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Santa doesn`t live on the north pole! http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/29119661/ http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/29119661/ Wed, 23 Dec 2009 00:51:12 PST <-- like this! and he basically looks like this -->

So for Christmas he brought me a husband from San Diego ~ but I was a naughty kid and opened my present before Christmas, but oh well :")

So yeah, sorry if I vanish for about 3 weeks~ be back in january and happy holidays

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Vist Team Insanesoft!

]]> *Exarrdian To whoever wanted to read "Over Blue Horizons http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/28895707/ http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/28895707/ Sat, 12 Dec 2009 04:36:52 PST You can read it here --> [link]

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I tried editing some parts on my own but I keep finding little things off every time I reread any part haha x_x; in any case it is readable and I wanted to pull up the site by the end of the week so.. here it is!! Joey will help me do a proper edit and get rid of all the engrish but that`s for next year..

Thank you for all who encouraged me and cheered me on as I was writing it! Much thanks to ~Yakra for the lovely fan art she did after reading the story~ it felt like early Christmas present to me haha

Big thankies to ~the-Jean-Genie for suggesting I give NaNoWriMo a try! It was great great great experience!

Gigantic thanks to Joel and Joey for reading the story first and all the encouraging comments..

And .. life time support of thanks to my coffee mug for not betraying me and providing me with coffee through the whole November.. *wipes a tear* it`s gone now though. Poor thing broke last week.. alas.. rest in pieces my dear old friend.

And.. big grats to ~the-Jean-Genie and ~DBomber for winning NaNoWriMo as well ~ go go NaNo Buddies~! We gotta roll next year too!

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Please enjoy the story for what it is, a story!
And Thank You for the interest! I`m proud of myself for participating in NaNoWriMo and hopefully will do next year too. I hope my English improves more. :,)

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Member of #bulgaria

Vist Team Insanesoft!

]]> *Exarrdian Tagged! http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/28744527/ http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/28744527/ Fri, 04 Dec 2009 11:07:37 PST

.. and not like I haven`t done this one so many times already but hey, it is a good reason to update the journal with something more seasonal?

1. Post these rules.
2. Each tagged person must post 10 things about themselves on their journal.
3. At the end, you have to choose and tag 10 people and post their icons on the same journal.
4. Go to their pages and send a message saying you tagged them.
5. No tag-backs.

Hmmm *ponder* .. and all day I can`t come up with 10 things lol..

1. I can`t operate without coffee.
2. My knee`s been killing me for weeks now and I`m tired of all the pain killers every day.. I`m also a little more grumpy lately cause of that.
3. I want to draw something seasonal but nothing kicks in my head yet.
4. The movie 2012 was insult to my intelligence and 2 hours waste of my time.
5. Twilight New Moon was insult to my gender and 2 hours waste of my time.
6. I didn`t pay to watch either of the above.
7. Uhh ....... I like the colour pink?
8. ...I really like the colour pink.
9. I wear a pink sweater right now.
10. My cellphone is red and black nokia xpress music?

Whoever wants to blab about themselves feel free to imagine that I tagged you.

Now I go back to playing HM: shinshine islands > > ~
Hopefully better mood and Christmas inspiration will kick in soon!
>_<-b

Vist Team Insanesoft!

]]> *Exarrdian Score! I did it! http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/28368081/ http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/28368081/ Sun, 15 Nov 2009 06:13:24 PST
[link] <-- I`m so damn proud of myself!
*highfives her muse*

I still have about two chapters left (I may merge them though) so I expect to go a little above 50k maybe 60k the most.

I`m so happy!
I got over my writer phobia, I wrote down story about Lulan and I proved I can pull 50k for a month even if I have to keep checking words in dictionaries, online translators and the like! The whole feeling of accomplishing such task is awesome. You know, like when you aren`t good at it but you want to give it your best shot and not even a sweat less of it! And here I am, 50k in half a month. I DID it! I know it`s not the best piece of literature out there and it`s probably grammatical horror but it`s -my- story. :,)

For those interested, here`s the main cast [link] (back when the story was called just "Blue Horizons") I should really do some proper pic of them all. Heck my fingers are art rusty! So much typing and no drawing!

I know, it probably seems like such a silly thing to get so excited over.. but hey, you don`t see me write every day!

And that`s all from me.. erk.. "134 Deviations, 308 Messages" oh, boy.. I gotta start going through all this tomorrow!

Much love to you all!

Vist Team Insanesoft!

]]> *Exarrdian NaNoWriMo~ http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/28078767/ http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/28078767/ Sun, 01 Nov 2009 04:17:36 PST

Every year I have at least two or three people who get all hyped about nano and then drop after a day or two. Is it that hard? I`m up for the challenge! It will be great chance to improve my english!

Oh, I`m aware that writing isn`t my strong point (and never will be) and whatever I write will sound strange, probably full of grammar errors, misspelled words here and there and quality a little below the average fan fictions on fanfiction.net but.. even so it will be my 50k words story written for 30 days! :,)

I got my piles of notes, some sketches, trusty ol` dictionary and cup o` coffee to get me started. I also have my bro and mom and dad who keeps blabbing, come in and out my room and won`t leave me alone till way late at night ..but that`s another story *laughs* I really don`t see myself able to write during weekends.. but we`ll see.

And lastly.. I`ll be repeating to myself that "I can do it!" till I finish that story!

Much love to all ~

*poofs*

Vist Team Insanesoft!

]]> *Exarrdian Life update + Tabagard stuffs. http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/27811437/ http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/27811437/ Sat, 17 Oct 2009 07:54:37 PDT Autumn time!

Here comes the gloomy, cold days of autumn that make you wish to cuddle with your blanket,drink hot milk and eat roasted chestnuts. That`s pretty much all I`ve been doing this week.

Now to proudly announce that I finally finished Wild Arms: Alter Code F! That is after I left the game aside for about 4 years - I was right by the final boss too, mind you! So I had forgotten good chunk of the battle system and wandered clueless having little memory of how to reach Malduke, eventually did. Especially looked forward to beating up Ziekfried har har har! Well.. I expected the battles to be hard as hell but I found my party at levels above 90 which.. made the Mother boss and Ziekfried kinda.. laughable ^_^; But, hey! Nothing feels as good as kicking Ziek`s metal butt!
The ending was so well made and sweet, and heartwarming and seeing everyone smile at the end and ah, such good emotions after the end of it!

So next is WA5 in the list ... whenever I find the time.

Denny where have you been!?

Apologies for dropping off the face of the planet for about a month

But I had a good reason! Finished my Tabagard demo but I really don`t want to post links here and have someone steal the battle sprites I worked so hard to make! Not that I can stop anyone, once the game itself is finished.

So here be lots and lots of screenshots!
(I know, I know! Bad english around!)
[link] [link] [link] [link]

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Hopefully will be done with it next year ^_^' Still have the battle sprites of about 3 characters left to finish.

Huzzah!

Anyone going to join the NaNoWriMo?

Last year there was about three people who I knew they`d try and dropped off after writing a chapter or two. Is it -that- hard? The word minimum doesn`t scare me as much as the fact I`m more engrish and writing is seriously not one of my strong points. However, I see this as great challenge! Mostly aiming to improve a little and prove myself that I can do it! ^_^
I`m pretty hyped about it but still haven`t quite set my mind on exactly what to write. Either way, I know it will probably be horribly written, full of grammar errors and the like, but it will be my 50k words in a month story!

*fist up*

Vist Team Insanesoft!

http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/27313699/ Sun, 20 Sep 2009 06:28:45 PDT

The last three years of my life were like some high speed blur of events. It is like when a storm hits you and you just hold on tight and just want it to be over. You are surprised at how strong you appear to be holding on to for dear life because you know you let go now and you are done for. But when the storm is all over, you look around, celebrate that you managed to go through all this and then you see all the damages around. Bitter sweet victory, but still a victory.

Things turned upside down after dad`s stroke three years ago but I was happy he is alive. Then the heart attack on the next year which shook me so badly but again he was alive and that was all that mattered. And last year granny broke her leg, went through operation, her life was at risk, my mom was on the edge of a nerve crisis ..and it was a long ..long battle of fighting with everything we have so we can pull her back on her legs.

Through these three years all I wanted was everything to be over. I wanted to fast forward and run away from the events that were happening around me. I was trying to use anything to keep my mind occupied with whatever it was though my road was pretty much set - go on, pass exams, move to next semester, pass exams, move to next semester.
I kept my eyes closed and kept going and going.

Now it`s all over. Dad is much better, granny can walk, I graduated ... and now I can slow down and look around myself but it only made me feel like I`ve ran a mile away from everyone else.
Friends from high school had mostly left the country or got married, or left the town. I have heard with none except for Maggie whom I lost contact with soon after she went to work in UK. I really hope she is alright. Friends from the university I never got close with.. just not my kind of people. Now they are mostly working as social workers taking care of babies and underage parents.
The house is sinking in dust with all the stress situations over the last 3 years, we neglected this place and it turned into huge storage room. Now we try to slowly turn it into the pretty sunny place it used to be.

Such is life and you don`t know where it will push you to.
To be honest, I feel really blank lately. I`ve always been optimistic and dreamy person but over the past months it`s nothing but negative thoughts rolling in my head over and over and over again. Life is hard, we are poor, my country is hellish place to live in, I don`t know what to do with my life and finding job had turned into yet another long battle I seem to keep losing so far.

I know things could have been worse and maybe this was the best outcome of the whole storm. I don`t regret any decisions made but even so.. I can`t help but feel like I`m on a lone island and I have no idea where to swim to. I feel tired, I want to rest but I`m sure as hell I can`t. If I knew where to swim to, I`d dive, eat the sharks for breakfast and wouldn`t stop till I reach my dream bay..

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With all that said.. congratulation for reading long pointless life ramble and here is a piece of cake for I`ve blown 24 candles on my birthday cake yesterday.
I only wish for sunny days to come and next year, to blow the 25 candles with a broad smile on my face.

Vist Team Insanesoft!

]]> *Exarrdian Open for commissions! http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/26951659/ http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/26951659/ Tue, 01 Sep 2009 06:31:19 PDT

Payment Method
Paypal only

Chibis
- 12$ (+12$ for every extra character)
Samples: [link] [link]

Full body character (Cute Version)
- 20$ (+20$ for every extra character)
Sample: [link] [link] [link]

Full body character (Not-so-cute version)
- 25$ (+25$ for every extra character)
Sample: [link]

CG Painting Bust/Not full body
- 30$ (+30$ for every extra character)
Sample: [link]

Complicated CG Painting/Scene/Whatever
- 100$ and up
Sample: [link] [link]

Note: All prices are for no background or some simple background.

Will not draw
- Mecha
- Furries
- Anything +18
- Buildings, futuristic things..I really suck at it folks.

Just look around my gallery and see if my "style" is what you are looking for.

Interested?
Send me a note if interested. You pay me once I`m done with the commission. I`ll show line art or WIP shot for double check.

Commissions Slots:
1. =DarkKnightCuron - done
2. ~DBomber - sketching
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Thanks for reading and have a nice day ^^

Vist Team Insanesoft!

]]> *Exarrdian Dance Me To The End of Love http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/26770474/ http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/26770474/ Sun, 23 Aug 2009 08:41:37 PDT
Dance me to your beauty with a burning violin
Dance me through the panic 'til I'm gathered safely in
Lift me like an olive branch and be my homeward dove

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If you fell like you want to sink into the ground for a few days best way to cure this feeling is..just to do it, right?

I feel like bag of stones hanging on people`s backs sometimes.. and God knows I`ve dealt with moody, overly-sensitive people and it`s not easy at all. I hate feeling that way.. It makes me think everyone feels like walking on glass when I sink into this depressing mood and very little things set me off. I feel like I need to make five steps back and let everyone go on walking while I take a short break.. then I`ll run and catch up with you again!

I got a special pic to work on for someone special who has a special day this special week! *fist pump*
Got Joel`s pic to work on and go on with the MG characters spree..yep plenty of work to occupy my brain.

Save your mushy hugs and just get me a cold beer ready! Be back in few days! *turns modem off* I know you`ll just tempt me *wags finger at it*

Open for commissions after 1st of September!

Keep rocking guys!

Vist Team Insanesoft!

]]> *Exarrdian Life update II http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/26623318/ http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/26623318/ Sun, 16 Aug 2009 06:48:10 PDT 2 Deviations, 208 Messages

Ever felt like saying "Bless the emulators!~" ?

It sure makes things easier for us poor people who can`t afford buying latest glossy consoles and spend just as much on games. Sadly I couldn`t make HM: Tree of Tranquility run (which was what I originally aimed for) but got HM:Magical Melody to work just fine ..which should keep me entertained for now.

So I had this nice productive week, but now I feel so drained and exhausted. It probably has something to do with going to bed at 5-6am almost every night..ehehe

I feel so inspired to draw but by the end of the day I only got energy left for doodles, sketches random quickies. Bah..
I didn`t get called from the school I sent my CV at (yet). I expected as much. They seem to be looking for someone with experience. This kinda.. makes everything twice harder ya know XD .. how can I start work if they want past experience all the time? I mean I -do- need to get the experience eventually, right? Oh well, can`t do anything about it. I heard the headmaster is pretty bitter lady anyway. Maybe not getting the job was for the better? *shrug*

Either way.. I expect some special people to drop in my town this winter and I need to save up moneyz. Thinking to open for commissions again once I stop feeling so drained.
Anyone interested? I think I improved some since last commission spree ^^''

*edit* Wha..frogot to ask if anyone wishes to request another tutorial..and that was pretty much why I thought to do new journal X_X.. pft see just how dead my brain feels?

Bah I can`t find any cool tiny pic to drop as finale!
*dumps old Tabagard screenshot*
Just so love this lightmaps script.. *__*;;
I`m doing almost negative progress with this game. I wanted to have a working demo done by September but..argh.. It feels like this game will be another project which will take years to complete .. not that I mind it of course.

