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It has come to my attention that I recently broke 8,000 page views. Woo. But for any of you who remember my lengthy list of New Years resolutions, I made it a point to get to 10,000 page views before the year is over.

It's getting pretty close.

I should probably think about uploading more.



]]> *EtherealMotives http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/27519331/ http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/27519331/ Thu, 01 Oct 2009 10:50:41 PDT [link]
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It's been quite a while since I last updated this journal. I almost don't care though. I've been really busy, for sure.

Anyways, things are good.

I quick Party City, officially, on July 30. A couple of weeks later I was hired at a place called c-Systems Software. It's pretty good, I guess, so far. We produce software that poqer equipment companies use to stock and sell all their inventory. It's kind of boring, I typically spend the majority of my day sitting at my desk.

But whatev.

In other news, I've joined a band. Well, some of you might know that I'm on the worship team at church, and that's NOT the band I'm talking about. A few of the members from the worship team have come together to form, I suppose you could dub us, an indie band.

Of the 6-7 worship team members, four of us have come together to do this. Though, really, only myself and Ben (band leader/front man) are really really serious about it. We've been making all sorts of plans and conducting all sorts of research.

It'll be good. We're aiming for a sound sorta like The Horrors and The Strokes.

So far we only have one song, "Intergalactic". I play keyboard on it, Jess plays guitar, Ben bass and Justin plays drums. Actually, I'm not sure how much that one fits the direction we're going for. Ben and I are going to take it a bit more seriously than "Intergalactic" sounds, I think. But anyways, we've been writing and writing and writing, and when we get a website up we'll for sure stream our music and let you guys have a listen!

Aside from that, I'm going to start designing shirts. I've been considering this for a while, and if I can get something good going on sites like designbyhumans.com then I'll be able to fund the band a little bit, which is good. Wish me luck on that, please.

Also wanting to take art more seriously. I need to really get it together and start finishing some actual good work to post here. Though, I'm honestly thinking of giving up deviantart submissions altogether. I might just not have anything worth putting up here. In fact, I'll probably clear out most of my gallery soon. We'll see. Even if I don't upload, I'll still stick around to enjoy the works of those I'm watching.

We'll see how that goes.

Also... started a blog. Not much is on it yet, but if anybody is interested, I'll post the link to it once some more posts have been slapped onto it.

Aaaand... I dunno. Life is life. Life is good. Work... is boring, and recently a little frustrating.

And that's that.

Oh, and I've taken up skateboarding.


http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/25876311/ Sat, 11 Jul 2009 08:55:50 PDT [link]
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Hopefully you guys noticed that I've uploaded a few pictures since my last journal. I just wanted to explain why they all look so similar. Please don't think that and I have no artistic direction, heh. I do think that my 'blank' face in these pictures is somewhat silly (because I NEVER carry a serious face in my day-to-day so it just looks weird on me, I think.) But this face was the point. Jess is trying to be more conceptual etc. etc. So yes... That's the point, I guess?

I promise, none of those shots are candid ones. D:

Also, I guess, on another note. Her and I recently got back from being in New York. It was a blast. There's too much to say for me to care about writing it all down at the moment, but let me tell you... it as a cavalcade of fun.

Will hopefully be uploading more work soon. I'm taking my day off to be productive (hence the, gasp, new pictures!) Hopefully I'll get some good work done for y'all. Seriously, I wouldn't doubt it if I've lost some watchers due to my inactivity. :/



<... ]]> *EtherealMotives http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/24806266/ http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/24806266/ Sun, 17 May 2009 13:57:06 PDT [link]
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This is a meme I found in a journal of someone who recently visited my page. I thought it'd be fun to do. It will help me develop my characters more, maybe, and it will get y'all to know the characters a little as well. Which is really what I've been wanting to do lately. Get y'all informed about what's going on in my head. Lol. I do feel a little bad though, because only a small percentage of these characters are shown in my gallery. If that. I'd like to update that so you'll all know who I'm talking about.
Beware. The names of these characters aren't even original anymore. I selected them about five years ago (at least) and at this point they seem way overdone already. I might have to change some of them lol.

1. Hiro
2. Naoko
3. Lucia
4. Leon
5. Moris
6. Nyoko
7. Merle
8. Ten
9. Ansel
10. Tanaka
11. Mitra
12. Carina


1. Who would make a better college professor, 6 or 11?
Hmm... Probably Mitra. Though, to be honest, that's only because she has patience for kids. Nyoko would certainly dispose of the class before day one was finished.

2. Do you think #2 is hot? How hot?
No. Naoko isn't supposed to be a super fine heroine. Her purpose is to be the average girl that readers/watchers could relate to.

3. 12 sends 8 on a mission. What is it, and does it succeed?
Ha, wow that would make carina quite two-faced. But no doubt, she'd send Ten on a mission for donuts. Carina loves donuts. It sure would not succeed, however, because Ten is a baddy.

4. What is or would be 9's favorite book?
Definitely a field-guide type book that boyscouts use, haha.

5. Would it make more sense for 2 to swear fealty to 6, or the other way around?
Interesting... it could really go either way.

6. For whatever reason, 5 is looking for a roommate. Should 5 share a studio apartment with 9 or with 10?
Moris would definitely share his apartment with Tanaka. For one, Ansel isn't mature enough to live out on his own. He's one of the youngest in this group. And Tanaka is quite responsible, what with taking care of leftover obligations for his dad and all.

7. 2, 7, and 12 have dinner together. Where do they go, and what do they discuss?
Hahaha, Lord. Of course it would NEVER happen, but they'd probably go to a shady bar in the middle of no where and discuss some kind of truce.

8. 3 challenges 10 to a duel. What happens?
Lucia would totally get pwned. But Tanaka would be nice about it.

9. If 1 stole 8's most precious possession, how would 8 get it back?
Technically Hiro does in fact take something precious from Ten. And she'd be all for revenge. It's in the story, look forward to it~?

10. Suggest a title for a story in which 7 and 12 both attain what they most desire.
What's with all this 7/12 pairing? lol. The title would be "Death and the Donut Horde"

11. What kind of plot device would you use if you wanted 4 and 1 to work together?
Well, they're friends anyways, but to really get along I suppose Hiro would have to get over his insecurities. And Leon would have to give up the need for a spotlight all the time. Really they'd have to overcome their selves.

12. If 7 visited you for the weekend, how would you get along?
Being the creator of Merle, I'd just threaten to take her out of the story completely if she didn't behave. And if all remained civil we'd probably work on story events together with her continuously trying to put her fate on top.

13. If you could command 3 to perform any one task or service for you, what would it be?
Go buy me clothes. She's definitely a shopper.

14. Does anyone on your friends list write or draw anything regarding 11?
Actually, nobody really knows about any of these characters. But Mitra is actually based off of someone from my friends list.

15. If 2 had to choose sides between 4 and 5, which would it be?
Hmm.. it really depends. But for the sake of not going into too much wasted detail, she'd probably be naive and side with Leon.

16. What might 10 shout while charging into battle?
"SOMEONE GET ME OUT OF HERE!" ... he's really brave though... really.

17. If you chose a song to represent 8, which song would you choose?
-looking at playlist- Well I'm sure there are a few but the one I can certainly pinpoint is "Lulu's Theme" from Final Fantasy X,

18. 1, 6, and 12 are having dim sum at a Chinese restaurant. There is only one scallion pancake left, and they all reach for it at the same time. Who gets to eat it... ]]> *EtherealMotives http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/24804782/ http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/24804782/ Sun, 17 May 2009 12:31:17 PDT [link]
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Hopefully you'll notice that I've uploaded a few more pictures into my gallery. They're really nothing special. I like them, yes, but they're not new or improved. I don't like the idea of people watching someone who rarely uploads. I have been quite dead and not in the mood to draw. But I spent some time today going through some old pictures and pulled out a few I thought y'all might like. Please support me! =__=;

I'm going to be joining, or hopefully joining anyways, a contest. I JUST found the perfect song to keep me going on it as well. The primary idea I had for my entry included characters of a super old story of mine, but then "Goodbye Melody Rose" by Khalil Fong came on and I wasn't able to put my original idea into motion. But I've just shuffled into "A.S.A.P." by Utada Hikaru and it jjust might work for me. Or "Shiro no Longtail" from Wolf's Rain would work too now that I think about it. Haha.

Anyways, please don't look down on me! I'll really try to get some quality pieces done. hurr hurr.

P.S.
In my defense, I did spend a couple of theses passed weeks working on some original music for church. Lol. Yay creativity?



http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/23719204/ Sun, 15 Mar 2009 19:45:23 PDT [link]
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Hey kids, I just wanted to say thank you to all my watchers and visitors. I hit six thousand page views today. That's six thousand after one year, while at my last account I had only gotten half that in three. My goal, for any of you who remember my New Years resolutions, was to get to ten thousand by the end of the year.

Hopefully I can get even more than that, we'll see.

Anyways, thanks again.

Please stick around I scanned in some pics today. A good 15 or so. After my massive uploads of photography, you'll finally get to see some more drawings. Dunno if I'm going to color them yet or not, we'll see.



]]> *EtherealMotives http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/23634094/ http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/23634094/ Tue, 10 Mar 2009 20:11:38 PDT [link]
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Hey kids,

I recently had a photo shoot with (from now on known as Jessica).

If you haven't checked your messages, or my gallery recently, please hop on over there and check it all out. Also, do a bunny hop to the side while you're at it and check out Jessica's shots. She has some different stuff than I do, so more goodness for ya.



Originally, this was just supposed to be a nice, one-shot type of deal. I had previously (a few weeks earlier) asked Jessica to help me out with a shot I had in mind. Just one picture, I told her. Little did I know that it would turn into a a full project, measuring up to most of our other shoots.

