LEVEL 14

(x) hated the way you look

(x) witnessed a crime

(x) pole danced

(x) questioned your heart

(x) been obsessed with post-it-notes(am obsessed with post-it notes)



So far: 49/54



LEVEL 15

(x) squished barefoot through the mud

() been to the opposite side of the world (where is that?)

(x) swam in the ocean

(x) felt like you were dying



So far: 52/58



LEVEL 16

(x) cried to sleep

(x) played cops and robbers

(x) recently colored with crayons / colored pencils / markers

(x) sang karaoke

(x) paid for a meal with only coins (now that was really funny...)

(x) ordered something that wasn’t at that restaurant. (hehe)

So far: 58/64



LEVEL 17

(x) done something you told yourself you wouldn't

(x) made prank phone calls

(x) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose

(x) kissed in the rain (rain is prettiful...as is kissing...they automatically go together...)



So far: 62/68



LEVEL 18

(x) written a letter to santa claus

(x) watched the sun set/ sun rise with someone you care/cared about

(x) blow bubbles (with gum)

(x) made a bonfire on the beach or anywhere



So far: 66/72



LEVEL 19

(x) crashed a party

(x) have traveled more than 5 days with a car full of people

(x) gone rollerskating / blading

(x) had a wish come true

() been humped by a monkey (who would honestly allow that?)



So far: 70/76



~Estradoll http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/19155183/ http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/19155183/ Tue, 08 Jul 2008 08:54:21 PDT Well I think I'm the only lameo on really early. I'm waiting for my coffee to brew. mmm coffee I'm not awake yet. It's another day. Let's see what havock I can reak today. In a little bit maybe after I shower I'll color Hell Girl and Liz. Don't worry I'll get the Disneyland pictures up there too!! I'm still waiting for lisa to send Them. ANd I know you want the 4th and 5th dream so I'll try to get them up there. I hope everyone has a great day.
--
Over all I feel: Sleepy
My main pain is: my ass
Last Night I was: crying
I hope I can: wake UP!!!
I'm happy about: feeling somewhat skinnyI'm sad about:Who else other than Notorious Nestor.
I'm irate about: Arm
I want to: have coffee
I'm gonna go: COLOR!!
Mood: Sleepy

]]> ~Estradoll http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/19133629/ http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/19133629/ Mon, 30 Jun 2008 18:46:33 PDT AHHH!!! SOMEONE SAVE ME!!!
Twenty-twenty-twenty four hours to go....
Just put me in a wheelchair, get me on a plane
Hurry hurry hurry before I go insane
I can't control my fingers I can't control my brain
Oh no no no no no
Twenty-twenty-twenty four hours to go I wanna be sedated
Nothin' to do and no where to go-o-o I wanna be sedated
Just put me in a wheelchair get me to the show
Hurry hurry hurry before I go loco
I can't control my fingers I can't control my toes
Oh no no no no no
--
Over all I feel: Shitty
My main pain is: Ass
Last Night I was: Dancing
I hope I can: Go Skate with Jake
I'm happy about: Nails are Black!!! YESS!!
I'm sad about:Eating
I'm irate about: Being FAT!!
I want to: pee
I'm gonna go: puke

]]> ~Estradoll http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/19110604/ http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/19110604/ Sun, 29 Jun 2008 13:56:08 PDT --
Over all I feel: Horrrible
My main pain is: Wow nowhere
Last Night I was: Sleeping Surprisingly
I hope I can: Go Skate with Jake
I'm happy about: Nails are Black!!! YESS!!
I'm sad about:eating this fucking Ice Cream
I'm irate about: Being FAT!!
I want to: Straighten My Hair
I'm gonna go: Play Guitar HERo

]]> ~Estradoll http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/19091429/ http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/19091429/ Sat, 28 Jun 2008 11:15:05 PDT I beg to differ any way.
This is exactly what it says.
Your Result: Skinny If you're so skinny you can't see yourself in the mirror when you turn sideways, you are too damn skinny. Eat a burger!
Wtf thay can't tell me to go eat and even if I were going to go and eat I wouldn't eat a burger.