Vist Team Insanesoft!

]]> *Exarrdian Anyone interested in a tutorial? Also.. tagged. http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/26314211/ http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/26314211/ Sat, 01 Aug 2009 08:46:30 PDT Like.. how I make this or that or whatever. Please comment if interested. Like pick whatever it is and ask how I did it and I`ll do my best to explain or make whole tutorial or something > >a;;

And yah tagged by

.... Been a while now hasn`t it?
Here are the rules:

1. Post these rules.
2. Each tagged person must post 8 things about themselves on their journal.
3. At the end, you have to choose and tag 8 people and post their icons on the same journal.
4. Go to their pages and send a message saying you tagged them.
5. No tag-backs!

Hrrrr....this one again > >;

1. I want to go back to believing in everything and knowing nothing at all
2. Please, Don't try to fix me, I'm not broken
3. Now I have a suicide on my mind so Don't hold me back I want to fall
4. I wish you could .. Come cover me with you... again.
5. I'm so tired of being here Suppressed by all my childish fears
6. But then I smile because All of my memories keep you near
7. And Whatever words I say I will always love you
8. I made seven song references and whoever lists all songs firsts will get free pic from me. Good Luck.

Tag?
Meh.. bet everyone and their dog is tired of doing this one.

Okey a bit of a bad day today but at least we had an awesome thunderstorm and now its all cool and dark!

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Hugs to everyone!
Even to Maruth!

Vist Team Insanesoft!

]]> *Exarrdian Life update http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/26208524/ http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/26208524/ Mon, 27 Jul 2009 10:05:00 PDT
*silence*

Guessed so

;;;

It`s kind of funny, just because I`m always smiling and trying to be as positive and supportive as possible, people assume my life is sunshine and happiness.. and in fact it`s not. It`s the opposite of it.. but it`s still not a reason to be a cynical jerk who laughs at people`s misery. You know.. in fact it`s not so hard to say a good word to a person you don`t even know instead of hop on the train of e-badass (Joel that phrase is gonna stay in my head for a while!) and make yourself feel better by making someone else feel like crap. Maybe the world won`t end if you don`t swear for a day and be thankful for what you have now. Someone out there doesn`t have even the half of that.

Why I have a feeling I`ve done that speech before..
Either way! Just thinking that there is probably someone out there who has it worse and still doesn`t complain makes me kick myself and snap out of depression! Sooooo time to list the good things that happened this summer so far!

1. Stopped biting my nails.
2. Grew my nails! Now I can drum them on the desk like classy villain!
3. Lost 10 kilos..and finally feeling good in my body! The Dukan diet does wonders
4. Got new cellphone and I use it mostly as mp3 player and looove it so much *happy girly sound effects*
5. Started wearing my glasses.. so now I`m not as blind as a bat out of a cave.
6. Looking forward to something awesome in December but don`t want to get TOO excited about it.. the world may end or something like that >>;
7. A certain Norwegian person made me believe again in good things happening out of the blue!
8. Close to finish SeaShells
9. Back to low rate RO server..ah..missed these times where I`d run like crazy from these orcs in the woods *wipes a tear*
10. Having awesome time every weekend with team IS ~ Adventure calls yo~!!

Yesh.. that`s about all I can think up of. I keep my attention to these good things and try to remain blind for the bad things..yep..yep.. its working! Not that I can make the heat this summer less..brain-killing..but oh well XD;;

The fight goes on!!

Vist Team Insanesoft!

]]> *Exarrdian Forum Roleplayers around? http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/25670479/ http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/25670479/ Wed, 01 Jul 2009 10:21:05 PDT
[link]

If you are interested in forum roleplay or just want to hang out with us sign up!

We restarted the story from the previous MuseGate forum however we still consider if previously made characters should keep their exp and levels or the returning players would like to remake them..

Either way.. the story events won`t start till Monday so feel free to look around and get to know the place and all that.

Lastly.. behave. We are allergic to stupidity and this won`t be the place for your drama-llama, keep it for your journals, my space or any other place you want.

That be all! Have Fun!!

Vist Team Insanesoft!

]]> *Exarrdian 1 Week Gameing Challenge - Planescape Torment http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/25622292/ http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/25622292/ Mon, 29 Jun 2009 06:15:45 PDT

and

decided to do something fun involving games.. so I picked a game for Joel, Joel picked a game for Jenx and Jenx picked a game for me and we play for a week then post impressions and stuff.

So Jenx picked Planescape Torment for me.
Now I`m usually fine playing old games as graphics aren`t big deal and I remember when this game came out and everyone and their grandpa was playing it and commenting it, those who were into PC RPGs anyway. I remember reading about it in a PC magazines and had a vague idea of what the game is about. I know a lot prised it for its story and some made it sound as the RPG of RPGs when it comes to PC RPGs (Something like how we say Chrono Trigger is the RPG of RPGs when it comes to console RPGs of old times?) so needless to say I had an overall good impression for the game and good expectations. Also I used to think it`s called "Planescape Tournament" ...

Jenx probably forgot about my easily-upset stomach as the start of the game was in some building where you can see opened up people all over the place and zombies everywhere and my stomach quickly protested. Now the game isn`t anything overly detailed nor the zombies were coming to eat my brain (even if my hero fella looked like a zombie himself) and I could talk with them and all that friendly stuff so there was nothing actually creepy in this but my stomach simply could hardly chew the blood and gore all over the background.

I`m a person who was mostly playing jRPGs where the story pretty much forces you in one direction or another and you have a good idea on what to do most of the time however PC RPGs are known to be more free and you have all this stuff like alignments, talking and taking decisions change series of things, attacking one person can lead to a whole gang attacking you and so on. This is much more realistic of course however it was more difficult to me because the majority of time I played the game I had no idea what to do. The most "fun" I had when I spent 10 minutes or something trying to figure out why a key doesn`t open the locked door..just to find out I was supposed to unlock another door with it. I felt so dumb XD;

The game has crap load of dialogues which is always a good thing. The dialogues are very detailed and gives you good info on nearly any NPC you meet in town and around. Unlike jRPGs where generic NPC#13 will talk about the weather over and over and over again then walk in random pattern and block the stairs or something like that. Eventually you collect and collect and collect information on who you are and where you are and why you are here and eventually get short or long quests. Jenx advices me to save a lot which saved my neck several times as even simple NPC talk can result in something unexpected. I didn`t proceed with the game much, mostly due to being really slow when it comes to PC RPGs and because it couldn`t keep my interest for too long. Let`s face it.. I`m used to animu bishonen wielding swords about and goofy girls pointing wands and crap. While kiddies on a quest to save the world began to annoy me, I must with guilty hand on my heart say I`d prefer that to hunk zombie and a floating skull in a world of dead souls and the like. On a side note, Morte made me chuckle numerous times through my play.

Anyway this is pretty much why I could hardly proceed with the game and my interest was constantly slipping away from that game. For the short time though I found the main hero kinda charming maybe because I enjoyed picking the polite lines in my convos and really enjoyed NPCs getting all excited and thankful that someone helps them without wanting anything in return. The music made good impression to me and I found it pretty ear-pleasant. It made me dive more into the atmosphere of the game.

Overall, the game is classic from what PC RPG veterans say and I have no doubt it is.. but it couldn`t keep me play for long. Then again we all have different tastes right? FF10 put me to sleep in hour and a half after I started playing it and while I enjoyed Wild Arms 3 and WA:ACF once I reached the final boss, I got too bored to finish.. so yeah I`m really picky and can hardly find something that I`d play from the start till the end and enjoy every second of it.

*thinks of Suikoden 1/2/5, Chrono Trigger, Kartia, SaGa Frontier*

How much I enjoyed the game? I`d say 4 out of 10.

+ Detailed dialogues *Exarrdian Tagged..whoa been a while..@_@ http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/25601638/ http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/25601638/ Sun, 28 Jun 2009 08:04:14 PDT

pointed at me all dramatically in slow motion with high speed background and all that fancy effects.. sooo here it is!

1. What does your deviantArt name mean and why did you join this site?
Exarrdian is my muse` name. DDP and Denny were taken..so.
Um why did I join again.. guess I wanted to meet more artsy people?

2. What fandom were you obsessed with when you joined and what are you into now?
Inuyasha..? Yu-Gi-Oh? Hmm now nothing.. unless playing Dynasty Warriors counts > >;

3. How many watchers do you have now?
*checks* 353 .. O_o wow..

4.Name 3 of your favorite artists on DA

.. Sava where have you been TT I miss you!

5. Do you comment, fav, or both?
If I`m in a hurry and have like 50+ deviations to check, I usually just ninja-fave and run!

6. Do you participate in clubs' contests here on DA?
Nothing catches my interest > >;

7. What is your most popular deviation?

Lady Paladin ... wth > >;;; it hurts my eyes.. but guess people like paladins?

8. What are you favorite non-anime TV shows?
Prison Break (but its over now) and House

9. What are the things you wish you could draw better?
Buildings.. *shakes fist*

10. Summer or winter?
Summer ~

11. Rain or Sun?
Rain!

12. What's your favorite type of music?
I listen to nearly everything as long as it fits my mood > >a;

13. PC or Mac?
Never tried Mac

14. Anime or Manga?
Uhh..none? 8D;; I think I`m too lazy for both.

15. Coke or Pepsi?
Coke with lots of ice

16. Read or TV?
TV .. *lazy*

17. How many hours a day do you spend on DA?
Depends..on how many messages.. @_@ sometimes it takes hours..

18. Name a hidden talent
How can I know if it is hidden!?

19. Flash or traditional cartoons?
Traditional! I`m sick of..watching triangles and square heads talking ..its ugly.

20. What is your favorite fast food restaurant?
Haven`t been to any for..many years.

21. What are top 3 favorite books?
Wish I could remember 3 books I`ve read.. *nervous look*

22.Wii or Playstation?
Wish I had wii.. guess I`ll pick olde psx and ps2?

23. Name 3 of your favorite bands
Uhh.. hmmm..

24. Are you a fast, slow, or medium typer?
Fast..too fast maybe

25. Do you like Denny's?
I like myself, yes!

26. What is your favorite emoticon?

!

27. What is your favorite type of pie?
Bleh..sweets..

28. Have you ever stayed up for 24 hours?
Yeeep..and more > >

29. Do you go on YouTube alot?
Yeah when bored.. or when Rup floods me with youtube links about how Volker/Frank`s glorious death speech/evil speech/life/theme music would look ..*cough* ^_^;

30. Are you a member on any other sites besides DA?
Facebook which I rarely check.

31. Do you cosplay?
I wish lol

32. Fruits or sweets?
Fruits

33. Name 3 artists you admire.

.... multiply her by 3 and we got 3 artists!

34. Buttered, plain, or salted popcorn?
Buttered.. but that will just make me think how many extra calories I eat.

35. Have you skipped school?
Pft..who hasn`t..?

36. Have you been on a plane?
Nope...but maybe one day @_@

37. Have you swam in an ocean?
Does the sea count? Cause its on about 40 minutes on foot from here

http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/25366943/ Wed, 17 Jun 2009 06:20:30 PDT like every woman would do!

Actually I have nothing interesting to say but I got sick of looking at my graduation photos hanging in my journal so here`s update.

Muse Gate will re-open soon so RolePlayers keep eyes open! Next journal update will probably be about it anyway.

Also..finished Suikoden Tierkreis and uhhh why its called tierkreis again? Why zodiac? Sure there were 12 false chronicles and all that crap but.. zodiac? Eitherway.. good RPG, interesting story, but didn`t feel like a suikoden. I want me huge war scale battles, politcal struggles back and no chosen kids on crusade to save the world, kthx ...

Come on Konami.. please give us a proper suikoden and please let it not be on PS3!!

Vist Team Insanesoft!

]]> *Exarrdian Bachelor degree`d - Part II http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/25047300/ http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/25047300/ Sun, 31 May 2009 08:57:02 PDT
Hint: I wear pink.. a lot.

It was a happy start of the day and then it turned 180 degree into a emo-storm which I don`t want to comment and I ended up with no party or celebrations other than my dear ol` bottle of wine by my pc. On the brighter side of the road.. I did reply to some messages and comments..!

That`s about all and now I feel like the kool kidz who update journals with few words twice a week :,D

Bah.. my head is killing me.

Vist Team Insanesoft!

]]> *Exarrdian How do they call the Dynasty Warriors fans? http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/24955892/ http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/24955892/ Tue, 26 May 2009 06:19:03 PDT

How do they call the Dynasty Warriors fans?

I mean.. back when I was all into suikoden, I`d call myself "suikoinsane" and that is as far as my fandom would spread. In fact it is so rare for me to fan-girl over something that I don`t call it fan-girling but fandalism but that`s another story Ah, the joy of making up words..

Well now that I lost faith in Konami and don`t really hope for Suikoden 6, nor expect them to pull anything epic. With their "polite" answers to the fan-base questions, they made it clear that they`ll aim for FinalFantasy style in the future where every game will have different world from the previous. Thank you, Konami. No matter what awesome-sauce story you can pull, the suikodens will just not be the same to me if they aren`t in the same world.

Thankfully for me, my love for 3 kingdoms-style things moved to Dynasty Warriors and as long as they release the games for PC as well, I`ll be fine. For a button mashing game, it can be pretty addicting and I`m such a sucker for stories that involve kindness, virtues, loyalty, cheesy love, plotting and backstabbing and so on..

So I found myself playing DW6 nonstop over the past 2 weeks, broke one of the buttons on my controller, got red eye again, tired my fingers to a point where I didn`t have any strength to draw and got Joel back to playing DW4Empires just so we can be all laughing at random DW related things we find around.

