http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:Everthesame807&section=today deviantART RSS for by:Everthesame807 en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Sat, 19 Dec 2009 18:01:45 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://Everthesame807.deviantart.com/journal/28745005/ http://Everthesame807.deviantart.com/journal/28745005/ Fri, 04 Dec 2009 11:42:02 PST . Kidding. I like talking about what I write because it helps communicate my feelings. That, and I've had people in my life read my work, and get really pissed off because they think its about them. So maybe I'll do this gig every four poems, so my journal can reflect my current mind set and not have an entry from back when anyone remembered who Hanson or N'Sync was.

COVERING:
"INFERNO"
"TORNADO SPIRAL"
"ALL THE CHICKENHAWKS"
"THE CALL"

"INFERNO"

This one was written right in the middle of the heat of a sixteen hour off and on window of scattered skirmishes with someone very close to me. It was a rough patch for me, because I never intended for things to be received as they were, and soon most of what was said was taken out of context. Everything became fiery for the both of us and by the time the afternoon came the next day, everything was at a climax when she finally said everything was over. Things are better now, but this represents a snapshot of the moment when I was absolutely down and hurt, but at the same time upset with how things had gone down.

Right down to the bottom of it, this reflects how I can be an emotional person. I sometimes hate it, I sometimes love it. I don't like to think of myself as a whiny person, but I know that sometimes is the image. But I am extremely perceptive and sensitive to people's emotions and I am selfless to the extent that I wish everyone around me be happy, sometimes at my own expense. When I feel I let someone down, it tears me down. I get that way in my personal life, with my friends and with my family and I even get that way at my job. I'm usually not angry with anyone other than myself, because I feel like I failed those depending on me to come through.

"Inferno" was different for me because I didn't write it in the beginning of a situation, like I'm usually used to doing, I wrote it at the end. By then I had really become torn. The night before I came down from my break at work and I couldn't even think straight. I didn't sleep that night and the next morning at work was difficult for me. That afternoon was harder and I never bowled so bad in my entire life that night at league. I think that the best word I could have used to describe things was "inferno," because it seemed like everything had completely gone up in flames.

"TORNADO SPIRAL"

I won't go into detail on this one because it involves a very personal and traumatic experience for someone else and I don't believe in being the type of person to make public something like that. All I can say is I worry everyday because she's still letting someone in her life who is abusive and has been towards her in the past.

This gets more broad on the topic of rape and abuse itself, and my belief that it is inexcusable in all ways. Abuse is uncontrolled aggression that becomes unleashed with total disregard for the emotions and safety of others. Abuse can be the constant lash of the tongue with razor sharp words, or it can be literally outright beating. It can also be rape. Rape itself shows an absolute lack of respect for another individual. It shows a lack of humanity on the part of the rapist, who doesn't halt when an individual says "No" and still continues moving forth in their act.

But the poem itself doesn't so much involve the act in progress as it does in the time after, when the person who committed the act is still allowed to remain. And the constant danger is poses, when it's not only a spiral turning downward, but its one that is uncontrollable like a tornado.

"ALL THE CHICKENHAWKS"

This is the rare political type that I post here. Generally with my art I don't like to get political because I don't want my poetic ability judged by the basis of my politics. But at the same time, my politics and philosophies are who I am. And on that point, politically I am a constitutionalist independent who tends to be Libertarian leaning.

This poem itself though covers my stance on war, and that it should only be used as an absolute last resort. I think war is a tragic thing and shows a height of barbarianism. Obviously its unrealistic to expect a peaceful society in an imperfect world, because there will always be a dangerous and violent crowd who live on the oppression of others. I have been against the Afghanistan war and subsequent occupation, because I believe we invaded too quickly without getting and verifying the facts, and on top of that, we are not accomplishing what we set out to accomplish. We didn't invade to take on nation building, a Clinton doctrine that Bush campaign against ironically in 1999 and 2000. We inv... ]]> ~Everthesame807 http://Everthesame807.deviantart.com/journal/28650696/ http://Everthesame807.deviantart.com/journal/28650696/ Sun, 29 Nov 2009 12:27:03 PST
In other news, I've begun another poetry manuscript that is presently nameless and will likely remain so until I finalize it, or at least come close to it. I have been scoping the internet for legitimate poetry contests and am preparing to deploy manuscripts throughout the next year. It shall be a big push to finally reach my big break.

I also have begun songwriting again. What's up with that? But it's good. Maybe I will post some lyrics once I finish a set. Everything's a work in progress, however.

I'm trying to find the positive outlook on everything, attempting to become a better optimist and to better see the cup as half full. I've had discussions with a couple people in my life, at work and in my personal life, who are supportive individuals and human beings I'd personally like to become more like. Discussions of course, given recent circumstances, have been morbid and down, but they were still enlightening because the depth of the discussion was well enough to uncover some things about myself. And I think I may have found new inspiration for my writing.

Until then, stay tuned. Thanks for reading up.

-Chris

]]> ~Everthesame807 http://Everthesame807.deviantart.com/journal/28538767/ http://Everthesame807.deviantart.com/journal/28538767/ Mon, 23 Nov 2009 21:51:30 PST
But no. NO. Writer's block has hijacked this noggin and driven it into the ground. For months I have been haunted by the fear of not writing for a long time. I hear horror stories of big name writers not being able to write for almost a year after they finish something (and then I take a sigh of relief, because I am not that good, so surely to keep things in perspective, life will give me only a couple month jail sentence in creative hell).

Before long, my patience realized itself has no existence in my life and thus subsequently faded away, and my investigation into my own mind began. From it I attempted to derive just what is going on. Sure, wells run dry. And for sure, I had become drunk off this poetic euphoria for much of the summer. But in addition of the lack of patience, I also lack the comprehension of the words "dry" and "spell", especially when used in a corrupt little marriage to form an ugly definition.

Perhaps it is because all of my attempts since this date have been rather morbid (or not all, but many). "Devolutionary Standard", "Minus One", "Splendid Infamy", "Phantasmagoria", "Consequence Of Silence", "Fear And Now", "Damage Denied", and "Out Of My Mind."

But then there are those other ones, that still run along the same string of emotions about the rather spiteful luck in the department of love. "One", "Nothing Said", "Phasing Out", "Change". Might I also had, I even pictured "Change" with a rather catchy tune and when it came to me, I lit up because I thought I had found the light. But instead, when I lit up, it was a string of some dull lights, because the writer's block reigned champion still. And I cursed it, you hateful writer's block.

Here I stand now, having difficulties in life. I have a love life I can't seem to satisfy, I have a job that seems to really be wearing me down, more mentally than anything. I feel the self-esteem surfing down the dream, screaming woo-hoo, and I find myself presently in a head-scratching moment with a perplexed look on my face, in regards to how I'm able to tell a terrible thing in such a bright manner. But returning to the point, with all of this, in all of the depth that each problem has, and my inability to write anything half-decent?

When you have a thought session, and I have many, things happen and the creative juices flow. When one involves a nostalgic overdose involving past relationships and the loss of innocence, with the extra topping of regret over a life that is still young, well...I should have a couple manuscripts cranked out by now, because that's a lot of material. One would think. BUT. It hasn't happened.