As you can see, the subject of the shoot happens to be myself and Jessica with our heads wrapped in a sheet. I can't say what inspired this shoot. I... must have been kind of down the day it came into my head. But I'm happy, because the shots came out great. I feel they're soulful and creative and even a little dark. I've never done work that had such feeling to it, and this shoot, I feel, was more than just a step in the right direction. It seems more like a few big steps in that direction. The best thing is that the following shot (below) is the original one shot that I needed, and it came out just as I wanted it.



I love when that happens.

That day we got pretty dirty. Wrapping our heads in sheets that ended up getting soaked in dirty alley-way water. (You'll notice a dark line in some shots. That's a small stream we lied in.) I was truly soaked, through my jeans and all. Not to mention having to stop shooting at least three times, because cars that never drive down the alley thought it'd be fun for a Sunday afternoon. And let me say, it was not fun having to re-wrap my head with that dirty, wet cloth. But I honestly feel stronger about it all now. "For the sake of photography." I had to tell myself. It was actually pretty great.

I think that this particular shoot has been good for the two of us. For myself, at least. I can't speak for Jess. We really gave it our all, though to be honest, we hadn't planned it for Sunday at all. Jessica simply called me up and said, "Hey, the sun's out, do you wanna do that shoot?" And there you have it. I think that we're growing to do these things more professionally. I got my hands on some lighting equipment, and I'm familiarizing myself with some photoshop techniques when finishing the pictures up.

Things are going really swell.



I recently moved on to getting myself a flickr and artbistro account.

[link]
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If you have an account at either site, please add me!

This has been a great, past week for me. I'm feeling very productive, and really trying to get things underway.

Jessica and I have decided to partner together... ]]> *EtherealMotives http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/23515322/ http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/23515322/ Wed, 04 Mar 2009 17:00:25 PST

EDIT:
The new shots are up. I mentioned that I'd try for a solo minishoot tonight. And... it went through. I don't know if I like the pictures or not. They came out as I pictured them in my head, but the quality of the shots is terrible. I think I might've had my camera on a wrong setting...

Anyways. I had to wrap it up really quick, because the parents came home earlier than I thought they would. Please view and comment the pics. Butcher them, please. I'm really trying to get better at photography, but I think I'm getting worse. Or gaining nothing at all at the least.

Hmm. I try.

_____________________________________________

No reason for the title.

Just wanted to let you guys know I'm alive.

Though, I have felt very dead lately. Not productive at all.

Hopefully that'll change soon.

I have been getting back in to church. Been making it two times week, and I'm thinking of making it three times. So it's good. It's something I feel really good about.

Work is terrible, surprise surprise. I need to get another job.

I've decided to go to Anime Expo in California in July. Morning Musume will be performing there, which is definitely the reason I've decided to go. It's gonna be pretty darn boss.

So.

Just a quick update.

I'm thinking of trying to take a small, solo shoot tomorrow before church. It might happen, it might not. We'll see.

Also, cleaned up my gallery. Deleted quite a many things from it, and moved a few things to scraps.

I wish my work was more professional looking. But maybe I just need to start spending some worthwhile time on my projects.

That could be it.

Anyways, thanks for keeping me around. Please be patient, I'm not really feeling inspired at the moment.


http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/23068515/ Sat, 07 Feb 2009 19:13:18 PST
Anyways, I just wanted to let you guys know that I' hoping to update soon. Please don't think I'm being lazy. After the Sayumi pic, I started pretty much immediately on another portrait. And in case I haven't said who it's a picture of... I won't be saying it now. Heh, I don't think y'all will care who it is, but I want it to be a surprise for the people at M-C who just might appreciate it a bit more.

Anyways, I had worked a whole week non-stop on it, and then took a week break, and I've started to work on it again. I have been lazy, but I do think it's important to just take a break from a project sometimes. Take a nap or go watch tv, and come back with a new outlook on the piece. So that's what's been going down. The picture is frustrating at the least, and I've found myself taking more and more breaks the farther along it comes.

Oy.

Also had a minishoot with on friday, and she's supposed to send me the raw files from it sometime soon. Hopefully you guys will enjoy our latest attempt at photography? Lol, I feel like such a failure sometimes. Especially with photography, since you can't just erase an arm here and put one there. Or... you could but it probably (in my case) wouldn't look right.

If there's anything I've learned, though, from these shoots, it's how to clean up a picture. Whether it be touch-ups on the skin or in the background, I feel like a pretty seasoned doctor when those raws are put in my care. Hurrhurr~

So wish me luck. I reeeeally want to finish this portrait soon. It's starting to bug me how long I've spent on it. (of course, at the same time I know that if I rush it-like everything else I do- it's going to turn out sucky.)

So there you go. Update in a nutshell.

Sal is getting more and more annoying at work, and I've been quite bad the passed week and a half. Hmm... I wonder if I'll ever grow out of this...


http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/22790550/ Sat, 24 Jan 2009 20:24:34 PST
I recently rearranged my room. yay. Every piece of furniture was shifted counter-clockwise to the next wall. And now, I've been sleeping better than ever. Heh, funny how those things happen.

I also went through aaaall the drawingsI've been wanting to work on and picked out the ones that I really really want to finish. They're all line drawings. Do you guysmind that stuff? Or would you rather see me try my hand at coloring more?

In any case, I will finish up the WIPs that I've collected. And then I won't be posting WIPs ever again. I've realized that once one is posted, I feel no urge to finish the pic. Aha.

So that'll happen.

And this year I want to follow in the footsteps of and start doing portraits. Morning Musume portraits to be specific, and according to a pol, I posted at Musume-Central forum, Sayumi Michishige should be my first hit.

I'm excited.

And also, I hope y'all noticed the recent pics. It seems so serious at first and then ens up looking like tests shots or practice.

Sigh.



http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/22604804/ Thu, 15 Jan 2009 20:59:19 PST [x] Mothe​r
[x] Fathe​r (Haven't seen him in at least 8 years. Probably more.)
[x] Step-​Fathe​r (Adopted me after my mom received full custody.Referred to as my regular Dad, lol.)
[ ] Step-​Mothe​r
[x] Step-​Siste​r (Younger)
[x] Step Broth​er (Younger)
[ ] Broth​er x2
[ ] Broth​er In Law
[x] Siste​r (Older)
[ ] Siste​r In Law
[ ] Half siste​r
[x] Half broth​er (Technically. But he was born after my parents split. I've never met him and I've only seen one picture of his ugly, brute face.)
[x] Nephe​w
[ ] Niece​
[ ] Girlf​riend​
[ ] Boyfr​iend
[x] Cell phone​
[x] Have/​had a Swimm​ing pool (Above ground, no diving aloud and a good five strokes from one side to the other.)
[ ] Have/​had a Hot tub
[ ] Guest​room
[x] Livin​g Room
[x] Game Room
[x] Compu​ter
[x] TV
Total​:​ 14

[ ] Full size or bigge​r bed
[ ] More than 8 pairs​ of shoes​ (Not quite 8, but a fairly large number of shoes for a guy, I think.)
[x] Sungl​asses​
[x] Watch​
[x] MP3 Playe​r/​iPod that works​
[x] PS2 that works​
[ ] Xbox that works​
[ ] Ninte​ndo DS or PSP that works​
[x] Gameb​oy/​Advan​ce (Special edition "Pokemon Yellow" Gameboy from forever ago.)
[ ] Gamec​ube
[ ] Wii
[ ] PS3
[ ] Laptop​
Total​ so far: 19

[ ] Baske​tball​/​Netba​ll hoop (Used to and then we all stopped playing with it .)
[ ] Air hocke​y table​
[ ] Pool table​
[ ] Ping pong table​
[ ] Foose​ball table​
[ ] Volle​yball​ net
Total​ so far: 19

[x] Night​stand​
[x] Stere​o in bedro​om
[x] DVD playe​r in bedro​om (Well, in my computer there is one kinda, yeah?)
Total​ so far: 22

[ ] Goes shopp​ing at least​ once a week
[x] AIM/​MSN
[x] Camer​a/​or on phone​

Total​ so far: 24

[ ] Elect​ric or gas scoot​er/​4x4/​motor​ cycle​/​car/​go-​cart (Used to have an awesome red scooter.)
[ ] Guita​r/​drums​/​bass guita​r / guita​r hero
[x] Piano​/​Keybo​ard
[ ] Any other​ instr​ument​
[ ] Been on a cruis​e
[x] Trave​led out of the state​
[ ] Had a perso​nal train​er
[x] Expen​sive jewel​ery (My watch was a few hundred...)
[ ] Met a singe​r/​band/​actor​/​actre​ss
Total​ so far: 27

[ ] Staig​htene​r/​curli​ng iron
[ ] Have been to a batti​ng cage
[ ] Have $50 on you right​ now (Plastic only, Homes.)
[x] Credi​t card or atm and or debit​ card of bank card
[x] Have/​had a massi​ve tv
[x] Mirro​r in your room (I hear it's location is so not feng shui.)
[ ] You have about​ two close​ts in your room
[x] 2 or more bedro​oms in your house​
[ ] Been to Las Vegas​
[x] Been to the Baham​as (And it was the coldest weather they had ever had, we couldn't swim in the ocean, and I got sick. Take that.)
[ ] Been to Mexic​o
[x] Have over 5 troph​ies in your room or medal​s or ribbon​s (All art related and displayed nicely on my curtain rod holders, lol.)
Total​ so far: 33

[x] Your Paren​ts have a car
[x] You have a car
[ ] You/p​aren​ts own or owned​ a Jet Ski/​boat
[ ] Have owned​ or own skis/​snowb​oard
Total​ so far: 35

[x] Been campi​ng
[x] Been to 3+ state​s
[ ] 100+ buddi​es on faceb​ook/​myspa​ce/​aim (I've always been told that only losers count their friends, hurr hurr.)
Total​ so far: 37

[ ] Home cooke​d meal almos​t every​day (Typically nuked, lol.)
[ ] Been in a limo
[x] Been in an airpl​ane
[ ] Own/​owned​ a camco​rder
[x] Own a compu​ter
Total​ so far: 39

Upper Class? Have we pulled ourselves up from the trenches, really...?