Ughh still Sick itchy scratchy. At least I can bend my finger. Because all the swelling overall has gone down, which is good.
I hope it all goes away by Monday morning. Oh please do.
I wanna hang out with Andrew. I didn't even get to go see Wanted opening night!!!Aghhh Amn Mosquito's DAmn them to the hell that is my life.

And Jacob is another story his voicemail hates me I've called him and left him a zillion messages probably. I want to go skate with him. Skating by myself is depressing. Well I'm sick anyways. But I want my skating buddy. I miss him. Damn I'm a whiny bitch.
And the mood still isn't working either. but I guess I am kinda miserable.
Btw Nerissa I'm stealing your thing that was below this my arrow looked gay!!
--
Over all I feel: Horrrible
My main pain is: Everywhere
Last Night I was: Trying not to Itch
I hope I can: get better
I'm happy about: Nothing.
I'm sad about: Me not getting to go out with Andrew and seeeing wanted
I'm irate about: Being FAT!!
I want to: Shower
I'm gonna go: gawk at food

]]> ~Estradoll http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/19046653/ http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/19046653/ Wed, 25 Jun 2008 20:54:22 PDT Jacob Nestor

2: Do you like the last person you kissed?
mmm who was that??

3: Who was the last person to call you?
Mom

4: What is the last alcoholic beverage you had?
Rummmmm...yess

5: When was your last encounter with the police?
oh man at Starbucks haha

6: Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
Nah.


7: Did you sing at all today?
fa shiz

8: When's the last time you cried?
Today

9: Last text from?
Im Abdul

10: Are you scared of spiders?
noppers

11: Where were you last night?
home

12: What do you think of Fergie?
YACK!!!

13: Do you believe in love?
Hardly!!.

14: When was the last time you were so drunk you threw up?
errr....a year ago at Jake's paartay!!!

15: Have you done anything you regret in 2008 so far?
Jacob

16: Do you miss anyone?
Madre

17: Do you curse a lot?
all the fucking time.

and i see no problem in it

18: Who was the last person in your bed?
Not me...

19: Where is the person you have feelings for right now?
probly committing skating his fucking brains out

20: What color is your hair?
black-ish, brown-ish, blonde-ish

21: Have you ever drank with your parents?
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! no nevere..well at least..wait...ya


24: Are you too forgiving?
yes...dammit


25: Ever have a sleepover with the opposite sex?
lolz all the time.

27: Are you closer to your mother or father?
mum.

28: Do you have trust issues?
no not really...

29: Have you ever told someone of the opposite sex you loved them?
yes.

31: Who do you like to spend your nights with?
my besties

32: If someone liked you right now would you want them to tell you?
sure why not... as long as they aren't expecting me to say anything back..


33: Do you like someone you cant have?
yes, him and his gorgeousness is taken...

34: Are you a cuddler?
depends

35: Have you ever been to Florida?
nah

36: When did you last talk to your brother or sister?
2 secs ago

37: Do you ever wanna know who you're going to marry?
no never

38: Have you ever punched a guy?
Fuck YAs

39: Gotten in a car with people you just met?
yep..allot

40: Does anyone hate you for no reason?
i dunno

41: Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?
yeah.
-
Over all I feel: can't complain
My main pain is: arm
Last Night I was: dancing!!
I hope I can: see/tell jake...you know
I'm happy about: going to the movies.
I'm sad about: Food
I'm irate about: Nerissa/ Jake being butts!!
I want to: bake cookies for fun!!
I'm gonna go: draw

]]> ~Estradoll http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/19028059/ http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/19028059/ Tue, 24 Jun 2008 20:41:56 PDT DO NOT CHEAT
OR IT WON\'T WORK AND
YOU WILL WISH YOU HADN`T.

TAKE 3 MINUTES
TRY THIS - IT WILL FREAK YOU OUT.

THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO ME SAID
HER WISH CAME TRUE 10 MINUTES AFTER SHE FORWARDED THE EMAIL

NO CHEATING !!!!









THIS GAME HAS A FUNNY / CREEPY OUTCOME.

DO NOT READ AHEAD, JUST DO IT.

IT TAKES ABOUT 3 MINUTES - WORTH A TRY

1st. Get PEN and PAPER

2nd. WHEN CHOOSING NAMES, MAKE SURE THEY ARE REAL PEOPLE THAT YOU ACTUALLY KNOW

3rd. GO WITH YOUR FIRST INSTINCTS !!!!! Very important for good results.

4th. SCROLL DOWN

ONE LINE AT THE TIME
DON`T READ AHEAD
otherwise
YOU WILL RUIN THE FUN.









1. On a blank sheet of paper, WRITE NUMBERS 1 through 11 in a COLUMN on the LEFT.












2. BESIDE the NUMBERS 1 & 2 ,

WRITE DOWN ANY
2 NUMBERS YOU WANT..

DO YOU HAVE A FAVORITE NUMBER?














3. BESIDE the NUMBERS 3 & 7 ,

WRITE DOWN THE NAMES OF TWO MEMBERS
OF THE OPPOSITE SEX.











CAUTION: DO NOT LOOK AHEAD or IT WILL NOT TURN OUT RIGHT














4. WRITE ANYONES NAME

(like FRIENDS or FAMILY...)
next to 4, 5, & 6 .













DON`T CHEAT OR YOU`LL BE UPSET THAT YOU DID













5. WRITE down FOUR SONG TITLES in 8, 9, 10, & 11
















6. Finally,

MAKE A WISH

















ARE YOU READY?
HERE IS THE

KEY TO THE GAME


1. THE NUMBER of PEOPLE YOU MUST TELL ABOUT THIS GAME is found in

SPACE 2





2. THE PERSON IN SPACE

3 IS THE ONE YOU LOVE






3. THE PERSON YOU LIKE but your relationship CANNOT WORK is in

SPACE 7






4. YOU CARE MOST about the PERSON you put in

SPACE 4







5. THE PERSON YOU NAME IN NUMBER 5 IS THE ONE WHO

KNOWS YOU VERY WELL.







6. THE PERSON YOU NAMED IN 6 IS YOUR

LUCKY STAR







7. THE SONG IN 8 IS THE SONG THAT MATCHES WITH THE

PERSON IN NUMBER 3






8. THE TITLE IN 9 IS THE SONG FOR THE

PERSON IN 7







9. THE 10 TH SPACE IS THE SONG THAT TELLS YOU MOST ABOUT

YOUR MIND






10. AND 11 IS THE SONG TELLING HOW YOU

FEEL ABOUT LIFE






11. NUMBER 1 IS YOUR

LUCKY NUMBER

SEND THIS TO A MINIMUM OF
10 PEOPLE
WITHIN AN HOUR OF READING THIS.



IF YOU DO, YOUR WISH WILL COME TRUE.

IF YOU FAIL TO, IT WILL BECOME THE OPPOSITE

STRANGE HOW IT SEEMS TO WORK

--
This is my Results
1. 13
2. 28
3. Jacob N.
4. Mommy
5. John B.
6. Jacob W.
7. AndyDREW
8. Die Die my Darling
9. Wonderwall
10. Jesus of Suburbia
11. You Give Love a Bad Name

]]> ~Estradoll http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/19008782/ http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/19008782/ Mon, 23 Jun 2008 19:53:02 PDT [link]
If you feel down like me go here watch this.
Hell makes me feel better!!

