http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:Exod19&section=today deviantART RSS for by:Exod19 en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Thu, 17 Dec 2009 03:07:03 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://Exod19.deviantart.com/journal/14535921/ http://Exod19.deviantart.com/journal/14535921/ Fri, 07 Sep 2007 19:36:18 PDT
I just started Cegep, and it's not that easy to deal with everything I have to do. I don't have much time left for dA, but I promise that as soon as I'll have more time, I will come on dA, post new texts and read everything you have to offer me.

And I want to apologize to Yssan, who tagged me, but I don't have the time to answer the quizz... I will, I promise.

Anyway, that was to say that I will be more active on dA and that I didn't let you guys down.

Then, I wanted to say that I love my girl more than ever and that... I think my personnal life is going the good way. I want to share my life with her, and to share her life, for the rest of it, and further more.

It's wonderful, I finally found that soul that was made for me

I love you, my lovely little hippie... I love you so much!

]]> ~Exod19 http://Exod19.deviantart.com/journal/13911152/ http://Exod19.deviantart.com/journal/13911152/ Sat, 28 Jul 2007 07:51:21 PDT
I'm back from a 6 days trip in New York with my girl and her parents. It was great! I really enjoyed the city and everything I had to see there. The people are very kind, I was surprised! I thought they would be more stressed out and impolite...

Anyway, I loved that trip but what I loved the most was the shining She had in her eyes...

Now that I'm back, I will work on some project and I'll probably post a few texts here. But I wont do this today, because I am enjoying a good day at home and (I hope) with her next to me

So see ya' folks, thanks for looking!

Oh, and by the way, leave some comments! I have over 500 pageviews and almost no comments, leave at least a comment on what you've read of my texts if you did not read the whole of it, please!

Thank you!

]]> ~Exod19 http://Exod19.deviantart.com/journal/13603572/ http://Exod19.deviantart.com/journal/13603572/ Wed, 04 Jul 2007 07:44:53 PDT Please allow me to introduce myself
I'm a man of wealth and taste
I've been around for a long, long years
Stole many a man's soul and faith

And I was 'round when Jesus Christ
Had his moment of doubt and pain
Made damn sure that Pilate
Washed his hands and sealed his fate

Pleased to meet you
Hope you guess my name
But what's puzzling you
Is the nature of my game

I stuck around St. Petersburg
When I saw it was a time for a change
Killed the czar and his ministers
Anastasia screamed in vain

I rode a tank
Held a general's rank
When the blitzkrieg raged
And the bodies stank

Pleased to meet you
Hope you guess my name, oh yeah
Ah, what's puzzling you
Is the nature of my game, oh yeah
(woo woo, woo woo)

I watched with glee
While your kings and queens
Fought for ten decades
For the gods they made
(woo woo, woo woo)

I shouted out,
"Who killed the Kennedys?"
When after all
It was you and me
(who who, who who)

Let me please introduce myself
I'm a man of wealth and taste
And I laid traps for troubadours
Who get killed before they reached Bombay
(woo woo, who who)

Pleased to meet you
Hope you guessed my name, oh yeah
(who who)
But what's puzzling you
Is the nature of my game, oh yeah, get down, baby
(who who, who who)

Pleased to meet you
Hope you guessed my name, oh yeah
But what's confusing you
Is just the nature of my game
(woo woo, who who)

Just as every cop is a criminal
And all the sinners saints
As heads is tails
Just call me Lucifer
'Cause I'm in need of some restraint
(who who, who who)

So if you meet me
Have some courtesy
Have some sympathy, and some taste
(woo woo)
Use all your well-learned politesse
Or I'll lay your soul to waste, um yeah
(woo woo, woo woo)

Pleased to meet you
Hope you guessed my name, um yeah
(who who)
But what's puzzling you
Is the nature of my game, um mean it, get down
(woo woo, woo woo)