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0 or less = Bum____________
1-22 = Poor emo___________
23-​33 = Average Teen_______
34-​44 = Upper​ class​ teen_____
45- ​up = Rich brat___________

]]> *EtherealMotives http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/22392938/ http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/22392938/ Sun, 11 Jan 2009 20:05:49 PST
Hmm.

Just got back yesterday from new York. I don't think I mentioned that I was going to be leaving, but I did. I left Christmas day with the fam and had a blast. Unfortunately I had to come home.

But maybe I'll move up there someday.

Will do a more complete journal later. I'm feeling lazy.

+++UPDATE, STARTO+++

Not much going on in the life of Eric. Let's see. I did mention going to New York. It was really fun. We didn't really play in the snow hat much. I had gone outside to slide on a saucer, but when I sat on it I sank in the snow and ended up not going anywhere. So just like that, I gave up. It seems that things had changed greatly for me since the last time I was able to play in the snow. It just wasn't accepting me this time.

But that's okay, because all I really wanted was for it to snow. And it came down a good eight inches.

My grandparents' house is so relaxing. They live in Woodstock, New York, the hippy town of America. It's fun. Stepping into Woodstock is... I feel cultured, kind of, you know? It's just different there. It's peaceful, especially in the winter. And there are woods everywhere, which is a major plus. As it is now, I don't go outside much. But when I'm in a wooded area, like at my grandparents' house, I love to go for walks/hikes outside by myself. It's really pleasant to be alone sometimes.

My Grandpa Tony surprised me with a visit to the city, just me and him for the day. It was a lot of fun. We rode a train from Poughkeepsie to the city and came out of Grand Central Station. It took somewhere between an hour to two hours to arrive. Our first destination was just a block or two away, the Kinokuniya bookstore.

I had visited this store before, but it was in a different location. This relocated store was three times as big as the last and had a cafe inside. I love this store. Love it. I spent a good, what was it? Three hours inside? My Grandpa Tony just sat in the cafe and read his paper while I looked around. It was amazing. There was so much stuff. If I didn't have to worry about money, I would have bought a lot more than I did. I bought a couple of art collection books. One called "Apple" and the other a Persona 3 book. I wanted to get more, but everything I wanted was a bit expensive.

After I had found what I was going to buy, I sat down with GPa and we had some of the best coffee I have ever tasted, and an amazing chicken bento. I seriously could have that combination of food everyday for lunch for the rest of my life. It was delicious.

That single day might have been the highlight of my trip. We later went to another japanese bookstore called Book Off. It was a used bookstore. I really wanted to buy some manga there, especially because they were having an end of the year sale, but 90% of the manga they had wasn't translated. Interesting, but unfortunate.

My vacation in New York was amazing. I honestly can't stop using that word enough. I loved being up there. My Aunt Patti really wants me to move up there and go to Ulster community college. I have to say, I'd love to further my education up there. It's such a wonderful place. I love the ambience of New York. Living in Texas... it's kind of drab, you know? It's just so suburbia. I wonder when I'll get out of here.

I sound so silly.

My mom really doesn't want me to leave ever. She says I can leave in 2010. I did want to put off college until then. But... If I could land a spot at a school in New York and have a place to stay, why not take it? I'd feel bad for hurting my mom by moving, because I know she loves me the most (lol) but I also feel bad for not bettering myself after having planned it for so so long.

Anyways.

I did get some pictures. When I'm not feeling lazy, I'll post them up. Possibly in this journal if I think they're not deviation-worthy.

I've drawn quite a bit.

I finally finished "Breaking Dawn."

And after much deliberation I've decided upon New Years resolutions:

+ Work out more so I can look decent for con.
+ Finally get my character designs down pat.
+ Do all those Morning Musume portraits I've been wanting to do for a while.
+ Apply for scholarships.
+ Get prints done in time for a con.
+ Cosplay.
+ Overcome an insecurity.
+ Overcome a temptation.
+ Do that summer photoshoot I had planned.
+ Be more productive.
+ Get a better job.
+ 10,000 pageviews or more.

And... maybe I'll think of more?

]]> *EtherealMotives http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/22004623/ http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/22004623/ Mon, 15 Dec 2008 19:22:23 PST
I think it's ridiculous.

I think the admins need to clean this place up. Or let browsing be more customizable. So that we could choose what will come up in search results, etc. That way we could make sure that something we don't want to see, won't be seen.

Friggin' ridiculous.

No joke.



]]> *EtherealMotives http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/21737263/ http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/21737263/ Sun, 30 Nov 2008 11:12:06 PST EDIT: So I was just wondering if anybody would be interested in seeing any sketches/unfinished/finished pencil works? Because the whole coloring thing isn't exactly norm, but I feel that I'm heading in the sort of direction. So would you want to see finished pencil stuff that may or may not ever get colored? How about super old drawings from years ago? Or crappy "before the revamp" character designs?

Maybe I'll get a blog thinger for sketches? But which would I use? There are a lot. Like livejournal, tumblr, wordpress, myblog? Input, please and thanks

So, the whole Fall shoot thing didn't work out. The sun was hiding that day, and I personally needed sun for my pictures. So the idea was scratched, though Jess did take a few shots for herself.

I'm in a slump. I dunno. As far as art goes, things are going well. I'm currently coloring a pic on the comp and it should be done soon. I'm liking it, so far. And, well, I feel productive on that front.

Work is a drag. I'm ready to quit. Or be fired. Honestly, I'd like to be fired. I ask for it everyday, but they refuse to go through with it. Whyyyy?

And and...

I'm being good, mostly. I'm trying to be careful with my choices, plan things ahead, be productive.

I need to be more up-front with life, if you know what I mean. Lately I feel like I'm wasting it.

I've got to do something.

And, that's that. Kind of a messy journal, but I thought I should update since I haven't in a while. I hope everybody had a nice Thanksgiving.

P.S.
Recently been practicing on anatomy. Not sure if I'll post the sketches here. Mmm... also been working on lips and hair layers. Things are coming along nicely. I l-l-l-(lollipop?)-love art.



http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/21587798/ Thu, 20 Nov 2008 19:14:17 PST
Not really.

But I really did hope you'd like them.

This weekend I'll try and get more work done. I need to fix up and post the pictures taken from the minishoot last weekend. Though, I'm feeling super lazy and I honestly just don't want to go through the whole process to post them. I'd rather them never see the light of day (other than being seen at Jessica's account) than go through the process of fixing them, adding tone, size adjusting, etc. I'm not sure why I feel so lazy. But of all the things that the word "photography" encompasses, the working towards a pictures submition has got to be the worst.

That's how I feel for digital photography, at least. At least with a film camera, I can enjoy the whole wrap-it-in-the-dark-and-throw-some-chemicals-on-it thing. That's fun.

It's fun.

Fun.

I'm just being lazy right now. I'll post them, I'm sure.

Other than that, I'm going to try and get a good character design drawn up and possibly colored if we're all lucky. After these last few submissions, I've felt pretty good about art. Honestly, I used to just post a picture as fast as I could so that I could grab a few pageviews. I think that's wrong and these past few works have helped to bring me out of that, I think. So the only problem is, who do I post? Alchemist if-that-is-her-real-job-class Nyoko Shinohara? Or White Mage you'd-never-think-she-was-a-white-mage Naoko Shinohara? Am I confusing you? Yes, their names are super similar and they are cousins. So far.

I'm still working out the kinks despite the fact that they've been in existance for about five years now. :/

So yeah, gonna do that. I think, to be honest, I'll post Nyoko because I recently revamped her clothing design. It was just a yukata for five years. (She's based off of by the way, and I'm sure she'll remember just how simple her charry was) Anyways, she's redone now and looks much more like royalty, as she should.

I'll probably redraw NA-oko but I may or may not get to posting her.

Super productivity has been ordered for this weekend. yay.

Sunday is the Fall photoshoot that I've been telling you guys about for the last couple of months. It's finally going to happen! Too bad I have to do tone and size adjustments in the end! orz

You might not see them for a while, haha.

So that's that.

I also need to clean my room. Especially my closet! The floor of my closet is a wreck because I've thrown all the photoshoot props/accessories into the floor. I need to clear some actual shelf space for them.

+++

Work is going alright. Miss Caitlin "the whore of Party City" Koch is really getting on my nerves. If she desn't watch it, imma bitch her out and quite possibly punch her in the face. I'm so so so tired of her. Go back to Denton already. Goodbye!

And if any of you read this far, thankyou very much. I honestly don't write these for no reason.

P.S.
I've pre-ordered Persona 4. It comes out December 3rd (or was it 9th?) and comes with the soundtrack and artbook. And if you guys really know me, you know I'm a sucker for those!


http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/21514820/ Sun, 16 Nov 2008 09:02:47 PST
But hey, a good week after that little promise I've posted "Monarch" and I think it's a good thing.

Hopefully you can tell that I actually worked hard on it.

So I'm sorry that I didn't post when I said I would.

You guys should have known better than to believe me anyways.



]]> *EtherealMotives http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/21401314/ http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/21401314/ Sun, 09 Nov 2008 08:50:31 PST
But, I think that going down this new road would make things easier. I'd love to make it a story/manga/comic/whathaveyou someday and a fewer number of outfits would be much better. The rate I was going, the story would have been comparative to Inuyasha, but with a heftier wardrobe. And for any of you who have seen Inuyasha, you know how many times Kagome crawls through, falls through, and gets pushed through that well.

So, I think this is a good decision. In the end it will make more sense and I won't have to worry about carrying two worlds around (and, in turn, carrying around two sets of rules for these worlds) So... yay.