My open letter to writer's block begins with "you" and ends in "suck." And that's all I have to say. My eloquence has been restrained and my over exaggerated method of writing has been suppressed. How this happened? That is a brilliant question.

But an even more brilliant question? Why have I just wasted your time detailing all of my thoughts in regards to a truly repulsive monstrosity? Good question. And go ponder that one thoroughly, and hopefully by your thought's conclusion, production will have resumed within this factory of poetry inside my head. If only.

]]> ~Everthesame807 http://Everthesame807.deviantart.com/journal/25148537/ http://Everthesame807.deviantart.com/journal/25148537/ Fri, 05 Jun 2009 17:50:08 PDT
The new manuscript is titled "In Search Of Paradise", and it is the combination of "Trial By Fire" and "Unresolved", two previously incomplete manuscripts. Numbering currently, as of June 5, 2009, at 39 poems. I'm aiming for 50 total.

Here is the list:
"Above Me"
"Carpe Diem"
"Darkness Continues"
"Dirty Laundry List"
"Do You Believe"
"Dreaming Hard"
"February Sanctuary"
"Firing The Darkness"
"Forget-Me-Now"
"From Here"
"Ghost Train"
"Go"
"Gods Among Men"
"Good Morning Tomorrow"
"Hangar 6805"
"Her Eyes"
"I Need"
"In Search Of Paradise"
"In The Dark"
"Incognito"
"Learning Game"
"Learning To Hate Myself"
"On And On And On"
"Prison Without Bars"
"Reinassance Superhuman"
"Shadows Of Imagination"
"Still Around"
"The Battle For Everything"
"The World"
"Thirty Days"
"Throwaway Heartbeat"
"Timeless Graffiti"
"Twenty Minutes Distance"
"Two Like Ten"
"Unexplored"
"Waiting For Carolina"
"We'll Go"
"Without"

This is it. Much of it is already on DeviantArt. Certain pieces just haven't been added for no reason. A very small select few are being withheld intentionally from posting, to be saved for the surprise in the manuscript.

I'm aiming for a poetry contest later in the summer and it is that I hope to claim my first victory in publishing. I'm a poet with aspirations. A man simply just trying to win for once.

-Chris

]]> ~Everthesame807 http://Everthesame807.deviantart.com/journal/23924503/ http://Everthesame807.deviantart.com/journal/23924503/ Sun, 29 Mar 2009 17:33:07 PDT
"Trial By Fire" had a heavier, darker theme. It was more about turning my back, and wanting to just run. Life on a plan and schedule has thus far not rewarded me with any real progress, but significant failure. When it all came down to it, I wanted to just rage forth. As the title suggested, a trial by fire. It represents the bitter side of an emotional complex and how it consumes.

After much thought, there was two themes, I determined, that were all two common here. This was negativity, regret, remorse, anger, and bitterness. Much more synonyms could be uncovered, but the picture has been established. I looked at the direction of my life. As I work on the second "Open Letter To The Close Minded" (the first I put up a year ago, in response to a widespread criticism of my direction and the lack of faith in it), I reached a point of realization. And I then wrote.

Anyone who knows me know I'm a very political person as well. I am very opinionated and I am at times stubborn to the core. This new manuscript will largely reflect it. I do not have a title picked out for it, but a couple poems have been written thus far for it, including "Dead End Dreaming", "Extinct Super Being", "Fire", and "Animal."

Without a college education, and against the current of a society that believes strongly in such, every odd is stacked against me. But I've never been one to flow with the currents, but rather stand against. For what is right, not what is in. This poetry manuscript will feature themes somewhat political at times, but for the most part will be relative to the concept of determination, whether stubborn or selfish, but it will carry such broad theme.

You will soon get to view some of the early creations for this manuscript. And a title will be revealed soon. Until next time.

EDIT: The manuscript will be titled "Consurgo", which in Latin, means either "to stand up", "to rise up", "to arise", or "break out".

]]> ~Everthesame807 http://Everthesame807.deviantart.com/journal/23516709/ http://Everthesame807.deviantart.com/journal/23516709/ Tue, 03 Mar 2009 22:47:42 PST
As I've always said, my poetry is narcissistic so I don't have to be. Likewise, my poetry is insane and outlandish, so I don't have to be. Rather then allowing the loose pipe that are my emotions to drown me in its trivial madness, I funnel them into a useful process of writing. It allows me to write because my need to express is elevated. When I have a need to write to keep myself from overflowing, the flow through my writing is smoother.

It's awkward, but a lot of it has to do with the story behind "Trial By Fire." It is the latest poetry manuscript in the works by me. It traces exactly what I mean. That my poetry is narcissistic, unstable, and often outlandishly insane. Not for the purpose of sounding overly emotional just for the sake of being so and not for the purpose of showing off. It is rather so I will not consume myself. It's complicated. But trust me, it somehow makes sense.

The current list of poems in "Trial By Fire" includes:
"All Else", "All Humanity Zero", "Another Letting You Down", "Anybody's Tuesday", "Cowboy Thunder", "Dirty Laundry List", "Drifter", "Firing The Darkness", "From Here", "Ghost Train", "I Don't Know", "Insomnia", "Keeping It In The Tree", "Learning To Hate Myself", "Liberated", "Nothing Short", "On And On And On", "Planet Piranha", "Renaissance Superhuman", "The Battle For Everything", "Throwaway Heartbeat", "Two Like Ten", and "Your Song"

It's darker. It has more of a mood. It's bitter and it's angry. But most of all, it's honest. It is brutally honest. But a lot of it is metaphorically so. It is another example of me allowing my poetry to live every side of emotion.

Common themes are jealousy, remorse, fear, insignificance...all the negatives.

The mind itself has its dark sides, it also has its lighter sides. I've chosen to chart a ride on the former. I'm tracing along the rough ride. And this is what I've come up with.

But hey. Hang in there. Word on the street is the next poetry manuscript after "Unresolved" and "Trial By Fire" are wrapped up, will be a lighter more positively poetic piece. Perhaps one with an overall story? Experimental indeed.

Thanks for reading up.
-Chris

]]> ~Everthesame807 http://Everthesame807.deviantart.com/journal/22040306/ http://Everthesame807.deviantart.com/journal/22040306/ Wed, 17 Dec 2008 20:49:24 PST
I will first unveil information on "Unresolved", because it is probably the most personal of the three. The second is titled "Revolution" and is more political, and the third, currently untitled, is a more randomly poetic piece

Here is the current content list, which will probably change before submission (I'll update if it does):
"After The Darkest Dawn"
"Bay Of Wolves"
"Constellation"
"Dear Girl"
"Dreaming Hard"
"Faith"
"Forget-Me-Now"
"From Exile"
"Glass Bridge"
"Good Morning Tomorrow"
"Hangar 6805"
"Hellfire Heart"
"In Me"
"Incognito"
"Learning To Hate Myself"
"Separation Of Heart And Mind"
"The Waiting"
"Told You"
"Unexplored"
"Unresolved"
"What I Have"
"When We All Become"
"Winter Field"

With this, I tonight, just before posting this, unveiled four of the above poems which are newer and have not been previously posted here. They are titled "Dreaming Hard", "Glass Bridge", "Unresolved", and "When We All Become."