Mind you, I haven`t reached the point of doing fan art (yet) but I did take a meme
[link]

I consider doing the fangirl meme just because I have hilarious answers prepared. Which reminds me.. is it that strange that I`m not so drooling over these fellas or getting weird fantasies and stuff? I mean.. they were real people and all.. lived like 1700 years ago and wow.. their names still inspire people in one way or another? Wish they could see how people see them nowadays...... even if I think Zhang He would get heart attack if he sees how he is portrayed by KOEI ^_^;;;

Ramblings aside.. I love DW6. So many nice cut scenes and I`m sucker for details. I love how they animated their expressions and movements. Also I`d kill to get these.. *epic fist shake* [link]

TV.. what is that again?

I`m not watching TV much and everyone knows that. I did, however, follow Prison Break from the start till the very end and if I may add that was not very happy end. Someone forgot the rubber gloves *cough*. If I pretend I never saw the 1 hour special, I can somewhat swallow it and accept it as bittersweet ending. But then again all my faves made it alive (minus Bellick) at the end so I`m somewhat pleased (FYI Kellerman is my top fave). I`m also pretty happy the series got an end and didn`t get stretched to a point where it gets canceled.

About life, the friends and all these wonderful things

Hey, I have that thing called life!
Okey I did get occasional mood swings over the past two weeks and I don`t think that things changed but if anything I got more reassured where I want to head to in the future. Can`t expect any less from my special buddies ^^! I thank you so much for who you are and for always holding both my hands.. and for always noticing when I`m down lol.. I can never fool ya! *epic fist shake again*

Oh, hey, hey graduation ceremony on 30th! Wonder if they`ll give us these fancy robes and hats. Mom and dad will be there of course to take lots of pics! Ahh can`t believe it.. bachelor degree`d .. sounds like these four years flew with speed of light but at the same time it felt like eternity too haha.. x_x how come that makes sense?

Busy days ahead!

Closed for commissions now which is kinda good because I plan to work on some top secret things and won`t have time for those even if we all need money for one thing or another, oh well.
In case anyone wonders why I`m so quiet/away/offline/dead ... its super secret projects InsaneSoft is working on.. as well as some work on reopen... ]]> *Exarrdian Congratulations Norway!! http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/24798211/ http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/24798211/ Sun, 17 May 2009 04:04:26 PDT You won Eurovision~!!

And the song deserved it! It was one of the better ones anyway. I was personally more for Azerbaijan and voted for them but I`m happy they got to 3rd place (almost 2nd! Almost!!) though now the more I listen to Norway`s entry also Estonia`s the more I like them haha XD;;
I think Moldova`s and Armenia`s deserved some higher places ..also Portugal. Didn`t like any of the slow sob-sob songs that year >_<' It was like Disney Movies finale ugh..
At least this year`s winner means we`ll hear more violins? That shouldn`t be a bad thing!

I personally disliked how Russia handled the show this year. I expected better results considering how many years Russia was 2nd or 3rd and when finally won.. we got what? Horrible hosts on the semi-finals, crappy broadcast, motion-sickness from the cameramen ugh @_@;;
The finals were handled better but..still.. I hope Norway will do better job hosting next year.

Ya heard that Angry? Your country won and you missed it!!

Anyway, it was damn fun! Thanks for all who watched with me, and sorry I poof`d so suddenly! Hope ya all had good time like I did!

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Aside of that.. I`ve been playing DW6 again.. Aahh addicting stuff. Xiahou Dun needs more love ;_; That guy`s awesome. I preferred his DW5 weapon but ehh huge ass mace works too I guess.. I found him kinda slow at first but once I got used to him.. he is my Chuck Norris of Wei!

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Now few days of clean around the house, work on online things and then back to commissions! Need da moneyz.. especially if my babe gets to come over this summer! Eeeee *excited*

Anyone interested?

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Vist Team Insanesoft!

]]> *Exarrdian I`m alive O_X! http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/24584205/ http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/24584205/ Mon, 04 May 2009 13:31:06 PDT

On a side note.. got red eye some days ago. Overwork much?So I pent some days sketching by hand and away from the PC.. and my love for traditional arts returned..!

...and well.. crap..
78 Deviations, 207 Messages

Anyone excited about Eurovision this year? I`m not so happy with our song .. hope the guy sings better on the actual event ^^''

12th of May - Semi Finals
14th of May - Semi Finals
16th of May - Finals

21 CET

Planning to watch online with some friends.. always great laughs when watching with friends ..the more the merrier and all that!

]]> *Exarrdian 15 years ago.. http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/24424656/ http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/24424656/ Sat, 25 Apr 2009 09:20:17 PDT
The teacher asked "So what was the moral of the story?" and the kids held hands up, including little Denny. The teacher pointed to little Denny and she stood up and proudly said "That everyone should go for their dreams and even if they aren`t good enough now, if they really want it, if they try really hard.." and before she could finish the teacher said "No, it`s not that." and pointed at another kid to answer. Little Denny dropped down on her seat pondering and then heard the teacher say "Yes, everyone should know their place. That is the moral of the story."

Little Denny disagreed. She folded her arms and refused to repeat that and stubbornly insisted that the crow could eventually learn to sing like the nightingale since they are both birds...... much to the teacher`s sad attempts to reason with her.

15 years later, Denny is no longer little.. but she still thinks that story was wrong.
Denny knows some people are born with skills and work less to achieve results which take others much longer.. but Denny doesn`t think that is a reason to "know your place."

Denny still thinks that you can choose your own place and work your way into that place be it to prove that you can or because you want to.

So..Denny wishes to point at some good artist who are trying very hard and a little support will be very welcomed.

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She draws adorable chibis and has her way to draw eyes for sure. She is taking commissions and the prices are reasonable. Please drop by!
Commissions info: [link]

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Very clean solid style. Her strength is in drawing females as you can see and any character she draws comes out very elegant and beautiful. She takes commissions as well if you are interested.
Commissions info: [link]

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Its rare to see work that has more than "random girl in random pose". Nimuell`s art is always flowing with emotions ..some sad..some more optimistic. It is always very pleasant to look at her drawings for they are mostly light, not detail heavy yet very deep.

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*Exarrdian Why inspiration why..!? - And more Tabagard! http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/24284869/ http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/24284869/ Fri, 17 Apr 2009 03:46:21 PDT

I have 2 commissions that I have to finish asap (sorry made you wait so much Lord Bunny! And ya too cousin TT) plus a belated bday present for someone.. and by belated I mean like 6 months belated..

aaaaand every time I open photoshop.. I end up working on sprites lol

Did I mention I have so many WIP pics that my head spins? I was cleaning some folders and found my old WIPs folder.. then an even older than that one folder, folder..

[link]
[link]
[link]

Doubt some will get finished at all..

Tabagard!
I`m so in mood to work on that game. Thanks for all the suggestions and picks in the last journal! So far doing battle sprites.. decided to go with the tall sprites edit of the SBS .. that`s gonna take a while but to be extra mean for myself made all characters` battle poses just so I`ll be sure to make`em all and not get lazy and drop some.

Party: We are off to take over th- no wait, wait.. we SAVE the world!

and I actually am missing 2 characters from the group.. even if they already don`t all fit in the journal box.. lol
That`s one colourful party.. made of inquisitors and necromancers.. it somehow.. works, trust me, it somehow..works.

Buuut now..work calls.
I`m not going to even show my face online until I finish the 2 commissions >_<
*runs off*

]]> *Exarrdian Time to pick one road! - also Tabagard ideas. http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/24107227/ http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/24107227/ Tue, 07 Apr 2009 07:14:56 PDT Boo no fancy CSS journal anymore..
THANK YOU BRO T_T;

But gotta save money for someone special who hopefully will come here this summer..

Real life
As much as school work kinda makes us (or me anyway) complain from lack of time to work on other things, once it`s all over, it comes the period of taking this important decision of "Now which road to pick?"
And even if I didn`t.. speak openly with anyone about it until yesterday with my mom .. I think I realized that.. yes, I will hate myself and whatever life I chose if I know I never tried to pursue my dreams.
I`ve always been a person who never jumps into something unless sure the ground there`s solid.. if you know what I mean. This conflict now though is like choosing between what is secure and what is uncertain.. yet the uncertain road is what the heart wants.

It`s so sad you can`t take second shot in life..

Tabagard!
I was really surprised that some people got interested when I posted the group shot pic (even if its like chapter 1 group shot)!
So me and Joel decided we`ll make it into an RPG. At the moment gathering materials, sounds, music, sprites and so on. I have written down a step by step guide so the story is pretty much polished.
There are several things I need to think over when it comes to gameplay though. So.. help me here?

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- World Map -
How would you like the world map to be?
Classical RPG style where you come out of town, turn all small and walk to next location?
or
MMORPG style where you literally have to walk from one location to another where every field, road, forest is a map.

I`ve never used the 2nd type and think it will be something different and interesting to try, but also tiresome.

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- Weapons/Armors -
How should the equips be?
Traditional RPG style where you buy new equips in every shop in every new town.
or
Suikoden style where you have one weapon which you upgrade at a blacksmith?

I`ve used the suikoden style before for weapons and armors though not sure if I can pull it on RPG Maker VX..

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- Monster encounters -
How should random battles be triggered?
Old school RPG style where screen flashes and you randomly get thrown in battle?
or
Chrono Trigger style where the enemies are moving on the map and if you bump into them battle starts?
or
Wild Arms style where you get a warning before every random encounter and maybe have an item to cancel the battle though can`t use it every time..

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And lastly.. who will be interested in playing the game at all?

Just so I know who to note with link to the game once its done ^^'

Platform: RPG maker VX
Expected release date: Autumn 2009
Predicted Size: 20-30mb

Commissions Progress
1. *Hatreda - done
2. ~DBomber - colouring 1/2
3. ~MorganFortuna - sketching
4.
5.

]]> *Exarrdian Bachelor degree`d! http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/23896709/ http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/23896709/ Thu, 26 Mar 2009 09:25:34 PDT

Thank you all who wished me good luck and had fingers crossed for me!

Well sure it wasn`t an A it was a B but its -my- B! ... cause at the end I didn`t cheat. Hah.. I feel damn proud about it too. Considering the cheat-storm as I can call it around me haha x_x;

Got topic 10 and 31. Once again "Memory" and uhnn "Analytical methods" ... > >; Wrote three big pages on Memory.. kinda threw in every little thing I could remember even about a whole page on the genetic memory and Jung`s work. Now when I think of it.. I did forget to mention the photographic memory and Spiner`s experiment lol oh well.

And the second topic, I just knew the important details about every of the 3 methods they wanted.. which was like about 3-4 sentences for them ^^' Guess that got me the B haha.

Either way.. THAT.. friggin` grande exam is over! I passed, I`m having bachelor degree in psychology now~! .. Well technically will have in May when the documents get ready but those are details XD

I will consider going after Master`s degree.. > >; Must check how expensive they made it. My overall score allows me to go for such anyway.

Gah..so happy I`m done with it. First thing I`ll do tomorrow is clean my room from all these notes, papers, text books, note books and the like and then.. DRAW >_< I haven`t worked seriously on any pic for weeks now.. just random doodles boo.
Gotta get back to commissions too ^ ^;

On a side note, wow.. Dukan`s diet makes wonders when you do it right. Seven kilos down and feeling like win :,D My knee doesn`t hurt as much either.. granted I do take extra medicine for it.. it almost feels like the miracle happened!! *_*;

Pft.. if I wasn`t so damn tired now, I`d be dancing.. T T;; Lots of beer and loud music tonight for sure anyway!
Also, vhxRO guildmates, tonight..we storm the endless tower!!

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Commissions:
1. *Hatreda
- Hatreda, Rikani, and Kalzhirmin - sketching
2. *ReallyAngry
- Chrono Trigger fanart yaaaay!!! <3 - sketching
3.
4.
5.

The InsaneSoft gang!

Commissions:
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]]> *Exarrdian lol RO http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/23655293/ http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/23655293/ Thu, 12 Mar 2009 06:40:16 PDT for such an old MMORPG you are still as addicting as hell..

Even with all your absurdities such as...

Plants growing on rail roads hanging in the air..

Perfectly lined up mushrooms in the middle of a cursed kingdom..

The king of Prontera dead in a country at the otherside of the world map..

And I bet the church of Midgard secretly wishes that beings like Dark Lord would really leave`em alone if you just ..tell`em "Evil begone" .. but it doesn`t work that way.

And if begone doesn`t work then you just go beat the hell outta the guy! .. and if he hides.. well there`s always a way to make him show up..

Speaking of beat the hell outta someone.. you have to admit, when the monster keep casting silence on you, best idea is to grab your wand and start wacking it over..! eventually..it will work.

Then you can just highfive the darkness though that may make your screenshot appear kinda.. spooky

So instead how about going down the road to hell? Literally..

Speaking of hell.. Amon Ra has good idea how to bring it on you.

But don`t worry.. not all MVPs are all that scary..

In fact you can creep your party members out by accidentally spam Wide Curse the moment they enter..

Not as effective as when you in fact curse bunch of undead..

And maybe not as funny as when random party member just goes afk in the middle of a dungeon quest..hmm

But sadly nothing can beat the sad laughs when RO literally lols in your face during your sad attempts at card hunting..
Note: I was looking for stem worm card > >;

Ah.. good times *wipes a tear*
...
... Hendra if you are reading this.. WE NEED MVP PARTY MEMBERS! Get RO downloaded and join us!

One day.. one day.. ..
*shakes fist dramatically*
we`ll get Beelz and Ifrit down.. >_<

*runs back to reading* = =;; damn you last 8 topics that are so boring to read..