But really, I do like my two worlds theme. That's the route I've gone for the passed few years that I've been planning this story.

I dunno, what do you guys think?

Also, yesterday I planned a bit with the team about the November photoshoot. We didn't get as much done as I would have preferred. But that's probably my fault, considering I was getting tired and wanted to come home. (But really, I had been up since 4:30 in the morning, and didn't get home until 9pm) So whatev. We didn't make the hair pieces, but we did decide what Liza aka was going to wear and how her makeup would be done. And theat all looked good. We also decided (kindaaaa) what her hair would look like. Personally I think it should be done a tiny bit differently, but myself and Jess had some creative differences that couldn't be agreed upon. So when the day comes that I shoot Liza, I'll just have to see what I can do.

Lastly, we officially (read: unofficially) added some new models to the mix. Heather and Jessica Reddin who will be makig their debuts in our winter shoot. And plans for that are slightly underway already. So yay.

I'll be having lunch with Jorden today, who I haven't seen in a while and I'll see if she'd like to model as well. If we can get them to agree just one time then we'll have a boat-load of models on hand before you know it~!


http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/21370382/ Fri, 07 Nov 2008 09:55:44 PST
So, as a sort of... present, I was given today, tomorrow and Sunday off from work. Yaaaay me. There's a lot to be done. Chillin' with the fam tonight plus catching up on artwork. Tomorrow I have a fun-filled day of photoshoot prep with and later will join us. There's much to do. We'll be making head ornament thingers with some flowers, ribbon and beads that I bought at Michael's. Those should be interesting. And then, if Jessica is up for it, I've requested we do a mini shoot to show off what we've come up with. It should be very cool, if it works out the way we plan.

Also, some clothing choices to be made. I'm still not sure what I'll be wearing, but if we don't come up with something I'll have to resort to jeans/black pants, a white t-shirt, bowtie, and suspenders. It would work, but I feel that the girls will be stepping it up a bit more than that. orz If you have suggestions, then please, suggest!

Yes, art. I've gone through a pile of pictures I've been meaning to finish, including some character designs, and pulled out what I think I'd like to progress the most. No guarantee that anything will be colored. Actually, I can guarantee that nothing will be colored. But some things might be outlined. Yay for productivity.

There's so much I want to show you guys!

This weekend should be a blast.

P.S.
I want a more pro-quality cam-er-uh.

Too bad Jess-ca's Rebel was like, 1G. I mean, what is that? How did that bakery girl afford such a nice piece of equipment?! So happy for her, so jealous. But seriously, I should look into a better camera. Even though I love the camera I got for graduation. It will always be my fave. <3



http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/21246754/ Fri, 31 Oct 2008 10:30:07 PDT
1. What does your deviantart name mean and why did you join this site?
After creating a new account here, I wanted a name that meant something and that could become a kind of staple for me. I chose EtherealMotives, because I want all my work to have a sense of fantasy or magic to it whether it be literal or emotional. I think I originally joined after serasx: told me about it and said I should join. I love looking at all the great art, and I like for others to enjoy my art as well, so that's why I've stuck around.

2. What fandom were you obsessed with when you joined and what are you into now?
Way back when I used "Okahara89" I was crazy into Read or Die. I'm still a big fan now, but my fandom has taken a turn on the Twilight series, I think.

3. How many watchers do you have now?
34 lol orz

4. Name 3 of your favorite artists on DA.

Though I really love every single artist I watch.

5. Do you comment, fav, or both?
I'm really just a fave whore. But when I see something particularly amazing, I'll comment. I honestly don't see the point in leaving somebody a "Good job!" of "Amazing!" when they get that all the time. :/

6. Do you participate in clubs' contests here on DA?
No, not that I don't want to. I'm just really busy.

7. What is your most popular deviation?
I dunno. "Reflection" has been favorited the most, though.

8. What are you favorite non-anime TV shows?
Gilmore Girls and House. I watch little television.

9. What are the things you wish you could draw better?
Perspective. Dear Lord, perspective kills. More interesting patterns for clothing would also be nice.

10. Summer or winter?
Winter.

12. What's your favorite type of music?
J-Pop for sure, but I listen to just about anything. I need Satellite radiooo~

13. PC or Mac?
Both? I currently do most 99% of my work with Windows, but it's all part of my Mac :/

14. Anime or Manga?
Manga. Anime sometimes kills, and I can't view it as freely as manga due to time restraints.

15. Coke or Pepsi?
Lord, I dunno. I try not to drink soda. I feel really bad for my teeth when I do.

16. Read or TV?
I'd rather read. I feel good about it and so much less lazy.

17. How many hours a day do you spend on DA?
At least two. usually more, though.

18. Name a hidden talent.
I think I can sing pretty darn well. But I guess that's a "personal taste" type of thing.

19. Digital or traditional cartoons?
You mean 2D or 3D? Definitely 2D.

20. What is your favorite fast food restaurant?
Depends on the day. I like Rosa's and Chicfila.

21. What are top 3 favorite books?
Non-manga: Twilight, Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince, Charmed Life.
Manga: Azumanga Daioh, Genshiken, Yotsuba&!

22. Wii or Playstation?
Playstation. But hey, the PS2 is all I got.

23. Name 3 of your favorite bands.
Bands? Paramore, The Pillows, Foo Fighters?

24. Are you a fast, slow, or medium typer?
Medium, I guess?

25. Do you like Denny's?
Gross, no.

26. What is your favorite emoticon?
I dunno. I've been using :/ alot lately.

27. What is your favorite type of pie?
Pumpkiiiin~

28. Have you ever stayed up for 24 hours?
Yessum.

29. Do you go on YouTube alot?
Only when I'm on a Morning Musume or Utada Hikaru kick. Then I can be on there for hours.

30. Are you a member on any other sites besides DA?
Gaiaonline, though I haven't been on in soo long. Myspace, of course, Facebook, and a couple others...

31. Do you cosplay?
I have once before, and I'd like to again.

32. Fruits or sweets?
Fruits.

33. Name 3 artists you admire.
HTK, Range Murata, and Yoshitaka Amano.

34. Buttered, plain, or salted popcorn?
Buttered? But the already buttered kind. If you use that squirt thinger to put butter on, it gets yucky.

35. Have you skipped school?
Psh, who h... ]]> *EtherealMotives http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/21232277/ http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/21232277/ Thu, 30 Oct 2008 13:14:05 PDT

If you comment I'll give you a letter of the alphabet and you have to make a journal and list TEN THINGS you like starting with the letter I give you.

My letter is M.

- Milk
- Mi familia
- Macromedia Flash
- Morning Musume
- Manga
- Magazines about anime
- Music
- Miyazaki
- Meyers, Stephanie. (Author of Twilight series. So tricky, fufufuuu)
- Mac computers


Surprisingly, it was hard to think of things I like that start with 'M'.



]]> *EtherealMotives http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/21215831/ http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/21215831/ Wed, 29 Oct 2008 11:42:21 PDT all the time. This was just her first time to ever throw up because of it. I hope she's learned her lesson, but I honestly doubt she has.

In any case, she was really really happy when I came home from work this morning. Yesterday she had been acting like she was on the brink of death, and today she's a little hyper ball. She got so excited she pawed me in the face and my lip started bleeding :/

Lolzorz

In other news, I've been drawing a lot lately. I've found myself giving up an hour or two of sleep in exchange for some much needed draw time. And let me tell you, I think it's paying off. I mean, I haven't actually sat down and drawn for a looong time. I doubt I've really focused on drawing at all for the past two months, but here I am full of inspiration.

So I guess expect me to flood your inboxes when Halloween is over. Possibly before, I'd like to submit a pic for Halloween. But yeah, it'll be good. They'll probably only be pencil linearts, but honestly, would you expect anything else from me? +__+



]]> *EtherealMotives http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/21200197/ http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/21200197/ Tue, 28 Oct 2008 11:00:35 PDT
It's taking super long to download. But, in the two days I've known of this website, I've already educated myself with a bunch of music. I loove music.

Seriously though, if it was in the stores, I'd buy this shiz. Leah downloaded Utada's "Ultra Blue" cd and I copied it from her. Months later, I found Ultra Blue in a Best Buy and bought it. The previously copied version was missing two songs, and one of those songs was actually on another cd that I had ordered online. Honestly, I do my part.

Anyways, it's good stuff, and hearing all this music makes me want to play the games they're associated with. Now, it Poison Pink doesn't deliver, I'll be sad. I'm waiting 1 day and 5 hours to get it. >.>

Also, Love That Dog. It's a great little book, comprised of a series of poems that tell a story. It's a kids' book and is a good 30 minute cover-to-cover read. But that aside, my dog ate a tooon of chocolate candy this morning and started throwing up all over the place. I'm almost kind of worried. Every time I let her in to get some water, she drinks way too much and spews it back out everywhere.

Like someone turning a faucet on inside of her, letting everything spray out.

It's gross, and I hope she gets better soon. She's an inside dog, but I've had to keep her outside for the past, mmm, 6 hours. I feel bad, but the parental figure says we can't have her throwing up on the carpet.

I "Love That Dog" so please pray that she gets better!

Also, Jessica, I've given in these past two days. But I'm still feeling strong!



http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/21185067/ Mon, 27 Oct 2008 11:18:15 PDT
But first, I might need some free time.



]]> *EtherealMotives http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/20950795/ http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/20950795/ Sun, 12 Oct 2008 09:53:40 PDT
Now, I mean, if I do give any away, they won't be complete issues. I mean, I'll be happy to hand up the centerfolds I don't like etc, but I'll probably go through and cut out whatever articles and pictures I like. (Okay, so maybe there's still a bit of a packrat inside.) Would any of y'all be interested in leftovers? I promise I won't take all the good stuff

Just something to think about.