]]> ~Estradoll http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/19008347/ http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/19008347/ Mon, 23 Jun 2008 19:25:50 PDT So I saw Get Smart on Saturday it was so funny. The best prt of the movie was when Max and the cheif just drove thru the golf course and Max says, "Are you thinking what I am thinking?" And the cheif turns to max and says, "If you're thinking holy Shit holy Shit! A swordfish almost went thru my head then yes!" omg it was so damn funny!!
Fyi It is still hot here...omg I am dying literally I am sick and erggghh!!
I am going to D-land w/ Anydrew ohh such a cutie!! I'ma post his picc in a bit. Oh ma god so hott!!!and thn take piccs w/ him.
Jake's stll grounded. RR he owes me!! But God I love him!!
I ate too today I ate. So what shoot me!! It was just a pancake...ehhh.
I nnot wait for Batman Hellboy and Wnted to come Out!
Also Harry Potter..But that's t till November!!!
I decided. I'm going to make a joker costume to wear to school. and do Mrs. lovett to wear on Halloween night. out or lalala.
I am working on a tatoo art for someone on DA, as well as my robotboy, vampire, an now the joker hahaha.
I was miserable today other wise I'd ave done it. So I sat around drk water,made a pancake...ha stewie!, and watched movies all day!!
I watched the Holy Grail, ESB, Mr and Mrs. Smith, Old School Batman, and Van Helsing.
Over all I feel: Sick
My main pain is: throat
Last Night I was: dying!!
I hope I can: get some cool air!!
I'm happy about: Disneyland.
I'm sad about: Jacob being grounded...LOSER!!
I'm irate about: FOOD!!!
I want to: eat!!
I'm gonna go: Shower

]]> ~Estradoll http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/18954695/ http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/18954695/ Fri, 20 Jun 2008 17:56:00 PDT
Here's what I like

TURNS YOU ON = ON
TURNS YOU OFF = OFF
YOU DON'T CARE= DC

GIRLS FILL THIS PART OUT

Wears a grill: OFF

Dresses Gangsta: OFF

Dresses Preppy: DC

Dresses Skater: ON

Dresses Athletic: OFF

Has green eyes: ON

Has brown eyes: ON

Has hazel eyes: ON

Drinks alcohol: DC

Smokes cigarettes: DC

Smokes weed: DC

Plays sports: DC

Can skate: ON

Writes poetry: BIG ON!

Writes songs: BIG ON!

Smiles a lot: BIG ON!

Has red hair: ON

Has blond hair: ON

Has *shit* brown hair: WAY ON

Has black hair: DEFINITELY ON

Has emo hair: WAY WAY ON

Has no hair: OFF

Good dancer: either is good if they can't it's cute but if they can...ohh baby

Wears jewelry: Depends

Piercings: ON ON ON!!!

Muscles: OFF

Tattoos: ON

Laid back: DC

Plays guitar: ON

Plays drums: FUCK YA ON!!!!

Plays piano: DC

Raps: OFF OFF OFF

Can draw: YA ON!!!

Has a lip ring: ON ON ON ON ON FUCKING ON!!!

Has a tongue ring: DC

Eyebrow pierced: ON

Nipples pierced: OFF!!!!!!

Facial hair: OFF WAY OFF

Hugs you: ON !!

Creative: ON

Calls you just to hear your voice: ON

Religious: DC

Is funny: ON

Treats you like a queen: OFF!!

Trusts you: ON

Smells good: ON

-

Over all I feel: can't complain
My main pain is: feet
Last Night I was: dancing!!
I hope I can: get some diet coke!!
I'm happy about: going to the movies.
I'm sad about: Jacob being grounded...LOSER!!
I'm irate about: F'ing FOOD!!!
I want to: bake cookies for fun!!
I'm gonna go: Swimming