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Commissions:
1. =ScorpionOuSauterelle
- Chibi Korori and random demon guy - Done
- Dead man person..! - Done
2. =lux100
- Skirji! - Done
3. *ReallyAngry
- Chibi Angry and Fury having picnic! - Done
4. ~DarkKnightCuron
- Dragonborn character - Done
5. *Hatreda
- Hatreda, Rikani, and Kalzhirmin - sketching

The InsaneSoft gang!

http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/23501365/ Tue, 03 Mar 2009 04:01:22 PST
Okey.. so a friend called at the university to see how much is the tax for the grad exam (last time it was 80lev which is about 50usd) ..and it`s 350lv.... that`s like 225usd. GOODDAMMIT MONEY LEECHING ASSHOLES!!! >_<
For you it may not be much but for me it is. And it`s not that I can`t pay it it`s that I`ll have to withdraw all the money in my card that I`ve been gathering since Christmas. Those money were meant for repairs around the apartment here dammit..(Also for a new chair cause this one I use is really uncomfortable for long time computer work.. > >; )

But..daaammmn! I can`t get over at how.. greedy these creeps have got.
Well.. screw you.
I`m making cheat papers for the topics I can`t memorize and to hell with your system. You can cheat so can I. You rise your goddamn taxes every year to feed all these Alzheimer diseased old men and even you have no idea why we need so many professors when they either don`t show on lectures or don`t even talk about their damn subject when they DO show up. Not to mention all the subjects we had which had nothing to do with psychology..

Go to hell..

And yes to those who don`t know..in my country there`s one big exam on all the material you`ve studied for the 4 years in the university..and it decides whether you graduate or not. Yeaah.. marks on previous exams don`t really matter (unless you want master degree later on) as long as you pass the grad exam..
Its -really- creative isn`t it?

< <;; ...And by the time I typed all this, I feel about 50% less furious.. now I feel like I wasted few minutes of my morning for something I may not even submit cause..well yeah rant journals are everywhere..
...
Whatever *hits send*

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Also.. Happy 3rd of March to all my fellow Bulgarians.. I was thinking to doodle something patriotic for today but I prefer to break things for now.. thanks.

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The InsaneSoft gang!

Commissions:
Open
Clubs:
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]]> *Exarrdian So I finally watched "Slumdog Millionare&quot http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/23446995/ http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/23446995/ Sat, 28 Feb 2009 08:26:12 PST And maybe I was partly all skeptical cause of the whole "Dark Knight" fuss back then and the movie was.. well good but its not something I`d watch second time anyway. Or because I waited for "Inkheart" so much but didn`t like the movie as much as I liked the trailer.. lol

Anyawy.. I was..prepared for something..like OK movie but it totally blew my mind off. The first thing I said after I watched it was

"That...was...amazing!! ^___^!"

Yep, with a smile. Heck I thought two hours would waste my time too much and lately I`ve been having ..not enough of it for sure..but wow.. just wow. That two hours were so worth it. So worth it I watched it for second time right on the next day with my mom (who loved it as well of course) and won`t mind watching it again.

I`m really picky when it comes to movies and especially directing, music and actors.. and there`s rarely a movie which will cover all these for me. Rarely is a movie that I just can`t pick a bad thing to complain about. Rarely there`s a movie I`ve seen where every little piece was just.. on its rightful spot.

This movie was one of these.
I highly recommend to anyone who haven`t seen it yet.

And about why I`m in pain *points mood* .. Its about my knee and some of you know about that problem. Just when I thought the miracle happened..*drops head* the pain just returned ..

Weeeelll even so.. can`t drop down into glooms and dooms , yah? Reading awaits me for I gotta ace that exam in March!

See you around guys, apologies for slow replies and commission works.. things will speed up soon I hope!

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You Are My Waking Dream, You' re All Thats Real To Me
You Are The Magic In The World I See
You Are In The Prayer I Saying, You Are In My Two My Names
You Are The Faith That Make Me Believe ....

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The InsaneSoft gang!

Commissions:
Open
Clubs:
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]]> *Exarrdian Hey you! http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/23188283/ http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/23188283/ Sat, 14 Feb 2009 05:30:09 PST Yes, you!
You know what? You are a human! Nothing more and nothing less! And you know what`s so great about being a human? You can dream. No other creature on earth can dream. And dreams, imagination and creativity are just the keys to break the limits and reach for what no one else can reach. You can see what no one can see.. and you know what`s so good about it? You can make them come true.. Is there any other being on our planet that can dream, imagine and create?
I doubt so..

So what are you doing? Whining, complaining, idling, chit chatting, staring at the space when you can do so many other things. You -can- create.

Don`t waste.. your time as a human being. Our life is too short to waste even a minute wrapped in negativity.

*cough*
Okey done with motivation speech!!
Happy Love Day!!

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And whoo..tagged by

!
Been a while! So... 8 random things about random character it is?

Okeey! *points* Beldos..! I chose you!

*attack pose!*

1. He likes fairy tales and enjoys writing such.
2. He cares for inanimate objects as if they are living things.
3. He married his sword! ..j/k j/k.. XD; He married the rune on his sword - same thing.
4. The rune on his sword is called Feoh. Only he can hear "her" speak.
5. All his victories were because of Feoh`s power.. he lost only once, cause Feoh thought they can be together forever...in the after life. (considering he was mortal and she was an eternal force)
6. Well they are together forever in the afterlife guarding the Lower Kingdom (Hell) in Umbos Dala (Tree of life) along with Beldos` cursed army of undead.
7. You can see his undead army in random taverns in the Lower Kingdom playing black jack or poker and drinking wine.
8. Birthday on 22nd of July.. as far as his oldest pics` dates say!

Now who to tag..

Now that was fun.. Okey back to work!

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Commissions:
1. =ScorpionOuSauterelle
- Chibi Korori and random demon guy - Done
- Dead man person..! - Done
2. =lux100
- Skirji! - Done
3. *ReallyAngry
- Chibi Angry and Fury having picnic! - Done
4. ~DarkKnightCuron
- Dragonborn character - sketching
5. *Hatreda
- Hatreda, Rikani, and Kalzhirmin - sketching

The InsaneSoft gang!

Commissions: *Exarrdian Good job and now back to commissions! http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/22958458/ http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/22958458/ Mon, 02 Feb 2009 06:39:08 PST

Next time for sure we`ll get it down as well!!

Now back to more serious topics for me once again. My grad exam retake is in March which means I have to read through the whole February boo..

And I have to help my family as much as I can before I get a proper job so.. for now all I can do is commissions. Just a warning though since I`ll be reading through February I might be doing them slower than how I usually draw.

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Commissions time?

5$ for a sketch (+3$ for each additional character)
Sample: .. ..uh can`t find any lol
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7$ for a nice line art (+3$ for each additional character)
Sample: No one commissions that anyway.
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12$ for a colored chibi character (+12$ for each additional character)
Sample: [link]
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$15 for a colored character no background (+15$ for additional characters)
Sample: [link]
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40$+ for something like this [link] (or more depending on the background)
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100$+ for something like this [link] again depends on how many characters and the background you desire.

If you are interested please note me!
I`m using PayPal only.
I usually prefer to be paid after I`m done with the work (how unusual, eh? XD). You`ll receive small size with watermark first and after I receive my payment you`ll get the full size pic of your commission (usually about 1000x1000 or more) without any watermark!
That`s about it ^^!

Must say these all were made on my crappy old computer.. ^_^;; I should be doing better now.

Slots:
1. =ScorpionOuSauterelle
- Chibi Korori and random demon guy - Done
- Dead man person..! - line art
2. =lux100
- Skirji! - Done
3. *ReallyAngry
- Chibi Angry and Fury having picnic! - Done
4. ~DarkKnightCuron
- Dragonborn character - sketching
5. *Hatreda
- Hatreda, Rikani, and Kalzhirmin - sketching

That`s pretty much all! despite all Denny here`s feeling pretty inspired, optimistic and happy! So does Beldos.. just look at him ..he loves his queen! That..sword is his queen.. yep..

The InsaneSoft gang!

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]]> *Exarrdian The 5th Anger Crusade Starts NOW! >o>! http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/22935229/ http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/22935229/ Sun, 01 Feb 2009 03:54:00 PST
Rage on folks!!

Its this time of the year again! Where we decorate and give gif- ... no, no, no its not THAT time of the year its the ANGER CRUSADE time of the year!
:anger:

And you know what?
I went to bed at 5am and just woke up! That is at least 4 hours of raging I just have lost.. dammit!!

Not only I didn`t make any pic this year but I overslept too..!

Its okey.. I`ll make up for this.. for love and joy are fake and we all know it!!

IN THE PURE RAGE WE BELIEVE!
...*grabs anchor and goes to whack emoties*

DON`T JUST LOOK AT THE JOURNAL.. JOIN NOW!

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1. What do I do in an Angry Crusade?
Post, reply (again not spam!) and use the

emotie as mood when you reply/post!!

2. The idea is..
To make the anger emotie move up the community mood board and eventually top all emoties! Of course it`s doable ..! Raaagh!!!!

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For more information read *ReallyAngry `s Journal!!

NOW DONT JUST READ THIS... HELP US RAAAGE!

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YOU CAN EXPRESS YOUR RAGE IN THE FOLLOWING JOURNALS!

[link]

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The InsaneSoft gang!

Commissions:
Closed
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]]> *Exarrdian Now made of insaneium! http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/22612816/ http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/22612816/ Fri, 16 Jan 2009 11:20:05 PST
As mentioned digging and mines.. Joey and I have turned into Harvest Moonies.. so much as we considered making IS HM game..

I`m willing to try of course. RPG Maker VX is perfect for this. The sprite style fits just fine. But for now its only a project.

Speaking of HM... Sorry Won but the Doctor totally got my heart after I saw this!
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And I still laugh! It`s like "Elli! Hide the body!" XD; Poor Cliff.. *shakes head*

And yaaah that`s pretty much all. Drawing, working on IS things, playing games and relaxing.. and having a pretty cool adventure with the gang so far! Gotta do some pics about it haha.. XD;

Hope you all are doing fine as well!
Much love!
...

and I found Rion!

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]]> *Exarrdian 'Cause I've had the time of my life.. http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/22280076/ http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/22280076/ Tue, 30 Dec 2008 13:03:18 PST .. and I owe it all to you ~

And its so true!
These last few days were so nice. Hope it goes on like that!

Been playing video games *cough* harvest moon *cough* until my controller died.. ordered new one, we`ll see when it will come .. BUT!!
The big news is.. I.. has.. new computer!! *explodes*!
After doing commissions for like 2 months I finally got enough for new computer and monitor and life sure is wonderful now *_*!
Many thanks to Prial, Curon, Loki who commissioned me most TT! And really everyone who commissioned me and paid extra and yeah that was big and great help..
Love you people!

And being so obsessed with HM again ..gah I want new controller *shake fist* and having the joy of playing the girl version for GBA .. and to my great (okey not so great) surprise there ain`t enough Won fan art out there..! So to balance this .. here be doodles!

The proposal!*
Bad day, bad day!
Aren`t we proud parents?**
No use
Baby alert!
Apple Pies make good profit!
And after the long day
Off to work
Sleepy sleepy
*note: This line was from a fan fic I read at fanfiction.net it was rather sweet!
**note: Yes yes I know a typo .. hush!
Oh hush I love these cuddly piccies..

Alright now I feel better as if some great justice has been served and the lack of fan art for the poor guy is finally balanced and ... hey stop giving me the weird looks!

Wishing you a Happy New Year celebrations!
This should be my last journal for 2008 so..wishing you to have great time tomorrow and wonderful 1st of January! Let`s hope tomorrow will be as great as today and the year will end with a big smile on my face and the new one start with a big smile too and last on through the whole 2009!

Things done through 2008
- The cursed game was finished! (not released to public yet sorry ^^")
- Got new monitor!
- Got new computer!
- Finished University..and failed grad exam lol
- Did two fake game guides
- Won 3rd place on a contest
- Got credit card
- Made money with my art "skills"!

Wish list for 2009
- Appreciate my muse more
- Less worry `bout everyone else, more worry `bout IS.
- Do a site *cough* special site *cough*
- Do a new game on rpg maker VX
- Work on my projects more
- Get a cellphone
- Pass the grad exam
- Keep smiling as if no one and nothing can get that smile off my face..

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]]> *Exarrdian Dear Santa.. http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/22157702/ http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/22157702/ Wed, 24 Dec 2008 06:05:15 PST For Christmas, I wish people to be less selfish..

Jolly ol` times!
It`s 24th and me and my mom have been cooking things and preparing the Christmas dinner all day and now I think we`ll have more food than we can eat..

My neighbours on the 4th floor of course woke me up early this morning with whatever the hell they do with that drill that pretty much shakes my room...as result now I`m all sleepy and on my 2nd cup o` coffee =_=;

Ah, too bad the new pc hasn`t arrived and probably will come on 26th but at least I got the new monitor! Whoa it sure is nice having 22 inch monitor ..*_* everything looks so..bright! Had to spend a whole day adjusting the colours.. yeah this babe isn`t good for drawing but its definitely better than my old one (9 year old to be exact) .. ^^'

It feels so nice.. the days spend on doing commissions finally pay off ..

Okey I got my share of negative things I can complain all day about but.. it`s Christmas. No negative thoughts, no complains, no whines.. and since 90% of the people in my msn IM me only when they need someone to rant on/need someone to complain to/need someone to do something for them/send youtube links that have nothing to do with what I`d like or enjoy/etc etc and in the rest of the time forget I exist .. I`ll simply stay away from msn until 26th.

Merry Christmas everyone and please try to forget your problems today and share a smile and a hug with your friends online or real life instead of bury them in negativism and complains...
At least today..

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]]> *Exarrdian I`m alive! http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/21626902/ http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/21626902/ Sun, 23 Nov 2008 08:07:39 PST Seriously, I am!