]]> *EtherealMotives http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/20904716/ http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/20904716/ Thu, 09 Oct 2008 11:53:48 PDT
I can't wait for this month to be over. Then we can finally say goodbye to Halloween and all the customers the holiday lures in to our store.

I need to rest.



]]> *EtherealMotives http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/20701131/ http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/20701131/ Sat, 27 Sep 2008 08:26:09 PDT FORWARD:
So work has been going well. Yesterday I was surprised with team member number three, also known as Misty, the new worker for my overnight crew. She's made me happy. She seems to be a great worker, gets things done in a timely manner, and asks me what to do next when she's finished.

Some of you who have been watching me for a while might have read about a "Jorden" who is a friend of mine. She'll now be known as "J-Mo" or "Old Jorden", just so we don't get confused. That's because for the passed week or so I've had a new Jordan, a boy, under my wing. Maybe I've mentioned him before as well. His work ethic seems almost opposite from Misty's. When I tell him to do something, he'll do it after completing something he simply feels like doing. And when he is finished, he doesn't typically ask what to do next. I have to keep my eye on him. A lot. It frustrates both of us when I repeat myself in telling him what to do. Not that I make it hard. I mean, I take him straight to where I need him to be and show him exactly what needs to happen and exactly how it needs to be done. Sometimes he'll soak in what I say and then run off to do something else. And then I have to say, "What are you doing? Go do it now."

Honestly, I feel like I'm taking care of a child. I guess that's just the manager thing, though. All in all, it's going well. Gregory has been pleased with me lately, and believe me, I appreciate it.

BACK:
Last night at work I found myself giving into a... sort of temptation that I've been trying to ignore. Not the same thing a couple of you might know about. Although, this passed week has unfortunately been filled with that certain situation. Honestly, Jessica, where you at? I need you for a reason!

But that aside, this particular thing I finally gave into last night. It's something that has been simmering for the passed three years (ish) and started... I guess you could say "bubbling up" for the passed 5-6 months. Well yesterday, I guess we'll be evasive and simply say that this particular problem finally erupted last night while at work.

It had nothing to do with work.

That just so happens to be where it happened.

And now that it's dealt with, I feel relieved. Like when we have that "sigh of relief?" That's what it's like. It feels good to have indulged in something that has been bothering me for a long time. And now that it's on its way to being worked out and smoothed over, I regret giving in at all.

I should have continued ignoring it.

But honestly, I'm a curious person. And the type of person that just has to let things out when they bother me that badly.

But I regret, regret, regret it.

And things will probably never be the same.

I tried to ignore it for so long. And now that it has been dealt with, the outcome is just another thing that I find myself trying to ignore and take back.

Seriously, what is wrong with me?


http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/20686526/ Fri, 26 Sep 2008 13:04:31 PDT
Honestly, I need more than 30-ish thumbs a page.

Eh.

Enjoy the new Woofie picture, please.

]]> *EtherealMotives http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/20646167/ http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/20646167/ Wed, 24 Sep 2008 04:00:08 PDT
But honestly, I'm wondering what's going to be so different about dA when the sub disappears.

Hmm.

Finally broke 4k. Kiriban at 10k~

P.S.
The opening and ending themes to KURAU Phantom Memory are soo good.



]]> *EtherealMotives http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/20634077/ http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/20634077/ Tue, 23 Sep 2008 11:25:54 PDT
Thanks.



]]> *EtherealMotives http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/20579030/ http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/20579030/ Sat, 20 Sep 2008 04:08:36 PDT
I did a redraw of Prince Ran so yay?

Original:

The new version makes him look a little older. I'm not sure how I feel about that. *shrug*

Seriously, so boring when you're the only one awake at this hour.

EDIT:

Eric secretly wants to be part of the worship team at church. It'd be so much fuuuun~



]]> *EtherealMotives http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/20566685/ http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/20566685/ Fri, 19 Sep 2008 10:59:00 PDT
No, I'm not talking weddings here. Surprisingly, I was able to draw a picture this passed week. I know, it's been forever. I mean, forever. The Sandlot kind of forever. I don't even remember what day it was. Probably... last Saturday? Almost a week ago? That was my last day off after all.

I was able to whip out a redraw of a character design. Naoko Shinohara in her Cleric get-up. This might not seem like a big deal to you kids, but I've been meaning to redraw that darn cleric design for, what, two years now? At least! And it's just one of the many many character redraws that I need to do.

So I'm sufficiently happy. And the title of this little journal is, for the most part, true. I will be posting the old version, which was drawn between 08/15/2005 and 08/16/2005. Yes, I'm lame and typically write down the date these things are completed. It's so old almost exactly three years! Lol, but I'll be posting that one along side the new version.

And as far as "borrowed" goes, I did borrow the design of some really old boots from way back when. I used a stock image from another deviant, so I'll link that right up with the new deviation.

Blue. Hmm... well honestly, the cleric design is yellow/cream/white ish. So I really can't say where that came from. (Honestly, what's up with needing blue for a wedding anyways?)

So yeah, much excited. So much, I guess, that I was able to write out this long arse journal entry. I still have some changes to make here and there on the new version, and I need to decide wht style I want for this particular story. I do have my semi-realistic style, but I occasionally hit up the flat-out anime look for certain stories.

I guess it's all about the feel of it.

Mmm, anyways.

Very happy, because I was payed yesterday and my paycheck for two weeks was actually over 1K. What a blessing, thank you Lord! I'm very happy about it, I mean I worked my tail off these passed two weeks, so I knew it'd be good.

But this means I can go shopping with my sister. Maybe that sounds lame to you kids, but Target has clothes made by Converse, and I'm totally gonna hit that shiz up. No joke, I think I know what I'll be wearing for the Fall '08 photoshoot with

Excitement


http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/20314489/ Wed, 03 Sep 2008 19:29:32 PDT
It is true, however, that all I've been doing is working. I'm sorry. Seriously, I even take short naps when I get home, and I'm not a "napper". It's a little stressful, aggravating, and frustrating at work. I might have mentioned that our store manager quit. Well, we're still picking up the slack, and it's starting to get ridiculous. We recently (since the last journal) hired two new people. John and Amy. Both are proving to be worth, well, less than what we need in employees right now. Of course, I new this about John immediately because, let's face it, he's a guy. And no guy has ever been a worthwhile employee to Party City. Except myself, of course, and Gregory. I really thought Amy would be a nice, new addition. She has a good personality, is outgoing, has charisma. But what she has in the personality side she lacks in the "good worker" side and is beginning to fall farther and farther into termination. no joke, Lisa plans to give her one more strike.

I dunno, I don't even like talking about work. It's become something that I just don't want to think about at the end of the day. I really don't even respond when my mom asks how my day was. My only answer can be, "It was another day at work..." and that's sad.

Oy. But work aside, things are looking a bit up. I guess anyways, I've never really been the pessimistic type. Ana recently went to A-Fest (I think it's called) and I think I'd like to go next year. I mean, they had Blackblack gum and A-Kon didn't, so it's pretty ace in my book already. And, of course, I'm going to hit up A-Kon. I'm looking to get a table so I can sell prints but I'm ot sure what to draw.

I might do a number of fanarts and see what you dA kids think.

And I'm also worried about my cosplay. I really want to do Anji Mito from Guilty Gear and Ritsuka from Loveless. And of the two, Ritsuka will be the easiest. But, I mean, Anji Mito would be pretty awesome.

We'll see.

Lastly, because it's late and I just need to get to the point, I'll be doing a kiriban soon. I guess... A 10,000 Kiriban because 5k is just around the corner, and doesn't seem to hard to achieve anyways. I dunno.

Oh, and even later, I've started reading Twilight and it's pretty good so far. The plot hasn't "thickened" yet, but Edward is just so curious to me hat I can't help but read and see what his deal is. Hahaaa... Edward.


*EtherealMotives http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/20047595/ http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/20047595/ Tue, 19 Aug 2008 18:51:15 PDT
Luckily, work goes by quickly. My two highlights on work days are lunch break and clocking out to go home. That's kind of sad. But there's so much work to do and so little time. Plus, I'm not aloud to go over 40 hours or I'll get in trouble. I should have had my desk cleaned by last Friday, but tomorrow is Wednesday and it's still a wreck. I guess we'll just keep pressing on.

Also, really missing my Junior Mint. I need to talk to her really bad. She should be coming back on Saturday and we're going to get Starbucks. And, you know, it's weird saying "she's coming back" when she's really only in Denton. But still, I miss her really bad. Probably more than I should.

In other news, I've been working on a picture inspired by "If I Fell" by the Beatles. It's coming along swonderfully in terms of lineart. ut the coloring is being mean. I just can't seem to get it right. If I blamed it on the fact that PSCS2 wasn' exactly made to work on Vista, would that make everything better? Mmm, probably not. Because I still can't turn to Painter. I don't know. It'll get finished some time.

And.

I dunno.

I've been tired. And lately I wake up multiple times in the night because my left arm is asleep. And it's annoying. Quite. I'm also caught in a habit of waking up wide awak once a night and feeling like it's time to get up. Oy.

Life is rough. But I keep prayin'.



*EtherealMotives http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/19881600/ http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/19881600/ Sun, 10 Aug 2008 15:45:00 PDT
Not a lot going on today. This weekend has been very bland. I wanted to get at least one piece of work done, but I've spent the majority of my time slouched on the couch with my brother and sister who have come to visit this weekend. I think that productivity is a contagious thing. So when you end up surrounded by lazy people you, yourself, become lazy as well.