Woo, who
Oh yeah, get on down
Oh yeah
Oh yeah!
(woo woo)

Tell me baby, what's my name
Tell me honey, can ya guess my name
Tell me baby, what's my name
I tell you one time, you're to blame

Oh, who
woo, woo
Woo, who
Woo, woo
Woo, who, who
Woo, who, who
Oh, yeah

What's my name
Tell me, baby, what's my name
Tell me, sweetie, what's my name

Woo, who, who
Woo, who, who
Woo, who, who
Woo, who, who
Woo, who, who
Woo, who, who
Oh, yeah
Woo woo
Woo woo

Love that song... ]]> ~Exod19 http://Exod19.deviantart.com/journal/13543612/ http://Exod19.deviantart.com/journal/13543612/ Fri, 29 Jun 2007 19:43:47 PDT
I just can't be good with her, I mean... I'm so rude, so aggressive... Why does She stay with a guy like me? She could get another guy, much more better than me. And I've gotta work early tomorrow, but I just can't sleep until this message is done. I've got to work and that means I'll see her only in the afternoon. She won't sleep here, I know it. Her mother...

Damn.

And my father... What did I do to him? Why does he hate me so much? Not even a month ago we were making jokes, laughing together, having great discussions, I felt like I had the best father all over the world. But then, tonight, when I told him I didn't want to work all Saturday mornings... He was so angry! I thought he'd just spit at me. If his eyes could throw daggers, I'd be dead.

His voice... This voice I'm afraid of since I'm five years old... When he gets mad at me, I just feel like I don't worth a shit. My father was everything I had during a long time... All I needed was his approbation, all I've ever asked for was him to be proud of me... Even just once...

Though, the eyes he laid on me were so dark, so evil that I'm sure I'll never get that wish to be realised... It's over, now... Why? Because of Her? What does She have to do with my father and I?

Sometimes, I can't understand something in the world. Then, I go see my father and he helps me find my way out of this dark tunnel... What if it's my father that turned off the light?

I just wish they'll both love me, even if I'm not perfect. I know I'm not, I'll never be, as I've never been... But I try, I try so hard to get better... I just need some more time, some help...

I feel like three years ago... I thought it was over when she helped me to get out of that... Though, it comes again...

I don't care about anything, I don't care about music, writing, I don't care about working or earning money anymore... I don't care about New York, or even about Cegep... I don't care about anything, or anyone... Only Her, I still love her and want her by my side...

What the fuck?

That would probably be the time where I should ask God for some help. I'm screwed, 'cos I don't give a shit about God anymore neither...

I need to cry, I'm crying right now, but I need to cry to someone... Cry my pain, cry my sorrow, cry everything I've kept inside... It will come out all mixed up, but I don't care... I need to get it out, or fire will get it in...

I'll go to sleep, but know that,

I love you, my love...

I love you too, dad...

Do I still love myself?

]]> ~Exod19 http://Exod19.deviantart.com/journal/13488419/ http://Exod19.deviantart.com/journal/13488419/ Mon, 25 Jun 2007 17:24:58 PDT

Le 24 juin, c'est la fête nationale du Québec. La Saint-Jean Baptiste. Étant souverainiste, j'adore cette fête, mais ce n'est pas pour cette raison. Il n'y a aucun besoin d'être souverainiste pour fêter la St-Jean. Tout ce qu'il faut, c'est être fier d'être Québécois. Fier de nos ancêtres, fier de ce que nous sommes et avons réussi à garder face aux Anglais. Fier de cette paix que nous maintenons, fiers de notre culture que nous savons conserver, non pas par obligation, mais par amour de notre terre. Fiers de notre langue, de nos valeurs. Fiers de notre peuple fort, qui sait se tenir debout. Notre pacifisme ne nous rend pas un peuple moins puissant, au contraire! Nous sommes fiers de ce que nous étions, nous sommes fiers de ce que nous sommes devenus, et nous sommes fiers de ce que nous pouvons devenir. Oui, je vous le dis mes frères et mes soeurs, nous sommes fiers d'être Québécois!