Sort off..
Frigging cold KO`d me down on my bed for two days now or rather three if we count Friday evening.The usual stuff.. sore throat, couldn`t sleep from the first night then bad cough and couldn`t sleep last night from it... lovely. And that damn nose wouldn`t stop argh ..I swear I can make a mountain of hankies if I pile`em all next to me instead of trashing them all the time.

Of course the worst part is the frigging sweet throat drops. Sure it smooths my throat but.. argh so sweet. Been stuffing myself with these all day and thank god my throat doesn`t hurt today else I`d have gone insane, seriously >__<;
Buuut I should be all fine tomorrow!
Meanwhile I`ll be watching movies with Joel cause..he is nice like that and leaves everything aside so he`ll make me company..;; ain`t he best hubby ever or what?

Work, Denny work!Yeaaah been working on one hmm complicated commission if I can put it that way thus why no works from me lately but that should be last one..and..and..and then.. new PC and monitor..+__+ I can almost smell the early Christmas shopping..
I`m soooo close! Like one step away..just one step! Hee!

And of course I mashed my fingers playing Dynasty Warriors some days ago ... for a game that repeating it sure can get addicting >__>; And whoever said that "Jesus can walk on water... Lu Bu can swim through land." was damn right. Heck.. when I got that guy it felt like I inserted some code for invincibility or max damage or something.
Gotta love the Empires game.. can get all sort of rediculous things such as Liu Bei, Cao Cao and Lu Bu all fighting for you~
In fact I found it really funny how I got Lu Bu..since I kept failing to capture him *shake fist* I randomly got Diao Chan to join me and saved right away then tried a battle where Lu Bu was.. he pretty much ran into the ambush in his own and got captured in less than 5 mins.. and joined right away. Worked like magic! Of course it was coincidence but I found it really funny and cute!

Prison Break!Obsessed all over again with it!Season 4 is really good so far. Bellick`s death kinda got me though. Poor guy..he was one of the old gang alright and like any other movies/series/videogames/everything when a bad character redeems, becomes good, starts doing good things.. he dies 8D!
Where the hell`s the logic in that is beyond me.
Whatever.. Mahone is my new fave guy. He better stays alive!
Season 4 is much better than season 2 and 3 ..3 bored me to death.. and 2 just.. don`t know ..it wasn`t as full of surprises as season 1 was. Only thing I liked in season 2 was Kellerman`s character getting more depth and Bill Kim`s face which you just want to punch every time he smiles.

And for crying out loud..stop recommending me "Heroes" ..I`ve watched first season, I fell asleep, its not my kinda thing, it has interesting concept, nice music but it..bored me. That and..Peter`s face.. makes me want to punch a hole in my TV. I love the character`s concept and his personality, he is all cool but..damn.. that face..

Did I blab enough already?That`s for updating my journal once or twice a month *cough* Well what else.. life is good, we got snow yesterday a little bit, I have a site to do and snowy, christmasy piccies to draw.

..mmmm want to chill and relax this december..
^__^
Okeey I`m off and I will reply to all comments and replies and such asap..TT

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*Exarrdian War and Peace in 5 minutes http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/21184432/ http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/21184432/ Wed, 05 Nov 2008 01:30:59 PST Work Denny, work!

Like hell I`ll read the book. I watched the movie instead. A six hour movie! Maybe more actually. It was fun and good one (the 2007 version) and what it was about..well..

That`s summery for you Joey!

Part 1

Natasha: Lalalal Love love! Oh that guy is so cute <3

*Russia enters the war*

Nikolai: Yaaay war :'D
Sonia: Take care ._.
*at the battlefield*
Nikolai: 8'D Whee war war *shot* ... OH GOD IT HURTS! Help!
*everyone leaves*
Nikolai: ..@^&%#*

Andrei: I have pregnant wife but its boring to be good hubby I want glory at the battlefield.
*at the battlefield*
Andrei: For Russia D8< *shot* Ok!! I go back to my wife and be good husband ;_;
Lisa: Too late *dead*
Baby: Aguu? :'3
Andrei: *ANGST*

Pierre: I`m such a dork who has no life.
Pierre`sDad: You are my son take care of my money *dies*
Pierre: ... D8 $$
Elena: *uses seduction level 10*
*Marriage Ceremony*
Pierre: I love you ^^ <3
Elena: Stfu I married you for the money

Part 2

Andrei: Natasha..I
Natasha: Andrei..I ..
*luuuuv*

Andrei: Dad..I`ll marry her!
Andrei`s dad: Shut the hell up and go die at the battlefield like a man.
Andrei: ..yes dad.. ._.

Natasha: .. *emo emo emo*
Andrei: *sneaks in* ku ku ku ~ Marry me !
Natasha: ... ='D!
Andrei: But I`ll be on the battlefield for one year anyway cause my dad is an ass.
Natasha: ... ='D I`ll wait for you! *afk*

Pierre: I think my wife cheats on me.
Elena: After 3 hours of sappy scenes you FINALLTY noticed I cheat to you with your friend!
Pierre: *ANGST* I challenge you to a duel
LoverGuy: .. lol you are dead
Natasha: Omg stop him!!He`ll die he can`t shoot ..D8
Elena: ..Oh well, that sucks for him ^_^
*duel vs her lover*
LoverGuy: lol *smirk smirk*
Pierre: ... *shoots*
LoverGuy: *shot* wth
Pierre: ...... wth
Elena: ..@&^* you killed my lover!
Pierre: ...man I own *ANGST anyway*

Nikolai: Mom..I want to marry Sonia.
Nikolai`sMom: She is poor.
Nikolai: So?
Nikolai`sMom: Marry Andrei`s sister cause their family is rich and our family needs money.
Nikolai: .. you want to sell me!?
Nikolai`sMom: Duh..
Nikolai: Screw you. *leaves*
Nikolai`sMom: Time for my thrump card! *faints*
Everyone: OMG OMG OH NOES
Nikolai: Okey okey I`ll be a good boy Dx

Elena: I`m bored.
Elena`sBro: Lets do evil things.
Elena: sure.

Part 3

Elena: Go seduce Natasha ku ku ku
Elena`sBro: no probs *casts charm lvl 10*
Natasha: ... *confuse status* ..D8;

Nikolai: Hey I`ll make money for my family by gambling! Man I`m genious

*5 mins later*
Nikolai: *is on -43 000* ... bugger.

Elena`sBro: *says few sweet words* Marry me!
Natasha: I love you babe <3

Elena&Elena`sBro: Score!
Sonia & Pierre: He is married man.
Natasha: He..lied to me?.......D8 *burn`d*

Andrei:*comes back from the battlefield* Honey I`m home!
Everyone: She cheated on you!
Andrei: ... screw you. *breaks up*
Natasha: *ANGST*..*pulls thrump card* SUICIDE!
*Fails*
Andrei: *not impressed* ...
Natasha: damn..
Andrei: I`m going back to the battlefield its more fun.

*At the battlefield*

Andrei: .. you
Elena`sBro: Lets forget Natasha and fight like brothers in arms!
Andrei: Sure.
*bombs and stuff*
Elena`sBro: *bomb`d* .. well damn *dead`d*
Andrei: .. ELENA`S BRO.. NOOOO!!*sudden brotherlove*
Pierre: Sup man, I came up to see the war.
Andrei: I changed my mind.. I want to go back to Natasha, war sucks.Take me to her!

Part 4

Petia: I wanna go to war Dx *whine*
Nikolai: Its serious business..
Petia: I wanna go to war Dx *whine
Nikolai: You may get killed. Its serious business
Petia: I wanna go to war Dx *whine
Nikolai: Mom and dad won`t agree
Petia: I wanna go to war Dx *whine
Everyone: FINE! GO DIE

Pierre: *arrives with wounded Andrei* He is dying he wants to see Natasha..
Natasha`sMom: Don`t let her see him, she suffered enough.
Pierre: Okay!
*after 1 day*
Natasha`sDad: Hey the carriage with the wounded Andrei is still after us
Natasha`sMom: Okay lets tell her.
Natasha: Why you told me just now Dx *goes to him*
Andrei: I love you..
Natasha: I love you too..
Andrei: *enlightenment* One must live, one must love, one must believ... ]]> *Exarrdian Join The 4th Anger Crusade!! http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/21165325/ http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/21165325/ Sun, 26 Oct 2008 03:43:34 PDT
Rage on folks!!

IT IS ON NOW! *swings anchor made of win* For this crusade I`m leading the navy and swinging my really heavy anchor of win.. you better watch out emoties! Rage will strike you!!

Now you may ask what is this? Though most of you should know!!

The Anger Crusade!
It happens every once in a while! Goal is to make so many posts (not spam though!!) using the angry emotie -->

as mood as to make it climb on higher places in the community mood board!

What do I do in an Angry Crusade?
Post, reply (again not spam!) and use the

emotie as mood when you reply/post!!

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]]> *Exarrdian Now with gaussian blur radius 1.5 pixels http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/21074879/ http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/21074879/ Mon, 20 Oct 2008 06:27:52 PDT Hey! Your faces look all the same!

So.. a few days ago I had to go down town to the post office and pick something. I never put my glasses on when I go out because they are way too strong. I see so clearly I can`t make difference between near and far. When I cross the street it feels like the cars will run over me.. while they are not..close at all. Fun.

But the non-fun part was.. while out it felt like someone put gaussian blur radius: 1.5 pixels .. if not 2. I knew my eyes are weak but when did they become that bad? I couldn`t read any signs, I had to pretty much hit my head at those signs at the post office.. jeez. And of course everyone on the street looked the same to me. Blurred faces. Heck I have to bump into people else I won`t recognize them at all.
lol .. that was so depressing.

So I guess I`ll be spending less time on the PC or something.. not that eye sight is something that can rest and recover.. ^^'

Aside of feeling down due to weak eyes.. I`m working on commissions (seriously!) roleplaying on Eos, wasting my time with doodles and ruining my sleep pattern.

About 500$ left to go for new computer and monitor.. You can do it Denny! You can do it!

Working on

Whoaaa..closed until I get these done!!
Open slots:
1. ~zarry
- Anuka and Luca - (done)
2. =KyuuketsukiOuDuzell
- Ryne and Kavan - (done)
- Pirate Korori - (done)
- Sarth (done)
3. ~DBomber
- Atat - (done)
4. ~LordofPaderne
-(awaiting details)
5. ~DarkKnightCuron
- 1 big pic (need to negotiate about the price)
- Angry Curon - (done)
- Chibi Curon - sketch

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]]> *Exarrdian Now on less depressing topic...commissions anyone? http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/20771699/ http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/20771699/ Wed, 01 Oct 2008 06:08:40 PDT Okeeey back to the goal of "Get new PC by the end of the year!"

$5 for a sketch (+3 for each additional character)
$7 for a nice lineart (+3 for each additional character)
$12 for a colored chibi character (+4 for each additional character)
$15 for a colored character no background ..sorry seriously.. don`t want to reason with photoshop about backgrounds at this rate.. and I`m not good at drawing backgrounds really. But if you SO badly want background.. the price will rise depending on what exactly you want.

If interested please sent me a note. Using PayPal only. If I know you, I wouldn`t mind if you pay me once I`m done with your picture but if I don`t, I`d like to be paid after I show WIP shot of the progress. I usually take a day or two to draw a picture but depends on how busy I`ll get..

Whoaaa..closed untill I got these done!!
Open slots:
1.

(Anuka and Luca) (done)
2.

(3 pics: Ryne and Kavan, Pirate Korori, Sarth who will probably take my health @_@!!)
3.

(Atat!)
4.

(awaiting details)
5.

(3 pics: 1 big piccie, Angry Curon, Chibi Curon)

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tuPhoto ]]> *Exarrdian Oh well, show must go on! http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/20680850/ http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/20680850/ Fri, 26 Sep 2008 05:02:43 PDT
So.. I failed. And I feel shitty about it. Not because I was the one of the probably 5 people who didn`t cheat on the exam but because I knew the question. It was "Memory" ..how the memory works, how we code things in our heads stuff like that. I even described the experiments that were given in the textbooks oh well. Guess my notes on the topic weren`t enough ..or not writing a word on the second topic screwed me up. From all the topics for the exam (38 in total) I couldn`t find any notes on 6 of them.. and got one of those 6 on the exam, fun no?

On top of all the prof was so kind to say that all who had 3 (3 is minimal to pass) automatically got failed because its shame bachelor to have 3 on grad exam.. oh lol..

Translation: Your score is 4 and below 5 if you are taking the grad exam so if we let you pass with 3 means your score will drop to about 3.8 and you can`t sign for master degree for which you need 4 and above ... and we NEED to leech more money from you so we WILL do our best to make you sign for master degree, else we got no use of you. lol

And considering how much I wrote on the Memory topic.. yeah I guess I was one of those who got 3 =_=; Or maybe I didn`t write it all complicated like they like it. I don`t know, my second try is in March .. in general have to get that exam in 3 years the max lol e_e; the irony.. I am counted as Bachelor but I am not graduated.
Meh..

Like Rup was so kind to tell me lastnight *quotes*
How did the exam go?
Failed
Oh well, learn from your mistakes.

<--- my mind when I read that just that I was too tired to react lol ..
Yeah I`ll learn from my mistake alright. Like hell I`ll bother memorizing 38 topics. Cheat papers ftw. Thank you Ruprecht for being the guru of all knowledge who enlightened my humble mind.. O_O

Oh and the crappy day didn`t end there.. I had to wait 6 hours to hear the results. It was about 6pm when I could finally go back home and had to cross about 10 meters of ankle deep water on the way to the bus station ..=_=;; darn rain.. and had to spend about 50 minutes with all wet sneakers and edges of my jeans yeah fun times. It was damn windy too lol so here I am now sneezing like an idiot all morning.

And did I mention I`m bitter? Yep.. I hate losing. Who likes it anyway? I studied hard, gave my best.. but my best wasn`t best enough.. I`m bitter cause I knew the topic and just bad luck got me..well very badly.