]]> ~Estradoll http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/18937332/ http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/18937332/ Thu, 19 Jun 2008 19:58:10 PDT 1. tag 3 ppl (not the one who sent it to you!)
2. answer all truthfully
and link to your journal.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Info
[X] I am shorter than 5'4. (hate it)
[X] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[X] I have many scars.
[ ] I tan easily.
[X] I wish my hair was a different color.
[X] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[X] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[X] I have/I've had braces.(had)
[ ] I wear glasses.
[ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free (ewww gross)
[X] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.(allot I beg to differ tho)
[X] I have more than 2 piercings.(had allot)
[X] I have piercing in places besides my ears.
[X] I have freckles. (on my hands)
Family/Home Life
[X]I've sworn at my parents.
[X] I've run away from home.(several times)
[X] I've been kicked out of the house.
[ ] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[x]I want to have kids someday.(adoptive)
[ ] I've lost a child.
School/Work
[x]I'm in school
[X] I have a job(Targhetto)
[X] I've fallen asleep at work/school.(Every Day!!!)
[x] I almost always do my homework.
[x] I've missed a week or more of school.
[ ] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years
[ ] I failed more than 1 class in school
[X] I've stolen something from my job(no *cough cough*)
[ ] I've been fired
Embarrassment
[ ] I've slipped out an "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[ ] Disney movies still make me cry.
[X] I've peed from laughing.
[x] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[x] I've glued my hand to something.
[X] I've had my pants rip in public.
Health
[ ] I was born with a disease/impairment.
[X] I've gotten stitches/staples.
[X] I've broken a bone
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[X] I've sat in a doctor’s office/emergency room with a friend.
[X] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.(painful!!!)
[x] I had a serious surgery.(nose surgery i couldn't breathe through my nose)
[ ]I've had chicken pox.
[ ] I've had measles
Traveling
[ ] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.)
[x] I've been on a plane.
[X] I've been to Canada.
[X] I've been to Mexico.
[X] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[ ] I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[ ] I've been to Europe.
[ ] I've been to Africa.
Experiences
[x] I've gotten lost in my city.
[x] I've seen a shooting star.
[x] I've wished on a shooting star.
[ ] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[X] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[X] gone up a down going escalator
[X] I've kicked a guy where it hurts
[X] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving.(love to as well as base jumping)
[X] I've gone skinny dipping.
[X] Gone Streaking
[X] I've played spin the bottle.
[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.(does 2 L of diet coke count)
[ ] I've crashed a car. (golf car!)
[ ] I've been Skiing.
[x] I've been in a play. (love acting)
[x] I've met someone in person from myspace.
[] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ ] I've seen the Northern lights.
[X] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[ ] I've played chicken.
[x] I've played a prank on someone.
[x] I've ridden in a taxi.
[ ] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.(what?)
[x] I've eaten sushi. (once upon a time ago)
[x] I've been snowboarding.
Relationships
[x] I'm single
[ ] I'm in a relationship.
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married
[x] I've gone on a blind date.
[ ] I've been the dumped more than the dumper.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[ ] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've gotten divorced.
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't give them back.
[x] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.(OH YEAH!)
[X] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[X] I've kept something from a past relationship.
Sexuality
[X] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[X] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[X] I am a cuddler.
[x] I've been kissed in the rain.
[x] I've hugged a stranger.
[x] I have kissed a stranger
Honesty/Crime
[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.(yeah..long story)
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[x] I've snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x] I've cheated while playing... ]]> ~Estradoll http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/18917982/ http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/18917982/ Thu, 19 Jun 2008 20:02:18 PDT Feels the way I do about you now

Because maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me ?
And after all
You're my wonderwall

I just need someone to save me no-one's here!!

Help, I need somebody
Help, not just anybody
Help, you know I need someone, help
Help me if you can, I'm feeling down
And I do appreciate you being round
Help me get my feet back on the ground
Won't you please, please help me....

Ooooh I dunno anymore! Men are asses no ofense to the asses out there!! But they're Lying,Cheating,Heart Stealing, Ignorant, Abandoning ASSHOLES!!!!!!!! THAT ARE NEVER EVER THER WHEN YOU NEED THEM!!!!!!!!
I need/need to talk to jacob he's not picking up his phone niether is my dad.
richard cheated on me. I know it's a while ago but he's just now telling me.
I love JAcob there I said it now I need to tell him...
I need my mom!!!
at least she loved me..
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]]> ~Estradoll http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/18900274/ http://Estradoll.deviantart.com/journal/18900274/ Tue, 17 Jun 2008 20:04:56 PDT
1.) Name

Olivia
2.) Do you have any nicknames/ Aliases?:

Rayne/ Dolly/ Whore/ Bella

3.) How old were you when you were turned?:

16

4.) How old are you in vampire years?:

50 and some months,

5.)Who is your sire?:

A manwhore/ asshole

6.) Are you apart of a coven/clan?:

Yes, and I was not no more I was rejected shortly after being changed

7.) What are your powers, abilities?:

Mind Reading, Quick Movement, and FLight.