Some of the above posted on the list are already on DeviantArt, as they have been posted previously. Find them through searching, if you wish. Just for reference, the ones already here are: "Constellation", "Dear Girl", "Good Morning Tomorrow", and "In Me."

Any further details that'll come about will be posted. Thanks for reading up!

-Chris

]]> ~Everthesame807 http://Everthesame807.deviantart.com/journal/18124216/ http://Everthesame807.deviantart.com/journal/18124216/ Thu, 01 May 2008 20:18:57 PDT I'm weaker than I used to be
I wear my heart out on my sleeve
And I forget the rest of me
Yes there's times I've been afraid
And there's no harm in that I pray
Cuz I'm more frightened everyday
Someone will take the hope I have away."
"STOP"
by Matchbox Twenty

As said previously, I've resumed serious work on my music aspect of songwriting, as opposed to just cranking out lyrics. I've begun setting time aside to appease the creative process and allow it to grow. As a result, and dwelling upon a certain creativity rush, I've been cranking out piles of lyrics that're seeing the beginning stages of the music light of day. Songs like: "Passion And Separate Worlds Colliding", "Disliving", "Salvage Myself", "Said And Undone", and "Smooth Lightning", to name a few you haven't read yet.

There's nothing like finishing everything life commands at two in the A.M., realizing you can't sleep now, and then moving over to the little corner where the keyboard rests idly alongside an electric guitar. And then, letting the honesty slide off the strings, brutally and cruelly or peacefully, but still honest emotion.

I've got so much I want to do this summer. This isn't serious enough to be anything ultimately solid like a demo CD, but its serious enough where I'm rededicating regular time to seriously writing the music to move alongside the music more often. Maybe something could lead further in the positive direction? Perhaps. We shall see.

A short film is also in the works, greenlit with filming time set up. "Alpha" is the screenplay to first move to action with me. It is based off of a previous screenplay I wrote, "Genocide", adapting the characters and a clip of the plot into short film format. It's projected to be 15-20 minutes long, but we will see. Not too short, but it isn't long. Details come with days.

Political essays and stories are in and out. There'd be a lot to list, some of the essays covered in the last entry.

This is my future in full motion. I'm thrilled. Once this little bump in life is overcome, then all out I shall go. Music. Writing. Everything.

Thank you all for reading up and keeping with me! You rock!

-Chris

]]> ~Everthesame807 http://Everthesame807.deviantart.com/journal/18092721/ http://Everthesame807.deviantart.com/journal/18092721/ Tue, 29 Apr 2008 19:53:45 PDT And I'm not fine
I wanna be rain
that tastes like wine
I wanna be good
I wanna be great
I wanna be everything
except for your mistake."
"YOUR MISTAKE"
by Sister Hazel

Heh. What a week. I'm a fuck up. Plain and simple.

I botched the prom plans because I had the wrong date down and now I'm going through last minute configurations.

I've also proved further that algebraic everythingness is out of my realm of comprehension. I'm falling again.



I'm back to work on some music that I am actually serious about. I've gone through a lot recently. It needs release.

Sifting through some new ideas for novels that will be potential future projects while furthering my current one.

A series of political essays are in the works, such as "Just Short A Revolution" and "Revolution And Change," both about the art and danger of revolutionary change, as well as the self-explanatory "Assessment 2008: An Election Crisis."

All of this will be taking a smaller role however. I've got some issues to figure out with myself if I'll ever be the stable and strong one I've offered myself to be. I need to refocus myself. Take another look in the mirror. Because I've busted myself one too many times. I'm not losing others in my life because I can't figure out my own problems.

First and foremost, those in my life. Myself, second.

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Some entries can be quite long, but are informative and thoughtful. If you're interested in such, check it out here:

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Feel free to comment either here or there on thoughts, responses, suggestions, etc.

Thanks for reading.

Chris

]]> ~Everthesame807 http://Everthesame807.deviantart.com/journal/17063416/ http://Everthesame807.deviantart.com/journal/17063416/ Mon, 25 Feb 2008 18:51:09 PST They'll promise you everything, they don't mean anything.
We may lose our focus,
There's just too many words, we're never meant to learn.
And we don't feel so alive
Say goodbye, these days are gone,
And we can't, keep holding on,
When all we need, is some relief,
Through these hard times."
"THESE HARD TIMES"
by Matchbox Twenty

Well, I'm back after a vacation tainted by a violent strain of the flu. It began with violent vomiting, leading into a thunderous headache then treacherous muscle aches. These aches led to chest pains which were assumed to be muscle strain from vomiting. I was in the emergency room the other morning because they got so severe. Got pretty sick again and worked an eight hour shift while like that, then four hours again the next day. I feel weak still from lack of nourishment and sleep. Man...life never wishes to work for me...o_O

As for my work, I'm prepared to go crazy in rewriting my second amendment proportion of my Constitutional Law project as soon as the Supreme Court dishes out their verdict on Heller vs. D.C. Down with the D.C. gun ban; it's unconstitutional and represents the beginning of disarming America.

My novel is going along well. I'm going on the down-low and everything is top-secret from here on out. It helps maintain a good, constant state of mind

The wheels on my music projects are rolling again. I'm not promising anything, but I've found new inspiration with a new sense of ambition. We'll see where it goes from here.

Everywhere else. I've been planning a series of short stories that have been formulating within the depths of my tilted and jaded noggin. My songwriting has kinda halted and sorta on purpose. Lately I've been trying to return to my story writing roots and concentrate further on development and construction upon the various weak spots, this in order to get things rolling with my novel without any issue.

Essay writing back with me? Hells yeah. Political, social, economic, religious...you name it. At some point.

All this at once. Well, it's a thought in motion. I'm a man in motion. God, St. Elmo's Fire is such a cool song...whatever happened to John Parr?

Stay tuned folks. Thanks for tuning in.

Chris

]]> ~Everthesame807 http://Everthesame807.deviantart.com/journal/16730160/ http://Everthesame807.deviantart.com/journal/16730160/ Mon, 04 Feb 2008 20:10:56 PST with or without a plan
I'm taking what I can get, I haven't seen nothing yet
If one day you wake up and find what you make up,
come and get me, come and take me there
Into your illusion, I'll make my intrusion
anytime, anyplace, anywhere
The hour glass is draining fast
it knows no future holds no past
and all this shit will come to pass
never, forever, whatever."
"SOMETIME TO RETURN"
by Soul Asylum

Perhaps its a blessing. School is doing better, my performance is recovering. But as much as I praise myself with a simple pat on the back for this one, I'm pretty perturbed to see my various projects suffering in the wake of it. So it's bittersweet to say the least.

The only thing I have to report on "Alpha" is filming will be kicking off most likely at the end of the month. We're waiting for the snow to finish melting so there'll be no continuity conflict with snow and no snow scenes (it'd be perfect for a deeper meaning context if I were to be working on a feature film, but the direction of this short isn't exactly suitable for such a concept, given the relatively small time frame the movie is scheduled to take place in. Plus, we're still working on budgeting figures and preparing a list of people to contact to hopefully persuade to join board. Beyond this, I have to discuss things with my teacher, for the school cut, because I'm sure there'll be censorship issues. I'm not one to carelessly throw around swear words in my writing or recklessly use violence; it all has some kind of purpose in either setting the mood or playing some kind of commentary role. It is, after all, a very prominent trait of George Romero, largely an inspiration to me for his brilliant work over the years. But regardless, there will be an uncut extended cut that will not be watered down anyway.