St-Jean 2007. Méga Projet. Jo, Marrie, Vaness Gilbert, Val et moi. Ainsi qu'un paquet de monde que je connais pas, mais qui sont tous ben cool, soûls et gelés.

J'ai eu ben du fun, un vraiment bon trip. C'tait un mix d'émotions de fou. Étrangement, ma réaction était la bonne, rien de ce que j'avais pensé ne s'est produit. Aucune émotion négative, simplement une joie énorme.

Tout au long de la journée, j'ai pu réaliser de quoi ma vie manquait: d'aventure. Si un jour, le band peut marcher et qu'on fasse des shows, ça va en rajouter, mais je vais travailler sur ce point là. C'est ça ce qui me manquait depuis tout ce temps: de l'aventure. Je savais pas c'était quoi cette touche de nostalgie. C'était un besoin qui n'était pas comblé.

Je vais aussi travailler sur mon style, c'est une autre chose que j'ai réalisé: à quel point je l'avais mis de côté pendant longtemps. Il est temps que je change le style classique de "cheveux longs, jeans et T-Shirt de groupe". J'ai déjà les Converse, je vais m'effilocher une paire de jeans sous peu, m'acheter un chapeau à la Slash, un bracelet de cuir, possiblement un bandeau et ce dont j'ai envie depuis longtemps et qui est bien plus utile en plein été qu'un chandail noir: des chemises.

Je vais m'acheter une chaîne pour remettre ma croix dans mon cou. Et d'ici quelques années, je vais me faire faire ce tatou dont je rêve tant sur le bras.

Ensuite, la troisième chose que j'ai pu vivre à cette St-Jean: l'amour. Pas l'amour simple qui me semblait si extraordinaire, mais bien un nouvel amour. Un amour différent, plus fort, plus complexe. Quelque chose que je n'avais jamais encore vécu. Un feu qui s'est mis à brûler dans mon coeur, comme si on venait d'allumer tous les brasiers de l'enfer. J'en avais chaud, je ne pouvais pas me retenir de l'embrasser. Elle était si belle, si douce, si désirable. Je suis devenu fou, fou pour Elle, à ce moment là, Elle aurait pu me demander n'importe quoi, et j'aurais accepté. Mon bel amour. Je l'aime, Elle, et ce n'est pas près de changer. Je l'aime si fort. Je veux la garder près de moi pour toujours. C'est avec Elle que je veux vivre tous mes partys, mon premier joint, ma vie de musicien et aussi ma vie de parent. C'est maintenant bien clair dans mon esprit: c'est avec Elle que je vais finir mes jours.

Bref, maintenant, j'ai besoin d'un autre party. Pas quelque chose avec ma propre gang, mais j'aimerais quelque chose avec des gens que je ne connais pas aussi. Comme à la St-Jean. Connaître du nouveau monde. Essayer des nouvelles choses. Je veux vivre à plein, je veux ne passer à côter d'aucune occasion de faire la fête.

Ah, la St-Jean... Que d'amour il y a...

Vive le Québec libre!

]]> ~Exod19 http://Exod19.deviantart.com/journal/13398562/ http://Exod19.deviantart.com/journal/13398562/ Mon, 18 Jun 2007 19:33:52 PDT So, so you think you can tell... Heaven from Hell?

No, I can't, and I know it. I can't even tell this world from hell. It's a mixed up situation. I knew it would come. To see the Red and White split in two. I know I don't want troubles, I know I'm happy, I know I couldn't be more. Though, there's still that strange feeling when I think of the old days... What would have happened if the things had been different at the time?