Work is a biz. Not that it isn't going well. But, I'm back at 40 hours again and it's taking time to get used to it. I want to be a good manager. You know, after Jorden left, I was sad. She's the best friend I have right now. (Vangie is top too, but she works nights so I never see her!) So I was sad when she left, but I'm happy that I can focus on work now. Because when she's around I just love to talk to her. We have the best time.
99 (secret code name for a Party City employee) will be leaving soon as well. In fact, she could be leaving within the week. She'll become the assistant manager at another store. Word has it that she'll be going to Jorden's store. Jorden and I are both a little miffed by that. Me, because she gets to go hang out with Jorden. I'm envious. Jorden isn't exactly happy, because she doesn't want to be overshadowed by 99. Oy, it's... a little dramatic. But 99 has a knack for wrapping people around her finger and getting them to do whatever she'd like. I'd be a little happy that 99 is leaving, at least, so that she won't try and get me to do things for her. I'm a manager now. I have my own darn things to do.

I dunno. Life is dramatic sometimes. I'm out of high school, that shiz should be done with.

P.S. I recently uploaded some music to iTunes and I decided I would take one of those music meme thingers that ask questions and your answer is the name of whatever song comes up next. So, I didn't finish it, even though I retried it 3 times or so. I just didn't like that none of the answers made sense. But one of the times I took it, the question that said "How Did You Lose Your Virginity?" the song called "Up Against The Wall" by Boys Like Girls came up.

I thought that was... interesting.

Just thought I'd share.



*EtherealMotives http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/19815316/ http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/19815316/ Wed, 06 Aug 2008 19:35:37 PDT
But when a recent visitor has been a member for a month and a half and doesn't have anything posted, I have to wonder if they're just not on the ball with posting their work, or if their account is a means to mass-gather other artwork.

I dunno, maybe I'm just paranoid. But it would be a biz if I had to go and watermark everything in my gallery. It would not be fun, and I feel that watermarks lower the standard of the pictures. I know, it's for our own protection, but...

And plus, with all this talk about the Orphaned Works bill, or whatever, our work could already be stolen and tossed aruond the internet. And then, by the time it's traveled around a bit, finding the owner of the work might become impossible.

Gosh darn it. Makes you not want to post anything.



]]> *EtherealMotives http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/19797482/ http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/19797482/ Tue, 05 Aug 2008 20:03:39 PDT [link]

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So I recently heard news on the new Persona 4 game. So, of course, I had to look it up. And if you click on the previous links, you'll see something pretty darn exciting. (The second link is really just some more in-depth info.) But yeah, I'm so excited! The music sounds good, the battle system sounds like it'll be better, and the characters are lookin' pretty ace! You might notice, they all wear glasses! (Of course, there's a reason for it.) It comes out in December, just in time for Christmas.

I haven't even beat Persona 3 yet, but I cannot wait!

P.S.

In case you didn't know, Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince will be coming to theatres in November. I'm pretty stoked.



]]> *EtherealMotives http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/19752281/ http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/19752281/ Sun, 03 Aug 2008 12:46:02 PDT something from SPR one day. Not sure what. But the Japanese seem to be able to get away with certain words on their clothing. Certain things I could never wear myself. But there are a few gems that might make it passed, uh... critique from the parents.

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I remember seeing some SPR at A-Kon this year. But at a distance all I could see was stuff for girls. (Not that the site really helps distinguish either) And I was afraid it would all be too small anyways. I mean, I'm a tall kid.

Anyways, that's my story for the day.



*EtherealMotives http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/19669918/ http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/19669918/ Tue, 29 Jul 2008 21:09:40 PDT
- Choose a singer/band/group
- Answer using ONLY titles of songs by that singer/band/group
- Tag 6 more people (let them know they've been tagged)
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The Beatles.


1. Are you male or female?
Bad Boy
2. Describe yourself.
Your Mother Should Know
3. What do people feel when they're around you?
All My Loving
4. How would you describe your previous relationship?
Here, There, and Everywhere
5. Describe your current relationship.
This Bird Has Flown
6. Where would you want to be now?
In My Life
7. How do you feel about love?
Don't Pass Me By
8. What's your life like?
We Can Work It Out
9. What would you ask for if you had only one wish?
Golden Slumbers
10. Say something wise.
Here Comes The Sun



]]> *EtherealMotives http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/19590918/ http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/19590918/ Fri, 25 Jul 2008 13:12:37 PDT And I want to be independent.
And I want to be serious.

Anyways, I'm very excited because later today I'm having a photoshoot with . It's pretty much gonna rock. I have so many ideas already, and I'm sure more will come. And we're going to be really serious about it, and have good clothings and good makeups and props and all sorts of coolness. I'm even taking a pro-quality light reflector with me.

Woah woah, photography anyone? Yes, please. I'm in love with photography right now. I wonder... career possibilities?

It'll be a blast, and I'm sure Jess-ca will be able to deliver.

Please look forward to the shots.



]]> *EtherealMotives http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/19460805/ http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/19460805/ Fri, 18 Jul 2008 08:37:57 PDT Like is any of this for real? Or... not?

Yay, Sora quote from Kingdom Hearts.

Anyways, that's not exacly how I'm feeling. I have been having some weird dreams lately. (Woah, "Cloud 9" by Maaya Sakomoto just came on. How perfect!) I guess my dreams are always weird. Or interesting at least. I've been dreaming a lot about people I know but haven't seen in a long time. And, I dunno. My dreams usually feature myself and a bunch of people I don't know in real life. But I guess recently my brain is trying to work some things out.

Whatever.

Whatever is going on right now, whether I'm aware of it right now or not, should be fixing itself up soon.

Work is going decently. It's been almost a week since I started. More like, four days, but whatever. I'm hoping to have Sunday off, since I'll be working five days in a row. And supposedly, as receiver, I'm supposed to get Sundays off anyways? But anyways, it's going okay. I'm realy trying to work hard and prove myself as someone useful to the company. But so far, I haven't had many training hours with Jorden (current receiving manager) and that's not very good. She'll be leaving in 3-4 weeks to work at the new store in Denton, and if I don't get as much time with her as I can I'm afraid I'll be ill equipped for the job. I'm kind of worried that I won't be able to pull it off. What if I make a bad manager? What if I don't fit snuggly into the leadership role? And when I get promoted from back-up to manager, who the heck will become my back-up?

Ay ay ay.

And in other news, I recently fell in love with a toothpaste. Now, for those of you who don't know, I am crazy crazy about my teeth. After having braces two or three times, and retainers enough times to match, I've become very particular about teeth. They need to be brushed alot, and white, and I really want them to last and stay in good shape for the rest of my life.

In fact, when I don't brush I usually have a dream that night that all my teeth are falling out. It's scary. I brushed last night, and had a dream that I was using somebody else's toothbrush. And I'm kind of a germaphobe too!

Anyways. This new toothpaste is Crest PRO HEALTH. It fights all these germs and things and whitens teeth and tastes soooo good. I love it. I even brush twice longer than I did with my old toothpaste. And the tube is so big too!

Yeah, I'm weird. But hey, time to wrap things up. I gotta head off to work. Wish me luck!


*EtherealMotives http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/19399205/ http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/19399205/ Mon, 14 Jul 2008 21:23:03 PDT
I'm starting to wonder myself.

And now that it's so late, I'm actually pretty tired. I need to go to bed. But I bet that once I hit the sack I won't be able to sleep. For a good hour at least.

Ah well. It happens.

Tomorrow will be my third first day of work. Oh yes, it's true. Got me a job. I'm not really excited, because I feel I've taken a step backwards, but I am happy that I've kinda been promoted. At least, I guess I have. I dunno.

I've been tired, and now I'm almost kind of dreading work. I think I've been unemployed too long, aha.

Really been meaning to draw but I won't be posting any nothings anymore. I really need to crack down and be serious. I think I'm gonna take a shot at some more charcoal portraits. We'll see.

So... yep. I'm thirsty. I'm gonna grab some milk and get to bed.



]]> *EtherealMotives http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/19281024/ http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/19281024/ Tue, 08 Jul 2008 20:18:51 PDT
I'm surprised by how much crap has filled it up. Seriously. The "Heart of Music:COLORED:" picture? It's driving me crazy. I really can't bare looking at it.

And the latest photography with omglykesooperkewl gradient overlays? I'll be deleting those and re-submitting the original black and whites.

Buyer's remorse? And now "art-post" remorse? Yes, I think it might be true. I need to stop not liking things that I once like.

Anyways, went to Wal*Mart today and found out from the photo lab that I can, in fact, bring my black and white negatives that I developed in Photography class and have them all developed. That's very good news, because I was starting to think that I'd never be able to see all the pictures developed. Only the ones I did myself for assignments.

I'd like to develop those soon.

So yeah.

Good and bad news, I guess?



]]> *EtherealMotives http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/19186821/ http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/19186821/ Thu, 03 Jul 2008 15:24:45 PDT
Let's see. You might have noticed some uploads from yesterday. There are actually quite a few more pictures to scan and upload. And if I was really crazy, I'd upload the 100-ish (or so it seems) pictures that I took a year ago in New York. But I may or may not be feeling that crazy right now. In any case, I really do hope y'all enjoyed the pictures. They're not actually my favorites. The favorites from photography class have yet to be uploaded. I ended up feeling very unamused with the whole upload thing sometime last night.

Ana was aware. Heh.

What else...? The parents left today for the weekend. Yay, alone for fourth of July for the second year in a row. Except, my sister will be here. ut chances are that she'll be chilling with her friends whenever she can.

I might end up babysitting the nephew.

Tomorrow should be good though, yeah? Gonna chill with Ana (or that's the plan) in downtown Fort Worth. It'll be good. A bit of shopping, I suppose. Possible museum visit. Possible photo shoot.

I dunno. I guess it'll be a nice next few days.

I cleaned my room yesterday. It's still in a bit of a pits. I cleaned it, but ended up finding a bunch of paper thingers that I don't know what to do with at the moment. So they're all just sitting here on my bed...

Oh! So I've been rereading this book. Reading it for the second time that is. "Charmed Life" by Diana Wynne Jones. I do love that book. But I feel that this version left some things out. I've caught myself twice reading something and thinking, "Well wasn't there more to it then that?" Like when Cat finds himself in Saunder's office. He finds some dragon blood and some other things, but it only mentions that he found some dragon blood.