My novel now has a solid direction and plot. Up until this point, I had a general plot foundation set and from there I began working on various aspects and random chapters. Now that I've assessed the missing specifics, I can begin to create a structure and unite the work thus far into a progression. The official first chapter (technically, the third I've worked on, but first in the chronology) is well underway and will assess the specifics on the time period, whereas the prologue covered the overall career of the main character.

Those are my main three core projects. Everything else is either on the burner or a secondary project, such as "State Of National Sanity" and the untitled Constitutional Law book.

And despite how much bullshit that has been going on in my life, I feel fine. I get little sleep and I've been sick because of it. But all is fairly swell. My Giants won the Super Bowl.

That's the scoop. Thanks for reading up.

Chris

"if someday comes early
comes whipping comes whirling
to take you for all you have learned
the tables are turning, my bridges are burning
my destination sometime to return."
"SOMETIME TO RETURN"
by Soul Asylum

]]> ~Everthesame807 http://Everthesame807.deviantart.com/journal/16659937/ http://Everthesame807.deviantart.com/journal/16659937/ Thu, 31 Jan 2008 14:11:04 PST Withholding the rest
So I can be for you what you want to see
I got the gesture and sound
Got the timing down
It's uncanny, yeah, you think it was me
Do you think I should take a class
To lose my southern accent
Did I make me up, or make the face till it stuck
I do the best imitation of myself."
"BEST IMITATION OF MYSELF"
by Ben Folds Five

We'll, I've got some news for those of you out there who still read up on me. I've returned to the film realm, this time with a solid budget and income, and a realistic plan. Everything is in order, starting two short films: "Alpha" and "Sabotage." The only details I've give up are few. I will be directing, co-producing, writing, and scoring the films (possibly co-scoring, but as of now, I'm the one behind the writing wheel). I'm extremely psyched right now. "Alpha" is almost completed writing and I hope to begin shooting by the end of February (pre-production is underway). "Sabotage" will come directly after. One last detail...longtime collaborative partner in music and film and very good friend Ken Shaw is on board for both films. More details to come.

My novel is coming along beautifully. No title as of yet, but it's flowing very well. The constitutional law book is on temporary hold as my study time is somewhat limited for the time being....so to the back burner it shall go.

Again, thoughts of a demo CD are crossing my mind. I don't want to throw too much projects on my plate. I am actively writing music and I am pondering recording some stuff. I will be recording either way for the two short films, but anything further is just talk for now.

It's a good thing I'm doing things I love right now...considering I have beyond half of the world up my ass about this that and other, my sanity should be suffering. Work has been rough, because I try really hard, but never anything is apparently done right. School has really been wearing me down. I get the college-is-the-only-way-for-success/15-grand-for-talent-approval-by-debt-for-life speech almost daily. Not many people are giving me credit in the direction I am going in or my ambitions. Why? Humanity has forfeited its belief in natural talent and ambition leading to success. It's all about money. Money. Succe$$

Life best summed up as this:
"life barrels on like a runaway train
Where the passengers change
They don't change anything
You get off; someone else can get on."
"FRED JONES, PART TWO"
by Ben Folds

I won't be the one stepping off so the next Joe Schmo can take my job, so I can fade into the back drop. To hell with that. I'm not idly dreaming. I've got a thousand and one things rolling. It's only a matter of time before the damn calvary comes into town. I've got my camera. I've got my piano, my guitar, my keyboard. I've got my pad of paper and a pen. I've got my heart, soul, and mind. And it's all around existence and beyond I shall ride.

Until next time...thanks for reading!

Chris

]]> ~Everthesame807 http://Everthesame807.deviantart.com/journal/16438901/ http://Everthesame807.deviantart.com/journal/16438901/ Wed, 16 Jan 2008 21:10:47 PST
I finally got that laptop. I've begun several projects, as listed below:

1) A CONVERGENCE OF BEING: An autobiographical type thing, something I'd like to maintain like a semi-journal and maybe someday if I ever make something of myself, I can throw it out there and be like, here, there's my thoughts. It's deep.

2) CURRENT STATE OF NATIONAL SANITY: Pending title based off an original blog I did. This is essentially a series of essays and extensive investigations into the issues of society and exploring the possibilities and solutions for the future.

3) untitled Constitutional Law book: In relation to my speeches I've done in the last year or so, I'm currently compiling those along with other extensive research into other aspects of the Constitution, to provide persepectives and analysis.

4) untitled demo CD: An always progressively updated project, with rough demos thrown together that I'm always working on.

5) untitled novel: A novel currently in the works, with a progressively expanded prologue and a chapter down thus far, along with an extensive plot summary and outline. It follows an inside man in the C.I.A. who is apart of a deep and dark core of men who manipulate the progression of events to fit whatever flow they deem fit.

Politically charged? I try not to be so much. But I'm just that kind of person, I guess. My music is my only safe haven and sanity sanctuary from myself.

I just can't wait to get these out and sit there saying, "you bastards, I told you so." Excuse my french, to begin with. But still, I've found myself increasingly frustrated. The school system is meant to be an institution, but its essentially an industry...a statistically based industry.

Personally, things have been ever changing. The shift to a new place of work brought new horizons. As much as I miss it in Freeport, the transfer to Brunswick was best for various reasons. But like other things, the past is the past. I live in remorse of some things and still kick myself around because of it, but things have come and gone.

School has really kicked me in the gut lately. I don't sleep much anymore. I literally live on little sleep and its beginning to really catch up to me. I can't remain awake in school and at work I lose energy to easily because of this. I don't intend on majoring in algebra, so I really don't see why I'm being repeatedly harrased by the subject because the system defines it as fit for me...for some odd reason.

I've just gone through a series of trials and tribulations throughout high school. It's been a tramautizing and emotional experience in some ways, but it was needed in shaping the being that I have become. For the better or for the worse. It's me. I'm me.

2008, I say goodbye to the world I know. High school. The past. The memories. All gone. I'm not a little boy anymore.

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I've also made the announcement that I'm narrowing things down on what will be recorded. I'm still doing work on a few songs, as well as concentrating on the "One Year Later" instrumental. Things are coming along fine.

I'm investing in a new laptop that I will rig for recording. It won't be anything special like studio quality, but it will get me by. I'm just doing demo tracks at the moment. I have Adobe Audition and have been doing some steady work. Once that gets done, I need to get a microphone, and then get a MIDI interface so I can get my keyboard hooked up to my computer for better sound out of it. A bunch of toys, I know.

My guitar is finally fixed too. Now I can pick up where I was before...all rusty. Haha.

I've posted two new songs as of last night, sometime soon I plan on posting a copy of a speech I gave last winter on the second amendment for a contest. Scored second place in both first and second rounds before being eliminated.

There's the latest. Thanks everybody for keeping up. I appreciate it

Chris

]]> ~Everthesame807 http://Everthesame807.deviantart.com/journal/14456831/ http://Everthesame807.deviantart.com/journal/14456831/ Sun, 02 Sep 2007 13:44:31 PDT
OH, another thing. From a year ago (and it was literally a year since I've done this), the "Glimpse Of Meaning" posts I would do, where I would go much deeper into the meaning of a few select songs. I plan on doing TWO more, at least, very soon. Tonight? Tomorrow? Next day? One then, one now? One now, one then? We shall see. But since it's not official yet, if there's one song you'd like to hear about, let me know, and I may cover it.