Well.. show must go on!

I`ll be starting doing commissions again in few days. Just need to rest this weekend.. my brain feels fried lol x_x;

Tagged by

And should have done that like.. ages ago!! Btw visit the guy has amazing stuff in his gallery!

The rules:
1-Post these rules.
2-People tagged must post 8 things each about themselves in their journals.
3-Tag six people and post their icons on the same journal.
4-Go to their pages and send a message saying you tagged them.
5-No tag-backs

Wait that sounds familiar..

1. I was born in a hospital!
2. My mom and dad are also my bro`s mom and dad.
3. I breathe every day.
4. I sleep with my eyes closed.
5. I listen to music using my ears
6. I can speak english
7. I rarely update my journal
8. That was amusing.

TAG!
... ... ... *lazy*

I`ll post new journal soon, this one`s depressing..

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If someone gives you a hand, spends a minute, spends a hour, spends a second to write,tell,say,show you kindness and support when you are in need, don`t shrug it off. Don`t take it for granted.

Don`t forget you are the one in need of it if you have come to the person who has given it to you. Then why a moment later ignore it, the next day forget it and tomorrow pretend it never happened.

So you feel down. Everyone feels down. So someone hurt you, it happens. So you need a hug, a good word, a hand to grab on, everyone needs such and you will receive it. But then what do you do? Does it help you? Does it change anything if you the next day or even a moment later have all forgotten about it? Then whats the use of giving a hug, a good word, a hand to you?

But then it comes to your nature.. a kind person is a kind person whatever happens they will still give that hug, that good word and that hand you need.

And the selfish? They`ll always ignore the given hug, the good word, the given hand..because at the end when they need it again they will receive it. The next day when they don`t need it anymore, they can forget about it.

Have you every thought if all the good things you do are worth doing?But then if good deeds are worth something they wouldn`t be called "good deeds" but "good deals". You give, you receive.. and that isn`t the concept of good will at all.

But at the end.. where is the justice in this?Sometimes being right..doesn`t justify the wrong outcome.

***

Me and my brother had a long talk about human nature today. I seems to have picked a cold (great, no?) and spend the whole day in bed feeling as if a truck have passed over me!

Aaaand we had this long convo about is it worth being a kind person at all as it seems they are always losers lol..

So what do you think about it?
Are you thankful to people who have once helped you or have you forgotten all about them by now?
Or have you helped someone and they have forgotten all about you?

***

Mmm the cloudy autumn days sure give me the glooms now. And all I do is reading and reading and reading and I feel as the more I read the less I memorize..

_{"Don't..die.."}

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tuPhoto ]]> *Exarrdian Whoo graduation exam ahead! http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/20338277/ http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/20338277/ Fri, 05 Sep 2008 10:38:54 PDT Of course Autumn is pretty but school year makes everyone hate the poor season. And me? It`s my final round!

25th of September - Graduation Exam

I pass that and.. bye bye university! I`m not going to go after Master degree considering the insanely high prices they got there..

On the other side I should have high enough score so I can try for Master degree if I ever decide to..unless I get like very very very low score on the grad exam. Hmm..

Well that`s pretty much all that`s going on with me. My birthday is soon but no celebration mood knowing how much I have to read bah..=_=;
I`m for once looking forwards to October..when hopefully no more exams, no more studying.. time to relax and back to taking commissions...!

For now.. *waves topic number 15*
"Management of the cognitive activity of directions . The phases of the cultivation of the ocular acts."

This managed to knock me asleep!

I used a translator of course.. Can never get these topics translated in english right.

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tuPhoto ]]> *Exarrdian Making an RPG http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/20044835/ http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/20044835/ Tue, 19 Aug 2008 16:02:03 PDT
Don`t we all want to make such?

I`m sure everyone is familiar with programs like RPG maker 2000/2003/XP/VX and so on.. or was it VG..?
Anyway..
You can find plenty of tutorials in the internet on how to work with these programs and plenty of scripts to change your idea from RPG into something completely different.
There are plenty of resources in the internet so most of the time you won`t even have to make fancy sprites.

Now I don`t say I`m expert nor that I have huge experience with these programs but here are few tips I can share.

1. The Idea
You won`t start making a game if you don`t have an idea, right? Write it down. No need to be detailed or the whole thing but write at least the beginning and the end. Write little details and scenes you want to put. It will help you keep track on your progress and you won`t suffer from creator`s block.
Draw your world map or take note how you want the towns or some areas to look. Take your time to shape the idea in your head.

2. Houses
When you make houses in the villages/towns or whatever area, design them as people are actually living there. Put a garden, put a cat on the fence, put a barrel or two next to the door.
Put these little details that make houses look like place where people live.
When making indoors don`t forget things like vases, portraits, books that actually tell something, hidden items in the vases or barrels etc.

3. NPCs` lines
Put names on the NPCs. Make NPC A brother with NPC B. Make NPC C in another town know NPC A and B. Make them as living people not just space fillers. Make kids play in a group near trees or streets rather than spread them all over the map.
Make the NPCs` lines change according to the progress of the story.

4. Details in dungeons
Dungeons shouldn`t look like just a maze. Put mice sprites if its sewer or butterflies and random wild animals if its forest or field.
If you can work with variables and conditional branches put puzzles or something more interactive in the dungeons. If you don`t know such a pretty designed dungeon can always work too.

5. Ambient Sounds
Don`t forget the sound effects.EVER.
If its a forest, put chirping birds. If its near water put water sound effect on loop. If its creepy dungeon put creepy whisper or a wind effect.

6. Music
Pick your music very carefully. Make sure the dungeon tracks don`t make the ears bleed. Dungeons are usually the maps where players spend most time (and most time listening to the music) so its preferred to be something more soft. Of course it depends on the dungeon.
Make sure BGMs loop fine. Don`t stuff your game with too many MP3s. You don`t want a 100mb huge game now do you?

7. Movements in scenes
Alright so your characters talk in a scene. There is nothing worse than just plain text and text and text. Make them show reactions. Make them jump, make them move, make them slap forehead with a sound effect, make them look alive.
If you have different poses use them.

8. Avatars
Make different expressions of your characters but make sure all characters look the same style if not try to be similar style.

9. Scenes
Don`t think creating the scenes is an easy thing. You may have the idea, the story, the whole action in your head..but when it comes to writing the lines and the characters actually talk..it may come out fake or cheesy. Don`t fret..just remake them if you have to. Test play all the time. Don`t take too long breaks (as in months or years) when you make a game else you may lose the feeling you have created at the start. As result your characters may sound much different at the start from what you have in mind at the moment.

10. Cliche much?
Every RPG has a cliche or two.. or three.
Having those won`t make your game any better or any worse. It all depends on how you handle the cliches. As long as you make the characters react accordingly you`ll do fine. Don`t save scenes. Show how they feel. If the character gets so angry he wants to smash the table, do it. Play battle animation and if you don`t want to make actual action sprite of that just have another character say "There was no need to hit the table." to make it clear.

11. And lastly...
Don`t stress if you don`t make the perfect RPG. It may sound easy ..but its big task. Don`t judge other`s work unless you`ve tried and have made something better than them.

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http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/19846971/ Fri, 08 Aug 2008 14:24:13 PDT
Ughh!!

Well figured my layout fits with my mood after I watched the 3rd Mummy movie.. well... to put it with one word three words : It Sucks Badly

Now to put it with more words.

The acting
..was..horrible.
The actress who plays Evelyn was so static, flat, boring it felt like watching a wooden stick trying to play Hamlet. Maybe the wooden stick would have done it better. I`m not kidding you.. she fails on so many levels I got to wonder were the directors BLIND or something when they picked her. Heck she looked like Cruella De Vil with the clothes she was wearing!
Brendan Fraser did well.. though.. he seemed so unhappy,unwilling,out of place that it..just.. seemed plain and boring. He was trying.
John Hannah pretty much made the movie deserve the 1 star rate I`d normally give it. Sadly not enough lines to actually make me laugh or something.
Jet Li ..was well..just there.

The script
Ridiculous.. heck no wonder they couldn`t just get in character, the lines are so bad on so many levels your imagination can`t ..imagine it. Here`s a hint.. absolutely ALL the good lines are in the trailer.

Effects..
Ughh.. thats pretty much all the movie had. Effects..and effects..which looked pointless. In previous 2 Mummy movies the visual effects could.. kind of give you that epic feeling..here they were just.. ... there.

Story..?
Well to avoid spoilers..I`ll just say in about 20 minutes after you start watching.. you`ll wish to do something else..like play pong on your cell phone.
But what pissed me off mostly was.. the scenes that actually could perhaps bring half more star to the rate were all re-written scenes from the previous 2 movies. Sure it worked just fine seeing some things repeat in the 2nd movie but still looked different but.. in the 3rd..it was.. bad. Very..out of place bad.

Characters?
Bad.. bad.. bad. No character development, no character depth.. you won`t get to feel sad for anyone if they were to get killed or something.
And well.. like a lot will complain I will as well..WHAT THE HELL ALEX!? ..dude he looked as old as his dad!

Music?
So boring I didn`t even get it HAD music on.

Last words?
DO NOT WASTE YOUR TIME! Just rent it on dvd or wait for it to get shown on the cable or something.
This movie is the worst thing I`ve seen this year.

Now me and Joel think to rewatch "The Mummy" and "The mummy returns" to get some better adventurous mood or something >_>;; We both loved the previous 2 movies..and we were looking forward the 3rd one.. alas..*shakes head*

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tuPhoto ]]> *Exarrdian Good job everyone! http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/19763719/ http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/19763719/ Mon, 04 Aug 2008 03:18:36 PDT
Victory!!

So we did it! We got the "wow" mood down!

Thank you for all who helped!!
Check

's journal for better statistics ... as I suck at math and numbers in general..

;;

Though lets see..
I got 954 angry emoties on my journal!

and I got 92 angry emoties on my crusade picture!

That is pretty good!! Most were Angry`s of course lol.. But hey he -is- our angry leader for sure, right?

I think I could have done better if I didn`t get tired so quickly..next time I`m bringing soda and coffee!
Buuuuut... the fun counts! I met new people, saw some pretty galleries, got a couple of adventures and got to see the future in a cannon ball! (yeaaah..)
So yeah.. this angry crusade made my summer alright!!

Alright now I`m off to work again and may keep this angry layout for a while.. or till next time I update anyway.

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tuPhoto ]]> *Exarrdian The 3rd Angry Crusade is on now! http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/19732132/ http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/19732132/ Sun, 03 Aug 2008 01:59:42 PDT
Raahhh!!

Well RAAHH! Its on now! Rage away!

-----------------------------------------------
Well are you ready for The Third Angry Crusade?

I got my newly polished axe in my hand even named it "My Brother" cause it reminds me of my real brother! *cough* Anyway.. I`m certainly ready for the crusade..today or tomorrow.. as soon as Lord Angry gives the order!!

What the hell is Angry Crusade?
It happens every once in a while! Goal is to make so many posts (not spam though) using the angry emotie as mood as to make it climb on higher places in the community mood board! This crusade`s goal is to take the "wow" emotie down!
Last time we got to 4th place!We did pretty good!!!

What do I do in an Angry Crusade?
Post, reply (again not spam!) and use the

emotie as mood when you reply/post!!

When!?
As soon as Lord Angry gives order to begin our epic crusade!

For more information read *ReallyAngry `s Journal and be ready to unleash your rage!!

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tuPhoto

]]> *Exarrdian For Narniaaaa!! http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/19201044/ http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/19201044/ Fri, 04 Jul 2008 11:19:51 PDT
*rises a mythril shoe +10 in hand*

About time I watched the new Narnia movie, yes?
Had it forever waiting for me to find 2 hours to sit, get some snack, a bottle of beer and watch.

So.. lets see.. it gave me this shiver of "cool!" and left me with teary eyes at few scenes and it reminded me of Suikoden 5.. and it had good enough visual effects for me to stare in awe..so conclusion? Denny liked it! In fact, liked it enough as to write a journal, ya see?

"Baawww but its kiddie movie!"
For crying out loud.. as if you have never been a kid before! Face it, you haven`t been born an adult! Get out of your closet and admit you wanted to be a knight or a princess or rule a kingdom! Admit you wanted to open a door and find yourself in another world and admit you believed in magical creatures and living trees!

.. still not admitting it huh? *throws a shoe in your face* Liar!

Anyway..!!
It was nice movie to watch after I`m finally done with the papers and reports around my exams. I still await the results on my last exam on 5th but what is done is done. I did my best, if the professor doesn`t like my paper I`m gonna stuff it down her throat! It was bloody 14 pages paper argh! ... and 5 more pages..yeah fun.

So yeah that`s all new with me.. can finally start drawing again and enjoy summer~

*rises a shoe in the air* FOR NARNIAAA!!

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tuPhoto ]]> *Exarrdian Anyway... http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/19067647/ http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/19067647/ Fri, 27 Jun 2008 01:08:34 PDT
Denny vs The Exams - 2 : 2

Whoa.. away for a month and 111 deviations, 118 messages. Even if I randomly replied to some.

Anyway.. yeaaah been busy with exams. Seems every second journal of mine is about exams lawl.. That and I`m lazy with these things. More journal updates than art makes DA look like MySpace or something where everyone writes journals on everything from finger cuts to one word update making you wonder if they are really that bored or really have a lot of free time..

Anyway.. I`m usually very productive during exams time for some odd reason inspiration hits me at such time however as some of you know in a chain of unfortunate events.. some bad things happened in real life thank God nothing tragic. So yes.. stress and creativity don`t go hand in hand.. in result have a pile of half coloured pictures and another pile of line art waiting for colour.. eventually will get`em up here.