Now, I don't want them to be different. But at the time... I've wanted it so bad. I know nobody understands anything about this, I know that what everybody thinks reading this isn't what I mean. But now, strangely, I don't care. People can think what they want. She is the only one that matters now. Only her, nobody else. Not even those "old friends". When She looks at me, I'm so happy. I feel like I finally got to something good in my life. Like I'm not a nobody anymore. Though, what does it cost?

Is it a betrayal to these times to think about the past? Is it a betrayal to her? I don't think so, because I have no intentions to get back to what I was... No intention to lose what I have. Absolutely no intention.

Though, it keeps on hurting. Why can't I forget her even if She's with me? I know She doesn't hate me for that. She understands. It hurted when I lost her. I guess it's normal that I still think about her even if it've been a long time... According to the circumstances.

I don't know.

The only thing I know, the only thing I'm sure of is that... I love her. I love her so much. I know She loves me. I guess we should live happily forever and after.

she, she, She and Them

There's too many man, too many people... Making too many problems...

It's hard to stay focus. Though, I cling to the same words to stay in this world, and not to become what I was and succeeded to change: I love her.

I. Am. Not. Diseased.

We're just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl, year after year...

]]> ~Exod19 http://Exod19.deviantart.com/journal/13341160/ http://Exod19.deviantart.com/journal/13341160/ Thu, 14 Jun 2007 10:23:44 PDT
*sigh* Never thought I'd say that but I'll miss my good old CF (Collège Français - my school). There I met a lot of people I love. In fact, I met there all my friends of today! I started to play music with them, even Hallelujah is inspired of this place...

I will miss it, yeah. That fucked up class we are, always joking and having fun. Yeah, I will miss it.

Though, during summer, and all the time I'll be in CEGEP, learning the art of acting, I'll have more time to write the rest of my unfinished stories. I'll give a boost on Hallelujah, I intend to finish the first version in 2 years maximum. I'd like to publish it in the next five years.

I'll continue Knights of Kâân, its parallel novel Two Princes (to which I'll find another title), and I will probably start the writing of a project on which I work since three years.

Anyway, for now, I've got to enjoy my day and a half off, my week-end and be prepared for my math exam on Monday :S

Two more exams, and it's done...

School's out for summer, school's out forever

]]> ~Exod19 http://Exod19.deviantart.com/journal/13304633/ http://Exod19.deviantart.com/journal/13304633/ Mon, 11 Jun 2007 14:44:24 PDT
My feelings are all mixed up, I don't know what happened to me. I should be comprehensive, I should understand that not everyone is like me. Though I can't understand why She does this. I know She doesn't mean it bad, but it hurts anyway. To know that... She doesn't even rule her own life. I should be glad for her, since She had a great life with no big problems, like I had.

I should be really happy that She did not have to see what I saw, to live what I lived, to feel what I felt... To lose what I lost...

Whatever, I guess it will be over soon enough. I mean... She'll be free, and I'll be too. Her cage isn't only hers, it's mine too. When She gets caught by the chains of her mother, I get handcuffed myself. I can't love her the way I would like, if her mother always get in the way. Nothing dirty here; a hug, a look, a kiss...

The sky is so bright, and mine is so dark...

What should I do? Am I supposed to wait until She decides it's time for her to take her life back? I don't know...

I guess she could help me...

]]> ~Exod19 http://Exod19.deviantart.com/journal/13017562/ http://Exod19.deviantart.com/journal/13017562/ Sat, 19 May 2007 19:42:25 PDT
I'm not a drawer and I don't make any visual artwork, because I'm not really good at it lol.

I am better with words, and that's why I always say that I draw with words

I'll post some texts here, and maybe some *awful* drawings I did on the world I created for most of my stories.

I heard of that lair of artists by my brother - Ujiram by his nickname. And I can say that I like it a lot.

I enjoy the drawings, even if I don't make any so... Some of you might be in my favourites soon enough!

Please, since you're already here, leave a comment on my texts. I know some are in french, but I try to post the most english texts possible

Thank you, come again!

]]> ~Exod19