8,) Coffins, are they a necessity?:

Not for me, Dark room does fine
9.) What time do you awaken in the evening?:

At whatever time I get up.
10.)Do you feed right after awakening?:

Not necessarily. I usually go out right away,

11.) Do you have a favorite type to feed on?:

Yes, Brown haired Green eyed boys with long emo hair.

12.)Do you have any special hunting tricks?:

Seduction

13.)Even though there’s no need to consume it, do you have a favorite human food?:

Aside from blood no food. ohh exept chocolate

14.)Are you a vampire with a weakness for liquor?:

Where's the liquor?! Is it Rum??? Vodka?
15.)Do you have a pet?:

Had

16.)Who is your lover?:

Jacob

17.) Do you have an advisor, best friend, close companion?:

Myself

18.) Are you a sexual being?:

Verry. Rape is how I say hello
19.)Have you ever slept with any of your victims?:

Sure, But really, they know they love it.
20.) Do you fear crucifixes?:

Don't believe Don't work

21.) How about garlic?:

Yes, stings my eyes.
22.) What about the stake through the heart?:

Heart's Don't matter as a matter of fact mines been stolen from me

23.) If you could be another creature aside from a human or vampire, what would you be?:

A...um...I dunno.
24.) You are attacked by Selene from Underworld, what do you do?:

I don't know why everybody thinks she's so bad ass. I'd kick her bloody teeth in.
25.) Now you’re attacked by Blade?:

I'd kick his ass too!
26.) Did you think that Louis whined too much?:

Way too much

27.) How about that Lestat?:

Very Sexy man...ooh baby...we're close very close on Saturdays

28.) Are you happy as a vampire?:

I can't say that I hate it. Everyone I love either dies or hates me I am alone
29.) Would you prevent your turning if you could?:

What? Why???.


The Questiones

1.Do people refer to you as a moody person?
All th time you never know when I might...do something unexpected?
2. How often and how easily do you express your feelings?
Whenever I feel I need to...
3. What feelings do you find hardest to express?
My feelings for my secret love...
4. How much attention do you give your emotions in decision-making?
Allot. I think too much
5. How do you generally handle anxiety?
ermm...I don't really
6. When you have trouble expressing your emotions verbally, what non-verbal expressions tend to give away your true feelings?
When my fangs stick out and my eyes change color!
7. When it comes to anger, do you tend to blow up easily, or hold it in too long?
YES! I ESSSSPLODE!!! "The thing is with bombs is once you pull the pinnn..............BOOM!"
8. When you experience strong feelings of love for someone else, is it more a longing to give or receive affection?
Both
9. Do you ever feel crippled by your emotions?
yes, allot
10. Do you work at turning bad situations into good ones?
Typically it's so hard....and why does life have to be so difficult
11. Do you use humor as a way to avoid negative emotions?
NO INSANITY!!

12. Do you act the way you'd like to?
NO I HATE BEING ME!

13. How often do you express how you feel?
24/7
14.Are you afraid of being laughed at?
Not at all, I 'm used to it!
15.Do you make fun of others?
Hardly, I don't think It's fun!

16.Does what others say easily irritate you?
Yes, What they do as well
17.Do you become upset if you cannot make a decision?
Too much!
18.Are your feelings easily hurt?
My skin is thick...trust me I know

19.Can you laugh at your own flaws?
Yes, like when I tripped and fell off that building…
20.Do you get upset if things do not go your way?
NO I am not that spoiled
21.Do you feel dependent on anyone?
No I have me an myself
~Estradoll