Anyway.. exams ended in a tie. I passed two and have to retake two. Its nothing to study for just have to type down three research papers analyze results and all that fun stuff that makes you want to fall asleep on the keyboard while everyone else is out at the beach enjoying the summer. I`m retaking the two left on 3rd and 7th of July.. its more of boring two hours travel by bus to the university in this hellish heat.

Anyway.. got like a pile of tags for this month.. don`t even remember who tagged me anymore and don`t feel like going through the pile of journal messages. I remember the "to do list" before you die or something like that.. then figured I don`t have many things to do.. hm.

1. Meet and marry Joel.. also poke him on the nose!
2. See Joey again and steal my wallet back from her.
3. Finish THE GAME.
4. Lol at my lit teacher`s face
5. Let the dogs out.
6. Steal the cookie jar.
7. Clean my closet.
8. Take part in the third Angry Crusade.
9. Have a ice cold beer in hot summer night.
10. Go to the castle beyond the horizon.

Anyway.. this journal is getting too long. Also for some odd reason the mood won`t change and it refreshes as soon as I change lawlz..

Anyway.. Thank you everyone who have been supporting me through the month. It was.. really a rough month. I`ll be going through the messages and deviations next week hopefully.

Till then!

Fist in the air and rise yer head! Battle is not over yet and no true warrior gives up before the HP bar hits zero!

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tuPhoto ]]> *Exarrdian Doomsdays ahead! http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/18498868/ http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/18498868/ Tue, 27 May 2008 08:29:38 PDT
Denny vs The Exams!!

May as well update this journal with my exam dates. Just got`em from the website. Arghhh.. missed so many lectures. Heck not even sure what some of the subjects are about!! It will be a miracle if I pass..

Also this is my last year. I have only Psychological calculations to retake in September unless I fail twice any of those listed here ^^'''

12th of June - Methods of work with children exposed to domestic abuse.

16th of June - Psychological development of the adults

23rd of June - Judicial psychology

27th of June - Organizational psychology

I`m really upset that the exams will take the whole June. Its not fair! Everyone finishes with exams by end of May!

Yeaaah closed for commissions for now and.. hopefully will get something drawn these days at least.. x__x; didn`t get to draw for myself at all lately!

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tuPhoto ]]> *Exarrdian Eurovision~ http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/18457260/ http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/18457260/ Fri, 23 May 2008 03:06:22 PDT
Final on 24th of May!

Note: Before you ask me "What is eurovision? O_o" use wikipedia.

I`d lie if I say I`m not disappointed that Bulgaria didn`t make it to the final! ^_^;
In fact a lot of "eeh...?" songs made it to the final which came as surprise to me but I guess it is fair since last year first 15 places on the final were all occupied by East Europe ..now its pretty much the whole West Europe!

Finland was ok to my opinion and I enjoyed seeing a rock song (or metal?) since most of first semi finals were ..how to put it.. Disney songs. Poland, Norway, Russia, Romania all sounded like ending credits music to a Disney movie.. not that it was a bad thing but didn`t enjoy them much if at all. Too slow for my taste.

Bosnia and Herzegovina making to the final shocked me. They had pretty breath taking ballads last two years and this one just.. didn`t strike me as special or anything nor I enjoyed the performance.

I`m pretty happy Israel, Azerbaijan (that guy has one hell of lungs!), Greece and Armenia made it. Especially Greece. Of course they almost always go to finals

Russia as always made it to the final which is never a surprise. Didn`t personally like the song much.

Second semi-final were bit disappointing. Albania came as surprise to me. Sure liked the fact the singer is 17 year old, you need some courage to get on a stage that huge, represent your country in front of Europe but the song didn`t feel special even a bit. A lot of people liked Portugal and no matter how many times I listen to it, it still fails to .. sound special to me. Not happy with Turkey`s song much and Denmark sounded like something I`d listen to at 5am in the bar after several beer bottles.

I`m especially happy with Iceland and Latvia`s songs. I think they deserved to go to the final. Iceland had this lively pop dance beat and Latvia just really woke up the public after the yet another slow ballad song. Sweden.. I don`t know. I did like the style but the singer looked like zombie at the start even thought my TV`s colours got screwed up or something.
I`m disappointed Malta, Cyprus and of course Bulgaria didn`t make it. Especially liked Malta`s Vodka song. Cyprus was pretty original to my opinion. All the people who watched with me liked Bulgaria and especially that flame effect even called the performers flaming DJs.

The final is on 24th, I`ll be cheering for Greece, Latvia and Iceland probably.. may eventually vote for Greece.

What else new?
If you haven`t seen me around much its cause I had super busy week and don`t know how next one will be.
Granny had operation on her eyes (right eye actually) hopefully will be able to see better tomorrow. We had to spend the whole day yesterday with her at the hospital (12 hours whee @_@!) and before that medical check ups and such.
Also working on 2 commissions I need to finish and have to close for now cause exams start soon and this year I seriously skipped so many lectures I have no idea how I`ll pass..

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tuPhoto ]]> *Exarrdian Score!! http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/18283835/ http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/18283835/ Mon, 12 May 2008 04:35:12 PDT
I`m back in the game, homiez! Z_z-b!

A really really really kind friend of mine sent me ram, video card and hard drive from his old computer and it all worked on mine except the video card but I can get one with the money from the commissions! And about 3-4 more and I can get new monitor and.. HELL YEAH! I`m back in full action!

Been transferring files from back ups and stuff all day yesterday, programs, music, things.. @__@! I still poke myself to check if its not a dream ^_^;

What else new..

Oh, yeah my diet is going great.. 8th day and 5 kilograms are down! I`ll be strictly keeping it till 19th of May (mom`s birthday!) only thing I don`t like is how I feel much less energetic but I got used to it.. with extra coffee ^_^'

109 messages to reply to on DA... about 5 half coloured pics to do.. 2 notes to reply to and I keep forgetting.. @___@!!!

And I need to run out to the university in few minutes .. and knowing how many lectures I missed this semester, it will be a miracle if I pass again lol T_T;; this summer will be chaotic!

HOPE YOU ALL HAVE A WONDERFUL DAY FULL OF CREATIVITY AND IMAGINATION!
*poofs*

Who are you in my family?
Click here --> [link] and reply if you want to be added!

Commissions left to do this week:
=DarkKnightCuron - 1 character sheet
~DBomber - character piccie
*insert Sanjiro who doesn`t have DA account* - character piccie

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tuPhoto ]]> *Exarrdian I want DA family too! http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/18066565/ http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/18066565/ Mon, 28 Apr 2008 07:00:36 PDT
Who are you to me?

Saw the idea at =lryiu `s journal who did this years ago.. ^^
It will be nice to reduce the stamps on the shoutbox and insert this too once the family gets big~

My beloved husband~

My partner in crime!

The Fireworksman next door.

My brother in rage!!!

My twin sister!

My big brother!!

My apprentice!

My maniac sister!?

The drunkard in the alley..? *hic*

My virtual bro!

My stalker who doesn`t know where I live,yet.

My crazy sexy witch neighbour--!

The green sheep in the family!

*Exarrdian Commissions time ..? http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/17924940/ http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/17924940/ Sat, 19 Apr 2008 09:20:07 PDT

Long story short...
About six months ago my computer died (rest in peace my friend..) and.. for six months been trying to save money from here and there while waiting for some help from someone but.. I`m seriously frustrated. I`m using this antique patched together from whatever was left of my computer and my cousin`s old computer...and what can I say.. things ain`t fun.. especially with photoshop. I can`t play any games, can`t download my old music..heck can`t get my back up in since the HD is 8gb (lol e_e)
So..fun and all.. and since soon its Easter thought I can catch some promotion and get a computer cheaper.. WROOONG. Our waterheater blew up last week and we had to buy new one. So.. back to zero.

SO.. *pulls sleeves* God won`t help you if you don`t help yourself first!

Commissions time?
$5 for a sketch (+3 for each additional character)
$7 for a nice lineart (+3 for each additional character)
$12 for a colored chibi character (+4 for each additional character)
$15 for a colored character no background ..sorry seriously.. don`t want to reason with photoshop about backgrounds at this rate.

In progress:
1.

- 8 Character pics (this will keep me busy for the week for sure!*_*;; Also help me big time!)
2.

- 7 Character pics ..will keep me busy in the next week for sure!
3.

- Piccie of her character April

If interested please sent me a note. Using PayPal only.. .. and I still need to get visa card >__>;;;;;; *mumbles* next week.. yes next week.

Hopefully will get new computer this year ..lol TT;

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tuPhoto ]]> *Exarrdian Yes, that was April Fools ^^; http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/17646421/ http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/17646421/ Wed, 02 Apr 2008 05:56:43 PDT

You`ve been April Fool`d!
The journal was hijacked by *EvilTelephone and ~just-joey and the pics were drawn by ~just-joey

I admit it made me laugh big time on the morning when I saw the journal and the art.. XD;;

Seriously people.. me in love with Cloud err or Sephiroth? ^__^;; I haven`t played FF7 and I don`t hate it..but I sure hate how fans jump in those "OMG GREATEST GAME EVAH!" and to extremes like imagine Seph is their husband and stuff like that o_O!

And Joey and Joel were replying to the comments.. Sorry Icos

Joel Rick Roll`d you .. but you aren`t only one don`t worry!

Anywaaaay! May use this journal entry to give an update at what Den Den is up to!

What art thou playing?
Had to delete RO because I needed space. Meh.. no more chilling out every now and then in huge parties with the Anubis ;_;
But.. I got this urge to replay some oldies >>; so I`m replaying SaGA Frontier now.. err not the whole thing of course. Don`t think I`ll have the nerves to beat Riki`s quest again ..just when I remember the spikes room in Virgil`s palace.. argh !!
And I`ll need some happy pills if I want to do Blue`s quest again.. Time Lord is so cool.. ;_; why have to kill him? Why TT! And I have no heart to kill Kyrin instead.

What art thou drawing?
Ho ho ho

Well.. I`m working on one big pic now that I have more free space and me and Photoshop get along just fine again! And that reminds me I till have this pic of Curon to finish.. oh god its been.. months @_@!

What are thou working on?
Ho ho ho

Working on something big.. along with the rest of good ol` team IS.. Bringing smile on your face since 2002!

Of course I keep working on THE GAME.. same game that got deleted several times ..>>; just had to slow down because of the other big project but I think I`ll manage to release it in April.. or I better say April next year so I won`t jinx it or something.. ^_^;

What are thou thinking?
I think I got the best 2 friends in da world 8D! *glomps Joel and Joey* and the best people on da world watching me on DA and ya all rock socks! ... ... ... okey maybe I did get soda today.

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tuPhoto ]]> *Exarrdian Oh FF7 where hath thou been? http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/17613341/ http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/17613341/ Mon, 31 Mar 2008 20:00:30 PDT

Heya Denny here!

My mate sent me a copy of his FF7 saying he doesn`t think he'll ever play it again...

I didn`t think to to play either but I wanted to see what all the fess was about! Aye?

I fell in love! Why didn`t anyone tell me Sephiroth is so... badass *.*!!
and and... Cloud is so bishie mishie ^.^!

Joel and I got in a little drama llama... :\
I asked him to spike his hair and dye it blonde and call me Aeris, but he thought that was weird! My mate never judges me... >_<
What is so wrong about loving this Cloud! That is why I drew him to admire him in his eternal bishie youth *.*!!

Aw, man FF7 is so cool! I`m gonna go back to replay it now to beat the Ultimate Weapon! This will be piece of cake with a party of Cloud, Viktor, Barret, and Yuffie in my party! Their limit breaks are so cool ^^!

Once I beat FF7 a 2nd time, I`ll be ready to take on Sephiroth in Kingdom Hearts next! Ya hear me mate? Hint hint what to get me for my bday~ ;D!

Happy April Fools Day!

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tuPhoto ]]> *Exarrdian Be a kid again! http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/17235978/ http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/17235978/ Sat, 08 Mar 2008 07:24:16 PST

Taken from the lovely *TimelessImages ^^
If you have free time look through her gallery. She has so many photos that will for sure bring a smile on your face.

Don`t you miss the carefree days you had as a kid? Then..

1. Do a cartwheel.
2. Sing into your hairbrush.
3. Walk barefoot in wet grass.
4. Play a song you like really loud, over and over.
5. Dot all your ÂiÂÂs with smiley faces.
6. Read the funnies. Throw the rest of the paper away.
7. Dunk your cookies.
8. Play a game where you make up the rules as you go along.
9. Step carefully over sidewalk cracks.
10. Change into some play clothes.
11. Try to get someone to trade you a better sandwich.
12. Eat ice cream for breakfast.
13. Kiss a frog, just in case.
14. Blow the wrapper off a straw.
15. Have someone read you a story.
16. Find some pretty stones and save them.
17. Wear your favorite shirt with you favorite pants even if they donÂt match.
18. Take a running jump over a big puddle.
19. Get someone to buy you something you really donÂt need.
20. Hide your vegetables under your napkin.
21. Stay up past your bedtime.
22. Eat dessert first.
23. Fuss a little, then take a nap.
24. Wear red gym shoes.
25. Put way too much sugar on your cereal.
26. Make cool screeching noises every time you turn a corner.
27. Giggle a lot for no reason.
28. Give yourself a gold star for everything you do today.

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tuPhoto ]]> *Exarrdian Psychology in drawings: Part 1 http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/16991175/ http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/16991175/ Thu, 21 Feb 2008 10:31:21 PST

There is so much to one drawing than just "it looks good" or "it doesn`t look good". There are things we usually don`t notice yet they have some sort of impact on us or really grab our attention. Why this occurs? It is very simple.. and it`s called "human mind"

Mood and colors
The colours play major role on the mood that the drawing will express. We have to keep in mind the human mind associate things subconsciously. In that case.. warm colours (red,brown,yellow) will naturally be associated with more happy emotions while the cold colors (blue, purple, green) will be associated with more distant emotions. Thus.. for example. If we take a simple photo and colorize it in Photoshop with brown color, add a flower or a few sparkle it will give the melancholic yet warm feeling. If you add blue colour, maybe a snow flake or pearls it will give some sort of a mystery feeling.