I've expanded on the lyrics to "You Couldn't", which originally was the rap collaboration with Kenny, and changed the sound. Now, it's been scrapped as he can't find the beat he created. We began constructing the beat the other night for another project. He sent me the early stages of an intro, which I spent a good solid and long period of time tweaking. He did the same. The lyrics I've been working on are tentatively titled "Music". I'm working on ideas to incorporate a little guitar and maybe bass into the beat to give it more of a rhythm and less of just a repetitive beat.

For those of you who read about what I was working on way back in the early days of 2005 when I first got serious about songwriting, an instrumental titled "At Peace." It was my first shot at one. Well, I stumbled across a rough clip of it as well as some of the music I'd written. I'm pondering recreating it. But aside from that, I'm also working on something else that is also a n instrumental: "One Year Later."

I was also asked about the idea of being interested in another band. Would I start one? Honestly, possibly. The experience and collapse of Under No Limits wasn't a thrilling one. Inconsistencies in organization and a perceived collective of lacking devotion really destroyed things. I mean, not even the entire band really ever met. I knew the bassist/founded and the other guitarist. Supposedly there was two or three other members. It was being run in almost like factions that was expected to know how to throw itself together spontaneously without even exploring the chemistry. It led to the slow collapse, and the breakup of Under No Limits just prior to the Battle of the Bands competition. It was really irritating and it was an extreme waste of time. But I've sort of grown tired of the lone composer status, at least on a minor level. If a band were to get started, I could do vocals, songwriting, keyboards/piano or guitar (switch off, even). All that would be needed is a bassist and drummer, and then optional positions such as rhythm guitarist. But it's just a thought at this point in time.

Well I'm out. Thanks for reading everybody, I appreciate it

Chris

]]> ~Everthesame807 http://Everthesame807.deviantart.com/journal/14355153/ http://Everthesame807.deviantart.com/journal/14355153/ Sun, 26 Aug 2007 19:42:45 PDT Sorry for the LOOONGG absence. I'd been meaning to come around for a while. But it always slipped my mind in my little free time. Brittany gave me the idea tonight. Haha, woot! The last few months have been unforgiving insanity. The end of May into June was just grinding myself right down to the bare wire. I was under a lot of pressure to shoot high and far in my education...which I did to a decent extent, but not to that glorified, valedictorian standard. Once the school year let out, I began working 40 hour work weeks for about a month. During that time, I was keeping up with what little of a personal life I could maintain. I did a lot of writing. The only time I really had the energy to throw lyrics down was on break at work. I'd be sitting out front with a piece of paper and a can of soda, with my iPod, throwing the words down. I kept what little time at night for the music.

I would be recording, but I loaned my second computer to my then-girlfriend so she could work on summer homework. Well that hit the fan and well, I don't know if I'll ever see it again. So I need to get over to Kenny's and sit down with him. I've been working on collaboration ideas with him also. A lot of phone conversations over and over. Exchanging ideas, sets of lyrics, and such. He showed me a beat the other day on the phone and he's going to send it to me. The collaboration we'll do will probably be for his own solo work, which is rap. I'm not big on rap, but I like what he can do. The instant he showed me the beat, lyrics rolled through my mind. The tentative title is "You Couldn't", and once I get the full track, I'll solidify my ideas.

My writing has been running down all avenues. "Landlocked Island", the darkest of regions I've ever explored, is about being in a relationship, where things are getting deep, but its something that, for the sake of everything, you must get out of. "Tonight To You", a song written for someone I once knew, who I probably wouldn't share the same feelings for again, but still would care for her and look out for her. The deepest is probably "Only Time". I was awake at four in the morning. I sat on my bed, against the wall, staring out the window (and I have a huge window over my bed). The previous forty-eight hours saw me pouring my heart out to someone who I screwed over long ago in probably the most tumultuous period in my life. I looked over myself. I don't hate myself, but I wonder what happened me. There was me as a kid. An innocent child, who thought the world was some small area with the home town, the distant town with the mall and the big places, then that far away place where all the toys and games are made. Then there was the transition and I learned what it was like to loathe and love. And now here I am. I'm a multidimensional person in the sense that I'm not shallow, simple minded, or narrow minded. I like most anything. I like to reach out to people. I like being the one people can turn to. I put other people before me, it's who I am. But like any human being, I make mistakes. I let things get to me. So there I was, staring at time itself, and wondering, "Well...what happened?" The song spawned from that.

July was hell in itself. Work really took a dark spin off the track. I didn't get along with new people. Everything was going down hill. My hours got slashed...and slashed again. I love where I work. But I couldn't concentrate and keep my pride, because I wasn't there a lot and when I was, I was being pushed around. Then this month, well, that's a story in itself. I'm single again. Haha. I'd rather not talk about it though. Things happened. I have my own ideas on the course of events. But I'm cool. She's cool. Life has moved on.

Now I go into the fall. Life will take it's course. I think the title of the Counting Crows' debut album is fitting..."August And Everything After".

Thanks for keeping up all this time everybody, and sorry for being away for so long. I'll be posting some work of my own, as well as checking all of yours. I hope all has been going well.

Chris

]]> ~Everthesame807 http://Everthesame807.deviantart.com/journal/13181878/ http://Everthesame807.deviantart.com/journal/13181878/ Fri, 01 Jun 2007 20:45:56 PDT ). Things have hit the hell hole. The end of the year is approaching and the definition of stress is jumping off the page and into my face. I've been preparing for finals while finishing up the last two weeks of school before them. I've also been preparing for "Boys State", a program run by the American Legion. It's basically a mock state government type thing. The Legion specifically asked the school for me to sponsor, after the speech I gave on the second amendment last January. I'm very political...perhaps it's a disease?

Oh, AND, I have another huge announcement on my music. I have a second member so now my solo project features a two-man band. A friend of mine by the name of Tyler has joined board. We got into talking one night and he offered to help, I told him I meant to ask him. We exchanged conversation and now we have a team. He's helped with both producing his own music concepts and various recordings, and from there, we just connect the dots. We also did a little work for "Corrupt Collective" (understanding that we both came from the same place of work...he did, then he quit...). But it's coming along great.

Nothing is progressing too much though. I've told Tyler don't feel constricted. If he has a thought or an idea, present it and we can work with it. I haven't been able to donate a lot of time because of school and work, but this summer I will be taking time off to get A LOT of it done.

And life itself, is one of those twist and turns where you'll in a high point of smiling glory then through a tunnel of torture. Just a thought. But I can feel happiness breaking through the clouds.

...oh my God, that sounded so emo. I, time to get sleep now. Good night.

Chris

]]> ~Everthesame807 http://Everthesame807.deviantart.com/journal/13018033/ http://Everthesame807.deviantart.com/journal/13018033/ Sat, 19 May 2007 20:27:22 PDT if you stay hey i've gotta plan
You wanna make a memory?
You wanna steal a peice of time?
You can sing the melody to me
And I can write a couple lines
You wanna make a memory."
"(YOU WANT TO) MAKE A MEMORY" BY BON JOVI

So, I have a softer side. Who doesn't? I am a sucker for ballads.