Honestly, the version I read went way more into detail.

But in any case, it's a really great book.

I find that when I red books with "english-accented" characters, my vocabulary improves for a bit. At least I think so...


Hmm.

I do wish I knew what I was going to write about...

]]> *EtherealMotives http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/19109769/ http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/19109769/ Sun, 29 Jun 2008 13:08:21 PDT
Obviously I haven't updated in a long time. No posting or anything. Actually, I cleaned up my gallery a bit. Maybe you kids noticed? But I deleted all the scraps and some other things. I'd like to post something new soon. I have some pictures from a photoshoot ready to post. Or... I think anyways. I can't decided if I want to add textures or anything like that.

Probably not though.

Also, putting a break on some work I was doing. I'm going back and working on all the pictures that I set aside to be worked on like... so many months ago. There's a lot to be done. Currently reworking the "Heart of Music" picture that was uploaded some time ago. It should have been posted a couple of days ago, but I'm lame and never got to it.

Let's see... what else?

I got a haircut. It was good. And I've been 'teaching' in the 5th and 6th grade class at my church. It's nice. And today, especially, was a good day. I was a bit late, and the usual teachers weren't there (replaced by new ones??) but I was able to get into a group with some of the kids and talk to them about the lesson and stuff. It was good. I felt useful today, lol. Too bad 5th and 6th grade boys would rather be 'funny' then pay attention! orz

So yeah. That's how things are. I really want to do some realistic stuff, but I haaave to finish the other stuff first.

I made a deal with who will be at her Dad's house this week. We recently started to play an online game together, but it's only downloaded at her mom's house. So since she's going to be at her dad's house this week and can't play, we've made a deal t be reeeally productive. Hopefully I'll be uploading alot this week!

Oh-hohooo...

Take care kids.

]]> *EtherealMotives http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/18824300/ http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/18824300/ Fri, 13 Jun 2008 16:26:52 PDT
First, let's talk manga. It hasn't really gone anywhere. Although, I was talking to over aim, and was telling her the synopsis to a couple of my stories. With her input, I really feel that "GodWatchers" might be the way to go. Of course, I only told her about that one and "Dream of the Fire Spirit", but really, it could have something. So... while I'd like to do this story, how the heck am I gonna fit it into 3 tiny volumes?

I have some major planning to do.

Second, I'm looking for a job. Did I happen to mention that in another journal? I did apply for Barnes and Noble, but I haven't received any kind of response yet. I think I might just let go of that and apply for random places. That's including places I don't want to work at, like Home Depot. I think it might have to happen though. I "Need" a job. And unfortunately, needs outweigh wants. So while I would love to have a million dollars in my pocket this very second, it's not gonna happen.

Ed McMahon to my door, please?

Third, I've been working on art. Not really in a major sort of way. I'm still trying to get the Cover art lookn' good, but the girl's face is being a biggoty biggoty biotch. Really, I might just erase her face for the second time and have her looking at the viewer. Or something. I dunno. Seriously, I'm not a savvy colorer when it comes to computer art.

But I'm doing a nice job with the hair, right?

I'm finding myself drawing other things. I need to finish that Cover Art, but I'm also sidetracked with nyu's Art Meme. That's going okay, but I don't think it's quite as interesting as other memes that I've seen. And that, my friends, is enough to make me want to stop it altogether.

But I won't.

In any case, you might not see any good art until I learn to color. Maybe some linearts, since that's the only thing I can do decently.

Oy, I need art classes!

Fourth, things are kind of good. We're talking about general life here, people. I can't really complain, except that my older sister only calls/texts me when I need to pick her son up fro the babysitter. It suks, and I feel like a utility. But hey, you have to be "utilized" by at least one person. How else are you going to feel like a cheap, little ho?

Just kidding. But seriously.

Fifth, I really want a photoshoot! Maybe I mentioned this. I know I told my friend Ana. But there's this old school desk in my garage, and I'd love to take a picture using it as a prop. Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya, anyone?

Any other kind of photoshoot would be good, too. I took some pictures of myself today, actually. I might post them, might not. Classic clothes. White shirt and jeans. It's my favorite. If only I had a photographer and an interesting local to shoot at.

Hmm... the fam is over this weekend, maybe we can drive somewhere and take some good shots.

Anyways.

Pray for me, please. I don't really know about what. But encouragement would be nice.

Take care, kids.

]]> *EtherealMotives http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/18663199/ http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/18663199/ Wed, 04 Jun 2008 13:54:53 PDT
LET'S MAKE MANGA:

EDIT:

Please take a look in my scraps. I've posted collages of all the rough work I have for some stories. I'd really appreciate feed-back.

So I decided yesterday that I want to try and make a manga. You know, if you get a little something going, you can submit to TokyoPop and other manga/comic publishing companies and have a chance to get published. I talked to about this, and I'm hoping she'll collab with me on it. I mean, I'm sure I could do it just fine by myself, but I know how much we both want a career of some sort in this field. I hope very much that my partner in crime will be serious about it. Not just say "okay" and then write it off. I'm looking for an "in" you know?

I'm not sure what the plot is going to be. Am I going to develop a so-far undeveloped story? Am I going to come up with something new? It's hard to say. But there are definitely a number of stories that could be developed into great things. The story of Etheriol Klay, for one. Which I did start to progress a bit a month or so ago. But there's always my rock band story which, if I knew more about government type topics, would be well underway to something tangible. Whatever the case, I'd love feedback on what I come up with. Please critique me!
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Okay, so I decided it would be best to just take that snippet and make a new journal. Let's talk manga.

Now, I posted those character ref sheets in my scraps, and I'm trying to decide which story to go for. Now, as much fun as it would be to get them all published, TokyoPop will only contract you for a 3 volume series. Which basically means that I have to pull a CLAMP Magic Knight Rayearth and get things going early and end them earlier. Like in the movie Juno, "Quick and dirty." Picking my little manga up, stuffing it in a basket, and floating it through the reeds.

Personally, I don't like the idea of such a short series. Some people can do it, but at the moment I'm not sure how many volumes I'd need for any of my choices. If anybody has read "Mouryou Kiden" by former CLAMP member Tamayo Akiyama, you'll know just how fast of a development I'm talking about. Volume one of "Kiden" went a little something like: Meeting, hating each other, falling on love, being in love, and traveling on whatever journey it was that they were traveling on.

What can I say, I only read it once. I don't like stories like that that move so fast you spend less time enjoying the story and more time wondering what happened to all the inbetween stuff that was apparently left out.

But it's nothing like a one shot. Those people are talented. I personally love oneshots, because they're easy, light reads. And there's nothing like looking at your bookshelf and thinking, "Yep, that is one complete series." Because, let's face it, getting a complete series these days isn't exactly easy. Most of the "good" series are over 50 volumes get into will, one day, be complete on my shelf.

So what am I to do? I know that it can be done. And using the excuse that I'm not a superhero asian with insane manga-making skills won't fly, because we all know that the American winners of TokyoPop's Manga contest have done well with their 3 volume contracts.

But does anybody notice that the more recognizable of the 3 volume series, "Peach Fuzz", "Relay" and "Next Exit" have nothing to do with the more popular genres of manga? These stories lean more to the everyday side of life, not the unbelievable "you'll never believe me when I tell you that I just took down an army of ninjas in my attempt to save my best friend's manga collection" side. And each story of mine holds hands with the latter of the two.

Is a 3 volume Fantasy/Sci-Fi/Action series possible? Or are the hopefuls of TokyoPop manga creation doomed to fill the repeatedly empty shoes of the teen angst and slice of life genre types?

Manga creation is hard. But who knew that this whole volume thing trumps good content?

]]> *EtherealMotives http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/18649107/ http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/18649107/ Wed, 04 Jun 2008 13:15:07 PDT tomorrow and the expected eventually that life holds.

I feel so poetic.

A-KON 19:

A-kon was a blast this year!
Day one started a little slow. I picked up Vangie from her house, and we went shopping for some necessities like water, gum, shampoo and other various "travel sized" items. Somehow, our ride was't ready to go until after 1pm, if I remember correctly. Vangie and I were both a little peeved about this, considering we had already packed and everything. Our driver, however, had not. But we made our way to Dallas, coming close to getting lost on the way. We knew we were close when we saw the horde of cosplayers. Ah yes, we had entered cosplay territory.

It was a long wait in the pre-reg line. I think we got into the line around 3:30, and didn't get out until after 5:00. But it was good. I found our room eventually, and chilled with Ash and Amy while Vangie met up with Linda, Diana, and Jeffery. Linda and Jeffery actually decided to stay in our room for the weekend, which was good. I definitely think they brought something to the group. Humor and sillyness.

That night Jeffery, Diana and I went on a walk to the nearest Little Caesar's. We ended up getting yelled at, because we were walking in a construction zone and then not finding the pizza place at all. It was kind of a waste of a walk, but it was fun. We ended up walking way out of cosplay territory, and passersby gave us weird looks. (Especially because I was wearing cat ears and a tail)

The night ended well. We stayed up until 4 in the morning and got up around ten.

The next two days were filled with almost the exact same activites. Walking, talking, getting lost and buying overpriced food. It was nice though. I'm really excited for next year, and I'll hopefully get to cosplay.

JOB SEARCH:

So now that A-kon is over, I have to get a job. I'm looking into some places, but I'm having trouble deciding where to apply. I don't want to just apply everywhere and then get stuck with deciding on one place. I'd like to just pick where I want to work and apply there.

UPS and FedExKinkos are hiring. I'd go for UPS because they help pay for college. Unfortunately, they're only hiring part time positions, and there's no way they'd give me Christmas off to go to New York with the fam. But I'm also looking at the Photography place in JCPenny. Of course, I don't really like JCP, but photography is fun. Other than that, I'm looking into working at the GameStop warehouse. But it's far away, and what I would be doing is unclear.