The more soft and pastel colors tend to make us associate the work with things like "dream" or "memory". Soft background combined with one or two object that stands out via stronger colors makes the viewer focus on them more than the overall picture and that`s really useful if we want to give a certain message to the viewers.

Symbolism
The human mind has a variety of symbols stored deeply into the subconscious. Things like serpents being associated with something evil or the fire being associated with passion and many others. Symbolism is a very handy tool to use in your work of art and it will always grab the viewer`s eye. Reverse symbolism can have just as successful impact if handled properly. For example a lady in cold blue flames can be just as effective as lady in red burning flames. As you see in this case its not the color red that creates the "passion" in the work. Its the flame.

Motion
There is nothing worse than a static picture. Dynamic poses or action scenes are speaking much more about your characters or your story than a bust picture of your character. While there is nothing wrong in the second case.. the first one will give more information and possibility to spark inspiration in others as well as yourself while you draw your work. This does not apply to just characters but things in general. Trying to catch a certain dynamic or movement or moment of action is always more effective.

Creativity
Inspiration is everywhere. It`s a matter of if you can see it. Everything can give you ideas. Things like the clouds in the sky or the setting sun even the old bracelet on the desk by the window. Look at everything around you and you`ll see every little thing can spark many ideas. Of course you need to let your eyes see them first and your mind read them next.

Too much to keep in mind? Not really...
If you let the idea speak in your head and leave your hand draw on its own.. eventually the emotion will get all these elements in perfect order and your work while it may not see exactly the way you had it in your head.. it will carry out the message you had in mind to the viewers..which is the important part.

And that was posted just so I can test my new layout.

Thanks for reading! *gives cookies*

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tuPhoto ]]> *Exarrdian For FREEDOM!! http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/16845960/ http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/16845960/ Tue, 12 Feb 2008 09:59:28 PST AUUUUUUUUUGHHHH!!!!

Ha! Well.. still no result from the last exam but..eh..failed or passed.. we`ll see. The retake is on 19th but I still have some hopes.

Now.. what the HELL is going on.
One word - Stress
Why?
One word - Fortuna

Now what on EARTH could possibly FINALLY make me retire? I bloody wonder..

Well here it is..

I`m tired of Fortuna.

Tired of running the episodes because someone would rarely be in mood... for more than a year.

Tired of having to wait weeks for something to be put in then when it would appear with bugs to be scolded as if its MY fault that it wasn`t tested when it was supposed to be.

Tired of having my characters be ignored when they`d need less than 10 minutes attention while going through something important. I asked for too much. God forbid. How you think they`ve felt? They showed middle finger and left. How could I run events with them? Well HELL I know either.

Tired of running around fixing things that wasn`t supposed to be fixed by me or Joel and when we got a special thank you there was a lulz0rx drama about it. God forbid we receive a thank you.

Tired of the lack of cooperation. Because someone could have helped by looking at one single line but instead had to groan and moan for 30 minutes then just blindly dump a folder over Joel`s edits and ruin what he had done.

Tired of lies and manipulations. None of you really care if I`m gone. You need just one whistle and command from someone and you`ll all jump at my throat as if I`m some horrible thing that spits lies over Fortuna.

Tired of always having to shut my eyes in front of things I`d find wrong just so someone won`t go in an emotional crisis and shut down the server.

Tired of being abused because I care too much for my characters and what I`ve created to just coldly dump it into the unknown. Someone didn`t really care how much it hurt me to go on server shut down mood just before I was about to finally see Glastheim in.. a dream for YEARS.

Tired of being ignored when I`d want to plot or discuss ideas. Heck.. its like trying to talk to a wall most of the time.

Tired of being either blindfully follow or go to hell. I chose to hit the road as you see.

Tired of having to always change events and ideas in the last minute because this or that one in the staff suddenly lost mood or decided to not bother.

Tired of hearing complains about favourism or trying to run in between players and staff members to sort things out.

Tired of criticism ... HELLO.. I don`t get PAID to entertain you!!

Tired of Fortuna .. to put it shortly. Now that I said all that I don`t expect anymore "We miss Denny..D:" cause you really don`t miss me, you`ll forget me in a month or two or heck maybe even start to hate me for saying all this.. but I needed to say it.

Thank you Fortuna..
Now on a more possitive thought cause someone will get the idea that Fortuna is some hell hole but it really isn`t.

Thank you for I finally managed to accomplish a great dream. I saw Glastheim uncursed. Even more, I experienced its uncurse.

Thank you for giving me the opportunity to play Berzebub who was one of the most interesting characters I got to adopt and develop completely.

Thank you for giving me the chance to develop Geffenia and experience its uncurse as well.

Thank you for making one of my characters wish to live again (Roseline)

Thank you for giving me the chance to develop and complete everyone of my characters (except for Roseline but I expect her to hit the finish soon)

Thank you for I met many interesting people who cheered me on and supported me when I was feeling down or stressed.. and most of whom sadly didn`t chose to stay on Fortuna.

Thank you for all the moments you made me smile.. and for the insane amount of inspiration Fortuna was to me.. can guess that from my gallery.

I don`t regret playing Fortuna, don`t regret that I chose to stay despite the many sleepless nights and tears that it brought me, I don`t regret that I had to swallow up my ego and stomp over my dignity in order to continue working there and I don`t regret choosing to retire now.

Don`t get me wrong. All the bad things I listed were mixed with those good ones I said.. so it wasn`t as bad as it seems but.. the bad things are more than the good ones.. and when you see the people you enjoy roleplaying with being slowly pushed to leave.. you kind of.. realize its no use walking with closed eyes anymore. I`m human to... and sometimes I want to do things that don`t make you happy. One of these things was my retirement.

I wish the new staff best of the best and to please do wha... ]]> *Exarrdian Quiz+Doomsdays! + IS 24 theme challenge http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/16297209/ http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/16297209/ Wed, 30 Jan 2008 18:02:03 PST

Whew.. few days break between exams.. like 3 left.. and I`m all around running at the server fixing bugs with Joel.. more like he fixes them I just reboot and help with warps and NPCs.. fun. Of course its not our job.. but someone takes 2 days to do something that takes 5 minutes you see..

Quiz for fun! Stolen from *jadisofeternity cause she is cool like that

*shortens it for the sake of going to bed before 4am..again*

If I was a profession I'd be: Artist

If I was a country I'd be: Monarchy

If I was a ocean or body of water I'd be: Endless blue sea~

If I was a piece of candy I'd be: That one that tastes like beer!

If I was a famous building or piece of architecture I'd be: A small chapel in the forest you used to go as a child!

f I was a store I'd be: Art supplies store!

If I was a brand of shoe I'd be: Sandals :,D

If I was a swear word I'd be: Damn..

If I was a ice cream flavor I'd be: Vanilla!

If I was a feeling I'd be: Warmth and smile~

If I was a war I'd be: rebellion ..whoosh!

If I was a city I'd be: That small village with windmills!

If I was a currency I'd be: Old gold coin!

If I were a month, I'd be: June~ Enjoy the summer :'D

If I were a day of the week, I'd be: Friday!

If I were a time of day, I'd be: Sunset.. to remind you of the wonderful day you had ^__^

If I were a planet, I'd be: The moon! So you won`t get lost in the dark night!

If I were a direction, I'd be: Going up, up and away!

If I were a sin, I'd be: Pride ..

If I were a liquid, I'd be: Beer!

If I were a tree, I'd be: Christmas tree.. green forever and ever!

If I were a tool, I'd be: Your trustworthy pencil in the pocket!

If I were a flower/plant, I'd be: A rose hidden in the bushes.. leave me sleep.

If I were a kind of weather, I'd be: Warm rain in a peaceful summer afternoon!

If I were a musical instrument, I'd be: An old piano

If I were a sound, I'd be: tinkle tinkle bells!

If I were an element, I'd be: Free like the wind~

If I were a song, I'd be: a child song made at spot!

If I were a book, I'd be: I`ll open with magic words and get you into a world of imagination!

If I were a word, I'd be: Something to describe things beyond the horizon!

If I were a body part, I'd be: The eyes!

If I were a facial expression, IÂd be: Smile!

If I were a shape, I'd be a: A round round circle cycling around~

If I were a mythical creature, I'd be: ... a muse ^__^

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Last night me and Joel thought about those 100 themes that people start, make 2-3 enteries and give up. So we thought to do some InsaneSoft style! And of course less than 100.. No one will really go around keeping track on 100 themes anyway!

The Insanesoft 24 Themes Challenge
01. Absolute Zero
02. Fridge Mystery
03. Golden Opportunities
04. BIG RED ANGRY MONSTER
05. Challenge the Tempest
06. Sir Serpent
07. REAL ULTIMATE ATTACK
08. Fly Against the Machine
09. Written in the stars
10. Credendo Vides (Seeing is Believing)
11. Why is the rum gone?
12. Partners in Crime
13. It never ends!!!
14. Crap no one cares about!
15. Carved in stone
16. Life is like a cookie jar
17. Sands of Time
18. Falling up the mountain
19. We are lost
20. Just the two of us
21. 'cause its how we roll
22. That Guy
23. Stuff
24. Inspirited by Bladerunner

Good luck! Me and Joel will try to pull it anyway XD;; 24 themes ain`t much !! Everyone is welcome to try! Draw whatever the title makes you imagine! If you do take the challenge please sent me a note to feature your icon and your works in my journal or reply here! ^^
People taking the challenge

http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/16297163/ Mon, 07 Jan 2008 07:15:00 PST

I don`t want to change my journal layout yet! *pout*
Anyway..

Happy New Year!

For all who didn`t figure out by now last 2 journals were from Joey and Joel.. XD they love to hijack it every now and then.. *shakes head* ah kids..
*brick`d*

What else is new? Fortuna?

Well I`m back to Fortuna though I`m not as excited as I thought I`d be. For about 4-5 months this place have turned into ... something I don`t want to log in and Roleplay. Its either a group of supposedly badass characters who swear in every sentence they say till the chat window is filled with words like "fuck" and "bitch" .. And somewhere along the way that.. "badass" part gets lost and they simply look like clowns.

Then bunch of supposedly cute characters that try so hard to be oh so cute that in fact it all looks beyond fake and pretended. Then they act like 50 year olds about serious matters.. like saving the world and playing a hero and stuff.. wow.. just wow..

And of course there are those masses of supposedly adult boys that look like 7 year olds and act like 10 year olds and have a crush on a different 20+ year old guy like every week. ... What the hell ...

And finally everyone is so..stuck in their own clique that its very hard to actually get any info on the supposedly important current story setting. If you are new to the server.. you are most likely to either get glomped by the "cute" ones or ignored by the "badass" ones but in either case you won`t get much of what is going on in the world or feel involved in the story.

Sure the main story of whatever episode is current can`t always be focus of specific characters. I understand that and sometimes I like to get involved in other players` RP story or something they come up with.. so far I seen little to nothing worth spending more than 5 minutes. I mean.. come ON be more creative.. all I see is sappy, over emotional kiddies on an epic quest to find love just to repeat the same thing in a few days under different characters.. or same ones. The word "epic" loses its meaning rather fast by the way.

I`m just very.. unwilling to roleplay there. Sure I said I will do episode 7 with the help of a friend and the staff..but .. I don`t think I`ll be as devoted as I used to be in previous episodes. I stick to RPing with few people I know and enjoy RPing with and that is all. I`m doing Episode 7 because I said I will... but I`m seriously losing motivation and any desire to bother with the server`s next episodes.

I`m not blaming anyone. I`m just saying how I felt since I returned..and after all the server is for the players not for the staff.... but all this is just not my cup `o tea. Making it bold and underline before I get stones thrown at me from angered fortunians >_>;

What else is new? Real life ..wth is that?

Yeah what is real life? Oh yeah.. that area outside the monitor! Well.. my town got hit by a strong blizzard on 2nd of December and since then things` been kinda chaotic. The electricity was going up and down, the internet was getting on and off.. etc.

Ah and I changed internet providers. Cheapest possible of course ^^' will miss my old speed.. now I`m on 64kb lol T_T-b;;

~*~ The InsaneSoft gang! ~*~

*Exarrdian IS Christmas Party! Beer for everyone! http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/16210754/ http://Exarrdian.deviantart.com/journal/16210754/ Tue, 01 Jan 2008 16:46:23 PST

First off Happy New Year 2008 from Bulgaria!

My sexy mexy mate and I made a game together to celebrate Christmas and New year!

Please play it and tell us what ya think! And most of all HAVE FUN!!!

What is the game?
Zenther, a star, must call upon Denny, Joel, and Joey for help in finding his star friends. Search for 37 stars scattered throughout Jah's minigames.

Each player (Denny, Joel, and Joey) each have three different minigames in which you must play to recover the stars. Some games have more stars than others. Some games have no stars but are necessary to play to find them (Joey)

Minigames range from my Whack-A-Mole styled game from ANSD 2 (Die Lit teacher RAAAH!!) , to Blackjack, to a Frogger styled game with penguins (cause my mate loves them!

). Join us in the insanity!!

Who is in it?
All are Insanesoft characters with an exception of a guest appearance by our dear friend Sir Angry!

*Cheers!*(I hope he doesn't mind

)

Download the game here: [link]

If you have the RPG Maker 2003 RTP you can get the smaller version here:
[link]

Merry Christmas (belated) and Happy New Year!!

~*~ The InsaneSoft gang! ~*~

~*~ Clubs ~*~
*bulgaria~the-zodiac-club

~*~ Work ~*~
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