I have returned and I am almost done catching up on deviations-I have about thirty April creations remaining. I also have a new one from myself, "Better". Coming up after that at some point soon will be "Renaissance Superhuman". The song to come after that, is in question.

As for recording, I've been making some progress, but not as much as previously anticipated (I've been choking majorly under the many pressures of a growing strenuous life...but I'm hanging on...just my clock beats me with the stupid stick on a consistent basis). "Closer To The Stars" has been coming along, and the sound is forming. I like where its going. "All Over Again" is a new one I've been toying around with. I've tried a few rhythmic experimentations with a collection of other songs over the past month, month and a half. I haven't started recording FINAL tracks yet, but I have rough segments and I've been working towards it.

I'll be around more often, hopefully. I've got a thousand and one things going on, and I have barely the time to stop, think, and breathe. But I can make time for you all

Keep on rockin'. You all are awesome. I'll be catching up with you soon.

Chris

]]> ~Everthesame807 http://Everthesame807.deviantart.com/journal/12831627/ http://Everthesame807.deviantart.com/journal/12831627/ Thu, 03 May 2007 18:21:03 PDT
I've done a lot of writing in my isolated break from life; prose and poetry. Songs like "Someday Incorporated" and "First Left Turn". I've done a lot of work on my music, trying to solidify the slush I've so long tried to form.

I've been learning a lot and relearning life. It's been rediscovering my niche.

I've got a lot to throw up here in the coming months, but I'm going to hold off on it all. Until I'm caught up on everybody, nothing's going up. You all have been awesome and I've been gone too long. So before I get a go for myself, I want to get everybody's work in first. Here I come

I'll be catching up with everybody soon.

Chris

]]> ~Everthesame807 http://Everthesame807.deviantart.com/journal/12419438/ http://Everthesame807.deviantart.com/journal/12419438/ Sun, 01 Apr 2007 16:33:38 PDT
The way it stands now, this month I will wrap up recording and next month will be editing/mixing stages (possibly rerecording, if needed). Things have been progressing more than they ever have.

Since it's only going to be a demo CD (I put aside plans of a full ten-plus track CD because of time), it'll be a little short tracked, with maybe five or six songs maximum.

Next month I'm going to put two songs up on my MySpace Music page aswell, which as of now, stand at "Happy Again" and "Corrupt Collective". Two more will follow eventually, but those will be the two premier. But this is not official either. Infact, I want to hear what you guys think, from reading my work, would make a good third and fourth debut track. Thanks alot, you've all been great

So that's the update. Thanks for listening and keeping up everybody. I appreciate very, very, very much! Have a good night!

Chris

]]> ~Everthesame807 http://Everthesame807.deviantart.com/journal/12298737/ http://Everthesame807.deviantart.com/journal/12298737/ Fri, 23 Mar 2007 15:24:22 PDT [link]), which features a good friend of mine, Shane, with a friend of his. Last time I talked to him, it was going to be "Hell's On Fire" and "Let Your Dim Light Shine". A third one is a possibility, he asked me to take a look at my endless collection of writings. Shane has a DeviantArt page aswell, with some neat photography: [link]

I have also done a little bit of work with another very good friend of mine, Ken Shaw, whose doing his own rap project. He had asked me if he could use two songs I wrote, and I let him. "Down" and "Antidote" are the two he's using. I got down a piano intro and I'm going to be meeting with him soon to see what he wants to do with it. I'm not an overly huge fan of rap, infact, I denounce alot of the modern work. But Ken has been a very good friend for years, and I've really liked the writing and work he's showed me so far. I believe he'll do good, and he has. Ken's Deviant Art page can be foudn here: [link] His MySpace Music can be found here: [link]

As for my own work, I've done a bit. I haven't had a huge amount of time to alot. School is hectic. I've also been writing a short story for a contest, and picking up work on revising a novel I wrote a few years ago. But I've done some more work with "Unum Animus", as well as some work with a song called "Feel", which as of yet, has not made on here yet. I've done some with my own version of "Hell's On Fire" as well. And for those of you who are wondering, my MySpace Music page can be found here: [link] There won't be any music on there for a long while, but I'm pretty consistent with updates there, and how progress is coming along. It has some pictures from early recording sessions last year, which really never went anywhere due to some personal issues going on...which led to a song called "Open Reality".

That is all that is going on now. Thank you very much all who have been tuning in and keeping up with my writings. I appreciate it alot. Many thanks again. You all rock my world

Chris

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I am reading everybody's work when I get a chance however, and I will be commenting when I get a few more minutes beyond a second online. So yeah, again, sorry I've been behind. It's been hectic for me

But I do appreciate everybody continuing to check out my page and my works, I really do. My many, infinite "thank you"s to everybody.

Catch up with everybody soon. Have a good night

Chris

]]> ~Everthesame807 http://Everthesame807.deviantart.com/journal/12038077/ http://Everthesame807.deviantart.com/journal/12038077/ Sat, 03 Mar 2007 09:55:41 PST
Some of the songs from the tentative track listing have already posting. I say tentative, because knowing me, I could write something along the way which I see more fit for my debut demo. But we'll have to see. Here's that tentative tracklisting:

1. Destination Somewhere
2. Essence Rising
3. Hell's On Fire
4. All Things
5. Equilibrium
6. Youth
7. Fashion Statement
8. Outhouse
9. Exit King
10. Closer To The Stars
11. Happy Again

It's a fine mix of the rock and the softer tone. Destination Somewhere, Hell's On Fire, Equilibrium, Youth, Fashion Statement, Closer To The Stars, and Happy Again are already up on DeviantArt. Thats seven of elevin. Outhouse and Exit King are the only ones not posted that are lyrically finalized, and should be coming along soon.

The album itself is personal. With songs that arose from shattered relationships, both romantic and friend, as well as my own personal explorations, and my view upon the world. It's me on paper, and it'll soon be me with a tune. I hope others can find way to relate it. Because I want it to be something universal, not cliche and restrained. We'll just have to see though.

In the meantime, sit tight, and if at all possible, keep up on the waterfall of words I keep dropping on the ocean of DeviantArt. ...I had to get metaphorical. Anywho, thanks again for checking out all my work everybody, and I hope you'll like the music I'm working on. Thanks again!!!

Chris

]]> ~Everthesame807 http://Everthesame807.deviantart.com/journal/11647644/ http://Everthesame807.deviantart.com/journal/11647644/ Thu, 01 Feb 2007 13:10:39 PST and exploded into flames
Now I just sit back and laugh
Because the only thing that's changed
are the faces and the names."
"FACES AND NAMES" BY DAVE PIRNER

When I picked up the solo album of Dave Pirner, Soul Asylum's lead singer, I expected not much different. But I was amazed. And when I reached the third track, there was a song that changed me. The chorus itself I fit right into. If you really think about the story of life, there's the same old storyline, just different names. It's like a repeat Hollywood. Love gained, love lost. Friendship built, friendship collapsed. Hope floats, hope sinks. So on, and so forth. It's a never ending story, but eventually it comes down to the one point made in the final two lines of the chorus of this Dave Pirner song, "The only thing that's changed, are the faces and the names."