I'm not really sure what I'm going to do. I want a good job that I'm going to like.

LET'S MAKE MANGA:

EDIT:

Please take a look in my scraps. I've posted collages of all the rough work I have for some stories. I'd really appreciate feed-back.

So I decided yesterday that I want to try and make a manga. You know, if you get a little something going, you can submit to TokyoPop and other manga/comic publishing companies and have a chance to get published. I talked to about this, and I'm hoping she'll collab with me on it. I mean, I'm sure I could do it just fine by myself, but I know how much we both want a career of some sort in this field. I hope very much that my partner in crime will be serious about it. Not just say "okay" and then write it off. I'm looking for an "in" you know?

I'm not sure what the plot is going to be. Am I going to develop a so-far undeveloped story? Am I going to come up with something new? It's hard to say. But there are definitely a number of stories that could be developed into great things. The story of Etheriol Klay, for one. Which I did start to progress a bit a month or so ago. But there's always my rock band story which, if I knew more about government type topics, would be well underway to something tangible. Whatever the case, I'd love feedback on what I come up with. Please critique me!

SELLING ART:

Next year at A-Kon I'm really hoping to get a table in Komik Market/Artist Alley. I'll be working hard throughout the next year to get some semi-pro works done.

What fanart should I do? I mea... ]]> *EtherealMotives http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/18546951/ http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/18546951/ Wed, 28 May 2008 16:22:57 PDT
And I apologize for the bad focus in pretty much every kodona picture. Most of the pictureswere done through a mirror, and I didn't need a big white spot in the picture, because of the flash. And, well, when flash is off, I just don' get the sharp images that I need.

Woops.

Most of the pictures are random upper body shots. For a full body shot, look in my scraps.

In other news, A-kon is on FRIDAY! I am so so so excited. My first con ever!

It'll be great.

Skuh-doosh.

]]> *EtherealMotives http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/18449033/ http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/18449033/ Thu, 22 May 2008 14:48:44 PDT
So a little over a year ago, senior year, a friend in my Communication Graphics introduced me to An Cafe. From the get go, I thought An cafe was absolutely amazing. I did all I could to get their music for myself, and did so successfully. Unfortunately, Bou left the band. He was my favorite.

When the two new members came along, I thought, "You will never compare to Bou! You are useless!" And when I caught wind of their single, "Cherry", I was like, "WTF is this shiz?" And I wrote off the new An Cafe thinking, "There will always be classic An Cafe. With Bou."

But here I am, saving songs from the "classic" An Cafe cd to my computer. And I'm having to go around and figure out what the song names are, because you know I'm not going to sit here and have "Tack 01, Track 02, etc" sitting happily in my iTunes library. So I'm looking in wikipedia for tack names, and then listening to that particular song in YouTube to figure out if it's the track on my cd.

And I'm coming across new songs from An Cafe.

Not bad.

Listening to "Cherry" again, it's almost kind of good. But when all the girls in the vid stand up and chant that one part, my like for the song dies momentarily. Heheh.

So I guess I'm loving the new sound of An cafe. At first I didn't like Takuya (Bass) or Yuuki (Keyboard). But you know what, Takuya's kind of cool. And despite how silly Yuuki looks (I really hate his curly blonde hair and permanently placed singlasses) he really knows his keyboarding.

Yes, please come back An Cafe. All is forgiven.

Nyappy~! <3

]]> *EtherealMotives http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/18437827/ http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/18437827/ Wed, 21 May 2008 20:00:30 PDT
I feel amazing right now.

]]> *EtherealMotives http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/18402401/ http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/18402401/ Mon, 19 May 2008 16:25:55 PDT
Am I disappointed in myself or in someone else?

Maybe both.

Look on the bright side, right?

At least one of us is saved.

]]> *EtherealMotives http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/18401572/ http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/18401572/ Mon, 19 May 2008 15:36:06 PDT She breathes the air and flies away.
She thanks her Jesus for the daisies and the roses
In no simple language.
Someday she'll understand the meaning of it all.

He's more than the laughter,
Or the stars in the heavens.
As close as a heartbeat,
Or a song on her lips.
Someday she'll trust him,
And learn how to see him.
Someday he'll call her,
And she will come running.
Fall in his arms, the tears will fall down
And she'll pray,

" I want to fall in love with you."

Sitting silent wearing sunday best,
The sermon echoes through the walls.
A great salvation through it
Goes to the people who stare into nowhere.
Can't feel the chains on their souls.

He's more than the laughter,
Or the stars in the heavens.
As close as a heartbeat,
Or a song on her lips.
Someday we'll trust him,
And learn how to see him.
Someday he'll call us,
And we will come running.
Fall in his arms,
The tears will fall down and we'll pray,

" I want to fall in love with you."

Seems to easy to call you savior,
Not close enough to call you a god.
So as I sit and think of
Words I can mention to show my devotion.

I want to fall in love with you.

]]> *EtherealMotives http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/18385409/ http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/18385409/ Sun, 18 May 2008 15:20:54 PDT
Yes, this is what I decided about my seperate writing account. It was created sometime before this account, and well before folders could be made to organize your gallery. Turns out that I hadn't accessed it for 20 some-odd weeks. It felt old. There were no new watchers, no new pageviews, no new nothing. And, well, when your writing account develops such a terrible case of Flictonic Clipple Webber Syndrome, you just have to toss it aside.

So yes. I have moved the writings from the old account to this account.

I'm sorry.

I know there are some really terrible ones floating about my gallery now. But if you look real hard you're bound to find a gem or two. A "diamond in the rough", if you will.

P.S.

I love Furi Kuri.

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Good day.

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]]> *EtherealMotives http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/18138280/ http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/18138280/ Fri, 02 May 2008 18:51:40 PDT finally got my computer today. I believe the time was 12:18 this afternoon, actually. And yes, it has taken me 8.5 hours to really get it going.

I previously had spent the longest time trying to install my printer onto the Mac. But no, iMac wouldn't have any of that. So instead I bravely used BootCamp to install Windows Vista in a seperate partition. Yes, it's true, it took me 8.5 hours to do just that.

Anyways, it's installed now. And all that's left is to install the printer on my Windows partition and then install PS. I can't wait. Finally... My own computer with PS.

And, surprise surprise! After many failed attempts, I finally figured out what the password was to the wireless internet network at our house. I mean, it was many many tries before Mac said I had established a connection. So because of this, I can finally access the internet on my own, on my own computer. Without nasty BlockerPrograms that won't let me upload anything to DeviantArt.

Thas'right. I can finally upload to DeviantArt!

Expect something soon, even if it's crap. Haha...

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TRADE A SUB FOR ART???

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I'm currently listening to a song by Yoko Kanno called "Paradise". It's supposed to be from the Wolf's Rain OST? I can't exactly confirm that, because I never really watched Wolf's Rain.

Anyways.

I'm listening to this song and simultaneously going through the fifty-ish deviantions that have been sitting in my Deviations Box for the past two or three weeks. Yeah, I knew they were there, but I haven't taken the time to fave them. In the past two weeks, I have looked and deleted what I don't like as things have come in. Now the old things I do like are stacking up...

So, this song is playing. And it's all done with a saxaphone and piano, right? And it creates a feeling like I should be thinking about things. Like life, and how I don't really know what I'm doing with mine.

I mean, a couple of months ago, I was so sure that I would be spending this coming August in Florida. At the college of my dreams, no less. And that I would be heading in an amazing direction. And that in just another four years I would be learning more than I could ever learn on my own, and- quite possibly- be earning a job for a great company as a Character Designer/Illustrator.

But in a single week, I quit a job, got a new job, and then quit again.

So not only will I be education-free this August, I am also currently unemployed.

What am I doing?

A song like this makes me feel like I should be sitting on a beach. A beach in a foreign country. With a setting sun, a cool breeze, and not another person in sight. I feel like if I have to be questioning my motives and actions and wants for life, I need to be doing it in an exciting place.

But no. I'm home.

I'm home, and I'm listening to a song that sounds less like "Paradise" and more like "You Fail at Life".

You know, I thought that when I graduated, things would finally start for me. In fact, I tried my darndest to get things rolling before I graduated. I mean, I really thought that I wouldn't be waiting.

But I am.

And now, as "Moon" by Yoko Kanno plays, it seems as though something should be happening. I know there's something for me, but when am I going to find it? And how?

I don't want to be alone. So when am I going to grab on to You and see things start?

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]]> *EtherealMotives http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/18056020/ http://EtherealMotives.deviantart.com/journal/18056020/ Sun, 27 Apr 2008 13:59:39 PDT you ask me if there'll come a time when I grow tired of you. never my love. never my love. you wonder if this heart of mine will lose it's desire for you. never my love. never my love. what makes you think love will end, when you know that my whole life depends on you? never my love. never my love. you said you fear I'll change my mind, and I won't require you. never my love. never my love. how can you think love will end, when i've asked you to spend your whole life with me? never my love. never my love.

Okay. So I'm definitely going to buy a computer. Hopefully by the end of the night, I'll have ordered one. A Mac. Yes, I decided on a Mac. not sure which one, though. I'm deciding between three. One of the three has been refurbished, so I'm a little iffy on it. But for a computer, it's so pretty. Like I said to my brother earlier today, "Macs are artist eye candies." And that's totally true. I don't think I've met an artist who hasn't loved the Mac.

Anyways. Two of the three I'm deciding on have built in wireless. So I can easily feed on the parents' wireless thing and get internet access. That's total win in my book, because then, hey, I can finally upload deviations.

They also come with itunes, garage band, etc. So I'm excited.

Mondo-excited.

Maybe I'll be able to put up half decent pics and a "commission" sign to trick people into buying pictures from me.

Oh-ho, Eric, how very clever you are.

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