There's one thing I've been noticing, is there's a change in wind. Up to this point, I've had a recycled life. You pick a dream, it runs its course, and after it's extracted, there's nothing more left to gain. And so, it just wilts away. But I've been finding new courses in winds of change. I had this game plan to just coast on by, and find another picture to fit into. But for a while, feeling better than ever, I just walked solo for a while. Even though I have an open soul, ready for anything it can take (and would willingly take), there's no desperation at heart.

Even in the course of my education, there's been alot of things I've been learning about myself. Given relationship, education, and just all around changes, you learn more from yourself. I've been working on that concept, in some new songs (which have yet to make it here...works in progress ). Songs like "All Things", which is quoted for the title, have been a long work in progress.

I've now joined a band, started by a friend of mine, Dean. He's a great musician and has a driven determination that will take this band far. I'm Rhythm Guitarist and Keyboardist. I don't plan on being one of those people who takes a leadership role or even a front spotlight type thing. Dean deserves it. I'm just going to be a background guy having a good time and offering my own two cents. It'll be a good show.

You come to last night, where a friend of mine, whose my sister's best friend, lost her house in a fire. "Target Safety" was the song that came of it. It's a difficult experience. But things will get better. Sooner than later.

So for this all to good, the clash of life that ran it's course all Autumn, I've reached a point of change in my life. The waves settled and everything is great. I quote one of my Counting Crows favorites, "It's been a long December, and there's reason to believe, that this year will be better than the last."

To all lost, there is a hope in the future. Absence may be eternal, but there's always memory. Run with the best, reach for the sky.

I'm out. I'll still be around dropping metaphors like bombs and trying to keep something unique. Speaking my mind is what I do, but enhancing the spoken word is what I attempt. Have a good one everybody. You know where to find me

]]> ~Everthesame807 http://Everthesame807.deviantart.com/journal/11227865/ http://Everthesame807.deviantart.com/journal/11227865/ Thu, 28 Dec 2006 21:32:48 PST You see, I can't say I'm perfect. I can't say I'm great. I also can't say I don't make mistakes. Humanity is a burden, but it is reality. But I've been a jumper through emotion and played myself like my world was just a game. Basically, I kept tying myself up with these pictures of perfection instead of reflections of reality. When you have something ripped away from you, you expect to bleed. But I've never felt better, ever.
I've woken up with a renewed faith. I've slept with a fulfilled satisfaction. I've crused through my day without a worry. I've got those friends who stand by, and to them I thank. I'm an uneasy presence to cope with at times, but I'm a recovery in the works.
The next chapter begins here. The morning there after I walked on, I drew a line, and walked on. I haven't looked back with wishes of desperation. I look straight ahead.
"Somebody" is the first step in everything. I wrote this in the transforming of mindset. A dramatic confusion, overblown and far out of proportion. This is the personal search for a new individual. A new me, without the world before.
"All The Better" is a clear reflection of my new mindset. I've grown sick and tired of feeling sorry for myself. A gloomy and sorrowful mindset. So what if things sucked. Work against them. I did now, and I've been standing against the wind, more proud than everbefore. The past is gone. I've come to terms with it never coming back. I'm just fine with it.
"Sweep", a new one, is just about the current state of things. One wonders, why certain things never are just forgotten. Moving on is a difficulty. I'm used to being the one who can't take a step. I've run headfirst, and going a thousand miles.
So all in all, life is a freakin' sweet clash of revitalization and inner cleansing. See happiness. It wanders my blood. Life isn't perfect. But it's far better than it has been for a long time.

Until next time, keep on writing, and thank you for your support and attention. Much to you all. Have a good one

Chris

]]> ~Everthesame807 http://Everthesame807.deviantart.com/journal/10526950/ http://Everthesame807.deviantart.com/journal/10526950/ Fri, 27 Oct 2006 11:58:29 PDT
If some of you (who've known me long enough) remember, a few years ago I had a film project attempting to get off ground. It was titled "Genocide". It eventually collapsed after several attempts do to lacking motivation and just different directions in mind for everybody. A month ago, myself and a good friend of mine (who has a DeviantArt as well...WuTang6996), Kenny, were discussing an idea. It got brought up that both of us had expendible money now and with that, a firm and stable budget could actually occur without having to depend on grants (which is a geniune longshot). From there, it spawned. I'm reworking the entire screenplay, and have been since, while incorporating new aspects. Some minor preliminary shooting has occured. Basically just testing things out and rehersing. I've been working on the screenplay alot, as well as some songs for the score ("Caretaker" and "Sanity Sacrifice", some of which might be on here sometime). It's coming along great. Myself and Kenny have a few others recruited aswell.

A novel is in the works. Confidential. All to be revealed is I'm really psyched about this one and I've been on a tear. Details in the near future.

School. Needless to say this has been insanity on multiple levels...

That's it. But it's a Friday and I'm actually not working all of it. Yay! I'll be making my rounds. Oh hell, how I missed you all. My footprints will be tracking all over the place soon. Sit tight!

Chris

]]> ~Everthesame807 http://Everthesame807.deviantart.com/journal/9905568/ http://Everthesame807.deviantart.com/journal/9905568/ Wed, 30 Aug 2006 08:51:58 PDT
[ FADING LIGHTS ]
I've always wanted to play piano, since hearing John Ondrasik's talents through his band, Five For Fighting. I had peaked some interests before with others piano efforts such as Rob Thomas, and even keyboard handy work of Jeff Lynne of Electric Light Orchestra. But after learning, I wanted to write something of my own. Adding some mixes of emotions with the idea. Just in recent month or so am I really getting serious about slapping down the music to go with it. I've been working on the music here and there, with whatever time I have. Someday, I'll have it recorded for all to preview. Sooner than later, hopefully.

[ PERPETUAL ENDEARMENT ]
I brought it to my own attention that alot of my music had become a tad too repetitive. Each piece, over and over, was just angry and depressing tone. I wanted to write another love song or at least a song of an alternate mood. So I sat down one night, in the dark with very little light or sound, and began dwelling off a title I'd conjured up. I got a verse or two and became stumped. After hours of thinking, I decided to put it away and sit on it. Two weeks later I came across it and knew I had to complete it. So I took myself outside in the cold evening weather and sat myself down. I made it clear to myself there was no going inside until I was complete. Within twenty minutes, I had it completed. I reviewed it several times over to ensure it was the final copy I'd been looking for. Sure enough, it was.

[ TAINTED VISAGE ]
This song covers the prologue of a dark period in the summer. A good friend of mine's aswell. He had dated this girl and all seemed well. Only to find out she had cheated on him. Spit fights brewed and things seemed to fall. Things would peak some light for a short while before going to total hell for a while, but that's a different story. This song is basically about that situation. How she wanted him back because she thought it wasn't fair just because she had revealed her betraying ways. How he was lost and damaged as a result. But in the end, everybody knew what was good for each other. ]]> ~Everthesame807 http://Everthesame807.deviantart.com/journal/8894245/ http://Everthesame807.deviantart.com/journal/8894245/ Sat, 27 May 2006 15:33:56 PDT
[FADE TO ZERO]
This one was written a month or two ago. It came to me one night when I was sitting in my room. Music was playing softly and I sat staring out the window. I wasn't able to mix the words enough to form this song, so I sat on it. It came from deep thought about dependence. When one believes they could rely on you, but you know their ties are distancing because they're building reliance upon someone else. It's pulling you apart inside, and it's all because of confusion in where to invest dependence. The next day I was sitting back and what took me so long to work on the night before, had just come to me. This was the result.

[MEMORY]
Even with all my fortunate gifts in life, there's so much regret that occupies my bittersweet existence. I have always had the most potential from all the best things in life and the greatest people there by my side. But I always allowed myself to stray too far from the wide ray of right. This one was about me just looking back at myself. I remember the smile I once had, which was legitimate in innocent. Now, I'm just hanging onto life and making the best of whatever is left of what I wished to become. There's one message I wish to pass on to my two-year-old brother, when he becomes old enough to comprehend words in a deeper meaning, and that is to never follow me. I'll be there for him, but I don't want him to model after me. I believe it'd ruin him. This song was a reflection of those two things merged.

[NEGATIVE CLIMAX]
If there's one thing this entire world needs to get a grip on, well, most of it, its the fact that dreams don't make themselves come true. Perfection doesn't spawn from laziness. Slacking doesn't lead to success. So ditch the ego, because it gets you no where. This sucker came from a longlasting dislike towards all the people in this world who think they could rise above the occasion without standing up to the plate. It's about my realization that if dreams are going to go true, I'm going to have to run the distance, while carrying a load of burden. But in the end, the gold of the future will sit for me. Whether it be from fame and rememberence, or just plain personal satisfaction, it'll be there to remind me, like a ring on my finger. This gets the title from my belief that on the pursuit of a dream, you're going to have to get into what I call the "negative climax", or the drop into pure hell in misery at the climax of your pursuit of dreams. Nothing comes without a price. This poem is about fighting and striving for dreams. ]]> ~Everthesame807 http://Everthesame807.deviantart.com/journal/8150173/ http://Everthesame807.deviantart.com/journal/8150173/ Mon, 13 Mar 2006 14:15:59 PST
DIRTY
FACELESS FIGHT
LITTLE BROTHER

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DIRTY
This one is about being mocked when you try. I've been in so many relationships in the past, where I tried to make things work. I poured my heart and soul, trying to make things last. But because I'm not Brad Pitt with a Shakespearean tongue to complete the perfect image, I was cut off. I suppose there were other reasons, but this was a major one. I don't know why I was thinking about the past, or why it was raging through my mind. But it helped me write this song. A song, about failure. Derived from confusion. How can something work if the only time someone will listen to you is when they want intimacy? Or how can things last, when the other is eying someone else in the process of figuring out how they're going to let you down? Lying is not the best way out of things. But when the tables turn, and they have the dependency upon me, I'm supposed to stand by. This one, I wrote as a middle finger to all the past failures. Some of them spawned good friendships, and this piece isn't to them. But the bad relationships where things exploded. This middle finger of a poetry piece is to them.


FACELESS FIGHT
I wrote this one after a long moment of thought. I'd been sitting on my back porch, lying back on the railing and staring into the stars. Wondering what I'm doing, where do I hope to go. The world is a war, and each endeavor is a small battle in the progression towards victory. But what if you're fighting side-by-side with a partner. Friend, lover, sibling, whatever. But you're being challenged by the world, and the other person in this co-dependent relationship wants you to help in keeping this strong while defending all that is there. But at the same time, they're protecting the attacker by hiding the identity. It's frustrating. After thinking all about that, I went inside and lied down on the couch for about twenty minutes, tossing and turning, while thinking. It was about elevin thirty at night before I began writing, and this is the product of it. Bottom line of it: You can't expect someone to fight for something, if you won't tell them who they're supposed to be fighting.

LITTLE BROTHER
This came one day when I was sitting one the couch, watching my one year old brother, Jacob, run around and just live freely. Then I began to fall into deeper thought about something that's haunted me since. How much will I influence him? What will become of him, if he follows my influence? The more and more I think about this, the more and more I don't want him to be like me. Sure, people I say I write good and I have many wonderful people who stand by my side. But I also have a wide array of regrets, and just because you have all the resources to form a perfect life, doesn't mean it'll happen. It led me to an image of Jacob, if he turns out like me. I cringed, and I could have beat myself up at the thought. I built a rage against myself. But instead of banging my head on the wall, I wrote this song as a message to Jacob. He won't be able to read it for a few years, and he won't be able to comprehend it to the fullest level for quite a while. Just because I'm the one who always pays attention to him and plays with him, because I'm the older brother who's always looking out for him, doesn't mean I should be someone to look up to. It's a message saying, follow your own heart and not the trail of blood from my battered heart. But its also a message saying, just because I don't want you to turn out like me, doesn't mean I won't be there. Because I will always be there. He's my little brother. ]]> ~Everthesame807 http://Everthesame807.deviantart.com/journal/8095194/ http://Everthesame807.deviantart.com/journal/8095194/ Tue, 07 Mar 2006 16:02:47 PST
1) My demo CD. I'm finishing putting the final touches on the forms for BMI, so I can get my music protected. I've been doing some recording here and there, but have been a little limited on time in the past week or so. I've been writing alot more, so I've been taking advantage of the explosion of my poetic mindset.

2) "One Last Lifeline", the latest song I posted, is my four-hundreth song. Yes, I've written four hundred songs since I started songwriting a year or so ago. Not all of them are great. Infact, a portion of them are terrible. But I take pride in my writing, as its a form of expression that reflects my thoughts and feelings. I share them with the world, in hopes that someone could relate, and maybe it could help them with what ever situation they may be going through.

3) Rob Thomas concert tomorrow night, and tomorrow is my nine month anniversary with Audrey. Stephen is also going to the concert with his mom. I'm going with my step dad's sister, Sarah. This show, will be awesome. And when Rob kicks off "Ever The Same", I'll be thinking of Audrey through the course of the song.

4) That's it really. Personal life. World History was fun. Biology was cool, as always. Alex Berube...that kid is great. Then lunch with Stephen and the gang. English with Stephen and Kendrick. Geometry...my death sentance. Oh yes, it was an event-filled day.

5) And I just want to say thank you to everybody who checks out my page. You have no idea how much I appreciate the time given to view and leave a little note or two on my work. I write all the time, and present it to the people who wish to read it. I can never be thankful enough. Thank you guys and girls. You all are simply amazing. ]]> ~Everthesame807 http://Everthesame807.deviantart.com/journal/7593305/ http://Everthesame807.deviantart.com/journal/7593305/ Fri, 13 Jan 2006 14:23:34 PST
I currently have three contributions up. "Disciplined Breakdown", "Little Brother", and "We Are All The Same". I may post another tonight. But in the meantime, if you a moment, please take a peak at them. I appreciate everybody checkin' it out.

I write alot, on a daily basis. Songs, stories, scripts, essays, everything. I love to write lyrics, and then write the music for piano and guitar, which are two instruments I play. Stories have always been a favorite of mine. In recent years, I've discovered an interest in script writing, mainly screenwriting. Then essay writing is the most recent interest I've discovered. Essays on certain topics, like ranting and commentary.

Well, I'll see you all around. Thanks alot for visiting my page.

Chris ]]> ~Everthesame807